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How I Got My Very Own Karma · The Mental Healness Podcast

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  What, what, what, what, what is going on, beautiful people.
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  Today we're talking about my own karma as a diagnosed narcissist.
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  How I got my karma. My, my karma will serve quickly
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  and efficiently. If you're new here, my name is
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  Lee Hammock. I'm a diagnosed narcissist.
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  And welcome to another episode of The Narcissist Code.
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  Let's go. Welcome back folks.
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  Welcome back. Welcome back.
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  Your favorite self award narcissist is here y'all today.
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  Personal story, my own karma. A lot of people ask me, do
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  narcissists ever get their karma, Lee?
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  Do they ever get that karma for how they treat people and the
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  type of person that they've been overall?
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  Is it possible that they will ever stand to get be held
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  accountable in their lives and feel what we felt?
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  So I tell people, yeah, most narcissists are going to get
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  their karma. You might not be around to see
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  it. And I think that might be one of
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  the most frustrating things for people is the fact that you
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  yourself might not be around to see and witness that narcissist
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  or toxic person receiving said karma.
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  But it happens, y'all. So this story right here is
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  going to be by my own personal karma, Like my karma how it was
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  served me very quickly, very efficiently.
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  You don't say revenge is a dish best served cold.
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  Mine was ice cold. Like freezing cold.
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  Ice cubes, Cormac ice cubes and what not y'all.
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  But before I happen to do that, your narcissistic partner or ex
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  will probably get their karma in a different way, right?
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  It's not going to be the same as me.
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  Your narcissistic partner or X might end up lonely.
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  Not alone, but lonely. They'll be emotionally alone for
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  the rest of their lives, right? They won't be able to build deep
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  emotional connections for extended period of times.
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  Like what if their karma is losing you?
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  What if you? Well, Lee, I don't feel that way
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  because they moved on. What if?
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  What if you're the best thing that ever happened to them?
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  That can't be true unless you become the best version of
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  yourself right to work on you focus on you queen or king or
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  you know high royalty. You see what I'm saying?
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  But for me personally, if y'all don't know my story right, I
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  have 3 kids. I have a 16 year old, an 8 year
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  old and a three-year old. My 16 year old is from a
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  previous relationship like my youngest 2 by my wife right?
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  And I met that my oldest son's mom.
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  We we work together again. This is why you shouldn't be
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  people. This is why day to network is
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  very dangerous right? She met me, we work together, we
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  game close. I'm funny.
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  I, I'm just good to be around y'all.
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  I, I am. This is not me being
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  braggadocious. I'm just people.
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  If you met me in real life, if you came to one of my workshops
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  and met me real life, you understand like I have a unique
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  energy by myself. So people like being around me.
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  So me and her connected, had our kid or whatever, but I'm
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  becoming emotionally disconnected.
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  We moved extremely fast. I think we met in like February.
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  She was playing in like May maybe.
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  No, no no, the dates are mixed up.
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  She had a baby in May. My son was born in May of
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  22,008, right? So we've met over the summer the
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  year before. I can't get the dates mixed the
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  dates together, but I emotionally disconnected from
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  her, right? The devaluation stage love
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  bombing, of course, like we worked together love bombing,
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  giving her everything that I could with a blockbuster with a
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  with a blockbuster or a, you know, minimum wage salary pretty
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  much right. So us as we continue, we like
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  the love bombing happened, the evaluation whatever.
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  She had a baby and then she had she had her but she had our son,
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  but I was already emotionally disconnected when she had our
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  son. So it was just like I was
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  disconnected from her not that I didn't care about her.
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  She's a a beautiful woman, lovely woman.
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  I'm still we still cool now we still raising my son.
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  You know me she's remarried she's doing good, but I put her
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  through some stuff right. I was emotionally disconnected,
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  I was manipulative, I was gaslighted, right?
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  And then once but and I found a new supply, she quit the job.
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  We worked together and another person started working there and
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  I started, you know, working together in close proximity.
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  This is where a fair start or just new relationship starts.
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  And my new supply also worked with us and my my oldest son's
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  mom at the time knew that she knew we worked together.
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  She was like, I know how you were with me.
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  Are you doing the same thing with her?
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  I'm like, no, no, this isn't like that.
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  Of course it was right. I was lying and doing that type
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  of stuff and the new person, my new supplier, whatever, knew
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  about my son's mom and it was, would do things to try to teach
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  her, to make her jealous. It was it was pretty bad.
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  Yeah, it was, it was horrible. You know, and I, I'm only
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  telling this story to hold myself accountable and whatnot.
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  And I've seen bits and pieces of it before.
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  That's why I'm not mentioning the names and stuff like that,
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  right. But this is the type of stuff
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  that we do, this type of stuff that happened.
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  I treated her badly, disconnecting from her and
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  started love bombing the new supplier pretty much in front of
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  her face. Even though she had quit the
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  job. She would have to, she would
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  bring my son up her and whatever and we she'd be around and she'd
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  be crying and stuff like that. I used to hate with Oh my God,
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  what are you crying for? You know there's nothing going
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  on, but of course there was something going on.
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  I had a new supply. You can tell you can feel the
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  energy in the air, whatever, right?
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  Turns out and I'm love, I'm in the new supply.
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  Turns out my new supply was also narcissistic.
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  Oh God, can two narcissists end up together?
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  Yes, absolutely. Yes, two narcissists can
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  absolutely end up together. By the time I didn't know what
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  narcissism was like, I'm able to tell this story from this
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  perspective because I can look back and see things differently,
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  right? But yeah, the new supply ended
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  up being a narcissist. Like we were love bombing each
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  other. Didn't realize it until recently
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  as as my journey progressed and I end up going to therapy or
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  whatever, right? And boy, we were love bombing
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  each other and then we started to kind of devalue each other,
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  right, because I was a big partier back in the day.
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  So I was partying and she told me she's like, I hate me going
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  out to party. I was like, I'm not going to
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  party. I'm not, we're together.
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  I'm not going to party when I'm with you.
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  Of course I was sneaking out partying.
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  We didn't live together. We just, we just worked
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  together. We would see each other working
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  outside of work here and there, right, because we were dating
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  and took another, another guy that worked with us, right?
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  Never forget this took him to the club with us.
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  And I was like, Hey, do not tell anybody about this clubbing
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  because I'll get in trouble. Well, I'm partying, dancing on
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  girls, I'm chilling, getting numbers and stuff like that.
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  You know what I mean? Back in my day, yeah, I just get
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  them back here damn little bit, you know what I mean?
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  But I said, yeah, hey, hey, no, but seriously told them, don't
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  tell nobody, right? So tell me why this dude liked
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  my girlfriend at the time, my new supply.
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  He liked my new supply, so he told her like they were.
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  He worked with us too, so he told her when they had worked
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  their shift together, he's like, oh, yeah, we went out.
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  It was had a great time with Lee last night in the club.
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  Lee went to the club. Oh, yeah.
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  He didn't tell you. Oh, oops.
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  This month told on me snatched. So I'm trying to explain myself.
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  That set her off, y'all. That set her off.
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  She, she immediately went from love Mama to devaluation.
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  But we kept each other. We we kept each other on the
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  hook. We're still doing what we was
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  doing. Y'all love Obama was intense She
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  clapping everywhere. It was an interesting
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  relationship dynamic right? But from that moment I can tell
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  her energy has shifted like she wouldn't respond to my messages
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  as fast. We didn't see each other as much
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  and I blame this dude. I hated this dude for that
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  right? I just hate working with her and
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  I was like dude, why you telling that?
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  He's like man, I just made a mistake man.
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  I had so much fun and I just couldn't.
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  I don't normally do that type of stuff, man.
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  I'm like, you like her, don't you?
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  He's like. Man, I I had a crush on her but
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  not like that. I wouldn't try to ruin what you.
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  Hate her. Hate her.
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  Well, yeah. Did I deserve him to tell?
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  Yeah, absolutely. Because it's bad, right?
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  I'm out here doing something I told her I wouldn't do.
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  I was lying. I'm being manipulative, being
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  narcissistic, right? So she disconnects from me.
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  I'm still trying to connect to her like she's she's
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  breadcrumbing me. We, we still see each other here
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  and there, but not as much like that.
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  Finally got to see you again anyway.
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  But then one day she wasn't picking the phone up, right?
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  So she lived like close to the job.
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  I'm like, damn. She told me she would call me.
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  This time she's not calling me. So I left work that day early
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  and I drive by her house and she's walking into her house
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  with another dude. I said, what the hell is this?
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  She busted. She's you know, she's busted.
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  She's turning red. She's very angry and upset.
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  And she was like, what are you doing here?
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  Why are you Why are you being crazy?
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  Why are you following me? Whatever.
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  Like you told me, you told me to we, we would see each other
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  today. You even picked the phone up.
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  I'm busting up. I don't know what's going on.
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  Like who the hell is this? I'm trying to fight the dude I'm
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  angry at sexually. Just leave, just leave.
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  This is crazy. I'm not he he was helping me fix
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  my car. He was just give me a ride to
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  the store. Like y'all got food 'cause she
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  was cheating on me. She got me, she got me, she got
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  me. Broke my heart.
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  It hurt so bad. Y'all it hurt so bad.
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  Still to this day, still to this day, to this, to this day, to
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  this day. So yeah, karma was served
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  quickly and that was about y'all.
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  All this happened within like four months, right, of dating,
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  you know, in four months, like 3 1/2 months, 3, three to four
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  months of dating. It was crazy.
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  All the basic because I'm trying to, I was going to write that
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  right then and there. Y'all was going to blame the
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  dude, but it wasn't his fault for telling.
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  I should just tell him why not, right?
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  But I shouldn't have been out there.
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  I shouldn't have been out there seeking attention outside the
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  relationship. So I was cheating, you know, and
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  I had left my my ex for pretty much left my ex for her.
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  Didn't care how my my ex felt about it.
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  So I didn't care how my my ex felt about it.
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  But I know I'll always be connected to my ex.
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  So we had a baby together. So I'm like, cool, we got a
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  baby. You can't go to work.
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  Like I'm gonna still be dealing with you.
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  So I talk to you. But the new supply end up being
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  narcissistic and not caring. Like literally, yeah, we used to
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  work together. So we broke up.
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  We were done after that. But being the vindictive person
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  she was, she would have multiple new supplies.
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  Like she had a new supply. They do end up being her new
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  supply for a little while. But then I would be at work and
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  she would come to work and bring come into the workplace we
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  worked at and bring somebody else in there, bring another
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  dude in there. I was like, what the heck you
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  mean? And she'd be staring at me the
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  whole time. I was like, you are evil.
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  God, y'all, she was so damn evil at this time.
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  You know, I mean, she's grown now.
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  She's hoping she's doing, I hope she's doing well now.
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  But at the time like that, you are evil.
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  You bringing people in here to hurt my feelings like I would
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  like pretty much like my ex's feelings were hurt when I had
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  you around here. I was like, damn, looking back
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  at that situation now, that was my karma.
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  That was so much pain. Yeah, so much pain and anger.
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  She was driving me crazy. She literally was driving me
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  crazy because I ended up having to quit that job abruptly.
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  I had to quit the job abruptly because I was so I was going
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  crazy. I didn't want to do anything.
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  I didn't want to have a psychotic break at the time.
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  I was like, I'm going to go crazy.
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  I'm going to snap. If she does this again, I'm end
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  up fighting somebody in this place and I can't do that.
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  I I don't want to do that. It's just like, so I really had
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  to really snap one day and quit and she told the boss I was
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  pestering her even though she was bringing people in there.
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  She told the boss I was pestering her.
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  She's like, yeah, he's just pestering me.
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  He just yeah, I know he's he's just she she was believing they
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  behind the scenes. So I had to I had to quit that
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  job, y'all. I really did.
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  I felt horrible. I just didn't know because like,
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  because the relationship ended so abruptly and I still had to
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  see her. I still had to.
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  I couldn't go no contact at the time.
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  But I didn't know. No, I didn't know.
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  I didn't know anything about going no contact.
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  I didn't even know that existed. Right.
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  So going back into that date and time, going back into that
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  mindset, like, yeah, I would have with no contact and quit
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  the job or whatever, right. But I couldn't.
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  Yeah, I just quit. Couldn't at the time quit that
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  job or whatever. What's this baby?
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  A cat. Oh, she bought me a cat.
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  Yeah, look at my cat. She bought me.
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  She bought me a cat. Look at the back of it.
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  It says Dada. Thanks, baby.
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  Thank you so much. Come and say hey.
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  Come and say show you. Come and say hey.
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  Look at my baby. Did you draw that for me?
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  Yeah. Yeah.
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  Thank you so much. You're welcome.
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  You're welcome. OK.
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  Thank you. I'll be done.
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  Just admit. OK.
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  But back to the story. See, I don't cut the field.
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  Yeah, we don't cut the camera over here.
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  We just keep it rolling. I'll be right back.
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  OK. But yeah, that was my karma, you
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  know, looking back at it now, Yeah.
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  Did I, did I deserve that pain and suffering because of what I
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  put my ex through? Yes, absolutely.
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  I did, you know, but I didn't dwell on it, you know, actually,
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  because I was so angry and so upset and so in so much pain.
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  I at the time, y'all, this is before therapy.
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  This is like 15 years ago, 16 years ago.
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  So 16 years ago. My son was born at the time.
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  I wasn't in therapy. I was only been in therapy for
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  eight years, right? But I was doing already doing
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  personal development while I was working in that place.
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  I was already doing a lot of reading and reading a lot of
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  books. I was already watching like
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  motivational listen to motivational tapes and videos
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  and stuff like that. I was already doing it at the
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  time. So that stuff motivated me.
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  I used that anger and that pain that I was going through.
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  I used that after I quit that job.
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  I want to get a better job because the person she ended up
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  with, like I used to always compare myself to him.
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  I was like, I know my ex was comparing herself to my new
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  supply. I was comparing myself to her
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  new supply. It was driving me crazy.
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  I'm a narcissist too, right? I was just like, I got to be
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  better than this person. So I use that anger and
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  resentment to actually make myself better.
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  I actually use that anger to, at the time, I'm 39 right now.
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  So this is 16 years ago. So I was 23 at the time.
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  No, like I said, I was overweight.
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  I was like 300 lbs at the time, you know?
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  So I started a weight loss journey, got a new, got a new
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  better job, went back, eventually went back to school
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  'cause I couldn't get that out of my mind right.
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  Years later, I'm still thinking about it.
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  Used that anger and that frustration and that pain to go.
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  I, I used it to go to school. I went to school, got a degree,
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  lost 100 lbs Y'all can see I'm, I'm, I'm right now.
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  I was almost 300 lbs at the time.
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  Right now I'm to 248-240-9250 and that Rangers depend.
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  So I went back to school, lost some weight, got a degree, you
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  know, getting my bachelor's degree in industrial engineering
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  from North Carolina Agriculture and Technical State University,
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  NCANT Accuprat. Yeah, got my degree, lost
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  weight, my life is better. End up going to therapy.
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  I used that anger and resentment and that karma.
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  I flipped it. I took my karma and flipped it
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  into something and helping people as well.
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  You know what I'm saying Karma, like just because I got my karma
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  doesn't mean I have to sit in it.
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  Just because I was hurting and in pain didn't mean I have to
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  sit in it, right. I I used it.
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  I used the anger. I'm so tired.
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  I can't feel like working out today.
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  I bet he's working out. Wouldn't work out, but he's
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  going to school. Wouldn't kept going to school.
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  You know, they and they end up having a baby and stuff like
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  that. So I'm like he's been a good
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  parent. So I'm become, you know, being a
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  better father. I'm you know, I'm not the best
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  father, but I'm I'm pretty decent.
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  That right, You know who else's kid is bringing him a dead at
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  cat? Who else's kid is bringing him a
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  dead at cat? Why are he on camera?
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  Who else's kid is doing that for them?
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  I got a dead at cat. But I said it to say this.
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  Y'all. Yeah, I did get my karma.
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  Yeah. It hurt and it did suck.
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  And I was going through so much pain.
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  It's like this. Yeah.
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  I've dealt with a narcissist before.
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  That's why people like Lee. How do you how you know how to
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  how to heal? How do you know how to get past
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  it? Because I've been through it as
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  well. I've been a narcissist and got
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  narcissized. It is.
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  It is. You know, I got my karma.
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  I felt the pain. I felt the anger.
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  But I used it, you know, use the breakup.
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  I let that motivate me. I didn't let it destroy me.
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  It was. It was destroying me.
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  But I end up letting it be my motivation.
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  I have. No.
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  I have no. Yeah.
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  What did I hold? A lot of anger and ill will at
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  first when I had left that relationship when it was over.
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  Yeah. Hell, yeah.
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  That was jobless for a little bit.
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  You know, I had to work at some temp centers.
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  Then I finally got a job at Harris Teeter Distribution
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  Center in Greenville, NC Yeah, I worked there for like 7 years,
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  about 6 1/2 years. And I became a real estate
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  agent. Yeah.
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  I'm a motivational speaker. I've traveled the world helping
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  people. I've helped thousands of people
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  dealing with narcissistic abuse. That's why I know the
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  perspective of a narcissist and the survivor from it as well.
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  Right. You know, Yeah, I was a victim
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  of narcissistic, of a narcissistic relationship as
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  well. Then I caused myself because I
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  made, I made her snap on me. You know, she, she, I don't
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  think she might have snapped her.
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  She's going to snap eventually, right?
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  But I made her snap earlier, which is cool because like now I
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  look at it was cool. I didn't waste a lot of time
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  with her because she was trying to get me like yeah, we've only
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  been dating like 2-3 months. She was trying to get me to get
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  her pregnant because she was jealous that I I just had a
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  baby. So you got a baby by somebody
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  else. Why can't I have a baby?
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  I'm so glad I didn't have a baby with her.
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  She was trying to get me get her pregnant quick.
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  I'm so glad I didn't. God, it's been so bad.
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  I've been y'all. I've not been the same person I
• 16:22
  am right now, but I took care of my baby.
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  Yeah, I have to care of my baby. But I would have had a Co parent
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  with a narcissist. Well be I had a Co parent with a
• 16:30
  narcissist while being a narcissistic Co parent.
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  God y'all God Gabby, God Gabby, thank you Lord.
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  Thank you Lord. I don't know if y'all believe
• 16:38
  her but thank you Lord. But that's my story in my own
• 16:41
  corner y'all. But like, that's all my story
• 16:42
  about surviving it, my story about surviving a narcissist, my
• 16:45
  story about surviving a toxic relationship dynamic, right?
• 16:47
  Even though I did bring it up by myself, I made her snap, but
• 16:50
  she's still a narcissist. Like she was bringing people in
• 16:52
  and it hurt me. She was trying to drive the
• 16:53
  stake through my heart pretty much.
• 16:54
  She's like, you hurt me, I'm going to hurt you times 15.
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  And she kept doing it and doing it and doing it.
• 16:58
  She ain't quit my job y'all. But they catapulted me into
• 17:01
  being a better human being, right?
• 17:02
  And catapulted me, catapulted me into understanding the pain that
• 17:05
  y'all go through when you're dealing with a narcissist or
• 17:07
  toxic person as well. Catapulted me to understanding.
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  It's just like the pain you already Eric Thomas said is
• 17:12
  doctor Eric Thomas ET the hip hop preacher said this.
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  You already went through the pain.
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  You might as well get something from it.
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  Don't waste, don't waste your pain.
• 17:18
  You're already going through it. Don't waste the pain.
• 17:20
  So I used the pain I used to anger then I let it motivate me
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  to be to be a better person. It still motivates me to this
• 17:25
  day. I'll see.
• 17:25
  It still affects me when I tell y'all she cheated on me, right?
• 17:28
  It still affects me to this day, but it doesn't affect me in a
• 17:30
  negative way. I'm just like I'm hurting.
• 17:32
  I'm going to be sad forever. No, that's not how it works,
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  right? It's just like I've used that to
• 17:37
  motivate me to go to school, get a degree.
• 17:38
  I'm probably going to go back to school down here pretty soon.
• 17:40
  I'll actually try to work with psychology stuff here pretty
• 17:43
  soon. Think I'm getting the masters in
• 17:44
  psychology. But we'll see how life goes,
• 17:46
  right? Yeah, narcissists do get their
• 17:48
  karma. You might not be around to see
• 17:50
  it. You might be, might not be
• 17:51
  around to feel it. But I am a survivor of
• 17:54
  narcissist. You could be.
• 17:55
  See what I'm saying? But anyway, y'all thank y'all
• 17:58
  for bearing with me, dealing with me today.
• 18:01
  Thank y'all for listening to my survival story.
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  And I'm probably probably gonna get the comments locally.
• 18:05
  You deserve. Yeah, they deserve.
• 18:06
  I said it. You can't, you can't.
• 18:08
  You can't pick on me for some stuff I'm picking on myself
• 18:10
  about. I don't think people just like
• 18:11
  you're nursery like yeah, I told you.
• 18:14
  But anyway, y'all, thank you for tuning in.
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  Yeah, all things about me coaching courses, every single
• 18:19
  thing is available at mentalillness.net right here.
• 18:23
  Y'all can type it in mentalillness.net coaching
• 18:25
  courses. My support group I run with
• 18:28
  survivors and narcissists. Could be I got to respond to
• 18:30
  some emails today for some people in the group, they are
• 18:33
  dropping emails about dealing with narcissists and did it, did
• 18:36
  it. I'm like Oh my goodness.
• 18:37
  But here we are. Y'all make sure you subscribe to
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  the channel. And as always, y'all, as always,
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  mental illness is out. Peace.
• 18:43
  Thank you so much for making it to the end of my video.
• 18:45
  I am extremely grateful for you. Have no idea?
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  you heal and understand what you've been through.
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  Thank you so much again. I will see you in the next
• 19:02
  video. Peace.