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Support the schools. Pay the teachers more. · An ASMR Practice

• 0:00
  Speaker 1: Oh okay Benny said stop Benny said stop we're stopping
• 0:07
  Speaker 1: we're stopping we're stopping we're pausing not stopping you.
• 0:14
  Speaker 2: Couldn't stop me if you tried.
• 0:17
  Speaker 1: But you you probably could that's the unfortunate reality is
• 0:20
  Speaker 1: like I'm pretty stoppable I'm pretty stoppable and like people
• 0:24
  Speaker 1: want me to be like unstoppable pretty bad there's a
• 0:29
  Speaker 1: couple of individuals who want me to be pretty stoppable
• 0:33
  Speaker 1: and uh I don't know most people most people I
• 0:38
  Speaker 1: think are pretty alright I suppose um but yeah we went.
• 0:50
  Speaker 3: Oh We went to the French Quarter. Could we potentially.
• 1:06
  Speaker 2: Okay. Alright. The dogs do not want to walk.
• 1:09
  Speaker 1: The dogs are saying it's bedtime. And I'm just like
• 1:12
  Speaker 1: so sick of this. Ultimately it doesn't matter.
• 1:16
  Speaker 2: I mean I can walk on my own. They're like
• 1:20
  Speaker 2: leading me back home. Always. He's like I got to
• 1:24
  Speaker 2: go with my piss out. Time to go back home. Okay.
• 1:35
  Speaker 1: I think I struggle with people who require insistence. And
• 1:48
  Speaker 1: this makes sense because I'm not somebody, I don't think.
• 1:54
  Speaker 2: I don't think. that requires a whole lot of insistence.
• 2:00
  Speaker 1: And I think just, like, my lesson from going out
• 2:04
  Speaker 1: on the town, downtown, I think my lesson that I'm
• 2:12
  Speaker 1: learning is, like, like, I'm pretty content. I'm literally pretty content.
• 2:22
  Speaker 4: And....
• 2:32
  Speaker 2: There's a voice.
• 2:35
  Speaker 1: On my shoulder, perhaps. It doesn't feel like my own voice.
• 2:41
  Speaker 1: There's a voice speaking to me that's like.
• 2:46
  Speaker 3: There's a cat.
• 2:48
  Speaker 2: Benny, I don't know that you can be.
• 2:49
  Speaker 1: Trusted with the cat, but the cat is looking at me. Okay,
• 2:58
  Speaker 1: I miss my cat. Okay, I literally miss my cat.
• 3:06
  Speaker 1: There's a voice that doesn't sound like mine that's saying
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  Speaker 1: all sorts of things that don't feel true.
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  Speaker 2: I really want to pet this cat. All right, Benny,
• 3:24
  Speaker 2: let's go inside since you want to go inside so
• 3:26
  Speaker 2: freaking bad. It's good. It's good. It's good to be alone.
• 3:47
  Speaker 4: It literally is.
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  Speaker 5: In many ways, it's probably better. That's the voice I'm hearing.
• 4:04
  Speaker 1: See, I would love to sit on the porch, but
• 4:06
  Speaker 1: there's a machine making a lot of noise.
• 4:11
  Speaker 2: The whirring. I wonder if this.
• 4:13
  Speaker 5: Cat will let me.
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  Speaker 1: Hang out with it.
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  Speaker 2: I think it's into me.
• 4:20
  Speaker 1: Cats usually love me. Dogs, they just want to piss
• 4:25
  Speaker 1: and they want to go home. Let's see a kitten.
• 4:30
  Speaker 2: Oh, running away. Running away.
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  Speaker 4: Under the jeep.
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  Speaker 2: I don't get it. Hey, come here. You're not my
• 4:46
  Speaker 2: cat though.
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  Speaker 3: You're just a loaf in distance.
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  Speaker 4: You know, someone told me, it's always about fear with you.
• 5:23
  Speaker 2: It's always about fear with you.
• 5:25
  Speaker 1: And so this is looping in my head lately. It's
• 5:28
  Speaker 1: always about fear with you. And yeah, I think I probably.
• 5:33
  Speaker 2: See that. Or I assume that in other people. wow
• 5:45
  Speaker 2: you know.
• 5:46
  Speaker 1: There might be a hurricane coming there may or may
• 5:49
  Speaker 1: not be a hurricane.
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  Speaker 2: Coming we'll freaking see i'm.
• 5:55
  Speaker 1: Not super worried about it the weather lies all the
• 6:04
  Speaker 1: time like and also like rain is literally good has
• 6:10
  Speaker 1: anybody ever like conceived of this It's like my number
• 6:16
  Speaker 1: one pet peeve in college. Like all the city kids,
• 6:19
  Speaker 1: all the city kids is like, oh, it's raining. I
• 6:21
  Speaker 1: have to be depressed now.
• 6:23
  Speaker 2: Like what? Are you literally kidding?
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  Speaker 1: I mean, there is an amount of rain that's too
• 6:30
  Speaker 1: much rain for sure. But like a rain jacket, boots.
• 6:39
  Speaker 1: It's just, it's cute. I suppose in a way it's
• 6:42
  Speaker 1: really not. It really pissed me off in college a lot.
• 6:46
  Speaker 1: You know, one of my favorite quotes of all time is,
• 6:50
  Speaker 1: no such thing as bad weather, only improper attire. And
• 6:59
  Speaker 1: even that, and then another quote, I'm pretty sure I
• 7:01
  Speaker 1: came up with this.
• 7:03
  Speaker 2: Maybe not. Who's to say?
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  Speaker 5: What?
• 7:08
  Speaker 2: They have a doggy bag thing here.
• 7:09
  Speaker 1: That's so funny. The other day I was like, oh boy,
• 7:13
  Speaker 1: what if my dog poops? I forgot the bag. I
• 7:17
  Speaker 1: forgot the bag.
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  Speaker 2: I was.
• 7:23
  Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure I got pushed by a spirit. I'm
• 7:26
  Speaker 1: pretty sure I got pushed by a spirit because.
• 7:28
  Speaker 2: I was walking. There was this one time.
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  Speaker 1: I'm usually very good about bringing the poop bags, but
• 7:34
  Speaker 1: sometimes I run out and I forget to fill it
• 7:36
  Speaker 1: for the next day. And I was walking and I
• 7:42
  Speaker 1: was having the time of my life and.
• 7:46
  Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure there was one time that I didn't
• 7:49
  Speaker 1: have the poop bag and it was a ditch or
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  Speaker 1: like a gutter or I guess not a gutter, a ditch.
• 7:57
  Speaker 1: And there was, you know, my dog pooped in the
• 8:00
  Speaker 1: middle of the freaking ditch and I didn't have a bag.
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  Speaker 1: And I told myself, I was like, I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: come back for the poop.
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  Speaker 2: And I tried. I did try.
• 8:11
  Speaker 1: I came and I had my flashlight. I was always
• 8:14
  Speaker 1: walking her at night. she's black as night bro she's
• 8:19
  Speaker 1: black she's just literally black it's black outside i don't
• 8:22
  Speaker 1: really have a headlamp because i think i just kind
• 8:25
  Speaker 1: of like being in the dark lady gaga has a
• 8:28
  Speaker 1: song about it called dance in the dark listen to
• 8:33
  Speaker 1: it give it a listen guys lady gaga might be
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  Speaker 1: my spiritual animal.
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  Speaker 2: And um I'm so proud of that name. That name...
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  Speaker 2: I don't know. That name.
• 8:57
  Speaker 2: Came to me. I researched it actually quite heavily. I
• 9:03
  Speaker 2: had a plethora of inspirations. And, uh.
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  Speaker 1: And, uh... I was like, yeah, this is the name.
• 9:17
  Speaker 1: This is the name. Anyways, what was I saying? Okay,
• 9:20
  Speaker 1: so I went back. I tried to find the poop.
• 9:22
  Speaker 1: I couldn't find it. Guess I didn't look hard enough. And, uh, later,
• 9:28
  Speaker 1: I was walking by the ditch. And don't get me wrong,
• 9:30
  Speaker 1: I was on my phone. I was probably doing way
• 9:32
  Speaker 1: too much all at once. And, uh, in my imagination
• 9:42
  Speaker 1: at the very least, I was pushed by a spirit
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  Speaker 1: into the thing, the ditch, where I left the shit,
• 9:49
  Speaker 1: like precisely where I left the shit, and ultimately I
• 9:55
  Speaker 1: don't think the shit was still there, and I sort
• 10:00
  Speaker 1: of just laid in the ditch as if it was
• 10:03
  Speaker 1: a coffin for a moment and I felt like a
• 10:07
  Speaker 1: what do you call this a mummy I don't think
• 10:14
  Speaker 1: mummy is the right word like a thingy in a
• 10:18
  Speaker 1: coffin and like a thingy in the coffin but I
• 10:23
  Speaker 1: felt beautiful honestly I felt like freaking Ashley Schwan and
• 10:27
  Speaker 1: y'all don't even know who that is I felt like
• 10:32
  Speaker 1: Ashley Schwan in one of Tana's vlogs where like Tana
• 10:37
  Speaker 1: walks in and Ashley Schwan is like she's like sleeping
• 10:41
  Speaker 1: but she has like she's just like looking beautiful you
• 10:45
  Speaker 1: know it's pretty weird like when my dad died I huh.
• 10:51
  Speaker 2: Actually, no, I didn't then.
• 10:53
  Speaker 1: I chose not to look at my dad when he
• 10:58
  Speaker 1: was dead, like at the visitation.
• 10:59
  Speaker 2: I chose not to.
• 11:04
  Speaker 1: And so the one time I actually did see someone
• 11:06
  Speaker 1: at the visitation was like my partner's.
• 11:12
  Speaker 2: Friend.
• 11:15
  Speaker 1: And I just remember thinking, this dude's.
• 11:16
  Speaker 2: Wearing a lot of makeup right now.
• 11:20
  Speaker 1: Which I understand I mean I know a little bit
• 11:22
  Speaker 1: about the whole process and yeah they try to make
• 11:25
  Speaker 1: you look a little prettier on your deathbed but ultimately
• 11:28
  Speaker 1: I was like where's the eyeliner where's the eyeliner like
• 11:35
  Speaker 1: if you're gonna do all this foundation like it just
• 11:40
  Speaker 1: looked a little weird and I'm not trying to be
• 11:41
  Speaker 1: insensitive I'm really not and then part of me was
• 11:45
  Speaker 1: I think kind of disturbed because I.
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  Speaker 2: Was like What?
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  Speaker 3: Why?
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  Speaker 1: Why? I think maybe death would be, like, less confusing
• 12:01
  Speaker 1: if we could, like, actually just see the corpse. And also,
• 12:04
  Speaker 1: do we need to be looking at the corpse? I mean,
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  Speaker 1: I saw my dad's corpse when it was, like, just
• 12:09
  Speaker 1: a corpse with no makeup.
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  Speaker 2: Just a corpse with no makeup. I saw it. Pretty haunting.
• 12:16
  Speaker 2: Pretty haunting, not gonna lie.
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  Speaker 1: I actually have a picture of him that's like where
• 12:20
  Speaker 1: he was like asleep on the plane back from New
• 12:22
  Speaker 1: York City the first time I visited. And like that
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  Speaker 1: image is actually quite similar to the image I also
• 12:31
  Speaker 1: have stored of his corpse. But the corpse was a
• 12:34
  Speaker 1: little worse. It was a little more like purple, you know.
• 12:39
  Speaker 1: So purple is kind of scary in that way. I'm
• 12:42
  Speaker 1: making peace with the color purple. I said that recently.
• 12:45
  Speaker 1: I don't know to who or where. I said that recently,
• 12:50
  Speaker 1: and I am making peace with the color purple.
• 12:54
  Speaker 2: And also.
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  Speaker 4: Purple's kind of.
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  Speaker 3: It's a little spooky.
• 13:02
  Speaker 1: Maybe this is nothing new. It's probably not.
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  Speaker 2: I don't think... I don't... I don't know what to say.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know why everything needs to be new to
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  Speaker 2: be good. And also....
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  Speaker 4: Learning.
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  Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, learning. Good.
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  Speaker 1: Yay.
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  Speaker 2: Big learning guy here. Support the schools. That's all. Bye-bye.