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Episode #293: When the Heart Finally Exhales · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: Hi, everybody, Welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev.
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  Speaker 2: Love, good day, good day. I don't know so much
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  Speaker 2: emotional stuff. I feel like lately there's been a lot
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  Speaker 2: of stuff, and we've been around the full moon.
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  Speaker 3: Of course.
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  Speaker 1: A year.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, so crazy. But no, I'm not really sure. I'm
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  Speaker 2: not really sure how I'm doing right now. It's like
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  Speaker 2: a up and down. I heard someone talking about the
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  Speaker 2: other day. It was a psychic meeting and she was
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  Speaker 2: talking about the energies, and it's like one day you
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  Speaker 2: feel like, oh, I got this on the Master Manifesto,
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  Speaker 2: and then next day you're like, I don't even know
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  Speaker 2: how I exist right now, Like it's that's how it is.
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  Speaker 2: That's how my life is right now, and it could
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  Speaker 2: be from one moment to the next, and it's so crazy.
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  Speaker 1: As always, it's interesting that you say that, because, just
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  Speaker 1: to give preface, if you're new to us, Bev and
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  Speaker 1: I don't get to get together ahead of time to
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  Speaker 1: decide what we're going to talk about, and we haven't
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  Speaker 1: talked in two weeks. So we are a week after
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  Speaker 1: Thanksgiving of twenty twenty five recording this video, and the
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  Speaker 1: week before Thanksgiving, I told somebody I said, you know,
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  Speaker 1: I really want to cry, but there's there's nothing that's
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  Speaker 1: triggering me to allow it to flow.
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  Speaker 4: You know, it's just sitting there.
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  Speaker 1: It's almost like a lump in your throat, but it's
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  Speaker 1: just sitting there, and you know it's like, Okay, at
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  Speaker 1: any moment, this is gonna this damn is gonna break.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know what's gonna trigger it, when it's gonna
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  Speaker 1: happen or nothing like that. You just know it's sitting there.
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  Speaker 1: And it wasn't that I could make myself cry. So
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  Speaker 1: so last Thursday full moon, right December fourth, I.
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  Speaker 3: Think so some times gone by so much time, and just.
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  Speaker 1: So December fourth was the full moon that you're talking about.
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  Speaker 1: Had to be to work early because we have an
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  Speaker 1: early morning meeting, like seven point thirty. So I am
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  Speaker 1: driving down the road. I'm like, well, it's so early,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna turn some music.
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  Speaker 4: On to give me up right, shift my energy.
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  Speaker 1: No, what happens, plays the exact songs that I need
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  Speaker 1: to hear, and tears start flowing, and I could have
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  Speaker 1: lost my shit, like, just let the damn go, I
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  Speaker 1: gotta go into this meeting. But I went ahead and
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  Speaker 1: just let some tears fall as I was driving to
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  Speaker 1: work listening to these songs, and then it was another song,
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  Speaker 1: and then it was a The third one was like
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  Speaker 1: a very uplifting song, more like you got this type
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  Speaker 1: of song, you know, and it's gonna be a great
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  Speaker 1: day and all the things. So now it was So
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  Speaker 1: that was Thursday morning, So then there's Friday. Friday started
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  Speaker 1: feeling icky, my sinuses and nose running and all that.
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  Speaker 1: And whenever my nose starts running, I'm just like those
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  Speaker 1: those are held back tears, and this is the way
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  Speaker 1: they're flowing.
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  Speaker 4: And then.
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  Speaker 1: Last night, I love the I love the mushy you know,
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  Speaker 1: Christmas movies like Hallmark stuff and all that.
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  Speaker 4: So last night I was watching a.
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  Speaker 1: Movie and it just I didn't have like a meltdown
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  Speaker 1: or anything, but it was just enough to let some
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  Speaker 1: more tears fall. And so so I was like, Okay,
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  Speaker 1: we're just gonna sit here with this and feel it.
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  Speaker 1: But yeah, all around that full moon.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, and I've had similar And it's funny that you're
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  Speaker 2: saying even last night, because even last night. So we
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  Speaker 2: had my grandson's birthday hit, my oldest grandson's birthday party
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  Speaker 2: yesterday and it's like everything was great, and I wanted
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  Speaker 2: to blame it on possible foods. Maybe there's some diuyes
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  Speaker 2: in the foods, because I've been really I've been doing
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  Speaker 2: like parasite clans. I've been doing stuff, and I've noticed
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  Speaker 2: a difference with more clarity.
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  Speaker 3: In my mind. I feel more light.
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  Speaker 2: I feel like my mind's not constantly chattering all the time.
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  Speaker 3: So I was having all those feelings and I.
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  Speaker 2: Had all that stuff like sugars and stuff, and I
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  Speaker 2: haven't had any of that.
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  Speaker 3: And I'm coming home and I'm crying. I'm crying in
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  Speaker 3: my vehicle.
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  Speaker 2: I get home, I'm almost home, and I was supposed
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  Speaker 2: to have a package yesterday that was my grandson's, one
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  Speaker 2: of his presents, but it just wasn't going to come
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  Speaker 2: in in time.
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  Speaker 3: Find out that it was going to.
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  Speaker 2: The wrong address, so they sent it back and it's
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  Speaker 2: like I couldn't stop it or anything like that.
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  Speaker 3: And then it's like.
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  Speaker 2: Freeman was actually at the mailbox talking to the guy,
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  Speaker 2: said our names and everything, and he would have had
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  Speaker 2: the package on there. It just would have had the
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  Speaker 2: incorrect address. And it's like there were so many opportunities
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  Speaker 2: that it could have happened, but that was it was
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  Speaker 2: a path of least resistance that was a gateway for
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  Speaker 2: me to have that experience of releasing. So then I
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  Speaker 2: get in the house and I figure out that it
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  Speaker 2: was the wrong address. So it's like it was last night.
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  Speaker 2: I felt like I was schizophrenic, psychotic, I don't know,
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  Speaker 2: because it would go up and then I'd feel like
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  Speaker 2: happy again, and all of a sudden, I'd start crying again,
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  Speaker 2: and then I'd be happy again, and it's like and
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  Speaker 2: things would set me off throughout whatever, and it was
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  Speaker 2: just all that it was was just to release. It
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  Speaker 2: was to release this stuff, and gosh, I learned so
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  Speaker 2: much from just having those experiences, honestly and without even
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  Speaker 2: putting any going along that path. So that's the emotional part.
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  Speaker 2: But then and I'm at the party and I'm recognizing things,
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  Speaker 2: but I'm not emotionally getting affected or attached to any
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  Speaker 2: of these things. The way they're picking on one of
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  Speaker 2: the kids, and I say picking on one of the
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  Speaker 2: kids from my perspective, but it was a trigger for me.
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  Speaker 3: I recognized that. So it didn't bother me at all.
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  Speaker 2: Last night, but last night or during that time, and
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  Speaker 2: then last night it starts coming to me about this stuff,
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  Speaker 2: and my victim almost wanted to come up real quick
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  Speaker 2: and be like, oh my gosh, this is happening. It's like, no,
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  Speaker 2: wait a minute, this was showing up for me. If
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  Speaker 2: this is triggering me, it's triggering my child, it's not triggering.
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  Speaker 2: It's not the triggering of that that is going on.
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  Speaker 2: If I recognize this and I process it, no longer
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  Speaker 2: do they have to be in that space to be
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  Speaker 2: the teachers to show me that this is an opportunity
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  Speaker 2: for my growth. And I can stay in that space,
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  Speaker 2: and I can and be in that victim space because
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  Speaker 2: really it's really easy when it comes to your grandkids
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  Speaker 2: and your kids and everything. But I could stay in
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  Speaker 2: that space, and I chose not to. I chose not
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  Speaker 2: to because I could see the bigger picture. The bigger
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  Speaker 2: picture was my little girl was affected because that's the
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  Speaker 2: way I was treated by somebody in my life. I
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  Speaker 2: can't pinpoint who it was, and I don't need to.
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  Speaker 2: It's not even a necessary process. But it's for me
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  Speaker 2: to go into that process. I can ask myself, is
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  Speaker 2: this true? I can feel the emotion. There's all these
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  Speaker 2: different things that were coming through so it was an opportunity,
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  Speaker 2: that's all that.
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  Speaker 3: It was an opportunity for my growth. Yea, like being tested,
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  Speaker 3: I guess, and.
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  Speaker 1: Mine was Mine was pent up energy and I knew that,
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  Speaker 1: and I just knew at some point it.
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  Speaker 4: Was going to be released. I didn't know when. Of course,
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  Speaker 4: never a convenient time.
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  Speaker 2: Because then it played to release and then it uplifted you.
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  Speaker 2: So it was like, how amazing. I mean it's not timely.
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  Speaker 2: I mean we would not think it's timely, right, but
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  Speaker 2: it was so divine.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, And even when when the uplifting songs started playing
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  Speaker 1: like out loud, I said, you guys are good. You
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  Speaker 1: guys are really good. But mine was like a pent
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  Speaker 1: up energy of just life experiences, people in my life,
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  Speaker 1: questioning again where I'm at with myself in my life,
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  Speaker 1: you know, thinking about purpose. Just it was just a
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  Speaker 1: variety of things compounded that were stored and I know
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  Speaker 1: the answers to all of them, and where I'm at
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  Speaker 1: with with my life, I'm okay, Like things actually are
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  Speaker 1: really good.
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  Speaker 4: It's my idea of my perception of.
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  Speaker 1: You know, the same questions other people ask, why am
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  Speaker 1: why are why aren't my finances better? Why aren't I'm
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  Speaker 1: further along in my life than I am. Why you know,
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  Speaker 1: you just start asking all these different questions. But that
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  Speaker 1: was me dipping into they're not good enough story, they're
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  Speaker 1: not feeling good enough about myself, and realizing, well, you're
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  Speaker 1: taking that peace he's looking at that, and then really
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  Speaker 1: looking at look at everything you've accomplished in this year,
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  Speaker 1: look at everything you've already done in your lifetime. Look
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  Speaker 1: at all the amazing things you have done. And yesterday
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  Speaker 1: I received two messages, one in person and one through
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  Speaker 1: a text talking about well least two people, different spectrums,
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  Speaker 1: different two different different communications of talking about the retreats
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  Speaker 1: I did and how they affected them and how blessed
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  Speaker 1: they were and all these things. And I'm just like, wow,
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  Speaker 1: two people in one day. And one of those things
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  Speaker 1: for me is for a while now, I've been wanting
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  Speaker 1: to plan a retreat. Timing has been huge, and having
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  Speaker 1: the time to sit down and plant it and get
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  Speaker 1: that going has been really challenging. And having the longing
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  Speaker 1: for it and the desire to do it, And so
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  Speaker 1: that was some up, more of that energy pent up,
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  Speaker 1: like I'm not I'm not doing the things that I
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  Speaker 1: am passionate about love to do. However, on the flip
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  Speaker 1: side of that, where I am with my life and
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  Speaker 1: what I'm doing is still being a positive impact on
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  Speaker 1: other people in the community.
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  Speaker 4: So it's a it's a.
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  Speaker 1: Just a mindset shift of where I am with myself.
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  Speaker 2: Nice it's that constant evolution. Yeah, it's perfect. I think
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  Speaker 2: for me, I've recognized recently, I just want to be happy,
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  Speaker 2: and I don't think. I don't think people can see
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  Speaker 2: me on here and I can show up happy sometimes
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  Speaker 2: and I can do these other things, and when I
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  Speaker 2: get around others, being of service makes me happy. But
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  Speaker 2: I would say a lot of times i can be
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  Speaker 2: in my head and I'm not feeling that I'm fully happy,
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  Speaker 2: and then I'm recognizing in my family everyone's not fully happy.
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  Speaker 3: And then I'm.
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  Speaker 2: Recognizing even from cousins and the stuff, and we're not together.
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  Speaker 2: We can say that we're happy, but then if we
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  Speaker 2: complain about something, we're not really that happy because we're
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  Speaker 2: still focused on those things. And so now that's where
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  Speaker 2: I'm at. I just that's what my goal is. I
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  Speaker 2: just want to be happy.
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  Speaker 3: I don't know what that looks like.
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  Speaker 2: I don't care about the money, I don't care about
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  Speaker 2: any of this stuff. I just want to be freaking
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  Speaker 2: happy because the money is not money comes and goes.
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  Speaker 2: It's fluid, you know, it's just we can spend it,
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  Speaker 2: we can do whatever, and happiness can come and go
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  Speaker 2: as well.
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  Speaker 3: But it's like, that's my priority right now.
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  Speaker 2: And if I can't make myself my own priority, then
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  Speaker 2: I've got a problem.
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  Speaker 3: The problem being.
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  Speaker 2: Is and it's not a problem, it's a learning lesson.
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  Speaker 2: It's an opportunity for my growth, so I can It's
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  Speaker 2: put me into a space where I that's what my
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  Speaker 2: focus is. I just want to be happy because I
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  Speaker 2: don't feel that way. I feel there's a lot of
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  Speaker 2: stuff that goes on in my mind, and I've caught
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  Speaker 2: myself keeping myself separate in situations. So there's just a
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  Speaker 2: lot of stuff that's going on.
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  Speaker 3: But with all that being said, you know, even.
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  Speaker 2: Like the spiritual stuff, looking for the next spiritual, big
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  Speaker 2: spiritual experience, right looking for that next big experience, oh man,
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  Speaker 2: And I've had some I have experiences, but those are
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  Speaker 2: short lived. Those are not something that I stay in
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  Speaker 2: for a very long space of time. And so then
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  Speaker 2: the rest of the time I've got to be able
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  Speaker 2: to find a balance for myself, find that happiness for myself.
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  Speaker 2: And so that's where I'm at right That's what I'm
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  Speaker 2: working on these days.
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  Speaker 1: Mine's just getting out of my head and back into
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  Speaker 1: my heart and taking the steps towards the things I
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  Speaker 1: want to do. And that's just it's like reinventing myself again.
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  Speaker 1: And I say again, because I've done this multiple times.
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  Speaker 4: I've also felt in this journey that.
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  Speaker 1: Because where I work has kept me so busy, that
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  Speaker 1: it's also given me time to, Okay, what do I like,
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  Speaker 1: what do I don't like?
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  Speaker 4: What do I want to do?
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  Speaker 1: Right this reassessing myself in these different ab topics or
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  Speaker 1: directions and getting a little bit more clarity. But also
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  Speaker 1: it's okay that I that I've taken that step back
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  Speaker 1: to reassess, to reignite, to reinvent, and to start again.
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  Speaker 1: But this time I'm starting from a place of I
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  Speaker 1: have more connections, which is what my place of employment
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  Speaker 1: has done for me. Has gotten me out in the community,
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  Speaker 1: which is what I wanted to do when I started
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  Speaker 1: this job.
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  Speaker 4: I've met more people that I didn't know before.
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  Speaker 1: I probably would have never had the opportunity to be
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  Speaker 1: around I've reconnected with people I have known for years
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  Speaker 1: in our community. So there's just been so many positive
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  Speaker 1: things happening. But this is what we do is as
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  Speaker 1: in general, not just with me, but in general, we've
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  Speaker 1: focus on the things that don't seem right. So it
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  Speaker 1: doesn't seem right that at this age, this is where
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  Speaker 1: my finances are and this is what I'm doing with
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  Speaker 1: my life and all these things instead of going but wow,
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  Speaker 1: look at you now. So in years past, old version
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  Speaker 1: of myself, I would have stayed in that beating up
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  Speaker 1: myself with where I'm at. I would not have had
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  Speaker 1: the the ability because I've been so busy in my
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  Speaker 1: head with what was wrong. I wouldn't have the ability
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  Speaker 1: to be to give myself kudos for all the things
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  Speaker 1: that have gone right and all the things that I've
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  Speaker 1: gotten through and all the things that I've adjusted and
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  Speaker 1: shifted and changed, and I wouldn't have I wouldn't have
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  Speaker 1: been able to do that. So where I'm talking.
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  Speaker 4: You know, I've been in this for.
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  Speaker 1: A couple of weeks and I'm just was waiting for
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  Speaker 1: those tiers to flow so I could release that energy
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  Speaker 1: on my body. And now it's like, Okay, let's start now.
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  Speaker 1: Today is a good day to start. And this is
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  Speaker 1: what I want people to hear is today is a
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  Speaker 1: good stay to start. We tend to wait until Monday,
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  Speaker 1: we tend to wait until the first of the year.
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  Speaker 1: We tend to wait and keep pushing it out. But
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  Speaker 1: when the energy is there, it's time to start. And
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  Speaker 1: of course I'm saying this out loud, not only to
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  Speaker 1: whoever's listening, but to myself.
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  Speaker 4: Today's a good day to start.
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  Speaker 1: So I have it on my agenda for today to
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  Speaker 1: do take a couple steps towards the things that I
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  Speaker 1: want to be doing, and each day just keep working
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  Speaker 1: on that. And even when we're making baby steps towards
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  Speaker 1: something is better than not doing it at all. It's
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  Speaker 1: better than just saying, okay, well, when all this is
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  Speaker 1: an alignment, then I will do it.
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  Speaker 4: No, just start, because then you get.
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  Speaker 1: The momentum going. When you get the momentum going, then
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  Speaker 1: the universe can can collaborate with you to help you along,
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  Speaker 1: and doors open, people come to you, opportunities.
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  Speaker 4: Are there, and.
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  Speaker 1: That's the best thing to do is start, take the step,
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  Speaker 1: start moving.
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  Speaker 3: And I've been and I have been doing all those
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  Speaker 3: things as well.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, I have been doing the moving, I do
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  Speaker 2: the I meditate every single day.
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  Speaker 3: I write if I wake up.
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  Speaker 2: I have a tendency to wake up between two and four,
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  Speaker 2: so I'll be up and I'll come and write. I
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  Speaker 2: talk to God the whole time I'm writing, for understanding,
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  Speaker 2: for whatever. I just skip all the middleman anymore and
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  Speaker 2: go right to the source for me, and that is
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  Speaker 2: beneficial for me. But it's also I still have this
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  Speaker 2: I don't know if I want to say it's chatter,
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  Speaker 2: but it's like this heaviness. And then I have to
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  Speaker 2: check in with myself and ask is this my heaviness?
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  Speaker 2: Because we can pick up on so many other people's stuff,
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  Speaker 2: and it's like there's a lot of stuff going on
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  Speaker 2: in the world right now too. But it's really for
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  Speaker 2: me to be for me to stand in my power,
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  Speaker 2: and I don't stay in these moments, but when I
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  Speaker 2: am in the moment, I just allow it to be.
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  Speaker 3: I just allow it to be.
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  Speaker 2: It's just a huge recognizing for myself, even with my family,
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  Speaker 2: like the whole family not being happiness, like we're the
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  Speaker 2: ones to make that change because for whatever reason, there
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  Speaker 2: has been an unhappiness that has followed, you know what
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  Speaker 2: I mean. And maybe that's not just for my family,
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  Speaker 2: it's probably maybe more in general for the world. But
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  Speaker 2: it's like it's because we're being bored again. We're like
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  Speaker 2: shifting from these areas that the old paradigm is, we
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  Speaker 2: don't resonate with them anymore. So everything's changing so much,
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  Speaker 2: so we're like having to re identify ourselves. Like you're
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  Speaker 2: even talking about, you know, knowing that you're reinventing yourself again.
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  Speaker 2: That's because everything's changing right now and we don't exist
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  Speaker 2: the same, we don't thrive the same. We're totally different
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  Speaker 2: beings now and so it's just figuring out what does
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  Speaker 2: that look like for you. And it's not getting caught
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  Speaker 2: up in it being depressed. It's being caught up in
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  Speaker 2: and feeling it. Because I spent most of my life
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  Speaker 2: being so angry. I can only remember and I can't
• 19:26
  Speaker 2: remember being happy like that. But I just remember seeing
• 19:28
  Speaker 2: a picture of me as maybe I was like eighteen
• 19:31
  Speaker 2: months old or something like that, that I was super
• 19:34
  Speaker 2: like smiling, happy, look just like a happy kid, just
• 19:37
  Speaker 2: having a good time. So it's just a it's a
• 19:40
  Speaker 2: whole lot of recognizing and it's a whole lot of
• 19:42
  Speaker 2: going within to explore all these things, because before I
• 19:46
  Speaker 2: wouldn't even looked at any of this stuff. I wouldn't
• 19:48
  Speaker 2: have explored any of it. And then I pay attention
• 19:51
  Speaker 2: to the things that I'm drawn to. I'm paying attention
• 19:53
  Speaker 2: to what's happening around me. How is it showing up
• 19:56
  Speaker 2: for me? Because it's making me ask questions differently instead
• 19:59
  Speaker 2: of because it's so so easy to step into the
• 20:00
  Speaker 2: old processes of victim or the old process of angers.
• 20:04
  Speaker 2: Like I was just telling Freeman last night, I said,
• 20:06
  Speaker 2: I can do anger. I can do protect it. I
• 20:09
  Speaker 2: mean where I protect myself. I can do defensive.
• 20:12
  Speaker 3: I can do all those.
• 20:13
  Speaker 2: Things, but just doing happiness because he said, you've never
• 20:17
  Speaker 2: learned how I had not learned how so it's learning
• 20:19
  Speaker 2: How so I'm going to have so many experiences that
• 20:22
  Speaker 2: are going to show up for me, showing me how
• 20:24
  Speaker 2: what that looks like?
• 20:25
  Speaker 3: What does that feel like?
• 20:27
  Speaker 2: Even though I felt like I've gone so far, like
• 20:29
  Speaker 2: I've come such a long way to get to where
• 20:31
  Speaker 2: I'm at right now, then it gets into a little
• 20:33
  Speaker 2: bit of a heavy and it's like it's okay, it's
• 20:36
  Speaker 2: okay for me to be in this heavy space. It's
• 20:38
  Speaker 2: all right. There's no place that I have to be.
• 20:41
  Speaker 2: There's no place that I have to be, because otherwise
• 20:43
  Speaker 2: I'm comparing myself to somebody else or I'm judging myself,
• 20:46
  Speaker 2: and I'm just learning to not do that, because the
• 20:50
  Speaker 2: more that we get into that space of judging ourselves
• 20:52
  Speaker 2: or others, we kind of limit ourselves. We kind of
• 20:55
  Speaker 2: shut ourselves off from everything else. And so I'm just
• 20:58
  Speaker 2: exploring the things I reckon is what I'm being drawn
• 21:01
  Speaker 2: to do. I know what I'm gonna do when I
• 21:03
  Speaker 2: grow up, have no clue do I know my passions are.
• 21:07
  Speaker 3: I'm learning and they change, and that's the whole thing.
• 21:09
  Speaker 2: You think you've got everything like tacked down and you've
• 21:12
  Speaker 2: got this figured out, and then all of a sudden,
• 21:14
  Speaker 2: there's a big shift that happens and you don't have
• 21:16
  Speaker 2: it figured out again, and that's okay.
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: I'm still safe.
• 21:20
  Speaker 2: I've got to have faith and know that no matter what,
• 21:22
  Speaker 2: I'm going in the right direction for me.
• 21:24
  Speaker 3: And so that's what I know. That's what I have faith.
• 21:27
  Speaker 2: I believe that I know that I'm being led and
• 21:30
  Speaker 2: this is part of the process, and I've got to
• 21:33
  Speaker 2: be okay with it.
• 21:34
  Speaker 3: I don't.
• 21:34
  Speaker 2: I guess I don't have to be okay with it.
• 21:36
  Speaker 2: But for me looking at everything, it's just like exploring
• 21:39
  Speaker 2: it and looking at what does it look like for me?
• 21:42
  Speaker 2: Because what the processes I'm going through may not work
• 21:45
  Speaker 2: for somebody else. My medicine isn't always the same medicine
• 21:48
  Speaker 2: for someone else. My medicine for me might be poisoned
• 21:51
  Speaker 2: for somebody else. It's an individual experience.
• 22:00
  Speaker 1: I go back to, you know, learning to be happy.
• 22:03
  Speaker 1: I had to do the same thing. And I watched people.
• 22:06
  Speaker 1: I'd observe them.
• 22:07
  Speaker 4: I would you know, those.
• 22:08
  Speaker 1: People that always seem to have their light shining, They're
• 22:13
  Speaker 1: always laughing, positive, upbeat. I would watch them and I
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: would observe them, and what are they doing? What what
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: is it they're doing that I could implement.
• 22:25
  Speaker 4: We sat with or I sat with my son recently.
• 22:31
  Speaker 1: And he was going over It was nothing new to me,
• 22:38
  Speaker 1: but he was going over you know, dreams, like what
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: dreams do you have? What are the those audacious goals
• 22:47
  Speaker 1: and and all the things. And there was a group
• 22:51
  Speaker 1: of us. It wasn't just him and I, it was
• 22:52
  Speaker 1: a group of us. He's like, write those down and
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: and so I sat there and I wrote down a
• 23:00
  Speaker 1: things and and then I just sat there.
• 23:08
  Speaker 4: Thinking. And we got all done.
• 23:12
  Speaker 1: We were having conversation and I said, you know, I
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: don't know what.
• 23:19
  Speaker 4: That looks like.
• 23:22
  Speaker 1: Because I wasn't exposed to that kind of thing. It
• 23:27
  Speaker 1: was all about necessities. So as long as my necessities
• 23:31
  Speaker 1: are met, anything outside of that, I don't know.
• 23:38
  Speaker 4: I'm getting emotional now about it.
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: I didn't then, but I am now. But being able
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: to dream, I was like, I don't know what that
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: looks like. I need somebody to share with me their
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: dreams so then I can go what is that for me?
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: Or not?
• 23:57
  Speaker 2: Yeah?
• 23:59
  Speaker 1: So learn to be happy is one of those things.
• 24:01
  Speaker 1: If you don't know how, you have to learn, and
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: it's one of the most important things we can do
• 24:09
  Speaker 1: in these bodies, because without that, you just.
• 24:15
  Speaker 4: Stay in that victim mode and.
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: You stay in the space of not good enough, not
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: worthy enough, feeling like you have no purpose. And it's
• 24:34
  Speaker 1: find the people, listen to the people, observe the people
• 24:37
  Speaker 1: who are demonstrating joy and happiness, and learn from them
• 24:43
  Speaker 1: and implement it because that's so important.
• 24:47
  Speaker 2: And that having that you're describing is exactly where I've been. Yeah,
• 24:50
  Speaker 2: so it's like I'm looking, I'm like gonna go do
• 24:53
  Speaker 2: something with my hair. I'm gonna, you know, just trying
• 24:55
  Speaker 2: to find ways to uplift me.
• 24:58
  Speaker 3: I don't know, you know, I don't know.
• 24:59
  Speaker 2: Sometimes I feel it might be trying to grasp ahold
• 25:01
  Speaker 2: of what I'm familiar with. And so I'm not sure
• 25:05
  Speaker 2: about that, about all that stuff either, because this is like,
• 25:08
  Speaker 2: this is like all baby steps, like you were saying earlier.
• 25:11
  Speaker 3: This is like.
• 25:13
  Speaker 2: I'm at the party yesterday and I witnessed this one gallon.
• 25:16
  Speaker 2: She's just talking and it's like she's been through a lot,
• 25:19
  Speaker 2: but her energy is this light, you know what I mean.
• 25:22
  Speaker 2: It's it's she could laugh easily, and there was things
• 25:26
  Speaker 2: like that, and I do and I'm so much better
• 25:29
  Speaker 2: than I was, and as far as a comparison to that,
• 25:33
  Speaker 2: or as far as a gauge to that. So I
• 25:35
  Speaker 2: have an idea where I'm at, but it's like the
• 25:37
  Speaker 2: same thing not knowing.
• 25:38
  Speaker 3: I have no idea.
• 25:39
  Speaker 2: I have zero idea what I'm going to do. I
• 25:42
  Speaker 2: have no idea what why I'm here or you know,
• 25:46
  Speaker 2: And and that changes because I can talk to people
• 25:48
  Speaker 2: and then I feel like oh, one night, I was
• 25:51
  Speaker 2: having like two or three people contacting me and like thinking,
• 25:53
  Speaker 2: you know, it's like kind of along the same lines
• 25:55
  Speaker 2: that you're saying, thanking me for being there and for
• 25:58
  Speaker 2: the information. It's like, but I don't see it or
• 26:00
  Speaker 2: I don't feel it in those times. But it's another
• 26:03
  Speaker 2: way of the universe reminding me of you know, there's
• 26:07
  Speaker 2: truth to all of this stuff. The information I'm receiving
• 26:11
  Speaker 2: from them, there's truth to that, and it's to look
• 26:14
  Speaker 2: at it. But it's like being in that heavy space.
• 26:16
  Speaker 2: It's and like I said, it's not a long term thing,
• 26:19
  Speaker 2: but it's something that i've kind of been. I'm in
• 26:22
  Speaker 2: right now, so I'm just kind of going through the process.
• 26:25
  Speaker 2: That's that's honest. That's that's where I'm at right now.
• 26:27
  Speaker 2: That's how I feel right now. And it's and it's
• 26:30
  Speaker 2: being in that space is not always easier on your
• 26:32
  Speaker 2: relationships that are around you. It's not it affects everything,
• 26:36
  Speaker 2: but it's not. It's not the end of the world, honestly,
• 26:40
  Speaker 2: it's not. But it's it just is just being in
• 26:43
  Speaker 2: those moments of that and it's exploring because what is
• 26:46
  Speaker 2: the creative is created a desire for me want to
• 26:49
  Speaker 2: want to be happy. It's created a desire or a
• 26:52
  Speaker 2: recognition that maybe I have not been happy. But just
• 26:55
  Speaker 2: like you said, out of necessity, I've been pushing myself
• 26:58
  Speaker 2: to be all these things and it's the truth to
• 27:01
  Speaker 2: have a dream. I'll start getting into those spaces where
• 27:03
  Speaker 2: I can be this master creator and I can flow
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: with it, and then other times and that's very short lived.
• 27:10
  Speaker 3: For me right now.
• 27:11
  Speaker 2: But I've had a taste of it, so i know
• 27:13
  Speaker 2: what it tastes like, I know what it looks like,
• 27:15
  Speaker 2: I know how it feels, but I don't know how
• 27:17
  Speaker 2: to be there all the time. And so your information,
• 27:20
  Speaker 2: the knowledge that you're sharing right now and your experience
• 27:23
  Speaker 2: is very valuable to me because it gives me the
• 27:25
  Speaker 2: opportunity to really explore that, really look around for it.
• 27:30
  Speaker 2: Because now that I'm I'm kind of tuning into it,
• 27:32
  Speaker 2: it's going to show up. I think I talked to
• 27:33
  Speaker 2: it a little while ago. I'm going to tune in
• 27:35
  Speaker 2: directly to God. I'm not going to just tune into
• 27:38
  Speaker 2: the angels and see how they feel. I want to
• 27:39
  Speaker 2: tune into what does God feel like to me? And
• 27:42
  Speaker 2: so I'm tuning in so I'm tuning into this experience
• 27:45
  Speaker 2: that I'm tuning into what does happy feel like to me?
• 27:49
  Speaker 2: And I'm not sure? And so that I'm asking withinside
• 27:52
  Speaker 2: of myself. I don't know how to do this. I
• 27:53
  Speaker 2: don't know what that looks like. I don't know what
• 27:55
  Speaker 2: that feels like. I truly do not know what how
• 28:00
  Speaker 2: to be happy.
• 28:01
  Speaker 3: All the time?
• 28:02
  Speaker 2: How to feel happy all the time? I don't It
• 28:04
  Speaker 2: was easy when I came together with groups or whatever,
• 28:06
  Speaker 2: because you get to be in a different space. Maybe
• 28:09
  Speaker 2: I took more time to honor a space, and sometimes
• 28:11
  Speaker 2: I wasn't in a great space either, but I was
• 28:13
  Speaker 2: able to be lifted or lifted myself up during that
• 28:16
  Speaker 2: time frame. But we're in a time space where we
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: can't rely on the stuff outside.
• 28:20
  Speaker 3: Of us anymore.
• 28:21
  Speaker 2: It just doesn't work. It just doesn't work. It might
• 28:26
  Speaker 2: give you a temporary relief, but it's temporary.
• 28:30
  Speaker 3: For myself.
• 28:33
  Speaker 4: Everything's temporary.
• 28:36
  Speaker 3: It really is.
• 28:37
  Speaker 2: Yeah, nothing is, everything is, everything is ever changing.
• 28:42
  Speaker 1: And another thing I remember when you were talking is
• 28:46
  Speaker 1: twenty twenty five in a universal number is nine. So
• 28:50
  Speaker 1: it's the end of a cycle, which means twenty twenty
• 28:54
  Speaker 1: six is the beginning of a new cycle.
• 28:56
  Speaker 3: Nice.
• 28:57
  Speaker 1: So we're going into a one year so everything's starting ANEW.
• 29:03
  Speaker 1: So this is also this emotional release, could be releasing
• 29:10
  Speaker 1: the old allowing an energy shift that's been maybe like
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: I mentioned earlier, it's just stuff that's been compounding and
• 29:26
  Speaker 1: in me and just being held on to for whatever reason,
• 29:31
  Speaker 1: and now the release is happening.
• 29:32
  Speaker 4: Also, you know, saying that the.
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: Full moon is that this was the most powerful full
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: moon for the year and the last one of this year.
• 29:44
  Speaker 1: And if you don't know, the full moon energy is
• 29:48
  Speaker 1: usually starts about three days before then you have the
• 29:51
  Speaker 1: day of and then three days after. So it would
• 29:57
  Speaker 1: make sense for us to be having this emotional release
• 30:00
  Speaker 1: within this timeframe at this time in December and maybe
• 30:08
  Speaker 1: clearing up some energy, releasing some energy so for the
• 30:12
  Speaker 1: one year now we start ANEW and so it would
• 30:17
  Speaker 1: be important at this time during December to start laying out,
• 30:24
  Speaker 1: you know, your goals, maybe writing down some dreams that
• 30:27
  Speaker 1: you have, cleaning up some clutter. I know for myself,
• 30:34
  Speaker 1: I have some some piles that.
• 30:37
  Speaker 4: Have generated and.
• 30:41
  Speaker 1: Two in the next couple of weeks I'll be taking
• 30:44
  Speaker 1: time to clean all that up and cleansing my space,
• 30:50
  Speaker 1: my home and.
• 30:53
  Speaker 4: Just really bringing in fresh new energy.
• 30:58
  Speaker 1: And if you have some pent up emotional stuff going on,
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: then you know, you grab a pen and paper and
• 31:06
  Speaker 1: just start writing and see what comes up.
• 31:08
  Speaker 4: And that's a good rate way to release it as well.
• 31:13
  Speaker 2: It's been very beneficial for myself for sure. And you're
• 31:16
  Speaker 2: talking about cleaning up. It's like, my office is actually
• 31:20
  Speaker 2: very well organized now because I worked on it this
• 31:22
  Speaker 2: last week and the timeframes obviously fit emotional wise, with
• 31:28
  Speaker 2: the full moon for releasing totally fits. Also, we're in
• 31:33
  Speaker 2: the year of a Snake if anyone wants to, you know,
• 31:36
  Speaker 2: look at it into any of that information, and that's shedding.
• 31:41
  Speaker 2: We're like having lots of shedding and going and growing
• 31:44
  Speaker 2: and shedding and growing and shedding and growing. So it's
• 31:46
  Speaker 2: a constant thing. So I wasn't even paying attention that
• 31:50
  Speaker 2: we were in a nine years still. I was like,
• 31:51
  Speaker 2: not even in that space. But it's all kind of
• 31:53
  Speaker 2: goes together and then we are getting ready to go
• 31:55
  Speaker 2: into this new space where probably I'm not even gonna
• 32:00
  Speaker 2: I'll be blown away by what happiness really is and
• 32:02
  Speaker 2: what that looks like and what that feels like for
• 32:04
  Speaker 2: myself in the meantime, I just have faith that I
• 32:07
  Speaker 2: know that I'm still going in the right direction. The
• 32:10
  Speaker 2: heavy feelings would totally make sense with everything like we
• 32:14
  Speaker 2: just saw. Like I just said, it really just makes
• 32:16
  Speaker 2: a lot of sense because it is I have noticed it.
• 32:21
  Speaker 2: And like I said, it's been like a little bit
• 32:23
  Speaker 2: of a roller coaster, right because it all have like
• 32:25
  Speaker 2: a great moments and everything's great, and then it's like
• 32:27
  Speaker 2: back down again, and it's back up again, and it's
• 32:29
  Speaker 2: down again. So it's just, you know, just enjoying the
• 32:33
  Speaker 2: ride as I go. Because there was a time that
• 32:36
  Speaker 2: I would not have felt any of these emotions. I
• 32:38
  Speaker 2: wouldn't allow myself to feel any of these motions. I
• 32:40
  Speaker 2: would have cleaned the whole house. I would have done
• 32:43
  Speaker 2: whatever I could do, and I still do stuff. Believe me,
• 32:46
  Speaker 2: I'm still doing. There's still a lot of stuff I'm doing.
• 32:48
  Speaker 2: I could turn on music and listen to that and
• 32:49
  Speaker 2: seeing all day long, which is expressing self and it's
• 32:53
  Speaker 2: allowing flow through self. But at some point for me,
• 32:56
  Speaker 2: it could be distracting and it keeps me from setting
• 32:59
  Speaker 2: still and actually feeling the emotions or feeling the feelings.
• 33:02
  Speaker 3: So so instead two to four.
• 33:05
  Speaker 2: Is when I wake up in the middle of the night,
• 33:06
  Speaker 2: so that I can process and from a neutral space
• 33:08
  Speaker 2: because I've had a few hours of rest, and then
• 33:11
  Speaker 2: can go into that space.
• 33:12
  Speaker 3: And I'm okay with that.
• 33:14
  Speaker 2: Before, when I was younger, I would have been like
• 33:16
  Speaker 2: furious that I even woke up, and ah, I got
• 33:19
  Speaker 2: that much time to slave left, and all these thoughts
• 33:21
  Speaker 2: that I used to have that I don't even.
• 33:23
  Speaker 3: Carry with me any longer.
• 33:25
  Speaker 2: So now it's just to be in that space of Okay,
• 33:28
  Speaker 2: I'm awake, So I'm gonna go ahead and meditate anyways,
• 33:31
  Speaker 2: I'm awake, I'm gonna go ahead and write anyways, I'm
• 33:34
  Speaker 2: going to go ahead and talk to God anyways, I'm
• 33:35
  Speaker 2: gonna whatever whatever it is that I'm guided to you
• 33:38
  Speaker 2: in that moment.
• 33:41
  Speaker 4: Nice.
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: Yeah, So wherever you are with yourself, you're okay.
• 33:49
  Speaker 4: If you feel like you need to cry cry.
• 33:54
  Speaker 1: Well, like in my aspect, it was the music that
• 33:56
  Speaker 1: triggered me, repet and paper verb. Maybe I have a
• 34:02
  Speaker 1: sounding board, so maybe talk to just to listen so
• 34:05
  Speaker 1: you can to you, so you can just get the
• 34:08
  Speaker 1: words out and.
• 34:12
  Speaker 4: And just know that.
• 34:15
  Speaker 1: Wherever you are with yourself, with your life, you're okay,
• 34:20
  Speaker 1: and things can get better.
• 34:25
  Speaker 3: And they will. That's the whole thing. The next time
• 34:26
  Speaker 3: you see me in a recording.
• 34:28
  Speaker 2: Maybe not the very next recording, book, but in the
• 34:30
  Speaker 2: very near future, you're gonna it'll be a different perspective.
• 34:34
  Speaker 2: It'll be a different outlook because I'll feel totally different
• 34:38
  Speaker 2: because I will have released. I will have done what
• 34:40
  Speaker 2: you would have said before has done the work. I
• 34:42
  Speaker 2: will have walked through this and it will It doesn't
• 34:45
  Speaker 2: identify me, Yeah, is not the right word now anyways,
• 34:54
  Speaker 2: It's it doesn't make It doesn't define me, is what
• 34:57
  Speaker 2: the word I was looking for. Not identify. It doesn't
• 34:58
  Speaker 2: define me. It's just an experience. It's just to be felt.
• 35:03
  Speaker 4: Yeah, it's not your identity.
• 35:05
  Speaker 3: That's true.
• 35:08
  Speaker 1: So with that, friends, And when you get out, when
• 35:12
  Speaker 1: you move through the energy shift, whatever is happening, and
• 35:20
  Speaker 1: you get on the other side of that, then some
• 35:22
  Speaker 1: other things make other things may come to light, and
• 35:24
  Speaker 1: that's always an opportunity for growth and expansion as well.
• 35:28
  Speaker 1: So just be open to the entire process and notice
• 35:32
  Speaker 1: and feels, notice the shifts, notice your perceptions and perspectives,
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: and learn and grow from that. And it's all. It's
• 35:41
  Speaker 1: all worth it. It's all beneficial. You just have to have
• 35:47
  Speaker 1: this self awareness to recognize what it is, what it
• 35:50
  Speaker 1: means to you. So with that, be resourceful other people
• 35:56
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• 36:00
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• 36:38
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