Latest / Jess Ask / The Power of 'Yes': 2024 Year In Review | with Desiree Danielle | EP87
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- 0:07Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith, and you already
- 0:10Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress.
- 0:14Speaker 2: Have fun and just ask God for another day.
- 0:18Speaker 1: You already know what it is, and then you know
- 0:20Speaker 1: it's about the get real to be sure to show
- 0:23Speaker 1: your girl the love and like coming subscribe God.
- 0:27Speaker 3: For another day. Hey, hey, I know we could be
- 0:33Speaker 3: another way.
- 0:36Speaker 2: Yo yo yo yo yo yo yo yo yo yo,
- 0:46Speaker 2: I said.
- 0:46Speaker 1: Yo, yo yo yo, we go into the high.
- 0:52Speaker 2: Please, I don't know what you were going with. I
- 0:58Speaker 2: don't know.
- 0:58Speaker 1: I had to get out because I've been in the spirit.
- 1:01Speaker 1: But before I tell y'all that you already know what
- 1:03Speaker 1: it is. It's your girl Jessica as Smith and you
- 1:05Speaker 1: have entered the safe space where influencers decompress, have fun
- 1:09Speaker 1: and just.
- 1:12Speaker 2: What what what? What you made it?
- 1:14Speaker 4: Hey?
- 1:15Speaker 2: Guess what you may it? You made you made it?
- 1:20Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm a little I'm a little right now because yeah,
- 1:22Speaker 1: I had a drive here and listening to ery K
- 1:27Speaker 1: Holmes new album. Yeah it's It'll have you prostrate. Okay,
- 1:33Speaker 1: it'll have you prostrate. But y'all already know the song.
- 1:35Speaker 1: Y'all really like DESI rate DESI.
- 1:38Speaker 2: Rate delate Deiate. What's up you guys. Welcome to another
- 1:50Speaker 2: episode of Just Ask the Podcast Listen.
- 1:53Speaker 1: I told the woman that got this one, I said, ooh,
- 1:55Speaker 1: you look like you want somebody to marry you from
- 2:05Speaker 1: uh not housewives. She's not a housewife. She'll he'll pop
- 2:09Speaker 1: in Atlanta. She got this uh something something make.
- 2:14Speaker 2: Them want to marry me.
- 2:15Speaker 1: I don't know the words, but that made that's what
- 2:17Speaker 1: you look like. Something something make you want to marry me.
- 2:21Speaker 2: Then I was like, oh mm hmmm, yes, and they
- 2:27Speaker 2: can't see you though. I'm still working on you know,
- 2:31Speaker 2: with the growths to come, you know, new new things.
- 2:33Speaker 2: So we're working. First off, to be honest, I really
- 2:36Speaker 2: can see if she put them lashes on. She put
- 2:43Speaker 2: them lashes on and don't know what to do.
- 2:45Speaker 1: So, you know, the writ and just a little small
- 2:46Speaker 1: So I'm still navigating to learn my way around.
- 2:49Speaker 2: But I'm glad to be in the state today. Okay.
- 2:52Speaker 1: Also, I gotta recognize my people, my people over there
- 2:56Speaker 1: on TikTok.
- 2:57Speaker 2: Hey take the talk. You don't stop and talking, you
- 3:01Speaker 2: don't stop. Listen.
- 3:02Speaker 1: The Lord told me to go live while we're doing
- 3:04Speaker 1: recording today, and so that's why I am so.
- 3:06Speaker 2: If you not following the Jessica s.
- 3:09Speaker 1: Smith and on all platforms you might want to do that,
- 3:12Speaker 1: but especially on TikTok, I really do random lives and
- 3:14Speaker 1: they and they like it. So TikTok I can't see
- 3:17Speaker 1: who won now, but I'm gonna see y'all in a minute.
- 3:19Speaker 2: Okay, thank y'all for tuning in live.
- 3:21Speaker 1: Y'all get it first. Listen, that's a right, what's up?
- 3:24Speaker 1: You already know what time it is? Who we gotta
- 3:27Speaker 1: do on recap? We gotta do a recap. And my my, my,
- 3:32Speaker 1: my cup is overflowing right now. Oh bye, bye bye,
- 3:36Speaker 1: because the worship hasn't been real.
- 3:38Speaker 2: Okay, I just y'all know last year.
- 3:45Speaker 1: I was looking at some I was looking at some
- 3:47Speaker 1: videos from last year, right and I was looking at
- 3:51Speaker 1: the video that I really released a prophetic word. And
- 3:55Speaker 1: we we're in the studio, a studio.
- 3:57Speaker 2: That we're not anymore.
- 4:00Speaker 1: From last year to this year. Like we're at BGTV
- 4:04Speaker 1: shout out to Brad.
- 4:06Speaker 2: We're at bgt C Studios here in Trustville, Alabama.
- 4:10Speaker 1: But last year we were at Desireate Dan Yale and
- 4:15Speaker 1: the transition from Pelam to Trustville has been crazy. Yeah,
- 4:25Speaker 1: it has been one for the books, and it's a
- 4:28Speaker 1: whole story, Like we could really write several books from
- 4:32Speaker 1: twenty twenty four, would you agree?
- 4:34Speaker 2: Yeah? Yeah, that's it. Yeah, that's all I got. Yeah,
- 4:43Speaker 2: what was let's starry, let's start there.
- 4:46Speaker 1: What has been your I guess biggest eye opener of
- 4:50Speaker 1: twenty twenty four that like that transition happened, because it's
- 4:54Speaker 1: like we said, a lot happened.
- 4:57Speaker 2: In twelve months.
- 4:59Speaker 1: I think my biggest eye opener is if I'm if
- 5:03Speaker 1: I be honest, I don't know nothing.
- 5:06Speaker 2: Like you think we know.
- 5:07Speaker 1: We think we know, we think we know what's best
- 5:09Speaker 1: for us, We think we know, you know, we got
- 5:12Speaker 1: these goals and these plans, we think we know the things.
- 5:14Speaker 2: But the truth is we don't God know everything. And
- 5:19Speaker 2: so the transition.
- 5:21Speaker 1: That's exactly what this This whole year has been full
- 5:24Speaker 1: of transitions, and I think it's some and that's kind
- 5:29Speaker 1: of life in general, but it's some. I think the
- 5:31Speaker 1: thing that I'm learning is how how you transition? Now
- 5:35Speaker 1: that's good. How you transition matters because my honestly, transition
- 5:40Speaker 1: started for me at the top of twenty twenty three,
- 5:43Speaker 1: and so this has been technically almost about two years
- 5:45Speaker 1: of transitioning, and where I was in twenty twenty three,
- 5:49Speaker 1: the transition has even though they haven't been easier, easier,
- 5:52Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, the way I've responded to
- 5:55Speaker 1: them has been different.
- 5:58Speaker 2: That's so good.
- 5:59Speaker 1: It's been more been definitely uh more faith, more trust
- 6:04Speaker 1: in God in these last couple of transitions that I've
- 6:07Speaker 1: had within the last few months.
- 6:09Speaker 2: Even that's so good.
- 6:11Speaker 1: I love how you said, not only have you been transitioning,
- 6:15Speaker 1: but you have been learning how to transition, and that how, y'all,
- 6:21Speaker 1: that how, that how is so important for the simple
- 6:25Speaker 1: fact that if you do things grudgingly, God will take
- 6:29Speaker 1: you back to the place even if you got it right,
- 6:32Speaker 1: because this is so good. Character is what he's trying
- 6:36Speaker 1: to build. The stuff don't matter, Like the stuff don't matter,
- 6:40Speaker 1: it's the character that he's trying to build in order
- 6:45Speaker 1: for us not to just get to the place, thank you,
- 6:48Speaker 1: Holy Spirit, not to just get to the place of promise,
- 6:51Speaker 1: but to maintain the place of promise.
- 6:54Speaker 2: And so even if we go back into the Bible, where.
- 6:56Speaker 1: It's where we talk about the transition, whether Israel's life
- 7:00Speaker 1: was going from slaves slaves to kingdom to what we
- 7:04Speaker 1: consider their kingdom heirs. They were stuck in a place
- 7:07Speaker 1: and God would not release them until they're new because
- 7:09Speaker 1: they still had the characteristics of a slave.
- 7:13Speaker 2: Y'all.
- 7:14Speaker 1: We cannot go into places thinking God saying, oh, I'm wealthy,
- 7:17Speaker 1: I'm rich, I'm doing all of this, blah blah blah blah.
- 7:20Speaker 2: And we're still in slave enslave to the things we're
- 7:24Speaker 2: en slave to.
- 7:24Speaker 1: Right, we'reing slave to pride. Oh you thought I was
- 7:27Speaker 1: gonna say something else. We're in slave to pride. We're
- 7:31Speaker 1: slave to stubbornness. We're a slave to selfishness. We're in
- 7:34Speaker 1: slaves to all this stuff. God don't care about this.
- 7:37Speaker 1: If you're a slave to stuff like porn or things
- 7:40Speaker 1: like like sex, drugs, alcohol, if you're a slave, there
- 7:43Speaker 1: is a deeper rooted issue. There's a deeper rooted issue.
- 7:47Speaker 1: Thank you, Holy Spirit. I hear you what you're saying.
- 7:49Speaker 1: There's a deeper rooted issue that you're dealing with. Hindsight,
- 7:53Speaker 1: I'm almost twelve months into this thing. I technically had
- 8:00Speaker 1: my last drink somewhere in the middle of December of
- 8:03Speaker 1: last year, so technically it'll be twelve months somewhere in
- 8:06Speaker 1: the middle. Baby, Listen, I'm celebrating myself because I'm like, man,
- 8:10Speaker 1: oh my gosh. But even as I walked through this journey,
- 8:14Speaker 1: when I tell you I had so much pride, so
- 8:18Speaker 1: much pride that had, God has really made me review
- 8:25Speaker 1: and come back to myself and say, you know what
- 8:27Speaker 1: that was? That was not the humility the humble jester
- 8:31Speaker 1: that I know that it's easy to be humble when
- 8:33Speaker 1: you got money.
- 8:36Speaker 2: For me, I don't know about y'all, but for me,
- 8:38Speaker 2: when I can.
- 8:39Speaker 1: Give and just give it, I thought it was humility.
- 8:43Speaker 1: But it was a pride area where I was like, oh,
- 8:45Speaker 1: I can give you that. I counted that I could
- 8:47Speaker 1: manage that.
- 8:48Speaker 2: You know what. It made me little rich because I
- 8:50Speaker 2: can give.
- 8:52Speaker 1: Oh baby, he been cutting me, cutting me, slicing and dicing.
- 8:56Speaker 1: Oh baby, deligray. It's real when you get when you
- 9:00Speaker 1: you're able to get real with yourself and clear with yourself.
- 9:02Speaker 1: I thought the vice was the vice of alcohol had
- 9:06Speaker 1: everything to do with, oh, I'm just trying to cover
- 9:08Speaker 1: my emotion and all this stuff like that. No, it
- 9:10Speaker 1: had everything to do with I was prideful. I was
- 9:13Speaker 1: so prideful that I did not allow God to be
- 9:16Speaker 1: God in my life when I lost control. If you
- 9:20Speaker 1: really think about it, we really deal with certain things
- 9:24Speaker 1: because we don't allow God to be it for us.
- 9:28Speaker 1: I'm just saying, this is my revelation of the year.
- 9:33Speaker 1: We don't allow God to be God. And so when
- 9:38Speaker 1: God starts removing things, when God starts tearing up things,
- 9:41Speaker 1: when God starts killing things, when God makes you go
- 9:44Speaker 1: around the wilderness for forty years, what happens is he saying,
- 9:50Speaker 1: this is all my God. This is not punishment. It's
- 9:54Speaker 1: not punishment. It's the process of promotion. Thank you God.
- 9:59Speaker 1: It's the prop sense of promotion. And I love you
- 10:02Speaker 1: so much that I will not promote you until the promise,
- 10:06Speaker 1: until you're prepared with your character.
- 10:09Speaker 2: And so now does it ray?
- 10:11Speaker 1: What can you say about your character now versus going
- 10:15Speaker 1: back to twenty twenty three when you thought you you
- 10:18Speaker 1: had the character.
- 10:20Speaker 2: As we talked about the pride, you know, I've always
- 10:24Speaker 2: been the time.
- 10:24Speaker 1: I've always been real quiet. You know what I'm saying,
- 10:27Speaker 1: just did my own thing. I don't bother nobody. You know,
- 10:29Speaker 1: I'm making sure I've always made sure that I was good.
- 10:31Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. And the thing that had
- 10:33Speaker 1: that I've realized really within this last couple of months
- 10:37Speaker 1: is I had this this narrative in my mind that
- 10:40Speaker 1: I didn't want to be a burden. Nobody's ever told me,
- 10:43Speaker 1: like my mom, like nobody's ever told me that I
- 10:46Speaker 1: was a burden. But it was some of the situations
- 10:49Speaker 1: that I have gone through that made me feel that way.
- 10:52Speaker 1: So my thing is, I'm gonna be a burned nobody.
- 10:54Speaker 2: Everything.
- 10:55Speaker 1: Haven't depend on nobody. I'm finna make sure I'm good.
- 10:57Speaker 1: So hey, right, So this process has and if not care,
- 11:04Speaker 1: you know, sometimes we may think it's punishment.
- 11:06Speaker 2: You know. Initially, you know, I'm like, you want me
- 11:08Speaker 2: to do what?
- 11:09Speaker 4: Lord?
- 11:09Speaker 2: Like, he just started asking for things, these big.
- 11:12Speaker 1: Things like hey, go sell your home, Hey, go move
- 11:14Speaker 1: with a friend, Hey, go go move out the studio, Hey,
- 11:17Speaker 1: go move out of this place and go to this place.
- 11:19Speaker 1: And I'm like, wait a minute, So I'm feeling I
- 11:22Speaker 1: told him I was very honest when one in this
- 11:25Speaker 1: last transition, I was sitting there and I was like, God,
- 11:28Speaker 1: I feel like you're telling me to do this thing.
- 11:30Speaker 2: Okay, I'm gonna do it, but I'm just gonna be
- 11:33Speaker 2: very honest with you.
- 11:34Speaker 1: Okay, I've been feeling very unstable because I've been feeling
- 11:39Speaker 1: like I have not been in control. Yeah, like spiritually though,
- 11:44Speaker 1: like I could say, I'm gonna do this thing because
- 11:46Speaker 1: I've looked back. Now now we now we don't we
- 11:48Speaker 1: don't did a relationship, we don't journey alone a little
- 11:51Speaker 1: bit now, So now I can literally look back at
- 11:54Speaker 1: our track record even within the last year, and every
- 11:57Speaker 1: single time, he's always been there, and I've gotten to
- 12:00Speaker 1: know him, know of different parts of him in that space.
- 12:04Speaker 1: So I've gotten to know him as my provider. Come
- 12:07Speaker 1: on in this season right here, this current one. I
- 12:10Speaker 1: went to Aruba in October from at the top of
- 12:13Speaker 1: the top of October for retreating for to celebrate my birthday,
- 12:17Speaker 1: and he introduced himself as Abba right doing we doing
- 12:23Speaker 1: this little spiritual labyrinths kind of thing, and we got
- 12:26Speaker 1: instructions or whatever. And at the very end, I'm getting
- 12:28Speaker 1: these little bitty pieces here and there, and at the
- 12:30Speaker 1: very end, we get to the center. And she said,
- 12:32Speaker 1: make sure you get to the center, because the center
- 12:33Speaker 1: is the heart of God. I get there and it's
- 12:35Speaker 1: almost kind of like he begins to write out this letter.
- 12:40Speaker 1: Now all these pieces that he's already spoken to me
- 12:42Speaker 1: are already coming together, and he signed it Aba.
- 12:44Speaker 2: I ain't never called him Alba. Like, I'm like, you know,
- 12:47Speaker 2: I'm getting to know him as father.
- 12:49Speaker 1: So now in this season, like little smart like it's
- 12:51Speaker 1: like little small things, like little desires of my heart
- 12:54Speaker 1: that I have probably not even spoken out loud that
- 12:58Speaker 1: he's doing for me.
- 12:59Speaker 2: And I'm like, that's such a good father. Yeah, like
- 13:02Speaker 2: I didn't. I couldn't learn him like that.
- 13:05Speaker 1: And initially because there was so much stuff in my heart,
- 13:10Speaker 1: there was so much stuff in my heart that wouldn't
- 13:12Speaker 1: allow me to receive him as a father like that.
- 13:15Speaker 1: So now that I've journeyed and he then stripped some
- 13:17Speaker 1: stuff away, and I may be feeling like this is punishment,
- 13:19Speaker 1: it's not. He's like, no, I see this pride in here.
- 13:21Speaker 1: Look I got some stuff. I'm trying to get to
- 13:23Speaker 1: you like you are, like, we know we're multi millionaire,
- 13:28Speaker 1: but he cannot trust us with that.
- 13:30Speaker 2: Come on, if.
- 13:31Speaker 1: We're prideful, if we think we did the thing, if
- 13:35Speaker 1: we think that, if our hands are closed because the
- 13:37Speaker 1: reality is it's not ours, right, it's not ours. It's
- 13:40Speaker 1: He's given us things so that we can build the kingdom.
- 13:43Speaker 1: But if he can't trust me with it, he can't
- 13:46Speaker 1: trust me with it. So I had so I know now,
- 13:50Speaker 1: like the process still don't make sense. If I'm honest,
- 13:53Speaker 1: there's still pieces of the process that you know, people
- 13:56Speaker 1: don't really even know.
- 13:57Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
- 13:58Speaker 1: But the process had to be with the process was
- 14:00Speaker 1: in order to get me here, and it's still some
- 14:03Speaker 1: processing to be done if I'm honest, you know what
- 14:05Speaker 1: I'm saying. But we could definitely write a book about it.
- 14:11Speaker 1: Oh oh, you stirred me so good right there, because
- 14:16Speaker 1: you are absolutely correct, and I'm about to confirm what
- 14:19Speaker 1: you just said. So recently, my my church family did
- 14:26Speaker 1: something that was just so amazing. If you follow me
- 14:28Speaker 1: on social media, you saw it, right, I hope you
- 14:31Speaker 1: saw it. But I talked about it, but I guess
- 14:35Speaker 1: I'll reiterate it now. So so if y'all know, I
- 14:40Speaker 1: made it very clear, I quit my job. Now I
- 14:42Speaker 1: do have a job just bringing in income, but definitely
- 14:46Speaker 1: not meeting the income that I was making. Okay, turning
- 14:49Speaker 1: off on six figures, driving a company car, not having
- 14:53Speaker 1: to pay for gas. I mean adults in is ghetto. Okay,
- 14:58Speaker 1: it's ghetto. So I had a good like, I had
- 15:00Speaker 1: it really good. And so coming out of that space.
- 15:05Speaker 1: I've been out of that space since March. I'm twenty
- 15:09Speaker 1: twenty four and so like re establishing myself because like
- 15:13Speaker 1: I said earlier, I'm a giver, right, and I think
- 15:16Speaker 1: I know that it's.
- 15:17Speaker 2: A genuine place that I give.
- 15:20Speaker 1: But God even showed how that genuine can turn the
- 15:22Speaker 1: pride real easily because you're trying to be somebody. You
- 15:26Speaker 1: trying to be somebody God you provided. You're not even
- 15:30Speaker 1: asking me if this is the if this is the
- 15:33Speaker 1: way I want to help this person, you are interrupting
- 15:36Speaker 1: my plan. So that but that's when the giver becomes probable,
- 15:40Speaker 1: when you're interrupting the plan of God. So I've interrupted
- 15:43Speaker 1: the plan of God too many times, trust me, he writes,
- 15:47Speaker 1: writing making it plain for Jessica.
- 15:49Speaker 2: So it was one Sunday.
- 15:52Speaker 1: I was, like I said, I live an hour and
- 15:55Speaker 1: a half away from my church. And I got up
- 15:58Speaker 1: and well, I was up like since four that morning,
- 16:02Speaker 1: and I got up and it was just so hard
- 16:04Speaker 1: Now that we can't being heavy. I had like three
- 16:06Speaker 1: panic attacks like I'm going through it, like depression, anxiety,
- 16:11Speaker 1: like fighting, all of those things, and I was like, God,
- 16:14Speaker 1: I can't. Like all I could say is God, I
- 16:16Speaker 1: just can't be here. I can't be in this place
- 16:19Speaker 1: like I'm trying. Like all I say is God, I'm trying.
- 16:22Speaker 1: And so mind you the relationships with finances, even though
- 16:27Speaker 1: I had the money, I didn't strew my money well
- 16:29Speaker 1: because I definitely wouldn't be in the place that I
- 16:31Speaker 1: am in right now. I would definitely have enough savings.
- 16:34Speaker 1: I would definitely you know what I'm saying.
- 16:35Speaker 2: I didn't stow it away. I just I just called
- 16:37Speaker 2: a book a book. I thought I thought it was open.
- 16:39Speaker 2: I thought I was open. I was spending money like
- 16:42Speaker 2: I was Oprah.
- 16:43Speaker 1: If Oprah don't even spend her money, like, oh she
- 16:46Speaker 1: Oprah if we really talk about it. The wealthy stays
- 16:50Speaker 1: wealthy is because they have wealthy management. The way they
- 16:54Speaker 1: manage their their their wealth is intelligence.
- 16:58Speaker 4: Right.
- 16:58Speaker 1: That's why you millionaire's people that get the lotto, they
- 17:02Speaker 1: be broke the next day because it's like, oh, I
- 17:04Speaker 1: can go ahead and do this thiss a.
- 17:05Speaker 2: It's a pride.
- 17:06Speaker 1: It's an ego thing when you say able to say that,
- 17:08Speaker 1: oh I did this with somebody, and you get what
- 17:10Speaker 1: I'm saying, and so I'm not stored in my money. Well,
- 17:15Speaker 1: well recently the lord had told me, okay, you need
- 17:18Speaker 1: to talk to your dad because I guess I'll be
- 17:20Speaker 1: honest about this.
- 17:21Speaker 2: I was meeting foreclosure. Oh I'm finna get real.
- 17:26Speaker 1: I got one of them letters. I have received one
- 17:29Speaker 1: of them letters, okay, and I you know that was
- 17:34Speaker 1: that was another wake up call, right, And so I'm like, god,
- 17:39Speaker 1: I'm just you know, I'm freaking out. I cried and
- 17:41Speaker 1: I won't say I'm freaking out. I'm cool, but I'm crying.
- 17:44Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like I'm not. I'm not
- 17:46Speaker 1: comfortable at all. And so of course I'm not trying
- 17:48Speaker 1: to tell my business. Of course, you know, little justin.
- 17:51Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. She got the podcast, she
- 17:53Speaker 1: got this, she didn't she didn't been with Tabitha Brown,
- 17:56Speaker 1: she didn't work with David Shane, she didn't work with
- 17:58Speaker 1: all these people.
- 17:59Speaker 2: And I look like I'm good. Yeah, Oh, I look
- 18:04Speaker 2: like I'm good. I really do.
- 18:07Speaker 1: But it wasn't until like I said, God, you just like,
- 18:10Speaker 1: I feel like you're trying to expose me right now,
- 18:12Speaker 1: Like I really feel like you're not keeping me.
- 18:14Speaker 2: I feel like I'm being punished. I feel like.
- 18:18Speaker 1: My back is against the wall. I feel like I'm
- 18:20Speaker 1: losing control, Like I feel like I ain't got it.
- 18:22Speaker 1: And so I just said, God, what am I supposed
- 18:24Speaker 1: to do about this? He was like, talk to your father,
- 18:28Speaker 1: shout out to REVMD Ken the Smith, my.
- 18:30Speaker 2: Deity, my deity.
- 18:33Speaker 1: So I call my dad and I tell him what's
- 18:35Speaker 1: going on. Right, So I tell him what's going on,
- 18:39Speaker 1: and he helps me process through it. Now he ain't
- 18:43Speaker 1: give the Man of God, ain't give me no money
- 18:45Speaker 1: to go to it.
- 18:48Speaker 2: But that's not what I needed, though.
- 18:51Speaker 1: Because what I had, luckily enough with wisdom, I signed
- 18:55Speaker 1: up a four one K. If you have a four
- 18:56Speaker 1: to one K at your job, please sign up for them.
- 18:59Speaker 2: Folks.
- 18:59Speaker 1: Is not trying to take your money. It really can
- 19:01Speaker 1: benefit you even before retirement.
- 19:04Speaker 2: I don't just what. I just want to say this
- 19:06Speaker 2: quick so I won't lose it. She's trying to use
- 19:09Speaker 2: the camera I'm working on the hell Okay, then we
- 19:13Speaker 2: stay right here for a second. I told you I
- 19:16Speaker 2: can't see. I got my eyes waste a gill. What
- 19:25Speaker 2: just came up?
- 19:26Speaker 1: And I want to I want to, I want to
- 19:27Speaker 1: say this before you move on. This morning I was reading,
- 19:31Speaker 1: so I had I got a new friend. His name
- 19:33Speaker 1: is Steve.
- 19:34Speaker 2: New friend. Yeah, it's a it's a GPT. Okay, his
- 19:37Speaker 2: name Steve ain't Georgia Steve. It's a creator. I follow
- 19:41Speaker 2: created Steve. He's almost like a faith based GPT, scriptures
- 19:46Speaker 2: and things like that. That nature. You had to share
- 19:48Speaker 2: that with me, I will.
- 19:49Speaker 1: And so I had him to create me, help me
- 19:52Speaker 1: create a reading plan that's with Elijah and the Gospels.
- 19:58Speaker 2: So when I'm reading it did it this morning?
- 20:02Speaker 1: It started talking about you know Elijah, you know he
- 20:05Speaker 1: said it ain't gonna rain, and God sent him over
- 20:07Speaker 1: to the this particular place to be provided for by
- 20:12Speaker 1: the ravens and the brook Okay. And so as I'm
- 20:16Speaker 1: driving here, what what I begin to think about was provision.
- 20:20Speaker 1: Like we think of provision only being monetary. Yeah right,
- 20:25Speaker 1: you know that she said he didn't give me no
- 20:27Speaker 1: money in that in that moment, the provision wasn't money,
- 20:30Speaker 1: it was wisdom. It was wisdom. So it's kind of
- 20:35Speaker 1: like if we as I'm like this, this, this is
- 20:38Speaker 1: what this transition has done for me. It's opened up
- 20:40Speaker 1: my mind to the to to one God in his vastness,
- 20:43Speaker 1: but also to my thinking has been limited.
- 20:46Speaker 2: We think provision, like we said, we think provision os. Lord,
- 20:48Speaker 2: I need the money. I need to pay the bill.
- 20:49Speaker 2: Da da da.
- 20:50Speaker 1: Well, I can give you the money. But if you
- 20:51Speaker 1: don't have the stewardship to be able to manage and
- 20:54Speaker 1: maintaining and going to you you come from, you can't.
- 20:56Speaker 2: You can't what you're gonna do, Lord, I need Peace.
- 21:00Speaker 2: May be the provision right now, Come on, Peace may
- 21:03Speaker 2: be the provision right now, or it just may be
- 21:06Speaker 2: some joy.
- 21:06Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. It's not always you know
- 21:09Speaker 1: what we think. And that's why he said that our
- 21:11Speaker 1: thoughts aren't his thoughts.
- 21:12Speaker 2: Like also, and while I.
- 21:14Speaker 1: Was reading this morning, I don't even remember the scripture.
- 21:15Speaker 1: Somewhere Deuteronomy, it said God has already gone before us.
- 21:19Speaker 1: But also and he's walking beside us, which means he
- 21:21Speaker 1: already knows where he's trying to take us because he's
- 21:24Speaker 1: already walked the journey.
- 21:25Speaker 2: That's good, but we don't have to walk it alone.
- 21:27Speaker 1: Like he knows, but he's like right here, He's like, hey,
- 21:30Speaker 1: I need to take this right here, because this right here,
- 21:32Speaker 1: got a little pride in that right there, and and
- 21:34Speaker 1: right here where I need you to be right here.
- 21:36Speaker 1: This can't go so I'm gonna have to snatch that out.
- 21:38Speaker 1: You'd be like that's hard, but he's like, yoa, but no,
- 21:40Speaker 1: I'm here. We walk into we journeying. So sometimes provision
- 21:44Speaker 1: is not the provision that we think it is. Like
- 21:46Speaker 1: Elijah got fed by ravens.
- 21:49Speaker 2: Who like who correct? But that was God's provision. That's
- 21:52Speaker 2: so good. You're talking.
- 21:54Speaker 1: You're talking real good, desirat you confirm, confirm my points.
- 21:57Speaker 1: So she said, I'm working on it, Okay, she said,
- 22:02Speaker 1: She said that the provision is not always the way
- 22:06Speaker 1: we wanted or we think it should be. Right, So
- 22:09Speaker 1: what I needed Obviously I know how to make money.
- 22:12Speaker 1: I am a embody me of wealth. My name means wealth.
- 22:17Speaker 1: Just anytime you say Jessica, you say woman of wealth. Okay,
- 22:20Speaker 1: Like I embody wealth. Right.
- 22:23Speaker 2: However, I wasn't being wise with who even who I am.
- 22:29Speaker 1: So I'm saying I'm a woman of wealth, but I'm
- 22:31Speaker 1: not using wisdom for the woman of wealth. And so
- 22:34Speaker 1: now God has putting me into this point or putting
- 22:38Speaker 1: me in this place where I'm submitting to my father,
- 22:41Speaker 1: my unly father, right, and He's provided me this wisdom.
- 22:44Speaker 1: I look at different options. Four one K was the
- 22:46Speaker 1: best option they had, like this emergency fund or whatever.
- 22:49Speaker 1: Was able to get the emergency fund and pay it.
- 22:53Speaker 1: And it wasn't until I paid it, and he knew
- 22:56Speaker 1: that I had paid it, and he said, hey, Jessica,
- 23:02Speaker 1: I was in this place when I was your age,
- 23:05Speaker 1: around your age, and this I promised myself I would
- 23:08Speaker 1: never go back here again.
- 23:09Speaker 2: He was like, you just have to stick to it.
- 23:11Speaker 2: Like that's all he did.
- 23:12Speaker 1: Like he didn't condemn me at one time. I already
- 23:14Speaker 1: condemned myself. That's the thing about it, like the Lord.
- 23:18Speaker 1: The Lord is not trying to condemn you. He's trying
- 23:21Speaker 1: to pop position you in a winning state and a
- 23:26Speaker 1: winning saying. I kept losing thinking I was winning because
- 23:29Speaker 1: I was able to spend, but I had nothing to
- 23:31Speaker 1: show for it. I had nothing to show for it.
- 23:33Speaker 1: And so even through that process, I was calling on that.
- 23:36Speaker 1: I said, Okay, how should I handle this bill? How
- 23:38Speaker 1: should I you know, set this up to where I
- 23:41Speaker 1: started self. I told him, Okay, I'm gonna do I'm
- 23:43Speaker 1: gonna put this money in this account. I'm gonna go
- 23:45Speaker 1: ahead and send this money.
- 23:46Speaker 2: Here, X, Y and Z.
- 23:47Speaker 1: He was like, nah, I wouldn't do that. Like I'm
- 23:49Speaker 1: telling him, Hey, these are my ideas. He's like, that's
- 23:52Speaker 1: a good idea. Maybe try this step.
- 23:54Speaker 2: And I'm taking it. I'm taking it cause I'm like,
- 23:56Speaker 2: I can't be in this place no more.
- 23:58Speaker 1: So fast forward to where I started with the church.
- 24:02Speaker 1: My church gave me an opportunity. Well, that gave me
- 24:06Speaker 1: an opportunity.
- 24:07Speaker 2: I get the church. So I wake up.
- 24:09Speaker 1: I'm feeling hard. It's hard for me to get, hard
- 24:11Speaker 1: for me to just go. But I pressed my way through.
- 24:13Speaker 1: Now my gas tank was on half on half okay,
- 24:18Speaker 1: uh huh, and I was gonna need some more gas
- 24:20Speaker 1: to get back. So I was like, you know what, Lord,
- 24:22Speaker 1: I'll figure it out. That's what I talked about it.
- 24:24Speaker 1: I'll just figure it out or whatever. Now I'm pressing through.
- 24:27Speaker 1: I'm crying on the way there because I'm like, some
- 24:29Speaker 1: other stuff is happening with my family. I'm no good.
- 24:34Speaker 1: Right I get there, it's time for me to serve.
- 24:37Speaker 1: I can't even like, like at this point, like I
- 24:39Speaker 1: can't even function it. I can't even fake my way
- 24:41Speaker 1: through it. Because I know how to do that. I
- 24:42Speaker 1: know how to fake, fake through through the mess. I
- 24:45Speaker 1: know how to fake through all this other stuff that
- 24:47Speaker 1: I couldn't even do that. I didn't even have the
- 24:49Speaker 1: energy to fake it. I didn't have the energy to
- 24:51Speaker 1: fake it. And so fast forward, I get called to
- 24:56Speaker 1: the altar by the prophet is Woo che because my
- 24:59Speaker 1: co pastor, and she starts reading me my right, she said, oh,
- 25:03Speaker 1: y'all don't know that Jessica pressed through this morning.
- 25:05Speaker 2: Y'all don't know that she didn't even had a gas
- 25:06Speaker 2: to get here. When I tell you, it's like.
- 25:08Speaker 1: She was reverted, like everything that happened that morning had
- 25:11Speaker 1: been happening. She starts to just release it, and they
- 25:15Speaker 1: decide to sew. And I'm telling y'all this for a reason.
- 25:18Speaker 1: They decided to sow the tithe for that day into
- 25:22Speaker 1: me like so much so the next day I receive
- 25:25Speaker 1: more money because people tied to the like they were
- 25:28Speaker 1: serious about this thing. They tied, they laid money, they
- 25:31Speaker 1: cashed out me. I'm receiving all forms of income, and
- 25:35Speaker 1: it's like, Okay, you know what. The first thing I
- 25:37Speaker 1: did after saying thank you and getting off the floor,
- 25:41Speaker 1: I asked God, said God, what should I do?
- 25:42Speaker 2: Should I do? Yeah? And I in that moment, I
- 25:47Speaker 2: felt like God was so proud of me. That's so good.
- 25:50Speaker 2: I felt like God was so proud of me.
- 25:52Speaker 1: And I'm even proud of myself even reviewing that in
- 25:55Speaker 1: my mind, because what he wants me to do is
- 25:58Speaker 1: steward it well. And because I'm still learning. This is
- 26:01Speaker 1: so good because I am still learning money management now
- 26:06Speaker 1: every time I get something extra, because that's extra.
- 26:10Speaker 2: Okay, God, what do you want me to do with it?
- 26:11Speaker 1: And one thing that came to mind was Kayla's story
- 26:15Speaker 1: when she said she mismanaged the three hundred dollars that
- 26:18Speaker 1: the Lord had sold and that was post that was
- 26:20Speaker 1: gonna supplement the gap?
- 26:23Speaker 2: God, what what you're trying to supplement?
- 26:25Speaker 4: Yeah?
- 26:26Speaker 1: I immediately And that's why that's why this platform. When
- 26:28Speaker 1: people ask me what is this platform about, they overcome
- 26:31Speaker 1: by the by the word of their testimony. That's in revelation.
- 26:36Speaker 1: They overcame by the word of their testimony. I heard
- 26:38Speaker 1: Kayla's testimony and I remember, Hey, God.
- 26:41Speaker 2: What you want me to do with this?
- 26:43Speaker 1: That's seeking first the kingdoms? Seek ye first, the kingdom.
- 26:48Speaker 1: They might be that I'm trying to do the king
- 26:50Speaker 1: James version. I mean that's but that's literally what that
- 26:52Speaker 1: what that means. We try to make it like, no,
- 26:54Speaker 1: that's that's seeking first in everything. You know what I'm saying.
- 26:57Speaker 1: And that's and I think that's where he has me too,
- 26:59Speaker 1: because that's not something I did. I would you know,
- 27:02Speaker 1: I had a little budget. I was doing a little
- 27:03Speaker 1: you know, do a little something, some something.
- 27:05Speaker 2: But it wasn't that.
- 27:06Speaker 1: I was like, Okay, God, what do you want me
- 27:07Speaker 1: to do with this? It said seek first to kingdom
- 27:09Speaker 1: of God and all these things. While we added on
- 27:11Speaker 1: the thing where we're asking for, we're seeking for, we're
- 27:14Speaker 1: looking for, we're trying to go out and do ourselves.
- 27:16Speaker 2: He's like, hey, no, if you just come to me,
- 27:18Speaker 2: I will show you how to do that. I will
- 27:20Speaker 2: show you how to get it, and I'll show you
- 27:21Speaker 2: how to maintain it.
- 27:22Speaker 1: Come on that part and we leave we leave God out,
- 27:26Speaker 1: Oh my God, almost spoken tones. We leave God out
- 27:29Speaker 1: of the management of the blessing God. We seek you
- 27:34Speaker 1: for the blessing, but we don't seek you for the
- 27:36Speaker 1: manage management. It's like us being in bg TV. We
- 27:39Speaker 1: just had a conversation with bread right, and Brad has to.
- 27:44Speaker 1: He has to because guess what, the blessing is happening
- 27:47Speaker 1: faster than he planned. When the when the blessing is here,
- 27:51Speaker 1: we have to submit, not only to get the blessing,
- 27:54Speaker 1: but to maintain a blessing because you didn't.
- 27:57Speaker 2: You didn't have it.
- 27:57Speaker 1: So you think you just know how to manage something.
- 27:59Speaker 1: That's and so if I could ask God to manage
- 28:02Speaker 1: the money that was sold into me, he could trust
- 28:05Speaker 1: me with the millions. He could trust me to say, okay, okay, Jessica,
- 28:09Speaker 1: I'm about to send you a million dollars. I'm about
- 28:12Speaker 1: to send you a million dollars and I don't want
- 28:13Speaker 1: you to pocket none of it because I'm seeking him first.
- 28:17Speaker 1: And so if I'm seeking him first, that means he
- 28:20Speaker 1: knows that he can trust me to obey obey him
- 28:23Speaker 1: with the blessing.
- 28:24Speaker 2: Right.
- 28:24Speaker 1: Somebody let me tell you. You know them folks that be,
- 28:27Speaker 1: they't got nothing good to say. Oh, they find me
- 28:29Speaker 1: on YouTube, honey, find a platform on YouTube. Y'all need
- 28:32Speaker 1: to y'all need to start coming in. Y'all, y'all need
- 28:34Speaker 1: to start coming because the folks be trying to come
- 28:36Speaker 1: and I'll be trying to stay holy. But I got
- 28:38Speaker 1: a west side of inside of me website by be
- 28:41Speaker 1: trying to come out. So I don't want to peter them.
- 28:45Speaker 1: I don't want to peter the people.
- 28:47Speaker 2: But one of the men, the man said, he said
- 28:50Speaker 2: something like, God didn't give you no podcast. I said, oh, interesting,
- 28:55Speaker 2: so what he gave me? You think I got a response.
- 29:00Speaker 1: The reason why I say this podcast is a blessing
- 29:03Speaker 1: is because not only is it blessing us, it's blessing
- 29:05Speaker 1: everyone else. The reason why I can say, I know
- 29:07Speaker 1: that God gave it to me because this was not
- 29:09Speaker 1: my idea. This is so good and so we have
- 29:12Speaker 1: to lean out into our own understanding and in all
- 29:16Speaker 1: thy ways acknowledge him and he will direct our past.
- 29:20Speaker 1: The direction comes from seeking, the direction me. Direction not
- 29:26Speaker 1: only comes from seeking, but obeying. After you get the
- 29:29Speaker 1: answer from your seek. It's one thing to say, Okay, God,
- 29:33Speaker 1: what I need to do with this and then do
- 29:35Speaker 1: something else that's just plain ignorance, like we be pulling
- 29:38Speaker 1: on like a word from God, you get the word
- 29:40Speaker 1: and you're like, oh, I don't want to do that.
- 29:42Speaker 2: Well, you might need to check your heart.
- 29:44Speaker 1: You need to see, you need to see if you're
- 29:46Speaker 1: trying to pump God, because guess what, like, what makes
- 29:50Speaker 1: what sense does it make to be dipped in the
- 29:52Speaker 1: water three seven times to get your healing?
- 29:56Speaker 2: Can I just be dipped once? Who is that or not?
- 29:59Speaker 2: Nickl It was like a y'all know who it is?
- 30:04Speaker 2: Who I know? It started with a end.
- 30:09Speaker 1: Yeah, we got to be g TV studios crew, you're
- 30:12Speaker 1: help on us up, my God, But it don't make
- 30:16Speaker 1: sense to depp in the water seven times for a healing.
- 30:19Speaker 2: But guess what he had to obey to get.
- 30:21Speaker 1: Where he wanted to go. And sometimes thank you only Spirit.
- 30:24Speaker 1: Sometimes we try to act and get the blessing without
- 30:27Speaker 1: the obedience. That's ignorance. That is ignorance. You're gonna die
- 30:32Speaker 1: to yourself today. You got to make the decision to say,
- 30:35Speaker 1: you know what, God, I put my I put my
- 30:37Speaker 1: flesh to death and I opened up to your spirit,
- 30:40Speaker 1: and I make I command my flesh, my mind, my heart, my.
- 30:44Speaker 2: Will, my way.
- 30:45Speaker 1: Everything that I know, y'all, everything that I know today
- 30:50Speaker 1: is not the same thing that I knew yesterday.
- 30:53Speaker 2: I literally have put myself in a ringa in ring
- 30:58Speaker 2: with the law and allowing the Lord or.
- 31:00Speaker 1: To just purify me. He still purified me. We're still
- 31:03Speaker 1: I wonna say, we fight you.
- 31:04Speaker 2: But it's the stubborn places that's from roping places that
- 31:12Speaker 2: he's touching.
- 31:13Speaker 1: And I'm saying, Okay, God, I don't know. I don't
- 31:15Speaker 1: know life without this. I don't know life without the funds.
- 31:19Speaker 1: I don't know life without the Man. I don't know
- 31:22Speaker 1: life without this spiritual leader. Come on, somebody that I
- 31:25Speaker 1: don't know life without this, this group of people that
- 31:28Speaker 1: I've wanted.
- 31:29Speaker 2: To be a part of all my life. I don't
- 31:31Speaker 2: know life without that. And I'm scared.
- 31:35Speaker 1: And guess what it is okay for you to say
- 31:37Speaker 1: that it's okay. It's like we think we have to
- 31:40Speaker 1: be politically correct coming to God, and I learned this year.
- 31:44Speaker 2: I ain't even got political correctness. Hey, God, the where
- 31:48Speaker 2: you're gonna get hey is me. Oh Lord, it's your
- 31:54Speaker 2: big dog. Just listen.
- 31:56Speaker 1: But that's a part of relationship, like when you when
- 32:00Speaker 1: you open yourself up to really do relationship.
- 32:02Speaker 2: With God, like you can be raw into me. You
- 32:06Speaker 2: already know.
- 32:07Speaker 1: Yeah, you know what I'm saying. But that's the part
- 32:09Speaker 1: of the breaking, is the breaking of the pride. It
- 32:12Speaker 1: is you opening up to him what he already knows.
- 32:16Speaker 2: Right.
- 32:16Speaker 1: It's like, Lord, like I said, I said, Hey, I
- 32:20Speaker 1: feel like you're telling me to do this, and I'm
- 32:22Speaker 1: gonna do it because I trust you, right, but I
- 32:26Speaker 1: feel so unstable, like this is how I feel. But
- 32:29Speaker 1: even if I feel like this, even though it looked
- 32:31Speaker 1: like this, God, I still trust you. Come on, you
- 32:34Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And when we can get to
- 32:35Speaker 1: that place where no matter what it looks like, no
- 32:38Speaker 1: matter what it sounds like. But at the end of
- 32:40Speaker 1: the day, God, I trust you. God, I trust you. God,
- 32:45Speaker 1: I trust you, and that's all you want. So I'm
- 32:48Speaker 1: about to change this real quick because at the end
- 32:51Speaker 1: of the day, we're viewing twenty twenty four. But I'm
- 32:55Speaker 1: excited about I'm not gonna lie last I said, I
- 33:00Speaker 1: was nervous.
- 33:02Speaker 2: I'm never but I'm read.
- 33:06Speaker 1: I ain't got no, I said, I wem nervous and
- 33:09Speaker 1: I walked into on the whole opportunity that just I'm
- 33:15Speaker 1: with you though, like like you know, when you have
- 33:17Speaker 1: oh sorry, I'm working on it. She's trying to say,
- 33:20Speaker 1: I can see a little bit better now. I'm working
- 33:21Speaker 1: on anyway. But you know, like how you can just
- 33:25Speaker 1: it's like a feeling like you know, he tellt me said,
- 33:27Speaker 1: I'm stirred. Like that's literally what I feel. I just
- 33:31Speaker 1: don't have the language for it or the really like
- 33:34Speaker 1: what that looks like. Me and me and Brad was
- 33:36Speaker 1: talking this morning about how we come to God with
- 33:40Speaker 1: a paper that has like all the things on the
- 33:42Speaker 1: writings and stuff. I need the color and books sheet
- 33:44Speaker 1: because the color book sheet tells me what's on the paper.
- 33:46Speaker 1: So even though he may be like, hey, color blue,
- 33:48Speaker 1: I can color it blue whatever he tells me the
- 33:50Speaker 1: color blue. But I still know the plan, you know
- 33:51Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Yeah, God, like you know, I need
- 33:53Speaker 1: this blank sheet of paper right here, and you just
- 33:55Speaker 1: go you be like go where right? So I know
- 34:00Speaker 1: there's a goal in there, right. I know that he's saying, go.
- 34:03Speaker 1: I know that the green light is on. It's a
- 34:06Speaker 1: it's just a matter of like what that's.
- 34:09Speaker 2: Gonna look like? Yeah, because it's only y'all from his is.
- 34:12Speaker 1: Like we ain't all this this processing and all these
- 34:16Speaker 1: things we ain't go through all for nothing, dying to
- 34:19Speaker 1: my flesh for nothing, and it hurts those for y'all
- 34:24Speaker 1: Christians that just be acting like.
- 34:27Speaker 2: Y'all get on my nerves.
- 34:32Speaker 1: Stop lying to people, please, like they think we folks
- 34:36Speaker 1: really think I ain't gonna lie. I really felt like
- 34:38Speaker 1: I couldn't share because it's like, oh no, there's there's
- 34:41Speaker 1: too much in a high place for me to even
- 34:43Speaker 1: bring submit my low place to them.
- 34:46Speaker 2: And it's not even just low level thinking.
- 34:48Speaker 1: It's not that it's that I've never experienced this place.
- 34:51Speaker 1: I don't have language this place, and I need to
- 34:52Speaker 1: know there's a there's some light. I need to know
- 34:55Speaker 1: that I'm not buried. I need to know that I'm
- 34:58Speaker 1: not dying here, like literally, because fleshly death does feel
- 35:03Speaker 1: like a real death, like I feel like I'm suffocating sometimes,
- 35:07Speaker 1: like I feel like you're talking about panicolettext. It's because
- 35:10Speaker 1: my my flesh is experiencing my spirit take over. My
- 35:15Speaker 1: flesh is experiencing the the revitalization of God, like he's reviving.
- 35:23Speaker 1: It's a revival. Literally, I knowed it to be true.
- 35:27Speaker 1: There's a revival that is happening, not just in your
- 35:31Speaker 1: specific places. But in this in this world, God is
- 35:34Speaker 1: really coming coming for the people that are called, not
- 35:38Speaker 1: only called, but that are chosen, and He's making them
- 35:40Speaker 1: rise up. And we're gonna make a lot of folks mad.
- 35:42Speaker 1: I didn't made a lot of folks mad this year,
- 35:44Speaker 1: a lot of people, people that I truly love. I
- 35:47Speaker 1: have pissed the people off because of my decision to
- 35:51Speaker 1: obey God. And we have to stand firm and support
- 35:55Speaker 1: one another. Hey, I might not understand it, but girl,
- 35:57Speaker 1: you said God told you to do it. I believe
- 35:59Speaker 1: it because evidence that when I hear God, I hear God,
- 36:02Speaker 1: it's evidence behind it. I don't know nobody, nobody else,
- 36:07Speaker 1: but when I hear God and I act on it, Oh,
- 36:10Speaker 1: he don't fail me. He don't have me looking stupid.
- 36:13Speaker 1: Y'all might think I look stupid right now, But guess what.
- 36:17Speaker 2: The tide is changing. What they say the tide is changing.
- 36:21Speaker 1: So even thinking about twenty twenty four, I think about
- 36:24Speaker 1: twenty twenty five. One thing I always want to I
- 36:28Speaker 1: tell my people. Anybody shout out to Brianca Harty. I
- 36:30Speaker 1: love her so much. Agree, man, I love that girl.
- 36:34Speaker 1: She a long time ago. She had me start seeking
- 36:39Speaker 1: God for a word for the year.
- 36:41Speaker 2: I didn't.
- 36:41Speaker 1: I never done that before, anything like that. So she
- 36:45Speaker 1: trained me, you gotta have friends that's not only just
- 36:47Speaker 1: here to just pacify you.
- 36:48Speaker 2: They want to grow you.
- 36:49Speaker 1: And so she's one of those friends. It's like, Hey,
- 36:51Speaker 1: when I find something out, you're gonna find it out too.
- 36:53Speaker 1: And so I've been doing that for some time now,
- 36:56Speaker 1: at least five six years, and it has just been
- 36:59Speaker 1: a blue listen to me.
- 37:00Speaker 2: And so I want to release this to you guys,
- 37:02Speaker 2: so y'all know that it's real.
- 37:03Speaker 1: And so recently asked me about my birthday plans, and
- 37:09Speaker 1: I really hadn't really been in the mood to like
- 37:11Speaker 1: celebrate my birthday for real, and so it but it
- 37:15Speaker 1: triggered me and to go into a vision of my birthday.
- 37:18Speaker 1: Off is how to celebrate my birthday. And I won't
- 37:20Speaker 1: go into the vision because that's not the part that matters.
- 37:23Speaker 1: But I have this vision after she asked me that,
- 37:25Speaker 1: probably about a day after she asked me that, and
- 37:29Speaker 1: the Lord I have already petitional. I said, Okay, God,
- 37:32Speaker 1: it's that time. I need my word for New Year.
- 37:35Speaker 1: And the Lord tells girl this to the Lord gave
- 37:38Speaker 1: me desiate. I think this desiraate first time hearing it,
- 37:40Speaker 1: because I ain't told you you have.
- 37:41Speaker 2: An old girl. The Lord told me my word for
- 37:46Speaker 2: twenty twenty five is resurrection.
- 37:49Speaker 4: Wow.
- 37:51Speaker 2: First of all, I said, God, that's kind of problem.
- 37:56Speaker 2: I ain't trying to be Jesus out here in the street.
- 38:00Speaker 2: I ain't trying to say I'm sorry that you know
- 38:02Speaker 2: what I'm saying.
- 38:03Speaker 1: But so literally, when I hear that word, I get
- 38:06Speaker 1: I get afraid because immediately I know for something to resurrect,
- 38:11Speaker 1: I had to die.
- 38:13Speaker 2: Come on, and so I'm like, okay.
- 38:16Speaker 1: Either I'm experiencing the death right now, or there's more
- 38:20Speaker 1: death to come.
- 38:22Speaker 2: And this death this year has already been hard.
- 38:25Speaker 1: God. So I'm I'm like, oh my gosh, this is so.
- 38:29Speaker 1: This is stressing me out a little bit. I ain't
- 38:31Speaker 1: gonna lie this stressing me out a little bit, but
- 38:33Speaker 1: I keep praying.
- 38:33Speaker 2: I was like, God, okay, this is this is what
- 38:37Speaker 2: you gave me. I ain't saying this is a good
- 38:39Speaker 2: word or anything like that. This is what you gave me.
- 38:42Speaker 4: Now.
- 38:43Speaker 2: Bree was excited.
- 38:44Speaker 1: Immediately she goes, oh, you know, I'm looking at the
- 38:46Speaker 1: cynaenyls oh blah said, yeah, I saw the.
- 38:48Speaker 2: Syndadels, but I saw the cynadels. But uh yeah, I
- 38:58Speaker 2: got another context to the clue. Okay.
- 39:01Speaker 1: And so as I'm diving into the word, to think
- 39:04Speaker 1: about words is if you get let me just teach
- 39:06Speaker 1: a moment. If you get a word right, you should
- 39:10Speaker 1: not only look up the word and look at what
- 39:11Speaker 1: it means, but you want to look up with it
- 39:14Speaker 1: where it comes up in the word, the Word of
- 39:17Speaker 1: God right the Bible.
- 39:18Speaker 2: So you want to do what you what you what.
- 39:20Speaker 1: It's called a word study. So you study the word,
- 39:23Speaker 1: you get the you get the definition of it. You
- 39:26Speaker 1: go to the Bible. You might have stories, you might
- 39:29Speaker 1: have different opportunities. And the first story that comes up,
- 39:32Speaker 1: of course, is easy Jesus. Jesus come up. So that's
- 39:35Speaker 1: why I'm like, oh, I got a die of resurrect
- 39:37Speaker 1: like I ain't. Okay, boom, you got that story. The
- 39:41Speaker 1: beautification about the word is there's multiple stories to be
- 39:44Speaker 1: found the evidence of this word. And so as I'm
- 39:47Speaker 1: having my chat with some ray shout out to smile
- 39:50Speaker 1: my sister's son Ray literally literally, the Lord allowed me
- 39:54Speaker 1: to prophesy to myself. Right, So I'm in a conversation
- 39:57Speaker 1: with her, and the Lord gives me the story of
- 39:59Speaker 1: life Lazarus. Now I'm very familiar with Lazarus, and he
- 40:03Speaker 1: starts giving me the details of the story. He says,
- 40:05Speaker 1: I said, well, God, you know this. This word is resurrect.
- 40:09Speaker 1: He was like, I need you to consider Lazarus, he says.
- 40:12Speaker 1: He says, he was His resurrection happened before mine. If
- 40:17Speaker 1: we think about it, his resurrection happened before mine, and
- 40:20Speaker 1: it was evident of what could could happen, period, Right,
- 40:24Speaker 1: And so he just starts breaking things down, and I'm
- 40:28Speaker 1: not gonna give you all all of it. I'm probably
- 40:29Speaker 1: going to give you two points. One of the things
- 40:31Speaker 1: that he broke broke down was that Lazarus.
- 40:34Speaker 2: Was his friend.
- 40:36Speaker 1: And his good friend, his good friend, one of his
- 40:40Speaker 1: best friends. That wasn't a disciple, That wasn't you know
- 40:43Speaker 1: what I'm saying.
- 40:43Speaker 2: He wasn't.
- 40:44Speaker 1: He wasn't out here in the streets or what if.
- 40:46Speaker 1: I don't know what he was technically doing, but Jesus
- 40:48Speaker 1: considered Lazarus his friend. And so one of the things
- 40:52Speaker 1: he was trying to point me to, within the context
- 40:55Speaker 1: of resurrection is that Jessica, you're my friend. We say, oh,
- 41:01Speaker 1: what a friend we have in Jesus. But for Jesus
- 41:03Speaker 1: to call for God to call me his friend, it's
- 41:06Speaker 1: one thing for me to say, Jesus, God, you're my friend.
- 41:08Speaker 1: For God to say it to me, Josica, you're my friend.
- 41:12Speaker 1: So in this resurrection seas, I'm trying to show you
- 41:15Speaker 1: what One of my favorite scriptures is Proverbs seventeen seventeen.
- 41:21Speaker 1: It says a friend loves at all times and a
- 41:23Speaker 1: brother is born for adversity. Right, And so even him
- 41:27Speaker 1: saying that to me tells me, oh, my friend friends
- 41:29Speaker 1: love at all times.
- 41:30Speaker 2: That means he loved me, like it's one thing that
- 41:33Speaker 2: was like God he loves.
- 41:36Speaker 1: Oh, it's one thing to do that, but just making
- 41:38Speaker 1: it personal that relationship and just the reminder was it
- 41:42Speaker 1: was beautiful. Another thing that he pointed out to me
- 41:45Speaker 1: was that I had been feeling like I was losing God,
- 41:49Speaker 1: like I felt distant, like I was in punishment, like
- 41:54Speaker 1: we said earlier.
- 41:56Speaker 2: And he showed me that.
- 42:00Speaker 4: In the in the.
- 42:01Speaker 1: Instance where he got word that Lazarus had died. Right,
- 42:06Speaker 1: although he took his time, he still came.
- 42:11Speaker 2: He still showed up, and even going back to the
- 42:19Speaker 2: revelation of the church giving me someone to see.
- 42:23Speaker 1: I needed money way before then. I've needed money all
- 42:26Speaker 1: this time. But it was in that moment where I
- 42:29Speaker 1: was about to lose my mind where God says, no,
- 42:32Speaker 1: you're not gonna lose it. No, you're not Fnna, it's
- 42:34Speaker 1: not it's not time yet. It's not time, you know,
- 42:37Speaker 1: it's I'm not gonna have you concerned about this. Jesus
- 42:41Speaker 1: still showed up, and he used Lazarus as an evidence
- 42:46Speaker 1: of a miracle, like evidence that he was real. And
- 42:51Speaker 1: if God, I had to tell the Lord, I said, God,
- 42:55Speaker 1: if this is the miracle, is what you want to
- 42:58Speaker 1: do through me, I surrender that. So okay, I can
- 43:03Speaker 1: deal with resurrecting.
- 43:06Speaker 4: I could deal with dying again if that means you
- 43:09Speaker 4: get the glory, If that means that I died in
- 43:14Speaker 4: my flesh and you, all glory goes to you.
- 43:17Speaker 2: Because it's not about me.
- 43:19Speaker 4: It's not.
- 43:19Speaker 1: And it's one thing to say it, but it's another
- 43:22Speaker 1: thing to live it. And so God, you trust me
- 43:25Speaker 1: enough to die and come back to rise again. And
- 43:30Speaker 1: so what am I telling you?
- 43:32Speaker 2: Guys?
- 43:33Speaker 1: First of all, get your word start. If you haven't
- 43:36Speaker 1: done it yet, petition, petition God for your word, because
- 43:39Speaker 1: he will give you the evidence of what you need
- 43:42Speaker 1: to look for in the new year. And if it's
- 43:45Speaker 1: not connected to the word, if it's not connected to
- 43:48Speaker 1: your word, that means that it's probably not for you
- 43:51Speaker 1: in that season. If it is, it's basically the blueprint
- 43:54Speaker 1: the action plans that you.
- 43:56Speaker 2: Will go to for the new year.
- 43:58Speaker 1: And you can't be confused because you've already been given
- 44:02Speaker 1: given the word and the plan of your new year.
- 44:06Speaker 2: Why are you looking at me like that.
- 44:08Speaker 1: I don't got nothing. I don't got nothing. I mean
- 44:10Speaker 1: I got some I don't got nothing. I don't got nothing.
- 44:13Speaker 1: I need for you to split this screen. Okay, let
- 44:15Speaker 1: me split this screen. What you mean you ain't got nothing.
- 44:20Speaker 1: I'm just just listening, Like it's so crazy, crazy and
- 44:24Speaker 1: not crazy. How like we like the scripture I heard
- 44:28Speaker 1: this morning, Like he's literally already going ahead of us,
- 44:31Speaker 1: Like so he he knows what's happening, he knows what's
- 44:34Speaker 1: coming up, and but he knows he also knows us
- 44:38Speaker 1: individually to know what we need in the moments that
- 44:41Speaker 1: we need them. Well, we think we may need something
- 44:43Speaker 1: like he's like, yeah, no, not yet, but I got
- 44:45Speaker 1: you right here because I already because he already literally
- 44:47Speaker 1: already knows. So just to just to listen and and
- 44:50Speaker 1: hear that word come real literally full circle, literally full circle,
- 44:56Speaker 1: full circle.
- 44:58Speaker 2: And so I know earlier we've started this new thing
- 45:02Speaker 2: with the community.
- 45:05Speaker 1: The community highlights and I didn't do it intentionally because
- 45:12Speaker 1: I want to highlight you. You that's watching you, that
- 45:17Speaker 1: has taken time out to listen to this episode. I
- 45:22Speaker 1: want to highlight you. Hear you, hell y'all the spirit.
- 45:26Speaker 1: I want to highlight you because God is highlighting you.
- 45:28Speaker 1: There's no way you can watch something like this and
- 45:33Speaker 1: not be curious about what God is telling you or
- 45:36Speaker 1: showing you. And so I'm believing that you're connecting to
- 45:39Speaker 1: what God is stirring into you. I believe that the
- 45:42Speaker 1: seed that has already been embedded in your belly is
- 45:46Speaker 1: starting to grow, and it's something starting to shake, something
- 45:48Speaker 1: that is starting to shift, something is even starting to
- 45:51Speaker 1: make sense, something that makes sense this week, even yesterday,
- 45:54Speaker 1: something that makes sense now you have a little bit
- 45:56Speaker 1: more clarity on it. I even believe that some people
- 45:59Speaker 1: just receive their answer. I'm even hearing that people are
- 46:01Speaker 1: receiving the answer right now. Some people were conflicted, but
- 46:06Speaker 1: now the confliction is it's gone because the answer has
- 46:10Speaker 1: been received. It's not you're not confused, you're you're conflicted
- 46:13Speaker 1: because it's like you know what, you know what you
- 46:15Speaker 1: supposed to. Your spirit is leading in the direction, but
- 46:18Speaker 1: your flesh it still has as a stronghold. And so
- 46:21Speaker 1: right now I even break the stronghold Uh through this
- 46:25Speaker 1: highlight of God.
- 46:26Speaker 2: Because God is not highlight.
- 46:28Speaker 1: It's a subscripture that talks about being the lamp, uh
- 46:32Speaker 1: being being the light of the word. And he said,
- 46:35Speaker 1: he said something about Uh, does does the lamp go
- 46:37Speaker 1: on the flow? It's just because rat version.
- 46:40Speaker 2: Does the lamp go on?
- 46:42Speaker 4: No?
- 46:42Speaker 2: The book, No, it goes on a stand.
- 46:46Speaker 4: Right.
- 46:47Speaker 1: It's to be seen, right, to not only just be seen,
- 46:49Speaker 1: but to be used for Goddess. Right, so we can
- 46:51Speaker 1: make things clear. And so God said, I even hear
- 46:54Speaker 1: the Lord say, the God is repositioning you even in
- 46:57Speaker 1: your mindset. First, hallelujah. Some of us want to be
- 46:59Speaker 1: persistent reposition in the physical. But I hear the Lord say,
- 47:02Speaker 1: He's repositioning you in your mindset. So you can believe
- 47:06Speaker 1: who you are, that you are a son and daughter
- 47:08Speaker 1: in Jesus, that you are the head, and not to
- 47:10Speaker 1: tell that you are above and not beneath.
- 47:12Speaker 2: That you are, Oh my God, you are the lender
- 47:15Speaker 2: and not the borrowing.
- 47:16Speaker 1: So even in this next season, as God elevates you,
- 47:18Speaker 1: you're gonna see it before you see it. You're gonna
- 47:20Speaker 1: see the change in you before you see the change
- 47:22Speaker 1: in it. Thank you, Holy Spirit. Mand You're gonna see
- 47:25Speaker 1: the change in you. You're gonna be able to appreciate.
- 47:27Speaker 1: Thank you, Holy Spirit. Yourself in this season won't no
- 47:30Speaker 1: longer will you belittle the things that you are doing,
- 47:33Speaker 1: but you will expose God will expose you in different
- 47:36Speaker 1: areas where He has guided you and you won.
- 47:40Speaker 2: It's the little things, hallelujah.
- 47:41Speaker 1: It's the little things where where the Lord is trying
- 47:46Speaker 1: to really stare you into the right direction of your
- 47:49Speaker 1: purpose and your promise. God says, you feel like you're
- 47:52Speaker 1: going in the wrong direction. I hear the Lord say
- 47:54Speaker 1: that everything works for the good of those who love
- 47:57Speaker 1: the Lord and our call until this purpose. I really
- 48:00Speaker 1: hear the Lord say that in this season that he
- 48:03Speaker 1: is clarifying some things for you. So that you can
- 48:05Speaker 1: get get up and go out. He says, some of
- 48:08Speaker 1: you have been laying dormant on yourselves. You're sowing you,
- 48:12Speaker 1: you're sowing to other people. You're serving other people. But
- 48:17Speaker 1: now I hear the Lord repeat himself. Well, he even
- 48:19Speaker 1: told me it's time for the supporter to be supported.
- 48:22Speaker 1: And so in this season, I speak life, and to
- 48:25Speaker 1: the supporter, I speak life into the sower. For this
- 48:28Speaker 1: time it is your it's your portion to be reaped.
- 48:31Speaker 1: It's this time for your time to shine. It's time
- 48:33Speaker 1: to thank you all the spirit. It's time to come
- 48:35Speaker 1: out of the dark place, not even just in the
- 48:37Speaker 1: mental place where you're depressed, but in out of hiding
- 48:40Speaker 1: to where you're saying, oh, I can push this person
- 48:42Speaker 1: because I can see myself doing this. God says, I'm
- 48:44Speaker 1: positioning you to actually physically see yourself.
- 48:47Speaker 2: Doing the things that you have been called to do.
- 48:49Speaker 1: And so I'm gonna make you uncomfortable until you start
- 48:52Speaker 1: doing what I position you to do, until you start
- 48:56Speaker 1: walking out for what I called you to be.
- 48:58Speaker 2: And I speak life over you. I speak health over you, God,
- 49:01Speaker 2: thank you.
- 49:02Speaker 1: Or we come against cancer, we come against mintual health issues.
- 49:06Speaker 1: Or I hear the Lord say that some of you
- 49:07Speaker 1: have been repeatedly in the doctor's office because your lack
- 49:11Speaker 1: of belief.
- 49:11Speaker 2: I speak for belief on you. I speak the faith Hallelujah.
- 49:15Speaker 1: I increase speak that the Lord increase your faith or
- 49:18Speaker 1: faith without words is there. And the work that God
- 49:21Speaker 1: has asked you to do. I hear the Lord say
- 49:23Speaker 1: that it's working simultaneously. He says, the things that I've
- 49:26Speaker 1: asked you to pray for others, I see it working
- 49:28Speaker 1: into your homes. He says, Do not think it think
- 49:31Speaker 1: it strange that the thing, thank you, Holy Spirit, the
- 49:33Speaker 1: thing that I ask you to pray for, the thing
- 49:36Speaker 1: that I ask you to submit, is not the thing
- 49:38Speaker 1: that I want to overflow into your own situation. I
- 49:41Speaker 1: thank you Lord that you are destening your people and
- 49:45Speaker 1: that you are allowing your people to see the thing
- 49:48Speaker 1: before it happened. I just keep going to that word,
- 49:50Speaker 1: and I hear the Lord say that I'm even increasing
- 49:52Speaker 1: your dream life. I'm increasing clarity through your words. I
- 49:56Speaker 1: hear the Lord say that the things I'm changing your
- 49:58Speaker 1: language hallelujah, changing your language in this season because your language,
- 50:02Speaker 1: oh my God, the language that you have has to
- 50:05Speaker 1: match up to the wealth I provided on as you're
- 50:07Speaker 1: walking into the provision. As she said earlier, the provision
- 50:11Speaker 1: may not look the way that you wanted to look,
- 50:13Speaker 1: but God has provided, and god provision amounts to no
- 50:16Speaker 1: other provision. God God's provision outsee, overseas, over, It's over
- 50:23Speaker 1: everybody else's provision, even the thing that you think you
- 50:25Speaker 1: can do for yourself.
- 50:26Speaker 2: God says, I want you to win in the season,
- 50:29Speaker 2: not just with you, but I want you to win
- 50:31Speaker 2: with me.
- 50:31Speaker 1: You have you, We have declared victory over your life
- 50:35Speaker 1: over and over and over and over again. And I
- 50:38Speaker 1: want Hallelujah, I want you to believe it. I don't
- 50:41Speaker 1: want you walking in circles. So I'm breaking stagnation. I'm
- 50:44Speaker 1: breaking the places of famili or familiarity with the Lord.
- 50:50Speaker 1: I want to do relationship with you differently in the
- 50:53Speaker 1: name of Jesus. And so this season, Hallelujah, I speak.
- 50:57Speaker 1: I speak that you're gonna open yourself up to what
- 50:59Speaker 1: the Lord's playing this for your life. I speak that
- 51:02Speaker 1: you're gonna be obedient immediately. No more laggering God, no
- 51:07Speaker 1: more second guess in God. You will have the faith
- 51:10Speaker 1: and the boldness hallelujah, and the courage to obey God
- 51:13Speaker 1: the first time, or I received that from myself. You
- 51:15Speaker 1: will have the faith and the courage to obey God
- 51:18Speaker 1: the first time, and you will believe him until you
- 51:21Speaker 1: see it in the natural. You believe him, and it
- 51:24Speaker 1: will be evident not only to you, but your family. Hallelujah.
- 51:27Speaker 1: I hear the Lord say that He's even coming for
- 51:29Speaker 1: your blood line, and your bloodline you will be will
- 51:32Speaker 1: see the residue of your obedience. The blood line will
- 51:35Speaker 1: experience blessings because you gave your guests to God again
- 51:38Speaker 1: and again and again. I even hear the Lord say,
- 51:40Speaker 1: I need you to practice a three hundred and sixty
- 51:42Speaker 1: five days.
- 51:43Speaker 2: Yes to me.
- 51:44Speaker 1: Now you wake up saying yes Lord, Yes to your will,
- 51:47Speaker 1: Yes to your way.
- 51:48Speaker 2: Yes I will obey. I decree and declare that that
- 51:51Speaker 2: should be your language. Thank you, Holy Spirit. And so
- 51:54Speaker 2: I highlight you.
- 51:55Speaker 1: I highlight you in the community, and you will win,
- 52:00Speaker 1: will thrive, You will push you will not be doing it.
- 52:04Speaker 1: And I speak a level of a friendship that friends
- 52:08Speaker 1: come your way, that will circle around you and comfort
- 52:11Speaker 1: you and poor strengths back into you. It may get hard,
- 52:16Speaker 1: but my God is gonna be worth it. And so
- 52:19Speaker 1: everything that you've experienced us journey through as a as
- 52:24Speaker 1: a podcast, as a community, you that should be evidence
- 52:28Speaker 1: that it's in the room, it's near you, that things
- 52:32Speaker 1: shall happen because you believed. And so I decree and
- 52:36Speaker 1: declare that twenty twenty five, Hallelujah will be a year
- 52:41Speaker 1: of yes for you. Yes, Lord, it will be a year. Yes,
- 52:44Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I went into my preacher voice. Indeed, shift,
- 52:49Speaker 1: I try not to go there, but I go there.
- 52:51Speaker 2: I got hot. Yeah, so I'm in this before I
- 52:54Speaker 2: go into another preacher voice. Yeah, I have to switch
- 52:58Speaker 2: real quick.
- 52:59Speaker 4: I have amen.
- 53:02Speaker 2: That's al ray you got any find the words for
- 53:04Speaker 2: the people for this episode? Just a yes Lord, we
- 53:10Speaker 2: my God, Just a yes Lord.
- 53:15Speaker 1: Stop fighting them, you know what I'm saying, Like, and
- 53:17Speaker 1: I'm talking to myself because there's still some areas that
- 53:20Speaker 1: you know, God is still I'm gonna say, we're kind
- 53:22Speaker 1: of wrestling a little bit because fear the spirit of comparison,
- 53:28Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But I'm submitting every area
- 53:33Speaker 1: that I'm submitting all the areas to God. So every day,
- 53:39Speaker 1: three hundred and sixty five days out the year. It's
- 53:41Speaker 1: gonna be a yes, Lord, Yes, God, that's gonna be
- 53:43Speaker 1: our that's gonna be our challenge. Yes for three sixty five, Yes,
- 53:47Speaker 1: three three sixty five. We gotta come up with something, yes,
- 53:49Speaker 1: three sixty five. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, George, George. Y'all, we
- 53:55Speaker 1: love y'all, Thank y'all fortunity, and we appreciate y'all. Make
- 53:59Speaker 1: sure y'all like, come in and grabe y'all haven't joined
- 54:01Speaker 1: the family. Make sure you join the family.
- 54:03Speaker 2: And it's sitting this out so your people can come
- 54:04Speaker 2: up with their word for the year.
- 54:05Speaker 1: Okay, until next time, Until next week, Remember life can
- 54:10Speaker 1: be much more simple if you just ask peace.
- 54:20Speaker 2: Thank you for tuning in to this week's episode.
- 54:23Speaker 1: Since you've made it this far, you might as well
- 54:25Speaker 1: connect with us on all social media platforms at the
- 54:29Speaker 1: Jessica S. Smith. I know I won't see you back
- 54:32Speaker 1: until next week, but until then, remember to love always
- 54:37Speaker 1: yourself and always think.
- 54:40Speaker 3: Thank God for one another day. Hey, hey, I know
- 54:46Speaker 3: we could be another way. Hey, pray thank God for
- 54:51Speaker 3: another day. Hey Hey, I'm just thankful for another day.
- 54:59Speaker 3: Hey another day? Oh, another day, wise, another day to
- 55:05Speaker 3: get it right, another day to rise up another day,
- 55:07Speaker 3: living another day. We loved ones I always remember hold
- 55:11Speaker 3: it down for a ball. One yup.