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Dirty Little Secret: “I'm Addicted To Flirting With Married Men” · Billy The Kidd In The Morning

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  Speaker 1: Dirty Little Secrets.
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  Speaker 2: On NIX one of two point nine and Bailly to
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  Speaker 2: Candice Loan pants producer Poo, if you got a secret
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  Speaker 2: eight three three seven eight seven one o two nine
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  Speaker 2: and now my secret forever it is gonna be I
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  Speaker 2: massaged and on the man's roles.
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  Speaker 3: That's a secret on the back of his head video.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, I know, it's. The whole studio smells like baby
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  Speaker 2: oil and a cheap candle. Yeah, because in a cheap
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  Speaker 2: cand wheel a misfortune I lost. I had to massage
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  Speaker 2: the back of Poo's head and that was top three
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  Speaker 2: grossest things I've ever had to do. It's not a
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  Speaker 2: cheap candle. What is it, Poo, It's it's two blind brothers. Dude,
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  Speaker 2: this is pretty expensive. Wait what too blind? That's the brand?
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  Speaker 2: That's your candle? Yeah, you brought that in for this.
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  Speaker 2: I've no I've had it in the other studio, you
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  Speaker 2: know how. I'm a candle freak. So yeah, Candas doesn't
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  Speaker 2: like those candles toxic. Everything's tossic? Are they cannis? Are
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  Speaker 2: those really toxic candles?
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  Speaker 1: Some of them are?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah?
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  Speaker 2: Is that why you don't burn candles?
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  Speaker 3: Are yeh?
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  Speaker 2: Candice is so wow, Everything's top. Now do you smell
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  Speaker 2: this baby oil? Discuss is it? Yeah, everything's all right.
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  Speaker 2: If you got a secret eight three to three seven
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  Speaker 2: eight seven one o two nine, go ahead, now you
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  Speaker 2: have one. So what's up?
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  Speaker 3: And I know that this makes me sound like a
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  Speaker 3: terrible person, but I am addicted to flirting with married men,
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  Speaker 3: and before everyone breaks out, only the one jumping down
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  Speaker 3: my throat on this one. But let me just say
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  Speaker 3: I have never ever hooked up with a single one
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  Speaker 3: of them, not even a kiss. That's where I draw
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  Speaker 3: a line.
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  Speaker 2: Never.
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  Speaker 3: But right, But that being said, I do know what
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  Speaker 3: I'm doing is messed up.
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  Speaker 2: So okay, very unique situation here. Why why married men?
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  Speaker 3: I mean, I've just gotten this weird rush from seeing
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  Speaker 3: if I could get a married man to take the bait,
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  Speaker 3: and I've been doing it for years now. I'll start,
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  Speaker 3: you know, with just an innocent conversation and be a
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  Speaker 3: little extra friendly, maybe throw out a compliment or two
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  Speaker 3: and just wait. And you know, the second he starts
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  Speaker 3: crossing the line or you know, trying to chase me,
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  Speaker 3: it's over. I ghost him completely, I disappear, so dad.
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  Speaker 2: So as soon as he takes the bait and he
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  Speaker 2: goes and you know, okay, I got him on, I
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  Speaker 2: got him locked down. That's when you're like, bye, the
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  Speaker 2: thrill is over.
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  Speaker 3: The thrill is over, like it never ever, you know, happened.
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  Speaker 3: Because I'm like I said, I'm not trying to break
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  Speaker 3: up anybody's marriage, but I don't know. There's just something,
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  Speaker 3: you know that there's a particular rush from getting a
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  Speaker 3: married man to do it. I have tried doing the
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  Speaker 3: same thing with single guys, but it just doesn't give
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  Speaker 3: me the same feeling. And I don't know exactly why.
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  Speaker 3: There is just something about proving to myself that a
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  Speaker 3: married man would risk it all just for the attention.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 3: It's like some kind of sick game that I play
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  Speaker 3: in my head. And I really hate admitting that, but
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  Speaker 3: you know it's my dirty little secret.
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  Speaker 2: No, I appreciate you being honest with us. I do,
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  Speaker 2: even though it's sometimes hard to hear because I know
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  Speaker 2: if anyone's married, like Cannas is married, You're.
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  Speaker 1: Like you, no, this is absolutely cringe. It's given me
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  Speaker 1: like right, like but.
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  Speaker 2: I almost feel like you can't control it.
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  Speaker 1: Well, I mean I can.
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  Speaker 3: I am kind of trying to get to the bottom
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  Speaker 3: of that I actually am in therapy because I know
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  Speaker 3: this isn't normal, but plus it's you know, everyone could
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  Speaker 3: use an impartial party to talk to. But my therapist
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  Speaker 3: says it's about validation and control. And while she's probably right,
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  Speaker 3: I I just, you know, I feel like I just
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  Speaker 3: need to. I don't know, is this so crazy because
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  Speaker 3: I don't even enjoy hurting people, and I know that,
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  Speaker 3: like the risk of hurting people doing this is like
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  Speaker 3: really high. I just get addicted to that moment when
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  Speaker 3: you know they choose to chase me.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah. So, and you probably don't care about hurting a
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  Speaker 2: married man who's gonna, you know, be unfaithful. You're like,
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  Speaker 2: who cares about his feelings, So as long as you're
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  Speaker 2: not cheating, you don't feel like you're hurting the woman
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  Speaker 2: in that marriage, right, Okay.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know. Just I just think that beyond
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  Speaker 3: it being weird and kind of unexplainable and kind of
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  Speaker 3: something that I do, at this point feel like I
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  Speaker 3: don't really have control over, I do think that I've
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  Speaker 3: ruined my own chances of having a healthy relationship because
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  Speaker 3: of this. Wow, everyone else is I mean, if I'm
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  Speaker 3: out here just busy playing this stupid game you know
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  Speaker 3: that never ends, instead of you know, looking for someone
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  Speaker 3: real and something real. You know, I feel like I'm really,
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  Speaker 3: you know, risking my chances of ever having a healthy relationship,
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  Speaker 3: which I do honestly want so well.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, I think the good news is you know
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  Speaker 2: that it's a problem, You're going to therapy for it,
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  Speaker 2: right there is, I guess.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, the first, you know, way of overcoming the problem
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  Speaker 3: is admitting that you have one.
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  Speaker 2: Like if I'm a psychologist, the first question I'm asking
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  Speaker 2: is did a married man hurt you? Like in the past,
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  Speaker 2: did a married man hurt you or lead you you
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  Speaker 2: on or anything anything like that that can you could
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  Speaker 2: think of that goes This is why I.
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  Speaker 3: Do this, I like, not romantically. I mean, I guess
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  Speaker 3: you could say I have some abandonment issues. I am
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  Speaker 3: a product of divorce, but you know, I don't think
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  Speaker 3: that's enough to a lot of people get divorced out there,
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  Speaker 3: you know, not everyone's out here trying to gain like
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  Speaker 3: married men into you know, doing something on tooward outside
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  Speaker 3: of their marriage and then leaving them, you know, so
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  Speaker 3: you never know.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, that need for validation comes from somewhere.
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  Speaker 2: That's what I would think definitely does.
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  Speaker 1: It's like people who scroll and scroll on the internet
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  Speaker 1: and never socialize because they're getting like some kind of
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  Speaker 1: brain trigger of validation when they see something exciting online.
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  Speaker 2: Well, I guess, good, good, that you're getting help, because
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  Speaker 2: I do think at the end of the day, you
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  Speaker 2: want to be happy, and if this is not making you,
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  Speaker 2: it's hurting your chances of being in a real relationship,
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  Speaker 2: then nobody.
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  Speaker 1: Wants that because you're distracted by this.
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  Speaker 3: Right right.
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  Speaker 2: I think everybody can relate. Everybody can relate I think
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  Speaker 2: a little bit to the desire of wanting to get
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  Speaker 2: chased or pursued. Yeah, so I get that part. I
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  Speaker 2: just don't understand the married man part, right because I.
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  Speaker 1: Wouldn't be putting myself in a situation where I'm around
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  Speaker 1: married men, you know, to be able to execute this
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  Speaker 1: thing that it is.
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  Speaker 2: But I think that's the part where it's like, oh,
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  Speaker 2: not only is this a man, this guy has a
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  Speaker 2: whole life, but he wants me yeah, you know, and
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  Speaker 2: he's willing to risk it all. So hey, it's a
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  Speaker 2: non judgment zone. Thank you so much for your confession,
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  Speaker 2: though it means a lot that you called us and
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  Speaker 2: let us know what happens, and hopefully you can stop this.
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  Speaker 3: Absolutely, thank you so much for having me on. You're welcome.
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  Speaker 2: Listen. You want something you can't have, Yeah, and some
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  Speaker 2: people get an absolute rush out of that right, whether
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  Speaker 2: it's right or wrong. And yeah, she does, and I
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  Speaker 2: don't like it.