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The Karmic Meta-Structure of Reality Bends Toward Love · Council of Kings

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  SPEAKER_00: Reality seems to have an inherent karmic metastructure.
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  SPEAKER_00: And what I mean by that is that this here,
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  SPEAKER_00: now,
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  SPEAKER_00: whatever we want to call it,
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  SPEAKER_00: life,
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  SPEAKER_00: being,
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  SPEAKER_00: radiance,
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  SPEAKER_00: nature,
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  SPEAKER_00: reality,
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  SPEAKER_00: God,
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  it seems to have an intrinsic mechanism or an intrinsic
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  tendency to remind itself
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  SPEAKER_00: of its true nature.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it does that by
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  essentially creating more pain and resistance and frustration
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  and loneliness
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  depression and anxiety when we are deviating from our true
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  nature creates more
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  despair and when we are returning to our true nature there's
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  more of a sense of
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  wholeness uh non-separation freedom intrinsic peace pure
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  beingness rest relaxation
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  connection to ourselves connection to those around us gratitude
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  thanksgiving a
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  SPEAKER_00: sense of life being a gift and um
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  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you can start to notice this for yourself.
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  I would say that this seems to me to be a way that reality or
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  nature being verifies
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  SPEAKER_00: to itself that,
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  SPEAKER_00: yes,
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  SPEAKER_00: this is what I truly am.
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  SPEAKER_00: When we are living outside of love,
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  SPEAKER_00: when we're living walled off,
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  SPEAKER_00: when we're living in a sense of separation,
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  when we're focusing purely on the story of me and everything
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  that is wrong with my
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  SPEAKER_00: life,
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  SPEAKER_00: everything I'm lacking,
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  SPEAKER_00: everything I'm missing,
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  when we're living in that time-bound story of me and
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  overlooking life itself,
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  SPEAKER_00: which is only now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Have you ever been outside the now?
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  SPEAKER_00: Have you ever actually seen the past or future?
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  SPEAKER_00: Life is only now.
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  SPEAKER_00: When we forget that,
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  when we get locked into this time-bound story that has us
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  primarily living in an
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  SPEAKER_00: imaginary past,
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  SPEAKER_00: an imaginary future,
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  SPEAKER_00: that tends to become very constrictive.
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  SPEAKER_00: It can feel very high pressure.
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  SPEAKER_00: It can feel like we're this small,
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  SPEAKER_00: separate being who's got to figure everything out and who has...
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  This laundry list of problems and who was wronged in the past
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  and life is against
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  SPEAKER_00: me and all of this is happening to me.
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  SPEAKER_00: Me, me, me, me, me.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that doesn't feel good, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: That does not feel good.
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  SPEAKER_00: Feels like a lonely desert of despair.
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  SPEAKER_00: And in the worst cases, it turns to despair.
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  SPEAKER_00: deep,
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  SPEAKER_00: deep resentment,
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  SPEAKER_00: self-hatred,
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  SPEAKER_00: anger that then turns into violence,
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  SPEAKER_00: being lashed out toward others.
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  There's a war within oneself that then gets projected outwards
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  and turns into external wars.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's why Aurobindo said something like, whatever is not
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  SPEAKER_00: resolved within, must manifest externally as war.
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  SPEAKER_00: Something like that, to paraphrase him.
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  SPEAKER_00: So,
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  SPEAKER_00: essentially what I'm saying is,
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  it doesn't feel good to be walled off in a story of me as a
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  small being living this
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  SPEAKER_00: life through a time-bound past and future.
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  SPEAKER_00: When we start to learn how to drop that,
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  SPEAKER_00: And we return to love now.
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  SPEAKER_00: We return to openness now.
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  SPEAKER_00: We remember how to access child mind,
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  SPEAKER_00: beginner mind,
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  SPEAKER_00: freshness,
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  SPEAKER_00: purity,
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  SPEAKER_00: the blank canvas,
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  SPEAKER_00: the blank slate.
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  We learn to relinquish our self-definition,
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  our identities,
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  our beliefs,
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  our opinions.
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  We start engaging in this as a playful practice,
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  like,
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  ooh,
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  I wonder what would happen if I
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  SPEAKER_00: came fully into the now and I let this nowness be undefined radiance,
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  SPEAKER_00: if I let it reveal itself to me freshly,
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  SPEAKER_00: if I completely forgot what it is,
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  SPEAKER_00: forgot my idea that tells me that I know what it is,
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  SPEAKER_00: if I just let this,
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  SPEAKER_00: what we call a tree,
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  SPEAKER_00: for example,
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  SPEAKER_00: rather than being
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  SPEAKER_00: some instance of a supposedly familiar category,
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  SPEAKER_00: what if I just let this gargantuan earth claw erupting from the soil,
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  what if I just allowed it to be the once in existence iteration
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  of itself that it
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  SPEAKER_00: is?
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  And what if I even notice that every moment of it is a new
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  iteration of itself?
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  SPEAKER_00: What if I notice that every single instant
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  SPEAKER_00: There's this dynamic freshness, this refreshing.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've never seen this moment before.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've never experienced myself in this way.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've never experienced the tree in this way.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've never experienced my child in this way or my father or my wife.
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  What if we drop definitions and let ourselves tune in with that
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  level of freshness,
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  SPEAKER_00: that level of specificity,
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  the now presents itself with unimaginable detail,
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  subtlety,
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  and specificity.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when we open to that,
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  SPEAKER_00: and when we relinquish our idea that we already know what it is,
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  SPEAKER_00: and we let ourselves just bathe and marinate in the freshness,
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  SPEAKER_00: the never-before-seen-ness,
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  SPEAKER_00: the ocean of infinity that is here,
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  SPEAKER_00: the ocean of artistry,
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  SPEAKER_00: there is this infinite,
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  SPEAKER_00: ever-refreshing,
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  hyper immersive artistry that is here and you are that artistry
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  zero degrees of
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  separation you are fully in it and as it you are this hyper
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  tapestry of now and
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  when we let ourselves feel that when we start to root our lives
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  there in the
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  SPEAKER_00: kingdom of now
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  SPEAKER_00: what some have called the kingdom of God.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's the kingdom of now.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now is it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Here it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: We found it.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's right here.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is it.
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  SPEAKER_00: When we open to that,
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  SPEAKER_00: when we root our lives there,
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  SPEAKER_00: when we open to this wholeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: this freshness,
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  SPEAKER_00: there is a self-verifying quality.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels like coming home.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels like resting in
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  SPEAKER_00: against the warm bosom of your true eternal parent.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels like a warm blanket of love.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels like total relaxation.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels like pure peace.
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  It feels like utter and complete simplicity,
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  utter and complete relaxation.
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  SPEAKER_00: It feels like juicy,
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  SPEAKER_00: joyous artistry,
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  SPEAKER_00: an ever-gurgling geyser of gorgeousness,
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  SPEAKER_00: refreshing,
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  SPEAKER_00: replenishing itself with zero maintenance required.
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  And these are some of the ways in which I would suggest that
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  whatever this is,
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  SPEAKER_00: this beingness,
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  SPEAKER_00: this miracle,
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  SPEAKER_00: this infinity,
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  SPEAKER_00: this is how it shows itself and reminds itself that
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes, you're on the right track.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's right.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is what I really am.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm here now.
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  And when you open to what is really here now as a direct
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  textural felt presence of
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  SPEAKER_00: openness,
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  SPEAKER_00: spaciousness,
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  SPEAKER_00: and non-separate wholeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: you receive these very clear experiential confirmations of,
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  SPEAKER_00: yes,
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  SPEAKER_00: that's right.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is the treasure.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is the infinite kingdom.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
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  SPEAKER_00: Good job.
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  SPEAKER_00: Good job, apparent monkey.
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  SPEAKER_00: You found it.
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  SPEAKER_00: We found it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Here it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: So it gives you these confirmations.
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  SPEAKER_00: It sinks into your heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: Your heart opens.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're feeling love.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're feeling connection.
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  SPEAKER_00: It goes beyond connection.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're feeling literal intimacy and oneness.
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  You're feeling the non-separation of yourself and your loved
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  ones and everyone and everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's telling you, yes, that's right.
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  SPEAKER_00: The waves are completely made of the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: In a profound sense, there are no waves.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's only the ocean.
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  There's this ocean of wholeness,
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  this ocean of infinity,
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  this ocean of love.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're remembering.
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  SPEAKER_00: Good, you're remembering.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes, we went on this journey of separation.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
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  we spontaneously decided to forget this wholeness so as to
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  explore the cage of
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  separation and see what could be learned there and experience
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  these epic cyclical
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  SPEAKER_00: journeys of,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: hyper Shakespearean,
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  uh,
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  artistry of seeming dark and light and villains and heroes and
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  all of this
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  SPEAKER_00: incredible drama.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we, uh,
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  put ourselves in that cage so that we could experience this
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  remembrance experience
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  this liberation without the cage no liberation without the
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  heavy cross no salvation
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  without the forgetfulness no remembrance of this jubilation
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  this sky-like vastness
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  SPEAKER_00: so there's a very mysterious
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  quality of whatever this is choosing or spontaneously electing
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  to go into this kind
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  of amnesia this kind of forgetfulness of what it is to play
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  this kind of game of
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  hide and seek with itself and see what can be learned through
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  that game of
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  forgetting what it is and then remembering and looking at
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  itself from infinite
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  SPEAKER_00: angles while it's doing that and yet it has this inbuilt inbuilt
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  SPEAKER_00: homing system.
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  It's almost like a sonar that allows it to always find its way
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  back to itself and
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  SPEAKER_00: always find its way home.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when you do that, you realize, oh, I never actually left home.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've always been right here now.
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  SPEAKER_00: I've always been in the kingdom of now.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's all I've ever experienced.
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  But somehow I allowed myself to be seduced into this kind of
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  illusory conceptual dream of
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  SPEAKER_00: A past and a future and being a small separate being who was cut off.
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  SPEAKER_00: But all the while, in a very deep sense, I was not that.
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  SPEAKER_00: I was the whole ocean.
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  I was pure infinity in a primordial natural state of pure
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  repose,
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  equipoise.
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  relaxation relaxation the beingness if we can relinquish our
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  opinions ideas
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  definitions stories identities then we can feel how the
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  beingness level of this
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  what this nowness is actually made of is so effortless and it's
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  so fully relaxed
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  SPEAKER_00: it's so melodious it's so in harmony with itself and um yeah that is how
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  SPEAKER_00: being reminds itself what it is through this,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  what we could call a kind of karmic metastructure where
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  diverging from your true
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  nature hurts a lot and feels like being cut off and despairing
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  in a lonely desert
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  SPEAKER_00: and returning to your true nature feels like
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  SPEAKER_00: Wholeness, love.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm getting it now.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm feeling it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Oh, the river.
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  SPEAKER_00: I am the river.
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  SPEAKER_00: Zero degrees of separation.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's flowing now.
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  SPEAKER_00: I am this radiance, equipoise, the shining fort.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's no words for this.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's no words for this.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is wholeness.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is simplicity.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's how it shows you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Peace and love.