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Dating Gone WRONG! Billy Carson & Seatrice Share Hilarious First Date Stories · 4biddenknowledge Podcast

1:14
SPEAKER_03: Vegans have mental illness.
1:16
SPEAKER_03: It's a mental illness.
1:18
SPEAKER_03: It is a mental illness.
1:20
SPEAKER_03: And I said, don't pretend like you give a damn about what happened to a potato.
1:30
SPEAKER_03: Listen, I'm losing the argument, okay?
1:32
SPEAKER_03: I'm losing badge.
1:33
SPEAKER_03: I don't like, what are we even talking about?
1:36
SPEAKER_03: So I said, okay, Billy.
1:39
SPEAKER_00: What are atoms made of?
1:40
SPEAKER_00: We're talking about quarks and muons now.
1:42
SPEAKER_03: I said, are you questioning God?
1:47
SPEAKER_03: God's not even good enough.
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SPEAKER_03: Oh, I ain't got a smellbox for cancer.
2:00
SPEAKER_02: No one knows.
2:03
SPEAKER_02: I don't need perfect.
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SPEAKER_02: If I give you on the game, I'm gonna do it.
2:16
SPEAKER_04: Stay conscious.
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SPEAKER_02: Stay with your eyes.
2:31
SPEAKER_02: Date conscious.
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SPEAKER_01: Welcome back to another amazing episode of Date Conscious.
2:39
SPEAKER_01: And I'm your host, Billy Carson.
2:41
SPEAKER_03: And I'm your co-host, Beatrice Foster.
2:44
SPEAKER_01: So we're coming back again for episode number two.
2:47
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
2:48
SPEAKER_01: And episode number one was phenomenal.
2:51
unknown: Yeah.
2:51
SPEAKER_01: We had so many great comments, right?
2:54
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
2:54
SPEAKER_01: So from the first episode, um, I saw so many great, incredible comments.
2:58
SPEAKER_01: People were really vibing with what we said.
3:00
SPEAKER_01: There were a lot of synchronicities.
3:02
SPEAKER_01: People loved our love story, right?
3:05
SPEAKER_01: I saw people saying that they, you know, they were crying or they had choked up.
3:08
SPEAKER_01: What comments stood out to you the most?
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SPEAKER_03: Well, the one that stuck out to me the most was a young lady that basically stated that she had been having problems in love and she was ready to give up on love.
3:19
SPEAKER_03: And then our podcast came on and she was able to watch it, and she really resonated with us in regards to the timeline dating and meeting the same people basically in different bodies.
3:33
SPEAKER_03: And helping, we helped her identify that those timelines, dating on her timeline, and she was really excited about hearing more.
3:40
SPEAKER_03: So that was the message I wanted to get across.
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SPEAKER_01: Beautiful, yeah.
3:44
SPEAKER_01: I saw so many people going, wow, it makes so much sense dating your timeline.
3:48
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
3:48
SPEAKER_01: It almost seemed like this awakening was happening within them as if they were beginning to realize, wow, if you date your timeline, we could possibly have better success.
3:57
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
3:57
SPEAKER_01: And it really seemed from what I saw in the comments from that first podcast and the responses were uh it seemed as if people really don't want to give up on love.
4:07
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
4:07
SPEAKER_01: They really want to be in love, they really want to be loved, feel loved, and also love someone in a way that's very nurturing.
4:13
SPEAKER_01: Yes.
4:13
SPEAKER_01: And uh and that could last for a long time.
4:16
SPEAKER_01: I think people are, uh, from what I saw, uh a little frustrated, right?
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SPEAKER_01: Some people had kind of felt like they were gonna give up.
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SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
4:23
SPEAKER_01: And so hopefully, if they're, you know, feeling that way and they come across our podcast, yeah, that they change their mind.
4:29
SPEAKER_01: Because I didn't give up, and neither did you.
4:30
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, no.
4:31
SPEAKER_03: No, we gave up.
4:32
SPEAKER_03: You know, I I believe that basically if you become what you expect, you'll attract it.
4:39
SPEAKER_03: If you exist, then your counterpart has to, whatever that looks like for you.
4:45
SPEAKER_03: And the key is first recognizing who you are, really doing a deep dive into yourself, the things you like, the things you enjoy.
4:54
SPEAKER_03: Not showing up for other people, but showing up for yourself and what that looks like for you.
5:00
SPEAKER_03: And then you'll be able to identify easier who's more in alignment with you, and you won't continue to try to force misalignment.
5:09
SPEAKER_01: Exactly.
5:09
SPEAKER_01: I agree.
5:10
SPEAKER_01: Um, you know, because one of the things that we had so much we could have kept talking about from episode one, which is why we're doing episode number two again without any special guests.
5:19
SPEAKER_01: We will have guests on.
5:20
SPEAKER_01: We will be having some guests, okay?
5:22
SPEAKER_01: But right now the story is still so large.
5:25
SPEAKER_01: We wanted to kind of just recap a little bit and obviously go into topic number two, which is really, really important.
5:33
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
5:33
SPEAKER_01: Um, you know, which is you know, understanding if you're sleeping with the enemy.
5:37
SPEAKER_05: Yes.
5:38
SPEAKER_01: You know, and that's something that um that a lot of us do without even realizing it.
5:43
SPEAKER_03: Without even realizing it.
5:44
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
5:45
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
5:45
SPEAKER_03: And that was the scariest thing is when you I think you've met the the one and everything is amazing.
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SPEAKER_03: The beginning most obviously we're not gonna choose someone that shows us that they're a little bit of a psychopath in the beginning.
6:02
SPEAKER_03: You know, they're not gonna show us that, oh yeah, they're gonna be stalking you at 2 a.m.
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SPEAKER_03: in the morning because you didn't answer your phone.
6:09
SPEAKER_08: Yeah.
6:10
SPEAKER_03: You know, they're not gonna show you that while they have several other people on the side that they didn't tell you about, and they're not gonna show you that in the beginning.
6:18
SPEAKER_03: They're gonna show you the best of who they are.
6:21
SPEAKER_03: And I did notice some other things in another comment where a young lady said, How do we know if we're dating our timeline?
6:30
SPEAKER_03: How do we know?
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SPEAKER_07: Right.
6:31
SPEAKER_03: And so that's why I think this is very important to recognize that you're dating someone on your timeline.
6:37
SPEAKER_08: Yeah.
6:38
SPEAKER_03: But sometimes not only are you dating someone off of your timeline, you're literally sleeping with the enemy, someone that doesn't have your best interest.
6:48
SPEAKER_03: And it's a something that was very hard for me to deal with uh many years ago.
6:53
SPEAKER_03: When you wake up and you realize, wow, this person really doesn't like me.
6:58
SPEAKER_03: This person does not have my best interest at heart.
7:03
SPEAKER_03: And there were so many times that they showed who they were, and I just didn't believe them.
7:15
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, no.
7:16
SPEAKER_03: I mean, it was because we see the world as we are, yeah, not as it is, and and that takes off the um glasses, not even for your mate, but everyone, you know.
7:26
SPEAKER_03: You look at these situations and you're like, wow, how could how could someone be so cruel?
7:33
SPEAKER_03: How could someone be so evil?
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SPEAKER_03: It just can't be real.
7:37
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, you know, and you said it in the last podcast that we want to see the best in everybody.
7:42
SPEAKER_03: But first, to see the best in everybody, we just have to accept that not everybody is the best for ourselves, each other, or humanity.
7:50
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, you know, as we can see what's going on in in the world.
7:54
SPEAKER_03: And so, so yeah, so that's why I thought it was very important for us to uh discuss that and highlight that.
7:59
SPEAKER_03: There were a lot of comments asking like, how do you know, how do you recognize?
8:04
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
8:04
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, we have to tap into that because um recognizing is like the key, right?
8:10
SPEAKER_01: Awareness.
8:11
SPEAKER_01: Nothing can transform in your life without awareness.
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SPEAKER_07: Yeah.
8:15
SPEAKER_01: And so how I ended up in several relationships.
8:18
SPEAKER_01: I haven't been in many, you know.
8:20
SPEAKER_01: Sometimes people try, you know, they try to comment on social media as if I'm some type of jiggler or something.
8:25
SPEAKER_01: I had less than 10, less than 10 women in my entire life.
8:29
SPEAKER_01: And I'm 55 years old, you know.
8:32
SPEAKER_01: But if you show up with three women online in 15 years, yeah, you know, it's like you got a lot of women, really.
8:38
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, yeah.
8:40
SPEAKER_01: Well, damn, okay.
8:41
SPEAKER_01: Well, but but but anyway, to say that to say that's a little funny, but that to say that uh, you know, the awareness, right?
8:49
SPEAKER_01: And so nothing to put any shade on any of them, yeah, not not to make them uh talk negative about them, it's just that um we do see the world as we are.
9:00
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
9:00
SPEAKER_01: And so I saw myself in them, you know, there's an old Mayan saying in Quechua's called Inla Kek Alakin, and that means I am another you.
9:09
SPEAKER_03: What is it?
9:10
SPEAKER_01: Inla kek ala kin.
9:11
SPEAKER_03: In the click, in a click a kin.
9:13
SPEAKER_03: In the click.
9:15
SPEAKER_01: Inla kekek ala kin.
9:16
SPEAKER_03: In a kick.
9:17
SPEAKER_03: In a click.
9:18
SPEAKER_01: No.
9:19
SPEAKER_03: I can't even say all the moment.
9:21
SPEAKER_03: I would call him Mount Picchu.
9:23
SPEAKER_03: Mount what is it?
9:24
SPEAKER_03: Mount Machu Machu Pichu.
9:25
SPEAKER_03: Machu Picchu.
9:26
SPEAKER_03: I'm learning so much with Billy Carson.
9:28
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
9:28
SPEAKER_01: Which is okay.
9:29
SPEAKER_03: I am it when I don't know.
9:30
SPEAKER_01: We're out of the financial realm now.
9:31
SPEAKER_01: We're getting into the esoteric.
9:33
SPEAKER_03: Okay, the esoteric, yeah.
9:34
SPEAKER_01: Right.
9:34
SPEAKER_01: So it's okay.
9:35
SPEAKER_03: Okay.
9:36
SPEAKER_01: But uh Okay, let's repeat it.
9:37
SPEAKER_03: So though.
9:38
SPEAKER_01: In Lakek Alakin.
9:39
SPEAKER_03: Inlakek alakin.
9:41
SPEAKER_01: Right.
9:42
SPEAKER_01: I am another you.
9:43
SPEAKER_01: I am another.
9:43
SPEAKER_01: And it means that, you know, I see the world, I see you as I see myself, right?
9:47
SPEAKER_01: I see myself inside of you.
9:49
SPEAKER_01: And because we want to see that best in other people, um, and we do kind of I don't hate to use the word victim, but more like we fall prey to their agenda.
10:00
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
10:01
SPEAKER_01: Sometimes people do have an agenda, right?
10:03
SPEAKER_01: Um, I had been with people in the past that had definitely had an agenda.
10:08
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
10:08
SPEAKER_01: They they sought me out, they they love bomb me.
10:13
SPEAKER_01: Uh, and then it was all an agenda to get on the inside and then manipulate, you know, move things around and do certain things or whatever.
10:21
SPEAKER_01: Um, and so we have to become aware.
10:23
SPEAKER_01: Awareness is the absolute key.
10:25
SPEAKER_01: And how do you become aware?
10:27
SPEAKER_01: We know that the love vibration or that love frequency, right?
10:31
SPEAKER_01: That initial stage is so overwhelming that we kind of become blind, right?
10:36
SPEAKER_01: We become blind to everything going on.
10:38
SPEAKER_01: And the red flags present themselves, but we just ignore them.
10:42
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
10:42
SPEAKER_01: Uh, and the first thing we have to do is we have to become more a little bit more vigilant and we have to discern more.
10:48
SPEAKER_01: And, you know, one thing I did after my last uh situation where I ended up filing for a divorce and winning the divorce, I realized that uh through studying on relationships and self-improvement and understanding more about myself and why I, me, put myself in these situations because you can never blame the other person.
11:07
SPEAKER_01: It's always us that puts ourselves there.
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SPEAKER_01: I began to realize that I didn't have awareness of these red flags.
11:14
SPEAKER_01: I didn't have awareness of situations that weren't on my timeline.
11:17
SPEAKER_01: Now, those red flags might be perfectly good.
11:19
SPEAKER_01: They might be green flags for somebody else.
11:22
SPEAKER_01: They might be golden green flags.
11:25
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
11:25
SPEAKER_01: But for my timeline, they weren't in alignment with who I am and the path that I was on.
11:30
SPEAKER_01: And so when you when you ignore those red flags because of your love blindness, uh, it then tugs you away from your timeline and forces you onto theirs.
11:42
SPEAKER_01: And unfortunately, once that happens, sometimes those people will utilize that energy in a different way than it was meant to be used.
11:50
SPEAKER_01: So we have to be careful, we have to be aware.
11:52
SPEAKER_01: When a red flag shows up, we have to see them.
11:54
SPEAKER_01: After I um, you know, was divorced and I started dating.
11:58
SPEAKER_01: I dated a few people, just a couple, and I saw red flags.
12:03
SPEAKER_01: Not initially, but within the first few weeks, and I said, I see it.
12:08
SPEAKER_01: And this was the first time in my life I actually saw it before.
12:12
SPEAKER_01: The old Billy would have been like, let's go, right?
12:14
SPEAKER_01: I got on the what they call it, rose-colored glasses or something like that.
12:17
SPEAKER_01: What's that old saying?
12:18
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, it's the rose.
12:19
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, you know, and everything is great.
12:21
SPEAKER_01: Oh, that's nothing, that's no big deal, and I can work around that or I can change that.
12:25
SPEAKER_01: No, you can't change that.
12:27
SPEAKER_01: No, you can't work around that.
12:29
SPEAKER_01: If it's not serving your greater good, if it's not something that is uh gonna be a part of your timeline for you to be the best version of yourself, it has to go and you gotta walk away.
12:40
SPEAKER_01: And so that's exactly what I did.
12:41
SPEAKER_01: I did the moon walk out of there really quick.
12:43
SPEAKER_01: I was like, MJ.
12:45
SPEAKER_01: I was like, Annie, are you okay?
12:49
SPEAKER_01: Are you okay?
12:50
SPEAKER_01: Annie, listen, I was out of there.
12:52
SPEAKER_01: But why?
12:52
SPEAKER_01: Because I finally saw it before, forget about it.
12:56
SPEAKER_01: I ain't seen nothing.
12:57
SPEAKER_01: I was blind, but this time I actually saw it.
12:59
SPEAKER_01: So it's a step-by-step process.
13:01
SPEAKER_01: So what I'm saying to the to is this for people who have been going through the similar situations over and over and hadn't seen these red flags, they need to understand don't kick yourself, don't be down on yourself, don't be depressed, don't be angry.
13:15
SPEAKER_01: Just now start fresh and start anew and begin to recognize these red flags for what they really are.
13:21
SPEAKER_01: Because what I've learned through now my 55 years on this planet, a leopard never changes its spots.
13:27
SPEAKER_03: Oh, that's neat.
13:29
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
13:30
SPEAKER_03: So like I I absolutely agree with that.
13:33
SPEAKER_03: Um having the strength to leave, you know, that's and get out of there.
13:38
SPEAKER_03: I don't care what they have, what it looks like they can offer you.
13:42
SPEAKER_03: Um, I don't care how strong the chemistry is, just look at it and say, no, but how do you get there?
13:48
SPEAKER_03: So it took me a while, all right, because I was not, I'm telling you, I literally am happy I love music.
13:56
SPEAKER_03: If you make me laugh, oh you got me.
14:00
SPEAKER_03: You know, it was just great.
14:02
SPEAKER_03: And so what ended up happening was one of my good friends and business partners, he started calling me an habitual first dater because I'd be at dinner with someone, and they literally, like I remember one person was eating and food like dropped out of his mouth while he was eating.
14:23
SPEAKER_03: Okay.
14:24
SPEAKER_03: And it wasn't, I and it wasn't his fault, right?
14:27
SPEAKER_03: I must say we were talking, but while he was eating or whatever, and I was like, nah, see, he don't pay attention, you know.
14:34
SPEAKER_03: I just started overdoing it.
14:36
SPEAKER_03: And then I went out with another gentleman, and he was, you know, he was super nice, super kind, you know, and all that stuff.
14:43
SPEAKER_03: But then in the um middle of the conversation, you know, he was like asking me about, you know, being vegan, and and he asked me in a hypothetical situation, like, if all we had to eat was a deer, would I eat the deer?
15:00
SPEAKER_03: You know, and I said, no, I'll just eat what the deer eats because once the deer is gone, we're not gonna have anything.
15:08
SPEAKER_03: And he got really upset.
15:09
SPEAKER_03: He was like, you would just let your family die and not eat the deer.
15:15
SPEAKER_01: He went so far off the deep end.
15:18
SPEAKER_03: Right, right, right.
15:18
SPEAKER_03: So I'm gonna do it.
15:20
SPEAKER_03: So this is the first date.
15:22
SPEAKER_03: So, you know, um, so we got in this huge debate, you know, about this deer, you know, and I'm like, listen, I'm not that vegan, okay?
15:30
SPEAKER_03: I'm like vegan, but I'm not this vegan where I'm trying to have this huge argument, you know.
15:34
SPEAKER_03: We're arguing about a hypothetical situation that hasn't even existed.
15:38
SPEAKER_03: So I like saw like that that that so raven show where she kind of gets projected into the future, and I'm like, here I am.
15:45
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, it's like apocalyptic.
15:46
SPEAKER_01: He was the most apocalyptic thoughts.
15:49
SPEAKER_01: He was like dystopia, like the geez.
15:52
SPEAKER_03: So other women like might be like, well, that's not that bad.
15:55
SPEAKER_03: You just got that.
15:55
SPEAKER_03: He's really great, he's got a great job.
15:57
SPEAKER_03: He makes, you know, six, seven figures.
15:59
SPEAKER_03: He does this, he's gorgeous.
16:00
SPEAKER_03: And you just you don't want to date him because you had a hypothetical argument.
16:04
SPEAKER_03: And I said, Yes.
16:05
SPEAKER_03: We had a hypothetical argument.
16:07
SPEAKER_01: That's crazy.
16:08
SPEAKER_03: That's crazy on a first date.
16:10
SPEAKER_03: So those are the red flags we're talking about that seem subtle, right?
16:14
SPEAKER_03: They seem innocent and fun and playful.
16:16
SPEAKER_03: He wouldn't playful.
16:18
SPEAKER_03: He was serious about me eating this deer.
16:20
SPEAKER_03: And so I got out of deer.
16:26
SPEAKER_01: So you got out of deer?
16:28
SPEAKER_06: I got out of deer.
16:31
SPEAKER_03: You're so funny though.
16:32
SPEAKER_03: Like, that's really good.
16:34
SPEAKER_03: But anyway, yeah, I got out of deer.
16:37
SPEAKER_03: Such a dad joke.
16:40
SPEAKER_03: But anyway, so I'm just saying, so we're not, so some people say, oh, this is so small, or this is that, but then there's a thing that'll happen where you just everything's great.
16:49
SPEAKER_03: You don't get in one argument at all.
16:51
SPEAKER_03: And then after two months, I always for me, it was always like that 60 day mark.
16:56
SPEAKER_03: You know, something will happen out of the blue, and you'll think about all the other things, you just ignore it, right?
17:01
SPEAKER_03: But it's it's a red flag.
17:04
SPEAKER_03: And um, and for me, red, you're not like looking for it.
17:08
SPEAKER_03: Before you, what I'd say a red flag is for you, because everyone's is different, is your standards, because you can't expect perfection from people, right?
17:17
SPEAKER_03: Okay, you have to have certain standards, right?
17:20
SPEAKER_03: Things that you want to deal with, like how I want to be spoken to, you know, um, how do I want a guy to open the door or not open the door?
17:27
SPEAKER_03: Do I care about those different things?
17:29
SPEAKER_03: I'm not big on those things, but um, you know, how how are you, you know, with that, whatever your standards are, no judgment, be real with yourself.
17:37
SPEAKER_03: Don't negotiate it.
17:38
SPEAKER_03: What are your standards?
17:39
SPEAKER_03: Do you want to date someone with kids?
17:41
SPEAKER_03: My requirement was I wanted to be with someone with kids because I had kids.
17:45
SPEAKER_03: Um, when I went away from that, it was a challenge.
17:48
SPEAKER_03: You know, it was a challenge.
17:49
SPEAKER_03: It was always a challenge when it came to me choosing them.
17:53
SPEAKER_03: So that is another timeline thing.
17:55
SPEAKER_03: Not saying that dating a person without kids is a bad thing, but that was just something that I needed, right?
18:01
SPEAKER_03: So when you keep making those adjustments, like, okay, well, I really like this person, but my huge, you know, deal breaker is kids or having kids or someone that has kids you don't want to date.
18:12
SPEAKER_03: And you go and do it, and then the things start coming up later, you know, that's when I'm not saying blame yourself, but that's when you have to be, like you said, very self-aware.
18:22
SPEAKER_03: Like, what is it I want?
18:24
SPEAKER_03: What do what do I want my everyday to feel like with this person?
18:28
SPEAKER_03: So, first, the most important thing is your everyday with yourself.
18:32
SPEAKER_03: How does every day with yourself feel like?
18:34
SPEAKER_03: And if you can really enjoy every day with yourself, then you'll understand how that other person fits in or how you fit into their life.
18:41
SPEAKER_03: And then you can start recognizing the red flags.
18:43
SPEAKER_03: Then you can start recognizing are we on the same timeline?
18:46
SPEAKER_03: Are we aligned?
18:47
SPEAKER_03: What are my routines every day?
18:48
SPEAKER_03: If they don't have a routine, nine times out of ten, they're gonna get you off of your routine.
18:52
SPEAKER_03: If you want someone, like Billy told me that it was very because I asked him, I said, What do you want out of a relationship?
18:59
SPEAKER_03: He says, Very important that my mate is healthy.
19:03
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, you know, I just really want her to be healthy, and I was like, Oh, this is great.
19:08
SPEAKER_03: I it's very important for my mate to be healthy because I lost my stepfather, and my mother was a young widow, and you know, and I saw the pain that it caused her, you know, and I just didn't want to deal with that pain.
19:24
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, oh my gosh, I don't want to, you know, watch the person I love suffer unnecessarily.
19:30
SPEAKER_03: Not saying that that won't happen, you know, but I want someone that's, hey, at our age, we have to, you know, we're living, but it's it's very important.
19:38
SPEAKER_03: You can't help.
19:39
SPEAKER_03: There's no such thing as wealth without health.
19:41
SPEAKER_03: You know, it's it's not to me, health is wealth.
19:44
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, right.
19:44
SPEAKER_03: And that's something that's big to me.
19:45
SPEAKER_03: And it doesn't have to be big to everyone else, right?
19:48
SPEAKER_03: But you don't want to be with someone where they don't work, you're working out six days a week and you look at them, they don't work out six times a year.
19:55
SPEAKER_03: You know what you're gonna start doing to that person?
19:57
SPEAKER_03: You're gonna start worrying about that person.
19:59
SPEAKER_03: Hey, trying to be their coach, let me bring you over here, bring you to my side, and that's gonna cause friction.
20:03
SPEAKER_03: And then they're gonna be like, gosh, why do you have to work out all the time?
20:06
SPEAKER_03: Why you gotta get up at four in the morning?
20:07
SPEAKER_03: Why do you gotta do that?
20:08
SPEAKER_03: And that can cause a problem.
20:10
SPEAKER_03: It's very rare that those things, and I'm not saying it never happens, but it's very rare that you meet people, you know, on such different dynamics that can cohabitate with each other.
20:21
SPEAKER_03: So not necessarily a red flag, but just a flag that you can say, hey, this doesn't align with what my future looks like.
20:30
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, yeah, I agree.
20:31
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, it's just not on the timeline because you know, uh, it makes a lot of sense if you're if you're a person that goes to the gym three, four times a week and the other person doesn't go at all.
20:39
SPEAKER_01: Not only will you try to pull them in, but and then when you when they don't, then you're gonna be frustrated, you're gonna get angry, you're gonna have resentment.
20:46
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, the resentment continues to build.
20:48
SPEAKER_01: Uh I even see in a relationship that tried to work like that, where then the woman was fat shaming the guy, yeah, and that would trigger more arguments, and so it was just turning into this cycle.
20:58
SPEAKER_01: But you're right.
20:58
SPEAKER_01: So, and everything is a little bit different, you know, different for everyone.
21:01
SPEAKER_01: Like, for example, you were saying, like, for you, when you were dating with kids, you wanted a man that had kids so he can relate, so he can understand that vibration, that frequency, right?
21:10
SPEAKER_01: That family nature, uh, versus someone who didn't have it, because then it would be like, you know, I got this other man's seed, and I gotta, you know, and you know, I know the mindset, right?
21:21
SPEAKER_01: And so, and then also you were on a date with someone who started a hypothetical, pessimistic argument, right?
21:30
SPEAKER_01: But now a lot of women would have been analyzing, well, I know he's starting this crazy scenario, but he got good money and a good job and benefits and a house and a nice car.
21:40
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
21:40
SPEAKER_01: And they would have been like, I'm on work with this one.
21:43
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
21:43
SPEAKER_01: Right?
21:44
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
21:44
SPEAKER_01: And they've been in a very toxic relationship.
21:46
SPEAKER_01: Because if you're arguing on date number one, yeah, that's your future.
21:51
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
21:51
SPEAKER_01: You're predicting the whole outcome of the whole thing, arguing all the time over stuff that didn't even happen yet.
21:56
SPEAKER_03: Didn't even happen yet.
21:57
SPEAKER_03: I think, like, really, sir.
22:00
SPEAKER_01: What if World War 10 happened tomorrow?
22:03
SPEAKER_01: I mean, come on.
22:04
SPEAKER_01: Right?
22:05
SPEAKER_01: Right.
22:05
SPEAKER_01: But there's people like that, very pessimistic people exist.
22:08
SPEAKER_01: I know a few of them, and they're always focused on the worst outcome, and they're always saying the worst horrible things in situations that aren't even close to developing.
22:19
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
22:19
SPEAKER_01: Right?
22:19
SPEAKER_01: So, but again, the women, they would a lot of them, not all, but a lot of them would have been like, hmm, good job, good money, nice car, good house, stable income, benefits, I'm in.
22:29
SPEAKER_01: And then try to make it work, right?
22:31
SPEAKER_01: So, this is what we're talking about dating your time.
22:33
SPEAKER_01: And obviously, clearly, if you can now, if you can put up with the toxicity, if you're codependent on toxic arguments, but that's not healthy.
22:41
SPEAKER_01: You know?
22:41
SPEAKER_01: Over time, those arguments they create dis-ease in the body, and that dis-ease turns into disease.
22:48
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
22:49
SPEAKER_01: And then you're pushing up daisies.
22:50
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
22:53
SPEAKER_03: We're bars.
22:53
SPEAKER_03: You've been doing good too lately with your birds.
22:56
SPEAKER_03: I've been listening to all of his music.
22:59
SPEAKER_03: So sleep.
23:00
SPEAKER_03: With the enemy.
23:00
SPEAKER_07: Yeah.
23:01
SPEAKER_03: All right.
23:02
SPEAKER_03: So when I realized I was sleeping with the enemy, it was um, it was definitely sobering.
23:12
SPEAKER_03: You know, and I was with this person for a good amount of time.
23:20
SPEAKER_03: Um, and I looked back, we were together for years, and I ended up looking back on the progression of the toxicity.
23:30
SPEAKER_03: And I always made excuses like, oh, he was just having a bad day.
23:35
SPEAKER_03: You know, I was having a bad day.
23:36
SPEAKER_03: Maybe I could have responded better.
23:38
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
23:39
SPEAKER_03: You know?
23:39
SPEAKER_03: Um blame ourselves.
23:41
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, yeah.
23:42
SPEAKER_03: I mean, definitely blame myself, you know.
23:45
SPEAKER_03: You know what?
23:45
SPEAKER_03: I just so I have this habit of um dancing in the morning to loud music.
23:52
SPEAKER_08: I know.
23:53
SPEAKER_03: And I warned you, I was like, I really like 80s, and I start, I want to get in a state, because I listened to Tony Robbins for years, and he always talks about manifesting from a state, right?
24:04
SPEAKER_03: So I want to always start my day with a state, a a state of mind, right?
24:09
SPEAKER_03: And so the easiest way to get there is music, music from a time when I was younger and and no problems and everything.
24:17
SPEAKER_03: Nostalgia.
24:18
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, nostalgia.
24:19
SPEAKER_03: I like that.
24:20
SPEAKER_03: And the 80s, all right.
24:21
SPEAKER_03: So I was listening, you know, to an 80s song, and it I really, really got into it, and um he got of it and I remember I'm dancing, I'm at line eye.
24:36
SPEAKER_03: Turn that F and S H I T on.
24:39
SPEAKER_03: Wow, there's out of the blue.
24:41
SPEAKER_03: I'm in the bathroom, you know.
24:43
SPEAKER_03: I know who gets up that early in the morning is happy.
24:50
SPEAKER_03: Like so I turn around and I'm like, and I remember that like uh that little girl in me, like scared, like it took me back to when I was a child, like you know what I mean?
25:02
SPEAKER_03: Oh, I'm in trouble, you know.
25:04
SPEAKER_03: And it you know, broke in me.
25:06
SPEAKER_03: So I immediately just like tried to defuse the situation, and I'm like, oh my little angry poo-bearer.
25:18
SPEAKER_03: It's okay, honey, dance with me.
25:20
SPEAKER_03: You know, he wasn't dancing with me.
25:26
SPEAKER_03: So yeah, so that was how I dealt with that situation.
25:29
SPEAKER_03: But before that, that was like, wait a minute, where did that come from?
25:33
SPEAKER_03: It was the first time he had lost his temper with me.
25:35
SPEAKER_03: And it was, you know, and then after that, needless to say, it got to so many times to where I wasn't responding like, oh, my little toothbig.
25:44
SPEAKER_03: I was responding like him, you know?
25:46
SPEAKER_07: Yeah.
25:46
SPEAKER_03: And next thing you know, we're at each other's throat.
25:49
SPEAKER_03: And then those situations, you have those blow-ups, and then you come back to go, oh, I'm sorry, and I'm this and the other thing.
25:54
SPEAKER_03: You have this string of toxicity, yeah.
25:56
SPEAKER_03: And that ends up being the dynamic of your relationship.
25:59
SPEAKER_07: Right.
26:00
SPEAKER_03: And so a major rip lag is if you you'll know, right, if the person's not on your timeline, if you're vibing super high and they interject something, and it takes you out of that state, like almost immediately, to so low that you feel crippled, scared, and that you have to protect yourself in any type of way.
26:19
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
26:19
SPEAKER_03: And so, you know, and so anyway, so so needs to say, um, that that's where I was able to realize, you know, when it happened again, I was laying in a bed, and you know, and I looked up and I wanted to share with him some exciting news.
26:33
SPEAKER_03: And I was like, hey, how you doing?
26:35
SPEAKER_03: And you know, like we're not arguing anything, like, you know, annoyed, just like that annoyance.
26:42
SPEAKER_03: And I've seen it in other couples where you do see how they talk to each other, and it's like, you know, what you're you're annoying, like you're annoying me.
26:50
SPEAKER_03: And I'm like, it's not about longevity, it's about the quality of the relationship while you're in there.
26:56
SPEAKER_03: You want to be with someone that you're happy to see, you're happy to be around, that you really like them, you can observe them in their own little innocent space, dancing, like, wow, let me dance with her.
27:07
SPEAKER_03: Not look at her dancing again, you know, or look at him doing his podcast and talking to this person that he knows everything.
27:18
SPEAKER_03: And you want a person that actually likes you.
27:21
SPEAKER_03: And when I realized, wow, I'm I'm really sleeping next to the enemy.
27:26
SPEAKER_03: And that wasn't the first relationship like that, right?
27:29
SPEAKER_03: It was a series of them where everything was great until they weren't, and then I stayed and tried to hold on to the mask that was introduced to me in the beginning, you know, and I fought for that.
27:39
SPEAKER_03: I was negotiating that, like, oh, let's do this, let's let's do that, or maybe I can be that.
27:45
SPEAKER_03: Or in some cases, I became them.
27:47
SPEAKER_03: I became the angry person.
27:49
SPEAKER_03: I became the fighting, and I had um someone called it reactive abuse that a lot of um people with different personality disorders will start triggering in you, and and then next thing you know, you're reacting in a way that's not in alignment of who you truly are.
28:05
SPEAKER_08: Yeah.
28:06
SPEAKER_03: And so it's and then they blame you.
28:08
SPEAKER_03: See what you did, see how you reacted, and they focus more on the reaction than they do the action that caused your reaction.
28:15
SPEAKER_03: And so you're now you're feeling that guilt, and you know, you get shame again, you know.
28:20
SPEAKER_03: And then you're like, I found myself in constant like relationships to where I'm trying to, I would apologize to them for being mad at them.
28:35
SPEAKER_01: Man, come on.
28:36
SPEAKER_03: Like, I would be mad at them.
28:38
SPEAKER_03: Next thing you know, I'm about they're mad at me for being mad at them.
28:41
SPEAKER_03: And you're apologizing.
28:41
SPEAKER_03: And then now I'm apologizing.
28:43
SPEAKER_03: Oh God.
28:43
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, oh my God, this is what's happening.
28:47
SPEAKER_03: So that's how you know you're sleeping with the enemy.
28:49
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
28:50
SPEAKER_01: Facts.
28:51
SPEAKER_01: Facts.
28:52
SPEAKER_01: Goodness.
28:54
SPEAKER_01: It's like you just read my whole past history.
28:56
SPEAKER_03: Oh, yeah.
28:57
SPEAKER_01: You know, it's uh because we're in the same timeline.
28:59
SPEAKER_01: We're in the same time.
28:59
SPEAKER_01: That's what I was going through.
29:00
SPEAKER_01: Exactly.
29:01
SPEAKER_01: Isn't it interesting how we consistently, because I did the same thing, I consistently put myself in similar situations, with the exception of maybe one person, um, where um, you know, that was happening, right?
29:14
SPEAKER_01: And it's this um it's this anger.
29:17
unknown: Yeah.
29:18
SPEAKER_01: And sometimes it almost seems like forced anger or fake anger.
29:22
SPEAKER_01: Um, not really under not I'm not, I wasn't really able to discern whether it was real or fake at some time, sometimes, right?
29:28
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
29:28
SPEAKER_01: And then it was almost as if to trigger me.
29:31
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
29:32
SPEAKER_01: And then to focus on the trigger response or the reaction versus what caused it, just like you said.
29:38
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
29:38
SPEAKER_01: Right?
29:39
SPEAKER_01: It's like, are they did they go to some kind of trigger university?
29:43
SPEAKER_01: Is there a university?
29:44
SPEAKER_01: Is there a PhD in this that I didn't I didn't know about this particular class or course that exists?
29:49
SPEAKER_01: But they got they went to this course, right?
29:52
SPEAKER_01: And they mastered this course.
29:55
SPEAKER_01: Um, and the thing that I really um struggle with is trying to understand why.
30:04
SPEAKER_01: Like, you know, like it, like, why even come with the mask?
30:10
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32:13
SPEAKER_01: Why become so cruel on a consistent basis?
32:16
SPEAKER_01: You know, the pulling away and the attitudes and the embarrassing in public and things like that.
32:21
SPEAKER_01: And then you I'm always just trying to cover it up, you know, and and over giving over out overdoing the accolades to make that person feel whole because I thought they just had a hole in themselves or whatever, you know?
32:32
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
32:32
SPEAKER_01: And it still wasn't ever enough, right?
32:35
SPEAKER_01: And no matter what you did, the person was always jealous.
32:38
SPEAKER_01: I've had exes, this is plural.
32:42
SPEAKER_01: I've had exes tell me that they were jealous of me.
32:45
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
32:45
SPEAKER_01: To my face.
32:46
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
32:47
SPEAKER_01: And I'm going, how could you be jealous of me?
32:50
SPEAKER_01: Whatever I have, you have.
32:51
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
32:52
SPEAKER_01: If I'm successful, you're successful.
32:54
SPEAKER_01: One ex was um trying to trying to blow up in one field, right?
32:58
SPEAKER_01: In one genre of work.
33:00
SPEAKER_01: And I wasn't even in that field of work yet.
33:03
SPEAKER_01: This was music.
33:04
SPEAKER_01: 2015, I started producing music.
33:07
SPEAKER_01: A lot of people don't know I produced music.
33:09
SPEAKER_01: Um, and I just came out of nowhere.
33:12
SPEAKER_01: And I started producing a lot of music, and some of them became hits, you know, and some of them actually made it even to billboard, you know.
33:20
SPEAKER_01: And so my songs were playing all over the place.
33:24
SPEAKER_01: And so, in some way, I had kind of superseded or exceled past this person, not as a performer on stage, but still it's in music, right?
33:31
SPEAKER_01: Uh, and then I tried to take this person along with me and try to put this person in music and try to boost them up and give them accolades and get their first album out and make them a music video and all this stuff to say, hey, come with me.
33:43
SPEAKER_01: You can, you know, it's just we're together, it's a team.
33:45
SPEAKER_01: It still wasn't good enough.
33:47
SPEAKER_01: So there was always this animosity, this envy, this um this jealousy that was just there, right?
33:53
SPEAKER_01: And I was just like, I can't understand.
33:55
SPEAKER_01: I couldn't wrap my mind around it.
33:57
SPEAKER_01: And then I faced it again um, you know, with with someone else, and there was um another jealousy issue.
34:03
SPEAKER_01: Every accolade I got everything that I did, every, you know, every every every time somebody would uh recognize me, want a photo with me, uh, autograph or whatever, it was always I knew later on that day I was gonna have to deal with a very nasty attitude.
34:18
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
34:18
SPEAKER_01: Uh, and it was just this jealousy thing.
34:20
SPEAKER_01: And so you're right, you could be sleeping with an enemy, you know.
34:24
SPEAKER_01: I faced before, and some men will never talk about this, men are victims of domestic abuse.
34:31
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
34:32
SPEAKER_01: Spiritually, mentally, and physically.
34:35
SPEAKER_01: And I'm a victim of all three.
34:37
SPEAKER_01: And the reason why men won't talk about that is because it's very emasculating, or we feel like it's emasculating.
34:42
SPEAKER_01: But I'm here to say it because I think a lot of guys out there, just as big as me.
34:47
SPEAKER_01: I'm a big dude.
34:47
SPEAKER_01: I'm 230 pounds right now, six foot four.
34:50
SPEAKER_03: Yes, you are.
34:51
SPEAKER_01: Right.
34:55
SPEAKER_06: Continue.
34:56
SPEAKER_06: Sorry.
34:57
SPEAKER_01: So you keep making it.
35:00
SPEAKER_06: I'm sorry, this is a touching moment.
35:01
SPEAKER_01: But the point that the point that I'm making here is like I would be able, I mean, one blow, I destroy this person.
35:09
SPEAKER_01: One blow.
35:09
SPEAKER_01: I mean, you know.
35:10
SPEAKER_01: And so it takes a lot of restraint.
35:12
SPEAKER_01: And so because we show that restraint, even that restraint is taken for granted.
35:16
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
35:17
SPEAKER_01: You know what I'm saying?
35:18
SPEAKER_01: To the point where um this person thinks they can continue on and it even escalates from that, that abuse even escalates.
35:25
SPEAKER_01: And then you kind of you kind of suffer alone, right?
35:29
SPEAKER_01: Because this is something that's so embarrassing and so um incredible that you you don't really want to share with many people.
35:37
SPEAKER_01: There's a small amount of people that know about it, you know, um, and and have witnessed it, but you try to keep it because it's like it just destroys your ego, right?
35:47
SPEAKER_01: It makes you feel less of a man.
35:49
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
35:49
SPEAKER_01: Um, but men need to understand out there, well, women need to understand, and men need to understand, it's okay to talk about and express that, hey, I've been a victim of domestic violence, domestic abuse.
36:01
SPEAKER_01: There's three types that I consider in a category.
36:03
SPEAKER_01: There might be more, but those are the three that I had experienced: spiritual welfare, psychological warfare, and physical attack.
36:11
SPEAKER_01: Um and, you know, we need understanding, we need, we need help sometimes, right?
36:18
SPEAKER_01: Some of these things have driven men into suicide and many other things.
36:22
SPEAKER_01: Men love hard.
36:23
SPEAKER_01: A good man, a good man will love hard, and a good man will stay as long as he possibly can, even in some of the worst conditions.
36:31
SPEAKER_01: I've seen men stay through being cheated on, being dogged out, being abused, and everything else, right?
36:38
SPEAKER_01: I've tried to stay as long as I can.
36:40
SPEAKER_01: I was in a one, I was in a 20-year relationship one time.
36:43
SPEAKER_01: And so people out there saying I'm a jigglo, no, 20 years.
36:47
SPEAKER_01: I did a 20-year sentence.
36:49
SPEAKER_01: You know, and so but the point I'm making is the enemy could be there.
36:54
SPEAKER_01: And if you are so caught up that you become codependent on that toxicity and you become codependent on the abuse, it can lure you into thinking you need you need to stay.
37:08
SPEAKER_01: But the fact of the matter is, for our own personal sanctity, our own health, our own psychological well-being, there are some situations where you need to find the strength and the courage to walk away.
37:19
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
37:20
SPEAKER_01: And so, you know, I've been in some relationships where I found the courage to be able to do that.
37:25
SPEAKER_01: The only problem was I got back with more enemies again.
37:29
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
37:29
SPEAKER_01: You know?
37:30
SPEAKER_03: Well, that's why we're doing the date your timeline, because you're not gonna know in the beginning.
37:34
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, you know.
37:35
SPEAKER_03: Um you're not gonna, you're not gonna know like right away, but there's certain things you can figure out.
37:41
SPEAKER_03: Like, you know, um, I I recalled there was another situation, and I'm talking about, oh my gosh, it was great.
37:49
SPEAKER_03: This we were in alignment.
37:51
SPEAKER_03: I thought, you know, and I'm like, I think I'm gonna do this, you know.
37:55
SPEAKER_03: Uh, you know, we had been together a couple months, no problems.
37:59
SPEAKER_03: And then out of the blue, we weren't even arguing.
38:02
SPEAKER_03: Um, and they were speaking, and I didn't, I interjected, I interrupted, you know, um, interjected, and the response I got was a complete like attack.
38:16
SPEAKER_03: Like, how dare you interrupt me, you know, and it was so bad, and they and we were on a FaceTime, and the person like came towards me on the phone, and I looked at the phone and he was so angry, and it was so out of the blue, I just started laughing.
38:38
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, okay.
38:42
SPEAKER_03: So, but I'm on FaceTime, so because he was like, you like he's like walking towards me.
38:48
SPEAKER_03: I was like, What are you gonna do?
38:49
SPEAKER_03: Come through the phone, you know.
38:52
SPEAKER_03: Right, you're gonna teleport, you know, like but I was like, I'm I was like, you know what?
39:00
SPEAKER_03: I'm good.
39:01
SPEAKER_03: You know, I'm sorry I had a bad day, you know, it wasn't that wasn't me.
39:05
SPEAKER_03: And my problem, the problem that I had with it was that we weren't even arguing.
39:11
SPEAKER_03: We were having a simple conversation, and I may have interjected.
39:14
SPEAKER_03: And if you're that upset that you're walking towards the phone and we're miles away, thousands of miles away from each other, what could have happened in front of me?
39:24
SPEAKER_03: And right there, I was done.
39:27
SPEAKER_03: Like that's all it took.
39:28
SPEAKER_03: And he was so surprised.
39:29
SPEAKER_03: He was like, Oh my gosh, what are you a you know, passenger princess?
39:33
SPEAKER_03: You can't take me and yelled at, and I'm like, you know what?
39:36
SPEAKER_03: No, I don't want anyone that can look at me and yell at me for absolutely no reason.
39:42
SPEAKER_03: Like we can, I I can even understand, like, if you know, you know, emotions are up, even that, you know, you might, I'm not saying you're never gonna yell in a relationship or raise your voice, but like that.
39:53
SPEAKER_01: Randomly just out of the blue.
39:55
SPEAKER_03: Randomly out of the blue, like you're reprimanding me like a child or something.
39:58
SPEAKER_03: And it was crazy because that's when I was like, oh my God, I keep meeting these overly aggressive people.
40:04
SPEAKER_03: Like, why do they keep showing up?
40:07
SPEAKER_03: And I'm like, what timeline, what frequency am I on?
40:10
SPEAKER_03: And what I realized was they're always gonna show up.
40:14
SPEAKER_03: When you're a light, you're gonna attract everything.
40:16
SPEAKER_03: And so what we would do, and what I would do, and people like myself or you that have been in this situation, those of you that have been in this situation, you're not, it's not that you're attracting the same person, you're track, you're attracting all people.
40:29
SPEAKER_03: You just have to turn on your filters.
40:31
SPEAKER_03: And so I got to filtering them out.
40:33
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, yep, I don't care how much time I put into this, I don't care what it is, I'm out immediately.
40:38
SPEAKER_03: When my deal breaker's there, that you yell at me to that degree, I am, I am out of there.
40:44
SPEAKER_03: We have nothing else to talk about.
40:46
SPEAKER_03: I'm not gonna be sitting here trying to go to counseling with you so you can control your anger management.
40:51
SPEAKER_03: I'm out.
40:52
SPEAKER_03: That's not for me.
40:53
SPEAKER_03: I'm done with that timeline.
40:54
SPEAKER_03: And then I ended up being with someone else that had another uh vice, end up being an alcoholic, but was the most amazing person.
41:02
SPEAKER_03: We never argued not once.
41:03
SPEAKER_03: This was the most loving, caring person you could ever meet.
41:06
SPEAKER_03: Come to find out they're an alcoholic after a few months of being with them.
41:09
SPEAKER_03: I said, you know what?
41:11
SPEAKER_03: No matter how great it looks, I'm out.
41:13
SPEAKER_03: And that's what you have to do when it shows up, because it'll show up because it's familiar, right?
41:17
SPEAKER_03: Subconsciously.
41:18
SPEAKER_03: But when you see those signs that are similar, that keep showing up, those patterns, I would say, that show up in your life with different people and different bodies, then you decide to know.
41:30
SPEAKER_03: Because you're telling the universe, okay, I'm tired of being on this time, I'm tired of this reality.
41:34
SPEAKER_03: Okay, so you get that out of there.
41:36
SPEAKER_03: And then you start focusing, okay, what is your what are your goals in life?
41:40
SPEAKER_03: Who are you in life?
41:41
SPEAKER_03: And you know, and then you'll start seeing those things and merge because you can meet people that are you're not alignment that that have the same goals and focus as you.
41:49
SPEAKER_03: But you have to, you know, really, like I said, know yourself, assess the situation.
41:54
SPEAKER_03: Now, another thing I wanted to talk about, just to touch on what you said.
41:59
SPEAKER_03: You asked a question, and a lot of people have this question is how can a person be so cruel?
42:07
SPEAKER_03: How can a person intentionally seek out someone and just pretend just to finally get them and just be deplorable?
42:17
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, you know, like you know, just because you know you, I don't know you, I know me, but you know you have these problems, you know you have these addictions, you know you have these things.
42:27
SPEAKER_03: You're gonna seek out someone that doesn't even drink alcohol, and you know that you're turning up nightly, you know?
42:32
SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
42:33
SPEAKER_03: So why do you seek those people?
42:35
SPEAKER_03: Why do you and then I was all I had those questions too.
42:38
SPEAKER_03: And then I was talking to uh a client one day, and she said that she was, she was a um, I think it was a she was a um uh uh detective.
42:53
SPEAKER_03: And it was her first day on the, you know, her first day on the um job.
43:00
SPEAKER_03: And she was with another detective, and they found somebody that had gone in and like murdered their whole family.
43:06
SPEAKER_03: It was really horrific, right?
43:08
SPEAKER_03: And she because she was so like how she kept asking the detective, how could someone do this?
43:13
SPEAKER_03: How could someone do this?
43:14
SPEAKER_03: And he looked at her and said, the day that you understand is the day you become them.
43:20
SPEAKER_03: So it's not for you to keep asking why.
43:23
SPEAKER_03: It's not for you to keep asking or trying to figure out why these people are this way.
43:27
SPEAKER_03: Why did they come into my life?
43:29
SPEAKER_03: Why did these things happen?
43:30
SPEAKER_03: Why did they destroy my life?
43:31
SPEAKER_03: Why did they why are they doing these things to me?
43:33
SPEAKER_03: You're not at that's not for you to ask.
43:35
SPEAKER_03: It's for you to say, thank you, that I'm aware.
43:39
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, that I see it.
43:41
SPEAKER_03: And thank you, God, for another day to choose different, choose a different person, even if you can't in that situation and at that moment start preparing your exit, whatever that looks like for you.
43:54
SPEAKER_03: But recognize who's the enemy and who's for you.
43:57
SPEAKER_03: And I can guarantee you the person that's insulting you, the person that every time you turn around, nothing you do is good enough.
44:04
SPEAKER_03: No matter how much you give, no matter how much you fight, no matter how much you negotiate, no matter how many times you go to therapy, no matter how many times you hug, you hold, you give, it's not good enough.
44:15
SPEAKER_03: That is not the person for you.
44:18
SPEAKER_03: That is literally an enemy, which is an enemy to your success, an enemy of your love, an enemy of your light, an enemy of your health, an enemy of your future.
44:29
SPEAKER_03: And looking at that person and looking at them and understanding when you're in love, love and not limerence, you have to look up limerence, okay?
44:38
SPEAKER_03: Because that is not love, that is attachment and excitement and recognizing.
44:44
SPEAKER_03: Because remember, you're in a relationship and you'll feel like I can't live without this person.
44:48
SPEAKER_03: Remember that they they say that being in love is equivalent to being addicted to cocaine.
44:53
SPEAKER_03: It creates the same chemical in your brain and addiction to that other person.
44:57
SPEAKER_03: So it's not always love.
44:59
SPEAKER_03: Love is a The highest vibration we operate from.
45:02
SPEAKER_03: It's very important to be in love and find love and fall in love because that's where you manifest from.
45:06
SPEAKER_03: That's where we create from.
45:08
SPEAKER_03: And we should be in love.
45:09
SPEAKER_03: But when you're with someone and it's a pattern, a pattern of toxicity over and over again, that's when you know this isn't it.
45:18
SPEAKER_03: It's it's time to get out.
45:19
SPEAKER_03: I'm sleeping with the enemy.
45:20
SPEAKER_03: Right.
45:21
SPEAKER_03: It's not happening.
45:22
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, facts.
45:23
SPEAKER_01: Absolute facts.
45:24
SPEAKER_01: That when you begin to see that mask crack, yeah, you gotta recognize that's the beginning of the mask completely disintegrating.
45:32
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
45:33
SPEAKER_01: You know, and uh it's unfortunate because we put so much energy into these relationships.
45:37
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
45:37
SPEAKER_01: And when you put energy and effort in, you feel like you're giving up on all that you wasted time.
45:43
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
45:43
SPEAKER_01: But you gotta realize you're gonna waste more time.
45:46
SPEAKER_03: More time.
45:47
SPEAKER_01: Right?
45:47
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
45:48
SPEAKER_01: So you can stay in and you gotta say, well, look, it's only been, I don't know, six months, a year.
45:54
SPEAKER_01: Okay, but if I keep fighting for this, it's gonna be five, ten years of this.
45:59
SPEAKER_01: Ten years.
46:00
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
46:01
SPEAKER_01: And so sometimes you just gotta cut your losses.
46:03
SPEAKER_01: So you gotta know when to hold them, know when to hold them, know when to walk away, and know when to run.
46:10
SPEAKER_01: You better count your money when you're sitting at the table.
46:15
SPEAKER_01: There'll be time enough for counting when the dealing's done.
46:25
SPEAKER_01: Anyway.
46:28
SPEAKER_01: That's for the old heads.
46:29
SPEAKER_01: They know what a power is.
46:32
SPEAKER_01: Super old.
46:35
SPEAKER_01: That's for the grandparents in the house.
46:37
SPEAKER_03: For the grandparents in the house.
46:38
SPEAKER_03: Okay.
46:39
SPEAKER_03: And look, grandparents, I don't care how old you are, I don't care what it is, you can still find love.
46:44
SPEAKER_03: It does not matter.
46:45
SPEAKER_03: Everything you're searching for is searching for you.
46:48
SPEAKER_03: Okay, let's make this world a better place and start loving each other again.
46:52
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, for real.
46:53
SPEAKER_01: Absolutely.
46:54
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, you know, and I I like what you said about, you know, the moment you the moment you begin to ruminate too much on the why.
47:01
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
47:02
SPEAKER_01: You know, then you kind of take on that energy of the why and you become obsessed with that.
47:08
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
47:08
SPEAKER_01: And it can take you over that same dark energy, that same low frequency and vibration.
47:13
SPEAKER_01: It can kind of transform you because you're trying to understand their energy.
47:17
SPEAKER_01: And the only way to understand something is to get to its level.
47:19
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
47:20
SPEAKER_01: Right?
47:21
SPEAKER_01: And so you can ask it, but then just release it.
47:24
SPEAKER_01: Because you'll never get it.
47:26
SPEAKER_01: You'll never fully understand because you're not that.
47:28
SPEAKER_05: Not that.
47:29
SPEAKER_01: And that wasn't your timeline.
47:30
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
47:31
SPEAKER_01: And so, you know, it's an it's uh such an important thing, you know.
47:35
SPEAKER_01: Um, there are some people that will be angry uh if your, you know, if your income is higher than theirs.
47:43
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
47:43
SPEAKER_01: Right?
47:44
SPEAKER_01: That will happen.
47:45
SPEAKER_01: And and it happens vice versa.
47:46
SPEAKER_01: Man, woman, woman, man, doesn't really matter.
47:48
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
47:49
SPEAKER_01: And some people see you as competition.
47:51
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
47:52
SPEAKER_01: There are relationships where the spouse or the partner is in competition instead of collaboration, which doesn't make any sense.
48:00
SPEAKER_01: No sense.
48:01
SPEAKER_01: Right?
48:02
SPEAKER_01: And so I know that women, you know, making stronger income than um their partner, it intimidates them in some kind of weird way.
48:10
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
48:11
SPEAKER_01: Hell, free me.
48:12
SPEAKER_01: I don't give a damn.
48:15
SPEAKER_03: Oh no, I want to say this and that.
48:18
SPEAKER_03: It is, yeah, it is a problem.
48:20
SPEAKER_01: It's a problem.
48:21
SPEAKER_03: You know, that brings me to one point.
48:23
SPEAKER_03: I don't, oh my gosh, I have this.
48:26
SPEAKER_03: So I I dated this guy.
48:28
SPEAKER_03: I was, I didn't date this guy.
48:29
SPEAKER_03: Okay, this one guy.
48:31
SPEAKER_03: And I'm saying this so people can kind of share the stories, you know, um, so people can kind of understand when you're not in alignment with the person.
48:39
SPEAKER_03: I had a gentleman find out how much I made, and it was a couple gentlemen, but this particular story, a gentleman found out how much I made, and he was like, I don't want to date a woman that makes more than me, you know?
48:51
SPEAKER_03: And I was like, okay, well, how much do you make?
48:52
SPEAKER_03: And he's like, I make$150,000 a year.
48:55
SPEAKER_03: And I was like, okay.
48:57
SPEAKER_03: And he was, I was like, well, why not?
48:59
SPEAKER_03: He was like, because I want to be the provider for our family.
49:02
SPEAKER_03: I want to be the one that, you know, causes shots in the house.
49:07
SPEAKER_03: And I was like, well, I was like, but money you think causes shots?
49:10
SPEAKER_03: And he was like, I'm just saying I'm supposed to be the person everyone lean leans on.
49:14
SPEAKER_03: So I thought it was, you know, admirable, right?
49:17
SPEAKER_03: So I was like, well, let's think of it a different way.
49:19
SPEAKER_03: I was like, okay, let's say you have an house, uh, she's a housewife, you have the kids, everything.
49:23
SPEAKER_03: And I'm assuming she's gonna be running a household, taking the kids to the PTO meetings and things like that.
49:27
SPEAKER_03: And he's like, Yeah, she's gonna handle all that.
49:29
SPEAKER_03: I was right, and you want her to, what other attributes?
49:32
SPEAKER_03: He's like, Well, I want her to be able to cook.
49:33
SPEAKER_03: And I was like, Yeah, you want her to be able to cook?
49:35
SPEAKER_03: Okay, great.
49:36
SPEAKER_03: I was like, and let's probably be really good at baking, right?
49:39
SPEAKER_03: And he's like, Yeah, he goes, Oh yeah, she definitely has to be really good at baking pound cake in particular.
49:46
SPEAKER_03: And I was like, okay.
49:47
SPEAKER_03: I was like, so let's say she's going to these PTO meetings and she's providing these, let's say, cookies, all right, these amazing cookies.
49:55
SPEAKER_03: And one day, you know, um, the one of the husbands of the wives are there and they try these cookies.
50:01
SPEAKER_03: And he's uh a uh department head at hostess, and he falls in love with these cookies, and she comes back and she's like they want to buy my recipe.
50:13
SPEAKER_03: And this recipe is worth two and a half million dollars.
50:16
SPEAKER_03: What do you do then?
50:17
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, and he's like, What do you mean?
50:21
SPEAKER_03: I didn't what I don't I don't what are you talking about?
50:24
SPEAKER_03: That would never happen.
50:25
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, but it could.
50:26
SPEAKER_03: I said, and the reason it could is because relationship and marriage is not about roles, okay?
50:33
SPEAKER_03: Our income comes from source, okay.
50:35
SPEAKER_03: And we understand that we go to source provides, right?
50:40
SPEAKER_03: If source provides and you become one with something, source is gonna find the easiest path of what your dreams are.
50:45
SPEAKER_03: And if it's through your mate, then it's gonna come through your mate.
50:48
SPEAKER_03: If it comes through you because it's for your whole family, if you say, I want my family to be this, this may not come through you, it may come through your wife, it may come through your wife's cookies, and you have to be open to that.
50:58
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, you know, you don't have to be, but what do you do then?
51:01
SPEAKER_03: Is the dynamic of your relationship gonna change because now she's the hostess with the most?
51:08
SPEAKER_03: You know, like what do you I just have my own little dad joke.
51:12
SPEAKER_08: Oh, yeah.
51:13
SPEAKER_03: And so anyway, so I'm just saying, and and so you know, he got quiet and he was like, you know, that's really something to think about.
51:20
SPEAKER_03: And so, and that's how I look at us as a whole, as humans, and where we're evolving to, and the difference, relationships are now today more partnerships than roles.
51:29
SPEAKER_03: And it's okay to, you know, be at home and do there's nothing wrong.
51:33
SPEAKER_03: We all have, you know, our contribution, but really to be honest with you, abundance is from source, you know, and being open to that and not the roles and all those things.
51:43
SPEAKER_03: And like you said, and then when you understand that you're not jealous, you're like, oh, this is what our household brought in.
51:48
SPEAKER_01: Exactly.
51:48
SPEAKER_03: You know?
51:49
SPEAKER_01: Yeah, exactly.
51:50
SPEAKER_01: I think when guys do that, uh, or even when women do that, if you know, because some women, the guy, some women, you know, don't want the guy to make more than them.
51:59
SPEAKER_01: I was in a situation like that.
52:01
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
52:01
SPEAKER_01: Um, it has to do with power and control.
52:05
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
52:06
SPEAKER_01: They kind of feel like, okay, you know, if you if you have kids, right, and you you buy your kids cell phones and they're on your plan, if they act up, you turn their phones off as a punishment.
52:14
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
52:15
SPEAKER_01: They don't want to get their phones turned off.
52:17
SPEAKER_01: They want to be the one turning off the phone.
52:19
SPEAKER_01: I paid for this house, I did this, I did that, me, me, me, you know, that kind of energy.
52:24
SPEAKER_01: And so it comes down to more, it's not really the money.
52:27
SPEAKER_01: It's like, well, if this person is making X amount of money, then they're perceiving that person has more power over me.
52:33
SPEAKER_01: And I don't want this person to have that power over me.
52:37
SPEAKER_01: So I want to make more than them so I can tell them what to do and what's gonna happen, what ain't gonna happen in my house, you know, that kind of thing.
52:44
SPEAKER_01: That's really what it boils down to.
52:45
SPEAKER_01: Again, that's not your timeline.
52:47
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, and that that's just the opposite of what being as one means.
52:50
SPEAKER_03: If you're at one in everything else and you decide to get married to a person, why is it hard when it comes to finances?
52:57
SPEAKER_03: You know, why is it hard to see that?
52:58
SPEAKER_03: Why do you look at them as you know, shining a light on where you haven't gone to yet?
53:03
SPEAKER_03: Why can't it be a we, you know?
53:06
SPEAKER_01: She might uh, you know, uh she might in that particular situation, you you know, you're into you know equities and mergers and real estate and everything in development.
53:15
SPEAKER_01: You might show them how you could turn his hundred and fifty thousand into a million, right?
53:19
SPEAKER_01: Into ten million.
53:20
SPEAKER_05: Right.
53:20
SPEAKER_01: You know, but but his his uh his innate internal vibration was on control and domination to where I can call the shots.
53:30
SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
53:30
SPEAKER_01: And if I'm not the shot caller, I don't want to be the baller.
53:34
SPEAKER_01: And so, you know.
53:37
SPEAKER_03: We're on a roll today, baby.
53:40
SPEAKER_01: Now, we aren't perfect either.
53:41
SPEAKER_01: We've we've uh you know had a couple of small tips.
53:47
SPEAKER_01: What is that like?
53:49
SPEAKER_03: Our first argument.
53:51
SPEAKER_03: Oh my gosh.
53:52
SPEAKER_03: Okay.
53:56
SPEAKER_03: Now, okay.
53:58
SPEAKER_03: Years ago, I think on the last podcast, if you guys didn't watch it, go back and watch it so you can understand what I'm talking about.
54:04
SPEAKER_03: Many years ago when I first was watching Billy Carson and things like that, and I was looking, I ended up looking, I'm like, God, he's so smart.
54:13
SPEAKER_03: I was single at the time.
54:14
SPEAKER_03: I was like, I wonder what it'd be like to be married to him.
54:18
SPEAKER_03: Someone that's smart.
54:20
SPEAKER_03: So great.
54:22
SPEAKER_03: Little did I know.
54:25
SPEAKER_03: I was gonna find out.
54:27
SPEAKER_03: And so fast forward, and the within the first uh, probably like what was our like we had been dating probably like three, four months or whatever, and I'm here, maybe even longer.
54:39
SPEAKER_03: And we finally had our first argument.
54:43
SPEAKER_03: And so throughout the first few months, Billy would say little things, right?
54:49
SPEAKER_03: Like, oh, you're gonna eat that?
54:54
SPEAKER_03: You're gonna eat that?
54:56
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, yeah.
54:57
SPEAKER_03: And then I'm like in doubt, should I eat?
55:00
SPEAKER_03: It's like, you know, I thought, like everybody in my family around me knows that I eat super healthy and all that stuff.
55:06
SPEAKER_03: But I Billy knows the science behind everything.
55:09
SPEAKER_03: He's like, vegetables aren't just vegetables, you know.
55:13
SPEAKER_03: So I'm like, and so I'll be sitting there and we're just talking or eating, and I'm like, babe, they're just vegetables.
55:23
SPEAKER_03: So finally, one day, I just got sick of it.
55:26
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, dude.
55:30
SPEAKER_03: We're in the kitchen.
55:32
SPEAKER_03: I got my food and he was walking around doing his thing, you know, and he's happy, he's doing his thing, and then he says, and I'm about to eat something.
55:39
SPEAKER_03: He goes, Oh babe, you gonna eat that?
55:45
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, listen, could you not?
55:48
SPEAKER_03: I said, I do not converse about the decomposing course on your plate.
55:56
SPEAKER_03: Ever.
55:58
SPEAKER_03: Can you stop talking about my dead vegetables?
56:02
SPEAKER_03: God so he started saying no, but I'm just telling you, because just because you're vegan doesn't mean you're healthy and then you should start going on and on.
56:12
SPEAKER_03: And then he goes, you know, plants can feel like what?
56:20
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, I mean, I'm like, okay, don't pretend like you give a damn about what happened to a potato before I ate it.
56:36
SPEAKER_03: And so he's like, no, seriously, you, you know, so he's going on the line.
56:42
SPEAKER_03: So we're, you know, kind of starting, then it starts escalating, right?
56:45
SPEAKER_03: It's now it's escalating.
56:46
SPEAKER_03: Now it's a real argument because now I'm offended.
56:49
SPEAKER_03: Because when he said, he finally goes, he goes, it is the same, and he breaks this down and he goes, vegans have mental illness.
57:02
SPEAKER_03: It's a mental illness.
57:05
SPEAKER_01: It is a mental illness, and I said, But don't forget, I said I had it too.
57:09
SPEAKER_06: No, no, you didn't say that.
57:10
SPEAKER_06: I did say that.
57:11
SPEAKER_06: He was like, Vegans have mental illnesses.
57:14
SPEAKER_06: And I had it too.
57:15
SPEAKER_06: So this way down in the ancestors came up.
57:21
SPEAKER_06: Like, black woman rides.
57:24
SPEAKER_06: Damn, damn, damn.
57:28
SPEAKER_03: I said, Did you just call me crazy?
57:31
SPEAKER_01: Oh, never call a woman crazy, okay, guys.
57:35
SPEAKER_01: Oh man, here we go.
57:37
SPEAKER_03: I said, You just call me crazy.
57:39
SPEAKER_01: Oh Lord.
57:39
SPEAKER_03: I said, okay.
57:40
SPEAKER_03: I said, I'll tell you what, Miss Billy Parkinson's animals feel since you so cared about the animals' feelings.
57:46
SPEAKER_03: I said, are you saying that animals' feelings are equivalent to a baby calf?
57:52
SPEAKER_03: I was like, no, I'm just saying it's y'all vegans do this.
57:56
SPEAKER_03: And so he's going on and on.
57:57
SPEAKER_03: And then I'm like, and then he goes, Listen, the universe is made to consume.
58:03
SPEAKER_03: And I said, Well, could you would you consume a human baby?
58:06
SPEAKER_03: And so I'm going way left, right?
58:09
SPEAKER_03: He goes, What?
58:09
SPEAKER_03: I was like, exactly.
58:11
SPEAKER_03: It's not the same.
58:12
SPEAKER_03: You're not gonna consume a human baby.
58:15
SPEAKER_03: It's not the same as consuming a frickin' potato, Billy.
58:20
SPEAKER_03: And so he goes.
58:21
SPEAKER_01: These are the kind of arguments we had.
58:23
SPEAKER_03: So then he goes, he goes deeper into this argument, right?
58:26
SPEAKER_03: And then he goes, the something with the universe and the holographic, da-da-da-da.
58:32
SPEAKER_03: And if you break down everything is made of atoms, and then atoms, when you break down the atoms, and they do this.
58:37
SPEAKER_03: So listen, I'm losing the argument, okay?
58:40
SPEAKER_03: I'm losing bad.
58:41
SPEAKER_03: I don't, like, what are we even talking about?
58:43
SPEAKER_03: So I said, okay, Billy, what are atoms made of?
58:46
SPEAKER_00: We're talking about quarks and muons in the case.
58:48
SPEAKER_03: I said, all right.
58:49
SPEAKER_03: I said, what are atoms made of?
58:51
SPEAKER_03: Billy answers.
58:53
SPEAKER_03: And I'm like, okay, yeah, they're made of this, this, this.
58:57
SPEAKER_03: And I'm like, all right, what's that made of?
59:00
SPEAKER_03: And then he's like, oh, well, and you take that, and then it's and I'm like, I can't even pronounce these darn words.
59:06
SPEAKER_06: I'm still trying to pronounce the halls of Mimenti, okay?
59:10
SPEAKER_03: So then he goes in.
59:12
SPEAKER_03: And then I said, oh yeah, okay.
59:14
SPEAKER_03: But what's that made up?
59:16
SPEAKER_03: And then he goes, well, then it all goes into a black hole in the black hole.
59:20
SPEAKER_03: And to be honest with you, now that I think about it, I don't know who created this universe because I wouldn't have made it like this, okay?
59:27
SPEAKER_03: It's really made really bad.
59:28
SPEAKER_03: I would have just did it.
59:29
SPEAKER_03: I said, are you?
59:33
SPEAKER_03: I said, are you are you questioning God?
59:38
SPEAKER_03: God's not even good enough.
59:40
SPEAKER_03: Oh, I ain't got to smell bottles of cancer.
59:44
SPEAKER_03: And then I was like, I'm done.
59:46
SPEAKER_03: Whatever.
59:46
SPEAKER_03: I was like, I want to eat and pizza and I'm doing everything.
59:49
SPEAKER_03: So I barred, I charge upstairs, right?
59:52
SPEAKER_03: I'm so mad, you know, because I'm like, he just called me crazy because I'm vegan, you know, and I want some vegetables.
1:00:00
SPEAKER_03: Yeah, they're expensive, but geez.
1:00:03
SPEAKER_03: And so I'm laying in bed.
1:00:05
SPEAKER_03: So then he comes up, you know, and I'm frustrated.
1:00:09
SPEAKER_03: I'm like, rethinking, like, I don't even know, like, I can't even eat vegetables.
1:00:14
SPEAKER_03: Like, what are we doing or whatever, right?
1:00:16
SPEAKER_03: And so I'm sitting here, I'm looking around at the crystals and everything, and I'm like, whatever.
1:00:23
SPEAKER_03: Right?
1:00:24
SPEAKER_03: Billy comes up, climbs in the bed with me, and he goes, baby, I'm sorry.
1:00:33
SPEAKER_03: I had such a bad experience being vegan, and I'm projected.
1:00:37
SPEAKER_03: I projected my pain, and I realized I projected my pain and everything that I would on you, and everyone doesn't have that same experience.
1:00:47
SPEAKER_03: And I looked and I was like, I didn't tell him this, but I was like, oh my God.
1:00:57
SPEAKER_03: Never in my life have I had a man come up and take accountability and you know, and not, you know, continue on with the argument, but just kind of see himself without me having to go with 10-page text messages.
1:01:13
SPEAKER_03: Girls, you know y'all be sending them 10-page text messages, right?
1:01:17
SPEAKER_03: And I didn't have to write a letter or email.
1:01:19
SPEAKER_03: This is how I really felt, and you know, and he just came up and was like, you know, and then I and I looked at him and I said, you know what?
1:01:27
SPEAKER_03: I'm, you know, I'm sorry what you went through, and I should be more.
1:01:30
SPEAKER_03: And what I realized with him, and we talked about it, is that he wasn't judging me for eating my vegetables.
1:01:39
SPEAKER_03: What I realized with Billy is that he cares so much that he's always worrying about you.
1:01:47
SPEAKER_03: Like he wants to be the solutionist of everything.
1:01:50
SPEAKER_03: And you'll notice how he talks, you know?
1:01:52
SPEAKER_03: And you all get to know him in that way.
1:01:53
SPEAKER_03: But he's like that personally.
1:01:55
SPEAKER_03: And it's not coming from a place of disdain or looking down on me.
1:01:58
SPEAKER_03: It's because he was worried about me.
1:02:00
SPEAKER_03: He was worried about that outcome being the same as his and making sure, like, okay, and and he would.
1:02:06
SPEAKER_03: He's like, Do you have enough water?
1:02:08
SPEAKER_03: Like, do you have enough this?
1:02:10
SPEAKER_03: Do you have that?
1:02:11
SPEAKER_03: And actually, I realized, even though the argument was whatever, this is what I asked for.
1:02:17
SPEAKER_03: I wanted someone that cared about me in every single way.
1:02:21
SPEAKER_03: And that's what it looked like dating one of the most intelligent men in the freaking world.
1:02:26
SPEAKER_01: Thank you, man.
1:02:26
SPEAKER_01: Love you.
1:02:27
SPEAKER_01: Thank you.
1:02:27
SPEAKER_01: And I'll tell you real quick before we wrap this up, too, because you know, um, there was another time where we don't really, it wasn't an argument.
1:02:36
SPEAKER_01: But um I wanted to bring something up to you that I felt was important that I wanted you to understand and see.
1:02:42
SPEAKER_01: And I brought it up in a very calm way.
1:02:44
SPEAKER_01: It got you a little triggered.
1:02:45
SPEAKER_01: It didn't turn into an argument, but you definitely were a little, you know, a little spicy.
1:02:50
SPEAKER_01: Just gently spicy, not too, not too spicy, right?
1:02:53
SPEAKER_01: And I was like, oh man.
1:02:55
SPEAKER_01: Um, but what I did love about that is um not too long after you came to me and you just said, you know what?
1:03:02
SPEAKER_01: I apologize.
1:03:03
SPEAKER_01: I um I took that, it got me triggered for whatever reason, and you explained why, and um you realize that it had nothing to do with the conversation, that you I just wanted to be seen and heard and to get a certain understanding on something, and you respected that.
1:03:17
SPEAKER_01: And you were the first woman in history that I've ever been with that actually took accountability and and did that.
1:03:26
SPEAKER_01: So I was so stunned.
1:03:28
SPEAKER_01: I didn't even know what to do with myself.
1:03:29
SPEAKER_01: The rest of the day, I was walking around looking at the sun, the star, uh counting the different things, you know, looking at my fingerprints, how many fingerprints?
1:03:36
SPEAKER_01: I didn't know what the hell to do with myself.
1:03:38
SPEAKER_01: I was completely gone.
1:03:39
SPEAKER_01: Like I really was gone.
1:03:40
SPEAKER_01: So I appreciate that.
1:03:41
SPEAKER_01: It was really so so incredible to experience that.
1:03:45
SPEAKER_01: Some a woman to come and give accountability and say, I was wrong.
1:03:49
SPEAKER_01: You actually said I was wrong.
1:03:50
SPEAKER_01: I was like, I need to go get my hearing checked.
1:03:56
SPEAKER_01: I was like, what the hell happened?
1:03:58
SPEAKER_01: Am I in?
1:03:59
SPEAKER_01: I really am on a different Mandela effect.
1:04:02
SPEAKER_01: Really happened.
1:04:03
SPEAKER_01: No, but I appreciate it.
1:04:07
SPEAKER_01: That was huge for me.
1:04:08
SPEAKER_01: Like it was, I was like, I was like, yeah, I'm in the right place.
1:04:10
SPEAKER_01: I'm definitely on the right timeline.
1:04:12
SPEAKER_01: I was like, thank goodness.
1:04:13
SPEAKER_01: Yeah.
1:04:14
SPEAKER_03: Well, there's um one thing I can promise you, okay, always, is that I'm gonna piss you off a lot.
1:04:25
SPEAKER_03: But I'm a really good apologizer.
1:04:28
SPEAKER_03: You'll be looking forward to the apologies because I do accept that about myself.
1:04:33
SPEAKER_03: I'm not perfect, so yeah, yeah.
1:04:34
SPEAKER_03: But I love oh, also I'm gonna love you too.
1:04:37
SPEAKER_01: Love you too, baby.
1:04:39
SPEAKER_01: All right, well, we're gonna call that a wrap, all right?
1:04:41
SPEAKER_01: Thank you guys for tuning into this episode to update conscious.
1:04:46
SPEAKER_01: Um, we're actually getting ready to fly to Egypt right now.
1:04:49
SPEAKER_01: We have to race out of here and get on the airplane.
1:04:51
SPEAKER_01: So we will see you next time.
1:04:53
SPEAKER_01: Peace.
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1:07:37
SPEAKER_02: I love too fast.
1:07:38
SPEAKER_02: I've stayed too long.
1:07:39
SPEAKER_02: I've called it love.
1:07:41
SPEAKER_02: When love was around.
1:07:42
SPEAKER_02: No one knows my words.
1:07:43
SPEAKER_04: I know my mind.
1:07:44
SPEAKER_02: I don't need perfect.
1:07:46
SPEAKER_02: I need a line.
1:07:47
SPEAKER_02: No more, maybe.
1:07:50
SPEAKER_02: No more.
1:07:51
SPEAKER_02: If I give you my heart, I'll give it with purpose.
1:07:57
SPEAKER_02: Stay conscious.
1:07:59
SPEAKER_02: Love with your eyes wide open.
1:08:02
SPEAKER_04: Stay conscious.
1:08:04
SPEAKER_02: Say what you mean.
1:08:05
SPEAKER_02: Don't open.
1:08:07
SPEAKER_04: Know your heart, know your mind.
1:08:09
SPEAKER_04: Don't just fuck.
1:08:10
SPEAKER_02: Choose your timeline.
1:08:12
SPEAKER_02: Stay conscious.
1:08:13
SPEAKER_02: Love is better when you know it.
1:08:16
SPEAKER_02: Uh uh, I made mistakes.
1:08:18
SPEAKER_02: I played it cool.
1:08:19
SPEAKER_02: I've lost good love, trying not to lose.
1:08:22
SPEAKER_02: I learned that chemistry, incompatibility.
1:08:25
SPEAKER_02: I'm wanting somebody, ain't what them and that'll be.
1:08:27
SPEAKER_04: So what are you looking for?
1:08:29
SPEAKER_02: Something real.
1:08:30
SPEAKER_04: And what are you ready for?
1:08:31
SPEAKER_02: Something real.
1:08:32
SPEAKER_02: No more, maybe.
1:08:35
SPEAKER_02: No more.
1:08:36
SPEAKER_02: If we give this a chance, let's give it with purpose.
1:08:42
SPEAKER_02: Stay conscious.
1:08:44
SPEAKER_02: Love with your eyes wide open.
1:08:47
SPEAKER_02: Take conscious.
1:08:49
SPEAKER_02: Say what you mean, don't hope it.
1:08:52
SPEAKER_02: Know your heart, know your mind.
1:08:54
SPEAKER_02: Two different roads, one timeline.
1:08:58
SPEAKER_04: Take conscious.
1:08:59
SPEAKER_04: Love is better.
1:09:05
SPEAKER_04: Maybe love isn't finding someone.
1:09:08
SPEAKER_02: Maybe it's knowing yourself.
1:09:10
SPEAKER_04: Maybe timing isn't everything.
1:09:13
SPEAKER_02: But it's sure as hell, hell.
1:09:15
SPEAKER_04: So I know where I'm going.
1:09:17
SPEAKER_04: So do I together?
1:09:20
SPEAKER_04: Then maybe it's time.
1:09:45
SPEAKER_04: Take conscious love with your eyes wide open.
1:09:50
SPEAKER_04: Take conscious, no more left unspoken.
1:09:55
SPEAKER_04: Know your heart, know your mind.
1:09:57
SPEAKER_04: Choose each other.
1:09:59
SPEAKER_04: Choose your time.
1:10:00
SPEAKER_04: Take conscious love is better.
1:10:03
SPEAKER_04: When you know it.
1:10:04
SPEAKER_04: Know it, knowing, knowing.
1:10:20
SPEAKER_04: Take consciousness to your time.