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#242 Lifting Life's Greatest Load (Part 1 - Freedom Through Confession) · The OneCry Podcast

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  So God has this spiritual pain.
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  The Bible calls it the conviction of the Holy Spirit.
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  And that spiritual pain is God loving you enough to say what you're doing is wrong.
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  It's going to cause problems.
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  It's going to hurt you.
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  It's going to hurt others.
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  And that pain is going to, that spiritual conviction is intended to sit there on your
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  soul until you do something about it.
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  Welcome to the One Cry Podcast, a nationwide call for spiritual awakening.
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  The goal, accelerating the movement of God through sharing revival truth, stories, and
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  reports.
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  Well, welcome to the One Cry Podcast.
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  I'm Kyle Reno with my partner in crime, Bill Ellef, on the other side of here.
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  How you doing, buddy?
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  I'm doing good.
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  Good to see you, my friend.
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  And great to be with all of our folks who are listening.
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  And you know, it's cool, Kyle, as we have folks now listening all over the place.
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  And we're so grateful for that, for anybody who takes time to listen to a couple of...
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  What you're really saying is you're very surprised.
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  I am.
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  I'm shocked.
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  Shocked and honored.
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  Yeah, absolutely.
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  Well, man, listen, it's a privilege to be a part of this with you, Bill, specifically,
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  but with our listeners, we are.
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  We're grateful for a few minutes here to just listen to what God's saying to His church
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  and to followers of Christ all over the world, and specific in hopes of seeing revival and
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  awakening.
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  You know, there's nothing new under the sun, Bill, that there's proven patterns and ways
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  in which God works.
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  And, man, we're watching that.
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  We've been in some great seasons here in the past, Made to Pray, that we walked through
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  several weeks ago, and for an extended season.
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  And great reports, man, of how God is helping people approach Him in prayer in ways that
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  He's answering and responding.
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  And Kyle, can I give a cool story real quick?
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  Yeah, I do.
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  Yeah, because I know you also kind of walked through that with your whole church, with
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  our series on prayer that we did a few weeks ago.
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  Yeah.
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  Well, just a cool story.
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  As of this last Sunday, this is a story that came out of our faith family here, and teaching
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  our people how to approach the Lord through the Lord's prayer, and one part of it is partnership
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  to see His kingdom come.
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  And we've helped our people see some ways to pray consistently for the kingdom of God
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  to come in certain ways.
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  One is in the salvation of the lost, obviously, and we even gave away for us to partner together
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  in that.
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  We put some Far From God cards out and put just the first name of people that we're going
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  to start praying from now to Easter for them to come to Saving Faith in Christ.
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  They put it on a cross that we had in our worship center.
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  Our staff prayed over it that Tuesday, 6,000 something names were on the cross that we
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  prayed over, bro.
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  It was powerful.
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  So seven days after we did that, they were back in a Sunday worship gathering.
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  They had two different experiences.
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  One, I had a mom, you'll get me crying now, I had a mom grab my hand as I was walking
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  by and say, Kyle, she's coming.
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  I said, well, who?
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  She said, my daughter's coming today.
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  So I put her name on the cross last Sunday, Kyle, she's coming today.
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  And I hugged her up.
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  She hadn't come before.
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  It's a grown adult daughter that's far from God.
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  Seven days before that, she had put her name on that card and we put it on the cross, prayed
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  for it.
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  And just so happens the next Sunday, her daughter texted and said, hey, I'm going to come to
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  church with you today.
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  So I actually could see where I was preaching from.
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  I could see that mom and that daughter.
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  So that's one story.
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  You know, at least she took that step, which, you know, the Spirit of God is moving in that
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  powerfully.
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  The other is, after one of the gatherings, I have this young lady come up to me.
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  My assistant joins us in this conversation and she says, two years ago, I was hearing
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  you preach the message.
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  And in her own words, she's saying, and I knew it was, I needed to respond, but I didn't.
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  And I walked, I walked out the door and she said for two, this is what she said, Bill.
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  She said, for two years, I thought about that day, every day, every day.
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  She goes, I came again today, she goes, but this time I didn't walk out.
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  I walked down here to you.
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  And so I asked her about her relationship with Christ.
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  She didn't have one.
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  She's born again.
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  Right.
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  Well, I'm looking over, I'm looking over her shoulder and I'm seeing this couple that's
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  out there and I'm connecting the dots going, I think that might be her parents.
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  I think so.
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  I leave her with my assistant who's praying, we're talking, I walk up to where they are
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  and the mom looks at me, she goes, is, did, did what I think just happen?
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  And I said, well, that that's your daughter.
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  She said, yeah.
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  I said, well, if, if what you're thinking is, was she just born again?
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  And yes, she was.
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  She goes, I put her name on that cross last week.
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  Last week.
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  Wow.
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  Wow.
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  Wow.
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  And you just watching.
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  And I'm like, you know what, Lord, this prayer thing, there's something to it.
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  There's something to this, that you're a God that hears and cares and moves.
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  And so isn't it fun, bro, to be a part of it?
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  It is.
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  And, and, you know, this is what revival and spiritual awakening is all about, is people
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  getting saved and saved from their sin, saved from two years, just, just think of this,
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  two years of conviction, just sitting on this girl's heart and the pain of that.
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  And then the release of that.
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  And honestly, it's kind of what we're talking about today, because Kyle, we want to talk
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  about for the next few weeks, how to lift the load from your soul.
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  You know, there's a, there's a story I love about, I mean, it's just true factual account
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  that there was a potato factory in Idaho, believe it or not, who they, they, they had
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  guys who are lifting a hundred pound sacks of potatoes and putting them on trucks and
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  whatever.
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  And so believe it or not, we have a government agency that studies these things, of course,
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  that our taxpayers pay for and call OSHA.
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  And so they came in and they, they did this like six month study because all of these
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  potato factory workers were having terrible back problems, like this is, like this is
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  a hard thing to figure out.
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  And they, they did this report and this is the actual words from the report.
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  They said, the spine is a sensitive mechanism.
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  Over time, improper lifting can cause irreversible damage that can lead to permanent injury.
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  Aren't you glad we paid millions of dollars for that?
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  But when I saw that, I thought, you know, as, as sad and as humorous as that is, our
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  souls are the same way.
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  I mean, our soul is a sensitive instrument, right?
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  Our mind, our emotions, our will, our, our spirit.
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  And over time, if, if the wrong kind of pressure is put upon it, it causes a lot of pain and
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  a lot of injury.
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  And and where we feel that is in our conscience, our conscience.
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  If you would say it like this, now that's just a human term.
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  It's not a, well, it is a biblical term, but the idea is a conscience is the part of you
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  that knows you, right?
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  Conscience means the inner knowing of you.
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  And so Paul came in, in Acts 24, 16, and he made this amazing statement when he was defending
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  himself before some people.
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  He said, you know, I, I exercise myself, gymnasio is the Greek word.
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  I exercise myself to always maintain a clear conscience between God and man.
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  In other words, in two directions.
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  And I work at this, I exercise myself to make sure there's nothing between me and God and
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  nothing between me and anybody else.
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  And, and I want to tell you something, Kyle, what we're going to talk about the next couple
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  of weeks, a few weeks here on the OneCraft podcast is going to be unbelievably practical
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  and helpful because this is where we live, right?
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  I mean, we live with the ravages of sin and, and dumb mistakes and naive mistakes and just
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  all the things that we do that separate us from God and keep us from the joy that He
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  has designed for us to experience.
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  Now, I want to take today, you know, this passage well, Kyle, Psalm 32, and Psalm 32
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  is David talking after he had committed the sin with Bathsheba, the great dark season
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  of his life was when he took his eyes off God and put his eyes on, on another God and,
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  and he committed a grievous sin, several grievous, that led to several other grievous sins.
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  And he comes and he repents of that and, but he writes this in Psalm 32, now listen
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  to this.
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  How blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.
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  You think about this girl that came to you Sunday morning, Kyle, and gave her life to
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  Christ.
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  How blessed is the man or the woman to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity and whose
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  spirit there's no deceit.
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  And then he gives a little travelogue.
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  He says, when I kept silent about my sin, when I didn't deal with it, my body wasted
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  away through my groaning all day long, day and night, your hand was heavy upon me.
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  My vitality was drained away as with a fever heat of summer.
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  But then I acknowledge my sin to you and my iniquity, I did not hide.
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  I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.
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  And you forgave the guilt of my sin, the guilt of my sin.
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  Therefore, let everyone who's godly pray to you in a time when you may be found and we'll
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  look at the rest of this here in, in just a minute.
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  So there's something that all of us need.
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  Every single person listening today needs what, what David is describing here.
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  And I just want to, I want to point these out to us and, and Kyle, feel free to just
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  jump in anywhere you want to.
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  First of all, we need the blessing of full forgiveness, right?
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  Now we got a problem.
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  All of us have a problem.
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  And the problem is that all of us sin and fall short of the glory of God, right?
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  And sin separates us.
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  Sin is us saying to God, God, I want to be in charge.
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  And we walk away from him.
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  And honestly, we've separated ourselves from God and from his presence and everything flows
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  from the presence of the Lord.
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  And so we, we lose all of that, right?
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  And everything, and then we start when we're separated from his presence, we, we start
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  doing all kinds of dumb things, all kinds of succession of sins occurs.
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  That's what happened to David.
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  He just one night, he looks over, sees Bathsheba bathing on a rooftop, and he lets that just
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  fester in his soul.
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  And then he calls for her and commits adultery, and he starts trying to hide it, which leads
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  to the murdering really of her husband and lying and deception and, and everything.
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  And so this whole string.
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  And so David says, man, how blessed are you when look at these things?
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  He says in verse one, when your sins are forgiven.
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  In other words, when it's not that you haven't sinned, but that you come clean before God
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  and you received his forgiveness and his cleansing, and when your sins are covered, they're just
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  covered.
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  Now, all of us have had a moment where we owed somebody something.
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  And it's a wonderful thing.
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  If somebody comes in and says, man, I'll cover that debt, I'll just cover it, I'll take care
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  of it.
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  And you say, man, I don't, I don't deserve that.
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  I know, but I love you.
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  And I got it.
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  I got it covered.
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  Right?
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  So the Lord Jesus, when we deal with this, the way we're going to talk about in the next
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  few weeks, he says, I'll cover this.
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  I've done something that will cover your debts and, and your sin will not be imputed to your
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  account.
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  Okay?
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  In other words, it won't be on your account, it won't be on the ledger book anymore.
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  And this girl that you talked about, this, this story of her coming and being born again,
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  what happened in that moment at that altar was her sins were covered.
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  Her sins were forgiven.
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  God says, I got this covered.
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  And I covered it by the cross of Calvary.
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  And and it's no longer on your account.
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  And when that happens, there's this huge blessing, this huge relief that comes when our sins
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  are, are forgiven.
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  But here's, here's the truth.
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  Christ has done everything necessary so that our sins can be forgiven.
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  You can embrace that by faith, or you can ignore it.
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  Right?
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  You can just, you can never come to Christ and apply what happened on the cross to your
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  account and to your life and never trust him to save you and forgive you and cleanse you.
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  Or you can try to do that yourself and, and it will never work.
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  So how, how blessed to have your sins forgiven.
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  But secondly, look at this.
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  We need the blessing of decreased deceit.
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  There's something, there's a phenomenon about sin that we need to understand.
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  David said it like this.
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  He said, how blessed is a man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity and whose spirit
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  there is no deceit.
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  Now when we sin, something starts happening.
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  And the first thing that we do is we start lying.
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  We just start lying.
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  We don't even recognize it as lying, but this deceitful spirit, because we know that it's
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  wrong and we know that we need to cover ourselves.
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  And so we, we commit all kinds of lies.
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  We lie to ourselves.
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  We say, oh, that wasn't all that bad.
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  It's not that big of a deal.
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  It won't hurt anybody.
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  You know, everybody else does it.
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  We come up with a thousand different lies and excuses.
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  We lie to others.
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  Oh, that wasn't me.
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  I didn't do that.
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  You know, here's a husband who's, who's committing some sin and he just, every day he's saying
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  to his wife, I didn't do that.
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  I don't, I don't ever do that.
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  I don't ever watch pornography.
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  I don't, and he just lies, lies, lies.
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  And so what you're doing is, here's this sin that you've committed, but then you add
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  to that, the lies that you keep committing, and then that makes you feel worse.
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  And then you try to find some relief over here and you commit another sin.
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  And it just, it just keeps snowballing exponentially.
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  And the worst thing is that you, you lie to God and you're just saying to him, God, you
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  know, I'm, you're just acting like nothing happened.
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  And Kyle, one time years ago, there was this phase back in the seventies of this stuff
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  called friendship bread.
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  And I think it's still around, but you would take, you know, our wives would take this
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  kind of dough starter and you'd, and you'd, you'd put it in the kitchen and, and you would
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  feed it and you'd put stuff into it every night and this dough would grow.
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  And then you could just, it just keep growing and you'd pull sections off and cook it, you
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  know, and eat it.
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  And so she was a young wife, we were just married, you know, and somebody gave her some
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  of this stuff.
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  And she, I think she kind of over, over fed it to her.
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  I don't know what she did, but I came in one morning and that dough was all over the kitchen
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  counter.
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  It was like the dough that ate Chicago.
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  I remember that old movie, you know, the blob that just kept growing and growing and took
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  over cities.
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  And, uh, but that's the way sin is, you know, you just think, well, it's just a little deal.
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  It's just no big deal, but if you don't deal with it, the spirit of deceit just keeps growing
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  and growing and growing.
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  And David says, man, you don't understand the blessing of being a man in whom there
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  is no deceit.
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  Your yes is yes, your no is no.
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  You don't have anything to cover.
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  You don't have anything to hide, you know, and the incredible blessing of that.
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  And then here's, here's the one that really gets me.
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  And that's the blessing of removed conviction.
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  Now, Kyle, uh, I had a guy one time who said to me, he wanted some counsel.
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  I said, great.
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  He said, brother Bill, I just, I just feel so guilty.
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  I feel so guilty.
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  I feel so guilty all the time.
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  I just feel guilty.
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  And I knew his story and I knew it was going on and I looked him right in the eye and I
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  said, well, you know, you know why you feel that?
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  He said, why?
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  I said, you're guilty, you're guilty.
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  You got sin and you're lying and you're doing all this stuff and you're not finding God's
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  remedy for that.
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  And that guilt that you feel, that's a wonderful thing.
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  He said, no, it's not.
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  I said, no, no, it's a wonderful thing.
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  Guilt in our soul is like pain to our body.
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  So if you take your, if you take, God has designed it this way, he's designed your body
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  so that if you take your hand and you put it on a hot stove, that there are nerves that
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  send you an immediate message that says, take your hand off the stove, you idiot, right?
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  And that's a really good thing.
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  It's telling you, pain is telling you to make an adjustment, right?
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  Quit doing that.
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  And so God has this spiritual pain.
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  The Bible calls it the conviction of the Holy Spirit.
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  And that spiritual pain is God loving you enough to say what you're doing is wrong.
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  It's going to cause problems.
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  It's going to hurt you.
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  It's going to hurt others.
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  And that pain is going to, that spiritual conviction is intended to sit there on your
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  soul until you do something about it, right?
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  And so don't get upset about that.
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  Rejoice that God loves you enough that he would, he would bring that to your soul.
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  Now David talks about this in this passage.
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  And there was emotional pain, physical pain, and spiritual pain.
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  Look at this.
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  He says, he says, blessed, he said, when I kept silent about my sin, this is verse three,
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  when I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away through my groaning all day long.
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  Kyle, I don't know if you've ever met a groaner.
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  Just a groaner.
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  I was, I was, I was at my grandson's basketball game the other day, little, little there like,
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  I don't know, second grade or something like that.
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  And there was a kid out on the court and he was, he was really a good basketball player,
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  but that guy groaned for 60 minutes.
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  He was just, everything was everybody's fault.
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  He was pointing to everybody else he'd fall down and, and he just, he was just upset about
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  it.
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  He was just groaning all day long, but you know, some people grow up and they never get
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  out of that, you know, and they're just groaning.
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  Or some people are in such emotional distress that they just, you just hear them sighing
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  all the time.
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  Now we can misdiagnose that.
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  We can say, well, it's my stress.
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  It's my schedule.
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  It's my problem.
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  It's my relationships.
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  It's my wife.
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  But it may be that the emotional distress and deterioration that you're feeling is just
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  your sin that's undealt with and the conviction that's coming upon your soul.
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  And I've seen this whole cycle, Kyle, I know that you've seen this as you counsel men.
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  And that is we sin, if you just imagine a spiral going down, we sin, and God brings
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  this wonderful thing called guilt because it's wrong.
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  And then, and then he brings his conviction, if we're believers, he brings the conviction
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  of the Holy Spirit, which the Bible, Jesus said, I'm going to send the Spirit and he
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  convicts us of sin and of righteousness, how far we're falling from the righteousness
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  of God and the judgment that comes from that.
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  So we sin and that brings legitimate guilt and that brings conviction.
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  And the problem is we feel real crummy with that conviction.
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  And so if we're not careful, we go look for relief.
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  And so we eat something, we drink something, we smoke something, we dive into some distraction
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  that's a further sin, which causes further guilt, which causes further conviction, which
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  we look for further relief.
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  And that spiral just goes down and down and down and down.
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  And at the bottom of it is what I would describe as real depression, real spiritual.
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  Now depression can, has different sources at times, but my contention and my experience
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  has been in counseling people that if you go back and take care of the root problem,
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  which is the sin, and you start dealing with your sin appropriately and rightly, so often
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  the guilt lifts, the conviction, of course, lifts because God has no intent to just leave
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  that there forever.
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  It's there to bring you to repentance.
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  And then the depression lifts and there's joy.
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  And that's why, you know, David says how blessed is a man who experiences this.
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  So it can bring emotional deterioration.
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  Secondly, it can bring physical deterioration.
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  You know, when you're mowing a lawn on a hot summer day and you get through and you
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  are just slap dab, here's how they say it in Mississippi, slap dab worn out, and you
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  are just gone.
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  That's what Paul, David is describing when he says, when I kept silent about my sin,
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  my body wasted away and my vitality was drained as the fever heat of summer.
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  Now you just think about this.
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  You think about people and your own life and you're just tired all the time.
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  You're just tired all the time and there can be physical reasons for that, but there can
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  also be emotional reasons for that.
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  There can also be spiritual reasons for that.
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  You know, an unclear conscience, there's something between us and God.
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  There's something between us and our mate.
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  There's something between us and somebody else can lower our physical resistance and
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  produce weariness and depression.
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  Every doctor understands this.
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  I mean, they talk about, quote, stress causing, but what if the stress is unresolved sin in
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  our life that we're just not dealing with and the convicting hand of God's spirit.
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  And then there's what I would call spiritual deterioration.
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  Look, this is so incredible.
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  He said, my vitality was drained because your hand was heavy upon me.
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  Now Spurgeon says this, I love this phrase.
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  He says, God's hand is very helpful when it uplifts, but it is awful when it presses down.
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  Better a world on the shoulder like Atlas than God's hand on your heart like David.
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  What a statement.
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  And that's true.
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  And again, it's good.
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  It's a good pressure, but God puts his heavy hand upon us because he knows that there's
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  stuff between us and him and stuff in between us and other people.
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  And if we don't get it right, if we don't resolve that, then we don't have his presence.
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  We don't have his life.
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  Our life is aborting the testimony that it should be giving to a watching world, particularly
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  if we know Christ.
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  And so this, when my conscience is not clear, I feel spiritually disengaged, right?
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  And I seem to have little connection to God, little hunger for his word, no concern for
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  others, a growing selfishness.
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  I quickly turn to my favorite sins for temporary satisfaction.
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  And sadly, I'll expend what little energy I have on seeking relief.
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  All the while, the resolution for my problem is not the lack of pleasure or the stress
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  of work or the irritation of others, it's that my soul is not at peace with God.
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  Now, we can respond to that several ways, right?
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  We can ignore it.
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  We can excuse it.
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  We can shift it.
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  We can blame others.
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  We can medicate it.
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  We can reject it, or we can respond to it God's way.
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  Now, Kyle, we're covering a lot of ground here, and we're going to be on this for several
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  weeks.
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  So let me just pause right there.
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  I know I've kind of dominated the conversation, but what does this bring up your heart and
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  mind as we're talking about this?
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  Yeah, well, I'm grateful for how God pursues us in the midst of it and doesn't let us just
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  continue to live in our brokenness and sin.
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  And then that passage, you know, I was thinking about, and we've all had it, I'll say to every
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  listener we have, everybody, a statement I heard a long time ago, and I think it's true.
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  Everybody needs freedom from something.
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  Yeah.
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  And that might change in every season of your life.
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  There's big breakthroughs in that, but man, we're still under construction, that we are
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  being set apart and sanctified.
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  Every season calls for nearness to the light so that you might see what's truly going on
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  in your mind, your emotions, your motivations, and all those things.
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  But here's the thing about darkness, deception, it's like drowning.
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  It just sits on a person.
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  And I can't tell you how many times I've sat across from someone and we're trying to
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  work our way around the real issue.
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  Right.
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  And specifically, a lot of times, I meet with men like, and I know, and God knows, and he
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  knows that we're not ever going to get there until we finally get what's in there out.
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  Yeah.
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  But that man, me being the man, you being the man, every person's a listener, man or
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  woman, until we're willing to do with what's in there, what God says, we'll survive maybe,
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  but we'll never thrive.
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  And it will cost us on every level, and it's costing us joy.
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  And the other side, so darkness, deception, all that, it's like drowning, it's just barely
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  staying above water.
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  But the truth is this, living in the light is freedom.
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  Yeah.
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  Yeah.
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  There's nothing like, there's nothing like being a clear conscience before both God and
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  man.
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  Yeah.
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  And this is why David comes at the end of the psalm, and he talks about, he's talking
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  about the blessing of it, because he's on the backside of finally coming clean, you
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  know, about his sin.
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  But then he says, man, how blessed, how blessed, how blessed, when I didn't, when I kept silent
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  about it.
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  Yeah.
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  This is what happened.
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  Listen to this verse, and we'll tie a bow on it here.
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  He says in verse five, I acknowledge my sin to you, and my iniquity I did not hide.
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  I said, I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.
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  And then this little phrase, and you forgave the guilt of my sin.
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  So next week, we're going to talk in depth about how we do that.
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  We're going to talk in depth about how we clear our conscience with God.
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  And then the following week, how we clear our conscience with other people, because
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  a lot of us have got a lot of junk that's sitting in there that needs to be resolved.
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  And so I hope people will track with us for several weeks here, because this is really,
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  really the heart of it.
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  This is the heart of revival.
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  When you see God moving in revival and spiritual awakening, you start to hear people getting
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  honest about their sin, because it's got to be dealt with, right?
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  And it's just in the heart of why they're unrevived and why they're far from God is
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  just the sin, whether they're lost people who need their sins forgiven initially, or
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  they're believers who've temporarily walked away from God's presence.
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  So, well, Kyle, let's pray this in a little bit.
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  Why don't you lead us through that?
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  Yeah, Lord, just even in my spirit right now, I'm just thinking, and the best time for repentance
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  is right now.
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  It's right now.
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  And so I just pray for each and every one of us, Lord, for every one of our listeners,
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  that we would no longer keep silent, that Lord, that we would do what Your Word says,
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  that we would confess our sin to You.
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  First and foremost, every thing in our lives that might miss the mark, that's off course,
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  that's walking away from truth, is ultimately and foremost a sin against You, Lord.
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  So I pray for some spiritual courage for every one of our listeners to come into the presence
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  of a God that longs to forgive and get honest, and get honest.
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  I pray for boldness, Lord God, about the thing that we know in the dark, that we would be
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  bold enough to go to somebody to share that, Lord God, to find healing from that, Lord,
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  even in our lives.
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  So Father, I thank You for this journey.
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  I thank You that this is a non-negotiable part of a real move of God in our lives personally
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  and revival in our churches, and a real move of God in our nation.
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  So help us learn how to lean into Your light and Your truth by the power of Your Spirit.
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  And I pray it in Jesus' name, amen.
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  Amen.
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  Amen.
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  Man, I would really encourage now our listeners, that was a solid, solid, solid truth.
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  And Bill, I'm glad you actually, I know you got a lot more to say, I'm glad you stopped
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  before you stopped, because we need some time to process that truth.
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  So here's my encouragement to our listeners, go and sit down with specifically the first
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  part of Psalm 32, and let the Lord show you some things today, and as He reveals some
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  things, maybe in your head, maybe in your heart, maybe some actions, attitudes, moves
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  that you've made, motives that you have, write them down, take note, and then take next steps.
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  Take it into the presence of the Lord, take it to somebody.
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  And then if this was helpful to you, share it with somebody else, because it'll be helpful
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  for others, man, get the word out, and then come back next week and continue this journey
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  with us, because I think there's some places of freedom that's about to play out in these
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  weeks in the lives of each and every one of us.
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  Right.
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  And Kyle, let me tell them about another resource.
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  I've written a lot of this down years ago in a book called Lifting Life's Greatest
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  Load, How to Gain and Maintain a Clear Conscience.
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  Now we don't have this on the OneCry site, but you can get it on Amazon, but you can
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  also get it on my website, Bill Elif, E-L-I-F-F, billelif.org, and I'm not in the business
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  of selling books, but I wrote this down because I just kept going over and over and over with
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  people because it's just so foundational.
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  If you don't learn how to deal regularly, daily, and continually with your sin, you're
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  never going to grow as a Christian.
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  You just get this ball and chain around your legs, it's just dragging you down, and the
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  scripture says, man, I just want to throw away this sin which so easily entangles me.
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  And so if you think this will help you, it's very practical, you can pick that up.
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  I tell you about these podcasts too, the cool thing about a podcast, you can listen to it
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  over and over again.
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  You don't say, man, I missed that and I never get it.
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  And it could be a thing that you got two guys that you're kind of meeting with, or you all
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  are growing, holding each other accountable, say, hey, this week, let's just spend 20 minutes
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  and listen to this, and then let's talk about it and go from there.
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  Man, I got messages like that.
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  I have every year messages that I listen to, some messages that really helped me see
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  some things clearly.
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  So I totally resonate with that, man.
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  If it's just started something, you got something percolating in your spirit, go back and listen
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  to it again, share it with somebody, make it, mark it, flag it in your podcast so that
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  you can come back to it at another time.
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  So we're honored for the time, I would encourage you, that's a great resource, that book.
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  Go to his website, go to Amazon, and start a journey with us, start a journey with us
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  right here for new places of just closeness to God, freedom in our lives.
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  And we look forward to being back here with you next week.
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  Have a great week.