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Episode #198: Navigating Responsibilities, Passions, and Self-Care for a Fulfilling Life · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Hi, everybody, welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev. Good day,
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  good morning, good evening, and good night. No and my policy
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  doing this, don't just keep talking Bev. It's okay. I'm sure I'll
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  find something to talk about. So how are you doing. I'm doing well.
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  Just I feel like I needed some more sleep, but that's okay because
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  it's Sunday and I can take a nap, so I'm good. Nice.
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  I'm like, all right, I just really took my pajama top off,
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  put a couple of shirts on, so I'm hanging free, just so you
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  know, and probably I don't really care. I'm just telling you. I
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  did what I needed to do to show up. I did do my hair
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  and makeup. I did that part. I did think about putting just a
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  hat on, not even doing my hair, but I was like, I'll
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  put more effort into it. It's funny that you're saying all that because I
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  just threw on a necklace, so hey, that's it. You know why
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  you have makeup on though, And I did brush my hair, so hey,
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  it's a good thing. We're doing good. Right. You're welcome.
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  Yeah, for everybody watching, You're welcome. That's right. So the reason
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  why so people have an understanding. Yesterday I had a full day event and
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  got up at I mean, now you share all the little intricate details.
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  However, I got up at shoot around four am and went all day with
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  an event that I had a workshop. So we started opening with a meditation
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  at nine o'clock, which was sure, it was like fifteen minut it's meditation
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  and setting intentions for the day, and then the event actually started at ten.
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  So that workshop went from ten to four, with a couple breaks and
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  lunch, and then we reconvened. So people who you know, chose the
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  upgrade to choose to attend the evening piece that went from five and we ended
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  at eight and then of course tearing everything down. So I got home I
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  think a little after nine, and then to sit and kind of wind down
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  for a few minutes. And when you're sitting there, fall asleep in your
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  chair, you know it's time to go to bed. So I did get
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  like over eight hours of sleep, which is typically unusual for me. I
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  don't usually get that much. It's usually maybe six or seven. So getting
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  over eight hours and they still feel like I needed to sleep a little bit
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  longer. But again, I can take a nap today and it's okay,
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  but just spending it's a lot of energy to be in the forefront and teaching
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  all day. And you know, still even though I had some helpers,
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  still making sure everything is lined up and doing the behind the scenes stuff,
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  people talking to me about different things, holding the space for that many I
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  had twenty seven people but the event, then the helpers, and then a
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  couple vendors. So it just takes a lot of energy to do that for
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  that length of time. And it's been the biggest event that I've facilitated.
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  And when you do something like that, so first of all, in the
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  process of doing it, I mean I've done other events similar but not of
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  this caliber. And so I already had an idea of some of the things
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  that needed to be done, and then there were some other things to learn
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  along the way. So keeping notes of that, keeping you know, a
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  spreadsheet and a checklist, and every time I thought about something, I put
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  it on that list, so I made sure I remembered it. There were
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  things that I you know, didn't give attention to, well didn't. It
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  didn't come to the forefront of my brain until like like right now when the
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  events happen and I'm like, oh, shoot, I didn't do that,
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  and so I you know, last minute things that popped up and and uh
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  so having to make a note of them, take care of them. And
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  so it's like once you've done that process and things are set up, now
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  I have something to refer to for the next for the next thing. Yeah,
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  and so there's that piece. So the prep prep work and this.
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  I've been prepping this since it started in October and we are in February,
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  right. And then even though even if I didn't have other things going on
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  in my life, meaning like a full time job and some other things,
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  that amount of time would have been perfect. It would have been great.
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  But when I have all these other things to tend to, I know,
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  now, if I'm going to have that type of a schedule of these other
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  things, I do need to give myself a little bit more time. Had
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  I given myself a little bit more time, I thought I was giving myself
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  enough time. Let me put it that way. I did think October and
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  the events in February plenty of time. Right. Yeah, you would think
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  honestly, like you said, you have a full time job and the full
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  time. I mean, and then on my mind is thinking how much of
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  our stuff has habits. But you're already you gave yourself, you a lot
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  of an amount of time. That was generous, you know that, I
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  would think. But then when you have a job and you have other things
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  that are going on with that job that you have to kind of participate in
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  on the weekends and a lot of other stuff, Yeah, it could be
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  a lot. And there were some There were just a couple of things on
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  my list that I wanted to do. But as it got closer, I
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  just gave myself permission to be okay, to say I'm not doing it nice.
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  It's not that crucial. It's not going to make or break the event.
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  So I just like, nope, not doing that. Nope, not
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  doing that. And that was super easy for me. And I have to
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  say, in past, in past behaviors and programming, you know, the
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  perfectionists and the people pleaser and the fixer and all the titles, right,
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  all the roles that we take on in our life, I probably would have
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  been a basket case doing this, But it was really with all the things
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  that I am going on and planning this, it actually was fairly easy,
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  and I didn't put a whole lot of pressure on myself about it, if
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  that makes sense, and gave myself permission to be okay with how things unfolded
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  and relaxed more into trusting the process of the universe. And I you know
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  I've shared before, I have that statement. I say, I have all
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  the time, space and energy I need to complete the tasks that need my
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  attention every day. It was like that, It's okay, what do I
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  want to focus on today? What do I got to get done? Now?
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  I'm working a full time job, so in the evenings, get home,
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  have dinner, and then work on this event. And so it would
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  be two to four hours of that every night, and especially for the last
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  two weeks before the event. I told my husband, and when people would
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  ask me to go do things, I'm like, no, I got to
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  focus on this all right. This is a priority to me. I have
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  a room full of people coming and this is this is important, right,
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  It's important me for me to show up in a way that is beneficial for
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  them because they're coming for a transformation, a change in their life, to
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  to to get some tools and learn how to do some things different. And
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  so it's important. That was my focus. And so I would be invited,
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  like after work to go have a drink or go hang out. I'm
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  like, no, thank you. I like, you know, I'm not
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  a big follower of football, but to go and hang out with friends and
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  watch football game, I kind of enjoy that every once in a while.
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  Nope, not doing that. I spent all last Sunday on the computer getting
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  things done. So it's just, you know, time in time management is
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  huge, and even just not when you're doing something like I'm doing, just
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  in your day to day life. Time management is important, especially when it
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  comes to making sure you have enough time for yourself. And if anything that
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  you put on your calendar, it's make an appointment for yourself. Make an
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  appointment to just sit and breathe, or you go outside, maybe you have
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  a garden or go for a walk, or you go to the gym.
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  Right, being sure, even when life is going on and there's a lot
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  going on, a lot of pieces of parts moving, you still make that
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  appointment with yourself. And I think with you, I shared that I didn't
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  really realize it till recently, which was pretty funny to me that you know,
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  we talk about meditation and just sit and be and breathe. And I
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  was like, you know, I really and I think I s this year.
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  I really don't think I'm giving enough. I don't I don't make time
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  for meditation because I have been having so much going on. But then I
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  thought about it and I said, you know what, every morning, I
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  get up and I have the first thing I do, well, not the
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  first, probably like the second thing I do. I go to the bathroom
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  and then I get a hot cup of I make myself a hot cup of
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  lemon water. It's first thing. It goes in my body when I get
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  up, and I sit with that for like fifteen minutes every morning. And
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  here I was telling myself, I'm not meditating on a regular and I'm doing
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  it every morning. And I didn't. I didn't correlate those two things.
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  It was just funny. When it finally hit me, I'm like, well
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  you are actually, because it wasn't. It wasn't a oh, I'm going
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  to go meditate because that's typically what we do, right. Oh, I'm
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  gonna go meditate. I'm gonna go have my cup of hot lemon water.
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  So the two didn't connect for me for a while. Even though I'd been
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  doing it. I've been doing this for over a year and a half.
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  Nice, it is funny. I have a question for you. So doing
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  all this stuff, and I know you do your job and all that stuff,
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  but this other stuff is like this is your passion, right, yeah,
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  so this passion. And so in the evenings when you're spending the extra
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  two to four hours, does it feel like oh, daunting at times or
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  do you feel like you're just like, this is my passion, this is
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  what's pulling me and driving me. You don't ever even don't even think about
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  it's like exciting or how do you feel when you're doing this stuff? Just
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  exciting? Exciting? Yeah? Yeah, So so even just so people know
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  where I work is it's been fun. I mean, the days go by
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  so fast and we laugh, we talk, we plan, we you know,
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  we're almost like party planners and it's it's pretty fun. And like right
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  now we're planning a two day event called Rhythm and Bruise and it's going to
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  be over Father's Day weekend, and so like we're we just planning these big,
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  huge parties, right they're fundraisers, but they're just big parties and so
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  so that's fun because that actually I learn from doing that. I'm learning from
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  my own business as well. Like some of the things that I that I
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  learned from my job I implemented im planning this event I just had, So
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  it was very it's very beneficial. I'm meeting so many people and making a
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  lot of connections, but no so so I go do that and it's it's
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  like easy. Like I've had. Every job I've had has been because of
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  where I was at with myself, so stressful and you know, again perfectionism
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  and people pleasing and fixing all the things, and the stress and the high
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  demands on time and the deadlines and it just wasn't wasn't fun when I was
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  doing it, and I knew it, but I did it for the money
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  and I that's why I was there the benefits. But this job is it's
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  lighthearted. It's ease and flow for the most part. You know, there
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  are deadlines, but it's not like it's not brutal. Let's put it that
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  way. So I just want to give that background so people understand that my
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  job I'm actually I actually am enjoying my job. It's probably the first job
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  I've had in my entire life that I've been enjoyed. So but that also
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  has to do with where I'm at with myself. So with that, so
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  I do that all day and then I come home and I'm like, Okay,
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  I got class coming up. What needs to be done? Because I
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  mean, every time I have a class, every time I teach, I'm
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  helping other people, I'm helping transfer help make a transformation. I can't do
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  it for them, but I get to contribute to their journey and their desire
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  of what they're wanting in their life of change and transformation and and to be
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  that guide. And so it's like it's more of a fuel than a than
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  a then I have to So it's the get to. I get to do
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  this and I'm good at it, and I know I'm good at it,
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  and I know it's going to be beneficial, and so it's fun because I
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  don't I mean, I teach a variety of things, and so it keeps
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  it interesting for one, because I need variety. I know that about myself.
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  If I'm doing the same thing over and over and over, I get
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  bored and then I change it and then it gets all out of whack.
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  And then I got to figure out how to fix that problem. So I
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  just have a variety of topics they teach and it just keeps it interesting for
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  me and I make connections with different types of people. Yeah. I just
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  wanted to make it a point of it to say that because I think a
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  lot of times we don't we don't even know what we're doing in life and
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  if we're benefiting ourselves, if we're on our path or any of that stuff,
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  and our passion is our path. Yeah. So it's like if you're
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  doing all that stuff and you're funding and it's thrilling you, and it's it's
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  exciting and all these things, that's what I want people to understand. It
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  doesn't you're not just coming home and working and like, oh God, I
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  got to do more of this so I can do this. You're coming home
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  and doing it because you're excited about it, you like doing it, you
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  thrive on it, you're not you like it. Probably get a resurge of
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  energy by the time you get home after you've had that little time for eating
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  and stuff like that, and then going back to it that you're like ready
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  and charged up, and then you're grabbing a hold of whatever you gained information
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  that day, knowledge, skills, whatever, and implementing it into your your
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  your I was going to say your side hustle, but it's not your side
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  hustle. It's it's it's your passions. So it's like it's important for us
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  to recognize it's not like you're going out and killing yourself. You're actually you're
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  because you're working many hours, but you do. It's not it's not this
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  typical quote unquote work word type of environment. It's it's more of a passion
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  thing. And when we're following our passions, it is with ease and grades
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  and things are different. Do we have do we encounter some things? Yeah,
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  but you just go. You you're opens, you're open because you're in
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  your passion, so you're you're not restrictive, you're just open, you're creative,
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  you're doing all those things. So it's like at that time, you're
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  allowing all that information to come into you that what you need to do next
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  is like we don't even have to think about what we have to do next.
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  Having the lists are importance. They really are important. It's like getting
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  to the grocery store and it's like what was I looking for? I forgot?
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  Like you get there. You could have ran into someone and is like
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  totally everything that you had stored up in this your ram and your brain here
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  and it's like all of a sudden, you have a conversation with someone and
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  it's like it's all gone away. So it's awesome because you're you know,
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  we get, we get when I was, when I was working in full
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  time jobs and you know, multitasking was always a thing because they wanted to
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  you had to be a multitasker in order to be hired to answer the phone,
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  take appointments, get you know, collect money whatever, talk to the
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  doctor, what all the stuff that was happening at one time. And it's
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  it's crazy to me, like you could go through all that environment, but
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  it's not necessary, Like it's not unless it's your passion, it's not necessary.
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  I just go back to the whole. If it's not a hell yeah.
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  I keep telling people that it's a no, because it's like it's just
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  that to me helped me recognize where the passion's at, because the hell yeah,
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  passion yeah. And it's awesome that you're implementing time for yourself because it's
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  and it's very important. It's very important. To put it on the schedule.
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  I don't. I haven't been doing that, and so by the time
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  I get done with things and then now I'm just decompressing when I get home,
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  or I'm just whatever. Like you said, when you're around all the
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  energies and stuff, you get home and it's like it's like almost a crash.
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  I remember, it's been a long time and this has not been my
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  experience, but I remember some speaker talking about how we protect our energy and
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  all this stuff, because now that you're a speaker or you're on podcast and
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  everything else, people are actually without even knowing they're doing it, can hook
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  into your energy or pulling from your energy, like all these things. And
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  I can't remember who it was that talked about it. So it's like,
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  have you noticed anything like that at all, or like that you feel feel
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  more drained certain days, or like last night, you probably were like buzzing
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  by the time you got home, but tired at the same time. Right,
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  Yeah, so yesterday, when I say it's a practice about keeping your
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  energy high, it's a practice. And you know that just as much as
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  I do. When you're in a room full of people and you're the main
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  attraction, and keeping people's attention and keeping it light hearted. Yes, there's
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  some heavy stuff that we had to move through, but holding holding all that
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  space of that room, yeah, burst of energy. Like time flew by.
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  It didn't even seem like I'd been talking that long, and oh,
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  we gotta go to lunch, and then oh my gosh, it's time for
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  Oh my gosh, it's the end of the event. You know, it's
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  just like wow, so fast. And of course when we were in that
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  that element of enjoying what we're doing or loving what we're doing, time just
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  goes by so fast those things that we dread, right, it's like,
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  oh, it's only been five minutes, feels like it's been three hours,
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  which which makes me how so then in that case, it's like how do
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  we maintain that milk that while you're in it and be in it without and
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  so it slows it down a little bit. I just wonder, like so
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  in my mind because like to stay in that space too. But it's like
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  there's so much, there's so much, like you could I could probably ask
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  you. We could probably have conversations for days just for the firm. Yesterday,
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  Yeah, oh for sure, it's like super downloads, like we're going
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  to give you all this information at one time, and then it's like I
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  can only imagine how because I know how I felt, and those kind of
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  things, because when you're when you're doing releases and you're releasing this stuff from
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  you, it's like sometimes it's kind of some heavy stuff to look at,
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  and it's it is working through those spaces. But the thing is when you
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  do these groups, it's a nurturing environment. It helps it helps the persons
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  that are there, first of all, recognize you're not alone. That was
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  one of the great things that you've done. I remember doing the retreats or
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  going to the retreats with you that you had set up, and how you
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  would you would bring everybody into the group into like a circle and like okay,
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  like they're in a circle. Okay, everybody that's experienced has come into
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  a circle. And it's like almost every single time, everybody came into a
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  circle, and it was like asking about just like death and sexual abuse and
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  you know, all these all these cancer like all these things, and it's
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  recognizing that we're not alone, but we keep these we compartmentalize that this these
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  traumas what we would refer to as traumas, but they're emotional for us,
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  and so we can't always we're not ready or able to handle it, maybe
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  exactly at the time it comes in, so we put it aside so sometimes
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  we can deal with it later. So it is a lot. There's a
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  lot of stuff that goes on with everything. There's a lot of processing.
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  But my god, afterwards, the freedom that you receive is phenomenal. But
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  like I said, the biggest thing, and the other biggest thing that you've
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  taught well was being And now I look at everybody in the eye, but
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  you got to sit with our knees basically touching, touching the other person's face
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  and looking him in the eye. When there is music playing and it's like
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  people, you're strangers, you don't even know these people, and it's like
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  most of the time, and I've ever heard my kids say, oh my
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  god, they were just kept staring me in the eyes. I got uncomfortable,
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  you know. But I also on the either side of that, I
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  see the kids are people getting down and talking to the littles and like,
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  do you understand, and it's like full on eye contact and they're wanting to
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  look everywhere else because they're like they're like nothing more than an animal that feels
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  like they're trapped, right, so it's fight or flight. They're either gonna
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  bite you or run. Not really, but yeah, in those situations.
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  But that's kind of how it feels. And it's like it just makes me
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  kind of look back a little bit further, like where this stuff comes from
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  doesn't necessarily mean that's where it came from for me or any of those kind
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  of experiences. But we do carry so much stuff, and it's such subtle
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  stuff. It's almost like dust in the dust off your shoulder, you know
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  what I mean, Because once you're through it, it's like it was no
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  big deal. It's like, oh now I understand. Oh everything now everything
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  makes sense because I'm it's making sense because I'm understanding how it was that I
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  got to where I'm at right now, how I gained so much information,
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  how I wanted to gain more information because I didn't feel like I had enough
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  in the first place, or especially like raising kids. Oh my gosh,
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  I feel like I have so much more now. But then there's so much
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  much more now, even for the kids, for foods and everything else,
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  Like there's just so much more it's not just about how we talk to them,
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  but it's a lot about all that stuff. So it's just like all
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  this growth and it's phenomenal. It's phenomenal. So thank you, thank you
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  for showing up, because if you didn't show up, I would never have
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  shown up. And that's the truth. It is, it's the truth.
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  I just didn't have it. I didn't have the confidence and I didn't have
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  any of that stuff, and it's it's not something. And you were so
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  patient too, and that's how you are such a great teacher because you kind
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  of hand out the snacks, like the little tidbits of information, and it's
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  like we can do whatever we want with it. Oh wait a minute,
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  I don't have to answer the phone call every time it rings, every time
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  that person calls learning boundaries, not even realizing I never had boundaries. You
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  know, it's like something so so strange, and it's like then you go
• 23:51
  into these groups and you learn so much, You learn so much. It's
• 23:53
  such a benefit. I'm sure even like their vendors that were there were probably
• 23:57
  learning just massive amount of information. And it's like it's like a gateway.
• 24:02
  You know, we always talk about the gateways or portals and the eleven eleven
• 24:06
  and two twenty two or two to two and all that stuff. To me,
• 24:08
  when you have a huge group together like that and you're doing all the
• 24:11
  things, you're teaching, and it's open and you got this slow going through
• 24:15
  you, it's it's your receiving information. They're all receiving downloads. It's like,
• 24:18
  there's you're up you're upgrading. Whether you understood anything that was happening in
• 24:22
  that room or not, you you something is shifted inside of you and you
• 24:26
  may not even realize it yet. That's the that's the phenomenal parts about these
• 24:32
  groups and these gatherings that you do. So kudos Air five and that it's
• 24:41
  interesting and there's so much in what you just said. I'm like, oh,
• 24:42
  I talked about that. Well anyway, I don't write any notes down
• 24:47
  and I'm just listening to you. I'm like, so at the beginning of
• 24:52
  the event, I said, I said, you know, I just want
• 24:56
  you to take a moment right down your intentions. Why are you here?
• 24:57
  Wait, well brought you here? What is it you want? What do
• 25:02
  you want to shift? What do you want to change? What are you
• 25:03
  looking for? What tools right? What's your intention for this being here and
• 25:10
  you have twenty seven people sitting there writing right. Yeah, that was first
• 25:15
  thing at ten little after ten, and so I, uh, that's all.
• 25:25
  That was it. There was no conversation around it. Write down your
• 25:30
  intention? What do you want to get out of today? So at a
• 25:34
  little after three, after teaching all day, I asked you, so you
• 25:41
  you send an intention for what you wanted to get out of today? Was
• 25:47
  that intention meant? Twenty seven people nodded their head. And that is how
• 25:55
  the union And that's what I told him. I said, that's how the
• 25:56
  universe works. I did not ask each and every one of your what your
• 26:00
  intention is, and and I just write it down, put it out there,
• 26:04
  let the universe take care of it. It's gonna flow to me.
• 26:07
  Whether it comes through me, through the person next to you, from a
• 26:11
  vendor, from a conversation you have outside of this room, doesn't matter how
• 26:18
  you get it, you got it. And to have every person in the
• 26:23
  room nod their head, they got whatever their intention was, that's what it
• 26:30
  was for. There was there was one lady. We did an exercise where
• 26:37
  they got in groups of three and I had them, you know, just
• 26:42
  talk, talk, amongst each other, some of the things that they're hanging
• 26:47
  on to. No, that's not it. It was it was the eye
• 26:51
  contact one that you were talking about a moment and I had them I said,
• 26:56
  just face face the person in front of you and and make make eye
• 27:03
  contact. Don't talk, just sit and play some music. Listen, And
• 27:11
  at one point I said, see your sister. I had one man in
• 27:18
  the room of twenty six women, okay, twenty like one man in the
• 27:25
  entire love of like third that's awesome. And then I found out it was
• 27:32
  like seventy four or something. That was amazing. That's phenomenal. So I
• 27:38
  said that was when I said, see your sister. One lady just start
• 27:45
  crying, and I just kept on with my thing. You know, see
• 27:52
  your sister, see you and look in their eyes or be your brother.
• 27:59
  No, because you know, people like to talk. When those people like
• 28:00
  to talk, that's having avoidance because they don't want to be seen or they
• 28:07
  are trying to avoid whatever emotions are coming up, and so they start talking
• 28:12
  as a distraction. They distract themselves. And so I'm like I had to
• 28:17
  say that several times, see your sister without speaking right and being gentle as
• 28:25
  I'm guiding them through this, and when it was all done, of course,
• 28:29
  I asked, you know, what came up for you? What was
• 28:30
  it that I saw? I saw a lot of tears, so what was
• 28:34
  what were some of the things that were coming up? And the lady,
• 28:37
  the one lady, she said, all you said was sister. She goes,
• 28:42
  I've had a huge struggle with my sister, and then she proceeded to
• 28:47
  talk about it. So it could just be that one thing. And then
• 28:49
  I had another person, a young, young lady. I don't know how
• 28:53
  old she is, but I know she was probably under eighteen there and she
• 29:02
  she was there for most of the day with her mom, and then they
• 29:07
  were there all day and then they were there for the evening piece as well.
• 29:11
  And in the evening we had the sound bath. And just so you
• 29:15
  know, three quarters of the room had never experienced a sound bath, so
• 29:18
  that was huge to introduce them to that and also to the people who came
• 29:26
  to do the sound bath. You know, that's going to be beneficial for
• 29:29
  them and their business. But this girl, this young girl, you know,
• 29:34
  at the end, you know, I ask what what was one of
• 29:40
  the things that resonated with you? The most today and that was it.
• 29:44
  She was there all day and she's like the sound bath because she has some
• 29:48
  physical problems and she's that I've basically she had never felt that much rest in
• 29:55
  a long time. Nice. And it's and sometimes like that, like you
• 30:02
  go through an entire process and you're like, why am I here? What
• 30:06
  is happening? Why did I pay for this? And then that one thing
• 30:11
  at the end of the evening, bam, there it is right. So
• 30:15
  she may not have never experienced a sound bath on her own. It wouldn't
• 30:18
  even probably been in her wheelhouse, you know, not even an option for
• 30:22
  her because she didn't know what it is, where to get it, whatever,
• 30:26
  And here she had the opportunity and absolutely loved it. And there's no
• 30:32
  accidents right as far as I'm concerned, and from my experience, there is
• 30:34
  no accidents. It's all divine. There's there's always a reason, and we've
• 30:38
  talked about that recently, even to the point of whatever pops up into your
• 30:42
  YouTube, it's it's meant to there's something in there, one little nugget,
• 30:47
  and it may or there may be several, but there's always a reason that
• 30:51
  it gets your attention. It snags your attention right always. So that's pretty
• 30:56
  that's pretty great. That's pretty great, especially when you say about a young
• 31:00
  person like that too, and moving the energy is huge, It's huge.
• 31:06
  I had a client that I saw yesterday. I referred her to the acupunctures
• 31:08
  that I had been seeing. She I asked her if she had seen her.
• 31:12
  She said, I said, wait, don't wait, don't answer that
• 31:15
  yet, because I was just putting hands on her and I wanted to see
• 31:18
  what I felt. And I was like blown away how the hips were open
• 31:23
  and how they and they haven't been this whole time. We will get them
• 31:27
  to we've gotten her to a certain point. But that was it because I
• 31:32
  cannot that's not I can't even say that, because that's like limiting. It
• 31:37
  was for her to be able to go to this person. And this is
• 31:38
  why I'm bringing it up, because it's shifting the energy again. They're working
• 31:42
  on the energies of the Meridians and it's like the shoulder that we had gotten
• 31:45
  so far to where we had gotten it to so much better. Now it's
• 31:49
  one hundred percent. And that's just by shifting energy. And you talk about
• 31:53
  this young girl being there and having some body issues and then she hears that
• 31:59
  and then it's it's gonna shift something in there. It probably broke some stuff
• 32:01
  loose. I mean that's how it feels like to me. It just breaks
• 32:05
  stuff loose. You don't have to carry it anymore. And now you finally
• 32:07
  get to see what it is. And my god, when we when we
• 32:10
  get that stuff out of the way, it's again it's so free. It's
• 32:14
  so free you You then on the other side of that, it's like,
• 32:17
  oh, well, how do I behave now in this space? Sometimes when
• 32:21
  you process things because because the old way just doesn't even feel right or work
• 32:24
  at all anymore. So you because you've released things that you didn't know you
• 32:29
  were holding onto, patterns, thoughts, right, stuff you've just put in
• 32:34
  boxes with inside self. So it's it's pretty awesome. And then the most
• 32:38
  amazing thing is that you set up all this You had it all organized throughout
• 32:44
  the whole day in it and that's a big day. That's a big day.
• 32:46
  Now you've done retreats and how many people do you think you've had?
• 32:50
  What's some max you've had on the retreats, Because I know you've had a
• 32:52
  lot of people. I think it the other ones. When I did that,
• 32:55
  there was the most I had was I think, Okay, I was
• 33:01
  gonna say, I know it was up there. I know that it was
• 33:04
  up there because that was it and it's full day, two days, full
• 33:07
  events. Yeah, but it wasn't. That wasn't There wasn't as many moving
• 33:13
  parts in that as there was in this one. That's all I was gonna
• 33:15
  say is now you have vendors, Now you're planning on the sound, bath,
• 33:19
  you food, you, you know, all this whole thing throughout the
• 33:23
  day. So you didn't even organize your stuff. So now on the other
• 33:25
  side of that, did you enjoy it? The whole organization of all this
• 33:29
  stuff. Is that something that you want to do in the future or is
• 33:31
  that something that you'll delegate up to somebody else to do because you're going to
• 33:36
  put your focus into whatever. But you're very organized. That's why I'm asking
• 33:40
  these questions because it's like you're you're very organized and structured. That's your nature.
• 33:45
  It just is your nature. So from what it comes with, you
• 33:49
  know, it comes with over thirty years of administrative you know, detail,
• 33:53
  being in tough detail and having to be organized, but also when in in
• 33:59
  the world of marketing and stuff, you can repurpose a lot of your your
• 34:07
  content and and so it's like what I just said. Once, once I've
• 34:12
  been through the process, I've created checklists. I have these things, what
• 34:15
  worked, what didn't work, you know, all these these pieces. Now
• 34:20
  I can just repurpose that. I have a go to list, and I
• 34:22
  can just repurpose, maybe just change the name. But I already have the
• 34:25
  emails all set up. I already have all the marketing set up, and
• 34:30
  and so it's just like cut and paste. So it's it's a little quicker
• 34:36
  a lot of I mean, when I teach, it's like, oh,
• 34:42
  you know, in the past, being fresh and new to it, I
• 34:46
  want to tell everybody everything right now because they need to know all this stuff.
• 34:51
  They need to know all this stuff right Who's like an urgency. I
• 34:53
  gotta, I gotta, I gotta talk really fast because you need to know
• 34:57
  all this stuff and that right. And I I did. I talked super
• 35:00
  fast before, and this time I had just a few things written down that
• 35:07
  I wanted to cover and then the rest of it just flow. I'm like,
• 35:12
  well, they're going to get what needs to come through right now.
• 35:14
  And it's not. What I think they need is the universe is going to
• 35:15
  guide me to say what needs to be said and you to whatever their intention
• 35:22
  was, right, it's going to guide their intentions to be met one way
• 35:25
  or another because it was facilitated for them to be shown and proven that this
• 35:30
  is this really works, it really works to set your intentions. Yep.
• 35:36
  And then afterwards. I did have a couple moments where I was like,
• 35:39
  oh, I didn't say that, and oh, shoot, I probably should
• 35:42
  have said that. But then I'm like, but I didn't, And it's
• 35:46
  okay because if they want to continue with the journey with me, they'll hear
• 35:51
  it at some point, trust me exactly, really well exactly, and no
• 35:57
  matter what you gave them so much anyways, and it's like, after you
• 36:00
  know, a certain amount of time, we can't once we've processed so much
• 36:02
  stuff, it's like we're not processing I think, anymore as much as we
• 36:06
  were when it first started, with all the emotional the triggers and all that
• 36:09
  stuff. So there is that time for processing and digesting everything that you've just
• 36:14
  been through. And so to go back to your question that there was a
• 36:21
  lot of creativity in putting all that together. Even though I had, you
• 36:27
  know, maybe half of it already created and being able to go by,
• 36:35
  there was still some creativity in it because I added some more pieces to the
• 36:38
  event and so I'm like, oh, okay, well how am I going
• 36:42
  to fit this in and do this? And so there was still a lot
• 36:45
  of creativity involved. And that's what's important because we are creative beings and so
• 36:49
  being creative is still a big part of it. But now, even though
• 36:52
  I have all this stuff, the checklists, the contents, the emails,
• 36:57
  like, I have all that stuff, like set up, now when you
• 37:00
  think about, well, okay, what's next, because there's a next for
• 37:06
  me, it was always going to be a next. And that was that
• 37:10
  process actually started. I mean it started months and months and months ago,
• 37:15
  if not years ago. I've put the intention out there to the universe,
• 37:20
  and about a month ago I had a piece, a major piece show up.
• 37:25
  So now the next is okay, Now we got to get into our
• 37:30
  creative mode of setting this event up in a different way, in a different
• 37:35
  environment for a longer period of time, not just a day, but for
• 37:39
  through or four days. Yeah, and so so now I still get to
• 37:47
  be creative in that area and all this other stuff's already set up so nice,
• 37:58
  so exciting. Yeah, and that's just it, you know, it's
• 38:01
  just like we think. So when years and years ago, I think we've
• 38:08
  talked about this before, is you know, when somebody says, are you
• 38:14
  creative? Years ago, I would have been like, I don't know,
• 38:21
  because what would come to my mind of being creative was an artist like can
• 38:28
  you paint? Can you draw? No, it's draw stick figure almost,
• 38:32
  you know. I was like, if you would have asked me if I
• 38:38
  was creative, my answer would have been, non, I need step by
• 38:43
  step instructions. Don't ask me to visualize it and then try to create it,
• 38:46
  because it's it's going to turn out into a way bigger project than it
• 38:50
  needed to be because of the perfectionism and all the things. Right, But
• 38:54
  I recognized, I recognized a while back how much creativity it takes to be
• 39:02
  an entrepreneur. And I don't care what business it is. It doesn't matter
• 39:07
  what business it is. You have to be creative. So and that's just
• 39:13
  part of our nature and it's important that we keep that alive. Now,
• 39:16
  I could be creative in my business, which is, like you said,
• 39:22
  my passion and doing those things. I also get to be creative at work.
• 39:25
  I do a lot of their social media content and marketing, and I
• 39:30
  get to I could, I could if I wanted to. I've done it
• 39:34
  before, is be creative and take classes. I could go do a paint
• 39:37
  night, you know, and go enjoy a cocktail with my girlfriends or husband
• 39:43
  or somebody in a you know, in a different facility. So it's like
• 39:47
  keeping that alive is super important, I think for everybody. And you don't
• 39:54
  have to be perfect. You're going to learn along the way. If that
• 40:00
  was one thing that I could, I guess probably eliminate from my diet,
• 40:06
  that probably would be one of the things, because I do feel like that
• 40:08
  stopped me from doing so many things. I was always involved. I always
• 40:13
  liked art classes when I was younger, Always critical of myself, always always
• 40:17
  watching the next person and seeing what they were doing and judging myself that I
• 40:22
  so harshly because I couldn't do what they were doing. And I mean that
• 40:24
  was how it was for me growing up. So it's fun for me when
• 40:29
  the grandkids come over because now I don't have that and now I'm just doing
• 40:34
  it. And because and I'm saying. I tell the kids, like,
• 40:37
  it's just art. We're just creating. It's whatever we want to and we
• 40:40
  could create it one way and then decide, hey, I want to create
• 40:43
  something different from that. But we would never have known if we didn't start
• 40:45
  in the first place. Yeah. So it's like it's doing all those things
• 40:49
  and not shutting down from the perfectionism. To me, the perfectionism would shut
• 40:52
  me down a lot of times. I just I watched people painting windows and
• 40:58
  doing all that stuff, and it's like, oh God, no, Now
• 41:00
  you're putting yourself out there in front of people to watch you while you're doing
• 41:02
  this stuff, and it's like, oh, that's nauseating. That was nauseating
• 41:07
  to me. Before It's like, no way, And I don't know how
• 41:09
  I would be now. But now I'm just more playful with it. I'm
• 41:13
  just like, well, let's see what we can do. I don't know
• 41:14
  what I can do here, let's give her a try. Yeah. So
• 41:17
  it's awesome. But again, I wouldn't know the difference, right if I
• 41:22
  hadn't had the experience of the opposite, I wouldn't. So it's not like
• 41:25
  it was a bad thing. It was just it was a learning thing.
• 41:28
  And that's where the perfectionism kind of doesn't It just doesn't work because when we're
• 41:32
  learning something, it's not perfect. You're exploring all facets of it, And
• 41:37
  to me, that's perfect when you're exploring all of it and then you're coming
• 41:40
  out with a final end result whatever you're looking for, or even better,
• 41:45
  because I think most of the time, if we'd let it go, it's
• 41:47
  even better than we thought it would have been when we started out, when
• 41:51
  we were trying to control it, when we were trying to be perfect,
• 41:53
  and it's so frustrating. Then you sit and beat yourself up because you didn't
• 41:58
  meet the expectation of your perfection that you your ideal of perfection. So it's
• 42:02
  like and then it's a vicious cycle. Right, I've even caught myself.
• 42:07
  I've taught caught myself recently. It's like, I don't I felt just sitting
• 42:09
  here at my desk when I came in here to start this. I looked
• 42:13
  over at my grandkids and it's like, I don't think I've shown up the
• 42:15
  best for them. I could have the last the last week or so,
• 42:19
  just energetically, I feel like I could have shown up better, and it's
• 42:22
  like, ah ah, we're not going to go through and start beating ourselves
• 42:24
  up. And then, of course we had all of our conversation that we've
• 42:28
  had today, and it just reiterates that it is not about beating ourselves up
• 42:31
  because and I know this, because beating ourselves up keeps us in that space
• 42:35
  like why would I beat Why would I beat myself up when I've already beat
• 42:37
  myself up. It's like it's so silly, right, So it's it's like
• 42:42
  it's like punishing the child, giving them a spink and set them in the
• 42:45
  corner and then don't give them any dinner that night, you know what I
• 42:46
  mean. That's all ridiculous, but like mass punishments all night long, and
• 42:51
  it's like, well, would you do that to your child? Would you
• 42:52
  do that to your little girl? That's in the sight of you, because
• 42:54
  that's what you're doing every time you do that stuff. Yeah, I tell
• 42:58
  them they aren't good enough. Oh you got go do it again. You're
• 43:00
  not good enough. And it's not even a true story, because we are
• 43:04
  good enough. And it's recognizing that and it's valuable. And the more that
• 43:08
  we do that for ourselves, the more that everybody else gets to witness it
• 43:13
  and do it for themselves. Yeah, and instead of I mean even with
• 43:17
  the littles, but really with ourselves. Is in you know, if something
• 43:22
  doesn't work out very well, it's like it's not that it's wrong. Stop
• 43:29
  telling yourself that. Gosh, you didn't get that right, did you?
• 43:31
  Look how you did it wrong? Again? Hey, it just didn't work
• 43:37
  out. And look now we get to now we get to make an adjustment
• 43:43
  and try it again if we want to do it a little different and see
• 43:46
  how it turns out. It's the same damn thing. What a scientist does.
• 43:52
  They don't beat themselves up. Well, f well, that didn't work,
• 43:55
  did it. We just blew up the lab. Wow, good thing,
• 43:59
  we am in insurance. Let's rebuild it and then we'll just make an
• 44:01
  adjustment so we don't blow up the lab. Maybe just maybe just a what
• 44:07
  are those glass containers they use, like a baker or a baker, Maybe
• 44:14
  one of those will just bust. Okay, well we're getting better. Got
• 44:19
  to make another adjustment so things aren't exploding in our face. But the calls
• 44:22
  right, So I mean, really they do something, it's not the outcome.
• 44:30
  They adjust it's not the outcome. They adjust and how many times?
• 44:32
  And what was it? Was it Einstein? Not Einstein? I'm sorry,
• 44:37
  Franklin said, I learned a thousand ways how electricity doesn't work, which is
• 44:46
  awesome, not a big deal. We just but because we're programmed when we
• 44:52
  are younger that you did it wrong, you get the big fat red f
• 45:00
  and now you got a home and tell your parents, and then your parents
• 45:01
  beat you up, and you know, verbally, mentally or you need to
• 45:06
  do better, and why aren't you sitting still? Like you they're pointing everything
• 45:10
  out that's wrong quote unquote wrong. It's not wrong with you is, and
• 45:15
  so we internalize it. We that's our programming, and then everything that doesn't
• 45:21
  turn out after that, we see it as a failure. We see it
• 45:23
  that it's wrong and it's not. It just is. It's just okay,
• 45:28
  it didn't work out. Let's make an adjustment simple. And it's the same
• 45:35
  thing with every every class I do, every event I have, it's like,
• 45:42
  oh, well that didn't work out so well did it Well, we'll
• 45:45
  just do it better next time, or don't do it at all. Right,
• 45:49
  It's like you don't even have to do it again, like, we're
• 45:52
  just gonna take that out of the equation doesn't work. We're not going to
• 45:58
  just try to keep pammering it and to putting that square peg in a round
• 46:01
  hole. We're just going to say this piece doesn't fit with what I do
• 46:07
  and take it out. How is it? How simple is that? It's
• 46:09
  like, why do I want to keep pounding my head against the wall trying
• 46:14
  to figure out something out? If if I can't, or I present it
• 46:17
  to a mastermind group, this is what I had, this is what happened.
• 46:22
  What are your suggestions and pose it to other people because other people might
• 46:29
  have experiences that that you you don't have the knowledge of. Yeah, and
• 46:35
  that's why I stay in a mastermind group, because I have a group of
• 46:37
  people I can bring my stuff to and they can give me other viewpoints and
• 46:46
  then I can take what feels good to me and implement it or not.
• 46:50
  So so having a really good support group to be able to bounce things off
• 46:55
  of that's awesome and it really is important. I feel like there's a lot
• 47:02
  of value in that. I really do. We're not here to do things
• 47:07
  by ourselves. We are not you know, I have a person that she
• 47:12
  she keeps wanting to unify like the tribes and unify all this stuff. But
• 47:15
  I've watched her unified groups, and it's interesting when we talk about our paths
• 47:20
  and stuff like that. It could be so simple as just you're. What
• 47:23
  if I said, listen, you're to go out and unify the world.
• 47:27
  Your like to bring in your you're to bring us all together. And then
• 47:30
  if you tell someone that, it's like, what's that. I mean?
• 47:34
  That's not like, Okay, I'm gonna go sit and read cards all day
• 47:37
  long. You know what I mean. It's not something clear cut, but
• 47:39
  it's something that's a natural thing. And that in these natural things, I
• 47:43
  think people overlook them so easily because it's something that comes so easily and natural.
• 47:47
  And I think that's why we a lot of times will will take more
• 47:52
  into consideration. If it was a struggle initially to get into this place and
• 47:55
  now we've made it so it's like you accomplish something, but it's like it's
• 48:00
  it doesn't have to be that way. It can be as easy as just
• 48:02
  knowing okay, oh okay, So I can unify people, I can bring
• 48:07
  people together. Oh, I can uplift people. I can uplift them.
• 48:09
  No matter what I'm saying or doing, I don't. I can do whatever
• 48:12
  I want. Oh, that's like going to the grocery store or going to
• 48:16
  a store and going to pick out a blow driver, and there's fifty different
• 48:21
  blow drivers. It's like, oh, what do I do? There's too
• 48:23
  many options? Like right, so we can kind a panicky and go the
• 48:27
  opposite direction and kind of shrink back a little bit because there's so much instead
• 48:30
  of looking at it so differently. I wish I wish that when going through
• 48:36
  school, because I'm processing this stuff as you were saying things. When going
• 48:38
  through school, it was always a matter of being a perfectionist, trying to
• 48:44
  be perfect because and I wasn't. Believe me, I didn't. I didn't
• 48:47
  put the attention into it. I didn't have the desires for it. I
• 48:52
  didn't fit in it. I didn't the things that other people would do so
• 48:55
  well. I would like to do so well because I liked what the grade
• 49:00
  and the appreciation they got, and the kudos and the high fives and all
• 49:04
  that stuff. That's all the things that I wanted to as a kid.
• 49:07
  But it's like I didn't. I I was not in the right place.
• 49:10
  I was not in the right place. I felt like I was never supposed
• 49:14
  to be in the school. I was never supposed to be in that environment
• 49:17
  that It's from my perspective, it just seemed at that time was so harsh.
• 49:22
  Everything was so harsh, and I was even harsh in it because I
• 49:25
  had to be harsh. I felt like I had to be harsh in it
• 49:29
  to survive this. You know what I mean. You don't go out in
• 49:30
  your bikini to go play out in the freaking mud and go be a warrior
• 49:35
  and stuff. No, you're going to strap on all your you know,
• 49:38
  your armor and your protection and your weapons and all that stuff. And it's
• 49:43
  like I wasn't doing those things. I just didn't fit. But I but
• 49:46
  at the same time, I wanted to do my report just perfect, but
• 49:50
  I'd never put the effort into because I didn't have the tools or even then
• 49:53
  know how, the knowledge anything to even get from point A to point B.
• 49:58
  And it wasn't for long STI I thought I was just stupid. I
• 50:00
  really did. I'd and it's like I could understand spelling an English math was
• 50:06
  not a suit for me, which for whatever reason was some story because it
• 50:10
  was just a story that was being told to me or I heard overheard someone
• 50:15
  else, like I hear it all the time. I've heard it many times.
• 50:17
  Girls aren't good at math or usually better at English and spelling. Boys
• 50:21
  are good at math. And so it was never something that I striped for
• 50:24
  any of those kinds of things. But it wasn't my desire either. It
• 50:27
  was not my passions. It was not a hell yet it was a hell
• 50:30
  no all those things. But we still had to go through it and do
• 50:32
  it anyways. We still had to go through the school. We still had
• 50:36
  to go through those processes. And so I'll get back to the part where
• 50:37
  I wish I would have had an understanding that I was doing this just for
• 50:42
  learnings, just to see do I like this? Do I not like this?
• 50:45
  Because school, if we look at it, can be an opportunity just
• 50:50
  for us to try different things. No harm, no foul, you're being
• 50:53
  graded, so what. But the thing is, the stress was put on
• 50:57
  from the home for me because my sister was always a's and you know,
• 51:00
  straight a's and b's, and I was you know c's and d's, like
• 51:06
  I scraped by. It's the honest to god truth it's like because it was
• 51:09
  not my passion as a child, I could have told you that was not
• 51:13
  my passion if I knew what what that all meant at that time. But
• 51:16
  everything that I was doing then, it was doing it for everybody else because
• 51:20
  it was expected to go to school, you were expected to learn, you
• 51:22
  were expected to be in these groups. You're expected to do good good have
• 51:25
  good grades, do the work whether you liked it or not. Which is
• 51:30
  so crazy because now I'm at a stage in my life of almost fifty four
• 51:35
  and it's like, I'm not in a state. I'm not the person anymore.
• 51:38
  It's taken me fifty four years to say that I'm not going to do
• 51:40
  the things that I don't like doing anymore. I'm not going to do it
• 51:45
  just because I can. I'm not going to do it just because it was
• 51:46
  expected. I'm not going to do it because somebody else wants me to do
• 51:50
  it. I'm going to do it because I want to do it if that's
• 51:52
  my passion. But we didn't have that right for a lot of the things
• 51:57
  when we were younger. So it's kind of it's kind of crazy, and
• 52:00
  it's it's kind of crazy. It's kind of crazy when you look at that
• 52:02
  way. But again, I would not have discernment. I wouldn't know the
• 52:07
  difference between one or the other if I had not had those experiences. Now,
• 52:10
  I don't think I had to stay in those experiences as long as I
• 52:14
  did. But it's all divine, it's not by accident. And that's my
• 52:20
  story and I'm sticking to it for today. I can gain Amy could say
• 52:24
  something in a second and my whole everything shifts again. It's like, oh
• 52:29
  yeah, wow, I never thought about that way. And that's why it's
• 52:31
  so important to talk to other people, like minded people and to get your
• 52:37
  mastermind. Groups are very valuable. The group that you set up yesterday,
• 52:40
  the whole thing that you had set up very valuable, very important. Yeah
• 52:46
  yeah, And you know interesting is there was another exercise we did and I
• 52:52
  put them in groups of three and had them talk about the things they're hanging
• 52:58
  on to that they want to change. And in every group, so they're
• 53:06
  you know what eight eight groups or so nine groups that every group had a
• 53:15
  commonality. Oh yeah, you know, you just like and they get to
• 53:21
  like. I don't pair them up. They picked who they sat with or
• 53:25
  who they gravitated toward and in every group there was a commonality between them,
• 53:31
  and that just even more reiterates you're not alone. There are other people in
• 53:37
  the world having similar experiences, and when you have connection and community, things
• 53:44
  can change quicker. Right. We you and I both know like we were
• 53:49
  those independent quote unquote independent pre people who Nope, gonna do it on my
• 53:52
  own, I'm gonna prove you right. I'm gonna prove how good I am
• 53:55
  by doing it by myself, right, And we were that problem on our
• 54:00
  shoulders like general stars and and kind of takes longer. I'm just saying I
• 54:07
  know that from experience it took longer, but it was my path, it
• 54:10
  was Bev's path. Whatever. But I also know because I have been in
• 54:15
  communities and groups masterminds, that you propel quicker when you have the support in
• 54:23
  the community. Yeah, because there's some more information to help you blossom than
• 54:31
  trying to read. Like I know, I read way over one hundred books
• 54:37
  on personal development, spirituality and all the things. But because I was spending
• 54:40
  so much time reading and trying to soak it all in, I wasn't implementing
• 54:45
  it. When you don't implement it, it takes and you're just like,
• 54:50
  oh, yeah, I know that already, like a next book, Oh
• 54:52
  yep, know that already. Yep. I mean, it was just one
• 54:55
  after the other, one after the other. I was just I was just
• 54:59
  needing thoughts. I was needing more information, more information. No, I
• 55:01
  had the information, I just wasn't implementing it. So when you're in,
• 55:05
  when you're in communities, then they can you know, you can have a
• 55:12
  check in this is where I'm at, and this is where I'm heading and
• 55:14
  I'm not sure how to get there, and then you get input on oh,
• 55:16
  well you could do this, this or this or you know. It's
• 55:20
  just having that support and it it helps you move along way quicker than that.
• 55:25
  The avenue I took. It's true. It is very true. Very
• 55:32
  in my experience, I will say it was one hundred percent true. And
• 55:36
  I wanted to go back to even setting their intentions, got the be in
• 55:38
  the groups they were in. Yeah, that was going to facilitate and bring
• 55:43
  forward the that was gonna it was. It was part of the whole thing,
• 55:46
  right, It was part of the whole setup. Yeah, the universal
• 55:50
  setup, that's right. I just I was the facilitator. I was the
• 55:53
  guide and then you stop and think about that. There's twenty seven people.
• 55:58
  So but not even including your vendors. They were hearing your stuff, hearing
• 56:00
  what you were saying as well. You want to hear something awesome. This
• 56:05
  was great, Like this made the whole day. I'm not kidding you.
• 56:12
  I have twenty seven people in the room. I have two helpers and two
• 56:15
  vendors. Okay, so and then me. So those all the people.
• 56:21
  So there was a room, the main room we were in, and then
• 56:23
  there's a divider, and then there's a room where we were set We sat
• 56:28
  up dinner, the dinner like the food, but we sat in the main
• 56:32
  room. We had some tables set up and so anyway that divider was kind
• 56:37
  of was open. So then go and get their food, coming back into
• 56:39
  the room and sit down. And the caterer, I saw her in my
• 56:45
  peripherial sitting there and she was on her phone and I had it was talking
• 56:52
  about worry and worrying yourself like to no end and stressed out and what if
• 57:00
  everything's a catastrophe, right, And that was the topic I was talking about,
• 57:05
  and I was he was giving examples on all these things. After we
• 57:12
  we had to rec disperse after dinner so the people could come in and set
• 57:19
  up for the soundbath. We at that point is when the caterer, she
• 57:22
  was cleaning up, and she walked by me and she goes, I'm really
• 57:28
  glad I heard about heard you talk about worry. She said, my son
• 57:34
  got shot recently. He didn't die, but he got shot and we worried
• 57:38
  ourselves to death about what could have happened. Thank you for saying that.
• 57:46
  That's awesome. I was like, people listen. People are listening to conversations.
• 57:53
  They hear you. You may not always acknowledge it, like she could
• 57:57
  have. She could have never said anything to me. I would have never
• 58:00
  known that that helps somebody who didn't even pay to be there. Right,
• 58:04
  she's sitting in the other room, just tn't mind in the food and stuff,
• 58:10
  but she was listening, and it was like it was so good.
• 58:15
  Like my heart just like got so big because it was like amazing that she
• 58:20
  even shared that. So divine. It really is divine exactly. And to
• 58:25
  to to, I mean then you go backwards because you think my brain does
• 58:31
  this all the time, So then I go backwards. It's like I chose
• 58:35
  her to be there. For the catering I met her through her catering an
• 58:42
  event for our business for where I work, I chose to go to work
• 58:49
  there, Like all these things to lead up to this one person being impacted
• 58:52
  by something. She heard me say spirit, So to me, that's a
• 58:58
  that's all guided by spirit. That's all guide to buy our angels and God
• 59:00
  because they know they can see the our forward momentum. They can see all
• 59:05
  that. And what I was starting to say was all of this stuff,
• 59:08
  all these people that you affected that day, which weren't even just the twenty
• 59:13
  seven people, right, all those people that you affected. Now it goes
• 59:15
  out from there. It's like it's like a in my mind, it's not
• 59:20
  just a ripple anymore. It's like an atom bomb going off because it's like
• 59:23
  it's just kind of covered such a huge amount of area and it's going to
• 59:25
  go through so many people, and it's like and then it affects so many
• 59:30
  other people. It really is. It's really impactful, and it's really valuable.
• 59:35
  And it also goes to why it's so important for us to unify,
• 59:39
  why it's so important for us to come together, because we have so much
• 59:43
  to learn. And if you know it all, then you have show so
• 59:45
  much to share and teach, right so, and then during that path a
• 59:50
  lot of times they find out you still had a lot more to learn.
• 59:52
  So it's like this, this is an awesome journey. And that's what the
• 59:54
  whole process is, just to recognize all the amazing things that are happening.
• 1:00:00
  So it's always being in our in our power. And when I say in
• 1:00:04
  our power, in that power of God and that power of Creator that flows
• 1:00:08
  right through us and keeps us so connected because it fuels us. It just
• 1:00:12
  keeps that. It just flows right through is it's not something that we have
• 1:00:15
  to take from ourselves and deplete ourselves. We've got all this around us and
• 1:00:19
  we get to enjoy it so much, so much more. Today's talk has
• 1:00:23
  helped me a lot because it's helped me to recognize being in the now,
• 1:00:29
  not trying to try to control things at all, just letting it be and
• 1:00:34
  then watching how it affects it. Because even for my groups when they come
• 1:00:37
  together, I learn stuff all the time from it. It is awesome.
• 1:00:42
  And even on the times and I know you've you've you've gone through times where
• 1:00:45
  you have doubts and stuff like that, even when I have doubts about doing
• 1:00:49
  it anymore or doing something, I have people hitting me up like, hey,
• 1:00:52
  is this our we're meeting today? Right? Like what's going on?
• 1:00:55
  I see even with yesterday with our weather. I woke up if I shall
• 1:00:59
  show you a picture after we're done. But I talked about the weather yesterday
• 1:01:02
  morning. I well, if mine started Friday night. So I had brought
• 1:01:07
  my grandson up here and it's like the snow had gone away, right We're
• 1:01:12
  but we're pulling up here. We had driven through a little bit of snow
• 1:01:14
  on the way home, but we pulled up to the house, there's no
• 1:01:15
  still on the ground, and it starts snowing a little bit. I'm like,
• 1:01:19
  okay, like a little teeny tiny smaller than a pea size, like
• 1:01:22
  the base coat it was laying down. The next thing you know, it's
• 1:01:24
  sticking out there. And I'm like, I'm telling my grandson Colton, we're
• 1:01:29
  going in the house, and he says, no, Grandma, I'm not
• 1:01:30
  going in the house. I'm like, it's cold out here. We're going
• 1:01:36
  I'm not going in, Grandma. And I and it's like I didn't know
• 1:01:38
  what to do with that. First of all, because my process is my
• 1:01:40
  adults like m M, your Chad, don't tell me you're not doing something
• 1:01:45
  something. But on the other side, I was like, wait a minute,
• 1:01:47
  am I missing out on something because I'm worried about being cold? If
• 1:01:51
  he wants to be out in there, out there and it's cold and he
• 1:01:53
  doesn't feel cold right now, why should I make him come in the house
• 1:01:57
  because he's because I'm cold. So I grew, you know, I got
• 1:02:00
  a little bit warmed up, got some gloves on out there, and then
• 1:02:02
  the snow kept coming in, kept coming in, and he was not about
• 1:02:05
  to come inside. So we went out and played in it and had a
• 1:02:07
  great time until it was finally time to come in. Great We go to
• 1:02:13
  meet his parents afterwards, around seven or so, you know, it's been
• 1:02:16
  snowing this so Freeman drives me because he's got the Parol drive and we go
• 1:02:21
  over. We're getting close to where we're gonna take him to meet the kids
• 1:02:23
  at no snow, nothing at all, Like what the hell? So then
• 1:02:28
  I like, I already thought it was done. I thought it was done
• 1:02:30
  on Friday, like that was it. I didn't know we were gonna get
• 1:02:32
  other snow, And so then so then Friday night, more snow comes in,
• 1:02:37
  and I wake up Saturday morning and it's like we're in the clouds here,
• 1:02:39
  like you can't see there's still snow coming in. We have had received
• 1:02:43
  more snow that night, and I'm like, I'm going in. I'm going
• 1:02:46
  to town today. I don't care. And then I started getting all these
• 1:02:49
  people canceling and like I can't. I'm not gonna be able to make it
• 1:02:52
  in, and I'm like, hey, it's great, and even people just
• 1:02:54
  honoring and saying, hey, I'm just gonna stay home and enjoy the day,
• 1:02:58
  which I love because we not making excuses like I broke my toe,
• 1:03:02
  nol and I can't get my shoe on because my sock won't you know,
• 1:03:06
  keeps getting caught on it. Whatever bullshit story is right in order to get
• 1:03:09
  out of something. And I like it when people are just true and authentic,
• 1:03:12
  because I have nothing to say to that. Michael, thank you,
• 1:03:15
  thanks, thank you for being so true and authentic and standing in your own
• 1:03:17
  power and honoring yourself and enjoying that space. But yeah, it was kind
• 1:03:22
  of crazy, and I thought about you, and I kept wanting to send
• 1:03:24
  you a message, but I wanted to get a message to you early enough
• 1:03:27
  to the like like today's going to be a great day. And I know
• 1:03:30
  that it was going to be a great day, and it's like this isn't
• 1:03:32
  going to have an effect on it. And then you told me, tell
• 1:03:35
  me not only that there were twenty two people there, because that twenty two
• 1:03:37
  is what we talked about last, but you knew that there was more coming.
• 1:03:40
  There was twenty seven, but there was more than that, actually,
• 1:03:44
  twenty seven, twenty eight, twenty nine, thirty right, thirty one,
• 1:03:49
  okay, because you and you had said you had gotten the guess that it
• 1:03:53
  was going to be thirty five to thirty two thirty two. Yeah, so
• 1:03:59
  and so you're accuracy even knowing what was going to show up that you were
• 1:04:02
  what you were going to have a three with the lady of the catering.
• 1:04:08
  Nice because they're getting the information the whole time they were there too. It's
• 1:04:12
  just awesome. So great job. Yeah, oh my gosh, it was
• 1:04:17
  so amazing. I mean, I'm just gonna say real quick. You know,
• 1:04:20
  we asked the universe to to surprise and delight me every day. And
• 1:04:26
  I'm in my bathroom getting ready. We have a skylight in there, and
• 1:04:29
  I just kept hearing this, and now I'm looking around. What's leaking?
• 1:04:40
  There's something dripping? Where is it? You know, I can't find anything.
• 1:04:44
  I walk out of the bathroom. Nothing come back in the bathroom.
• 1:04:46
  I hear it and I'm like, oh, my gosh. And then I'm
• 1:04:49
  thinking, oh, it must be raining. Rain doesn't come down like that
• 1:04:53
  on a skylight. So that's out. And then very shortly after that,
• 1:04:57
  my husband comes in. He is and he chose me a picture on his
• 1:05:01
  phone. He's like, look what's outside. The ground is covered and I'm
• 1:05:09
  like, are you fucking kidding me? Right now? My For a second,
• 1:05:15
  my heart dropped. I'm like, no, this is not happening.
• 1:05:20
  This is not happening today. So anyway, it all worked out. Everybody
• 1:05:30
  who showed up, that's awesome. It was icing on the cake if you
• 1:05:34
  think about it. And then at the same time it was it was also
• 1:05:39
  a test. Could have been a test to the people that showed up,
• 1:05:42
  are they really going to show up for themselves? And that's a big deal
• 1:05:45
  because that's such an easy way out. Yeah, not necessary, but an
• 1:05:49
  easy way out. Oh gosh. I mean I could have if also send
• 1:05:54
  you the picture and I could have said, hey, I can't make it
• 1:05:56
  the challenge and everybody would have understood. But it wasn't as bad as what
• 1:05:59
  it looked. Really wasn't. So it's like and I already decided I was
• 1:06:02
  showing up and I and I have to say I was. Another compliment was
• 1:06:10
  one of the vendors said she would you know, was telling her friends that
• 1:06:15
  she was going to be at this event all day and you know, encouraged
• 1:06:20
  them to attend the event. And I had some people come drive four hours
• 1:06:26
  to come up to attend nice and I don't I didn't know them, they
• 1:06:30
  didn't know me. To a brand new but also the the vendors got to
• 1:06:36
  I had three signed up, one canceled, but the two had a prosperous
• 1:06:44
  day. One is just stepping into what she's doing and to this was her
• 1:06:53
  first event, so she was able in a safe space right and in trusting
• 1:06:59
  in me, kind of like your security blanket, and to have this event
• 1:07:06
  where she would have some guidance as well available and to do readings all day,
• 1:07:14
  so she got that experience and and just like teaching all day, doing
• 1:07:18
  readings all day, it takes a lot of energy. And then the other
• 1:07:24
  person who showed up isn't out like in the public eye doing readings, but
• 1:07:30
  I know she does readings and I know she's good at it, so I
• 1:07:31
  invited her to be there and she had a wonderful day too. So it
• 1:07:38
  was busy all day, and so, you know, it's just it was
• 1:07:42
  just so much, so much good comes came from it, so much benefit.
• 1:07:45
  And you know, sometimes sometimes when you're when you're doing something like this
• 1:07:54
  big to me, it was big. I think it's a big question sometimes
• 1:08:00
  did you do question? Is it worth it? Am I doing the right
• 1:08:01
  thing type of thing. I didn't stay in that and stewing it. It
• 1:08:05
  was just every once and I was like, is this really It's still really
• 1:08:10
  what I was supposed to be doing, or you know, is this my
• 1:08:13
  path? But then when you show up and in it, and how all
• 1:08:16
  the conversations and the and the accolades and the you know, just all of
• 1:08:21
  it, how everything turns out just having that one person who's the caterer sitting
• 1:08:27
  over here listening, it's worth it. It's worth it. Every single time.
• 1:08:30
  It's worth it. It's worth it. It's worth it. And then
• 1:08:33
  when I showed up in town yesterday. I had shown up. There was
• 1:08:36
  one person walking in and I'm like, well, there's only one other person
• 1:08:40
  coming in that I know about. So I said, she's gonna be a
• 1:08:43
  little bit and I was surprised, but it was. And then the girl
• 1:08:45
  the girls were like, this is the best group ever. I'm like,
• 1:08:47
  well, there was a s three of us. That was good for them,
• 1:08:50
  right, it was great. It's just it's just being in that space
• 1:08:54
  because it doesn't matter how many people are there. It matters how you're showing
• 1:08:58
  up and that you are showing up. Even sometimes when you think that you're
• 1:09:02
  lacking self confidence or or you you know, it's which goes along with a
• 1:09:08
  self doubt and everything else. But when you're in that space and for me
• 1:09:12
  looking at you, it's like, how could you ever even think that that's
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  not the right path, but that that's an honest statement, because sometimes we
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  get in those places and then sometimes it's to recognize when we start feeling those
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  ways, are we with other people that are like a majority of people who
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  are lacking self confidence? So now is this my energy or is this energy
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  that energy there's but it's like triggering an old trigger that you might have like
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  a teeny tiny little splinter compared to some of them have like a wedge still,
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  you know what I mean, a wedge that's like like a wedge.
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  But that's what I say. I'm like, how was just like a bigger
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  piece of wood instead of a splinter? So you know, I went to
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  the wedge. So here we are. Good day, and and it was
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  and this is another added piece. So what we talked about earlier about having
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  you know, being creative and having an even longer event. Several people at
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  the end of it said, can we do this again? Can we do
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  it like next month? I feel little soon, but we'll see even Yeah,
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  but that's awesome. There was the conversation somebody brought up of I'd like
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  to do this for like two days now. Mind you, in my head,
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  I've already like I'm already on the next thing right doing And they're like,
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  yeah, I would like to do this for like two days, And
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  I said, what about three or four? Eyes got so they're like,
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  what, like, yeah, I would do that. I would do that.
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  So so that's you know, just in that that's a huge compliment of
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  how the day went and reception or receptivity of it and the Yeah, it
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  was just yeah, that's it's at the end of the day that my heart
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  just gets so big and that's when I get choked up. Is when when
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  when we're coming to the clothes and knowing all that information. So yeah,
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  that's awesome. Yeah, worried too, I'm TEI like, I love it
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  gives me goose bumps. Yeah, that's that's when it I just think it
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  just like drops in so heavy. Yes, this is worth it. Nice.
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  Thank you for sharing absolutely, thanks for being a supporter and and even
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  just doing this, I mean this, this has been big commitment, right,
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  chewing up every almost every week for almost four weeks. It's every time
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  I say that, I'm like, wow, it's been that long already,
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  geez. And then we just keep going. So even this benefiting people its
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  own way, and knowing that, you know, even if people aren't subscribed
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  to our channel, which I would highly recommend that you do subscribe, just
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  saying that they're getting information from this and sharing it out. So it's not
• 1:12:16
  just the person watching, it's the person who's watching and then having the conversations,
• 1:12:20
  and so somebody has to have the conversation and That's what Bev and I
• 1:12:26
  did, is like we decide we were having the conversations, we just weren't
• 1:12:30
  recording them, and they say, hey, let's why don't we do this,
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  and so we have the conversations here, but we also know these conversations
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  are going out and helping. I don't know. Could be hundreds, could
• 1:12:44
  be thousands, I don't know, but I know it's helping at least one,
• 1:12:46
  so awesome. Well too, I would say it's helping maybe three because
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  there's Bev and I because well wait, wait, you forgot me. I
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  got a my proxy, yeah right, yeah, to make sure I'll be
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  available to like that. I didn't even you know, I didn't even ask
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  if you needed help. I never even asked. I never even And I
• 1:13:11
  feel like it's because a lot of I feel like you got it under control.
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  But for the next time I'm offering up my help, I'll just have
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  to especially if it's like that many days, I'll have to have notice ahead
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  of time, which you're good about, but I'll have to block it totally
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  off off my calendar because I get it's just it's been kind of crazy for
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  my my schedules. So an event that big I would say, if it's
• 1:13:33
  two three days, you can plan on helping, but you can also be
• 1:13:39
  planning on being a part of it, which is I say, it's fine,
• 1:13:43
  but we'll get shut your face. Such a good talk everybody. It
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  was nice talking to everybody. Get together. I feel like I'm finding my
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  place in a lot of ways, finding my my man. It's probably maybe
• 1:13:58
  it's just my confidence, or maybe it's just me step and off the roof.
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  I don't know. I don't know. I know I feel like I'm
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  getting closer to a lot of things. So I will be there for you.
• 1:14:10
  Oh okay, support services. Well, you know the mama bird.
• 1:14:19
  You know how she gets her babies to fly? Right, Yeah, just
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  kick them out of the bed, gonna fly or dives. Sister be free.
• 1:14:33
  That's right, Oop, she wasn't ready. Don't worry, we'll be
• 1:14:41
  next time. I got to get in a few months after you recover.
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  That's right, I got the bandage is all up here. We're good.
• 1:14:50
  Awesome, great, all right, my friends, Thanks for hanging out with
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  text people, I'll copy and paste the link into a text. I'm like,
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  text the podcasts and youtubes and things to people through texting, through YouTube,
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  through email, through social. So you know, share us if you feel
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  guided. But we're not here to be a secret. So we've been exposing
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  ourselves for almost four years here, so let's go ahead and get us out
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  there a little more. All right, my friend, thanks for hanging out
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  with us. We'll see you next time. Bye.