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Does God Know What I'm walking Through? · Start Your Comeback: Rebuilding after Divorce, Empty Nest, and Loss of Spouse

• 0:00
  Speaker 1: Is there a major life transition benching you?
• 0:02
  Speaker 1: I know you may be asking what's next?
• 0:06
  Speaker 1: What's my purpose?
• 0:07
  Speaker 1: What if?
• 0:08
  Speaker 1: Because I've asked those too.
• 0:11
  Speaker 1: Welcome to the Start your Comeback Podcast.
• 0:14
  Speaker 1: I'm Toni Thrash, a certified life coach, and I want to share the tools and practical steps to help you create a winning game plan to move into your new adventure.
• 0:25
  Speaker 1: Hi, welcome back.
• 0:57
  Speaker 1: You are listening to episode 56.
• 1:00
  Speaker 1: I'm so excited to be here today.
• 1:02
  Speaker 1: Just recently I had a client who asked me have you ever wondered if God knew what you were going through?
• 1:09
  Speaker 1: I just looked at her with tears in my eyes and said let me tell you a story.
• 1:14
  Speaker 1: That week of May 10 years ago brought a mixed bag of emotions.
• 1:19
  Speaker 1: You see, I'd been divorced for one year and I was looking forward to attending a women's conference that week just for some encouragement.
• 1:27
  Speaker 1: But it turned out to be a week I wouldn't forget.
• 1:31
  Speaker 1: Looking back, it has to be the single moment when I knew God was intimately involved in my life.
• 1:39
  Speaker 1: That week started awful, painful, sad memories attached to a date I hoped would soon be just a day like any other, not a reminder of that my divorce, just as I was gaining my footing in life and had gotten off the bench and re-entered my life, my new life, I received some news concerning finances.
• 2:01
  Speaker 1: This challenged me to stop relying on someone I had no business relying on anymore.
• 2:07
  Speaker 1: God had seemed to be hammering this point out in my life.
• 2:11
  Speaker 1: I'd felt it coming and I had even begun, a few months before, taking steps not to be reliant anymore.
• 2:19
  Speaker 1: But now I had two weeks until rent was due, four months left in my lease and no way to pay it.
• 2:28
  Speaker 1: I didn't know what I was going to do.
• 2:32
  Speaker 1: As an Enneagram 6 with a high need for security, this was a devastating blow.
• 2:37
  Speaker 1: I felt hopeless.
• 2:38
  Speaker 1: I would wake up wide-eyed with my heart racing.
• 2:42
  Speaker 1: Fear and panic took over.
• 2:44
  Speaker 1: The overwhelmness of it all almost shut me down Almost.
• 2:49
  Speaker 1: There's just enough fight left inside of me that I couldn't give up.
• 2:54
  Speaker 1: Giving up isn't in me.
• 2:56
  Speaker 1: That Thursday night I talked to God about what was going on.
• 3:00
  Speaker 1: As I headed to bed, I told God I just need to know that you know what's going on down here.
• 3:08
  Speaker 1: I had no more answers.
• 3:11
  Speaker 1: I was emotionally drained and empty.
• 3:14
  Speaker 1: After all, we problem solve all the time.
• 3:18
  Speaker 1: You see, I didn't ask God to fix it, I just needed to know that he knew.
• 3:25
  Speaker 1: I woke up on Friday morning looking forward to the conference.
• 3:28
  Speaker 1: That night A friend texted asking hey, how can I pray for you today?
• 3:35
  Speaker 1: I responded pray that I continually hear, I know from the Lord.
• 3:42
  Speaker 1: Then I went to work.
• 3:44
  Speaker 1: I showed up for the women's conference where Bianca Oltoff was speaking.
• 3:48
  Speaker 1: If you know me at all very well, you know that I take notes, lots of notes, but on this night I wasn't me at all very well.
• 3:54
  Speaker 1: You know that I take notes, lots of notes, but on this night I wasn't writing at all.
• 3:58
  Speaker 1: I was stuck in my head overthinking, trying to problem solve the dilemma in front of me.
• 4:05
  Speaker 1: I was in shock and could not think.
• 4:08
  Speaker 1: Clearly, this was definitely a transition I didn't see coming with.
• 4:13
  Speaker 1: Maybe, maybe 15 minutes left, bianca started spelling out the word no, k-n-o-w.
• 4:23
  Speaker 1: Stunned, I sat forward in my seat hanging on her next words he knows.
• 4:32
  Speaker 1: She says you need to hear this from him.
• 4:35
  Speaker 1: He says I know.
• 4:39
  Speaker 1: Okay, one more time, just for good measure.
• 4:43
  Speaker 1: It was like God was yelling hey, tony, are you listening Again?
• 4:48
  Speaker 1: Bianca says he knows.
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  Speaker 1: I'm positive.
• 4:51
  Speaker 1: There were more statements in between the I knows, but that's all I heard over and over, specifically for me.
• 4:59
  Speaker 1: Later I had the chance to share a table with Bianca and I told her my story, thanking her for delivering this personal message.
• 5:07
  Speaker 1: She graciously listened as big tears brimmed my eyes and she said I spelled it out for you.
• 5:16
  Speaker 1: Now let's fast forward a week.
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  Speaker 1: There was a package left for me in the office of my apartment building.
• 5:22
  Speaker 1: I wasn't expecting any packages.
• 5:25
  Speaker 1: I hadn't ordered any Amazon and I'm a big Amazon fan, as the rest of us and it was a gift with tissue paper and everything.
• 5:34
  Speaker 1: I was like what is going on?
• 5:36
  Speaker 1: So when I got back to my apartment, I opened it up and found a note and a rock that says he knows.
• 5:45
  Speaker 1: The note said that my rent was paid through the end of my lease.
• 5:50
  Speaker 1: I was stunned.
• 5:51
  Speaker 1: Through the end of my lease, I was stunned, dumbfounded, at a loss for words.
• 5:57
  Speaker 1: I only asked him to let me know that he knew what was going on and he provided more than I could ever have imagined or hoped for.
• 6:04
  Speaker 1: Now I'm not sure what you need to know, but I'm certain to my core that he knows.
• 6:10
  Speaker 1: When you don't have the answer, he knows.
• 6:14
  Speaker 1: Maybe you are in limbo and a decision needs to be made.
• 6:19
  Speaker 1: Maybe there have been some rumors that have haunted you that need to be put to rest, or maybe you need restoration with a spouse, child or parent.
• 6:29
  Speaker 1: Don't ever count God out, or parent.
• 6:30
  Speaker 1: Don't ever count God out In the middle of your shock, when you are surviving, asking questions and wondering what is next.
• 6:46
  Speaker 1: I promise he knows.
• 6:47
  Speaker 1: Maybe I need to spell it out for you.
• 6:48
  Speaker 1: He K-N-O-T, o-w-s.
• 6:50
  Speaker 1: He knows.
• 6:52
  Speaker 1: He knows it all, even when you think he doesn't Just ask him to show you.
• 6:57
  Speaker 1: I spelled it out for you.
• 7:01
  Speaker 1: Listen, I've been there.
• 7:02
  Speaker 1: I've been afraid to ask for help, but what I've learned in 10 years of singleness is to ask.
• 7:07
  Speaker 1: It's not easy, but I do it anyway.
• 7:10
  Speaker 1: In fact, just this past week on my birthday no less I asked a friend to help me sort through some thoughts and directions I was trying to wade through.
• 7:19
  Speaker 1: We spent a couple of hours together and she gave some sage advice.
• 7:24
  Speaker 1: Now it's up to me to decide between two really good things.
• 7:30
  Speaker 1: You may be in a similar place.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe your spouse has left you with two kids and no explanation and you have no idea what to do or what is next.
• 7:40
  Speaker 1: Maybe your boss called you in on Friday afternoon and said we are letting you go.
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  Speaker 1: Whatever the situation is.
• 7:48
  Speaker 1: I promise he knows.
• 7:49
  Speaker 1: You'll find my contact information in the show notes.
• 7:53
  Speaker 1: Please reach out if you need someone to help you form a game plan, to get you off the bench and to map out your next steps.
• 8:02
  Speaker 1: I look forward to hearing from you.
• 8:04
  Speaker 1: Join me next week as I talk about masterpieces and messes.
• 8:09
  Speaker 1: I'll see you then.
• 8:11
  Speaker 1: Hey, thanks for listening.
• 8:13
  Speaker 1: I don't take it for granted that you're here.
• 8:15
  Speaker 1: You didn't listen by mistake.
• 8:17
  Speaker 1: If you want to reach out, you can DM me on Instagram at Tony Thrash.
• 8:23
  Speaker 1: Until next week.
• 8:24
  Speaker 1: Remember, there's still time left on the clock.
• 8:27
  Speaker 1: Let's get you off the bench to start your comeback.
• 8:30
  Speaker 1: I want to give a special shout out to Country Club for the original music.
• 8:35
  Speaker 1: You can find them on Instagram at Country Club.
• 8:38
  Speaker 1: You.