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EP #79 - Where Grief Meets Love with Linda Heithaus · Spiritual AF!

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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to the very first episode in our bonus back yourself mini podcast series, where Liz and I will be interviewing five people with five short conversations, five very different stories about people who are backing themselves and taking that leap of faith into the unknown.
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  SPEAKER_00: And today we kick things off, and I am talking to Linda Hydehouse, also known as Rose Colored Medium.
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  SPEAKER_00: Linda is a born and bred Canadian living in Florida, so you can welcome her now with her beautiful sunny Florida background in place here.
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  SPEAKER_01: Welcome, Linda.
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  SPEAKER_01: Thank you, Diane and Liz, for I'm so grateful to be here.
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  SPEAKER_01: I'm really excited to share some stories about mediumship and and and how I got started and where I am now.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I'm I'm really excited.
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  SPEAKER_00: Oh, fantastic.
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  SPEAKER_00: And one of the many things, Linda, that drew us to you was um that when you told us about that what used to be your greatest fear is now your life's calling.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we just knew that there had to be an incredible back yourself story in behind all of that.
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  SPEAKER_00: If you've gone from fear to this is now how you work.
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  SPEAKER_00: But I'd love before we get into the work that you actually do, if you can take us back to before the mediumship became part of your life, who were you then?
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  SPEAKER_00: And what did you believe about life after death?
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  SPEAKER_01: That's a great question.
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  SPEAKER_01: And this really where my story starts is the day my dad died, and I was 25.
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  SPEAKER_01: He had a very short battle with melanoma, and you know, he he just withered away.
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  SPEAKER_01: He was 90 pounds when he passed away.
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  SPEAKER_01: So it was a very traumatic experience for myself and my family.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I had grown up in an atheist house, and I had just graduated from university with a Bachelor of Science degree.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I had those two things, those two against this spiritual nature, yes.
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  SPEAKER_01: So when my dad died, I really felt like I had nothing to hold on to.
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  SPEAKER_01: I couldn't understand how he could physically be here and vanish into nothing forever.
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  SPEAKER_01: And that magnified my grief.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, and that's where I started searching.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, you know, my grandparents had been religious and talked about church, but I had never gone.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I really didn't have that part to as a comfort.
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  SPEAKER_01: And my mom would talk about signs from my dad, and I got one too, but you know, that's slowly how it started.
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  SPEAKER_01: And then 15 years later, after I had moved from Vancouver to Florida, my husband and I moved here after he graduated with his PhD.
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  SPEAKER_01: I had seen a medium here.
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  SPEAKER_01: I just randomly was at an event and sat down with her of this medium, and she said, Well, your dad is here, and he says this A, B, C, D.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I just remember the tears.
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  SPEAKER_01: Just it was just this moment of that was the moment I knew it was real.
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  SPEAKER_01: Oh, okay.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I just thought, This is the most incredible thing.
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  SPEAKER_01: I had no idea that I had the same gift at all because of partially because of how I grew up and and this very logically trained brain, the science science-trained brain that something has to be proved beyond the statistical value.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I really was pushing it away, even though I desperately wanted to believe.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I had an experience, I I had three children.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, I was in the thick of motherhood in 2018, and I had an experience where it was the day that I knew that I had been talking to people who had crossed over and could hear them.
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  SPEAKER_01: Oh, wow.
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  SPEAKER_01: But it was so different than what I had seen on TV.
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  SPEAKER_01: You think of poltergeist and horror movies, and you think of them as ghosts and something that would scare you.
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  SPEAKER_01: So, in fact, it's very natural.
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  SPEAKER_01: For me, it's as natural as breathing, and I'm doing it all day long, all the time.
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  SPEAKER_01: I'm really straddling these two dimensions.
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  SPEAKER_01: I have one foot here and one foot in the non-physical.
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  SPEAKER_01: So once I figured it out that I I could see them, I decided to get, I decided to go to school.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I went to spirituality school with my mentor and took a lot of classes.
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  SPEAKER_01: And and I don't know how much I can go on.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I I love that.
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  SPEAKER_00: I will just tune into that.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the fact that, you know, the fact that you were willing to back yourself, that's probably one of the first things that like once we start investing in ourselves and thinking, okay, I can't figure this all out on my own.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's not that we can't, but sometimes we just need that extra moral support or spiritual support.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I love that you that you that you did that.
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  SPEAKER_00: But was there a moment or something then that kind of heightened your experience that you kind of could no longer ignore what it was, like as you were developing your your gifts and your senses?
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  SPEAKER_01: Well, I started taking this spirituality classes with my wonderful mentor, Shirley Ryan, and it was 36 weeks, and I think I was in week four here in Florida, and there was a shooting at a local high school, uh, the Marjorie Stone and Douglas shooting.
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  SPEAKER_01: And my name started circulating, and I started volunteering with some of the families, and there was one but I his name is Joaquin.
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  SPEAKER_01: I don't want to use the word victim because he's he's he's not that at all.
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  SPEAKER_01: And he just started so as I hadn't even taken the class on mediumship yet when I got called to do a reading for his family, and I was so nervous.
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  SPEAKER_01: Oh my god.
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  SPEAKER_01: Well, I didn't really need the class on mediumship now.
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  SPEAKER_01: I can say that now back then because I've been a student all my life, I thought, well, I I don't know how to do this yet.
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  SPEAKER_01: But anyways, it he was he was so willing, eager and excited.
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  SPEAKER_01: I mean, he was 17 when he died to communicate with his with his mom, and that's how really it started.
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  SPEAKER_01: He came here one night, and I can see him.
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  SPEAKER_01: I don't have to be with his mom when he just started popping in and he sat at this table.
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  SPEAKER_01: I'm sitting at my kitchen table, and he put his arm out and he said, I want you to shake my hand.
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  SPEAKER_01: We're gonna work together.
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  SPEAKER_01: No spirit has ever done that before.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I could see all the hair on his arm, and it turns out he was a very loyal kid.
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  SPEAKER_01: He he that meant a lot to him.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so he just started coming, and and I would text his mom these messages, and and they were they were real, they were valid.
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  SPEAKER_01: That was really it.
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  SPEAKER_01: That I wanted to help her so much, but he was so charismatic, he is so charismatic, and he would dance and play music, so I'd send her the songs.
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  SPEAKER_01: And this is eight years ago, this continues to this day.
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  SPEAKER_01: Oh my god.
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  SPEAKER_01: He was really he is really the one, and the timing is surreal, but I guess I was supposed to be in this role to work with him because I figured out I was a medium three months before, decided to take classes in January 2018.
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  SPEAKER_01: The shooting happened on February 14th, 2018, and a month later he was in my life and continues to be.
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  SPEAKER_01: And um I mean, it wasn't easy in the beginning.
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  SPEAKER_01: I I was, you know, and I and fear is losing a child.
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  SPEAKER_01: So and I was so worried about saying something to Patricia in the beginning, you know, I didn't make her feel worse than she already did.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, and uh years and years of doing this work, and I don't have that fear anymore, but I was definitely in a fear-based pattern of thinking in the beginning, before, and now I don't live in fear anymore, I live in love, and that's really why these messages that's really why that's where heaven or the afterlife or our loved ones are.
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  SPEAKER_01: They're in this loving, energetic vibration.
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  SPEAKER_01: And if that's how I naturally am, then I'm always, you know, I I was driving with his mom, Patricia, the other day in Miami traffic, and he is so strong that I'm driving and I can see him flashing in my third eye the image of a pin.
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  SPEAKER_01: And his dad is an artist, and so his dad makes pins for people to wear.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I said to his mom as I'm driving in traffic, I said, What's with the pin?
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  SPEAKER_01: And she says, It came in the mail today.
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  SPEAKER_01: The the package came there that we just got new pins delivered today.
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  SPEAKER_01: So he is that strong that I'm validation, yes.
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  SPEAKER_01: I'm not even trying to talk to him, and that's him.
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  SPEAKER_00: He is yeah, I I love so much that even how you you speak about him, it's in the present tense.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I think that just gives so much um, you know, that it is the scientist of me wants to say it changes energy form from one to another, it transforms, but they're still they're still with us.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, and I love too the the timing of your gifts coming to the fore because the collective trauma in uh uh you know in a community at that point in time that so many people would be reaching out for answers and comfort, and not that there is any comfort that can be given at a time like that, but that there would have been such uh I can't even imagine the collective grief that would have been going on for people, but to give any sort of um comfort to people during that time uh is just such an incredible gift.
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  SPEAKER_00: And there's nothing like a need like that to help us overcome our fears.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I see that, you know, that seems to have been one of the things that allowed yourself to say, okay, I can either sit over here in fear of having this fear, or I have this community that needs me and these people who need me, and I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna get out there and do what I what I need to to do.
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  SPEAKER_00: So when you then like obviously like that just seems like such a catapult into the work that you're doing.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like, I mean, you're like I'm imagining myself, I'm sitting one day and I'm doing classes and I haven't even reached the mediumship part yet, and then all of a sudden I'm supporting grieving families.
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  SPEAKER_00: But then was there anything else that kind of brought you to that next level where um you know that you decided that this is going to be my life's work, this is going to be what I do from now on.
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  SPEAKER_00: Were there any pivotal moments or was that an organic progression for you?
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  SPEAKER_01: I would say catapult is a is a one is a wonderful word to describe how I got thrown into thrown into it.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um right from the beginning, Chaneline Joaquin and others, it was so fulfilling for me to be able to be in that role and the the love I felt, the love I feel from him for his mother.
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  SPEAKER_01: I always say, you know, she's the love of my life.
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  SPEAKER_01: We're both married, but she's the love of my life.
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  SPEAKER_01: Oh this gosh, this this love I feel from him and and the way that he talks about her.
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  SPEAKER_01: I I can't even, I couldn't, Linda could never make it up.
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  SPEAKER_01: He would he would text, he would say to me, Tell my mom I love her more than all the drops of water in the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, we were we were at a Bruno Mars concert this weekend, and I'm in a stadium with 60,000 people.
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  SPEAKER_01: Imagine the the the noise.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yeah and he walked right up to me and he goes, Tell my mom that I love her more than you love Bruno, which I I I almost spit out my drink.
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  SPEAKER_01: You're so funny.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I told her that we had this we both laughed, you know, and so instead of him that's the beauty of channeling, there's nothing it's meant to uplift.
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  SPEAKER_01: And of course, it's sad, any anybody I work with is sad, but I don't get that from spirit.
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  SPEAKER_01: Uh it's and so I think if I I was always in that vibrational level and path.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, I would say the hardest thing for me was working with people who uh didn't believe and came to me for a reading and and were a little challenging.
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  SPEAKER_01: Those those were my blocks that I had to get get over in the beginning, but medianship, I never I never looked back.
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  SPEAKER_01: And and this is what I'm was came to earth to do.
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  SPEAKER_01: This is my calling.
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  SPEAKER_01: If I won the lottery, I would still do this.
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  SPEAKER_01: It is my favorite thing, and it feels so good.
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  SPEAKER_00: And you can just feel it radiate from you.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I know before we even came and recorded, I I was mentioning your beautiful background there that it looked like angel wings, and just you can you can feel the presence coming from you, and just that that's you know, joy and connection, and actually seeing through the grief of a situation to be able to connect people through love, which is beautiful.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'd love to know because I guess the the essence of um this series of interviews, mini interviews that we're doing, is very much about helping people back themselves more and more.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I would love to know, just given the journey that you have been on, are there any parallels of wisdom that you would share with fellow, you know, mediums or psychics, people who are maybe at the very beginning of their journey and just wanting to, you know, oh, do I don't, or do I give up the job?
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  SPEAKER_00: Do I not do this?
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  SPEAKER_00: What would you say to some of those people just by way of parallels of wisdom?
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  SPEAKER_01: For me personally, I love I love what I learned in my classes.
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  SPEAKER_01: So having a mentor to help you really, there's so much information that can come through.
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  SPEAKER_01: And it's really hard to tease apart, was this me?
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  SPEAKER_01: Was this spirit?
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  SPEAKER_01: How do I know?
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, so having some a mentor is great.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um I also had to develop, it's like learning a new language, even though they speak English, I can hear them talk.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, I can hear a spirit talk.
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  SPEAKER_01: You really have to develop uh symbols and metaphors because it's it's just this quick flash of a download.
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  SPEAKER_01: So, you know, um if a spirit does this, it's I had a heart attack.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um if somebody swims swings a golf club, I'm from Florida.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um it's these are the things that I love hearing.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's like those little Michigan is cherries.
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  SPEAKER_01: If I see cherries, I know somebody somebody passed away or his crossover is from Michigan.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, so I had to develop that.
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  SPEAKER_01: I mean, I really did so much practice.
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  SPEAKER_01: So having it tried try doing a reading for a friend where it's this kind of safe space where I um that was really helpful.
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  SPEAKER_01: And the main thing, this is so beautiful and and light filled and love filled, they'll never hurt you.
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  SPEAKER_01: That's what the thing that my mentor told me, they'll never hurt you.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um, and they're not sad.
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  SPEAKER_01: Anybody that passes, it even the children I channel, the four or five-year-olds that I channel, everybody is okay.
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  SPEAKER_01: Even suicide.
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  SPEAKER_01: And and this is another thing.
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  SPEAKER_01: Um for me, like I watch movies uh for even greater depth in a reading, and everything is like looking at a Disney movie.
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  SPEAKER_01: It's PG.
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  SPEAKER_01: If somebody passed through suicide, and that is a very traumatic way to pass, all they do is this, they just cross their arms.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I know they pass through suicide.
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  SPEAKER_01: So I don't have to see anything worse than that.
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  SPEAKER_01: And so they're their help, they work with me to keep me up here.
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  SPEAKER_01: Yeah, so we have this relationship.
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  SPEAKER_01: The other thing is um getting in touch with your guide and your guides.
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  SPEAKER_01: Okay, because they're really there to help you develop.
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  SPEAKER_01: So have develop a relationship with them and and a mentor would be able to help with that.
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  SPEAKER_00: Um, yeah, that's I I love that.
• 15:31
  SPEAKER_00: There's there's there's lots of pairs of wisdom there, and I think it's almost like you need you're having a team around you, you're having mentors both in this realm and in the spirit realm that are that are helping you through it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Linda, for those who are interested in finding out more about you, where is the best place that they can find you?
• 15:52
  SPEAKER_01: I have my story and contact is on my website, uh, which is my full name.
• 15:58
  SPEAKER_01: It's www.linda heighthouse l-i-n-d-a-h-e-i-t-h-us.com.
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  SPEAKER_01: And I also have a link for my Instagram where I'm posting a lot of my stories now of you'll these little spirit stories.
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  SPEAKER_01: I also have a podcast on YouTube, Rose Colored Radio.
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  SPEAKER_01: Everything's on my website.
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  SPEAKER_00: Fantastic, fantastic.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it is like those sorts of stories I think people love because even though you may not know the people directly, I think we all fit find a connection to them.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, Linda, thank you so much.
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  SPEAKER_00: And thank you for being the very first person that we have interviewed.
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  SPEAKER_00: You have been an absolutely amazing um story to just be testament to people to what it takes to back yourself and how amazing it is to be continually backing yourself.
• 16:48
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, thank you so much, Diane.
• 16:51
  SPEAKER_00: And that, my folks, is what back yourself is all about.
• 16:55
  SPEAKER_00: It's about trusting yourself, taking that leap of faith, and not always needing to know exactly what uh the outcome is going to be.
• 17:03
  SPEAKER_00: So we have four more back yourself interviews coming over the next four days.
• 17:08
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