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What I would tell my fat, sad, depressed, unattracted to anything but processed food self if I could have gone back · Connor with Honor: AI, Real Estate and Real Life

• 0:00
  SPEAKER_00: If I were given the opportunity to have talked to myself years ago and I grew up as a fat kid, it all started back in the late 70s when fat was vilified as the reason why the world and the United States was getting fatter.
• 0:15
  SPEAKER_00: And if you were around at that time, I know my mom was always trying to lose 30 to 40 pounds, and it came to a point where I, of course, started eating what she was eating, and then the weight came on, so then I got to eat more of the high sugary, high carb, zero fat foods, and of course the rest is history.
• 0:36
  SPEAKER_00: If I would have had the wherewithal to talk to myself back then, the kid probably wouldn't have listened because sugary stuff just tastes so great.
• 0:44
  SPEAKER_00: But looking back, and this goes out to all of you that are in a particular place and maybe asked what I would do, but I can't give you that advice realistically.
• 0:55
  SPEAKER_00: I can tell you what I did or the conversation I would have with myself, but you have to talk to your doctor, medical professional, before embarking on anything.
• 1:03
  SPEAKER_00: So this is for my uh retainment.
• 1:06
  SPEAKER_00: But if I would have had to do it again, talking to myself, it would have probably started with getting into a doctor and looking at my hormone levels, especially if I was somebody that was maybe in better shape younger and then started to get fat as an older adult male.
• 1:28
  SPEAKER_00: If you have been fat for a long time, then the conversation's a little bit different.
• 1:34
  SPEAKER_00: It's going to really come down to maybe less of a change in your hormones, but maybe more of some kind of a habitual commitment to becoming a food addict or being addicted to food and eating way too much.
• 1:49
  SPEAKER_00: So if I had the discussion, it would be honor get your levels checked for your hormones.
• 1:55
  SPEAKER_00: And then I would have discovered at that time that I was at the very low end of what's considered normal, and then doing more and more research about testosterone therapy and these things, I actually discovered that this, and actually having started it with a doctor, sat down with the doctor, talked to them, I would have advised myself of doing that a lot earlier than in my 50s.
• 2:20
  SPEAKER_00: Having said that, I would have also done a lot more research and figured out the fasting thing, because people say while it's a way of life that is unsustainable, for me it's very sustainable.
• 2:34
  SPEAKER_00: A lot of people told me over time that it's just something they can't do.
• 2:37
  SPEAKER_00: They can't go without eating.
• 2:39
  SPEAKER_00: Well, I understand that.
• 2:41
  SPEAKER_00: Have you ever tried going without eating?
• 2:43
  SPEAKER_00: And then realizing that I'm able to still put on amazing amounts of muscle with a therapeutic dose of where I am with the testosterone plus the workout commitment I've made, I would have started that a long, long time ago a lot sooner than I actually did.
• 3:03
  SPEAKER_00: Some of the other conversations would be about making sure if you have the wherewithal and you go talk to your doctor, if they are against what you are planning to do, you can definitely provide them online research that's going to counter their positions.
• 3:22
  SPEAKER_00: Now, having said that, this is something that people fail to do.
• 3:27
  SPEAKER_00: They go to their doctor, just like I went to a regular, normal general practitioner, he saw my testosterone level being above the high end of what's considered normal, and he had a lot to say about that.
• 3:44
  SPEAKER_00: He explained to me how this is going to cause prostate cancer, how this is going to cause me to become very sick, it's going to cause heart disease, high blood pressure, I'm going to have high hemocrit, uh, hemorrhaging my blood, red blood cells, basically, very oxygenated blood, but actually to a high point that I could create issues with my blood, causing it to become more thick, causing a bigger chance of heart attacks and heart disease.
• 4:16
  SPEAKER_00: That was the explanation he gave me.
• 4:18
  SPEAKER_00: Then he started down the estrogen route, saying that this excess of testosterone is now created.
• 4:25
  SPEAKER_00: He didn't run the test, but I can verify that definitely my estrogen has been high in the past when I was less frequent in dosing of the testosterone.
• 4:37
  SPEAKER_00: The more frequently I inject just a smaller amount, but get that more close to a normal uh testosterone response if my system wasn't damaged and I was still creating the same amount in my teens, everything would have changed.
• 4:54
  SPEAKER_00: But when a male gets to 30, typically they start to lose the body's natural ability to produce testosterone.
• 5:04
  SPEAKER_00: And again, looking at the different things, this is environmental factors, there's age-related factors.
• 5:10
  SPEAKER_00: If you're a banged-up motor comp like I was, there's some surgery issues if you've had them, there's painkillers that you are taking for a period of time.
• 5:19
  SPEAKER_00: And then if you drink alcohol, that slams it into the toilet.
• 5:23
  SPEAKER_00: If you're eating a bunch of crap all the time, processed food, again, that's killing testosterone as well.
• 5:28
  SPEAKER_00: These are all changes that I had to basically tell the doctor that my lifestyle, as fat as I was at 365 pounds, he was so much happier that that's where I was.
• 5:44
  SPEAKER_00: And if my testosterone would have been the low end of normal, he would have not even mentioned it.
• 5:51
  SPEAKER_00: But because I went in knowing, and then also I did my research too, so I was able to provide him paperwork and documents and references showing that causation isn't correlation with regard to some of the things that he talked about.
• 6:08
  SPEAKER_00: And again, with the other items that he spoke about, you have to do your research, but I also realized that those things are fixed very easily depending on dosage and how frequently.
• 6:22
  SPEAKER_00: Testosterone is a hormone.
• 6:26
  SPEAKER_00: Men need testosterone, women have much less.
• 6:30
  SPEAKER_00: But as far as males go and muscle goes and muscle equated to longevity, that would be part of that conversation I would have as well.
• 6:38
  SPEAKER_00: People frequently don't talk to their medical providers because of intimidation.
• 6:43
  SPEAKER_00: They don't mention things to them that they've discovered, but I think it's okay.
• 6:48
  SPEAKER_00: And then provide them with references.
• 6:51
  SPEAKER_00: You're already paying for the appointment.
• 6:53
  SPEAKER_00: You might as well let them know what you found out.
• 6:55
  SPEAKER_00: And I understand they've been to medical school and all of those other countless hours and dedication to make people's lives better, but it always doesn't mean that they know the absolute best.
• 7:08
  SPEAKER_00: So if they're telling you something that you've learned differently, then maybe ask them or show them what you've learned and see if that's something that is somewhere in the realm of possibility or if it's just going to be for fun.
• 7:25
  SPEAKER_00: That would be part of the conversation I had with myself.
• 7:28
  SPEAKER_00: I would say, you need to look at your hormones.
• 7:30
  SPEAKER_00: So anyway, at 365 pounds, sitting here in front of this doctor, as he was telling me my testosterone's high and it's going to cause all these issues.
• 7:38
  SPEAKER_00: I said, you know, Doc, I appreciate that, but I've been lethargic.
• 7:42
  SPEAKER_00: I've just started feeling better.
• 7:44
  SPEAKER_00: I've started working out again, which I wasn't consistent in any kind of workout.
• 7:50
  SPEAKER_00: So at 365, I'm in his office, high blood pressure, him saying that the testosterone is gonna is going to exacerbate that.
• 7:57
  SPEAKER_00: All these other things, I said, I'm still going to do it.
• 8:01
  SPEAKER_00: He said, Well, I don't recommend it.
• 8:02
  SPEAKER_00: I say, I understand.
• 8:03
  SPEAKER_00: I have another doctor, my another doctor that's a hormone doctor, and I can recommend them, you can find them online, but actually sat down with me, and this was in a real office, not in a virtual setting, so he could check me out completely.
• 8:18
  SPEAKER_00: And he sat down, he explained to me, he said, Do you want to have kids anymore?
• 8:22
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, No.
• 8:23
  SPEAKER_00: He said, Well, that's probably better because if you start taking testosterone from an outside source, usually you're gonna stop producing it the way that you were.
• 8:36
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, Okay.
• 8:37
  SPEAKER_00: He said, also, if you're concerned about your testicular size, then there could be an issue with that if you start taking just testosterone.
• 8:46
  SPEAKER_00: And there's something else you can take with it that changes and makes everything continue to function.
• 8:52
  SPEAKER_00: But if you just take that, then you could get some atrophy because the testicles don't produce.
• 8:56
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, Does that mean he said, well, your balls could get a little smaller?
• 8:59
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, Well, that's okay, no issue with that.
• 9:02
  SPEAKER_00: So we continued, and he said, and if you start this, and if you ever wanted to stop, more than likely it could have some kind of psychological impact.
• 9:14
  SPEAKER_00: It could be where it you go into this depression or you get sad.
• 9:19
  SPEAKER_00: And yes, that is very true because at one point I had missed some dosages.
• 9:26
  SPEAKER_00: Remember that other thing I said that keeps you uh normal as far as making your testicles still work, another type of injection.
• 9:35
  SPEAKER_00: This was something that I was taking as well.
• 9:38
  SPEAKER_00: The dosage wasn't correct, so I actually went off of testosterone.
• 9:43
  SPEAKER_00: I can tell you, yes, the psychological impact was great.
• 9:46
  SPEAKER_00: Where I was very sleepy, very tired, very lethargic.
• 9:50
  SPEAKER_00: It was as if I hadn't taken it before because I was finding myself prior to testosterone at 365 pounds with a 65-inch waist, falling asleep at my computer and just dozing off and not having that energy.
• 10:04
  SPEAKER_00: So I told the doctor, I said, I'm at 365.
• 10:08
  SPEAKER_00: By taking testosterone, I feel great.
• 10:11
  SPEAKER_00: I'm in the gym again, I'm not eating as much.
• 10:15
  SPEAKER_00: Things seem to be different.
• 10:17
  SPEAKER_00: I'm starting fasting as well.
• 10:19
  SPEAKER_00: He had a whole big dissertation on fasting.
• 10:22
  SPEAKER_00: Don't do it.
• 10:23
  SPEAKER_00: You're gonna go into starvation mode, you're gonna start eating your muscle.
• 10:28
  SPEAKER_00: He mentioned to me that I'm going to crash my metabolism by not eating.
• 10:33
  SPEAKER_00: Basically, I'm gonna take whatever my metabolic rate is and ruin it.
• 10:39
  SPEAKER_00: Where if I were to just go eat some lettuce, then I would put on fat by the eating of the lettuce.
• 10:45
  SPEAKER_00: So the regular doctor had a lot to say about that as well.
• 10:48
  SPEAKER_00: I sent him a book that I had read recently by Jason Fung, who's a nephrologist.
• 10:55
  SPEAKER_00: And in my, you know, state, again, my doctor was still very happy with the way that I was at that time without these self-imposed changes that I started to make by talking to other people and then talking to other doctors that specialize in hormone replacement therapy and other things.
• 11:17
  SPEAKER_00: I only tell you this because he now changed into somebody that is much less concerned with my health and how I'm achieving it than he was before.
• 11:31
  SPEAKER_00: He sees a change and a reduction in body fat in a dramatic way, and then all of my health markers and everything completely changing, and me coming out on the other end of 365 pounds in much better shape than I ever had been before.
• 11:48
  SPEAKER_00: If I would have started this or at least had the fasting thing, my mind wrapped around fasting, I would have been so much better off if I could go back and tell myself in my early teens, this is how you're gonna fix this.
• 12:04
  SPEAKER_00: You're going to just start implementing fasting.
• 12:07
  SPEAKER_00: You're gonna start not eating all the time.
• 12:10
  SPEAKER_00: And the other thing I would have told myself that my what I've found is keeping insulin as low as possible is really a game changer for not only leanness, but also building muscle, keeping inflammation low, keeping your sleep better.
• 12:29
  SPEAKER_00: And you're like, well, what does that mean?
• 12:30
  SPEAKER_00: How do you keep your insulin low?
• 12:32
  SPEAKER_00: When you eat carbohydrates, your insulin goes up because carbohydrates in their forms are sugars of some sort.
• 12:42
  SPEAKER_00: So they're gonna come in and your body's going to secrete insulin once it senses that there's something sweet coming in.
• 12:50
  SPEAKER_00: And then the end body's gonna create the insulin, it's going to dose it, and then it's going to take the booger that was in your blood that you just ate, it's going to take that and it's going to partition and put it away where it needs to be.
• 13:03
  SPEAKER_00: If you eat too much of that or too consistently, your body's just constantly storing this stuff that you're eating, especially carbohydrates in the form of fat, just making more and more fat deposits.
• 13:17
  SPEAKER_00: I would have explained that to myself and understood that, and then realized that the way that my body works, which might not be too different than other bodies, is when I eat too frequently sugary foods, I'm constantly in an insulin creating state.
• 13:34
  SPEAKER_00: So if I'm a grazer, all day long, always got something going in, even if it's just a little bit still creating an insulin response.
• 13:42
  SPEAKER_00: With that hormone being so plentiful in a body, it creates problems.
• 13:49
  SPEAKER_00: It creates diabetes, it creates Alzheimer's, it creates mental problems, heart disease.
• 13:56
  SPEAKER_00: There are so many things that high insulin levels promote, that's why if I would have had my way and I would have understood this as a kid, I would have grown up eating five things meats, fish, eggs, and vegetables, and fruits, depending on season.
• 14:18
  SPEAKER_00: And with fruits, because they're sweet and they carry carbohydrates, in the winter, going to a supermarket and getting a pound and a half of grapes and eating them doesn't help move the ball forward.
• 14:34
  SPEAKER_00: So I would have told myself that.
• 14:37
  SPEAKER_00: Point being to myself is I understand this is sweet and this is great and this is wonderful, and it's fruit.
• 14:45
  SPEAKER_00: And as far as fruit versus a Twinkie, fruit's probably a better option.
• 14:50
  SPEAKER_00: However, Twinkies aren't bad, but however, Twinkies are horrible.
• 14:54
  SPEAKER_00: But looking at the fruit, grapes, living where I lived, yes, they can grow grapes.
• 15:00
  SPEAKER_00: And grapes are seasonal.
• 15:01
  SPEAKER_00: The ones I'm eating in December from the grocery store are ones that have been stored.
• 15:08
  SPEAKER_00: So I would eat the vegetables for the season.
• 15:12
  SPEAKER_00: I would eat the fruit that's out seasonally, whatever would be natural to the place I live, plus whatever meats, whatever fish, and whatever eggs.
• 15:22
  SPEAKER_00: Just eat.
• 15:41
  SPEAKER_00: So they have destroyed it and decimated it so much from its natural form, they have to put nutrients in it.
• 15:48
  SPEAKER_00: I would have explained to myself that that's probably not a good thing.
• 15:52
  SPEAKER_00: And in addition, making a friend of hunger would have come in with the fasting advice I would have given myself.
• 16:00
  SPEAKER_00: In addition, I would have explained to myself that don't get all critical about muscle and fasting when you're fat.
• 16:08
  SPEAKER_00: As long as you're lifting weights, I would have explained, you're going to retain the muscle.
• 16:13
  SPEAKER_00: You might not build it as great, and I think if people would agree, you're not going to build muscle as great being in a fasted state.
• 16:21
  SPEAKER_00: But at least keeping it and leaning things out, and maybe even leaning out the muscle itself from having any kind of marbling or any fat inside, maybe that's the plan of attack.
• 16:32
  SPEAKER_00: But as you're moving through it, understanding that muscle, having more muscle, you're going to burn more calories at rest.
• 16:40
  SPEAKER_00: Just your movement, picking up a paper clip you drop it on the floor, the more muscle you have, the more calories you're burning just in that action.
• 16:48
  SPEAKER_00: And then you look at the way muscle equates to longevity, I would have explained to myself.
• 16:52
  SPEAKER_00: The more muscle you have, the less incidence of breaking hips, fracturing hips, falling off the couch, fracturing a rib, and having that be your life-ending movement.
• 17:04
  SPEAKER_00: Well, you're going to have less of a likelihood of that happening, the more muscle you're able to build and retain.
• 17:11
  SPEAKER_00: I'm 55.
• 17:14
  SPEAKER_00: I have been able to do this transition last two, three years.
• 17:18
  SPEAKER_00: It's something that I wish I would have done so much earlier.
• 17:21
  SPEAKER_00: I remember being a fat cop.
• 17:23
  SPEAKER_00: It's uncomfortable to be wearing, you know, 30 pounds of body arms of body armor, whatever they weighed out of it.
• 17:30
  SPEAKER_00: They just seemed inordinately heavy.
• 17:32
  SPEAKER_00: A level 3A vest, a ceramic plate on your chest, rifle plate.
• 17:38
  SPEAKER_00: I was so fat I could pull it off.
• 17:40
  SPEAKER_00: And it actually made my belly look less fat, make it look like I had a massive chest, because I have this plate, uh large ceramic plate sitting in the vest pocket, which usually wasn't worn by most patrol.
• 17:54
  SPEAKER_00: They had an extra pad in here to maybe try to blunt out some of the force of that bullet striking and the vest catching it.
• 18:02
  SPEAKER_00: But usually nothing hard and ceramic like that.
• 18:04
  SPEAKER_00: So you had that edit thing.
• 18:06
  SPEAKER_00: But I remember being on the motorcycle wearing the breeches, wearing the triple wool, the heavy uniform.
• 18:12
  SPEAKER_00: And back then, in order to have an open-collared shirt, you had to wear short sleeves.
• 18:17
  SPEAKER_00: They didn't have the option that they do today where you could wear long sleeves but without a tie.
• 18:22
  SPEAKER_00: You always had to have a tie on.
• 18:24
  SPEAKER_00: So that sucked because you had the wool rubbing on the inside of the neck, and yes, there was some kind of fabric in there that wasn't exactly wool, but you're sweating all day long.
• 18:34
  SPEAKER_00: You're on top of a police motorcycle.
• 18:38
  SPEAKER_00: The ones that we had were air-cooled, both the Kalasaki and the Harley BMW water cool didn't come in till later, but they're still hot, right?
• 18:45
  SPEAKER_00: The engines, everything still runs hot.
• 18:47
  SPEAKER_00: You still have the heat coming off the engine, so you have motor boots, all these things.
• 18:51
  SPEAKER_00: Trying to do that fat sucked.
• 18:54
  SPEAKER_00: Getting on and off the motorcycle.
• 18:56
  SPEAKER_00: As many times as you had to interact with the public and write tickets.
• 19:00
  SPEAKER_00: I know everybody's going to be all about feel bad for the motor cops.
• 19:04
  SPEAKER_00: But carrying around all that extra fat, I would have told myself there's a way around it.
• 19:08
  SPEAKER_00: And you just need to quit eating so much.
• 19:10
  SPEAKER_00: And the foods that you eat do make an impact.
• 19:13
  SPEAKER_00: You can go and eat a thousand calories and broccoli, or you can eat a thousand calories and ice cream.
• 19:20
  SPEAKER_00: Over time, if that's the complete diet of each one of those people, you're probably going to see that the sugar ingestion with the ice cream over time is going to cause a different kind of body than the one that's eating broccoli all the time.
• 19:38
  SPEAKER_00: Now, that's horrible as far as an example go, because you're missing all the other nutrients.
• 19:44
  SPEAKER_00: But calories being calories, your body does treat them differently when they do get eaten.
• 19:51
  SPEAKER_00: And you can see that from food addiction as well, and that would be another conversation I would have with myself.
• 19:58
  SPEAKER_00: People that talk about moderation, maybe they can do it.
• 20:02
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe they can moderate alcohol, maybe they can moderate sugar, maybe, maybe they can moderate starchy carbs or those types, maybe they can do this.
• 20:12
  SPEAKER_00: Me myself being an addict, and however that formed over time, I didn't really want to figure out, nor did I have time to figure out why I was such an addict for so many different things in my life.
• 20:26
  SPEAKER_00: I just decided, and this is another conversation I would have, I decided, listen, I'm not gonna, I might not have time to actually fix everything that's broken within me before I move in and move my body from being so fat into something less fat and maybe more muscular and maybe better health, and then I can deal with all that other crap being a little bit healthier and better shape.
• 20:49
  SPEAKER_00: That that would have been incredibly valuable conversation if I would have listened and actually implemented it.
• 20:56
  SPEAKER_00: That's the problem.
• 20:57
  SPEAKER_00: People tell us what to do, and a lot of us might do it for a little bit, but then we mess it up, and then we go back to ourselves pissed off and depressed, and then we just keep missing it up, and we think, what's the point?
• 21:10
  SPEAKER_00: Let's just continue, and then we'll get it.
• 21:13
  SPEAKER_00: Then you come to your senses three or four months later, 30 or 40 pounds fatter, and you're like, Yeah, I really gotta do something about this.
• 21:21
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, and then you see Connor, and then you're like, Wow, this is the one, I'm gonna watch him and I'm gonna make it happen, and then you do it again.
• 21:29
  SPEAKER_00: Your issue is I would have had this discussion as well.
• 21:32
  SPEAKER_00: My issue is the fact that I wasn't consistent, and the reason why I wasn't consistent is because whenever I messed it up, I thought that was it because I've messed up things so much in the past and I thought it's never gonna fix.
• 21:50
  SPEAKER_00: What is the change that you must consider?
• 21:54
  SPEAKER_00: How must you think of it and look at it for it to actually grow legs and work?
• 22:00
  SPEAKER_00: I realized that if my favorite superhero, if they really existed, after doing everything they've done to save so many other people, if I saw them sitting at the curb, depressed, I would go up and say, Are you serious?
• 22:17
  SPEAKER_00: Are you seriously sad after all you do for the world?
• 22:21
  SPEAKER_00: You're seriously sad?
• 22:23
  SPEAKER_00: What can I do to help you?
• 22:24
  SPEAKER_00: I would put myself out, I would help my favorite superhero.
• 22:28
  SPEAKER_00: Then I started seeing myself as, you know what, I really got to give myself a break.
• 22:33
  SPEAKER_00: It was only after I started forgiving myself, looking at all my past failures as practice, not mistakes, but practice, teaching me thousands of ways how not to quit, how not to implement change, and then finding that one way involving self-forgiveness that made all the difference in the world.
• 22:57
  SPEAKER_00: That, ladies and gentlemen, are really the tenets to this.
• 23:02
  SPEAKER_00: That self-forgiveness is huge.
• 23:04
  SPEAKER_00: That would be part of the conversation I would have with myself.
• 23:08
  SPEAKER_00: So we have getting your hormones checked.
• 23:11
  SPEAKER_00: We have getting documentation to prove your point to your medical professionals that might not believe you or have issue.
• 23:19
  SPEAKER_00: And even when you do everything, even if it's crystal clear to you, don't forget, folks, I can pull up stuff online that says we're eating 150 grams of sugar a day is healthy for you.
• 23:32
  SPEAKER_00: I can pull up things that say not eating any sugar is bad for you because your body needs sugar to survive.
• 23:40
  SPEAKER_00: And that's true, but what they didn't fill in with that statement, the body needs sugar, your brain needs sugar to survive, is it's so important when your body doesn't have it, it makes its own.
• 23:54
  SPEAKER_00: Crazy.
• 23:55
  SPEAKER_00: It's called gluconeogenesis.
• 23:59
  SPEAKER_00: It makes sugar because it's so important.
• 24:02
  SPEAKER_00: So then the conversation with myself would also be there is no such thing as a necessary carbohydrate.
• 24:10
  SPEAKER_00: Your body makes it when it doesn't have it.
• 24:14
  SPEAKER_00: That's the explanation.
• 24:16
  SPEAKER_00: It would have been so many of those things that I would have told myself, I would have explained to myself.
• 24:22
  SPEAKER_00: But I think the biggest thing would have been the conversation about self-forgiveness and realizing that at some point it's either going to work or it's not.
• 24:34
  SPEAKER_00: But the more I get depressed and sad because I failed myself, not forgiving myself and moving on, the more I stayed in the same rut than happy for a very long time.
• 24:49
  SPEAKER_00: These are conversations I would have with me if I had the opportunity.
• 24:53
  SPEAKER_00: Things that I've thought about and looked into.
• 24:56
  SPEAKER_00: The muscle mass loss was huge for me.
• 24:58
  SPEAKER_00: I was worried about losing muscle mass.
• 25:00
  SPEAKER_00: Here I am, a super fat guy.
• 25:02
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know if you've seen the before and after pictures, but you can look him up.
• 25:06
  SPEAKER_00: Connor McIver Fat, and you'll see this massive 65-inch waist that in one of the videos I'm actually lifting up, and it's weird now.
• 25:16
  SPEAKER_00: It's very strange going from 65 to the mid-30s.
• 25:21
  SPEAKER_00: It's just a very odd thing.
• 25:23
  SPEAKER_00: I hope this helps.
• 25:25
  SPEAKER_00: You can do this.
• 25:26
  SPEAKER_00: You just have to forgive yourself, and you have to look at how important it is for you.
• 25:35
  SPEAKER_00: Think back at things that were very difficult that you've changed and you were able to move on from.
• 25:42
  SPEAKER_00: Take a moment and think of something that you were changed.
• 25:45
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe you quit cigarettes.
• 25:47
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe you changed some habit that you had a long time.
• 25:50
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe you were tying up with your kids and arguing with them when that doesn't solve anything.
• 25:56
  SPEAKER_00: Maybe if it's something like that.
• 25:58
  SPEAKER_00: But something that seems so big and so difficult and so terribly hard to fix, you were able to do it.
• 26:07
  SPEAKER_00: Fat is something else.
• 26:10
  SPEAKER_00: The way that you eat is something else.
• 26:12
  SPEAKER_00: You can change all of those things.
• 26:14
  SPEAKER_00: You can make decisions to not go to the drive-thru and get 15 tacos when nobody's looking.
• 26:21
  SPEAKER_00: You can make a decision that, yes, I'm going to go eat an entire box of donuts today, but I'm not going to do it in hiding.
• 26:28
  SPEAKER_00: I'm going to go eat 15 pizzas, but I'm not going to do it in hiding.
• 26:32
  SPEAKER_00: Those things that you do that you don't want anybody else to see, take a moment and reflect on those.
• 26:38
  SPEAKER_00: I don't care what that is, but if you're embarrassed because other people are going to see it, maybe it's something you shouldn't be doing.
• 26:46
  SPEAKER_00: I'm Connor McIver.
• 26:47
  SPEAKER_00: Thanks for watching.
• 26:48
  SPEAKER_00: We'll see you on the next one.
• 26:50
  SPEAKER_00: Be well.