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Perception, Time, and Survival · Music Explored Podcast

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  I
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  saw
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  an
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  interview
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  with
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  this
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  guy
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  called
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  David
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  Eagleman,
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  who's.
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  Who's
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  a
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  US
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  neurologist,
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  I
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  think
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  that's
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  the
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  right
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  word,
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  but
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  a
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  brain
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  scientist,
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  not
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  trying
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  to
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  be
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  too
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  clever.
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  And
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  he
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  said
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  that
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  this
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  happens
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  a
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  lot
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  with
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  people
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  who
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  are.
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  Who
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  are
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  facing
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  death.
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  It
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  happens
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  with
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  these
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  guys
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  who
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  climb
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  these
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  huge
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  mountains
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  without
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  any
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  ropes
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  and
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  then
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  they
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  just
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  about
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  to
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  fall
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  or
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  something
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  like
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  that.
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  That
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  same
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  thing
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  happens
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  where
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  time.
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  He
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  described
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  it
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  as.
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  As
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  we
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  go
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  through
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  life
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  seeing
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  everything
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  through
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  a
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  video
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  lens
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  to
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  suddenly
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  having
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  this
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  beautiful
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  panoramic
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  view
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  and
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  time
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  sort
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  of
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  just
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  slows
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  down
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  and
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  you
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  get
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  time
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  to
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  think
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  it
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  through
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  and
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  it
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  is
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  like
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  a
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  survival
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  mode,
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  basically.
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  So,
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  yeah,
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  so
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  it's
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  interesting.
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  My
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  mind
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  was
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  quite
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  rational,
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  but
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  at
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  the
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  same
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  time
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  filled
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  with
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  absolute
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  terror.
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  So
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  it's
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  a
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  really
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  odd
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  contrast,
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  but
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  I'm
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  glad
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  that
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  I
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  had
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  that
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  sense
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  of
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  sort
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  of
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  thought,
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  you
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  know,
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  and
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  when
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  you.
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  After
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  the
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  train
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  stopped
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  and
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  you
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  kind
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  of
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  were
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  lying
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  still,
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  were
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  you
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  conscious
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  from
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  that
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  moment
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  on
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  into
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  going
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  to
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  the
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  hospital?
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  You
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  remember
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  the
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  entire
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  process?
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  Yeah,
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  totally.
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  I
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  was
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  very
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  alert
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  actually,
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  throughout
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  the
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  whole
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  process,
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  so
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  I
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  never
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  lost
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  consciousness.
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  And.
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  Yeah,
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  you
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  know,
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  I
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  remember
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  when
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  I
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  laid
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  on
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  the
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  track,
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  you
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  know,
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  I
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  just
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  checked
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  to
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  see
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  my
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  wounds,
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  you
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  know,
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  and.
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  And
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  this
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  thick
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  coat
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  that
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  I
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  was
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  wearing,
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  it's
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  like
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  a
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  sheepskin
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  coat,
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  was
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  totally
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  shredded,
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  especially
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  the
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  left
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  arm.
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  And.
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  And
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  I
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  noticed
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  that
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  my
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  left
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  arm
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  had
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  been
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  cut
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  right
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  open.
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  I
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  could
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  see
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  all
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  the
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  workings
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  with
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  inside.
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  And
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  again,
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  that
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  was
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  really
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  odd.
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  I
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  didn't
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  go
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  into
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  shock.
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  I
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  just
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  kind
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  of
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  like
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  thought.
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  I
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  remember
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  looking
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  and
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  thinking,
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  wow,
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  that's
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  the
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  inside
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  of
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  my
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  arm.
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  That's
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  me.
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  That's
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  how
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  it
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  all
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  works.
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  I
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  could
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  see
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  every
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  single
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  nerve
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  ending
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  and,
• 1:45
  and
• 1:46
  muscle.
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  It
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  was
• 1:46
  just,
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  you
• 1:47
  know,
• 1:47
  it's
• 1:47
  remarkable.
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  But
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  the
• 1:50
  emergency
• 1:50
  guys
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  arrived
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  really
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  quick.
• 1:52
  They
• 1:52
  were
• 1:52
  there
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  like
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  within
• 1:53
  minutes
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  and
• 1:54
  they
• 1:54
  jumped
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  down
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  on
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  the
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  track
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  and
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  they
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  somehow
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  managed
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  to
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  cut
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  through
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  my
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  clothing
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  and
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  get
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  me
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  on
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  a
• 1:59
  stretcher,
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  you
• 1:59
  know.
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  Yeah.
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  And
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  off
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  the
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  track,
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  which
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  is.
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  It's
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  a
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  huge
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  drop,
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  obviously,
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  as
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  you
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  all
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  know.
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  You
• 2:04
  stand
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  on
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  the
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  train
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  platform
• 2:05
  edge
• 2:05
  and
• 2:06
  you
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  look
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  down,
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  it's
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  a
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  long
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  way
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  down.
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  But
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  they
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  got
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  me
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  up
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  and
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  they,
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  they
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  raced
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  me
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  down,
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  down
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  the
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  highway
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  to
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  hospital,
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  which
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  was
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  like
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  a
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  sort
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  of
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  like
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  a
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  half
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  hour
• 2:16
  sort
• 2:16
  of
• 2:17
  drive
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  and
• 2:18
  the
• 2:18
  siren
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  going
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  wild
• 2:19
  and
• 2:20
  we
• 2:20
  were
• 2:20
  just
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  going
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  like
• 2:21
  a
• 2:21
  rocket,
• 2:21
  you
• 2:21
  know.
• 2:21
  But
• 2:22
  the
• 2:22
  doctor
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  said,
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  can
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  you
• 2:23
  hang
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  on
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  in
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  there?
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  I
• 2:24
  said,
• 2:24
  yeah,
• 2:24
  I'll
• 2:24
  hang
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  on.
• 2:25
  You
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  know,
• 2:25
  he
• 2:25
  was
• 2:26
  good.
• 2:26
  He
• 2:26
  kept
• 2:26
  me
• 2:26
  going.
• 2:27
  He
• 2:27
  kept
• 2:27
  me,
• 2:27
  you
• 2:27
  know,
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  these
• 2:28
  guys
• 2:28
  are
• 2:28
  Amazing,
• 2:29
  as
• 2:29
  we
• 2:29
  all
• 2:29
  know.
• 2:30
  And.
• 2:31
  But
• 2:31
  he
• 2:31
  really
• 2:31
  kept
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  me
• 2:32
  calm.
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  And
• 2:33
  we
• 2:34
  arrived
• 2:34
  in
• 2:34
  the
• 2:34
  hospital
• 2:34
  and
• 2:35
  there
• 2:35
  was.
• 2:35
  There's
• 2:35
  a
• 2:36
  whole
• 2:36
  team
• 2:36
  waiting
• 2:37
  for
• 2:37
  me
• 2:37
  as
• 2:37
  we
• 2:38
  went.
• 2:38
  They
• 2:39
  wheeled
• 2:39
  me
• 2:39
  into
• 2:39
  the
• 2:39
  emergency
• 2:40
  department
• 2:40
  and
• 2:40
  there
• 2:40
  was
• 2:41
  like,
• 2:41
  surgeons
• 2:42
  and
• 2:42
  doctors
• 2:43
  all
• 2:43
  waiting
• 2:44
  there,
• 2:44
  you
• 2:44
  know,
• 2:44
  and
• 2:44
  I
• 2:45
  could
• 2:45
  hear
• 2:45
  all
• 2:45
  this
• 2:45
  mad
• 2:46
  science
• 2:46
  going
• 2:46
  above
• 2:47
  all
• 2:47
  these
• 2:47
  figures,
• 2:47
  going
• 2:48
  like,
• 2:48
  he
• 2:49
  needs
• 2:49
  new
• 2:49
  45.
• 2:49
  No,
• 2:50
  no,
• 2:50
  7:46.
• 2:51
  And
• 2:51
  I
• 2:51
  was
• 2:51
  going,
• 2:51
  well,
• 2:51
  what's
• 2:52
  one
• 2:52
  of
• 2:52
  those?
• 2:52
  You
• 2:52
  know?
• 2:52
  And
• 2:53
  so
• 2:53
  I
• 2:53
  started
• 2:54
  to
• 2:54
  get
• 2:54
  a
• 2:54
  bit
• 2:54
  scared
• 2:55
  because
• 2:56
  I
• 2:56
  thought,
• 2:56
  I'm
• 2:56
  losing
• 2:57
  a
• 2:57
  lot
• 2:57
  of
• 2:57
  blood
• 2:57
  here.
• 2:58
  My
• 2:58
  aunt.
• 2:58
  My
• 2:58
  left
• 2:58
  arm
• 2:59
  had
• 2:59
  been
• 2:59
  severed,
• 3:00
  severed
• 3:00
  from
• 3:00
  the
• 3:01
  elbow
• 3:01
  down.
• 3:01
  And,
• 3:02
  and
• 3:03
  they
• 3:04
  sounded
• 3:04
  scared,
• 3:05
  so
• 3:05
  I
• 3:05
  thought,
• 3:05
  it's
• 3:05
  not
• 3:06
  all
• 3:06
  over
• 3:06
  yet,
• 3:06
  is
• 3:07
  it?
• 3:07
  And
• 3:08
  my
• 3:08
  family
• 3:08
  arrived
• 3:09
  pretty
• 3:09
  quick,
• 3:09
  actually.
• 3:10
  They
• 3:10
  were
• 3:10
  in
• 3:10
  the
• 3:10
  hospital,
• 3:11
  you
• 3:11
  know,
• 3:11
  and
• 3:11
  they
• 3:11
  get.
• 3:11
  They
• 3:12
  seem
• 3:12
  to
• 3:12
  get
• 3:12
  there
• 3:13
  really
• 3:13
  quick.
• 3:13
  And
• 3:14
  so
• 3:14
  the,
• 3:15
  the
• 3:15
  consultant
• 3:16
  who
• 3:16
  was
• 3:16
  in
• 3:16
  charge
• 3:16
  of
• 3:17
  the
• 3:17
  whole
• 3:17
  thing
• 3:17
  said,
• 3:17
  look,
• 3:18
  your
• 3:18
  family
• 3:18
  are
• 3:18
  here.
• 3:19
  Can
• 3:19
  you
• 3:19
  see
• 3:19
  any
• 3:19
  of
• 3:19
  them
• 3:20
  or
• 3:20
  would
• 3:20
  you
• 3:20
  like
• 3:20
  to?
• 3:20
  And
• 3:21
  said,
• 3:21
  yeah,
• 3:21
  send
• 3:22
  them
• 3:22
  all
• 3:22
  through,
• 3:22
  you
• 3:22
  know.
• 3:23
  So
• 3:23
  they
• 3:23
  all
• 3:24
  came
• 3:24
  in
• 3:24
  and
• 3:25
  my
• 3:25
  mum
• 3:25
  was
• 3:26
  in
• 3:26
  tears,
• 3:26
  you
• 3:26
  know,
• 3:26
  she
• 3:27
  was
• 3:27
  just
• 3:27
  like
• 3:27
  sobbing
• 3:28
  away
• 3:28
  there.
• 3:28
  And
• 3:29
  I
• 3:29
  just,
• 3:30
  you
• 3:30
  know,
• 3:31
  and
• 3:33
  my
• 3:34
  friend
• 3:34
  Anna
• 3:34
  was
• 3:34
  there
• 3:34
  as
• 3:35
  well,
• 3:35
  who,
• 3:35
  Who
• 3:36
  I'd
• 3:36
  seen
• 3:36
  off.
• 3:36
  The
• 3:36
  one.
• 3:39
  That's
• 3:39
  right,
• 3:39
  yeah.
• 3:40
  Because
• 3:40
  I
• 3:40
  was
• 3:40
  really
• 3:41
  concerned
• 3:41
  about
• 3:41
  her.
• 3:42
  And
• 3:42
  not
• 3:42
  only
• 3:42
  that,
• 3:43
  we,
• 3:43
  I,
• 3:44
  we.
• 3:44
  We
• 3:44
  gained
• 3:45
  a
• 3:45
  kind
• 3:45
  of
• 3:45
  bond.
• 3:46
  When
• 3:46
  you've
• 3:46
  been
• 3:46
  through
• 3:46
  something
• 3:47
  as
• 3:47
  huge
• 3:47
  as
• 3:48
  that,
• 3:48
  that
• 3:49
  person
• 3:49
  is
• 3:49
  the
• 3:50
  main
• 3:50
  focus
• 3:50
  that
• 3:50
  you're.
• 3:51
  You're
• 3:51
  concerned
• 3:51
  about.
• 3:52
  And
• 3:52
  I
• 3:52
  said,
• 3:52
  I
• 3:52
  need
• 3:53
  to
• 3:53
  speak
• 3:53
  to
• 3:53
  Anna,
• 3:53
  you
• 3:54
  know.
• 3:54
  So
• 3:54
  she
• 3:54
  came
• 3:55
  over
• 3:55
  and
• 3:55
  she
• 3:55
  was
• 3:55
  just
• 3:56
  stood
• 3:56
  there
• 3:56
  going
• 3:57
  like
• 3:57
  this
• 3:57
  head
• 3:57
  was
• 3:58
  just
• 3:58
  going,
• 3:58
  I
• 3:59
  can't
• 3:59
  believe
• 3:59
  you're
• 3:59
  alive.
• 4:00
  You
• 4:00
  know,
• 4:00
  they
• 4:00
  told
• 4:00
  me
• 4:01
  you
• 4:01
  were
• 4:01
  dead.
• 4:01
  They
• 4:01
  said
• 4:02
  you
• 4:02
  were
• 4:02
  dead,
• 4:02
  you
• 4:02
  know,
• 4:05
  but,
• 4:06
  yeah,
• 4:08
  so
• 4:09
  it
• 4:09
  was,
• 4:09
  it
• 4:09
  was
• 4:09
  at
• 4:10
  that
• 4:10
  point
• 4:10
  that
• 4:12
  I
• 4:12
  left.
• 4:13
  I
• 4:13
  left
• 4:13
  all
• 4:13
  that
• 4:13
  franticness,
• 4:14
  I
• 4:14
  left
• 4:15
  all
• 4:15
  the
• 4:15
  pain
• 4:15
  that
• 4:15
  was
• 4:16
  just
• 4:16
  completely
• 4:17
  overwhelming
• 4:17
  me.
• 4:18
  And
• 4:18
  I
• 4:18
  suddenly
• 4:19
  went
• 4:19
  to
• 4:20
  a
• 4:20
  darkened
• 4:21
  space.
• 4:22
  I'd
• 4:22
  left
• 4:22
  my
• 4:22
  body,
• 4:23
  I'd
• 4:23
  left
• 4:23
  everything.
• 4:23
  And
• 4:24
  I
• 4:24
  was
• 4:25
  in
• 4:25
  what
• 4:26
  seemed
• 4:26
  like
• 4:26
  a
• 4:26
  darkened
• 4:27
  room,
• 4:28
  but
• 4:28
  it
• 4:28
  was
• 4:28
  really
• 4:29
  comforting,
• 4:29
  it
• 4:29
  was
• 4:30
  beautiful.
• 4:31
  And.
• 4:31
  And
• 4:31
  I
• 4:32
  just
• 4:32
  lay
• 4:32
  there
• 4:32
  and,
• 4:34
  and
• 4:34
  I
• 4:34
  just
• 4:34
  thought,
• 4:35
  where
• 4:35
  am
• 4:35
  I?
• 4:35
  And
• 4:35
  I
• 4:35
  just
• 4:35
  kind
• 4:36
  of
• 4:36
  looked
• 4:36
  around
• 4:36
  me
• 4:36
  and,
• 4:37
  and
• 4:37
  realized
• 4:38
  that
• 4:38
  I
• 4:38
  was
• 4:39
  no
• 4:39
  longer
• 4:39
  on
• 4:39
  a.
• 4:39
  On
• 4:40
  the
• 4:40
  hospital
• 4:40
  sort
• 4:40
  of
• 4:41
  trolley.
• 4:41
  I
• 4:41
  was
• 4:42
  now
• 4:42
  on.
• 4:42
  Lay
• 4:43
  on
• 4:43
  a
• 4:43
  big
• 4:43
  sort
• 4:43
  of
• 4:44
  huge.
• 4:44
  It
• 4:44
  was
• 4:44
  like
• 4:44
  a
• 4:44
  huge
• 4:45
  rock.
• 4:45
  It
• 4:45
  was
• 4:45
  like
• 4:45
  a.
• 4:46
  Like
• 4:46
  a
• 4:46
  medieval
• 4:47
  altar,
• 4:48
  if
• 4:48
  you
• 4:48
  like.
• 4:49
  And.
• 4:49
  And
• 4:50
  it
• 4:50
  felt
• 4:51
  actually
• 4:51
  really
• 4:51
  comfortable
• 4:52
  to,
• 4:52
  to
• 4:52
  lay
• 4:52
  on,
• 4:53
  which
• 4:53
  is
• 4:54
  strange.
• 4:54
  You
• 4:54
  wouldn't
• 4:54
  think
• 4:54
  so
• 4:55
  normally,
• 4:55
  but
• 4:55
  everything
• 4:56
  was
• 4:56
  different
• 4:56
  in
• 4:56
  this
• 4:57
  realm.
• 4:57
  You
• 4:57
  know,
• 4:57
  it
• 4:58
  was
• 4:58
  kind
• 4:58
  of
• 4:58
  the
• 4:58
  same,
• 4:59
  but
• 4:59
  it
• 4:59
  was
• 4:59
  a
• 4:59
  different
• 5:00
  entity.
• 5:01
  But
• 5:01
  I
• 5:02
  went
• 5:02
  with
• 5:02
  it.
• 5:02
  I
• 5:02
  thought,
• 5:02
  this
• 5:03
  is
• 5:03
  really
• 5:03
  good.
• 5:04
  So
• 5:04
  I
• 5:04
  just
• 5:04
  laid
• 5:05
  my
• 5:05
  head
• 5:05
  back
• 5:06
  and
• 5:06
  I
• 5:06
  realized
• 5:07
  there
• 5:07
  was
• 5:07
  all
• 5:07
  these
• 5:08
  pulsating
• 5:09
  colors
• 5:09
  that
• 5:09
  were
• 5:10
  just
• 5:10
  slowly
• 5:11
  pulsating
• 5:11
  all
• 5:11
  around
• 5:12
  me
• 5:12
  and
• 5:12
  keeping
• 5:13
  me
• 5:13
  calm.
• 5:13
  They
• 5:14
  felt
• 5:14
  like
• 5:14
  they
• 5:14
  were
• 5:15
  kind
• 5:15
  of
• 5:15
  like
• 5:15
  just
• 5:15
  kind
• 5:15
  of
• 5:16
  saying,
• 5:16
  it's
• 5:16
  okay,
• 5:17
  just
• 5:17
  calm
• 5:18
  down.
• 5:18
  Because
• 5:18
  I
• 5:19
  figured
• 5:19
  that
• 5:19
  I
• 5:19
  was
• 5:20
  dead.
• 5:20
  I
• 5:20
  thought,
• 5:21
  this
• 5:21
  is
• 5:21
  it.
• 5:21
  I
• 5:21
  thought
• 5:21
  I
• 5:22
  didn't
• 5:22
  make
• 5:22
  it
• 5:23
  and
• 5:24
  I
• 5:24
  passed
• 5:24
  on.
• 5:26
  I
• 5:26
  didn't
• 5:27
  resist
• 5:27
  it,
• 5:27
  you
• 5:27
  know,
• 5:27
  I
• 5:27
  didn't
• 5:28
  try
• 5:28
  and
• 5:28
  fight
• 5:28
  it.
• 5:28
  I
• 5:28
  didn't
• 5:29
  say,
• 5:29
  look
• 5:29
  to
• 5:30
  myself,
• 5:30
  I
• 5:30
  don't
• 5:30
  want
• 5:30
  to
• 5:30
  be
• 5:31
  here.
• 5:31
  I
• 5:31
  want
• 5:31
  to
• 5:31
  go
• 5:31
  back.
• 5:32
  I
• 5:32
  didn't
• 5:32
  want
• 5:32
  to
• 5:32
  die,
• 5:33
  don't
• 5:34
  get
• 5:34
  me
• 5:34
  wrong.
• 5:34
  But
• 5:35
  I
• 5:35
  was.
• 5:37
  What
• 5:37
  I'd
• 5:37
  just
• 5:37
  been
• 5:38
  through
• 5:38
  was
• 5:38
  sheer
• 5:38
  hell.
• 5:39
  And
• 5:39
  it
• 5:39
  was
• 5:39
  just
• 5:39
  great
• 5:39
  to
• 5:40
  be
• 5:40
  in
• 5:40
  this
• 5:40
  beautiful
• 5:41
  calm.
• 5:42
  So
• 5:42
  I
• 5:42
  just
• 5:42
  laid
• 5:43
  my
• 5:43
  head
• 5:43
  back.
• 5:44
  And
• 5:44
  as
• 5:44
  I
• 5:44
  laid
• 5:45
  my
• 5:45
  head
• 5:45
  back,
• 5:45
  I
• 5:46
  saw
• 5:46
  these
• 5:46
  beautiful
• 5:47
  three
• 5:48
  grids
• 5:48
  of
• 5:48
  white
• 5:48
  light
• 5:49
  slowly
• 5:49
  closing
• 5:50
  in
• 5:50
  on
• 5:50
  me.
• 5:50
  And
• 5:51
  in
• 5:52
  those
• 5:52
  grids
• 5:52
  of
• 5:53
  white
• 5:53
  light,
• 5:53
  there
• 5:54
  was
• 5:54
  this
• 5:54
  pure
• 5:54
  essence
• 5:55
  of
• 5:56
  light.
• 5:57
  And
• 5:57
  it
• 5:57
  was
• 5:57
  just.
• 5:57
  It
• 5:58
  was
• 5:58
  like
• 5:58
  a
• 5:58
  healing
• 5:58
  energy
• 5:59
  that
• 5:59
  was
• 5:59
  coming
• 5:59
  from
• 5:59
  it.
• 6:00
  And
• 6:00
  I
• 6:00
  just
• 6:00
  couldn't
• 6:00
  take
• 6:00
  my
• 6:01
  gaze
• 6:01
  away.
• 6:01
  I
• 6:01
  just
• 6:02
  kept
• 6:02
  looking
• 6:02
  into
• 6:03
  this
• 6:03
  light,
• 6:03
  and
• 6:04
  it
• 6:04
  was
• 6:04
  just
• 6:05
  so
• 6:05
  intense.
• 6:07
  And
• 6:08
  as
• 6:08
  I
• 6:08
  lay
• 6:09
  there,
• 6:09
  bathed
• 6:10
  in
• 6:10
  this
• 6:10
  kind
• 6:10
  of
• 6:11
  like
• 6:11
  essence
• 6:11
  of
• 6:12
  calm,
• 6:13
  I
• 6:13
  suddenly
• 6:14
  felt
• 6:14
  the
• 6:14
  presence
• 6:15
  of
• 6:16
  somebody
• 6:17
  near
• 6:17
  to
• 6:17
  me.
• 6:18
  I
• 6:18
  thought
• 6:18
  there
• 6:18
  was.
• 6:18
  Somebody
• 6:19
  had
• 6:19
  arrived
• 6:20
  in
• 6:20
  this
• 6:21
  darkened
• 6:21
  room.
• 6:22
  So
• 6:22
  I
• 6:22
  lifted
• 6:22
  my
• 6:22
  head
• 6:23
  and
• 6:23
  there
• 6:23
  was.
• 6:24
  There
• 6:24
  was
• 6:24
  a
• 6:24
  person
• 6:25
  just
• 6:25
  stood
• 6:25
  at
• 6:26
  my
• 6:26
  feet,
• 6:26
  staring
• 6:27
  at
• 6:27
  me.
• 6:29
  This
• 6:29
  beautiful,
• 6:30
  sort
• 6:30
  of
• 6:30
  androgynous,
• 6:31
  neither
• 6:32
  male
• 6:32
  nor
• 6:32
  female
• 6:33
  being
• 6:33
  just
• 6:33
  looking
• 6:34
  at
• 6:34
  me
• 6:35
  and
• 6:35
  with
• 6:36
  an
• 6:36
  expression
• 6:37
  on
• 6:37
  his
• 6:37
  or
• 6:37
  her
• 6:38
  face
• 6:38
  that
• 6:38
  I
• 6:38
  felt
• 6:39
  that
• 6:39
  I.
• 6:40
  I
• 6:40
  knew
• 6:40
  really
• 6:40
  well.
• 6:41
  I
• 6:41
  thought,
• 6:41
  I
• 6:41
  know
• 6:41
  you,
• 6:41
  don't
• 6:42
  I?
• 6:42
  And
• 6:42
  I
• 6:42
  was
• 6:43
  actually
• 6:43
  saying
• 6:43
  it
• 6:43
  out
• 6:43
  loud.
• 6:44
  I
• 6:44
  was
• 6:44
  going,
• 6:44
  who
• 6:44
  are
• 6:45
  you?
• 6:45
  I
• 6:45
  know.
• 6:46
  I
• 6:46
  know
• 6:46
  who
• 6:46
  you
• 6:46
  are.
• 6:47
  And
• 6:47
  he
• 6:47
  or
• 6:48
  she
• 6:48
  just
• 6:48
  kept
• 6:48
  smiling
• 6:48
  back
• 6:49
  at
• 6:49
  me.
• 6:49
  And
• 6:49
  I
• 6:49
  just
• 6:49
  thought,
• 6:50
  well,
• 6:50
  you
• 6:51
  know.
• 6:51
  Did
• 6:52
  you
• 6:52
  recognize
• 6:52
  the
• 6:52
  face
• 6:53
  eventually
• 6:53
  or.
• 6:53
  No.
• 6:54
  And
• 6:55
  I
• 6:56
  know
• 6:56
  it's.
• 6:57
  It's
• 6:57
  still
• 6:58
  a
• 6:58
  face.
• 6:58
  That
• 6:59
  is
• 6:59
  when
• 7:00
  I.
• 7:00
  Every
• 7:00
  time
• 7:00
  I
• 7:00
  talk
• 7:01
  about
• 7:01
  it,
• 7:01
  I
• 7:01
  can
• 7:02
  see
• 7:02
  it
• 7:02
  now.
• 7:02
  And
• 7:03
  I.
• 7:03
  And
• 7:03
  I
• 7:03
  feel
• 7:03
  that
• 7:04
  I
• 7:04
  still
• 7:04
  know
• 7:04
  it,
• 7:04
  but
• 7:05
  I've
• 7:05
  never
• 7:05
  discovered
• 7:06
  exactly
• 7:06
  who
• 7:06
  it
• 7:07
  is.
• 7:07
  You
• 7:08
  know,
• 7:08
  it's.
• 7:09
  You
• 7:09
  ever
• 7:09
  had
• 7:09
  a
• 7:09
  sketch
• 7:09
  artist
• 7:10
  or
• 7:10
  somebody
• 7:10
  try
• 7:11
  to
• 7:11
  draw
• 7:11
  it
• 7:11
  up
• 7:11
  for
• 7:11
  you?
• 7:12
  Yeah,
• 7:13
  I've
• 7:13
  done
• 7:13
  that
• 7:13
  myself.
• 7:14
  Yeah.
• 7:14
  I
• 7:14
  started
• 7:14
  painting
• 7:16
  after
• 7:16
  I'd
• 7:17
  had
• 7:17
  my
• 7:17
  near
• 7:17
  death
• 7:17
  experience.
• 7:18
  It
• 7:18
  was
• 7:18
  one
• 7:18
  of
• 7:18
  the
• 7:18
  first
• 7:19
  things
• 7:19
  I
• 7:19
  wanted
• 7:20
  to
• 7:20
  do
• 7:21
  because
• 7:21
  I
• 7:21
  was
• 7:22
  really
• 7:22
  scared
• 7:23
  that
• 7:24
  what
• 7:24
  had
• 7:24
  happened
• 7:24
  to
• 7:25
  me
• 7:25
  That
• 7:25
  I
• 7:25
  was
• 7:25
  going
• 7:25
  to
• 7:25
  forget.
• 7:26
  And
• 7:26
  I
• 7:26
  thought,
• 7:26
  I've
• 7:27
  got
• 7:27
  to
• 7:27
  tell
• 7:27
  everybody
• 7:27
  about
• 7:28
  this.
• 7:28
  And
• 7:28
  I
• 7:28
  thought
• 7:29
  the
• 7:29
  best
• 7:29
  way
• 7:29
  to
• 7:29
  do
• 7:30
  it,
• 7:30
  to
• 7:30
  record
• 7:30
  it,
• 7:30
  is
• 7:31
  to
• 7:31
  actually
• 7:31
  paint
• 7:32
  it.
• 7:32
  So.
• 7:33
  Yeah,
• 7:33
  so,
• 7:35
  yeah,
• 7:35
  so
• 7:35
  I
• 7:36
  painted
• 7:36
  it
• 7:36
  as
• 7:36
  close
• 7:36
  as
• 7:37
  I
• 7:37
  could
• 7:37
  get.
• 7:38
  Go
• 7:38
  on.
• 7:38
  Sorry.
• 7:39
  Do
• 7:39
  you
• 7:39
  have
• 7:39
  it
• 7:39
  there?
• 7:41
  Yeah,
• 7:41
  I've
• 7:41
  got
• 7:41
  it.
• 7:42
  I
• 7:42
  can't
• 7:43
  show
• 7:43
  it
• 7:44
  right
• 7:44
  now,
• 7:44
  but
• 7:45
  I
• 7:45
  can.
• 7:46
  Yeah,
• 7:46
  we,
• 7:47
  yeah,
• 7:47
  we
• 7:47
  do
• 7:48
  have
• 7:48
  some.
• 7:48
  Of
• 7:48
  your
• 7:48
  artwork,
• 7:49
  but,
• 7:50
  yeah,
• 7:50
  we
• 7:51
  have.
• 7:51
  Some
• 7:51
  of
• 7:51
  your
• 7:51
  artwork.
• 7:51
  So
• 7:51
  we'll
• 7:52
  definitely
• 7:52
  share
• 7:52
  that
• 7:52
  with
• 7:53
  our
• 7:53
  listeners.
• 7:54
  Brilliant.
• 7:54
  That's
• 7:54
  fantastic.
• 7:55
  Hey,
• 7:55
  you've
• 7:55
  got
• 7:55
  this.
• 7:56
  And
• 7:56
  Matt
• 7:56
  as
• 7:56
  well,
• 7:57
  for
• 7:57
  sure.
• 7:58
  I
• 7:58
  have
• 7:58
  a
• 7:58
  question.
• 7:58
  I
• 7:58
  have
• 7:59
  a
• 7:59
  lot
• 7:59
  of
• 7:59
  questions,
• 7:59
  actually.
• 8:00
  Once
• 8:01
  you
• 8:01
  found
• 8:01
  yourself,
• 8:02
  I
• 8:02
  don't
• 8:02
  know
• 8:02
  if
• 8:02
  I
• 8:02
  can
• 8:02
  describe
• 8:03
  it
• 8:03
  as
• 8:03
  a
• 8:03
  new
• 8:04
  world,
• 8:04
  but
• 8:05
  you're
• 8:06
  surrounded
• 8:06
  by
• 8:07
  and
• 8:07
  being
• 8:07
  taken
• 8:07
  care
• 8:08
  of
• 8:08
  by
• 8:08
  this,
• 8:09
  what
• 8:09
  you
• 8:10
  described
• 8:10
  as
• 8:10
  a
• 8:11
  sense
• 8:11
  of
• 8:12
  infinite
• 8:12
  love,
• 8:13
  but
• 8:14
  you
• 8:14
  still
• 8:15
  had
• 8:15
  active
• 8:16
  thoughts
• 8:16
  and
• 8:16
  questions
• 8:16
  about
• 8:17
  your
• 8:17
  situation.
• 8:18
  Like
• 8:18
  you
• 8:18
  were
• 8:18
  still
• 8:19
  aware
• 8:20
  of
• 8:20
  yourself
• 8:21
  as
• 8:21
  a
• 8:21
  being.
• 8:21
  Right?
• 8:22
  That's
• 8:22
  right.
• 8:22
  Just
• 8:23
  how
• 8:23
  did,
• 8:24
  how
• 8:24
  did
• 8:24
  you
• 8:25
  reason
• 8:25
  with
• 8:25
  yourself
• 8:26
  or
• 8:27
  even
• 8:28
  justify
• 8:29
  what
• 8:29
  was
• 8:29
  taking
• 8:29
  place
• 8:30
  in
• 8:30
  those
• 8:30
  moments?
• 8:31
  Well,
• 8:32
  the
• 8:32
  interesting
• 8:32
  thing
• 8:33
  is
• 8:33
  that
• 8:34
  I
• 8:34
  didn't
• 8:34
  really
• 8:34
  have
• 8:34
  to.
• 8:36
  It
• 8:36
  was
• 8:36
  me
• 8:37
  that
• 8:37
  was
• 8:37
  there.
• 8:37
  It
• 8:38
  was
• 8:38
  totally
• 8:38
  me.
• 8:38
  And
• 8:39
  I
• 8:39
  was
• 8:39
  aware
• 8:39
  that
• 8:39
  it
• 8:39
  was
• 8:39
  me.
• 8:40
  I
• 8:40
  mean,
• 8:40
  I
• 8:40
  remember
• 8:40
  looking
• 8:40
  down
• 8:41
  at
• 8:41
  my
• 8:41
  body
• 8:42
  to
• 8:42
  check
• 8:42
  my
• 8:42
  wounds
• 8:43
  and
• 8:43
  everything
• 8:44
  was
• 8:44
  fixed.
• 8:44
  You
• 8:45
  know,
• 8:45
  my
• 8:45
  arm
• 8:45
  was
• 8:45
  back
• 8:45
  in
• 8:46
  place.
• 8:46
  There
• 8:46
  wasn't
• 8:46
  even
• 8:46
  a
• 8:46
  single
• 8:47
  scratch
• 8:47
  or
• 8:47
  bruise.
• 8:49
  But
• 8:49
  it
• 8:49
  was
• 8:49
  definitely
• 8:50
  my
• 8:50
  body.
• 8:50
  It
• 8:51
  was
• 8:51
  definitely
• 8:51
  me.
• 8:51
  Nothing
• 8:52
  had
• 8:52
  changed.
• 8:53
  And.
• 8:53
  But
• 8:55
  I,
• 8:55
  I'd
• 8:56
  lost
• 8:56
  all
• 8:56
  sense
• 8:56
  of
• 8:57
  concern
• 8:58
  about
• 8:58
  the
• 8:58
  past.
• 8:59
  I
• 8:59
  used
• 8:59
  to
• 9:00
  worry
• 9:00
  about
• 9:00
  the
• 9:00
  past,
• 9:00
  and
• 9:00
  I
• 9:01
  was,
• 9:01
  I
• 9:01
  wasn't
• 9:01
  worried
• 9:01
  about
• 9:02
  the
• 9:02
  future.
• 9:02
  I
• 9:02
  was
• 9:02
  just
• 9:03
  in
• 9:03
  the
• 9:03
  moment.
• 9:03
  I
• 9:03
  was
• 9:04
  just
• 9:04
  in
• 9:04
  the
• 9:04
  here
• 9:04
  and
• 9:04
  now.
• 9:05
  And
• 9:06
  there
• 9:06
  was
• 9:06
  no
• 9:06
  sense
• 9:06
  of
• 9:07
  anxiety
• 9:07
  or
• 9:08
  fear
• 9:08
  or
• 9:08
  worry
• 9:09
  or
• 9:09
  any
• 9:10
  of
• 9:10
  those
• 9:10
  feelings
• 9:11
  or
• 9:11
  thoughts
• 9:12
  that,
• 9:12
  that
• 9:13
  we
• 9:13
  all
• 9:13
  carry
• 9:13
  around.
• 9:14
  It's
• 9:14
  almost
• 9:15
  like
• 9:15
  thought
• 9:15
  had
• 9:16
  just
• 9:16
  gone
• 9:16
  away
• 9:16
  from
• 9:16
  me.
• 9:16
  And
• 9:16
  it
• 9:17
  was
• 9:17
  just
• 9:17
  the
• 9:17
  pure
• 9:17
  essence
• 9:18
  of
• 9:18
  me
• 9:18
  that
• 9:18
  was
• 9:18
  there.
• 9:19
  So
• 9:20
  I
• 9:20
  was
• 9:20
  just
• 9:21
  happy
• 9:21
  to
• 9:22
  be
• 9:22
  there
• 9:22
  and
• 9:23
  just
• 9:23
  to
• 9:23
  see
• 9:23
  what
• 9:24
  was,
• 9:24
  what
• 9:25
  was
• 9:25
  evolving
• 9:25
  all
• 9:25
  around
• 9:26
  me,
• 9:26
  because
• 9:26
  it
• 9:27
  just
• 9:27
  felt
• 9:27
  so
• 9:28
  real.
• 9:28
  And
• 9:29
  I
• 9:29
  just
• 9:29
  felt
• 9:30
  the
• 9:30
  best
• 9:30
  I'd
• 9:30
  ever
• 9:31
  felt
• 9:31
  throughout
• 9:31
  my
• 9:31
  whole
• 9:31
  life,
• 9:32
  my
• 9:32
  life
• 9:32
  before.
• 9:32
  This
• 9:33
  was
• 9:33
  a
• 9:33
  struggle,
• 9:34
  you
• 9:34
  know,
• 9:35
  like,
• 9:35
  like
• 9:35
  a
• 9:35
  lot
• 9:36
  of
• 9:36
  us,
• 9:36
  you
• 9:36
  know,
• 9:36
  I,
• 9:37
  I,
• 9:37
  you
• 9:38
  know,
• 9:38
  I
• 9:38
  had
• 9:38
  my
• 9:39
  damn
• 9:39
  periods,
• 9:40
  you
• 9:40
  know,
• 9:40
  I,
• 9:40
  I
• 9:41
  was,
• 9:41
  I'd
• 9:42
  left
• 9:42
  school
• 9:42
  without
• 9:43
  qualifications,
• 9:43
  so
• 9:43
  I
• 9:44
  was
• 9:44
  struggling
• 9:44
  to
• 9:44
  find
• 9:44
  work
• 9:45
  throughout
• 9:45
  my
• 9:45
  whole
• 9:45
  life.
• 9:46
  And
• 9:46
  I
• 9:46
  was
• 9:46
  always
• 9:46
  trying
• 9:47
  to
• 9:47
  fit
• 9:47
  in
• 9:47
  with
• 9:47
  the
• 9:47
  kind
• 9:48
  of
• 9:48
  crowds
• 9:48
  that
• 9:49
  weren't
• 9:49
  right
• 9:50
  for
• 9:50
  me.
• 9:50
  And
• 9:50
  so
• 9:51
  I
• 9:51
  felt
• 9:51
  like
• 9:51
  there
• 9:51
  was
• 9:51
  a
• 9:52
  lot
• 9:52
  of
• 9:52
  doors
• 9:52
  closing
• 9:53
  in
• 9:53
  my
• 9:53
  face.
• 9:53
  And
• 9:54
  I.
• 9:54
  So
• 9:54
  I
• 9:54
  carried
• 9:54
  a
• 9:55
  lot
• 9:55
  of
• 9:55
  shame
• 9:55
  and
• 9:55
  a
• 9:55
  lot
• 9:56
  of
• 9:56
  feelings
• 9:56
  of.
• 9:57
  Of
• 9:57
  lack
• 9:57
  of
• 9:58
  confidence.
• 9:59
  And
• 9:59
  I
• 9:59
  could,
• 10:00
  like,
• 10:00
  I
• 10:00
  couldn't
• 10:01
  achieve
• 10:01
  in
• 10:01
  anywhere
• 10:02
  in
• 10:02
  world,
• 10:02
  but
• 10:02
  suddenly
• 10:03
  all
• 10:03
  that
• 10:04
  had
• 10:04
  gone.
• 10:04
  Suddenly
• 10:05
  it
• 10:05
  was
• 10:05
  just
• 10:05
  me
• 10:05
  feeling
• 10:06
  great
• 10:06
  about
• 10:07
  myself.
• 10:07
  So.
• 10:08
  So
• 10:08
  I
• 10:08
  didn't
• 10:09
  kind
• 10:09
  of
• 10:09
  need
• 10:09
  to
• 10:09
  question
• 10:10
  it.
• 10:10
  If
• 10:10
  you,
• 10:10
  like,
• 10:11
  did
• 10:12
  you.
• 10:12
  Were
• 10:12
  you
• 10:12
  aware
• 10:13
  of
• 10:13
  the
• 10:13
  transition
• 10:14
  from
• 10:15
  that
• 10:15
  kind
• 10:15
  of
• 10:15
  experience
• 10:16
  to
• 10:16
  back
• 10:17
  to
• 10:17
  where
• 10:17
  you're
• 10:17
  in
• 10:17
  the
• 10:18
  hospital
• 10:18
  bed
• 10:18
  with
• 10:18
  your
• 10:19
  family?
• 10:20
  Yeah.
• 10:20
  How
• 10:20
  did
• 10:20
  that
• 10:20
  go?
• 10:21
  Yeah,
• 10:22
  well,
• 10:22
  that
• 10:22
  came
• 10:22
  later
• 10:23
  on.
• 10:23
  I
• 10:23
  mean,
• 10:23
  there
• 10:24
  were
• 10:24
  different
• 10:24
  phases
• 10:24
  of.
• 10:25
  Of.
• 10:25
  Of
• 10:25
  the.
• 10:26
  The
• 10:26
  experience.
• 10:26
  I
• 10:26
  was
• 10:27
  saying
• 10:27
  that
• 10:27
  I
• 10:27
  kept
• 10:28
  moving
• 10:28
  on
• 10:28
  from
• 10:28
  one.
• 10:29
  One
• 10:29
  phase
• 10:29
  to
• 10:29
  another.
• 10:30
  Right.
• 10:31
  And.
• 10:32
  But
• 10:32
  when
• 10:32
  I
• 10:32
  did
• 10:32
  come
• 10:33
  back,
• 10:33
  it
• 10:34
  was.
• 10:35
  Yeah,
• 10:35
  it
• 10:35
  was
• 10:35
  kind
• 10:35
  of
• 10:36
  like
• 10:36
  there
• 10:36
  was.
• 10:36
  There
• 10:36
  was
• 10:36
  no
• 10:37
  sort
• 10:37
  of.
• 10:37
  I
• 10:37
  was
• 10:37
  back
• 10:38
  in
• 10:38
  my
• 10:38
  body
• 10:38
  really
• 10:38
  quick,
• 10:39
  you
• 10:39
  know,
• 10:40
  it
• 10:40
  was
• 10:40
  just
• 10:40
  like
• 10:41
  the
• 10:41
  transition
• 10:41
  was
• 10:41
  just
• 10:42
  as
• 10:42
  quick
• 10:42
  as
• 10:42
  I'd
• 10:42
  gone
• 10:43
  there.
• 10:43
  And
• 10:44
  it
• 10:44
  wasn't
• 10:44
  a
• 10:44
  decision
• 10:45
  that
• 10:45
  I'd
• 10:45
  made
• 10:45
  myself
• 10:46
  personally,
• 10:46
  but
• 10:47
  it
• 10:47
  was
• 10:47
  made
• 10:48
  for
• 10:48
  me,
• 10:49
  though
• 10:49
  I
• 10:49
  didn't
• 10:49
  regret
• 10:50
  it.
• 10:50
  You
• 10:50
  know,
• 10:50
  I.
• 10:50
  I
• 10:51
  mean,
• 10:51
  obviously
• 10:51
  when
• 10:51
  I
• 10:51
  came
• 10:52
  back,
• 10:53
  the.
• 10:54
  The
• 10:54
  overkill
• 10:55
  of
• 10:55
  sand
• 10:55
  and
• 10:56
  light,
• 10:56
  like
• 10:56
  the.
• 10:57
  All
• 10:57
  of
• 10:57
  a
• 10:57
  sudden
• 10:58
  from
• 10:58
  that
• 10:58
  beautiful
• 10:58
  bright
• 10:59
  light
• 10:59
  I
• 11:00
  was
• 11:00
  looking
• 11:00
  at
• 11:00
  before,
• 11:00
  now
• 11:01
  it's
• 11:01
  fluorescent
• 11:02
  strip,
• 11:03
  which
• 11:03
  looked
• 11:03
  really
• 11:03
  horrible.
• 11:04
  And.
• 11:04
  And
• 11:05
  then
• 11:05
  the
• 11:05
  noise
• 11:05
  was
• 11:05
  just
• 11:06
  overkill,
• 11:06
  and
• 11:07
  I
• 11:07
  just.
• 11:07
  Pain
• 11:08
  came
• 11:08
  rushing
• 11:08
  straight
• 11:09
  through
• 11:09
  my
• 11:09
  body
• 11:10
  again.
• 11:10
  But
• 11:11
  you
• 11:11
  know
• 11:11
  what?
• 11:11
  I
• 11:11
  was
• 11:11
  just
• 11:12
  filled
• 11:12
  with
• 11:12
  all
• 11:12
  this
• 11:12
  incredible
• 11:13
  joy
• 11:14
  and
• 11:14
  love
• 11:14
  from
• 11:15
  what
• 11:15
  I'd
• 11:15
  received
• 11:15
  on
• 11:16
  the
• 11:16
  other
• 11:16
  side
• 11:17
  that
• 11:18
  I
• 11:18
  was
• 11:18
  just
• 11:19
  so
• 11:19
  charged
• 11:19
  with
• 11:19
  it.
• 11:19
  And
• 11:20
  I
• 11:20
  thought,
• 11:20
  wow,
• 11:20
  that
• 11:21
  was
• 11:21
  amazing.
• 11:21
  I
• 11:22
  can't
• 11:22
  wait
• 11:22
  to
• 11:23
  find
• 11:23
  out
• 11:23
  why
• 11:23
  they
• 11:24
  sent
• 11:24
  me
• 11:24
  back
• 11:24
  and
• 11:24
  what
• 11:24
  is
• 11:25
  my
• 11:25
  quest.
• 11:25
  So
• 11:26
  straight
• 11:26
  away
• 11:26
  I
• 11:26
  thought,
• 11:27
  they've
• 11:27
  sent
• 11:27
  me
• 11:27
  back
• 11:27
  for
• 11:27
  a
• 11:28
  reason.
• 11:29
  Wow.
• 11:29
  Wow.