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Understanding Value · Jess Ask

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this week's episode. Adam, Yeah, and and I ain't it ain't Yes,
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I'm that's so took to two and we started, I mean, is
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it we started? It started? It started? Okay, y'all it knowing
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me and Desiray. We are having fun all right, y'all can't see you
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right now, but y'all did. Y'all can hear her from here. Y'all
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can't see y'all on the YouTube, but y'all can definitely hear her. Can
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you say, hey, Desli, hey, Desiray, y'all for y'all that
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is rocket with me? Um, we're still in season two? Uh,
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scene in two? Is it is? What it is? Right? And
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y'all just saw last episode that we elevated, y'all all little studio stuff off,
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like what we think we're doing. Come on, what we think we're
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doing? Elevating it's the what word is? It is elevated. And my
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pen even says this. For one, this is a nice pen. It
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is a nice pen. Don't leave it. It's not okay, it's not
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um okay, okay, yes, ma'am, yep. Don't y'all hate panthe.
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But it's especially at work. And it's like, for one, when
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you get the work pinions, you get the bulk overl so you can't really
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tell who stole a pin and but she specifically get that pen all the time
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panthe. So we know that deserrate just admedic to steal it. Fiens,
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What does the word of God say about steal it? Did you say,
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oh, I was trying to find you know in gods we know, but
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like I would say about this pen, this pir eno says, elevate,
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I got this pen at aum. What was it like a conference or whatever,
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like a women's conference, and it wasn't It wasn't a spiritual spirit led
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conference. It was actually am entrepreneur. It's e wi a barmingham or something
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like that. It was pretty dope, like when in from different areas,
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like they had all the chapters invited, all the chapters of EWI. I
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can't remember what it stands for, but they invited all the chapters to this
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event. And I got invited by one of our coworker slash friends that is
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actually about to be the president. Um and just doing phenomenal things. They
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elevate, elevate and so that's one of the things that they will focus on.
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So it's saying like it's seems like that's the words this, like it
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seems like that's the word. But even the process of elevation, I just
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so just the thing, um, we have to know because that's it's progression,
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right, But we have to know. I think I'm just this is
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for me. I'm saying, Hey, we have to know that we are
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worthy of the elevation. That's so good, you know, because it's gonna
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come right and in our minds what we are right now is not going to
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be the same person that going as every every piece that we go up is
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going to be a different It should be a different person, you know what
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I'm saying. So I know in this season I have to know that I
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am worthy of it. I'm worthy of that. That is so good.
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And I'm gonna saying you how you are just like spot on because like with
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the thought process, because you know this whole podcast thing, you'd be like,
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what are we gonna talk about? Blah blah blah. And that's why
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I like speccing about it because I feel like what we need to be said,
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especially when it's just me. We don't have a guest today. You
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know, Desiray no guests no more. She not seems purpose partnering, purpose
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partnering, just as Desiray Daniel. That's a whole brand. Like we're purpose
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purpose partnering and doing this together. So one thing I love about just being
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able to have an idea about what you want to talk about, but allowing
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God to just use it. It goes back to what we were saying.
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That tells you father House said is having the ability to plan but also simultaneously
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having the will power to adjust. So there takes an ability to plan,
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but a willy is to adjust. That's good girl. He didn't even say
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that. I took faun how you should be proud of you your spirits a
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daughter right now, I just took what you're saying and added a law a
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lot of stack to it. Come on, come on. But that's the
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thing though, like you when when when um, you can take something and
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when it gets in your spirit like it's going to come out how you needed
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to come out, that's the revelation. Yeah, yeah, that's the relationship.
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So really, if I if I would gurgitate word by work and this
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is what this is what people think of a spirit. This is why plagi
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arism is a problem. Plasi a Risin basically says that I will I deem
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myself unworthy to think for think my own, think on my own and that's
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why they you can have an ideal, but you got us an ideal from
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somewhere, right, And so yes, I wrestlance fla the howel and I
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basically took what he said and he gave me and put it into my words.
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But tam, my thought was founded upon what our conversation was. Yeah,
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And so when we plagiarize um, it basically devalues our thoughts or devalues
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our ability to regurgitate in our own words. Good that that has everything to
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do with with with the value and self and not in the value not only
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self with community. Right, It's like, okay, well, I when
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I and I'm going using this word plasiarizing because I'm in school, y'all.
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If y'all don't know a man school a little school accent, I'm gonna be.
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I'm I'm be in the in the joint for like uh what, hopefully
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not too much longer because they're trying to give me to put some more classes
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on my schedule. But we're gonna talk about that label anyway. The girl
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is in school and that one of the things that they bring up is plagiarism,
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even so much so to that we got an email, girl, We
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got an email, I need to say, y'all got an email y'all that
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stated that the you know, the open AI what they called it open AI,
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the the yes auto now auto in a great girl? Why am I
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bringing my job? I'm so tickled. H not attot in a great but
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open A. I think that's what it's called chat GPT, chat GPT.
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They didn't call, they didn't got the system where if your paper is written
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and yet that what you just said, it's plagiarisms even though the chat GPT
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is supposed to give you words of your own like it don't supposed to like
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copy anything else. They have a generator that exposes them. Still not your
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words, girling girl. So that tells me either. I think even laziness
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results back to the value of selves, because if I thought I was worth
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enough to do something, or I thought I was good enough to do something,
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I actually do it. Like for you, you don't mind doing touching
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nobody's head, you don't mind doing no color. But I'm not calling my
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girl out because both of us, both of us share this again, share
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this opportunity against But we I'm gonna say we. I don't mind. I
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don't mind you know, fixing problems. Oh oh oh, I don't mind
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fixing a problem. But I I mind using my voice. I mind using
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my voice. And you know what's crazy? You asked me what the other
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day the last episode? Why why? Just as I did, why just
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ads? And for one father, howe is the reason why you have the
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podcast in the first place? I told him he was kept saying it.
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You know, he was focussing saying stuff, just saying stuff, and I'm
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like, stop saying though you understand before you understand the power of you understand
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the power of your words. Yeah, and when essentially when all the people
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say stuff like it, just it sticks in the atmosphere like it's stock,
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like super glue. So he kept saying that. I was like, why,
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like, why why am I having to do this? And I had
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this revelation this morning that and it's gonna come back, y'all. I have
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a an E magazine entitled Naturally Devoted. Um, I had to shift that
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and rebrand that because I was trying to hide behind Naturally Devoted. This is
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so transparent. I was trying to hide behind Natural Devoted. But what God
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was trying to do in the past probably two to three years, it was
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exposed me. And I'm stealing this process of being exposed to where I can't
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hide behind other brands anymore, even the brands I create. So I am
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the brand. So when you see when you look on my social media,
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you see Djica Smith, that ain't comfortable for me. That is not comfortable
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to me. That's just me come trying to come into agreement publicly with what
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God is already doing privately. And so Jessica, it's SMILK, it's the
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brand, Justica, It's Smith l LC Like that is the brand. And
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so if you try to come from me or do anything you come into it's
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a business name, it's abuse, it's it's so all that. All that
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said when you ask me about the podcast, just as is a way for
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me to come into agreement with my voice and the voice activation. This is
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just a voice agnivation process to where people get to be a part of it.
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And you know, I think that the feedback that we've been getting has
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been really, really good. But I've also had some dedicated people that intentionally
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listen to every every every episode, and I really appreciate that because it shows
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like a level of growth. Like the past these pasts a few episodes,
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people have been like, hold up, like they're talking. They're talking real
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good, you know, and it's helping me understand not just my voice,
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but the subject matters that need to be focused on. Because you know,
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when the scripture says or either the scripture was cheap here my voice. Is
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that technically a scripture. Yeah, it's a subscription. That's a scription because
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we make it fits as a stranger. So I don't know a word for
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word, but I do know it's in the book. It's in the books.
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It's in't so when I hear when sheep hear my voice, I think
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about this song when she here, moms, they come running to me and
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you say that I am your shepherd. Why I am to follow with me?
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You know this song? Like, that's what I think about. I
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know it's a song, but I don't know how how biblical that is.
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It might be a biblical thought, not necessarily verbatim scription. You know,
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folks to be lyinging, so I don't want a lot to know. Maddie.
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That's you're about to look it up. There's a ray about that.
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See, that's the beautiful part about having producer, y'all. They they yelp
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you verify information. I am my phone here too. They help you verify
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the information information. What they say, Um, so we're gonna start at
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so it's John ten, okay, um and we're gonna start at twenty five,
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it says. Jesus replied, I have already told you you oh this
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is the NLT version. And by the way, I have already told you
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and you don't believe me. The proof is in the work I do in
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my father's name. But you don't believe me because you are not my sheep.
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My sheep listened to my voice. I know them and they followed me.
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How the what verse was the or? He started it? Um?
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Uh? Twenty five? Twitter side? Okay, okay, I'm gonna hear
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you. Run it back? Okay, is it? Is it? NLT?
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Okay, well it's right now, that's what I'm in. Okay,
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So you started at twenty five okay, big let's go Okay. Jesus replied,
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huh I have read Ah oh yeah, sorry, y'all got start.
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Okay, let me come back bring it back? Okay poop. Jesus replied,
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I have already told you. You don't believe me. The proof is
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in the proof is the work I do in my father's name. But you
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don't believe me because you are not my sheep. My sheep listened to my
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voice. I know them and they follow me. Oh that's heasy. I'm
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gonna keep going on. Twenty eight says I give them eternal life, and
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they will never parish. No one can snatch them away from me, my
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God, for my Father has given them to me, and he is more
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powerful than anyone else. No one can snatch them from the Father's hand.
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The Father and I our one. This is entitled the verse that we just
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read, which is was John ten twenty five through I think thirty that I
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just read that we just read, and it's entitled Jesus claims to be the
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Son of God. But then not only he's claiming to be the son,
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but he's claiming his people, He's claiming his click like you know what I'm
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saying, you apply to the tribe like and so even the first first verse
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and we're going somewhere a woman the gay come on, oh goodness, even
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the first verse that says Jesus applied, I have already told you. If
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so, when we can go again like literally literally there was not literally literally,
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I have already told you. It's already been spoken. It's already been
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said. So what are we going back and forth about? That's the attitude
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I received, or what are we what are we going back and forth to
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about? I've already told you, and you don't believe me, girl,
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Why is he stepping on my toes right now? Means because one of the
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things I've been praying, one of the things that order about in my mouth
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this time, lads, leap as I heard I heard the spirits say that
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I want the believers to believe again. For one, how can you call
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yourself a believer of this name either? Even disbelief is a choice to believe.
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I believe that you're lying. I believe that it's untrue. I believe
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that it won't happen. Disbelief is a belief. And so basically, it's
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saying, I've already given you the proofs. I've already told you, I
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already sicked this name up for you. But you're choosing even let's go back
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to value, you're choosing to get to believe anything outside of what I told
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you. That's where you don't understand. That's why you don't understand your value,
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because I created your value. If I'm the creative all things, y'all,
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if he's the creative of all things, and he's saying, I have
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told you, I've told you who you are, let me talk to Jelica.
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Jelica, I've told you who you are. Let's make it. Let's
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make it Real's that's real real. I told you who you are. I've
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shown you who you are. I've connected you to the places that you need
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to go and the people you need to be to believe and to prove who
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you are and you don't believe me that, and it's gonna judge. I'm
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gonna tell you something that's like, oh, come on, you know so
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but some posty line so then might not be a good so oh this is
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so powerful. What interjects to belief is that we tie people to the father?
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What do I mean by that? So think about it against the way
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I'm thinking about it, Like you know, we I've indulged in Morris shows.
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You know, had a couple in those those assists in the Morris shows,
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and in the Morris shows there's a disbelief of of of of connection or
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DNA of the child. Most cases, you know, you go through the
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voice course, autumn course, parent of course, all this stuff, like
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they judge matthis. All the shows have a consistency of proving identity. Girl,
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come on, So when identity is in question, there's a lack of
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value because there's a there's a there's a question mark where there should be a
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period. And God has said, we are so used to question marks that
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we don't even know a period exists. After he said what he said,
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there was no question mark, y'all. This is freeing me. There is
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no question mark to God's word. But because we're so used to the question
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marks that we deal with with people because they have the choice to be in
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truth or not, and it exposed we connected to our value versus saying,
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hey, they have a problem with lying, they have a problem with themselves,
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they have a problem with cheating, they have a problem with integrity.
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They have the problem, and I'm taking on the problem like it's me.
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I'm telling on myself, y'all. I'm I'm taking on the problem like like
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it's me. Yeah, I'm trying to miss up this money like it's me.
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And what happens is because we take up on their yokes and their burdens
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and other people's situations. And Pastor Jake was just talking Sarah or James Roble
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was just talking about this having to knowing your capacity level on taking other people's
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stuff on. And so now because I don't know whose stuff I'm dealing with,
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there's some confusion. I'm devaluing myself because I've strained my identity or I've
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come i connected my identity with something that was never never identifiable for me.
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Right, So when God said I've already told you, I've already told you
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who you are. I've already told you the purpose and plans I have for
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your life. I've already told you to be bold and courageous. Joshua,
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I already told you, and you still don't believe me. I couldn't.
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Just that's the way. Can you imagine Jesus saying I've already told you and
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he still don't believe. And then he said, the proof is the work
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I do in my father's name. Come. So it's like I've been around
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here healing all these people. I've been setting, I've been been releasing all
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these all this, I've been doing all these things, and you still don't
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believe who I've already said? I what else? What else you need?
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Y'all? When you say the proof is it? For? The proof is
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in the work I do in my father's name. Not only am I not
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doing it in my will, and not only am I not doing this alone?
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But who I am? Who what I do is the residue of who
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I am. That's most of our struggles. Because the word God says you
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shall know them by their fruit. Oh, this is so good. This
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it connects and says, hey, my proof is in my fruit. That's
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basically what he's seeing right, you're questioning is the fruit when I told you
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with an apple tree and you went over that got an apple and you bid
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it it it tastes like the apple. You're still saying that it should have
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been an origin. Hold different fruit, right, like whole different fruit,
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it says, but you, but you don't believe me because you are not
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my sheep. This is what I hear. You don't believe me because you
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chose not to be a part When God says he gives us a choice,
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you don't seem value is because you're not a part of the flop strong heart
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palms. When we want to be a part of something, when we want
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to be a part of a friend group, but we want to be a
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part of these opportunities, we make room, y'all. I'm about to get
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up. There's a way I'm about to get up. We're going to just
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we make rule. I think I'm about to get them because I'm revelating to
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myself, if I'm being real, ether, I'm revelating to myself. We
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make rule for the things that we want to be a part of. But
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it says, and you end up when you make room for the things that
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as a level of trust come on. Relieving and trusting coincide with each other.
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They're like they're almost like twins, you know, believing in trusting.
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I trust there's God, But do I trust that God will do something for
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me? Do I trust that God values in me? Do I trust that
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I understand that He made it? But doesn't he really like his prepreation?
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Because even I of like, I create something that I don't like. But
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this is so beautiful even with the this is a space for entrepreneurs and create
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us right, and so even in our process of creation, I'm gonna use
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I'm gonna u We just did Desiree as an example, So Desiree sent me
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some stuff that we're I'm about this a whole plus. No, she don't
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just produce for me, She do produce it for others y'all. So she
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got this whole thing on her website that y'all can go to desire Dyell dot
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com and she can offer your service. And the same thing she's doing for
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me, she can do for you guys, the same partnership. What if
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I want't be the same because we just got an oily relationship. But you
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know, she could provide She could provide you enough service too, you know
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what I'm saying. But we were working on the development of that portion of
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the website, and she sent it to me, and this gives me a
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visual of Okay, when I gave her feedback, this is good when to
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come on, When I gave her feedback on what the adjustments that needed to
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be made, so that when she exposed it to other people. I hope
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y'all hearing me. When she exposed it to other people, it could first
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first of all, be properly digested and properly identify who she is and what
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she's offering, y'all. I hope y'all hearing me. So even when God
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says, yeah, I created the thing, and you're still looking at the
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development, you're still looking at the development pieces of what God as as as
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exposed. He knows that is a result. He knows what he wants you
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to be. But we're in the developmental stages, and we can get upset
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about the development because we want to be where God already spoke. That's the
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thing about me personally, this he is like, I'm a big picture thinker.
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I just told Father how this I was like, I get so frustrated
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about big picture thinking because I want I have a sense where I want to
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control the narrative of a thing. But that's where we go back to allowing
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the having the ability to plan, but the willingness to adjust. It goes
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back to that, and so my ability to see the picture right, God's
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giving me that, and then I slide back into okay, God, but
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what do you want to do? Like how do you want me to get
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there? I can trust you with the I see the what by how?
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And then that's where the place where we get stuck in where the how is
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the development? The development peace? Yes, but my identity there were changes
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because my first identity is a child of God, and sometimes we run away
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from being the child of God, being the daughter son of God. And
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so when you have the choice to remain remain in your bloodline, and um,
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Abraham, there was a choice that was made, and the choice was
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to be separated. But lot, come on, end up, coming back,
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end up, coming back, y'all, stack check me on it,
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end up going back to where Abraham was right because and that separation caused a
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level of knowledge and for so much frustration and pain. They were like hold
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on, wait this my room saying in this solom and go moral thing,
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not this this, this, this ain't it. But Abraham, Abraham's prayers
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saved Lot. Abraham's prayers saved Lot. And I'm thinking about that correlation up.
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You have a choice to leave and separate from the will of God.
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God gives us. God gives us a a choice, the power of choice.
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And when we utilize those choices to not be a part of the flock,
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yeah, we're not gonna believe because we don't believe anything that we're not
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a part of. We don't believe anything that will part of it. So
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it says it's want to see, but you don't believe me because you are
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not my sheep, my sheep. Listen, listen. There is identifiable There
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is identifiable attributes. Thank you all the spirit. There are identifiable attributes to
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let you know that you're a part of your family. One attribute about my
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family, or I'm gonna say all you too, all my dad is side.
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One attribute on my Dada side is that we cry at a drop of
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a dad. It's a sense of ticket. We fistal by, we oh,
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we love the Lord, and we cry the drop of the dam and
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I wish my sisters was hit. Just we some crying babies. And we
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love us out. We love, we love on people. People know that
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they're in the midst of my family because we don't love on you. You
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don't get a whole. You're gonna get spoken to, You're gonna get something,
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You're not gonna be an outcast just being around us, and we protect
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them. Well I'm protected. I'm not gonna say we is me? Isnt
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me? On my mama's side, we identifiable because we yeah, we educated,
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but try try it if you want to good that yeah, and try
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if you want to that'll come out. And so there's identifiable attributes of my
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bloodline that they're black. Oh you are Smith, that's good. And so
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when God says my sheep listened to my voice, that's an attribute. My
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sheep listened to my voice. I know them and they follow me. So
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not only are they hearing me, but was sponsor sponsor the to what to
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what is being said? It is to move death or like hey, the
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response to what they say what's being said is to move. So now not
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all of we, not all we do, we have an identity identity crisis.
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We are stagnant. We become stagnant because we don't know that we're sheep.
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So we're looking for different shepherds, whoever will take us. So now
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we're dealing with the orphan spirit because I don't accept that I'm a childish god.
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It leads to my identity crisis. And now I can't listen because I
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don't believe. So it says unto it in twenty seven, just to repeat
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it, it says, my sheep listened to my voice. I know them
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and they follow me. Twenty eight says I give them eternal life and they
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will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me. So,
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y'all, this is so powerful because now he's telling the unbelievers about the believers
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promise. He's telling the unbelievers about the believers promise. He says, I
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give them. It's not I will give them. It's not that I want
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to give them. But it says, I give them eternal life and they
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will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me. He's so
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company, He said, these folks so sound in me. These folks understand
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that identity need. These folks understand that they believe that they are child them
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God. They have their identity in me. What we're talking about the other.
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They delight themselves in me so much soul that I give them eternal life.
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They shall not perish, and y'all can't do nothing about it, period,
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y'all. They do nothing about that period, For my Father has given
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them to me, and he is more powerful than anyone else. No one
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can snatch them from the Father's hand, the Father and our one. So
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he was like, I'm gonna let you know that I'm still submitted to a
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higher power. Right. This is Jesus and flesh talking. This is Red
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John t and this is what we're talking about. Right. He says,
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I'm still submitted to a higher power. But although I'm sending me into the
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higher power, I'm identified as a son and one I am. I am
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wrapped in flesh. I know who I am, and I teach my people
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to know who they are. Y'all. If we're connected to Jesus, we
31:45
kid, it's no room to not know because he's not ignorant. You can't
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be you can't be connected to a god and say, okay, you don't
31:55
have access to today's It's almost like I'm thinking about Solomon, for he God
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said I'll give you access to anything, and he asked for wisdom, and
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because of that he had everything accessible to him. He just wisdom is the
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knowledge of God. And to get wisdom, basically, this is this is
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what I'm hearing right now on the spirit. I've never thought about it like
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this. Wisdom is the knowledge of God. To get the knowledge of God,
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there has to be a relationship. And so basically he blessed Solomon for
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asking for deeper relationships. Wow. Wow, Solomon gotten blessed for saying,
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God, I want to know you more. List DESI, ray, DESI
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ray. Y'all. Solom Man was blessed because he was he was so identified
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in Christ. And let me mind mind you from his father's lineage, right
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from where his father did David. He was so wrapped up in the identification
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with Christ that he says, you know what, God, if I can
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just have more of your knowledge, if I can have just more of you,
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I'm good. That's a happy place. That's a real happy place.
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And as much as we say God, we want to be wanted, Oh,
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this is gonna go somewhere. As much as we say God, I
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want to be wanted, I want to be valued as much as we say
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that, I think God deserves to know how much he's wanted and how much
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he's valued. And that statement, those statements like that reveal our understanding.
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I won't even I almost say a hard costure. This is why I said
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why I didn't say that, because our heart posture is a result of our
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understanding. If I understand that I'm not wanting, if I understand that I'm
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not or I choose to understand this, that's taking ownership, right, hey,
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doctor Mickey, I'm taking ownership. I choose to understand that I'm not
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valuable. I choose to have the understanding that I'm on wanting. I choose
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to have that understanding that I'm unworthy my choice, and that understanding results in
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my heart posture. So if I change my understanding, I can change the
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posture of my heart. How do we get to that? It says,
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and I think we've said this multiple times before, but I'm gonna say it
34:55
again. It said the worst says um think on things above, think think
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on things above. And it also says reside in heavenly places. And so
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where I'm redirecting my thoughts or allowing my thoughts to go will result in the
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posture of my heart. It will result in my understanding what Scriptfield was that
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it's um Philippin's four and eight. Please this NLT y'all we in the NLT
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we NFT family says and now their brothers and sisters, one final thing.
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Fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right and pure and lovely
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and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Keep
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put putting into practice all you learned and received from me, everything you heard
36:06
from me, and solve me doing then God, the God of Peace,
36:09
will be with you. And so basically I think this is this paula Pete
36:13
or Pete Paul one on Paul Paul. Paul is talking to the people of
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Philippians, the Philippians, and basically this is the last letter. He's saying,
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their brothers and sisters, their community. I need you to fix the
36:29
thoughts, fix your mind, because if you don't fix your mind, you're
36:31
not gonna your your actions won't be accurate. So think about what's true,
36:36
what's honorable, what's right, what's pure, what's lovely, what's admirable.
36:39
The problem is we're fixing our minds on the wrong thing. That leads to
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the the value of ourselves. That leads to the lack of identification. And
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you know what, what's interesting. What's interesting is now that I think about
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it, Um, there's an identity, there's always an identity, but it's
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almost like identity is the object and what we decide to place the identic identity
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is where we're identified because as a residue of something. Right, So if
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I identify ignorance, I expose ignorance. If I identify kingdom, I exposed
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kingdom. If identify as a it's almost like the lady Get that's saying that
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she was a black woman. She identified as a black woman, but she
37:40
caucas She was a Caucasian. She was wrong about how I didn't but she
37:47
so she chose to take her identity to them, to the African American power,
37:53
to the peak. So I almost like you might have a choice,
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thank you, because that's Get example, Because we have a choice to identify
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as where we want to, but we can't misidentify that the fact that God
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is the creator of all things, He created us. So when we mis
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misappropriate our identity, what we do is misdidn't discredit what God has already done,
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so he can't come into a watch this. The power of agreement is
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the progressive movement that is needed to get you to your knick. But because
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there's no agreement with who you are, there's nothing that can be produced because
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guess what, Just like Jesus said, Jesus said and John ten what we
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were talking about. It is like like I know who I am. I
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know I'm a power of the Father. I know, and my sheep know
38:44
me, my chep know my voice. They listen to me. So in
38:46
the knowing, the residue of the knowing is is is to be, and
38:52
the residue of being is doing. Knowledge turns into being, Being turns into
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do because fruit gotta come from somewhere. So the seed is, let me
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get this, Let me get to know who this is. Let me get
39:07
to know who I am. How do I get to know who I am?
39:08
I get to know who my father is? How do I get how
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do I get to know that? And I'm what's crazy is I'm miss what
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I'm learning about is in school right now. There's a rake is human development.
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And one of the things that they say about human development is the first,
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for one, the most most amazing thing about it. I didn't know,
39:32
and I might be sophists, I don't know. I don't care.
39:37
I didn't know that the brain was the first thing that starts to melop it
39:42
as a as soon as conception start in those first moments, right, I
39:46
think it's in the first eight weeks. The brain is the what it starts
39:51
to develop. But it continues, y'all. I'm free in myself, y'all.
39:55
It continues to develop throughout the preckness because it's so many factors to the
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to the brain, right that it has to do. It has to go
40:07
first. What does that tell me? The mind is important, The brain
40:10
is importance of what goes into that. That development process of the brain is
40:16
important and imperative. So to develop, to develop properly and in a healthy
40:22
manner, and so all of these development process One of the other things.
40:25
The next thing that they teach us, they show us about how the different
40:30
systems where it's ecosystem, macrosystems, microsystems, whatever system it is, it's
40:37
but it basically starts with the system that the home system. Because I want
40:40
to break this down, I'm going I'm going taketabo right now, don't want
40:43
to go to But whatever the systems of of the whole, the parrots,
40:47
right, they they are the first developmental pieces of the identification process. And
41:02
so when we don't have proper knowledge of who are, who we are,
41:14
or who our parents are minding, if there there's abandon it there, if
41:19
there's no relationship there, if there's no community there, if there's no building,
41:24
if there's no development, My god, I am confused about why I'm
41:29
even here. I am confused, And so I love to figure things out
41:36
as an infant. I'm loving to figure things out as a toddler that my
41:39
parents come on. My producers shouldn't be able to to teach me and nurture
41:52
me. And so I don't know a voice because I don't even hear you.
41:55
You're not speaking to me, You're not you're not developing me. Now
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I'm confused about everythnake. So now we attached that abandonment or whatever lack there
42:04
up because now we didn't try to we didn't have to figure outselves out without
42:09
we didn't have to figure ourselves out without the proper nurture of those who were
42:17
supposed to broom us right, And so now we're comparing um and I'm trying
42:25
to calm down here because i feel like I'm gonna I'm gonna get long,
42:30
you know, the long with DEFERENTI. People are like, Okay, Paul,
42:32
wait a minute, you didn't win down a rabbit hole. I'm not
42:35
trying to go down a rabbit hole. But what I'm what I'm connecting that
42:38
too, is any the human development. It's also required in like the spiritual
42:45
development, to where we're acting abandoned bent when God is right here. God
42:52
is saying, hey, the way you get to know you is through me,
42:59
and that's how human develop work. The way you get to know yourself
43:02
is through your parents. And so when there's a lack of parental guidance,
43:07
there's a lack of identity. And so those I don't want to speak to
43:12
those of us that deal with the weather, it's an orphan spirit and having
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your parents or the foster spirit where you didn't have your parents, God ain't
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them. I have to sell that for myself. God is not them,
43:30
and not saying my parents are great, God is not them. And so
43:37
all in all our value. I wrote this down about a month ago.
43:49
Value means useful. Useful is able to be used for a practical or in
43:55
selful raise. So basically my value isn't my practicality. Basically my value is
44:04
basically understanding who I am. That value and identification goes hand to hand.
44:08
But I cannot proper identify without understanding where I come from. Without understanding where
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I come from, It's so beautiful. In Psalms one nine thirteen through fifteen,
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this is the NFT version. It says you made me. You may
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all delicate inner parts of my body and nick me together in my mother's womb.
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Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex. Your workmanship is marvelous.
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How well I know it? You watch me as I was being formed,
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and utter seclusion as I was woven together in the dark of the loan.
44:53
We have to get back to a space, or get to a space where
45:08
if we when we feel like we're not valued, or we're feeling let's stick
45:15
with the value word, when we're feeling like we're not value that we get
45:22
back to a space a vernerability and say, God, I need to know
45:28
you more because this is a space where I don't know myself. That's because
45:34
this is a space I don't know myself. And even in this place of
45:37
transition, I know we've been talking about that is Transition is a power point
45:43
for you in God's relationship to go higher. I'm talking to myself right now.
45:50
Transition is a power point or a space for you and God to go
45:55
higher. Transition is a like a wilderness point who it says, Okay,
46:00
I'm preparing you for the next I'm preparing you for the partments. I'm preparing
46:04
you for to share you. Thank you all the spirit. I'm preparing to
46:07
share you with others. But this time it's about us. M hm.
46:30
This time is about us. And if we can ground ourselves long enough to
46:36
say, okay, guy, I know you're not trying to seclude me.
46:39
I know you're not trying to devalue me. I know you're just trying to
46:45
prepare me for the next next part of the journey. If we really think
46:52
about it, the transitional parts are frustrating, but the shoot be honored because
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I'm gonna speak on my transitional part. It seemed like everything hasn't been taken
47:06
away from me. And what I mean by everything is everything that I knew
47:16
I'm taking my time with these y'all, because this this one for me is
47:20
a it's a little transparent. Everything that I knew was right, the voice
47:30
that I knew, the where we were going at sheet right, what I
47:36
believed, going back to the place of planning. But now you're adjusting and
47:45
adjust thing is a little bit uncomfortable, guy, And I know you're just
47:49
in me in the secret place, and that's like you adjusted me in the
47:52
wound. It just said in Psalm one thirty nine, it says that you
47:54
you you woven me and knitted me in a dark place, and you're taking
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me back to a similar state and where I was for me, and you're
48:04
reconstructing a thing. And I'm like, I'm supposed to be okay with this
48:07
adjustment. This adjustment is uncomfortable because now I've just learned how to use my
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limbs. Oh God, but you're trying to stretch me. And now I'm
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not to relye how to use this? Can I have to rely to use
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this? I'm not to do this again and again and again and again.
48:25
And God's like yea, and God like ya yeah. Yeah. But the
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beautiful part about it is that the transitional part gives me an opportunities for me
48:38
and you to do with it together, to trust him, to trust them
48:42
to grow. Yea, and always those that I allow to be in the
48:46
transitional places spaces in the key, because there's a delicacy there, there's a
48:52
because you're sensitive to everything. Some almost like the Israels, like they easily
48:58
went they when they crossed the real, when when they've got all across the
49:00
real away from Pharaoh, they praised them, they made a whole song up.
49:06
But then they get to the place of wilderness, and that's when the
49:07
complain wrminally starts, Oh, this ain't what we know. What you want,
49:14
we want God to change, we want God to deliver, but this
49:16
ain't will we know, This ain't will we know. But He's like,
49:22
I don't need you to know. I don't need you to know. I
49:28
need you to trust. That's so good dressed, because even for myself,
49:32
I felt like this first half of the year has been my wilderness season,
49:38
and I've never experienced in it like you know, we go through things to
49:40
life, but this was the first time that m I felt like the things
49:45
that I was accustomed to, the things that the things that I stood on
49:50
myself was stripped away. So in that space, you know, UM,
49:54
that's a delicate space because now we don't we can't do anything but trust in
49:59
him. We can't do anything but listen to him. We can't do anything
50:01
but surrender these things to him, to um. And and that's how he
50:06
reshapes our lenses. Like when we spend that, when we really spend that
50:08
time with him, that's really how he goes. And we're and we're constantly
50:13
reminding ourselves of what he said, not about what the what the people said,
50:16
not even about what our parents have said. And you know what I'm
50:19
saying, We're spending that time with him and allowing him to fill us back
50:22
up, allowing him to change our view of ourselves so that we can really
50:27
believe and understand who we already are. It's not it's not like he's trying
50:30
to get us to be any anything else. It's he is trying to get
50:35
us back to the place that we are that he's already called us to.
50:37
And that's why that that that wilderness season, as hard as it is,
50:40
it's so important because it's sometimes if it's not for that space, we won't
50:45
have a reason to trust him. We won't have a reason to really like
50:50
let our own um our own ideas of what things are goal. If we're
50:55
not in that space, I can say, like, honestly, like I
50:58
probably was still been doing life. I was doing it if I wouldn't have
51:00
had that this particular season that has really made me. I've had to choose.
51:06
I've had I had to choose to stay in this season because I could
51:08
have easily gotten out. I could have easily been like, Okay, well
51:12
I'm gonna do my own thing now, but I have I chose to stay
51:15
in it and allow the process to maturate. We have to stay in the
51:21
process because if we don't stay in the process, when we come out prematurely
51:22
as we are elevating, you know, um as he is calling us to
51:27
be who we are, you know, there's still some things in there.
51:30
If we don't allow the process that's gonna go with us, that can't go
51:32
with us. So we have to allow ourselves to go through that that that
51:37
season, as uncomfortable as it is, because this is it's very it's very
51:39
uncomfortable, and it don't make am I struggle, but it don't make it.
51:43
Don't make it. Don't make sense to my natural eye, like it
51:46
just don't make sense to me, and so we have to still trust him
51:50
even when it don't make sense. It don't make sense. It's not gonna
51:52
make sense the us because his way they're not always and his thoughts are not
51:55
I thought, what makes sense to us? And that's one thing I had
52:00
the reverlatory or revlatory momentum in prayer one day, is that our knowing is
52:12
our knowing? And will we understand the promises of God? Okay, cool,
52:15
we're working towards that. But and that's the blessings of God. But
52:21
the wonders of God is the knowledge of God's will. It's the wisdom,
52:25
but it's also the wonders because God is like, this is what I heard,
52:30
Because this was an anxiety moment, it was like, why are you
52:34
wondering? Because wondering you, wondering defeats you. My wondering enhances you know
52:42
how That's good? And so what do we what do we need to allow
52:45
God to wonder about us? M I wonder about my identity. Let me
52:53
wonder, I wonder about the plan. Letty wonder, I wonder about that?
52:59
They let me wonder. I wonder about the house, and let me
53:00
wonder. I wonder about my family. I wonder about my famure hoods.
53:06
But he won the Lord let me wonder. I think we could put a
53:14
pen anywhere. That's good you that I didn't know this was gonna go like
53:19
that. This is the power of this God, letting God do what he
53:23
wants to do in the space. This is not my space, because if
53:28
it was up to me, I look, yeah, I just thought deserts.
53:30
I said, girl, I almost didn't show up. She wasn't even
53:35
gonna show I was not gonna show up for my own podcast. It ain't
53:37
counter on the beautiful though, because I wasn't gonna show up it to it
53:42
was fun and been saying and put it on my calendar, saying, Okay,
53:45
I'm gonna be here because she was gonna be waiting on me. I
53:49
almost didn't show up. Y'all. But this is so free and so liberal.
53:52
Ray, so y'all let me know what y'all think. What y'all what
53:54
y'all take from me is make sure you come in, like share, a
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having. I really feel like God the whole word elevate. Um, God
54:31
is really elevating what we're doing here because we're allowing him room in space.
54:36
And I'm fouled at a point where you know, I'm still I'm still nervous
54:40
to be transparent, but I think I'm more open to and understanding what that
54:44
looks like without divulging in the most sensitible private areas and harming myself because they
54:50
are all voltures out there. I look, I know, I know,
54:53
I know. Period. Um so um, yeah, God is good and
55:00
I'm thankfu I'm grateful for this is the first one in me. And there's
55:04
a red doing without you know, she's behind the camera. I'm on front
55:07
of the camera. I'm so used to being in front of something and editing
55:12
and doing nothing. I don't know what to do with my hands, y'all.
55:14
Y'all, that's what you know. So this is the thing that's that's
55:15
comfortable for you now because now this is real vulnerability right here too, because
55:20
I don't get it distracted. Yeah no, because it's not. That's what
55:22
that is. But now the people really get to see you, but not
55:28
only see you, but really seeing the God in me for real, like
55:30
all of it, like it's all stripped, it's all stripped away. Well,
55:36
y'all beautiful, it's beautiful. Yeah, I'm glad they're read. They
55:42
have popping too, the pop stop my own pop pop y'all, y'all,
55:45
pop pop, y'all. I appreciate you guys more of the story of today,
55:50
like to leave you. One thing is in those moments where we feel
55:53
like we don't have a value of a questionaiur value. We gotta go back
55:57
to properly identifying us as a child of God. That's how I follow me
56:00
identifier And so will we will we act? We act like what we know,
56:08
We act like what we know? And so what do you know?
56:14
Courage you to being the word, your version, getting scriptures, whatever,
56:19
But y'all, until next week, we're not said, I said I don't
56:22
want to be long winded until next week. Life could be much more simple
56:27
if you just ask. I'll talk to y'all later. Hey, y'all,
56:35
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