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DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ EPISODE #112_HOST LATONYA MICHELLE LITTLEJOHN · DA CREW Podcast

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Good evening. I am your host, Latonia Little John, and you are
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tuned into Delayed but not tonight the podcast. This is episode one twelve and
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show eleven for myself and tonight tonight, tonight, tonight, we're gonna be
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talking about infertility. But before we get started, I want to go to
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God in prayer. Heavenly Father would come to you right now, asking you
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to be in the midst of this whole conversation. Right now, Lord God
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take over, lead us and conveil message that the people need to hear.
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We ask it all humbly in Jesus name, We pray a man. Imfertility
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is a global health issue affect the millions of people of reproductive age worldwide.
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Available data suggests that globally, one in six people experience impertility in their lifetime.
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Tonight, I we'll be talking with miss Chaquana Scruggs and ma'am if you're
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there, Hey, hey lady, Hey, how were you good? Doing
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good? So before we get started, can I get you to introduce yourself
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to the audience. Hi? Everyone, my name's Chiquana scrugs of. Let's
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see, I don't mean not sure, not sure how to word it.
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U one of the many. I'm pretty sure there's more other women out there,
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but I'm one of the ones that very open about their infertility journey.
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Okay, so to jump start, how did you find out that you you
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have some imfertility issues? In two thousand seventeen, I was officially diagnosed,
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but from two thousand two all the way up to two thousand and seventeen,
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I was in the process just trying. So one particular regular obgyn a appointment.
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I just you know, I after so many tries and I was in
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a foreign relationship. Nothing no baby. So I had a regular, my
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regular O B G y N check up and I literally asked my doctor.
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I was like, where's my baby? So at the time my y N
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at the time, he really didn't have much to say. He was just,
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you know, just looking at me, and I didn't get the type
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of response that I wanted cause he really literally didn't have nothing to say.
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Really. So after I left that appointment that that following day, I started
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doing some research to find me a new ob gyn right, and I ran
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across a lady. Her name is doctor Demchack. I read all her reviews
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and I was like, okay, this is I'm gonna give her a trying.
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So a week after I had my appointment as a new patient, and
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of course she had my medical records and everything, and the first thing,
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you know, she's seen where I had been trying for all these years,
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no baby, and she was like, has anyone ever checked your tubes?
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So you know, you're like, what's wrong with my tubes? And she
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said it's possible that your tubes could be closed? So I didn't know that.
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Could you know that could actually happen? So she sent me off to
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get some testing done. And the procedure takes like five minutes, but it's
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it's very painful. It's like it feels like beast things on your womb and
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as soon as you know what they do, they push die through you,
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you know, through your uners. Once they pushed to die in. It'll
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let you know if it's gonna float to this tube, this tube, or
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if it runs back out. Your tubes are closed. And I was officially
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diagnosed on that day, January six, which is a day before my birthday.
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So that was like the worst news to find out, you know,
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a day before day before my birthday. It was. And all after all
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these after all the years, my previous O B. G. Y N
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never took the time to even say, let me, let me do some
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testing on you. He just kept wanting to get me pre native fields and
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I was just taking them for FUNN seemed like, right, have you ever
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been diagnosed with endometriosis? No, I have. I've actually spoken with a
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lot of women that has. They My doctor M Jake, she did test
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me for that. She tests me for fibroids and thyroids as well. It
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was the only thing pcos the only thing I negative all of those. Only
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thing is my my my tubes or clothes and what it's considered it's called proximal
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tubal block, is they're blocked on both sides. Oh wow, yeah,
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is there anything that they can do to correct it? So I've had two
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procedures done where they went in to open the tubes. The only thing about
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that particular procedure is not one hundred percent guaranteed that your tubes to stay open.
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It's possible one can stay open, want to close, both can stay
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open, or both of clothes each time both of mines closed back. And
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that particular procedure is it wasn't covered under insurance, so it was out of
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pocket, which was not cheap, which was not cheat right. I've had
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my own impertility issues. I you know, I was born with spina bifida,
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and I was told that I couldn't have kids because of a birth defect.
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But I got pregnant at fifteen and I had a son sixteen years old.
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He's twenty eight now. But then I got married in two thousand and
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two, and you know, you get married, you want to have a
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family with your spouse. And immediately I was like, okay, I wanna,
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you know, jump start family. And you know, we tried and
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tried and tried some more, and I got diagnosed with endometriosis. Everything that
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they could possibly do I think I had done. I did the thing with
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a die they went in, I had a DNC done, and it's it's
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a lot, but you know, hindsight, hindsight, if you continue to
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do it and it actually worked for you, you know, the end gold
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is to bring home a baby. So you know it didn't work for me.
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I was able to pass along that information that you know I had with
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another young lady and she was able to have a baby. So I feel
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like, you know, I did my part. You know, I did
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what God wanted me to do as sharing the information and passing as along.
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And so you know, a friend of mine has a baby now because I
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was able to share with her the procedures that I went through and that I
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went So where are you at as far as treatments now? So as of
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right now, I actually I have a new reproductive endocrinologists. As of right
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now, I'm pretty much, like I want to say, it's like case.
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I call it a break because I tell everyone I tell a lot of
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women I speak with when you feel like you just had enough of it,
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if you've got the mindset to keep going, I encourage everyone to keep trying
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exhaust our options, but take a break, because it does get it does
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get draining. Your body just your body goes through a lot of changes.
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I haven't did a cycle going on two years. The reason why I was,
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I did have a success for IVF cycle in twenty and twenty when I
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did become pregnant, but unfortunately I miscarried my twins two days before my birthday.
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Yeah, so after that I just putty much. I pretty much just
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had it on hold. And my new doctor, she's one thing I like
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about it. She's went through the treatments as well, I think a few
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times, and of course she understands and she said, whenever you're ready,
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you just give a call the office. We'll get you going. The hardest
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part with doing IVF if you're doing it, you know, as a single
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person. Of course, if you don't have a donor, you do have
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to purchase sperm. That alone, that's that's that costs as well if you
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do have a known donor. My particular OPI reproductive doctor, she actually wants
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your donor to go through like a six months considered like a quarantine phase where
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they go through therapy treatments they do. They laughs, make sure pretty much
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make sure everything is going good before you actually do your mixed IVA cycle.
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Okay, I don't know if you follow the bret and Judy, but you
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know, the Brett, she didn't have any viable eggs, and so they
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implanted us eggs inside of her to give her that experience of given of giving
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birth. Because of her age, I think she's like forty nine or something
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like that. Yeah, so I guess what I'm asking you. Do you
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feel like you're in a race to beat time or do you feel like time
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is on your side with trying to get all of this done well? Once?
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At first, when I first started doing everything back in twenty seventeen,
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I felt like it was like a race for everything. But I started going
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through the cycles because I've been through a total of four idea of cycles.
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And when I first started, I didn't have like nobody to guide me.
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I literally jumped into everything on my own. The first six months of me
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doing my treatments, I actually went through depression. I had met this young
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lady. Someone introduced me to her and told me she, you know,
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she went through it, and she pretty much you know, she told me
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different doctors and everything, and she was like, don't tell anyone what you're
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doing. So I had that in my mind, don't tell anyone. But
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during that time, for six months, I was depressed because I couldn't really
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talk to nobody because nobody knew exactly what I was doing. So one particular
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day, I think I left from one of my appointments and I was like,
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I can't just sit still and not talk about this. I know I'm
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not the only one going through infertility. And after that, from two thousand
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eighteen to now, I constantly talk to people. I talk to so many
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people. People send people to me because a lot of people won't speak up,
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which is fine, I understand because I was that once, that same
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person. I tell a lot of people of some some people don't have family
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support. Some people have the family support, but they just don't understand I
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have. I have the family support, and I have some family members that
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don't quite get it, which is fine. Don't bother you. Don't bother
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me. At first, it did, Now it don't bother me. I've
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with the women that I've met and a few actually a few guys as well.
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A lot of guys wan't talk about it. They're dealing with infertility too
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because of you know, low firm. So I just I think it's a
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blessing for me to be able to, you know, someone reach out and
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it was like, I really don't know which way to go it. I
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have any resources, I'm sharing it. I actually had someone tell me,
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not a year ago, you used to start charging people, you know,
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to give him information. No, I will not, because it's already considered
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a silent topic and it's it definitely a silent topic in the black community as
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well, So I couldn't see myself charging somebody this is you know, I'll
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let you know what I went through. I give y'all the resources I got.
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You want me to look up something for you, or you just need
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somebody to talk to going through it, you can call me, message me
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on Facebook. I when I tell you, I speak to so many people.
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I actually have a friend in the UK. She found me on Instagram.
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I've never met her. She checks in now. It's been like every
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two months. She'll just send me a message, just checking in with you.
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And she actually helped me through my mischaracter and she was in a whole
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other country. You know, sometimes God sends us people you know, from
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any different you know, types of walks of life that you know He gives
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you what you need when you need it, and you know sometimes you can't
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even turn to the people that live right in your community. You know what
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I'm saying. So you know, it's good that you have that support.
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So with the IVF, can you explain exactly what that is. So with
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IVF, of course, you do all the testing, you know, layouts
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blood work, they'll take your check your ead count and everything. So you'll
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start on for like two weeks, you're you're pretty much doing self injection medications.
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The medication is actually increasing your egg quality and the size of them.
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Different clinics have there what side they'll go by before they do an egg retriever
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where they take your eggs out. But for two weeks, you take your
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medicines. Every other day you're going to the doctor to make sure the eggs
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are growing in your body, is you know, handling the medication, And
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when your eggs get to a decent size, that's when they you know,
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call you to come in to do the egg retriever to retrieve your eggs.
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During that time, once they retrieve them, they'll take pretty much everything takes
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place in a little Petrie dish, like literally is a little dish. They'll
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from there, they'll inject the sperm into the dish and for five days embryologist
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watches pretty much reproductive take place in a petri dish. On the fourth day
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is considered a resting day. They won't bother them, they won't even turn
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a light on. It's just considered a resting day. And on day five
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they'll see you know how many has grew, if any fertilize, and if
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you're ready for it, they'll call you back in to do a train.
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Embryo transfer is when they put the embryo back in. Embryos are pretty much
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a baby. It's you know, everything's together. The embryo is a baby.
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A lot of people don't get that, but the embryo is a baby.
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And doing once they do the transfer, you wait for two weeks.
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It's the two week waiting waiting period, which is like the worst waiting period
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of your life because you want to take pregnancy tests like every day and they
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can. That alone will drive you crazy too. So I've been there.
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Yeah, it's like, Okay, I'm not gonna test. Oh I'm gonna
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go test. And then I've had some cycles where I didn't test at all,
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and I've had something where I tested like every other day. When I
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did have the successful cycle, I think I tested that very first day after
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actually having a dream from one of my aunts that passed away, and after
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that dream, all I could hear her saying us it's time. So I
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remember waking up in the middle of the night and just looking around like,
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okay, what is going on? So I went into the pregnancy tests and
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there was my two lines, so that right there was just over the moon
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to be pregnant started. Of course, I had to go to the doctor.
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The doctor that I was going to at the time was in Carrie,
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North Carolina, which is like it's considered a three hour drive, but I
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drive fast, so it was like two hours thirty minutes. So going there
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every literally every other day, leaving out at five o'clock in the morning,
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driving and coming back. A lot of these trips took carry and I took.
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I went by myself. My mom went a few times, and one
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of my one of my friend girls that stays in Clover, she came down
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and went with me and one of my sisters. Actually I actually woke up.
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I woke her up out of her sleep one morning for her to at
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least just ride with me because I was tired. I was I was just
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tired. I was tired. So once I got everything confirmed, it was
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everything confirmed, pregnancy. I was a week away from graduating from the fertility
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clinic. But you know God had other point. Yeah, and and you
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know, as as we're humans, but we know we can't question God's work
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and why he allows things to happen the way they do. But sometimes you
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just have to ask why, you know, why why can't I you know?
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And then for me, what makes me sad is seeing all these babies
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that are being mistreated, and you know, parents murdering babies and you know,
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doing things like that that bothers me to my my core. Yeah,
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I'm in the same way. Yeah, it's it's a lot. It is
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a lot. I guess what I want to ask you now, Has anybody
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ever came to you and said something along the lines of, well, since
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you can't get pregnant, you should adopt. Has anybody else approached with adoption?
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How I am now versus if you would have told me that when I
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first started, I literally would have cursed you out years ago. But now
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when someone says that, I actually tell them before you even bring up adoption,
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I want you to go look at the legal way in the legal price
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of adoption and then come back and we can have a conversation because when I
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at first, when people say you should have dot, you should have adopten,
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No, I'm not. You know how much it costs to adopt the
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legal way, and you know, people like such and such don't want her
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baby. You can it, don't If I do adoption, I'm taking you
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to court. I'm going We're going from A to Z the legal way,
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right, and you know you're you're gonna pay. I'm gonna play exactly right.
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Ats From from twenty seventeen until this year, I have spent forty two
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thousand dollars. All of it has added up. I did a go fund
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me account and it did okay. I had a lot of people donate to
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it as well. I took that that the money from my go fund me,
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I actually bought some medicine, actually all my medicines. That's another thing
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with doing IBF. The medicines itself can run you up to ten thousand dollars.
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It just depends on what your insurance cover. What your insurance don't.
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The job that I had previously, they didn't. They would cover it,
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but it's only they would only cover fifteen thousand. After a couple of doctors
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appointments and you buying medicine, you've hit fifteen thousand. Everything else is out
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of pocket. So I did to go fund me. I went through my
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full one K twice to what nothing left. I've got loans. I paid
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off the loans. I'm actually finishing finishing up another loan that I did that
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was that's almost paid off. But a lot of people will act, well,
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who's helping you pay me? I'm helping, you know, I'm pretty
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much like the main source of income. Even though I've did, you know,
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did the fundraiser to go fund me, and the jobs that I had
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a little bit of coverage, you know, I was thankful for that with
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the company that I worked for. Now everything is fully covered. So I
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look at that. It's like a blessing because after everything that I pretty much
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blood, sweat and tears and put through but being put through, I'm getting
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it back with a company that actually cares. They understand, you know,
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what I'm going through. I have. I'm on a new team with my
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job. I actually told them what I was going through. It They're so
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supportive and wanting to know you know more. If it was like, do
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you mind if we ask questions? No, I don't mind at all.
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I ask many questions as you won't because you never know your questions that you're
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asking. The next person I want to ask, but they're scared. So
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I'm so easy to talk to when it comes to infertility and doing the treatments.
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So what advice would you give to any young lady, couple or whatever
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that may be going through infertility right now and don't know where to turn?
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So I would tell first, first thing, therapy, Please see a Therapist's
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nothing wrong. I got a therapist. I love her to death. When
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I first started, I didn't have a therapist. I actually started going to
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therapy after my miscarriage, and I kind of wish I would have started it
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before then, but that's when I needed it the most. After that,
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definitely look into therapy. There's plenty, plenty of resources. I can even
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see you my therapist information. You know, if you're in the Carolinas,
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I think they got offices. Just find some type to find some type of
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therapy that's for like like pretty much you can say fertility. They have therapists
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that handles that particular type of therapy. There are some support groups on social
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media. I'm telling God's honest truth. Not all of them are good support
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groups. I've been in a few. Why I deleted myself because women would
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get on there and argue. I don't want to hear any I don't want
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to see or hear nobody argue. This is not the time to be arguing.
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Some people say some of the worst things, and we're all going through
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this, and there's a negative nancy. So I removed myself from a lot
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of groups, and I just started blogging. I created my own blogging page
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on Facebook and I share it on TikTok. And if you need somebody to
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talk to, my inbox is open. I don't mind share my cell phone
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number. I'll talk to whenever. Because when I first started, I didn't
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have anybody. It was just me until I started. Oh I gotta speak,
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I gotta talk. I gotta talk. I gotta talk. I gotta
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talk, I gotta talk. Well, just know that if you need me,
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I'm here. Okay, we get these babies popping our right. I
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won't try too much because I love the Okay, but you know, I
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I know that going through all of that is a lot doing on you,
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and it causes depression and anxiety and things of that nature. What keeps you
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you going? Really? Our answer, what keeps me going is knowing that
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anything is possible. You can. My one of my best friends, he
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always tell me, exhausts all your options till you just don't have any more
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options left. Right. I thought about just stopping the treatments, not doing
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it all together, But then it's this little little thought back of my mind.
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I know, let's try it again. You never know what can happen
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next you, just like you, You never know. Even though IVF is
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not one hundred percent guarantee that it's gonna work. Some people have success on
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the first time. Some people have success on the sixth, seventh, eighth,
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ninth. You just never know when I when I start back, this
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will be my fifth IVF cycle, even though I've had it success. I'm
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I'm gonna be going back for a fifth, you know, a fifth time?
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Right, Just just keep going. It's I know it. I know
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it's hard. I can relate. I know it's hard to you know,
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especially like when seeing birth announcements, kids going back to school, those Christmas
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holidays. I know they can be triggers because they used to trigger me until
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I started going to therapy and learning my triggers. And I and I tell
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a lot of people I talk to, if you know it's gonna trigger you,
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like would recently back to school, if you have to log off social
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media for a day or two, do so for your own mental health,
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because it will have you just slump. You know. One of my biggest
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things, I'm still getting people to understand I do not do baby showers.
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I don't know if I'll ever do a baby shower right. I want a
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lot of people to understand that. Well, I ain't gonna say a lot
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of people. The people that has invited me to baby showers, some of
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'em were scared to ask me that I want to come. Some of'em
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were scared to even send me an invite, but they wanted to invite me.
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Didn't want me to feel left out, which I was. Yeah,
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And when I said, you know I won't be able to make it,
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I'll send a gift, they respected that. And it's some people out here
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now and I've heard this a few times and it really tears my nerves up
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when someone say, well, when you get pregnant, no one's gonna come
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to your baby shower because you decline the invice. That's not true because the
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advice that I did decline. Those are some of my biggest supporters. They
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and some of them have actually had miscarriages and they understand. You know when
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I when I decline, so I respect, I respect the people that respect
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my decision. If you don't respect it, and nothing I can do,
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no love laws. You really don't have to say anything to me, to
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be honest, because I said this, this is what I'm not gonna The
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reason. One main thing is when I was diagnosed January six in twenty seventeen,
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and my birthday was the next day. I was. I was at
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a baby shower and when I left that baby shower, I cried for three
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days because I was sitting in a baby shower holding in so much because I
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had just got my diagnosis. And I said, I would never put myself
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in that position. I know, I'm just not gonna bring that energy around
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someone's happy time. I'm just not outstanding a gift. I love kids.
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I got four God kids. I love them to death. I will go
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crazy over my God kids. I don't play about my little people. But
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it's just sometimes people. Some people get it, some people don't. If
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you know somebody that's going through it, never tell them to just you know,
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stop trying. Or sometimes you just being there. It's support you And
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if you want to know more, just ask. Some people might not want
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to talk about it. If you ask me anything, I'm gonna tell you
30:56
the God's understruths, the good, the bad, ugly. I want want
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you to know this is real. You see it on TV. I've been
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through it. This is this is real, Like this is real. It's
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it's just really sticking it. It happens. It happens. And never tell
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a grieving mother to get over it. I've had to tell other mothers.
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Someone told me you're never gonna get over it. You're gonna get through it.
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And at first I was like, I really didn't want to hear that,
31:27
But as the days went by after my miscarriage, that still kept replaying
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in my head. You're gonna get through it, You're gonna get through it.
31:34
And I actually met him a lady on Facebook. She was going through
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a miscarriage and she caught me in the middle of the night and she said,
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I don't have anyone but I'm going through it. I'm currently going through
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a mistatch. And I sat on the phone with her for four hours and
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she just cried because her body it was time for, you know, everything
31:55
just to pass through. And I told her, I said, you're you're
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gonna You're gonna get through it. It's gonna be hard. I'm not gonna
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tell it's the easiest thing. It's not. It's not something that you're just
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gonna get over. You're not gonna get over it. When I had my
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miscarriage, the hardest thing for me was going to the O B G.
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Y N And seeing all these pregnant bilities around me because it just seems like
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everybody had an appointment that day and I'm like, just surround it at least,
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and I'm like, you know, my heart wanted to say, I
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know y'all could have brought me in here on the day they had less traffic.
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But right, you know, you can't hide from from the world like
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that. You know, we would like to took tale and hide. But
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you know, I thank you for being brave and putting a face to infertility
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because a lot of people don't know how to address the situation and they don't
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know where to go to get help, and you know, they're stuck and
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they don't you know, they want to and they want to create a family,
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and they just don't know, you know, what to do. So
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my next question, do you know of any place that offers help for people
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who want to start that journey but may not have all the benefits you know,
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to actually get it up and running. Yeah, there there is.
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There is a clinic in New York. It's called Seeing Why Fertility. You
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can look it up. The uh, the thing with Seeing Why. They
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offer payment plans. You can you know, they set up you can set
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up payment plans, you know, for your treatments. Some they do do
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idea giveaways where they cover some of'em be free cycles. Some I'm gonna
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be ten thousand, you know, ten dollars, you know, ten thousand
34:08
dollars storage recycle. I went to CNY, right, and I went to
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the one in Albany, New York. I had the worst experience in my
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life as a black woman. The only conference I got while in New York
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was from the I got the most amazing treatment from the people at the hotel
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I stayed at, and just so happened One of the nurses was my old
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nurse at my clinic in Charlotte when I was going. She happened to be
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working in Albany that particular day, and when I walked in, you know,
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you know how you signed in where you go to the doctor and you
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know, you get all your little paperwork, insurance all, you know,
34:49
the little whole nine. So the girl just, you know, pretty much
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to put the clipboard up there sign off. So I was like, okay,
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you know, said and she was like, someone be with you.
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So I sat down. I've seen a white couple come in. They greeted
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them as you know, pretty their whole tone changed. So I was just
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looking like, you know, did did you bypass? I didn't get greeted.
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You know, I know we're from the South, right. I know
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some people in New York their their attitudes is horrible. I'm sorry, but
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down here, I was raised to speak and I was raised with man's that's
35:25
just me that that's just how I was raised. But I just sat and
35:30
watched them greet Yeah. I just was literally just sitting like they didn't speak
35:37
to me. You know, she pretty much just put the clipboard up there,
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sign off. But enough couple's coming in. So I was like,
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okay, maybe it's it because I'm black and I'm by myself. Because I
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did. I flew to New York by myself to do my do my procedure,
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and I just didn't like it. So when they called me back,
35:53
I seen the nurse and she's a white lady and she said, well,
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you know, she asked me how did I get you know, what made
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me come to seeing why? When I was telling, I said, I
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don't like the treatment that I got up front, and she was like a
36:07
lot of the a lot of report and report it right. I said,
36:12
thank you, but they they was it was. It was just so horrible.
36:16
I had a horrible experience with that particular office. After I left that
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well that cycle of course they didn't work, which was fine. A year
36:25
later before were actually before I left that procedure, they told me that I
36:30
didn't have any more sperm. I used it said, I used all my
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sperm for that procedure. A year later, the mail runs, I got
36:38
a bill, so I'm opening up. I open it up the bill and
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I'm looking and it says storage fee. I said, why do I have
36:46
a storage fee? And I was told a year ago I didn't have any
36:51
more sperm. Well, so I called them and I was like, yeah,
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you have a viola sperm and there's a storage fee. I'm not paying
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that because three people told me when I left from y'all's clinic that I had
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nothing left. Everything was zero. But now I get a bill and I
37:07
said, are you sure it's mine? It's my name attached to my social
37:12
They was, and they read all my medical ideas and they was like,
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it's yours. So I said, okay, I'm still not paying this bill.
37:20
It took me three weeks to reach the owner of the of the clinic.
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I had to get on social media and every time he would go live,
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I would go comment. I would comment. In one particular morning,
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he would get on at five o'clock in the morning, I set my lawn
37:36
clock just to get up because I knew he was gonna be online, and
37:38
I was just comment, comment, comment. I went on Google, left
37:42
a Google review. I stayed on it, so I had got so frustrated.
37:47
I called and I said, well, I'm on the line with my
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lawyer. My lawyer is listening in, and I broke it down to the
37:54
lady and she was like, hold hold on, hold on, we could
37:59
go ahead and get your appointment set up with the doctor so you can go
38:01
over everything. And I was like, okay. He took me all this
38:06
just to call and say I had a lawyer on the phone to now I
38:08
could actually have an appointment schedule for the just actually speak with the doctor.
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And they scheduled me appointment to talk with him the next day. And when
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he got on that phone, I lit in on him something terrible and he
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was like, well, I do apologize, you know, he kept doing
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I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I saying you also told me before I left
38:27
that my eggs were bad, and I did, well, you didn't say
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they were bad. You said my eggs had deteriorated, which means dead basically,
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I say, but I go to a new clinic and they did my
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testing. I have eggs. So what did you see that my new clinic.
38:45
You know, they you know, they missed it. They not missing,
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you know, you said, and they're dead, but they're they're in
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I'm literally sitting on the table and they're counting my eggs up on the screen.
38:53
And I was like, I was told no, woman said no,
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you still have your eggs. So he end up writing off the storage fees.
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And the only thing, only fee that I have to pay, it's
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just for shipping, which is three hundred and fifty dollars to ship it from
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New York to down here. So I have a vown sperm wre and then
39:15
that's and I told him, I say, sperm is not cheap. It's
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almost three thousand dollars sitting in your storage unit. And I was told there
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was nothing, you know, So I said I would never go back.
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I'll you know, I tell people this is an affordable clinic. Me personally,
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I'm not going back just because of the experience I had, right right,
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yeah, And that was for some odd reason. We get the worst
39:40
treatment ever dealing with doctors. I don't you know, I don't know why,
39:49
you know, it's like that, but we get the short end of
39:52
the stick when dealing with doctors. M yeah. And I tell a lot
39:57
of people I've had some white reproductive interchnoledges doctors their their bedside. My manners
40:07
is perfect, but some of them just had their ways with it can be
40:12
good on one thing. Dad was something else. And my the ray that
40:15
I had in Charlotte, I love her to this day. If I happened
40:19
to send her emails, she probably would respond. And I haven't seen her
40:22
in almost three years. She was pretty much I called my life saver because
40:29
I did do an IVF cycle where it almost took my life. So she
40:36
she got me up in enough time because I had went into a bad coughing
40:39
spasm to where my oxygen levels was like I was about the flatline, that's
40:45
how bad I was coughing. And she got me up just in time during
40:47
the procedure to wake me up and got me out. And you know,
40:52
when I woke up, you know, I'm looking what's going on, And
40:54
she told me she looked like she had tears in her eyes. She was
40:59
like, I stopped the procedure because you were coughing so bad and your oxygen
41:02
levels was flattened. Was pretty much lowing out. They kept going down and
41:07
down and now so I was like okay. And after that, I was
41:10
like, I'm taking a break. And that's when I had took a whole
41:14
year off from doing anything and just started talking to people, finishing up talking.
41:19
I never stopped talking to people even while I was going through my treatments.
41:22
I never stopped talking to people. Did you did your body have like
41:29
a bad reaction to something that they were doing. I'm thinking it was the
41:34
anesthesia, to be honest, because you know they when they was doing it,
41:39
they had to put something down my throat and it was just uh horrible,
41:46
And I just honestly think my body just did And it was so crazy
41:50
because I did the procedure before, but that particular go around, my body
41:53
was just not. I coughed, I was and I was so sore from
41:58
coughing. My stomach was being I was already sore from being on all this
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medicine and my eggs worth two times in normal size to coughing to where I
42:07
was cutting off my cutting cutting off my own oxygen. Wow. Yeah,
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So what's next for you? What's next for you? Right now? To
42:22
be honest, I'm not in a rush to start back yet. I'm my
42:27
mind saying I'm ready. My body, my body is saying you're getting there,
42:34
and my heart is just like, whenever you're ready, let's go,
42:37
you know. But when I do do my next cycle, it's gonna be
42:40
with my new doctor with new clinic, where I'm not gonna say new because
42:44
she's my doctor and they're okay than Charlotte. So whenever I'm ready, all
42:50
I have to do is just pick up the cup phone and say, hey,
42:52
I'm ready. I already have my medicines. This U When I did
42:58
get my last set of medicines before or insurance read it, it was almost
43:02
eight thousand dollars. I paid two hundred and fifty two dollars for my medicine
43:07
because of the company I worked for. Let's covered. Wow, that's amazing.
43:15
Well, we're getting to that point in in in the show where okay,
43:20
we have to in things. But before we go, if anybody would
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like to reach out to you to maybe have you as a guest on their
43:31
show, how can they reach you? You can reach me on Facebook.
43:37
My Facebook My regular page is Shiquana Taquia. I do have a blogging page
43:45
which is my Journey Continues. You see me a friend requests message me,
43:51
that's fine. If you want my number, I might exchangeing numbers and we
43:53
can go from there with it. Okay, So I'm gonna be keeping up
44:01
with you to find out how you're going in this process, and I want
44:05
you to know that you're not alone. If you need me I talk a
44:09
lot, but if you need me to just listen, I don't mind.
44:15
You got access to my inbox. If you need my number, I got
44:19
you. So I just want you to know that you're not going through this
44:22
by yourself, right for it system. Yeah, I appreciate it. I
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appreciate it. I want to thank you for joining me tonight and sharing your
44:37
journey with infertility. It's my hope that it reaches somebody and they're able to,
44:45
you know, figure out where they need to be in their journey as
44:49
well. And when I end my show, I just like to you know
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the title of my show is delayed, but not denied. Life made throw
45:01
us from curve balls that will delay us, but what God has for us
45:07
is never denied unto us. And so with that being said, I will
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see you all on Tuesday, eight p m. I'll be here join me.
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Thank y'all for coming out. God bless you. Good night. Every
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second Monday at fourth Friday of each monthy is she that you don't want to
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miss? Fine,