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SURVIVING TRAUMA w/ THE SMART GUY · Blind But Now I See

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Back at it for another episode of blahbern See Podcasts. I am your host,
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fob Seeno the Hood, Ray, Charles, Blond Poppy if you nasty,
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the Voice of the disableds, the official Blonde Stepper, and Wolf.
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This is one of those ones. Me, I've really been doing my research
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on this one. Not me, I've been locked in. Weill said,
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Yo, we got him, he booked it. I've been doing my research.
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He sent me some videos, my son. I know he was gett
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annoyed. I kept going to press tech link, prest that link because that
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shit was just interested. But we're gonna get into it. You're gonna let
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the blond stuffers know who smart guy is. But before we even get into
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that episode, I want you to like, subscribe, comment, tell a
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friend, teller friend www dot fobco dot com. I'm available everywhere like crack
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in the eighties. But we're gonna get into this story. We got a
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very special guest. You probably know him seeing them all over YouTube and the
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internet. Be having the Internet in the up bro. But for the blond
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steppers out there, smart guys, what's good? My dude? Oh man,
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I feeling great. Came in with great energy. I like the blind.
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I like the blond stepping thing, the official blind stuff. That's fire.
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It's only one me. What for the blond stuff is out there that
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don't know who smart guy is? Who is smart guy? Well, I
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would say more that you speaker, uh, artist, boxer, revolutionary,
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the answer to the prayers of the ancestors. Yeah, definitely, definitely,
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community organizer, mobilizer. Yeah, I would say that powerful. You got
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powerful. Yeah, I mean, if you're gonna ship the whole episode.
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The best definition of intelligence. I'm the best definition of durability. I'm the
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best definition of prosperity. I'm the best definition of black empowerment. I mean,
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I'll be here talking talk you talk eight days, nine days. I
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like that. Well, the Blambnaci podcast. Definitely happy that you was able
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to come here. Sit on the couch. Sit on the couch with greatness
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right now. Maybe sit tell me about a guest. I do my research.
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I said, Nah, we gotta lock it in. If you been
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talking about you for like two months now, yeah, if you ask fire
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two months now, I love it. And see and see you think about
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it is Remember you know that's why I'm a huge advocate for you know,
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grow your own roses, right, and I'm not waiting for people to catch
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up. Ironically, they're starting to catch up, right, People are starting
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to, you know, pay attention more to My brand is worldwide, right.
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But I had to believe in myself and I studied greatness. Right,
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Like Muhammad Ali when he was in his peak years, they hated him.
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You know, Then when he passes away, it's all of a sudden,
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He's greatest of all time. When Tupac was here, it wasn't. He
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wasn't as appreciated even you know, even even Biggery Small, even though these
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guys were the kings of hip hop. Right. You know, when you
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look at Malcolm X, Kalum Muhamma, Martin Luther King, right, all
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these legendary people, they had to leave this realm to get appreciated. But
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I'm fuck that. I'm gonna get it when I'm breathing the same man,
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feel me. So that's I think that's what's beautiful about I think what I'm
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doing. I think that's what's beautiful about technology and having conversations like this.
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It gives people. It gives people real time access because a lot of times,
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if someone's in front of you, you may not appreciate it because you
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can be defensive, and I feel like fear is a hindrance, right,
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Like if you're afraid of wisdom, if you're afraid to apply the knowledge that
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the person's giving you. The internet gives you replay value. The Internet gives
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you to say, Okay, well smart told me I was a fat piece
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of shit. I need to go to the fucking gym. You might the
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first time you hear it, you might be like, a play it eight
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months from now. Then you understand way now you can yeah, yeah,
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yeah. So I think the rewind button gives people more opportunities to appreciate people
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who who like me so to say yeah, I ain't think about that.
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It makes a lot of sense. But we got a segment on a show
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called Stories from the Dark. I mean, just walk us, to walk
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us from a point in your life when you was in a dark no light
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was shining on you. It was like you wasn't like your back was against
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the wall. One of the moments in your life that no matter when you
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wake up, that moment, it gonna be right there, go to sleep,
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that moment gonna be right there. So we're gonna close our eyes We're
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gonna walk down this journey. We ain't gonna trip over no furniture, we
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ain't gonna bump into no walls, and I'm gonna let smart take over the
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well. Okay, So I mean well first, first and foremost. You
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know, when you you have to be very careful when you do things like
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this because thoughts. Remember my mantra, right, I have a mantra,
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and I teach people this all the time. How you think creates how you
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feel. How you feel becomes an emotion, that emotion becomes a vibration.
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That vibration becomes a magnet that attracts things to you. How you think creates
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how you feel. So even during this segment, I have to be careful
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and cautious in terms of I reflect. For in certain like, I use
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reflection as a point of reference. Right, So when you feel overwhelmed,
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think about what you overcame. So any dark alley that I, you know,
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reflect on or revisit is because I'm seeking some type of reassurance that I
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am durable. I am the best definition of resilience. Life is not a
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Sprints of marathon. And I've got miles under my belt, right, So
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I don't just go visit a dark place because you know, even though you're
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visiting this dark place, shit comes with energy. Right. So what I
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learned from being in these dark spaces, you know, being in Southport Box
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in particular, Right, it's twenty four hour lockdown. You know the bed,
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I mean the shot, I mean the toiler bowl, and the sinking's
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at the top of the bed. The showers at the at the tip of
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the bed. Right, you take a showers once a week, only for
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one minut it, right, And you gotta have to learn how to listen
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to the wall, the water going through the walls and the pipe. So
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you know, okay, today's a shower day, because sometimes you can forget
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what fucking day is being in that situation, right, And that's yeah,
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yeah, it's like it's like it was like a modern day concentration camp.
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Right. And you know what I remember from being in that space was how
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indestructible I was, how invincible I was, no matter no matter how low
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to low, I still had to potential to reach the highest of the highs.
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Right. And even though at certain points in my life when I was
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when I was young, I kind of gave up, you know, being
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in prison, and I gave up meaning in terms of I just embraced the
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darkness. I embraced you know this, this animalistic mentality or mindset that you
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needed to have to be successful in prison. Right, it's either killed or
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be killed. And ain't nobody gonna kill me? If it's even me or
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you, it ain't gonna never be me, you know. So I embrace
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aggression. I embrace my rage. I great, I embraced my anger.
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And I had gave up, right, I had gave up on anything positive,
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anything that had anything to do with light. I gave up on it,
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and God intervened. Right. So what I remember from being in the
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darkness that God came and got me out of that shit, right. And
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God didn't let the devil have his way with my soul. Right. And
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it's very important to realize that no matter what you go through, when you
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feel you're alone, you're never really alone because God is always there. And
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when we understand how God works, God works with delayed gratification. Right.
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So that moment of darkness, I was being prepared for being in the light.
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Right. So when the baby's being born, ain't no led lights inside
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the belly, right, nine months you in darkness, man, you're in
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water to thatack right, right. So, but you're growing, you're being
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developed, you're getting lungs, you're getting odds, you're getting right bone marrow.
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Right. So you know, darkness was almost like a form of preparation
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for me at that point in my life. And I didn't realize that God
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was preparing me until like days like this, like you know, year years
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later, when you get out of the darkness, you go, wow,
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I learned. I learned how to have thick skin. I learned how to
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be consistent. I learned how to weather the storm. I learned how to
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hold my own right. I learned how to you know, rely on myself.
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That's what the darkness gave me. And I come out of the darkness
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ready for anything. Right. So yeah, damn, you must have been
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watching my podcast, because no, I never you know, it's just I
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ain't gonna lie. It definitely related, right for sure. Like I've been
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in the dark for so long, and it's like when God finally tapped into
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my life, I started seeing the light mm hmm. And I'm like he
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talking with and I'm like, damn, like he is, like he talking
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to me right now, you're gonna hold you yeah, nah for real,
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for real, right the way he broke it down, like, how's your
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mentor behind that? I mean again, well, my intelligence was through a
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maculate conception, right, I connect you know, my intelligence, you know,
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to the birth of Jesus right like you know he was just born,
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right, like I got an eighth grade education, right, and and again
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being in the darkness, you know, I was acting indirectly for God to
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help me, and God intervened, and then you know, I was going
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through so much with you know, having a drug addicted mother, not have
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a fall, not having a fault in my life, being in and out
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of the system. I was going through all these things, and I said,
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damn, if I could just get knowledge, right, if I could
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just your guard give me some type of intelligence. And man, I feel
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like I downloaded a fucking app like like like like God took me to the
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to the to the Apple store and said intelligence download and that just downloaded it,
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right, And it was like I had all these thoughts and then then
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I had a Then I became an avid reader. I read over a thousand
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books and I'm starting I'm reading I'm reading Socrates I'm reading Shakespeare. I'm reading
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Oedipus Rex, I'm reading John Locke, I'm reading Sigmund Freud. I'm reading
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Malcolm X. I'm reading Calum Muhammad, I'm you naming. I'm reading in
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Robert Kyosaki. I'm reading Tony Roberts. You know I'm reading anything, right.
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I'm reading Abraham Hicks, right, you know, you know, and
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you know I'm reading you know, Dale Carnegie, right, you know Napoleon
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Hill. And I'm reading all these books right then, I'm reading textbooks.
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Right, I'm just consuming so much knowledge, and I have no I have
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no intention to allocate any of the knowledge that I'm acquiring at this time.
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I'm just acquiring all this knowledge trying to figure out, Okay, well I'm
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going through this, I'm going through pain. Let me pick up this book
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on child psychology, right, and then now I'm getting into child psychology because
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I'm trying to fix myself. Right. And then I found out through reading
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child psychology that a child's learning curve, meaning the ability to learn or acquire
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new information, is the shortest between the ages of zero to seven. So
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now I'm thinking about me at zero to seven. So I'm literally getting out
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a piece of paper, and I'm like, okay, let me let me
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timeline my life. Let me revisit zero to seven. What was that life
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like? Okay? Now, okay, now if I had this, what
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would this be? And then then I made a list of pros and cons.
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Everything positive I got from my mother, everything negative I got from my
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mother, Everything positive I got from my father, Everything negative I got for
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my father, even though I never really knew them. Right, So I
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got to start with you know, my mother's life skined, right, so
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damn look at me. Okay, I'm not that light, right, So
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my father got to be dark skinned, right. My mother's she's she's she's
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slim. I have muscles, Okay, So I'm starting to figure out what
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my parents gave me. Right. You know, I'm extremely athletic. Okay,
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my mother's not athletic. Okay. So Dad, okay, Dad got
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to have some type of shit with him, right my mother. I found
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that my mother was a writer. Wow, Okay, this explains the way
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it work. So I had to figure out the things that my parents gave
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me that were positive, even though they didn't teach me and raise me how
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to utilize the things that they passed to me through birth right and then now,
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and I suggest that you know, people, you can do that like
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you can you can, you can. And if you have a relationship with
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your mother, whether you don't do or don't or not right, you can
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still ask questions and figure out what was mom like when she was a teenager.
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And then now you can start to identify who you are. And I
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found peace in that, even though I didn't receive love from my mother or
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my father. So I had to learn to kind of like take the peace
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and and and and and take the love and indirectly get creative with searching for
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that information so I could figure out who the fuck I was because I couldn't
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accept just being in prison. I couldn't accept just being a criminal. I
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couldn't just accept you know, you know, being a gangster and all that
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other stupid shit. All right, I couldn't accept that. I knew it.
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I knew it was more because God was giving me an instinct internally to
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even search for more, like I know I'm more than this, and God,
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you know, you start hearing that voice in your head like you're better,
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my son, You're better, my son better, my son? Right
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And I'm like, yo, wait a minute, I am and I'm crying.
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Yo, listen, listen. Let me tell you this is yo,
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bro listen. So you know I'm reading this book by bolos Off. Right,
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Bolosof is just like this, like this meditation guru person, right,
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and he's like it was this scene. He was like he was in a
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book. He was talking about being in a cave, right, and you're
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sitting in his cave and all your demons are attacking you when he's spitting and
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they's spitting in your face, kicking you, beating you up. Right,
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He's getting beat up by all these demons and he's and he's fighting the demons.
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Get away, leave, get out of my life, leave me alone.
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And as he's trying to fight the demons, they get more stronger,
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they get more powerful, right, and then he just got so tired.
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After fifteen years of fighting all these demons and masters and ghouls and goblins,
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he just sat there and like this just you know yoga position. He's just
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sitting there, right, He's just sitting there, and the demons they left
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when he stopped fighting back, when he's just he just let go and he
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had to learn how to be he had to learn how to be in the
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present, right, he had to be present, and then from being present,
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he was able to overcome these things. Right, And I just remember,
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right, And this goes back to like being in the dark. I
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remember like looking in the mirror in prison and just being like why am I
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here? Right? Because I had to travel at the time, travel where
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my moms did this. I didn't have a mother. My moms abused me,
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my dad wasn't there. I'm like, yo, it wasn't my fucking
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fault. I was a good kid. And I'm in the mirror, I'm
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crying, I'm feeling like shit. And then I hear a voice in my
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head. You're gonna be more my son. You're gonna be more my son.
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Right. But then it's like why, It's like, okay, life
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is not a sprint. It's a fucking marathon, right, Like, but
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when you run this race, you run, you run, you run,
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and you remember, but God works and what God works in delayed gratification.
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So you're running this race, you're running and running, running, and you
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and you in first place, you in first place, you win, you
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win, right, and you know what when you when you win the marathon,
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they have, they supposed to give you first place and you have to
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hold him. You swear you're about to get first place, and they they
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and they walk right past you and give first place to somebody else, and
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you're like, what what do you mean? Wait? I want? Whoa
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I want? Is it? No? No? No, no no no
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no. You didn't win. This guy won and they give it to him
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and you got what And then you gotta get up and run another marathon.
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You do it about ten times, but now every time. But could you
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imagine like you running and you winning, but they give you third place and
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you're sitting there like what the fuck is going on? And then the person
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that know they didn't want to looking at you, smiling like but that's really
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a demon, that's really the devil in disguise, right, And you sit
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there and you're a frustrated and you're like, yo, what the fuck is
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going on? And then after a while you just fucking snap and you stab
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the guy in the neck on a knife. I fucked out, you ain't
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winning, and you kill him, right, and you kill him and he's
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bleeding out and he's bleeding and he's smile and looking at you as he's dying.
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This is the devil, right, And then now you're in court.
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You're standing in front of judge and the judge says, for the charge of
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murder, you're found guilty. We're gonna give you thirty years, but you're
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you're eligible for parole. And you're like, what the fuck? So you're
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sitting here thirty years, right, and you sitting there and you do all
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this time, but you training, right, you training, you training it
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because you're like, damn, I God, I gotta keep running. I
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gotta keep working. And then you hear you hear a voice, right,
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it tells you, yo, you have to run another race. I'm not
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running this shit. Got me thirty year? Fuck another race. But the
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voice sound different though. The voice you feel when you hear the voice,
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it feels like a it feels like a hoodie on a cold day. When
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you hear the voice. It feels like water when you're thirsty. When you
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hear the voice, it feels it's God talking. It's like it's weird because
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you hear his voice. But you like another race. No, No,
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you're gonna run another race, trust me. And then you hear another voice
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saying you don't need to run another race. Fuck it, I give you
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first place. Don't worry about it. You don't got to run another race.
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Right, and you like, now you at this forking road. Right,
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you can choose to let frustration change your destination. You can choose to
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let temptation change your destination, or you can run another fucking race. And
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you gotta understand the finish line doesn't move. And then when you run another
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race, you finally win and get first place. And then as you're getting
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your reward and you're getting your trophies and you like finally, right, God
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tells you, like, look, man, then he makes it make sense
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because he only made you run all of those fucking marathons because another race that
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you ran wasn't on the race track. It was through mountains. So but
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you had to run all those fucking marathons to build your legs up, to
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build your win up. You had to lose and lose and lose and lose
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to build your strength up. So when you ran God's real race through them
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fucking mountains, you was prepared. And then and then when you when God
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said run another race, and you was like, all fuck it, You're
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thinking you're about to run to the to the track. You're like, nah,
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we going to the mountains, and you're like, what this is different?
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But then your leg you look at your legs. Your legs as strong
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as a motherfucker, your yo, your endurance, your win, your lungs.
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They let's go and then you run boom and you win that shit easy.
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And then when you get to the top, you crying, You crying,
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you crying because you feel you feel bad at how you treated God because
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you couldn't see the preparation that God was preparing you for. Right. You
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had to understand delayed gratification from experience, right, and you just feel and
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you just crying, you crying. You're like, God, I'm sorry,
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I'm sorry. Now you feel so humble, You feel like humility, like
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you're like, oh whoa, You feel like yo, you feel like your
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heart is like that feeling. You like that feeling we used to get when
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we knew we was gonna get an ass open from mom deuce because parents teach.
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Your conference to day is coming up. You're like, you feel that
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feeling all over again, right, yeah? Man, So you know God
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is God is amazing man. He definitely is power. Power. I like
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what you said you're healing yourself. I definitely like that, but I've been
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doing research. Definitely. The interview with trap Anonymous, Oh that was tough.
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That was heavy. Man. He tried to and he was he was
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going in he was trying to. I don't know what the fuck he was.
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I was like, damn, he would he had some whole the question.
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He just went completely definitely, so off the interview. I want to
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go back, if you comfortable talk about Yeah, any relationship with your mother?
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Yeah, I mean my mother was a drug addict. I mean,
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how can I say that? Because like when you sat there and said you
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felt like spinning her face and throw I spit my mother face. You spin
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on her face and you wanted to throw off the balcony to see if she
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fly. Yeah, yeah, I was. Yeah, I was very damn
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yeah yeah, because it was rage. I mean, you know sometimes I
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feel like a motherless child. Right. Every other week you got a new
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man in the house, you got the nerve to point to him like he
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the man of the house, and they all want me to call him dad.
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They all wanted me to call him dad. I grew up confused.
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I got beat until I was black and blue and you wonder why I'm in
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school acting the fool, cutting class, picking fights, couldn't follow the rules.
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Free lunch won't cut it because I'm still hungry. I need food,
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hooked up with Darryl selling weed. Now, Mama, I'm making moves.
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You put a pins warming out, left me in the system. Plus you
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ain't called back. They ain't love what you call that. If you ain't
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want a son, mama, shit, you should have left me in that
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ball sack. Two sides to the story. Yeah, yeah, yeah,
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yeah, But I ain't having it because there's too many demons inside. I
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got a battle with so fuck whoever trying to play devil's advocate. She I
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don't understand how real it is. I was just a kid. I'm talking
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five. Had to look my mama in the eye, half sleep, half
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high. And you wonder why I'm outside smoking weed, pistol in my pocket,
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throwing up gang signs. You're junkie, mama? How you going to
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mare respect? I guess you beat me because I look like the man that
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left a spinning image of my daddy haunched by. You slapped me? Can
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none please you? You ain't never happy? Straight a's on report cards getting
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ripped Christmas birthdays. I ain't get shit every man, I see you call
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you bitch. This is what I deal with. Yeah, that's what I
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deal with. Sometimes I feel like a motherless child. It feels like God
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cursed me and my brothers because all I do is suffer, and the pain
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came from my mother. A rose won't grow from this concrete, the roots
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getting pulled out, pedals getting stepped on. You came home high, You
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beat me half to death. You said that I slept wrong, but it's
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bloody tanpons and the bottles of liquor crack valves on the same bit I slept
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on. How the fuck could I sleep wrong? You got me laying on
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the bed I could bare leave and sleep on right. So that was the
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That was the that was my life, like word for like, that's like
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word for word, like that's what I was going through. And that's what
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I went through. Right on top of getting molested by my mother, on
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top of my mother trying to make me overdose, on on on fucking fucking
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tiling on courts syrup, I had like one hundred and twenty degree fever,
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you know what I mean, you know, and my mother called my grandmother
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was like, you gotta get him, he gotta get him. I can't
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and she didn't drug me up, try to fucking kill me. And the
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ambulance came and was like, yo, twenty more minutes, I would have
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died, right, so, you know, and and having consations with my
21:59
mother like yo, hey, look, if this is how you felt,
22:02
you should have left me and had ball sack. You should have just fuck
22:03
it, should have just killed me bushing or just gave me away and left
22:07
me. But you, but you chose to keep me around and abuse me
22:11
and beat me and neglect me and put me through all this ship right.
22:15
So, and then when I got older, I tried to rem I tried
22:19
to I tried to fix the relationship and and and it just it just went
22:23
left. And it just was like fam like you you beat me now?
22:30
Right? Beat me now? Like? And I think we had we had
22:32
when I was at my grandmother's house and we had I can't remember, but
22:36
we had like some type of argument she had She had this something like she
22:38
was gonna hit me, and it was just like, what like you got
22:41
me all the way wrong? You put you layer up, you layer yo?
22:45
You dad at me the wrong way, I might break your skull,
22:48
you know what I mean. And it just was that that much pent up
22:51
rage in that and I think that was like the that was like the last
22:53
straw that broke the camel's back. Yeah, so your mother clean or I
23:00
don't know, man, you know, you know what I'm saying. You
23:02
know what I'm saying. You think it's space for y'all to like to get
23:06
on one page to fix not well, it can't be fixed. Can't listen,
23:08
it can't be I think. I think what happens is people people,
23:14
they always look at the victim to that state. The question is for the
23:19
victim. That's what the victim id is of. Fuck them. I moved
23:22
on you let go right, you know, God healed me. It took
23:26
me a long time to get over that situation, right, But that was
23:30
a lot of prayer, a lot of prayer. That was a lot of
23:33
like, you know, that was a lot of prayer, a lot of
23:36
crying, like like a lot of that shit and God, please help me
23:40
fucking feel it. Feel the void, Feel the void. I spent many
23:44
years trying to search for love for women that I should have got from my
23:47
mother, and then I had to realize that a woman can't give you a
23:49
mother's love. A woman can give you a woman's love. It's just as
23:53
powerful, but it is different, and you can't have expectations for a woman
23:56
to fill that void of a mother. Doesn't happen that way, right,
24:00
So yeah, man, I had to go through a lot in terms of
24:03
healing and getting over that, right, And I was a kid. It's
24:07
not my job to try to you know. Forgive you? Yeah, I
24:10
forgive you this, This feeling is for you, and I'm giving it to
24:12
you. That's forgiveness. This feeling is for you, this energy all at
24:18
this here, take it. I'm giving it to you, and I'm letting
24:22
you go. I love you. I forgive you. By stay the fuck
24:25
over there. That's shit. And just because you healed doesn't mean that person
24:29
has to be in your life. And just because that person is not in
24:30
your life doesn't mean that you're not healed. Yeah, that's real powerful.
24:37
Yeah, I'm saying that's important. And I think part of maintaining healing is
24:41
not allowing people into your life again that will that will cut you again.
24:45
If you get cut, does it leave a scar? Just the fuck it
24:48
does? They ain't make the boatox or bbl me yeh drizzy, and you
24:52
cut a motherfuck on their face. They gonna wear that for the rest of
24:56
their life. Right. But it's not an open wound, but it leaves
24:59
us call. So I'm gonna what I'm gonna. I'm gonna leave you or
25:04
give you another opportunity to cut me again. And I can see the razors
25:07
in your motherfucking hand. I'm a healed motherfucker, but you left some scars.
25:12
And the scars that I gotta look at every motherfucking day, which is
25:15
the memory. See, the memories are the scars. So even though I'm
25:18
healed the memory, I could still remember what you did to me, right,
25:22
So that's a scar. So I'm gonna let you just come back and
25:25
conveniently be in my life again and have an opportunity to cut me over you
25:30
stay the funk over there, and and I'm gripping to you, you're coming,
25:33
come yeah, back to fuck up. Man. I'm gonna protect myself
25:37
and I think and I think, I'm like, I feel like, if
25:38
you've been hurt by someone, it ain't your job to try to fuck them.
25:44
Move on, let that ship go, forgive them that feeling, that
25:47
feeling, that pain and all other ship that's for that's for them, So
25:51
give it back to them and keep it moving. Yeah so you said there
25:53
pretty much said them. But what if she were to come back into your
25:56
life? That says you can't. It's not what you're talking about. You
26:00
mean, it's too late. It's late. Did were you gonna come with?
26:03
You're gonna do that? Now? It's too late. You better hit
26:04
the littery or some ship. She hit that lottery that? What's that Jackpie?
26:08
What's the jackpipe? Right now? What's that? Your little homie?
26:11
What's that jackpie? Right now? That you got Google on your phone?
26:15
Right? Google? With the jackpie? That you're smart? You're not working
26:17
your phone? I see you know what I'm saying. Who's the Jackpiet is?
26:21
What's that Megan? What's that Megan? Right now? For man?
26:22
Some crazy too? Yeah? Some ship? Yeah, it's some crazy.
26:26
Yeah. I was saying that. You cut me a motherfucking check. Hold,
26:29
I'm si way for a little moe. Look it up, man,
26:30
what's the Megan? The man? Just Google Megan million number? Man ship.
26:37
You gotta hit that man ship. That's a new segment. Man,
26:40
change that. That's changed the life right there. If you did me wrong,
26:41
play a lot of until you win. That's that segment. What's the
26:45
number that's one billion, that's about billions up to the be you know what
26:51
I'm saying. So yeah, yeah, if you did me wrong, play
26:52
lottery to you win and cut me your check and and then I'll let you
26:56
back in. Yeah, but I definitely see like you was. You was
27:02
molested by my mom, your mom's babysitter, and yeah, both female moms
27:07
had I was never blessed by not not no maam lester. But a man
27:11
came in the bathroom. Yeah yeah, yeah, shut out, and I
27:12
and and and I jumped out the fucking window and start screaming. Yeah hell
27:17
yeah yeah. So so let's be clear about it. And that's what the
27:18
trapping anymos was about. And that's why I want to detail about it because
27:22
a lot of a lot of it's not It's like, it's not the same
27:26
when a man is molested by a woman. It goes unnoticed, so it's
27:30
not even considered molestation. That's why I said that. I could have said,
27:33
Yo, I fucked my babysitter. No, I was molested by my
27:37
babysitter. She was a female, We had sex, so the cool thing
27:40
to say, Yeah, I fucked my babysitter she was older. No,
27:41
no, no, I was molested by the babysitter. Right. So,
27:45
and there's there's there's a lot of female pedophiles. You see it all the
27:51
time. You go on TikTok and you see girls turking in front of babies,
27:53
little black boys. Right, But if you've seen a grown man shaking
27:57
his dick in front of a little girl's face, she would feel like,
28:00
oh, killer, murder them. But you don't have that same energy for
28:03
the female. Said, I said that same shit, right, So,
28:06
yes, there's female fucking pedophiles. There's female fucking rapos, there's female fucking
28:11
predators. This is real shit. And it happened, and it happened all
28:14
the time, and it happened to me. I had a babysit. It
28:15
was one of them, you know what I'm saying. And it took me
28:17
a long time to realize that that was wrong, right because I thought it
28:22
was cool. Right. The culture we grow up in not definitely right.
28:26
And I'm robbed of my childhood. You you hyper speed up my sexuality.
28:32
How you shit I was fucked man, like baby, damn, I was
28:37
young, just under ten. Damn. You know what I'm saying. It
28:41
took in sense pretty much. Yeah. Yeah, so this is what I'm
28:44
saying, right, So people, so people, So what it is is
28:48
we we don't we don't have that empathy for little black boys going through that.
28:56
And that's why that Trapper Anymous episode, when you know it was so
29:00
important because I spoke on and I spoke on how to how to overcome it
29:03
and how to hold these these females who ain't got no business fucking these young
29:07
boys accountable. Definitely, definitely until about Cougars and Ship like that, Like
29:11
yeah, I definitely feel what you're saying. They praying on it, the
29:15
praying on our kids. Another thing, because like I've been watching the Traveling
29:21
Different episod, I'm like, damn, like I ain't gonna lie like you
29:23
speak, Ship, you you powerful? Are your words is really you can
29:29
like really write your own book to help and heal other people. But because
29:33
because I faced everything head on. See, that's the greatest misconception and great
29:36
one of the greatest tricks that the Devil did was convinced man that he exists,
29:41
right, So I went into that. My mother was a jungist.
29:42
She was getting high. I'm in the house, I'm a kid, right.
29:45
So one of the dudes in the spot running with his dick out.
29:48
But I'm already I'm already hip. I'm not green. I'm saying, I'm
29:53
fucking the babysitter. I'm you know, I mean, I'm already hold up
29:56
your home. You got me farm out, wal I'm saying that I'm already
30:00
hit to what's going on. I could, I could, I could feel
30:03
the energy to what I'm saying. Na, it wasn't right. So I'm
30:06
out. I got a bout of there, right. So, and let's
30:10
be clear, if I was molested by a man, I would I wouldn't.
30:12
I wouldn't run from that. Thank god, it didn't happen. But
30:15
if it did happen, I would own it. It wouldn't feel no type
30:18
of way what I'm saying, and that if that did happen to me,
30:22
I would attract that motherfucker down, cut his dick off and shot him in
30:25
the head and burnt him alive, and happen him with the jail like take
30:26
me away. What I'm saying. So, so so so for me,
30:30
I never like I never, I never ran from nothing that I that I
30:37
was dealing with. That's the key to healing too. So one of the
30:40
greatest tricks the devil, who ever did, was convinced man that he has
30:42
power. God is greater. The demon ain't more powerful than the angel.
30:48
Right, The Devil's not more powerful than Christ. The devil's not more powerful
30:51
than the Law. The devil's not more powerful than Jesus. How from where?
30:56
Right? So I'm gonna face it head on and asks God to to
31:00
to to to to protect me. And if God got me, I'm ilet's
31:06
get it. And that's what and you know, and that's what that was.
31:08
And a lot of people, oh you got Miami issues. No I
31:11
healed, but I could speak about it, and a lot of times we
31:15
don't. People that that are healed don't speak about it. And the ones
31:19
that like, so if you healed, you can't that shit don't bother me.
31:22
Don't shit don't I talk about all the time. It don't bother me
31:25
at all. I'm over it to rap. But how I got to that
31:30
point was with God. And it took me years of facing it, looking
31:33
in the mirror, you know what I mean, like questioning myself like damn,
31:36
well, okay, I'm fucking all these girls because yo, there's this
31:40
baby. Sit this bitch. Oh you Oh, I should have been thinking
31:44
about basketball and hooping. I'm trying to holler at the older girls. I'm
31:45
constantly dealing with older girls. No, I mean now, now I got
31:49
a mature soul because energy transfers. It. The energy transference that happens when
31:55
you have sex is a real thing. I believe it. So now you
31:59
start taking on more mature mannerisms. You ever see a girl, yeah,
32:02
she fucking now. Yeah, you see a boy when you start getting pussy
32:06
he started acting different, acting wow, different word. So, like you
32:09
said, being robbed in the innocense is the real thing. Yeah, So
32:14
how is it like like from your past didn't affect you dealing with women,
32:20
dating and stuff. No, early on, Like I said, early on,
32:22
there was because I was I was using sex as a form of escapism,
32:27
right, I was hiding in the pussy. I was really running from
32:30
myself. I was running from I had abandonment issues. I wanted to feel
32:34
love. You know, so a mother, if a mother loves her son,
32:39
that's whole world. Right, It's just like it's like you trying to
32:44
get dog love from a thought. You understand what I'm saying. Like,
32:47
you're trying to get dog love from a thought. You only gonna track women
32:52
that don't love you because you don't love you. So you're looking you know
32:55
what, you know, a dog like when the dog really loves owner,
32:59
that's should have ready to die for you. So you're trying to get that.
33:01
You want that love, You want that dog love, but you can't
33:05
get it because this is not that a mother is supposed to get that to
33:07
you. So you want that feeling of that that whatever that is right,
33:12
And then now I'm trying to get that from the females that I'm that I'm
33:15
dealing with, and that's just not working. Over, No, how long
33:19
did it take for you to realize that? Man? It took me.
33:22
It took me years, bro, It took a long time. I didn't
33:24
have a note pad, like, oh, well today is today? I
33:28
figured it out? Right, No, it's just over time you start to
33:30
because you have all these failed relationships, right, you have all these fel
33:35
relationships. And then eventually, if you're if you're clever, like I am.
33:37
I get you know, I think about myself like, okay, what's
33:39
what the fuck is why this ain't working? Oh? I get it.
33:43
I'm reading I'm reading psychogi. I'm trying to figure out like you know,
33:45
I'm studying shit. Oh, this is what it is. I got abandonment
33:50
issues. Whoa wow? Okay, I gotta be or what is it?
33:53
I'm learning these terms right, Okay, I'm trying to replace this. I'm
33:58
trying to what is escape as? This is all shit. I'm connecting the
34:01
dots. I'm forever on my own personal operating table, and I'm the doctor
34:07
Pastor Scalpelds Mster Smart. Okay, cool, we're gonna move this right,
34:10
I'm tweaking and critiquing myself. Smart. I can I ask you something sure
34:16
for men out because I think a lot of men use sex as for escapism,
34:21
right, I don't think a lot of men are self aware of what
34:23
escapism even is. Could you kind of explain from your perspective, what does
34:28
using sex for escapism really look like? Like? What does it look like?
34:30
Well? Everybody, okay, so everybody's form of escaping, everybody's okay,
34:36
I want to try to say that, like you're not in layman's terms
34:37
to it, like make it as simple as possible. Right, Let's say
34:42
you got a job, right, you got a job, and you and
34:44
you stressed out right when you climax, when you bust a nut, that
34:49
twenty seconds, for twenty seconds, you don't have to feel no pain there.
34:53
Right, For twenty seconds, you're not at the job, you don't
34:57
have to pay no bills, you're not thinking about how it broke you all.
35:00
You're not thinking about how fucked up you are. You're not thinking about
35:02
angle you are. You're not thinking about how ugly you feel, how fat,
35:07
overweight, out of shape you feel. You don't feel nothing but peace
35:09
for twenty seconds. It's very short lived, but it's so powerful, right
35:15
because it immediately takes you away. So if you don't like yourself, right,
35:19
if you don't like yourself, if you look in the mirror and you
35:21
hate what you see, you when you come, for twenty seconds, you're
35:24
the king of the world for twenty seconds. Right. If you broken shit,
35:30
you broke as fuck, and you mad that you broke, and being
35:31
in extreme levels of poverty makes you feel like really like rock bottom, for
35:37
twenty seconds, you're bill Gates. You're a billionaire, you're a jay Z,
35:40
you're a fifty cent whoever you think, God money, that's who you
35:44
are for twenty seconds. That's a powerful night. Hey, that's why,
35:49
that's not That's why. That's why it's called escapism. You can escape,
35:52
you can get away from what you're dealing with. It allows you not to
35:55
deal with what you're dealing with. You want to escape. Where's the exit?
35:59
Like an escape, you're trying to get away. That's what that is.
36:01
Right, So a lot of a lot of black men will we go
36:07
through so much and we don't realize that we need things to cope. It's
36:12
like a coping mechanism, and we use temporary coping mechanisms to deal with what
36:22
we're going through. Sex is one of them. Violence is one of them.
36:28
Drugs is one of them. Alcohol, video games is one of them.
36:31
Right, But after a while, you start to realize that you really
36:37
want to feel whole, you want to feel healed, you want to feel
36:42
you want to feel loved, you want to feel you tied. Like you
36:45
get tired of it at some point, right, Like, at some point
36:47
you like, nah, I'm cool, I'm cool on this, I'm cool
36:52
on this box. It don't. It's like the thrill, like you say,
36:54
the thrill is gone. So I've had so many experiences with females.
36:59
Now I was hungry for more. And then I knew that what I was
37:04
looking for the girl couldn't what I was looking for, the girl couldn't give
37:07
me. I had to give it to myself Paul's I had to love myself.
37:10
I had to I had to re architect my self image right, who
37:15
smart? Who are you right? Who are you right? Who the fuck
37:20
are you? Look in the mirror and search for some good ship in that
37:22
mirror. And it took me years because in a lot of tears. Took
37:27
me years and tears. I'm in the mirror. Go in the mirror and
37:29
look in the mirror and say you're beautiful, or just think to yourself,
37:34
you're beautiful, and you're gonna not feel beautiful. You're gonna feel ugly,
37:37
you don't feel fucked up? Right, But don't run, don't don't try
37:42
to escape. See because sex helps you with the escape. Escape, the
37:46
blunt helps you with the escape, the video game, the phone, whatever
37:50
it is. Now, I sit with your fucking punk ass self and say
37:53
I'm special. I'm special. I am special. You want be like,
38:00
Yo, what the fuck out? E ain't gonna feel special? That's why
38:01
I came up with that affirmation. When you get one negative thought, replaced
38:05
it with one hundred positive thoughts, right, So you know it took me.
38:08
I had to but look, I had to learn. I was really
38:10
trying to get better, right, I was trying my fucking damness to get
38:16
better. Right. And then and then, once you love yourself, can't
38:21
nobody love you better than you love you? Once you love yourself, can't
38:24
nobody love you better than you love yourself. That's a it's a different kind
38:29
of a feeling. Nobody can't tear you down. Nobody can't do shit when
38:31
you love yourself, like, it's just what it is like, it's a
38:35
it's a it's a very empowerful thing, and it's addictive. So now you
38:38
know it doesn't it's not twenty seconds, it's forever. It's permanent. Confidence
38:44
is permanent, high self esteem is permanent. Right, So that's and then
38:49
now you now you're ready to trade it. It's like Zazi versus airy shouts
38:52
and the smokers out there. If you smoke some real good smoke butt man,
38:55
you don't smoke. Oh okay, okay, sober lungs. Look,
39:00
you know you gotta be related. People smoke. I don't. I don't
39:02
school weed. But hey, you know what I mean. It's like if
39:05
you got some bullshit weed and you got some some zaza or whatever. That
39:08
ship is different crunk, Cadillac, space ship, moon rock, whatever,
39:13
that ship you're like, whoam hides them? Right? You ain't gonna go
39:15
back to that that that ship that aarried, you know what I mean?
39:19
Yeah? Yeah, So you know, so when you love yourself and you
39:23
don't want to run for you, you can sit there. I ain't gotta
39:25
escape. I'm good. And then now that opens the door to have better
39:30
relationships with females, better relationships with your family, and and so called friends
39:34
or people who are actually are your friends. You ain't had no big homies
39:37
to put their arms around you that say say like, let's stop this jagging.
39:42
No big homie ship because I was always I was always in my own
39:45
you gotta think, look check it. I was. Look, you get
39:49
molested by your moms. You don't trust nobody. Man, got no father
39:52
in my life, So I didn't have nobody. I didn't have nobody in
39:55
my life. I didn't that trusting big homie. What I might, what
39:59
big I might put you. I'm injecting that ship. I don't. I
40:01
wasn't not under nobody wing Brock. I couldn't even sell drugs. Man,
40:05
let me tell you I sold drugs. Look, somebody gave me a pack.
40:07
Right, shots on, man, Daryl, this is real shit,
40:08
it's real ship. Came on man, what's killing right? Yo? Darren?
40:15
I apologize, man, my bad. I owe you one hundred and
40:19
twenty hours. I got you, Yo, listen, I got one hundred
40:22
and twenty hours. You ran off on the plug. You'll listen. Yeah,
40:24
look, so my man down right here, my man down might see
40:28
him years man, So, Darrel, you know I'm popping out so down
40:30
I actually see this. So I apologize, man. And when you run
40:34
it too me, yo, say give me that one twenty. I got
40:36
that one twenty. You never know you might need a word somebody, man
40:38
dowt he give me give me the weed bagged up. It's twelve bags of
40:40
weed, right said, Like, Yo, you're gonna go hustle bah blah
40:44
blah. I I bet you're gonna do this, you give me back this.
40:45
So I go, I go be in Stanton Island, we in New
40:47
Brighton, and I go. I go by the high school and I'm selling
40:52
the weed. As I'm selling the weed, Truan chasing me, I'm jumping,
40:54
I'm running. I'm like I'm doing. Hold up, I gotta do
40:57
all this ship and pay him. I'm not paying him back nothing. What
41:00
I'm saying, you ain't getting nothing back. Man. You know what I
41:01
mean. I'm keeping that. I mean so you know what I mean.
41:04
I kept that, figured out a new connect how to re up, and
41:06
I know what I'm saying. So I never had nobody that I like.
41:08
That was the only because that was a little older than me. So that
41:13
was the only person that But I just I couldn't. I couldn't do it,
41:15
man, ego whatever you but I just couldn't do it. It couldn't.
41:20
I didn't trust the motherfucker enough. And I was hard headed at the
41:22
time when I was a kid. I had to if you put a wet
41:24
floor sign in front of me, I'm gonna probably kick the wet floor sign.
41:28
I'm it ain't gonna the floor ain't sippery, bitch. I gotta I
41:30
gotta fall myself believe it. Yeah. Yeah, So you know I was
41:35
very hard headed, you know, I mean as a as a kid growing
41:37
up. So there was yeah, there was no there was no uh,
41:39
it was no big broke. But I had somebody. Look, I had
41:43
somebody who tried to be that my man Rab God blessed dad from Brandon Clifton,
41:46
right. I respected Rabs. He was a killer, you know what
41:51
I'm saying. And you know he would he would tell me a lot of
41:52
shit about life and stuff like that. But I, you know, I
41:58
still wanted to. I wanted to. I was trying to figure it out
42:00
my own, you want to experience it because but I was always on by
42:02
the fault. I was always on my own. So sometimes when we talk
42:07
to young kids, right, and this is some wisdom for people talking to
42:08
young people, you don't know what a person been through. See, we
42:13
like to we like to make we like to pass judgment too soon. Oh
42:15
he's young. Yeah you don't know what Look, bro at five years old,
42:19
I was a lot figuring it out at five. You and me at
42:23
five, So you can't you don't know what a person And then yeah,
42:27
so that story, that had behind me. So you come and trying a
42:30
big bro, big bro who I don't like people saying that. People call
42:34
me big bro, Like, ain't your big bro. I'm your friend,
42:36
I'm your brother. I don't like the big bro talk because I know I
42:38
wasn't going for that big bro all right, jay Z could walk in this
42:44
room right now. Ain't no big bro nothing, Sean. You mean what
42:50
I'm saying, I don't know that. Listen, man, I like that.
42:53
I told me, I know what I'm saying, Like, that's how
42:55
I thought. I mean, I know that's how these kids I hate think.
42:59
You know what I'm saying. Get your ship pushed back, playing that
43:00
big bro shit. Man, big bro, it's dangerous man, big bullets
43:05
too, like you dropping a lot of games and juice. That's what we're
43:13
here for. Man, Yeah, definitely so like and then out of jail
43:15
right right. So, yeah, you was on gold mode because I see
43:19
you. You talked about getting stabbed in your head and everything else, and
43:22
in war situation, war moments, you don't thing you've seen was just red
43:27
gold, right, what only thing you've seen was just red, like straight
43:30
gold mold. Yeah, that's it. It's even me and you that's so.
43:34
Do you think like a lot of the situations it was caused, like
43:37
I was hurt in the past, I'm hurt everybody in front of me.
43:40
Nah, man, nobody's boohooing in prison, man. No, But but
43:45
you think it was a strangers of change. Man, What you're saying about
43:52
jail is jailer is. Look, okay, you go to jail at that
43:57
time, jail was just like all right, right, see seventy four.
44:00
You know you're sitting in the holding pins. They give you a pin,
44:04
right if you got some nice little sneakers on or whatever. They're like,
44:07
yo, look you gotta to take your the CEOs, they're gonna give you
44:09
the option to take what they say patakis like these these fucking these these yeezy
44:15
reject looking slide on type shit right, And I'm like, yo, ma,
44:17
man, I now I'm keeping my sneakers. Now, I don't think
44:21
you want to do that because you know they gonna try to beat you for
44:22
your sneakers. So you know you going in there and if you're gonna keep
44:25
your sneakers, you gotta fight for your sneakers. Hey, I kept my
44:29
sneakers. You know what I'm saying, they give you a pin. If
44:30
you're gonna be on the phone, you're gonna fight everything. You gotta fight
44:34
for everything, so eventually you start to you gotta adapt, and the more
44:38
you fight, the more the more violent you are, the less problems you
44:45
have. So it's a simple fix. Okay, let me just go to
44:49
the fucking extreme. Okay, this guy has the phone. I'm gonna stab
44:52
him. I'm just gonna stab him. Fuck it, I'm just stab We're
44:55
gonna figure. I'm gonna just stand any none of talking. I'm just gonna
44:58
stab him. You go to a new house. You know, if you
45:01
take the phone, you're gonna get jumped, all right, cool, I
45:02
manet jumped. So fucking what, you just take the phone. Ain't nobody
45:06
using the phone? Ah, you break the phone, they jump, you,
45:09
beat you up, and you just fight like hell. Okay, they
45:12
move you to the new house. But people hear about you, yo,
45:14
so you pretty much get respected for violence. Word yo, bro he yo,
45:16
bro, he took the phone, he stepped on the phone. Se
45:20
they jumped, but he now fucked that. Then when you go to the
45:22
next house, they looking at you funny, like you wanna use the phone.
45:24
Yeah, I wanna use you know what I mean, you're acting right
45:28
the act as if you know what I'm saying. I ain't no fucking gagster.
45:30
What I'm saying. I'm pretending I'm playing the role. Yeah, I'm
45:32
gonna get on the phone. Yeah, huh, give me the phone,
45:35
Nick, huh. I'm fronting and what I'm saying. But eventually you start
45:39
to become with you started to become with you pretending to be hommy. You
45:42
know what I'm saying. That's what I know. What I'm saying. Joe,
45:45
he starts doing Dad look at me. You decided and know what she
45:47
was going on? So yeah, yes, yeah, you know what I'm
45:52
saying. That shit right there. Put the motherfucking that yo, come in
45:54
here, shut up. You start doing dips and all that doing up you
46:00
know all that. You know what I'm saying you Yeah, huh, I
46:02
mean talking loud, Yeah, what you want huh. And then you eventually
46:07
you get better at it. And what I'm saying, so I got better
46:08
at it, and I just that's what that was, and I'm saying that's
46:10
what prison was too. I'm saying, you gotta get your respect. You
46:14
go in the house's number bluzzing. There you got a box of chicken and
46:15
the refrigerator. Somebody got somebody got to die for that box of chicken.
46:20
Man, I got stabbed over a box of chicken. Man, you gotta
46:22
stabbed for a box of chicken? No, no, no o over taking
46:27
shit for me? Yeah, I ain't you know what I'm saying. I
46:32
ain't with it. But so what I'm saying is is I learned that from
46:36
p I just adapted. And again it's no, it's no badger honor,
46:38
it's just jealous. Corny. Prison is corny, right. I didn't want
46:43
to be I could have died in fucking prison, stabbed in the head.
46:45
I got hit with the plexiglass. Come sit, you want to die over
46:47
a box of chicken? Really? Like? No? So I think again,
46:52
this is why people got to hear this, right, Like, you
46:54
know, when I went to the box, cut two people. I go
46:57
to the box, right, so I stab person that stabbed me. I
47:01
stabbed it back. I cut him. I'm saying I want to do some
47:04
shit and I'm a South poor box and my bunkie, the bunkie is a
47:08
serial killer. U you know what I'm saying he got like twenty bodies,
47:12
just straight killing murder. Right. I'm like, yo, yeh know what
47:15
it's like. I want to know because I'm striving to be this. He
47:19
like, you, stupid motherfucker, this ain't it, young blood? Straightened
47:22
up me live. I never forget that power. Yo, straight up me
47:25
live. You know what I'm saying. He's just saying it to me,
47:28
right, he killed twenty people. He like, yo, man, you
47:30
know if I could go back out work at McDonald's. Man, this ain't
47:32
it, Chap, he started telling me, and I'm like, what the
47:35
fuck? Oh this is? So the person that I was trying to be
47:39
is telling me that this ain't what you want to be. This ain't what
47:43
the person I was trying to be, because we don't really know who we
47:46
are at a certain age, trying to learn. You don't mean it don't
47:51
mean you pussy. It just means you will want to you want to be
47:53
something that you don't even know, and you're not even what You're not even
47:55
grown yet. Right, So the thing I was trying to be told me
48:00
saying what you want to be? And I was just like, oh ship
48:02
damn right. Really like I had to like like it just blew up.
48:07
It burst my bubble, right, and I'm like, damn you, like
48:09
yo, man, nah man, I get a job. If I would
48:12
get I would do this, I would do that. I would And it's
48:15
like, yo, it just changed my perspective. And I feel like a
48:17
lot of young kids, if they had that information, maybe they would do
48:22
things different for right. And you know, because a lot of times you
48:27
you smoking weed, you popping pills, you drink, and you listen to
48:29
all this stupid ass drill music and it's all you catching w's. It's all
48:32
beautiful. It's all good when you when you, when you on the winning
48:36
side. When you in a coffin, or you you paralyzed, or you
48:39
are paraplegic, or you can't see, you blind, shout out to the
48:43
blond steppers. You ain't you? You You wish you had your sight back.
48:45
You wish you had your your arms back, You wish you had your
48:47
legs back. You wish you could walk again, talk again, right,
48:51
or you wish you had your freedom back. I'm saying, like, these
48:54
kids are so fucking young. It ain't nobody it vexes my spirit that d
49:00
nothing. Yeah, And it's like ain't nobody saying nothing. That's why I
49:01
could never respect No jay Z or none of these guys, because it's like,
49:06
what are y'all really doing to to change this? Like what media platforms,
49:09
what media outlets are we creating to empower these kids with monetary gain for
49:15
their art? And how we directing them to make art in a in a
49:19
in a you know, in a more positive powerful way. Right, and
49:22
then let me just revisit the prison ship. Right when you got a prison,
49:25
you ain't got no support system, you might come home. I came
49:29
home Category one. I'm doing post release. I got fire's post release.
49:32
I'm I'm look. I'm trying to find a place to parole to. I
49:36
don't want to go to shelter. You know, I go find bag of
49:38
chick. I'm parrolling with a chick. You know how I go? You
49:42
parole with a chick to me my keys get out? So now you coming
49:45
back, your whole shit packed outside. She she loved you as long as
49:47
your muscles is inflated. As soon as you lose your up north globe bitch,
49:51
she like you got to go now, right, So if you're watching
49:55
this and you and you and you and you and you in a tight spot,
49:59
you're coming home from prison, or you you living with your girl,
50:02
Go to a shelter, Go to a shelter, get the help from now,
50:07
because ninety days that, after ninety days, four months, five months
50:10
tops, you're gonna be able to get your own apartment. You're gonna be
50:13
able to be you're gonna be able to get on your feet. And nobody,
50:15
nobody talks about this. Right, So the time you waste trying to
50:21
live with your girl, the time you waste trying to live with your girl,
50:27
you could have went to a shelter, went find some programs, got
50:31
some government assistance. They get your apartment, help you get a job.
50:36
Now you get all the girls you want because you got your own spot.
50:38
And that same bitch that you was chasing, she gonna be blowing dick on
50:43
your couch. She's gonna be fucking you on your count. And you ain't
50:46
gotta swap out your two brushes. You ain't gotta hod shit. And I
50:51
mean, I've been doing all this shit, man, I've been doing all
50:53
this shit. Man, I've been through all this shit. Man. You
50:55
living with a broad, you're trying to you're trying to you're trying to you
51:00
it's not worth it, And a lot of times we don't have that guidance,
51:04
We don't have people who experienced it. Right. So you come home
51:07
from jail trying to depend on your family. Your family ain't really down for
51:09
you. They don't really understand how to be supportive, right, So you
51:13
got to go to the fucking shelter. Go to the fucking shelter. Is
51:17
it good? No? Will it be greater later? Yes? Shit was
51:22
even worse than jail. Yeah, go to the fucking shelter. And then
51:24
now you figure out you figured in ninety days. In ninety days, you
51:30
on, you got a call, a job in your own apartment, crib,
51:32
no stress, no nothing right. Versus somebody who took them fifteen years
51:37
out of prison just to get a license. It's people that been home from
51:39
jail for fifteen years and probably just getting their license because they went to live
51:44
with a bitch. They went to depend on girls, and they got caught
51:46
in this constant cycle. It's constant roller coaster ride up. Let me live
51:50
with a chick, Let me live with a chick, Let me live with
51:52
a chick. Let me live with a chick, and you're not wrong because
51:55
you expect any you know, you're expecting an old girl to ride. But
51:59
bitches ain't like that. I'm saying they may ride, but it's an expiration
52:01
date for that, for that ride. Yeah, and then the things you
52:07
gotta do to be passenger seat. You gotta cut your nuts off, masculating
52:12
yourself just for some keys, Homie, it ain't worth it. Man.
52:14
We gotta make this conference. We gotta make this ship public for the men
52:16
out there. Go to shelter man. Fuck it, go to shelter man.
52:21
You get on your feet, man, you figure it out. Yeah,
52:25
ship, fuck it. And then once you, and then once you,
52:28
and then once you. Once you go through that, you're gonna be
52:30
better. You're gonna be more powerful. But while you're going through that,
52:35
go to God. See, black men, there's a conspiracy to destroy us.
52:38
So we condition to go to the woman. We condition to go to
52:40
family, We condition to go to everybody but God and ourself. All you
52:44
need is God in yourself. You go to God and you ask God for
52:46
provision. You ask God for provision as a man who protect us, providers,
52:52
maintaining sustainers. Right, So we have to go to God, ask
52:54
God, God, I need some provision, and through that provision, what
53:00
you're working on will be empowered by God. God will make what you're working
53:04
on successful. How much money I made of selling CDs, selling my music,
53:09
selling my CDs? Like that wasn't me, that was my provision.
53:13
God empowered my hustle. Know how much money you're gonna make up this podcast?
53:16
That's why I'm telling Wolf, Wolf, don't sleep on the man.
53:20
Right you how much money youre gonna make up this podcast? You're gonna make
53:22
millions, Bro, I'm telling you, but you gotta ask God for provision.
53:27
And God is gonna sprinkle that you like you know what I'm saying.
53:31
He gonna spring with that provision. But you gotta know what it is.
53:35
He's gonna spring with that provision over what you're doing. And then now you're
53:38
gonna generate the finances that you need to be the man that you are,
53:42
which is a protective ofvide to maintain a sustainance. Right, So as you're
53:46
going through what you're going through, don't be afraid to ask God for your
53:51
provision. Yeah, when was your wake up call when you sat there and
53:57
said, I gotta change the South box. I didn't. I didn't wake
54:01
up. Man, listen, people, you know I gave up. This
54:05
is the vine. I'm one of the chosen ones. Man, God chose
54:08
me. I was a South pat box man like. Man, I'm gonna
54:10
get out this box and I'm gonna kill one of these CEOs because the CEO
54:14
smacked me in the back of the head. Right, I already splashed it.
54:17
I already splashed it. So you know, you know splashing is you
54:21
know you cut the cut the top of the toothpaste off. Cut like,
54:24
cut the toothpaste off. You pissing it, roll it up, put it
54:27
on your door. See yuh, he come to the door step on that
54:30
ship and pits hit the role on the face and all that, you know
54:32
what I'm saying. And then they beat you up and they put you in
54:35
the hole inside the hole. Now you're on the cabbage. You're on the
54:37
loaf where you only get this this hard ass cabbage and a loaf of bread
54:40
for two weeks. That's all you eat. That's all your food. They
54:43
going, they they it is food deporat food deprivation. You know what I'm
54:47
saying. They put you throughing like crazy. Ship so I'm like, man,
54:51
I'm going crazy in a box, my bed or you ever see Tom
54:53
Tom Hanks from Castaway. I was like Tom Hanks from Castaway. Man,
54:59
hold onto my pillow, talking to my pillow. Volleyball name uh so long
55:07
something like that. I had the pillow so long, my pillow. My
55:09
pillow was my sampson. Yeah. Man, we're gonna get out of here.
55:13
Man, right, yeah, man, we're gonna get out of here.
55:15
When we get out of here, we're gonna kill these police officers.
55:16
Yeah. Man, get the knife from the Puerto Ricans. All right,
55:20
man, we're gonna kill him. We're gonna kill them all. And I'm
55:22
going crazy in the box. Man. You gear me. I'm getting I
55:24
get out. I'm gonna kill somebody. Man. I'm like, I'm gonna
55:27
do life in jail or the police gonna kill me in his box and I'm
55:30
never coming home. That was my That was what I was on bro.
55:32
So I listen, man, God came in and intervene. Man, I'm
55:36
saying God that that was the moment of intervention. Divine God came in.
55:40
Yeah. Yeah, like like like mother Mary baby Daddy came. She's like
55:49
amaculate conception, baby the mother. Yeah, yeah, I ain't actually be
55:53
here, but I'm here. Goddamn it. How do you get the name?
55:55
Smart? Man? Success, motivation, ambition, righteous, truth?
56:00
Man, it's what I'm saying. You know, I started understanding the power
56:02
of words. Right, we speak things in existence? Life or death is
56:06
of the tongue. So why would I every every everything I'm called I will
56:09
become and everything I call myself I will become everything I'm called, meaning everything
56:15
I allowed, because I gotta allow that. So what's up, my nigga?
56:17
If I allow you to call me nigga, then I can receive what
56:22
comes with being a nigga, which is death, slavery, poverty, murder,
56:27
destruction, everything that comes. Everything you, everything that you called you
56:30
will become. But you have to allow yourself to be called that and everything
56:34
you say you are you will be right. So Smart was like, now
56:37
look at me, don't I speak? Well? Am I smart? I'm
56:38
smart as a motherfucker man attributes Right. So if you say, yo,
56:43
what's your name? Your name? My name is two gun murdered, drama
56:45
killer. God damn well, you're gonna bring that to your motherfucking life.
56:50
What I'm saying, see everything you add on to im becomes added on to
56:53
you. Everything that you add on to IM becomes added on to you.
56:57
I am smart, I am intelligent, I am power. This is what
57:00
you gotta say to your monist. Yeah, yeah, yeah, you gotta
57:02
speaking to fucking existence man, Yeah, and it will come into existence.
57:07
Best to fucking believe that. What would you what would you tell like younger
57:09
Smart? Nothing? I feel you had to go through that to be the
57:15
person yesterday. No, man, God keep telling you. I'm gonna say
57:16
it again, God in TV. Man, I can't. I'm gonna tell
57:19
Smart. I can't tell him nothing. He ain't listening. I might have
57:22
got shot talking to young smart, Yo Smart? What you what? Young
57:27
Smarty't hear that? M h? And then I wasn't called smart than what
57:30
I'm saying. Yeah, yeah, no, it was just smart. Who
57:32
the fuck you young Smart? It wasn't no young smart. What I'm saying.
57:35
It's just called me cash cash, I'm saying monster. But I can't
57:38
you know what I mean. I was trying. I was listening, man,
57:40
I read that I got my hands on the Monster Cody book when I
57:44
was in cross rolls, Cross rolls. What I'm saying that's a juvenile yet
57:46
juvenile. I want to say that in the Bronx, Now Bronx is Horizon.
57:51
I was in both of them, cross Roads in Brooklyn and Brooklyn and
57:52
Horizon. Pick the Bronx. You know what I'm saying. I was in
57:55
both of the motherfuckers. I'm saying so right. I'm reading the Monster Cody
57:59
book. Man, I want to I want to be a monster. I'm
58:01
trying to be you know what I mean, young small, young me was
58:05
just trying to be gainst the man. I ain't none of that. I'm
58:07
trying to take over blacks, you know what I mean. I was fucking
58:12
the losion on as fuck was dumb and ship what my mother I was.
58:16
Listen, if I try to take over Delaware, man, then may be
58:20
no, I try to take over all the fucking Delaware man. But God
58:22
should cheek like listen, man, man, God bless that. I was
58:24
trying to get a brick so bad. You know, hard is to get
58:27
a break. Motherfucker's be lying. I had brick. I had know you
58:30
didn't you lying? It's hard to get a brick? MANU you mean eight
58:35
balls, dope. I'm saying a couple of ounces and all that. But
58:37
a brick, man was man, brick was hard. I mean I've had
58:40
bricks, but not whole at one time. You know what I'm saying.
58:44
I'm sold added all together, ship moving, but I couldn't. I know,
58:47
I ain't get my hands and it took me time. I mean,
58:51
now, when I start getting to the kidnapping and robbery game, then that
58:52
that was different. But it ain't just you know, I got a break.
58:55
It ain't like the movies. The movies just na be. But oh
59:00
yeah, man, I was young man, just trying to trying to just
59:02
get to it, man, trying to be something I wasn't. Man,
59:05
I mean, what's the next for smart? Oh man? Everything? I
59:08
mean, boxing, music, acting, what I'm saying. You know,
59:12
black osports, nigga, you see what's going on. Don't be surprised.
59:14
You see me looking like Superman and all these movies flying through it with burning
59:17
building hard save you buildings. Can tell you, man, what I'm saying.
59:22
Michael be Jordan all over again. Yeah, I tell you man,
59:27
I don't be surprised. You see on the movie. You know what I'm
59:29
saying. Oh, you know what I mean? The mother You know what
59:32
I'm saying, yeah, man, so movies, community work, reparations,
59:36
We get ready to a fundraiser. We're doing a fundraiser to build a creative
59:39
space in Harlem. Then we're gonna do it in all the five boroughs.
59:43
So that's the you know what I mean. I'm really on that too,
59:45
like community work, because somebody got to say the motherfucking kids, man,
59:47
my mom for any community work you got, Yeah, And I'm trying to
59:51
pass a law. I gotta. I'm trying to figure out how to make
59:52
how to make this shit illegal to say the word nigga. I really like,
59:57
I'm really trying to figure out because the Jews figured it out. Its
1:00:00
repercussions for saying kake he's and you're gonna have all type of apologies and cease
1:00:04
and desist. You can't disrespect no so called you. Right, we're the
1:00:07
only group, We're the only race of people that god self hate music.
1:00:12
And it's embraced like even before we start the podcast, you know, wolfs
1:00:15
like yo, I ain't say the word nigga in two years. You was
1:00:17
like, all right, work on it. You gotta work on saying some
1:00:20
ship that's video. So look if I called you a bitch ass faggot,
1:00:23
motherfucker. Yeah, what's up, faggot? Yeah? Man? Yeah,
1:00:29
fuck boy yeah yeah, what's up my fuck boy? How that feel your
1:00:34
wolf? What's up? Fuck boy? Like that's a should make a nigga
1:00:38
want to go. I said it to her right, Yo? What you're
1:00:43
smart? What's up? Boy? Yo? What's up? What? Like?
1:00:46
Come on boy? Stop it? Man. You embrace disrespect like it's
1:00:50
like like honor you you. You can't convert disrespect into honor. You can't.
1:00:55
You can't create something that is is nothing and make it something. Look
1:01:00
at the white man. That's why I lost a lot of respect for jay
1:01:04
Z talking about we made it a tournament endearment. You can't make this.
1:01:07
You can't make the word nigga nothing. It's a spell. It's a curse.
1:01:13
You have brothers got their penis cut off and shoved in their mouth or
1:01:15
they were setting on fire for this word you're talking about you. How is
1:01:19
this a term of endearment. It's not. It's a term of destruction what
1:01:23
I'm saying. And the more wise I get, I'm a god. I
1:01:27
ain't gonna call me no nigga, bro. And in my last year is
1:01:30
a prison. I started getting like that. I cut him life for call
1:01:32
me a nigga in prison. Watch your mouth. My name is Smart,
1:01:36
bro, Like yo, Yeah, you ain't gonna call me. You don't
1:01:40
call me smart, don't call me nothing, yo, yo listen, And
1:01:45
I got I got into it because I was just real adamant about that ship.
1:01:47
And now I'm trying to get even more like I'm trying to have that
1:01:50
same level of being militant I had in prison for that word out here,
1:01:54
white man gonna call me no nigga, I'm going in your mouth. I'm
1:01:58
saying, Black people, I'm give you some patience because I know you know,
1:02:00
we we you know, we walking up. White man can't say your
1:02:04
nigga come in what I'm going to your mouth? I think anybody would.
1:02:06
I'm going down these dudes, pussy man, I'm going to trust me.
1:02:09
Man, I'm going to my mouth. I'm going in your mouth. I'mna
1:02:14
slap it, sh out you. I ain't even gonna I'm not even gonna
1:02:15
play with you know what I'm saying. But we gotta, we gotta,
1:02:19
we gotta set these standards for ourselves and the people that we embrace. Like
1:02:22
the people who we bought they art, we bought their content. All these
1:02:24
so called rappers, we support them, but they don't elevate us. They
1:02:30
don't elevate it. So I want to create my own industry. And it's
1:02:32
what I'm working on with No. I've been talking this talk, the talking
1:02:35
ship. I've been working on shit for a long time. And I don't
1:02:37
want to go into particulars and details because sometimes you gotta just pop up like
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boot here, I am bitch, here, I am bitch. Doors are
1:02:45
open. Yeah, oh ship ran open and cut the ribbon today, post
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it on the grand pull up. Damn smart you Yeah, yeah, that
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point your talk. I like that. I like that. Look at one
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look at your camera. What would you tell a kid that's out here wild?
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No guidance? I tell nothing, man, you see we this another
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thing. You're gonna tell the kid? How old is how old is he?
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Thirteen? You're gonna tell I'm gonna tell you, man, you fuck
1:03:10
out, I'm gonna tell you motherfucking thing. Man. But shit, when
1:03:15
you got to listen, what's your name, man, so wizard, it's
1:03:20
a good name. Man. If you gotta take a ship where you're going
1:03:22
exactly exactly. You see that. Yeah, but no, no, no
1:03:28
catch that don't see shit be simple, see should be powerful, but simple.
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If you gotta take a ship, man where you're going? So what's
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my job doing the community work? That don't come with it? I'man I'm
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gonna say again, Im gonna, I'm gonna if youre gona catch, i'
1:03:42
gonna seo wop catch yo. You gotta take a ship. Well, what's
1:03:45
my job? I don't know either to make sure he got a motherfucking tole
1:03:50
the bowl of ship on. M hm, that's ship. See, we
1:03:52
be trying to put too much on a younger generation. See building, they
1:03:57
will come, lead, they will follow. I'm i saying the motherfucking thing
1:04:00
to him. See what you're saying, because by nature, he gotta taking
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ship. He looking for a bathroom when when he gotta eat, He looking
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for some food. When he thurstay, He trying to drink. When he
1:04:10
called, he's trying to get warm, when he hot, he's trying to
1:04:12
get cool. When he tired, he trying to sleep. I gotta provide.
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He ain't supposed to do nothing but be a fucking kid. So what
1:04:21
you're saying is I'm gonna just represent the option. Your represent the option.
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Man, that's real, big Homi shit, that's real, big bro ship.
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I gotta take a ship. I'm going to the bathroom. Man,
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I got marble flaws in that motherfucker. Talet talks to you. What do
1:04:43
you like to do? I see what you're saying, right, that's what
1:04:48
I'm supposed to do. He instead of toilettes, he got silk. He
1:04:50
got silk shuit, silk sheets. Wiping his ass with silk. Man,
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I'm supposed to put that day though. I'm saying. When he's hungry,
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he know where to go. He go to bet that ship. Feel me
1:05:00
see what we be. We be trying to indirectly project and deflect on the
1:05:05
young homies. Know what I'm saying and tell them something. I'm not telling
1:05:09
you nothing, bro. You're gonna ask me. When you ask me,
1:05:12
I'm gonna give you then answer. But it's no nonverbal communication to the blind
1:05:15
steppers because we're doing by action. Definitely, we gotta be broil homie son.
1:05:19
You could feel get you broil homie. Yeah, man, Yeah,
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that's powerful right there. I ain't never like I never looked at it like
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that, which what do you like to do today? Want to do?
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I never looked at it. I looked at I never looked at it like
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that because I looked at it as like, I feel like the younger generation
1:05:38
watch me be destructive. Mm hmm. So it's like when I see them
1:05:43
going down that same path, I felt like I had to grab them by
1:05:45
the back of the shirt, like they worth it. Damn, you might
1:05:47
get smoked doing that. You feel we're gonna grab it wrong back shirt pulls,
1:05:50
You're gonna get you gone. I'm not talking about anybody. I'm talking
1:05:54
about the one that watched me grow up. Though. I got that respect
1:05:57
from you. Got this by example. Now, that's what it's supposed to
1:06:00
be. In order for us to break the cycle. How we gonna hold
1:06:01
accountable with this shit that ain't suposed to hold accountable? Before thirteen funk out
1:06:05
of there, I need I gotta set the tone demonstration. Demonstration, application
1:06:11
not advocation. It is application too much advocation, too much, yo yo.
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We could do this, yo, young homie, you know you could
1:06:15
do this. I wasn't here that ship. What I'm saying, I came
1:06:18
to power. I seen powerful poke somebody in the yard on some Michael Meyers
1:06:23
ship, grab him a fore by his forehead, bron Tom, and I
1:06:27
tell you don't get on the phone. Yeah, I said, oh ship,
1:06:30
y'all teach me how to do that. Man? You know what?
1:06:31
What the what's how you I'm watching? I'm emulating. See, young homies,
1:06:35
they emulate. They're not receptive. They emulate. They emulate. So
1:06:42
if you want to reach him, you gotta give him something to emulate.
1:06:45
And and what you give him to emulate needs to lead, needs to lead
1:06:49
to his elevation. Right, you gotta give him something to emulate. So
1:06:55
do mighty small, damn smartest shape he got. Oh shit, he fly?
1:06:58
Yeah, yeah, you see to lose your feet, I'm saying,
1:07:00
oh ship, small world war. They watching and watching my moves. Okay,
1:07:03
I'm working out, I'm starting these businesses. I'm then a dude just
1:07:06
watching. Start emulating. Anybody that box wonna be like this in the gym,
1:07:11
Floyd Maywell, the showder Rod, because they look at Floyd. You
1:07:14
know what I'm saying. When jay Z put button them so everybody was like
1:07:15
yo, wearing buttonoping. Everybody trying to be that little baby. Whoever they
1:07:18
listen to. They emulate, So we gotta we gotta, we gotta demonstrate
1:07:23
because they emulate, right, So we can't advocate. We have to apply,
1:07:29
and then through that we give them some inspiration and then we don't even
1:07:31
have to say nothing to them. They're gonna be righting. They're gonna be
1:07:33
going to take a ship. Like he said, I never looked at that.
1:07:41
Man. You can, you can. You can wrap it up now,
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bro, it's done. Yeah, you definitely dropped jewels. I ain't
1:07:45
gonna lie you to go now. IM not the goat man, not yet
1:07:49
existence man, everybody just goat ship man, go I'm good. That should
1:07:53
be whacked me. Man's just smart. Yeah, I'm just me. Man,
1:07:57
God, man, I don't just go, hey, yo, go
1:07:59
let's man all about that. Goat means greatest of all times. How you're
1:08:03
gonna be call You're going for yourself to go. You got so much work
1:08:05
to do. Like Michael Jordan is a goat, you know what I'm saying,
1:08:10
Greatest of all time, Muhammad Ali is a goal. Greatest of all
1:08:14
time. Sugar Ray Robinson is a goat. What I'm saying, like,
1:08:17
you gotta people be doing this turnaround two, Lo, you got way more
1:08:20
work to do before you try to taking on attributes that you ain't even put
1:08:23
the pain into to see saying yeah, will be though. Don't get hopped
1:08:28
up there. That's the fact what you do. Number one, the number
1:08:31
two before me, broil Man. That's why I'm the brail That's what i'm
1:08:36
your man. I'm the brail Man. Feel me you hear me, brail
1:08:41
Man. That yeah, I'm stealing that. I'm stealing that, broil Man.
1:08:46
Feel me man. Before we get out, Yeah, we get out
1:08:49
of there and tell people what you got going on? How can they reach
1:08:51
you? How can it be part of? Oh yeah? My number is
1:08:54
nine one seven nine zero seven three six eight seven nine one seven nine zero
1:08:59
seven three six eight seven. My website is no labels to a dot com.
1:09:02
We got the big seminar coming up August, Atlanta. Be there or
1:09:05
be nothing. My Instagram is the smart Guy underscored. They really know to
1:09:10
find me, but I'm just saying, smart guy underscore T well, the
1:09:15
smart guy underscore t h e. Smart Guy underscore everything spelled the correct way
1:09:21
nine one seven nine zero seven three six eight seven Okay. And if you
1:09:28
can't find me there, you can find me in your mama DM, Yeah,
1:09:32
how can we how can we donate to your fund raiser that you oh
1:09:35
yeah, we're gonna well, we got to hit my number, like we're
1:09:38
getting ready to. So I'm working with the Rulers podcast ever out of Philly,
1:09:43
and we you know, we like we got we got some things in
1:09:45
the work. So I haven't I haven't like started it yet, like we
1:09:49
were just making sure everything is right because we're doing aggressive fundraising, meaning like
1:09:55
two weeks the building is up, Like that's how I want to do it.
1:09:58
Because we have the highest purchasing power, like our disposable dollars is more
1:10:02
than Dubai. Like we got a lot of we got billions in the hood.
1:10:06
So so what me and the brother sat down and spoke about was how
1:10:12
do we get instant gratification in terms of change, Right, nobody wants to
1:10:17
wait twenty years for school to be built. How do we build a school
1:10:20
in twenty days? What does this look like? How do we get this
1:10:23
property in twenty days? Like everything we do, I want to do twenty
1:10:26
days, twenty day. I want to really like be aggressive in terms of
1:10:29
building because it's time. We've been waiting over four hundred years. Jesus ain't
1:10:31
coming. I'm sorry. I hate to tell it to you people. Okay,
1:10:34
so you go to Sunday, you well, blood Jesus and now we
1:10:41
fall down for we get up? Motherfucker's been. We ain't get up yet.
1:10:45
Know said you know your songs though we fall down. I'm saying it's
1:10:50
not whatever what I'm saying, but all I know what I'm saying. I'm
1:10:56
more so like, look, man, we get the fuck up right now,
1:11:00
fell down and we get up? Then when do we get up?
1:11:00
Because we always I keep seeing a fucking floor, and I know it's a
1:11:04
lot of black people tied to see the fucking floor. I gotta die to
1:11:09
get to see some white man that don't exist. And Jesus ain't even white,
1:11:12
He's black. So I gotta wait for some man to come out the
1:11:14
sky. I gotta wait till the doctor says the fun out. I can
1:11:19
go. Get it down, baby, I'm gonna be living and enjoy this
1:11:23
motherfucker ship and all my people with so you know, no, I feel
1:11:27
you when you put it together. I want to be part of it.
1:11:29
I want to donate and everything we gotta tap in man for sure, you're
1:11:31
definitely gonna keep us on. You put your number out there, so I
1:11:35
definitely got your number now for sure. So you gotta think wolf to man
1:11:40
kind kind of kind of kind of got you around the invoice. Bring the
1:11:45
best out of me trying to invoice. Man, you know, yeah,
1:11:55
you lose. Ain't cheap, man, kids ain't cheap. That's why I
1:11:59
w catch her. That's right man. Oh yeah, so look real quick,
1:12:03
so real quick before I go. Last thing, right, look,
1:12:05
whoof So you got to make sure that that that you know? I think
1:12:09
you guys should definitely should partner up right now. The advertisement game, okay,
1:12:15
the advertisement game is where it's at. Take a course, take an
1:12:18
online course and advertisement. You want to you know, and figure out how
1:12:23
to develop your pocs, your points of context. Right, it's so many
1:12:27
companies, so many brands that the world don't know about. You need,
1:12:29
you guys, need to figure out your personal ad revenue. And then you
1:12:31
set financial goals for your ad revenue. So there's a video like this,
1:12:34
you might be able to get three ads on this one video, not including
1:12:39
you know, Google, as I'm talking about your own ads where you reach
1:12:41
out to a company and says, look, yo, I'm thirsty right now,
1:12:44
you got yo, you gotta what the fuck water? You know what
1:12:47
I'm saying, And and and boom. Now that's a check. That's one
1:12:50
hundred dollars. So every video that you every every video you put out your
1:12:56
independent ads should be at least a minimum three hundred dollars. It's crazy.
1:13:00
See I was just looking at that and then and then now now every ten
1:13:04
videos you now, every ten videos, you got three thousand dollars. Now
1:13:09
you work with some people to help you allocate that capital. How do I?
1:13:12
How do I? I don't want touch that three thousand dollars. So
1:13:14
I'm gonna take one thousand, put it in the CD, put it in
1:13:16
the fund, pulling some shit that's gonna yield, right, Take another thousand,
1:13:19
put it and invest somewhere. Take another thousand and put it on AD
1:13:24
right, like you're gonna figure out how to grow your AD revenue. Because
1:13:27
he because he got it right, like this is something that's something that's here.
1:13:30
And I like the big stepper. I like it. I like to
1:13:31
disable thing, right, I like like this being that voice for those places
1:13:35
disabled. I felt like he was left in the dog. So I'm here
1:13:38
to talk. Yeah, bring us out, I think and I think I
1:13:41
think if everybody doesn't, everybody we And I said this before, I tell
1:13:45
with all this time, we got to appreciate the power of us. They
1:13:50
not like us. They not like us, definitely not. So what does
1:13:55
that mean? We got the new melan and with gods and God that's so
1:13:58
we work together. It's this ship. If you can make it, you
1:14:00
know they'd be sitting like your dude can make a billion dollars off this ship.
1:14:03
Right? You can have pod pod podcast pods right where you got you
1:14:09
know, you had to What was the big thing about the odd pod?
1:14:11
The odd pod had pre recorded songs? Right, so people are blond,
1:14:14
they need pre recorded ship. What's gonna be that what's going to be augmented
1:14:17
reality for blind people? Augmented audio? How do you augment audio? You
1:14:25
understand? How do you augment audio? These are the things you got to
1:14:29
be thinking about. Now you're talking about products. Now you're talking about hardware.
1:14:30
You got so much things that you can do, bro, So y'all
1:14:32
gotta really be tapped in and getting that creative space. And because there's gonna
1:14:36
be products that you're going to be selling through this content. It's going to
1:14:40
be services you're gonna provide through this content right now, Oh my goodness,
1:14:45
like you guys can blow the fucking little with this ship. Kids with autism,
1:14:47
dementia so much white boy like he got he got the right mentality for
1:14:50
I started working for working with him because he was telling me about all the
1:14:54
ideas he already had one day disabled people in the world clearly. Yeah,
1:14:59
so you look, look, the consumer base is high. So now what
1:15:01
you got to do is you have to divide. So you say one billion.
1:15:04
What's one billion divided by ten? Right is like you know what I
1:15:10
mean, it's like one hundred one hundred ms, right, So no,
1:15:14
think about like customers. Right. So now you look at you so you
1:15:16
gotta you break it down. You say, well, if I got this
1:15:19
consumer base, I need to divide into you're dividing the number of your streams
1:15:26
of income. So you have products, podcasts, merch services, right,
1:15:30
and then now I need to service each one of these customers. I need
1:15:34
to put them in groups, right, and then now you got a revenue
1:15:39
caount and that that's the financial goals that you're going to set for. You
1:15:42
know, scaling this this platform, and few people we talk about the Joe
1:15:46
Rogan's of the world that they're scaling in a major way. They're making three
1:15:50
hundred thousand, five hundred thousand per fucking episode. We need Seinfeld money,
1:15:56
we don't need. You know, you gotta, you gotta. That's how
1:15:58
you gotta be thinking right. And once people that look like us break into
1:16:04
that that business understanding, then we wanted to become common to be a black
1:16:11
billionaire. I want that thing to be common to like just just's just easy,
1:16:15
like yeah, that's it. Thanks for having me. Biggas just got
1:16:21
bigger yo ship. He just took it. He took it away with us.
1:16:31
Can you say behind that man, don't step in us. You're gonna
1:16:34
step big until next week, Blonde stepper, Yo it is