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- Kait Tregenza: This episode of Becoming Flame is brought to you by Phenxx. Phenxx is a ritual luxury house devoted to erotic feminine embodiment. We create alchemical intimacy oils and functional fragrances infused with spagyric botanicals designed to soften the nervous system, open the body, and awaken life force vitality. Our formulations are crafted as tools of self-initiation. They are not cosmetic. So welcome, ⁓ welcome Ms. Jax. ⁓ my goodness, so excited. Jax Faulkner: I appreciate the invitation. Thank you so much for your time today. Kait Tregenza: So one of the enjoyable aspects of doing this podcast is dropping into the frequency of synchronicity, of spontaneity, of creation in this flow and this air. I know that you work this way because that's how this interview has come to be. I actually get to know a lot about my guests in terms of how they show up and how the interview shows up. So I think my first question to you is how They are not decorative. 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Jax Faulkner: could be as simple as waking up consistently at 5 a.m. to go train and noticing the subtleties of shifting my own system in therefore embodying that what I would call a next level frequency, a next level behavior, a next level echelon, whatever that means and allowing life to continue to present to me opportunities to keep. Kait Tregenza: xx.com Jax Faulkner: growing in that way and keep discovering in that way and keep responding in that way. So I'm very much a responder to what is present. I'm a responder to the field and therefore then I don't ever feel like I'm locked into a certain identity and I love that. Kait Tregenza: Mm-hmm. Was that always the case? Did you have to unravel a lot or was this something that you were sort of coming into the world with? Jax Faulkner: Yes, yes, absolutely. There's so much to unravel. I believe we are trained from a very young age to lock into an identity. The first question we're asked when we're in grade five is what do you want to be when you grow up? And so these are the nuances and subtleties of what I would say ⁓ in a way that I don't mean to offend, but in a way that really describes this kind of training is domestication. And so I guess for me these last 10 years has been my own personal journey of recognizing where I perhaps my wild spirited soul has been domesticated to believe in certain things to to behave in a certain way. My body always telling me if it is my way or not. Kait Tregenza: Mm. Jax Faulkner: And so the exploration beyond that really was, has been inspired by by body or, you know, part to my reality, feeling jolted or dysfunctional because I perhaps do not align with that set of rules anymore. Kait Tregenza: Mm. So take us back to the beginning. How did you grow up? Like, how do you come to be the light worker and the translator and the transmitter and the frequency attuner that you are today? Because most people that I know that have these gifts unlocked, tapped into, it's not a path of roses and sunshine. Jax Faulkner: ⁓ it's definitely not a path that existed not even more than 10 years ago. And I'm 43 next month. So it really started at the age of 33 for me, which is not an unusual or uncommon time for this kind of journey to start for anyone. That's when we can, we could say that it's the Christ consciousness timeline. ⁓ So for me, I was raised Christian. I still have my Christian beliefs and background. Again, it was never anything for me that was locked in. I believe and trust what I believe and trust that keeps me grounded in a morality that aligns with me. so both my parents were completely different religions and completely different cultures. So I was raised half Australian, half Filipino. And so I went through life just doing what I thought was meant to be, know, being successful at 30 or having it all together at 30 was what I was gunning for. So by the age of 28, I was like, I need to settle down after having a full life of partying and travel, I decided to settle down and I had children and I got married, white picket fans. ⁓ bought homes, all of those things. And I even had my own restaurant at one stage. And then I lost it all. I lost it all because life, life through big curve balls, including the death of one of my parents and a divorce that I went through with my ex-husband. And it was then when everything that I believed was life. Kait Tregenza: Mm-hmm. Jax Faulkner: was what a good life was or my life. When that all completely collapsed and disappeared, I was given an opportunity to ask different questions about myself in life and life. And that's when my journey started. So it wasn't necessarily spiritual, but there's definitely a lot of spiritual aspects to that in terms of meditation and being present and learning those skills. But more than anything, was just going, was just an ability to ask different questions now. And that's what happened for me. And that's what continues to move me forward. So my skillset and my abilities, perhaps I've always been there. I was just never tapped into it. I wasn't even aware of it. And as my, as my personal development grew, my community started to change. started to be exposed to a more broader. possibility of life. And that's when I, I, that's when it all really started to happen for me. And, and this gift that I have, it literally just appeared out of nowhere. I didn't practice it. I didn't even think it was possible. It just appeared. And I had the choice and the decision to think that it was too weird. ⁓ or perhaps it was my purpose and I chose to believe that it was my purpose. And that's why I'm here today. Kait Tregenza: Welcome back to Becoming Flame. Well, as you know, if you've listened to a few episodes or what you're going to gather very quickly, if you do is that this is a space where we do not perform growth. We don't repeat what we just read somewhere. We don't stay on the surface. We come here to tell the truth, to sit inside it, to actually change something in the body. We show up really raw, really vulnerable and really ready to share our own lived experiences in a way that can help. Jax Faulkner: doing what I do. Kait Tregenza: And you never had any visitation as a kid. You never had any pathways. You never had any feelings or anything like that. So it all came on at 33. Jax Faulkner: never Kait Tregenza: The listeners, because it's not this performative, I'm so great. Like, let me show you my fake bank balance. And today's episode is exactly the same. It's not neat. It's not linear. It moves through identity, through collapse, through choice, through choice. And it's really as you make these choices, what happens when the life that you thought you were building Jax Faulkner: Never. Never. It all came online. Well, it was when I was 30. 36 or 37 when my gift activated. But in saying that I've always been intuitive, I've always trusted my gut. That was probably the one thing that I've always been led by, but in terms of gifts, nah, not at Kait Tregenza: disappears. So many of the women on this podcast have the same similar journey, so to speak. Your life disappears, it crumbles, it collapses, it's taken away and you're left with a very real decision about who you are without that. Without those identities, without those things, without those ticks in those boxes. And there's something very deep. So take us through what activated when you were 36, 37. What are you now living in, in this really different way, in this way that, you know, you're, existing in a different reality. Jax Faulkner: Yeah. Yeah, a very different reality, very different indeed. I don't know if you've heard of the book Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I read that many years ago and this was before I understood any of it and it was just one of those moments and I think back to that and there was a part at the beginning of the book where he explains an experience he had when he was on the phone and he just had this flood of Kait Tregenza: running underneath this entire conversation today. It's about congruence. It's about responsibility. It's about the gap between what you say you believe and what you actually live. And then what it takes to close that gap. So today I'm joined by Jax Faulkner. Jax didn't arrive at this work in a polished or predictable way. She lived this. She lived what most people would recognize as a full life. Jax Faulkner: awakening and it just happened in this instant moment. It wasn't anything expected. Very similarly, Neil Diamond Walsh, Neil Diamond Walsh is that Neil Walsh who wrote ⁓ conversations with God. Similarly, in a single moment where he was so frustrated with with God and religion and he decided to just write a letter to God and then God decided to move through him and write back. That was a very similar situation to me. Kait Tregenza: marriage, children, business, building something stable, conventional house, et cetera. But then everything collapsed. That led to loss, to divorce, and really to the dismantling of what she thought her life was meant to be. And in that space, something activated. She got activated, not through training, not through trying to become anything, but through a moment that she chose to follow, even when it made absolutely no logical sense. Jax Faulkner: The thing, the point aspect to that is that when I read those, I believed that it was possible. I was like, actually, that would be the coolest thing. Like I would love for that to happen. Fast forward many years from both of those moments and I was literally driving my car from one location. I was upgrading my life from a very small, tiny little studio. I decided to move to a bigger place. It was such a stretch. Kait Tregenza: And what I find most interesting about Jax is not the work she does now, whether you call it light language or transmission or frequency work or shamanic work, it doesn't matter. What matters is the way she lives, the way she holds herself, the way she meets challenge without collapsing into it. And that's the level of congruence that she operates from. And you can feel it. can, you can experience that from this conversation. Jax Faulkner: For me at the time I was working in hospitality, I was a waitress, but I knew I had to do it. And it was during that commute between that home, the small home to the larger home I was driving along. And I call it the lightning bolt moment where a flood of energy moved through me. I was seeing in another perspective, I was in another dimension with four interdimensional beings. Kait Tregenza: because the congruence that she holds is felt, it's lived, it's understood from a body first perspective. And so this conversation goes into all of that. I ask her so many questions, trying to understand how the shortening of that gap between holding energy and having a life that looks like she can hold energy actually works. Jax Faulkner: in what I call a cosmic courtroom. I was still driving my car. I was still present, but I was also there. And in that moment, they were speaking to me in these various different languages for the first time ever. And then while I was driving the car, these languages were coming, were moving through me. So I had this experience where I was being reminded of my mission. I was being asked, do you remember your mission? Because that was a question. That's always a question that we're asking or maybe perhaps Kait Tregenza: We talk about identity, about domestication, about freeing yourself from that and about what actually shifts your life and what keeps you looping in the same patterns, even when you know better, even when you know the techniques, even when you know the work that needs to be done and she cuts through it. And so we go into something that I think is really important, which is the difference between accessing something at a high level and actually being able to live it in your real physical life because Jax Faulkner: What's my purpose? For me, was what's my mission? What's my mission? What am I here for? What's my mission? So in that moment, I was being asked, do you remember your mission? In that dimension, I was a ⁓ bald headed Zulu warrior, spear in hand, bone through nose. And in this timeline right now, I was a, I am a woman. Driving a car. Yes, I had a bald head. Kait Tregenza: Honestly, that's the biggest difference with performing spirituality or performing healing or performing all of this so-called higher perspective life. is, can you actually show me the results in your life? Does this benefit you or do you just know it all intellectually? And honestly, I've been, I've I'm just looking at you and I'm thinking, ⁓ my goodness, it's pretty similar. Jax Faulkner: at the time, was, I was, this is the longest my hair's been in over 10 years. I had a bald head. I had my septum done for whatever reason. It was a craving. I had no reason for it. And so the similarities was just like mind blowing. And this Zulu warrior was answering the question, spear in hand, posture upright. They're asking, do you remember your mission? I had a ⁓ vision of just this vision of souls awakening. And I said, yes. Kait Tregenza: I've had to pull myself up about those kinds of things as well. So I bring that to the conversation and Jax is so keen to go there. So without further ado, let's welcome her to the podcast. Let's get her on. Jax Faulkner: In that moment, I said yes in that dimension. I said yes in my body, in my system here. And that was the moment that changed the whole trajectory of my reality. So it was from then when I got out of the car, after that, it was only a 12 minute drive. I had snot pouring, I was crying. I had all these languages coming through. I didn't know what was going on. It was a very shocking moment. My partner at the time, he was literally in the car ahead of me and he looked at me and he was like, whoa, what is going on? Are you okay? Because I was crying, I had snot and I was shaking and I got out of the car and I was just like sat on the sidewalk and I said, I think I've taken way too many drugs in my life. Like I feel like it's caught up with me. I was terrified. I was terrified that my twenties was a bad idea. I genuinely was because it was not. It was not in my trajectory. Like I just, wasn't even in my awareness at all. And so it was just like, Oh my God, I I've really stuffed up. Hi. And so, yeah. And so it was that day where I had the, had to make a decision between, that just weird? Is that just a one-off? Is that real? Am I just crazy or Kait Tregenza: kind of love. Jax Faulkner: This could be what I've been asking for the whole time. Kait Tregenza: Mmm. Jax Faulkner: And in that timeline, that fork in the road moment, for me, decided to choose that this was my purpose. And literally... Kait Tregenza: I think that's the most important thing to from this here is that you then actively chose and you had multiple opportunities to choose differently before that sort of converged into your path. Jax Faulkner: Yes. multiple. Yes, I had more logical logical choices that made more sense versus illogical, but I chose the illogical. And then from there, yeah, it was in my body, but it was also when I could really check in with my logical life. I was bored. I was bored with where I was going. I was bored with making coffee every day. I was bored with stacking tables and chairs as my life just to build my life up. And I was like, what if that's just not my destiny? Kait Tregenza: because it was in your body. Jax Faulkner: But both could be my destiny, but I chose the illogical, the one that I didn't understand. And I just fully surrendered. I surrendered to the current and within the first month of that moment, I hosted an event. I've sold out 50 people event with this weird thing that's happened. And then from there, within the four months that followed, I went to various different locations in Australia to sold out events. And then. Kait Tregenza: Yeah. Jax Faulkner: hosted my first three day retreat that generated over $70,000. So needless to say, I completely left the employment industry completely and utterly within the first four months of that happening. And I have not looked back since. Kait Tregenza: Did you have a really easy way of making money before? You said you were struggling and you had money issues. Jax Faulkner: Oh, yeah, no, I was working. I was working as a waitress. I was working as a waitress earning, I would say between 600 and $800 a week. Kait Tregenza: And Jax Faulkner: Now, now it's not even, you know, it's just completely no. It's completely overwritten. My system is completely overwritten. I haven't, that was, ⁓ I would say six years ago. Kait Tregenza: And what do put this down to? How do you understand? What do you understand of what happened? Jax Faulkner: and tell you. I don't. I loyalty to what I don't understand. I guess what I really put it down to and I feel like it's very, we all have opportune moments and this is definitely something a very important conversation in this landscape of entrepreneurism as women is it comes back down to domestication and the willingness to set ourselves free from the thought forms that keep us domesticated because domestication is only a training. It's only a thought form. Kait Tregenza: Okay. Jax Faulkner: and we believe it time and time again. And one of them being safety, one of them being the baseline of survival and living a life trying to survive when we're already alive is very much a ⁓ dichotomy in our consciousness. It's two energetics that are colliding with one another. There's no clear frequency. There's no clear transmission. There's no clear direction or directive to the universe or the quantum field. We're always mixing them. want freedom, but we behave like we're caged. You cannot have one, they both cannot exist together. You're always going to be caged and desiring freedom versus living free and uncaging ourselves. There's always two. So what this comes down to is that as women especially, we have We are the oracles of the planet. are the ones who receive all of the advanced data and the intel. Yet, unfortunately, we're programmed to doubt ourselves. And so choosing between both and going all in and going, you know what, this is what's true and this is what's real, is what's coming through me. And I'm going for it as if like, there is nothing else that matters more versus Kait Tregenza: Mm. Jax Faulkner: ⁓ let's just see if anyone else agrees with me. Let's just see if it makes sense. So for me, I didn't sit there. I didn't I didn't even know what I was doing. I didn't even try to understand. I just went ahead with it, even though it didn't make sense, because I had this feeling that I this is new data that I have been that I have inherited. And it's my job to bring it through. It's new technology. And we as women have the ability to bring new technology online. But the problem is that we doubt ourselves. Kait Tregenza: Okay, I have so many questions. I am sensing that the value that had its opportunity to crystallize within you in a specific moment of maturity in your life was ever more powerful because of the juxtaposition of this was life before and I lived that and I knew the pain of that and I knew how hard I tried and then bang, lightning bolt. and now things are different and I'm taking action and it's very massively different. I am appreciating that because I was not somebody who received my gifts late in life. And I'm appreciating the starkness and the contrast of the before and after for you because you were able to live a full life prior and know that you could have continued to live that way if you had chosen. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Kait Tregenza: I'm appreciating that because I was never given these choices in this same way, in the same way. ⁓ I had this right from the moment I was born. Jax Faulkner: Mm. Kait Tregenza: And. actively shut it down, like actively went into the shutdown mode because as a child it is dangerous to be so separate from your herd. But I'm hearing from you, you got to a point of maturity where it's like it's dangerous to be part of the herd. And I'm really, I can really reflect and understand how freeing that would have been from, from your journey lived. Jax Faulkner: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Kait Tregenza: And I feel like that's why you you grabbed this freedom and you were like, show me everything you've got. Show me what I can do with this technology. Jax Faulkner: Yes, yes, there was that. Kait Tregenza: Because I speak about this technology, I call it the biotechnology of women. Because the biotechnology of men is very different. The biotechnology of women is very advanced, very developed. It just simply needs everyone to remember it and you know how to use it. There's no training manual required. That's what's so great about it. So I want to shift into that with you. Because as a woman, Jax Faulkner: Mmm. Yes. Yes, I love. Kait Tregenza: who came into this later in life, think you bring an enormous amount of hope, which is such a powerful currency, and you bring an enormous amount of capacity to know that these things are possible through the power of choice. And I always say your life changes at the speed of choice, and ⁓ you are proving that. So tell me about, from the moment you made this choice and you start uncovering and developing and Jax Faulkner: Yes. Yes. Kait Tregenza: learning your biotechnology. Don't go like what happened then, like just the felt experience in your body. I just want to shift into the understanding so that women can really feel the codes that you have and the activation points that you mastered in just that shift from this lightning bolt car moment that you, you know, and then you're in your body in a different way. It's activated. Right, can you take me back to that and then how you live differently from in the body? Jax Faulkner: Yes, I love that question. And I love your references, by the way. Thank you. Thank you for putting words to such. I feel like that's, yeah, it's a bit of very tangible words and I really appreciate that. The answer to your question. I believe the most powerful methodology for upgrades is opposition and noticing and relating to the experience of oppression and suppression. So through oppression and suppression is birthed for women, for me personally, as this very strong desire to protect what is sacred. and to protect what feels divine and what feels limitless. And so for me, in the body, first the decision is reflective. It's very reflective. When we talk about the line in the sand moment, that line in the sand for us to step over that, we must... Kait Tregenza: ⁓ Jax Faulkner: we must be willing to destroy all pleasantries. Essentially, it's not desire will not get us over that line. It's essentially this this forging of protection birth from oppression. So it means so much more to me than to step over that because I want a different life. It's the representation of of what are we truly here? What am I what do I feel in my body? What am I truly here to be a voice for? And it's always freedom and liberation. And that is a that's big. And the the when I say freedom and liberation, it's not from a sense of external external attainment, for example, or freedom life, because you have more money. It's it's that freedom from the cage, freedom from domestication. So for me, making that decision and the feeling of that in my body is it felt like an exhale because I finally had a chance. It's like I finally have a chance to be a voice for something so powerful by taking this really big, scary step or making this decision to choose a loyalty that I'm unfamiliar with, but my system is like craving it. And so that's what it felt like for me. It's this, it's so deep in me, pardon me. It's so deep in me to stand for something and to... Kait Tregenza: So let me guess, in accepting this mission for freedom and liberation, how did you get arrested? Did you go to lawsuits? you, how many legal battles did you have? How many senses of cages did you actually physically have to break out? Jax Faulkner: well. It starts with being very unfamiliar to the people that find you familiar. And the shifts and changes that have everything to do with that. It's it really is what you mentioned before about being a part of the herd that exists for all of us. And so stepping out as an A when we're older is actually quite terrifying. Kait Tregenza: Yes. Jax Faulkner: And so not only did ⁓ I step out, I was punished in some way. I was punished in the way of blasphemy and cruelty and all the things that traumatized me when I was in high school, like bullying. That was very much a baseline of that kind of experience. But... having made that decision, I was able to really notice that all of these experiences is the opposition that I'm here to stand, be a voice for. It strengthened my voice, it strengthened what I'm standing for and gearing me towards what is fairness, what is just, what is trust, what is truth, asking different questions that continues to help. me evolve in this direction because there was no plan B. Let's be honest. Taking a step over this line, there was no, ⁓ if it doesn't work out, I'm just going to kind of do what that is, just not an option. So it's kind of like a force field took me and went, okay, this is the direction we're going. Yes, I've been taken to court. I've even had my house raided by police at six in the morning. completely off guard as surprise. Yeah, so yes, I have and that was that was very recent. And so in that again, it just gives me more gusto, more grit, more grace. ⁓ And you know, it's all they're all learnings. But now nothing that is there's nothing that it's all exciting to me. I'm like, yes, this feels great. This feels like I'm on the path that I'm choosing. Kait Tregenza: I'm not surprised. I'm not surprised at all. Going back to this council in this courtroom that you saw, because I think that was a very specific, it was a very specific word that you said. So right from the moment that you said that, I was like, there's going to be legal stuff here. Like you have a legal ⁓ thread, right? So ⁓ what do you understand about your energetics? What do you understand about the note? that you are here to carry, sing, to transmit. Jax Faulkner: so far because it keeps unraveling and keeps unveiling. It keeps maturing like anything else. If there was a certain sigmi trial. Hmm. It's definitely, it's definitely in resonance to uncovering the truest and most purest form of freedom. as a soul, as an expression, as really along the lines of truly making the most of our time here. because it's very short, because it's a gift, because for whatever reason. So in the sense of in that moment when I was with the Council, the Council being of the ⁓ Galactic Federation and also ancestors of this Earth as well. In that moment the concept of awakening others is simply the reminding each other and reminding others of the purest definition of freedom and the most accessible definition of freedom and therefore then opening the gateway or opening the channels of more and more of us that have returned to this era gifted to feel safe and feel free. We are the freest we've ever been to actually be gifted and to remind each other of that. Kait Tregenza: What do you know, what have you come to understand about the forces that are enslaving us? What is your role specifically in the relationship to that slavery? Jax Faulkner: ⁓ Well, my relationship is to remind each other that the only thing enslaving us is our adherence to it, to slavery itself, because we're not slaves. We're actually the freest we've ever been. And so in terms of forces, I bring it back home to the authority we actually have versus what we're adhering to. without realizing it. Kait Tregenza: So for you, doesn't really matter about who this enemy is. fact, it's like make it, ⁓ make it nebulous, like make it disappear, make it, make it non-existent. Don't give it name, personality, status, anything, recognition, identification, because your identification with that, which is enslaving you is the slavery mechanism. Jax Faulkner: No, no. is what? Correct. Absolutely correct. It takes it all we're doing is disempowering our own authority by giving it to any other concept outside of ourselves. Any. It's the, it's the, I, I, you know, there's, ⁓ there's conversations and I've also believed this before is that I've had to protect myself in terms of energy. But then what if I was never in danger or what if, you know, I just choose to believe that I'm actually, am the protection. I am protection itself. So therefore I don't need protection. So it's just these, it's just the shift of the dialogue or the relationship to any opposition itself. It's like neutralizing that. And that's what my, that's what I love. I love sharing this with others in terms and the reason being is so we can remember that we are an authority. We are an authority. Kait Tregenza: How do you strengthen that when these terrible things, these really challenging things that you personally have gone through even recently, having your house raided, going through lawsuits, going through all of the things, you know, that, that chips away at you so deeply. How do you personally bounce back from that? How do you say, no, I am the authority here. Is it having a really good support network? Is it just yourself? Like that's amazing, you know. Jax Faulkner: Yeah, it can. The thing is, I have such a strong constitution with how I translate experiences, I trust life so much. I trust life simply because life has only ever proven to me how life is. And every single threshold, every expansion, every upgrade has always been on the back end of tension. It's always been the back end of a birth canal, the experience of rebirthing or the pain, essentially pain. To me, these kind of moments, there's, always have a question or I always wonder, Who am I going to be after this? This is going to be lit. And so I always have that, but it can chip away at you or it can add to you. So for me, every experience adds to me. It adds a ⁓ posture, it adds grit, it adds an expression that didn't exist before because I didn't know it was there without this thing happening. I have now, because of these experiences, ⁓ a stronger posture. Kait Tregenza: How do you get attached to it? Jax Faulkner: because I have, in that process, it's given me an opportunity to continue to develop, uphold a version of myself that I have desired to be anyways. So in those moments, in the subtleties of that, where I could literally, and not to say it didn't hurt, not to say I didn't cry, there was definitely moments of crying and questioning myself. I'm not to say that I'm completely immune, but in those moments of questioning myself, I'm like, hang on for a sec. What's happening here? And going, hmm, really? that going to move me forward? There's another thought that I can have. There's another belief. And so it's in those moments where it does get hard or the shivers or the nervousness or all of that. I always, always bring in, hang on for a sec, there's a version of me that I can replace this with right now. And I do that. Kait Tregenza: You have an incredible capacity to, I mean, you talk about it as consciousness grid, right? This, it's very different to the physical grid of just like keep on keeping going. Or is it, you know, or is it just exactly the same, but just happening in a different level of you? Jax Faulkner: Yeah, perhaps. ⁓ Perhaps. I definitely don't have ⁓ the physical grit. ⁓ No, I mean, yes, I see what you're saying. But yes, I feel like it is all, all very, very much the same. I think I just, I tend to access questions and thoughts that, that will add, like I said before, add to my value as a, my growth or my potential. another thing that helps me when I'm going through anything that's hectic, which is a lot, a lot, is I always wonder is like, I'm going first so I can help others through it too. So I kind of go into it as a student of the experience as well. Many different reasons, but I am a man. Pardon. Kait Tregenza: Do ever get really angry? Do you get angry at that? Do you get like this sense of injustice? Because part of what you're trying to unravel, I think, is injustice, is the lack of freedom. And like, I would assume that the fact that you're going forward and doing these things always first, there's that sense of like, it's just not fair. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Yes. Kait Tregenza: why is it always me? Why do I have to do this? Why can't the children step up and do it for themselves? Jax Faulkner: ⁓ no. Yeah, no, I love it. I'm here for it. That's what I feel like. It gives me purpose. It gives me, it takes me away. It moves me from being in it to peering at it from a place of feeling connected to evolution itself. I feel so connected to evolution. I feel very responsible for evolution itself. in anything that has anything to do with my life and what I can leave behind in terms of the seeds of consciousness or of the seeds of perspective. That's a very important, it's very important for me. And so I enjoy that accessing that ability or accessing that perspective that gives me a go. Okay, so let's look at this from this point of view. What's being, what am I learning from it? Like what am I seeing in terms of the structures that we're here to change. The current, I mean, because all it's showing me is what exists in the field right now, that I get to actually be a voice or an energy to shifting that in a way that is fair, in a way that doesn't fight back, in a way that I genuinely want to see the world become, where there's intentionality, there's presence, you know? So I look at that and I go, ooh, okay, cool. So. Kait Tregenza: Mmm. Jax Faulkner: Here's the next test. How can I choose the better version of myself? Because let's be real, babe. I am from a Filipino background and we are known to be very, ⁓ very harsh when it comes to things like this. We like to fight back. We were very fiery in my bloodlines, a very fiery bloodline. So I had to choose. And that's what excites me because I'm like, ⁓ yeah, I could get you, could hurt you. Or I could be a student to this and I could explore a version of me that would never exist without this opportunity. Kait Tregenza: I want to really pause and highlight to anyone who's listening something that I think is really, important. There is always an opportunity to wallow in your own self pity when things happen, when things happen to you, right? I guess what I'm hearing from you in your innate capability that like is coded in your capacity. I'm sure you've learned it. I'm sure you've mastered this. I'm sure you've been through many, many, you know, rings of, of, of, training to get to this, to this level of mastery, but the capacity to turn the chessboard and say, this is not to me, this is for me, but more importantly, this is for the universal collective that I am here that I have signed up for, that I have been an enthusiastic yes for. I need to move from the consciousness, victim consciousness that is all the way at the bottom of the ladder, all the way to the top, to the highest perspective that I can hold within my body. You've talked about posture and you've talked about structure a lot. I, somebody who has been working for around 10 years on my spine, it is because you can only hold the energy Jax Faulkner: Ugh. Kait Tregenza: to what your spinal skeletal structure can hold. If you wanna go higher, if you wanna hold more frequency, look at your spine, look at your posture. How are you holding your body? Because your body, and this comes back again to the technology of women. If you do not understand that your spine needs to be strong, not because you might get osteoporosis one day, like that's not what we're talking about. This is about how do you hold the... Jax Faulkner: and Mm-hmm. Kait Tregenza: the huge amount of energy that is coming from a higher frequency that you are ultimately already existing at, but that you're not there because your spine, your posture cannot hold it. And so what I'm hearing from you is you've said a number of different things in this conversation. I have the dedication to getting up at 5 a.m. to train every day. working on your posture, working on your muscular system, working on your skeletal system, working on your strength. ⁓ You've spoken about in a few parts of yours that you've spoken about what you eat, how you eat, the way in which you keep company. So it's like all of these internal things. you've spoken about these structures and ⁓ the supporting infrastructure around you. And I think when you are someone who you identify as a shaman, but you're also part of these ⁓ galactic connections, right? So you're this bridge, you can only be a bridge if you are strong enough to hold that channel, right? Nobody wants to be walking across the bridge that will crumble. And I think what I'm learning from you and what I'm picking up from your energetic signature is that you yourself know how to climb your own ladder. And that's actually rare because there are lots of channels or there are lots of medicine women under the umbrella of healers of any kind. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Kait Tregenza: that might be able to be in these higher frequencies but their own personal life is not going that great. ⁓ I'm just wondering if this is something that you've learned like to to strengthen the bridge that you are or if it's an innate thing for you and and maybe what advice you would have for for women who are really great at holding that energy and knowing the wisdom whether it's you know Jax Faulkner: Mm-hmm. Kait Tregenza: wherever they're pulling that from, whether it's just their own selves or something else, but they're not seeing that translate into their physical reality, into their life. Jax Faulkner: Yeah, I love this question so much because it is such a foundation for anything and everything that I do. And you could ask any person that knows me personally, even especially my husband. And the greatest compliment I could get in my whole life is for my husband to say, who you see online is who you she is. Because I, I believe in congruency. I believe in congruency down to the nth degree because I wonder what is it all for if it cannot be applied or if it isn't applied? Like what are we actually sharing if we cannot ground it in, if we cannot be living examples of the work or the channeling or the messages that come through? Messages of possibility with impossibility within our field is not true. It's a performance. So for me, it's just living a life where I am always my first client or the guinea pig, so to speak. And it applies everywhere. There is, mean, I notice it in my own relationship and the willingness, I guess, for myself and my husband, bless his cotton socks, for being with someone like me who will. ⁓ voice where there's incongruency in anywhere, know, so and in myself especially. But yeah, that's that's the answer to my question to that question is that congruency is the utmost priority. Kait Tregenza: So let's translate that a little bit more for somebody who is in that pain of like, I can access energy like no one else or I'm just as good as the best, but I can't find two cents to rub together. What's the incongruency there? Jax Faulkner: Yeah. Yeah. Yes. I get you. Yes. So the incongruency is looking at, well, look at every area of your life. you, for those of us that are tapped into energy, looking at every area of our life and seeing where there's ⁓ tension and cleaning it up. So whether that's in relationship with a parent or a friend, or perhaps going at not fulfilling on our word for anything. or that it could be anything and i mean it's like the willingness to go through your whole life and go okay so hmm i i know or i i've channeled the possibility of great wealth but i still owe some money somewhere and i've ignored it and thinking that it doesn't matter it matters and looking at perhaps when you've said something to someone about, you know, borrowing a pen and you haven't returned it. return it and clean that transmission that clears it. So where there's resistance anywhere, there's resistance everywhere. So that's the only thing that, that the only distance between who we are and where we want to be is simply the, the gap in between is noticing where the resistance are or what we're tolerating. Kait Tregenza: I'm just anticipating questions that people would be asking in hearing this. So it's like, yeah, I own money, but I don't have it to pay. What then? Jax Faulkner: Yeah. Yeah, well, I mean, that's the that's the thing you it's the define have it define what paying it back means it could simply be like, Hey, yo, I, I am so sorry that I haven't actually acknowledged that I owe you this. Would you accept $5 a week? ⁓ Kait Tregenza: Got it. So it's not, it's just going for it. Go into it, deal with it. Jax Faulkner: You know, it's like it's the definition. It's it's, it's just honor and honor. Yeah, it's essentially if we want to really bring it down, it's honor. And it's like, okay, I honor you for whether it's a big company, we have a story around, well, they make so much money and blah, blah, blah. Is that is that a consciousness that you want to bring forth to the future? So, you know, the dysregulation between the information that we see, see or receive versus the embodiment of that. It's very different. And so our job is to be embodied in that information by by living the future or living this information, clearing the residue of anything that doesn't align, you know, and one of the things I, ⁓ you know, I I am so proud of Clearing is the relationship that I had with my mother that I justified for so long. I justified the indifference, I justified the ruptures, just like, yeah, no, she did this to me as a child or this didn't work out. And fortunately, within the few years before she passed away, which we didn't know was gonna happen, I was like, you know what? If that's probably the thing, that's probably the thing that I need to actually ⁓ neutralize and alchemize. And so I didn't ignore it. And I did everything in my power to clean it up. And I did that again, more opened up. So this is just living our life. That's, I think that is one of the biggest things that is an illusion is that we, so we, we, we believe that our next level is going to be. outside of us or over there or in the future or accessing this outside of it. It's not. It's in the subtleties and noticing what is not in alignment with that data. and going, okay, I need to clean that out. I need to call my ex-boyfriend from three years ago and apologize for hurting his feelings. It really gets to be, it has to be that simple. It cannot be more than that. It cannot be more skills. It cannot be ignoring these really important, important ⁓ fragments of what makes us who we are. Kait Tregenza: Yeah. So when you are accepting of a level of truth and authenticity to be able to see yourself as you actually are, not as what you want to be or desire others to see you as when you truly sit and like, I don't do this super well and it's a pattern for me. And I've hurt a number of people in this way and I have to stop that. I have to make amends for that. to, I think the step to that is like radical responsibility, true accountability, really seeing yourself in the mirror and owning that and being like, and it's okay. am willing to make the change. Like I'm willing to forgive myself in a way that's easier than if you have a string of things where actually people weren't great to you. Jax Faulkner: Mmm. Kait Tregenza: and that's what's keeping you back? Or would you say, no, it's still yours to clean up? Jax Faulkner: Yeah, it's energy. It's all energy. there's if there's opposing energy in our system. That's what's the block. So rather than if someone's done something to you, and rather than it's, it's having the ability to, okay, notice that, okay, the energy that I may have or may be present is a victim, and not acknowledging, perhaps the growth. and the empowerment I've learned from that moment or perhaps where can I thank them? And that was the biggest thing that I learned with my mother rather than go, you know, she did all this stuff to me and I could have like just, it was so easy for me to go, nah, wipe my hands clean. What was it? Not really. Energetically, there was something there. And so had to address that. And what I noticed was that I was holding her hostage. to a version of her that she couldn't fulfill. So therefore then, where have I made my whole life wrong? I looked at my children and went, actually they're lit. They're lit because of her. I'm serving at this level because of her, because of everything that happened. So instead of saying, you know, blaming her, I thanked her. I was like, whoa, I didn't even realize. Wow, you held your end of the soul bargain. Thank you, thank you. So in that sense, the reason why we can continue going down that thread or feeling like everything's happening to us is because we haven't acknowledged our own evolution. And perhaps in that moment when we do, we could just go, whoa, without that happening, I wouldn't have learnt this. Or if that didn't happen, wow, everything is actually really cool because of that. Kait Tregenza: Right. My relationship with my mother has been ⁓ the, I would say it's the, it's the common gift that just keeps giving. Jax Faulkner: Ha! Yep. Kait Tregenza: in the sense that it's, feel like, and I know so many women who probably gonna resonate with what I'm saying is like, you get to this point in this relationship with her and you're like, it's neutral, I'm so thankful, I get it, I see it. Wow, I'm this person because of her, thank you. And then I think. somehow you come back into the relationship with this new found like, I'm so grateful for my mom. And then you meet your mom and who she actually continues to still be. And you're like, whoa, the dissonance is like, is so stark. And I have waited a lot of the time for her to come up and to be like, yeah, like we exist here now. Jax Faulkner: Hmm. Mm-hmm. Hmm. Kait Tregenza: We're healed, we're happy, like this is good. And it'll be another thing, like whether it's a major betrayal or whatever it may be. And I feel like what's fascinating for me in the last like probably 15 years that I've, like, I'm like, how am I still here? Genuinely, 15 years, I'm always doing this mother work. Jax Faulkner: Mm-hmm. Kait Tregenza: And then having my own child brought up all of the stuff that I thought I had first, like closed off in this deeper, more visceral way and this more felt way from a different perspective of like, well, now I'm the mother and like, how could I accept this? And it, you know, and it churns over and over and over. And I think everybody has that one issue that like they've been so attentive to and tending to for Jax Faulkner: Mm-hmm. Kait Tregenza: years, decades, and it doesn't seem to like shift out. Could you offer a perspective of why this is and how to actually get out of this looping? Jax Faulkner: Yes, I love this question because this was definitely present for me, similar, the cycle, the non-talking, the, you know, I upset her ⁓ or something like that. And we just keep cycling over and over again. One thing that my ex said ⁓ that was very poignant, because I met that moment with mom again. This was before we completely healed everything. And he said, you know, You just got to see her as a tantruming child. And it made me realize that, her consciousness is at capacity with what she was given in terms of a system. That started me thinking different things because I gave her too much responsibility. I put so much responsibility on her consciousness and her awareness that just wasn't just wasn't her capacity. And so I was like, okay, I'll go realize that, you know, I am, I came here with a whole new set of rules. I knew questions and a system, upgraded system. But the thing that, that completely cleared everything was number one, I, yes, I was aware and I was like, wow, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. And I had to notice the reason why she had her patterns for so long. was because I held her hostage for so long. So in her system, she held a lot of shame. So she was only operating from a place of protection and deflection and because that's what shame does. and she only in her mind and her reality, I hated her in her unconscious because of what she did in the past. So that's how she behaved. She would retract, she would act out. as if we're always fighting because in her system, she thought she just completely let me down. So what I did differently was that my birthday that was coming ahead, because it took me about a year of going through all of this from one birthday to the next birthday. And I decided that on my next birthday, I was going to have a party in the park and invite my mum. And then the whole day was about thanking her. So everybody that was there had been impacted by my work. And so on this day, instead of celebrating me, we celebrated her. And they handed around the mic and said, you know, because of you, I wanted her to know that she had no reason to hold shame anymore. And I was not holding that with her. And I wanted her to know that Kait Tregenza: ⁓ Jax Faulkner: because of her decisions in this life, regardless of whether she regretted it or not, they were perfect. And every person that shared was, there was some transformation that happened for them in my work or in my events or working with me. And they thanked her for it because if she had done anything different, their life would not have changed. My children were there also. And in that moment, she let it all go. There was nothing for her to hold onto anymore. Kait Tregenza: Hmm. Jax Faulkner: that was protecting herself, she felt equal to me. So, because before then I was saying things that would, that a little bit more conscious or a little, and she just didn't get it. And it felt like a, it felt like a separation. But this time I was like, no, no, because of you, I am doing this. Because of you, I am who I am. And then, from never understanding my work or never celebrating my work, she became my number one greatest fan. Cause she's in her system, she's like, wow, I did this. I did this. That's my daughter. My daughter is changing a lot because I did this. was just a different, it was just accessing for her a whole new, it was like basically my work living inside of her now. Kait Tregenza: Yeah, I think what's really coming up for me in response to what you're saying is I get, I must get a lot out of holding the superior ⁓ position on that hierarchy because it is not the first time that I have tried to elevate my mother to the mother position. And there's a subconscious battle that continues to go like, no, you will not. Jax Faulkner: Mm-hmm. Kait Tregenza: ⁓ you will not occupy the position of my mother. ⁓ I will not let you, you didn't do enough for me to allow you to be my mother. I will not allow it. You will not. Jax Faulkner: Yeah. and Woof. ⁓ my god, I'm going to have Kait Tregenza: And, um, and literally, I don't know how many times, how many iterations every time I do it, I find a new layer and a new meaning. And I am, I remember the first time that I did this was 2017. I was in India and this was the first time that I had like really seen this dynamic between my, my mother and my parents and I, and how I would not allow them to be my parents. Like I refused because I was like the behaviors that you have exhibited. do not qualify you to be in the position of someone who was supposed to love me unconditionally. So you are fired. And I reinstated them and reinstated them and like, know, it's, it's 2006. So we've been there here for like nearly 10 years, right? And what came up for me in hearing you have a party celebrating your mother and like putting a microphone in your hand and everybody in your orbit's hand, like Jax Faulkner: Yes. Kait Tregenza: my whole body was like, no, no. And I love, I'm sharing this because I, this is data, this is information, this is the access point for freedom, right? This is not about me throwing a tantrum. This is about a part of me that is still not available to be in any celebration of my mother. And therefore, Jax Faulkner: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Kait Tregenza: I can't celebrate myself for the full of 6M because she is 50 % of my DNA. Jax Faulkner: ⁓ Yes, yes, yes. One of the things that helped me through that, because I get it, was I actually questioned the label itself. I questioned all labels. I questioned label a friend. Who what defines that? Where is that dictionary? Where is that manual? What defines mother? What defines father? Who put them who put us in these positions? I don't remember receiving a certification when I gave birth. I'm just a woman that gave birth to another human and trying to figure it out. So therefore then my mother was just a young woman who gave birth and trying to figure it out. And I was like, wow, that's really cruel. These labels and these things, again, the system, the domestication, so to speak, that helped me in going, oh, you're just another soul that is just happened to give birth to me or bring me into this, well, I had to come here somehow. And then you played this role as a soul, as opposed to parent, as opposed to hierarchy or anything like that on a very even playing ground, a soul to soul to soul to soul as we all come here. So we've got to be birthed somehow. It just happened to be through. Kait Tregenza: Mm. Jax Faulkner: another woman or another girl, so to speak. Another womb. Kait Tregenza: I want to. it's interesting right because if you strip away the power of mother it gives you permission because you're a mother I'm a mother it gives you permission to be a human who birthed another human and that you're doing it the way you personally think that you should and it gives you an opportunity to also say so where are you parenting Jax Faulkner: Mmm. Kait Tregenza: in the way that you wish you were parented that might or might not be appropriate for the child who's in front of you. And maybe your mother parented you the way she wanted to be parented by somebody else and not the child that was in front of you, right? So the, the, the, the, the deep powering of the label as you're talking about it, it's like, Jax Faulkner: you ⁓ yeah, yeah, correct. Kait Tregenza: So if everybody's just doing their goddamn best. Jax Faulkner: Literally, we are. We're doing our best. Kait Tregenza: I think the challenge, yeah. And I think the challenge is understanding that intellectually, understanding that emotionally, psychologically, all of the things, but then your work is about releasing that from the body. So how would you move from that intellectual idea of, okay, well, let's reframe the idea of mother, that, that, that. The tantruming child is inside of this body. It's not inside of the head, right? So how do you then connect those two things in your specific way? Jax Faulkner: So I believe the the way that our body communicates is behaviorally. So it's simply just a it's just slowing down to check in what behavior that is either just a blanket behavior that I'm just used to doing because that's what I'm used to versus a conscious how can I respond to this differently? How can what would I usually do in this case, which would be to ⁓ You know, pretty much swear and just go, you know what, instead that moment when she did have that little Tanti, usually I would just go F you done, not talking to you. That's my usual. That's, that's my usual every time it happened. This time I said, no, you're not getting away with this. I love you too much. You know, not, we're not doing this anymore. I just love you too much. You're having a little tantrum. I get it. Talk to me when you're ready. but I'm not not loving you anymore. I just stopped. I canceled not loving her anymore because I felt irresponsible in my events if I'm talking about love and I'm taking love away from anyone, especially my mother. So at that moment it was like, actually, no, I see what's happening here. I love you. I love you more than ever. You can have your little moment. where this is not, you I just had to shift my behavior. Kait Tregenza: Yeah, so how does that not make you the superior operator? Jax Faulkner: It to me, it's neither. It's not it's just remaining in love. It's remaining in ⁓ shifting what used to be and what's not working because it's hurtful that what was it was it was separation and then going, you know what, I can see what's happening here. But wait, I'm going to love you more. We're not gonna we're not going to fall out of love in this moment because of this moment. So it's really rather just going you know what I could the usual Filipino thing, or no, actually I see what's happening here. It's like when our child actually tantrums. It's just like, get the energy out of your body. I love you. Yeah. Kait Tregenza: I know, I am asking how, how is it not that you are in the position of the parent when you're seeing your mother as a child who's tantruming? Like. Jax Faulkner: It became that, yeah. Yeah, it became that because perhaps it was her child tantruming. That was probably the part of her that never was loved ever. It was probably the part of her that was actually rejected her whole life. So she never got that from anyone. So as another soul to soul, I get to give that to her because I have the capacity for that. Kait Tregenza: Yeah. I guess that's something that I could learn to have more grace over is just because you have a moment. I mean, in my case, it's most of the moments, but just because you have a moment of being able to function in a way that holds the energy more consciously or maturely doesn't make the person in front of you a child. It makes part of them that's tantruming, seeking love, just needing to be met, that you can choose to just simply be someone in that moment without making their entire being into a child. Jax Faulkner: Yes, yes, I love the way that you've articulated that. It's meeting the moment. Kait Tregenza: And when you were doing this party for your mom. Did you feel pride? Like, did you feel like, ⁓ I shouldn't have to do this or this shouldn't be about her or like, did you have to process anything like that at any point in your relationship? This like pride that you had between you and your, your mom and the relationship status that you held within that. Jax Faulkner: For me, the new awareness that came through was exciting to me because I'd never had that before. so in the preparation of the party, I was just excited. I felt like I was going to give her a surprise. And whether she liked it or not, it was happening. The fact that my children were there also to witness it, I felt like that was really special. And I mean everyone that was there that witnessed it, their lives changed as well in some way, shape or form. Like the narrative got to shift then. So for me it was again, like I said before, I'm very, I feel very responsible for evolution itself. So it was, I felt very connected to being a maestro in that moment for evolution itself. Kait Tregenza: Got it. Yeah, it's fascinating. And how many years or months or what was the time period between that party and her passing away? Jax Faulkner: I believe it was like three or four years. So it wasn't that. Yes, it was beautiful. Yeah, it was, we became friends. Kait Tregenza: Okay, so you had some time to actually experience the healed relationship as well. Jax Faulkner: became friends and that was stunning you know it was just our the way that we we softened something softened from there and there was no expectation anymore it was just like hey like we were friends for the first time in our life and it was really it was really cool so yeah i'm very grateful for that and even more so that she ended up moving in with me six months before she passed away again we didn't know she was going to pass away Kait Tregenza: Mm. Jax Faulkner: But just from circumstances in her life, I said, come move in with me. I gave her my room and set her up and just let her live the lux life. And then within six months she'd passed away. So I was like, whoa, how is that for blessings in disguise? Kait Tregenza: Yeah, that's beautiful. I'm so happy for you. really like that. That feels like so like this deepest completion. Jax Faulkner: Yes, very much so, very much so because I always wonder what it would have been like if I hadn't, if none of that have happened and therefore then my constitution feeling regret perhaps of like knowing that I could have, could have, yeah I just, yeah, yeah, yeah. Kait Tregenza: I want to pivot, ⁓ just ask a few extra more questions about the work that you do in light language in that relationship and, and your work with more galactic forces. ⁓ Because you also identify more as a shaman, more as someone who works in the body. So how do you fuse these two, these two forces that in indigenous culture have always been one, but maybe in more than near spiritual space have been like quite separate, ⁓ I guess, subsections of sort of this so-called spiritual space. What is the sort of the feeling of your work and how, say you have somebody who comes to you and, you know, is looking for identification with their mission, what's the starting point for them? Jax Faulkner: So essentially, if someone was to come to me and ask about their mission, I feel like it's rather a, I mean, it would be quite a detailed experience to sit in what really drives them and what their passion is. There's a bit of a mix. with anyone's different, but I connect with the Pleiadian transmission. Pleiades is very, and I don't know why. ⁓ I don't have a lot of clarity. Pardon me. Kait Tregenza: In some water. Jax Faulkner: No, all good. I don't know why I resonate with Pleiades. I don't have a wild story about that. But what I do tend to do is to figure out or for someone to feel clear on their mission, it really is about a ⁓ sequence of elimination and really looking at, I truly believe that we all have access to data. Kait Tregenza: Okay. You Jax Faulkner: and information through our own connection with the field itself. So essentially we would go, okay, so let's look at what you're not content with. Let's look at what gets to go and also just going deeper into the subtleties of their reality because the clarity of their mission won't be because of me. It won't be because I've said something, it won't be because I've told them that they're this and that, no way, that's not even close. It's going to be because of because of their clarity. So therefore then we look at and assess every area of their life that matters and we refine it and we clear it. We clear their relationship with the way that they nourish their bodies and the way they treat their bodies and the way. So it's very functional, it's very tangible and like okay so well that relationship needs to be cleaned up because it's something that keeps coming up for them for example. So it's very ⁓ pragmatic work we do. Kait Tregenza: Yeah. So you would ask about in the case of me and I just revealed to you my mother is this form of like constant looping. That would be your starting point basically. Jax Faulkner: 100%. Kait Tregenza: Yeah. Okay. And are you channeling? Jax Faulkner: Only because it's in your field, it's alive. It's an alive question mark in your field for you. Not because it's wrong. Not because I, you know, there's no judgment. It's just like, it's something that's there. Kait Tregenza: So then I have a follow-up question. What if it's a neutral for me, but not a good relationship? Jax Faulkner: that again, that comes down. If it feels neutral for you, and you've made peace with it on every subatomic level of your energy center, that's perfect. If the thing is, is that you'd know, in the sense of how you move in the world now, there'd be no resistance anyway. Kait Tregenza: Is that still alive? Yeah, that's a good clarification point. Jax Faulkner: Yeah, so you'd be like, you wouldn't even be talking to me. You'd be like, no, I'm probably living my best life. You know, it'd be like that. Kait Tregenza: Okay. And then, so you, you, you map that out almost like segment by segment by segment, and then you overlap that with what they truly desire to have. Jax Faulkner: ⁓ yes and no, because sometimes desire is just, mean, in terms of, of someone's desire, so to speak, that is a, I guess it's, it's there, but it's not, ⁓ it can move and change. So what I discover with each layer is that it opens up a whole nother dialogue for them or a whole nother opportunity. So we kind of just go step by step in a direction. Because at each moment and each phase, there's a whole new discovery that they didn't know existed. Kait Tregenza: I wanted to end the with given that you are this field worker, this collective worker, ⁓ I wanted to see if was any message that was coming ⁓ at this time that you feeling really heavy in ⁓ your field, in your awareness that feel could be shared for the benefit of these listeners who are tuned into, to this podcast episode. Jax Faulkner: Yeah. Congruency is a priority. The energies right now in the field, in the cosmic ⁓ landscape, all of these movements, these shifts that have recently happened, aka the concept of the firehorse, that essentially all that is, is the bandwidth of energy that we're in at the moment is at a fastest pace. So we are we have the ability to move in a direction in a faster pace, but the clarity of that is what's important. So congruency is all that is, it's not a judgment. Congruency is like, it's an energetic refinement and precision in the direction we desire to go. Our desires are not the goal. The precision in our actions and the congruency should be the goal. And then the desires to sit in there waiting for us. Kait Tregenza: Mm. Jax Faulkner: That's where we've got to switch. So it's when we can get rooted, more rooted than ever in really noticing that, cleaning that up. That is how we get there anywhere faster. Kait Tregenza: Which means you need a lot of honesty. Which means you need a lot of capacity to sit with things that you might not like. Might not like to know. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Yes. Yes. It has to be. Yes. And humility. Humility is beautiful. Humility is what's going to move us forward as a collective. Kait Tregenza: pulling your head out of the sand. Mmm. I have learned a lot in this conversation. The precision. of And the refinement of my congruence now needs to take into account anywhere where I am still not taking full, ruthless responsibility and accountability for the role that I play in each relationship that I have, but also in each action that I take is every time that I, you know, Jax Faulkner: Mmm. Kait Tregenza: Am I congruent when I order my coffee? Is that a congruency in the way that I'm speaking to that person, in the way that I handed the money, in the way all of these kinds of things? I think that it's so easy to say, well, it's not me, right? The much harder life to be living is not to swing the other way and to go into like, well, everything's my fault and it's just all my fault, right? ⁓ Jax Faulkner: Mm. Mm-hmm. Kait Tregenza: but to strike that middle balance of like, I am the only person here who can change my life and to understand the absolute power of that statement. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Yes. Kait Tregenza: That's what I've really picked up from you and really absorbed from you is that you are a person who believes in the true power of you as a creator of your own reality and the reality of anyone who comes into your. Jax Faulkner: Hmm. Yeah. Amazing. Your articulation is exquisite. ⁓ Kait Tregenza: So thank you. I have to have some skills as a podcaster at some point. Jax Faulkner: I love them! Kait Tregenza: Well, thank you very much. My little friend and I are excited to be in your orbit. I love it when she wants to come into the studio with the guests because she's such a little absorber. And that's the other thing about these kids that are born recently. like, it gives you a lot more grace going back to the conversation. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Kait Tregenza: about our mothers and really looping that off is like, if I can understand the advancement of the souls that are coming in at this point in time in the extraordinary way and the leap that they are beyond me and what I can do, then maybe that's the same as what our mothers felt but didn't have. the culture or the society or the, you know, bandwidth to put words to or to articulate or to even understand. And for anyone listening, maybe that's your gateway, the portal into grace. Jax Faulkner: Yes. Mmm, I love it. I got goosebumps again. Kait Tregenza: Jax, thank you so much for your time. ⁓ good. Well, maybe it's just the air conditioning. Jax Faulkner: No, that's you, it's definitely you. Kait Tregenza: Jax tell us how to find you. How do we connect with you? How do we work with you? How do we come into your world? Jax Faulkner: I best way I would say is to literally just hit follow on Instagram at Jax Legacy Era. That is where everything is. We can say connected there. You can see the work. Also, my bio has all of the links for website, all that jazz. So head on over to Instagram and find me there. Kait Tregenza: and you have a retreat coming up. Tell us about that. Jax Faulkner: I do. have a facility. So I host one day advanced facilitator retreats. Again, we the body of work is the custodial field method, which I created, curated, know, channeled and mastered over time. So I'm hosting that retreat on the 17th of May, 2026. I only have one space left. So yeah, that resonates. Reach out to me if you're a facilitator and would love to advance your skill set with the field. Kait Tregenza: Amazing, amazing. Thank you so much for your time today. You are a true gift to this world. Thank you for accepting the choice to be activated to come to do this. Your path is not easy, but it is worthy. And we are all grateful for the work that you do, for the note that you hold, for the transmissions that you embody and emit. You are a light, and we are so grateful. Jax Faulkner: Thanks. Thank you so much. This has definitely been one of my favorite podcasts to date. I appreciate you so much. It's so good. I can't wait to hear it again. Kait Tregenza: Yay! We did it! All right.