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An Unlikely Affair: Big Changes & Big D Energy with Chris Medina · Untraditionally Lala

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  Speaker 1: Hi, Amber, Hilelah, Welcome to an unlikely affair. Hi, everybody,
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  Speaker 1: welcome back to an unlikely affair.
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  Speaker 2: Hello Amber Childers, Hi, I am on a hundred. I
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  Speaker 2: don't think you need any more coffee. Oh I'm having
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  Speaker 2: more coffee because I'm on a freaking high. I love
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  Speaker 2: the synergy though, you do it. Huh. So I'm freshly
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  Speaker 2: back from Mexico. I'm so happy to be here with Amber.
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  Speaker 2: She was the one who greeted me at the front
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  Speaker 2: door when I got back to La. The house was chaotic,
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  Speaker 2: my mother was crying. He was a mess. All good things.
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  Speaker 2: But the reason why this morning or day is so
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  Speaker 2: exciting is because I have one of my most favorite
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  Speaker 2: people on the planet, Chris Medina. You guys know him
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  Speaker 2: as the person who literally warned me about my life
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  Speaker 2: but has been a rock for me for the past
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  Speaker 2: what five years? Chris. Yeah, anytime I'm in a spiral,
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  Speaker 2: I text him and say I'm an a spiral. So welcome.
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  Speaker 2: We're so excited to have you.
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  Speaker 3: Thank you for having me. I missed you so much
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  Speaker 3: and I can't believe you're here after your Mexico trip.
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  Speaker 2: Oh honey, this is sobriety, baby, good for you. We
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  Speaker 2: land and we hit the ground running.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, yes, don't wait, yeah we do.
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  Speaker 2: So Amber found out that you and I were close,
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  Speaker 2: and she was like, I would die to have him
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  Speaker 2: on the podcast. I was like, let's freaking do it.
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  Speaker 2: So can you talk us through like the way that
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  Speaker 2: you do things? And then I'm sure Amber has questions.
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  Speaker 2: I always have questions, but like, what how do you
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  Speaker 2: tap in and do your thing when you meet with people?
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  Speaker 3: I guess I mean, you see how I do it.
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  Speaker 3: I just go right in. There's no tarot cards, there's
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  Speaker 3: no crystals, It's just pure psychic energy. So the way
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  Speaker 3: that I like to work is being able to I
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  Speaker 3: love nothing more than to predict a fruitful feature or somebody.
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  Speaker 3: But let's be realistic here. I mean, in order to
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  Speaker 3: get there, we have to remove those roadblocks that are
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  Speaker 3: in your way. So that's where I like to start.
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  Speaker 3: What's in your way from preventing you from the life
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  Speaker 3: that you want to have. Let's tackle that. Get that
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  Speaker 3: out of the fucking way so we can move forward.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, what good does it do? I can tell
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  Speaker 3: you you're going to have all this great stuff come
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  Speaker 3: into play, and if you're not feeling it or your
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  Speaker 3: mental's not there, How are you going to get there?
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  Speaker 2: You know? True?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, and I don't. I'm probably gonna get a lot
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  Speaker 3: of shit for this, but I don't like to use
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  Speaker 3: the word. Manifesto is another word for like wishful thinking. Okay,
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  Speaker 3: I'm all about action and making things happen. Why wish
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  Speaker 3: for things to come into play? When the accountability and
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  Speaker 3: responsibility is in your hands, you go after it, don't
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  Speaker 3: sit there and wait for it to fall in your lap. Wow.
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  Speaker 2: And I feel like I'm such a manifestor So.
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  Speaker 3: It's one thing. No, it's one thing. It's one thing
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  Speaker 3: to manifest and really go after it, like like you,
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  Speaker 3: I'm not just saying that's to kiss your ass. But
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  Speaker 3: if you're sitting there too, yeah for sure. But to
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  Speaker 3: sit there, you know, with the vision boards and I
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  Speaker 3: hope for things to come in actively go out there
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  Speaker 3: and make it happen. That's the difference.
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  Speaker 2: Nothing is just going to fall in your lap. And
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  Speaker 2: Amber and I both went into this new year, I
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  Speaker 2: think in a very different headspace. Usually I have a
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  Speaker 2: tremendous amount of anxiety going into a new year because
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  Speaker 2: I panic about all of the things that I need
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  Speaker 2: to do and it almost becomes suffocating and I just
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  Speaker 2: want to take a nap and hibernate for the rest
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  Speaker 2: of the year. This is the first year that I
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  Speaker 2: was like, I feel so much peace, and I find
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  Speaker 2: that I for so long, and I think people who
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  Speaker 2: watch me on TV would think that what I'm about
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  Speaker 2: to say is not true because I do face confrontation.
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  Speaker 2: And it's the one thing I actually love about doing
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  Speaker 2: reality TV is you pick every battle, right, Yeah, because
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  Speaker 2: we're making a television show. In real life, I pick
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  Speaker 2: my battles, but it comes at the cost of me
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  Speaker 2: compromising my boundaries for the sake of making someone else
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  Speaker 2: feel okay, and I'm so fucking over it. I almost
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  Speaker 2: become a background character in my own life, and I'm like,
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  Speaker 2: I'm not doing that. Like we can have productive conversations,
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  Speaker 2: move the roadblocks, like you were saying, and we're just
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  Speaker 2: very hopeful for the year. So I would like, Amber,
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  Speaker 2: if you have any questions for Chris, because you just
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  Speaker 2: moved to Montana.
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  Speaker 4: There's a lot that is unsure. Yeah, there's a lot
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  Speaker 4: that's unsure. I was just telling you this morning. It's
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  Speaker 4: like I moved to Montana thinking I was going to
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  Speaker 4: take a year off and just like chill right, and
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  Speaker 4: then we decided to do this podcast, and so much
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  Speaker 4: came about and it's.
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  Speaker 2: Like I could either fight it right or you could
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  Speaker 2: just like go.
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  Speaker 4: On the path that for me, my higher power has
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  Speaker 4: me on, so I don't have any questions, but I
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  Speaker 4: would just I want him just to be able to
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  Speaker 4: read her like a.
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  Speaker 3: Book, you guys, And every psychic's going to say this
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  Speaker 3: with the top of the new year, but you know,
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  Speaker 3: I like to keep it real. And I'm finally glad
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  Speaker 3: that you're saying what you're saying now because you're getting
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  Speaker 3: sick and tired of the bullshit what I'm saying, like,
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  Speaker 3: I think your problem with what it's always been is
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  Speaker 3: that you are an overthinkery. You like to plan your
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  Speaker 3: steps three or four steps ahead, plan your yeah, three
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  Speaker 3: or four steps ahead, and that gets to you instead
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  Speaker 3: of realizing your fucking lalla, chill the fuck out, take
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  Speaker 3: a step back. The world isn't going to stop spinning
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  Speaker 3: because you know you're excited or whatever the case may be. Here, Chill, Okay,
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  Speaker 3: I've got this, Okay, So I think for you, it's
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  Speaker 3: about coming into not necessarily a new identity, but a
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  Speaker 3: new way of thinking. And remember, I don't care what
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  Speaker 3: anybody says. The nice guy always finishes last, you know
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  Speaker 3: what I'm saying, Like, it's great that we want to
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  Speaker 3: help our fellow neighbor, we want to help our brother,
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  Speaker 3: we want to help our sister and all this other shit.
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  Speaker 3: But you can't help anybody if you can't help yourself
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  Speaker 3: and your back is fucking tired from carrying all the
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  Speaker 3: extra weight. Yeah, so I'm glad to hear you say that. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: you know that. I feel good. You know, I'm going
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  Speaker 3: to put myself first, these strong, hardcore boundaries between you
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  Speaker 3: and everybody else and not being the doormat because again
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  Speaker 3: we've talked about that Virgo energy to people.
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  Speaker 2: Pleaser, Yeah, what is your what is your sign again? Cancer? Cancer?
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  Speaker 3: Oh? I love cancer?
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  Speaker 2: What do you love about cancer?
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  Speaker 3: Uh? I like the fact that they're pretty easy going,
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  Speaker 3: They've got great sense of humor. They're obviously very emotional,
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  Speaker 3: but very funny. They kind of worry the same way
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  Speaker 3: a Virgo would, but they're more emotional worry if that
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  Speaker 3: make sense. Like they they will uh hold things back
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  Speaker 3: or or pick up on the end. You gotta be careful.
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  Speaker 3: They got to be careful when around other people, especially.
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  Speaker 2: If you're sensitive around other people.
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  Speaker 4: I pick energy up like it's it's I'm such an
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  Speaker 4: impath if it's almost to my detriment. Sometimes I wish
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  Speaker 4: I wasn't so like, Wow, that person has some fucked
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  Speaker 4: up energy. I gotta stay away, or I'm so attracted
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  Speaker 4: to someone that yeah, I don't, I don't know.
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  Speaker 3: Yeahh I think that it's a good combination with you
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  Speaker 3: and Laala because Lala has that uh, go get or
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  Speaker 3: type attitude, you know, let's fuck it, fuck what everybody says,
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  Speaker 3: let's just let's go do it or whatever. And I
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  Speaker 3: think you you are coming into a different identity this year,
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  Speaker 3: so you're being forced out of your comfort zone, out
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  Speaker 3: of your shell to do things that you wouldn't normally do.
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  Speaker 3: But it's wrong for me to say this, but I
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  Speaker 3: feel like you're ready. Does that make sense? Yeah, you're ready.
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  Speaker 3: But I want you to think about this how you're
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  Speaker 3: going about doing it, because this isn't just about one
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  Speaker 3: simple chance here. This is going out and making a
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  Speaker 3: difference the way that you want to. You're grown, you're
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  Speaker 3: an adult. You don't have to fear anything. Anymore. You know,
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  Speaker 3: whatever was going on before, that's the past. Let's let
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  Speaker 3: it go, let's move forward, Let's put ourselves in a
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  Speaker 3: different space. I think you're dying for a new identity.
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  Speaker 3: I think you're dying to shed that old skin and
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  Speaker 3: not let it reattach itself to you and keep tripping
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  Speaker 3: you up. And also too, there's a little bit of
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  Speaker 3: fear in your face too. What I mean by that,
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  Speaker 3: I'm not saying that you're afraid of me or the
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  Speaker 3: situation there, But don't second guess yourself and don't question it.
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  Speaker 3: Does that make sense? That's what I feel. I feel
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  Speaker 3: again to say that you're to say you're in a
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  Speaker 3: different space when I you know, I know you, but
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  Speaker 3: I don't know you all that well. But I think
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  Speaker 3: it's time for you to start making your mark, start
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  Speaker 3: putting yourself out there, start taking the reins of your
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  Speaker 3: own life and writing in a direction that works for
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  Speaker 3: you rather than what's been expected of you or what's
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  Speaker 3: been expected of you because of what you've been going through.
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  Speaker 3: You know what I'm talking about? Yeah, what do you
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  Speaker 3: think about that?
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  Speaker 2: You know what? Yeah?
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  Speaker 4: I think that for me, I feel like I'm I'm
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  Speaker 4: shedding or last year, I did a lot of that, right,
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  Speaker 4: I did a lot of shedding, and I'm like, I
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  Speaker 4: want to propel myself forward, but there is that little
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  Speaker 4: bit of like hesitation because it's so there's so much
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  Speaker 4: vulnerability in like really exposing yourself in a way that's
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  Speaker 4: like being authentic, right.
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  Speaker 3: But that's what makes you real though, Is that vulnerability,
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  Speaker 3: is that I'm going to be truthful about Yes, I
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  Speaker 3: want this new identity, I want this new life, I
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  Speaker 3: want these new goals, i want these new opportunities there.
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  Speaker 3: But I'm also very vulnerable and I feel too much.
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  Speaker 3: That's fine, that's fine that you can admit that and
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  Speaker 3: say that this is where you're at right now. Don't
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  Speaker 3: change that part of you, because that's what makes you you.
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  Speaker 3: So again, moving forward, I think again one more time.
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  Speaker 3: I think that you're more ready than you realize. You
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  Speaker 3: got to decide once and for all. Let me back
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  Speaker 3: up here. It's been a shit show since August first
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  Speaker 3: for me, like between August first and now as far
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  Speaker 3: as like new downloads or information, the way that I
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  Speaker 3: do my readings here, And one of the biggest things
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  Speaker 3: was intention and if you are really if you're really
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  Speaker 3: ready to go in a different direction and reclaim the
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  Speaker 3: reins of life here. Do not let yourself talk yourself
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  Speaker 3: out of it. Do not put yourself in a bad
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  Speaker 3: mood or start to think a certain way to you
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  Speaker 3: know what I'm saying to kind of tone that energy down,
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  Speaker 3: because I can talk long shit all day long about
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  Speaker 3: I want to go out there someone I want to
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  Speaker 3: be this authority figure. And then when I go somebody
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  Speaker 3: like I'm not saying that you're weak, but somebody like
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  Speaker 3: you that's a little on the emotional side will tug
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  Speaker 3: out my heart strings and make me want to tone
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  Speaker 3: it down a little bit more.
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  Speaker 2: Right, right, that makes sense.
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  Speaker 4: I think like one of the things I've been really
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  Speaker 4: working on in my life is is people use this
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  Speaker 4: word safety, and it's such bullshit.
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  Speaker 2: I don't want to be safe anymore.
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  Speaker 4: Safety being safe in a relationship, being safe in my career,
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  Speaker 4: being safe and emotional. Whatever has kept me small, just
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  Speaker 4: kept me hidden. So it's like anytime I get in
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  Speaker 4: my head and I'm like, oh, I don't know, Like,
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  Speaker 4: it's like no.
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  Speaker 3: Fuck safety, fuck it, I'm gonna fuck with you, fuck
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  Speaker 3: with her. How come? Why is that every time that
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  Speaker 3: you say I knew I should have done that. Fuck,
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  Speaker 3: I knew I shouldn't have held myself back. I knew
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  Speaker 3: I should have said that after the fact. Start paying
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  Speaker 3: attention to your intuition in the way that it's guiding you.
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  Speaker 3: If you start, you got to learn the difference between
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  Speaker 3: and I've been saying this for the last six months,
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  Speaker 3: the difference between anxiety and being excited about something, because
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  Speaker 3: we have been and I'll sit with you on this
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  Speaker 3: one too, we've been very emotional behind the scenes and
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  Speaker 3: kind of nobody sees us the extra vulnerable side of us,
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  Speaker 3: and we always think that when we get excited about
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  Speaker 3: something it's anxiety because of the way that we've been
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  Speaker 3: living our lives. And my guides have come in and
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  Speaker 3: told me over the last over the last couple of months,
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  Speaker 3: you're not anxious. You're not worried about shit. Nothing's coming
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  Speaker 3: to get you. You're in a different spot here. This
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  Speaker 3: is you looking forward to changes, things that are that
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  Speaker 3: are opportunities and things that are coming into play. Know
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  Speaker 3: the difference. Same thing with you. You have to know the
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  Speaker 3: difference between anxiety and excitement and not talk yourself out
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  Speaker 3: of it, because again, you you as much as you
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  Speaker 3: have that vulnerable side to you and that little it's
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  Speaker 3: not weak, it's it's it's we'll use vulnerable. You also
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  Speaker 3: got a temper on you too, And when I'm seeing
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  Speaker 3: the temper, but have the phrase I want you to
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  Speaker 3: call bullshit on this. Don't let me say it if
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  Speaker 3: it's not true, but that when we talk about your temper,
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  Speaker 3: it's that resentment that you could have towards yourself or
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  Speaker 3: the situation that you get irritated with afterwards. If you're
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  Speaker 3: going to use that, I would use that to fuel
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  Speaker 3: me to go in that direction here, to stay strong
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  Speaker 3: and not go backwards. Because you will be tested this year.
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  Speaker 3: And nobody likes to hear the word test or lessons
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  Speaker 3: but you because you're you're entering a different identity, a
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  Speaker 3: different phase of your life. It's time to start coming
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  Speaker 3: out here. You will be tested. Don't go backwards. So
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  Speaker 3: I'm giving you the cheat code here. Yes, you will
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  Speaker 3: be tested. Hang tough, Okay, Yeah, what do you think
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  Speaker 3: about all that? No?
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  Speaker 2: I like that. I think the word like temper, I
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  Speaker 2: mean I do.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, I definitely get angry, and I think I have
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  Speaker 4: one of the big things that I've had to work
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  Speaker 4: through in the last probably three years, is a lot
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  Speaker 4: of anger that I was actually, you know, trying to
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  Speaker 4: push down. And I think one of the things is
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  Speaker 4: like in my journey of sobriety and not using tranquilizers
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  Speaker 4: or alcohol to like suppress that anger down. Now I'm
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  Speaker 4: really having to face it, and I finally am feeling
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  Speaker 4: it and like processing it and like throwing it out
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  Speaker 4: and discarding it and then journaling, and so I think
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  Speaker 4: that that's, you know, that's definitely appropriate. I definitely had
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  Speaker 4: a lot of anger from you know, my from my
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  Speaker 4: twenties that I never processed, and now I finally have,
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  Speaker 4: you know, started taking those steps to do it.
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  Speaker 2: And it's a huge difference. It's like shedding, right, just
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  Speaker 2: shedding all that.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, don't make any excuses for it either. If you're
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  Speaker 3: feeling angry. I mean, I know you're gonna think I psycho.
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  Speaker 3: I tell people the shit all the time. But when
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  Speaker 3: I'm in a bad mood or I feel like I
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  Speaker 3: want to mess something up, I have a punching bag
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  Speaker 3: in the backyard. I'll go out there and beat the
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  Speaker 3: shit out of it. Because if I do not let
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  Speaker 3: that anger out or that aggression, I'll hold it, I'll
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  Speaker 3: hold it in and God for a bit. If I
• 13:03
  Speaker 3: go to the store and some dumb fuck you know
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  Speaker 3: it hits me with a card or it's too close,
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  Speaker 3: I'm gonna snap.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah right, yeah.
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  Speaker 3: So and then also with the emotional stuff too. You
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  Speaker 3: don't need to cry every day, but if you're feeling
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  Speaker 3: some type of way, don't hold that back. You've got
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  Speaker 3: to retrain your mind into this new way of looking
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  Speaker 3: at things. Am I really Am I really sad here?
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  Speaker 3: Or am I going back to what I know because
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  Speaker 3: it's what I've known for fucking years?
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  Speaker 4: Well one of yeah, and I completely agree. One of
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  Speaker 4: the things that I've really been working on is like,
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  Speaker 4: when I'm feeling angry, of feeling only.
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  Speaker 2: Last ninety seconds.
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  Speaker 4: So what's going to keep that feeling alive is the
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  Speaker 4: story that we're going to replay that made that feeling
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  Speaker 4: come up. So it's like you're done replaying these stories.
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  Speaker 4: Now you're making new stories that are going to bring
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  Speaker 4: you excitement, you know, joy, happiness, and so it's just
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  Speaker 4: like sitting with sitting with those feelings.
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  Speaker 2: I think there's one thing that really resonated with me,
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  Speaker 2: and you said this, I think on our very first episode,
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  Speaker 2: and she said she was talking about acting and her
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  Speaker 2: loving the stories and said, my story is just as
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  Speaker 2: important as these stories. And I said your story is
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  Speaker 2: the most important, and she looked at me kind of shocked,
• 14:23
  Speaker 2: like my story is important, Like Amber grew up in
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  Speaker 2: the arts, and correct me if I'm speaking for you.
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  Speaker 2: This is just what I've gathered and based off of
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  Speaker 2: what Chris is saying that for so many years, since
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  Speaker 2: you were a child, you put all of your emotions
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  Speaker 2: into reading a script and portraying a character and that
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  Speaker 2: was your outlet of like feeling. And the game has
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  Speaker 2: shifted right, like reality TV has really made its mark,
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  Speaker 2: and she's been in this for so long that there
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  Speaker 2: was such a separation. You were an actress, which was
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  Speaker 2: very prestigious, and like people who did reality it was like, oh,
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  Speaker 2: bottom feeders. And now the world's are kind of colliding.
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  Speaker 2: And Amber has found herself in a place where she's
• 15:06
  Speaker 2: doing this podcast. She's the main fucking character. Her story
• 15:10
  Speaker 2: is important. And I find that you are embracing that
• 15:14
  Speaker 2: that what you have to say, not taking on another character,
• 15:18
  Speaker 2: but you really going how do I feel in this moment?
• 15:21
  Speaker 2: What do I want out of life? And I think
• 15:24
  Speaker 2: that that can be very intense. Yeah, it's yeah, But
• 15:28
  Speaker 2: when I talked to Garry on the phone, like Amber
• 15:31
  Speaker 2: is my fucking rock. There have been moments this year.
• 15:34
  Speaker 2: We're not even through January, we just freaking started. I
• 15:36
  Speaker 2: was like, this was not the game plan. I went
• 15:39
  Speaker 2: into this year in peace. What the fuck is happening?
• 15:42
  Speaker 2: And I call her and I'm like, I'm full spiral, dude,
• 15:44
  Speaker 2: and she's like, we already talked about what we're doing.
• 15:47
  Speaker 2: We're making fucking moves. We don't give a shit, We're
• 15:50
  Speaker 2: not afraid. Yeah, And I'm like, you're right, what's funck
• 15:56
  Speaker 2: shit up? And she like gets me off. Kind of
• 16:00
  Speaker 2: that's a.
• 16:00
  Speaker 3: Cancer loyal as hell. They're the ones that kind of
• 16:03
  Speaker 3: stabilize I live with a cancer. Jay's a cancer.
• 16:05
  Speaker 2: Yes, they're wonderful, they are. I love a cancer. But
• 16:08
  Speaker 2: I'm noticing that she is embracing everything you're telling her
• 16:13
  Speaker 2: to do. I am finding that you are validating what
• 16:16
  Speaker 2: is happening with you a hund percent.
• 16:17
  Speaker 3: Yeah, Yeah, it's time.
• 16:20
  Speaker 2: Where do you see her love life going? By the way, Oh,
• 16:22
  Speaker 2: does she need some time? I find she needs some time? Chris?
• 16:25
  Speaker 2: What does time mean?
• 16:26
  Speaker 3: I don't have You don't know. I'm thirty seven, Jesus,
• 16:33
  Speaker 3: I'm speaking specifically to This is not a general statement
• 16:35
  Speaker 3: blanketed for everybody else. This is for you. I think
• 16:38
  Speaker 3: over planning or overthinking the situation is where you get
• 16:41
  Speaker 3: tripped up. I'd love to see you get involved in
• 16:43
  Speaker 3: a relationship where it's authentic, it comes out of nowhere,
• 16:46
  Speaker 3: catches you off guard. Does that make sense? That way?
• 16:49
  Speaker 3: You're not prepared for You don't You're not looking for
• 16:51
  Speaker 3: a way to act with that person. So I think
• 16:53
  Speaker 3: you need real right for you. I say this to
• 16:55
  Speaker 3: my clients too. You need real life examples in real
• 16:58
  Speaker 3: time to show you what you've learned over the last
• 17:00
  Speaker 3: few years. Am I really talking shit as a defense mechanism?
• 17:03
  Speaker 3: Or am I talking shit because I'm sick of the
• 17:04
  Speaker 3: ship that I've been in here and I'm ready to
• 17:06
  Speaker 3: make moves two totally different things. I think that part
• 17:09
  Speaker 3: of you, because you like to play it safe, is
• 17:11
  Speaker 3: a little worried, you know, like, oh my god, am
• 17:13
  Speaker 3: I making the right moves here? Am I doing all
• 17:15
  Speaker 3: this stuff here? Which is normal? But I think that
• 17:17
  Speaker 3: in order for you to prove that to yourself, you
• 17:18
  Speaker 3: got to get out there and do it. And I
• 17:20
  Speaker 3: think that's what the universe is going to show you
• 17:21
  Speaker 3: this year. With the support of it. You were the
• 17:24
  Speaker 3: one holding yourself back. You could you could have gone
• 17:26
  Speaker 3: in any fucking time that you wanted to go. You
• 17:29
  Speaker 3: were caught up in your feelings and your emotions. You
• 17:30
  Speaker 3: were on your pity pot, not because you were forced
• 17:32
  Speaker 3: to sit there, but because it's unfair. It's unfair that
• 17:36
  Speaker 3: I have to have all this year. Well, everybody gets
• 17:38
  Speaker 3: to be blissfully, blissfully ignorant and go on about their lives,
• 17:42
  Speaker 3: but I'm stuck thinking about my fucking situation.
• 17:46
  Speaker 2: Yeah, like a caged animal.
• 17:47
  Speaker 3: Yeah, you don't have to. You don't have to. And
• 17:50
  Speaker 3: that's the part is you've got a lot of what
• 17:52
  Speaker 3: is it pride you got? You got a lot of it.
• 17:55
  Speaker 3: And it's not that you're you're you're overly prideful there,
• 17:57
  Speaker 3: but you are not going to display yourself in a
• 18:00
  Speaker 3: way that makes you look overly vulnerable or invite people
• 18:03
  Speaker 3: in to have a conversation about shit that you don't
• 18:05
  Speaker 3: want to talk about. Does that make sense or am
• 18:08
  Speaker 3: I going somewhere else.
• 18:08
  Speaker 2: With it makes sense?
• 18:10
  Speaker 3: So I again, for you, I think this is a
• 18:13
  Speaker 3: really good year for you to put one foot in
• 18:15
  Speaker 3: front of the other, really let the past go and
• 18:17
  Speaker 3: put yourself in a different light, both professionally and personally.
• 18:20
  Speaker 3: It's time. I want you to understand that. I want
• 18:22
  Speaker 3: you to feel that. And again, it's wrong for me
• 18:24
  Speaker 3: to say that, because I don't have to live your life.
• 18:26
  Speaker 3: But if from a psychic level, you've been ready for
• 18:28
  Speaker 3: the last couple of years, and you might fight me
• 18:30
  Speaker 3: on that because you're like, there were so many things
• 18:32
  Speaker 3: that were going on there. Yeah, but that was an
• 18:34
  Speaker 3: excuse and a backdrop to keep you from moving forward.
• 18:38
  Speaker 3: You kept yourself still. And now again, learn the difference
• 18:40
  Speaker 3: between anxiety and excitement, because there's a lot of great
• 18:42
  Speaker 3: things to be excited for this year, especially as we
• 18:45
  Speaker 3: started getting into the summer months. Okay, and you just
• 18:48
  Speaker 3: moved to Montana, I.
• 18:50
  Speaker 4: Did, and I like it.
• 18:51
  Speaker 2: I love it. I do.
• 18:53
  Speaker 4: There's definitely some things about la I miss, like the food.
• 18:56
  Speaker 3: Yeah, but while you're there. I moved to Oregon back
• 19:01
  Speaker 3: in twenty eleven and stayed there till twenty seventeen. It
• 19:04
  Speaker 3: was a lot slower paced that people were like three
• 19:06
  Speaker 3: years behind, you know, but allowed me to catch up
• 19:08
  Speaker 3: to myself this So this could be a really good
• 19:10
  Speaker 3: time for you to kind of hunker down, go within,
• 19:13
  Speaker 3: and really cleanse yourself through with it. With that clean air,
• 19:15
  Speaker 3: there's no La bullshit going on there. You're able to
• 19:17
  Speaker 3: relax and breathe and just be on your own there.
• 19:19
  Speaker 3: I would use that time wisely to disinfect everything that
• 19:22
  Speaker 3: you've been through and start making your way towards yourself
• 19:25
  Speaker 3: this year.
• 19:25
  Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean, that's exactly what I was telling Lula
• 19:27
  Speaker 4: this morning. It's like, you know, I don't know where
• 19:30
  Speaker 4: if I'm going to be.
• 19:31
  Speaker 2: I don't know if I'm going to.
• 19:31
  Speaker 4: Be there, you know, for the rest of the year.
• 19:34
  Speaker 4: I don't know if I'm moving back to La. I
• 19:35
  Speaker 4: don't know where my life is, but for right now
• 19:38
  Speaker 4: being in Montana. I had never been to Montana before.
• 19:41
  Speaker 4: I went there in June to visit my sister, and
• 19:43
  Speaker 4: when I got there, I was like, I.
• 19:46
  Speaker 2: Don't know why I need to be here.
• 19:48
  Speaker 4: I literally packed my shit and I moved to Montana.
• 19:51
  Speaker 4: I picked up Riley from sleep away Camp and I'm like,
• 19:53
  Speaker 4: guess what, We're moving to Montana.
• 19:54
  Speaker 3: You know, I don't need to cut you off, and
• 19:56
  Speaker 3: you know what's there the mountains. Yes, you know what mountains, repper,
• 20:00
  Speaker 3: I'm Native American. It's strength, Oh, it's strength, and it's
• 20:04
  Speaker 3: making sure that you're standing still, you're not letting anything
• 20:07
  Speaker 3: push you or move you, and you're surrounded by all
• 20:09
  Speaker 3: that great energy. That's why you're trying. You're a fucking cancer.
• 20:13
  Speaker 3: Don't question that. If it feels good and I feel
• 20:15
  Speaker 3: at peace here, I know that's all you need to know.
• 20:18
  Speaker 4: Yeah, when I went to Montana, I was just like,
• 20:21
  Speaker 4: and I always thought I was a beach girl. I
• 20:23
  Speaker 4: was like, I want to be naked on the beach
• 20:24
  Speaker 4: and hanging out and running in the water. And then
• 20:26
  Speaker 4: I got to you know, Montana or was freezing. People
• 20:29
  Speaker 4: thought it was fucking crazy. They're like, you're not going
• 20:31
  Speaker 4: to survive. And I'm like, whether I survive a year
• 20:35
  Speaker 4: or eight, whatever it is my soul.
• 20:38
  Speaker 3: Do it. Yeah, let me do it. Let me experience
• 20:41
  Speaker 3: without putting all this negativity on it.
• 20:43
  Speaker 2: And I find that you have so much drive since
• 20:45
  Speaker 2: you've been there, because, like you said, LA can make
• 20:48
  Speaker 2: you feel like hands are around your neck because you
• 20:51
  Speaker 2: do take on the energy of this city, which is
• 20:53
  Speaker 2: a lot of desperation. But then you also have the
• 20:56
  Speaker 2: other people who are thriving in this city. So then
• 20:59
  Speaker 2: that makes you be yourself up like you're a lazy fuck,
• 21:02
  Speaker 2: and it's it's a lot to take on. And once
• 21:07
  Speaker 2: you moved to Montana, I loved the shift because you
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: felt grounded, like you could take a moment to breathe.
• 21:16
  Speaker 2: And then you and now she travels here all the time,
• 21:19
  Speaker 2: but it's like she flies out and she's she's here
• 21:22
  Speaker 2: with a purpose. We do what we need to do,
• 21:25
  Speaker 2: and then you go back and you get regrounded, and
• 21:27
  Speaker 2: who knows where your path is going? Do I see
• 21:31
  Speaker 2: you being there forever? No? But the timing is right
• 21:34
  Speaker 2: mmm mm hmmm hmm, don't you think one hundred percent?
• 21:37
  Speaker 4: Because before I moved to Montana, we we hadn't decided
• 21:41
  Speaker 4: that we were even going to do the podcast yet,
• 21:42
  Speaker 4: so I had no intentions, and I was like, oh
• 21:45
  Speaker 4: my gosh, Okay, we're gonna We're gonna just do this.
• 21:48
  Speaker 2: I'm not gonna question it. I'm just gonna fucking do it.
• 21:50
  Speaker 3: You want to still do the acting too and everything?
• 21:52
  Speaker 2: Yeah, Well that I that's my lives in her bones.
• 21:55
  Speaker 3: Well, let me tell you, I don't know how you
• 21:57
  Speaker 3: feel about this. And I don't know what your plans are.
• 21:58
  Speaker 3: I'm just like it. You tell me how it's into
• 22:00
  Speaker 3: your life here. But by the end of March going
• 22:02
  Speaker 3: into April, I would start. I would that that is
• 22:04
  Speaker 3: a time where you're getting calls or your networking with people,
• 22:09
  Speaker 3: things are things are starting to come into fruition to
• 22:11
  Speaker 3: have you ready by summer of this year. So I
• 22:12
  Speaker 3: don't know what type of meetings you've been having, or
• 22:14
  Speaker 3: if you've had agents or your managers coming in talking
• 22:17
  Speaker 3: about what's next year, But as we get into March
• 22:19
  Speaker 3: going to April, that is a really good time to
• 22:21
  Speaker 3: showcase yourself. Does that makes sense? So you're coming into
• 22:26
  Speaker 3: a different identity and we'll talk about your power and
• 22:29
  Speaker 3: how you want to and how you want to flex it.
• 22:31
  Speaker 3: You're never going to be someone that's going to be
• 22:32
  Speaker 3: overly aggressive, so don't worry about that. Don't think for
• 22:35
  Speaker 3: other people, think for yourself. It's a good it's it's
• 22:38
  Speaker 3: going to be a good look for you. I'm telling
• 22:40
  Speaker 3: you right now, if you play your cards right and
• 22:41
  Speaker 3: you really accept this new identity and what the universe
• 22:44
  Speaker 3: is offering you, I'm telling you right now, the next
• 22:46
  Speaker 3: two years will be good for you as far as
• 22:47
  Speaker 3: like you know, re re revitalizing your the material side
• 22:51
  Speaker 3: of life, like your money, your your home life. Maybe
• 22:53
  Speaker 3: maybe you start feeling more at peace with the kids
• 22:55
  Speaker 3: and what you're doing at home. Here this is really
• 22:57
  Speaker 3: meant to evolve you from within our along with the
• 23:00
  Speaker 3: beautiful opportunities that are coming into play. I'm not sugarcoating anything.
• 23:03
  Speaker 3: I'm not telling you what you want to hear. It's
• 23:05
  Speaker 3: written all over your face. But first and foremost, get
• 23:07
  Speaker 3: rid of that insecurity and fear and go get it.
• 23:09
  Speaker 3: If you have to amp yourself up by pretending to
• 23:11
  Speaker 3: be a character you are an actress. I would use
• 23:14
  Speaker 3: that for a little bit, just till you can take
• 23:18
  Speaker 3: the training wheels off and go forward. I love that,
• 23:20
  Speaker 3: But you got I'm telling you right now, don't let
• 23:22
  Speaker 3: anybody come in here and tell you, oh, it's going
• 23:24
  Speaker 3: to take two years until this thing comes into fruition,
• 23:27
  Speaker 3: or you need to wait for this. No.
• 23:29
  Speaker 4: No, I was just saying that to her yesterday. I
• 23:32
  Speaker 4: was like, I'm not I'm not.
• 23:34
  Speaker 3: No, go get it wild And you got a virgo
• 23:38
  Speaker 3: too right next to you that she can Their energy
• 23:42
  Speaker 3: could be a little bit too much at times because
• 23:44
  Speaker 3: you can pick up on the not scatteredness, but the thinking.
• 23:48
  Speaker 3: Their mind never shuts off. But they're great motivators to
• 23:51
  Speaker 3: be like Chris, Chris Amber, get off your fucking emotional
• 23:54
  Speaker 3: asses and go do something. Get up and do something.
• 23:57
  Speaker 2: Ah, that's you, Hi, it's funny. So I had scorpio rising.
• 24:02
  Speaker 2: Oh yeah, that's a lot.
• 24:04
  Speaker 3: Oh.
• 24:04
  Speaker 2: The two are in constant conflict with each other.
• 24:06
  Speaker 4: I met I had someone tell me that my significant
• 24:11
  Speaker 4: other that I need to go. This is like before
• 24:12
  Speaker 4: we did the podcast that my partner was going to
• 24:17
  Speaker 4: be a virgo. Maybe they met you. Oh my gosh,
• 24:21
  Speaker 4: I love It wasn't going to be a man, it
• 24:23
  Speaker 4: was going to be you.
• 24:25
  Speaker 2: Is that crazy? Yeah? I feel like that is. We
• 24:28
  Speaker 2: are partners, You're Soulmatemates come in so many different forms.
• 24:33
  Speaker 3: Yeah, now to jump to you, You've got some really
• 24:45
  Speaker 3: good stuff coming into play this year.
• 24:47
  Speaker 2: As far as tell me more, Chris, I needed to
• 24:49
  Speaker 2: hear this. I think when.
• 24:52
  Speaker 3: We talk about your identity, I think that with all
• 24:55
  Speaker 3: these new opportunities that are coming into play here, you
• 24:57
  Speaker 3: got to watch for the pitfall. I said this a
• 24:59
  Speaker 3: little bit with her not falling back and repeating old patterns.
• 25:02
  Speaker 3: Does that make sense? We went to a Grand fille.
• 25:05
  Speaker 3: We had a three hour dinner by ourselves, and I
• 25:08
  Speaker 3: fucking loved it.
• 25:09
  Speaker 2: I did too. You.
• 25:11
  Speaker 3: I told you a lot of things about your career
• 25:13
  Speaker 3: and what not to settle for and what to look
• 25:15
  Speaker 3: out for and things like that.
• 25:16
  Speaker 2: Yep.
• 25:17
  Speaker 3: I'm not saying that you're back peddling in any way,
• 25:19
  Speaker 3: shape or form. But I think sometimes that you don't.
• 25:22
  Speaker 3: Sometimes you don't realize. You realize your beauty and you
• 25:25
  Speaker 3: realize the effect that you have on people by what
• 25:26
  Speaker 3: you do. But I don't think sometimes you realize your
• 25:28
  Speaker 3: own power. And that's also wrong for me to say,
• 25:31
  Speaker 3: because I'm not you as powerful as you come across,
• 25:33
  Speaker 3: there's still that there's a little bit of that fear
• 25:35
  Speaker 3: in there. I need to be everybody. I need to
• 25:37
  Speaker 3: be everything to everybody right now. You need to be
• 25:40
  Speaker 3: that to yourself and really step into that power. This
• 25:43
  Speaker 3: is when we talk about that. We're talking about balance
• 25:45
  Speaker 3: in the form of obviously more material success, but also
• 25:49
  Speaker 3: in the form of relationships. You need balance. You are
• 25:52
  Speaker 3: somebody that when you get involved in a relationship kind
• 25:55
  Speaker 3: of like you too that, Yes, it's great to have
• 25:57
  Speaker 3: this guy that you're with and you know we're fucking
• 25:58
  Speaker 3: we're having a good time here, but you're looking for
• 26:01
  Speaker 3: that balance to kind of balance you out as far
• 26:03
  Speaker 3: as like, I want to come home to somebody that's
• 26:05
  Speaker 3: waiting for me to provide that emotional security, that peace
• 26:08
  Speaker 3: of mind.
• 26:08
  Speaker 2: There?
• 26:08
  Speaker 3: Does that make it somebody that I can also have
• 26:10
  Speaker 3: fun with too? But I think it's difficult for you
• 26:12
  Speaker 3: sometimes because when you're in that moment and you're with them,
• 26:14
  Speaker 3: there's too much going on inside your head that's keeping
• 26:16
  Speaker 3: you from being present. Do you think tru bullshit? Don't
• 26:20
  Speaker 3: let me say it if it's not true.
• 26:21
  Speaker 2: No, it is true.
• 26:22
  Speaker 4: I go.
• 26:22
  Speaker 2: And that's one of the things this year that I
• 26:24
  Speaker 2: was talking to Amber about. I was like, I will
• 26:26
  Speaker 2: meet somebody and there I will play this montage in
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: my head of like, but I have two kids, and
• 26:31
  Speaker 2: when will I have time for them? And oh my god,
• 26:34
  Speaker 2: he's so much younger than me, and what if he
• 26:35
  Speaker 2: wants kids. I can't give him kids? And oh my gosh,
• 26:37
  Speaker 2: I have to work, and if I'm with him then
• 26:39
  Speaker 2: I can't work. I'll lose my independent I start suffocating
• 26:41
  Speaker 2: myself and drowning. And I'm trying now to be like,
• 26:45
  Speaker 2: none of that matters, just have fun and see where
• 26:49
  Speaker 2: it goes.
• 26:50
  Speaker 3: I'm going to ask you what I asked jat Grandville.
• 26:52
  Speaker 3: Do you think you're stupid?
• 26:54
  Speaker 2: No? I actually think I'm intelligence. I guess I would's
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: who you ask.
• 26:58
  Speaker 3: I would never insult your intelligence by calling you stupid.
• 27:01
  Speaker 3: I think that you overthink because you think of every scenario,
• 27:04
  Speaker 3: not just the one that you're getting yourself involved, but
• 27:06
  Speaker 3: you're also thinking for that person you're not thinking about you.
• 27:11
  Speaker 3: I've known you for years now, and when we don't
• 27:14
  Speaker 3: talk every day on the phone, and we don't hang
• 27:16
  Speaker 3: out every day, but when we link up, we fall
• 27:18
  Speaker 3: right back to you at all and again with you,
• 27:22
  Speaker 3: the way that you come across and the way that
• 27:24
  Speaker 3: you are. You need to start realizing that and stop
• 27:26
  Speaker 3: thinking for other people. I'm not saying I'm not saying
• 27:28
  Speaker 3: you're making decisions for everybody else, but you're playing out
• 27:31
  Speaker 3: that montage and that scenario in your head of the
• 27:32
  Speaker 3: could as should have been, what if, and not giving
• 27:34
  Speaker 3: the relationship or that person the benefit of the doubt,
• 27:37
  Speaker 3: because when they see that vulnerable side of you, you
• 27:39
  Speaker 3: have to understand something. I'm going to get a lot
• 27:42
  Speaker 3: of shit for this, but I have to say this.
• 27:44
  Speaker 3: You are a woman, You're a beautiful woman. Stay in
• 27:47
  Speaker 3: your lane when it comes to that. I'm not saying
• 27:49
  Speaker 3: let this sit in the back seat while he drives.
• 27:51
  Speaker 3: I'm saying, let him be the man in the security
• 27:54
  Speaker 3: that you need. Don't think for him. And also, you
• 27:56
  Speaker 3: don't know if this person wants to have kids or not.
• 27:58
  Speaker 3: Your kids might be enough.
• 28:00
  Speaker 2: I love everything you're saying, and you're validating a lot
• 28:03
  Speaker 2: and I for many years now, I have had to
• 28:07
  Speaker 2: be so alpha. I have to go into filming with
• 28:14
  Speaker 2: toxic men. I am in rooms trying to further my
• 28:21
  Speaker 2: my line, my brand with men, and I have to
• 28:26
  Speaker 2: rise to the occasion and the moment I tap into
• 28:29
  Speaker 2: my feminine self. Everybody men who I don't give a
• 28:33
  Speaker 2: fuck about, love that. Like if I'm quiet and submissive
• 28:37
  Speaker 2: and girly. Right, there's no there's no balance, and we
• 28:39
  Speaker 2: can all say there we've come so far as women. Truthfully,
• 28:44
  Speaker 2: we have not. I think we want to.
• 28:46
  Speaker 3: Oh we have not.
• 28:48
  Speaker 2: We haven't, and we have no safe space. We're not
• 28:51
  Speaker 2: safe amongst each other. We're not safe with men. And
• 28:54
  Speaker 2: that's such a blanketed statement because I am safe with
• 28:56
  Speaker 2: a lot of my girlfriends, and I have been safe
• 28:58
  Speaker 2: with men, but in the old overall, I have to
• 29:01
  Speaker 2: rise to the occasion and I have to be a provider.
• 29:05
  Speaker 2: I have to play mom and dad, a disciplinarian. I
• 29:08
  Speaker 2: am begging And you actually said this to me. You're like,
• 29:11
  Speaker 2: you talk about not You're the one that called me
• 29:13
  Speaker 2: out on this shit. I was like, I don't want
• 29:15
  Speaker 2: a man. I'm good, I have peace, and he's like,
• 29:17
  Speaker 2: you're afraid. You're afraid of all of these things. And I,
• 29:23
  Speaker 2: for the first time after you said that, I was like,
• 29:24
  Speaker 2: I have to stop. I have to admit that I
• 29:28
  Speaker 2: have abandonment issues. I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of
• 29:32
  Speaker 2: my heart being hurt again. And if I can't allow
• 29:36
  Speaker 2: those things, then I will never open myself up to
• 29:40
  Speaker 2: actually what I truly want. And even though I don't
• 29:42
  Speaker 2: want to get married with a piece of paper, I
• 29:44
  Speaker 2: want companionship. I thrive with a partner, and I am
• 29:49
  Speaker 2: dying to tap into my female energy. Well. I want
• 29:52
  Speaker 2: to come home and fucking melt into someone.
• 29:55
  Speaker 3: Yes, it's not your looks holding you back or your
• 29:58
  Speaker 3: attitude in that way, it's how you present yourself from
• 30:02
  Speaker 3: within out I have.
• 30:04
  Speaker 2: I've had to Chris. It's like it's it. I go
• 30:08
  Speaker 2: into the world and am unapproachable and have to give
• 30:11
  Speaker 2: big dick energy everywhere I go, and that is exhausting.
• 30:16
  Speaker 3: That is a mindset that you can get rid of.
• 30:18
  Speaker 3: And I will back you up when we talk about
• 30:20
  Speaker 3: females not backing females up.
• 30:22
  Speaker 4: I was.
• 30:22
  Speaker 3: If you look at the early stages of my career,
• 30:24
  Speaker 3: I was all about the community, you know, female empowerment.
• 30:27
  Speaker 3: Latino writes this and this and that or whatever. What
• 30:30
  Speaker 3: I come to learn in those type of environments is
• 30:32
  Speaker 3: at the minute that somebody starts thinking ahead or gets
• 30:35
  Speaker 3: an opportunity, that's where all the backbiting starts. We're no
• 30:38
  Speaker 3: longer friends. Lalla is a bitch because she got this here.
• 30:41
  Speaker 3: Now she's turning her back on us and all this
• 30:42
  Speaker 3: other stuff. There's no And then when it comes to relationships,
• 30:45
  Speaker 3: I just was at a party not too long ago
• 30:47
  Speaker 3: where I was reading somebody and I was saying, you're
• 30:49
  Speaker 3: not like so and so. You want to you want
• 30:52
  Speaker 3: to be taken care of in a relationship. I'm not
• 30:55
  Speaker 3: saying like a baby or like a like a somebody
• 30:58
  Speaker 3: that doesn't doesn't want to do anything. You want to
• 31:00
  Speaker 3: be a stay at home mom and a stay at
• 31:01
  Speaker 3: home life. What's wrong with that? Nothing exactly, but society
• 31:06
  Speaker 3: paints it as well. You set women back a hundred years.
• 31:10
  Speaker 3: Shut the fuck up, and don't look at what I'm doing.
• 31:11
  Speaker 3: If it's if it doesn't, if it doesn't please you.
• 31:15
  Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying now, That's why I'm not
• 31:17
  Speaker 3: just saying this about woman. I'm saying about everybody in general.
• 31:19
  Speaker 3: Gaze everybody. It's all. It's all fine until someone starts
• 31:23
  Speaker 3: thinking outside the box and wants to do wants to
• 31:25
  Speaker 3: go in their own direction. So with you again, I
• 31:27
  Speaker 3: don't think that you should tone down your sense of humor.
• 31:31
  Speaker 3: I think that's a big part of who you are,
• 31:32
  Speaker 3: and I think that's where you will thrive in a
• 31:34
  Speaker 3: relationship because you need somebody that's going to give it
• 31:37
  Speaker 3: to you just as good as you give it, and
• 31:38
  Speaker 3: not point their finger in your face and make you
• 31:41
  Speaker 3: feel some type of way. Because you're spiraling with that
• 31:43
  Speaker 3: virgo energy. You need someone that's gonna say, sit down
• 31:47
  Speaker 3: for a second, just right next to me, Not sit
• 31:50
  Speaker 3: the fuck down and calm down here, but sit down,
• 31:53
  Speaker 3: I can feel you and you once you start, once
• 31:57
  Speaker 3: you once they start gaining your trust, not you gaining
• 32:00
  Speaker 3: their trust, but them gaining your trust, and you start
• 32:03
  Speaker 3: to realize they're not going to use this shit against me.
• 32:05
  Speaker 3: They're not going to make me feel some type of
• 32:07
  Speaker 3: way or just say these certain things speak just for
• 32:09
  Speaker 3: the sake of saying it. Here, They're saying it because
• 32:11
  Speaker 3: they mean it. You have to learn that. Yeah, that's
• 32:14
  Speaker 3: what's going to save you in a relationship. That's where
• 32:16
  Speaker 3: you lose yourself.
• 32:17
  Speaker 2: Yeah, you still see more children in my future? Yes, solo.
• 32:24
  Speaker 3: I knew. I knew you were going to ask that,
• 32:26
  Speaker 3: And I want to say as much as I want
• 32:28
  Speaker 3: to say not solo here, that's totally up to you
• 32:31
  Speaker 3: because I think that again, it's wrong for me to
• 32:33
  Speaker 3: say this. I don't have to live your life here,
• 32:34
  Speaker 3: but I think that you should have a child with
• 32:37
  Speaker 3: a man that you're in love with. And if you
• 32:38
  Speaker 3: don't want to get married, you don't have to get married. Yeah,
• 32:41
  Speaker 3: no one's saying that shit. Your excuse is we've already
• 32:44
  Speaker 3: been there, done that. We don't want to rock the boat.
• 32:46
  Speaker 3: Leave us the fuck alone, stop asking us. Simple Yeah,
• 32:51
  Speaker 3: but I'd love to see you in a relationship with
• 32:52
  Speaker 3: somebody that makes you, that changes your identity in a
• 32:56
  Speaker 3: better way, not because they're changing it for themselves, but
• 33:00
  Speaker 3: because my girl's happy. One lessing for her to worry about.
• 33:03
  Speaker 3: There's no bullshit when she comes home. She she knows
• 33:05
  Speaker 3: that there's somebody there to have her back. Same thing
• 33:07
  Speaker 3: with you and I. You always know you can come
• 33:10
  Speaker 3: to me. I'll never fucking I'll never turn my back
• 33:12
  Speaker 3: on you or tell your secrets or sell you out
• 33:14
  Speaker 3: in any way, shape or form. You can come to
• 33:15
  Speaker 3: me with anything, and I'll back you up. I'm going
• 33:17
  Speaker 3: to tell you the truth. And I think again this
• 33:19
  Speaker 3: year for you as far as like, if we're going
• 33:21
  Speaker 3: to use astrology, you've got that moon and Aquarius right.
• 33:24
  Speaker 3: The nodes start shifting this year in July out of
• 33:27
  Speaker 3: Pisces and Virgo, which has been a pain in the
• 33:29
  Speaker 3: ass for you and I and going into an air
• 33:32
  Speaker 3: and going into fire and air. So this is detaching
• 33:36
  Speaker 3: that this is a good time to start working on
• 33:39
  Speaker 3: some of that Aquaring energy where you're not where you're
• 33:42
  Speaker 3: leaning into it. I think, you know, letting some of
• 33:44
  Speaker 3: that Virgo energy dissipate just a little bit, stop being
• 33:47
  Speaker 3: so neurotic an OCD and overthinking and letting some of
• 33:50
  Speaker 3: this aquarian air come in here and opening the windows
• 33:52
  Speaker 3: of your mind and letting the dust out and really
• 33:55
  Speaker 3: starting to fill yourself. Okay, that's a good look for you.
• 33:58
  Speaker 3: And then you got that if you've got that scorpio
• 34:00
  Speaker 3: rising too. I mean, it hasn't been it hasn't been
• 34:02
  Speaker 3: good for you over the last couple of years as
• 34:04
  Speaker 3: far as like, emotionally and physically, as much as you're
• 34:06
  Speaker 3: trying to, you know, evolve and do all this stuff,
• 34:08
  Speaker 3: the energy has been too heavy for you. Right, So
• 34:11
  Speaker 3: look forward to some We're coming in here and loosening
• 34:13
  Speaker 3: some shit up.
• 34:14
  Speaker 2: You think I'll find love this year? Not my ear?
• 34:17
  Speaker 3: Yeah? No, are you.
• 34:20
  Speaker 2: Saying that because I'm looking at his face?
• 34:22
  Speaker 3: No, it's not, because because I'm thinking of the potential
• 34:25
  Speaker 3: people that will come in here. Okay this year as
• 34:28
  Speaker 3: far as like, uh, when we talk about her lessons
• 34:31
  Speaker 3: and her coming into her power, we're talking about guys
• 34:33
  Speaker 3: coming in here stepping it up. And if they're younger,
• 34:36
  Speaker 3: I'm going to get a lot of ship for this too.
• 34:38
  Speaker 3: They're moldible, oh.
• 34:40
  Speaker 2: Aims, So honey, give me.
• 34:44
  Speaker 3: We're not manipulating them. They're just not as seasoned as
• 34:47
  Speaker 3: some of the older people would get baggage exactly exactly,
• 34:51
  Speaker 3: and you can use that energy to to brighten yourself up.
• 34:55
  Speaker 2: There was a guy the other day, not to take
• 34:57
  Speaker 2: this to a I love place, but we were talking
• 35:02
  Speaker 2: about sex and I talked about toys and he goes, wait, there,
• 35:05
  Speaker 2: you can use toys on guys. And I was like, oh, honey,
• 35:08
  Speaker 2: oot to fucking rock your world.
• 35:10
  Speaker 3: Bro, where's Chris Medina?
• 35:14
  Speaker 2: Oh my god, is this a real question? Like No,
• 35:15
  Speaker 2: I feel like I'm like maybe tainting a bit. Wait
• 35:19
  Speaker 2: were you texting? No, we were on FaceTime. Oh I know.
• 35:23
  Speaker 2: It was very cute. Last thing, finances. Should I be
• 35:27
  Speaker 2: pulling back? Should I be? Do you see me? I
• 35:31
  Speaker 2: mean not that I'm out here blowing cash obviously, but
• 35:34
  Speaker 2: I'm just you know, a new year.
• 35:37
  Speaker 3: I'd like to see where you're at with your financial
• 35:40
  Speaker 3: situation by April of this year. Completely separate from hers.
• 35:43
  Speaker 3: This is not if you guys do a joint and
• 35:45
  Speaker 3: that's great or whatever, but always separate. Yeah, I'm talking.
• 35:47
  Speaker 2: We've both been we know how, we know how to
• 35:51
  Speaker 2: do things.
• 35:52
  Speaker 3: Yeah, remember those what we talked about at Granville when
• 35:55
  Speaker 3: we were talking about your career and not going backwards,
• 35:57
  Speaker 3: and you know, you know, you know, I'm going Yeah,
• 36:00
  Speaker 3: I just want to make sure that again that when
• 36:01
  Speaker 3: we talk about moving forward here, that you're actually being
• 36:04
  Speaker 3: selective and you're evolving what it is that you want
• 36:06
  Speaker 3: to put out there. Does that make sense?
• 36:09
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it makes a lot of sense. You.
• 36:12
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna say this and it's going to sound like
• 36:13
  Speaker 3: a backhanded compliment and I don't mean it to be here,
• 36:16
  Speaker 3: but you have so much fucking potential, like you're from
• 36:21
  Speaker 3: your attitude to your looks, the way that you carry yourself.
• 36:24
  Speaker 3: If you can just let go of some of that
• 36:25
  Speaker 3: Virgo energy and not overthink and just be remember, let
• 36:29
  Speaker 3: the aquarium moon take over. You've got a hardcore sun
• 36:33
  Speaker 3: in Virgo and then you got your rising and Scorpio,
• 36:35
  Speaker 3: which is I'm very secretive. I don't want people seeing
• 36:38
  Speaker 3: all the cards that I have under here. I have
• 36:39
  Speaker 3: to carry myself a certain way. That aquarium moon gets
• 36:43
  Speaker 3: lost in there, and that's what you need to detach
• 36:45
  Speaker 3: yourself from and start having fun and think outside the
• 36:48
  Speaker 3: box and not just put yourself into what La La
• 36:51
  Speaker 3: has been over the last five years, where do I
• 36:54
  Speaker 3: want to go? How do I want to evolve? Because
• 36:56
  Speaker 3: with you again, if you look at your career, you've
• 37:00
  Speaker 3: never backslid. No, you've never come tumbling down at all.
• 37:05
  Speaker 3: You've kind of been steady, kind of going up. It
• 37:07
  Speaker 3: may not be where you want it to be, but
• 37:08
  Speaker 3: you've never backslid. You keep going up. Yeah, all that shit, Okay,
• 37:14
  Speaker 3: and stop getting inside your fucking head. And also one
• 37:17
  Speaker 3: more thing, and that I'm done with that, be somebody
• 37:20
  Speaker 3: to yourself rather than wanting to be every everything to
• 37:23
  Speaker 3: everybody else, let them fend for themselves. Okay, you know
• 37:27
  Speaker 3: what I'm talking about. Yeah, we can talk.
• 37:29
  Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, Chris.
• 37:31
  Speaker 4: I have one more question because I didn't ask about
• 37:33
  Speaker 4: the baby thing, and that is.
• 37:34
  Speaker 2: Like, I know, I was so shocked that you didn't
• 37:36
  Speaker 2: ask that.
• 37:37
  Speaker 3: I know you want more kids.
• 37:40
  Speaker 2: Do I want more kids? I don't know. I'm like torn.
• 37:45
  Speaker 2: I always say It's so funny.
• 37:46
  Speaker 4: I always say, like, it depends on my partner and
• 37:49
  Speaker 4: if they have kids, right, if I'm dating someone younger
• 37:52
  Speaker 4: that hasn't had kids and they want and like sure,
• 37:56
  Speaker 4: But then if I think about it, I'm like, well,
• 37:59
  Speaker 4: do I want kids? Or am I just giving myself
• 38:02
  Speaker 4: again to someone?
• 38:03
  Speaker 3: So you're not in a relationship right now?
• 38:05
  Speaker 2: No, do you see me in a relationship? When am
• 38:07
  Speaker 2: I getting married before me?
• 38:10
  Speaker 3: Well, she's like twelve.
• 38:13
  Speaker 2: In twelve relationships, but I have dated a lot.
• 38:16
  Speaker 3: Yeah, she's coming into a different cycle of her life
• 38:21
  Speaker 3: when it comes to power and from within out. Does
• 38:23
  Speaker 3: that make sense, Like she's I'm not saying that you've
• 38:26
  Speaker 3: hidden yourself, but I think that you've done a lot
• 38:28
  Speaker 3: of uh self defense mechanisms to keep yourself. Yeah, to
• 38:36
  Speaker 3: keep yourself in the middle so much, you know what
• 38:38
  Speaker 3: I'm saying. But for you, when it comes to relationships,
• 38:42
  Speaker 3: you need to learn what it's like to allow yourself
• 38:44
  Speaker 3: to receive. Does that make sense? When I talk about receive,
• 38:48
  Speaker 3: I'm talking about making sure that you're not becoming the
• 38:51
  Speaker 3: man and the woman in the relationship, that you're allowing
• 38:53
  Speaker 3: yourself to let this person show you what they can
• 38:55
  Speaker 3: do and how they can take care of you in
• 38:57
  Speaker 3: a stable way.
• 38:58
  Speaker 2: Yeah. You know what, All the guys you bring in
• 39:00
  Speaker 2: are fucking weird, really, Yeah, yeah, weird. I just feel
• 39:06
  Speaker 2: like they come into your life and they kind of
• 39:08
  Speaker 2: like put down the rules of how it's gonna be
• 39:10
  Speaker 2: and then you kind of have to you have to,
• 39:13
  Speaker 2: you know, steer the ship. And they're just weird. They're like,
• 39:19
  Speaker 2: I like, I'm in my routine. You know, this is
• 39:23
  Speaker 2: like very specific, but like I'm in my routine. So
• 39:25
  Speaker 2: I can see you after seven because I have dinner
• 39:27
  Speaker 2: at this time, and so that's when you can come over.
• 39:30
  Speaker 2: And so you kind of you fall into which is
• 39:34
  Speaker 2: weird because I don't see you. I see you as
• 39:37
  Speaker 2: very feminine and amazing and beautiful and sexy, but you
• 39:40
  Speaker 2: take on this like big dick energy of like steering
• 39:43
  Speaker 2: the ship where they're they're like little bitch boys.
• 39:45
  Speaker 3: Yeah they're men, They're they're boys dressed in men's clothes. Yeah.
• 39:50
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I guess because I tend to day older. But
• 39:53
  Speaker 2: they're like little boys. But they look like they're dying.
• 39:56
  Speaker 2: But they just but you know what, lately, it's not lately.
• 40:01
  Speaker 4: And I said this in the last podcast, I'm like
• 40:04
  Speaker 4: now going out on dates with men my age, yeah
• 40:08
  Speaker 4: and younger and younger.
• 40:10
  Speaker 2: Yeah, you need to have actually pick her up to fuck.
• 40:14
  Speaker 3: Oh good yeah, and not fall over and break up. Head.
• 40:17
  Speaker 2: That's like you just said, but it's.
• 40:21
  Speaker 3: Good for you because it teaches you to stay in
• 40:24
  Speaker 3: your lane. And I'm gonna get shipped for this, but
• 40:26
  Speaker 3: I have to say this in people. I hope you
• 40:27
  Speaker 3: know where I'm coming from as a woman. But your
• 40:31
  Speaker 3: thing is that when you meet somebody, because you're instantly
• 40:34
  Speaker 3: trying to read them and you're picking up on their energy,
• 40:37
  Speaker 3: it takes over the way that that you represent yourself,
• 40:40
  Speaker 3: So you're misrepresenting yourself as somebody that you're not based
• 40:44
  Speaker 3: off what you're getting from it. It's not you being fake,
• 40:46
  Speaker 3: totally different. And I know where you're coming from because
• 40:49
  Speaker 3: I do the same thing. So can you imagine me
• 40:51
  Speaker 3: going on a date and my guide saying, don't use
• 40:54
  Speaker 3: your psychic energy to read this person, and I have
• 40:57
  Speaker 3: to distract myself with other shit while I'm having a
• 40:59
  Speaker 3: conversation with him, so I don't pick up on it.
• 41:01
  Speaker 3: You got to learn that as well, So do not
• 41:03
  Speaker 3: merge into their lanes, stay in yours, and allow yourself
• 41:06
  Speaker 3: the opportunity to receive what you need to receive, which
• 41:09
  Speaker 3: is a real man coming in here, providing security, comfort
• 41:12
  Speaker 3: and peace of mind in the relationship. Like I told her,
• 41:15
  Speaker 3: gaining your trust so you know they're not fucking dumb.
• 41:18
  Speaker 3: You know that you're not going to be raising a
• 41:20
  Speaker 3: boy into a man. You already have enough kids. You
• 41:22
  Speaker 3: don't need another one in your fucking house. No, yeah,
• 41:25
  Speaker 3: so don't. So again, don't misrepresent yourself in that way,
• 41:28
  Speaker 3: because at the end of the day, I'm not saying
• 41:30
  Speaker 3: that you want to be whisked away like Julia Roberts,
• 41:32
  Speaker 3: but you do want somebody to put you on a pedestal,
• 41:34
  Speaker 3: and you do want to be baby, and you do
• 41:35
  Speaker 3: want to be cared for in that way.
• 41:37
  Speaker 2: Yeah I do, Yes, yes, you do exactly.
• 41:41
  Speaker 3: You deserve it because what you will do back in
• 41:43
  Speaker 3: return is go one hundred times above and beyond for
• 41:46
  Speaker 3: that person when you are in a relationship that you
• 41:49
  Speaker 3: are loyal. Kidsters are loyal to a fault.
• 41:52
  Speaker 2: Sometimes, Oh we all know that.
• 41:54
  Speaker 3: Yeah, so again, represent yourself in the right light this year,
• 41:59
  Speaker 3: and go after what it is that you truly want.
• 42:01
  Speaker 3: You've been putting yourself on the back burner for way
• 42:03
  Speaker 3: too fucking long life, and especially with opportunities that are
• 42:07
  Speaker 3: coming in Okay you have. You have a really good
• 42:09
  Speaker 3: opportunity over the next year and a half to reinvent
• 42:12
  Speaker 3: yourself into somebody completely different. Here's where I'm going to
• 42:14
  Speaker 3: give it to you. You caught kids that look up
• 42:16
  Speaker 3: to you, set that example for them. You're beautiful, you're young,
• 42:21
  Speaker 3: You've got a lot, a lot of great things to
• 42:22
  Speaker 3: look forward to. Take advantage of it.
• 42:25
  Speaker 2: Thank you. Amen. Amen.
• 42:36
  Speaker 3: I love the way that she looks too. She's she's even,
• 42:39
  Speaker 3: she's you're still reading what you're still reading?
• 42:42
  Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, I'm reading the energy everything you're saying. As
• 42:46
  Speaker 2: he's talking, I'm playing a montage of every single thing
• 42:49
  Speaker 2: that we've talked about. And I'm like, oh, yes, right.
• 42:51
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm gonna say this to you because this is
• 42:54
  Speaker 3: what this is what they're telling me to tell you.
• 42:56
  Speaker 3: Look for power moves this year for yourself. When I
• 43:01
  Speaker 3: talk about power moves, I'm talking about bigger moves in
• 43:05
  Speaker 3: the form of business opportunities. Does that make sense?
• 43:08
  Speaker 2: Fucking dead right now?
• 43:09
  Speaker 3: But hold on a second. But this is this is
• 43:12
  Speaker 3: you need to upgrade your mindset in your business. Does
• 43:15
  Speaker 3: that make sense? I don't know why. And I have
• 43:18
  Speaker 3: a huge problem with this shit here because I would
• 43:20
  Speaker 3: be an excellent agent or a manager. I don't know
• 43:23
  Speaker 3: why they haven't come in here and fucking switched things up.
• 43:26
  Speaker 3: For you, because I think that you're more ready than
• 43:29
  Speaker 3: you realize. And one of the things I like about
• 43:30
  Speaker 3: you is that as much as you can bitch and
• 43:32
  Speaker 3: complain about all these juggling all these things here, if
• 43:35
  Speaker 3: you didn't have that much to juggle and you had
• 43:37
  Speaker 3: more time on your hands, you wouldn't know what to
• 43:38
  Speaker 3: do with yourself.
• 43:39
  Speaker 2: You're so right, Chris.
• 43:40
  Speaker 3: So you are somebody. As much as you want to
• 43:42
  Speaker 3: talk shit, you can handle shit under pressure. I can
• 43:46
  Speaker 3: throw two more things that you You're gonna give me
• 43:48
  Speaker 3: that fucking side. I like you, dumb bitch, but let's
• 43:50
  Speaker 3: be truthful. Are you going to drop that stuff?
• 43:52
  Speaker 2: No? No, we're just talking about this like scheduling.
• 43:54
  Speaker 3: Get ready. I'm telling you get ready for major moves.
• 43:57
  Speaker 2: I'm ready and I have. I've been having many conversations
• 44:02
  Speaker 2: and I have said I'm done being a fucking sellout.
• 44:06
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, I wouldn't say something.
• 44:08
  Speaker 2: This is what my head is, you know my mind.
• 44:10
  Speaker 2: This is how my mind works. Even though people may
• 44:13
  Speaker 2: not think that these are things I tell myself. Yes,
• 44:17
  Speaker 2: that may be good money, but let's look at the
• 44:19
  Speaker 2: bigger picture. Where will it get me? I am looking
• 44:23
  Speaker 2: for a setup that we start now, that is going
• 44:25
  Speaker 2: to carry me on throughout my life that I can
• 44:27
  Speaker 2: pass down to my children, my children's children and beyond.
• 44:31
  Speaker 2: It's not a very quick no. This is the year
• 44:34
  Speaker 2: where I'm like, it's gonna take a lot of hard
• 44:36
  Speaker 2: work and it's gonna take time. If we don't start now,
• 44:39
  Speaker 2: we are fucked.
• 44:40
  Speaker 3: But here's where you go wrong and slap the fuck
• 44:43
  Speaker 3: out of me for this one. Are you ready?
• 44:44
  Speaker 2: Yeah? I'm ready.
• 44:45
  Speaker 3: You tone yourself down after you read the room? Does
• 44:48
  Speaker 3: that make sense? You you need to want?
• 44:50
  Speaker 2: You think I explode and then I read the room
• 44:52
  Speaker 2: of everybody and go, But but everything's fine.
• 44:55
  Speaker 3: You think that you're amped up and you know what
• 44:57
  Speaker 3: needs to be done. Yeah, back me up if I'm wrong.
• 44:59
  Speaker 3: If I'm wrong, talk shit. You're amped up and you're
• 45:02
  Speaker 3: ready to fucking go. But when you get in the
• 45:04
  Speaker 3: room and you get there, you start to see everybody
• 45:06
  Speaker 3: and you don't turn pussy. I'm not saying that. I'm
• 45:09
  Speaker 3: just saying that you tone down the attitude there and
• 45:12
  Speaker 3: you take some of that heat and that fiery that
• 45:14
  Speaker 3: needs to be it.
• 45:15
  Speaker 2: And that's what I'm saying, Chris, is I compromise my
• 45:19
  Speaker 2: own fucking boundaries for the sake of making other people
• 45:22
  Speaker 2: feel good. So I will say exactly how I'm feeling,
• 45:24
  Speaker 2: and if they feel like, oh my gosh, then I
• 45:27
  Speaker 2: really not responded. I'm sorry I responded that way. I'm
• 45:30
  Speaker 2: just saying this, and then I try to make it
• 45:32
  Speaker 2: all okay, and it's like, no, I meant what I said.
• 45:34
  Speaker 2: If you feel uncomfortable, not a me issue, that's.
• 45:37
  Speaker 3: A you issue exactly, and own that shit, because anybody
• 45:40
  Speaker 3: that truly knows who the fuck you are know you're
• 45:43
  Speaker 3: not gonna go out there and just make shit up
• 45:44
  Speaker 3: for the sake of making shit up. We're trying to
• 45:46
  Speaker 3: hurt somebody's fucking feelings. But you, because of your integrity
• 45:49
  Speaker 3: and the way that you think for everybody else, it
• 45:50
  Speaker 3: falls on your shoulders in the form of guilt or
• 45:53
  Speaker 3: I need to hold back. Stop that shit. That's what
• 45:55
  Speaker 3: people can count on. And that's why I'm telling you.
• 45:57
  Speaker 3: I don't know why I'm.
• 45:58
  Speaker 2: Yet like but.
• 46:00
  Speaker 3: You but you uh you uh you don't. You don't
• 46:05
  Speaker 3: realize the way that you come across and you're gonna
• 46:08
  Speaker 3: You're gonna die. When I say this, I always tell people,
• 46:10
  Speaker 3: if I was straight, I would totally hook up a lalla.
• 46:14
  Speaker 2: She is nice because there's.
• 46:15
  Speaker 3: The way that you come in. She came, she came
• 46:18
  Speaker 3: to Grandville, and this bitch was in sweats, cut as fuck,
• 46:22
  Speaker 3: came in sweats but no makeup on.
• 46:26
  Speaker 2: Looked absolutely beautiful, gorgeous, gorgeous.
• 46:29
  Speaker 3: And you need to stop.
• 46:31
  Speaker 2: Forever, stop toning yourself down.
• 46:33
  Speaker 3: Stop toning yourself down. And when you go and when
• 46:36
  Speaker 3: you go in that room, remember something. Your la la
• 46:38
  Speaker 3: kent bitch, bitch power moves. You need to own that
• 46:42
  Speaker 3: energy and stop going back to things that you're comfortable
• 46:48
  Speaker 3: or you're used to, and start making bigger moves because
• 46:51
  Speaker 3: you are. You're gonna make yourself sick if you have
• 46:53
  Speaker 3: to constantly reinvent your career every three to five years.
• 46:56
  Speaker 2: I can't. I will lose my goddamn mind.
• 47:00
  Speaker 3: So get it so again. You we live right down
• 47:03
  Speaker 3: the street from each other. You live so close to me.
• 47:06
  Speaker 3: Hit me up anytime that you need an ass kicking,
• 47:09
  Speaker 3: because I'm telling you right now, go get of course
• 47:11
  Speaker 3: you can. You play your cards right girl, I'm telling
• 47:15
  Speaker 3: you right now now it's time to start amping it
• 47:17
  Speaker 3: up and really taking control of the business side of things.
• 47:20
  Speaker 3: You can go into acting. I mean, I don't know
• 47:23
  Speaker 3: if that's what you want to do there, but you can.
• 47:24
  Speaker 2: You can go into that acting hat. You can. No, no, no, don't, no,
• 47:28
  Speaker 2: no no, don't.
• 47:29
  Speaker 3: What's stopping you from producing shows?
• 47:32
  Speaker 2: Nothing is stopping me from doing anything exactly. It's game day, baby, yes,
• 47:37
  Speaker 2: game day. No. Nothing is overly saturated in this world.
• 47:41
  Speaker 2: There is always room for one more. I just want
• 47:45
  Speaker 2: to fucking take the world by the ball.
• 47:48
  Speaker 3: Here's here's another manipulation tactic. The difference between you and
• 47:51
  Speaker 3: everybody else is you have this in you or some
• 47:54
  Speaker 3: people manifest in a hope to have this career. Don't
• 47:58
  Speaker 3: come to me unless you truly want to evolve, because
• 48:00
  Speaker 3: you're gonna waste both of our times. And I'm also
• 48:03
  Speaker 3: not a friend of yours either. I'm talking about when
• 48:06
  Speaker 3: I read people here, and that's why I tell people,
• 48:08
  Speaker 3: if you're going to be a friend or a family
• 48:09
  Speaker 3: member to people, tell them the truth before I have to,
• 48:12
  Speaker 3: because they're not gonna like it.
• 48:13
  Speaker 2: Right.
• 48:14
  Speaker 3: Yeah, So again, I know how difficult it is. I'm
• 48:17
  Speaker 3: a Taurus with a pisc's moon and a Capricorn rising.
• 48:19
  Speaker 3: I know your placements as well. We worry way too
• 48:22
  Speaker 3: fucking much. But at the end of the day, would
• 48:24
  Speaker 3: we ever trust our lives our livelihood in the hands
• 48:27
  Speaker 3: of somebody else.
• 48:28
  Speaker 2: No.
• 48:28
  Speaker 3: Never, So you need to prove that to yourself, especially you,
• 48:32
  Speaker 3: because I'm telling you right now you're going to slap
• 48:34
  Speaker 3: me for this one. And I'll own that you are
• 48:35
  Speaker 3: wasting time by not taking full control of your power.
• 48:38
  Speaker 3: And that means being happy in the in the skin
• 48:41
  Speaker 3: that you were in, in owning who you are. If
• 48:43
  Speaker 3: you have to watch yourself on TV again to get
• 48:46
  Speaker 3: yourself amped up or get inspiration, go and do that,
• 48:49
  Speaker 3: but make sure you're paying attention to yourself. Okay, so
• 48:52
  Speaker 3: good both of you, guys, very very good energy. This
• 48:55
  Speaker 3: year is far and there's no there's no surprise why
• 48:58
  Speaker 3: you guys aligned with each other. Do I see that
• 49:00
  Speaker 3: being a forever thing? No?
• 49:01
  Speaker 2: But that's her.
• 49:02
  Speaker 3: No, as far you guys can be friends forevery But
• 49:04
  Speaker 3: I'm talking about like you know, you guys are going
• 49:06
  Speaker 3: to go your separate ways. You're you're gonna venture off
• 49:08
  Speaker 3: on your own route and she's gonna venture off in hers. Wow,
• 49:11
  Speaker 3: I think this is I'm not saying you guys do
• 49:13
  Speaker 3: this as long as you want. I'm not taking away
• 49:15
  Speaker 3: from it. I'm just saying opportunity is coming here. The
• 49:18
  Speaker 3: reason why you guys probably are are connecting here is
• 49:20
  Speaker 3: because you guys have similar backgrounds to with certain things
• 49:23
  Speaker 3: that you guys are. You guys are working through. You
• 49:25
  Speaker 3: guys are comparing notes. Harm will resolve itself and you
• 49:29
  Speaker 3: go on your way. Wow, in a positive way, in
• 49:33
  Speaker 3: a positive way.
• 49:36
  Speaker 2: I don't know why. That just made me emotional, really,
• 49:41
  Speaker 2: and not in a bad way.
• 49:42
  Speaker 3: Because when she loves, she loves hard. She she doesn't want,
• 49:46
  Speaker 3: she doesn't when she accumulates, she doesn't. She's had so
• 49:48
  Speaker 3: much loss and so much bullshit coming here that when
• 49:51
  Speaker 3: she finds solid people like a cancer, yeah, she doesn't
• 49:55
  Speaker 3: want to let go.
• 49:56
  Speaker 2: No.
• 49:57
  Speaker 5: But I feel like with what you just said was
• 49:59
  Speaker 5: like the the karma and just timing like this, this
• 50:04
  Speaker 5: came to be and a lot of healing has been
• 50:08
  Speaker 5: happening and it's going to continue to happen. And I
• 50:12
  Speaker 5: just have this feeling in my soul that this is
• 50:15
  Speaker 5: going to turn out a certain way where Amber and
• 50:18
  Speaker 5: I he after almost a decade plus me the last
• 50:24
  Speaker 5: few years, it will find we will finally reach peace.
• 50:28
  Speaker 5: And I think that that's maybe when it'll happen and
• 50:32
  Speaker 5: you're going to be doing everything that you want to
• 50:34
  Speaker 5: be doing, that you're passionate about.
• 50:36
  Speaker 2: And I'm it's just beautiful. It's all very beautiful.
• 50:40
  Speaker 3: It is, and it's good for both of you, considering
• 50:43
  Speaker 3: you're I don't want to throw any bit under the bus,
• 50:45
  Speaker 3: but it's good for the for the public and the
• 50:49
  Speaker 3: people behind the scenes to see that. Yeah, this was
• 50:52
  Speaker 3: a chapter of my life here, but it wasn't the
• 50:54
  Speaker 3: final chapter. Yeah, and I'm doing we're doing something different.
• 50:57
  Speaker 3: We can come together and you guys, you guys have
• 51:00
  Speaker 3: a lot of things in common. Yeah, and go after
• 51:03
  Speaker 3: what it is that you want without having the past
• 51:06
  Speaker 3: taint your future. Yeah, that's all that I'm saying.
• 51:09
  Speaker 2: Oh, I cry more than anyone should cry. He's like,
• 51:13
  Speaker 2: you don't need to cry every day. I'm like, but
• 51:15
  Speaker 2: you do, No, you need to do. Oh it's healthy.
• 51:21
  Speaker 2: How do you feel, Amber, I feel great, hopeful, excited.
• 51:26
  Speaker 2: Yeah I do too. I also love peace, I think
• 51:29
  Speaker 2: more than anything. I don't think I feel like excitement.
• 51:33
  Speaker 2: I feel yeah, like everything's working.
• 51:35
  Speaker 4: Out the way it's supposed to and it's going to
• 51:37
  Speaker 4: and I just have to trust the universe. And not
• 51:41
  Speaker 4: try to control everything and just yeah, at some point,
• 51:45
  Speaker 4: you do have to hand it over, right.
• 51:47
  Speaker 3: You have to. Yeah, again, that lesson from August till now.
• 51:51
  Speaker 3: I finally it started off with them telling me you
• 51:53
  Speaker 3: need to take a couple of months off, don't do
• 51:55
  Speaker 3: any readings. We're going to give you information, but if
• 51:57
  Speaker 3: you want to call it downloads, we'll call it downloads.
• 51:59
  Speaker 3: And I said, but I have one session that I've
• 52:01
  Speaker 3: already booked there, and I know that if I if
• 52:03
  Speaker 3: I go to reschedule, the person's going to be upset.
• 52:06
  Speaker 3: But I also know they're not going to get anything
• 52:07
  Speaker 3: out of this reading. I read the person They hated
• 52:11
  Speaker 3: it because I didn't tell them what they wanted to hear.
• 52:14
  Speaker 3: I was depressed for about three days. My guides came
• 52:17
  Speaker 3: in with the wrath of God and said, how the
• 52:20
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna say exactly what they said, How the fuck
• 52:22
  Speaker 3: are you going to sit here and be depressed over
• 52:24
  Speaker 3: something you already knew you were getting your ass involved in. Yeah,
• 52:28
  Speaker 3: get up and fix it. And I said okay, and
• 52:30
  Speaker 3: they said, and also, you're not going anywhere. Two weeks
• 52:33
  Speaker 3: passed by. I'm feeling good. I'm like I'm going to
• 52:35
  Speaker 3: go to the gym, work it out. I'm feeling good.
• 52:39
  Speaker 3: There's two steps that lead down from my front door
• 52:41
  Speaker 3: into my yard. I missed the first step and fell
• 52:44
  Speaker 3: all the way down on my hands and knees like
• 52:47
  Speaker 3: a fucking idiot. Scraped up both of my knees, my ankles.
• 52:49
  Speaker 3: I don't know how I did in the pumps of
• 52:51
  Speaker 3: my hands to why I couldn't put pants on, And
• 52:53
  Speaker 3: they said, what part of keep your ass in the
• 52:55
  Speaker 3: house don't you understand? So I finally said, that's it.
• 52:58
  Speaker 3: I surrender. Yeah, I'm not I get it now, I'm
• 53:01
  Speaker 3: not going to do it. The best two months that
• 53:03
  Speaker 3: I've ever had in my life was just sitting there
• 53:05
  Speaker 3: and being still and listening to everything. Yeah, I was
• 53:07
  Speaker 3: worried about my money. How am I going to do
• 53:08
  Speaker 3: without these readings or whatever opportunity came and found me. You,
• 53:13
  Speaker 3: I'm not going to say because it hasn't but you
• 53:16
  Speaker 3: came in right like a fucking angel during that time,
• 53:20
  Speaker 3: and I said, this is it, this is this is
• 53:25
  Speaker 3: so again. We come from a real background, all three
• 53:28
  Speaker 3: of us. We've had heartache, pain, We've had a lot
• 53:29
  Speaker 3: of bullshit happened to us. That's been our identity for
• 53:32
  Speaker 3: so long that we it's hard to separate ourselves because
• 53:34
  Speaker 3: we see that so often. We feel so much here.
• 53:36
  Speaker 3: But what's wrong with looking actually looking forward to something?
• 53:39
  Speaker 3: And like I said, knowing the difference between excitement and anxiety,
• 53:42
  Speaker 3: I'm getting excited because the tides are getting ready to change.
• 53:44
  Speaker 3: I have something to look forward to rather than fear.
• 53:46
  Speaker 3: Oh my god, what if this happens. What if this happened?
• 53:48
  Speaker 3: Especially you, You're too fucking smart to be stupid.
• 53:51
  Speaker 2: Yeah, thank you. Oh I love that about it. Oh
• 53:58
  Speaker 2: my gosh, this was so amazing. I feel so great.
• 54:01
  Speaker 4: Thank you Chris so so much, Lala, I love you.
• 54:05
  Speaker 4: I love you so much, Chris, I adore you. Thank
• 54:08
  Speaker 4: you so much for making time for us today and
• 54:10
  Speaker 4: my loves I appreciate you. Listening to another episode of
• 54:13
  Speaker 4: an Unlikely Affair.
• 54:15
  Speaker 2: We are going to catch you guys again next week.
• 54:18
  Speaker 4: Bye bye bye