Latest / Dits & Dahs / keeping it G-rated to F with my handlers
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- Sue: When I started to trust my intuition, confirmation with my watch, it was a very daunting prospect. I felt as though I didn't have a safety net under the tightrope in which I was walking first time ever, not knowing how to do it. And of course meant that I had to get some balance into my life, which meant that I really leaned into my discernment. And I've spoken about this before. It's not an overnight process of where you start to reassert the trust that you always knew that you had for your intuition back into your life. But you gain ways, workflow, process to employ your discernment and think things through in a way that logically you can say, okay, that thought wasn't created by me. That's not something I want to hang on to. And you go through that elimination of all the thoughts that aren't yours. And then remember, that there is the possibility that they were projected towards you. And as I understand better what my prophecy, what the divine plan is for my life, I start thinking about my husband's death. The time when I proposed to him, I knew he was an alcoholic. I knew about his experimentation with Felicity. I also know that life can change in an instant. When you have the opportunity to make the most of a life with somebody, even with those substance abuse issues, you gotta take the risk. was married to him for 15 years before his death. And he was generally a very positive disposition. Made the conscious decision not to have any violent, overtly sexual content in our house. It was sort of a G-rated house in that way in terms of consuming media content. It was simply about the concept of how easily visually stimulating movies and videos are with our imagination and can be triggering. And he was just generally of the view that remaining positive and making an effort to curate your life in that way was best for him. And I took to it as well. So when he started talking in a, I won't say overtly depressed way, but when he started musing about, know, I think we've had the best of the 20th century, or I think we've had the best of what this phase in Earth's life is, I didn't dismiss it. But I also understood it to be sort of him musing about. how he viewed the world. But given that he was generally a positive person, it didn't set off a red flag at that point as it does now. And I think now that I have a better understanding of the ease at which other telepathic and clair-sentient and second-sight folks like myself are, and you can easily send a mental suggestion, I've begun to wonder, given the context of understanding my prophecy, if those that were playing the game of controlling my life were doing So to my husband is to give me a shock in my life with the loss of him. And you can see how subtle it was. Just low key suggestions of, think we've had the better part of this part of the world and what is there to live for? And he was not overtly one to self-harm. And yet I just dismissed it because I figured, well, we both know he's abusing alcohol and we understand how alcohol can affect the brain. And maybe this is one of those apparitions. So I didn't think about it until now about the possibility. that those who were seeking to control me as a game piece in their secret society games would want me to be forever scarred, emotionally hurt, destroyed by his death. Someone who was in a relationship so loving and caring that I would be bereft if he were gone and maybe choose to unalive myself, for example, given that all the woes of the world because of his death were upon me. Destitution, loneliness. said, of course, there is no way to energetically transfer that vibe into reality. My intuition is telling me that it might have been a plan, a strategy to intentionally create so much devastation in my life that I'd lose the will to live. know, and nobody can point a finger at anybody, so it's not about blaming anybody or accusing anybody. And I am not a medical expert, so I am not the one to say whether or not his view on the world in depressed way was... intensified because at the stage of alcoholism he was at or whatever. That's really not the point. It's just the understanding that when you receive incoming mental suggestions, they can be very powerful if you're unable to filter them as being non-local and just get rid of them. He didn't have that discernment apparently, particularly when I consider the fact that we quite consciously chose to keep a level of positivity in our life. As I say, you can't avoid the noose. You can't avoid electively choosing to view or listen to content that is overtly negative and meant to trigger you in a negative way. That's one of the reasons why I now I'm more proactive about filtering those thoughts flowing through me to better understand their origin. And I believe that is creating a better balance in my life. You know, I don't wonder about it. I'm pretty sure that that's probably what led to the beginning of the end. Took him three years to deteriorate to the point where he died. He didn't fight it. He lived with it. made the decision to himself that he was ready to get off the bus. I never dismissed what he was thinking because he controlled himself. He's entitled to think the way that he choose to think. But I also believe that perhaps he didn't use his discernment whatsoever because it would have been cloaked by his effects of the substance abuse to filter them out. Hmm, it's just a thought. And thanks for listening to my thoughts.