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Street Farbrengen Episode 123 - Accepting Torah in Your Messy World · ChabadLife.TV Street Farbrengen

• 0:00
  SPEAKER_00: We're learning in a Mimur where the Rebbe says that the way to perform a mitzvah is because mitzvas are like a masa kave, they're like a heavy load that you have to lift and says that for a yid having to do a physical act, even as such as a mitzvah is a masa kave.
• 0:29
  SPEAKER_00: It's a heavy load because a yid wants ruchnias, he wants to fly, he wants to leave the confines of the physical, and therefore mitzvas are difficult.
• 0:46
  SPEAKER_00: Let's talk about how that is connected to Kabbalah Satura.
• 1:18
  SPEAKER_00: Invitation last week of a Hayawaska party.
• 1:22
  SPEAKER_00: No, they didn't call it a party.
• 1:24
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know what they call it.
• 1:24
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe they call it a Kumzitz.
• 1:26
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know what they call it.
• 1:27
  SPEAKER_00: And it was two days last week where thirty-five people in our neighborhood, uh, as they used to say when I was a young boy hitchhiking across the world, they tripped together.
• 1:41
  SPEAKER_00: 35 people.
• 1:43
  SPEAKER_00: And I realized that that's kind of whether they know it or not, what the what uh the presentation of what the Rebbe was talking about.
• 1:54
  SPEAKER_00: It's difficult for a Jew to have to do mitzvah's Pagasmis.
• 2:01
  SPEAKER_00: Why?
• 2:02
  SPEAKER_00: Because he wants Ruchnias.
• 2:04
  SPEAKER_00: He wants it, he's like Nada Vavu.
• 2:08
  SPEAKER_00: He wants to fly.
• 2:10
  SPEAKER_00: He wants to go up, wants to leave this crummy world that he's living in, this terrible prison.
• 2:20
  SPEAKER_00: Even the Altarabba says you're in prison, you have to have Yadsiya's mitzraim.
• 2:24
  SPEAKER_00: Yep.
• 2:24
  SPEAKER_00: And therefore, he can't wait to pop his next whatever is going to give him his Yetsiya Smithraim.
• 2:34
  SPEAKER_00: And so I understood the Mimer from that perspective.
• 2:38
  SPEAKER_02: Spell it out a little bit more.
• 2:40
  SPEAKER_02: That you're you're saying that you're saying that mitzvah.
• 2:44
  SPEAKER_02: So you're saying the the idea of escapism, which is what I feel like you're implying about the uh the two-day trip festival party, whatever you want to comz it's as you described it.
• 2:57
  SPEAKER_02: Let's keep it as well.
• 2:58
  SPEAKER_02: Well, you know what?
• 2:59
  SPEAKER_00: I think what I think it's like, I don't know, Hawaii's anniversary of something.
• 3:02
  SPEAKER_00: So let's call a lua.
• 3:04
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, go on.
• 3:06
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 3:07
  SPEAKER_02: But so you're saying that that trip, that lua.
• 3:12
  SPEAKER_02: The wanting to go on a trip is the ruchnius that a Jew actually yearns for.
• 3:17
  SPEAKER_00: Well, no, I'm not saying that where he what he gets is the ruchnius that is.
• 3:22
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, that's what I was that's what I was.
• 3:24
  SPEAKER_00: Don't worry about it.
• 3:24
  SPEAKER_00: I'm not gonna make that mistake.
• 3:26
  SPEAKER_00: I'm saying the tenuah of I don't want to tackle the world as it is, and I want to experience the world as it isn't, is what the reb is referring to.
• 3:42
  SPEAKER_00: There he's talking about not of I mean he doesn't say it, but it's more of notavihu.
• 3:46
  SPEAKER_00: It's more of whatever you can you conceive in your head of um disengaging from the physical sensations of the world.
• 4:00
  SPEAKER_02: And that's natural to the Jews.
• 4:02
  SPEAKER_00: So let me ask you a question.
• 4:03
  SPEAKER_00: What does it mean cabal satura?
• 4:05
  SPEAKER_00: Well, is it is it if you're doing mitzvahs all year round?
• 4:10
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, let's let's stick with tfilin.
• 4:12
  SPEAKER_00: You're putting on tfilin all year round.
• 4:14
  SPEAKER_00: So what does it mean kabal satura?
• 4:17
  SPEAKER_00: Shhuv.
• 4:18
  SPEAKER_00: What was shuv?
• 4:19
  SPEAKER_02: Well, uh first of all, this is actually what it says in Lukutara.
• 4:23
  SPEAKER_02: The Alta Rabbi describes Yetsius Mitzraim as Ratzoi and Shvuas as Shuv, as coming down and bringing down the the will of Hashem in your everyday practical physical life.
• 4:40
  SPEAKER_00: So, yeah, so what are you makabal?
• 4:43
  SPEAKER_00: I want to know what you make cabala on cabal satura.
• 4:47
  SPEAKER_00: You're does the average person think that cabal satura means that I should be in a place like a person who's tripping on ayahuasca?
• 4:55
  SPEAKER_02: Probably.
• 4:55
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 4:56
  SPEAKER_00: And what are you saying cabalzateur is?
• 4:59
  SPEAKER_02: It's actually bringing down any any feeling of roughness or it's it's the it's the practical I don't know how else to say it, but the how would you describe it, Ruven?
• 5:18
  SPEAKER_00: No, go on.
• 5:20
  SPEAKER_00: I'm trying to work on my patience.
• 5:23
  SPEAKER_02: I don't know if this is the place to do that, but why not?
• 5:25
  SPEAKER_02: This is the best place.
• 5:27
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 5:28
  SPEAKER_00: Wait and a verbren?
• 5:30
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 5:30
  SPEAKER_00: What do you think a febring is?
• 5:34
  SPEAKER_00: You being patient?
• 5:35
  SPEAKER_00: No, me trying to be patient.
• 5:37
  SPEAKER_00: Go on.
• 5:39
  SPEAKER_02: Shuv is not your will, you're not your desire.
• 5:46
  SPEAKER_02: Your desire is for Ratzo.
• 5:48
  SPEAKER_02: But Shuv is the actual expression of love of the other of for the other side by actually doing what they want you to do.
• 5:59
  SPEAKER_00: So what?
• 6:00
  SPEAKER_00: So how can you say it's not what you want?
• 6:03
  SPEAKER_02: Because you want to be connected, you want to be Ratsa, you want to be flying, like you said to before.
• 6:10
  SPEAKER_02: You want to be that experience of running towards and experiencing that closeness.
• 6:16
  SPEAKER_00: Well, wait, wait, stop for a second.
• 6:17
  SPEAKER_02: And this is the pinemia.
• 6:19
  SPEAKER_00: Stop for a second.
• 6:20
  SPEAKER_00: You're saying that it's the desire to have the running?
• 6:24
  SPEAKER_02: What the running towards what you desire.
• 6:27
  SPEAKER_02: When you say Ratsu, we don't mean not the running literally, but I'm saying that that intense feeling of connection that you have when you're actually going towards the person or towards the you know, towards Hashem and what uh and what Hashem is, which is the infinite ain't sof at mus mahus, everything that you're you're desiring.
• 6:53
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 6:54
  SPEAKER_02: But then Hashem is telling you turn around, now go into the world and express it there.
• 7:02
  SPEAKER_02: So you're doing he's not it's now saying it's Hebrew.
• 7:06
  SPEAKER_00: I'm sorry, I'm gonna stop your fun and go into the world and express it there.
• 7:13
  SPEAKER_00: No, I disagree with the language you're using.
• 7:16
  SPEAKER_02: Okay, this is what's popping into my head.
• 7:18
  SPEAKER_00: But not everything that pops should be said.
• 7:23
  SPEAKER_02: The the idea of Shuv is the carrying out of your beloved's will.
• 7:34
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 7:35
  SPEAKER_00: So I had a conversation with someone actually on Shabbos past, and one was uh with a female guest that we had, and the other one was yesterday after Shabbos with a male, both of them single.
• 7:54
  SPEAKER_00: And both of them, I ended up slinging the same slingshot at both of them.
• 8:02
  SPEAKER_00: In lameness.
• 8:03
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 8:03
  SPEAKER_00: So let's use the guy.
• 8:06
  SPEAKER_00: And it'll answer what you know, it'll address what you're saying.
• 8:09
  SPEAKER_00: So I said the guy has come in and out of shul for a long time.
• 8:14
  SPEAKER_00: I think he lives in Eritrael, and he's single.
• 8:16
  SPEAKER_00: Nice guy, handsome guy.
• 8:17
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know what he does with himself, but you know, whatever.
• 8:20
  SPEAKER_00: He looks put together.
• 8:22
  SPEAKER_00: And he made a statement in front of me that I should give him a blessing.
• 8:27
  SPEAKER_00: Now don't ask why he asked me to give him a blessing.
• 8:30
  SPEAKER_00: Just like we were talking about something.
• 8:31
  SPEAKER_00: He says, give me a bracha that I should have clarity.
• 8:34
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, Clarity for what?
• 8:37
  SPEAKER_00: And he said, Clarity?
• 8:38
  SPEAKER_00: What do you mean for what?
• 8:39
  SPEAKER_00: For a shiddach.
• 8:41
  SPEAKER_00: God should give me clarity.
• 8:43
  SPEAKER_00: It's such a strange word for No, he wants to know that he picked the right it's strange.
• 8:49
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, we'll see what you say in the next little while.
• 8:52
  SPEAKER_00: Clarity is, he said to me, to pick the right one.
• 8:58
  SPEAKER_00: You know, there's a shiddah crisis officially.
• 9:01
  SPEAKER_00: So this guy's got the pick the the he can have the pick uh, what do they call it?
• 9:06
  SPEAKER_00: The cream of the crop.
• 9:07
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 9:08
  SPEAKER_02: Oh, that's what he means by clarity.
• 9:10
  SPEAKER_00: He has so many options that he No, I'm not saying to you he said he has so many options, but he's saying he wants clarity.
• 9:16
  SPEAKER_00: Pick the right one.
• 9:17
  SPEAKER_00: I'm explaining to you because you can't figure out what clarity is.
• 9:20
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 9:20
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 9:21
  SPEAKER_00: I said to him, You don't need a bracha for clarity.
• 9:25
  SPEAKER_00: You just need to know one thing.
• 9:27
  SPEAKER_00: He goes, What's that?
• 9:30
  SPEAKER_00: So I uh I try to get the guy who was the drummer in the corner to start hitting the drums, but he he didn't want to comply.
• 9:38
  SPEAKER_00: I said, drum roll.
• 9:40
  SPEAKER_00: I said to him, When you meet somebody who uh no, so first I said to him, When you meet the right one, you're gonna know.
• 9:51
  SPEAKER_00: And he goes, I don't know, I don't know how you can say that.
• 9:54
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 9:55
  SPEAKER_00: So I said the right one's gonna be that you are going to be so intensely excited, and you can touch that any way you wish, when you think about making her happy.
• 10:14
  SPEAKER_00: And he looked at me like a deer in headlights, and then I said, It's possi it's possible uh uh uh an explanation in Taira.
• 10:22
  SPEAKER_00: This comes from Taira.
• 10:25
  SPEAKER_00: That what he has a kh, but to make her happy, not the other way around.
• 10:31
  SPEAKER_00: So your geschmack should be to give her that you want to take care of her, that you want to fight for her, that you want to whatever it means that she wants.
• 10:40
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 10:41
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 10:42
  SPEAKER_00: So I saw that was in the morning in Shachra's.
• 10:44
  SPEAKER_00: It's beautiful.
• 10:45
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it's wonderful.
• 10:46
  SPEAKER_00: And um in the evening I saw him again, and he comes over to me, and I I actually forgot about the sort of the whole conversation, and he goes, I can't stop thinking what you told me.
• 10:58
  SPEAKER_00: It's a good line.
• 10:59
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 11:00
  SPEAKER_02: Did you make the shit with the girl then afterwards?
• 11:03
  SPEAKER_00: No, no, they don't work.
• 11:05
  SPEAKER_00: So now, how does she fit in?
• 11:13
  SPEAKER_00: What do you say to her?
• 11:15
  SPEAKER_00: Like it's a difference.
• 11:17
  SPEAKER_00: The other side of the it's the receiving side, right?
• 11:19
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 11:20
  SPEAKER_00: So in a long conversation that we had that was very intelligent and well thought out, and it was like a little mini for bringing at the shop's table, I said to her, Okay.
• 11:32
  SPEAKER_00: So you want someone to be your man?
• 11:36
  SPEAKER_00: She says, Yes.
• 11:37
  SPEAKER_00: Which we just described with this guy, what that would mean.
• 11:40
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 11:40
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 11:42
  SPEAKER_00: Are you only being a receiver?
• 11:46
  SPEAKER_00: Or could you feel Bashas Maisa that you're receiving, that you're giving?
• 11:54
  SPEAKER_00: So she thought about it, and I don't think she knew where I was going with it.
• 11:58
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, in other words, if his Gishmach, the guy in the morning, then we're not putting it together, but the guy in the morning's Gishmach is going to be giving to her, which means she's a macabul.
• 12:10
  SPEAKER_00: Does she feel when she's a macable that she's being Mishpiah to him because he could be a Mashpia?
• 12:17
  SPEAKER_02: Wow.
• 12:18
  SPEAKER_00: So what's Pshat?
• 12:20
  SPEAKER_00: Being a Makabul and a Mashpiah is simultaneous when it comes to Gabal Zatra.
• 12:25
  SPEAKER_00: Ratsuv a shuv means that it's not we always think in linear time.
• 12:30
  SPEAKER_00: First I have a Ratsu, and then I have a Shuv.
• 12:34
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, so you say, Oh, I know that Shabbos is what is Shabbas Shuv or Ratsu?
• 12:41
  SPEAKER_02: Good question.
• 12:42
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, what's the answer?
• 12:43
  SPEAKER_02: I don't know.
• 12:43
  SPEAKER_02: I have to think about it.
• 12:44
  SPEAKER_00: You have to think about it?
• 12:46
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 12:47
  SPEAKER_00: Well, either you don't understand what Shab is, or you don't understand what Ratsu for Shuv is.
• 12:51
  SPEAKER_02: My initial gut reaction is Ratsu.
• 12:54
  SPEAKER_00: Your gut reaction?
• 12:55
  SPEAKER_00: Of course it's Ratsu.
• 12:56
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 12:57
  SPEAKER_00: You're out of the world.
• 12:58
  SPEAKER_00: And now you're gonna be Mavarich for the rest of the week.
• 13:00
  SPEAKER_00: You're gonna go into the rest of the week and do shuv.
• 13:02
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 13:02
  SPEAKER_00: You're gonna go on into the world, right?
• 13:04
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 13:05
  SPEAKER_00: So we that's obviously in a sense, time frame.
• 13:09
  SPEAKER_00: Because you can you can't.
• 13:10
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I just told you.
• 13:15
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, except for one thing.
• 13:17
  SPEAKER_00: Doesn't it say you'd see it's fit every day?
• 13:20
  SPEAKER_02: And also the giving of the Torah, Manton Torah's every day.
• 13:23
  SPEAKER_02: So the Kadash.
• 13:25
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, so then you have a problem.
• 13:26
  SPEAKER_00: That's what I'm saying.
• 13:27
  SPEAKER_00: We bifurcate everything into time.
• 13:29
  SPEAKER_00: We cut it up like the people are gonna cut up their cheesecake on Shwat.
• 13:34
  SPEAKER_00: And it doesn't work that way.
• 13:36
  SPEAKER_00: It's it's a excuse me, the professional illusion.
• 13:40
  SPEAKER_00: It's an organic moment of Ratsu Vishuv.
• 13:46
  SPEAKER_00: So it's not that God then says, Oh, I love you, Ratsu.
• 13:50
  SPEAKER_00: Come and go and go and do a shuv and go into the world and whatever.
• 13:53
  SPEAKER_00: It's Bishas Maisa.
• 13:55
  SPEAKER_00: Are you a Makabul and a Mashpiya Bishas Maisa?
• 14:00
  SPEAKER_02: Like I said to the I I I I got I got the what you said to the to the two people.
• 14:06
  SPEAKER_00: Now it's like, wait a second.
• 14:07
  SPEAKER_00: So now talk about God.
• 14:08
  SPEAKER_02: So yeah, talk about God.
• 14:10
  SPEAKER_02: Talk about God.
• 14:10
  SPEAKER_02: I I don't want to.
• 14:11
  SPEAKER_02: I'm about you two.
• 14:12
  SPEAKER_00: You don't want to.
• 14:14
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 14:15
  SPEAKER_00: Um so what are you having for dinner tonight?
• 14:18
  SPEAKER_00: No, tell me, what do you what do you mean?
• 14:22
  SPEAKER_02: Um you're saying something that I I I get I get what you're saying.
• 14:31
  SPEAKER_02: I get what you're saying.
• 14:32
  SPEAKER_02: It's not linear.
• 14:34
  SPEAKER_02: You're you're saying that you can have the experience simultaneously.
• 14:38
  SPEAKER_00: What's the main sentence that every sermonic rabbinical dis uh dissertation on shwoos, what's the main sentence they're gonna all have in common that they're gonna say?
• 14:48
  SPEAKER_02: No, no, no.
• 14:49
  SPEAKER_02: What?
• 14:49
  SPEAKER_02: Oh come on.
• 14:50
  SPEAKER_02: I'm not a I'm not a brabbi, so you've heard enough of them.
• 14:54
  SPEAKER_00: They're all gonna say the yidin said Nasab and Shma.
• 14:57
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 14:58
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 14:59
  SPEAKER_00: What is Nas and Namishmah?
• 15:01
  SPEAKER_00: Sorry, Nasabanishma.
• 15:03
  SPEAKER_00: Is it Ratsu or is it Shuv?
• 15:09
  SPEAKER_00: Shuv.
• 15:10
  SPEAKER_00: You're saying it's Shuv.
• 15:11
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 15:14
  SPEAKER_00: What's Kabala Satara?
• 15:16
  SPEAKER_00: What's the word Kabbalah Hatara?
• 15:18
  SPEAKER_00: Shuv?
• 15:20
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 15:21
  SPEAKER_00: Really?
• 15:22
  SPEAKER_00: How's that?
• 15:23
  SPEAKER_02: Well, again, I'm just basing it off of the.
• 15:25
  SPEAKER_02: Well, whatever.
• 15:26
  SPEAKER_00: I don't need to explain to me how you understand things.
• 15:30
  SPEAKER_02: I didn't I didn't think about it.
• 15:31
  SPEAKER_02: Honestly, I was just basing it off of the Mimer, but I Kabbalah.
• 15:35
  SPEAKER_00: One second.
• 15:36
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe Kabala's terra is uh Zachary, that when you learn the Mimur, you think about it.
• 15:44
  SPEAKER_02: Now it's too much.
• 15:45
  SPEAKER_02: Now you're now you're getting into things that are not practical.
• 15:48
  SPEAKER_02: Not practical.
• 15:49
  SPEAKER_02: I was just kidding.
• 15:50
  SPEAKER_00: Um I told you a few weeks ago I started Da Fiomi, and I'm struggling with whether I want to continue.
• 15:59
  SPEAKER_02: Already?
• 15:59
  SPEAKER_02: Why?
• 16:00
  SPEAKER_00: No, it's not already why it's not because I'm lazy.
• 16:03
  SPEAKER_00: Which I am, but that's besides the point.
• 16:05
  SPEAKER_02: It wasn't implying laziness of saying, what happened?
• 16:07
  SPEAKER_02: You were very excited.
• 16:08
  SPEAKER_00: No, I who said I was excited.
• 16:11
  SPEAKER_02: I I could hear it in your voice really.
• 16:13
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 16:14
  SPEAKER_02: See it on your face.
• 16:15
  SPEAKER_02: Everybody doesn't have the pleasure of seeing your face.
• 16:17
  SPEAKER_00: How many years did I not do Dafyomi?
• 16:19
  SPEAKER_00: And why?
• 16:20
  SPEAKER_00: It's because the Rebba from what I understood, the Rebbe was not into it.
• 16:25
  SPEAKER_00: And I understood the reason why.
• 16:29
  SPEAKER_00: Because you're not really learning, you're hearing.
• 16:33
  SPEAKER_00: That's why I'm struggling with it.
• 16:34
  SPEAKER_00: Like I can follow the guy's sheer.
• 16:36
  SPEAKER_00: You know, it's a big deal.
• 16:39
  SPEAKER_00: I mean, it is a big deal.
• 16:42
  SPEAKER_00: I guess over nothing, but if it's a choice of learning and under and breaking my head over it, I'm not doing that.
• 16:53
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 16:54
  SPEAKER_00: Fine.
• 16:54
  SPEAKER_00: So what's wrong with maybe I don't have to break my head over it.
• 16:58
  SPEAKER_00: Like what's a big gadilla to break my head?
• 17:00
  SPEAKER_00: Just hear the McCauley.
• 17:03
  SPEAKER_00: So that's also very linear.
• 17:04
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, I'm getting new information.
• 17:07
  SPEAKER_00: It goes in one ear and out the other within a few days, but oh, I got some new information, you know.
• 17:12
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm struggling with it.
• 17:13
  SPEAKER_02: So wait, what are you what are you saying?
• 17:15
  SPEAKER_02: Getting new information versus what?
• 17:18
  SPEAKER_02: Getting new information?
• 17:19
  SPEAKER_00: Is Kabbalah Zotera?
• 17:21
  SPEAKER_00: It's already been given.
• 17:24
  SPEAKER_00: So what's this Kabbalah that you're doing?
• 17:29
  SPEAKER_00: Versus breaking.
• 17:31
  SPEAKER_00: Kabbalah Zotera.
• 17:33
  SPEAKER_00: Uh no, wait.
• 17:34
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 17:35
  SPEAKER_00: So it's not just breaking your head.
• 17:38
  SPEAKER_00: So it's also I mean, uh I would like to go a little bit beyond that.
• 17:43
  SPEAKER_00: I'd like to be able to feel like the guys who are doing ayahuasca.
• 17:47
  SPEAKER_00: I'd like to be able to feel that when I'm learning Gomorrah.
• 17:51
  SPEAKER_00: I'd like to be able to feel God talking to me.
• 17:54
  SPEAKER_00: Well, are we learning a mimer this week that says Ka'ina Akra Kira?
• 17:58
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 17:58
  SPEAKER_00: That the person who answers like someone who's speaking to you, and you're mouthing and you're you're you're saying it in unison, as Yashra Mosha?
• 18:06
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 18:06
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, and you can say, Oh yeah, but this is it doesn't apply to us.
• 18:10
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, so then you say there's no cabal zatera.
• 18:14
  SPEAKER_00: Why?
• 18:16
  SPEAKER_00: So let's let's call let's complete the circle so we don't lose everybody, including myself.
• 18:21
  SPEAKER_00: Chaim of Racha.
• 18:23
  SPEAKER_02: Everybody takes all Chaims.
• 18:25
  SPEAKER_02: What is the Abishta?
• 18:26
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, they'll forget what we're talking about.
• 18:28
  SPEAKER_00: Exactly.
• 18:28
  SPEAKER_00: What does the Abishta want?
• 18:33
  SPEAKER_00: He gave the Tireth two thousand uh three thousand three hundred and X years ago.
• 18:38
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 18:39
  SPEAKER_00: So what does he want on Schwarz?
• 18:43
  SPEAKER_02: I don't know.
• 18:44
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, so let's follow the practical, as you call it, outline.
• 18:51
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna be a macable, and the Abbas is gonna be my Ishmalhama.
• 18:58
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 18:58
  SPEAKER_03: Uh-huh.
• 18:59
  SPEAKER_00: So am I Makabal or am I a Mashpia?
• 19:03
  SPEAKER_02: You're both.
• 19:04
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, how am I a Mashpiah?
• 19:06
  SPEAKER_02: Because you're the one who's actually learning it and bringing it out.
• 19:12
  SPEAKER_00: I'm talking about Kabbalah and Mashpiah.
• 19:14
  SPEAKER_00: I'm asking, how am I a Mashpiah if the Makabal, what the Torah is?
• 19:19
  SPEAKER_02: Okay, what?
• 19:20
  SPEAKER_00: I want you to think about it.
• 19:21
  SPEAKER_02: I just told you what I thought, but you just dismissed it.
• 19:24
  SPEAKER_00: No, because I'm not talking, you went straight to learning again.
• 19:27
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 19:27
  SPEAKER_00: I'm talking about the Indian and Shwaras of Kabbalah Satera.
• 19:30
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 19:31
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 19:31
  SPEAKER_00: So what do all the yeshivas do?
• 19:33
  SPEAKER_00: They're gonna learn all night, which obviously is a good thing, because you know, we're not gonna go to sleep.
• 19:38
  SPEAKER_00: We all know the reason why.
• 19:40
  SPEAKER_00: And you're gonna say, is you're learning, showing your macabre tara?
• 19:44
  SPEAKER_00: You learned last Shabbos also.
• 19:45
  SPEAKER_00: Because it's all night, is that Kabbalah Satara?
• 19:49
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm gonna suggest to you the Kabbalah itself, when you realize it's a Mashpiah, actually is Kabbalah Satara.
• 19:58
  SPEAKER_00: Only when the you're realizing that you're also a Mashpia.
• 20:05
  SPEAKER_00: What do I what was the example I gave?
• 20:08
  SPEAKER_00: This person wants to find a mate.
• 20:12
  SPEAKER_00: And that mate's gonna so this will say, in all ways, take care of her.
• 20:17
  SPEAKER_00: And that's his mitzvah, as I said to the guy.
• 20:20
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, beautiful.
• 20:21
  SPEAKER_00: So she's being a macabre.
• 20:24
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
• 20:24
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 20:25
  SPEAKER_00: But he has this driving desire to be the Mashpia.
• 20:30
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 20:31
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 20:31
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 20:32
  SPEAKER_00: So when she's being a Makabul, isn't she being a Mashpiah?
• 20:38
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
• 20:39
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, because he's fulfilling whatever he wanted, he wants to give, you know.
• 20:43
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know if I told this over here, but I had this crazy memory from way back.
• 20:52
  SPEAKER_00: One of the guys in Yeshiva, I'm sure I told you this.
• 20:55
  SPEAKER_00: One of the guys in Yeshiva in Morristown was is an Israeli psychologist.
• 20:59
  SPEAKER_00: I just met him for the first time in 30 years at a wedding.
• 21:03
  SPEAKER_00: And uh 40 years probably.
• 21:05
  SPEAKER_00: And uh now he's like in his 80s.
• 21:07
  SPEAKER_00: But he still plays tennis every day.
• 21:09
  SPEAKER_00: Us us Baltchuvas from Morristown, man, we're just unbelievable.
• 21:14
  SPEAKER_00: Pre the change in Morristown.
• 21:17
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, don't qualify it, please.
• 21:19
  SPEAKER_00: Well, it's a different different era.
• 21:22
  SPEAKER_00: So he told me over a story when I was a buckar after he got married, that he bought his wife these beautiful, like these long earrings, you know, with the chains, the gold, and they're like four inches dangling, running from the dangling from her ear, and he bought it and it cost him a lot of money.
• 21:43
  SPEAKER_00: And at the time he had just gotten married, but he was so passionate about his new wife that he gave her these beautiful thousand dollar, in those days, a long time ago, thousand dollar ring uh earrings.
• 21:57
  SPEAKER_00: And after a while, he realized she never wore them.
• 22:00
  SPEAKER_00: So he called her on the carpet about it.
• 22:03
  SPEAKER_00: She goes, I don't like long earrings.
• 22:07
  SPEAKER_00: I only like the little studs.
• 22:10
  SPEAKER_00: So he tells me this and he says, Ruvain?
• 22:14
  SPEAKER_00: I realized I bought the earrings for me.
• 22:18
  SPEAKER_00: Not for her.
• 22:21
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 22:21
  SPEAKER_00: Because he likes that, yeah.
• 22:24
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 22:24
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 22:26
  SPEAKER_00: He just can't wear them.
• 22:28
  SPEAKER_00: Well, you know, that's a don't go there.
• 22:31
  SPEAKER_00: So he really bought it for him.
• 22:34
  SPEAKER_00: If he bought it for her, it would do exactly what she wants.
• 22:37
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 22:37
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 22:39
  SPEAKER_00: So that's called real hushpace Matsada Makabal.
• 22:45
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 22:45
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 22:46
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 22:47
  SPEAKER_00: So what does God want from us?
• 22:51
  SPEAKER_00: What's God's What are our studs?
• 22:57
  SPEAKER_00: Earrings, that is, and God's wanting to give it to us.
• 23:02
  SPEAKER_00: So you're gonna say, let's put it this way if he would have given her the stud earrings, she would have been macable at the Savarpanim Yafas, and he would have had even more unig than he had when he thought he had when he gave it to her.
• 23:16
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 23:16
  SPEAKER_00: Because it says in Chasidis, why is that there's three stages to Hashpah, right?
• 23:22
  SPEAKER_00: Three levels of Tsimsum.
• 23:24
  SPEAKER_00: So it says that's Abraham, Yitzhak, and Yaakov are the three matzas on that are on your plate.
• 23:30
  SPEAKER_00: But when it comes to the wine, there's four, and that's the four emois.
• 23:36
  SPEAKER_00: That all hashpah is very nice, but if you don't have a macable that macables it, you know, you're stuck in no man's land.
• 23:44
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 23:46
  SPEAKER_00: So she would have if he would have given himself even more oinig, if he would have given her what she wants.
• 23:55
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 23:55
  SPEAKER_00: That's the let's say.
• 23:57
  SPEAKER_00: So now let's apply it to the Abishta.
• 24:00
  unknown: Okay.
• 24:01
  SPEAKER_00: So you want to have a Ratsu for whose purposes?
• 24:06
  SPEAKER_02: For yours.
• 24:07
  SPEAKER_00: For yours.
• 24:07
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 24:08
  SPEAKER_00: And what does the Abishta want?
• 24:10
  SPEAKER_00: He wants that you in your life as a macable that you feel the same passion as if you were having a Ratsu.
• 24:23
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 24:25
  SPEAKER_00: And that's his oinak.
• 24:28
  SPEAKER_00: And that's where you become a Mashpiya.
• 24:32
  SPEAKER_00: To him.
• 24:34
  SPEAKER_00: So the I saw the Friedrich Rebba says in a Mimer that when it says they heard the sound of the Schaefer and the lightning and the thunder.
• 24:43
  SPEAKER_00: And then it says they sa that they saw they saw the mountain smoking.
• 24:49
  SPEAKER_00: Right?
• 24:49
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 24:50
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 24:50
  SPEAKER_00: So he says, What's the Pshat?
• 24:52
  SPEAKER_00: He brings the Urachim that says that the mountain was burning from inside.
• 24:59
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 25:00
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, what's the significance?
• 25:02
  SPEAKER_00: Not the trees and not the shrubs and the cactuses, but the inside.
• 25:07
  SPEAKER_00: And it turned into smoke.
• 25:10
  SPEAKER_00: So he says that is going on.
• 25:11
  SPEAKER_00: The sound of the shofar and the sound of the thunder and lightning is, I understand the issue of the sound there, is Lamila Lamata.
• 25:21
  SPEAKER_00: It's the Abish the entertaining, so to speak.
• 25:24
  SPEAKER_00: He made all this show.
• 25:28
  SPEAKER_00: The mountain smoking is Lamata Lamaila.
• 25:34
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 25:34
  SPEAKER_00: And he says that the tahla sa kavana of Nisina Sateira, the Yarada Shemal Arsina, is that everything is in your hands.
• 25:46
  SPEAKER_00: Everything.
• 25:47
  SPEAKER_00: You're now going to be lamila because of your Avoidal Mata.
• 25:54
  SPEAKER_00: And that's exactly different, even other than even from the Avais when they were serving Hashem.
• 26:01
  SPEAKER_00: Because ultimately it was Lamaila Mata.
• 26:04
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 26:05
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, it's a beautiful thing.
• 26:06
  SPEAKER_00: So I was thinking about that and I was wow.
• 26:10
  SPEAKER_00: What's Pshat?
• 26:12
  SPEAKER_00: That mata lamila.
• 26:13
  SPEAKER_00: Just because the smoke went up?
• 26:15
  SPEAKER_00: Is that what it means?
• 26:16
  SPEAKER_00: Well, I was saying is what's pshat?
• 26:18
  SPEAKER_00: But he brings a brings the Urchaim.
• 26:20
  SPEAKER_00: It says, Metoichus from an inside was burning.
• 26:23
  SPEAKER_00: Well, if it was just the smoke going up, who cares what was going up?
• 26:26
  SPEAKER_00: So what's the Vort?
• 26:27
  SPEAKER_00: The Vart is as you think La Mata Lamila means ayahuasca trip.
• 26:34
  SPEAKER_00: I am going to divest myself of everything that I normally have and experience something totally new.
• 26:41
  SPEAKER_00: Something's going to do it for me, and I'm going to experience newness.
• 26:46
  SPEAKER_00: So I am not the mountain turning into smoke.
• 26:51
  SPEAKER_00: I'm a mountain being left behind, and I'm going in my own balloon up.
• 26:56
  SPEAKER_03: Okay.
• 26:57
  SPEAKER_00: And the mountain remains mountain.
• 26:59
  SPEAKER_00: Goodbye.
• 26:59
  SPEAKER_00: See you later.
• 27:00
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 27:01
  SPEAKER_00: Sure.
• 27:01
  SPEAKER_00: But that's not the Pshat.
• 27:04
  SPEAKER_00: The Pshat is the avoid is in your life as you see it and experience it right here in Ulam Azad Gashmi, where you gotta pay your bills, etc.
• 27:15
  SPEAKER_00: etc.
• 27:16
  SPEAKER_00: And there you're gonna be a machabal and mashpiya to the Abishta.
• 27:22
  SPEAKER_00: That's Kabbalah Satara.
• 27:24
  SPEAKER_00: Wow.
• 27:24
  SPEAKER_00: If you just think of some kind of Ruchniz dika, you know, and what do most people think?
• 27:29
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I learned a little bit of Hasidis, and there's Kabbalah.
• 27:33
  SPEAKER_00: That's all, so to speak, the smoke going up that I have nothing to do with.
• 27:36
  SPEAKER_00: But I'm a cabal that there's all these things that have not I have the angels and this and that.
• 27:42
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know what it is, but I'm a cabal that all of this exists.
• 27:45
  SPEAKER_00: That's not the Pshat Kabal Zatara.
• 27:47
  SPEAKER_00: The Pshat Kabalzatura is in my low individual private life with all of my struggles and all of my fears and all of my doubts and everything else, etc.
• 27:59
  SPEAKER_00: etc.
• 28:00
  SPEAKER_00: That's where I give the Ape.
• 28:03
  SPEAKER_00: Because I'm a Kabul, that I have to deal with it.
• 28:06
  SPEAKER_00: The minute you opt out, give me give me my mushrooms and my ayahuasca, or give me my drum circle, for that matter.
• 28:16
  SPEAKER_00: Then it's your phone addiction or anything else.
• 28:19
  SPEAKER_00: And then it's escapism, any kind of escapism.
• 28:21
  SPEAKER_00: Then you're you're not being a cabal terror.
• 28:25
  unknown: Wow.
• 28:26
  SPEAKER_00: And it's the hardest thing.
• 28:31
  SPEAKER_00: So okay.
• 28:33
  SPEAKER_00: So um the Chaim?
• 28:38
  SPEAKER_00: Is that a contradiction?
• 28:40
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 28:41
  SPEAKER_02: Let's not think about it until after we say the Chaim.
• 28:45
  SPEAKER_00: And so let's go back to the heavy mitzvah that the reverb says.
• 28:54
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, yeah.
• 28:54
  SPEAKER_02: How do you connect it to that?
• 28:55
  SPEAKER_02: That's right.
• 28:56
  SPEAKER_00: He says it.
• 28:58
  SPEAKER_00: Mitzvahs are covered, Davar covered.
• 29:01
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, so I'm saying connected to what you just said.
• 29:03
  SPEAKER_00: Okay, and he says, why is it Davar covered?
• 29:05
  SPEAKER_00: Because you didn't want Ruchnias.
• 29:06
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 29:07
  SPEAKER_00: They don't want to have to bring it down into Goshmias and have the Goshmias in the he slap.
• 29:12
  SPEAKER_00: He says, he's slavshus mitzvus bagoshmias.
• 29:15
  SPEAKER_00: The insertion of mitzvahs into a physical uh context or action is difficult for us.
• 29:23
  SPEAKER_00: But listen how he says the mushal of covet and the myrah that we were learning, or are learning, doesn't have a Mari Makam to this statement, doesn't have a source to it written down.
• 29:36
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know it's because either because they couldn't find it, or it's the Rebbe's kiddish.
• 29:45
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 29:45
  SPEAKER_00: I've never seen this word before.
• 29:48
  SPEAKER_00: So the Rebbe says like this, and it's so beautiful, it freaked me out when I read this.
• 29:53
  SPEAKER_00: The Rebbe says, What happens when you want you go to the gym?
• 29:58
  SPEAKER_00: You're a gym rat.
• 29:59
  SPEAKER_00: You go to the gym and you're lying, he doesn't say this in the mimor, but I'm you know.
• 30:04
  SPEAKER_00: So you're lying on your bench.
• 30:06
  SPEAKER_00: For those of people who are don't joining us who don't know what that means, you're lying down on this bench and you got this barbell over uh suspended on two metals poles on either side of the bench, and it's coming across, and you're underneath it, and you're gonna lift up, let's say, let's fantasize, 100 pounds.
• 30:26
  SPEAKER_00: Ruvain's gonna lift up 100 pounds.
• 30:29
  SPEAKER_00: And then I'll probably be on Facebook, like one of the old people who are able to do stuff that everybody knows.
• 30:34
  SPEAKER_00: Is that a dream of yours now?
• 30:36
  SPEAKER_00: No.
• 30:36
  SPEAKER_00: So um, it is a dream of mine that I should run a marathon when I'm 102.
• 30:43
  SPEAKER_00: I wouldn't mind that.
• 30:45
  SPEAKER_00: So, except I can't run one now, so I don't know if that's a dream.
• 30:51
  SPEAKER_00: No, because of whatever.
• 30:53
  SPEAKER_00: So, so you're standing, you're lying underneath this barbell that's suspended on you know on hooks and whatever on these two poles if you've never been in a gym before.
• 31:02
  SPEAKER_00: And you've never lifted up a hundred pounds.
• 31:08
  SPEAKER_00: What does it take to lift up a hundred pounds?
• 31:12
  SPEAKER_00: You can't do anything right now.
• 31:13
  SPEAKER_00: You're not gonna like, I don't know, increase your muscles miraculously.
• 31:18
  SPEAKER_00: You are who you are right there.
• 31:19
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 31:20
  SPEAKER_00: So the Rebbe says when you have to lift up a heavy load, you have to be mit some sum satsma.
• 31:30
  SPEAKER_00: You have to contract yourself.
• 31:33
  SPEAKER_00: No, let's put a pause on that.
• 31:36
  SPEAKER_00: You have to contract yourself?
• 31:38
  SPEAKER_00: What are you talking about?
• 31:39
  SPEAKER_00: You're just gonna go and you're gonna express yourself about how strong you are.
• 31:44
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 31:45
  SPEAKER_00: Why is that Simpson?
• 31:48
  SPEAKER_00: I'm gonna go do something now, they're gonna lift up this barbell that nobody else Ruvain's the oldest guy to lift up a hundred pounds in the gym.
• 31:57
  SPEAKER_00: I says why is that Simpson?
• 31:59
  SPEAKER_00: Does he spash this?
• 32:00
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, but he doesn't say that.
• 32:02
  SPEAKER_00: Why?
• 32:03
  SPEAKER_00: Simple shot.
• 32:04
  SPEAKER_00: For you to do it, you've got to focus completely on getting it done.
• 32:11
  SPEAKER_00: Don't look at the ceiling, don't listen to your music, don't listen to your thoughts.
• 32:16
  SPEAKER_00: You have to just focus on I am going to lift up these barbells.
• 32:22
  SPEAKER_00: And every single person, the biggest boulevard in the gym, does that.
• 32:29
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 32:32
  SPEAKER_00: So what's the Simsum?
• 32:34
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, what is it?
• 32:36
  SPEAKER_00: The Simsum is your of your your uh what's I want to think of your carving out all the other stuff that you could be involved in.
• 32:47
  SPEAKER_00: The ceiling, the music, the people, your ego, uh interesting the and blah blah blah blah blah.
• 32:54
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 32:55
  SPEAKER_00: That's Simsum.
• 32:56
  SPEAKER_00: That's a whole different shot about Simsum.
• 32:59
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 32:59
  SPEAKER_00: That Simsum creates giloy, which by the way, when you think about Simsum and Giloy or, don't you also think it linearly?
• 33:09
  SPEAKER_03: Right?
• 33:09
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah, unfortunately.
• 33:10
  SPEAKER_00: But but they're not linear.
• 33:12
  unknown: Yeah.
• 33:13
  SPEAKER_03: That Simsum itself creates the Geloi.
• 33:16
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 33:18
  SPEAKER_00: So the Rebbe says doing a mitzvah and you would rather do hayahuasca because you want to fly, I get that.
• 33:29
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
• 33:32
  SPEAKER_00: Because it's clothed in a physical container called Tfillin, let's say.
• 33:37
  SPEAKER_00: And I don't see all that hoo-ha stuff that I'm gonna see with the other stuff.
• 33:40
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I get that.
• 33:41
  SPEAKER_00: Sure.
• 33:42
  SPEAKER_00: Totally legitimate.
• 33:43
  SPEAKER_00: Only thing is, what does God want?
• 33:46
  SPEAKER_00: The tfillin is God's stud earrings.
• 33:52
  SPEAKER_00: And you know what?
• 33:53
  SPEAKER_00: He doesn't even want the long earrings.
• 33:55
  SPEAKER_00: The Eric, at least in regard to our conversation.
• 33:59
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 34:00
  SPEAKER_00: So what are you gonna give him?
• 34:04
  SPEAKER_00: Are you gonna give him are you gonna give him that he wants to study?
• 34:08
  SPEAKER_00: What's the stud earrings?
• 34:13
  SPEAKER_00: You didn't serve me with simcha.
• 34:15
  SPEAKER_00: You don't realize that my whole mahus is I love stud earrings.
• 34:21
  SPEAKER_00: Wow.
• 34:21
  SPEAKER_00: Are you gonna be a macable or are you gonna be a mashpia?
• 34:24
  SPEAKER_02: Oh man.
• 34:25
  SPEAKER_00: And can you do it at the same time?
• 34:26
  SPEAKER_00: Can you do it?
• 34:27
  SPEAKER_00: That's Kabalas Hatara.
• 34:30
  SPEAKER_00: In the Gashmis, and the Rebbe says the ten, everyone says the ten mitzh, the ten uh what are they called?
• 34:35
  SPEAKER_00: The ten commandments uh are all Gashmi, basically.
• 34:40
  SPEAKER_00: They're physical things.
• 34:42
  SPEAKER_00: Don't murder, don't steal.
• 34:43
  SPEAKER_00: Well, it's uh yeah, because that's cabalzat is there at that moment.
• 34:48
  SPEAKER_00: Now, obviously, if you only think like a uh, I don't know, I don't want to pick on anybody, but if you want to take God out of the Torah and send Moses, Moses wrote a great, you know, story.
• 35:03
  SPEAKER_00: You had this in Long Island when you were growing up, right?
• 35:06
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, then you're then you're not doing it.
• 35:09
  SPEAKER_00: You're not presenting what David Stu wants.
• 35:11
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 35:11
  SPEAKER_00: He wants the gosh music you should realize and feel that's where his whole presence is.
• 35:18
  SPEAKER_00: And you're the fact that you're behind in your credit cards, in the fact that you're behind in all paying your bills, in the fact that you have all this Skar Lima to pay, and you have all this Tsar Gidul Banim and all the other personal stuff that you're going through, that's where you're macabre.
• 35:35
  SPEAKER_00: Not in I can philosophize it out and say, oh, it's all good, and it's all this and it's all that, and and and you're fooling yourself and you're lying to yourself.
• 35:46
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 35:47
  SPEAKER_02: Oof.
• 35:48
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 35:50
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.
• 35:51
  SPEAKER_02: That's gonna be uh voida for the next few days, and I'm gonna hopefully uh have a different shrew us as a result of it.
• 35:59
  SPEAKER_00: And you'll enjoy your cheesecake.
• 36:01
  SPEAKER_02: On a whole new level.
• 36:03
  SPEAKER_02: Okay.