Latest / The Baller Alert Show / Episode 213 "Renni Rucci"

Transcript

Episode 213 "Renni Rucci" · The Baller Alert Show

0:01
Speaker 1: Hold up, hold up this show Baller a little Welcome
0:13
Speaker 1: to the Baller Show podcast available everywhere you get your podcast.
0:17
Speaker 1: I go by the name of Ferrari Simmons. Hey, young,
0:19
Speaker 1: your best solo. I go about that you don't beat
0:23
Speaker 1: that special guest, Rendy Rucci, and then she always stopped.
0:29
Speaker 1: Got ready the big one talking about we talk a
0:35
Speaker 1: lot of ship. You got a host to show with us. Okay,
0:37
Speaker 1: I'm down Cass City Chiefs and the Philadelphia Eagles with
0:44
Speaker 1: Jalen Hurts, Eagles into the Hurts and all the women
0:51
Speaker 1: do we respect him? Black Water Backs first time on
0:56
Speaker 1: a little bit time, got a song. I'll give Jalen
1:01
Speaker 1: a little bit. He needs a little little breathing room.
1:04
Speaker 1: Jalen is art. Yeah, from Philly. He got a black
1:11
Speaker 1: woman agent, black female, first black female agent to represent
1:14
Speaker 1: a black quarterback in the Super Yes. He is so professional,
1:19
Speaker 1: so fine, it's goal oriented. Fine. He motivates the team,
1:22
Speaker 1: oh my gosh. And he makes it happen that time
1:27
Speaker 1: come out. I'll be like, you ain't seeing him shout
1:30
Speaker 1: out And I'm thinking that he's going viral because they're
1:35
Speaker 1: actually winning games. They're gonna hand in hand. Oh no,
1:40
Speaker 1: they're gonna win the Super Bowl, baby faces. I don't
1:42
Speaker 1: know if they're gonna be that boy Pat Well, I'm
1:44
Speaker 1: gonna be watching all for my Jalen Hurst Jersey on
1:48
Speaker 1: Oh my god. Okay, uh and not so good news,
1:53
Speaker 1: Tyree Nichols. Did you guys see the video? I tried
1:56
Speaker 1: to watch it, but it's just like, man, how many
1:58
Speaker 1: times are we gonna be bad? Sea? There wasn't any
2:01
Speaker 1: white cops, but they were immediately. You know, action was
2:06
Speaker 1: taken immediately. It was swift, efficient, and more situations we've
2:11
Speaker 1: seen it take months in years, and some still and
2:14
Speaker 1: some people some people get get left and still get paid,
2:17
Speaker 1: or they get fired from that job and they go
2:19
Speaker 1: to another county and they're still employed and they're still
2:22
Speaker 1: going to continue doing the same thing. So it's like,
2:25
Speaker 1: you know, that's really sad man, that we continue, you know,
2:27
Speaker 1: to live in a world to where we have to be.
2:30
Speaker 1: You know, first of all, people don't I mean I
2:32
Speaker 1: don't know, some people know, some people may not know,
2:34
Speaker 1: but your taxes is paying, So why do black people
2:40
Speaker 1: we still get pulled over and we're still afraid, like,
2:42
Speaker 1: oh my god, we're getting pulled over by the cops.
2:44
Speaker 1: I don't know how this is going to turn out. Well,
2:46
Speaker 1: they're saying, um, the motive behind it was, um, I
2:51
Speaker 1: guess one of the baby one of the cops, like
2:53
Speaker 1: baby baby mom or something like that. So apparently one
2:57
Speaker 1: of the officers involved, his X worked at the same
3:01
Speaker 1: FedEx worked out right, and supposedly Tyree was sleeping with
3:06
Speaker 1: this with Officer Harley's ex. If this is true, obviously
3:10
Speaker 1: it's premeditated, like he saw that man, wanted to beat
3:12
Speaker 1: his ass and got his friends involved and eventually and
3:15
Speaker 1: killed him. Again. This is all alleged. We do not
3:19
Speaker 1: know if this is true, but if it is true,
3:21
Speaker 1: then it is very obvious that this is premeditated murder,
3:24
Speaker 1: whether he knew that he was pulling this man over
3:26
Speaker 1: or not. Once you saw him, you decided what you
3:29
Speaker 1: were gonna do, and you had your friends help you
3:31
Speaker 1: with it. You all deserve life in prisons. Yeah, justice
3:34
Speaker 1: for Tyree. And the only way that you know, I
3:38
Speaker 1: feel like this all these you know, police brutality is
3:41
Speaker 1: going to get better is with punishment. You know, they
3:43
Speaker 1: gotta be treated just how we would be treated. We
3:45
Speaker 1: went out and jumped somebody and killed him. Yeah, yeah, alright.
3:52
Speaker 1: QC accuses Offset of breaching legal agreement. According to Radar Online,
3:57
Speaker 1: Offset suit quality control to prevent the record label from
4:00
Speaker 1: receiving revenue for his solo work. Um the law. The
4:04
Speaker 1: lawsuit set Offset signed his first deal with QC in
4:07
Speaker 1: two thousand and thirteen. The agreement provided the label with
4:09
Speaker 1: full control and fifty of his profits. QC said Offset
4:13
Speaker 1: had breached the confidential confidentiality provision in the original sediment
4:19
Speaker 1: settlement agreement by disclosing the terms of the settlement agreement
4:23
Speaker 1: and the complaint on social media posts there it's too
4:27
Speaker 1: much going on to where I think there should be
4:29
Speaker 1: an issue. I understand that business is business, but businesses us.
4:32
Speaker 1: We do business. We're the ones that are making the rules.
4:34
Speaker 1: If we're making the contracts. There's no reason to have
4:37
Speaker 1: people in messed up deals. There's no reason to a
4:40
Speaker 1: lot of people. There's no reason to do this to
4:43
Speaker 1: people when you're trying to get rich. It's the reason.
4:46
Speaker 1: I mean, how much like you're rich from agreed that
4:50
Speaker 1: you're in. You're in a contract. Um, so who are
4:55
Speaker 1: you signed to and is your world? I don't know.
4:59
Speaker 1: Listen that I'm you asked for some reason people think
5:01
Speaker 1: I've been signed a QC. I has never signed a
5:04
Speaker 1: q are a family like you know, kind of under
5:08
Speaker 1: the same house or whatever. Never been signed a QC.
5:10
Speaker 1: I've always been signing the Woodpeck since that's the only
5:12
Speaker 1: contract I've ever sawn um, And I've never been upstreamed.
5:16
Speaker 1: I've never signed to a bigger labor or anything. I've
5:20
Speaker 1: been with my independent label who since our signed, you know,
5:23
Speaker 1: kind of figuring it out together and contract. You know,
5:28
Speaker 1: I'm gonna just say, I don't think anybody when you
5:31
Speaker 1: learn started learning the business and everything. I don't think
5:33
Speaker 1: anybody satisfied with their first contract. It's like your first job,
5:36
Speaker 1: like you know, it's just something to get your feet
5:38
Speaker 1: with or whatever. Um. But the difference is um. Some
5:42
Speaker 1: people like integrity in business, so being that who I signed,
5:48
Speaker 1: who we are like a family, and there is a
5:51
Speaker 1: lot of integrity on both ends. Whatever I'm not happy
5:54
Speaker 1: with or whatever, they may not be happy with, because
5:55
Speaker 1: it's not just about the artists. Like I think that's
5:57
Speaker 1: another thing too, like the artist only sometimes look from
6:01
Speaker 1: a selfish standpoint. You have to take the other side
6:02
Speaker 1: of the perspective because this is somebody invested into your future. Yeah,
6:06
Speaker 1: you may feel like, well, I'm the one who have
6:07
Speaker 1: to do this, I'm the one, you know, But that's
6:09
Speaker 1: somebody who took a chance to to invest into you,
6:11
Speaker 1: for you to make this money, for you to have
6:12
Speaker 1: a platform, for you to do whatever it is that
6:14
Speaker 1: you're doing. So I think like sometimes as artists or
6:17
Speaker 1: whatever the case is, we forget to look at the
6:20
Speaker 1: other side. If we were the person who wasn't the
6:23
Speaker 1: talent per se, but pouring the money into the talent,
6:26
Speaker 1: why why can't I want to make my money back?
6:29
Speaker 1: Why can't I want to see a profit because I
6:31
Speaker 1: was the one who took the chance on you. Um,
6:33
Speaker 1: communication go a long way and integrity go a long way.
6:36
Speaker 1: But you do have people who do sign and stuff
6:39
Speaker 1: deals and they aren't really in bear with the people
6:42
Speaker 1: who well I felt like that was what the music
6:44
Speaker 1: industry was built off of, bad deals. But but I mean,
6:48
Speaker 1: I think some people just it depends on circumstances to like,
6:51
Speaker 1: if you're in a situation where you can wait it
6:53
Speaker 1: out and be independent and and build on your own,
6:57
Speaker 1: then that's what you should do. But some people, if
7:00
Speaker 1: we're being real, signed contracts because like they're looking for
7:03
Speaker 1: like they need it right then, or or they don't
7:06
Speaker 1: like you don't they don't take the time or feel
7:07
Speaker 1: like they have the time to figure it out. Like
7:10
Speaker 1: people look for money quick and when they look good,
7:13
Speaker 1: they go for we all know. I feel like artists
7:15
Speaker 1: don't care about they don't care about their record deal
7:18
Speaker 1: until like I feel like the money slows down and
7:21
Speaker 1: this and this this situation, like it has nothing to
7:23
Speaker 1: do with like QC or just offset. I'm just saying
7:25
Speaker 1: like in history of music, artists only look at their
7:29
Speaker 1: contract when the money slows down. Because it's weird. It's
7:33
Speaker 1: like contract for months before I signed it, like literally
7:37
Speaker 1: down to like verbiage of certain statements because I felt
7:40
Speaker 1: like it was like blanket language, like no, let's be
7:43
Speaker 1: very specistic about what this is, what this means if
7:46
Speaker 1: this happens. Like so we both knew what it like
7:49
Speaker 1: our lawyers and like we went back and for four months,
7:52
Speaker 1: like I was, you know, and I was still stripping,
7:54
Speaker 1: so I had money. I wasn't. That's why I saying
7:56
Speaker 1: circumstances to like I had you yeah, like I had
7:59
Speaker 1: the time to sit there and wait and figure it out.
8:02
Speaker 1: Did you have a fellow artist guide you through it
8:04
Speaker 1: or what did you just go with your lawyers? I
8:06
Speaker 1: talked to my boy. Yeah, she just had the bag already.
8:09
Speaker 1: She like, I ain't tripping, you know, but I had
8:16
Speaker 1: like I had the money, so I wasn't rich, and
8:17
Speaker 1: if I didn't have the money, I probably would have
8:19
Speaker 1: time to first contract that gave. I mean, we remember Sukiana,
8:22
Speaker 1: you know, going online and losing her mind. You know,
8:24
Speaker 1: couldn't get out of a horrible deal. And honestly, I
8:27
Speaker 1: agree with you. I just want us to do better
8:28
Speaker 1: business with you, with each other because everybody else look
8:34
Speaker 1: out for their people. They were like at our community
8:37
Speaker 1: have a hard time looking out for each other. Fixed that, man,
8:41
Speaker 1: You know, nobody wants to see the family feel so
8:45
Speaker 1: all said, you know, fix that and can move on.
8:47
Speaker 1: And you know I want to also, uh segue to
8:50
Speaker 1: Ocho Sinko. That's a very smart man right there. Very smart. Yeah. Sure,
8:54
Speaker 1: never bought real anything when I was playing. Never What
8:57
Speaker 1: was the point I went to Claire's. The women don't
9:00
Speaker 1: did with you anyway because of who you are, and
9:01
Speaker 1: then the other women who are really doing their homework
9:03
Speaker 1: don't google how much you're making already. Why am I
9:06
Speaker 1: buying a dollar watch? What? There's nothing I can buy
9:10
Speaker 1: that is bigger than my name alone. So it made
9:13
Speaker 1: no sense. Listen, Ferrari, don't understand man, Like, while I'm
9:19
Speaker 1: from I'm from Arkansas. So what I realized when I
9:22
Speaker 1: became an adult, when I started having white friends and
9:25
Speaker 1: I started going to that house, I'm like, damn, they
9:27
Speaker 1: got a big gass house. But then their dad is
9:30
Speaker 1: driving a Corolla. Funny sou but I'm like, their dad's
9:33
Speaker 1: driving a Corolla, but their house is way bigger than ours,
9:35
Speaker 1: and we're over here trying to drive business and trucks
9:37
Speaker 1: and everything over here. We're over the little house. Yeah.
9:41
Speaker 1: So then when I moved to Atlanta, Ferrarium, they used
9:43
Speaker 1: to try to haze me at the radio station and
9:46
Speaker 1: taking we go out to eating the build three four
9:49
Speaker 1: hundred dollars. I was at our Hell now I can't
9:50
Speaker 1: hang with them. Yeah, because we made you pay one time. Yeah,
9:54
Speaker 1: I knew you had it the last time without these
9:57
Speaker 1: Since then, that cheating because I was a cheating. Okay
10:04
Speaker 1: about the first, go ahead, you want me to tell
10:07
Speaker 1: you about my first long story? Okay? Okay, So short
10:11
Speaker 1: story is I moved to Atlanta, started dating. I went
10:14
Speaker 1: on the day the girl took me to this restaurant.
10:17
Speaker 1: And when I got there, you know, I'm not knowing
10:20
Speaker 1: the situation or whatever. And I looked at the menu,
10:23
Speaker 1: and I've seen the cheapest thing on the menu was
10:26
Speaker 1: like twenty five dollars. In the appetizing Nina, that's a
10:29
Speaker 1: whole meal of Arkansas. Make a little story short, I said,
10:33
Speaker 1: I gotta use the bathroom. I told the waiter, hey, man,
10:36
Speaker 1: make sure that he checks seen on a date. He
10:40
Speaker 1: really liked that, though I kept okay. So Jad said
10:45
Speaker 1: he wasn't worried about you know, crazy expensive cars. He
10:48
Speaker 1: was flying spirit Um. He bought Claire's jewelry. You icy.
10:53
Speaker 1: So what's what's your rule of thoughts? What do you
10:54
Speaker 1: feel about? What you feel about what Chad was saying?
10:57
Speaker 1: Didn't make you think like, you know what, I don't
10:59
Speaker 1: need to buy the more? So are you like like
11:00
Speaker 1: that this is what I like, this is what I'm
11:02
Speaker 1: gonna do? Well, I don't. I'm not really a splurger.
11:05
Speaker 1: So like I don't just buy expensive things every day
11:09
Speaker 1: or just because I make money or whatever, Like I
11:11
Speaker 1: do like give myself things sometimes because you know, everybody
11:15
Speaker 1: deserves to enjoy what they were cared for. But now
11:18
Speaker 1: I'm tight with a dollar. I ain't gonna Yeah, I
11:22
Speaker 1: have a heart of sex, been to my home and
11:24
Speaker 1: I'm like, I just like I agree with him, But
11:29
Speaker 1: I'm not going as far as i'd like to, like
11:31
Speaker 1: bond fake things like I'm not going what they call
11:36
Speaker 1: they call them dupes. I'm not gonna go buy dope
11:39
Speaker 1: bags and that's what they call it. That like sake
11:44
Speaker 1: stuff like I'm not doing all of that. Like if
11:47
Speaker 1: I wanted that bad, I'll go buy it, but not
11:50
Speaker 1: lashing about you know how I shot. I'll go online,
11:55
Speaker 1: go to the website I want because we put everything
11:57
Speaker 1: in my car, look at it and all get all
11:59
Speaker 1: the way to the check out and they see it.
12:00
Speaker 1: I feel like I thought it, like I just never changed.
12:05
Speaker 1: And then I'm gonna look at my bank account, and
12:07
Speaker 1: my bank account look better with my money in it.
12:09
Speaker 1: Right now, I do have a lot of expensive things,
12:12
Speaker 1: but that I didn't say I bought it. It is
12:16
Speaker 1: time for love versus money. We can love who A
12:21
Speaker 1: bought them? Make spensive things? Since which one run it down?
12:26
Speaker 1: Let's let's let's talk that I meet a lot of
12:29
Speaker 1: nice people that like to make me happy, a lot
12:31
Speaker 1: of nice people that like, you're dating, I'm single. You're single, Okay,
12:36
Speaker 1: are you exploring some options? I'm just I don't want
12:41
Speaker 1: to say I'm dating because I'm at a face now
12:43
Speaker 1: that I've never been at before. I feel like, um,
12:47
Speaker 1: if people know about me or they don't, I've been
12:49
Speaker 1: I was a team mom, so I know a mom
12:51
Speaker 1: since the time I was sixteen years old, So half
12:54
Speaker 1: my life was a kid. The other half i've been
12:56
Speaker 1: a mom. My kids are now fourteen and twelve. They're
12:59
Speaker 1: independent and you know, they don't really need me handing
13:02
Speaker 1: foot and how they've been before. I've always been in
13:04
Speaker 1: serious relationships and I'm not in a relationship right now,
13:07
Speaker 1: so I feel like this's like my first time really
13:09
Speaker 1: like being on my own and like being able to
13:12
Speaker 1: like if I want to tut to you today, I
13:13
Speaker 1: talk to you not even hot, like not a hot girl.
13:17
Speaker 1: It's like, you know, I'm a nigger with the money.
13:21
Speaker 1: So I ain't really like pressed about a man. I'm
13:24
Speaker 1: just enjoying myself, enjoying life, doing what I want to do.
13:27
Speaker 1: If I want to include a man in that time.
13:29
Speaker 1: Good for you enjoying the time while you're here. Other
13:32
Speaker 1: than that, like, I'm fine with myself. Okay, okay, hold on,
13:36
Speaker 1: we're gonna get right back and get all we wanna
13:38
Speaker 1: get back in there. Let's do love versus money real quick? Okay?
13:41
Speaker 1: Is it logs? The minute I met you, baby, I
13:43
Speaker 1: knew I wanted to money. The love of money, money,
13:48
Speaker 1: it's love versus money. They say you can't put a
13:51
Speaker 1: price tag on love. I love you on the ball
13:56
Speaker 1: or alert show. All right, love versus money. That's when
13:59
Speaker 1: I shoot out a cup to you guys, and then
14:01
Speaker 1: you guys let me know individually. Are they there for
14:03
Speaker 1: the love or is it just a business relationship? All right?
14:08
Speaker 1: So today we have take Diggs and a business Jones,
14:17
Speaker 1: April's a Marioan baby mama business. Are they together for
14:21
Speaker 1: the love of the money. I don't gonna say love,
14:23
Speaker 1: and I don't say that because a lot of people
14:26
Speaker 1: would look at and be like, they're so different. It
14:28
Speaker 1: got to be business. I look at it like they
14:30
Speaker 1: are so different. The only thing that could keep them
14:32
Speaker 1: together this long for real is love. And when you
14:34
Speaker 1: see that chemistry when they make like their videos and
14:36
Speaker 1: stuff together it don't seem forced to me. I've seen
14:39
Speaker 1: a lot of force ship we it don't seem forced
14:42
Speaker 1: to me. I really think they do genuinely love and
14:44
Speaker 1: care about each other. So Lord, I know he was
14:47
Speaker 1: coming this way next. Um okay, So I actually really
14:51
Speaker 1: agree with you. You know when they said like opposite
14:52
Speaker 1: attracts um, I think that Tay has always been super like,
14:58
Speaker 1: young hearted and full of energy, and then you got
15:00
Speaker 1: April who was a little bit more mature for her age,
15:03
Speaker 1: but still young, lighthearted, fun. I don't think this is business.
15:08
Speaker 1: I think April is ready for something a little more stable,
15:12
Speaker 1: and I think Tay want someone who's still young, fresh, sexy,
15:16
Speaker 1: and full of energy. I think it's love. I was joking.
15:21
Speaker 1: I do think it's love, because I mean for for
15:24
Speaker 1: a woman to make a man get on social media
15:27
Speaker 1: and act out of character, you know what I'm saying,
15:29
Speaker 1: get a little loose on on the ground. Yeah, but
15:32
Speaker 1: I'm saying like, I think she makes him comfortable. That's
15:36
Speaker 1: that's what I mean. Like, you know, when when a
15:39
Speaker 1: woman can make you be more comfortable and be more
15:42
Speaker 1: of yourself is definitely love. So some people think that
15:45
Speaker 1: in the beginning it was business because you know Tay
15:48
Speaker 1: like like a Michael B. Jordan had a reputation of
15:51
Speaker 1: just dating white women, um, and they thought, you know
15:55
Speaker 1: that this could be like a clean up for that.
15:57
Speaker 1: What do you guys think about that? I don't no
16:01
Speaker 1: matter how it started, obviously they both being a fit
16:04
Speaker 1: because they're enjoying their time with each other. I mean,
16:07
Speaker 1: she ain't all the way black, So what's the problem, Like,
16:10
Speaker 1: like are they satisfied now? Like you know he's gonna
16:13
Speaker 1: date who he was. I don't think that's I don't
16:16
Speaker 1: think that's people business. I don't think they put too
16:18
Speaker 1: much on their like who people dat and what's the race? Yeah?
16:21
Speaker 1: The race part for me, it's like okay, like tall
16:23
Speaker 1: that all the way black? His dawn self. You know
16:25
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. He he's chocolate skin wise. Yeah, he
16:32
Speaker 1: has a son. And what I'm saying is he's not
16:35
Speaker 1: like this, Like you know, you're not gonna pull up
16:38
Speaker 1: and fall forward and see Tay like outside feel very comfortable.
16:42
Speaker 1: I mean, like that's how you know you love somebody
16:44
Speaker 1: or like it's loved there because you could just be yourself. Yeah,
16:47
Speaker 1: Like I'm comfortable. I don't care what nobody else say
16:49
Speaker 1: about me when I do this, because you make me
16:51
Speaker 1: feel like it's okay for me to be me, like
16:54
Speaker 1: make me appreciate even being myself more. You can tell,
16:56
Speaker 1: you can tell they love each other. I think it's
16:58
Speaker 1: real love. Cowork is for show. Wait, first of all,
17:01
Speaker 1: did you see that viral interview when she got drunk
17:04
Speaker 1: and she said how all these dudes wanted her and
17:06
Speaker 1: that was in her d M s. Yeah, you think
17:09
Speaker 1: you think Diggs wasn't one of them. I think he
17:11
Speaker 1: probably was one. It was when she was on Instagram
17:14
Speaker 1: live and then then that probably made him going her
17:17
Speaker 1: d M. Yeah, everybody was like trying to go hard
17:20
Speaker 1: on her like she's been doing that. She was right,
17:23
Speaker 1: she got She probably was like, oh she got experienced,
17:26
Speaker 1: like let me shoot a young thing would experience. Let
17:30
Speaker 1: me get some of that thun the cat and let's
17:32
Speaker 1: go before the years before that, she was with Dr
17:35
Speaker 1: Dre first Range Rover I said she got that. Yeah,
17:42
Speaker 1: every rich nig on boy gifts. I think it depends
17:45
Speaker 1: on what money means to you. I think when it's
17:47
Speaker 1: a person who who doesn't value money like that, they
17:50
Speaker 1: just gonna do it doing it. Dr his money. That
17:54
Speaker 1: nigger had a stroke when he had to pay that
17:57
Speaker 1: million dollars a month that he ended up in the hospital. Man,
18:00
Speaker 1: that's because he hated his ex wife at that point. Man, Well,
18:03
Speaker 1: let's find a way to do something for the woman
18:05
Speaker 1: that he's really vibing with. That's true. We'll be right
18:08
Speaker 1: back with more of The Baller Alert Show. You're listening
18:19
Speaker 1: to a special edition of The ball Or Alert Show.
18:21
Speaker 1: What's up. It's Renny Ucie and I'm hanging out with
18:23
Speaker 1: the Baller Alert Show and we are back with the
18:26
Speaker 1: Baller Alert Show podcast available everywhere you get your podcast.
18:29
Speaker 1: Renny Roucie is still in the building. We appreciate you
18:31
Speaker 1: pulling up on us having so far. You're rocking with us,
18:36
Speaker 1: all right, all right, So what's going on with the
18:39
Speaker 1: music man? Because I definitely did a search like a
18:43
Speaker 1: week or so. I was like, damn, when's the last
18:45
Speaker 1: time Renny Roucie put out a song by herself? I
18:47
Speaker 1: just saw a texture from the Block performing Keep the
18:51
Speaker 1: Change right before that? Yeah, when was the date? Literally
18:59
Speaker 1: like December? It like I saw I saw one in December.
19:03
Speaker 1: The Change was before that in November. But I want
19:05
Speaker 1: more than just it's coming. I'm putting a mixtape out.
19:08
Speaker 1: I'm finishing it up right now. Um, you know my
19:11
Speaker 1: label and I kind of wasn't seeing out of eye,
19:13
Speaker 1: so my music was you know, that comes with like
19:16
Speaker 1: just you have a little fall out with your mom
19:18
Speaker 1: or your daddy and y'all gotta sit down at the table.
19:20
Speaker 1: But everybody's stubborning. So that's you know. And then right
19:23
Speaker 1: when we were ready to get the ball back rolling
19:25
Speaker 1: with the music, my mom passed, so you know, I
19:28
Speaker 1: had a just again, thank you. But so it's been
19:33
Speaker 1: a year now and it's still like some days are like, Okay,
19:37
Speaker 1: I know how to move through this world. In the
19:39
Speaker 1: other days are like I don't know what to do,
19:41
Speaker 1: you know, so, and we're trying to finish my tape.
19:44
Speaker 1: It's been like that. So it's like when you're really creative,
19:47
Speaker 1: as we all are sitting here, like you know, like
19:49
Speaker 1: sometimes when you mentally and emotionally like just not there,
19:52
Speaker 1: you can't just you can't like you can't shake it,
19:55
Speaker 1: you can't think of nothing, you can't create anything because
19:58
Speaker 1: you're just not in that space. So trying to fit
20:00
Speaker 1: to take that's been the biggest challenge, Like some days,
20:02
Speaker 1: I like, it's there, come on, let's do it. Let's
20:05
Speaker 1: do it in the next day, I might like sit
20:06
Speaker 1: in my bill for a week. It's just different, you know.
20:10
Speaker 1: So but I gotta tape coming. What are you doing
20:12
Speaker 1: to hell? Like are you going to therapy? Actually? I
20:16
Speaker 1: think I just really realized that I need to do
20:20
Speaker 1: something to actually like address, you know, grieving, because I
20:26
Speaker 1: said in my bill, for a long time, I you know,
20:30
Speaker 1: just isolating myself. But I'm also like even I'm the
20:34
Speaker 1: youngest girl, I'm like everybody big system. It's four of
20:37
Speaker 1: us and we got a little brother, but I'm like
20:38
Speaker 1: the big sister. So you know, when it came down
20:41
Speaker 1: to funeral arrangements, I was the one doing everything. Um
20:43
Speaker 1: you know, I just had to be like the one
20:46
Speaker 1: to be strong for everybody else. So then I dove
20:49
Speaker 1: into work. I just started doing a lot of shows.
20:51
Speaker 1: I didn't care what it was where it was just
20:53
Speaker 1: book it, let's do it. So I could work myself
20:56
Speaker 1: into a hole to where I was like exhausted all
21:00
Speaker 1: the way around, like physically, mentally, emotionally like everything. And
21:05
Speaker 1: it took my kids saying to me, hey, like you okay,
21:09
Speaker 1: like my daughter really, because me and my daughter spend
21:11
Speaker 1: all little time together, you know, we get our snuggles in. Like,
21:13
Speaker 1: my kids are really affectionate. I'm not an affectionate person
21:16
Speaker 1: to anybody else, but my kids are really affectionate. So
21:18
Speaker 1: my daughter was laying with me and she's like, you
21:20
Speaker 1: know what, you're not yourself, like something's wrong or whatever.
21:24
Speaker 1: And she's like, you know, it's okay to not be okay.
21:26
Speaker 1: And for my twelve year old to tell me that,
21:28
Speaker 1: I was like, you know, you need it. You gotta
21:30
Speaker 1: address it, because if I'm not my best self for them,
21:32
Speaker 1: then nothing is right said as to Lauren London was
21:38
Speaker 1: saying to while she got back to work, No, seriously,
21:42
Speaker 1: like and you will think, like honestly, like we do.
21:44
Speaker 1: We all do this, Like when something's wrong with us,
21:46
Speaker 1: we have we do a good job of asking it
21:48
Speaker 1: so like other people don't really know what you're dealing with.
21:52
Speaker 1: Sometimes we mask it so good that we don't even
21:54
Speaker 1: realize what we're dealing with. Like we we put ourselves
21:57
Speaker 1: in this delusion to not see ourselves anymore, Like just
22:01
Speaker 1: see what we want to see and pay notice what
22:03
Speaker 1: we want to notice. We got to stop ignoring the problems,
22:06
Speaker 1: and that's what I had to really sit down and
22:07
Speaker 1: have like a little come to Jesus moment with myself,
22:09
Speaker 1: like girl, get it together, Like you need to really
22:12
Speaker 1: just sit down and address what it is. Because you
22:15
Speaker 1: can go make all the money, you can go do
22:16
Speaker 1: all the work, but if you're if you're not okay,
22:20
Speaker 1: that's never gonna change. So yeah, I don't know. I
22:23
Speaker 1: think maybe I should go do like some therapy or something,
22:25
Speaker 1: but you know, I think I'm open to it, Like
22:29
Speaker 1: I'm open to it now. I didn't think it was
22:31
Speaker 1: like a real problem for that though. You know, like grief,
22:34
Speaker 1: you feel like as the day is going to get easier,
22:38
Speaker 1: and when I realized that they don't, I'm like, oh yeah,
22:41
Speaker 1: And it's not just this grief, you know, it's previous
22:44
Speaker 1: experiences had It's you having issues with the label trying
22:47
Speaker 1: to get your music, and then like my fiance have
22:51
Speaker 1: went to prison, so like that was the whole year before,
22:54
Speaker 1: like during all of this, and then me and my
22:57
Speaker 1: mom weren't really in the best place, like a few
22:59
Speaker 1: months before she had passed and that was on t
23:03
Speaker 1: saw so you know, it was just like a lot
23:05
Speaker 1: of things that you know from the outside looking at me,
23:07
Speaker 1: and people don't really understand. Like now I live with
23:09
Speaker 1: this every day. I wasn't for you being on TV
23:12
Speaker 1: because you know now you know one thing is to
23:14
Speaker 1: be online. Yeah, the next thing you on TV and
23:17
Speaker 1: it's a sitcom and sometimes you don't know how the
23:19
Speaker 1: shot gonna look. So sometimes for the episode to come
23:21
Speaker 1: out and see how they add And now I think
23:23
Speaker 1: people don't know that, like we don't know what the
23:25
Speaker 1: episode is until the episode. Like my first time seeing
23:28
Speaker 1: the episodes be when everybody'll see it. Yeah, so when
23:33
Speaker 1: me and my mom, we're dealing with that. Honestly, I
23:35
Speaker 1: feel like I didn't my first season on there. I
23:39
Speaker 1: didn't really show who I was. It was something new
23:41
Speaker 1: to me. I didn't know how to maneuver like the
23:44
Speaker 1: cameras being there. And again like my fiance had literally
23:47
Speaker 1: just went to prison, right, yeah, well my ex fiance
23:50
Speaker 1: because we not together anymore, but he had literally just
23:53
Speaker 1: went to prison, like right before we started filming. So
23:55
Speaker 1: you're trying to adjust. I'm I ain't gonna lie y'all
23:58
Speaker 1: slick depressed, like I'm going through this little funk. Me
24:01
Speaker 1: and my label had really just started beef in. So
24:04
Speaker 1: it's like I'm really like just trying to act like
24:05
Speaker 1: I'm i D COVID was like just kind of like
24:09
Speaker 1: we outside a little bit, but not really too much.
24:11
Speaker 1: So a lot of the things that I wanted to
24:14
Speaker 1: film we couldn't film because it was COVID restrictions and
24:18
Speaker 1: things like that or whatever. So the only thing that
24:21
Speaker 1: they like we really got to show was this rough
24:24
Speaker 1: spot me and my mom were in, and I was
24:27
Speaker 1: just like at the time, like I hate it, Like
24:29
Speaker 1: I just don't like that this is the only thing
24:31
Speaker 1: we're feeling, like this is all we can film because
24:33
Speaker 1: it's in this you can test everybody here and this
24:35
Speaker 1: is what's going on. Whatever. But now I appreciate the episodes.
24:39
Speaker 1: I didn't watch those episodes with me and my mom
24:41
Speaker 1: and after she passed because we were just like and
24:45
Speaker 1: it was by accident because I just scrolling on Instagram
24:48
Speaker 1: somebody tagged me um episode where we had like our
24:50
Speaker 1: last little argument and I'm crying at the end, but
24:52
Speaker 1: we hug it out and it's just whatever. And I
24:56
Speaker 1: appreciated them episodes in that moment because even though it
24:59
Speaker 1: was like an ugly moment for us, which We've had
25:01
Speaker 1: many like we love each other to death. We loved
25:03
Speaker 1: each other so hard, but we were so much alike,
25:06
Speaker 1: like look alike, acting like everything. That was my best friend.
25:09
Speaker 1: But that was like, you know what I'm saying. So
25:13
Speaker 1: when I went back and looked at I appreciated the
25:15
Speaker 1: episodes because I can look at that like I had
25:18
Speaker 1: that forever. Yeah, like I have, even though it's bad
25:21
Speaker 1: parts at it, But I'm watching you hug me and
25:24
Speaker 1: me hug you and just let you know how much
25:25
Speaker 1: I love you, how much we don't understand each other,
25:28
Speaker 1: but you know it's this I love you. So I
25:31
Speaker 1: appreciate it in that moment. But it's still hard to watch.
25:34
Speaker 1: But I do like the show. I like being on
25:36
Speaker 1: the show. I like being a part of it. It's fun,
25:38
Speaker 1: it's interesting. Are you going going back to loving hip hop? Watch? Yeah?
25:43
Speaker 1: So we spoke to Scrap. We spoke to jock um Scrap.
25:46
Speaker 1: You know, we saw him have this whole thing with
25:48
Speaker 1: his mom on the show, which was really like a breakthrough,
25:51
Speaker 1: especially for people that have been watching Love and Hip Hop.
25:53
Speaker 1: I've been watching for years. I felt like that was
25:56
Speaker 1: the inevitable, Like I felt like he was going to
25:58
Speaker 1: snap or release at some point. He shared that they
26:02
Speaker 1: offer therapy to the cast members of Love and Hip Hop.
26:06
Speaker 1: Have you ever accepted that therapy at all? I do
26:09
Speaker 1: this thing where when I am dealing with something, I
26:11
Speaker 1: shut off from everybody, like I just no, I'm okay,
26:15
Speaker 1: I'm fine. I don't need to say it out myself,
26:18
Speaker 1: I think because I'm I've been so used to doing
26:21
Speaker 1: that because again, like I was a team mom, I
26:25
Speaker 1: had to figure ship out myself since sixteen. So I've
26:28
Speaker 1: never just looked or when it was offered, I never
26:31
Speaker 1: felt like it was a genuine thing. So when you
26:33
Speaker 1: do have situations where it is genuine, it's just something
26:35
Speaker 1: I'm not used to yet, so I don't know how
26:37
Speaker 1: to accept it. So it's more like no, I'm okay
26:39
Speaker 1: because that's what I know to do. You know what
26:42
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like I don't know. It's I'm like a
26:44
Speaker 1: man with pride, like don't ask nobody for directions. We're
26:47
Speaker 1: gonna figure it out like that kind of thing. But right,
26:53
Speaker 1: the hardest part is it like acknowledging it. I'm acknowledging.
26:56
Speaker 1: I have a hard time accepting things from people who's
26:59
Speaker 1: you're signing up wars. So you you also acknowledge that
27:03
Speaker 1: you're single? Why? How what happened? Yeah, let's talk about
27:09
Speaker 1: this because everybody swear I cheated on this man isn't
27:13
Speaker 1: cheating if me outside all we started dating new like,
27:24
Speaker 1: we actually went public New Year was it one? It
27:29
Speaker 1: was before the pandemic, so um on New Year's So
27:35
Speaker 1: he went to he got locked up in March. So
27:39
Speaker 1: that's roughly like only three months that we were actually together. Um,
27:45
Speaker 1: but we spent every one of those days together together.
27:49
Speaker 1: Char I get together Instagram. Okay, so it's like, all right,
27:54
Speaker 1: So he was at my dams before, but I didn't
27:56
Speaker 1: see it. And then I went to go d M
27:58
Speaker 1: him about a song he had at and I was like,
28:01
Speaker 1: you know, you should let me put a verse on
28:03
Speaker 1: it or whatever, but he had just did the remix
28:05
Speaker 1: with the baby, and he was like, I'm gonna get
28:08
Speaker 1: something else for you dot dot dot. It was nothing
28:11
Speaker 1: else after that, and then it was like some mishap
28:13
Speaker 1: with his manager and my manager and something about a
28:16
Speaker 1: session we were supposed to be having together but it
28:18
Speaker 1: was never no session. Like I don't know what that
28:20
Speaker 1: whole situation was, but he was like he hit me.
28:22
Speaker 1: He was like, you could have just hit me yourself,
28:24
Speaker 1: Like what's going on. I'm like, the funk are you
28:26
Speaker 1: talking about? Like sto session that didn't happen. You never
28:31
Speaker 1: had a session, so I didn't know he's talking about.
28:33
Speaker 1: Neither one of us knew what the other was talking about.
28:36
Speaker 1: But anyway, that's just what sparked the conversation because it
28:39
Speaker 1: left us exchange the numbers trying to figure out what
28:41
Speaker 1: went on, and then like we just kind of started
28:44
Speaker 1: talking every day like god, we just like it was
28:46
Speaker 1: cool and and then get locked up inseparable getting a relationship. Um,
28:54
Speaker 1: and even on those three months, like like be clear,
28:57
Speaker 1: like it was not perfect, like it was a new
29:01
Speaker 1: relationship with you got this many baby mama's I got
29:06
Speaker 1: what I got going on, like whatever the case is, um,
29:09
Speaker 1: just getting out of a five year relationship. So it
29:11
Speaker 1: was like a lot of baggage on both ends. But
29:14
Speaker 1: we figured it out and we were like really friends
29:16
Speaker 1: and really cool. So he gets sucked up and I'm like, listen,
29:19
Speaker 1: I'm gonna try to do this with you, Like yeah,
29:22
Speaker 1: I mean you did the ball or remember she did?
29:24
Speaker 1: I was I was down, like we were in this
29:28
Speaker 1: together because that's just how much I did. It was.
29:34
Speaker 1: It was like I was shocked that I even liked him,
29:36
Speaker 1: like like I loved him make this song like we
29:38
Speaker 1: was like really a little bit. He popped the question
29:40
Speaker 1: at that time or no this he this later on,
29:43
Speaker 1: but my eight years right, so this is this is
29:47
Speaker 1: like just a little my kids dad did eight years
29:50
Speaker 1: and I did not do any of that time with him.
29:53
Speaker 1: Like when my kid's dad went to prison, I was
29:56
Speaker 1: eighteen years old. I still have three months left in
29:59
Speaker 1: my pregnancy with my daughter because both my kids had
30:01
Speaker 1: the same father, um and not just I felt like
30:04
Speaker 1: that was my exit route to a situation. I did
30:08
Speaker 1: not do any of that time with him. So and
30:12
Speaker 1: I said I would never stay with a man locked up,
30:16
Speaker 1: never would do it. But I just at that so
30:20
Speaker 1: it was what it was. Everything was cool. I want
30:22
Speaker 1: to say, like a couple of months in like it
30:26
Speaker 1: started getting different, very different. I didn't expect it to
30:31
Speaker 1: say that, say the same, but it started getting very
30:33
Speaker 1: difference in a bad way. This before he posed, I
30:36
Speaker 1: want to say a bad way. This is before he proposed.
30:38
Speaker 1: I don't want to say a bad way. It's just
30:40
Speaker 1: like more of like a communication thing. I'm not as
30:42
Speaker 1: who like to sit on the phone all the time,
30:44
Speaker 1: like and you know that, like I don't. I don't
30:46
Speaker 1: like to talk on the phone. I'm not a communicator.
30:49
Speaker 1: My communication skills are bad, like and I know that.
30:52
Speaker 1: But he's probably calling you throughout the day. Sometimes he
30:58
Speaker 1: was doing the ball alert like it was literally like
31:02
Speaker 1: and I was I was doing. I was extending that
31:05
Speaker 1: much of myself even when I didn't have it, you
31:09
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like it's I like my mean time.
31:10
Speaker 1: I like, I like to not talk, I like to
31:12
Speaker 1: sit alone. I need that for myself. Um. Honestly, it
31:21
Speaker 1: was just one of those things where even though it
31:22
Speaker 1: was like rough, it was like I just you know,
31:24
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna leave you like I'm with you, like
31:27
Speaker 1: I noticed it ain't gonna be perfect. It's my first
31:29
Speaker 1: time ever doing is like I noticed, nothing's perfect with
31:32
Speaker 1: a man who would be sitting in my face. So
31:34
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take the problems because I love you for real. Um.
31:37
Speaker 1: When he proposed, he proposed, like what the day before
31:39
Speaker 1: my birthday and the day after my birthday or something
31:41
Speaker 1: like that. Um, his his mom and brother's head drove
31:46
Speaker 1: down to my house and I'm thinking, they're just coming
31:48
Speaker 1: for my birthday or whatever, and everybody was being so weird,
31:53
Speaker 1: like my kids. Everybody was just being weird, like, um,
31:56
Speaker 1: come around here, come around here. And I had probably
31:58
Speaker 1: went to every room in my in the house. Why
32:01
Speaker 1: what's so at this point of being freshman, I'm like,
32:03
Speaker 1: what the fun going on? Like, but it's the problem.
32:06
Speaker 1: His brother comes from like in my own house. Like
32:08
Speaker 1: it's like the pool area, and he's coming out the
32:11
Speaker 1: pool house and he's had a big teddy beer and
32:13
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, like, y'all did all this for some
32:16
Speaker 1: birthday gifts? That's what I'm thinking about. Yeah, Like all right,
32:18
Speaker 1: so he gave me the little teddy beer and it's
32:20
Speaker 1: like an edible arrangement and something looms and stuff, and
32:22
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, thank you. He's on the phone, like,
32:24
Speaker 1: mind you, he stayed on the phone. He was on
32:25
Speaker 1: the phone twenty four hours of the day, so he
32:29
Speaker 1: doesn't miss nothing. He went grocery shopping with me. Um,
32:31
Speaker 1: but he's on the phone and he was like, oh,
32:33
Speaker 1: you're liking stuff that and I'm like yeah, and then
32:35
Speaker 1: he was so I'm walking away and his brother's like,
32:38
Speaker 1: turn around. So when I turned around, he's got the
32:40
Speaker 1: rings open, and his brother was like she see him,
32:44
Speaker 1: like she see him. So then he just was like,
32:46
Speaker 1: you know, gave me his whole I love you so
32:49
Speaker 1: much and I don't want to live without you. That
32:52
Speaker 1: he had a brother standing there like shaking like my
32:55
Speaker 1: hands is like yeah, I said, yeah, okay, So now
33:00
Speaker 1: we're engaged. And then rings rings was this video? Did
33:06
Speaker 1: the video? I don't have it? Okay? Did you feel
33:09
Speaker 1: pressure to stay with him, to hold him down because
33:12
Speaker 1: you had already said I'm going to do it, you
33:14
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like, did you feel public pressure?
33:17
Speaker 1: I don't know. I started feel feeling like that until
33:20
Speaker 1: like it got to the point where we decided to
33:23
Speaker 1: end it, so which people thinking I cheated if we came.
33:29
Speaker 1: It was a very adult breakup because we're still friends.
33:33
Speaker 1: We don't have no bad blood nothing like if he
33:35
Speaker 1: needs something, I'm still there for him whatever the case is. Um.
33:40
Speaker 1: It just it's you know, like a man away like
33:45
Speaker 1: I ain't like I'm a regular woman, you know, like
33:48
Speaker 1: I have to be out. I'm around certain people that
33:50
Speaker 1: were in the same industry, and I can understand it's
33:54
Speaker 1: hard to deal with sometimes. And it's also things that
33:56
Speaker 1: I had to deal with that made us both insecure,
34:00
Speaker 1: whether it be fake pages into me things, uh, you know,
34:04
Speaker 1: certain messages and things being sent to women, and I'm like, damn,
34:09
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, But it wasn't it was
34:11
Speaker 1: whether it was true or not. It was the same
34:13
Speaker 1: relationship problems you have with somebody who's free. Those don't
34:17
Speaker 1: just go away because somebody locked up. And I think
34:20
Speaker 1: a lot of people don't understand that. It's probably even
34:22
Speaker 1: intensively because not even that, like we both are getting
34:27
Speaker 1: a part of the same industry. I don't know whole
34:30
Speaker 1: reaching out to you, what's going on? Who you You
34:33
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying that man's not one thing, but
34:35
Speaker 1: like having your person with you physically, who can actually
34:38
Speaker 1: show you. It's like, damn. The only thing we can
34:40
Speaker 1: do is communicate, right, Like how you said, that's how
34:42
Speaker 1: you can do. It's talk on the phone. So if
34:45
Speaker 1: I have these women right and me saying they're getting
34:49
Speaker 1: visits with you, they talking to you, things like that,
34:52
Speaker 1: because that does go on like it does nights. It
34:56
Speaker 1: affected you'all relationship. It affected both of us, Like he
35:00
Speaker 1: he started becoming insecure. I started becoming insecure, But that
35:03
Speaker 1: wasn't the reason that we broke up. We was gonna
35:05
Speaker 1: have some problems regardless, but we talked through all of that.
35:08
Speaker 1: We had great communication. So what was the reason? I
35:12
Speaker 1: feel like the biggest reason our relationship kind of needed
35:16
Speaker 1: to be on pause was because after my mom passed,
35:21
Speaker 1: trying to work the relationship problems with somebody who already
35:24
Speaker 1: isn't here just our problems is already hard enough and
35:28
Speaker 1: it was like weighing on both of us. But when
35:30
Speaker 1: my mom passed, it was like the compassion and care
35:36
Speaker 1: that I needed from somebody, Like I wasn't getting an
35:39
Speaker 1: needed to be about you and it wasn't about me,
35:42
Speaker 1: and we could talk about it now. So I don't
35:44
Speaker 1: have a problem with saying these things, and I don't
35:45
Speaker 1: think he would have a problem with me saying either.
35:47
Speaker 1: He was in a place where he only could see
35:49
Speaker 1: his problems. So it would be some days where you know,
35:52
Speaker 1: I just needed somebody to listen to me cry, I
35:55
Speaker 1: just and it would be like did you remember to
35:57
Speaker 1: call the lawyer? Did you? You know? Like I didn't
35:59
Speaker 1: feel like the care for me when I knewed it
36:02
Speaker 1: was the same so we had the discussion about it,
36:04
Speaker 1: and it was just one of those things where I
36:06
Speaker 1: was like, you know what, in order for us not
36:07
Speaker 1: to like push each other so far away that we
36:10
Speaker 1: just hate each other, like we don't have that doing this,
36:14
Speaker 1: Like we could still be friends, but we don't have
36:16
Speaker 1: to like keep putting pressure on each other make this
36:19
Speaker 1: relationship work. So we broke up. I did not announce
36:22
Speaker 1: that we broke up because I'm like, we're still filming,
36:25
Speaker 1: Like I'm not gonna do that. Like I just like
36:28
Speaker 1: when we finished filming, I'm already dealing with the world
36:32
Speaker 1: seeing what I got going on with my mom. I'll
36:34
Speaker 1: let everybody know when we finished filming, you know, like
36:37
Speaker 1: we just friends. We decided to go out separate ways.
36:40
Speaker 1: But in the midst of all of that, I get
36:44
Speaker 1: caught in the cookie shop and they say I'm cheating
36:46
Speaker 1: and I'm doing this, and I'm doing that, and it's like,
36:48
Speaker 1: in reality, I'm a single woman. Why say so that
36:51
Speaker 1: they were saying that you were cheating because yeah, they
36:53
Speaker 1: didn't have broken up or whatever. So I don't know,
36:57
Speaker 1: it's just a lot. It's like sometimes like and and
37:01
Speaker 1: their moments when I read those comments and I try
37:03
Speaker 1: not to pay attention to the comments, but when you
37:05
Speaker 1: read comments and people just assuming know your situation and
37:07
Speaker 1: things that they say to you, You couldn't wait for
37:11
Speaker 1: this man. He only been going a minute. Couldn't wait.
37:13
Speaker 1: He's been a long time. But it was like, it's like,
37:17
Speaker 1: y'all don't even know what you're talking about. And then
37:19
Speaker 1: it was like, damn Like when I got with him,
37:22
Speaker 1: y'all had ship to talk about me picking this person
37:25
Speaker 1: to be with. When I said I was gonna stay
37:27
Speaker 1: with him, I was dumb for standing he was locked up.
37:29
Speaker 1: Now y'all don't know what's going on. You just see
37:31
Speaker 1: me out here living my life and she ain't ship?
37:34
Speaker 1: Which one is it? How were technically he was sentenced
37:39
Speaker 1: to five years, I mean how many How long he's there? Right, yeah,
37:43
Speaker 1: he's still there. It's about to be two years. And
37:46
Speaker 1: I mean, I think it's fair to say he was
37:48
Speaker 1: and if he had other people visiting, right well, no, no,
37:50
Speaker 1: no, no no, no, no, no no no. I never said
37:52
Speaker 1: he had somebody else to be I said, you know, right,
37:56
Speaker 1: the and then dealing with the baby mamas, and it
37:58
Speaker 1: was a lot of other things that came. So I
38:01
Speaker 1: was just saying like it's hard when when somebody really
38:06
Speaker 1: not in your face. If I get those d M
38:09
Speaker 1: my mind and it start saying the people ain't saying
38:12
Speaker 1: this for nothing, you know what I'm saying. So insecurities
38:14
Speaker 1: start coming out on both ends. That's all I was saying. Okay,
38:18
Speaker 1: you know that's for me to be out all night
38:20
Speaker 1: and you locked up, and you know I'm a woman.
38:22
Speaker 1: You know how I am and what I like. You
38:25
Speaker 1: ain't talking to me like as a man. Yeah, sometimes
38:27
Speaker 1: you get insecure. You can't talk to me into the
38:29
Speaker 1: sun up. You don't know what happened whole night. Understand
38:34
Speaker 1: too that if so many people keep saying the same
38:36
Speaker 1: thing to me, I want to know why they're saying it,
38:38
Speaker 1: because ain't nobody you know, So they start like both
38:40
Speaker 1: of us started having like insecurities from just being in
38:43
Speaker 1: a relationship. Question. I feel like I let me just
38:49
Speaker 1: let me give a big shout out to Fugiano. Yeah,
38:51
Speaker 1: like that's my camera, just a big shout out to Fugiano.
38:57
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, like all stuff for him.
39:00
Speaker 1: I need to ask you, man, is there any beef
39:05
Speaker 1: with Loto? No? So your friends now it's just I
39:11
Speaker 1: don't have no beef even, I mean even when I
39:15
Speaker 1: responded with the dis like or whatever people want to
39:19
Speaker 1: call it, like, I'm a rapper. That's what I was
39:22
Speaker 1: supposed to do. If if somebody say something on a
39:26
Speaker 1: track that I feel like my fan base and everybody
39:28
Speaker 1: comes to me like, oh, you're just gonna let her
39:29
Speaker 1: say that I'm a rapper, I could rap. That's this
39:32
Speaker 1: is what we do. Question, could there be any type
39:36
Speaker 1: of you know, communication between the two of you in
39:39
Speaker 1: the future, Why why would there be beef? No, I'm
39:45
Speaker 1: just asking, but together what happens. It's nothing to squash.
39:52
Speaker 1: It's like, like I feel like, honestly, even in in
39:55
Speaker 1: our situation, I feel like the fans play a big part.
40:00
Speaker 1: They definitely feel the fire. They play a big part
40:02
Speaker 1: in things like this. So regardless of the fact, if
40:05
Speaker 1: I felt how I felt, she felt, how she felt,
40:08
Speaker 1: she did a this, I did a dis whatever, it's entertainment,
40:12
Speaker 1: it is what it is. It don't go no further
40:14
Speaker 1: than that for me. For me like in my real world,
40:18
Speaker 1: that don't affect my real world. So you said, like,
40:21
Speaker 1: if y'all ever seen if y'all ever ranted to each
40:23
Speaker 1: other it wouldn't be like, no, it's nothing like we're
40:25
Speaker 1: about to go out of her whatever time, whoever else song.
40:28
Speaker 1: But what I'm saying is for me, it's not that.
40:30
Speaker 1: It's not that for me. I come from the strip club.
40:34
Speaker 1: I don't have to stand in a section with with
40:36
Speaker 1: somebody who hit me with a bottle and make this
40:39
Speaker 1: money when it's time to do business and tithing to
40:41
Speaker 1: do business. That personally don't mean nothing. But it's not
40:43
Speaker 1: even that much personal for me to say so. So
40:47
Speaker 1: the fans maybe kind of overhyped the big I mean
40:52
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, but you did say
40:58
Speaker 1: that what I said, I still everything I said. I
41:01
Speaker 1: feel like a lot of people, you know, they kind
41:02
Speaker 1: of didn't know that. What about people don't know what's
41:05
Speaker 1: going on. You don't know what's going on. That's what. Yeah,
41:10
Speaker 1: what's this short version. It's not really not it's not
41:12
Speaker 1: really anything going on. It's just it's like the big
41:14
Speaker 1: word every like, oh, so y'all arguing over the world
41:19
Speaker 1: big on the song she said, you know, and if
41:25
Speaker 1: a bitch put big in front of her name like
41:27
Speaker 1: it was, you know what I'm saying. So we like
41:30
Speaker 1: at the end of the day. My first mix tape
41:32
Speaker 1: in twenty nineteen was big really okay, my my chand
41:36
Speaker 1: big really like Biggs brought you to me and said
41:39
Speaker 1: it was ready. So when when you say that at
41:42
Speaker 1: the end of something, and I know you know me,
41:44
Speaker 1: I know you know my music, I know you know
41:46
Speaker 1: my work as a rapper, I'm supposed to wrap. I'm
41:51
Speaker 1: supposed to respond. You set it over a track, so
41:53
Speaker 1: hold on, let's not get cute. We can wrap about it.
41:57
Speaker 1: And I said what I needed to say, and that
41:59
Speaker 1: was that like it ain't have to be no more
42:02
Speaker 1: and have to be know this, but I want to
42:04
Speaker 1: cut this up for real. I just feel like as
42:09
Speaker 1: a rapper, like at the end of the day, my fans,
42:12
Speaker 1: if my fans say, you ain't gonna let her stay
42:14
Speaker 1: this to you and I'm listening, I'm like, oh, ship,
42:16
Speaker 1: it don't kind of stund like she sent that bit
42:18
Speaker 1: at me or whoever the funk else called themselves big.
42:21
Speaker 1: You were supposed to respond and rep But even though
42:24
Speaker 1: it doesn't apply to your real life, I think sometimes
42:27
Speaker 1: it could cause a real type of situation. Right whoever? Right?
42:32
Speaker 1: So do you think that you could have maybe just
42:35
Speaker 1: hit her and be like, hey, um, why before I
42:38
Speaker 1: put this this hit in my phone? Well, did we
42:40
Speaker 1: know for sure at the time that she was talking
42:42
Speaker 1: about you or wasn't my fans that fueled the fire
42:45
Speaker 1: they did? I said that, yeah, when it didn't matter.
42:48
Speaker 1: My fans felt like I needed to do that. So
42:50
Speaker 1: I'm getting my fans what they want because these are
42:52
Speaker 1: people who make my money for me. Okay, So I
42:55
Speaker 1: just entertainment for that. Two times. If it find you
42:59
Speaker 1: in the club, how was that? He's a nice guy.
43:04
Speaker 1: It was a pleasure to me. I just said I
43:06
Speaker 1: heard him in a song. He said he was looking
43:07
Speaker 1: for you. So I was like a strip club in
43:09
Speaker 1: South Carolina. Um, and I happened to beat home and
43:11
Speaker 1: ours out. We chopped it up or whatever, talked about
43:13
Speaker 1: doing some music together, music away. And that's two times
43:20
Speaker 1: when talked about talked about Okay, okay, okay, I never
43:25
Speaker 1: said that. I just said we talked about it. Nice guy.
43:28
Speaker 1: We'll be right back. Stay tuned with more of The
43:30
Speaker 1: Baller Alert Show. You're listening to a special edition of
43:40
Speaker 1: The Baller Alert Show. What's Up. It's any Ruci and
43:42
Speaker 1: I'm hanging out with the Baller Alert Shows. The ball Alert.
43:47
Speaker 1: I had my firstial edition. I had my first official
43:50
Speaker 1: date from Heaven and Hell. It started off different than normal,
43:55
Speaker 1: a one night stand. We agreed that it shouldn't have
43:58
Speaker 1: happened because we worked together and I know his ex,
44:00
Speaker 1: but the physical part just kept happening. We agreed after
44:04
Speaker 1: the eighth or ninth encounter to try a date night situation.
44:08
Speaker 1: And after everything I expected to happen happen. Shaking my head,
44:13
Speaker 1: he was just so ghetto with no manners. I can't
44:16
Speaker 1: even imagine how we got here. Here's my issue. His
44:19
Speaker 1: sex is everything, but I can't. I can simply, I
44:23
Speaker 1: simply cannot be with this man out in public. How
44:27
Speaker 1: do I get out of this and over this? Please help? Well,
44:30
Speaker 1: y'all know what I mean. He says, just don't go
44:32
Speaker 1: out with him in public. If you're saying you just
44:35
Speaker 1: wanted to be a casual sex, compaid relationship and figure
44:40
Speaker 1: out out if not, you're gonna have to let it
44:42
Speaker 1: all go. If you can't be with him in public,
44:43
Speaker 1: then you what are we doing? So she said she
44:46
Speaker 1: want to get out of it and over it, and
44:51
Speaker 1: sex is something hard to get over. So I definitely
44:54
Speaker 1: understand what she's saying, but out of it, like I'm
44:57
Speaker 1: the type of one mind say exactly how I feel.
45:00
Speaker 1: I ain't working with it, no more like it was fun.
45:02
Speaker 1: It is what it is, like, I can't funk with you.
45:07
Speaker 1: It's honestly nobody. We don't own nobody alive. No, she
45:11
Speaker 1: wants to funk on them, but outside, That's what I'm saying.
45:14
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, that ain't down for that. Well,
45:17
Speaker 1: it just seems like they just need to be sneaky links.
45:20
Speaker 1: Well boy, what's the sneaking. But that's why I said,
45:22
Speaker 1: she don't need to be sleeping with him if she
45:23
Speaker 1: ashamed to go out in public with him, because my
45:24
Speaker 1: mama always told me, if it's if you're ashamed, and
45:27
Speaker 1: you shouldn't be doing it. So if you don't even
45:29
Speaker 1: want to be calling public with this man, you don't
45:31
Speaker 1: need to be riding on child girl have sex with
45:35
Speaker 1: that man. If that's what you want, let me look
45:37
Speaker 1: at my camera. She said, she calling him Shetto and
45:41
Speaker 1: all of that, like you got bad and she said
45:43
Speaker 1: that she from the suburbs and she got some ghetto
45:45
Speaker 1: p Now okay, he getting yeah tossed up? Tassi is
45:49
Speaker 1: Sally and your ass all type of ship going on,
45:51
Speaker 1: and your little suburban ass ain't used to that. You
45:54
Speaker 1: used a little small dick, Peter. You know, I'm telling
45:56
Speaker 1: about doing this little thing and getting the hell on.
45:58
Speaker 1: But big uh got see your round. You through and
46:03
Speaker 1: you can't be seen in public with this man because
46:06
Speaker 1: he don't got all this ship together. Listen here, baby,
46:09
Speaker 1: it's gonna be a rough flight for you. Help him
46:12
Speaker 1: get his ship agether. I don't know, but she said,
46:15
Speaker 1: we don't really know him, so you'll be a foul
46:20
Speaker 1: you think so because you know to ask what we
46:23
Speaker 1: work that didn't She said, they work together. They worked together,
46:26
Speaker 1: and the shouldn't have happened because I know his ax.
46:29
Speaker 1: And after that or nothing it counter. I mean he
46:33
Speaker 1: would take you up through that work eight or nine.
46:35
Speaker 1: I missed that part. They say that. Meantime. Yeah, I'll
46:38
Speaker 1: go together, y'all go together. Let it go all right,
46:43
Speaker 1: talk of us, get up oout it here, Miss Rendy.
46:45
Speaker 1: You appreciate, yeah, but you gotta do we talk about
46:49
Speaker 1: you can come back. You always reoccur and come back
46:51
Speaker 1: better things to talk about? What better things, y'all? Why
46:59
Speaker 1: it was something here talking about x is and beefs
47:02
Speaker 1: and all of that bullshits, like we had so much
47:05
Speaker 1: more things we could have talked about this. How about
47:07
Speaker 1: you come back and we talked. We finished our conversation. Alright, alright,
47:10
Speaker 1: right now, I want you to look at this camera
47:12
Speaker 1: and then you say your name and this gives some
47:13
Speaker 1: motivational speak to your fans, to anybody out there. Okay,
47:19
Speaker 1: it's Renny Roucci and so my love help talk for
47:22
Speaker 1: y'all is listening. Stay strong And that sounds like real cliche,
47:26
Speaker 1: but I'm talking about your mental, your emotional, your physical.
47:31
Speaker 1: Take care of yourself because you only get one of these.
47:34
Speaker 1: You only get one life. You're not promised tomorrow. Stay
47:37
Speaker 1: strong and whatever you do, do not let this world,
47:39
Speaker 1: these people in it and circumstances defeat you. It's gonna
47:43
Speaker 1: be okay. I can't get enough of baller Alert. Follow
47:47
Speaker 1: us on all social media platforms at baller Alert, go
47:50
Speaker 1: on to baller alert dot com