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Random Heathen Ramblings: S3, EP42 - Setting The Record Straight · Random Heathen Ramblings

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Hello everyone. Good afternoon.
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Good evening. Good morning, good day.
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So, this one's going to be a bit of a different one. because I
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was, I was this close. To not even putting a podcast
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out this week. For a number of reasons. but,
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That is neither here nor there. This this podcast is, is going
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to be a sort of Response to some things that have been going on.
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Mostly online. Well, 100% online.
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Really, with some, some Even if you want to call them.
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accusations, or Speculations. About something.
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But, um, I don't know, this is this is this is honestly and I'm
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just going to be straight up front with everybody listening
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and watching today. This is I did not want to do
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this. This goes against everything
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that I want to do. But I feel that I have some
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degree at least some sort of obligation. that may be a very
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strong term to use for what I'm talking about today.
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But I have a responsibility to address things in a public
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sector and in the public forum because in addition to being a
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pagan in addition, to being heathen, In addition to serving.
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My Heathen community. And the role of Chieftain.
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I have also a responsibility as a content creator too.
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Address the elephant in the room when it's the most unpleasant,
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even when I don't feel like it, you know.
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So it wouldn't be fair to my audience wouldn't be fair to You
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know, people who have decided to engage with with my platform.
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It wouldn't be fair to all of you regardless of how you
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support or listen or capture, what I'm releasing the content
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that I'm releasing. You would be unfair to all of
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you. If I were to just, you know,
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remain silent. so, You know, I'm here doing what I don't want to
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do. but doing what I have to do, and what we're going to be
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talking about on this podcast today or I should say, I should
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be what I'm going to be addressing on this podcast today
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are some Again, Alan allegations speculations things that, that
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just, you know, came up very recently from another Heathen
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group here in the Tennessee State and in the Middle,
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Tennessee are specifically Nashville.
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So there's going to be a link in the description and show notes
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of this podcast to a post that I made on the midgard musings
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Facebook page. If you're not on Facebook, then
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I don't know. I guess you'll just have to take
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what I say, that's my word because I'm going to be
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reciting, some things that are written on that post.
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But I'm not going to be deleting this post.
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I'm going to be leaving things up because I want everybody
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who's already been engaged on this post and people who are
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going to be engaged in the future, on this post to be able
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to see what it is that I am talking about.
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I'm not going to be sharing any visuals on.
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Because I want people to go and see it for themselves.
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I don't want things to be misconstrued through digital
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platforms of abilities or inabilities to, I don't know,
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share stuff, but the post in question was posted earlier this
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week. because it was, and it was a screenshot of someone and I in
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I'm probably jumping ahead of myself here.
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Let me back up. Let me back up and let me
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preface everything that I'm about to say.
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With a disclaimer of sorts, okay?
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I understand that being a content creator, being a heathen
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content creator carries with it, a degree of responsibility and a
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degree of, you know, you are. You are responsible For being
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very clear and transparency is important.
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So that people when they absorb your content, when they when
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they see what you're saying, or hear what you're saying and see
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what you're doing, that they know where it is that you're
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coming from, and I've always prided myself and being very
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transparent. I've always prided myself in the
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last five years Or more. Of being on YouTube and being on
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Facebook and being on different platforms of creating content of
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sharing my thoughts, I've always prided myself and being
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transparent. And that I have always stated in
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dozens If not hundreds at this point of previous videos that I
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that my points of view that my thoughts, that my things that
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I'm talking about are the thoughts and the name of the
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divisions, the the perceptions, the ideas of just me.
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Okay, I do not come out here on this platform wherever it is.
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You're absorbing this 10 from whether it's audio, whether it's
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visual, whether it's wherever it is that you're capturing this, I
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do not come out on this platform or on these platforms to try and
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persuade people to think a certain way.
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To follow a certain belief, to think the weight that I think,
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if anything I encourage people to think for themselves to
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perhaps hear what I say. And use what I say to be a
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source of inspiration to research things for themselves
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and to find your own answers clearly.
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I have not said enough. At least not recently because
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there has been a grave misunderstanding.
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With with, with some things recently, as it pertains to the
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content that I create. So first and foremost, I do want
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to say that as I've said in multiple like I say dozens if
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not hundreds of videos before that, I am not what I would
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refer to myself as a hardcore. Reconstructionist Heathen, I am
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not a hardcore Recon, I hold in very high regard and very high
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value. The historical archaeological,
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you know, Source material things that exist from Eons centuries
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bygone. Right?
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Things that have made its way down through the Millennia.
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To reach our modern ears and eyes.
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I value those things because I feel like it gives us a baseline
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to work off of. But I do not reside in the past,
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I do not live in the past as as great as those times may have
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been and as valuable as the information and as the knowledge
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and as the material that we have, from those arrows, are, I
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do not reside in the past, I live in the present.
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And I live in the present to work for the future and I do not
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want to see us regress as a species as a society.
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As a as heathens as pagans, I do not want to see us regress into
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Old. Habits old things I understand.
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And I place a very high value on tradition, but as I have said,
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countless times before, tradition is not the worship of
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Ashes. It is the preservation of Fire
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and Fire consumes. Fire Burns.
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Fire ignites fire illuminates. Fire.
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Inspires fire fuels. Fire gives the necessary.
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Component. To progress and we have to be
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Progressive. That is one thing that I want to
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say is I believe in progression, I believe in being Progressive.
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Which includes a lot of things now here in modern times,
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especially as modern heathens, because the world that we live
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in the world that we as humans live in is such a different
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world than what, our ancient ancestors, ancient heathens
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Elder heathens Archie then's, whatever term you want to put to
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it. It's such a different world now.
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Than what it was back then, or at least to the degree that
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things are differently, defined and identified now than they
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were back then. And in many ways that is good
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because again progression, right growth.
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We're not we're not staying stagnant, we're not we're not
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living in, we're not becoming so rootbound that we can't grow.
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but one of the things that I absolutely abhor about modern
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times is this You know, and it's ironic to say that I abhor
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because I'm a part of it. I am a part of this.
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Social media. Thing.
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You know where people are absorbing their information,
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they are collecting their knowledge, they are gathering
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information through social media content, whether it's YouTube,
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whether it's Facebook, reels, Instagram Rios, take talk, okay.
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And one of the scourges of that whole thing, the whole social
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media thing is that what has become king, what has become
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dominant? In that whole arena is short
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form content, short form, content is King, alright?
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If you are a content creator to any degree, I don't care what
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your Niche is. You have to stay up on things
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too, otherwise you get buried in and lost in the progression of
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this social media machine. The algorithm is constantly
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changing. What worked yesterday doesn't
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work today? What work two hours ago doesn't
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work? Now, it's ridiculous.
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It's quite maddening, to be honest with you.
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And as someone As an individual, as me as one person, as one
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Heathen, who is on social media. I can tell you that it is
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exhausting. It is tiring.
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It is ridiculous. It is, it is quite literally
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maddening. To try to keep up with it all.
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And I'm speaking from my perspective, I'm speaking from
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my approach to Heathen, right? Because at the end of the day,
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this whole social media thing, if YouTube shuts down if
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Facebook shuts down Instagram and all that shuts down, I am
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fine. I don't care.
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I don't care about. Out all of that.
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But while it is up and running, while while things are still
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going on, right? I'm trying the best that I can
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to stay relevant trying, the best that I can to stay in the
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Stream of all of the minutiae. And doing so.
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In a way that is wholesome, that is holistic.
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That is beneficial. For the Greater Community, the
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world. I am speaking to people from all
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walks of life from all points of the globe from all areas of
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midgard, right? But at the end of the day, when
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I stop looking at my phone, when I stop looking at my screen,
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when I stopped going into the digital realm, I'm fine as a
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pagan, I'm fine as a heathen because I have lived, I continue
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to live, I continue to breathe, I continue to do things that
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reflect my Heathen re My belief. Because that's what religion is
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a religion to believe in something.
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I don't care what you believe in people.
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I don't care whether it's Celtic paganism.
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I don't care if it's Germanic paganism.
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I don't care if it's Hellenic, I don't care if it's italic, I
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don't care if it's Slavic. I don't care if you're a
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Christian Hindu booze Buddhist Muslim, I don't care.
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Whatever it is that you believe in, Whatever your religion is
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whatever your, you know, folk way, I don't, you know, whatever
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term you want to put to it is if you believe in something, then
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you should the word believe be alive.
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Live it. Breathe it.
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Walk it speak it. Do it.
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Hail the doers. Be alive in it.
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And that is what I am at the end of the day.
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At the end of the day, I am alive in this.
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I don't post my content. I don't share parts of my life
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with you all. For my own satisfaction, from
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for my own gratification, I share it because it means
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something to me and I hope that it's an inspiration for you to
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find, meaning and purpose. whether you're a brand new
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Heathen, whether you're a brand new anything, stumble across my
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content, wherever you find it, I hope that it inspires and it
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Sparks something in you to find purpose and to be alive in what
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you adhere to. even if you don't want to hear it to anything,
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even if you're atheist or agnostic, even if you just don't
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know, maybe you see somebody, whether it's me, whether it's
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whoever doing something, being something, living something and
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it Sparks an interest, it it gives you some sort of reason to
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explore further investigate. So that's a big disclaimer,
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right? It's a big disclaimer in a way
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and it's a long drawn-out thing. But the post that I I'm
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referring to the in this all goes back to some recent content
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that I posted short form content, right?
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Short form content. Like I mentioned before is King.
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People just don't want to sit down and listen to a
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presentation. They don't want to hear a long
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form content and I'm not saying everybody is this way, but I'm
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saying, most people, if you're trying to engage noise and
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trying to capture and I can see if you're trying to bring in
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people, To learn more about things, you have to be engaging.
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Within the first 3 seconds people Three seconds.
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Do you understand that? I fart longer than three
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seconds? Sometimes I take a piss that's
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longer than three seconds. How ridiculous have we as a
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society, have we, as a species become that it takes us three
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seconds to make a determination of whether we like something or
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not. How shallow Have We Become?
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As a species. That it takes literally three
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seconds for us to the time to determine whether we like it or
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not and that we don't worry you know whether we're going to
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scroll away. Find something else.
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More interesting or not. It's pathetic, it's pitiful.
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And it's the one thing that I absolutely abhor into test about
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us as a species that we have become so shallow.
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We had become so desensitized stimulating things.
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That a person, another living breathing, being has to try to
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find a way. to capture the attention of another living
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breathing being With in as much time as it takes two.
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Belch. Burp, blink.
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It's ridiculous. It's abhorrent.
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I hate it. So again, it's ironic that I'm
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out here doing this sort of stuff because I hate it so much
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but I you know what here I am. Here, I am doing it for however,
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long much longer. I don't know, but the sort the
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short-form content that I'm referring to that has recently
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caught attention. Is, is my content regarding the
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nine Noble virtues, right? And I made a post on Facebook
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saying that there was a group, a certain, a certain group, Of
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Nashville heathens. I didn't say anybody specific.
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I didn't name a group. I didn't a group.
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I didn't say anything specific to call anybody out.
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I said, a certain group of Nashville heathens blindly
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removed me from their group, right?
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May seem like, oh, it's a big deal.
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I'm so mad about it, guess what? I'm not.
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Why am I not mad about it because of the sing?
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It's because of the things that I just said, was in the last,
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you know, 15 minutes of me, word, vomiting, everything out
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that. I just, that I just said at the
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end of the day, all of this could come crashing down,
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midgard, musings, Middle, Tennessee, heathens, Facebook
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page, all of it could come crashing down and I could give
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two shits less. And that is the, that is the
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honest truth. Because I'm living it here.
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I'm living it with people who I actually.
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Value as my family, as my kin. I don't need the social media to
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experience that all of this other stuff its trappings its
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bells and whistles, it's fun, it's exciting.
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I it, you know, it's engaging, there's opportunity here,
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there's all of that but at the end of the day, if it were to
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just get all shut off, if the switch got flipped and we're
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done with it all. Jesse over here is going to be
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just fine with it and I hope you all are too.
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Don't invest so much into this social media charade.
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That you lose sight of the Grassroots.
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Importance. Okay, the Grassroots necessity.
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Of developing building nurturing.
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Your own communities. so anyway, the post is going to be linked
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in the description and show notes of this podcast.
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Please check it out on Facebook. The response from someone.
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And again, I'm not going to go into the names.
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I'm not going to describe. I'm not going to name names
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because it's all here. It's all out here.
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I'm not deleting anything and that removing you think?
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I'm not editing anything. I'm responding.
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To a very well presented reply to a post that I made which has
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before you before my before your slander campaign gets any more
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engagement. First and foremost, let me just
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say this was not ever. A slander campaign.
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I know I said things in my post that said, This is, you know, a
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screenshot of what somebody said, no names were shared it
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was redacted. Nothing was revealed as far as
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who said it. But I said this is all that I
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will share for now and there will be much more to come soon.
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So stay tuned. Never once at any point in time,
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Was this intended to be a slander campaign and it hurts my
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heart? In more ways than one.
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That I am here talking about this because like I mentioned at
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the beginning of this, I did not want to do this.
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I fought myself to sit here in front of this camera and talk to
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people about all of this, but I felt that I had a responsibility
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to do so. So this was never In any sense
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of the word meant to be a slander campaign.
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So anyway, this person calls himself out as being the
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facilitator of the Nashville heathens group.
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In question, there is a Nashville heathens group.
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On Facebook. Okay.
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The purpose of this group was started to be a friendly place
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or a sorry, safe place. Don't want to misconstrue word a
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safe place for all heathens to come.
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That includes, lgbtq bi POC and others, wonderful, glad to hear
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it. This is what Middle Tennessee
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heathens is about is to be a safe place for Everyone of all
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walks of life, regardless of your race gender.
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Identification sexuality, any of that, sort of thing, there is
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nobody in my inner circle tribe. That has bad things to say or as
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negative things to say about those that are lgbtq by POC.
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Whatever. Matter of fact myself included
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everyone, my wife, everyone in our Inner Circle, have dear
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friends, family, members loved ones, who fall under these
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categories. So Middle, Tennessee, heathens,
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and midgard, musings as a whole Has always been.
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And will always be. A place for Folk.
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To feel, welcome to feel loved to feel accepted regardless of
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your race, gender, identification sexual
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identification or anything else. It is.
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None of our places. Okay.
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It is none of our places. To question any of these sorts
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of things or to Define any sorts of things.
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All right? So let's just get that out of
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the way. They create this group.
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After being, here for x amount of years, they weren't happy
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with the other communities. So you make your own thing Ivan.
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I have said this multiple way multiple times in multiple ways,
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is that if you can't find something to be a part of the
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make something, to be a part of, if you can't find a way, then
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make a way, right? If you can't adhere or Or, or,
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or connect yourself with a group or some or something than make
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your own. Bravo.
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Right. Good that you've done this.
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You made your own way. If you build it, they will come
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as referenced here. Right.
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It's a Field of Dreams quote, but it's also, there's more
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truth to poetry. There is more truth than poetry
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to that statement. If you build it, they will come.
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I firmly believe that. I have advocated for that.
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Others have advocated for that if you can't find a way than
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make one and you have done this and that's good on you.
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The main priority is helping people understand where
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information and Heathen beliefs come from, so they can make
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informed decisions about their craft free from fascist
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rhetoric. Alright, so here's where it gets
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into. The whole thing about, I guess
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the nnv, I posted this because I was advised a month after the
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fact that I was potentially being spoken about.
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Behind my back. Behind my digital back.
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I guess you could say, I don't know.
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But so I made this post and I was like, wow, you know, I these
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people I actually met these people I've sat and I've had
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meals or sorry, a meal with these people who are part of
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this group, had what I thought to be meaningful conversation,
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thought them to be worth the time to be, you know?
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Friends with and build a community with and all that, you
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know? So I get told that, you know,
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I'm no longer in this group by a friend, by not just a friend,
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but a brother of mine. Okay.
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So, someone who is entrusted to me and who is kin to me, said,
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hey, by the way, did you know, I said, no, I didn't, you know,
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and that's what kind of sparked this whole thing.
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So then again, I get to the reasons why why I was removed.
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Number one, there is a quote unquote, self-promotion day of
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the week Rule and I broke this several times by sharing my
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content. Too frequently.
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And I will just say that in in in response to this, I will
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accept ownership of that. I also will say that myself as
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well as probably everybody else when they join groups agree, to
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group rules and neglect to actually Analyze the group rules
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and so there are people going to make mistakes.
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You know what I mean? People are going to Break the
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rules. And if anybody out here on
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social media moderates, or a administrates, a public group,
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or private group of any sort, you are absolutely entitled to
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enforce the rules of your group, to whatever degree that you see
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fit. That is your virtual Hall and it
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is, Therefore your call, right? I just would like to say that it
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was not my intention. To knowingly breach group rules.
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It was not a nefarious attempt on my part to try to overshare
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or gain new followers or anything like that.
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I was simply trying to spread the word, you know, like I do
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and so many others and it has this particular thing has caused
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me to re-evaluate my Approach on that sort of thing now.
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So I do accept ownership of that and I will not say That I was.
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And I will say, I should say that I was remiss in not
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following closely or being more in adherence to those rules.
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So, I will definitely accept ownership of that.
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And for that, I apologize. In regards to the Envy or the
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900 virtues videos that I have shared someone already commented
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on this thread. That, that short form is not the
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way to go. I am sorry for the noise.
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I am becoming more and more aware that my approach to
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sharing this form of content in the way that I was trying to do.
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So in short form content was and has you know, kind of backfired
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I approach this in a way that, hey, you know, this is there is
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enough information that I can blurb it out in a one minute
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long, real or one minute. Long short, you know, that will
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at least give people Thing to think about something that you
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want. To their point.
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Did you know that it only takes 3 seconds for someone to decide
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to watch or not? I absolutely do.
32:05
I'm a content creator. I know that it takes three
32:08
seconds. I already alluded to this before
32:10
and I think how stupid and ridiculous that is.
32:13
But yeah, that is that is a horrible.
32:15
It's detestable. I think that us as a species in
32:18
us as a, as a, as a society have regressed into it as a just
32:26
detestable state that it takes literally the amount of Time for
32:30
me to expel bodily. Fluids are gas.
32:36
All right, takes the same amount of time to do that as it as it
32:39
does for us to decide whether we're interested in content or
32:42
not. That's ridiculous.
32:43
That's, that's shame on us. All right, so imagine how a
32:47
younger or newer heating would be seeing that and then being so
32:51
confused, so into the enemy were founded by Nazis.
32:57
Once again. I have posted long-form content,
33:02
that is now four years old with over 1,000 views, and short form
33:07
content, that clearly and explicitly States.
33:10
My views on what the Envy or any sort of codified. a tent to
33:17
codify Heathen re is all right. The NN V 9, Noble virtues were
33:27
codified by the English of zdenek, right?
33:30
A fascist organization. which I absolutely abhor.
33:38
Okay, for the record midgard, musings, myself, has signed
33:45
declaration 127. I've also signed a declaration
33:48
of Deeds, just to be safe. Just to make sure that people
33:51
know that if they see midgard musings names on any sort of
33:54
these things that they know where I stand on things.
33:59
This is been ongoing for probably decades now and is
34:03
probably going to be ongoing for four decades more.
34:06
It's tiresome it's it's the fact that we have to keep repeating
34:09
the same stories over and over again is burdensome, but I
34:14
understand why we have to keep doing it.
34:17
It just sucks. Fuck Nazis.
34:22
There's my F-bomb for the episode.
34:24
I usually keep this family-friendly.
34:26
I try not to drop. Harsh profanity.
34:31
This video. Probably get the monetize.
34:33
I don't care. Fuck Nazis.
34:36
There you go. Yeah, because it does it doesn't
34:39
matter if your intention was set in the first video, because no
34:41
one's going to go back to watch that.
34:43
Well, who's that on? No is going to go back to
34:45
actually research the content creator nobody's going to know.
34:50
So you're telling me that somebody's going to take 3
34:52
seconds. Draw an opinion, listen to a 1
34:55
minute long blurb about something and then draw their
34:57
conclusions based off of that. Instead of going and furthering
35:00
researching the rest of it all shame on them is what I say.
35:05
Say because I put it out there. I've said it, if you're not
35:09
finding it, if you're not looking for it, then shame on
35:11
you for not having to having done.
35:12
So, Number three. Other members of our group do
35:19
not feel safe with me. Look.
35:26
That that that that's a low blow.
35:29
All right. And I don't want to be liked by
35:30
everybody, I don't have to be liked by everybody.
35:33
I approached this in my professional sector as well.
35:36
My job is to not Delight. My job is to do, whatever.
35:39
My job is to do and I expect that I will not be liked by
35:44
everybody. Help.
35:46
My wife doesn't even like me half the time but she loves me,
35:49
right? So, To the response or my
35:53
response that other members of the group, do not feel safe with
35:58
me. I've only met to my knowledge.
36:01
Three members of that group. Okay, three maybe four members
36:07
of that group one time. People integrate with other
36:18
online, Facebook groups, right? So again I don't know if I've
36:21
met more But the fact that they don't feel safe with me, okay,
36:30
it's different to not like somebody then to not feel safe
36:33
with them. I don't like a lot of things or
36:37
like a lot of people, but the safety thing is, is what really
36:44
Kind of strikes, a nerve with me.
36:48
I've been entrusted with a lot and I've given my trust to
36:53
others and we have shared in that reciprocation of trust in
36:58
ways that transcend online and social media interactions. so my
37:06
response to, that would be, then if you don't feel safe, then
37:12
We're just not the type of people that are meant to mesh.
37:17
Plain, and simple. And that's okay.
37:19
It's okay to not get along with everybody and that's okay to not
37:23
like certain people. But the whole safety thing, I
37:29
understand that you removed me from the group to look out for
37:32
the best interest of your members and to make them feel
37:37
safe. I respect that and I have no
37:42
more else, you know, to say on that on that topic.
37:47
There's there's mention of the cloak of anonymity and being
37:50
cowardly. Listen.
37:55
And there's there's there's a common sense when we're digital
37:58
boundaries cowardly. I know where I was coming from
38:03
when I said that. And I was coming from a
38:07
perspective of well your rule said that if you're going to ban
38:11
somebody, you're going to talk to them first and then I get
38:13
band, Blind blindly band. From a group in, and then have
38:20
mention of me, you know, talked about in other places and I was
38:26
like, that, that seems kind of cowardly.
38:28
Like, you wouldn't come to me and talk to me about this first,
38:30
or at least address your concerns to me, first and
38:33
foremost. Because, guess what?
38:35
Maybe I missed something. Maybe I overlooked again the
38:37
rules. Maybe I was just like, oh cool.
38:39
I'm in this group, there's other natural Heaton's.
38:40
I met these people before we share a common thing, right?
38:44
My bad, I overlooked the rules. I, I misread or I or I didn't
38:48
even acknowledge them and in the way that I should have and I
38:51
took ownership of that already. I would have been fine to just
38:56
talk it through and, and address it that way.
39:01
But again your group your haul, your virtual haul your call, and
39:05
you do what you deem best for the safety and benefit of the
39:10
people who you are closest to. And I have no qualms with that.
39:19
My content was was flooding your feed.
39:21
It's not their cup of tea and I was blocked.
39:25
And I was not going to be allowed to disrupt the person's
39:28
mental health, because I'm mad that I got deleted.
39:32
I'm not mad. Okay, I'm not mad.
39:34
I was, I, I said what I said in a reaction as a way of like,
39:39
what, the what the f, you know what I mean?
39:41
Like I was like, why I thought we were cool like at least on
39:44
the surface I thought things were.
39:46
Okay, I thought we met we talked, we seemed to get along
39:51
this came as a shock and I reacted as such and I regret the
39:56
way they're reacted, but I'm not mad about it.
40:03
I'm definitely not mad about it because as I mentioned earlier
40:05
in the episode, if everything were to just crash and burn
40:08
right now, I'm cool. I'm good, I'm Gucci.
40:15
I am not most upset about it. Trying to slander a small.
40:19
Local group guys. I this is the furthest thing
40:23
that I've ever been a part of All right, anybody that's
40:28
followed midgard, musings. Anyone that's been in my friend,
40:33
For any length of time, knows. That slander that getting into
40:40
the drama of online. Bickering is the last thing the
40:46
absolute last thing. And if it's the last thing, then
40:48
it's the last last thing that I ever want to be a part of.
40:52
I purposely didn't even include names or mention of people.
40:57
In my post I just said, hey this is this is whack man.
41:01
Like it again, it if I had to go back, if I hit, you know, I've
41:05
had to go back and do anything. Again, this wouldn't be it.
41:08
Because clearly things have gotten blown into a proportion
41:10
that I'm having to, you know, address in a way, but trying to
41:18
slander a small group has. I don't want to slander, anybody
41:20
I want you guys to be productive and Progressive in the ways that
41:27
suit you guys. And if Middle Tennessee,
41:29
heathens of midgard, musings of my stuff is not it fine.
41:35
Fine. Then it's your thing then and
41:38
you figure it out again, find a way or make one, you know, it's
41:43
not an ego fit. I can I can assure everybody
41:46
there. There's mention of that I was
41:48
having an ego fit about not being able to promote my post.
41:51
Let's listen here land. Let's just get real.
41:54
If I, if my post don't reach fifty-some-odd people in
41:57
Nashville. Again if that was even anything
42:01
that I cared about if it was analytically driven which it's
42:04
not that ain't it bro. Like that ain't it?
42:09
I mean come on i-i'm sorry but that's an ego fit because I
42:16
can't share information to a group of fifty-some-odd people.
42:20
I'm sorry but that's no, no. Again, like they say if you know
42:28
if people want to find my content, it's all out here.
42:32
You hear about it in the every intro of my podcast, Facebook,
42:35
Twitter, Instagram, YouTube, you know, your sister's ass Google.
42:40
I don't know wherever just anywhere like you Google midgard
42:44
musings, you're going to find something somewhere about me.
42:46
All right, I was just trying to share people things to people
42:51
who are in my respective area geographically again without
42:55
intentionally trying to infringe.
42:57
JH on or break rules of groups again my apologies for doing so
43:03
that was an oversight and I take ownership of that.
43:07
Next question. Why didn't I reach out?
43:11
About about being kicked. Or why wasn't I reached out to
43:16
about being kicked? Because they knew that I would
43:22
try to use what little traction. I had to make them look like the
43:27
bad guys. Anyway, I am sorry that.
43:30
You feel that way? I am very sorry that you feel
43:33
that way because that is absolutely not.
43:36
My intention. Never has been my intention.
43:38
Never would have been my intention.
43:40
That is very assumptive. I talk this way as I would face
43:46
to face. So if you're watching this right
43:48
now, Let it be known that. Had you come to me?
43:54
Had you spoken to me, openly speak of transparency that I
43:58
would have listened to what you have would have had to say,
44:04
adjusted my approach to be more in line with the Rules of
44:09
Engagement of your respective group.
44:13
Again, I made a mistake took ownership of it.
44:17
I would have been happy and glad to Approached, as an adult.
44:23
About it. There would have been no.
44:27
Efforts. No.
44:28
Interest on my part to make people look bad.
44:35
Again, anybody that's been following me for any length of
44:39
time, friends, family, support or subscribers.
44:43
Whatever you are, whoever you are.
44:45
This isn't me. That's not me.
44:47
I'm not trying to bash people out here unless you're like
44:50
literally trying to, you know, promote hate speech and all this
44:53
other kind of racist BS. I'll call you out on that, but
44:58
I'm not about trying to make you out to be the bad guy just
45:02
because I'm mad about you. Banning me from your group.
45:06
Come on, guys. I mean, look, I'm not in high
45:08
school anymore. I'm almost 40 years old, I can
45:10
be approached, like an adult, you know?
45:17
There's mention of my wife getting involved in that.
45:20
I had some sort of sway in that. Listen, my wife is very
45:24
protective over myself and over the very, very small Inner
45:32
Circle tribe that she is a part of our friends included.
45:36
So when things get seen that seem to be or perceived to be at
45:42
least on the surface as an attack.
45:45
Or as any sort of Nefarious degradation, or anything like
45:48
that again, whatever the intent was, whatever the drive behind,
45:52
it was what it was perceived, as there's a lot to learn here.
45:55
Okay, and rest assured, there's there's efforts being made on my
46:00
end to help, clear up and better understand.
46:06
How people feel how people react?
46:09
Because the last thing that I want to be done is myself or any
46:13
of the people who I have within my inner circle tribe to be
46:18
misunderstood and have their reputations be tarnished because
46:23
as heathens our reputation is Paramount and our reputations
46:26
are everything. And so this is again.
46:29
One of the reasons why I'm here is to Defend in a way my
46:36
reputation and to take ownership and acknowledgement of where
46:42
things could have been done differently and handled better.
46:47
Where we shouldn't have said, certain things where we should
46:49
have done certain things. Right.
46:51
It's a declaration of ownership, its declaration there's
46:54
transparency here. First of all I never sent my
46:58
wife in to do anything that was 100% her initiative to defend.
47:08
The man that she loves right and it was done out of the purest of
47:12
intentions. I'm not going to go into detail
47:17
about things but just rest assured that there's a lot to be
47:21
learned from here. There's a lot of opportunity
47:23
that was identified here. They do indicate that, you know,
47:31
we met at a pagan meeting. Yeah.
47:33
A middle Tennessee. Heathens meeting that I
47:35
organized 20, some odd people showed up Came with new things
47:42
to share. It came with what we learned
47:43
from our mentor. Who wrote 30 books on rooms and
47:48
is asked and it Scandinavian native whose tutelage links back
47:53
to story. That's great.
47:55
Glad that that person has that sort of lineage to be able to
47:57
draw from. I personally don't I have my my
48:02
experience my my learnings and I can't say that I have, you know,
48:06
Scandinavian ancestry that in learnings that, you know, date
48:11
back to, you know, 1000 ad but great.
48:16
The flex I guess. I don't know.
48:19
You came excited to meet people. I was excited to have people.
48:22
Come, that's what Middle. Tennessee.
48:24
Heathens is about. That's what meetups are about is
48:26
networking, right? All we got were weird vibes from
48:35
you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for that.
48:40
I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry because
48:43
I've hung out with people more than just the two hours that it
48:47
took to share a meal more than it took for us to just talk more
48:52
than it took for us to just hang out.
48:54
You gotta understand guys, one meet up, one Park moot, one, Pub
49:00
moot one, Whatever It Is, It goes back to the whole
49:05
short-form content thing if that's going to be the thing
49:07
that you draw your conclusions on.
49:15
I mean first impressions are lasting ones.
49:18
I get that. I totally understand that.
49:20
And you know a lot of times those first impressions are the
49:28
foundation that which you know, we base our future engagements
49:32
on people with. So I don't I don't want to say
49:38
that, you know, your first impressions were things that you
49:40
should have Shrugged off. But I am sorry.
49:45
I'm sorry that you got weird Vibes for me.
49:47
I don't know what that means. I am weird.
49:51
You're weird. We're all weird.
49:55
The world is weird. We've got to be weird to be in
49:58
this world, guys. Eliza little bit.
50:03
So I don't know what weird Vibes you're talking about but
50:07
apparently they were Vibes that made other people not feel safe.
50:15
Is what it is, right? I don't know how to respond to
50:18
that, then. I'm sorry that you felt that
50:20
way. I again, I've spent much longer
50:24
periods of time with other people and have develop
50:27
relationships of kinship and bonds of kinship with people
50:31
because of spending more time with them.
50:36
And again, you know, you don't have to all get along.
50:38
We don't have to all like each other.
50:40
We don't have to all be part of each other groups.
50:43
Maybe this is just a clear example of that.
50:49
The fact this is all happening while different Pagan creators
50:54
are hosting a, you'll market, and you are not a part of.
50:56
It is really telling I'm busy. I've got other things going on,
51:03
and I ain't got time for your, you'll Market.
51:07
Congratulations. Have a great time.
51:10
I hope it all really goes, well, but I ain't got time for it.
51:13
And it's not, I don't know what what is telling of it.
51:17
I've got other things going on. I got, I got a wedding.
51:20
I have to officiate next month or two in two months.
51:23
I've got my own tribes, you'll thing.
51:26
I've got a new member to wear thin.
51:28
I've got all other kinds of things going on.
51:31
It's nothing personal, but it ain't telling it's telling
51:35
because you don't know the details about things behind the
51:37
scenes just like, I don't know details about things behind the
51:41
scenes with all of you. That's okay, that's cool.
51:47
I don't know what that means as far as this is really telling
51:50
that you're big and content creator and you're not part of
51:52
the you'll Market. Yeah, I got other things going
51:54
on. That are more important in my
51:56
inner circle tribe. So, There you go.
52:02
As I mentioned before, right? Because as you see, people
52:07
aren't always going to Vibe with or agree with in like you and
52:09
that's life. 100% agreed. That is life.
52:15
Right. There's a paragraph there.
52:22
You guys can read it. I hope you choose to use your
52:25
energy to make a different video and continue building your own
52:28
Community, rather than make this a further pissing contest.
52:32
As I mentioned earlier, in this video, this is not in any sort
52:36
of way. Never has been a way to be a
52:39
slander campaign. This isn't a pissing contest.
52:42
I don't care. How big your Heathen cock is,
52:48
All right, and I'm getting visceral.
52:49
I'm getting a bit, you know, R-rated maybe with some of the
52:55
things that I'm saying. But guys, look, I don't again,
52:58
at the end of the day, if all of this crash down, if my podcast
53:01
never made another episode after today, I don't care.
53:07
I don't care. You want to know why?
53:11
I don't care. It's because I've established
53:14
relationships with people at the Grassroots level, I have lived,
53:18
a life, and I continue to live a life.
53:23
That reflects my Heathen re with people that share the same or
53:27
similar, not the exact same because I don't want people to
53:30
think the same way as I do. That share similar values that
53:33
share similar worldviews, that want to accomplish similar
53:37
things that align with me. Well, enough that align with
53:40
each other. Well, enough, that we're able to
53:42
coexist. Holistically.
53:48
I talked about this in the last week's podcast about the Fire on
53:51
the Mountain in North Carolina. That shit doesn't happen just by
53:58
having conversations on Facebook on YouTube on Twitter, Instagram
54:04
Google+ your sister's ass wherever, it doesn't happen.
54:07
That way, it happens by real-time existing with people
54:11
real time, living with people, making the effort Going the
54:15
Distance. Doing the thing.
54:23
That's where my Heathen relies. My Heathen realize at the grass,
54:28
roots in the grass, roots in the earth that I connect to daily
54:34
with my feet. It exists in the river.
54:40
That I live nearby and walk in all the time.
54:46
It exists in the air that I breathe that I require to live
54:51
physically. It exists in the fire that
54:55
inspires that ignites that burns that consumes.
55:01
That illuminates. You know, it exists in the water
55:07
that cleanses it exists in the the Earth that grounds, it
55:13
exists all around me and into the, and to the degree that none
55:17
of this. After I talk about this today,
55:18
this is the last time This is the last time.
55:25
Hopefully that I have to come out here and do something that I
55:30
don't want to do. Because I know there's plenty of
55:34
people out here that look forward to content that I put
55:36
out here and I appreciate all of you, I appreciate those that
55:40
support. What I do, I do.
55:46
But at the end of the day, you are not the ones that drive why
55:50
I do what I do. I do what I do because it's part
55:54
of me, it's part of my life, it's part of my heart, it's part
55:56
of my soul's. It's everything within me.
56:00
I just choose to share it to the world to the greater population.
56:07
And so if I don't get to do that anymore, I'm no, I have not lost
56:12
anything. I have everything that I need
56:14
here. In my heart, in my Hearth, in my
56:20
home, with my people, with my tribe.
56:25
And that's what I want for. All of you.
56:29
That's all that I want and that's all that I've ever wanted
56:33
for all of you. The nine Noble virtues videos
56:37
were done. As a way to engage conversation.
56:43
Because of what I've done is I've taken these words, these
56:46
Buzz words that were appropriated and codified by a
56:51
fascist fucking racist. Nazi piece of shit.
56:55
Organization in England once once upon a fucking time.
57:00
You know, I've token, I've taken those words, I've gone back,
57:05
etymologically, I've talked about them individually in a way
57:09
within one minute. Within 60 seconds to try to give
57:12
you guys something to think about something to explore,
57:16
something to perhaps apply. And are sorry.
57:23
I stayed of humanity. Wants to.
57:31
Cancel it. Because I didn't.
57:35
Mention it in every video. Got the 90 wool, virtues, were
57:40
codified or created. Or whatever by the English of
57:47
dainik right. Guys, I'm tired.
58:07
I'm tired to have to have these conversations.
58:09
I'm tired to be in a position. To feel responsible to have to
58:16
kind of have these conversations.
58:21
It's just another word deal, right?
58:28
After today. Alright, that post that goes up,
58:32
I will not speak any more on it, I will not comment anymore on
58:36
it. I will not reply to any more
58:37
messages. I will not reply to any more
58:39
comments. Moving on.
58:52
I'm moving on. So, you guys have fun with it.
58:56
Have fun in the comments. The post is annotated in the
59:02
description and show notes of this podcast.
59:07
I'm not going to be responding to things.
59:09
Have fun with it. You guys have heard my thoughts.
59:12
And to the people that have reached out posted their
59:18
comment, message my page message, my personal profile
59:23
with the same thing that I just ran down through over within the
59:28
last hour or so. There it is.
59:34
I'm going to go on living my life.
59:35
I'm going to one living my Heathen re with the people who I
59:40
know, bring value to it because the last hour that I just spent
59:46
doing all this, ain't it so, thank you all for listening.
59:56
Thank you all for watching. If you want to support midgard,
59:59
musings anymore, you know where to find it, it's in the
1:00:02
description and shown us of this podcast.
1:00:05
And if anything that I said chapter ass and you don't like
1:00:07
it anymore, you know how to unfollow me. so, We'll see where
1:00:18
this goes from here on out, but I'll be here.
1:00:24
May the gods continue to notice you?
1:00:27
May your ancestors smile upon you.
1:00:27
May your ancestors smile upon you.