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Selfology – Becoming A Scholar of You · Deeply Well with Devi Brown

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Speaker 1: Mm from grandmothers who whispered in their baby girl in
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Speaker 1: two fathers on dimly lit street corners, instructing young soldiers
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Speaker 1: to always keep their eyes open. You be queen, you
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Speaker 1: were fired. You will pass through centuries on the hands
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Speaker 1: of your daughters. They called you wisdom. Proverbs on the
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Speaker 1: backs of diamond eyed school children who growing into hymnals
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Speaker 1: recited by amethyst holding urban philosophers who recited neighborhood commandments
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Speaker 1: out of the windows of restored Alchemedo cheriots. To keep
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Speaker 1: the warmth of their blood, be wise, be smart, being black,
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Speaker 1: Opal Brown courts, bloodstone and prayer. Be every form of
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Speaker 1: Jim se King told, scribe, scribe, told son, son, told wife,
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Speaker 1: wife told her daughter, and daughter told the as this is,
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Speaker 1: And the innsts has told me that you would come
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Speaker 1: to give wisdom. Thousands They said you would come. Dropping Jim,
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Speaker 1: Dropping Jim. Hey, welcome back another episode of the Dropping
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Speaker 1: Jim's Podcasts. We're in episode nineteen today. I'm your host,
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Speaker 1: Deevie Brown, and it has been a while. I know
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Speaker 1: y'all got questions. I have some answers for you, So
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Speaker 1: we're really going to explore so much in this episode
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Speaker 1: We're gonna talk about all that's been going on throughout
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Speaker 1: the pandemic, what I've been up to, some really big
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Speaker 1: epiphanies that I've had in this time, and I really
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Speaker 1: want to touch on our collective consciousness. So what we
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Speaker 1: are witnessing in the world, how we're experiencing it. We're
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Speaker 1: gonna unpack all that good stuff this episode. But I
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Speaker 1: would be remiss if I didn't start off by saying
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Speaker 1: thank you God. Number one, thank you God for the
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Speaker 1: gifts of our lives and even for the gifts of
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Speaker 1: the pandemic and the gifts of this really challenging moment
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Speaker 1: in time. But also thank you God for Joe Biden
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Speaker 1: and Kamala Harris. They are officially our president and vice
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Speaker 1: president elect, and my god, you know, when I thought
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Speaker 1: as this election cycle was happening, I mean, everything about
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Speaker 1: the world has been so strange, So that piece of
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Speaker 1: the puzzle was really you know, we're all trying to
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Speaker 1: wrap our heads around what's going to happen in our
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Speaker 1: best case scenarios and the worst case scenarios. And I
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Speaker 1: didn't know how it was going to feel either way,
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Speaker 1: because we're still also in the midst of being embedded
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Speaker 1: in this pandemic in the coronavirus COVID nineteen. You know,
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Speaker 1: there's so many things, so many things happening with our economy,
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Speaker 1: so much warring happening within ourselves and with each other.
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Speaker 1: You know, I was like, if we win, what's gonna happen.
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Speaker 1: If we lose, what's gonna happen. Um. But it felt
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Speaker 1: like for the first time in a really long time,
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Speaker 1: we were able to taste hope. We don't know what's
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Speaker 1: going to happen. We don't know really how all of
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Speaker 1: this is going to unfold because the current president is
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Speaker 1: a wild wild boy, um, so we don't really know
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Speaker 1: how all of that is going to play out. You know,
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Speaker 1: the Joe and Kamala have so much on their shoulders
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Speaker 1: right now, much like Obama did coming in after George Bush.
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Speaker 1: There's so much on their shoulders and so much that
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Speaker 1: has to be healed and so much that has to
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Speaker 1: be repaired. So we'll see how that unfolds. It's a big,
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Speaker 1: big job. But I think ultimately in this moment, something
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Speaker 1: we can really let ourselves do is savor the hope,
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Speaker 1: this idea that you know, maybe we can be reconnected
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Speaker 1: with the things that we loved about life and people
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Speaker 1: before this year kind of unfolded in the way that
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Speaker 1: it did. So I don't think too much about all
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Speaker 1: the things and all the systems and how we're gonna
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Speaker 1: make it work. Let yourself take a little moment to
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Speaker 1: dive into that remembrance of what it feels like to
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Speaker 1: be optimistic and to be able to look forward with
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Speaker 1: an idea of the best possible thing happening for our
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Speaker 1: highest good. I am savoring that. I am loving that.
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Speaker 1: And even though you know so much hasn't changed with out,
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Speaker 1: you know, our work and our day to day lives
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Speaker 1: and all of the things. Um I woke up this
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Speaker 1: morning and I came here and the sky felt brighter,
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Speaker 1: and so much more felt possible. So I feel deeply,
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Speaker 1: deeply grateful for that, and for this moment. I also
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Speaker 1: want to say, my God, I am beyond thrilled and
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Speaker 1: excited at the knowingness that this incredible woman is going
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Speaker 1: to be the vice president and potentially on the road
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Speaker 1: to a presidency of her own. Obviously, what we have
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Speaker 1: been seeing, you know, in our in our feeds, how
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Speaker 1: we've been feeling this is this is just historic, beyond measure,
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Speaker 1: the first female vice president, the first Indian American Jamaican
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Speaker 1: American vice president, the first woman with brown skin in
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Speaker 1: the White House. My god. And she comes from California.
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Speaker 1: She likes to wear chuck, She's from the town, She's
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Speaker 1: from Oakland. Like, I'm just so excited about the amount
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Speaker 1: of flavor that is going to come into this place
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Speaker 1: and come into this world. And not just that, but
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Speaker 1: the amount of experience. You know it. There's so much
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Speaker 1: to be said about letting people who know how to
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Speaker 1: do their job to their job. So I'll say that,
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Speaker 1: but I also want to really touch on and share
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Speaker 1: with you guys this fun story that I had so
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Speaker 1: last year. Uh, John Witherspoon may he rest in peace,
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Speaker 1: and his beautiful wife Angela Witherspoon, they held a fundraiser
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Speaker 1: for Kamala Harris when she was going to be running
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Speaker 1: for the presidency. So this is about a little over
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Speaker 1: a year ago, I believe, um. And they have this
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Speaker 1: luncheon at their home and their home is so beautiful,
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Speaker 1: just gorgeous, really enchanting. They have this outdoor luncheon to
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Speaker 1: meet Kamala and to hear her speak, and it was
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Speaker 1: really small. There was probably like maybe fifty people their
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Speaker 1: tops and I got a ticket and one of my
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Speaker 1: really close friends who I had on the podcast Humble
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Speaker 1: O conga credible human spirit. He and I went to
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Speaker 1: that together and we got to sit directly in front
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Speaker 1: of Kamala. And at that time, I was really indecided
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Speaker 1: about what direction I wanted to go in. I mean,
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Speaker 1: I think there was like fifteen people in the running
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Speaker 1: for the Democratic seat. But I knew that I needed
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Speaker 1: to see her and I knew that I needed to
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Speaker 1: hear from her, and so we went to their home
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Speaker 1: and we got to sit with her for lunch, and
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Speaker 1: she was just exquisite. I mean, both of us throughout
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Speaker 1: the whole day kept looking at each other there and
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Speaker 1: Jess like eyes kind of wild, like wow, she's magic.
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Speaker 1: It was actually such a beautiful experience. On our way out,
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Speaker 1: there were different community leaders from Los Angeles there and
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Speaker 1: we had a chance to pray for her. So I
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Speaker 1: actually had a chance to lay hands on Kamala and
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Speaker 1: we said a beautiful prayer for her and for her
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Speaker 1: journey and for her path. And I hope one day
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Speaker 1: I can find the pictures of that, because it was
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Speaker 1: a really special moment that I would never forget. And
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Speaker 1: also something I'm kind of hype about right now is
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Speaker 1: that do you all know what her middle name is?
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Speaker 1: Her middle name is Debbie, Debbie d v I. Yes, So,
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Speaker 1: I mean, you know, it doesn't actually mean anything, but
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Speaker 1: at the same time, I'm going to take credit for
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Speaker 1: it and think it's amazing. So there we are. So
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Speaker 1: let me catch you guys up. What have I been
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Speaker 1: up to while I've been gone. Well, our last episode
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Speaker 1: aired in April, and that episode, I believe was revolved
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Speaker 1: around our Divine time Out challenge. Big shout out to
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Speaker 1: any body that happened to do that with us. Uh,
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Speaker 1: it was incredible. We did that on UM, we did
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Speaker 1: that on karma blist dot com and the new community
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Speaker 1: that I created, which is called Karma Gang, and learned
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Speaker 1: about self care, really prepared for what this pandemic could
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Speaker 1: or would be. And so that was where I kind
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Speaker 1: of left off with you guys. And there were a
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Speaker 1: couple of reasons why I have been away from the
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Speaker 1: mic um lots of personal reasons which I won't be
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Speaker 1: diving into as we get through some of these shows,
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Speaker 1: because it gets very spicy and juicy to that respect,
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Speaker 1: but also I was in the midst of finalizing this
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Speaker 1: deal of how You're currently hearing Me, which was getting
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Speaker 1: this beautiful podcast onto the Black Effect Network on I
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Speaker 1: Heart Radio. One of my dearest friends, one of my
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Speaker 1: favorite human spirit, Charlotmagne, that God has truly made history
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Speaker 1: and he has launched something that has never been the
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Speaker 1: Black Effect Network. For I Heart, There's never been anything
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Speaker 1: like this, and he just continues to leave me in
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Speaker 1: complete awe of the empire that he has built and
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Speaker 1: continuing to build, and the way that his vision operates
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Speaker 1: and the people that he includes. So I'm really really
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Speaker 1: honored to be back connected to my Heart. I used
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Speaker 1: to be a radio personality with them for quite a while,
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Speaker 1: but so excited to be a part of the I
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Speaker 1: Heart podcast network, to be a part of the Black
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Speaker 1: Effect podcast network, so many shows speaking to so many
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Speaker 1: things that our spirits, our minds, even our bellies need.
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Speaker 1: So also, I took on a new beautiful opportunity. Since
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Speaker 1: I last spoke to you, many people know that my
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Speaker 1: A lot of my journey really really deepened when I
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Speaker 1: learned to meditate from Deepak Chopra, and this was roughly
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Speaker 1: eight years ago. I one of my very first meditation
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Speaker 1: retreat that I had ever been on. I was so
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Speaker 1: so restless and lost and confused. At the time, I
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Speaker 1: knew something in my life was calling to be changed.
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Speaker 1: I didn't know what, and I didn't know how. And
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Speaker 1: so I found myself at this Detox retreat in Carl's Bad, California,
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Speaker 1: which is right by San Diego, and it was rooted
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Speaker 1: in Deepox life practices and his life work. And from
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Speaker 1: that day forward, everything about the trajectory of my life
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Speaker 1: literally everything changed, and I was able to meet myself
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Speaker 1: so deeply for the very first time. So to have
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Speaker 1: had that experience and then to now, almost eight years later,
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Speaker 1: be able to sit here and tell you that I
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Speaker 1: was appointed in the last several months as Chief Impact
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Speaker 1: Officer of Deepox Company Choper Global, and I now serve
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Speaker 1: as the daily voice of meditation and inspiration on the
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Speaker 1: Choper app. To say it's a dream come true would
10:52
Speaker 1: just be such a silly understatement. Its purpose come to life,
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Speaker 1: and it's really the embodiment of God's voice and the
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Speaker 1: way that he spoke to me many years ago when
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Speaker 1: I chose to transition my career. And so I say
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Speaker 1: that now not to be boastful, even though I do
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Speaker 1: feel extremely proud and excited. But I really say that
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Speaker 1: for anybody that needed it as confirmation and even permission
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Speaker 1: if you needed that, for you to listen to God,
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Speaker 1: and for you to listen to your own heart and
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Speaker 1: listen to your voice. One thing I know for sure
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Speaker 1: is God does not give you a dream that you
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Speaker 1: cannot fulfill. It would not be taking up space in
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Speaker 1: your mind, in your heart if you were not called
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Speaker 1: to birth it and to create it and to be
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Speaker 1: it or become it. So I really want to frame this.
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Speaker 1: I really want to sit in the gifts of the
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Speaker 1: pandemic right now. If it feels comfortable for you, guys,
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Speaker 1: let's get let's just get comfortable. Let's get comfortable in
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Speaker 1: this show. Let's take a second, let's sit down, let's
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Speaker 1: get adjusted, and let's just feel presently connected. Let's take
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Speaker 1: a deep breath together. If it feels comfortable and you're able.
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Speaker 1: If not, just enjoy this moment, but go ahead and
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Speaker 1: take a deep breath in through your nose right now
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Speaker 1: and release it through your nose. This is something I
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Speaker 1: like to do when I know it's time to get deep.
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Speaker 1: I like to get really anchored in the present moment
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Speaker 1: and really connected to this exact moment in time that
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Speaker 1: is filled with potential. Let's take another deep breath in
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Speaker 1: and at yourself release all right, that is some present
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Speaker 1: moment awareness for that ass. I just really want to
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Speaker 1: extend to you. And I'm going to repeat this so
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Speaker 1: many times and a matter of fact, write this down
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Speaker 1: if you feel so led. None of us are going
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Speaker 1: to get an A on the pandemic. Okay, let me
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Speaker 1: say that louder for the people in the back. None
13:14
Speaker 1: of us are going to get an A on the pandemic.
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Speaker 1: So it is okay, take some of the pressure off.
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Speaker 1: We are going to find all the tools that we
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Speaker 1: need and we are going to turn this year that
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Speaker 1: I think many people have internalized as perhaps uh not
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Speaker 1: being the greatest year. Um. I believe we can really
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Speaker 1: reframe this, and this is something I've been working on,
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Speaker 1: is really reframing it as this is the most magical
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Speaker 1: year of my life. When I think about starting and
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Speaker 1: one of I think one of the episodes, you know,
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Speaker 1: we kind of went through what are our goals for
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Speaker 1: this vision and you know, the goals that I set
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Speaker 1: for my own life and the things that I've written down,
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Speaker 1: and the affirmations that I've put up, we're all rooted
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Speaker 1: around a few particular words. So one of those words
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Speaker 1: was freedom. I wanted to be free. I didn't really
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Speaker 1: know what that meant or how it would manifest, but
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Speaker 1: the words freedom and liberation just sat really really anchored
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Speaker 1: in my spirit, and so I wrote those down at
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Speaker 1: the top of And another word that really came forward
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Speaker 1: for me was supernatural, grace, ease, lightness of being, and
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Speaker 1: self mastery. So at the top of the year, when
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Speaker 1: I kind of wrote down what my ideal seeing for
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Speaker 1: my life would be and who I wanted to become
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Speaker 1: and how I wanted to feel, those were the words
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Speaker 1: that really anchored my spiritual values. And little did I know,
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Speaker 1: little did I know what those words were actually going
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Speaker 1: to turn into. But now as we're at the end
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Speaker 1: of and I'm seeing how much um this work has
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Speaker 1: manifested in my life and way that I could have
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Speaker 1: never fathomed, even in the midst of some of this chaos,
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Speaker 1: even in the midst of some really profound discomfort that
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Speaker 1: I've been walking through, I feel so grateful. I feel
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Speaker 1: so grateful for the opportunity. Sometimes we are so overwhelmed
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Speaker 1: by the amount of trauma that we have to unearth
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Speaker 1: from the experiences of our lives that we avoid it.
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Speaker 1: We're not able to see the gift in it. Sometimes
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Speaker 1: I like to call this the gift wrapped in ship paper,
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Speaker 1: right like, it's still a gift. We got to get
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Speaker 1: through some things to get to it. But there's always
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Speaker 1: a gift underneath it. There's always I've found this supernatural
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Speaker 1: grace that the divine has woven into every challenge. And
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Speaker 1: when we're able to connect to that thread, that thread
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Speaker 1: of grace and our life's tapestry, the ability for everything
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Speaker 1: to open up and the ability for us to heal
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Speaker 1: in an accelerated way, the ability for us to show
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Speaker 1: up as our highest potential just unpacks and unfolds so beautifully.
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Speaker 1: So for anybody listening right now that I is saying,
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Speaker 1: I don't know what opportunity exists in this, I think
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Speaker 1: there's so much beauty and being able to sit in
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Speaker 1: yourself and say, well, at least I'm able to recognize
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Speaker 1: my areas of discomfort. I can call them out by name,
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Speaker 1: I can see them, because if you can see them,
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Speaker 1: then the path to their dissolving becomes so much more clear.
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Speaker 1: And I think that's what a lot of people, and
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Speaker 1: a lot of people listening to this show especially, are
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Speaker 1: really realizing about this unique time and really realizing about
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Speaker 1: this moment, is that we do have the power to
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Speaker 1: create the life of our dreams, even in the most difficult,
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Speaker 1: difficult circumstances. And when we get to the to the
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Speaker 1: root of what a life of your dream means, it
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Speaker 1: doesn't have anything to do with success. It has everything
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Speaker 1: to do with how we feel about ourselves, how we're
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Speaker 1: able to regulate ourselves, how we're able to experience ourselves
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Speaker 1: and be with ourselves. And I think if we really
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Speaker 1: take the opportunity that this year has afforded us, there
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Speaker 1: is limitless potential for how we can build into that
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Speaker 1: and how we can amplify ourselves regardless of circumstance. And
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Speaker 1: these skills aren't going nowhere, because once you learn how
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Speaker 1: to cultivate that, once you learn how to show up
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Speaker 1: for you, you can never unlearn it, kind of like
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Speaker 1: riding a bike, you can never unlearn it. So often
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Speaker 1: we can get even when we're committed to growth, we
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Speaker 1: can get a little complacent, right, um, But this is
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Speaker 1: a lifelong journey, and there is going to be a
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Speaker 1: constant shedding that happens for each of us. And I'll say,
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Speaker 1: in this moment, you know, I I really like to
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Speaker 1: the version I of me I was before this been Amick.
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Speaker 1: I was pretty proud of her and the work that
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Speaker 1: we've done. Um, and I thought I was going to
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Speaker 1: be able to be her for a while, and then
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Speaker 1: this moment in time came up and showed me there
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Speaker 1: was more. And so we all have to just continue
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Speaker 1: to extend the dignity of our process to ourselves and
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Speaker 1: really walk through whatever this is with gentleness, tenderness of self,
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Speaker 1: and as much joy as possible. So that has been
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Speaker 1: my hiatus, and you know, kind of just observing collectively
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Speaker 1: what is going on in the world, aside from it
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Speaker 1: being a zoo and being like sometimes just like outrageously bizarre. Um,
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Speaker 1: it's been it's been really fascinating to observe our collective experience.
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Speaker 1: So let's talk about this collective experience that we are
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Speaker 1: all going through together. We have our individual journeys, right,
18:58
Speaker 1: our spiritual curriculum that we kind of carved and crafted
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Speaker 1: before we embodied on earth, and we have the curriculum
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Speaker 1: of our family systems quite often, and the curriculum of
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Speaker 1: our friendships and our socioeconomic backgrounds and all the different
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Speaker 1: pieces of the recipes that have come together, and then
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Speaker 1: we have our collective experience as humanity. And that's the
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Speaker 1: part that can be more triggering than anything. You know,
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Speaker 1: how you get a little woke, and then you get
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Speaker 1: mad at everybody, you know, because it's like, why can't
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Speaker 1: you be woke too? Why am I the only one
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Speaker 1: speaking this language? Uh? That's kind of how it is now.
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Speaker 1: Right when we think about the state of our world politically,
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Speaker 1: Something that occurred to me a few days ago that
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Speaker 1: I just thought was so strange is that as we
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Speaker 1: have conversations about Donald Trump, the fact that more of
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Speaker 1: these conversations are not rallied around mental health. It's honestly
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Speaker 1: very strange to me. Mental health has become such a
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Speaker 1: mainstream and really often misunderstood and um oftentimes kept far
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Speaker 1: to surface aspect of popular culture. Right now, It's incredibly
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Speaker 1: important mental health, spiritual health, well being as a whole.
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Speaker 1: But I feel like, because it's become so trendy, a
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Speaker 1: lot of it is just staying in surface level conversations
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Speaker 1: and it's not coming down to a point that's actually
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Speaker 1: really giving people a blueprint or a map on how
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Speaker 1: to have more access to it or what to do
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Speaker 1: with it outside of now knowing the phrase mental health
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Speaker 1: or knowing that therapists exists, you know, it's like really
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Speaker 1: taking it to that next level of learning how to experience, apply,
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Speaker 1: and then embody. So it's been really interesting to me
20:44
Speaker 1: that although there are so many events and so many shows,
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Speaker 1: and so many things that are talking about mental health,
20:51
Speaker 1: why are we not discussing the fact that it's very
20:54
Speaker 1: clear that Donald Trump has illness. I think it's very
20:58
Speaker 1: clear that Don Trump is on the sociopic spectrum. I
21:02
Speaker 1: believe him to be a sociopath. I think it's very
21:05
Speaker 1: clear that he is a high level narcissist as well,
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Speaker 1: really grandizing, a pathological liar. And I think it's clear
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Speaker 1: that he potentially has borderline personality disorder. And that's just
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Speaker 1: off the top based on my experience and study. So
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Speaker 1: the fact that I don't see more psychologists speaking to this,
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Speaker 1: the fact that I don't see more made of this
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Speaker 1: in the time of mental health, it's so strange. We
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Speaker 1: need to be studying this. And I always will ask
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Speaker 1: of you guys to study yourselves. You know, I'm a
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Speaker 1: big believer that I study myself and I study the world.
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Speaker 1: I'm a student of me, I'm a student of the world.
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Speaker 1: I'm a student of God. And I think it's important
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Speaker 1: that we apply that type of deeper understanding, excavation, and
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Speaker 1: curiosity to all the things that are happening to us
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Speaker 1: in the midst of this global pen demic and in
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Speaker 1: the midst of this trump erra coming to an end.
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Speaker 1: This moment in time that we're experiencing on Earth, it's
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Speaker 1: a time that has never been sure. We've all seen
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Speaker 1: the newsreels. I mean, it's life has never been easy
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Speaker 1: on Earth. Be clear, life has never been even close
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Speaker 1: to ideal or perfect for anyone. We've had major, major
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Speaker 1: things in our human history. You know, we've all been taught,
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Speaker 1: we've all read, we've all experienced UM from our personal
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Speaker 1: lived experience. But then there's a moment like this that
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Speaker 1: is this pot luck of experience, this pot luck of
22:45
Speaker 1: experience UM that is creating a meal that doesn't really
22:50
Speaker 1: go together but is nourishing us deeply. We have never
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Speaker 1: in human history ever processed this much at the same
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Speaker 1: time before. So let's really get let's really take stock
23:07
Speaker 1: of where we're at as a human species and the
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Speaker 1: things that we are processing in this moment. One. We're
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Speaker 1: processing a global pandemic, right We're processing a major, major
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Speaker 1: health emergency that has overtaken the globe. It's filled many
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Speaker 1: of us with fear. There has been an extreme amount
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Speaker 1: of loss of life, an extreme amount of personal discomfort.
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Speaker 1: Things can be very triggering, like wearing masks, feeling like
23:39
Speaker 1: our breath is restricted, having something on your face, being
23:42
Speaker 1: told you can't do something, being laid off, being furloughed,
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Speaker 1: having financial hardship, having the routine of your daily life uprooted.
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Speaker 1: That's major, major trauma. We're also experiencing the common nation
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Speaker 1: of centuries of oppression being brought to light in a
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Speaker 1: way they haven't been before, which has also been one
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Speaker 1: of the gifts of the pandemic. Everyone is being forced
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Speaker 1: to sit and to gaze at the world at the
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Speaker 1: same time in real time, process and unpack at the
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Speaker 1: same time in real time, and not being able to
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Speaker 1: avoid themselves, or avoid difficult conversations, or avoid racism, or
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Speaker 1: avoid sexism, or avoid any of the things, any of
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Speaker 1: the other rings that have been going on since the
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Speaker 1: dawn of time. We are all forced to look at
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Speaker 1: things at the same time, in real time, and for
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Speaker 1: a lot of people who didn't know the deeper reality
24:43
Speaker 1: of what the world looks like for other people with
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Speaker 1: different backgrounds, Uh, it's been incredibly probably frightening, it's been
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Speaker 1: incredibly triggering. Um, it's been incredibly shameful, I think for
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Speaker 1: a lot of people. And there's no way to avoid
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Speaker 1: or distract from that. For the people who this has
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Speaker 1: been their lived experience, there's so many layers. One it's
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Speaker 1: the reliving of trauma. It's the constant sight and sounds
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Speaker 1: and experience of people being murdered, people being oppressed, the
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Speaker 1: effects of systemic racism being spelled out plainly. To really
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Speaker 1: sit in that and to really know there is a
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Speaker 1: percentage of us who are and have been woke to
25:31
Speaker 1: these realities, right. But then there's also a percentage of
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Speaker 1: people who, even having lived these realities, didn't have the
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Speaker 1: languaging around it, didn't have the structure around it, didn't
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Speaker 1: have the history lesson or the connectedness to what that
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Speaker 1: lived experience was. And when it starts to shape up
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Speaker 1: around you, it's even more terrifying. It's even more enraging
26:00
Speaker 1: when you're really seen and giving name and giving word
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Speaker 1: and giving process to what you have known deep inside
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Speaker 1: but hadn't set out loud before. That's trauma. That's traumatic.
26:13
Speaker 1: It's the reliving of historical trauma, a reliving of your
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Speaker 1: own trauma, and then an amplification of and an extending
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Speaker 1: of trauma because now you're putting the pieces together in
26:25
Speaker 1: new ways. You're having conversations and bigger, more vast ways.
26:29
Speaker 1: You're having expansion of self in this process, and the
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Speaker 1: unfairness you already felt is now amplified in every direction,
26:39
Speaker 1: and you're understanding why things always felt different. You're understanding
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Speaker 1: why things always felt unfair, and you're understanding why no
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Speaker 1: matter what you did, or how you filled yourself or
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Speaker 1: what God you prayed to, there was always a seed
26:57
Speaker 1: of not enoughness and unworthiness inside of you that never
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Speaker 1: had anything to do with you. So we're processing that.
27:07
Speaker 1: We're feeling a gratitude for this expansion, but we're also
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Speaker 1: grieving so deeply, and we're also irritated and enraged, and
27:17
Speaker 1: you're really beginning to understand. And thanks to the power
27:20
Speaker 1: of the Internet and thanks to the power of being
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Speaker 1: able to see how different people with different backgrounds are
27:25
Speaker 1: moving through the pandemic. We're really seen the differences, we're
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Speaker 1: really seeing the classism at play, and we're really seeing
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Speaker 1: how much the effects of systemic racism per me every
27:41
Speaker 1: fiber of everyone's being in this country and beyond. So
27:46
Speaker 1: that's a lot. So that's one piece of it. Another
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Speaker 1: piece that we're processing at great length right now, especially
27:54
Speaker 1: for women, are all the pieces of the feminist puzzle,
27:59
Speaker 1: all the pieces of the patriarchy unfolding themselves. Right We're
28:03
Speaker 1: really really understanding for the first time the role that
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Speaker 1: women and especially women of color, have been forced to
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Speaker 1: carry and endure. So there's this there is this deep
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Speaker 1: unpacking and this deep unfolding that is all in service
28:22
Speaker 1: to our highest good. But it's all happening at once.
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Speaker 1: We're having larger conversations about gender identity, larger conversations about
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Speaker 1: sexuality that have never happened in human history. People are
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Speaker 1: showing up as their full selves for the first time
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Speaker 1: in the history of ever, and we think, oh, it's hey,
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Speaker 1: we have the Internet. Hey we're a modern society. Yeah,
28:54
Speaker 1: but for things to be embodied, we have to have
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Speaker 1: the dignity of our process. For things to be proces tessed,
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Speaker 1: we have to have stillness, we have to have our
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Speaker 1: hearts opened, we have to have thought applied to them.
29:06
Speaker 1: So that's part of why the pandemic, which is already difficult,
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Speaker 1: has been feeling even more isolating. There is so much
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Speaker 1: processing happening inside of you on every level of how
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Speaker 1: you've ever believed the world to be true, of how
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Speaker 1: you've ever thought of your family structure, of how you
29:23
Speaker 1: ever thought of yourself. Every fiber, every facet of the
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Speaker 1: way we have connected to Earth and our identity is
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Speaker 1: being challenged, just being excavated, it's being illuminated. Also, so
29:36
Speaker 1: many of us are in personal isolation as we're doing this.
29:40
Speaker 1: So if you have been using life and experiences, your job,
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Speaker 1: the roles that you play, your title fun friends to
29:48
Speaker 1: distract yourselves from you, well, now that's been taken away, right,
29:53
Speaker 1: So we are being pushed and propelled to ascend, and
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Speaker 1: I want to reframe it in that way. Is specially
30:01
Speaker 1: because it's easy for us to go through that list
30:04
Speaker 1: of things that I have just been going through and
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Speaker 1: think how sorry we feel for ourselves, or how difficult
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Speaker 1: this is. But in actuality. What a profound gift. We
30:18
Speaker 1: are all being pushed to ascend to a version of
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Speaker 1: ourselves we've never been. That's better than we've ever been.
30:26
Speaker 1: But it's challenging and it's hard, and it requires work,
30:31
Speaker 1: and it requires this really meeting ourselves, and to meet
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Speaker 1: ourselves means we have to also look at our monsters.
30:39
Speaker 1: We have to also look at the pieces of ourselves
30:41
Speaker 1: we've wanted to hide. We're doing big processing right now,
30:45
Speaker 1: and not just for us, and and this applies to
30:49
Speaker 1: whatever background you're from, whatever group you're a part of,
30:53
Speaker 1: whatever culture you represent. We are doing major and sstral
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Speaker 1: healing of trauma right now. And I think that's one
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Speaker 1: of the biggest reasons why it feels so heavy. Why
31:06
Speaker 1: even the person that is known as being the strongest,
31:09
Speaker 1: and I know a lot of people listening right now
31:11
Speaker 1: can identify with this. The person who may be the
31:14
Speaker 1: fixer and their family are always known as the strong one,
31:17
Speaker 1: is having a really hard time. And that's because we're
31:20
Speaker 1: not just processing for ourselves right now. And that long
31:24
Speaker 1: list that I just went through, we're not just healing ourselves.
31:27
Speaker 1: In that long list of healing that needs to be
31:30
Speaker 1: done all the healing, all the processing, all the excavation,
31:36
Speaker 1: all of the beautiful self discovery that we are plowing
31:41
Speaker 1: through right now in record time in this accelerated timeline,
31:45
Speaker 1: is also fully in service to the healing of our lineage, past, present, future.
31:53
Speaker 1: So that means us, that means every ancestor that came
31:56
Speaker 1: before us, and that means a shifting of the traject
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Speaker 1: story of any seeds that come from us. So the
32:03
Speaker 1: stakes are higher. And I say all this not to
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Speaker 1: overwhelm you, but to really get you excited about who
32:13
Speaker 1: you are and who you're becoming. As challenging as this
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Speaker 1: moment in time is, and I'm going to really impact
32:22
Speaker 1: my story for you over the next few episodes, But
32:25
Speaker 1: in the deepest part of the challenge that this moment
32:27
Speaker 1: in time has presented to me, I wake up and
32:31
Speaker 1: I still think, my God, what a gift. How lucky
32:35
Speaker 1: am I to have been chosen for this exact moment
32:37
Speaker 1: in time, one of the most complex, layered, difficult times
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Speaker 1: in the history of the human race. That processing, that
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Speaker 1: collective processing of grief, that collective processing of centuries of
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Speaker 1: unhealed trauma. How lucky am I that the divine saw
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Speaker 1: me fit to show up in this moment and in
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Speaker 1: this way, So on your hardest day, reframe in that way.
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Speaker 1: This is opportunity. And the mechanisms have changed the mechanisms
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Speaker 1: of healing. It's something we can always count on to
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Speaker 1: guide the way. When we just look at the structure
33:18
Speaker 1: of what healing is and how it operates, it really
33:22
Speaker 1: gives us a piece because there is an end in sight,
33:25
Speaker 1: you know. I saw this. I saw this meme on
33:27
Speaker 1: Instagram and it was actually a little problematic. Not my faith,
33:31
Speaker 1: but it was. It was one of those memes that
33:33
Speaker 1: was like choose your hard right like marriage is hard,
33:35
Speaker 1: divorce is hard, this is hard. That is hard. It
33:38
Speaker 1: was problematic. I mean, there was some reframing I would
33:41
Speaker 1: have done on that, But I do think it's important
33:44
Speaker 1: to think in that context. I think a lot of
33:46
Speaker 1: people who avoid doing some of the work one we
33:49
Speaker 1: got to give them grace because it just may not
33:51
Speaker 1: be in their life's plan, and so they just need
33:54
Speaker 1: to follow God's lead and we do the best we
33:56
Speaker 1: can do. But for those that are really feeling called
34:00
Speaker 1: to change or to grow um but are feeling a
34:02
Speaker 1: little too stuck in the older versions of themselves, the
34:06
Speaker 1: outdated virgins of themselves. Growth is hard. Pain is hard, right,
34:11
Speaker 1: Growth is hard, Trauma is hard. They're both challenging. They're
34:15
Speaker 1: both difficult. But when we choose growth, and when we
34:18
Speaker 1: choose to lean in like a moment like this, there
34:22
Speaker 1: is an end in sight. There is a shifting that happens.
34:26
Speaker 1: The hard changes, there's a piece that takes over the
34:31
Speaker 1: space where that trauma used to sit. Versus when we
34:35
Speaker 1: choose to stay stuck in our stories and in our
34:38
Speaker 1: narratives and in our trauma and our pain, we'll just
34:42
Speaker 1: always be there, you know. So when you think of
34:45
Speaker 1: choosing your hard choosing what she'll give your time to,
34:51
Speaker 1: always bet on yourself, Always bet on your advancement. It
34:55
Speaker 1: will never lead you astray. There is always a better
35:00
Speaker 1: to be had when we seek that and give yourself
35:03
Speaker 1: the dignity of your process. I can't stress this enough.
35:07
Speaker 1: You're not going to get an a on a global pandemic.
35:10
Speaker 1: No one is walking through this unscathed, not a soul,
35:13
Speaker 1: and no one is going to get a prize. There
35:16
Speaker 1: is nothing to be had with feeling like you're doing
35:23
Speaker 1: great at this or judging someone else as not surviving
35:27
Speaker 1: this well. Right, Like This is just about our personal
35:31
Speaker 1: process and extending to ourselves the dignity of that process
35:36
Speaker 1: and letting it be whatever it's supposed to be. And
35:41
Speaker 1: for each of us that's going to be different, and
35:42
Speaker 1: for each of us that's going to require a certain
35:44
Speaker 1: amount of self investigation. But there's something to be had
35:50
Speaker 1: here for all of us. M All right, we're back
36:06
Speaker 1: and it's time to lead into a little soul work.
36:10
Speaker 1: So something I'm really excited about doing for the show
36:14
Speaker 1: now is really creating space for opportunities to embody. We've
36:20
Speaker 1: talked quite a bit about what healing process looks like
36:24
Speaker 1: and what the dignity of our own individual process looks like.
36:28
Speaker 1: And part of that extension of dignity to ourselves and
36:33
Speaker 1: healing is giving ourselves time to savor the lesson and
36:39
Speaker 1: to embody the newer version of ourselves. And the work
36:44
Speaker 1: isn't complete until we process and embody. So first comes
36:49
Speaker 1: the intellectualization. We get the information. We get the knowledge,
36:53
Speaker 1: then comes the process. We apply it to ourselves. We
36:57
Speaker 1: see what fits, we see what we can let go
37:01
Speaker 1: of and what we can add, and then we embody.
37:06
Speaker 1: We live it. It seeps out of our pores, It
37:10
Speaker 1: enters the room before we get there, and that's the
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Speaker 1: piece that we're really going to refine as we go
37:16
Speaker 1: through the episodes of this podcast. Okay, we're going to process,
37:20
Speaker 1: we're gonna intellectualize, we are going to embody, we're going
37:23
Speaker 1: to master. So a little journal prompt that I have
37:27
Speaker 1: for you to really lead you into this week and
37:30
Speaker 1: anchor you into whatever work you are currently doing with
37:34
Speaker 1: yourself with your soul would be And if it feels comfortable,
37:38
Speaker 1: go ahead and grab a pen to drop this down
37:41
Speaker 1: or revisit this a little bit later. But your soul
37:45
Speaker 1: work for the week is take stock of how you
37:50
Speaker 1: feel right now, do a little self inventory. I highly
37:57
Speaker 1: recommend this tool as something to really do every quarter,
38:01
Speaker 1: but at minimum once a year, either on the New Year,
38:04
Speaker 1: on your New Year, which is your birthday. But sit down,
38:07
Speaker 1: get a piece of paper, get a journal out, and
38:11
Speaker 1: I want you to jest without judgment of self. Just
38:15
Speaker 1: really start writing down, either novel style or bullet pointed inventory,
38:22
Speaker 1: personal inventory of how you are feeling about yourself in
38:26
Speaker 1: your life right now. And it's really important to try
38:29
Speaker 1: to come to this space from a neutral feeling. So
38:33
Speaker 1: if it's comfortable and if you have the bandwidth for it.
38:35
Speaker 1: I would recommend sitting down and meditating for a few
38:39
Speaker 1: moments before you do this, making sure that you don't
38:42
Speaker 1: have any emotional charge connected to any specific thing, and
38:47
Speaker 1: then just write down without judgment, how you feel. And
38:52
Speaker 1: it's okay. If it's I feel terrible today, it's okay.
38:57
Speaker 1: If it's I feel all right today, it's okay. If
39:00
Speaker 1: it's I feel great today, none of that matters. There's
39:04
Speaker 1: no test. You're not getting get an A or an
39:07
Speaker 1: F based on how you feel. This is just for
39:09
Speaker 1: you to connect to the innermost part of you and
39:14
Speaker 1: get clear on where your work lies. So take personal
39:19
Speaker 1: inventory this week and just jot down with bullet points,
39:24
Speaker 1: how you're feeling in every sector of your life personally, professionally,
39:29
Speaker 1: all of the facets, all of the roles. Let's just
39:33
Speaker 1: get it on paper, and let's observe it from a
39:35
Speaker 1: very neutral space, and then we'll talk about what to
39:40
Speaker 1: do with it next week. Okay, deal, take a second
39:44
Speaker 1: right now, as we close out the show, let's just
39:46
Speaker 1: get comfortable. I just have a few words to share
39:49
Speaker 1: with you, So if you can, if you're able to
39:52
Speaker 1: just gently close your eyes let's kind of go from
39:55
Speaker 1: the top of our head to the tips of our
39:57
Speaker 1: toes and just do a really nice little gan of
40:00
Speaker 1: ourselves and our bodies. Our emotions are energetic bodies, and
40:09
Speaker 1: anywhere that you might be holding tension, anywhere that feels
40:13
Speaker 1: a little stuck, go ahead and like move your neck
40:17
Speaker 1: from side to side if it feels good. Loosen your shoulders,
40:23
Speaker 1: loosen your job, wiggle your toes, and let's just get
40:28
Speaker 1: soft and now just naturally breathing in and out through
40:33
Speaker 1: your nose at a pace that feels good to you.
40:40
Speaker 1: I want you to hear my voice in the words
40:42
Speaker 1: that I'm saying, and then repeat them to yourself, either
40:47
Speaker 1: out loud or silently deep inside. I am worthy. I
40:57
Speaker 1: am worthy. M I am enough. I am enough. I
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Speaker 1: am equipped with all the tools I need for this life.
41:22
Speaker 1: I am equipped with all the tools I need for
41:28
Speaker 1: this life. Love you guys, Catch you next week. I'm
41:40
Speaker 1: gonna stay Hey. Find me on social let's connect at
41:49
Speaker 1: deVie Brown. That's Twitter and Instagram, or go to my
41:53
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