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- 0:00Welcome to Reformed Thinking. In this deep dive, we're
- 0:04tackling one of the biggest questions out there, one that
- 0:07well, hits home for absolutely everyone.
- 0:09We're looking at the existence of evil and suffering.
- 0:12You know why are they here? Yeah, it's unavoidable, isn't
- 0:15it? Whether it's personal loss or
- 0:17seeing tragedies unfold around the world.
- 0:20Right. Or even just thinking about why
- 0:22bad things happen at all. It's a huge question for anyone
- 0:25thinking seriously about life, whether you have a faith or Or
- 0:28maybe you don't. It really is.
- 0:29We've pulled together quite a bit of material for this
- 0:32articles, research notes covering the philosophy, the
- 0:35theology, the practical side of it all.
- 0:38Well taught to unpack our aim. Today is to look at how
- 0:41different ways of seeing the world try to make sense of evil
- 0:44and suffering. We want to see the differences
- 0:47and then lay out a clear Christian understanding,
- 0:49especially from a Reformed viewpoint, kind of a path
- 0:52forward. It's definitely a heavy topic,
- 0:54no doubt about it, and it hits on multiple levels.
- 0:57Well, first, it's not just intellectual, is it?
- 0:59It's personal. It touches everyone.
- 1:01You live long enough, you experience loss, pain.
- 1:05That's just reality. But it's also a philosophical
- 1:08challenge. Anyone who really thinks about
- 1:10the world has to ask why? Why the bad things?
- 1:13You have to grapple with it. Exactly.
- 1:16And then for those who look to the Bible, it's theological.
- 1:19What does Scripture say about where this stuff came from?
- 1:22And what's the answer? The resolution?
- 1:25Yeah. And often you hear it used as
- 1:28maybe the number one argument against God.
- 1:31The big objection. But what we want to show you,
- 1:33actually, is how the fact of evil, maybe counterintuitively,
- 1:38really ends up pointing towards the Christian outlook being
- 1:40true. OK, so let's start there.
- 1:42Just acknowledging evil's presence.
- 1:44It's undeniable. Absolutely.
- 1:45Our sources don't shy away from this.
- 1:46They give stark examples I mean, think about the Holocaust,
- 1:506,000,000 Jews systematically murdered.
- 1:52It's. Horrified.
- 1:54Unimaginable scale. Or the history of slavery.
- 1:56Just centuries of inflicted suffering, stealing freedom,
- 2:00dignity. A terrible stain.
- 2:01But it's not just those massive historical events, is it?
- 2:04It's the everyday stuff, too. Stuff you read about, maybe hear
- 2:08about locally, child abduction, abuse, murder.
- 2:11It's constant. And then there's disease,
- 2:13sickness, and ultimately death. Facing our own mortality, the
- 2:17loss of people we love. It's all very, very real, not
- 2:21abstract at all. You're right, it's not abstract.
- 2:23And we can look at this reality, this universal experience in a
- 2:26few different ways. First, like we touched on, it's
- 2:29an existential issue, personal, experiential.
- 2:32The longer you live, the more you see sickness, loss,
- 2:37relationships ending one way or another.
- 2:39Yeah, that hits. Deep.
- 2:40It really does. It forces you to confront
- 2:41suffering personally. Leaves a mark, that raw feeling
- 2:45of pain. And then second, it's a
- 2:47philosophical issue because it makes you think.
- 2:50It forces anyone who reflects on life to ask why.
- 2:53Why is the world like this? Why these bad things?
- 2:56Every thinking person asks. That every single one and every
- 3:00worldview, religious or not, has to offer some kind of answer,
- 3:03some framework to explain the brokenness we see.
- 3:06They have to. Try at least.
- 3:07They have to try. And 3rd, for us, it's a
- 3:10theological issue. We turn to Scripture.
- 3:13What does the Bible say about why things are well out of
- 3:16order? How did evil start?
- 3:17What's the final outcome? The biblical story exactly gives
- 3:20a whole framework, origin, purpose, resolution.
- 3:23So how do other world views handle this compared to the
- 3:26Christian view? You mentioned some differences.
- 3:28Big differences, yeah. Some traditions you find,
- 3:30especially in certain Eastern religions, like strands of
- 3:33Hinduism or Buddhism, and even some Western groups like
- 3:37Christian Science, they propose that evil is basically an
- 3:41illusion. An illusion like not real.
- 3:44Essentially, yes. They might use a term like Maya.
- 3:48The idea is the suffering, evil, even the physical world itself
- 3:51isn't fundamentally real. It's like a veil, a product of
- 3:54our limited perception. So the pain isn't real pain.
- 3:57According to that view, no, it obscures A deeper reality, maybe
- 4:01a unified spiritual absolute like Brahman or achieving
- 4:04Nirvana. Liberation comes from seeing
- 4:06through the illusion, transcending it.
- 4:09But from a biblical perspective, that just doesn't square with
- 4:11reality, does it? God created the physical world.
- 4:14He called it very good. It's not an illusion.
- 4:19And evil feels pretty real. It is real.
- 4:21People know it experientially. When tragedy strikes, the pain
- 4:25is real. It's not just a misperception.
- 4:28And that disconnect between what the world view teaches and what
- 4:31people actually live through, that creates real tension.
- 4:34It's hard to find comfort there. That makes sense.
- 4:37Which brings us back to how this whole issue is often used as an
- 4:40argument against God. The classic challenge.
- 4:43Right, the philosophical problem of evil, often presented as the
- 4:46knockout punch against theism. And it usually goes something
- 4:49like this, right? Premise one.
- 4:50God is all powerful. He can do anything he wants.
- 4:53Omnipotent, yeah. Premise 2.
- 4:55God is all good, perfectly benevolent, wants the best for
- 4:59us. I'm the benevolent.
- 5:00Premise 3. Evil exists.
- 5:02We just established that it's undeniable.
- 5:04So the challenge is, if God has both power and goodness, why
- 5:08didn't he stop evil? Why does it exist?
- 5:11It seems inconsistent. The apparent contradiction.
- 5:14Yeah, the argument says if he's good, he would want to stop it.
- 5:17If he's powerful, he could. So if evil is here, maybe he's
- 5:22not powerful or not good, or maybe he's just not there.
- 5:26It's presented as a logical checkmate.
- 5:28Exactly. And this line of argument has a
- 5:30long history. You find echoes of it way back
- 5:32with Greek philosophers like Epicurus.
- 5:34Oh, yeah, He basically asked that same question.
- 5:36If God can and wants to stop evil, why doesn't he?
- 5:41Then much later, 18th, 19th century thinkers like David
- 5:44Hume, John Stuart Mill, they push similar points questioning
- 5:47how a perfect God could allow so much suffering so.
- 5:50It's a persistent question. Very persistent and faced with
- 5:53this seeming contradiction, some non Christian views or even some
- 5:56theologians trying to sort of soften the blow.
- 5:58They offer compromises, but these often are very satisfying.
- 6:02Like what? Well one option is to say God is
- 6:04powerful, but maybe he's not entirely good.
- 6:07OK, maybe he has the power but just doesn't care that much
- 6:10about our suffering or isn't purely benevolent.
- 6:12You might see into this in deism where God creates then steps
- 6:15back. Or even some older gnostic
- 6:16ideas. But that's not very comforting.
- 6:18Not at all. If God isn't good, what hope do
- 6:21you have for justice, for things to be made right?
- 6:24It leaves you in a really uncertain place.
- 6:26No guarantee of a good outcome. None.
- 6:29Another compromise may be more familiar because of Rabbi
- 6:31Kushner's book When Bad Things Happen to Good People is that
- 6:34God is good, but he's not all powerful.
- 6:38So he wants to help, but he can't always.
- 6:42That's the idea. Maybe some things are just out
- 6:44of his control. Maybe there's chaos he can't
- 6:46manage, or limits to his power. This tries to protect God's
- 6:50goodness. But again, that feels lacking.
- 6:54It does, because if God isn't sovereign, if he can't
- 6:57ultimately defeat evil, then what's the final hope?
- 7:00Maybe evil just persists. His victory wouldn't be total.
- 7:03So these compromises, they try to solve one problem, but often
- 7:06create others just as big. Right, which leads us to a key
- 7:09Christian response, especially with unreformed thought.
- 7:12It sort of flips the script. It really does.
- 7:14The idea is, from a Christian standpoint, it's maybe better
- 7:17called the so-called problem of evil, because when you factor in
- 7:22God's full character, his wisdom, it's not actually a
- 7:27logical problem for God. Precisely.
- 7:29And this is where someone like Greg Bonson made a huge
- 7:32contribution. He talked about adding a fourth
- 7:34premise to that standard argument.
- 7:37OK, what's the 4th premise? It's simply this.
- 7:39God has a morally sufficient reason for the evil which
- 7:42exists. A morally sufficient reason.
- 7:44Yes. If you grant that premise, which
- 7:47flows from God's perfection and sovereignty, then Bonson argued
- 7:51there's no logical contradiction to be found.
- 7:53Not even an apparent one. Huh.
- 7:55So adding that premise resolves the logical tension.
- 7:58It does, and it shifts the burden.
- 8:00Now the challenge isn't for the believer to explain evil, but
- 8:03for the unbeliever to show that God cannot possibly have a good
- 8:06reason for allowing. It and that's hard to prove.
- 8:08Impossible, really. How could a finite human know
- 8:11all possible reasons an infinite God might have?
- 8:15But more than that, it exposes A deeper issue for the unbeliever.
- 8:19It's their own inability philosophically to even account
- 8:23for objective evil in the 1st place.
- 8:25What do you? Mean.
- 8:26Think about non believing world views, atheism for example.
- 8:30If everything is just time plus matter plus chance, where does
- 8:33objective morality come from? Big.
- 8:35Question. Or some Eastern views with an
- 8:37impersonal absolute where all distinctions fade away.
- 8:41In those systems, morality often becomes subjective, a personal
- 8:44feeling, a cultural agreement. There's no grounding for saying
- 8:48something is really objectively wrong.
- 8:50It's just preference or. Convention which leads to this
- 8:53logical incoherence we talked about.
- 8:55Explain that again. OK, take an atheist who strongly
- 8:58condemns, say, child abuse as absolutely wrong, universally
- 9:03evil. They feel that moral outrage of.
- 9:05Course anyone would. But if their worldview says
- 9:09morality is just subjective or cultural, then logically they
- 9:12can't really condemn the abusers actions as objectively evil
- 9:16according to their own framework.
- 9:18The abusers just acting on their values or within their broken
- 9:21context. There's no higher standard to
- 9:22appeal to. So their outrage doesn't match
- 9:25their stated beliefs. Exactly where does that deep
- 9:29sense of objective wrongness come from?
- 9:31We'd argue it comes because they are, maybe without realizing it,
- 9:34borrowing from the Christian worldview.
- 9:37Because it's the Christian worldview, grounded in God's
- 9:40unchanging, perfect character that provides a basis for a
- 9:43divine, transcendent sense of ethics, real, objective good and
- 9:48evil. So they need God's standard to
- 9:50condemn evil even if they deny God.
- 9:53Precisely. Bonson famously demonstrated
- 9:55this in his debate with Gordon Stein.
- 9:57Stein, the atheist wanted to condemn Hitler, but Bonson kept
- 10:00asking by what standard in your worldview?
- 10:03Stein couldn't give a coherent answer from atheism alone.
- 10:06He had to implicitly lean on the Judeo-christian ethic he was
- 10:09rejecting. Anti theism ends up presupposing
- 10:13theism to make its case against God based on evil.
- 10:16Wow, that really turns the argument on its head.
- 10:19It does. So for the Christian, the
- 10:20problem isn't logical. If God is a sufficient reason
- 10:23the logic holds. The issue becomes more
- 10:26psychological or emotional. Meaning it's hard for us to
- 10:28accept, even if it makes sense theologically.
- 10:31Yes, it's deeply difficult for us humans to understand why God
- 10:35allows specific instances of suffering, especially when he
- 10:40doesn't spell out his reasons for each one.
- 10:43We want the why? Like job.
- 10:45Exactly like Job, God never gave him the specific why.
- 10:49The call in Scripture isn't necessarily to understand every
- 10:51detail, but to trust God's character, his wisdom, His
- 10:55goodness, even when his reasons aren't clear to us.
- 10:58Trust that He has that morally sufficient reason.
- 11:01OK, so if the problem isn't logical for God and the blame
- 11:04rests on humanity, let's go deeper into the biblical
- 11:06account. Where did evil come from?
- 11:09Right. The Bible is our primary source
- 11:11here and it presents a whole story, doesn't it?
- 11:13Creation, the fall, God's plan of redemption in Christ, and
- 11:16then the final restoration. It's all one narrative, the.
- 11:18Whole sweep of scripture. Yes, and it starts clearly.
- 11:21God made everything very good. No flaws, no evil, no suffering
- 11:24initially. Perfection.
- 11:26Perfection, evil and suffering entered the world through the
- 11:28sin of Adam in the fall. Humanity, given real freedom,
- 11:31real choice, chose to disobey God chose evil.
- 11:34So the blame is on us. Squarely, as Chesterton famously
- 11:37put it when asked what's wrong with the world?
- 11:39I am. It was human rebellion.
- 11:42God gave us the capacity to choose because genuine
- 11:46relationship, genuine love requires freedom, not robots.
- 11:50A world with choice was better, even with the risk.
- 11:53That's the implication. A world capable of genuine love
- 11:56and relationship, even with the possibility of falling, was
- 11:59deemed better than a world of automatons.
- 12:02The fall was the tragic result of that freely chosen
- 12:05disobedience. So from God's perspective.
- 12:07From God's perspective, understanding his whole planning
- 12:10character, there isn't a problem in the sense of a challenge to
- 12:13his nature. He's perfect, all knowing, all
- 12:15powerful, perfectly just. He allowed evil to enter, but he
- 12:19wasn't surprised by it, and he planned for it.
- 12:21Why allow it then? What purpose could it serve?
- 12:24The Bible indicates it serves to manifest certain aspects of
- 12:26God's own character more fully for His glory.
- 12:30Think about it. How could God display His wrath
- 12:32against sin if sin didn't exist? Or his incredible patience.
- 12:36Or his amazing mercy and grace and salvation.
- 12:39Attributes shown because of the fall.
- 12:40Exactly. Romans 9 talks about Pharaoh
- 12:43being raised up to show God's power in a fallen world.
- 12:46The full spectrum of God's perfections, justice, wrath,
- 12:50patience, mercy, grace are displayed in ways they couldn't
- 12:54be otherwise. He uses evil to ultimately
- 12:57magnify his own glory. And there's that spiritual
- 12:59battle aspect, too. Yes, absolutely.
- 13:02The Bible pictures the universe as a cosmic battlefield.
- 13:05It's not just human sin. There's a conflict between God
- 13:09and the forces of evil, Satan, demonic powers.
- 13:11We see it from Genesis 3 through Job, Jesus, temptations,
- 13:15Ephesians 6 telling us our struggle isn't just flesh and
- 13:18blood. But against spiritual forces.
- 13:20Right. It adds another layer to
- 13:21understanding suffering. There's an unseen dimension to
- 13:23the conflict. OK, that's the biblical
- 13:25framework. Now theologians have tried to
- 13:27articulate specific ways to justify God in light of all this
- 13:31evil. These are the theodicies.
- 13:33That's the term, yes. A theodicy is an attempt to
- 13:36offer a justification for God allowing evil.
- 13:38And you're right, often the best understanding comes from
- 13:40combining insights from several angles rather than looking for
- 13:43one single magic bullet answer. So.
- 13:45What are some of the main ones? Well, a major one is the free
- 13:48will defense often linked to Augustine.
- 13:50We touched on that. God gave us free choice.
- 13:53Exactly. The core idea.
- 13:55God made us free. Evil is the result of our misuse
- 13:58of that freedom. Responsibility lies with us, the
- 14:02rationale being genuine love and relationship require that
- 14:05freedom. Even though it led to the fall.
- 14:07Yes, Augustine made distinctions, you know, between
- 14:10Adam's freedom before the fall, able to choose good or evil, and
- 14:14our freedom after the fall, often inclined towards sin
- 14:17without God's grace. But the root is that initial
- 14:21capacity for choice. Then there's the best possible
- 14:24world idea associated with likeness.
- 14:26God had to create the best world possible.
- 14:28That's the argument. Being perfect, God was in a
- 14:31sense obligated by his own nature to create the very best
- 14:35reality he could. So this world, including the
- 14:38evil He permits within it, must be the best possible arrangement
- 14:41for achieving His ultimate purposes and displaying His
- 14:44glory. That one raises questions for
- 14:46some people, doesn't it? Like is God bound by necessity?
- 14:49It does raise philosophical discussions about God's freedom
- 14:52versus necessity. Leibniz would argue God freely
- 14:56chose, but his perfect nature dictated he choose the best.
- 15:01Interesting. Any others?
- 15:02Another significant one is the Iranian or soul making theodicy,
- 15:06named after Irenaeus, an early church father, but popularized
- 15:10more recently by John Hick. Soul making?
- 15:13How does that work? The idea here is that God
- 15:16created humans needing development, needing to grow
- 15:18spiritually. Evil and suffering provide the
- 15:21necessary challenges, the opportunities to grow and build
- 15:25character. So the world is like a training
- 15:27ground. Kind of a veil of tears maybe,
- 15:29or a school that prepares us for the world to come.
- 15:32Facing hardship makes us stronger.
- 15:34Develops virtues like courage, patience, compassion, things
- 15:38that might not develop otherwise.
- 15:39We become better off because of the process.
- 15:41Preparing us for eternity. That's the idea.
- 15:44And finally, closely related to what we discussed earlier is
- 15:46what you could call the God's glory.
- 15:47Theodicy may be associated with Jay Adams, among others.
- 15:50This focus is purely on God. Primarily, yes.
- 15:53Evil exists ultimately for God's glory and the manifestation of
- 15:56His attributes. The Fall allows God to display
- 16:00His wrath. Patience, mercy, justice in ways
- 16:04that a sinless world wouldn't allow.
- 16:06It's all oriented towards revealing the fullness of who
- 16:09God is. So multiple angles, but all
- 16:12trying to understand God's purpose within his sovereignty,
- 16:14right? Different emphasis, but
- 16:16generally compatible within a reformed framework.
- 16:19OK, understanding these theodicies helps intellectually,
- 16:22but what about practically? When we are facing suffering,
- 16:25how should a Christian respond? Grief is OK, you said, but not
- 16:29bitterness. Exactly.
- 16:30Grief is human, biblical, even. Jesus wept.
- 16:34But questioning God's fundamental goodness or wisdom
- 16:37out of bitterness, that's where we cross a line.
- 16:39So what is the right response according to scripture?
- 16:42First and foremost, it's about trust and relationship, not
- 16:44demanding answers. Look at Psalm 73 again.
- 16:47Asaf was bitter, confused. Seeing the wicked prosper.
- 16:50He called himself senseless and ignorant, like a beast before
- 16:53God. Until he went into the
- 16:54sanctuary. Right until he drew near to God,
- 16:57his perspective shifted when he focused on God and eternity, not
- 17:01just his immediate circumstances.
- 17:03The lesson is run to God. Lean into the relationship.
- 17:06Trust his character, even if the why isn't clear.
- 17:10Like job. Again, no specific why given.
- 17:13None. Job was rebuked for questioning
- 17:15God's sovereignty, not comforted with explanations.
- 17:18He had to trust. The Bible is our foundation
- 17:21here, not just our own logic. We trust God is sovereign, He
- 17:24does what He wills, as Matthew 20 shows, and we trust He is
- 17:27just. Shall not the judge of all the
- 17:29earth deal justly? Genesis 18.
- 17:31Trusting his character over our understanding.
- 17:33That's key. Second, remember that God uses
- 17:35suffering for good in the lives of believers.
- 17:37Romans 8.28 is central. God causes all things to work
- 17:41together for good for those who love Him.
- 17:43Not that the suffering is good, but God uses it for good.
- 17:45Precisely. CS Lewis's famous line captures
- 17:48it. God whispers to us in our
- 17:49pleasures, but shouts in our pains.
- 17:52It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.
- 17:54Suffering gets our attention, refines us, points us to eternal
- 17:57things. OK, what else?
- 17:59Third, try not to be consumed by it.
- 18:02Ecclesiastes 7 tells us to enjoy good times, but consider God in
- 18:06bad times. Except both prosperity and
- 18:08adversity. From His hand we can't
- 18:10straighten what he has bent. We walk with Him through it all.
- 18:13A balanced perspective. 4th recognize that tragedy can be a
- 18:17reminder to repent Jesus used examples in Luke 13 the
- 18:20galileans killed by pilot the tower falling not to say those
- 18:24people were worst sinners, but it's a wake up call to everyone
- 18:27repent because life is fragile turn to God now a.
- 18:30Call to urgency. And finally, the ultimate
- 18:33comfort, a scatological hope. This is huge.
- 18:37The end game. The end game.
- 18:38Evil and suffering are not permanent, they're temporary.
- 18:41God will bring perfect justice. There will be a new heavens and
- 18:43a new earth in which righteousness dwells.
- 18:45Second Peter 3, Revelation 2122. No more sin, death, sickness,
- 18:49tears. It's a guaranteed future.
- 18:51A linear hope, not endless cycles.
- 18:53Exactly. Unlike reincarnation or karma
- 18:56with no definitive end, Christianity offers a definite,
- 19:00glorious conclusion, and the ultimate resolution is Jesus
- 19:03Christ. His suffering shows God's love
- 19:06and our suffering. His death pays for our sin.
- 19:09His resurrection guarantees our future life.
- 19:11And that concept of grace you mentioned?
- 19:14It's so different, isn't it? Not earning your way out, not
- 19:17endless cycles of paying off debt.
- 19:18It's a free gift, forgiveness, new life, and it leads to real
- 19:22relationship with God, with others, forever on a restore
- 19:26earth, not dissolving into nothingness, real personal
- 19:30eternal life. That is a powerful hope.
- 19:32So wrapping this up, it seems the problem of evil instead of
- 19:35being this great argument against Christianity.
- 19:37It actually becomes evidence for.
- 19:39It how so? Explain that again.
- 19:40Because the very moral outrage that people feel about evil, the
- 19:43thing that fuels the objection, that outrage only makes sense if
- 19:46there's an objective standard of good.
- 19:48Which points to God. Which points to God, Atheism or
- 19:52other non theistic views can't logically ground that objective
- 19:56standard. So when someone expresses that
- 19:58deep conviction that something is truly wrong, they are
- 20:02implicitly appealing to a standard that their own world
- 20:05view doesn't provide. They are borrowing God's
- 20:07standard. So our awareness of evil is
- 20:10actually evidence for God. In a way, yes.
- 20:14It shows we're made in the image of a moral God, that we
- 20:16intuitively know his law, even if suppressed.
- 20:20It confirms the Christian outlook rather than undermining
- 20:22it. Which makes this a potential
- 20:24bridge for conversation. Absolutely an evangelistic
- 20:27opportunity. When someone is wrestling with
- 20:29suffering, first you listen, you empathize, never downplay their
- 20:33pain. But then you can gently ask
- 20:35those probing questions. Where does that sense of
- 20:38injustice come from? Why do you feel that so wrong?
- 20:41Help them see the foundation needed for their own moral
- 20:43judgments. Leading them to see the need for
- 20:45God's standard. Exactly.
- 20:47And then you can present the whole Christian story.
- 20:49Creation fall, Christ's solution, the final restoration
- 20:53offer, the hope found only in Jesus, a God who didn't stay
- 20:57distant but entered into our suffering.
- 20:59Who suffered with us and for us? Yes, show the hope of grace, the
- 21:03promise of justice, the call to repent, the comfort of eternal
- 21:06life. Explained that only Christianity
- 21:09makes sense of both the darkness and the light.
- 21:11Paradoxically, the reality of evil makes the case for the
- 21:15Christian God. That's a powerful way to look at
- 21:17it. So summarizing this deep dive.
- 21:19Evil is undeniably real, profoundly painful.
- 21:23But the Christian faith offers a coherent story where it came
- 21:26from our sin, why God allows it, his glory and purposes, and how
- 21:30it ends Christ's victory and restoration.
- 21:32It's the only worldview that holds together logically and
- 21:35offers real, substantive hope in the face of it all.
- 21:38So far from disproving God, the problem of evil actually points
- 21:41towards him. It really does.
- 21:43Perhaps a final thought for a reflection is just that.
- 21:46Consider the depth of our shared human reaction against evil.
- 21:49That deep sense of ought not. Even when people deny God, that
- 21:54feeling persists. Where does it truly come from,
- 21:56if not from the very character that God described in Scripture?
- 21:59It's something worth pondering. Indeed it is.
- 22:02Thank you for joining us for this deep dive into reformed
- 22:05thinking. We hope this discussion gives
- 22:07you much to consider as you reflect on these vital questions
- 22:10in your own life.