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I Am Not Broken · Skirts Up!

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  What's
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  up,
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  Scarce
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  up
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  squad?
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  It
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  is
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  Samantha
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  and
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  Melissa.
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  We
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  are
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  here
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  for
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  Season
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  three,
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  episode
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  two.
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  My
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  dog
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  died
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  yesterday,
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  so
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  I'm
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  allowed
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  to
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  look
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  like
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  a
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  hot
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  mess.
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  I
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  think
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  you
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  don't
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  look
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  like
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  a.
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  Hot
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  mess,
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  but
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  you're
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  allowed
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  to
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  be
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  grieving
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  for
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  sure.
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  Yeah.
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  So
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  this
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  was
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  my
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  dog
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  that
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  I
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  got
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  when
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  I
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  was
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  probably
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  20.
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  She's
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  my
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  shepherd
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  that
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  I've
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  talked
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  about
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  a
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  few
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  times.
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  The
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  episode
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  that
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  we're
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  sharing
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  today
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  is
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  like
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  a
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  sequel.
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  Yeah,
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  it's
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  a.
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  Yeah,
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  a
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  sequel.
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  Sure.
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  To
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  the
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  first
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  episode.
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  An
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  extension
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  of
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  our
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  trip
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  to
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  dc.
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  Yes.
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  So
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  you
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  guys
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  heard
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  our
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  interview
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  with
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  Terry,
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  Christine,
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  and
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  learned
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  all
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  about
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  her.
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  We
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  didn't
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  really
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  talk
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  about.
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  Excuse
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  me.
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  Our
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  sessions.
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  This
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  is
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  a
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  little
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  insight
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  of
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  my
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  session.
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  Yeah.
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  So
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  you
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  guys
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  can
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  see
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  that
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  and
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  just
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  kind
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  of
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  get
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  a
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  feel
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  of
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  what
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  an
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  energy
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  session
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  looks
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  like,
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  because
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  I
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  know
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  that
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  I
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  couldn't
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  fathom,
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  like,
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  what
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  would
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  happen.
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  You
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  were
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  like,
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  what
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  is
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  this
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  even
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  about?
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  Yeah,
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  yeah,
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  exactly.
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  So
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  I
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  think
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  a
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  lot
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  of
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  people.
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  Have
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  just
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  been
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  curious
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  what.
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  What
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  is.
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  So
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  that's
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  why
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  we
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  are
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  playing
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  this
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  for
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  you
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  today,
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  which
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  I
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  think
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  it.
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  Was
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  really
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  nice
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  of
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  you
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  to
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  be
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  like,
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  the
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  guinea
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  pig
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  or
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  like
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  the
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  vulnerable
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  one,
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  because
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  we
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  recorded
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  both
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  of
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  our
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  sessions.
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  Mine
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  was
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  really,
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  really
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  personal.
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  Here's
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  we.
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  There's
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  no
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  way
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  we
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  could,
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  like,
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  fix
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  yours
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  to
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  leave
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  out,
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  like,
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  question.
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  Yeah.
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  Maybe
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  in
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  the
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  future
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  we
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  can
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  play
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  some
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  parts
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  of
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  it.
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  But
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  I
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  thought
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  it
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  was
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  really
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  nice
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  of
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  you
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  and
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  it
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  was
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  really
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  cool
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  that
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  you're,
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  like.
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  You
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  are.
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  You're
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  being
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  vulnerable
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  and
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  you're,
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  like,
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  letting
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  people
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  have
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  an
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  insight.
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  Because
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  energy
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  work
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  does
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  pull
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  out
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  parts
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  of
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  you,
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  I
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  think,
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  or
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  point
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  out
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  things.
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  Good
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  things.
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  Yeah.
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  Things
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  that
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  we
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  can
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  work
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  on.
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  Things
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  we
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  don't
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  need
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  to
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  work.
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  I
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  don't
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  know.
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  It's
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  just
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  a
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  very
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  personal
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  thing.
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  Right.
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  And
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  then
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  for
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  you
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  to,
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  like,
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  let
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  everybody
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  kind
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  of
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  have
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  a
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  peek
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  into.
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  Not
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  knowing
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  what
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  was
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  going
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  to
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  be
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  said.
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  Yeah.
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  I
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  think
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  it's
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  really
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  nice.
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  Yeah,
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  it
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  was
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  interesting.
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  And
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  actually,
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  I
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  would
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  say
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  that
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  my
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  fail.
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  I
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  did
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  like,
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  a
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  fail
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  on
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  that
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  day
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  would
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  have
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  been.
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  Was
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  a
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  dark
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  and
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  rainy
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  day.
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  It
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  was
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  so
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  stormy.
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  Oh,
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  my
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  God.
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  That
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  happened
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  in
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  Asheville,
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  too.
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  Oh,
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  my
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  God.
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  Yes.
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  Yes,
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  it
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  did.
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  Our
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  last
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  travel,
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  it
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  was
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  a
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  dark
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  and
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  stormy
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  day.
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  Yeah.
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  And
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  so
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  we're
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  trying
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  to
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  find
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  the
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  place
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  to
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  meet
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  Terry.
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  And
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  it
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  really
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  is
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  only
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  two
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  minutes
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  away
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  from
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  our
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  hotel.
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  And
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  we
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  had
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  planned
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  on
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  walking,
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  but
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  again,
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  dark
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  and
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  stormy.
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  Rainy.
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  Equipment
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  heavy.
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  Yeah.
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  And
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  so
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  we're
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  like,
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  oh,
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  we're
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  going
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  to
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  drive
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  and
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  for
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  some
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  reason,
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  that
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  was
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  confusing.
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  And
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  then
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  on,
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  like,
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  while
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  we're
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  driving
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  there,
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  I
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  get
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  a
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  call
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  from
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  my
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  mom,
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  who
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  was
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  watching
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  the
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  kids
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  and
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  the
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  dogs.
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  And
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  she's
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  frantic.
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  She's,
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  like,
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  unable
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  to
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  make
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  words.
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  And
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  she's
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  like,
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  oh,
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  my
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  gosh,
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  the
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  dog
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  just
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  got
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  into
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  a
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  fight.
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  One
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  of
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  the
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  puppies
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  attacked
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  Kaya.
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  Kaya's,
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  like,
• 2:53
  the
• 2:53
  oldest
• 2:54
  dog
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  of
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  the
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  pack.
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  She's,
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  like,
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  13.
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  And
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  I'm
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  like,
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  that
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  doesn't
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  make
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  any
• 3:00
  sense.
• 3:00
  Like,
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  Kaya
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  usually
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  bullies
• 3:02
  the
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  puppies,
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  so
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  I
• 3:03
  don't
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  understand,
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  like,
• 3:03
  what
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  has
• 3:04
  happened.
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  So
• 3:04
  I'm
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  flustered
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  because
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  I'm
• 3:05
  like,
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  well,
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  I
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  can't
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  assess
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  how
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  bad
• 3:07
  it
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  is.
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  Like,
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  you're
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  making
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  it
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  sound
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  like,
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  oh,
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  she's
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  been
• 3:10
  mauled
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  and
• 3:11
  she's,
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  like,
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  dying.
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  At
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  least
• 3:13
  that's
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  what
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  I
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  heard.
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  Yeah,
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  it
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  definitely
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  was
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  a
• 3:16
  little
• 3:17
  bit,
• 3:17
  maybe
• 3:18
  a
• 3:18
  teensy
• 3:18
  weensy
• 3:19
  overreaction
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  on
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  that
• 3:20
  part.
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  Okay,
• 3:21
  okay.
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  I
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  was
• 3:22
  like,
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  maybe.
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  I.
• 3:23
  Like,
• 3:23
  I
• 3:23
  got.
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  Sorry.
• 3:24
  I
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  do
• 3:24
  love
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  you,
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  but
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  no,
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  I
• 3:27
  mean,
• 3:27
  I
• 3:28
  could
• 3:28
  see
• 3:28
  if
• 3:29
  I
• 3:29
  were
• 3:29
  there,
• 3:30
  I
• 3:30
  also
• 3:30
  would
• 3:31
  have
• 3:31
  been
• 3:31
  in,
• 3:31
  like,
• 3:32
  this,
• 3:32
  like,
• 3:32
  shock.
• 3:33
  Yeah,
• 3:33
  she
• 3:33
  was
• 3:33
  probably
• 3:34
  in
• 3:34
  shock.
• 3:34
  Oh,
• 3:34
  yeah.
• 3:35
  And
• 3:35
  I
• 3:35
  know
• 3:35
  for
• 3:35
  sure
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  that,
• 3:36
  like,
• 3:36
  Emelia,
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  she's
• 3:37
  the
• 3:37
  one
• 3:37
  that
• 3:37
  called,
• 3:37
  right?
• 3:38
  Oh,
• 3:39
  I
• 3:39
  don't
• 3:39
  remember.
• 3:39
  One
• 3:39
  of
• 3:40
  the
• 3:40
  kids.
• 3:40
  I
• 3:40
  guess
• 3:40
  you're
• 3:41
  right.
• 3:41
  Yeah.
• 3:42
  Yeah.
• 3:43
  I
• 3:43
  think
• 3:43
  there
• 3:43
  was
• 3:43
  some
• 3:43
  shock
• 3:44
  there,
• 3:44
  too.
• 3:44
  Yeah.
• 3:45
  And
• 3:45
  she
• 3:45
  didn't
• 3:45
  know,
• 3:45
  like,
• 3:46
  really
• 3:46
  what
• 3:46
  was
• 3:46
  going
• 3:46
  on.
• 3:46
  She
• 3:46
  goes,
• 3:47
  I'll
• 3:48
  get
• 3:48
  Mimi.
• 3:49
  And
• 3:49
  yeah,
• 3:50
  so
• 3:50
  Mom's,
• 3:50
  like,
• 3:50
  explaining,
• 3:51
  like,
• 3:51
  oh,
• 3:52
  the
• 3:52
  puppy
• 3:52
  was
• 3:52
  latched
• 3:52
  onto
• 3:53
  her,
• 3:53
  like,
• 3:54
  trying
• 3:54
  to
• 3:54
  kill
• 3:54
  Kaya,
• 3:54
  and
• 3:55
  Kaya
• 3:55
  was
• 3:55
  gonna
• 3:55
  die,
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  and
• 3:56
  blood.
• 3:57
  There's
• 3:57
  blood.
• 3:57
  And
• 3:58
  I'm
• 3:58
  like,
• 3:58
  okay,
• 3:59
  all
• 3:59
  right,
• 3:59
  well,
• 3:59
  I
• 3:59
  need
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  to
• 4:00
  see
• 4:00
  the
• 4:00
  puncture
• 4:00
  wounds
• 4:01
  to
• 4:01
  know
• 4:01
  if
• 4:01
  she
• 4:01
  needs
• 4:01
  to
• 4:01
  go,
• 4:02
  like,
• 4:02
  right
• 4:02
  now.
• 4:03
  Like,
• 4:03
  what
• 4:03
  do
• 4:03
  they
• 4:03
  look
• 4:04
  like?
• 4:04
  I
• 4:04
  don't
• 4:04
  know.
• 4:04
  There's
• 4:04
  blood
• 4:05
  everywhere.
• 4:05
  And
• 4:05
  I'm
• 4:05
  like,
• 4:05
  okay,
• 4:06
  well,
• 4:06
  let's
• 4:06
  try,
• 4:06
  like,
• 4:06
  a
• 4:07
  FaceTime.
• 4:07
  And
• 4:08
  show
• 4:08
  me
• 4:08
  the
• 4:08
  wounds
• 4:09
  and
• 4:10
  that.
• 4:10
  They
• 4:10
  were
• 4:10
  struggling
• 4:11
  to
• 4:11
  do
• 4:11
  that,
• 4:12
  but
• 4:12
  every.
• 4:12
  You
• 4:12
  know,
• 4:12
  everyone's
• 4:13
  emotions
• 4:13
  are.
• 4:14
  Are
• 4:14
  heightened.
• 4:15
  And
• 4:15
  so
• 4:15
  I
• 4:15
  was
• 4:15
  like,
• 4:15
  well,
• 4:16
  I
• 4:16
  don't
• 4:16
  know
• 4:16
  what
• 4:16
  to
• 4:17
  do.
• 4:17
  Someone's
• 4:17
  gonna
• 4:18
  have
• 4:18
  to
• 4:18
  go
• 4:18
  who
• 4:18
  is
• 4:18
  calm
• 4:19
  and,
• 4:19
  like,
• 4:19
  assess
• 4:19
  this.
• 4:20
  And
• 4:20
  so
• 4:20
  I'm
• 4:20
  like,
• 4:20
  who
• 4:20
  can
• 4:21
  go?
• 4:21
  Who
• 4:21
  can
• 4:21
  go?
• 4:21
  I
• 4:21
  try.
• 4:22
  Andrew.
• 4:22
  And
• 4:22
  he
• 4:23
  was
• 4:23
  gonna
• 4:23
  leave
• 4:23
  work
• 4:24
  and
• 4:24
  go.
• 4:24
  But
• 4:25
  he
• 4:26
  also
• 4:26
  was,
• 4:26
  like,
• 4:27
  an
• 4:28
  hour
• 4:28
  away
• 4:29
  at
• 4:29
  minimum.
• 4:30
  And
• 4:30
  so
• 4:31
  then
• 4:31
  I
• 4:31
  was
• 4:31
  like,
• 4:31
  oh,
• 4:31
  let
• 4:31
  me
• 4:32
  call
• 4:32
  my
• 4:32
  stepdad.
• 4:33
  Like,
• 4:33
  can
• 4:33
  you
• 4:33
  help
• 4:34
  her?
• 4:34
  I
• 4:34
  forgot
• 4:34
  he
• 4:35
  was
• 4:35
  out
• 4:35
  of
• 4:35
  town.
• 4:35
  And
• 4:36
  so
• 4:36
  I
• 4:36
  was
• 4:36
  like,
• 4:40
  figure
• 4:40
  it
• 4:40
  out.
• 4:40
  I
• 4:41
  guess.
• 4:41
  I
• 4:41
  don't
• 4:41
  know,
• 4:41
  because,
• 4:42
  like,
• 4:42
  we
• 4:42
  were,
• 4:42
  like,
• 4:42
  in
• 4:42
  the
• 4:42
  parking
• 4:42
  lot.
• 4:43
  Yeah,
• 4:43
  it
• 4:43
  was.
• 4:44
  It
• 4:44
  was
• 4:44
  kind
• 4:44
  of
• 4:44
  like,
• 4:44
  I
• 4:45
  don't
• 4:45
  know,
• 4:45
  I
• 4:45
  can't
• 4:45
  do
• 4:45
  this
• 4:46
  right
• 4:46
  now.
• 4:46
  But
• 4:46
  you
• 4:46
  did
• 4:47
  see
• 4:47
  a
• 4:47
  picture,
• 4:47
  and
• 4:47
  you
• 4:47
  were
• 4:48
  like,
• 4:48
  okay,
• 4:48
  that's
• 4:48
  not.
• 4:49
  It's
• 4:50
  not
• 4:50
  amazing.
• 4:51
  There
• 4:51
  was
• 4:51
  blood,
• 4:52
  but
• 4:53
  you
• 4:53
  were
• 4:53
  kind
• 4:53
  of
• 4:53
  like,
• 4:54
  it's
• 4:54
  going
• 4:54
  to
• 4:54
  be
• 4:54
  okay,
• 4:55
  but
• 4:55
  I
• 4:55
  have
• 4:55
  to
• 4:55
  go
• 4:56
  in.
• 4:56
  But
• 4:56
  you
• 4:56
  were
• 4:57
  still
• 4:57
  kind
• 4:57
  of
• 4:57
  freaking
• 4:57
  out
• 4:57
  because
• 4:58
  every.
• 4:58
  There
• 4:58
  was
• 4:58
  so
• 4:59
  many
• 4:59
  emotions.
• 5:00
  Yeah.
• 5:00
  And
• 5:00
  I
• 5:00
  think
• 5:00
  I
• 5:01
  left
• 5:01
  it
• 5:02
  as.
• 5:03
  I
• 5:03
  was
• 5:03
  able
• 5:03
  to
• 5:04
  do
• 5:04
  that
• 5:04
  because
• 5:04
  I
• 5:04
  left
• 5:04
  it
• 5:04
  as.
• 5:05
  Andrew,
• 5:06
  can
• 5:06
  you
• 5:06
  go
• 5:07
  and
• 5:07
  assess
• 5:07
  this
• 5:08
  for
• 5:08
  me?
• 5:08
  And
• 5:08
  he
• 5:08
  said,
• 5:08
  yeah.
• 5:09
  I
• 5:09
  was
• 5:09
  like,
• 5:09
  okay.
• 5:10
  He
• 5:10
  said,
• 5:10
  I'll
• 5:10
  leave
• 5:10
  work
• 5:10
  now.
• 5:11
  And
• 5:11
  he.
• 5:11
  Yeah.
• 5:12
  And
• 5:12
  I
• 5:12
  said,
• 5:12
  just
• 5:12
  touch
• 5:12
  base
• 5:13
  with
• 5:13
  Mom.
• 5:13
  Y'all
• 5:13
  figure
• 5:14
  it
• 5:14
  out.
• 5:14
  I
• 5:14
  can't
• 5:14
  right
• 5:15
  now.
• 5:15
  I
• 5:15
  gotta
• 5:15
  go.
• 5:16
  And
• 5:17
  so
• 5:17
  I
• 5:17
  was
• 5:17
  able
• 5:18
  to,
• 5:18
  like,
• 5:18
  feel
• 5:18
  like,
• 5:19
  okay,
• 5:19
  I
• 5:19
  can't
• 5:20
  do
• 5:20
  anything
• 5:20
  about
• 5:20
  it,
• 5:21
  but
• 5:21
  there's
• 5:22
  someone
• 5:22
  calm
• 5:23
  and
• 5:23
  can
• 5:24
  go
• 5:24
  and
• 5:24
  assess
• 5:25
  it.
• 5:25
  And
• 5:25
  then
• 5:25
  we
• 5:25
  were,
• 5:26
  like,
• 5:26
  trying
• 5:26
  to
• 5:26
  get
• 5:26
  in
• 5:26
  the
• 5:26
  building,
• 5:27
  and
• 5:27
  all
• 5:28
  the
• 5:28
  doors
• 5:28
  were
• 5:28
  locked.
• 5:28
  And
• 5:29
  she's,
• 5:29
  like,
• 5:29
  raining
• 5:29
  so
• 5:30
  hard,
• 5:31
  so
• 5:31
  hard.
• 5:31
  And
• 5:31
  she's
• 5:32
  like,
• 5:32
  type
• 5:32
  this
• 5:33
  code
• 5:33
  in.
• 5:33
  Type
• 5:34
  this
• 5:34
  code
• 5:34
  in.
• 5:34
  Type
• 5:35
  this
• 5:35
  code
• 5:35
  in.
• 5:36
  And
• 5:36
  we're
• 5:36
  like,
• 5:36
  it's
• 5:36
  not
• 5:37
  working.
• 5:38
  So
• 5:38
  we
• 5:38
  ran
• 5:38
  around
• 5:39
  to
• 5:39
  the
• 5:39
  front
• 5:39
  of
• 5:39
  the
• 5:39
  building
• 5:39
  and
• 5:40
  we
• 5:40
  knocked.
• 5:40
  And
• 5:41
  then
• 5:41
  she
• 5:41
  was
• 5:41
  done.
• 5:42
  She's
• 5:42
  like,
• 5:42
  oh,
• 5:42
  no.
• 5:42
  I
• 5:42
  guess
• 5:43
  the
• 5:43
  cleaners
• 5:43
  or
• 5:43
  somebody
• 5:44
  came
• 5:44
  in,
• 5:44
  like,
• 5:44
  yeah.
• 5:45
  Locked
• 5:46
  the
• 5:46
  door.
• 5:46
  And
• 5:46
  I
• 5:46
  didn't.
• 5:46
  I
• 5:46
  don't
• 5:46
  know.
• 5:47
  It
• 5:47
  was
• 5:47
  just
• 5:48
  like,
• 5:48
  I'm
• 5:48
  still,
• 5:48
  like,
• 5:49
  so
• 5:49
  flustered.
• 5:49
  I'm
• 5:50
  like,
• 5:50
  God,
• 5:50
  this
• 5:50
  really
• 5:50
  sucks.
• 5:51
  And.
• 5:51
  And
• 5:51
  I
• 5:51
  remember
• 5:52
  thinking,
• 5:52
  we
• 5:52
  should
• 5:52
  just.
• 5:53
  I
• 5:54
  can't
• 5:54
  do
• 5:54
  this.
• 5:54
  But
• 5:55
  then,
• 5:55
  like,
• 5:55
  we
• 5:55
  walked
• 5:55
  into
• 5:56
  her.
• 5:56
  Her
• 5:56
  space,
• 5:57
  and
• 5:57
  it's,
• 5:57
  like,
• 5:58
  really
• 5:58
  calming.
• 5:59
  It
• 5:59
  actually
• 5:59
  was.
• 6:00
  It
• 6:00
  smelled
• 6:00
  good.
• 6:01
  It
• 6:01
  was
• 6:01
  clean.
• 6:02
  Like,
• 6:02
  obviously
• 6:02
  it
• 6:02
  was
• 6:02
  clean.
• 6:03
  Like,
• 6:03
  yeah.
• 6:03
  But,
• 6:04
  like,
• 6:04
  it
• 6:04
  was
• 6:04
  just
• 6:05
  something
• 6:05
  so
• 6:05
  neat
• 6:05
  and
• 6:06
  tidy
• 6:06
  and
• 6:07
  calm.
• 6:08
  Homey.
• 6:09
  Yeah,
• 6:09
  even.
• 6:10
  But
• 6:10
  there
• 6:11
  was
• 6:11
  definitely
• 6:11
  a
• 6:11
  calming
• 6:12
  presence,
• 6:12
  like,
• 6:13
  walked
• 6:13
  in,
• 6:14
  and
• 6:14
  I
• 6:14
  was
• 6:14
  like,
• 6:15
  okay,
• 6:15
  I
• 6:15
  can
• 6:15
  breathe.
• 6:16
  This
• 6:17
  feels
• 6:17
  good.
• 6:18
  And
• 6:18
  by
• 6:18
  time
• 6:18
  I
• 6:19
  got
• 6:19
  on
• 6:19
  the
• 6:19
  table
• 6:20
  for
• 6:20
  my
• 6:20
  reading,
• 6:20
  I
• 6:21
  was
• 6:21
  like,
• 6:22
  I'm
• 6:22
  good.
• 6:23
  Yeah.
• 6:23
  But
• 6:23
  it
• 6:24
  was
• 6:24
  a
• 6:24
  whole.
• 6:24
  A
• 6:24
  whole
• 6:25
  moment.
• 6:25
  And
• 6:25
  I
• 6:25
  really,
• 6:26
  really
• 6:26
  could
• 6:26
  have
• 6:27
  easily,
• 6:27
  like,
• 6:28
  allowed
• 6:28
  myself
• 6:28
  to
• 6:28
  spin
• 6:29
  out
• 6:29
  of
• 6:29
  control
• 6:29
  and
• 6:29
  be
• 6:29
  like,
• 6:30
  yeah,
• 6:30
  I
• 6:30
  can't
• 6:30
  do
• 6:30
  this.
• 6:30
  I
• 6:31
  mean,
• 6:31
  I
• 6:31
  know
• 6:31
  we
• 6:31
  came
• 6:31
  all
• 6:32
  the
• 6:32
  way
• 6:32
  here
• 6:32
  for
• 6:32
  this,
• 6:32
  but
• 6:32
  I
• 6:33
  can't.
• 6:33
  It
• 6:33
  was
• 6:34
  a
• 6:34
  lot
• 6:34
  right
• 6:34
  then,
• 6:34
  and,
• 6:34
  like,
• 6:35
  you
• 6:35
  not
• 6:35
  being
• 6:35
  able
• 6:35
  to
• 6:36
  be
• 6:36
  there
• 6:36
  and,
• 6:36
  like,
• 6:36
  you
• 6:36
  have
• 6:37
  no
• 6:37
  control.
• 6:37
  You're
• 6:37
  like,
• 6:38
  that's
• 6:38
  also
• 6:39
  a
• 6:39
  really
• 6:39
  scary
• 6:40
  feeling,
• 6:40
  too.
• 6:40
  Like,
• 6:40
  there's
• 6:41
  nothing
• 6:41
  you
• 6:41
  can
• 6:41
  do.
• 6:42
  Yeah.
• 6:42
  What
• 6:42
  I.
• 6:42
  What
• 6:43
  can
• 6:43
  I
• 6:43
  Do.
• 6:43
  Usually
• 6:43
  I'm
• 6:43
  the
• 6:44
  one
• 6:44
  that
• 6:44
  has
• 6:44
  to
• 6:44
  answer
• 6:45
  all
• 6:45
  the
• 6:45
  pet
• 6:45
  questions.
• 6:45
  And
• 6:46
  I'm
• 6:46
  like,
• 6:47
  I
• 6:47
  don't
• 6:47
  even
• 6:47
  know
• 6:48
  what's
• 6:48
  going
• 6:48
  on.
• 6:48
  I
• 6:48
  can't
• 6:48
  see.
• 6:49
  So
• 6:50
  it
• 6:50
  was
• 6:50
  interesting.
• 6:51
  But
• 6:52
  that's
• 6:53
  a
• 6:53
  long
• 6:53
  way
• 6:54
  to
• 6:54
  share
• 6:55
  my
• 6:55
  little
• 6:55
  fail.
• 6:57
  Oh,
• 6:57
  I
• 6:58
  think
• 6:58
  it
• 6:58
  was
• 6:58
  a
• 6:58
  successful
• 6:59
  fail.
• 7:00
  A
• 7:00
  successful
• 7:00
  fail.
• 7:01
  Because
• 7:01
  it
• 7:01
  could
• 7:01
  have
• 7:02
  been
• 7:02
  a
• 7:02
  fail,
• 7:02
  but
• 7:02
  it
• 7:03
  was
• 7:04
  saved.
• 7:05
  You
• 7:05
  kind
• 7:06
  of,
• 7:06
  like,
• 7:06
  said,
• 7:06
  I
• 7:07
  can't
• 7:07
  do
• 7:07
  anything
• 7:07
  about
• 7:08
  this.
• 7:08
  I'm
• 7:08
  going
• 7:08
  to
• 7:08
  try
• 7:08
  to,
• 7:09
  like,
• 7:09
  let
• 7:09
  go.
• 7:09
  The
• 7:09
  universe
• 7:10
  can
• 7:10
  take
• 7:10
  care
• 7:10
  of
• 7:10
  it.
• 7:11
  Whatever.
• 7:12
  Andrew
• 7:13
  is
• 7:13
  going
• 7:13
  to
• 7:13
  take
• 7:13
  care
• 7:13
  of
• 7:13
  it.
• 7:15
  And.
• 7:16
  Yeah.
• 7:17
  So
• 7:17
  it
• 7:17
  was
• 7:18
  nice.
• 7:18
  I
• 7:19
  want
• 7:19
  to
• 7:19
  talk
• 7:19
  about
• 7:19
  your
• 7:19
  fail
• 7:20
  because
• 7:20
  you
• 7:21
  still.
• 7:21
  Yeah.
• 7:22
  Have
• 7:23
  a
• 7:23
  reminder
• 7:23
  of
• 7:23
  it.
• 7:24
  Yeah.
• 7:25
  So
• 7:25
  it
• 7:25
  was
• 7:26
  really
• 7:26
  embarrassing
• 7:27
  because
• 7:28
  we
• 7:28
  went
• 7:28
  out
• 7:28
  to
• 7:28
  eat
• 7:29
  at
• 7:29
  this.
• 7:29
  It
• 7:29
  was
• 7:29
  a
• 7:29
  pretty
• 7:30
  nice
• 7:30
  place.
• 7:30
  Like.
• 7:31
  Oh,
• 7:31
  it
• 7:31
  was.
• 7:32
  It
• 7:32
  was
• 7:32
  so
• 7:32
  good.
• 7:33
  It
• 7:33
  was
• 7:33
  really
• 7:33
  good.
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  forgot
• 7:34
  the
• 7:34
  name.
• 7:34
  Oh,
• 7:35
  I
• 7:35
  won't
• 7:35
  say
• 7:35
  the
• 7:35
  name
• 7:36
  because
• 7:37
  I
• 7:37
  should
• 7:37
  remember.
• 7:38
  And
• 7:38
  we
• 7:38
  will
• 7:39
  say
• 7:39
  the
• 7:39
  name.
• 7:43
  Silver
• 7:43
  Spoons.
• 7:44
  I
• 7:44
  don't
• 7:44
  know,
• 7:44
  actually,
• 7:45
  I
• 7:45
  can't
• 7:46
  really.
• 7:46
  Remember
• 7:46
  the
• 7:47
  name
• 7:47
  of
• 7:47
  it.
• 7:47
  I
• 7:48
  don't
• 7:48
  want
• 7:48
  to,
• 7:48
  like,
• 7:48
  make
• 7:49
  it.
• 7:49
  Here's
• 7:49
  the
• 7:49
  thing.
• 7:50
  I
• 7:50
  slipped
• 7:50
  and
• 7:50
  fell
• 7:51
  on
• 7:51
  their
• 7:51
  floor.
• 7:52
  Which
• 7:53
  it
• 7:53
  happens.
• 7:54
  Right.
• 7:55
  But
• 7:55
  we
• 7:56
  weren't
• 7:56
  exactly
• 7:56
  that
• 7:57
  happy
• 7:57
  with,
• 7:58
  like,
• 7:59
  the
• 7:59
  way
• 7:59
  it
• 8:00
  was
• 8:00
  handled.
• 8:00
  No.
• 8:01
  We're
• 8:01
  walking
• 8:01
  to
• 8:02
  the
• 8:02
  bathroom
• 8:02
  and
• 8:03
  they're
• 8:03
  obviously
• 8:04
  mopping
• 8:04
  the
• 8:05
  floors.
• 8:05
  We
• 8:05
  can
• 8:06
  see
• 8:06
  that.
• 8:06
  I
• 8:06
  actually
• 8:07
  did
• 8:07
  see
• 8:08
  it.
• 8:08
  That's
• 8:08
  why
• 8:09
  I
• 8:09
  felt.
• 8:09
  Oh,
• 8:10
  okay.
• 8:10
  I
• 8:10
  saw
• 8:11
  that
• 8:11
  they
• 8:11
  were
• 8:11
  mopping
• 8:11
  the
• 8:11
  floors.
• 8:12
  We
• 8:12
  were
• 8:12
  talking,
• 8:12
  walking
• 8:13
  to
• 8:13
  the
• 8:13
  bathroom.
• 8:14
  So,
• 8:14
  like,
• 8:14
  I
• 8:14
  guess
• 8:14
  I
• 8:15
  just
• 8:15
  saw
• 8:15
  it.
• 8:16
  Look,
• 8:16
  you
• 8:16
  guys,
• 8:16
  if
• 8:17
  I'm
• 8:17
  driving
• 8:17
  and
• 8:18
  talking,
• 8:18
  I'm
• 8:18
  going
• 8:18
  to
• 8:18
  miss
• 8:19
  the
• 8:19
  exit.
• 8:19
  If
• 8:20
  I'm
• 8:20
  walking,
• 8:20
  talking,
• 8:21
  I.
• 8:23
  Okay.
• 8:23
  But
• 8:24
  I
• 8:24
  was
• 8:24
  very
• 8:24
  aware
• 8:25
  of
• 8:25
  us
• 8:25
  walking
• 8:25
  to
• 8:25
  the
• 8:26
  bathroom.
• 8:26
  And
• 8:26
  I
• 8:26
  know
• 8:27
  they
• 8:27
  were
• 8:28
  mopping
• 8:28
  and
• 8:28
  there
• 8:29
  was
• 8:29
  no
• 8:29
  wet
• 8:30
  floor
• 8:30
  sign
• 8:30
  out.
• 8:31
  And
• 8:31
  so
• 8:32
  she
• 8:32
  mega
• 8:32
  fell.
• 8:33
  I
• 8:33
  did.
• 8:34
  And
• 8:34
  Sam,
• 8:35
  you
• 8:36
  almost
• 8:36
  scared
• 8:37
  me
• 8:37
  a
• 8:37
  little
• 8:37
  because
• 8:37
  you
• 8:37
  screamed.
• 8:38
  No,
• 8:39
  I
• 8:39
  didn't.
• 8:39
  Yes,
• 8:39
  you
• 8:40
  did.
• 8:41
  You
• 8:41
  said
• 8:41
  Melissa.
• 8:43
  I
• 8:43
  was
• 8:43
  like,
• 8:44
  oh,
• 8:44
  my
• 8:44
  God,
• 8:44
  this
• 8:44
  is
• 8:44
  so
• 8:45
  embarrassing.
• 8:49
  Oh,
• 8:49
  my
• 8:50
  God.
• 8:50
  Are
• 8:50
  you
• 8:50
  okay?
• 8:52
  It
• 8:52
  was.
• 8:53
  Guys,
• 8:53
  this
• 8:54
  wasn't
• 8:54
  like
• 8:54
  a
• 8:55
  slip
• 8:55
  and,
• 8:56
  like,
• 8:56
  land
• 8:56
  on
• 8:56
  the
• 8:57
  floor.
• 8:57
  No,
• 8:57
  this
• 8:58
  was
• 8:58
  a
• 8:58
  go.
• 8:59
  Like,
• 9:00
  whole
• 9:00
  body
• 9:01
  didn't
• 9:02
  know
• 9:02
  it
• 9:02
  was
• 9:02
  coming.
• 9:03
  One
• 9:03
  leg,
• 9:03
  one
• 9:04
  knee.
• 9:04
  Yeah.
• 9:04
  Yeah.
• 9:05
  Oh,
• 9:05
  and
• 9:05
  my
• 9:05
  wrist,
• 9:06
  actually,
• 9:06
  I
• 9:07
  forgot
• 9:07
  about
• 9:07
  that.
• 9:08
  But
• 9:08
  yeah.
• 9:09
  So
• 9:09
  I
• 9:10
  was
• 9:10
  like,
• 9:10
  oh,
• 9:10
  my
• 9:10
  God.
• 9:10
  I'm
• 9:11
  sure
• 9:11
  everyone
• 9:11
  back
• 9:12
  at
• 9:12
  the
• 9:12
  table,
• 9:12
  like,
• 9:12
  for
• 9:13
  sure
• 9:13
  heard
• 9:13
  that.
• 9:13
  But
• 9:14
  they
• 9:14
  didn't.
• 9:15
  So
• 9:15
  maybe
• 9:15
  it
• 9:15
  was
• 9:16
  just
• 9:16
  in
• 9:16
  my
• 9:16
  mind.
• 9:17
  I
• 9:17
  was
• 9:17
  just
• 9:17
  embarrassed.
• 9:18
  Maybe
• 9:18
  you're,
• 9:18
  you
• 9:18
  know,
• 9:18
  you're
• 9:18
  like
• 9:19
  that.
• 9:20
  You
• 9:21
  know,
• 9:21
  I
• 9:21
  was
• 9:21
  embarrassed.
• 9:22
  And
• 9:22
  then
• 9:22
  when
• 9:22
  you
• 9:22
  were
• 9:23
  Like,
• 9:23
  I'm
• 9:23
  like,
• 9:23
  don't
• 9:23
  draw
• 9:24
  attention
• 9:24
  to
• 9:24
  me.
• 9:25
  You
• 9:25
  were
• 9:25
  really
• 9:25
  embarrassed.
• 9:26
  And
• 9:27
  so
• 9:27
  we
• 9:27
  go
• 9:27
  into
• 9:27
  the
• 9:27
  bathroom,
• 9:28
  and
• 9:29
  I'm
• 9:29
  sitting
• 9:29
  here,
• 9:30
  like,
• 9:31
  going
• 9:31
  over
• 9:32
  this
• 9:32
  in
• 9:32
  my
• 9:32
  head.
• 9:33
  Yeah.
• 9:33
  And
• 9:33
  I'm
• 9:34
  like,
• 9:34
  there
• 9:34
  wasn't
• 9:34
  a
• 9:34
  sign
• 9:35
  out
• 9:35
  there.
• 9:36
  And
• 9:37
  I
• 9:37
  was
• 9:38
  like,
• 9:38
  that's
• 9:38
  a
• 9:38
  problem.
• 9:38
  Also.
• 9:39
  No.
• 9:39
  There
• 9:40
  were
• 9:40
  three
• 9:40
  employees
• 9:41
  standing
• 9:41
  there,
• 9:41
  and
• 9:42
  no
• 9:42
  one
• 9:43
  asked
• 9:43
  if
• 9:43
  I
• 9:43
  was
• 9:43
  okay.
• 9:44
  No.
• 9:44
  And
• 9:45
  so
• 9:45
  then
• 9:45
  they
• 9:45
  all
• 9:46
  just
• 9:46
  kind
• 9:46
  of
• 9:46
  were
• 9:46
  staring.
• 9:47
  And
• 9:48
  so
• 9:48
  I'm
• 9:48
  like,
• 9:49
  oh,
• 9:50
  we're
• 9:50
  gonna
• 9:50
  say
• 9:50
  something.
• 9:51
  Like,
• 9:51
  this
• 9:51
  is
• 9:51
  ridiculous.
• 9:52
  Like,
• 9:52
  they
• 9:52
  didn't
• 9:52
  say
• 9:53
  anything.
• 9:53
  They
• 9:53
  didn't
• 9:53
  check
• 9:53
  on
• 9:54
  you,
• 9:54
  and
• 9:54
  there
• 9:54
  was
• 9:54
  no
• 9:55
  wet
• 9:55
  floor
• 9:55
  sign
• 9:56
  for
• 9:56
  you
• 9:57
  to
• 9:58
  acknowledge.
• 9:59
  And
• 10:00
  when
• 10:00
  we
• 10:01
  came
• 10:01
  out
• 10:01
  of
• 10:01
  the
• 10:01
  bathroom,
• 10:02
  guess
• 10:02
  what
• 10:02
  was
• 10:02
  on
• 10:02
  the
• 10:03
  ground?
• 10:04
  A
• 10:04
  wet
• 10:04
  floor
• 10:05
  sign.
• 10:07
  And.
• 10:08
  And
• 10:08
  who
• 10:09
  was
• 10:09
  in
• 10:09
  front
• 10:09
  of
• 10:09
  the
• 10:09
  wet.
• 10:10
  The
• 10:10
  manager.
• 10:11
  And
• 10:11
  what
• 10:11
  did
• 10:12
  he
• 10:12
  do?
• 10:12
  What
• 10:13
  did
• 10:13
  he
• 10:13
  do?
• 10:14
  I
• 10:14
  think
• 10:14
  he
• 10:14
  didn't
• 10:14
  do
• 10:14
  anything.
• 10:15
  He
• 10:15
  didn't.
• 10:16
  He
• 10:16
  just
• 10:16
  stared
• 10:16
  at
• 10:17
  us
• 10:17
  as
• 10:17
  we
• 10:17
  walked
• 10:17
  to
• 10:17
  our
• 10:18
  table.
• 10:18
  Yeah.
• 10:19
  Like,
• 10:20
  oh,
• 10:20
  do
• 10:21
  you
• 10:21
  see
• 10:21
  the
• 10:21
  sign?
• 10:21
  Do
• 10:22
  they.
• 10:22
  Are
• 10:22
  they
• 10:22
  going
• 10:22
  to
• 10:22
  say
• 10:22
  anything
• 10:23
  to
• 10:23
  us?
• 10:23
  Yeah.
• 10:24
  Huh.
• 10:25
  Yeah.
• 10:25
  So
• 10:25
  it
• 10:25
  was
• 10:26
  kind
• 10:26
  of
• 10:26
  weird,
• 10:26
  and
• 10:27
  I
• 10:27
  was
• 10:27
  pissed.
• 10:28
  Yeah.
• 10:28
  And
• 10:29
  then
• 10:29
  also,
• 10:29
  one
• 10:30
  of
• 10:30
  our
• 10:30
  other
• 10:30
  friends
• 10:30
  who
• 10:31
  was
• 10:31
  there
• 10:31
  that
• 10:31
  night
• 10:31
  was
• 10:32
  like,
• 10:32
  I'm
• 10:33
  mad
• 10:33
  that
• 10:33
  we
• 10:33
  didn't
• 10:34
  get
• 10:34
  a
• 10:34
  free
• 10:34
  meal.
• 10:36
  I
• 10:36
  mean,
• 10:36
  but
• 10:36
  it's
• 10:36
  not
• 10:36
  about
• 10:37
  the
• 10:37
  free
• 10:37
  meal.
• 10:37
  Like,
• 10:38
  it's
• 10:38
  the
• 10:38
  fact
• 10:39
  that
• 10:39
  it
• 10:39
  happened.
• 10:40
  And
• 10:40
  instead
• 10:40
  of
• 10:40
  addressing
• 10:41
  it,
• 10:41
  the,
• 10:42
  like,
• 10:42
  tried
• 10:43
  to
• 10:43
  cover
• 10:43
  it
• 10:43
  up
• 10:43
  and
• 10:43
  pretend
• 10:44
  it
• 10:44
  didn't
• 10:44
  happen.
• 10:44
  Unless
• 10:45
  you
• 10:45
  complain.
• 10:46
  Yeah.
• 10:47
  And
• 10:47
  that
• 10:47
  is
• 10:48
  fucked
• 10:49
  up.
• 10:49
  As,
• 10:49
  like,
• 10:50
  a
• 10:50
  leader,
• 10:50
  you
• 10:50
  should
• 10:50
  be
• 10:50
  like,
• 10:51
  oh,
• 10:52
  my
• 10:52
  gosh,
• 10:52
  I'm
• 10:53
  so
• 10:53
  sorry
• 10:53
  this
• 10:53
  happened.
• 10:53
  You're
• 10:53
  right.
• 10:54
  Like,
• 10:54
  if
• 10:54
  someone.
• 10:55
  Yes.
• 10:56
  Burnt
• 10:56
  themselves
• 10:56
  on
• 10:57
  your
• 10:57
  coffee
• 10:57
  machine
• 10:58
  at.
• 10:58
  The
• 10:58
  shop,
• 10:58
  I
• 10:59
  would
• 10:59
  for
• 10:59
  sure
• 10:59
  be
• 10:59
  like,
• 11:00
  oh,
• 11:00
  my
• 11:00
  gosh,
• 11:00
  I
• 11:00
  have
• 11:00
  bandies.
• 11:01
  I
• 11:01
  have.
• 11:01
  What
• 11:01
  do
• 11:01
  I
• 11:01
  need
• 11:02
  to
• 11:02
  do?
• 11:02
  Right.
• 11:02
  Let
• 11:02
  me
• 11:03
  take
• 11:03
  care
• 11:03
  of
• 11:03
  you.
• 11:03
  Even
• 11:03
  though
• 11:04
  that,
• 11:04
  like,
• 11:04
  literally
• 11:05
  would
• 11:05
  not
• 11:05
  be
• 11:05
  your
• 11:05
  problem
• 11:06
  or,
• 11:06
  like,
• 11:06
  your,
• 11:07
  like,
• 11:08
  fault.
• 11:09
  But.
• 11:09
  Yeah.
• 11:10
  So
• 11:10
  it's
• 11:11
  just
• 11:11
  really
• 11:11
  bizarre
• 11:11
  to
• 11:12
  me.
• 11:12
  But
• 11:12
  it's
• 11:13
  not
• 11:13
  their
• 11:13
  fault.
• 11:13
  I'm
• 11:14
  clumsy.
• 11:15
  I
• 11:16
  just
• 11:16
  didn't
• 11:16
  like
• 11:16
  how
• 11:17
  it
• 11:17
  was
• 11:17
  handled
• 11:17
  either.
• 11:18
  Yeah.
• 11:18
  There
• 11:18
  should
• 11:18
  have
• 11:19
  at
• 11:19
  least
• 11:19
  been
• 11:19
  a
• 11:19
  check.
• 11:19
  And
• 11:20
  you
• 11:20
  still
• 11:21
  have
• 11:22
  a
• 11:22
  giant
• 11:22
  ass
• 11:23
  bruise.
• 11:23
  And
• 11:23
  this
• 11:23
  is.
• 11:24
  Yeah.
• 11:25
  Is
• 11:25
  this
• 11:26
  a
• 11:26
  month
• 11:26
  or
• 11:26
  two
• 11:27
  months
• 11:27
  later?
• 11:28
  Oh,
• 11:28
  shoot.
• 11:28
  When
• 11:28
  did
• 11:29
  we
• 11:29
  go?
• 11:29
  We
• 11:29
  went
• 11:30
  Valentine's
• 11:30
  Day,
• 11:31
  February,
• 11:32
  March.
• 11:33
  So
• 11:33
  it's
• 11:33
  been
• 11:34
  a
• 11:34
  month
• 11:34
  and
• 11:34
  a
• 11:34
  half.
• 11:35
  It's
• 11:35
  the
• 11:35
  end
• 11:35
  of
• 11:35
  March.
• 11:36
  Still
• 11:36
  bruised.
• 11:37
  Still.
• 11:37
  No
• 11:38
  one
• 11:38
  said
• 11:38
  anything.
• 11:40
  So.
• 11:40
  Yeah.
• 11:41
  I
• 11:41
  was
• 11:41
  actually,
• 11:41
  like,
• 11:43
  trying
• 11:43
  to
• 11:44
  change
• 11:44
  shelves
• 11:44
  in
• 11:44
  a
• 11:44
  cabinet
• 11:45
  last
• 11:45
  night,
• 11:45
  and
• 11:45
  I
• 11:46
  was
• 11:46
  kneeling
• 11:46
  on
• 11:46
  the
• 11:46
  counter,
• 11:47
  and
• 11:47
  I
• 11:47
  was
• 11:47
  like,
• 11:47
  oh,
• 11:47
  that
• 11:48
  still
• 11:48
  hurts.
• 11:48
  Why?
• 11:49
  Oh,
• 11:49
  yeah.
• 11:54
  Oh,
• 11:54
  yeah.
• 11:57
  Okay.
• 11:57
  Maybe
• 11:58
  I'm
• 11:58
  really
• 11:58
  salty
• 11:59
  about
• 11:59
  it.
• 11:59
  I
• 11:59
  love
• 11:59
  it.
• 12:00
  I
• 12:00
  love
• 12:00
  it.
• 12:00
  It
• 12:00
  makes
• 12:01
  me
• 12:01
  feel
• 12:01
  good.
• 12:03
  What
• 12:04
  is
• 12:04
  funny
• 12:05
  is,
• 12:05
  I
• 12:05
  know
• 12:05
  we're
• 12:06
  rambling,
• 12:06
  like,
• 12:06
  way
• 12:06
  longer
• 12:07
  than
• 12:07
  we
• 12:07
  usually
• 12:07
  do,
• 12:08
  but
• 12:08
  we're
• 12:08
  having
• 12:08
  a
• 12:08
  good
• 12:09
  day.
• 12:09
  We
• 12:09
  are.
• 12:10
  What's
• 12:10
  funny
• 12:11
  is
• 12:11
  that
• 12:11
  in
• 12:11
  this
• 12:11
  recording,
• 12:12
  there's
• 12:13
  several
• 12:13
  moments
• 12:13
  where
• 12:14
  Terry
• 12:14
  says
• 12:15
  something,
• 12:15
  and
• 12:15
  I,
• 12:15
  like,
• 12:15
  look
• 12:15
  at
• 12:16
  Melissa.
• 12:17
  And
• 12:17
  she
• 12:18
  starts,
• 12:18
  like,
• 12:18
  cracking
• 12:19
  up.
• 12:19
  And
• 12:19
  I'm
• 12:19
  like,
• 12:19
  oh,
• 12:20
  no
• 12:20
  comments
• 12:21
  from
• 12:21
  the
• 12:21
  peanut
• 12:21
  gallery.
• 12:22
  And
• 12:22
  then
• 12:23
  there's
• 12:23
  like,
• 12:23
  another
• 12:24
  part
• 12:24
  where
• 12:25
  Terry
• 12:25
  says
• 12:25
  something
• 12:25
  that,
• 12:26
  like,
• 12:26
  kind
• 12:26
  of
• 12:26
  rubs
• 12:27
  me
• 12:27
  the
• 12:27
  wrong
• 12:27
  way.
• 12:27
  I
• 12:28
  didn't,
• 12:28
  like,
• 12:28
  really
• 12:29
  agree
• 12:29
  and
• 12:29
  not
• 12:29
  in,
• 12:29
  like,
• 12:30
  a
• 12:30
  bad
• 12:30
  way.
• 12:30
  She
• 12:30
  just
• 12:31
  called
• 12:31
  something
• 12:31
  out
• 12:32
  and.
• 12:33
  And
• 12:33
  I
• 12:33
  was
• 12:33
  like,
• 12:34
  wait
• 12:34
  a
• 12:34
  minute.
• 12:35
  Give
• 12:35
  her
• 12:36
  some
• 12:36
  credit.
• 12:36
  And
• 12:37
  I
• 12:37
  was
• 12:37
  like,
• 12:38
  you
• 12:38
  had
• 12:38
  my
• 12:38
  back.
• 12:40
  No,
• 12:40
  I
• 12:40
  do.
• 12:40
  I
• 12:41
  got
• 12:41
  it.
• 12:41
  Because
• 12:41
  I
• 12:41
  wasn't.
• 12:42
  I
• 12:42
  wasn't
• 12:42
  gonna
• 12:42
  say,
• 12:43
  like,
• 12:43
  oh,
• 12:43
  well,
• 12:43
  that's
• 12:44
  rude.
• 12:44
  Like,
• 12:44
  I've
• 12:44
  done
• 12:45
  great.
• 12:45
  Like,
• 12:46
  But
• 12:46
  Melissa
• 12:46
  was
• 12:46
  like,
• 12:47
  give
• 12:47
  her
• 12:47
  some
• 12:47
  credit.
• 12:48
  Wait
• 12:48
  a
• 12:48
  minute
• 12:48
  now.
• 12:50
  Multipar.
• 12:51
  There.
• 12:52
  That's
• 12:53
  my
• 12:53
  best
• 12:53
  friend.
• 12:54
  I
• 12:54
  got
• 12:54
  you.
• 12:56
  Oh,
• 12:56
  my
• 12:56
  God.
• 12:56
  Look,
• 12:57
  be
• 12:57
  kind
• 12:57
  to
• 12:58
  everyone.
• 12:59
  Anyway.
• 13:00
  All
• 13:00
  right,
• 13:00
  well,
• 13:01
  enjoy
• 13:02
  this
• 13:04
  episode.
• 13:04
  Yeah.
• 13:05
  With
• 13:05
  video.
• 13:06
  Get
• 13:06
  Real
• 13:06
  with
• 13:06
  Sam.
• 13:10
  Hey,
• 13:10
  you.
• 13:11
  You're
• 13:11
  tuned
• 13:11
  in
• 13:12
  to
• 13:12
  the
• 13:12
  Skirts
• 13:12
  up
• 13:12
  show
• 13:13
  with
• 13:13
  Samantha
• 13:13
  and
• 13:13
  Melissa.
• 13:14
  Join
• 13:14
  our
• 13:15
  mission
• 13:15
  to
• 13:15
  normalize
• 13:16
  failure,
• 13:17
  but
• 13:17
  still
• 13:18
  uncover
• 13:18
  the
• 13:18
  positives
• 13:19
  at
• 13:19
  every
• 13:19
  twist
• 13:20
  and
• 13:20
  turn.
• 13:20
  Skirts
• 13:21
  up,
• 13:22
  but
• 13:22
  keep
• 13:22
  your
• 13:22
  panties.
• 13:40
  All
• 13:40
  right,
• 13:41
  so
• 13:41
  what
• 13:42
  I'm
• 13:42
  going
• 13:42
  to
• 13:42
  do
• 13:42
  is
• 13:42
  I'm
• 13:42
  going
• 13:42
  to
• 13:42
  tell
• 13:43
  you
• 13:43
  exactly
• 13:43
  what
• 13:43
  you're
• 13:44
  going
• 13:44
  to
• 13:44
  receive
• 13:44
  during
• 13:45
  this
• 13:45
  session.
• 13:46
  I'll
• 13:46
  start
• 13:46
  by
• 13:46
  putting
• 13:47
  one
• 13:47
  hand
• 13:47
  on
• 13:47
  your
• 13:47
  heart
• 13:48
  and
• 13:48
  the
• 13:48
  other
• 13:48
  on
• 13:48
  your
• 13:49
  stomach.
• 13:49
  I
• 13:49
  am
• 13:50
  clairvoyant,
• 13:50
  clairaudient,
• 13:51
  and
• 13:51
  clairsentient,
• 13:52
  meaning
• 13:52
  I
• 13:53
  can
• 13:53
  see
• 13:53
  movies
• 13:53
  in
• 13:54
  my
• 13:54
  head.
• 13:54
  I
• 13:55
  can
• 13:55
  hear
• 13:55
  conversations
• 13:56
  or.
• 13:57
  Yeah,
• 13:58
  and
• 13:59
  the
• 13:59
  Claire
• 13:59
  sentient
• 14:00
  is
• 14:00
  I
• 14:00
  just
• 14:00
  know.
• 14:01
  So
• 14:01
  throughout
• 14:02
  your
• 14:02
  session,
• 14:02
  I'm
• 14:02
  going
• 14:03
  to
• 14:03
  say,
• 14:03
  Samantha,
• 14:03
  I
• 14:04
  don't
• 14:04
  care
• 14:04
  what
• 14:04
  you
• 14:04
  say.
• 14:05
  I
• 14:05
  can
• 14:05
  feel
• 14:05
  this.
• 14:06
  I
• 14:06
  know
• 14:07
  it.
• 14:07
  And
• 14:07
  it
• 14:08
  literally
• 14:08
  is.
• 14:08
  What
• 14:09
  I'm
• 14:09
  looking
• 14:09
  for
• 14:10
  is
• 14:11
  what's
• 14:11
  in.
• 14:11
  Your
• 14:12
  energy
• 14:12
  field,
• 14:13
  what
• 14:13
  is
• 14:14
  holding
• 14:14
  you
• 14:14
  back
• 14:15
  from
• 14:15
  dot,
• 14:15
  dot,
• 14:16
  dot.
• 14:16
  Because
• 14:17
  you're
• 14:17
  saying,
• 14:17
  you
• 14:17
  know,
• 14:18
  I
• 14:18
  could
• 14:18
  get
• 14:18
  frustrated,
• 14:19
  or,
• 14:19
  why
• 14:19
  does
• 14:20
  this
• 14:20
  keep
• 14:20
  happening?
• 14:20
  Or
• 14:21
  how
• 14:21
  can
• 14:21
  I
• 14:22
  get
• 14:22
  to
• 14:22
  this
• 14:23
  other
• 14:23
  place
• 14:24
  that
• 14:24
  I
• 14:24
  want
• 14:24
  to
• 14:24
  be?
• 14:25
  And
• 14:26
  that's
• 14:26
  where
• 14:26
  the
• 14:27
  subconscious
• 14:27
  is
• 14:28
  holding
• 14:28
  you
• 14:28
  from
• 14:28
  being
• 14:29
  able
• 14:29
  to
• 14:29
  get
• 14:29
  to
• 14:29
  that
• 14:30
  place.
• 14:30
  So
• 14:31
  people
• 14:31
  come
• 14:31
  to
• 14:31
  me
• 14:32
  because
• 14:33
  I
• 14:33
  can
• 14:33
  shift
• 14:34
  that
• 14:34
  energy.
• 14:34
  I
• 14:35
  can
• 14:35
  shift
• 14:35
  within
• 14:35
  that
• 14:36
  blueprint
• 14:37
  of
• 14:37
  what's
• 14:38
  going
• 14:38
  on
• 14:39
  from
• 14:39
  your
• 14:39
  childhood.
• 14:40
  And
• 14:40
  that's
• 14:41
  usually
• 14:41
  from
• 14:41
  the
• 14:41
  childhood.
• 14:42
  It
• 14:42
  doesn't
• 14:42
  mean
• 14:42
  that
• 14:42
  you
• 14:43
  have
• 14:43
  emotionally
• 14:43
  or
• 14:43
  physically
• 14:44
  abusive
• 14:44
  parents.
• 14:45
  It's
• 14:45
  nothing
• 14:45
  like
• 14:45
  that.
• 14:46
  I
• 14:46
  mean,
• 14:46
  that
• 14:47
  could
• 14:47
  be
• 14:47
  part
• 14:47
  of
• 14:48
  someone's
• 14:49
  history,
• 14:50
  but
• 14:50
  it's
• 14:50
  not
• 14:51
  for
• 14:51
  everyone.
• 14:51
  And
• 14:51
  you
• 14:52
  could
• 14:52
  have
• 14:52
  an
• 14:53
  interaction
• 14:53
  with
• 14:53
  mom.
• 14:54
  She's
• 14:55
  on
• 14:55
  the
• 14:55
  phone,
• 14:55
  you're
• 14:56
  drawing
• 14:56
  her
• 14:56
  a
• 14:56
  picture,
• 14:57
  and
• 14:57
  this
• 14:57
  is
• 14:57
  an
• 14:57
  example.
• 14:58
  And
• 14:58
  then
• 14:59
  you
• 14:59
  say,
• 14:59
  okay,
• 14:59
  Mom,
• 15:00
  I
• 15:00
  have
• 15:00
  this
• 15:00
  picture.
• 15:00
  Okay,
• 15:01
  Samantha,
• 15:01
  I'll
• 15:01
  be
• 15:01
  right
• 15:01
  with
• 15:02
  you.
• 15:02
  And
• 15:02
  she
• 15:03
  forgets.
• 15:04
  Then
• 15:04
  what
• 15:04
  it
• 15:05
  ends
• 15:05
  up
• 15:05
  happening
• 15:06
  is
• 15:06
  that
• 15:06
  you
• 15:07
  determine,
• 15:07
  all
• 15:08
  right,
• 15:08
  what
• 15:09
  can
• 15:09
  I
• 15:09
  do
• 15:09
  to
• 15:10
  be
• 15:10
  seen
• 15:10
  and
• 15:11
  heard?
• 15:11
  And
• 15:12
  so
• 15:12
  then
• 15:12
  you
• 15:12
  start
• 15:13
  doing
• 15:13
  extra
• 15:14
  things
• 15:14
  in
• 15:14
  your
• 15:14
  life
• 15:15
  as
• 15:15
  a
• 15:15
  little
• 15:15
  girl.
• 15:16
  You
• 15:16
  start
• 15:16
  doing
• 15:17
  certain
• 15:17
  things
• 15:17
  to
• 15:18
  be
• 15:18
  seen
• 15:18
  and
• 15:18
  however
• 15:19
  that
• 15:19
  looks
• 15:19
  like.
• 15:20
  Right.
• 15:20
  But
• 15:21
  as
• 15:21
  an
• 15:21
  adult,
• 15:22
  you
• 15:22
  go
• 15:23
  to
• 15:23
  work
• 15:24
  and
• 15:24
  you're
• 15:25
  really
• 15:25
  organized
• 15:26
  and
• 15:26
  you're
• 15:26
  getting
• 15:27
  your
• 15:27
  job
• 15:27
  done.
• 15:28
  And
• 15:28
  then
• 15:29
  you
• 15:29
  realize,
• 15:30
  wow,
• 15:30
  your
• 15:30
  co
• 15:30
  workers
• 15:31
  need
• 15:31
  some
• 15:31
  help.
• 15:31
  So
• 15:32
  you're
• 15:32
  like,
• 15:32
  hey,
• 15:32
  I
• 15:32
  can
• 15:32
  help
• 15:33
  you
• 15:33
  and
• 15:33
  help
• 15:33
  this
• 15:33
  one
• 15:33
  and
• 15:34
  help
• 15:34
  that.
• 15:34
  When
• 15:34
  you
• 15:34
  go
• 15:34
  home
• 15:35
  and
• 15:35
  you're
• 15:35
  exhausted
• 15:36
  and
• 15:36
  you're
• 15:36
  like,
• 15:37
  why
• 15:37
  am
• 15:37
  I
• 15:37
  the
• 15:38
  only
• 15:38
  one
• 15:38
  working
• 15:39
  so
• 15:39
  hard?
• 15:40
  Well,
• 15:40
  it
• 15:40
  was
• 15:41
  because
• 15:42
  your
• 15:42
  mom
• 15:43
  didn't
• 15:44
  give
• 15:44
  you
• 15:44
  the
• 15:44
  attention
• 15:45
  you
• 15:45
  needed,
• 15:46
  quote,
• 15:46
  unquote,
• 15:46
  at
• 15:47
  the
• 15:47
  time.
• 15:48
  And
• 15:48
  that
• 15:48
  you
• 15:49
  chose
• 15:49
  to
• 15:50
  say,
• 15:50
  I
• 15:50
  have
• 15:51
  to
• 15:51
  work
• 15:51
  harder.
• 15:52
  And
• 15:53
  that's
• 15:53
  what
• 15:53
  it
• 15:53
  shows
• 15:54
  up
• 15:54
  as
• 15:54
  an
• 15:54
  adult.
• 15:55
  You
• 15:56
  feeling
• 15:56
  like
• 15:56
  you're
• 15:56
  working
• 15:56
  harder
• 15:57
  than
• 15:57
  others.
• 15:58
  And
• 15:58
  that's
• 15:58
  just
• 15:58
  an
• 15:58
  example
• 15:59
  of
• 15:59
  many,
• 15:59
  many
• 16:00
  things
• 16:00
  as
• 16:01
  something
• 16:02
  as
• 16:02
  simple
• 16:02
  as
• 16:02
  your
• 16:03
  mom
• 16:03
  forgetting
• 16:03
  to
• 16:03
  come
• 16:04
  back
• 16:04
  to
• 16:04
  you.
• 16:05
  Okay,
• 16:05
  so
• 16:06
  it's
• 16:06
  not
• 16:06
  all
• 16:07
  emotional
• 16:08
  and
• 16:08
  physical
• 16:09
  in
• 16:09
  our
• 16:09
  childhood
• 16:10
  is
• 16:10
  the
• 16:10
  things
• 16:11
  that
• 16:11
  we
• 16:11
  say
• 16:11
  we
• 16:11
  wanted
• 16:12
  at
• 16:12
  that
• 16:12
  time
• 16:13
  and
• 16:13
  didn't
• 16:13
  get.
• 16:14
  Okay.
• 16:14
  That's
• 16:15
  also
• 16:15
  your
• 16:15
  interpretation
• 16:16
  of
• 16:16
  what's
• 16:16
  going
• 16:17
  on
• 16:17
  in
• 16:17
  your
• 16:17
  surroundings
• 16:18
  as
• 16:18
  well.
• 16:19
  So
• 16:20
  there
• 16:20
  are
• 16:20
  five
• 16:20
  ways
• 16:20
  to
• 16:20
  pick
• 16:20
  up
• 16:21
  limiting
• 16:21
  beliefs.
• 16:22
  Mom
• 16:22
  and
• 16:23
  dad
• 16:23
  or
• 16:23
  mom
• 16:23
  and
• 16:23
  dad,
• 16:24
  like
• 16:24
  figures,
• 16:24
  like
• 16:24
  grandparents,
• 16:25
  God,
• 16:26
  someone
• 16:26
  else
• 16:27
  and
• 16:27
  something
• 16:27
  else.
• 16:27
  You
• 16:28
  have
• 16:28
  a
• 16:28
  very
• 16:28
  strong
• 16:28
  mom
• 16:29
  block.
• 16:29
  Me?
• 16:30
  Yes,
• 16:31
  Very
• 16:31
  strong
• 16:31
  mom
• 16:32
  block.
• 16:32
  And
• 16:32
  a
• 16:32
  block
• 16:32
  is
• 16:33
  the
• 16:33
  limiting
• 16:33
  belief.
• 16:34
  And
• 16:34
  I'm
• 16:34
  going
• 16:34
  to
• 16:34
  pick
• 16:34
  it
• 16:34
  up
• 16:35
  and
• 16:35
  I'm
• 16:35
  going
• 16:35
  to
• 16:35
  share
• 16:35
  with
• 16:36
  you.
• 16:36
  But
• 16:37
  when
• 16:37
  I
• 16:37
  start,
• 16:37
  I'm
• 16:38
  gonna
• 16:38
  start
• 16:38
  with
• 16:38
  the
• 16:38
  hand
• 16:38
  on
• 16:38
  the
• 16:39
  stomach,
• 16:39
  hand
• 16:39
  on
• 16:39
  the
• 16:40
  heart.
• 16:40
  And
• 16:40
  then
• 16:41
  I'm
• 16:41
  just
• 16:41
  gonna
• 16:41
  start
• 16:41
  breathing
• 16:42
  a
• 16:42
  certain
• 16:43
  way.
• 16:43
  And
• 16:43
  then
• 16:43
  I'm
• 16:43
  gonna
• 16:44
  start
• 16:44
  seeing
• 16:45
  movies
• 16:45
  and
• 16:46
  hearing
• 16:46
  things,
• 16:46
  and
• 16:46
  I'm
• 16:47
  gonna
• 16:47
  share
• 16:47
  it
• 16:47
  with
• 16:47
  you.
• 16:48
  Most
• 16:49
  of
• 16:49
  my
• 16:50
  things
• 16:50
  that
• 16:50
  I
• 16:51
  share
• 16:51
  is
• 16:51
  what
• 16:51
  I'm
• 16:52
  seeing.
• 16:52
  And
• 16:53
  then
• 16:53
  I
• 16:53
  might
• 16:53
  ask
• 16:54
  yes
• 16:54
  or
• 16:54
  no
• 16:54
  questions.
• 16:56
  And
• 16:56
  then
• 16:57
  I
• 16:57
  might
• 16:57
  say,
• 16:57
  what's
• 16:57
  going
• 16:58
  on
• 16:58
  when
• 16:58
  you
• 16:59
  were
• 16:59
  at
• 16:59
  a
• 16:59
  certain
• 17:00
  age?
• 17:00
  Because
• 17:01
  I'll
• 17:01
  pick
• 17:01
  that
• 17:01
  up
• 17:01
  as
• 17:01
  well.
• 17:02
  Well,
• 17:02
  and
• 17:02
  there's
• 17:02
  a
• 17:03
  little
• 17:03
  fear
• 17:03
  in
• 17:03
  that,
• 17:03
  too.
• 17:04
  So
• 17:04
  I
• 17:04
  just
• 17:04
  felt
• 17:04
  it.
• 17:05
  My
• 17:05
  stomach
• 17:05
  did
• 17:05
  a
• 17:05
  little
• 17:06
  ripple.
• 17:07
  Yeah.
• 17:07
  Like,
• 17:08
  oh,
• 17:08
  what's
• 17:08
  going
• 17:08
  to
• 17:08
  be
• 17:09
  shown
• 17:09
  Today.
• 17:09
  Right.
• 17:12
  All
• 17:12
  right,
• 17:12
  so
• 17:12
  you
• 17:13
  ready?
• 17:13
  Okay.
• 17:14
  All
• 17:14
  right,
• 17:14
  here
• 17:14
  we
• 17:14
  go.
• 17:15
  So
• 17:39
  your
• 17:39
  mom
• 17:39
  was
• 17:39
  very
• 17:40
  overprotective,
• 17:40
  huh?
• 17:42
  Yeah,
• 17:42
  yeah.
• 17:43
  And,
• 17:43
  and
• 17:44
  as
• 17:44
  a
• 17:44
  child
• 17:44
  we'll
• 17:45
  think,
• 17:45
  oh,
• 17:45
  this
• 17:45
  is
• 17:45
  a
• 17:46
  safety
• 17:46
  zone.
• 17:46
  However,
• 17:47
  what
• 17:47
  can
• 17:48
  happen
• 17:49
  is
• 17:49
  that
• 17:50
  overprotective,
• 17:51
  especially
• 17:51
  moms
• 17:52
  can
• 17:53
  give
• 17:53
  a
• 17:53
  child
• 17:54
  a
• 17:54
  sense
• 17:54
  of,
• 17:56
  of
• 17:56
  feeling
• 17:57
  a
• 17:57
  little
• 17:57
  reserved
• 17:58
  or.
• 18:00
  Well,
• 18:00
  I'll
• 18:01
  give
• 18:01
  you
• 18:01
  a
• 18:01
  list
• 18:01
  of
• 18:01
  them.
• 18:02
  Procrastination,
• 18:03
  the
• 18:03
  fear
• 18:04
  of
• 18:04
  making
• 18:04
  decisions
• 18:05
  because
• 18:06
  what
• 18:06
  if
• 18:06
  it's
• 18:07
  wrong?
• 18:08
  Taking
• 18:09
  too
• 18:09
  long
• 18:09
  to
• 18:09
  make
• 18:10
  a
• 18:10
  decision
• 18:10
  because
• 18:10
  you
• 18:10
  have
• 18:11
  to
• 18:11
  reel
• 18:11
  it
• 18:11
  in
• 18:11
  your
• 18:12
  head
• 18:12
  to
• 18:12
  figure
• 18:12
  out
• 18:13
  which
• 18:13
  direction.
• 18:13
  You
• 18:13
  want
• 18:14
  to
• 18:14
  go
• 18:14
  in.
• 18:15
  So
• 18:15
  you're
• 18:15
  overanalyzing
• 18:16
  too
• 18:16
  much.
• 18:17
  Because
• 18:17
  when
• 18:17
  you
• 18:18
  have
• 18:18
  that
• 18:18
  protective
• 18:18
  parent.
• 18:19
  When
• 18:20
  it's
• 18:20
  overprotective,
• 18:21
  what
• 18:21
  I
• 18:21
  ended
• 18:21
  up.
• 18:21
  Seeing
• 18:22
  was
• 18:23
  energy
• 18:23
  wall,
• 18:24
  like
• 18:25
  right
• 18:25
  here.
• 18:25
  And
• 18:25
  it
• 18:25
  felt
• 18:26
  really
• 18:26
  tight,
• 18:26
  like,
• 18:27
  oh,
• 18:27
  she's
• 18:27
  got
• 18:27
  you
• 18:28
  under
• 18:29
  that
• 18:29
  protection
• 18:30
  bubble.
• 18:31
  And
• 18:31
  so
• 18:32
  you'll
• 18:32
  find
• 18:33
  yourself
• 18:34
  saying,
• 18:36
  and
• 18:36
  for
• 18:36
  you,
• 18:37
  oh,
• 18:37
  I
• 18:38
  can
• 18:38
  feel
• 18:38
  it,
• 18:38
  like
• 18:39
  there's
• 18:39
  some
• 18:39
  fear
• 18:39
  in
• 18:39
  your
• 18:40
  heart.
• 18:41
  So
• 18:42
  feelings
• 18:42
  of.
• 18:43
  When
• 18:43
  it
• 18:44
  comes
• 18:44
  to
• 18:44
  love
• 18:44
  or
• 18:45
  loving
• 18:45
  something,
• 18:46
  not
• 18:46
  just
• 18:46
  a
• 18:47
  physical
• 18:47
  person,
• 18:47
  it
• 18:48
  can
• 18:48
  be
• 18:48
  a
• 18:48
  career,
• 18:49
  it
• 18:49
  could
• 18:49
  be,
• 18:51
  you
• 18:51
  know
• 18:52
  that
• 18:52
  a
• 18:52
  party
• 18:52
  you're
• 18:53
  organizing,
• 18:53
  you'd
• 18:53
  love
• 18:54
  it.
• 18:54
  You
• 18:54
  want
• 18:54
  to
• 18:54
  make
• 18:54
  sure
• 18:54
  it's
• 18:55
  all
• 18:55
  perfect
• 18:56
  and
• 18:58
  it's
• 18:58
  okay.
• 19:00
  Maybe
• 19:00
  just
• 19:01
  a
• 19:01
  little.
• 19:02
  There
• 19:02
  you
• 19:02
  go.
• 19:03
  So,
• 19:04
  and,
• 19:04
  and
• 19:05
  that's
• 19:05
  how
• 19:05
  it
• 19:05
  can
• 19:05
  show
• 19:06
  itself
• 19:06
  up
• 19:06
  when
• 19:06
  you
• 19:07
  have
• 19:07
  an
• 19:07
  overprotective
• 19:08
  parent.
• 19:09
  And
• 19:09
  so
• 19:09
  you've
• 19:10
  worked
• 19:10
  through
• 19:10
  some
• 19:11
  of
• 19:11
  it,
• 19:11
  but
• 19:11
  if
• 19:11
  I
• 19:11
  give
• 19:12
  it
• 19:12
  a
• 19:12
  score,
• 19:14
  a
• 19:14
  percentage,
• 19:15
  80%.
• 19:15
  You
• 19:15
  still,
• 19:16
  you're,
• 19:17
  you're
• 19:17
  troubled,
• 19:18
  you're
• 19:18
  meaning
• 19:19
  it's
• 19:19
  not
• 19:20
  free
• 19:20
  flowing
• 19:20
  enough
• 19:21
  for
• 19:21
  you
• 19:21
  and
• 19:22
  you
• 19:22
  probably
• 19:22
  get
• 19:22
  frustrated
• 19:23
  with
• 19:23
  yourself,
• 19:23
  with,
• 19:24
  you
• 19:24
  know,
• 19:24
  here
• 19:24
  I
• 19:24
  am
• 19:25
  with
• 19:25
  this
• 19:25
  pattern
• 19:25
  I'm
• 19:26
  trying
• 19:26
  to
• 19:26
  get
• 19:26
  out
• 19:26
  of
• 19:26
  my
• 19:26
  head,
• 19:26
  but
• 19:26
  I
• 19:27
  want
• 19:27
  it
• 19:27
  to
• 19:27
  be
• 19:27
  right.
• 19:28
  Can
• 19:28
  we
• 19:28
  get
• 19:28
  it
• 19:28
  right?
• 19:29
  Can
• 19:29
  we
• 19:29
  be
• 19:29
  it
• 19:29
  right?
• 19:30
  Yeah,
• 19:31
  yeah,
• 19:31
  yeah,
• 19:31
  yeah.
• 19:33
  So
• 19:33
  I
• 19:33
  can
• 19:33
  feel
• 19:33
  it.
• 19:34
  But
• 19:34
  you
• 19:35
  know,
• 19:35
  everything
• 19:35
  is
• 19:35
  great.
• 19:36
  There's
• 19:37
  no
• 19:37
  right
• 19:37
  or
• 19:37
  wrong.
• 19:38
  Even
• 19:38
  though.
• 19:39
  Because
• 19:39
  when
• 19:39
  you're,
• 19:39
  what
• 19:40
  you
• 19:40
  do
• 19:40
  is
• 19:40
  you'll
• 19:40
  end
• 19:40
  up
• 19:41
  putting
• 19:41
  it
• 19:41
  in
• 19:41
  a
• 19:41
  box.
• 19:42
  Meaning
• 19:42
  your
• 19:43
  end
• 19:43
  result.
• 19:44
  I
• 19:45
  want
• 19:45
  it
• 19:45
  to
• 19:45
  look
• 19:45
  like
• 19:46
  X,
• 19:46
  Y
• 19:47
  and
• 19:47
  Z.
• 19:48
  But
• 19:48
  what
• 19:48
  happens
• 19:49
  if
• 19:49
  it's
• 19:49
  like
• 19:50
  better
• 19:50
  than
• 19:51
  what
• 19:51
  you're
• 19:51
  putting
• 19:52
  here?
• 19:53
  Right?
• 19:53
  So
• 19:54
  let's
• 19:54
  say
• 19:54
  an
• 19:55
  example.
• 19:55
  You
• 19:56
  know,
• 19:56
  if
• 19:56
  I
• 19:57
  do
• 19:57
  this
• 19:57
  job,
• 19:57
  I
• 19:58
  want
• 19:58
  to
• 19:58
  make
• 19:58
  $100.
• 19:59
  Well,
• 20:00
  what
• 20:00
  if
• 20:00
  you
• 20:00
  could
• 20:00
  make
• 20:01
  a
• 20:01
  hundred
• 20:01
  thousand?
• 20:02
  You
• 20:02
  see?
• 20:03
  So
• 20:04
  we
• 20:04
  have
• 20:04
  to
• 20:04
  be
• 20:04
  more
• 20:05
  broader
• 20:06
  in
• 20:06
  what
• 20:07
  we're
• 20:07
  looking
• 20:07
  our
• 20:08
  end
• 20:08
  result
• 20:08
  to
• 20:08
  be.
• 20:09
  So,
• 20:10
  meaning
• 20:11
  if
• 20:11
  your
• 20:11
  end
• 20:12
  result
• 20:12
  was
• 20:12
  focused
• 20:13
  on
• 20:13
  an
• 20:14
  emotion.
• 20:15
  Right.
• 20:16
  So
• 20:17
  give
• 20:17
  you
• 20:17
  an
• 20:17
  example.
• 20:17
  If
• 20:18
  you
• 20:18
  had
• 20:18
  a
• 20:18
  million
• 20:18
  dollars
• 20:18
  in
• 20:19
  A
• 20:19
  bank.
• 20:19
  The
• 20:20
  emotion
• 20:20
  attached
• 20:21
  to
• 20:21
  that
• 20:21
  is
• 20:21
  comfort,
• 20:23
  is
• 20:23
  stability,
• 20:25
  is
• 20:25
  adventure.
• 20:26
  Because
• 20:26
  we
• 20:26
  got
• 20:27
  it,
• 20:27
  we
• 20:27
  don't
• 20:27
  have
• 20:27
  to
• 20:27
  worry.
• 20:28
  You
• 20:28
  know,
• 20:28
  if
• 20:28
  I
• 20:28
  get
• 20:28
  a
• 20:28
  flat
• 20:29
  tire,
• 20:29
  I
• 20:29
  can
• 20:29
  buy
• 20:29
  a
• 20:29
  new
• 20:29
  car.
• 20:30
  Right.
• 20:31
  So
• 20:32
  we
• 20:32
  want
• 20:32
  to
• 20:33
  focus
• 20:33
  on
• 20:33
  the
• 20:33
  feeling
• 20:34
  of
• 20:34
  what
• 20:34
  you
• 20:35
  want
• 20:35
  your
• 20:35
  end
• 20:35
  result
• 20:36
  to
• 20:36
  be,
• 20:37
  and
• 20:37
  then
• 20:37
  everything
• 20:38
  around
• 20:39
  what
• 20:39
  you're
• 20:39
  trying
• 20:40
  to
• 20:40
  attract
• 20:40
  will
• 20:41
  naturally
• 20:42
  come
• 20:42
  with
• 20:42
  it,
• 20:42
  like
• 20:42
  you're
• 20:43
  a
• 20:43
  magnet.
• 20:44
  So
• 20:44
  if
• 20:44
  you're
• 20:45
  saying,
• 20:46
  I
• 20:46
  want
• 20:47
  my
• 20:47
  podcast
• 20:48
  to
• 20:48
  have,
• 20:48
  you
• 20:49
  know,
• 20:49
  million
• 20:49
  followers,
• 20:50
  then
• 20:51
  that's
• 20:51
  fun,
• 20:52
  excitement,
• 20:53
  laughter,
• 20:53
  dancing,
• 20:54
  like.
• 20:55
  And.
• 20:55
  And
• 20:55
  feeling
• 20:56
  accomplished.
• 20:57
  Right.
• 20:58
  And
• 20:58
  feeling
• 20:58
  like
• 20:58
  you're
• 20:59
  giving
• 20:59
  back
• 20:59
  to
• 20:59
  the
• 20:59
  community
• 21:00
  and
• 21:00
  feeling
• 21:01
  like
• 21:01
  people
• 21:01
  are
• 21:01
  getting
• 21:01
  something
• 21:02
  out
• 21:02
  of
• 21:02
  it,
• 21:02
  which
• 21:03
  can
• 21:03
  feel
• 21:04
  a
• 21:04
  sense
• 21:04
  of.
• 21:05
  Of.
• 21:06
  Of
• 21:06
  enlightenment,
• 21:07
  fulfillment,
• 21:08
  gratitude,
• 21:08
  all
• 21:09
  of
• 21:09
  that.
• 21:09
  Right.
• 21:10
  So
• 21:10
  before
• 21:10
  you
• 21:11
  have
• 21:11
  a
• 21:12
  project,
• 21:12
  have
• 21:13
  this
• 21:13
  feeling
• 21:14
  first.
• 21:15
  Go
• 21:15
  into
• 21:16
  it
• 21:16
  with
• 21:16
  that.
• 21:17
  You'll
• 21:17
  have
• 21:17
  your
• 21:17
  million
• 21:18
  followers.
• 21:19
  It
• 21:20
  works
• 21:20
  just
• 21:20
  like
• 21:20
  that.
• 21:21
  Okay.
• 21:22
  Okay.
• 21:25
  Okay.
• 21:26
  Yeah.
• 21:38
  You
• 21:39
  have
• 21:39
  a
• 21:39
  lot
• 21:39
  of
• 21:39
  fear.
• 21:40
  So
• 21:41
  the
• 21:41
  solar
• 21:41
  plexus
• 21:42
  is
• 21:42
  the
• 21:42
  portal
• 21:42
  of
• 21:42
  emotions.
• 21:43
  But
• 21:43
  I
• 21:43
  feel
• 21:43
  it
• 21:44
  so
• 21:44
  fast,
• 21:45
  I
• 21:45
  can't
• 21:45
  even
• 21:45
  move
• 21:45
  my
• 21:45
  hand
• 21:46
  fast
• 21:46
  enough.
• 21:47
  Yeah.
• 21:47
  And
• 21:48
  that.
• 21:48
  That
• 21:48
  is
• 21:49
  the
• 21:49
  feeling
• 21:49
  of
• 21:49
  fear
• 21:50
  when
• 21:50
  it's
• 21:50
  like.
• 21:51
  Right.
• 21:53
  I'm
• 21:53
  not
• 21:53
  saying
• 21:54
  that
• 21:54
  a
• 21:54
  person
• 21:55
  walks
• 21:55
  around
• 21:55
  going,
• 21:56
  oh,
• 21:56
  I'm
• 21:56
  afraid
• 21:56
  of,
• 21:57
  like,
• 21:57
  a
• 21:57
  little
• 21:57
  timid
• 21:58
  mouse.
• 21:58
  It's
• 21:58
  not
• 21:59
  like
• 21:59
  that.
• 22:00
  What
• 22:01
  happens
• 22:01
  is
• 22:01
  that
• 22:02
  you're
• 22:02
  living
• 22:03
  life,
• 22:03
  but
• 22:04
  having
• 22:04
  a
• 22:04
  sense
• 22:05
  of
• 22:06
  will.
• 22:06
  I
• 22:07
  could.
• 22:07
  I.
• 22:08
  Should
• 22:08
  I.
• 22:09
  You're
• 22:09
  already
• 22:10
  questioning
• 22:11
  before
• 22:11
  it's
• 22:11
  even
• 22:12
  happening.
• 22:13
  Do
• 22:13
  you
• 22:13
  find
• 22:14
  yourself.
• 22:14
  Yeah.
• 22:16
  Okay.
• 22:17
  So
• 22:17
  when
• 22:17
  you're
• 22:17
  questioning
• 22:18
  stuff,
• 22:19
  you're
• 22:19
  already
• 22:20
  causing
• 22:20
  a
• 22:20
  sense
• 22:21
  of
• 22:21
  fear.
• 22:22
  I
• 22:22
  feel
• 22:22
  that
• 22:23
  so
• 22:23
  much
• 22:23
  in
• 22:23
  my.
• 22:23
  It
• 22:24
  just
• 22:24
  went
• 22:25
  right
• 22:25
  there
• 22:25
  in
• 22:26
  my
• 22:26
  solar
• 22:26
  plexus.
• 22:27
  Meaning.
• 22:28
  Yes,
• 22:28
  you're
• 22:28
  spot
• 22:29
  on.
• 22:29
  Right.
• 22:29
  Yeah.
• 22:30
  And
• 22:31
  so
• 22:32
  don't
• 22:33
  question
• 22:33
  life.
• 22:34
  Live
• 22:34
  life.
• 22:35
  Because
• 22:35
  if
• 22:36
  you're
• 22:36
  starting
• 22:36
  to
• 22:36
  step
• 22:37
  into
• 22:37
  things,
• 22:37
  even
• 22:38
  if
• 22:38
  you're
• 22:38
  not
• 22:38
  even
• 22:39
  thinking
• 22:39
  that,
• 22:39
  you're
• 22:40
  stepping
• 22:40
  into
• 22:40
  every
• 22:41
  moment
• 22:41
  that
• 22:41
  we
• 22:42
  walk,
• 22:42
  talk,
• 22:42
  move,
• 22:43
  you're
• 22:44
  stepping
• 22:44
  into
• 22:45
  something.
• 22:46
  Every
• 22:47
  action
• 22:48
  is
• 22:48
  causing
• 22:49
  something
• 22:49
  to
• 22:49
  happen.
• 22:50
  Right.
• 22:51
  Right.
• 22:51
  An
• 22:51
  action
• 22:51
  can
• 22:51
  be
• 22:52
  your
• 22:52
  mouth
• 22:52
  with
• 22:53
  words
• 22:53
  coming
• 22:53
  out
• 22:54
  or
• 22:54
  simply
• 22:55
  walking.
• 22:55
  That's
• 22:56
  an
• 22:56
  action.
• 22:56
  Driving,
• 22:57
  listening.
• 22:58
  Those
• 22:59
  are
• 22:59
  all
• 22:59
  actions.
• 23:00
  Right.
• 23:00
  But
• 23:01
  if
• 23:01
  you're
• 23:01
  spending
• 23:02
  so
• 23:02
  much
• 23:02
  time
• 23:02
  in
• 23:02
  your
• 23:03
  head
• 23:03
  questioning,
• 23:04
  that
• 23:04
  is
• 23:05
  being
• 23:05
  put
• 23:05
  out
• 23:06
  into
• 23:06
  the
• 23:06
  collective
• 23:07
  energy
• 23:08
  to
• 23:08
  say,
• 23:09
  all
• 23:09
  right,
• 23:10
  what
• 23:10
  if.
• 23:11
  Okay,
• 23:11
  could
• 23:12
  I.
• 23:12
  And
• 23:12
  if
• 23:13
  this
• 23:13
  happens.
• 23:14
  And
• 23:14
  now
• 23:14
  you're
• 23:14
  putting
• 23:14
  all
• 23:15
  these
• 23:15
  questions
• 23:15
  up
• 23:15
  here.
• 23:17
  So
• 23:17
  this
• 23:17
  is
• 23:17
  the
• 23:17
  collective
• 23:18
  energy.
• 23:18
  And
• 23:18
  when
• 23:18
  you're
• 23:19
  putting
• 23:19
  it
• 23:19
  up
• 23:19
  here,
• 23:20
  people
• 23:21
  that
• 23:21
  are
• 23:21
  connected
• 23:22
  to
• 23:22
  you
• 23:22
  or
• 23:22
  even
• 23:22
  walking
• 23:23
  by,
• 23:23
  you
• 23:24
  can
• 23:24
  say,
• 23:25
  oh,
• 23:25
  wow,
• 23:25
  I
• 23:26
  just.
• 23:26
  I'm
• 23:26
  open.
• 23:27
  My
• 23:27
  mind
• 23:27
  is
• 23:27
  open.
• 23:28
  I
• 23:28
  wasn't
• 23:28
  thinking
• 23:28
  anything.
• 23:29
  I
• 23:29
  can
• 23:29
  grab
• 23:30
  that.
• 23:30
  Have
• 23:30
  you
• 23:30
  Ever
• 23:30
  had
• 23:30
  a
• 23:31
  moment
• 23:31
  where.
• 23:32
  You
• 23:32
  went
• 23:32
  to,
• 23:33
  if
• 23:33
  you
• 23:34
  ever
• 23:34
  worked
• 23:34
  in
• 23:34
  an
• 23:34
  office
• 23:35
  or
• 23:35
  a
• 23:35
  friend's
• 23:35
  house.
• 23:36
  You
• 23:37
  were
• 23:37
  driving
• 23:37
  and
• 23:38
  you're
• 23:38
  like,
• 23:38
  man,
• 23:38
  I'm
• 23:38
  thirsty.
• 23:39
  I
• 23:40
  could.
• 23:40
  Like,
• 23:40
  I
• 23:40
  should
• 23:40
  have
• 23:41
  grabbed
• 23:41
  something
• 23:41
  before
• 23:41
  I
• 23:41
  left.
• 23:42
  And
• 23:42
  you
• 23:42
  get
• 23:42
  there
• 23:42
  and
• 23:43
  before
• 23:43
  you
• 23:43
  even
• 23:43
  say
• 23:43
  anything,
• 23:44
  they
• 23:44
  say,
• 23:44
  if
• 23:45
  you
• 23:45
  want
• 23:45
  some
• 23:45
  water,
• 23:45
  or
• 23:45
  here's
• 23:46
  a
• 23:46
  bottle
• 23:46
  of
• 23:46
  water.
• 23:47
  Never
• 23:47
  had
• 23:47
  those
• 23:47
  moments?
• 23:48
  No,
• 23:49
  not
• 23:49
  that
• 23:49
  I
• 23:49
  can
• 23:50
  think
• 23:50
  of
• 23:50
  right
• 23:50
  off
• 23:50
  the
• 23:50
  top
• 23:50
  of
• 23:51
  my
• 23:51
  head.
• 23:51
  So
• 23:52
  we
• 23:52
  have
• 23:52
  to
• 23:52
  get
• 23:52
  you
• 23:52
  to
• 23:52
  be
• 23:52
  more
• 23:53
  present
• 23:53
  as
• 23:53
  well,
• 23:55
  because
• 23:56
  when
• 23:57
  we're
• 23:57
  just
• 24:00
  existing,
• 24:01
  you're
• 24:02
  missing
• 24:03
  everything.
• 24:04
  And
• 24:05
  it's
• 24:05
  kind
• 24:05
  of
• 24:05
  sad
• 24:06
  because
• 24:07
  when
• 24:08
  you're
• 24:08
  fully
• 24:09
  aware.
• 24:10
  When
• 24:10
  I
• 24:10
  say
• 24:10
  present,
• 24:11
  people
• 24:11
  don't
• 24:11
  understand
• 24:12
  that
• 24:12
  sometimes.
• 24:13
  Aware.
• 24:14
  But
• 24:14
  it's
• 24:14
  not
• 24:15
  about
• 24:15
  what's
• 24:15
  outside
• 24:16
  of
• 24:16
  you,
• 24:17
  it's
• 24:17
  all
• 24:18
  about
• 24:18
  what's
• 24:18
  inside
• 24:19
  of
• 24:19
  you.
• 24:20
  So
• 24:20
  if
• 24:20
  you
• 24:20
  are
• 24:21
  fully
• 24:21
  aware
• 24:22
  of
• 24:22
  how
• 24:22
  you're
• 24:23
  feeling
• 24:23
  in
• 24:24
  those
• 24:24
  moments,
• 24:25
  like
• 24:25
  driving,
• 24:26
  going,
• 24:26
  I'm
• 24:26
  really
• 24:27
  thirsty.
• 24:28
  And
• 24:28
  then,
• 24:29
  like,
• 24:29
  what
• 24:30
  that
• 24:30
  just
• 24:30
  happened,
• 24:31
  then
• 24:31
  you're
• 24:32
  fully
• 24:32
  aware
• 24:32
  that
• 24:33
  you
• 24:33
  are
• 24:33
  already
• 24:34
  saying
• 24:34
  it,
• 24:34
  wanting
• 24:35
  it.
• 24:35
  And
• 24:35
  then
• 24:36
  you
• 24:36
  made
• 24:36
  it
• 24:36
  happen
• 24:37
  before.
• 24:37
  You
• 24:38
  got
• 24:38
  to
• 24:39
  the
• 24:39
  office
• 24:40
  or
• 24:40
  your
• 24:40
  friend's
• 24:40
  house.
• 24:41
  Right?
• 24:43
  Someone
• 24:43
  who's
• 24:44
  just
• 24:44
  existing.
• 24:45
  I'm
• 24:45
  just
• 24:45
  driving.
• 24:46
  I
• 24:46
  gotta
• 24:46
  get
• 24:46
  there.
• 24:47
  I
• 24:47
  gotta
• 24:47
  think
• 24:47
  about
• 24:48
  my
• 24:48
  deadline.
• 24:48
  Gotta
• 24:49
  think
• 24:49
  about
• 24:49
  what
• 24:49
  I'm
• 24:49
  wearing.
• 24:50
  Okay,
• 24:50
  what's
• 24:50
  gonna
• 24:50
  happen?
• 24:51
  All
• 24:52
  those
• 24:52
  questions
• 24:52
  in
• 24:53
  your
• 24:53
  head
• 24:53
  is.
• 24:54
  Not
• 24:54
  making
• 24:55
  room
• 24:56
  for
• 24:56
  all
• 24:57
  the
• 24:57
  answers
• 24:57
  you
• 24:58
  want
• 24:58
  for
• 24:58
  the
• 24:59
  questions
• 24:59
  you're
• 24:59
  already
• 25:00
  suffocating
• 25:00
  your
• 25:01
  head
• 25:01
  with.
• 25:01
  Does
• 25:01
  that
• 25:01
  make
• 25:02
  sense?
• 25:02
  Okay.
• 25:05
  Bringing
• 25:05
  you
• 25:05
  back
• 25:05
  to
• 25:06
  present
• 25:06
  means
• 25:07
  listening
• 25:07
  more,
• 25:08
  getting
• 25:09
  out
• 25:09
  of
• 25:09
  your
• 25:10
  head,
• 25:10
  and
• 25:11
  being
• 25:11
  fully
• 25:11
  aware
• 25:13
  of
• 25:13
  how
• 25:13
  your
• 25:14
  body
• 25:14
  is
• 25:14
  feeling
• 25:15
  in
• 25:15
  any
• 25:16
  setting,
• 25:17
  every
• 25:18
  moment,
• 25:18
  all
• 25:19
  the
• 25:19
  time.
• 25:20
  It
• 25:20
  is
• 25:20
  a
• 25:21
  lifestyle.
• 25:23
  So
• 25:23
  bringing
• 25:24
  you
• 25:24
  from
• 25:24
  just
• 25:24
  existing
• 25:26
  to
• 25:26
  thriving
• 25:27
  and
• 25:27
  being
• 25:27
  fully
• 25:27
  aware
• 25:28
  changes
• 25:29
  your
• 25:29
  entire
• 25:30
  life.
• 25:31
  It's.
• 25:32
  You
• 25:32
  start
• 25:32
  attracting
• 25:33
  the
• 25:33
  things
• 25:33
  that
• 25:33
  you're
• 25:34
  saying
• 25:34
  you
• 25:34
  want.
• 25:35
  You
• 25:35
  can
• 25:35
  have
• 25:36
  just
• 25:36
  a
• 25:36
  simple
• 25:36
  thought
• 25:37
  and
• 25:37
  let
• 25:37
  it
• 25:37
  go,
• 25:37
  and
• 25:37
  then
• 25:38
  all
• 25:38
  of
• 25:38
  a
• 25:38
  sudden
• 25:39
  happened.
• 25:40
  Life
• 25:41
  is
• 25:41
  like
• 25:42
  that.
• 25:43
  But
• 25:43
  all
• 25:43
  this
• 25:43
  other
• 25:44
  stuff
• 25:44
  you're
• 25:44
  doing,
• 25:44
  all
• 25:45
  the
• 25:45
  questioning,
• 25:45
  all
• 25:45
  the
• 25:46
  fear
• 25:46
  you're
• 25:46
  creating
• 25:47
  is
• 25:47
  putting
• 25:48
  this
• 25:48
  big
• 25:48
  barrier
• 25:49
  of.
• 25:49
  Not
• 25:49
  being
• 25:50
  able
• 25:50
  to
• 25:50
  bring
• 25:51
  forth
• 25:52
  with
• 25:52
  ease
• 25:53
  the
• 25:53
  things
• 25:54
  you
• 25:54
  say
• 25:54
  you
• 25:55
  desire.
• 25:55
  Does
• 25:55
  that
• 25:56
  make
• 25:56
  sense
• 25:56
  now?
• 25:57
  Yeah.
• 25:59
  Yeah.
• 26:00
  A
• 26:00
  little
• 26:00
  doubt
• 26:00
  there.
• 26:01
  No,
• 26:02
  it
• 26:02
  makes
• 26:02
  sense.
• 26:03
  Okay.
• 26:03
  Okay.
• 26:04
  So
• 26:05
  get
• 26:06
  out
• 26:06
  of
• 26:06
  your
• 26:06
  head,
• 26:07
  okay?
• 26:08
  Just
• 26:08
  stop
• 26:09
  thinking
• 26:09
  about
• 26:09
  things
• 26:10
  because
• 26:10
  it's.
• 26:11
  Going
• 26:11
  to
• 26:11
  work
• 26:11
  out.
• 26:12
  Now,
• 26:12
  if
• 26:12
  you
• 26:12
  are
• 26:13
  tight,
• 26:13
  I
• 26:13
  see
• 26:13
  typing.
• 26:14
  I
• 26:14
  gotta
• 26:14
  put
• 26:14
  this
• 26:15
  proposal.
• 26:15
  Gotta
• 26:15
  do
• 26:16
  this
• 26:16
  next
• 26:16
  video,
• 26:17
  whatever
• 26:17
  it
• 26:17
  is,
• 26:18
  right?
• 26:18
  I
• 26:19
  understand
• 26:19
  being
• 26:20
  in
• 26:20
  the
• 26:20
  moment
• 26:21
  and
• 26:21
  concentrating
• 26:22
  in
• 26:22
  that,
• 26:22
  but
• 26:23
  once
• 26:23
  you
• 26:23
  step
• 26:23
  away,
• 26:24
  you
• 26:25
  don't
• 26:25
  have
• 26:25
  to
• 26:25
  concentrate
• 26:26
  in
• 26:26
  that
• 26:26
  anymore.
• 26:27
  Right?
• 26:28
  You've
• 26:28
  already
• 26:28
  put
• 26:28
  the
• 26:29
  energy
• 26:29
  of
• 26:29
  success
• 26:31
  in
• 26:31
  it.
• 26:32
  But
• 26:32
  if
• 26:32
  you're
• 26:32
  already
• 26:33
  questioning,
• 26:33
  doubting,
• 26:34
  you're
• 26:34
  putting
• 26:35
  the
• 26:35
  energy
• 26:36
  of
• 26:36
  fear
• 26:37
  in
• 26:39
  will
• 26:39
  be
• 26:39
  seen
• 26:39
  and
• 26:40
  felt
• 26:40
  through
• 26:40
  any
• 26:41
  video,
• 26:41
  any
• 26:42
  email,
• 26:43
  any
• 26:43
  phone
• 26:43
  calls
• 26:44
  if
• 26:44
  you're
• 26:45
  already
• 26:45
  doing
• 26:46
  that
• 26:46
  energy.
• 26:48
  Right.
• 26:49
  It's
• 26:49
  a
• 26:49
  big
• 26:49
  thing.
• 26:49
  So
• 26:50
  it's
• 26:50
  a
• 26:50
  change
• 26:51
  how,
• 26:52
  what
• 26:52
  type
• 26:52
  of
• 26:52
  energy
• 26:53
  you
• 26:53
  are
• 26:53
  putting
• 26:54
  in
• 26:54
  things.
• 26:54
  That's
• 26:54
  why
• 26:54
  I
• 26:55
  tell
• 26:55
  people,
• 26:55
  if
• 26:55
  you're
• 26:55
  writing
• 26:55
  an
• 26:56
  email,
• 26:57
  don't
• 26:57
  write
• 26:57
  it
• 26:57
  with
• 26:58
  anger,
• 26:58
  don't
• 26:59
  write
• 26:59
  it
• 26:59
  with
• 26:59
  despair
• 27:00
  or
• 27:01
  frustration.
• 27:02
  Because
• 27:03
  what
• 27:03
  will
• 27:03
  happen
• 27:03
  is
• 27:03
  people
• 27:04
  will
• 27:04
  read
• 27:04
  and
• 27:04
  say,
• 27:04
  damn,
• 27:05
  what's
• 27:05
  going
• 27:05
  on
• 27:05
  with
• 27:05
  her?
• 27:06
  Right?
• 27:06
  And
• 27:07
  you're
• 27:07
  just
• 27:07
  saying,
• 27:08
  you
• 27:08
  know,
• 27:08
  I'm
• 27:08
  hoping
• 27:09
  that
• 27:09
  things
• 27:09
  work
• 27:09
  out.
• 27:10
  And
• 27:10
  they're
• 27:10
  like,
• 27:10
  why?
• 27:10
  You
• 27:11
  know,
• 27:11
  and
• 27:11
  they're
• 27:11
  picking
• 27:12
  it
• 27:12
  on
• 27:12
  up.
• 27:13
  So
• 27:14
  go
• 27:14
  into
• 27:15
  something,
• 27:15
  especially
• 27:16
  when
• 27:16
  you're
• 27:16
  throwing
• 27:17
  energy
• 27:17
  into
• 27:18
  it,
• 27:18
  emails,
• 27:19
  phone
• 27:19
  calls.
• 27:20
  Videos,
• 27:21
  that
• 27:22
  you're
• 27:22
  doing
• 27:22
  it
• 27:22
  with
• 27:23
  the
• 27:23
  highest
• 27:24
  purpose
• 27:24
  of
• 27:25
  giving
• 27:25
  of
• 27:26
  the
• 27:26
  excitement
• 27:27
  of
• 27:27
  doing
• 27:28
  it
• 27:28
  and
• 27:28
  wanting
• 27:28
  it
• 27:29
  most.
• 27:29
  Interesting
• 27:30
  thing
• 27:30
  is
• 27:30
  I
• 27:31
  was
• 27:31
  super
• 27:31
  excited
• 27:31
  about
• 27:32
  this
• 27:32
  all
• 27:32
  day
• 27:33
  long.
• 27:33
  Like,
• 27:33
  this
• 27:34
  is
• 27:34
  going
• 27:34
  to
• 27:34
  be
• 27:34
  amazing.
• 27:35
  And
• 27:36
  sometimes
• 27:36
  I'm
• 27:36
  not
• 27:36
  that
• 27:37
  excited
• 27:37
  about
• 27:37
  being
• 27:38
  a
• 27:38
  guest
• 27:38
  on
• 27:38
  certain
• 27:38
  podcasts.
• 27:39
  It
• 27:39
  depends
• 27:39
  on
• 27:39
  the
• 27:40
  person.
• 27:40
  But
• 27:40
  I
• 27:40
  cocoon
• 27:41
  my
• 27:41
  energy.
• 27:41
  I'm
• 27:41
  like,
• 27:42
  no,
• 27:42
  there's
• 27:42
  going
• 27:42
  to
• 27:42
  be
• 27:42
  that
• 27:43
  best
• 27:43
  thing
• 27:43
  ever.
• 27:44
  And
• 27:44
  then
• 27:45
  knowing
• 27:45
  that
• 27:45
  I'm
• 27:45
  doing
• 27:46
  that
• 27:46
  will
• 27:47
  fill
• 27:47
  the
• 27:47
  room
• 27:48
  with
• 27:48
  positivity,
• 27:49
  will
• 27:49
  show
• 27:49
  that
• 27:50
  whoever's
• 27:50
  watching
• 27:50
  the
• 27:50
  video
• 27:51
  is
• 27:51
  going
• 27:51
  to
• 27:51
  be
• 27:51
  receiving
• 27:52
  this
• 27:52
  in
• 27:52
  the
• 27:53
  best
• 27:53
  possible
• 27:54
  light.
• 27:55
  Makes
• 27:55
  sense.
• 27:55
  Yes.
• 27:56
  Yes.
• 27:58
  So
• 27:59
  for
• 27:59
  shoulders,
• 27:59
  it's
• 28:00
  a
• 28:00
  perception
• 28:00
  of
• 28:00
  burden.
• 28:01
  Perception
• 28:02
  of
• 28:02
  burden.
• 28:03
  Left
• 28:04
  side,
• 28:04
  mom.
• 28:04
  Right
• 28:05
  side
• 28:05
  dad.
• 28:05
  Left
• 28:06
  side,
• 28:06
  feminine.
• 28:07
  Right
• 28:08
  side,
• 28:08
  masculine.
• 28:09
  So
• 28:10
  I'm
• 28:10
  feeling
• 28:11
  there's
• 28:11
  something
• 28:12
  right
• 28:12
  here.
• 28:12
  Like
• 28:13
  you
• 28:13
  were
• 28:13
  just
• 28:13
  like,
• 28:14
  oh,
• 28:15
  hanging
• 28:15
  onto
• 28:15
  it.
• 28:15
  It's
• 28:16
  a
• 28:16
  seat
• 28:16
  about
• 28:16
  that
• 28:17
  big,
• 28:17
  so
• 28:17
  about
• 28:18
  the
• 28:18
  size
• 28:18
  of
• 28:18
  a
• 28:18
  quarter.
• 28:18
  Right.
• 28:19
  Right
• 28:19
  where
• 28:19
  my
• 28:20
  thumb
• 28:20
  is
• 28:20
  on
• 28:20
  your
• 28:21
  shoulder.
• 28:21
  And
• 28:22
  so
• 28:22
  a
• 28:22
  perception
• 28:23
  of
• 28:23
  burden,
• 28:24
  and
• 28:24
  this
• 28:25
  is
• 28:25
  dead.
• 28:25
  Can
• 28:25
  be
• 28:26
  where
• 28:26
  you
• 28:27
  needed
• 28:27
  him
• 28:27
  at
• 28:28
  a
• 28:28
  certain
• 28:28
  time
• 28:29
  and
• 28:29
  he
• 28:29
  forgot
• 28:30
  or
• 28:31
  he
• 28:32
  got
• 28:32
  distracted
• 28:33
  or
• 28:34
  work
• 28:34
  ended
• 28:35
  up
• 28:35
  taking
• 28:35
  him
• 28:35
  away
• 28:36
  from
• 28:36
  his
• 28:37
  promise
• 28:37
  to
• 28:38
  not
• 28:38
  accept.
• 28:39
  And
• 28:39
  I
• 28:39
  said,
• 28:39
  as
• 28:39
  a
• 28:40
  child,
• 28:40
  we
• 28:41
  all
• 28:41
  end
• 28:41
  up
• 28:41
  just
• 28:42
  accepting
• 28:43
  because
• 28:44
  within
• 28:44
  the
• 28:44
  four
• 28:44
  walls,
• 28:45
  this
• 28:46
  is
• 28:46
  what
• 28:46
  our
• 28:46
  caregivers
• 28:47
  told
• 28:47
  us.
• 28:48
  And
• 28:48
  we
• 28:48
  know
• 28:48
  nothing
• 28:49
  else.
• 28:50
  They
• 28:50
  could
• 28:50
  be
• 28:51
  lying
• 28:51
  to
• 28:51
  us,
• 28:52
  like,
• 28:52
  I
• 28:52
  don't
• 28:52
  know
• 28:53
  what,
• 28:53
  or
• 28:54
  making
• 28:54
  false
• 28:54
  promises.
• 28:55
  And
• 28:56
  then
• 28:56
  we
• 28:56
  keep
• 28:56
  getting
• 28:57
  set
• 28:57
  up
• 28:57
  for
• 28:57
  failure
• 28:58
  because
• 28:58
  that's
• 28:59
  what
• 28:59
  they're
• 28:59
  doing.
• 28:59
  Set
• 29:00
  a.
• 29:00
  Setting
• 29:01
  the
• 29:01
  child
• 29:01
  up
• 29:02
  for
• 29:02
  failure.
• 29:03
  Right.
• 29:03
  Instead
• 29:04
  of
• 29:04
  telling
• 29:04
  the
• 29:05
  truth
• 29:05
  or
• 29:06
  holding
• 29:07
  off
• 29:07
  when
• 29:07
  they're
• 29:08
  making
• 29:08
  a
• 29:08
  promise,
• 29:09
  following
• 29:09
  through
• 29:10
  with
• 29:10
  the
• 29:10
  promise.
• 29:11
  Right.
• 29:12
  And
• 29:12
  so
• 29:13
  now
• 29:14
  you've
• 29:14
  experienced
• 29:15
  things
• 29:16
  that
• 29:16
  you
• 29:17
  were.
• 29:17
  Because
• 29:18
  I
• 29:18
  keep
• 29:18
  seeing
• 29:18
  this
• 29:20
  pumping
• 29:21
  with
• 29:21
  your
• 29:21
  hand,
• 29:22
  like,
• 29:25
  did
• 29:25
  you
• 29:25
  find.
• 29:25
  When
• 29:25
  you
• 29:25
  were
• 29:26
  little,
• 29:26
  did
• 29:26
  you
• 29:26
  move
• 29:26
  your
• 29:26
  hands
• 29:27
  around
• 29:27
  a
• 29:27
  lot?
• 29:28
  I'm
• 29:29
  pretty
• 29:29
  sure
• 29:29
  that's
• 29:30
  what
• 29:30
  I'm.
• 29:30
  That's
• 29:31
  my.
• 29:31
  Yeah,
• 29:31
  it's
• 29:32
  an
• 29:32
  interest
• 29:32
  tick.
• 29:32
  I
• 29:33
  mean,
• 29:33
  I
• 29:33
  think
• 29:33
  I
• 29:33
  still
• 29:33
  do
• 29:33
  it.
• 29:34
  Okay.
• 29:34
  So.
• 29:34
  Yes.
• 29:35
  Okay,
• 29:36
  perfect.
• 29:36
  Because
• 29:36
  I
• 29:36
  can
• 29:37
  see
• 29:37
  you're,
• 29:37
  you
• 29:37
  know,
• 29:37
  you're
• 29:37
  trying
• 29:38
  to,
• 29:38
  like,
• 29:38
  okay,
• 29:39
  am
• 29:39
  I
• 29:39
  going
• 29:39
  to
• 29:39
  do
• 29:39
  this?
• 29:40
  I
• 29:40
  feel
• 29:40
  excitement,
• 29:41
  but
• 29:42
  building
• 29:42
  up
• 29:43
  with.
• 29:45
  And
• 29:45
  then
• 29:45
  you
• 29:46
  just
• 29:46
  let
• 29:46
  it
• 29:46
  go.
• 29:46
  Like,
• 29:47
  I
• 29:47
  could
• 29:47
  feel
• 29:47
  the
• 29:47
  build
• 29:47
  up.
• 29:48
  And
• 29:48
  then
• 29:48
  I
• 29:48
  just
• 29:48
  let
• 29:48
  it
• 29:48
  go.
• 29:50
  Meaning
• 29:51
  you
• 29:51
  already
• 29:51
  know
• 29:52
  he's
• 29:52
  not
• 29:52
  going
• 29:52
  to
• 29:52
  be
• 29:52
  there,
• 29:52
  you
• 29:53
  said.
• 29:53
  Right,
• 29:53
  right.
• 29:54
  But
• 29:54
  the
• 29:55
  hope
• 29:55
  of
• 29:55
  desire.
• 29:56
  Because
• 29:57
  kids
• 29:57
  will
• 29:58
  see
• 29:59
  their
• 29:59
  parents
• 30:00
  at
• 30:00
  certain
• 30:01
  events.
• 30:02
  You
• 30:02
  might
• 30:02
  have
• 30:02
  a
• 30:02
  couple
• 30:03
  of
• 30:03
  girlfriends,
• 30:03
  and
• 30:03
  the
• 30:04
  dad
• 30:04
  is
• 30:04
  always
• 30:04
  showing
• 30:05
  up,
• 30:05
  and
• 30:05
  you're
• 30:05
  like,
• 30:06
  inside,
• 30:08
  man,
• 30:08
  I
• 30:08
  wish
• 30:08
  mine
• 30:09
  was
• 30:09
  here.
• 30:09
  But
• 30:10
  you
• 30:10
  don't
• 30:10
  say
• 30:10
  it.
• 30:11
  You
• 30:11
  don't
• 30:11
  have
• 30:12
  that
• 30:12
  exact
• 30:13
  sentence
• 30:13
  in
• 30:13
  your
• 30:14
  head.
• 30:14
  It's
• 30:15
  a
• 30:15
  feeling
• 30:16
  of
• 30:16
  disappointment,
• 30:17
  of
• 30:17
  longing.
• 30:18
  Right.
• 30:19
  Belonging
• 30:20
  to.
• 30:20
  Have
• 30:21
  you
• 30:21
  had
• 30:21
  longing.
• 30:22
  I
• 30:22
  could
• 30:22
  feel
• 30:23
  that
• 30:23
  as
• 30:23
  soon
• 30:23
  as
• 30:23
  I
• 30:23
  said
• 30:24
  that.
• 30:24
  The
• 30:25
  longing
• 30:26
  of
• 30:27
  being
• 30:27
  able
• 30:27
  to
• 30:28
  fill
• 30:28
  that
• 30:28
  void
• 30:29
  of
• 30:30
  feeling
• 30:30
  like
• 30:30
  you
• 30:31
  had.
• 30:32
  And
• 30:33
  they
• 30:33
  could
• 30:34
  have
• 30:34
  had
• 30:35
  a
• 30:36
  father
• 30:36
  that
• 30:37
  was
• 30:37
  there
• 30:37
  for
• 30:38
  the
• 30:38
  baby
• 30:38
  girl,
• 30:39
  like
• 30:39
  to
• 30:40
  hold
• 30:40
  the
• 30:40
  hand
• 30:40
  or
• 30:41
  to
• 30:41
  be
• 30:41
  there
• 30:41
  and
• 30:41
  clap
• 30:42
  while
• 30:42
  you're
• 30:42
  on
• 30:42
  the
• 30:43
  stage
• 30:43
  with,
• 30:44
  you
• 30:44
  know,
• 30:44
  whatever
• 30:44
  it
• 30:45
  is.
• 30:46
  The
• 30:46
  school
• 30:46
  play.
• 30:47
  Were
• 30:47
  you
• 30:47
  ever
• 30:47
  in
• 30:48
  a
• 30:48
  school
• 30:48
  play?
• 30:49
  I
• 30:50
  just
• 30:50
  saw.
• 30:50
  I
• 30:51
  was
• 30:51
  in,
• 30:51
  like.
• 30:51
  I
• 30:52
  think
• 30:52
  so.
• 30:52
  Yeah.
• 30:52
  I
• 30:53
  just
• 30:53
  saw
• 30:53
  the
• 30:53
  stage
• 30:53
  and
• 30:54
  you're
• 30:54
  on
• 30:54
  a
• 30:54
  school
• 30:54
  play.
• 30:54
  And
• 30:55
  I
• 30:55
  saw
• 30:55
  the
• 30:55
  kids.
• 30:56
  They
• 30:56
  were
• 30:56
  fairly
• 30:57
  small,
• 30:57
  so
• 30:58
  probably
• 30:58
  more
• 30:59
  like
• 30:59
  8.
• 31:00
  9.
• 31:00
  8,
• 31:01
  8,
• 31:01
  8.
• 31:02
  That
• 31:02
  would
• 31:02
  have
• 31:02
  been
• 31:02
  second
• 31:03
  grade.
• 31:03
  Little
• 31:04
  play,
• 31:04
  you
• 31:04
  know,
• 31:04
  where
• 31:05
  they
• 31:05
  come
• 31:05
  in
• 31:05
  with
• 31:05
  the,
• 31:06
  you
• 31:06
  know,
• 31:06
  we
• 31:06
  are
• 31:07
  long.
• 31:07
  Oh,
• 31:07
  wait,
• 31:07
  which
• 31:08
  grade?
• 31:09
  Okay,
• 31:09
  that's
• 31:10
  actually
• 31:10
  really
• 31:10
  funny.
• 31:11
  No,
• 31:12
  My
• 31:12
  cousin,
• 31:14
  when
• 31:14
  she
• 31:14
  was
• 31:14
  in
• 31:14
  high
• 31:15
  school,
• 31:15
  she
• 31:15
  was
• 31:15
  doing
• 31:16
  a
• 31:16
  school.
• 31:16
  Play,
• 31:16
  and
• 31:17
  they
• 31:17
  asked
• 31:18
  me,
• 31:18
  since
• 31:18
  I.
• 31:18
  Was
• 31:19
  like,
• 31:19
  little,
• 31:19
  if
• 31:20
  I'd
• 31:20
  be
• 31:20
  like
• 31:20
  a
• 31:20
  munchkin
• 31:21
  or
• 31:21
  something.
• 31:22
  There
• 31:23
  you
• 31:23
  go.
• 31:23
  I
• 31:23
  picked
• 31:23
  it
• 31:23
  up.
• 31:24
  Yeah.
• 31:24
  That's
• 31:24
  interesting.
• 31:25
  So,
• 31:25
  yeah,
• 31:26
  I
• 31:26
  saw
• 31:26
  you.
• 31:26
  I
• 31:26
  saw
• 31:27
  the
• 31:27
  stage.
• 31:27
  I
• 31:27
  saw
• 31:27
  you,
• 31:27
  though,
• 31:28
  so.
• 31:28
  But,
• 31:29
  you
• 31:29
  know,
• 31:29
  to
• 31:30
  have
• 31:31
  that
• 31:31
  parent,
• 31:32
  any
• 31:32
  parent,
• 31:33
  for
• 31:33
  that
• 31:33
  matter,
• 31:33
  but
• 31:34
  to
• 31:34
  have
• 31:34
  the
• 31:35
  dad
• 31:35
  going,
• 31:35
  yeah,
• 31:36
  that's
• 31:36
  my
• 31:36
  girl
• 31:37
  up
• 31:37
  there.
• 31:38
  And
• 31:38
  then
• 31:38
  for
• 31:39
  him
• 31:39
  not
• 31:39
  to
• 31:39
  be
• 31:40
  present,
• 31:41
  that
• 31:41
  we
• 31:42
  can
• 31:42
  say
• 31:42
  you
• 31:42
  accepted
• 31:43
  unacceptable
• 31:44
  behavior.
• 31:45
  Meaning
• 31:45
  he's
• 31:45
  not
• 31:46
  here
• 31:46
  to
• 31:46
  love
• 31:46
  me.
• 31:46
  He's
• 31:47
  not
• 31:47
  here
• 31:47
  to
• 31:47
  see
• 31:48
  how
• 31:48
  I
• 31:48
  want
• 31:48
  to
• 31:49
  feel
• 31:49
  important
• 31:50
  and
• 31:50
  be
• 31:50
  seen.
• 31:51
  And
• 31:51
  any
• 31:52
  kid
• 31:52
  wants
• 31:52
  to
• 31:52
  feel
• 31:53
  that.
• 31:53
  Right?
• 31:54
  Yeah.
• 31:55
  And
• 31:55
  you
• 31:56
  just
• 31:56
  got
• 31:56
  to
• 31:56
  the
• 31:56
  point
• 31:56
  where
• 31:56
  you
• 31:57
  just
• 31:57
  accepted
• 31:58
  unacceptable
• 31:59
  behavior.
• 32:00
  He's
• 32:00
  not
• 32:00
  going.
• 32:01
  He's
• 32:01
  not
• 32:01
  there.
• 32:02
  Well,
• 32:03
  you
• 32:03
  know,
• 32:03
  I'll
• 32:03
  Just
• 32:03
  do
• 32:03
  it
• 32:04
  for
• 32:04
  myself,
• 32:04
  mom,
• 32:05
  the
• 32:06
  other
• 32:06
  kids.
• 32:06
  I'm
• 32:07
  gonna
• 32:07
  have
• 32:07
  fun.
• 32:07
  I'm
• 32:07
  gonna
• 32:08
  force
• 32:08
  myself
• 32:08
  to
• 32:08
  have
• 32:09
  fun.
• 32:09
  I
• 32:09
  feel
• 32:10
  like
• 32:10
  he.
• 32:10
  You
• 32:11
  emotionally.
• 32:12
  This.
• 32:12
  I
• 32:12
  know
• 32:12
  I'm
• 32:13
  on
• 32:13
  this
• 32:13
  one.
• 32:13
  Emotionally
• 32:14
  disconnected
• 32:15
  from
• 32:15
  him,
• 32:16
  so
• 32:16
  you
• 32:16
  would
• 32:16
  stop
• 32:17
  being
• 32:17
  hurt.
• 32:18
  But
• 32:19
  having
• 32:19
  that
• 32:20
  longing
• 32:21
  is
• 32:21
  a
• 32:21
  space
• 32:22
  of
• 32:23
  unfulfilled
• 32:24
  dreams.
• 32:26
  Do
• 32:27
  you
• 32:27
  understand
• 32:27
  what
• 32:27
  I'm
• 32:27
  saying?
• 32:29
  Okay.
• 32:31
  I
• 32:31
  know
• 32:32
  it's
• 32:32
  in
• 32:32
  you,
• 32:32
  and
• 32:32
  I
• 32:32
  know
• 32:33
  you're
• 32:33
  holding
• 32:33
  it
• 32:33
  back
• 32:33
  as
• 32:33
  I
• 32:34
  can
• 32:34
  see
• 32:34
  it
• 32:34
  in
• 32:34
  your
• 32:35
  eyes.
• 32:35
  I
• 32:36
  don't
• 32:36
  know,
• 32:36
  I
• 32:36
  think
• 32:36
  that
• 32:36
  there's.
• 32:37
  Just
• 32:37
  so
• 32:37
  much,
• 32:38
  like,
• 32:39
  hate
• 32:40
  that
• 32:40
  I
• 32:40
  can't
• 32:40
  remember
• 32:41
  a
• 32:41
  time,
• 32:41
  like,
• 32:41
  where
• 32:42
  I
• 32:42
  would
• 32:42
  have
• 32:43
  been.
• 32:43
  Like,
• 32:43
  oh,
• 32:43
  yeah,
• 32:44
  I
• 32:44
  wish
• 32:44
  I
• 32:44
  would
• 32:44
  have
• 32:44
  been
• 32:45
  there.
• 32:45
  Like,
• 32:45
  now.
• 32:45
  It's.
• 32:46
  Yeah.
• 32:48
  Well,
• 32:49
  again,
• 32:49
  I'm
• 32:49
  working
• 32:50
  in
• 32:50
  the
• 32:50
  subconscious,
• 32:51
  and
• 32:51
  I
• 32:52
  had
• 32:52
  to
• 32:52
  remind
• 32:52
  you
• 32:53
  of
• 32:53
  the
• 32:53
  munchkin
• 32:54
  moment,
• 32:55
  even
• 32:55
  though
• 32:55
  I
• 32:55
  saw
• 32:55
  it,
• 32:56
  right?
• 32:56
  Yeah,
• 32:57
  but
• 32:57
  your
• 32:58
  subconscious
• 32:58
  is
• 32:59
  telling
• 32:59
  me
• 33:00
  the
• 33:00
  things
• 33:00
  that
• 33:00
  I'm
• 33:01
  picking
• 33:01
  up.
• 33:02
  Hate
• 33:02
  is
• 33:03
  such
• 33:03
  a
• 33:04
  strong
• 33:05
  emotion
• 33:06
  that.
• 33:07
  That
• 33:07
  can
• 33:07
  also
• 33:08
  hold
• 33:08
  you
• 33:09
  back
• 33:09
  from
• 33:09
  being
• 33:09
  able
• 33:10
  to
• 33:10
  succeed
• 33:11
  when
• 33:12
  masculine
• 33:12
  energy
• 33:13
  is
• 33:13
  present.
• 33:15
  And
• 33:15
  masculine
• 33:16
  energy
• 33:16
  can
• 33:16
  also
• 33:17
  be
• 33:17
  in
• 33:17
  a
• 33:17
  female
• 33:18
  body,
• 33:19
  a
• 33:19
  woman
• 33:19
  who's
• 33:19
  very
• 33:20
  dominant.
• 33:20
  Leadership
• 33:21
  role,
• 33:21
  stage
• 33:22
  presence,
• 33:22
  that
• 33:22
  kind
• 33:23
  of
• 33:23
  thing.
• 33:23
  That's
• 33:24
  that
• 33:24
  dominant
• 33:25
  masculine
• 33:26
  coming
• 33:26
  through
• 33:27
  a
• 33:27
  female
• 33:27
  body.
• 33:28
  Right.
• 33:29
  But
• 33:29
  when
• 33:29
  you
• 33:30
  have
• 33:30
  hate
• 33:31
  toward.
• 33:32
  But
• 33:33
  the.
• 33:33
  And
• 33:34
  I'll
• 33:34
  just
• 33:34
  say,
• 33:34
  because
• 33:35
  little
• 33:35
  children,
• 33:36
  that's
• 33:36
  my
• 33:37
  prince.
• 33:37
  That's
• 33:37
  my
• 33:37
  king.
• 33:38
  That's
• 33:38
  my
• 33:38
  God,
• 33:39
  you
• 33:39
  know
• 33:39
  that.
• 33:39
  Because
• 33:40
  that's
• 33:40
  like,
• 33:41
  he's
• 33:41
  there
• 33:42
  and
• 33:43
  then
• 33:43
  over
• 33:43
  time,
• 33:44
  being
• 33:45
  disappointed
• 33:46
  and
• 33:46
  disappointed
• 33:47
  and
• 33:47
  disappointed.
• 33:48
  I
• 33:48
  can
• 33:48
  feel
• 33:48
  like
• 33:48
  every
• 33:49
  time
• 33:49
  I
• 33:49
  say
• 33:49
  it,
• 33:49
  I
• 33:49
  get
• 33:50
  a
• 33:50
  stab
• 33:50
  in
• 33:50
  my
• 33:50
  back.
• 33:51
  So
• 33:51
  you
• 33:51
  are
• 33:52
  stabbed
• 33:52
  in
• 33:52
  your
• 33:52
  back
• 33:53
  every
• 33:53
  time
• 33:53
  that
• 33:54
  you
• 33:54
  were
• 33:55
  hoping
• 33:57
  or,
• 33:57
  you
• 33:57
  know,
• 33:58
  can
• 33:58
  he
• 33:58
  do
• 33:58
  it?
• 33:58
  Will
• 33:59
  he
• 33:59
  do
• 33:59
  it?
• 34:00
  And
• 34:00
  then
• 34:00
  just
• 34:00
  being
• 34:01
  more
• 34:02
  in
• 34:02
  that
• 34:02
  stab,
• 34:02
  it's
• 34:02
  more
• 34:03
  angry.
• 34:03
  More
• 34:04
  angry.
• 34:04
  More
• 34:04
  angry
• 34:05
  to
• 34:05
  the
• 34:05
  point.
• 34:06
  And
• 34:06
  so
• 34:06
  that
• 34:06
  builds
• 34:07
  up
• 34:07
  is
• 34:07
  like,
• 34:08
  I
• 34:08
  can't
• 34:08
  see
• 34:08
  anything
• 34:09
  else
• 34:09
  but
• 34:09
  the
• 34:09
  anger
• 34:09
  that
• 34:10
  I
• 34:10
  have.
• 34:11
  Okay,
• 34:12
  that
• 34:12
  makes
• 34:13
  sense
• 34:13
  now.
• 34:13
  Okay.
• 34:14
  When
• 34:14
  I
• 34:15
  first
• 34:15
  work
• 34:15
  with
• 34:16
  people,
• 34:16
  what
• 34:17
  can
• 34:17
  happen
• 34:17
  is
• 34:18
  they're
• 34:18
  looking
• 34:18
  in
• 34:19
  their
• 34:19
  brain
• 34:20
  for
• 34:20
  a
• 34:20
  specific
• 34:21
  moment
• 34:22
  in
• 34:22
  time
• 34:23
  that
• 34:23
  says,
• 34:23
  that's
• 34:24
  why
• 34:24
  I
• 34:24
  hate
• 34:24
  him.
• 34:25
  And
• 34:26
  it's
• 34:26
  not
• 34:26
  like
• 34:27
  that
• 34:27
  for
• 34:27
  you.
• 34:28
  It
• 34:28
  was
• 34:28
  gradual
• 34:29
  because
• 34:29
  you.
• 34:29
  To
• 34:29
  use
• 34:30
  8
• 34:31
  is
• 34:31
  a
• 34:32
  buildup
• 34:32
  of
• 34:33
  such
• 34:35
  despair,
• 34:37
  you
• 34:37
  know?
• 34:37
  And
• 34:38
  I
• 34:38
  can
• 34:38
  use
• 34:38
  that
• 34:38
  word
• 34:39
  because
• 34:39
  I'm
• 34:40
  talking
• 34:40
  to
• 34:40
  your
• 34:40
  child.
• 34:41
  I'm
• 34:41
  not
• 34:42
  talking
• 34:42
  to
• 34:43
  your
• 34:43
  adult
• 34:44
  person
• 34:44
  right
• 34:44
  here,
• 34:45
  Samantha.
• 34:45
  I'm
• 34:45
  talking
• 34:46
  to
• 34:46
  that
• 34:46
  person,
• 34:47
  the
• 34:47
  little
• 34:48
  girl
• 34:48
  who
• 34:49
  really
• 34:49
  desired
• 34:50
  and
• 34:50
  wanted
• 34:51
  to
• 34:51
  have
• 34:51
  a
• 34:51
  dad.
• 34:52
  More
• 34:53
  present,
• 34:53
  more
• 34:54
  caring,
• 34:54
  more
• 34:55
  showing
• 34:55
  caring,
• 34:56
  showing
• 34:57
  love,
• 34:58
  showing
• 34:58
  attention,
• 34:59
  you
• 35:00
  know?
• 35:00
  And
• 35:00
  attention
• 35:01
  could
• 35:01
  simply
• 35:01
  just
• 35:01
  be
• 35:02
  looking
• 35:02
  at
• 35:02
  you
• 35:02
  in
• 35:02
  your
• 35:03
  Eyes
• 35:03
  and
• 35:03
  saying,
• 35:03
  how
• 35:04
  was
• 35:04
  your
• 35:04
  day,
• 35:04
  baby?
• 35:05
  You
• 35:05
  know,
• 35:06
  come
• 35:06
  over
• 35:06
  here,
• 35:06
  give
• 35:07
  me
• 35:07
  a
• 35:07
  hug.
• 35:08
  Or
• 35:08
  I'm
• 35:08
  going
• 35:08
  to
• 35:08
  come
• 35:08
  to
• 35:09
  you
• 35:09
  and
• 35:09
  give
• 35:09
  you
• 35:09
  a
• 35:09
  hug.
• 35:11
  You
• 35:11
  see?
• 35:12
  And
• 35:12
  when
• 35:12
  you
• 35:12
  don't
• 35:12
  have
• 35:13
  that
• 35:13
  interaction.
• 35:14
  And
• 35:14
  you're
• 35:15
  feeling
• 35:15
  like,
• 35:15
  man,
• 35:16
  he's
• 35:17
  constantly
• 35:18
  setting
• 35:18
  me
• 35:18
  up
• 35:19
  for
• 35:19
  failure.
• 35:19
  Meaning
• 35:20
  it's
• 35:20
  the
• 35:20
  fear
• 35:21
  feeling.
• 35:21
  Because
• 35:22
  I
• 35:22
  want
• 35:22
  you
• 35:22
  to
• 35:22
  think
• 35:23
  about
• 35:23
  what
• 35:23
  a
• 35:23
  child
• 35:24
  would
• 35:24
  be
• 35:24
  thinking,
• 35:25
  not
• 35:25
  what
• 35:25
  you
• 35:25
  are
• 35:26
  thinking
• 35:26
  now
• 35:26
  as
• 35:27
  an
• 35:27
  adult
• 35:27
  because
• 35:27
  you're
• 35:27
  an
• 35:27
  overthinker.
• 35:29
  You
• 35:29
  know,
• 35:29
  you
• 35:30
  are
• 35:32
  so
• 35:32
  going
• 35:32
  back
• 35:33
  and
• 35:33
  saying,
• 35:34
  yeah,
• 35:34
  when
• 35:34
  I
• 35:35
  could
• 35:35
  think
• 35:35
  about
• 35:35
  that
• 35:36
  childhood,
• 35:37
  there
• 35:37
  were
• 35:38
  so
• 35:38
  many
• 35:38
  episodes
• 35:39
  that
• 35:39
  I
• 35:39
  just
• 35:39
  stopped
• 35:40
  thinking
• 35:40
  about
• 35:40
  them
• 35:40
  all
• 35:41
  together.
• 35:41
  I
• 35:41
  just
• 35:42
  like,
• 35:44
  off
• 35:45
  with
• 35:45
  his
• 35:45
  head.
• 35:46
  You
• 35:47
  see
• 35:47
  how
• 35:47
  that.
• 35:47
  You
• 35:48
  know
• 35:48
  what
• 35:48
  I'm
• 35:48
  saying
• 35:48
  about
• 35:49
  now?
• 35:49
  Okay,
• 35:51
  okay.
• 35:51
  Now
• 35:51
  you.
• 35:52
  Now
• 35:52
  you
• 35:52
  get
• 35:52
  it.
• 35:53
  Okay.
• 35:53
  I
• 35:53
  just
• 35:53
  want
• 35:54
  to
• 35:54
  make
• 35:54
  sure
• 35:54
  you're
• 35:54
  on
• 35:54
  the
• 35:54
  same
• 35:55
  page
• 35:55
  with
• 35:55
  me.
• 35:56
  Okay.
• 36:01
  Your
• 36:01
  hip
• 36:02
  is
• 36:02
  a
• 36:02
  little
• 36:04
  out
• 36:04
  of
• 36:04
  whack.
• 36:05
  Do
• 36:05
  you
• 36:05
  have.
• 36:05
  Do
• 36:05
  you
• 36:05
  feel
• 36:05
  like
• 36:06
  every
• 36:06
  once
• 36:06
  in
• 36:06
  a
• 36:06
  while
• 36:06
  you
• 36:06
  get
• 36:07
  a.
• 36:08
  Like
• 36:08
  a.
• 36:09
  Sometimes
• 36:09
  I
• 36:10
  get
• 36:10
  stuck.
• 36:10
  Yeah,
• 36:10
  there
• 36:11
  it
• 36:11
  goes
• 36:11
  there.
• 36:11
  I
• 36:12
  can
• 36:12
  see
• 36:12
  the
• 36:12
  way
• 36:12
  you're
• 36:12
  laying
• 36:13
  on
• 36:13
  the
• 36:13
  bed.
• 36:13
  And
• 36:14
  it's
• 36:14
  always
• 36:15
  how
• 36:15
  anybody
• 36:16
  can
• 36:16
  lay
• 36:16
  on
• 36:16
  the
• 36:16
  bed.
• 36:16
  You
• 36:16
  could
• 36:17
  wear
• 36:17
  shoes
• 36:17
  that
• 36:18
  are
• 36:18
  not.
• 36:19
  The
• 36:19
  laces
• 36:19
  aren't
• 36:20
  tied.
• 36:20
  And
• 36:20
  it's
• 36:20
  telling
• 36:20
  me
• 36:20
  you
• 36:21
  don't
• 36:21
  like
• 36:21
  to
• 36:21
  be
• 36:21
  tied
• 36:21
  down.
• 36:22
  You.
• 36:22
  But
• 36:23
  look
• 36:23
  at
• 36:23
  how
• 36:24
  you're
• 36:24
  literally
• 36:25
  lopsided.
• 36:26
  Oh,
• 36:26
  interesting.
• 36:27
  Your
• 36:27
  whole
• 36:27
  hip
• 36:27
  is
• 36:27
  up.
• 36:28
  And
• 36:28
  it
• 36:29
  just
• 36:29
  shows
• 36:29
  me
• 36:29
  every
• 36:29
  time
• 36:30
  somebody
• 36:30
  lays.
• 36:30
  And
• 36:30
  you're
• 36:31
  really
• 36:31
  out
• 36:31
  of
• 36:31
  alignment.
• 36:32
  But
• 36:32
  that's
• 36:32
  a
• 36:32
  physical
• 36:33
  alignment
• 36:33
  as
• 36:34
  well,
• 36:34
  right?
• 36:35
  But
• 36:35
  also
• 36:36
  not
• 36:37
  being
• 36:37
  supported.
• 36:38
  The
• 36:38
  dad's
• 36:39
  side
• 36:39
  hips
• 36:40
  represent
• 36:41
  support,
• 36:42
  so
• 36:42
  that's
• 36:42
  why
• 36:42
  you
• 36:43
  get
• 36:43
  tweaked
• 36:43
  every
• 36:44
  once
• 36:44
  in
• 36:44
  a
• 36:44
  while.
• 36:44
  On
• 36:44
  this
• 36:45
  hip,
• 36:45
  the
• 36:46
  body
• 36:46
  responds
• 36:47
  to
• 36:48
  what
• 36:48
  your
• 36:49
  family
• 36:49
  or
• 36:49
  your
• 36:50
  life
• 36:50
  history
• 36:52
  is
• 36:52
  and
• 36:53
  was
• 36:54
  and
• 36:54
  even
• 36:55
  going
• 36:55
  forward.
• 36:56
  So
• 36:56
  if
• 36:56
  you're
• 36:56
  an
• 36:56
  overthinker,
• 36:57
  you
• 36:58
  might
• 36:58
  end
• 36:58
  up
• 36:58
  getting
• 36:58
  pains
• 36:59
  in
• 36:59
  your
• 36:59
  lower
• 36:59
  back,
• 37:00
  because
• 37:00
  that's.
• 37:00
  Life
• 37:01
  is
• 37:01
  a
• 37:01
  pain
• 37:01
  in
• 37:01
  the
• 37:01
  butt.
• 37:03
  So
• 37:03
  that's
• 37:04
  why
• 37:04
  we
• 37:04
  have
• 37:04
  to
• 37:04
  get
• 37:04
  you
• 37:05
  out
• 37:05
  of
• 37:05
  your
• 37:05
  head.
• 37:06
  But
• 37:06
  then
• 37:06
  you
• 37:07
  have
• 37:07
  this
• 37:07
  fear
• 37:07
  if
• 37:07
  I
• 37:08
  don't
• 37:08
  sink
• 37:08
  it
• 37:08
  through,
• 37:08
  I
• 37:09
  have
• 37:09
  to
• 37:09
  have
• 37:09
  control.
• 37:09
  I
• 37:10
  have
• 37:10
  to.
• 37:11
  Then.
• 37:11
  Then
• 37:11
  what
• 37:12
  you're
• 37:12
  doing
• 37:12
  is
• 37:12
  you're
• 37:12
  slowing
• 37:13
  down
• 37:13
  the
• 37:13
  flow
• 37:14
  of
• 37:14
  what
• 37:14
  you
• 37:15
  want
• 37:15
  the
• 37:15
  end
• 37:16
  result
• 37:16
  to
• 37:16
  be.
• 37:18
  Do
• 37:18
  you
• 37:18
  understand
• 37:19
  that?
• 37:19
  Okay,
• 37:25
  relax.
• 37:26
  So
• 37:26
  that
• 37:27
  is
• 37:27
  a
• 37:27
  control
• 37:28
  mechanism.
• 37:30
  So
• 37:30
  when
• 37:30
  I
• 37:31
  picked
• 37:31
  up
• 37:31
  your
• 37:31
  arm,
• 37:31
  some
• 37:32
  people
• 37:32
  would
• 37:32
  just
• 37:32
  let
• 37:32
  me
• 37:33
  do
• 37:33
  whatever
• 37:33
  I
• 37:34
  want,
• 37:34
  but
• 37:34
  you
• 37:34
  were
• 37:34
  already
• 37:35
  holding
• 37:35
  it.
• 37:36
  I
• 37:36
  see
• 37:37
  that
• 37:37
  with
• 37:37
  a
• 37:38
  lot
• 37:38
  of
• 37:38
  people.
• 37:39
  And
• 37:39
  so
• 37:39
  that
• 37:40
  instantly
• 37:40
  tells
• 37:40
  me
• 37:40
  you
• 37:41
  do
• 37:41
  have
• 37:41
  a
• 37:41
  very
• 37:41
  strong
• 37:42
  control
• 37:42
  mechanism.
• 37:43
  You've
• 37:43
  got
• 37:43
  to
• 37:43
  get
• 37:44
  things
• 37:44
  done.
• 37:44
  You
• 37:44
  want
• 37:44
  it
• 37:45
  to
• 37:45
  be
• 37:45
  the
• 37:45
  right
• 37:45
  way.
• 37:45
  You
• 37:45
  want
• 37:45
  to
• 37:46
  dance,
• 37:46
  you
• 37:46
  know,
• 37:46
  and
• 37:47
  that
• 37:47
  can
• 37:47
  be
• 37:47
  also
• 37:47
  your
• 37:48
  career,
• 37:48
  where
• 37:48
  you
• 37:49
  have
• 37:49
  deadlines
• 37:49
  and
• 37:50
  want
• 37:50
  to
• 37:50
  be.
• 37:50
  You
• 37:50
  have
• 37:50
  to
• 37:51
  do
• 37:51
  all
• 37:51
  these
• 37:51
  things,
• 37:52
  but
• 37:52
  you
• 37:53
  have
• 37:53
  to
• 37:54
  trust
• 37:54
  more.
• 37:56
  And
• 37:56
  when
• 37:56
  you
• 37:57
  had
• 37:57
  a
• 37:57
  parent
• 37:58
  you
• 37:58
  couldn't
• 37:58
  trust,
• 37:59
  then
• 38:00
  that's
• 38:00
  where
• 38:01
  you
• 38:01
  turned
• 38:01
  up
• 38:01
  the
• 38:02
  volume
• 38:02
  to
• 38:03
  control
• 38:04
  what
• 38:04
  you
• 38:05
  want
• 38:05
  to
• 38:06
  create
• 38:06
  and
• 38:07
  project.
• 38:09
  Does
• 38:09
  that
• 38:09
  now
• 38:10
  make
• 38:10
  sense?
• 38:11
  Yeah.
• 38:12
  All
• 38:12
  right.
• 38:18
  You
• 38:19
  know,
• 38:19
  part
• 38:19
  of
• 38:19
  your
• 38:19
  body
• 38:20
  is
• 38:20
  telling
• 38:20
  me,
• 38:20
  when
• 38:20
  I
• 38:21
  first
• 38:21
  started,
• 38:21
  started
• 38:21
  putting
• 38:21
  my
• 38:22
  thumb
• 38:22
  here
• 38:22
  on
• 38:22
  your
• 38:23
  hand,
• 38:23
  I
• 38:23
  could
• 38:23
  see
• 38:23
  a
• 38:24
  boxing
• 38:24
  glove.
• 38:25
  That's.
• 38:26
  That's
• 38:26
  funny,
• 38:27
  actually.
• 38:27
  Yeah.
• 38:28
  Yeah.
• 38:28
  Because
• 38:29
  I
• 38:29
  had
• 38:29
  an
• 38:29
  image
• 38:29
  of
• 38:29
  like
• 38:30
  a,
• 38:30
  like
• 38:30
  punching.
• 38:32
  There
• 38:32
  you
• 38:32
  go.
• 38:32
  So
• 38:33
  same
• 38:34
  connection
• 38:34
  there.
• 38:34
  Yeah.
• 38:35
  But
• 38:35
  when
• 38:35
  I
• 38:35
  asked
• 38:36
  you
• 38:36
  to
• 38:36
  relax,
• 38:37
  your
• 38:37
  arms
• 38:37
  started
• 38:38
  relaxing
• 38:38
  and
• 38:38
  I
• 38:39
  could
• 38:39
  feel
• 38:39
  very
• 38:40
  tired.
• 38:41
  So
• 38:41
  you're
• 38:42
  tired
• 38:42
  of
• 38:42
  holding
• 38:43
  on
• 38:43
  to
• 38:44
  some
• 38:44
  of
• 38:44
  this
• 38:45
  anger
• 38:45
  and
• 38:45
  frustration
• 38:46
  and
• 38:46
  guys
• 38:47
  to
• 38:47
  fight
• 38:47
  through
• 38:47
  things.
• 38:48
  No
• 38:49
  one
• 38:49
  has
• 38:49
  to
• 38:49
  fight
• 38:50
  to
• 38:50
  get
• 38:50
  things.
• 38:51
  They
• 38:52
  just
• 38:52
  trust
• 38:52
  and
• 38:53
  love
• 38:53
  and
• 38:53
  be
• 38:54
  connected
• 38:54
  to
• 38:55
  source
• 38:55
  energy,
• 38:56
  God,
• 38:56
  whatever
• 38:56
  you
• 38:57
  want
• 38:57
  to
• 38:57
  label
• 38:57
  it,
• 38:58
  I'll
• 38:58
  just
• 38:58
  call
• 38:58
  it
• 38:58
  God
• 38:58
  or
• 38:59
  higher
• 38:59
  self,
• 38:59
  whatever.
• 39:00
  But
• 39:01
  it
• 39:02
  causes
• 39:02
  a
• 39:03
  person
• 39:03
  to
• 39:04
  hold
• 39:05
  on
• 39:05
  the
• 39:05
  control
• 39:06
  mechanism.
• 39:06
  Right.
• 39:07
  So
• 39:08
  look
• 39:08
  at
• 39:08
  it
• 39:08
  as
• 39:08
  like
• 39:09
  put
• 39:09
  down
• 39:09
  false.
• 39:10
  You
• 39:11
  have
• 39:11
  a
• 39:11
  string
• 39:11
  that's
• 39:11
  flying.
• 39:12
  So
• 39:13
  if
• 39:13
  you're
• 39:13
  going
• 39:13
  to
• 39:13
  control.
• 39:14
  So
• 39:14
  let's
• 39:15
  say
• 39:15
  the
• 39:15
  stream
• 39:15
  is
• 39:15
  flowing
• 39:16
  of
• 39:16
  energy
• 39:16
  and
• 39:16
  you
• 39:17
  control
• 39:17
  a
• 39:18
  log
• 39:18
  comes
• 39:19
  down
• 39:19
  into
• 39:19
  the
• 39:19
  stream,
• 39:20
  you're
• 39:20
  trying
• 39:21
  to
• 39:21
  stop
• 39:22
  the
• 39:22
  flow
• 39:23
  of
• 39:23
  that
• 39:23
  energy.
• 39:24
  That's
• 39:24
  with
• 39:25
  you
• 39:25
  controlling.
• 39:26
  I
• 39:27
  don't
• 39:27
  want
• 39:27
  it
• 39:27
  to
• 39:27
  be
• 39:27
  that
• 39:28
  way.
• 39:28
  Boom,
• 39:28
  long
• 39:28
  comes
• 39:29
  down,
• 39:30
  the
• 39:30
  energy
• 39:31
  is
• 39:31
  still
• 39:31
  going
• 39:31
  to
• 39:31
  flow,
• 39:32
  but
• 39:32
  now
• 39:33
  it's
• 39:33
  going
• 39:33
  to
• 39:33
  flow
• 39:34
  around
• 39:34
  the
• 39:34
  log.
• 39:35
  Then
• 39:35
  it
• 39:35
  could
• 39:35
  go
• 39:36
  to
• 39:36
  the
• 39:36
  right
• 39:36
  direction.
• 39:38
  Right,
• 39:39
  Meaning.
• 39:39
  Yeah,
• 39:40
  it
• 39:40
  could
• 39:40
  go
• 39:40
  in
• 39:40
  the
• 39:40
  direction
• 39:41
  you
• 39:41
  want
• 39:41
  it
• 39:41
  to
• 39:41
  be,
• 39:42
  or
• 39:42
  it
• 39:43
  could
• 39:43
  go
• 39:43
  in
• 39:43
  another
• 39:44
  direction
• 39:45
  and
• 39:45
  take
• 39:45
  you
• 39:46
  a
• 39:46
  whole
• 39:47
  much
• 39:47
  longer,
• 39:48
  like
• 39:49
  a
• 39:49
  whole
• 39:49
  hell
• 39:49
  of
• 39:50
  a
• 39:50
  long
• 39:50
  time
• 39:50
  to
• 39:51
  get
• 39:51
  to
• 39:51
  your
• 39:51
  end
• 39:52
  result.
• 39:52
  And
• 39:53
  then
• 39:53
  you
• 39:53
  get
• 39:53
  even
• 39:54
  more
• 39:54
  frustrated.
• 39:55
  Why
• 39:55
  does
• 39:55
  this
• 39:55
  take
• 39:56
  so
• 39:56
  long?
• 39:56
  Why
• 39:57
  can't
• 39:57
  I
• 39:57
  get
• 39:58
  to
• 39:58
  my
• 39:58
  end
• 39:58
  result
• 39:59
  quicker?
• 40:00
  There's
• 40:00
  where
• 40:00
  you're
• 40:00
  starting
• 40:01
  to
• 40:01
  question
• 40:01
  why,
• 40:01
  why,
• 40:02
  why,
• 40:02
  why,
• 40:02
  why,
• 40:02
  why?
• 40:03
  And
• 40:03
  that
• 40:04
  why
• 40:04
  is
• 40:04
  a
• 40:04
  disconnect
• 40:05
  from
• 40:05
  source
• 40:06
  energy.
• 40:07
  Look
• 40:08
  at
• 40:08
  as
• 40:08
  you
• 40:08
  pull
• 40:09
  in
• 40:09
  your.
• 40:10
  Your
• 40:10
  energy
• 40:11
  into
• 40:11
  a
• 40:11
  cocoon.
• 40:12
  I
• 40:12
  have
• 40:12
  to
• 40:12
  control
• 40:13
  this.
• 40:13
  I
• 40:13
  have
• 40:13
  to
• 40:13
  do
• 40:13
  it
• 40:14
  my
• 40:14
  way.
• 40:14
  I
• 40:14
  have
• 40:14
  to
• 40:14
  get
• 40:14
  this
• 40:15
  done.
• 40:15
  Nobody
• 40:15
  was,
• 40:15
  you
• 40:16
  know,
• 40:16
  I.
• 40:16
  I
• 40:16
  know.
• 40:16
  I
• 40:16
  can
• 40:17
  do
• 40:17
  it
• 40:17
  faster.
• 40:17
  I'm
• 40:17
  better.
• 40:18
  I
• 40:18
  just
• 40:18
  got
• 40:18
  to
• 40:18
  do
• 40:18
  it
• 40:20
  right.
• 40:21
  Instead
• 40:21
  of
• 40:22
  saying,
• 40:22
  I
• 40:23
  know
• 40:23
  I'm
• 40:23
  fully
• 40:24
  connected.
• 40:25
  I
• 40:25
  know
• 40:26
  that
• 40:26
  source
• 40:27
  has
• 40:27
  got
• 40:27
  my.
• 40:28
  Back
• 40:28
  at
• 40:28
  all
• 40:28
  times.
• 40:29
  I
• 40:30
  know
• 40:30
  that
• 40:30
  I
• 40:30
  can
• 40:30
  focus,
• 40:31
  get
• 40:31
  it
• 40:31
  done.
• 40:32
  And
• 40:32
  voila,
• 40:33
  everything
• 40:33
  that
• 40:34
  I
• 40:34
  want
• 40:34
  is
• 40:35
  happening
• 40:36
  for
• 40:36
  me.
• 40:37
  But
• 40:38
  if
• 40:38
  you're
• 40:38
  not
• 40:38
  living
• 40:38
  in
• 40:39
  the
• 40:39
  space
• 40:39
  of
• 40:39
  saying
• 40:40
  I
• 40:40
  know
• 40:41
  the
• 40:41
  in
• 40:41
  k
• 40:41
  n
• 40:42
  o
• 40:42
  w
• 40:42
  things
• 40:42
  are
• 40:43
  happening
• 40:43
  for
• 40:43
  me,
• 40:44
  then
• 40:45
  you're
• 40:45
  always
• 40:45
  going
• 40:45
  to
• 40:46
  cocoon
• 40:46
  and
• 40:46
  it's
• 40:46
  going
• 40:47
  to
• 40:47
  take
• 40:47
  a
• 40:47
  whole
• 40:48
  lot
• 40:48
  longer.
• 40:49
  You're
• 40:49
  going
• 40:49
  to
• 40:49
  be
• 40:50
  frustrated
• 40:50
  on
• 40:50
  why
• 40:51
  it's
• 40:51
  taking
• 40:51
  so
• 40:52
  long
• 40:53
  and
• 40:53
  you're
• 40:53
  going
• 40:54
  to
• 40:54
  get
• 40:54
  disillusioned
• 40:55
  if
• 40:55
  you're
• 40:55
  going
• 40:56
  in
• 40:56
  the
• 40:56
  right
• 40:56
  direction.
• 40:57
  Is
• 40:57
  this
• 40:58
  for
• 40:58
  me?
• 40:59
  Should
• 40:59
  I
• 40:59
  keep
• 40:59
  doing
• 41:00
  it?
• 41:00
  And
• 41:01
  then
• 41:01
  that's
• 41:01
  where
• 41:01
  the
• 41:01
  doubt
• 41:02
  creeps
• 41:02
  in.
• 41:03
  It's
• 41:04
  bio.
• 41:05
  Yeah,
• 41:06
  yeah.
• 41:08
  Relax.
• 41:10
  And
• 41:10
  the
• 41:10
  first
• 41:11
  thing
• 41:11
  you're
• 41:11
  gonna
• 41:11
  tell
• 41:11
  me,
• 41:12
  I'm
• 41:12
  trying
• 41:13
  to
• 41:13
  relax.
• 41:13
  It's
• 41:13
  so
• 41:14
  hard.
• 41:15
  It's
• 41:15
  not
• 41:15
  hard.
• 41:16
  You
• 41:17
  just
• 41:17
  have
• 41:17
  to
• 41:17
  trust
• 41:18
  to
• 41:19
  let
• 41:19
  go.
• 41:21
  It's
• 41:21
  a
• 41:22
  lifestyle.
• 41:23
  Yeah.
• 41:24
  Trusting
• 41:24
  is
• 41:25
  the
• 41:25
  number
• 41:25
  one
• 41:26
  thing.
• 41:26
  Someone
• 41:26
  who
• 41:27
  has
• 41:27
  a
• 41:27
  massive
• 41:28
  control
• 41:28
  mechanism.
• 41:31
  I
• 41:31
  used
• 41:32
  to.
• 41:33
  And
• 41:34
  it's,
• 41:34
  it's
• 41:35
  practice.
• 41:35
  I
• 41:35
  mean
• 41:35
  it
• 41:35
  could
• 41:36
  take
• 41:36
  you
• 41:36
  three
• 41:37
  to
• 41:37
  six
• 41:37
  months.
• 41:38
  Closer
• 41:38
  to
• 41:38
  six
• 41:38
  months
• 41:39
  for
• 41:39
  you.
• 41:40
  But
• 41:40
  you
• 41:41
  have
• 41:41
  to
• 41:41
  say,
• 41:42
  I
• 41:42
  am.
• 41:42
  Going
• 41:43
  to
• 41:43
  trust
• 41:43
  no
• 41:43
  matter
• 41:44
  what.
• 41:45
  I
• 41:45
  know
• 41:45
  there's
• 41:46
  so
• 41:46
  many
• 41:46
  things
• 41:46
  that
• 41:46
  you
• 41:47
  want
• 41:47
  to
• 41:47
  accomplish,
• 41:48
  things
• 41:48
  you
• 41:48
  haven't
• 41:49
  even
• 41:49
  thought
• 41:49
  of
• 41:49
  yet,
• 41:50
  but
• 41:50
  they're
• 41:51
  going
• 41:51
  to
• 41:51
  start
• 41:51
  coming
• 41:51
  at
• 41:52
  you.
• 41:53
  And
• 41:54
  the
• 41:54
  more
• 41:54
  you
• 41:54
  control
• 41:55
  the,
• 41:56
  the.
• 41:56
  More
• 41:57
  you
• 41:57
  stay
• 41:57
  in
• 41:58
  the
• 41:58
  space
• 41:59
  that
• 41:59
  you've
• 42:00
  created
• 42:00
  with
• 42:01
  this
• 42:01
  control,
• 42:02
  you're
• 42:03
  going
• 42:03
  to
• 42:03
  be
• 42:03
  questioning
• 42:04
  a
• 42:04
  lot
• 42:05
  of
• 42:05
  things.
• 42:06
  Why
• 42:06
  did
• 42:07
  I
• 42:07
  do
• 42:07
  it?
• 42:08
  You
• 42:08
  know,
• 42:08
  what,
• 42:09
  what?
• 42:09
  And
• 42:10
  when
• 42:10
  I
• 42:10
  heard
• 42:11
  why.
• 42:11
  You
• 42:11
  can
• 42:11
  get
• 42:12
  very
• 42:13
  self
• 42:14
  destructive
• 42:15
  in
• 42:16
  resume.
• 42:18
  Oh
• 42:18
  yeah,
• 42:19
  yeah.
• 42:22
  That
• 42:23
  whole
• 42:23
  recent
• 42:24
  conversation.
• 42:25
  Interesting.
• 42:29
  Biggest
• 42:29
  thing
• 42:29
  for
• 42:30
  you,
• 42:30
  Samantha,
• 42:32
  is
• 42:33
  I
• 42:33
  could
• 42:33
  tell
• 42:34
  you
• 42:34
  stories
• 42:34
  about
• 42:34
  you
• 42:35
  all
• 42:35
  day
• 42:35
  long.
• 42:37
  But
• 42:37
  unless
• 42:38
  you
• 42:38
  can
• 42:38
  recall
• 42:39
  it
• 42:40
  and
• 42:40
  go,
• 42:40
  oh
• 42:40
  yeah,
• 42:41
  that's
• 42:41
  why
• 42:41
  I
• 42:41
  was.
• 42:41
  Angry
• 42:42
  or
• 42:42
  oh,
• 42:42
  that's
• 42:42
  why
• 42:42
  I
• 42:43
  was
• 42:43
  happy
• 42:43
  or
• 42:43
  oh,
• 42:45
  you're
• 42:45
  going
• 42:45
  to
• 42:45
  continue
• 42:46
  to
• 42:46
  live
• 42:46
  in
• 42:46
  the
• 42:46
  space
• 42:47
  you're
• 42:47
  living
• 42:47
  in
• 42:47
  and
• 42:48
  I
• 42:48
  would
• 42:48
  hate
• 42:48
  to
• 42:49
  see
• 42:49
  that
• 42:49
  happen
• 42:50
  for
• 42:50
  you.
• 42:50
  You're
• 42:51
  very
• 42:51
  productive
• 42:52
  young
• 42:52
  woman
• 42:53
  who
• 42:55
  really
• 42:55
  has
• 42:56
  passion
• 42:57
  and
• 42:58
  the
• 42:58
  passion
• 42:59
  to
• 42:59
  help,
• 42:59
  the
• 42:59
  passion
• 43:00
  to
• 43:00
  succeed,
• 43:01
  the
• 43:01
  passion
• 43:01
  to.
• 43:02
  To
• 43:03
  be
• 43:07
  trailblazer.
• 43:08
  Let's
• 43:08
  use
• 43:08
  that
• 43:09
  word.
• 43:09
  Right.
• 43:12
  However,
• 43:13
  if
• 43:14
  you're
• 43:14
  not
• 43:14
  going
• 43:15
  to
• 43:15
  begin
• 43:16
  to
• 43:16
  trust
• 43:17
  and
• 43:17
  there's
• 43:17
  such
• 43:17
  emotion,
• 43:20
  if
• 43:20
  you're
• 43:20
  not
• 43:20
  going
• 43:20
  to
• 43:21
  begin
• 43:21
  to
• 43:21
  trust
• 43:22
  beyond
• 43:24
  what
• 43:24
  your
• 43:24
  body
• 43:26
  is
• 43:27
  feeling
• 43:27
  is
• 43:28
  knowing
• 43:29
  you
• 43:29
  have
• 43:29
  to
• 43:29
  trust
• 43:30
  source
• 43:31
  you
• 43:31
  have
• 43:31
  to
• 43:31
  trust.
• 43:32
  But
• 43:33
  when
• 43:33
  you
• 43:33
  have
• 43:34
  that
• 43:34
  hate
• 43:34
  towards
• 43:35
  that
• 43:35
  caregiver,
• 43:37
  then
• 43:37
  the
• 43:38
  doubt
• 43:38
  of
• 43:39
  why
• 43:39
  God?
• 43:41
  There's
• 43:41
  a
• 43:41
  lot
• 43:41
  of
• 43:41
  crying
• 43:42
  in
• 43:42
  that
• 43:42
  one.
• 43:44
  Why
• 43:44
  God
• 43:44
  did
• 43:45
  I
• 43:45
  have
• 43:45
  to
• 43:45
  deal
• 43:46
  with
• 43:46
  him?
• 43:46
  Why
• 43:46
  did
• 43:47
  I,
• 43:47
  was
• 43:47
  I
• 43:47
  given
• 43:48
  him?
• 43:48
  Why
• 43:49
  can't
• 43:49
  he
• 43:50
  see
• 43:50
  that
• 43:50
  I'm
• 43:50
  a
• 43:50
  good
• 43:51
  girl?
• 43:51
  Why,
• 43:52
  why,
• 43:53
  why?
• 43:55
  And
• 43:55
  Here
• 43:56
  you
• 43:56
  are
• 43:56
  as
• 43:56
  an
• 43:57
  adult.
• 43:58
  The
• 43:58
  why,
• 43:59
  the
• 44:00
  why,
• 44:00
  the
• 44:00
  why.
• 44:01
  Why.
• 44:01
  Why
• 44:01
  can't
• 44:01
  I
• 44:02
  have
• 44:02
  this?
• 44:02
  Why
• 44:02
  can't
• 44:03
  I
• 44:03
  do
• 44:03
  that?
• 44:03
  Why
• 44:03
  can't
• 44:04
  it?
• 44:04
  You
• 44:05
  have
• 44:05
  to
• 44:05
  eliminate
• 44:06
  why
• 44:06
  out
• 44:06
  of
• 44:06
  your
• 44:07
  vocabulary.
• 44:09
  Because
• 44:10
  if
• 44:10
  you
• 44:10
  ask
• 44:10
  me,
• 44:11
  terry,
• 44:11
  why
• 44:11
  is
• 44:11
  the
• 44:11
  sky
• 44:12
  blue?
• 44:12
  And
• 44:12
  I'll
• 44:12
  say,
• 44:13
  the
• 44:13
  angels
• 44:13
  touch
• 44:14
  the
• 44:14
  clouds,
• 44:15
  it's
• 44:16
  an
• 44:16
  opinion.
• 44:17
  That's
• 44:18
  why.
• 44:18
  You'll
• 44:18
  never
• 44:19
  get
• 44:19
  the
• 44:19
  answer
• 44:20
  of
• 44:20
  why
• 44:21
  from
• 44:21
  God.
• 44:22
  You
• 44:22
  will
• 44:23
  get
• 44:23
  an
• 44:23
  answer
• 44:23
  of
• 44:24
  how,
• 44:25
  what,
• 44:26
  when,
• 44:27
  where,
• 44:27
  who.
• 44:29
  So
• 44:30
  eliminate
• 44:31
  why,
• 44:32
  because
• 44:32
  that
• 44:33
  can
• 44:33
  give
• 44:33
  you
• 44:33
  a
• 44:34
  thousand
• 44:34
  different
• 44:35
  answers,
• 44:35
  and
• 44:36
  it's
• 44:36
  only
• 44:37
  going
• 44:37
  to
• 44:37
  increase
• 44:38
  your
• 44:38
  frustration
• 44:38
  in
• 44:39
  life.
• 44:42
  Yeah.
• 44:50
  I'll
• 44:51
  put
• 44:51
  my
• 44:51
  hand
• 44:51
  on
• 44:51
  your
• 44:51
  head
• 44:51
  here.
• 44:52
  Actually
• 44:53
  going
• 44:53
  to
• 44:54
  move
• 44:54
  your
• 44:54
  legs
• 44:54
  over.
• 44:55
  Just
• 44:56
  turn
• 44:56
  on
• 44:56
  the
• 44:57
  finger.
• 44:58
  And
• 44:58
  there
• 44:58
  I
• 44:58
  want
• 44:59
  you
• 44:59
  to.
• 45:00
  There.
• 45:00
  That's
• 45:00
  what
• 45:00
  I
• 45:01
  was
• 45:01
  trying
• 45:01
  to
• 45:01
  do.
• 45:01
  Can
• 45:01
  I
• 45:02
  even
• 45:02
  you
• 45:02
  out?
• 45:03
  You're
• 45:03
  still
• 45:04
  lopsided.
• 45:04
  That's
• 45:05
  okay.
• 45:05
  That's
• 45:06
  all
• 45:06
  right.
• 45:06
  Broken.
• 45:07
  No.
• 45:10
  So
• 45:10
  you
• 45:11
  just
• 45:11
  told
• 45:11
  me
• 45:11
  something
• 45:12
  that
• 45:12
  you
• 45:12
  have
• 45:13
  to
• 45:13
  be
• 45:13
  really
• 45:13
  careful
• 45:14
  for.
• 45:16
  Is
• 45:16
  that
• 45:16
  when
• 45:17
  you're
• 45:17
  speaking
• 45:17
  the
• 45:18
  I
• 45:18
  am,
• 45:21
  you're
• 45:22
  stating,
• 45:22
  that's
• 45:22
  what
• 45:23
  you
• 45:23
  are.
• 45:24
  You're
• 45:25
  owning
• 45:25
  it.
• 45:26
  So
• 45:26
  even
• 45:27
  though
• 45:27
  you
• 45:27
  might
• 45:27
  have
• 45:27
  responded
• 45:28
  just
• 45:28
  by
• 45:29
  meaning
• 45:29
  around
• 45:30
  and
• 45:30
  may
• 45:30
  have
• 45:30
  been
• 45:30
  a
• 45:31
  joke
• 45:31
  or
• 45:31
  whatever,
• 45:32
  but
• 45:32
  you're
• 45:33
  putting
• 45:33
  it
• 45:33
  out
• 45:33
  there.
• 45:34
  And
• 45:35
  so
• 45:35
  now
• 45:35
  you
• 45:36
  just
• 45:36
  threw
• 45:36
  it
• 45:36
  here.
• 45:36
  And
• 45:37
  it's
• 45:37
  going
• 45:37
  to
• 45:37
  sit
• 45:37
  here.
• 45:37
  And
• 45:38
  somebody's
• 45:38
  gone,
• 45:38
  oh,
• 45:38
  she's
• 45:39
  broken.
• 45:39
  So
• 45:40
  we
• 45:40
  can
• 45:40
  take
• 45:40
  advantage
• 45:40
  of
• 45:40
  her
• 45:41
  thing.
• 45:41
  And
• 45:42
  so
• 45:42
  everything
• 45:43
  you
• 45:43
  say
• 45:44
  should
• 45:44
  be
• 45:44
  very
• 45:45
  positive
• 45:45
  toward
• 45:46
  yourself.
• 45:47
  Right?
• 45:48
  I'm
• 45:48
  in
• 45:48
  the
• 45:49
  process
• 45:49
  of
• 45:49
  healing.
• 45:51
  That
• 45:52
  sound
• 45:52
  better
• 45:52
  than
• 45:52
  what
• 45:53
  you
• 45:53
  said?
• 45:54
  Yes.
• 45:55
  Yeah.
• 45:56
  I'm
• 45:57
  in.
• 45:57
  Always
• 45:58
  in
• 45:58
  the
• 45:58
  process
• 45:59
  of
• 46:00
  better
• 46:00
  and
• 46:00
  better
• 46:01
  every
• 46:01
  day.
• 46:02
  Physical,
• 46:03
  emotional,
• 46:04
  and
• 46:04
  spiritual.
• 46:05
  Never
• 46:06
  again.
• 46:08
  Yeah.
• 46:09
  It's
• 46:09
  time
• 46:09
  for
• 46:10
  you
• 46:10
  to
• 46:10
  love
• 46:10
  you.
• 46:12
  And
• 46:12
  then
• 46:12
  it's
• 46:13
  like
• 46:14
  it
• 46:14
  just
• 46:14
  comes
• 46:14
  out
• 46:15
  to
• 46:15
  everyone
• 46:15
  around
• 46:16
  you.
• 46:17
  Yeah,
• 46:18
  yeah,
• 46:19
  yeah.
• 46:28
  There
• 46:28
  you
• 46:28
  go.
• 46:29
  It
• 46:29
  just
• 46:30
  went
• 46:30
  down,
• 46:30
  down,
• 46:31
  down.
• 46:31
  And
• 46:31
  I
• 46:31
  felt
• 46:31
  this.
• 46:33
  Like
• 46:33
  it
• 46:34
  hit
• 46:34
  a
• 46:34
  pillow.
• 46:37
  Yeah.
• 46:38
  Can
• 46:39
  be
• 46:39
  so
• 46:39
  subtle.
• 46:42
  You
• 46:42
  have
• 46:43
  heard
• 46:43
  so
• 46:44
  much
• 46:45
  from
• 46:46
  so
• 46:46
  many
• 46:47
  people
• 46:47
  that
• 46:48
  you're
• 46:48
  overwhelmed
• 46:49
  with
• 46:49
  hearing
• 46:50
  anything
• 46:50
  else
• 46:51
  from
• 46:51
  other
• 46:51
  people.
• 46:53
  Meaning
• 46:53
  this
• 46:54
  ear
• 46:54
  chakra
• 46:54
  is
• 46:55
  so
• 46:55
  full,
• 46:56
  it's
• 46:57
  like.
• 46:58
  Like
• 46:58
  massive
• 46:59
  with
• 46:59
  the
• 46:59
  energy
• 47:01
  that
• 47:02
  it's
• 47:02
  like,
• 47:03
  I
• 47:03
  don't
• 47:03
  know
• 47:03
  if
• 47:03
  I
• 47:04
  want
• 47:04
  to
• 47:04
  hear
• 47:04
  one
• 47:04
  more
• 47:05
  thing.
• 47:06
  And
• 47:06
  I
• 47:06
  don't
• 47:07
  feel
• 47:07
  like
• 47:07
  you've
• 47:08
  closed
• 47:08
  the
• 47:08
  ear
• 47:08
  chakra
• 47:09
  because
• 47:09
  it
• 47:09
  is
• 47:09
  still
• 47:10
  open,
• 47:12
  but
• 47:12
  you're
• 47:13
  overwhelmed
• 47:14
  or
• 47:17
  too
• 47:18
  much
• 47:18
  of
• 47:19
  what
• 47:19
  you
• 47:19
  have
• 47:20
  heard
• 47:20
  from
• 47:20
  others
• 47:21
  can
• 47:22
  be
• 47:22
  conflicting
• 47:24
  to
• 47:24
  what
• 47:25
  you
• 47:25
  want
• 47:25
  or
• 47:26
  desire
• 47:26
  or
• 47:27
  think
• 47:27
  things
• 47:28
  through.
• 47:29
  Would
• 47:29
  you
• 47:29
  resonate
• 47:30
  with
• 47:30
  that?
• 47:31
  Yes.
• 47:31
  Okay.
• 47:32
  And
• 47:33
  so
• 47:34
  that
• 47:34
  can
• 47:35
  also
• 47:35
  cause
• 47:35
  a
• 47:36
  lot
• 47:36
  of
• 47:36
  doubt.
• 47:37
  Am
• 47:37
  I
• 47:37
  going
• 47:37
  in
• 47:37
  the
• 47:37
  right
• 47:38
  direction?
• 47:38
  Am
• 47:38
  I
• 47:38
  making
• 47:39
  the
• 47:39
  right
• 47:39
  decisions.
• 47:40
  Because
• 47:40
  someone
• 47:40
  who's
• 47:40
  already
• 47:41
  in
• 47:41
  their
• 47:41
  head
• 47:41
  is
• 47:41
  already
• 47:42
  doubting.
• 47:43
  Someone
• 47:43
  who
• 47:43
  already
• 47:44
  has
• 47:44
  a
• 47:44
  parent
• 47:45
  who,
• 47:46
  you
• 47:47
  know,
• 47:47
  they're
• 47:47
  like,
• 47:48
  oh,
• 47:48
  shut
• 47:49
  that
• 47:49
  door
• 47:49
  and
• 47:49
  seal
• 47:50
  it
• 47:50
  with
• 47:50
  cement.
• 47:51
  That,
• 47:52
  you
• 47:52
  know,
• 47:53
  there's
• 47:53
  a
• 47:53
  lot
• 47:53
  of
• 47:53
  doubt
• 47:54
  with
• 47:56
  God,
• 48:00
  which
• 48:00
  makes
• 48:01
  you
• 48:02
  say,
• 48:03
  I
• 48:03
  have
• 48:03
  to
• 48:03
  do
• 48:03
  more
• 48:04
  things
• 48:04
  for
• 48:04
  myself.
• 48:05
  And
• 48:05
  there's
• 48:06
  such
• 48:06
  emotion
• 48:07
  around
• 48:07
  that.
• 48:10
  Like,
• 48:10
  I'm
• 48:10
  tired.
• 48:12
  Why
• 48:13
  can't
• 48:13
  this
• 48:13
  be
• 48:14
  easy?
• 48:19
  Resonate
• 48:20
  with
• 48:20
  you?
• 48:21
  Please.
• 48:23
  Yeah,
• 48:27
  she
• 48:27
  had
• 48:28
  tonsilitis
• 48:28
  before.
• 48:30
  So
• 48:31
  much.
• 48:31
  Yeah,
• 48:31
  I
• 48:31
  can
• 48:32
  pick
• 48:32
  it
• 48:32
  up
• 48:32
  right
• 48:32
  in
• 48:32
  here.
• 48:33
  It's
• 48:33
  a
• 48:33
  lot
• 48:33
  of
• 48:34
  bacteria
• 48:35
  feeling
• 48:36
  right
• 48:36
  now.
• 48:37
  No,
• 48:37
  no,
• 48:37
  no,
• 48:37
  no.
• 48:39
  Everything
• 48:39
  I.
• 48:40
  No,
• 48:41
  not
• 48:42
  gallery.
• 48:46
  So
• 48:46
  everything
• 48:46
  I'm
• 48:47
  picking
• 48:47
  up
• 48:47
  is
• 48:47
  energy.
• 48:50
  So
• 48:50
  it
• 48:50
  can
• 48:50
  be
• 48:50
  passed.
• 48:51
  I
• 48:51
  can
• 48:51
  pick
• 48:51
  up,
• 48:52
  you
• 48:52
  know,
• 48:52
  broken
• 48:53
  bones.
• 48:53
  I
• 48:54
  can
• 48:54
  pick
• 48:54
  up,
• 48:55
  you
• 48:55
  know,
• 48:56
  like,
• 48:56
  I
• 48:57
  picked
• 48:57
  up
• 48:57
  the
• 48:57
  braces,
• 48:59
  the
• 48:59
  jaw
• 48:59
  area.
• 49:00
  I
• 49:00
  picked
• 49:00
  up
• 49:01
  the
• 49:01
  tonsils.
• 49:01
  And,
• 49:02
  like,
• 49:02
  I
• 49:03
  can
• 49:03
  feel
• 49:03
  it.
• 49:03
  And
• 49:04
  it
• 49:04
  was
• 49:04
  like.
• 49:07
  And
• 49:08
  it
• 49:08
  was
• 49:08
  big.
• 49:09
  So
• 49:09
  it
• 49:09
  was
• 49:09
  telling
• 49:09
  me
• 49:09
  it
• 49:09
  was
• 49:10
  pretty
• 49:10
  bad.
• 49:10
  Yeah,
• 49:11
  I
• 49:11
  had
• 49:11
  it
• 49:11
  a
• 49:11
  lot
• 49:11
  when
• 49:11
  I
• 49:12
  was
• 49:12
  little.
• 49:12
  Okay,
• 49:13
  so.
• 49:13
  And.
• 49:14
  And
• 49:14
  that's
• 49:14
  the
• 49:14
  remnants
• 49:15
  of
• 49:15
  what
• 49:15
  I'm
• 49:16
  picking
• 49:16
  up.
• 49:16
  That's
• 49:17
  all.
• 49:17
  So
• 49:17
  I'm
• 49:18
  not
• 49:18
  saying
• 49:18
  you
• 49:18
  have
• 49:18
  it
• 49:18
  now.
• 49:21
  You
• 49:21
  have
• 49:21
  some
• 49:21
  old
• 49:22
  patterns
• 49:22
  in
• 49:23
  your
• 49:23
  third
• 49:23
  eye.
• 49:23
  The
• 49:23
  third
• 49:24
  eye
• 49:24
  is
• 49:25
  intuition,
• 49:25
  trusting.
• 49:27
  I
• 49:27
  could
• 49:27
  feel
• 49:27
  this
• 49:27
  creakiness
• 49:29
  that
• 49:29
  tells
• 49:29
  me
• 49:29
  it's
• 49:30
  just
• 49:30
  old
• 49:30
  patterns.
• 49:31
  So,
• 49:32
  you
• 49:32
  know,
• 49:33
  being
• 49:34
  able
• 49:34
  to
• 49:34
  trust
• 49:36
  is
• 49:36
  not
• 49:37
  questioning
• 49:37
  or
• 49:38
  doubting.
• 49:39
  So
• 49:40
  we're
• 49:40
  shifting
• 49:41
  you
• 49:42
  to
• 49:43
  trust
• 49:44
  more.
• 49:45
  What
• 49:45
  do
• 49:45
  you
• 49:45
  want
• 49:46
  to
• 49:46
  call
• 49:46
  it?
• 49:47
  Source.
• 49:48
  Yeah.
• 49:50
  God,
• 49:51
  what
• 49:51
  do
• 49:51
  you
• 49:51
  want
• 49:51
  to
• 49:51
  call
• 49:52
  it?
• 49:52
  You
• 49:52
  know
• 49:52
  what?
• 49:52
  God,
• 49:52
  that
• 49:52
  makes
• 49:53
  me
• 49:53
  cringe.
• 49:54
  Yeah,
• 49:55
  I
• 49:55
  already
• 49:55
  figured
• 49:55
  that
• 49:56
  out.
• 49:59
  I
• 49:59
  don't
• 49:59
  know.
• 49:59
  I
• 50:00
  guess
• 50:00
  I
• 50:00
  haven't
• 50:00
  put
• 50:00
  thought
• 50:01
  to
• 50:01
  it.
• 50:03
  Interesting.
• 50:05
  So
• 50:05
  everything
• 50:06
  I've
• 50:06
  been
• 50:06
  saying
• 50:06
  is
• 50:07
  so
• 50:07
  smile.
• 50:07
  And
• 50:07
  it's
• 50:08
  crazy
• 50:09
  because
• 50:11
  in
• 50:11
  what
• 50:12
  you
• 50:12
  are
• 50:12
  living,
• 50:13
  you
• 50:14
  are
• 50:14
  just
• 50:14
  existing
• 50:15
  by
• 50:15
  God.
• 50:17
  Okay,
• 50:17
  we
• 50:18
  don't
• 50:18
  want
• 50:18
  you
• 50:18
  to
• 50:18
  exist.
• 50:20
  We
• 50:20
  want
• 50:20
  you
• 50:20
  to
• 50:21
  where
• 50:21
  I
• 50:22
  want
• 50:22
  it
• 50:22
  to
• 50:23
  live.
• 50:24
  Live
• 50:24
  more
• 50:25
  deeply,
• 50:25
  live
• 50:26
  more
• 50:26
  boldly,
• 50:27
  and
• 50:27
  you'll
• 50:27
  get
• 50:27
  in
• 50:27
  the
• 50:28
  car.
• 50:28
  I
• 50:28
  do.
• 50:28
  I
• 50:29
  am
• 50:29
  patient.
• 50:30
  Is,
• 50:31
  you're
• 50:31
  not.
• 50:32
  Based
• 50:32
  on
• 50:32
  what
• 50:33
  I'm
• 50:33
  already
• 50:33
  picking
• 50:34
  up
• 50:34
  in
• 50:34
  your
• 50:35
  energy
• 50:35
  and
• 50:35
  your
• 50:36
  responses.
• 50:37
  Okay,
• 50:38
  you're
• 50:38
  not
• 50:39
  broken.
• 50:40
  It's
• 50:41
  just
• 50:42
  what
• 50:42
  you
• 50:43
  experienced
• 50:44
  in
• 50:44
  your
• 50:44
  four
• 50:44
  walls
• 50:45
  and
• 50:45
  what
• 50:45
  you
• 50:46
  chose,
• 50:47
  that's
• 50:47
  still
• 50:48
  in
• 50:48
  that
• 50:49
  subconscious.
• 50:50
  The
• 50:50
  subconscious
• 50:51
  is
• 50:51
  ruling
• 50:52
  your
• 50:52
  life,
• 50:53
  even
• 50:54
  though
• 50:54
  you're
• 50:54
  saying,
• 50:54
  well,
• 50:55
  I
• 50:55
  had
• 50:55
  that,
• 50:55
  Bob.
• 50:55
  I
• 50:55
  took
• 50:56
  a
• 50:56
  minute
• 50:56
  reaction
• 50:56
  on
• 50:56
  it.
• 50:57
  But
• 50:58
  as
• 50:58
  I
• 50:58
  was
• 50:58
  stating
• 50:59
  before
• 50:59
  we
• 50:59
  even
• 51:00
  started,
• 51:01
  that
• 51:02
  you
• 51:02
  can
• 51:03
  have
• 51:03
  an
• 51:03
  interaction
• 51:04
  with
• 51:04
  a
• 51:04
  girlfriend,
• 51:05
  and
• 51:05
  all
• 51:05
  of
• 51:05
  a
• 51:05
  sudden
• 51:05
  you're
• 51:06
  like,
• 51:06
  I
• 51:06
  don't
• 51:06
  like
• 51:06
  what
• 51:06
  she's
• 51:07
  saying.
• 51:08
  And
• 51:08
  then
• 51:09
  she
• 51:09
  Triggered
• 51:10
  you
• 51:11
  by
• 51:11
  something
• 51:12
  she
• 51:13
  said
• 51:13
  even.
• 51:13
  It
• 51:13
  could
• 51:13
  be
• 51:14
  the
• 51:14
  word
• 51:14
  or
• 51:15
  how
• 51:15
  it
• 51:15
  was
• 51:15
  coming
• 51:15
  out.
• 51:16
  It's
• 51:17
  the
• 51:17
  feeling
• 51:17
  that
• 51:17
  bubbled
• 51:18
  up.
• 51:18
  Right.
• 51:20
  But
• 51:20
  because
• 51:20
  you
• 51:20
  have
• 51:21
  such
• 51:21
  a
• 51:21
  control
• 51:22
  mechanism,
• 51:23
  you're
• 51:23
  not
• 51:24
  trusting
• 51:24
  beyond
• 51:25
  what
• 51:26
  you
• 51:26
  say
• 51:27
  you're
• 51:27
  creating
• 51:27
  on
• 51:28
  your
• 51:28
  own.
• 51:30
  So.
• 51:32
  Not
• 51:32
  when
• 51:33
  I
• 51:33
  use
• 51:33
  the,
• 51:34
  the
• 51:35
  word
• 51:35
  God.
• 51:36
  It's
• 51:36
  nothing
• 51:36
  about
• 51:37
  religious
• 51:37
  or
• 51:38
  the
• 51:38
  Bible.
• 51:38
  It's
• 51:38
  nothing.
• 51:39
  It's.
• 51:41
  It's
• 51:41
  the
• 51:41
  universe
• 51:42
  where
• 51:42
  we
• 51:42
  come
• 51:42
  through
• 51:43
  from.
• 51:43
  It's.
• 51:44
  It's
• 51:44
  that
• 51:44
  all
• 51:45
  encompassing
• 51:46
  energy.
• 51:47
  But
• 51:48
  when
• 51:48
  you
• 51:48
  set
• 51:49
  up
• 51:50
  like
• 51:51
  you
• 51:51
  have
• 51:51
  been
• 51:53
  in
• 51:53
  your
• 51:53
  childhood,
• 51:55
  then
• 51:57
  it's
• 51:57
  that
• 51:58
  anchor
• 52:00
  that
• 52:00
  we
• 52:01
  have
• 52:02
  that
• 52:02
  can
• 52:02
  be
• 52:02
  generated
• 52:03
  and
• 52:03
  created
• 52:04
  toward
• 52:05
  that
• 52:05
  all
• 52:05
  encompassing
• 52:06
  energy.
• 52:08
  And
• 52:09
  that's
• 52:09
  why
• 52:09
  the
• 52:09
  why
• 52:10
  creeps
• 52:11
  in.
• 52:13
  Is
• 52:14
  that.
• 52:14
  Does
• 52:14
  that
• 52:14
  make
• 52:14
  sense
• 52:14
  now?
• 52:16
  Yeah.
• 52:19
  It
• 52:19
  doesn't
• 52:19
  make
• 52:20
  you
• 52:20
  weak,
• 52:20
  sweetie.
• 52:21
  You're
• 52:22
  actually
• 52:22
  a
• 52:22
  very
• 52:22
  dominant,
• 52:23
  strong
• 52:24
  individual.
• 52:26
  And
• 52:28
  by
• 52:28
  being
• 52:29
  able
• 52:29
  to
• 52:29
  let
• 52:29
  go
• 52:30
  of
• 52:30
  the
• 52:30
  control,
• 52:31
  which
• 52:31
  is
• 52:31
  going
• 52:31
  to
• 52:31
  be
• 52:32
  a
• 52:32
  lot
• 52:32
  of
• 52:32
  practice,
• 52:35
  and
• 52:35
  you're
• 52:35
  going
• 52:35
  to
• 52:35
  find
• 52:36
  that
• 52:36
  life
• 52:36
  really
• 52:37
  is
• 52:37
  worth
• 52:38
  thriving.
• 52:39
  Copa
• 52:39
  that.
• 52:42
  Yeah.
• 52:53
  I
• 52:53
  see
• 52:54
  you
• 52:54
  driving.
• 52:55
  That's
• 52:55
  telling
• 52:55
  me
• 52:56
  you
• 52:56
  feel
• 52:56
  like
• 52:56
  you're
• 52:57
  in
• 52:57
  the
• 52:57
  driver's
• 52:57
  seat.
• 52:58
  I've
• 52:58
  got
• 52:58
  your,
• 52:59
  my
• 52:59
  left
• 52:59
  hand
• 53:00
  on
• 53:00
  your
• 53:00
  crown
• 53:01
  and
• 53:01
  the
• 53:01
  right,
• 53:02
  right
• 53:02
  there
• 53:02
  at
• 53:02
  the
• 53:02
  occipital
• 53:03
  bone.
• 53:03
  Right.
• 53:04
  So.
• 53:05
  So
• 53:05
  the
• 53:05
  crown
• 53:06
  is
• 53:07
  your
• 53:07
  full
• 53:07
  connection
• 53:08
  to
• 53:08
  source,
• 53:10
  higher
• 53:10
  self,
• 53:10
  light,
• 53:11
  love.
• 53:12
  Right.
• 53:13
  But
• 53:13
  if
• 53:13
  you're
• 53:14
  in
• 53:14
  the
• 53:14
  driver's
• 53:15
  seat,
• 53:15
  your
• 53:16
  connection
• 53:16
  is
• 53:16
  going
• 53:17
  to
• 53:17
  be
• 53:17
  really
• 53:17
  weak.
• 53:21
  Want
• 53:22
  me
• 53:22
  to
• 53:22
  go
• 53:23
  into
• 53:23
  detail
• 53:23
  about
• 53:24
  that
• 53:24
  or
• 53:24
  do
• 53:24
  you
• 53:24
  understand
• 53:25
  what
• 53:25
  I
• 53:25
  just
• 53:25
  said?
• 53:25
  I
• 53:26
  understand.
• 53:26
  Okay.
• 53:30
  So.
• 53:31
  Well,
• 53:31
  I
• 53:31
  want
• 53:31
  to
• 53:31
  give
• 53:32
  you
• 53:32
  a
• 53:32
  tip.
• 53:35
  When
• 53:35
  you
• 53:36
  get
• 53:36
  out
• 53:36
  of
• 53:36
  bed,
• 53:37
  don't
• 53:38
  get
• 53:38
  out
• 53:38
  of
• 53:38
  bed
• 53:39
  until
• 53:40
  you
• 53:41
  become
• 53:41
  more
• 53:42
  aware
• 53:43
  of
• 53:43
  how
• 53:44
  your
• 53:44
  body
• 53:44
  is
• 53:44
  feeling.
• 53:46
  And
• 53:46
  instead
• 53:47
  of
• 53:47
  saying,
• 53:48
  when
• 53:48
  you
• 53:48
  wake
• 53:48
  up,
• 53:49
  I'm
• 53:49
  tired,
• 53:50
  I
• 53:51
  want
• 53:51
  you
• 53:51
  to
• 53:51
  say,
• 53:52
  I
• 53:52
  am
• 53:53
  fully
• 53:53
  rested.
• 53:56
  And
• 53:56
  then
• 53:56
  when
• 53:57
  you
• 53:57
  flip
• 53:57
  your
• 53:57
  legs
• 53:58
  out
• 53:58
  of
• 53:58
  the
• 53:58
  bed,
• 53:59
  one
• 53:59
  foot
• 54:00
  hits
• 54:01
  the
• 54:01
  floor
• 54:02
  first.
• 54:04
  And
• 54:05
  then
• 54:05
  is
• 54:06
  that
• 54:06
  the
• 54:06
  pattern
• 54:07
  of
• 54:07
  always
• 54:08
  the
• 54:08
  right
• 54:09
  foot?
• 54:10
  Right.
• 54:11
  And
• 54:11
  then
• 54:12
  when
• 54:13
  you're
• 54:13
  walking
• 54:14
  to
• 54:14
  the
• 54:14
  bathroom,
• 54:15
  how
• 54:16
  does
• 54:16
  your
• 54:17
  feet
• 54:17
  feel
• 54:18
  on
• 54:18
  the
• 54:18
  floor?
• 54:19
  Are
• 54:19
  you
• 54:19
  going
• 54:20
  from
• 54:21
  heel
• 54:22
  to
• 54:22
  toe?
• 54:22
  Toe
• 54:23
  to
• 54:23
  heel?
• 54:24
  Do
• 54:24
  you
• 54:25
  feel
• 54:25
  like
• 54:25
  the
• 54:26
  right
• 54:26
  side
• 54:27
  of
• 54:27
  your
• 54:27
  right
• 54:28
  foot
• 54:28
  has
• 54:28
  more
• 54:29
  pressure
• 54:29
  than
• 54:30
  the
• 54:30
  left?
• 54:32
  If
• 54:33
  you
• 54:33
  truly
• 54:34
  practice
• 54:34
  what
• 54:34
  I
• 54:35
  just
• 54:35
  told
• 54:35
  you,
• 54:36
  you
• 54:37
  will
• 54:37
  immediately
• 54:38
  become
• 54:39
  more
• 54:39
  aware.
• 54:40
  You'll
• 54:41
  become
• 54:41
  more
• 54:42
  aware
• 54:42
  about
• 54:43
  your
• 54:43
  body's
• 54:43
  feeling
• 54:45
  of
• 54:45
  what
• 54:45
  is
• 54:46
  going
• 54:46
  on
• 54:46
  around
• 54:47
  you.
• 54:48
  It
• 54:49
  is
• 54:49
  a
• 54:49
  very
• 54:50
  simple
• 54:50
  process,
• 54:51
  but
• 54:51
  you
• 54:51
  have
• 54:51
  to
• 54:52
  do
• 54:52
  it.
• 54:53
  If
• 54:53
  you
• 54:54
  really
• 54:54
  want
• 54:54
  to
• 54:54
  make
• 54:54
  some
• 54:55
  changes
• 54:55
  in
• 54:55
  your
• 54:56
  life,
• 54:56
  you
• 54:57
  have
• 54:57
  to
• 54:57
  do
• 54:58
  it.
• 54:59
  And
• 54:59
  it
• 54:59
  can
• 55:00
  be
• 55:00
  as
• 55:00
  simple
• 55:00
  as
• 55:01
  becoming
• 55:01
  more
• 55:01
  aware.
• 55:02
  And
• 55:03
  that
• 55:03
  little
• 55:03
  process
• 55:04
  is
• 55:05
  massive.
• 55:14
  And
• 55:14
  it's
• 55:15
  not
• 55:15
  occasionally
• 55:16
  it's
• 55:16
  every
• 55:17
  single
• 55:18
  time.
• 55:23
  You
• 55:24
  are
• 55:24
  very
• 55:24
  impatient.
• 55:27
  I
• 55:27
  can
• 55:27
  see
• 55:27
  your
• 55:27
  fingers
• 55:28
  doing
• 55:28
  that.
• 55:29
  Yeah,
• 55:31
  you
• 55:31
  can
• 55:32
  run,
• 55:32
  girl,
• 55:32
  but
• 55:32
  you
• 55:32
  can't
• 55:32
  hide
• 55:33
  from
• 55:33
  me.
• 55:35
  I'm
• 55:35
  scared.
• 55:41
  So
• 55:41
  I
• 55:41
  see
• 55:41
  a
• 55:42
  brick
• 55:42
  wall
• 55:42
  in
• 55:42
  front
• 55:43
  of
• 55:43
  your
• 55:43
  heart,
• 55:44
  but
• 55:44
  I
• 55:45
  see
• 55:45
  that
• 55:47
  like
• 55:48
  an
• 55:48
  interaction
• 55:49
  with
• 55:49
  someone
• 55:51
  could
• 55:51
  knock
• 55:51
  one
• 55:52
  of
• 55:52
  the
• 55:52
  like
• 55:52
  flick
• 55:53
  of
• 55:53
  brick
• 55:53
  out
• 55:54
  of
• 55:54
  it.
• 55:54
  And
• 55:54
  it
• 55:54
  doesn't
• 55:54
  have
• 55:55
  to
• 55:55
  be
• 55:55
  on
• 55:55
  the
• 55:55
  end,
• 55:55
  it
• 55:55
  could
• 55:56
  be
• 55:56
  in
• 55:56
  the
• 55:56
  center
• 55:57
  or
• 55:57
  you
• 55:57
  know.
• 55:58
  And
• 55:58
  I
• 55:58
  saw
• 55:58
  someone
• 55:58
  flick
• 55:59
  one
• 56:00
  of
• 56:00
  the
• 56:01
  bricks
• 56:02
  off
• 56:02
  of
• 56:02
  your
• 56:02
  heart.
• 56:04
  So
• 56:04
  it's
• 56:04
  telling
• 56:05
  me
• 56:06
  that
• 56:06
  you've
• 56:06
  built
• 56:07
  up
• 56:07
  a
• 56:07
  protection
• 56:08
  of
• 56:09
  saying,
• 56:09
  I'm
• 56:09
  not
• 56:09
  going
• 56:10
  to
• 56:10
  be
• 56:10
  hurt
• 56:11
  again,
• 56:13
  dad.
• 56:13
  Energy.
• 56:14
  Right.
• 56:15
  I'm
• 56:15
  not
• 56:16
  going
• 56:16
  to
• 56:16
  be
• 56:16
  hurt,
• 56:16
  I'm
• 56:17
  not
• 56:17
  going
• 56:17
  to
• 56:17
  be
• 56:17
  disappointed,
• 56:18
  I'm
• 56:18
  not
• 56:18
  going
• 56:18
  to
• 56:18
  be
• 56:19
  blah,
• 56:19
  blah,
• 56:19
  blah.
• 56:19
  Right.
• 56:21
  But
• 56:21
  you're
• 56:22
  in
• 56:23
  life,
• 56:23
  living
• 56:24
  life,
• 56:25
  saying,
• 56:25
  I'm
• 56:25
  protected
• 56:26
  in
• 56:26
  my
• 56:26
  heart,
• 56:26
  but
• 56:27
  I
• 56:27
  could
• 56:27
  have
• 56:28
  an
• 56:28
  interaction
• 56:28
  with
• 56:28
  my
• 56:28
  girlfriend
• 56:29
  and
• 56:29
  she
• 56:29
  just
• 56:29
  flipped
• 56:30
  one
• 56:30
  of
• 56:30
  those
• 56:30
  bricks
• 56:30
  off.
• 56:31
  Yes.
• 56:33
  Right.
• 56:34
  Yeah.
• 56:34
  But
• 56:34
  that
• 56:35
  brick
• 56:35
  wall
• 56:35
  is
• 56:36
  still
• 56:36
  solid.
• 56:37
  Even
• 56:38
  though
• 56:38
  one
• 56:38
  brick
• 56:38
  was
• 56:39
  flipped
• 56:39
  off,
• 56:39
  another
• 56:40
  interaction
• 56:40
  will
• 56:40
  happen
• 56:41
  and
• 56:41
  it
• 56:41
  put
• 56:41
  the
• 56:41
  brick
• 56:42
  back
• 56:42
  in.
• 56:43
  And
• 56:44
  so
• 56:44
  what
• 56:45
  a
• 56:45
  lot
• 56:45
  of
• 56:45
  people
• 56:46
  do
• 56:47
  is
• 56:47
  that
• 56:48
  they'll
• 56:48
  get
• 56:48
  hurt
• 56:49
  somewhere
• 56:49
  in
• 56:50
  life.
• 56:50
  Usually
• 56:51
  it's
• 56:51
  childhood,
• 56:51
  usually
• 56:52
  it's
• 56:52
  a
• 56:52
  caregiver
• 56:53
  and
• 56:54
  they'll
• 56:54
  over
• 56:54
  protect
• 56:55
  their
• 56:56
  heart.
• 56:57
  And
• 56:57
  so
• 56:57
  what
• 56:58
  they're
• 56:58
  saying
• 56:58
  is
• 56:59
  I'm
• 56:59
  going
• 56:59
  to
• 56:59
  protect
• 57:00
  myself
• 57:00
  from
• 57:00
  being
• 57:00
  hurt
• 57:00
  again.
• 57:02
  But
• 57:02
  they're
• 57:02
  also
• 57:04
  keeping
• 57:04
  out
• 57:05
  what
• 57:05
  it
• 57:06
  is
• 57:06
  they
• 57:06
  want
• 57:07
  in,
• 57:08
  which
• 57:08
  is
• 57:09
  love.
• 57:11
  Yeah.
• 57:12
  Yeah.
• 57:12
  Makes
• 57:13
  sense.
• 57:13
  Yeah.
• 57:16
  You
• 57:16
  drink
• 57:16
  a
• 57:17
  lot
• 57:17
  of
• 57:17
  a
• 57:17
  dark
• 57:17
  fluid.
• 57:18
  A
• 57:19
  dark
• 57:19
  fluid.
• 57:19
  Yeah,
• 57:20
  it's.
• 57:20
  It's
• 57:20
  either
• 57:20
  or.
• 57:20
  You're
• 57:20
  selling.
• 57:23
  Yeah,
• 57:24
  I
• 57:24
  just
• 57:24
  saw
• 57:24
  that.
• 57:25
  Don't
• 57:26
  do
• 57:26
  it.
• 57:27
  That's.
• 57:27
  Oh,
• 57:28
  I
• 57:28
  know.
• 57:28
  Yes.
• 57:29
  Not
• 57:29
  good
• 57:29
  for
• 57:29
  you.
• 57:35
  You
• 57:35
  have
• 57:36
  enough
• 57:36
  pain
• 57:36
  in
• 57:36
  the
• 57:36
  center
• 57:36
  of
• 57:37
  your
• 57:37
  back,
• 57:38
  spine
• 57:38
  wise.
• 57:39
  Yeah.
• 57:40
  In
• 57:40
  between
• 57:40
  the
• 57:40
  shoulder
• 57:40
  blades.
• 57:41
  Yeah.
• 57:44
  You
• 57:45
  like
• 57:45
  to
• 57:45
  talk.
• 57:48
  Yes.
• 57:52
  I
• 57:52
  feel
• 57:53
  a
• 57:53
  lot
• 57:53
  of
• 57:53
  this
• 57:53
  energy
• 57:53
  in
• 57:54
  your
• 57:54
  throat
• 57:54
  moving
• 57:55
  around
• 57:55
  a
• 57:56
  lot.
• 57:56
  So
• 57:56
  it's
• 57:56
  telling
• 57:57
  me
• 57:57
  you
• 57:57
  like
• 57:57
  to
• 57:57
  talk.
• 58:01
  That's
• 58:02
  good.
• 58:10
  Take
• 58:10
  a
• 58:10
  deep
• 58:10
  breath
• 58:11
  into
• 58:11
  your
• 58:11
  nose
• 58:12
  and
• 58:13
  up
• 58:13
  your
• 58:13
  mouth.
• 58:22
  You've
• 58:22
  learned
• 58:22
  to
• 58:23
  silence
• 58:23
  yourself.
• 58:25
  Meaning
• 58:26
  if
• 58:26
  you're
• 58:26
  upset,
• 58:28
  you'll
• 58:28
  silence
• 58:29
  that
• 58:31
  emotion.
• 58:33
  Those
• 58:34
  words
• 58:36
  don't
• 58:36
  show
• 58:36
  them
• 58:37
  your
• 58:37
  weakness.
• 58:39
  Meaning
• 58:39
  if
• 58:39
  you're
• 58:40
  upset
• 58:40
  or
• 58:40
  like
• 58:41
  by
• 58:41
  you
• 58:41
  are,
• 58:42
  you've
• 58:43
  learned
• 58:43
  to
• 58:43
  silence
• 58:45
  yourself.
• 58:47
  Does
• 58:48
  that
• 58:48
  resonate?
• 58:50
  Yeah.
• 58:51
  Yes.
• 58:52
  Yes,
• 58:53
  yes.
• 58:53
  Yes.
• 58:56
  Do
• 58:56
  you
• 58:56
  have
• 58:57
  any
• 58:57
  final
• 58:57
  questions
• 58:57
  for
• 58:57
  you,
• 58:58
  sweetie?
• 58:59
  From
• 58:59
  you.
• 59:05
  How
• 59:05
  you
• 59:06
  feeling?
• 59:07
  Relaxed.
• 59:09
  Yeah.
• 59:12
  Definitely
• 59:13
  cold.
• 59:13
  Your
• 59:14
  emotions,
• 59:14
  that's
• 59:14
  for
• 59:14
  sure.
• 59:15
  How
• 59:15
  am
• 59:15
  I
• 59:16
  supposed
• 59:16
  to
• 59:16
  feel?
• 59:18
  How
• 59:18
  you're
• 59:18
  supposed
• 59:19
  to
• 59:19
  feel.
• 59:21
  Exactly
• 59:21
  how
• 59:22
  you're
• 59:22
  supposed
• 59:22
  to
• 59:22
  feel.
• 59:24
  It's
• 59:24
  not
• 59:24
  about
• 59:24
  me
• 59:25
  having
• 59:25
  you
• 59:25
  feel
• 59:26
  a
• 59:26
  certain
• 59:26
  way.
• 59:29
  So
• 59:30
  how
• 59:30
  your
• 59:30
  body
• 59:30
  is
• 59:30
  feeling?
• 59:31
  Right.
• 59:36
  I'm
• 59:37
  not.
• 59:37
  Okay.
• 59:40
  Well,
• 59:41
  there
• 59:41
  we
• 59:41
  go.
• 59:43
  If
• 59:43
  you
• 59:44
  liked
• 59:44
  what
• 59:44
  you
• 59:44
  heard
• 59:44
  today,
• 59:45
  hit
• 59:45
  that,
• 59:45
  like,
• 59:45
  button
• 59:46
  or
• 59:46
  the
• 59:47
  subscribe
• 59:47
  button
• 59:48
  or
• 59:48
  whatever
• 59:48
  button
• 59:49
  it
• 59:49
  is
• 59:49
  that
• 59:49
  you
• 59:49
  have.
• 59:50
  Just
• 59:50
  hit
• 59:51
  it.
• 59:51
  To
• 59:51
  continue
• 59:52
  this
• 59:52
  conversation
• 59:53
  with
• 59:53
  us,
• 59:53
  join
• 59:53
  the
• 59:54
  Skirts
• 59:54
  up
• 59:54
  show
• 59:55
  on.
• 59:55
  What?
• 59:56
  What
• 59:56
  is
• 59:56
  it
• 59:56
  again?
• 59:57
  Well,
• 59:57
  we
• 59:57
  have
• 59:57
  Facebook,
• 59:58
  we
• 59:58
  have
• 59:59
  YouTube
• 1:00:00
  and
• 1:00:00
  Pinterest.
• 1:00:01
  And
• 1:00:01
  no,
• 1:00:02
  we
• 1:00:02
  do
• 1:00:02
  not
• 1:00:02
  have
• 1:00:02
  a
• 1:00:02
  Pinterest,
• 1:00:03
  but
• 1:00:03
  we
• 1:00:03
  have
• 1:00:03
  Instagram.
• 1:00:04
  You
• 1:00:04
  knew
• 1:00:05
  what
• 1:00:05
  I
• 1:00:05
  meant.
• 1:00:07
  Rate
• 1:00:07
  and
• 1:00:08
  review.
• 1:00:08
  Rate
• 1:00:09
  and
• 1:00:09
  review.