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- Quantum Bombs Welcome to Quantum Bombs, a commentary show on the human condition through metaphysics and freedom. If you're like me and you've lived long enough, you begin to wonder what makes people tick. Their biology and their parents, is it their environment? Is it that they were born in 1107 and a rainy night in Scotland when Saturn was turning backwards? I have heavily weighed this when I'm trying to diagnose myself and others. What motivates people? Why do some people or the mass majority of our population derps through life with lizard brains and then some people conquer mountains? Some people are perverse. Is it only for a short period in life or is it a long drawn out thing? And if we look at just like simply why do we journal is because if you look at your journals over 20 years, you usually have the same patterns. We're usually the same thing. What's that underlying thing beneath the soul that's resting beneath us that makes us act the way we do throughout our whole lives? We have these patterns. What is that driving resonance that makes us have these preferences? Why do some people live in the same town they were born their whole life? All of this could be answered. I promised you today I'm going to give you the longest, most comprehensive list to mankind in academia of why humans act the way we do. We're going to have four major life buckets that creates why we act the way we do. There's actually five, but the fifth is kind of a wild card and typically is an applied to the mass majority of life, but it still needs to be there. Can't wait to see if you agree with me or not. I want you to tell me which bucket does intelligence land in, which bucket does mental disorders come from. We're going to go through that at the end that we can kind of like come back to that. Let me know what percentages of these buckets dictates your behavior or other behaviors. As usual, I do a 500 foot view because I promise to be paradoxically nuanced. This is obviously a show about metaphysics. We're coming at it from a way of a believer, but I'm also looking at it from a materialist viewpoint from an East and West. All things considered, take what you want out of it. Doesn't matter if you don't believe it, but I'm listing everything to be comprehensive as possible. Starting off at the top to totally understand this, it's the first most fundamental thing that we all are. I'm going to draw it out for you because I've been wanting to draw. I know that if you can understand this at a fundamental level, it could change the way you view everything in life. Here we are. We have source. We have God. What did he do? He made himself, projected himself into many different points of view so he could enjoy his world, his creation. This is individuated points of view, aka God made himself into many beautiful, perfect souls. Because we know we are made in God's image, our soul inside, in case in our three bodies, is actually perfect. What keeps your perfect soul, right here, being any different and merging back, becoming the same substance as the source creator? One thing, but the first, this is the most fundamental thing you've got to learn about yourself is you are an individuated soul from God that has just a few things that keep you separated from perfection. You have your awareness. This is your unique POV point of view on the world. If you were a sailor in 400 AD and you lived on the Pacific Coast on a sailboat the entire time that has gone experiencing his creation through a very distinct lens, 400 AD on a boat, you also have your expression, the way you express yourself through all of this and ideally the way you express yourself and desire devotion back to God. You have this awareness and expression that you're able to give. You don't even have a body, you're just the soul. So we've got to create a ton of mess. This is what we're reviewing today. We're going over all of the mess of mankind, of what makes us behave, what separates us physically from source. Eventually when you get rid of all the mess and you represent and look more like that, you're able to go and merge back, be back with source, but still on an individuated unique point of view and awareness and expression that will never cease. All right, let's hop into it. Our first bucket, baby. Okay, let's start layering on the mess so we could see the human behavior on top of these four buckets. I'm going to give you the first one is called divine design. You could also call it your soul's blueprint, but this is everything given to you from God. Okay, so the first one is easy talents. We're all put into this world with certain things that we are good at and inclined to do and hopefully we put them to you. Some of us don't. The second one is grooves and tendencies. Everybody's got a tendency to act a certain way. We have grooves in our neuropathic thinking that just we just carve out that rut of exactly how we like to do things. You could think of the lens to view this on on an overall scale as Jungian's archetypes. You could have a mom. She's a good mom, but she could be an archetype of a warrior, right? Protecting that child. You could also think of these in Hinduism. They have something called a Samskaras and those are those tendencies. Usually I think in maybe Hinduism, it's a bad thing. You just tend to act a certain way. Something you fall back on three would be wounds, unmet needs. Now this is a wound because we're talking about this later that you come into this lifetime with something that you're already kind of predestined to have a hardship with in this life. Jung's shadow is study on shadows. That would be your wounds. That would be number three or subtle body to explain this to you the easiest way. But again, going back to the metaphysics, the soul has to be separate from God. What keeps us from just going right back? If everything's vibrational, you would probably just like a bee merge back in with the hive with the resonance that you came from. You have three encasements that keeps your soul separate. Your physical body, your life, chronic body of energy and your ideational thought matrix causal body. Well that those two bodies has their own energy plumbing, right? So when your energy plumbing isn't right and you're out of whack, that also causes you to act a certain way. So it would be unfair if we didn't have that listed here. Your subtle body plumbing, you could say. Now this is interesting. Delusion and Maya. I should also say this is demonic, demonic keeping us separate from God. But more so the delusion, the Maya is that if you are a believer, then you know that this home is not our home and there is a more realistic, I call it the absolute reality of life that we are going towards. So this is that knowing entropy doesn't feel right. This can't be all there is. It feels bad. That causes us as souls to act a certain way knowing that this isn't our home and this is why it's called delusion because this is a virtual reality and you're just made to believe that this is real life and all of our five senses and then of course society and our post-modernity world where we're too good to let God in and spirit be real. This is exactly what they want you to believe that you're in delusion and that this is real. Alright and then the sixth one is that call home. So that's first is the recognition that this isn't real and the second one is that there's something better. There's something bigger. Again, if it's that B going back to the hive, it's the resonance. Your soul came from somewhere and it knows that it belongs somewhere else and that call home, that reunion, that yearning is again the expression that way that little part of you will eventually seek getting back with God. And then seven is karma. This is obviously self-explanatory but it explains a lot of all the prior steps. We just talked about what God taxed on from the beginning which is whether you believe karma starts at within the when God was conceiving you and like you like the Bible says knows every hair on your head before you were born and conceived. So you believe it starts there or whether you believe that it started a million years ago as you as you know one of the stardust particles turns to algae with your spiritual evolution all the way into becoming a human, getting the complex brain where we have to go back to God because there is a definite separation between animals and humans for those that are into spiritual evolution throughout time. But all of this, these wounds, all of these things, there are tendencies that you come in and you've been trying to get rid of for millions, thousands of years, etc. that are reasons you may act the way you do. Now I have something I can't wait. I have levers, gauges, maps, but we have maps. This is one of the reasons I wanted to make this show. So I actually want to challenge you on this and say if you believe that God has the golden ratio, the Fibonacci, whatever, I don't get into it, but I understand it. I understand that science has probed it enough to understand that there's like a 361, there's a certain perfect ratio and there's math behind the creation of how nature is made. The snail looks like the hurricane, the turtles, look at this up guys, the tortoises shell has everything matching I think a lunar cycle and calendar days. So there is math in a pragmatic way that God made the universe. You could see this in numerous ways. So then do you think when it came to building this complex mess of your behavior, he just randomly is like, I'll take a little of this and take a little of that. No, it's actually way more cooler to think of it and understand it as like, no, he actually knew that based on like planets and forces and gravity and all these tiny little nuances were turned exactly the way they were, that when you were born, you were going to come out a very specific flavor and spice. Now the reason most modern Christians today don't like astrology, including myself, is that it involves two different things. You have when you were born and this is what you tend to be. And then you have the second part, which is, which is transits. That's the future horoscope crap. I don't really get into that. That's what gives it such a silly name people. And then Westerners got involved and they're like, my son sign is this and I act like that when that is like taking in 1% of what a full astrology reading would actually tell you about yourself. But what I will say that their maps, they are blueprints of how you're, you could use, you could use these three astrology, human design, numerology, and I'll give you my opinion on all three. As a map to understand how, how your soul's being is. What I mean by that is, yeah, it's, it's, it is astrology is a thousand year old science, human design. Actually, I believe was beamed and downloaded to a dude in Russia in the 1980s. And I use astrology to, to confirm, ah, I'm not a weirdo. I have all these passions and all these things I like. Also confirmed with my astrological chart. Human design I use for how to take action on that. It is a business oriented study. So if you want to learn more about yourself, how to help yourself as an entrepreneur, human design is a, it'll change your life. It changed my life. I'm just getting into it and it is really, I felt like I've lost 20 years like wasted 20 years as an entrepreneur because I didn't like look into human design. So it's the action. So whether if you're not even entrepreneur, you just want to know like, how do I fit and belong in my community? How do people see me and how should I take action? This is a great place to start. And then I don't know anything about numerology, but I do know that like when I looked at my number, it tend to make sense. But anyways, I hope I've made that really clear is that if you, once you actually understand the fundamentals of what astrology is telling you, it is like all these certain things were dialed a certain way. So when you popped out based and where that's what in astrology, they ask you, where were you born at what time? Same thing with human design anyways, it's God's really cool way of putting an imprint on. No, I knew exactly how it was going to bake you baby. You know, it was all these little things, all these little nuances. So all those like, you know, when Saturn was turning backwards, there really was a reason for that. And it gave you this little extra quirk about your character. So astrology to be clear, these are maps because they're not saying you're acting, your behavior is because of this. It's a way to say, ah, this is why I act like that, if that makes sense. So I wanted to make a difference between we're going over the reasons you behave the way you do. And these are the maps to kind of understand it. We also have a gauge. Oh my goodness. I almost forgot the gauge being that we're on the spiritual bucket, we're going to the rest of them after this. This is the best gauge for the spiritual bucket. Each bucket, I'm going to give you several gauges. So if you wanted to look up and like measure where you're at on all of this, you could. These are the three gunas and what they are, imagine you're driving a plane and you needed to read your gauges. This is exactly what they do in life. Tamas is inertia, it's inactivity, it's delusion. It's basically bad. Dark, dullness, depression, ignorance, rajas just means movement, activity, passion, energy, but it also means restlessness, anxiety, egotism. Then you have satva, balance, think into wisdom, clarity, okay? Satva's wisdom, clarity, peace, light, creativity. These are all scales. They're everything in creation. This is why I brought this up because it's a metaphysical gauge of everything in creation. Doesn't even just apply to humans. The trees are sitting in satva. The wood in the house that I'm in right now is more tamas, higher on the dial. And the interesting part about this as a gauge is that once you learn to use it, you could use it as a lever, simplest way to put it. I realize I'm a depressed person, period. Until I have rajas, which is me working out, baby, getting all that activity, then I have my clarity, then I have my creative, aha, I've got to make a YouTube show about me yammering to you about what percentage of what bucket dictates how I've made up my behavior and how much I love the maps to map out what the things I'm into and how to put them into action. Anyways, so that's a great gauge. Moving on now to bucket number two of our biology. I've broken it into inherited versus not inherited reasons you would behave the way you do. We've got five inherited. What happened to you during utero when you were in your mommy's belly to to post birth like immediately after where you breastfed those things matter. Three is your genes. This is a massive thing given to you from your parents. For example, I mentioned intelligence, it's coming from your genes and a little bit of your neurochemistry. Four would be your temperament. This is how do you vibe, right? What is your general demeanor? Five is a tough one, predispositions, depression, addiction, et cetera, are you predestined? So man, so much of this is, yeah, this is what your parent. You could think for your parents semi inherited. Now this is a little bit less blame on the parents. Your neurochemistry, which determines your nervous system, all of that we've really are just now realizing how much that really plays into effect on how we behave. Huge is hormones. Eight, I found out vocal cords actually matter on how people treat you and perceive you in life. Nine is life stage chemistry. Obviously you act different at different parts of your life, whether you're 20 or 60, you're going to behave differently, not inherited gut health, huge. As you know, your gut is almost like your brain and your sleep absolutely matters. Now another one is 12 is somatic. It's everything your body has recorded. So if you've had, I mean, I even have like a nervous system condition that I believe is somewhat somatic and until you've had something that you really can't like, um, what are those things called? What is Lyme disease called? Tell you've had autoimmune diseases or things that you can't really just easily fix with the press of a button. It'll change your life and you really start learning that your health is holistic, right? My three PD, which I don't even want to get into with you is not just somatic. It has to do probably a lot with my neurochemistry and a lot of other things. And I would probably, this is, I'm telling you, it gets so, so exciting and so fun and deep. Okay. And then I've also gave gauges at the top for you guys to, if you were curious about these tests that you hear about, right? Because we're always talking about like, Oh, you're this, you're that we're attributing behavior types. So I wanted to kind of list out all of these gauges. Probably the most reliable is the big five personality. This is done in corporate world. Another one, strength finder, which also you could put in the divine design bucket because it's from your, you know, your talents are from God. And then you have your four attachment styles. While this is shaped through your environment, how your mother loved you as a baby, I have it here in biology. It's your four attachment styles. You always hear the ladies talking about like, are you anxious? Are you attached? There's four different ways that you typically, I guess, feel comfortable or act in a relationship. With someone look at number three is our environment. Let's just dive right in. We're going to go through these quickly because a lot of these are kind of obvious, right? But how much you were nurtured as a child from your parents, the culture you were raised in. I don't think a lot of people without traveling, I myself travel the world a lot until you've really lived in or just spent time in other countries. You don't really realize how hard it is like to maybe date someone of another culture. Most people tend to just date the people around them and then therefore you never have to think about just how different other cultures are. The most smallest ways, and it adds up, class and socioeconomic, right? Like how much money did your upbringing have? It totally dictates everything, your language. That's huge. I mean, we have a very limited language. There's words that we can't express here, but my foreign friends, they always have these beautiful words for things. And I think sometimes that might give you more of an inclination to be more romantic or to be more this way or that way if there was words for them. Our birthplace, it takes a ton, absolutely. That's why I like to think about some dude on a boat as a pirate or something. And then also your current place, your environment you're in right now. And I mean that environment from a standpoint of like you could be living near a toxic dump, very volcano under constant stress, you get the point. Six, technology exposure. No explanation needed for that, right? I mean, it's funny, but I think people like tribes in Africa that aren't exposed to the internet are happier than we are now, and we know that and we continue on with it. We're tripling down. Okay, number seven, peers and company we keep. Five closest people around you could be your good indicator of what your life looks like. I always like thinking about that, except sadly for me, I don't even have five. I have like two. So I'm just like, I need more people besides my dad. He's not even one of those two. Okay, let's see here. Eight, intimate relationships. This is huge. As you know, you're probably your most single, important decision you will make is the spouse you choose to marry. I myself have been single for 15, 16 years. I mean, like not even a, well, yeah, not a serious boyfriend since 16 years ago. I've dated a few guys, but anyway, haven't made that choice yet, but obviously your intimate relationships shape exactly who you're going to become and your behavior nine is your education. Oh man, this is a big one. Every most of the way we react to the world is your perspective and your education is kind of sometimes aligned with that. And it's mostly we're just all fighting with each other because the media and society tells us to, but really if you just like, again, take a further look out, it's just, it's silly. All right. 10 is the error we were born into. Oh, absolutely. We were living in interesting times. I was meant to be born when the AI revolution is going to take off and we got these three massive IPOs coming out soon. 11 is our birth order. That's actually a huge one that when I was researching this and making sure I'm including everything, it came up time and time again. I guess it mattered more in the olden days, maybe, but maybe especially if you were like a German Catholic family with 11 kids, the order of when you were born might have mattered or whatever, you get the point. Your role in your family, 12 would be your family structure, single family household, et cetera, divorce or not. 13 is the inner child. This has more to do with like the way you were brought up. Like I just have a friend that's really successful in life and always tell him you're just like the best, like loving household to make you never doubt yourself. 14 is kind of similar to your inner child, but the wound. The wound, the things that our wounds are, are typically underlying subconscious things that happen that we don't have access to or are now accessing and typically, you know, all of our interpersonal relationships are us dating each other's childhood wounds as we joke. 15 complexes. Complexes happen from the wound, right? You have that inferior order complex or the, you know, I'm not good enough complex and then that creates the defense mechanisms, the armor that you'll be putting on. And then 17, for my materialist out there, you would say chance encounters shape who you are, you know, a bad day, a bad accident, you know, things that change your life. I say chance, you know, materialist meaning because if you are a believer, and again, there's also split on this me, myself though, as a believer, I go back to divine design that most accidents in life are especially the larger ones, karmically tied or meant to be a part of my soul's journey so I can work through all that mess so I can get back to God. It's for the greater good of my soul's purpose here on earth. Math is a hard place to come to based on where we're from. And that is part of it. But someone that's a materialist would just say, you know, chance encounters shape us and it's like, you know, there's actually two ways a materialist atheist view the world. Optimistic and negative, the optimistic person, atheists would say life is short. So that's, it's painful, like the how chance encounters could change your life, but that's also the beauty. So it's like the pain becomes the beauty. So live it to the fullest. And then the other type, the negative atheists sees the I have no control and how much pain that can hurt and therefore then becomes negative outlook, unfortunately, bitter. Oh, also, while we're here on chance encounters, I didn't mention it, but divine design would say, you know, I chose to like come into this life as a handicapped person, I chose to come in with a wheelchair as a hardship. And I even chose my mother who I murdered in a past life to be my caretaker or something like that. Like that there's so much, I really enjoy the freedom it gives me to think of life that way. Soul contracts, greater purpose behind it all. God's plan being perfect. Me choosing to come here, me choosing the hardship, me choosing the life that I have right now. Okay. So for our gauges that we have on this, like how, how do people want to measure how much, you know, what are their personality types, their behavior types, like, um, I, I, disc DIC, D-I-S-C is one that's used in the corporate world. I believe it's pretty reliable. Then you have less scientifically proven Myers Briggs. That's a one that a lot of people talk about where they go, do you have an enneagram? Also less science to it, though that it does have Sophie Christianity ties, like I believe it came from that. I don't know anything about it, but I just want to include it for anybody that's interested. And then you have what I do know a lot about. I've read both the, the civilian book and the military book for the five love languages. I could talk your ear off on love languages. I believe mine is, um, I said tie. I know you're not supposed to have more than one love language, but it's how you give and receive love. And I believe mine would be physical touch and words of affirmation. And they argue, at least AI argued that your five love languages would be determined more so on your environment of how you were raised, et cetera. So let's jump over now to number four, which is awesome. This goes back to divine design guys. This goes back to God is your free will. This is going to determine a lot. Number one, first, most yogis know that before you could talk about your own self effort, your own choice to do something, it's actually you're skipping a step. Willpower will power is the strongest thing. Will is behind. I could almost argue the thought that creates the action. And I think why that's kind of important is like if thoughts create things and my brain goes to, to, to physics in the double slit experiment, not the Copahagan interpretation, but probably closer to the pilot wave theory. And I go back to thought, you know, basically, if our thoughts are creating things and reality is being formed by the mass consciousness of what is here, anyway, I'm getting off. But what's before that yogis know is will. So willpower number one, then that brings the action that brings the self effort. Number two, three, I have Guna lever. Remember before I told you if you those, the Gunas was the gauge of how you're, you're feeling, right? Are you having a lot of dull delusion? Are you having activity? Are you in the wisdom? That's a, that's by watching the gauges, you have the lever and you could actually apply that to your life. This is a lot of self help. If this should feel like self health, because this what is, this is self help, right? Everything, the dynamics behind how humans operate and then what to do about it. Four is habit changing, easy one and what I say that that's ironic. I said that not easy, but something to be neat that is needed. I mean, if you think about it, probably the most fundamental habit change is our thoughts, because if your thoughts create your reality, and then we also know that our subconscious creates about 90, I think 90 to 98% of our reality, then we really need to focus on what our subconscious is actually thinking and that's running in the background. What we have is narrative identity. This is the idea of woe is me or I am here to conquer the world. This is kind of where I don't like the woke movement because they're setting people up for fundamental failure. Again, if we go back to how I believe in the world metaphysically works, you are in control of your destiny. So if you're sitting there collecting victim points, we're really working, not working out right. It goes against all it goes against business practices, anybody knows positive thinking gets positivity. So your narrative identity is massive. And unfortunately, even for me, my narrative and my subconscious is not what I like because I could see that based on the output of my reality today. So I'm still working on my narrative identity and at a subconscious level, your chosen environment man, that's a big one, right? That's a huge one. I look back in life and see who you were at a certain time, just based on the environment you're in. And I guess I'm thinking friends now, but I need to relate that to where you choose to move actually. Someone like myself bounces around a lot and I could talk to you. You're off about like my environment preference, seven relation, your relationship to death. This will also going back to the materialist versus a believer, you know, I'm not gonna rant too much on it. You already you already know what I have to say and but see if you already have sorted out what it's gonna look like through your death experience when your consciousness expands. You know, I like to remind people they say that birth and death should be switched. You're born into confinement and to a body. You're coming from free spirit, right? We most all people believers agree we are from spirit. We are from the larger consciousness system. This large state of freedom confined to a body. So death is just the expansion back up on into that where everything and anybody that's had a near death experiment experience can attest to that. And I always remind say there's three ways to to really access this part of what we're talking about near death experiences, drugs or as people say, like medicine, plant medicine or meditation, changing our consciousness and figuring something, realizing what more of the absolute reality truly is. All right, meaning making. Aha, meaning making. One thing can happen to somebody. Perfect example. I had a friend loses foot in an accident. One person would woe is me the rest of my life. I'm just going to eat beer or drink, you know, eat Cheetos drink beer on the couch and take a job where I don't even stand up. But my friend who's young, I knew right away when it happened to him, I just watch him on Instagram and I'm like, he's living. He already lived a huge happy full life full of friends and events and people. And now because he's missing his foot, I feel like he's doing like 20 times more and he was already doing a lot. But I mean, he's going places doing things. So it's just your meaning making. How do you take that thing and describe it the correct meaning to your life to get fulfillment or to, unfortunately, to walk down a path that like most humans do, right? And number nine on your free will, it's your free will to do your own discipline. Are you, you know, running your wind sprints or training in the gym? Practice is the other word. Discipline or practice for someone spiritual like me, we call it a practice. I wake up in the morning, I've taken vows for the rest of my life that every morning and every night before bed, I go through a routine. Okay. And then quickly our gauges, locus. Okay. Well, first off, I wanted to say free will really doesn't have a gauge. You could say because it's subjective, right? Is it the money? You know, is it the girl? Is it the cool life you're living? Or, you know, but no, there actually is a good metric of how much of your in, how are you being influenced by the world? Is it internal or external? So this is locus of control is a cool test you could take. And then there's another one could go under the divine design God bucket. I gave you, it's called VIA. I believe it actually measures your virtues, but from a secular standpoint. So it doesn't matter a measure. You're like God like virtues, but it measures like your, your virtues unattached from having a God, but still should be a cool test if you wanted to take one. Okay. Guys, so those are our four buckets. It's time for our fifth wild card bucket that I wanted to talk to you about. So we have God bucket, divine design, biology, environment, free will, but this is another one because it's meta my shows, quantum bombs about metaphysics, baby. I got to add in the interference. I also would call it spiritual warfare. Um, I don't think about this often. It's not my topic, but it's true. You know, gotta be include everything. Uh, what made me think about it though is when I was going through relationships, I remembered that energies exchanged in sex and that a lot of people do believe this, it's important, you know, that people understand that you're out there sleeping with your taking in and exchanging things and maybe carry this the rest of your life. So, um, that's what actually helped me remember to create this bucket. A second thing that, um, could be a reason for behavior, demonic possession, halter geist, actually, I didn't believe in it too much until like a few months ago when David Ick did a show on, um, the Epstein stuff. And then I heard something he said and it really just opened up my eyes that like, wow, I've been kind of like, I don't know, just not, I'm not interested in it, but I kind of laughed it off. But now I'm just like, yeah. And specifically with politicians, demonically possessed, um, three spells and curses that people can, I definitely believe in that. And, um, you know, voodoo magic explained by people and shows talking about physics can easily be explained. Um, and four, directed hostility. Now this isn't really anything to do with like a spiritual thing, but again, in my worldview, since everything is spiritual, everything is playing out here. In our, in our, and God's, and God's play, it is spiritual. So when someone directs hostility, directs hate, wants to sue you in court or whatever, this is all outside interfer, interference that changes the way we behave. So guys, how did I do like, oh, and that was another joke is like, what is your gauge for interference, Beth? Why don't have one, but it's just like, how are you sleeping here? How are you vibing or how happy you are? Or, you know, how much peace do you have? Are your meditations going deep? So this is it. This is my five guys, my five buckets. I've tried to think of all the different things that can weigh out on someone's behavior. Ah, now we can go over. So I wanted to make a point that obviously with their, where does intelligence come from? And then we'll do your mental disorder. Intelligence, obviously, like we mentioned, comes from your parents, but obviously with your environment, if you're able to be around, luckily for me, I'm so blessed, I love some of my best friends. They're always thinking we're always having conversations like this. My environment shapes my intelligence, but my free will also shapes my intelligence. You know, the fact that I'm on AI, probably, unfortunately, that's bad to admit. But from the moment I get up almost to when I go to bed at night, I'm purposely engaging with knowing more and optimizing my life. So that's my free will. So you're, that's, but I just wanted to make this distinction that there's something, and this is going to be really important with AI becoming more with the word intelligence being thrown around, is that it isn't the same as wisdom. Wisdom is exactly what you already feel when I said it. It is something that old sages, monks carry. It is, it is divine wisdom. Wisdom comes from experience and you might question like, well, how would a man sitting in a cave or a nun sitting in a monastery in the hills of New Mexico have wisdom is because God, by sitting in silence, which God's language is silence. You might think like, well, that's crazy, Beth. And I prefer theology and reading the Bible, et cetera. That is one way to get there. I personally, though, do believe that experience is the only way to really know something when I sell your level and get it part of you. And how can God speak to you through silence? What is silence? That's the whole point is that once you're silent and quiet enough and you have these five senses that are plugging you into this matrix, this virtual reality, we're in saying it's real, it's real, it's real, it's real and you're not able to access the little tiny soul that I drew from you at the beginning. Once you're in that soul like state of nothing's actually going on here and the energy has left those five senses and gone into this final system, you're then able to feel something completely different. And if you're blessed and it's all up to God and what he wants to bless you with, the knowledge, the experience right then and there, that's how that happens. But that's a long-winded thing to just say there's a difference between wisdom and intelligence. And then lastly, like where does mental illness come from? Why, I guess if you would look at this, you would say all five. I mean, well, I would say all five, right? Because again, I do believe that God has ordained us with certain paths in this lifetime. Biology could also be a huge factor into what mental illnesses you have. Your environment, oh, you could definitely pick them up from an environment being even in a bad situation, free will, most definitely a lot of illnesses are. You know, I don't want to say that like, oh, I'm on a political spectrum. I can't help but think we create so many of our problems. And then create a frenzy in our brain. And then lastly, let's see what was mental illness. Oh, and unfortunately, yeah, interference. I do believe some people are mentally ill because they are unfortunately have a darker role over their brain of some sort have maybe got it in. I hope you enjoyed this, that there is so much more to why we act the way we do. And I, you know, I've got to be honest, I have spent copious amounts of hours and years really getting deep into understanding astrological charts, not from a factor of what is my future, but more so always to understand, to feel better about all my quirks and the ways that I am. It's not that I'm letting an outside source tell me who I am. And trust me, I'm nuanced and I have an auditor's brain. So I understand the difference between subjectivity and objectivity and what like a blind study looks like. So with the nuance of really saying. There's a thousand different things and ways people can be made. And then seeing kind of like a nuanced deep blueprint of what a deep chart is. Or now, so what I'm into is human design and really understanding this is the way I thrive in life and having it just be so accurate and affirming of, don't be ashamed of who I am, don't regret past decisions of what I've made or how I did and didn't navigate my career for the last 20 years. That can all, you know, a lot of those are my maps. I'm using those as understanding maps, right? So I know the re, trying to figure out the reasons of why we behave the way we do. Have your gauges I gave you, but, but I have to say my passion to make this came from my love for and learning right now from human design and astrology. If you ever wanted to jump into it, but please don't get mixed up into the astral, it's got to be a full chart analysis and someone that's good with it. Stay away from anybody trying to tell you about your future and your transits. Luckily I have a friend that she's been doing it since the age of seven. So I was able to kind of understand it throughout the years from a non commercial, commercial meaning, trying to make money off you perspective. All right guys, stay human, stay free, analyze your behavior, try to figure out what you're doing as a soul on this journey. Later, Gator.