“I Was Suic!dal Every Sunday” | Neva on Alcoholism, Blackouts & Choosing Sobriety

Nothing’s Off the Table with Louis Ruggiero · Jan 27, 2026 · 47m

“I wasn’t drinking for fun anymore — I was drinking to escape myself.” In this raw and brutally honest episode of Nothing’s Off the Table, Neva Coleman shares her unfiltered journey through alcoholism, blackout drinking, suicidal ideation, and the moment she realized alcohol was no longer optional — it was killing her. From growing up in a loving home in New Jersey, to losing her father on 9/11, to spiraling through college drinking culture, Neva opens up about the mental obsession that controlled her life, the Sundays filled with panic and despair, and the night she called the suicide…