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TWINKLE YOUR TOES · Blind But Now I See

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  Speaker 1: Let me put my legs. I hadn't address today, so
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  Speaker 1: let me put my legs so I could be a lady.
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  Speaker 2: I don't need nobody to put your legs up like crossing.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I had to cross them. I had to cross
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  Speaker 1: my legs and a lady.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, look stylish, yeah, stylish.
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  Speaker 1: Stop they saying that fake and being blonde. They're saying
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  Speaker 1: that you. They saying that you're not even blond. Like
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  Speaker 1: we're about to stop doing this podcast together because are
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  Speaker 1: you up here faking it?
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  Speaker 2: I wish I was Social Security. Don't give me enough this.
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  Speaker 1: And people, it's definitely Then the people want to know
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  Speaker 1: because niggas read nigging and ship. But the people want
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  Speaker 1: to know about the child support. Everybody asking about the
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  Speaker 1: child How does a blond man end up on chi.
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  Speaker 1: Then you went back and said, I'm.
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  Speaker 2: Not I'm not no more. Oh okay, it's over. I'm free.
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  Speaker 2: I just got to pay that child support. That's all
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  Speaker 2: my passport. But on child support, and keep tagging metal man.
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  Speaker 2: I love y'all. Keep tagging metal man. I need this sponsorshit.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, and then okay, so let me get into that
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  Speaker 1: because somebody was really fucking stupid. In the comment talking about, oh,
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  Speaker 1: you could have had a good thing, but instead you're
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  Speaker 1: trying to be greedy.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, somebody like, oh he telling.
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  Speaker 1: Saying something to y'all black people. One thing that white
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  Speaker 1: people understand is money and generational wealth. You know what
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  Speaker 1: I'm saying. We understand money as well, but we're more
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  Speaker 1: paced on the fast money pace, you know what I'm saying.
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  Speaker 1: In order to make it anywhere, you have to be
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  Speaker 1: comfortable with being assertive. You don't get nowhere by being
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  Speaker 1: the weakest person in the reache. We're not out here
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  Speaker 1: looking for deals and stuff like that. But if they're
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  Speaker 1: gonna come, they're gonna come, and we're gonna let people
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  Speaker 1: know what we deserve.
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  Speaker 2: And if you're walking around like a billboard support y'all brand,
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  Speaker 2: why not get paid for it?
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  Speaker 1: So and why the fuck will we promote anything for
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  Speaker 1: free talking about you could have did this. We just
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  Speaker 1: told y'all everything that it did good for, you know
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  Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So now we asks them some motherfucking
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  Speaker 1: endorsement and a sponsorship for some shit that we send.
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  Speaker 2: Me promotion the needle for help And because a lot
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  Speaker 2: of people didn't know, they don't glasses do all of that.
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  Speaker 1: Nobody did. They all was like, oh my god, that's amazing,
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  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So it's just like I
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  Speaker 1: just just stopped because it just gives like you people
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  Speaker 1: just need to go searching for it because they can't.
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  Speaker 1: Like it's a completely positive video.
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  Speaker 2: That we need money ship, so security is not cutting it.
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  Speaker 1: It's a complete positive episode.
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  Speaker 2: That's all.
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  Speaker 1: It was teachable.
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  Speaker 2: We're teaching people, like a lot of that clip along
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  Speaker 2: helped a lot of people.
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  Speaker 1: So yeah, because I'm pretty sure a bunch of blind
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  Speaker 1: people went in orders.
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  Speaker 2: People that ran said they was about to go buy
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  Speaker 2: a medaglass. Yeah, so why not give us our credit
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  Speaker 2: for what we're doing out here? We're putting delta, ask them.
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  Speaker 1: All the story is this, it's this disability prior month
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  Speaker 1: and we're not taking no ship. You hear me, like,
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  Speaker 1: it's no ship.
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  Speaker 2: It's our month.
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  Speaker 1: You see us. It's in here and we summered up.
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  Speaker 2: You feel me, summer, Yeah, one hundred degrees. It gotta
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  Speaker 2: be somewhere.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, it is no well and here it feels good,
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  Speaker 1: thank god. Yeah, I feel this elevated because baby.
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  Speaker 2: Gotta take advance because you go home that like bell.
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  Speaker 1: Baby, listen, my ace. I have to turn my shugar
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  Speaker 1: was I'm like, if I leave this running, because I
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  Speaker 1: did not want to go into a hot house. But
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  Speaker 1: if I'm like, if I leave this running, like they're
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  Speaker 1: gonna be crazy hockets, it's gonna be running too.
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  Speaker 2: We had to cut it off, cut it back, and
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  Speaker 2: cut up. I'm like, damn this this this he is
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  Speaker 2: not for me.
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  Speaker 1: Man No. And it's one hundred and something degrees in
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  Speaker 1: New York right now, guys, so just beat way, like
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  Speaker 1: understand what we're dealing with. And it's right before of July.
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  Speaker 2: Well what you doing this summer because there's a lot
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  Speaker 2: of people out here that feel like, oh, disabilities can't
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  Speaker 2: do a lot.
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  Speaker 3: Hold on, you want you want to introduce the show.
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  Speaker 2: You know what the show is going. We've been going
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  Speaker 2: for a minute, but we back with the jump off first.
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  Speaker 2: We've been going for a little minute, so you know,
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  Speaker 2: Happy father Day to all the father Yes, Happy birthday
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  Speaker 2: to Frenchie. She went on VA. She was outside in
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  Speaker 2: these streets as a mavery woman.
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  Speaker 1: Respectfully, honestly, I had a laid back, chill birthday, Like
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  Speaker 1: I went out to eat with my son and my cousin.
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  Speaker 1: I spent time with my mom and my grandma the
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  Speaker 1: day of, and I also went to the SPA, which
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  Speaker 1: was amazing.
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  Speaker 2: Guy. And also, she's thirty years old. Oh god, she
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  Speaker 2: all in this. She can't chalk down shit.
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  Speaker 1: Now it's not old anymore. Thirty is a new twenty.
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  Speaker 2: Oh no twenties now, yeah, niggas is.
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  Speaker 1: About to be forty. So the verty's still gonna be
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  Speaker 1: in new twenty. But maybe forty could be the new thirty.
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  Speaker 1: Y'all still look young. I ain't never said y'all look old.
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  Speaker 1: I just said that child is old.
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  Speaker 2: Great coming in, Oh you got great coming in? Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: I got to come back in for sure. Somebody coming
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  Speaker 2: into you too, for sure.
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  Speaker 1: Somebody told you or you could just feel the difference.
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  Speaker 2: Somebody told me, I ain't know I'm leaving. I used
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  Speaker 2: to pull it because you know, I wanted to be
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  Speaker 2: a ym, but now wizard.
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  Speaker 1: Well, guys, this summer I have Well if you don't know,
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  Speaker 1: I have a seven year old son, so I don't
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  Speaker 1: put him in camp because I don't work right now.
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  Speaker 1: So I feel like campus for people who work, you
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  Speaker 1: know what I mean, and you don't.
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  Speaker 2: Have your kids. Get on your fucking no.
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  Speaker 1: But I feel like me personally, I feel like campus
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  Speaker 1: for people who work, because it's like your child is
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  Speaker 1: in school all year. You know what I'm saying, give
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  Speaker 1: them a little bit of break and spend some time
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  Speaker 1: with them. It's a difference if you're putting them in
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  Speaker 1: a camp that's go and go do all that, you know,
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  Speaker 1: extra shit, not the little free school cam cams that
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  Speaker 1: take them out. No, it's I was in a fire
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  Speaker 1: summer camp. My parents work, but it's like, like I said,
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  Speaker 1: I just enjoyed a quality mom and planning stuff out
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  Speaker 1: with my child. And then you realize all the stuff
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  Speaker 1: that your parents used to pay for for summer trips
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  Speaker 1: and shit like that. You be like, oh this.
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  Speaker 2: Shit free, absolutely, and.
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  Speaker 1: Then I'm just sitting there doing it. It's like, okay, cool,
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  Speaker 1: but no, I'm just being I'm in mommy mode this summer.
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  Speaker 2: Like shout outs to the mommy y'all.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm in the mommy molde this summer. I really
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  Speaker 1: don't have any plans but to just enjoy myself. I'm
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  Speaker 1: not putting pressure on myself. Thirty for me is just.
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  Speaker 2: I'm saying, no, I want to know how this song
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  Speaker 2: is gonna be because you know, we are married now,
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  Speaker 2: so is it gonna be different?
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  Speaker 1: I mean, honest, I was outside last I've been with
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  Speaker 1: my man so long now that it doesn't really feel different,
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  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Because it's like even before
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  Speaker 1: we was married, I still was. You know. It's I've
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  Speaker 1: been celibate for fucking it'll be. It'll be two years
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  Speaker 1: on August fifth, So I've been celibate. I haven't been
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  Speaker 1: lust full. I barely go out to the clubs, you
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  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like, so that stuff doesn't really
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  Speaker 1: bother me. I want a bunch of dainty stuff, like
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  Speaker 1: I want to go to the Brooklyn Bridge Park have
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  Speaker 1: a picnic. I want to take my sons.
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  Speaker 2: I'm sating on one of those.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, like those are so fire.
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  Speaker 2: Something different like yeah, I mean it's gonna be new
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  Speaker 2: to me because I'm not a never been no picnic.
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  Speaker 1: You're not a Roman type name. But you're gonna do it.
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  Speaker 1: We're gonna do you. And you with your two sons
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  Speaker 1: and your wife.
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  Speaker 2: Or I got a son and a daughter.
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  Speaker 1: Oh she has a daughter.
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  Speaker 2: Oh she's about to be sixty sweet sixteen.
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  Speaker 1: Oh my god, you're about to be broke for that one.
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  Speaker 1: Ready sweet sixteen. It doesn't just son turns sixteen this
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  Speaker 1: yet January, oh next year he turned sixteen. But boys,
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  Speaker 1: is not that bad for sixteen.
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, Yo, you want a party or you want
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  Speaker 2: a party bus? Party bus saved the money, let's.
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  Speaker 1: Go okay, yeah, the party busses. That's right, definitely save
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  Speaker 1: way more bread.
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  Speaker 2: Just want two outfits so you can do a photo
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  Speaker 2: shoot every place you go. But I'm talking that's going
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  Speaker 2: to be to come down. But now that I'm marry,
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  Speaker 2: now he has a stepmother.
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  Speaker 1: And a stepfather. Absolutely, God is good.
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  Speaker 2: That is good.
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  Speaker 1: We appreciate this, we break we break it down full ways.
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  Speaker 1: Instead of that, I'm saying, we appreciate absolutely, yeah, because
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  Speaker 1: Lord knows. Matter of fact, let's talk about Father's Day.
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  Speaker 1: I think that's just this episode gonna be about. So
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  Speaker 1: I just want to say, because we did give the
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  Speaker 1: mothers a good episode, right, so it's only right we
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  Speaker 1: give the fathers a good episode. First of all, Happy
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  Speaker 1: Father's Day to my brother.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you, thank you, appreciate it.
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  Speaker 1: Right, shout out to my daddy. We're listennig, you know,
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  Speaker 1: like ninety six. I love my daddy. Do you love
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  Speaker 1: your dad? Damn love? I said love.
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  Speaker 2: I love my pops.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, So how would you say your relationship with your
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  Speaker 1: father before your disability was.
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  Speaker 2: So?
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  Speaker 1: Right? You gotta be honest, you gotta see this shit.
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  Speaker 2: Let's talk about my grandfather and my.
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  Speaker 1: Step Okay, well, no, we have to. That's just a
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  Speaker 1: part of it because of stepfather. Who do you consider
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  Speaker 1: your stepfather more of a father?
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  Speaker 2: Yeah?
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  Speaker 1: Okay?
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  Speaker 2: And there since I was seven, showed me how to
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  Speaker 2: shoot my first basketball, taught me how to fight, was
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  Speaker 2: out there fighting with me, went up to open school night,
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  Speaker 2: shape me to be a man. Him and my grandfather
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  Speaker 2: hands on absolutely.
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  Speaker 1: And where was your father?
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  Speaker 2: Oh? My pops was around, like we've seen each other
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  Speaker 2: in the streets. But what's up, pops? Like that wasn't
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  Speaker 2: even with up Pops. What I can honestly say is like,
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  Speaker 2: all right, I don't. I don't fought my father for
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  Speaker 2: not to be that.
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  Speaker 1: Okay.
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  Speaker 2: It's like, maybe you didn't know how to be there.
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  Speaker 2: Maybe my life wouldn't have been what it is if
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  Speaker 2: you were there. But it's like, all right, let's make
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  Speaker 2: themores now, whatever the case may be, or if you
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  Speaker 2: want to make it up to me, make it up
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  Speaker 2: to my child, Like when that's your second change?
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  Speaker 1: When were you able to forgive him? Oh?
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  Speaker 2: May and my father started to build a relationship when
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  Speaker 2: I was seventeen. Oh wow, I was a brown ass man.
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  Speaker 1: So but was he ever active, like as before that
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  Speaker 1: in your life? Like active active? So seventeen see me
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  Speaker 1: rove on the same block. Like, so seventeen was your
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  Speaker 1: choice to make that? Did he initiate it or did you?
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  Speaker 2: He did came, talked to me, apologize. Up to this day,
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  Speaker 2: you still apologize.
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  Speaker 1: So it's like, how did it make you feel when
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  Speaker 1: he apologized?
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  Speaker 2: It ain't It ain't make me feel no way for
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  Speaker 2: the simple fact I never missed.
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  Speaker 1: Nothing because you're at a stepfather.
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  Speaker 2: I have my step pop, my grandfather, I have my
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  Speaker 2: my my godfather, I had uncles. So it's like I
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  Speaker 2: wasn't missing really nothing. Thank God, everything that shaped out
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  Speaker 2: to be like to shape me to be a man.
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  Speaker 2: I had men figures that was around me, protecting me,
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  Speaker 2: showing me what to do, what not to do. So
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  Speaker 2: it's like it wasn't something I can't say, like it
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  Speaker 2: was a space that was in my heart that wasn't
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  Speaker 2: filled because I had that the men figures around. I
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  Speaker 2: was in the house of living with a real man.
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  Speaker 2: It showed me how to work, how to fix stuff,
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  Speaker 2: so like I wasn't missing nothing.
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  Speaker 1: So this is my question as a mom to a boy.
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  Speaker 1: How m damn. I don't want to get a most
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  Speaker 1: on this, but all right, how do you feel like
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  Speaker 1: did you ever feel avoid with your dad not being there?
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  Speaker 1: Or do you just feel like because you had other
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  Speaker 1: figures you.
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  Speaker 2: Were okay, I had other figures. I never had a chance,
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  Speaker 2: but you.
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  Speaker 1: Never felt any type of way. Because for me, my
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  Speaker 1: son he has the same thing, like he has a
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  Speaker 1: good support with me as my husband. He asked my brothers,
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  Speaker 1: my father, that's all. And he doesn't even like bring
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  Speaker 1: up the other counterpart that helped create them, you know
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  Speaker 1: what I mean?
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  Speaker 2: Sometimes, like I said in the last one, sometimes I'm
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  Speaker 2: not being in my life were benefitial because like, wh
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  Speaker 2: I'm running up and down the court playing basketball in
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  Speaker 2: the basketball game, I'm looking at audience, my grandfather, my
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  Speaker 2: step hof still but I'm not missing nothing, but I'm leaving.
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  Speaker 2: They don't want that telling me, oh, you did this role,
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  Speaker 2: you did that room was father figures?
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  Speaker 1: Right?
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  Speaker 2: Like because he has a stepfather. Doesn't mean like you
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  Speaker 2: stepped to the side.
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  Speaker 1: Now, what attribute would you give your father for you
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  Speaker 1: being the father that you are today?
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  Speaker 2: Thank you, because if he didn't make the mistakes, to say,
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  Speaker 2: if he never made the mistakes not being there, I
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  Speaker 2: probably would have follow his footsteps and did the same thing.
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  Speaker 1: If he never made those mistakes, you would have never
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  Speaker 1: been so careful.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, now I'm hands on with my child.
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  Speaker 1: That's a blessing.
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  Speaker 2: Now I want to be involved. I want to know
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  Speaker 2: what you're doing in school. I want to know because
• 11:42
  Speaker 2: where you at I saw fifteen years old go outside.
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  Speaker 2: I still call what you're doing with side like we're
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  Speaker 2: at like, I still want to know, Like my pops
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  Speaker 2: maybe he didn't have that, And I feel like his
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  Speaker 2: father wasn't my my pop's father wasn't there, so maybe
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  Speaker 2: he just took out there as well, so that's where
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  Speaker 2: he probably learned.
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  Speaker 1: So do you feel like because on the last episode
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  Speaker 1: I said that, and this is what I wanted to
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  Speaker 1: clarify when we did the Mother's Day episode, I said
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  Speaker 1: that I feel like men get more grace when it
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  Speaker 1: comes to be in a deadbeat. You know what I'm
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  Speaker 1: saying because now put that in a mother. Let's reverse
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  Speaker 1: the roles. You know what I'm saying. Now, if a
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  Speaker 1: boy's mother was to not be there, that boy would
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  Speaker 1: hate women for the rest of his life. Do you understand
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  Speaker 1: what I'm saying. It's a different type of void from
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  Speaker 1: a mom not being there than it is from a dad, and.
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  Speaker 2: It has to say different void. But I feel like
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  Speaker 2: the mother, like you carry that child for nine month. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: it's like that child built that bond with you when
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  Speaker 2: you're in your stomach. Yeah.
• 12:36
  Speaker 1: But some women never feel that maternal instinct. You have
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  Speaker 1: to know that some women are just a what's the
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  Speaker 1: word a carrier? You know what I mean? An incubator.
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  Speaker 1: There's nothing more than.
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  Speaker 2: Just that, just that. But why is it that more grace?
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  Speaker 1: Yeah? Like I said, it's more grace. And people are like, oh,
• 12:55
  Speaker 1: because y'alln't understand the concept of relationship. The conversation. Y'all
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  Speaker 1: see a thirty second clip and they I build a
• 13:02
  Speaker 1: whole synopsis to there, and then now y'all just think,
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  Speaker 1: y'all know the whole conversation.
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  Speaker 2: Nobody is bashing men wash the whole episode.
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  Speaker 1: I'm surrounded by black men that I love I'm in
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  Speaker 1: the studio with black men that I love. I have
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  Speaker 1: a black father, I have a black son. You know
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  Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I have a black husband. I love
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  Speaker 1: black men. So I would never sit there and intentionally
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  Speaker 1: put black men down. I think the conversation needs to
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  Speaker 1: shift from us being against each other to how can
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  Speaker 1: we put ourselves back together? Absolutely, and I've already did
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  Speaker 1: my part. I got a black man, absolutely with a
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  Speaker 1: black kid, you know what I'm saying. And I ain't
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  Speaker 1: out my race with it. So instead of us going
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  Speaker 1: outside of our race to try to find peace and
• 13:34
  Speaker 1: stuff like that, stop causing chaos with the black women
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  Speaker 1: and the black men that you meet. And then when
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  Speaker 1: they go looking for people outside of the race that
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  Speaker 1: give them some type of peace, you get what I'm saying,
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  Speaker 1: then you're upset. No, you have to honestly say to yourself,
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  Speaker 1: what would make this person not like black like not
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  Speaker 1: like themselves and not like black women or not like
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  Speaker 1: black men. A lot of the times boys don't have
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  Speaker 1: a good relationship with their mother they're Black moms, so
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  Speaker 1: they go off and they want to go date. You
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  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, A white girl or white bes
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  Speaker 1: with that, and then a black girl she hates her dad.
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  Speaker 1: He wasn't around. You know what I'm saying. So now
• 14:08
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna go get with a white man because his
• 14:09
  Speaker 1: credit right, but he's gonna do this and do that. No,
• 14:12
  Speaker 1: we need to put black love back into the community.
• 14:14
  Speaker 2: Black love.
• 14:15
  Speaker 1: I feel like black loves should matter, black black baby,
• 14:18
  Speaker 1: like black lives matter. I feel like black loves should matter.
• 14:20
  Speaker 2: Absolutely. But like I said, like my pops, we set there,
• 14:25
  Speaker 2: we talked, we stay next to each'all, we laugh, we
• 14:27
  Speaker 2: joke like regular. But it's like, in my mind is
• 14:30
  Speaker 2: I can never feel like I missed you. Now that
• 14:33
  Speaker 2: I'm standing next to you, I feel like I'm bigger
• 14:35
  Speaker 2: than you now, yeah, respectfully, because it's like I never
• 14:38
  Speaker 2: ran out on my responsibilities. I'm really doing this shit
• 14:42
  Speaker 2: in real time. It's like I'm teaching you right right.
• 14:45
  Speaker 2: So it's like, now we're good.
• 14:47
  Speaker 1: Do you feel mature than him? Absolutely? Okay? Do you
• 14:50
  Speaker 1: feel like you have more accomplished than him?
• 14:53
  Speaker 2: Absolutely? Even in a dog out? Did so?
• 14:55
  Speaker 1: Then you just feel like, you.
• 14:56
  Speaker 2: Know, like I never missed the graduation, I never missed
• 14:59
  Speaker 2: the ceremony. I never missed taking your kid to school day.
• 15:02
  Speaker 2: I never missed a project or homework. I never even
• 15:04
  Speaker 2: messed with my son need a vice.
• 15:06
  Speaker 1: And before your stepfather came into your life, you always
• 15:08
  Speaker 1: had your grandfather.
• 15:09
  Speaker 2: And my grandfather. My grandfather took My grandfather was the
• 15:13
  Speaker 2: first person that take me on a truck to deliver milk,
• 15:16
  Speaker 2: to really show me how to work.
• 15:19
  Speaker 1: So I had trucks.
• 15:20
  Speaker 2: I had it and had it enemy like he nah,
• 15:24
  Speaker 2: I was little. He used to go pick up, leave
• 15:27
  Speaker 2: me in a car. Pick the truck up, coming around
• 15:28
  Speaker 2: the corner. I get out of this car, jumping the truck.
• 15:30
  Speaker 2: Now we delivering milk. Now you're like, yo, take the crane,
• 15:33
  Speaker 2: dragged the milk crates Like I really, I really, I
• 15:37
  Speaker 2: didn't miss nothing. I had a godfather that he was
• 15:39
  Speaker 2: a plumber. He took me. He took me to work
• 15:41
  Speaker 2: with him with his kids. Like we made piece in
• 15:44
  Speaker 2: the kitchen, we built clubhouses, we played Skelly in the
• 15:48
  Speaker 2: living room. I wasn't missing nothing that a father can't
• 15:51
  Speaker 2: teach me. You feel me because I had it in
• 15:53
  Speaker 2: all these men.
• 15:54
  Speaker 1: So now my next question for you is that was
• 15:57
  Speaker 1: before disabilities, So after you became black, who do you
• 16:01
  Speaker 1: feel like played that role for you, like your stepfather
• 16:05
  Speaker 1: or your father who was more there. Well, be honest,
• 16:10
  Speaker 1: don't lie.
• 16:11
  Speaker 2: I'm definitely not gonna lie for nobody. And to be honest,
• 16:13
  Speaker 2: I don't know nobody nothing, to be honest. So my
• 16:16
  Speaker 2: step pops, my grandfather and people that never left, so
• 16:19
  Speaker 2: the same to same, the same, the same to my stepfather,
• 16:23
  Speaker 2: my grandfather, my godfather, like God rest his soul. Like
• 16:26
  Speaker 2: they never left. They rocked out with me. I was
• 16:29
  Speaker 2: at the hospital. My godfather up there every day, stayed
• 16:31
  Speaker 2: by my bed side.
• 16:33
  Speaker 1: And that's the blessing.
• 16:33
  Speaker 2: Step pops every day, my grandfather there every day. I
• 16:36
  Speaker 2: need somewhere to go. I want to work out, my
• 16:38
  Speaker 2: grandfather picking me up, dropping me off at the gym.
• 16:41
  Speaker 2: My stepfather know certain things I like here, cook them,
• 16:44
  Speaker 2: like yo, you're coming over, I cook this.
• 16:46
  Speaker 1: Do you think that a lot of black men are
• 16:48
  Speaker 1: dead beats because of depression? Oh, because it was no
• 16:54
  Speaker 1: safe space for them to go talk and have a conversation.
• 16:58
  Speaker 1: Because it's it's like this, look a lot of men
• 17:00
  Speaker 1: would I realize when they don't have it financially, they
• 17:03
  Speaker 1: get depressed and then it's like a lot of obstacles
• 17:06
  Speaker 1: against scenes because people say, it's so easy to get
• 17:08
  Speaker 1: a job. It's so easy to do that if you
• 17:09
  Speaker 1: don't have certain credentials, if you don't know how to
• 17:11
  Speaker 1: do this, if you never had help from anybody, Right,
• 17:14
  Speaker 1: wouldn't it be that the odds are stacked against you?
• 17:17
  Speaker 2: I agree? Like even when people ask me, I don't
• 17:20
  Speaker 2: doubt my pops don't loved me. I just felt like
• 17:22
  Speaker 2: he didn't know how to love me the way I
• 17:24
  Speaker 2: wanted to be loved. That's what I felt like. It
• 17:26
  Speaker 2: was a big thing, like even to like to now,
• 17:29
  Speaker 2: like when my pops hugged me, like he gave me
• 17:31
  Speaker 2: that pad on my back, when.
• 17:32
  Speaker 1: You hugged me, it's like the awkward little hood.
• 17:34
  Speaker 2: It's like, sometimes you may not know how to love
• 17:36
  Speaker 2: this person the way they want to be loved because
• 17:38
  Speaker 2: I missed a part of their life that I can't
• 17:41
  Speaker 2: get back to this day. Like if my pop's always
• 17:43
  Speaker 2: say yo, when I get things right, I'm telling you
• 17:46
  Speaker 2: be good, big daddy, I'm like too old for that,
• 17:48
  Speaker 2: And now you feel me it's like I'm too old,
• 17:50
  Speaker 2: but I get it though. It's like, rather you want
• 17:52
  Speaker 2: to go back in time to change that, but it's
• 17:54
  Speaker 2: too late. He still has whole there's too late. You
• 17:57
  Speaker 2: got a second chance with my.
• 17:58
  Speaker 1: Child, right, And how is he your grandfather.
• 18:02
  Speaker 2: Not present? But then it's like I don't know what
• 18:08
  Speaker 2: he's going to be going through health complications and everything else.
• 18:10
  Speaker 2: So it's like I don't know what he's physically going
• 18:14
  Speaker 2: through to know that, Oh you should be here to
• 18:16
  Speaker 2: do this. But you give him grace, give him grace.
• 18:19
  Speaker 1: That's important, guys. I feel like we should. I feel
• 18:22
  Speaker 1: like we should start giving black men more grace. It
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: is as black women. We have it hard too, but
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: we both have it hard on both parties. You get
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And the only way we make it
• 18:34
  Speaker 1: easier for each other is about understanding. And like my
• 18:36
  Speaker 1: bro said, give grace, get grace.
• 18:38
  Speaker 2: Some people raise different. There's no handbook on how to
• 18:41
  Speaker 2: be the perfect father. So it's like, I give him grace.
• 18:44
  Speaker 2: I don't hate him for not being there A lot
• 18:47
  Speaker 2: of my pops. He texts me off all with it.
• 18:49
  Speaker 2: I text him back. I text him how you're doing
• 18:51
  Speaker 2: your good, how your health is. Like I got no
• 18:54
  Speaker 2: ill will, no hate in my heart for you, Like
• 18:56
  Speaker 2: you really shape me to be a better man.
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: That's all.
• 19:01
  Speaker 2: So it's like and then it's different for me to
• 19:03
  Speaker 2: love another person child like there in mind, it's like
• 19:07
  Speaker 2: I felt that came from my step.
• 19:09
  Speaker 1: Because your stepfather was able to do it for you, so.
• 19:13
  Speaker 2: I could do it for somebody else. No bunch of
• 19:15
  Speaker 2: ass in the studio.
• 19:19
  Speaker 1: Trying to get my dad McDonald.
• 19:22
  Speaker 2: You're the must as that should have been common for McDonald's.
• 19:25
  Speaker 2: That would have been common. Yeah, Like like I don't
• 19:29
  Speaker 2: call them my stepdaughter, like that's my daughter. I feel
• 19:33
  Speaker 2: like that's that's my heart, Like she came like she
• 19:36
  Speaker 2: like I shout out out of me type ship. That's different,
• 19:41
  Speaker 2: Like that's my baby. So it's like feel frenchy back
• 19:47
  Speaker 2: yard see the McDonald's cup. No, but yeah, your son's
• 19:52
  Speaker 2: gonna be.
• 19:53
  Speaker 1: Good though, so I split the water back in.
• 19:57
  Speaker 2: YO. Your son gonna be good. But he got figures
• 20:01
  Speaker 2: around him that his hands over, he's going to be great.
• 20:04
  Speaker 1: My mom could God, it is good.
• 20:06
  Speaker 2: That's gonna be his loss.
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: Fool. Anyway, I got my he got my father, my
• 20:14
  Speaker 1: brother got my husband. He's set. But for me, I
• 20:19
  Speaker 1: grew up with my dad and my biological dad. My
• 20:22
  Speaker 1: parents were married, so I lived in the house with
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: my dad up until I was ten eleven years old,
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: so I had that full blown like you know, daddy's girl,
• 20:32
  Speaker 1: like I had that, you know what I mean. But
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: then she went left when I found out that he
• 20:40
  Speaker 1: was cheating on my mom or whatever. And like I said,
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: they was married, so this wasn't like just cheating on
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: your baby, mama. She and on your wife. It's an affair.
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: And my mother had just had my brother.
• 20:52
  Speaker 2: And that never stopped him from being a father though.
• 20:55
  Speaker 1: No, but I stopped him from being a father because
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: I was so hurt. Because I was so young, I
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: didn't realize the difference between somebody, you know, not being
• 21:05
  Speaker 1: able to be with their family, but still being able
• 21:09
  Speaker 1: to be a part of the family, you know what
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: I'm saying. So I didn't know how to take away
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: my feelings from him hurting my mom, because as a child,
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: your mom is the most important thing to you, and
• 21:17
  Speaker 1: even my mom's very important to me, you know what
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: I'm saying. So it's like he hurt her so bad,
• 21:22
  Speaker 1: and the hurt that I seen on her face, I
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: just I was so angry with him. I was so
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: angry with him because it's like, damn nigga, Like I knew.
• 21:31
  Speaker 1: This is all I knew, Mommy, daddy, you know what
• 21:33
  Speaker 1: I'm saying. Now it's other people in the script and
• 21:36
  Speaker 1: all this shit, you know what I'm saying. So it
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: took me tom and before I got shot, I wasn't
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: even speaking to my dad. So it was like, yeah,
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: it was crazy because I got shot around the corner
• 21:51
  Speaker 1: from his mother's house, you know what I'm saying. So
• 21:54
  Speaker 1: his little sisters and my aunt's there. She's only a
• 21:57
  Speaker 1: couple of years older than me. So he's there before
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: the fucking ambulance got there. You know what I'm saying, Like,
• 22:04
  Speaker 1: my dad sped down, got there for the ambulance got there,
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: and the only thing I could say to him because
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: they had forgot me in the back because it was
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: so many people that got shot. Eleven people got shot.
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: So my dad everybody like, yo, where's you know what
• 22:16
  Speaker 1: I'm saying, and they're like, oh, So the police officer
• 22:18
  Speaker 1: came and he just picked me up and started running
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: with me. You know what I'm saying, because he'said, you know,
• 22:22
  Speaker 1: y'all gotta get her, y'all got to get her. And yeah,
• 22:25
  Speaker 1: he worked for the one thirteen. If I don't remember
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: his name, but I love you. He just picked me
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: up and he started running me into the car, I
• 22:32
  Speaker 1: mean to the ambulance. And then when I got on
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: the ambulance, he needs some big niggas just sha on
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: a Russian.
• 22:37
  Speaker 2: It's my dad and.
• 22:38
  Speaker 1: I'm just like yo, I'm just mouthing to him like
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: I'm sorry. You know what I'm saying with tears rolling
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: down my cheek, and my dad he just looked at
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: like he was like, it's okay, you know, because I
• 22:49
  Speaker 1: remb I had wrote him a letter like am I
• 22:50
  Speaker 1: fucking with you no more? You get what I'm saying,
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: Like I went off and he just gave me my space.
• 22:55
  Speaker 1: But I just said I'm sorry because I thought I
• 22:57
  Speaker 1: was gonna.
• 22:58
  Speaker 2: Die gave but he was always there.
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: Yeah, he was always because I still have my I
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: still have my brother. So whereas I was not choosing
• 23:05
  Speaker 1: to go, my brother was still going and I would
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: go sometimes you know what I'm saying, and I'm not
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: gonna act like I ain't never go. Its like had
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: custody and custody he fought for, you know, joint custody.
• 23:15
  Speaker 2: And then like he was there, but he just gave
• 23:17
  Speaker 2: you your space. But he never left yourself.
• 23:19
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so I knew I could always call my dad
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: and I just felt after that, our relationship went right
• 23:26
  Speaker 1: back to how it was when I was a kid,
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And he was at the
• 23:29
  Speaker 1: hospital the time. Him and my mom, they put their
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: differences aside just so I could be good. You know
• 23:34
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I feel like children need their
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: father and it doesn't necessarily have to be your biological
• 23:41
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, as long as you have
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: somebody in your life that's willing to play that father role.
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: Because fathers are important. We have to stop demeaning the
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: value of a father in the Black fathers are extremely important.
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: They are the foundation of the household. And if you
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: they need, yes, and if you pick the right father
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: for your child, they will always be a father to
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: your child. They might not be the man for you,
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: but they will always be the father to your child.
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. And that's what's important. And
• 24:10
  Speaker 1: shout out to my mom for picking right with that,
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: because me and my brother still bothered my daddy to
• 24:14
  Speaker 1: this day. I called a nigga for money all the time.
• 24:17
  Speaker 2: That's how it's supposed to.
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: But it's just like you know, and my dad, like
• 24:20
  Speaker 1: he'll fix my wheelchair for me, like he'll He took
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: me when I had first that shot, So he had
• 24:27
  Speaker 1: took me to where we went first. Yeah, we went
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: to Miami and he put me on the beach in Miami,
• 24:35
  Speaker 1: you get what I'm saying. Then we went to La
• 24:38
  Speaker 1: put me in the beach in La. Like he just
• 24:40
  Speaker 1: carries me and makes sure I get to experience everything
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: that I want to.
• 24:43
  Speaker 2: Father you you like that, princess.
• 24:44
  Speaker 1: So when your husband call me, yeah, so it would
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: be funny him and my husband me on the phone
• 24:49
  Speaker 1: and it'd be like it'd be that daddy passed me
• 24:51
  Speaker 1: to soul conversation, like who will pass me? Like I
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: vote for y'all, baby.
• 24:56
  Speaker 2: Girl, Like that's that's how it's supposed to be.
• 24:59
  Speaker 1: But I just wanted to, Like I said on this episode,
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: I just want to give you your flowers. You know
• 25:03
  Speaker 1: what I'm saying, because a lot of a lot of
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: men don't get the credit they deserve when it comes
• 25:08
  Speaker 1: to being in their child's life. You've been in your
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: child's life consistently, consistently his entire life, with your art
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: and without shot saying I got to make it back home.
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: And still it was just thinking about your baby.
• 25:20
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, make it back home to
• 25:22
  Speaker 2: my baby boy. I can't leave them exactly. I feel
• 25:24
  Speaker 2: like I would have been like my father if I
• 25:25
  Speaker 2: would have died. M that's my child. I can't. I
• 25:30
  Speaker 2: fought off that floor for that was the last face
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: I've seen on my screensaver before my eyes.
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: Your child was my child.
• 25:36
  Speaker 2: Wow, And that gave me all the strength to say
• 25:38
  Speaker 2: I can't die on this floor today.
• 25:39
  Speaker 1: And if you guys see him and his son relationship,
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: they're like two little bros. They're like really close.
• 25:44
  Speaker 2: Like everything, fight, play everything.
• 25:49
  Speaker 1: Acts like brother though rather than that, he's too grown
• 25:53
  Speaker 1: for the studio.
• 25:56
  Speaker 2: That's like my second kid too. It's that's my third kid.
• 26:00
  Speaker 1: Man.
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: I'm hungry, Like what the fuck.
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: You guys to eat? That's what my sister be doing
• 26:05
  Speaker 1: going through my mother fucking ffrigerated, Like bitch, who are
• 26:07
  Speaker 1: you feeling like?
• 26:08
  Speaker 2: But just I just love being a father because now
• 26:10
  Speaker 2: like it carried over then just being my kids, my
• 26:14
  Speaker 2: sister kids, those like my kids. I feel like I
• 26:17
  Speaker 2: have to show you you heard show up, Like I
• 26:21
  Speaker 2: went to They had a father day brunch for my
• 26:24
  Speaker 2: best friends, my sister twins. They five, and we took
• 26:28
  Speaker 2: a picture and he was just like uncle Chris is
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: like my father and that shit. Just like whenever I'm
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: down being an adult, this is what brings me up
• 26:36
  Speaker 2: right dumb too. Like they come in, we do our handshake.
• 26:40
  Speaker 2: That's friends forever. It's like, this is what I'm here
• 26:43
  Speaker 2: for to live for. We took our picture and he
• 26:45
  Speaker 2: just gave me the picture like, yo, you like our dad.
• 26:47
  Speaker 2: And I'm just like, damn of it. I love it.
• 26:50
  Speaker 2: Those my boys, I don't. I don't regret being the
• 26:52
  Speaker 2: father one bit. Man. I love all the headaches that
• 26:55
  Speaker 2: came within it.
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: So are you done?
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: Yeah? I ain't doing all my kids.
• 26:58
  Speaker 1: You and your wife let me have no more.
• 27:00
  Speaker 2: You got two girls kids, it's sixteen to start all over.
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: Nah, So you're just gonna wait for your grandkids.
• 27:05
  Speaker 2: Yeah. My niece is my nephew. I went to mad graduation.
• 27:10
  Speaker 2: Senaya graduate out of high school. Congratulates clothed cloth graduated
• 27:15
  Speaker 2: going to high school. The twins going to junior high school.
• 27:18
  Speaker 2: I mean twins going to kindergarten. Booty going to junior
• 27:22
  Speaker 2: high school. They graduated this year and every each and
• 27:26
  Speaker 2: every one of them. I was broke.
• 27:28
  Speaker 1: I got two of my sisters going to college this Yeah,
• 27:31
  Speaker 1: the Haley and janayah Oh and my godsister, Johnny. Congratulations
• 27:36
  Speaker 1: you guys real talk.
• 27:38
  Speaker 2: Shout out to Barana. She got her her master's page.
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: That's why she had Yeah.
• 27:43
  Speaker 2: Now she went for a wedding that she going to
• 27:45
  Speaker 2: Morocco for her birthday day. I said, she got Monday.
• 27:48
  Speaker 1: And I said, doctor Felder calling doctor Feldzer that year
• 27:53
  Speaker 1: some wine? Yeah something, bring me like something, doctor Felder.
• 27:57
  Speaker 2: Please bring me a French fry.
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: But definitely honestly so, Like I said, that was just
• 28:05
  Speaker 1: a snippet of what I wanted to get into. But
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: for the summer, what activity is you gonna be do?
• 28:10
  Speaker 1: Want to keep yourself cool?
• 28:13
  Speaker 2: Think I'm gonna go to the pool.
• 28:14
  Speaker 1: How is swimming?
• 28:15
  Speaker 2: That's a swim?
• 28:16
  Speaker 1: I was swimming for you, now that you're I was.
• 28:18
  Speaker 2: At first, I was scared to swim because I know
• 28:21
  Speaker 2: to swim, but I was scared because it's like I
• 28:23
  Speaker 2: don't know what I'm swimming to, Like I can't see
• 28:26
  Speaker 2: if I'm hitting the wall, I can't see what's around me.
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: So it's like I need to be fair. We do
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: swim with her eyes closed anyway.
• 28:33
  Speaker 2: No, when you swim like on top of the water,
• 28:36
  Speaker 2: on top of it open you open up the eyes
• 28:38
  Speaker 2: to see it, like what's on the left.
• 28:39
  Speaker 1: Side of you? Scared? Like you were scared I went
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: to a wall or something.
• 28:43
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that shi could suck you up, you up so
• 28:47
  Speaker 2: like so it was your first time, first time swimming
• 28:51
  Speaker 2: using PA and it's like I was I stick to
• 28:54
  Speaker 2: water just like at my waist because I was scared
• 28:57
  Speaker 2: to go and like large bodies of water. My brother
• 29:01
  Speaker 2: pushed me, and I thought I was dying.
• 29:02
  Speaker 1: Wait was he? I was in the pool.
• 29:04
  Speaker 2: He's in a pool, But.
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: Did you have a life jacket or no?
• 29:07
  Speaker 2: I was standing up. I wasn't getting back in the water.
• 29:10
  Speaker 2: He pushed me. So I'm like, I'm trying to grab
• 29:13
  Speaker 2: the air. I'm trying to grab everything hit the water,
• 29:17
  Speaker 2: and it was like I'm saying here like yo, broting,
• 29:19
  Speaker 2: like you don't know how to swim. I was so mad,
• 29:22
  Speaker 2: But then it was like it tested me, like I
• 29:25
  Speaker 2: still could do it. I still could swim. Then be
• 29:27
  Speaker 2: with the Florida and I'm in the water and I'm
• 29:29
  Speaker 2: just swimming. My nephew was like they got their light
• 29:31
  Speaker 2: jacket on, they trying to swim like me and everything.
• 29:33
  Speaker 2: So it just felt good. So it's like that's something
• 29:36
  Speaker 2: I had to overcome cause it's like, damn, it's going
• 29:39
  Speaker 2: to be different than me not saying is it gonna
• 29:41
  Speaker 2: like I'm just thinking like that. It's like I died,
• 29:45
  Speaker 2: I almost die one time. I ain't trying to do
• 29:46
  Speaker 2: it again. It's just be like different, like even getting
• 29:50
  Speaker 2: on roller coasters, it's just different. Like before I get
• 29:54
  Speaker 2: on roller coaster, keep my eyes open, I'm dropping this
• 29:56
  Speaker 2: that I can't do that now I get dizzy. Too
• 29:59
  Speaker 2: many swim and all. I just got to put my
• 30:01
  Speaker 2: head down on the machine and just wait till the
• 30:03
  Speaker 2: ride is over.
• 30:04
  Speaker 1: Okay, but I still.
• 30:05
  Speaker 2: Go on it though.
• 30:06
  Speaker 1: Well for me to get in the pool, my first
• 30:10
  Speaker 1: time getting in the pool after getting shy.
• 30:14
  Speaker 2: But question I heard like when people that's in a wheelchair,
• 30:18
  Speaker 2: it's easy for them the swim tool.
• 30:19
  Speaker 1: Oh I mean yeah, yeah, I mean we don't float.
• 30:23
  Speaker 1: We could definitely drown. I've definitely been there. But if
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: you know how to swim, you know how to swim.
• 30:28
  Speaker 1: If you knew how to swim before you got in
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: a wheelchair. You know how to swim in the wheelchair.
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: It's no real difference. You just can't use your legs
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: and it's just basically teaching your your body is lighter
• 30:37
  Speaker 1: in the water, you know what I'm saying. So you
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: learn how to float and do all those things. And
• 30:42
  Speaker 1: you know, like me swimming, I know, I gotta like,
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: oh baby, I can't swim. I ain't never swim. If
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: you see me in a pool, I got on a
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: life jacket, a floaty.
• 30:51
  Speaker 2: I learned how to swim in bessie Had Pool in Brooklyn.
• 30:53
  Speaker 1: While we just talking about Betsy Had that's the one
• 30:55
  Speaker 1: by downtown, or like, that's the one by Goanas.
• 30:58
  Speaker 2: Bessie is in Brownsville.
• 30:59
  Speaker 1: Who plod.
• 31:02
  Speaker 2: In Brownsville? Jesus absolutely Bessie was in Brownsville downtown. I
• 31:07
  Speaker 2: used to go to the.
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: YMCA downtown is called M some something with an M.
• 31:11
  Speaker 1: I think, right, I don't know what they had one.
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: Me and my mom went there Betsville. Okay, well yeah,
• 31:22
  Speaker 1: I for me swimming, it's funny because it's like my
• 31:25
  Speaker 1: ass be up. So it's like because I'm sitting in
• 31:28
  Speaker 1: like sitting positions. So when you go in the water,
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: your body, my body has been used to this position forever.
• 31:34
  Speaker 1: So when I go whchair, yeah, I can't get in
• 31:37
  Speaker 1: the water with my wheelchair. They do have wheelchairs that
• 31:39
  Speaker 1: are accessible for those of you that don't know. Some
• 31:41
  Speaker 1: pools are accessible and you can just transfer to the
• 31:44
  Speaker 1: pool chair and then it lifts you into the water
• 31:47
  Speaker 1: and it lifts you out the water as well. But
• 31:50
  Speaker 1: that's only if it's accessible. If it's not accessible, what
• 31:52
  Speaker 1: I do I angle my chair. I griped the railing
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: and then like Iran like, I used the railing to
• 32:00
  Speaker 1: transfer to the Florida the same way I would to
• 32:01
  Speaker 1: my chair.
• 32:02
  Speaker 2: Okay, so you just sit like on the step.
• 32:04
  Speaker 1: I sit on the step and I'll go in as
• 32:05
  Speaker 1: comfortable as I am. Some people that know how to
• 32:07
  Speaker 1: swim wheelchairs, they will literally throw their whole chair in
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: diving with it. I haven't seen people do that. I
• 32:12
  Speaker 1: got friends that really are really good swimmers, and they
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: could just jump in straight out their wheelchair. It's some
• 32:18
  Speaker 1: ill ship that I've seen.
• 32:19
  Speaker 2: But so you could you could be in a wheel
• 32:20
  Speaker 2: chair still swim y'all.
• 32:21
  Speaker 1: Yeah, but ship, I can't swim. Baby could have swim walking. Okay,
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: I'm black.
• 32:26
  Speaker 2: Have you been on a ride? Like a ride?
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: Yeah? I fucking went to fucking Coney Island with my
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: son and they got that little kittie roller coaster.
• 32:34
  Speaker 2: I said, when he's on the tea cup.
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: No not, Oh yeah, I gotta. I got on a
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: bunch of little kittie rides, but.
• 32:39
  Speaker 2: Never got no big adult the roller coaster.
• 32:42
  Speaker 1: I did get on a roller coaster at Coney Island.
• 32:45
  Speaker 2: But the cyclone. Hell no, people a thousand years hurt.
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: That cyclone hurt last time. Oh yeah, that's it. Shake
• 32:54
  Speaker 1: you up so much?
• 32:55
  Speaker 2: Thousand years old.
• 32:56
  Speaker 1: No, that's not it.
• 32:57
  Speaker 2: But so like places like great adventures and all that,
• 33:01
  Speaker 2: you won't.
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: Do I would. I would do it because I have
• 33:03
  Speaker 1: a child, you know what I'm saying. So it's like
• 33:05
  Speaker 1: him being able to enjoy those, yeah, is what matters.
• 33:08
  Speaker 1: Like even when we go to water parks. Of course
• 33:10
  Speaker 1: there's gonna be certain rides I don't go on, but
• 33:12
  Speaker 1: I like to. I mean, me and him went to
• 33:14
  Speaker 1: our first water park by ourselves. He's been to the
• 33:17
  Speaker 1: water park a thousand times, but just me and him
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: for ourself for his birthday.
• 33:21
  Speaker 2: How was that?
• 33:22
  Speaker 1: It? Was amazing. I say, American Dream, if you are
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: in a wheelchair, you want to take yeah, you want
• 33:29
  Speaker 1: to take your child somewhere. And because it's fully accessible,
• 33:32
  Speaker 1: you can roll up to everything.
• 33:35
  Speaker 2: Oh, American Dream is accessible. Yeah, Oh, shout out to
• 33:37
  Speaker 2: American and Dream.
• 33:38
  Speaker 1: American Dream is eightya accessible and you could roll up
• 33:41
  Speaker 1: to everything besides like the big slides and stuff with that.
• 33:44
  Speaker 1: Obviously those so.
• 33:44
  Speaker 2: You got on everything with them.
• 33:46
  Speaker 1: I didn't get on everything. I got in the I
• 33:48
  Speaker 1: tried to get on that fucking uh wave pool boy.
• 33:53
  Speaker 1: That shit took my ass back to my chair. I said,
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: let me get the fuck up out of here, and.
• 33:57
  Speaker 2: Then American Dream, you should and I mean hit us up.
• 34:00
  Speaker 2: Maybe we could do a disabled day, right Dream people
• 34:04
  Speaker 2: know we shall love.
• 34:06
  Speaker 1: They were like, oh they're backing again.
• 34:08
  Speaker 2: Look be sponsored are we talking about your on the podcast.
• 34:12
  Speaker 2: I'm all a dream. Let's have a disabled day.
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: But I literally I got in there. I got into Jacuzie,
• 34:17
  Speaker 1: I got in the lazy river. That lazy river is
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: not lazy. Let me say that that shit almost kill
• 34:23
  Speaker 1: me and poop we left me today. He at the
• 34:26
  Speaker 1: end of the rod twenty minutes before I got off
• 34:28
  Speaker 1: I'm sitting there like, who left me out there? Jesus
• 34:30
  Speaker 1: is I'm just in a floating and the ship trying
• 34:32
  Speaker 1: to take me. It took me to the ship that
• 34:34
  Speaker 1: you know, all the ones that you know. The shit
• 34:36
  Speaker 1: just drinch you like the shower type shit. So I'm
• 34:39
  Speaker 1: trying to employ I'm trying to avoid all the waterfalls
• 34:41
  Speaker 1: and I'm just like rolling into thems. I can't swim
• 34:44
  Speaker 1: and I'm want to floating that I'm trying not to
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: fall off the floating. I'm trying not to lose my wig.
• 34:48
  Speaker 1: It was a lot going on, but he had a
• 34:50
  Speaker 1: fucking blast. He ended up making a friend who had
• 34:52
  Speaker 1: the same birthday as him, so they was there on
• 34:55
  Speaker 1: their birthday. Then we ended up getting into the Cabanas
• 34:57
  Speaker 1: high rods having a nice good time up.
• 35:00
  Speaker 2: Shout out to you because you really put all that
• 35:03
  Speaker 2: scared shit aside and did it. Yeah, because it's like
• 35:05
  Speaker 2: you could have dad ass fell into the water and
• 35:07
  Speaker 2: that you can't swell. Oh no, I've been getting into
• 35:10
  Speaker 2: water Park Rise this whole time like that. I've been
• 35:12
  Speaker 2: in check because we've been my parents they made me
• 35:14
  Speaker 2: go to water parks. I haven't been to Kyla Harry Camelbag,
• 35:17
  Speaker 2: Splush Splash, American Dream I think, and then the other
• 35:21
  Speaker 2: few that I can't remember the name. I ain't been
• 35:24
  Speaker 2: to a lot of like parks because of my disability.
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: But you could still have fucking fun. You just can't
• 35:30
  Speaker 1: see it.
• 35:31
  Speaker 2: I can't see it.
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: I could see it, so see for me. Imagine being
• 35:35
  Speaker 1: able to see the ship and you can't do it.
• 35:37
  Speaker 1: That's a little I don't know.
• 35:39
  Speaker 2: Seeing it was like I was like, damn, I can't
• 35:42
  Speaker 2: do it. But when we went to Disney World, I
• 35:44
  Speaker 2: got on the roller coaster.
• 35:45
  Speaker 1: How was it?
• 35:46
  Speaker 2: I had fun?
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: Even though that was it was that your first time?
• 35:51
  Speaker 1: So what was that experience?
• 35:52
  Speaker 2: Like? Oh, I loved it. Because it's like they're like, Chris,
• 35:55
  Speaker 2: you're going I'm like, nah, I'm good. They're like, come on,
• 35:58
  Speaker 2: come on, Chris, with me, with me. I'm like a
• 36:00
  Speaker 2: come on, I'm getting on. And like that ship took
• 36:02
  Speaker 2: off and I'm like, I'm just not ready for this ship.
• 36:04
  Speaker 2: So she she's letting me know we about to drop
• 36:07
  Speaker 2: about to drop. So I'm like, oh man, I'm putting
• 36:09
  Speaker 2: my head down. We dropping, we spinning, I'm screaming. They're like,
• 36:13
  Speaker 2: I got the right to man like, yo, that was
• 36:14
  Speaker 2: you screaming? Was me screaming like you know you got
• 36:18
  Speaker 2: that drop, you ain't got that hot pitch ass boys too.
• 36:21
  Speaker 2: I know people in Disney World loved me because I
• 36:24
  Speaker 2: made I made the I made that trip. Get on
• 36:26
  Speaker 2: the rise and I'm like, let's ride.
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: But it took into your injury. Were you when you
• 36:30
  Speaker 1: did Disney World?
• 36:32
  Speaker 2: I did Disney World. Disney World was two years ago,
• 36:34
  Speaker 2: so you just now got the road like fourteen years
• 36:38
  Speaker 2: two years ago. But it was like, I was not
• 36:40
  Speaker 2: about to get on there.
• 36:41
  Speaker 1: My thing is what made you do it?
• 36:43
  Speaker 2: Though? My cousin, my son, my daughter was there and
• 36:46
  Speaker 2: they was like, yo, you can't be doing it. Come on,
• 36:48
  Speaker 2: come on. I'm like, all right, come on, because I
• 36:51
  Speaker 2: wanted to go to the kid's side with you know,
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: like I like my feet on the floor, I don't
• 36:56
  Speaker 2: on my ship in the air.
• 36:58
  Speaker 1: And all that.
• 36:58
  Speaker 2: I'm like, I letter we have fun though.
• 37:01
  Speaker 1: And that's because you have to step out your comfort zone,
• 37:03
  Speaker 1: shout out to people that God put in disabled people
• 37:06
  Speaker 1: lives to push them and not treat them.
• 37:10
  Speaker 2: God like again, you know what I mean. I see
• 37:12
  Speaker 2: a lot of people on TikTok and I see it.
• 37:14
  Speaker 2: I'm like, yo, I just be writing them.
• 37:15
  Speaker 1: Yo.
• 37:15
  Speaker 2: You gotta live, man, it's so much out here. You
• 37:18
  Speaker 2: you limit in yourself. You gotta live because like and
• 37:20
  Speaker 2: what really helped me be in Disney World my cousin
• 37:23
  Speaker 2: like Chris with your stick, like what she said, Look,
• 37:26
  Speaker 2: it's somebody in here walking with the stick now getting
• 37:28
  Speaker 2: on the ride. Oh boy, And I just stepped in
• 37:30
  Speaker 2: and I'm just like, damn, I'm putting limits on myself.
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: Yeah, you limited you, that's all.
• 37:34
  Speaker 2: Then he got off the ride and I just hear
• 37:35
  Speaker 2: his voice and he just like, oh, it's cool this.
• 37:38
  Speaker 2: I'm like, nah, fuck that. I'm the blond stuff. But
• 37:41
  Speaker 2: I ain't gonn let him out showed me. I got
• 37:42
  Speaker 2: on that ride and I would start screaming. I'm like, yo,
• 37:45
  Speaker 2: but I had fun though. It's like I'm like the
• 37:48
  Speaker 2: most I ever had in a long time.
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: That and that be the little shit enjoy that little
• 37:51
  Speaker 1: kiddie roller Coast sat Conyllan was the biggest thing that
• 37:54
  Speaker 1: happened to me that year. You understand'm saying because it's
• 37:57
  Speaker 1: just like those small victories mean every thing. Like I was,
• 38:00
  Speaker 1: I swear to God, and it was so freeing because
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: I had my hair in an afro. So I just
• 38:04
  Speaker 1: got this big ass afro and I'm on a roller
• 38:06
  Speaker 1: coaster and the shiit just you see the video of
• 38:08
  Speaker 1: me and you just see my hair go up, got down,
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: and then we I do. I took my because I
• 38:13
  Speaker 1: do a lot of things on myself with my son.
• 38:15
  Speaker 1: So we went to this other amusement park or whatever.
• 38:18
  Speaker 1: It's like one of the little carnivals. It's somewhere in Brooklyn.
• 38:21
  Speaker 1: I can't think of the name of it. Don't give
• 38:23
  Speaker 1: me the lion, but it's like a little carnival. It's old.
• 38:26
  Speaker 1: But they got like the old school rods like we
• 38:28
  Speaker 1: used to go to, like you know, the carnivals that
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: pop up and ship. But they there. So we get
• 38:34
  Speaker 1: there and then they had fucking bumper cars. So I
• 38:38
  Speaker 1: ain't even ask the lady if I could get on.
• 38:40
  Speaker 1: I just said, let's go. I said, Poopy, put your
• 38:43
  Speaker 1: foot on the gas. I was what, no, I was
• 38:48
  Speaker 1: doing it. And then when his foot got tired, because
• 38:52
  Speaker 1: he wanted to he wanted to do. He was hating
• 38:54
  Speaker 1: on me. He wanted to spend. So then I took
• 38:57
  Speaker 1: my knee and I pushed that ship down to the
• 39:00
  Speaker 1: so I've got one hand and the thing, and the
• 39:03
  Speaker 1: people were just seeing us say like, oh my god.
• 39:07
  Speaker 1: It was just amazing because I was just like, yo,
• 39:09
  Speaker 1: it's really just me and my baby, you know what
• 39:11
  Speaker 1: I'm saying. And from the moment that because you had
• 39:13
  Speaker 1: your son before your disability, she's.
• 39:15
  Speaker 2: B D A D.
• 39:18
  Speaker 1: I had mine. That's what we got to take our words.
• 39:24
  Speaker 1: We're gonna see, yeah, I had mine after disability. So
• 39:29
  Speaker 1: for my whole pregnancy, all I had was just people
• 39:31
  Speaker 1: looking at me, everybody with their ideologies of how is
• 39:35
  Speaker 1: she gonna do this? What is she going to do
• 39:37
  Speaker 1: with a baby? How can she handle at baby? You
• 39:40
  Speaker 1: know what I mean? And then now they see me
• 39:42
  Speaker 1: and it's like, oh, ship, this girl doing everything. I
• 39:47
  Speaker 1: didn't been on flights with my son by myself, you
• 39:49
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And I took him on his
• 39:50
  Speaker 1: first flight when he was like what too, and he
• 39:54
  Speaker 1: was chilling. He was chilling. He had he said that
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: he took the pictures with the he was good. It's
• 40:01
  Speaker 1: the only thing that could stop you is a crippled mindset.
• 40:03
  Speaker 1: That's the only thing that is and that's what we're
• 40:06
  Speaker 1: here for.
• 40:07
  Speaker 2: My son was one so many people together.
• 40:11
  Speaker 1: Exactly, and so many people are coming up to me
• 40:13
  Speaker 1: now and they're like, oh, you guys, you guys are
• 40:16
  Speaker 1: motivating us, and you know, y'all make me feel better,
• 40:20
  Speaker 1: you help me, you save me. You don't know how
• 40:22
  Speaker 1: this conversation did this and that, and it's like, that's
• 40:24
  Speaker 1: what we do it for. Man, Yeah, we had If
• 40:27
  Speaker 1: we had us when we first got disabled, ship would
• 40:31
  Speaker 1: have went a lot faster and smooth. I only had
• 40:34
  Speaker 1: white people to look at that had money, so they
• 40:36
  Speaker 1: disability is not the same. This is a difference between
• 40:39
  Speaker 1: being pouring disabled and white and diable. It's a difference
• 40:43
  Speaker 1: because those are the people that's never been on Medicaid.
• 40:45
  Speaker 1: So when they do get on them, if they do
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: have to, it's not that big of a deal. You
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. This ship my whole life. You
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. They got parents that have cell
• 40:53
  Speaker 1: they crib to get an accessible crib. Ship. This all
• 40:55
  Speaker 1: me and my mama. God right now, we got to
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: work with it. We can't afford to get no rent made.
• 41:00
  Speaker 1: So guess what my stepfather carry me up the stairs
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: every day. Oh then we had to move out. Now
• 41:05
  Speaker 1: we in the most of mostly plex, well a duplex
• 41:08
  Speaker 1: or whatever. And now we our apartment is upstairs. So
• 41:10
  Speaker 1: now my stepfather got to carry on. You know what
• 41:12
  Speaker 1: I'm saying, I don't have the I didn't have the.
• 41:14
  Speaker 2: Options that you have the whole system to make it
• 41:18
  Speaker 2: work for you.
• 41:18
  Speaker 1: Like you see how Stevie Wonder raycharl Oldham, they had
• 41:21
  Speaker 1: so much money that they blonde is. Stevie was so
• 41:24
  Speaker 1: fucking rich that people don't believe he you know what
• 41:26
  Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like because of they went through it, because
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: it's like Ray went through it because he had to learn.
• 41:32
  Speaker 1: Ray was on drugs as a kid.
• 41:35
  Speaker 2: As a kid, Yeah, send him away to learn how
• 41:38
  Speaker 2: to deal with the disability.
• 41:40
  Speaker 1: But Stevie, I don't know Stevie, He's still alive, kicking,
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, and still like that and
• 41:45
  Speaker 1: still seeing. Oh you said Stevie was.
• 41:46
  Speaker 2: Wrong with that? He was he was.
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: Ray loss his vision because he dumped in that water
• 41:53
  Speaker 1: with the bleach. Ain't that what happened in the who
• 41:58
  Speaker 1: Died in the Water?
• 41:59
  Speaker 2: Brother?
• 41:59
  Speaker 1: And he lost his vision because he was so sad
• 42:01
  Speaker 1: from crying.
• 42:02
  Speaker 2: Oh my god?
• 42:03
  Speaker 1: What then happened in the movie.
• 42:04
  Speaker 2: Like this episode is over.
• 42:06
  Speaker 1: Anna, what happened? You know what happened. I'm not joking
• 42:14
  Speaker 1: like that.
• 42:15
  Speaker 2: That's what's making funny.
• 42:16
  Speaker 1: Yeah, that was crazy.
• 42:17
  Speaker 2: That was crazy. Get up, get blown from crazy, lying
• 42:22
  Speaker 2: from crying, that was.
• 42:26
  Speaker 1: Shut up?
• 42:28
  Speaker 2: How they so much? I'm double blinding. That's the case.
• 42:31
  Speaker 3: Everybody in your family, all y'all family will blind and
• 42:36
  Speaker 3: put them through ship.
• 42:40
  Speaker 1: Rachall's like gradually starting around age four and was completely
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: blind by age seven from crying to death.
• 42:46
  Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, let me stop here.
• 42:50
  Speaker 1: Now. He just loves he had juvenile.
• 42:52
  Speaker 2: Glackcoma glackhoma, said, damn glackcoma glackoma.
• 42:56
  Speaker 1: Really, that's what people be smoking weed for black glack Homer.
• 43:00
  Speaker 2: People should really do it to you.
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: Damn. I thought the cataracts you because the cataracts would
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: make you blond too. But the cataracts, I think just
• 43:07
  Speaker 1: turn your eyes blue. To Glackhoma's what makes you blond
• 43:10
  Speaker 1: later on.
• 43:10
  Speaker 2: In you if you catch it early on then so
• 43:12
  Speaker 2: do you.
• 43:13
  Speaker 1: Have any stage of glackoma? Nothing, it's just because of
• 43:16
  Speaker 1: the bullet. So maybe if we get I've seen a
• 43:19
  Speaker 1: lot of movies and shit, we're gonna get you some
• 43:21
  Speaker 1: ship they got new eyes and shit coming on with
• 43:23
  Speaker 1: the technology. But the way your eyes work, they still working,
• 43:26
  Speaker 1: so I don't know. You might just can't see forever,
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: but you're gonna still see. I like the way your
• 43:31
  Speaker 1: eyes is now.
• 43:32
  Speaker 2: If it's anything dealing with a chip on my brain,
• 43:35
  Speaker 2: I want to do to us too.
• 43:37
  Speaker 1: Though they want to put the chips in our back
• 43:40
  Speaker 1: are spine.
• 43:40
  Speaker 2: You gotta put chips and all that. Man, I enjoy band, so.
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: You wouldn't do it. Hell no, see me, I wouldn't either,
• 43:48
  Speaker 1: because I don't want nothing in my body that I
• 43:50
  Speaker 1: can't get it. Imagine if somebody say sit down, bitch,
• 43:52
  Speaker 1: and they puss the button, and now I'm staying the
• 43:54
  Speaker 1: fuck down. My son loved me the way, and that
• 43:57
  Speaker 1: chip malfunction, I just I see it as there because
• 44:00
  Speaker 1: we already got blessed. We're still able to do this much.
• 44:03
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. You do the wrong thing,
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: you post the wrong nerve get some start chipping out
• 44:08
  Speaker 1: now that I just killed the whole fucking world. Listen, nigga,
• 44:11
  Speaker 1: I'm ready. I'm already a vegetable. I ain't trying to
• 44:13
  Speaker 1: be a.
• 44:13
  Speaker 3: Frozen real talk though, y'all y'all gonna have to y'all
• 44:18
  Speaker 3: saying this now, but y'all gonna really have an opportunity
• 44:20
  Speaker 3: to make that decision one day, because, like.
• 44:22
  Speaker 1: I said, and once it's been, once it's been listen,
• 44:25
  Speaker 1: it would have to have been out for years, and
• 44:28
  Speaker 1: by then I probably won't even fucking you.
• 44:30
  Speaker 3: You're gonna get that chance to me fourteen years ago,
• 44:33
  Speaker 3: just like hell you like you know, a nigga come
• 44:36
  Speaker 3: to you and tell you, like listen, it's like this.
• 44:38
  Speaker 3: We're gonna give you these half biological half like technological eyes.
• 44:44
  Speaker 3: You're gonna you're gonna be able to see. We're gonna
• 44:46
  Speaker 3: take your eyes out, or we're gonna put this kind
• 44:48
  Speaker 3: of assumption. This is gonna be some crazy ship.
• 44:49
  Speaker 2: You're gonna say, not doing it, not doing, not doing it,
• 44:52
  Speaker 2: not see.
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: For me, I won't say that.
• 44:55
  Speaker 2: I'm totally not for a reason.
• 44:57
  Speaker 1: I honestly, like I said, if it something where they
• 45:00
  Speaker 1: could just I would do themselves. That's what I would do,
• 45:03
  Speaker 1: because themselves are different. You get them from your own body,
• 45:06
  Speaker 1: and they help to regenerate nerves and stuff like that.
• 45:08
  Speaker 1: As far as chips and stuff like that that can
• 45:10
  Speaker 1: go inside, tips can malfunction, same way our phones malfunction.
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Any type of electronic can malfunction.
• 45:16
  Speaker 1: So imagine I put that shit in my body and
• 45:18
  Speaker 1: now guard tissue has to grow over it. All types
• 45:21
  Speaker 1: of shit. You know what I'm saying. It's a bunch
• 45:22
  Speaker 1: of things that was in place with it, and it's
• 45:24
  Speaker 1: always side effect. So now I could get this. So
• 45:27
  Speaker 1: it might be, oh yeah, you might be able to
• 45:29
  Speaker 1: walk for ten years and then but then you might
• 45:31
  Speaker 1: die five years after that table.
• 45:33
  Speaker 2: They could open me up and I could lose my memory.
• 45:35
  Speaker 1: We could lose your life. We can lose your life.
• 45:39
  Speaker 2: I'm not enjoying my life not knowing who my son is.
• 45:42
  Speaker 1: And his is in his brain, so to be different
• 45:43
  Speaker 1: for him, mine is in myself. Wrong.
• 45:46
  Speaker 2: Fourteen years ago, I might have gambled with it, but
• 45:48
  Speaker 2: now for a reason now, I mean honestly, like it
• 45:52
  Speaker 2: ain't that much work.
• 45:52
  Speaker 1: I always tell people. For me, I'm good with being
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: in the chair. I just need a better wheelchair.
• 45:59
  Speaker 2: Get you. It's like I got two people that I'm
• 46:03
  Speaker 2: in the studio, that's my eyes. I'm not tripping over
• 46:05
  Speaker 2: and you got meta and you got medicine. Check send
• 46:10
  Speaker 2: some products and send some product.
• 46:13
  Speaker 1: Something Engineer and the other co hosts my eyes products.
• 46:18
  Speaker 1: We need some products to baby.
• 46:19
  Speaker 2: Thanks.
• 46:20
  Speaker 1: Wolf needs them to help us record her legs rolling
• 46:24
  Speaker 1: with exactly. And it's like, like I said, I feel
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: like God put us in the disposition to just even
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: though you feel like your eyes may have closed, your
• 46:33
  Speaker 1: eyes has did nothing but open. You know what I'm
• 46:35
  Speaker 1: saying that even I may not be able to lo
• 46:38
  Speaker 1: I have, I would not have been able to enter
• 46:40
  Speaker 1: the doors that I entered in a wheelchair.
• 46:42
  Speaker 2: Will tell you taking them stuff. And I realized that.
• 46:45
  Speaker 1: I realized that. But like I said, simp Star researching
• 46:47
  Speaker 1: a billionaire baby.
• 46:50
  Speaker 3: It's gonna happen because even like paraplegics right now, like
• 46:54
  Speaker 3: paraplegics using neurolink and they're able to uh like move
• 46:59
  Speaker 3: through the earth a little bit easier, you know what
• 47:01
  Speaker 3: I mean by literally just using their brain. They like
• 47:04
  Speaker 3: controlling the mouse on the computer, they playing the game
• 47:07
  Speaker 3: just by thinking.
• 47:08
  Speaker 1: Those those are those are the Quadi police.
• 47:12
  Speaker 2: Respect all the respect. You know, that's dope. But you
• 47:17
  Speaker 2: know if they got glasses, yeah, I do that.
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: But think about Christopher Reeves, Think about how rich he
• 47:22
  Speaker 1: was and all the ship that he put in because
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: that's what we have. You guys have what the hell
• 47:26
  Speaker 1: and Keller Foundation, and we have Christopher Reeves. So what
• 47:30
  Speaker 1: he did was put so much fucking money into industry.
• 47:33
  Speaker 1: I went to one of his fucking fundraising parties, one
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: of the Christopher Reeves balls bro They raised fucking millions
• 47:39
  Speaker 1: of dollars in like five minutes, but millions of like
• 47:45
  Speaker 1: the room that I was in doing it. So what
• 47:46
  Speaker 1: I'm saying had millions of dollars and I would not
• 47:50
  Speaker 1: have been able to be in that room. No. And
• 47:52
  Speaker 1: I met a doctor that night and he was he
• 47:54
  Speaker 1: was willing to be he was willing to be my
• 47:56
  Speaker 1: Uh but this before I got married. You know, he's
• 47:59
  Speaker 1: willing to be my conki giving me a white baby.
• 48:02
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 48:02
  Speaker 1: He was a urologist. Yeah, yeah, you offered it at
• 48:06
  Speaker 1: the party. Yeah. It was like, oh, you're you know,
• 48:10
  Speaker 1: you're beautiful. You know, I don't I don't discriminate, you
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, And he's.
• 48:17
  Speaker 2: Rich.
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: White people don't give a fuck.
• 48:19
  Speaker 3: Let me let me ask you this being in the chair,
• 48:23
  Speaker 3: how has your has your view of since you've been
• 48:26
  Speaker 3: in the chair, has your view of men changed? Or
• 48:28
  Speaker 3: is it still the sign because you literally experiencing men
• 48:31
  Speaker 3: from a whole different pov.
• 48:32
  Speaker 1: I mean yeah, because usually I'm told so I used
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: to look down at them, but me thought she was fitting.
• 48:37
  Speaker 1: But what you mean, like as far as the wheelchair
• 48:39
  Speaker 1: or not, because it takes away from me being able
• 48:42
  Speaker 1: to see the actual creeps because people want to just
• 48:45
  Speaker 1: coddle me and baby me and be so nice and
• 48:48
  Speaker 1: protect me that I won't know you're a creep until
• 48:50
  Speaker 1: it's too late, you know what I'm saying. But my energy,
• 48:53
  Speaker 1: Like when I was younger, that's how it would be.
• 48:55
  Speaker 1: But now that you know, I'm more especially awoken and
• 48:57
  Speaker 1: stuff like that, Like I could feel like, oh no,
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: this nigga creepy people. My POV of men is that
• 49:04
  Speaker 1: they have to take control over things even that don't
• 49:07
  Speaker 1: want to be taking control over. Like I could be
• 49:09
  Speaker 1: cross on the street if somebody could see me crossing
• 49:12
  Speaker 1: the street, you need help crossing the street? Now, nigga,
• 49:16
  Speaker 1: I don't need help cours on the street because if
• 49:17
  Speaker 1: I need a help crosse the street, why the fuck
• 49:18
  Speaker 1: am I in the street crossing the street? Then I'm like, oh,
• 49:22
  Speaker 1: I could just be randomly pushing and then somebody come
• 49:24
  Speaker 1: up start pushing me mad, So you're gonna help you.
• 49:27
  Speaker 1: I did not ask for that. Yes, it's a violation consent.
• 49:31
  Speaker 1: I don't want to be touched and I be alone
• 49:33
  Speaker 1: with somebody touching on me. Now somebody, now, somebody see me.
• 49:37
  Speaker 1: One of his men's had me rolling by, Oh yo,
• 49:39
  Speaker 1: just getting pushed by some No, I'm from Green's Baby.
• 49:46
  Speaker 1: Hold On says stop but no. Honestly, like I said,
• 49:50
  Speaker 1: they're much I don't. I don't deal with a lot
• 49:52
  Speaker 1: of ignorant I never really had bad experiences with men
• 49:56
  Speaker 1: outside of the ones I was in relationships with past.
• 49:59
  Speaker 1: I mean, this is not very first, you know. Besides that,
• 50:03
  Speaker 1: I don't really have like, I never really had a
• 50:06
  Speaker 1: bad relationship with men. Most of my friends are guys,
• 50:08
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I have lifelong friendships women
• 50:10
  Speaker 1: that are platonic because people swear that you can't have
• 50:13
  Speaker 1: platonic relationships with a man, you know, the opposite sex,
• 50:16
  Speaker 1: but you can. I have friends that I look at
• 50:19
  Speaker 1: like brothers, that like y'all, you know what I'm saying,
• 50:21
  Speaker 1: And it's like, I don't know. I think men are cool.
• 50:24
  Speaker 1: I don't have a problem women. I don't like the
• 50:27
  Speaker 1: way y'all be doing certain things. I don't like the
• 50:29
  Speaker 1: men that are against women. But as long as you
• 50:32
  Speaker 1: love women, I love you. I don't give a damn,
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: especially if you're black. I don't have no beef for nothing.
• 50:38
  Speaker 1: And like I said, men are more willing to help me.
• 50:42
  Speaker 1: That's my position. I have it from a different view
• 50:44
  Speaker 1: because people see me. It's like, oh my god, we
• 50:46
  Speaker 1: have to help this damsel in distress. Like I get
• 50:48
  Speaker 1: treated like chivalry. People rush to come open the door,
• 50:52
  Speaker 1: people rush to come help and do this and that.
• 50:53
  Speaker 1: So I do get chivalry. I will say that. So
• 50:55
  Speaker 1: my POV is not really bad, but I do get
• 50:57
  Speaker 1: the creeps. I want to fuck the wheels off you.
• 51:01
  Speaker 1: I want to do this and that, and it's just
• 51:02
  Speaker 1: like God. Then I got people because it's you know,
• 51:05
  Speaker 1: hosting me pictures on your feet.
• 51:08
  Speaker 2: Oh people asking for that now, yes, they.
• 51:10
  Speaker 1: Want feed picks. I want to be I want to
• 51:11
  Speaker 1: make a feet page because they kept saying because you
• 51:16
  Speaker 1: was like, oh you got pretty feet, and they can't.
• 51:18
  Speaker 1: They all in the comments like, oh so I want
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: to I'm going to make a feet page because people
• 51:24
  Speaker 1: make money off of there. Yeah, I'm making feet.
• 51:27
  Speaker 2: Are you going to become like richest overnight? We're breaking
• 51:30
  Speaker 2: the bread down because I did. I did come that.
• 51:38
  Speaker 1: Every every every every time you share that I got you.
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: But no, I'm gonna I'm literally starting it up. I'm
• 51:44
  Speaker 1: just thinking of the name for it. It's gonna be
• 51:47
  Speaker 1: on wheels.
• 51:47
  Speaker 3: You're gonna make bang, yeah.
• 51:49
  Speaker 1: Because people are sick and you gotta do You gotta
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: do funny straight with your feet. You can't. I think
• 51:54
  Speaker 1: toes on wheels, right, so yeah, like toes on wheels,
• 51:56
  Speaker 1: and then it's just gonna center around priplegic. It's gonna
• 51:59
  Speaker 1: send her paraplegic feet, you know. And then you people
• 52:02
  Speaker 1: are gonna pay me to get my feet done the
• 52:04
  Speaker 1: color that you wanted. You need me to dip it
• 52:05
  Speaker 1: in peanut butter and ship I got.
• 52:07
  Speaker 3: I literally seen a lady she fucking put her feet
• 52:09
  Speaker 3: in some toast my nigga some bread and then toasted
• 52:13
  Speaker 3: the bread and then sent it to a nigga and
• 52:15
  Speaker 3: it was like the end, like the prints of her
• 52:17
  Speaker 3: feet in the bread.
• 52:19
  Speaker 2: She's stamping ship. So like a rack is yes, we're
• 52:27
  Speaker 2: gonna get yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm telling you
• 52:31
  Speaker 2: you know you're gonna show them your feet too.
• 52:33
  Speaker 1: I want to see sometuff to until until Debo six
• 52:39
  Speaker 1: ninety seven. Let me get your feet.
• 52:41
  Speaker 2: I do the will I'm the blind st bro ship
• 52:44
  Speaker 2: niggas will boy.
• 52:46
  Speaker 1: And it's something about her feet that gets the people going.
• 52:50
  Speaker 2: It's like a bonus on time.
• 52:53
  Speaker 1: Everything because they don't touch the ground.
• 52:56
  Speaker 2: Yeah, bro, that's the fucking slogan.
• 52:59
  Speaker 1: No onions, no onions over here, don't touch the ground.
• 53:04
  Speaker 2: Really, I don't know if you're being serious or.
• 53:06
  Speaker 1: Not, but you meds I'm being dead seriously, me and
• 53:10
  Speaker 1: my husband already it's easy.
• 53:11
  Speaker 2: To promote you just going all the little freaky shows
• 53:13
  Speaker 2: and ship like that. They already got the audience readym.
• 53:16
  Speaker 1: All horrible next at least, I'm like, but I got
• 53:21
  Speaker 1: some of them.
• 53:21
  Speaker 2: Twinkle your toes.
• 53:23
  Speaker 1: It's like a jump. I think I said toes on
• 53:27
  Speaker 1: wills leave me alone. The next clear they're gonna be like,
• 53:30
  Speaker 1: now you want to see his stay to see tode
• 53:34
  Speaker 1: twinkle that no twinkle toe, that's what's coming called twinks
• 53:39
  Speaker 1: no twinker episode, but no for real, for I'm literally
• 53:46
  Speaker 1: I'm doing I have some there's people called devotees, so
• 53:49
  Speaker 1: in the disability community. We have people that fetishize us.
• 53:53
  Speaker 1: So devotes are people that are willing to devote their
• 53:55
  Speaker 1: lives to care for us. So I've had my first
• 53:58
  Speaker 1: I met my first one. His name was Zach and
• 54:00
  Speaker 1: he happens to be everybody's first one because he's the
• 54:02
  Speaker 1: sickest white dude in the Middle East, well in America.
• 54:05
  Speaker 1: But literally people had to contact his mom. He was
• 54:08
  Speaker 1: so sick. He pretended to be disabled, asked me if
• 54:11
  Speaker 1: I wanted these leg braces, he would send me money,
• 54:13
  Speaker 1: he would draw pictures of me, and the whole time
• 54:18
  Speaker 1: he wasn't disabled, cause that's something in their brain. But
• 54:23
  Speaker 1: that's what they want to do. They want to be
• 54:26
  Speaker 1: in chairs. They want to it makes them feel I
• 54:28
  Speaker 1: don't if something, it's the sickness in their Yeah, they're devoted.
• 54:31
  Speaker 1: They devote the show. Yeah that's what that's the next one.
• 54:35
  Speaker 1: But a lot of them are not willing to necessarily
• 54:38
  Speaker 1: come out and be because then it's like exposes there.
• 54:40
  Speaker 1: But they send you money. Yeah, they send you money,
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: They dick ride you to the moon and back, and
• 54:48
  Speaker 1: they literally just want to be you, Like it's not
• 54:50
  Speaker 1: even about fucking you or nothing like that. It's about you.
• 54:53
  Speaker 1: It's a mental health thing. But I had some guy
• 54:56
  Speaker 1: he's into something called casting. So casting is where you
• 54:59
  Speaker 1: literally cast your foot in your leg and he just
• 55:03
  Speaker 1: wants pictures of it, and he's like how long And
• 55:06
  Speaker 1: he was like, oh, I was like, how much you're
• 55:08
  Speaker 1: gonna pay for the casting? Though? He was like, depends
• 55:09
  Speaker 1: on how long you're willing to keep it on, because
• 55:11
  Speaker 1: I guess he wants me to send him the cast
• 55:13
  Speaker 1: after and let him smell it, because you know what,
• 55:15
  Speaker 1: I'm just me thinking like if you take a cast
• 55:17
  Speaker 1: off and shit like that, and I guess he wants
• 55:19
  Speaker 1: me to take it off and let him smell it.
• 55:21
  Speaker 1: But I'm like, I'm not casting my fucking foot. I'll
• 55:24
  Speaker 1: send you feet picks, but I'm not casting my fucking foot.
• 55:26
  Speaker 1: Deckhad Yo.
• 55:27
  Speaker 3: Women bro are so powerful, bro. I mean, obviously this
• 55:30
  Speaker 3: nigga is like wild, you know what I mean. But
• 55:31
  Speaker 3: like that's on an extreme scale, you know what I mean,
• 55:34
  Speaker 3: But on a simple scale, like the way men feel
• 55:36
  Speaker 3: about women and the type of shit that men is
• 55:38
  Speaker 3: willing to do.
• 55:39
  Speaker 2: Hannies should be near a woman, to be around a
• 55:41
  Speaker 2: woman women past I've had.
• 55:43
  Speaker 1: Sugar daddies I've never even fucked, but I just got
• 55:46
  Speaker 1: money from them. They took you on dates, they took
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: me shopping, they took me and my friends out to eat,
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: and they didn't send me and my man's food. So
• 55:54
  Speaker 1: it's like it's like something that's just from a wheelchair.
• 55:57
  Speaker 1: I'm doing this, you know se what I'm saying, like
• 55:59
  Speaker 1: because I got in a chair fifteen, so I am
• 56:00
  Speaker 1: no sugar, nay before that, but from a wheelchair eighteen
• 56:03
  Speaker 1: years old. First one Leon, that was my boy, because
• 56:09
  Speaker 1: Leon got Leon had money, he had, he had all
• 56:13
  Speaker 1: his ship together. You know what I'm saying. We meet
• 56:16
  Speaker 1: in the city because he lives upstate. He got a
• 56:17
  Speaker 1: whole house or whatever. We meet in the city, taking
• 56:20
  Speaker 1: me out. We're going wherever you want. Every time the
• 56:22
  Speaker 1: conversation slowed down when you start talking about the hotel.
• 56:25
  Speaker 2: Hold on, hold on, hold on yet.
• 56:28
  Speaker 1: But then after that, you know, got my last tips
• 56:30
  Speaker 1: on him, and I had to dip. You gotta know
• 56:31
  Speaker 1: when to run, y'all. You gotta know because eventually they're
• 56:34
  Speaker 1: gonna want some sugar. But then I had Hollywood. I
• 56:37
  Speaker 1: don't know if Hollywood still alive, but he.
• 56:38
  Speaker 2: Has definitely an old somebody's grandfather.
• 56:41
  Speaker 1: I don't know if Holly was still alive, but god,
• 56:44
  Speaker 1: I love you, Hollywood, You're still alive. He had a
• 56:50
  Speaker 1: whole mustang. He had a classic must drop time just
• 56:56
  Speaker 1: driving through the hood and I'm young, bad bitch, my grandpa.
• 57:00
  Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, it's not girl. When were sitting there
• 57:01
  Speaker 1: blasting the music, and I just felt like that bitch
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: and I was like, this is after the chair. This
• 57:05
  Speaker 1: is when I was eighteen years old.
• 57:07
  Speaker 2: She was back going down the street.
• 57:08
  Speaker 1: Listen to both of them was eighteen because it was like,
• 57:10
  Speaker 1: you got to keep two sugar adds that, well, yeah,
• 57:12
  Speaker 1: you literally still live your life like this, Chip don't
• 57:15
  Speaker 1: stop ship. It's about who you the fuck?
• 57:17
  Speaker 2: You know? You are down the street listen to about
• 57:21
  Speaker 2: the fetishiz and you what's what's up?
• 57:23
  Speaker 1: He got blond people and then he just can't see
• 57:25
  Speaker 1: them nobody.
• 57:26
  Speaker 2: It's I don't know blonde people.
• 57:28
  Speaker 1: I'm talking about. You got people that want to fuck
• 57:30
  Speaker 1: on you because you are blind. There are there that
• 57:33
  Speaker 1: literally had fetishis for everything said.
• 57:36
  Speaker 2: They just want to feel how feels the find.
• 57:38
  Speaker 1: They want to help you see. They say something like that, I.
• 57:43
  Speaker 2: Like that her pussy is like pond SOI I don't
• 57:45
  Speaker 2: know if y'all remember back in the day, it used
• 57:47
  Speaker 2: to be a commercial when they was in a coma
• 57:49
  Speaker 2: and they smelled the plant said. They jumped up like that,
• 57:53
  Speaker 2: that's crazy smell. She said, hopeful's so good and wake
• 57:57
  Speaker 2: me up. Oh really, but I'm married now. That's before
• 58:01
  Speaker 2: I was married before, that's when I first lost my sight.
• 58:05
  Speaker 2: I ain't like a lot of people fetisize about fucking
• 58:08
  Speaker 2: me because I'm blind.
• 58:09
  Speaker 1: This this is a sick thing.
• 58:11
  Speaker 2: Put the lights off with your man, it's the same thing, but.
• 58:14
  Speaker 1: This is sickness. They just want to think because it's said,
• 58:18
  Speaker 1: be said, to be done.
• 58:19
  Speaker 2: I hold to put it in.
• 58:21
  Speaker 1: I've done a really sick thing. I've done a really thing.
• 58:24
  Speaker 2: You've done a really sick thing.
• 58:25
  Speaker 1: Yeah, I can't. I'll admit it off a camera. I mean,
• 58:28
  Speaker 1: it's real sick, sick.
• 58:30
  Speaker 2: They're like, you know what, hold to put it in?
• 58:31
  Speaker 1: Like what?
• 58:33
  Speaker 2: Like I'm happyeople like you want me to help you
• 58:34
  Speaker 2: put the condom on, And I'm like, wait, what my
• 58:36
  Speaker 2: nigga is dumb doing this.
• 58:40
  Speaker 1: No time?
• 58:41
  Speaker 2: One girl? I'm like, look, you put the kindom on backwards.
• 58:43
  Speaker 2: Get me. I got it.
• 58:45
  Speaker 1: That'd be the same question, like how when people be like, oh, so,
• 58:47
  Speaker 1: how do you have sucks? I'll be like I just
• 58:51
  Speaker 1: lay there and get fine. That's what I do. No bitch,
• 58:55
  Speaker 1: like what the fuck? Yeah no, I ain't never gave
• 58:57
  Speaker 1: that whole But at the end of the day, as
• 58:58
  Speaker 1: long as I ain't fucking you, how would you ever know?
• 59:01
  Speaker 2: I don't have girls ride me like, do I hurt is?
• 59:03
  Speaker 2: I'm hurting you? I'm hurt yo.
• 59:05
  Speaker 1: I hate yo. I hate yo. This is back in
• 59:09
  Speaker 1: the past, but I hated when somebody asked me, Like
• 59:12
  Speaker 1: even my husband our first time, he's like, you, okay,
• 59:16
  Speaker 1: I don't want.
• 59:17
  Speaker 2: To hurt you. I'm paralyzed. That's matt valid though I was.
• 59:21
  Speaker 2: That's the same ship.
• 59:22
  Speaker 1: But it's like, yo, like what would you hurt that?
• 59:25
  Speaker 2: We don't know? That's why we're asking, Like, I don't,
• 59:27
  Speaker 2: so what would you hurt on me? Why you keep
• 59:29
  Speaker 2: that I don't understand. I don't.
• 59:31
  Speaker 1: I don't know what hurt you unless they poke you
• 59:32
  Speaker 1: in your eyes.
• 59:34
  Speaker 2: All nigga, you built like a tank.
• 59:36
  Speaker 1: What you think like it's the fragility of it because
• 59:38
  Speaker 1: I already got shot and broke my back or something.
• 59:40
  Speaker 3: Nigga's already gonna be like that with a woman anyway.
• 59:43
  Speaker 3: So then it's like he's like, well, what can you
• 59:45
  Speaker 3: feel like? Does that ship hurt?
• 59:46
  Speaker 1: Like he's kissing me on my head? He's like, I
• 59:48
  Speaker 1: don't want to hurt you.
• 59:48
  Speaker 2: Are you hell? Yeah?
• 59:49
  Speaker 1: I'm like, boy, we don't put that yeah overize me.
• 59:57
  Speaker 1: But stay tuned, guys. Is the hot summer. We're gonna
• 1:00:02
  Speaker 1: keep it hot for your own stability, pride and happy
• 1:00:06
  Speaker 1: birthday to see no his.
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 2: Wife birthday, Happy birthday, baby saying happy birthday being rare.
• 1:00:13
  Speaker 1: So wait, why you aint telling abody about your mama cookout?
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 2: Huh?
• 1:00:16
  Speaker 1: Why don't mean to nobody about your mama cookouts?
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 2: She just told me I want to pull up, Well,
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 2: bring the wheels, wheelchair accessible.
• 1:00:22
  Speaker 1: The it's wilchair accessible. But it's hot as fuck, y'all.
• 1:00:26
  Speaker 2: That's not I we got here. We got here.
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 1: That might bro happy? Is that not Josh with the
• 1:00:34
  Speaker 1: host