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my bros · JLJ This Morning

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Speaker 1: Day is my younger brother Jr's birthday. He's to the
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Speaker 1: after watching he's to the right, I think of me,
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Speaker 1: left of me, the right of you. However, he's the
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Speaker 1: lighter skin one, taller one on we want to use
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Speaker 1: uh back just tak taking back in the think the
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Speaker 1: nineties to took this picture in my house. Actually yeah, hady,
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Speaker 1: late nineties because it's my room. That's my room. I
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Speaker 1: wasn't living here yet. It's his birthday today. Let me
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Speaker 1: say how old he is, that's up to him, but
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Speaker 1: it's his he's three years. They're gonna be, but it's
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Speaker 1: his birthday to day and his Sames Jr. And hey,
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Speaker 1: birthday to him. He is getting a lesson on life
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Speaker 1: these last this last year or so with job change
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Speaker 1: and health issue and my mom and I and the
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Speaker 1: whole thing was stuff. He's doing a lot of stuff,
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Speaker 1: so it's gad points he's learning about He's learning some
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Speaker 1: stuff about life right now. And I and I just
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Speaker 1: and it's been and he and I've gotten closer the
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Speaker 1: last few years because of what we're going on. The
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Speaker 1: person on the darker skime of the shorter one, the
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Speaker 1: amazing smile my brother Max so it's also the anniversary
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Speaker 1: of his death ten years ago. I got that phone
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Speaker 1: call that he had died. He was driving and putting
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Speaker 1: out a heart attack while driving. But here's the thing,
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Speaker 1: that's that's why God is wonderful on some level, right
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Speaker 1: I wish he wasn't dead. Obviously, I missed some every
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Speaker 1: single day of my life, and I can start crying.
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Speaker 1: I'm trying. I'm trying not to try not to get
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Speaker 1: through that right to I want to get through this
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Speaker 1: and talk to you guys. He was here. He was
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Speaker 1: on a side street. Nobody was in front, nobody was behind.
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Speaker 1: It was it was quiet, and the car just kind
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Speaker 1: of rolled off to the side, didn't hit anything, and
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Speaker 1: he didn't hit anything. And so that's why I say
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Speaker 1: angels were watching him as he was leaving us. His
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Speaker 1: funeral was standing him only I spoke at it. He
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Speaker 1: was one of the kind Max is somebody who is
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Speaker 1: my big brother, you know. It was shorter in stature.
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Speaker 1: He was like the personality. Plus he made everybody feel welcome,
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Speaker 1: everybody feel loved, everybody feel happy. We were there times
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Speaker 1: we walk we'd see each other and were like weld
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Speaker 1: coming to where he worked, or he's come up to
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Speaker 1: the ouse or whatever. We would just start laughing, was laughing,
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Speaker 1: oh yeah, and just and just give each other big hugs.
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Speaker 1: We would We've had we had serious talks. We had
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Speaker 1: a falling out for will to you, as brothers do.
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Speaker 1: We had to falling out for a minute and put
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Speaker 1: it back together and both my brothers at one point
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Speaker 1: and for various reasons, and we all come back together.
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Speaker 1: He was just somebody who I was like, just I
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Speaker 1: feel like one of those bright lights that was distinguished
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Speaker 1: too early. And so I think about these two because
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Speaker 1: I remember so the guys who don't know me from before,
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Speaker 1: who met me during the pandemic, couldn't know the story
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Speaker 1: I was at after Best TV. I was his last text.
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Speaker 1: He had asked me what was going on and we're
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Speaker 1: going try and get together. Like he was like, Hey,
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Speaker 1: what's going on? Blah blah, and we'll get together. And
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Speaker 1: I answered back, but he didn't answer me back. I
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Speaker 1: was like, why is he not answering me back? Meanwhile,
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Speaker 1: it was my brother's birthday, so and it all fell
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Speaker 1: on a Sunday, so I had to go to at
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Speaker 1: the TV and do my soap shows that particular day.
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Speaker 1: I did all four I did because I did that.
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Speaker 1: I guessed it on on days. I did GH because
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Speaker 1: I normally did. I guessed it on Y and R,
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Speaker 1: and I did BALD I can normally do. And it
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Speaker 1: was after BALD when I was leaving this is out
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Speaker 1: what And at first C was out in Burbank North
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Speaker 1: Hollywood area, and so back then at that time was
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Speaker 1: I was. I. I was walking out, and I was
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Speaker 1: gonna walk down to the train station, which was like
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Speaker 1: a mile a half mile down, take a train to
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Speaker 1: the city. It was just easier and faster that way.
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Speaker 1: Do it that way. I was thinned back then, so
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Speaker 1: I could do that. No no knee issues like I
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Speaker 1: have now. I went out, I went. I got a
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Speaker 1: phone call. As I was, I said, by everybody, I'm
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Speaker 1: walking outside, get a phone call from number I didn't recognize.
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Speaker 1: I pick it up and I was told and I
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Speaker 1: felt part outside. I mean, so it was dark, but
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Speaker 1: it was there was night time and I was there
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Speaker 1: was like eight o'clock at night, and I was, I
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Speaker 1: was going around the corner to catch my breath because
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Speaker 1: I couldn't catch my breath. It was such a shock
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Speaker 1: because he wasn't sickly. You good to kind of tell
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Speaker 1: he was a if you're watching, used to work out
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Speaker 1: and he's a buff guy, bodybuilder whatever, and just it
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Speaker 1: was just such it was such a shock, as you guys,
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Speaker 1: anybody who's had a sudden death nose, it's just the
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Speaker 1: wind is literally knocked out of your your sails. And
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Speaker 1: so I was like, okay, well then I'm going to
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Speaker 1: I pulled myself. I couldn't go anythore. I to pull
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Speaker 1: myself together. I couldn't go. Uh, I couldn't go. I
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Speaker 1: couldn't go any further. Then I had to call my mother,
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Speaker 1: and so then I remember telling her we were falling
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Speaker 1: a part of the phone. You know. It was just
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Speaker 1: it was a it was a mess. So I saw, I,
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Speaker 1: I'm coming home and I have a present for j
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Speaker 1: Hard because it's his birthday. I'm like, what, I got
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Speaker 1: to tell him that Max is dead. I'm like, here, hey, birthday.
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Speaker 1: I remember, I remember I did this. I remember. I
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Speaker 1: can't remember now it's been ten years ago. I remember
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Speaker 1: telling because I came home from work and I come
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Speaker 1: to the front door and and and Jerry say, how
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Speaker 1: do you go? How to go today? Blah blah, and
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Speaker 1: tell them and then I think I left the presence
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Speaker 1: sitting out. I don't remember. Is that funny? I remember,
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Speaker 1: I remember everything else, but I don't remember that part.
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Speaker 1: I know all these years I used to remember that.
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Speaker 1: I don't remember that. I don't remember I did. I know.
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Speaker 1: I still gave him the present, but I couldn't. It
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Speaker 1: was just like it just felt like this is fucked.
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Speaker 1: He died on his birthday. It's like that's not fun. Uh.
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Speaker 1: So I don't remember got it, don't remember, so I
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Speaker 1: just I love it, but I told him so. It
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Speaker 1: just it's I have a couple of the brothers come,
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Speaker 1: all of the ones out there out there, but this
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Speaker 1: was just particularly. These two are forever linked for me
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Speaker 1: just because of that eight Uh. And you know about
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Speaker 1: birth and about death actually, and both of these brothers
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Speaker 1: are the artists. Are so entrenched in my life with
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Speaker 1: memories growing up and memories as adults. I have a
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Speaker 1: lot of members are back. So oh my god. I
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Speaker 1: mean we had so many adventures. Uh. He was a
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Speaker 1: godfreing man, but we had fun at the same time.
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Speaker 1: He was he was he was he was prudist, he
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Speaker 1: was very just kind of like you know whatever. I
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Speaker 1: was actually the crazy one, you're probably not surprised. And
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Speaker 1: we had a lot like guess we had. I mean,
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Speaker 1: I just I'm sure to just think about all these
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Speaker 1: things are flooding to me right now. I wish I
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Speaker 1: could just tell you everything that we had a book.
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Speaker 1: One day I'll write it. But one thing is I'll
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Speaker 1: tell you he used to be a FedEx driver, so
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Speaker 1: he did the whole West Hollywood, Beverly Hills there. Say
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Speaker 1: everybody new Max. When I was come to visit, it
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Speaker 1: was like he was a Jameson Junior of the South,
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Speaker 1: meaning the South of l A. He convinsed me and
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Speaker 1: know the he was, and he was I was. He
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Speaker 1: was a Max of the No, I was a Max
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Speaker 1: of the North. It was that was our whole. I
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Speaker 1: liked being his little, his baby brother. I went out
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Speaker 1: with him. We there had to wait in line nowhere.
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Speaker 1: Everybody was happy to see him. We always had a
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Speaker 1: good time wherever he went. When I came back to LA,
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Speaker 1: it was so much fun. He helped me reconnect. He's
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Speaker 1: one of people help me reconnect with La. Uh, there's
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Speaker 1: a lot of place I didn't I didn't know La.
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Speaker 1: I mean, I've been gone for twenty two years. A
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Speaker 1: lot of places I just didn't know other than from
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Speaker 1: visits here and there. Like I had a few ways
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Speaker 1: I liked, but it's like what else is going on here?
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Speaker 1: I was just here now for my mom because I
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Speaker 1: think you'd be a great caigurer for her here. Oh
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Speaker 1: my god, he'd be wonderful. Thanks. She would agree. Me
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Speaker 1: and j are doing our best, obviously, But I said,
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Speaker 1: I just think his demeanor just it's just it's so
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Speaker 1: suited for that. He was very caring, giving person we had.
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Speaker 1: I want to go shout out to Tarung, the restaurant
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Speaker 1: that is our place that we used to go to
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Speaker 1: all time in Hollywood. I'm Wilton and Holly Bouleward. They're
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Speaker 1: still there cast only the food is so good. I
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Speaker 1: need to go there. I need to go there soon.
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Speaker 1: And uh when I come back, I want to trips
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Speaker 1: when I come back to my trip. That's all I do.
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Speaker 1: I need to go to run and uh. And we
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Speaker 1: used to go there late at night and it was
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Speaker 1: oh sorry. My niece text me, I was so there
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Speaker 1: late at night, out of time food. My sister Samantha,
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Speaker 1: we have the best time. Oh my god, the food's
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Speaker 1: so good there. It's still there. It's still there. It's
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Speaker 1: so good. But he used to go open from five
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Speaker 1: to evening at five in the morning. That's how I
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Speaker 1: used to That's how it used to was back in
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Speaker 1: the day. But he did he made good gumbo. He
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Speaker 1: had these gumbo things. And I don't make gumbo too,
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Speaker 1: but he made good gumbo. That was good. Also. Yeah,
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Speaker 1: I mean, I just I just a lot of things
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Speaker 1: are flying to their memory. And my brother Jr. I
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Speaker 1: laughed about him, go back to him. We were just talking,
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Speaker 1: we say about Jaws, about sharks, and I was such
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Speaker 1: a dick as a kid with him because he's my brother.
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Speaker 1: So things we have this this rubber shark as a
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Speaker 1: toy or whatever we said. I used to just terrorize
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Speaker 1: in the bapt up with it, just like he was
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Speaker 1: so scared of sharks, so like why I do that?
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Speaker 1: But then he would terrorize me this the next thing,
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Speaker 1: you both left hand and we just next to each
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Speaker 1: other at the table and he's just like staring at me,
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Speaker 1: trying to breathe on me all this stuff, and I
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Speaker 1: was like, stop breathing on me all like all that stuff.
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Speaker 1: We would go to my Girlther's house as a kid
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Speaker 1: and play with my cousins at the time who were
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Speaker 1: on the same age. So a lot of stuff is
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Speaker 1: coming up for me as I'm sitting here talking to
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Speaker 1: you at home. But on them both, I said, this
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Speaker 1: is ten year anniversary. Can't believe that the Max is
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Speaker 1: gone j R. And I are still here and we're
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Speaker 1: still kicking, and we are kicking, trust me. And I'm
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Speaker 1: just I'm smiling a little more today, like okay, I like,
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Speaker 1: I've been very fortunate to have both of them, so
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Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna smile them more today. So just
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Speaker 1: wish him both. Wish him wi J. How your birthday
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Speaker 1: which Max ad just season heaven. I have a good time,
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Speaker 1: I'm sure. And I made it through the video. My god,
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Speaker 1: I made that. I almost I almost was gonna make
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Speaker 1: it my man, through the video. That's all I wanted
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Speaker 1: to say this morning. And uh, I'm very fortunately I've
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Speaker 1: had both of them. Everyone, it's jail j this morning.
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Speaker 1: I'll touch you next time.