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Sar Rah and Crafting Cootie Catchers · Punk, Love, & Compassion

• 0:04
  Welcome
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  to
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  Punk
• 0:05
  Loving
• 0:05
  Compassion.
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  Radical
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  voices
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  telling
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  stories
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  of
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  resilience
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  and
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  hope.
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  We
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  have
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  Sarah
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  from
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  Colorado
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  joining
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  us
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  today.
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  Thank
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  you
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  for
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  having
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  me.
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  Yeah,
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  thank
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  you.
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  Thank
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  you
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  for
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  being
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  here.
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  Sarah
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  is
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  one
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  of
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  my
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  longtime
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  friends.
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  I
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  really
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  appreciate
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  her.
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  I
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  enjoy
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  her
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  being
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  in
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  my
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  life.
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  Today
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  we're
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  gonna
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  talk
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  about
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  a
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  couple
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  things,
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  but
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  we're
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  also
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  going
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  to
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  do
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  some
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  crafts
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  while
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  we're
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  doing
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  this,
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  making
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  cootie
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  catchers.
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  And
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  I
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  have
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  no
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  idea
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  what
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  a
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  cootie
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  catcher
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  is,
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  but
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  I'm
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  sure.
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  I'm
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  sure.
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  I'm
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  sure
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  it
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  will
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  be
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  explained
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  in
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  this
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  process.
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  I
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  think
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  as
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  we
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  bake
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  it,
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  you're
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  gonna
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  be
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  like,
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  oh,
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  I
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  totally
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  know
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  what
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  this
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  is.
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  Cool.
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  And
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  also,
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  like,
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  I'm
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  drinking
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  raspberry
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  zinger
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  tea
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  today
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  with.
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  With
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  a
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  lemon
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  ginger
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  honey.
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  And
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  what
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  are
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  you
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  drinking?
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  I
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  have
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  a.
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  The
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  chocolate
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  mint.
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  Yeah,
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  Nice.
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  Used
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  to
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  make
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  honey.
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  This
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  doesn't
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  have
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  your
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  chocolate
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  mint
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  honey
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  in
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  it,
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  but
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  it
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  bought
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  it
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  wanting
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  your
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  chocolate
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  mint
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  honey
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  in
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  my
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  tea
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  because
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  I
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  used
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  to
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  drink
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  that
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  when
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  I
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  had
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  it.
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  Cool.
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  I
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  think
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  I
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  might
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  have
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  some
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  laying
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  around
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  I
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  can
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  send
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  you.
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  That
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  would
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  be
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  rad.
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  Cool.
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  So
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  let's
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  get
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  started.
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  How
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  do
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  you
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  want
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  to
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  do
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  this
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  with
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  the.
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  The
• 1:17
  craft
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  thing?
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  Like,
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  do
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  you
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  want
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  to
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  explain
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  the
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  craft
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  and
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  then
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  we'll
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  craft
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  as
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  we.
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  As
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  we
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  talk?
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  No,
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  let's
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  talk
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  first.
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  Okay.
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  And
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  then
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  we're
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  gonna
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  start
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  the
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  craft
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  and
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  talk
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  more.
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  Okay.
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  I
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  don't
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  know
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  how
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  long
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  this
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  craft
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  is
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  gonna.
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  Is
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  gonna
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  take,
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  so
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  as
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  hopefully
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  like.
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  10
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  to
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  15
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  minutes.
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  Okay.
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  Okay.
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  So
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  first
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  that's.
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  That's
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  create
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  sort
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  of
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  a
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  baseline
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  entry
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  point
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  for
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  people
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  who
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  are.
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  Who
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  are
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  listening
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  along
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  because.
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  Because
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  they
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  don't
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  know
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  us.
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  So
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  for
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  you,
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  do
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  you
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  remember
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  the
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  point
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  in
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  time
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  where
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  you
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  decided
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  either
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  consciously
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  or
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  subconsciously,
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  that
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  you
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  belonged
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  in
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  the
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  punk
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  rock
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  community?
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  You
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  know,
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  it
• 1:58
  wasn't.
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  It
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  wasn't
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  just
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  music
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  you
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  listened
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  to.
• 2:00
  It
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  wasn't
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  just
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  your
• 2:01
  friends
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  you
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  were
• 2:01
  hanging
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  out
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  with.
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  But.
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  But
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  like,
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  holy
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  crap,
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  I
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  am
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  a
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  punk,
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  and
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  this
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  is
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  part
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  of
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  my
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  identity.
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  Great
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  question
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  right
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  off
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  the
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  bat.
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  You
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  know,
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  I
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  remember
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  the
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  first
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  time
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  that
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  I
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  felt
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  like
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  music
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  or
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  punk
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  rock
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  was
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  more
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  than
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  just
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  the
• 2:19
  music.
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  So
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  for
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  a
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  while,
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  I
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  lived
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  in
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  Venezuela
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  and
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  I.
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  So
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  getting
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  into
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  punk
• 2:28
  rock
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  for
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  me
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  was.
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  I
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  mean,
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  I'm
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  sure
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  for
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  most
• 2:32
  people,
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  kind
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  of
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  organic.
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  I
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  didn't
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  realize
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  what
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  punk
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  rock
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  was
• 2:39
  and
• 2:39
  the
• 2:39
  community
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  behind
• 2:40
  it.
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  When
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  I
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  first
• 2:41
  started
• 2:41
  listening
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  to
• 2:41
  it,
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  most
• 2:42
  of
• 2:42
  it
• 2:42
  was
• 2:43
  on
• 2:43
  the
• 2:44
  radio,
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  and
• 2:45
  it
• 2:46
  was
• 2:46
  just
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  music
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  that
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  I
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  liked,
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  but
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  I
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  really
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  liked
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  liner
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  notes
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  and
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  I
• 2:51
  Liked
• 2:51
  reading
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  liner
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  notes.
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  Even
• 2:53
  before
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  I
• 2:54
  started
• 2:54
  getting
• 2:55
  into
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  punk
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  rock,
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  One
• 2:56
  of
• 2:56
  the
• 2:56
  ways
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  that
• 2:57
  I
• 2:57
  found
• 2:57
  new
• 2:57
  music
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  was
• 2:58
  reading
• 2:59
  liner
• 2:59
  notes
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  and
• 3:00
  albums.
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  Because
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  people
• 3:02
  that
• 3:02
  I
• 3:02
  like
• 3:02
  to
• 3:03
  listen
• 3:03
  to
• 3:03
  would
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  thank
• 3:04
  other
• 3:04
  bands
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  and
• 3:05
  other
• 3:05
  musicians.
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  I
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  really
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  loved
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  Emmylou
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  Harris
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  when
• 3:08
  I
• 3:08
  was
• 3:08
  little
• 3:08
  growing
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  up.
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  And
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  on
• 3:10
  one
• 3:10
  of
• 3:10
  her
• 3:11
  records,
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  she
• 3:12
  covered
• 3:13
  a
• 3:13
  lot
• 3:13
  of
• 3:14
  Bruce
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  Springsteen
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  and,
• 3:17
  like,
• 3:17
  mentioned
• 3:19
  him
• 3:19
  in
• 3:19
  the
• 3:20
  liner
• 3:20
  notes.
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  And
• 3:21
  then
• 3:21
  that
• 3:22
  got
• 3:22
  me
• 3:22
  into
• 3:22
  Bruce
• 3:22
  Springsteen.
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  And,
• 3:24
  you
• 3:24
  know,
• 3:24
  I
• 3:24
  think
• 3:25
  a
• 3:25
  lot
• 3:25
  of
• 3:25
  kids
• 3:25
  probably
• 3:26
  got
• 3:26
  into
• 3:26
  music
• 3:26
  that
• 3:27
  way.
• 3:27
  So
• 3:28
  I
• 3:28
  had
• 3:28
  bought
• 3:29
  a
• 3:29
  Green
• 3:30
  Day
• 3:30
  album.
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  And
• 3:31
  actually,
• 3:31
  this
• 3:31
  is
• 3:31
  a
• 3:31
  funny
• 3:31
  story.
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  I
• 3:32
  wanted
• 3:33
  Dookie
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  because
• 3:34
  that
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  was
• 3:35
  the
• 3:35
  cool
• 3:35
  record.
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  And.
• 3:37
  But
• 3:38
  I
• 3:38
  lived
• 3:39
  overseas
• 3:39
  and
• 3:40
  my
• 3:40
  dad
• 3:41
  was
• 3:42
  going
• 3:42
  to
• 3:42
  America,
• 3:43
  and
• 3:43
  I
• 3:44
  was
• 3:44
  like,
• 3:44
  buy
• 3:45
  me
• 3:45
  this.
• 3:45
  And
• 3:46
  this
• 3:46
  actually
• 3:46
  wasn't
• 3:47
  when
• 3:47
  I
• 3:47
  lived
• 3:47
  in
• 3:47
  Venezuela.
• 3:48
  This
• 3:48
  was
• 3:48
  earlier.
• 3:49
  He
• 3:49
  came
• 3:50
  back
• 3:50
  and
• 3:50
  he
• 3:51
  had
• 3:51
  bought
• 3:52
  Kerplunk.
• 3:53
  Because
• 3:53
  I
• 3:53
  didn't
• 3:53
  know
• 3:54
  the
• 3:54
  name
• 3:54
  of
• 3:54
  the
• 3:54
  album.
• 3:55
  I
• 3:55
  was
• 3:55
  just
• 3:55
  like,
• 3:55
  buy
• 3:56
  a
• 3:56
  Green
• 3:56
  Day
• 3:56
  album.
• 3:57
  After
• 3:57
  the
• 3:57
  devastation
• 3:58
  that
• 3:58
  I
• 3:59
  was
• 3:59
  in
• 3:59
  Dookie,
• 4:00
  I
• 4:00
  listened
• 4:01
  to
• 4:01
  it.
• 4:02
  But
• 4:02
  in
• 4:02
  the
• 4:02
  liner
• 4:03
  notes,
• 4:03
  they
• 4:04
  mention,
• 4:04
  you
• 4:05
  know,
• 4:05
  that
• 4:05
  album
• 4:06
  is
• 4:06
  on
• 4:06
  Lookout
• 4:06
  Records.
• 4:07
  And
• 4:07
  they
• 4:07
  mention
• 4:08
  all
• 4:08
  these
• 4:08
  other
• 4:08
  bands
• 4:09
  and
• 4:11
  I
• 4:11
  think
• 4:11
  some
• 4:12
  zines,
• 4:12
  too.
• 4:13
  And
• 4:13
  that
• 4:13
  was
• 4:14
  the
• 4:14
  first
• 4:14
  time
• 4:14
  I'd
• 4:14
  ever
• 4:14
  really
• 4:15
  discovered
• 4:15
  zines.
• 4:16
  And
• 4:17
  going
• 4:17
  down
• 4:18
  that
• 4:18
  sort
• 4:18
  of
• 4:18
  route
• 4:19
  of
• 4:19
  Lookout
• 4:20
  Records
• 4:21
  really
• 4:23
  showed
• 4:23
  me.
• 4:24
  Painted
• 4:24
  this
• 4:25
  picture
• 4:25
  of
• 4:25
  a
• 4:25
  community.
• 4:26
  So
• 4:26
  not
• 4:27
  just
• 4:27
  the
• 4:27
  music,
• 4:27
  but
• 4:28
  the
• 4:28
  community
• 4:28
  behind
• 4:28
  it.
• 4:29
  I
• 4:29
  always
• 4:29
  thought
• 4:30
  it
• 4:30
  sounded
• 4:30
  cool.
• 4:31
  I
• 4:31
  don't
• 4:31
  know.
• 4:31
  It
• 4:31
  was
• 4:32
  like
• 4:32
  this
• 4:32
  thing
• 4:32
  in
• 4:33
  California.
• 4:33
  Maybe
• 4:33
  it
• 4:34
  just
• 4:34
  didn't
• 4:34
  happen
• 4:34
  everywhere.
• 4:35
  But
• 4:35
  then
• 4:35
  when
• 4:36
  I
• 4:36
  moved
• 4:36
  to
• 4:36
  Venezuela,
• 4:37
  we.
• 4:38
  I
• 4:38
  really
• 4:39
  got
• 4:39
  to
• 4:39
  sort
• 4:39
  of
• 4:40
  experience
• 4:40
  it
• 4:40
  with
• 4:41
  my
• 4:41
  friends.
• 4:42
  Just
• 4:42
  getting
• 4:42
  together,
• 4:44
  having
• 4:45
  common
• 4:45
  music
• 4:45
  tastes,
• 4:47
  hanging
• 4:47
  out
• 4:47
  together,
• 4:48
  and
• 4:49
  starting
• 4:50
  to
• 4:50
  create
• 4:50
  a
• 4:51
  space
• 4:51
  for
• 4:51
  us
• 4:51
  to
• 4:52
  be
• 4:52
  creative
• 4:53
  in.
• 4:53
  You
• 4:54
  know,
• 4:54
  having
• 4:55
  band
• 4:56
  practice
• 4:56
  or
• 4:57
  little
• 4:57
  shows.
• 4:57
  Because
• 4:58
  there
• 4:58
  wasn't
• 4:58
  anywhere
• 4:59
  to
• 5:00
  do
• 5:00
  it.
• 5:01
  We
• 5:01
  had
• 5:01
  to
• 5:01
  create
• 5:01
  it
• 5:02
  ourselves.
• 5:03
  When
• 5:03
  it
• 5:03
  was
• 5:03
  happening,
• 5:04
  I.
• 5:05
  I
• 5:05
  kind
• 5:05
  of
• 5:05
  knew
• 5:05
  that
• 5:06
  I
• 5:06
  was
• 5:06
  touching
• 5:06
  on
• 5:07
  this,
• 5:07
  like,
• 5:08
  magic
• 5:08
  punk
• 5:09
  rock
• 5:09
  community
• 5:10
  that
• 5:10
  I'd
• 5:10
  only
• 5:10
  read
• 5:11
  about.
• 5:12
  Just
• 5:12
  being
• 5:12
  in
• 5:12
  it,
• 5:13
  experiencing
• 5:13
  it,
• 5:14
  made
• 5:15
  me
• 5:15
  feel
• 5:15
  like
• 5:15
  I
• 5:15
  was
• 5:16
  part
• 5:16
  of
• 5:16
  something
• 5:16
  and
• 5:16
  I
• 5:17
  was
• 5:17
  in
• 5:17
  the
• 5:17
  right
• 5:17
  place
• 5:18
  for
• 5:18
  the
• 5:18
  first
• 5:18
  time.
• 5:19
  Did
• 5:19
  I
• 5:19
  answer
• 5:19
  your
• 5:20
  question?
• 5:21
  I
• 5:21
  feel
• 5:21
  like
• 5:21
  I
• 5:21
  went
• 5:21
  on
• 5:22
  a
• 5:22
  tangent.
• 5:22
  No,
• 5:23
  no.
• 5:24
  But
• 5:24
  it.
• 5:24
  You
• 5:25
  got
• 5:25
  to
• 5:25
  your
• 5:25
  own
• 5:25
  point.
• 5:25
  I
• 5:26
  think
• 5:26
  it
• 5:26
  was
• 5:26
  all
• 5:27
  relevant
• 5:28
  to.
• 5:28
  To
• 5:28
  the
• 5:29
  end
• 5:29
  point.
• 5:31
  Yeah.
• 5:32
  Going
• 5:32
  through
• 5:32
  that
• 5:33
  and
• 5:33
  creating
• 5:34
  that
• 5:34
  space
• 5:35
  and
• 5:36
  realizing
• 5:38
  that
• 5:39
  I
• 5:39
  could
• 5:40
  make
• 5:40
  things
• 5:41
  with
• 5:41
  my
• 5:42
  friends
• 5:42
  and
• 5:43
  start
• 5:43
  doing
• 5:44
  this
• 5:44
  sort
• 5:44
  of
• 5:44
  like,
• 5:44
  do
• 5:45
  it
• 5:45
  yourself
• 5:45
  DIY
• 5:46
  mentality
• 5:48
  that
• 5:49
  is
• 5:49
  such
• 5:49
  a
• 5:50
  big
• 5:50
  part
• 5:50
  of
• 5:50
  the
• 5:50
  punk
• 5:51
  rock
• 5:51
  scene
• 5:52
  was
• 5:52
  really
• 5:52
  important
• 5:52
  to
• 5:53
  me
• 5:53
  because
• 5:53
  I
• 5:54
  couldn't
• 5:55
  fit
• 5:55
  into
• 5:55
  other
• 5:56
  people's
• 5:56
  structures.
• 5:57
  You
• 5:58
  Know,
• 5:58
  I
• 5:58
  struggled
• 5:58
  at
• 5:58
  school,
• 5:59
  I
• 6:00
  struggled
• 6:01
  even
• 6:01
  in
• 6:01
  like
• 6:02
  clubs,
• 6:03
  in
• 6:04
  band
• 6:04
  and
• 6:04
  church
• 6:05
  groups.
• 6:06
  And
• 6:07
  it
• 6:07
  just
• 6:07
  never
• 6:08
  felt
• 6:08
  right.
• 6:09
  And
• 6:09
  to
• 6:09
  be
• 6:09
  able
• 6:10
  to
• 6:11
  feel
• 6:11
  like
• 6:11
  I
• 6:12
  don't
• 6:12
  have
• 6:12
  to,
• 6:12
  I
• 6:12
  don't
• 6:13
  have
• 6:13
  to
• 6:13
  follow
• 6:13
  other
• 6:13
  people's
• 6:15
  organized
• 6:16
  structure,
• 6:16
  whatever
• 6:17
  it
• 6:17
  was,
• 6:18
  whether
• 6:18
  it
• 6:18
  was
• 6:19
  school
• 6:20
  or
• 6:20
  at
• 6:20
  home
• 6:20
  or
• 6:21
  even
• 6:22
  like
• 6:22
  potential
• 6:22
  fun
• 6:23
  things
• 6:24
  that
• 6:24
  maybe
• 6:24
  I
• 6:24
  didn't
• 6:25
  find
• 6:25
  fun.
• 6:26
  Learning
• 6:26
  how
• 6:26
  to
• 6:27
  make
• 6:27
  it
• 6:27
  myself
• 6:28
  or
• 6:28
  make
• 6:29
  it
• 6:29
  with
• 6:30
  my
• 6:30
  friends,
• 6:31
  find
• 6:32
  people
• 6:33
  that
• 6:33
  had
• 6:33
  that
• 6:33
  same
• 6:34
  mentality
• 6:36
  meant
• 6:36
  a
• 6:36
  lot
• 6:36
  to
• 6:36
  me.
• 6:37
  It
• 6:37
  still
• 6:38
  was.
• 6:39
  So
• 6:39
  being
• 6:39
  able
• 6:39
  to
• 6:40
  realize
• 6:41
  that
• 6:41
  you
• 6:41
  can
• 6:41
  do
• 6:42
  yourself
• 6:43
  and
• 6:44
  you
• 6:44
  can
• 6:44
  make
• 6:44
  art
• 6:44
  yourself.
• 6:45
  Because
• 6:45
  I
• 6:45
  think,
• 6:45
  I
• 6:46
  don't
• 6:46
  think
• 6:46
  we're
• 6:46
  really
• 6:46
  taught
• 6:47
  that
• 6:47
  going
• 6:48
  to
• 6:48
  school,
• 6:48
  right.
• 6:49
  It's
• 6:50
  a
• 6:50
  very
• 6:50
  one
• 6:50
  track.
• 6:51
  In
• 6:51
  order
• 6:52
  to
• 6:52
  do
• 6:52
  whatever
• 6:52
  it
• 6:53
  is
• 6:53
  you're
• 6:53
  going
• 6:53
  to
• 6:53
  do
• 6:53
  in
• 6:53
  life,
• 6:54
  you
• 6:54
  have
• 6:54
  to
• 6:54
  go
• 6:55
  to
• 6:55
  school,
• 6:55
  you
• 6:56
  have
• 6:56
  to
• 6:56
  go
• 6:56
  to
• 6:56
  college,
• 6:57
  you
• 6:57
  have
• 6:57
  to
• 6:57
  study,
• 6:57
  you
• 6:57
  have
• 6:58
  to
• 6:58
  take
• 6:58
  all
• 6:58
  these
• 6:58
  classes
• 6:59
  and
• 6:59
  you
• 6:59
  have
• 6:59
  to
• 6:59
  follow
• 7:00
  this
• 7:01
  make
• 7:01
  believe
• 7:01
  tract
• 7:02
  in
• 7:02
  the
• 7:02
  world,
• 7:02
  right?
• 7:03
  Yeah.
• 7:04
  And
• 7:04
  I
• 7:04
  really
• 7:04
  struggled
• 7:05
  too
• 7:05
  in
• 7:06
  school,
• 7:06
  even
• 7:06
  with
• 7:06
  art,
• 7:07
  because.
• 7:08
  So
• 7:09
  as
• 7:09
  an
• 7:09
  artist,
• 7:09
  I
• 7:10
  know
• 7:10
  that
• 7:10
  it's
• 7:10
  important
• 7:11
  to
• 7:11
  learn
• 7:12
  the
• 7:12
  basics
• 7:13
  and
• 7:13
  the
• 7:14
  structure
• 7:14
  of
• 7:14
  whatever
• 7:15
  kind
• 7:15
  of
• 7:15
  art
• 7:16
  you're
• 7:17
  trying
• 7:17
  to
• 7:17
  learn.
• 7:18
  But
• 7:19
  there
• 7:19
  comes
• 7:19
  a
• 7:20
  point
• 7:21
  when
• 7:22
  I
• 7:22
  felt
• 7:23
  like
• 7:23
  I
• 7:23
  was
• 7:23
  being
• 7:23
  creative
• 7:24
  and
• 7:25
  making
• 7:26
  creative
• 7:26
  choices
• 7:27
  and
• 7:27
  I
• 7:27
  was
• 7:28
  getting
• 7:29
  bad
• 7:29
  grades
• 7:29
  because
• 7:29
  of
• 7:30
  it,
• 7:30
  right.
• 7:30
  Or
• 7:30
  I
• 7:30
  was
• 7:30
  getting
• 7:31
  told
• 7:31
  that
• 7:31
  I
• 7:31
  was
• 7:31
  doing
• 7:32
  things
• 7:32
  wrong.
• 7:33
  You
• 7:33
  know,
• 7:33
  maybe
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  wasn't
• 7:35
  away,
• 7:36
  but
• 7:36
  it
• 7:36
  ended
• 7:36
  up
• 7:37
  actually
• 7:37
  being
• 7:38
  really
• 7:38
  restricting
• 7:39
  and
• 7:39
  made
• 7:39
  me
• 7:39
  feel
• 7:39
  like
• 7:40
  I
• 7:40
  couldn't
• 7:41
  make
• 7:41
  the
• 7:41
  kind
• 7:41
  of
• 7:42
  art
• 7:42
  that
• 7:42
  I
• 7:42
  wanted.
• 7:43
  I
• 7:43
  just
• 7:44
  didn't
• 7:44
  thrive
• 7:44
  in
• 7:44
  that
• 7:45
  school
• 7:46
  structure.
• 7:47
  Right.
• 7:47
  And
• 7:47
  I
• 7:48
  think
• 7:48
  my
• 7:48
  freshman
• 7:48
  year
• 7:49
  in
• 7:49
  high
• 7:49
  school,
• 7:49
  I
• 7:49
  took
• 7:50
  an
• 7:50
  art
• 7:50
  class,
• 7:51
  didn't
• 7:51
  do
• 7:51
  well
• 7:52
  in
• 7:52
  it
• 7:52
  at
• 7:52
  all
• 7:53
  because
• 7:54
  part
• 7:54
  of,
• 7:54
  I
• 7:55
  was
• 7:55
  just
• 7:55
  questioning
• 7:56
  the
• 7:56
  teacher
• 7:56
  and
• 7:56
  what,
• 7:57
  you
• 7:57
  know,
• 7:57
  they
• 7:57
  were
• 7:57
  trying
• 7:58
  to
• 7:58
  teach
• 7:58
  at
• 7:58
  the
• 7:58
  time
• 7:58
  because
• 7:58
  I
• 7:59
  thought
• 7:59
  it
• 7:59
  was
• 8:00
  crap.
• 8:00
  And
• 8:00
  in
• 8:00
  hindsight,
• 8:01
  I
• 8:01
  still,
• 8:01
  I
• 8:01
  still
• 8:02
  do.
• 8:04
  You
• 8:04
  know,
• 8:04
  I'm
• 8:04
  not,
• 8:05
  I'm
• 8:05
  not
• 8:06
  an
• 8:06
  artist,
• 8:07
  you
• 8:07
  know,
• 8:07
  but
• 8:08
  you
• 8:08
  know,
• 8:08
  at
• 8:08
  the
• 8:08
  time
• 8:08
  I
• 8:09
  was,
• 8:09
  you
• 8:09
  know,
• 8:10
  whatever,
• 8:10
  whatever
• 8:11
  it
• 8:11
  was
• 8:11
  I
• 8:11
  was
• 8:11
  trying
• 8:11
  to
• 8:12
  draw,
• 8:12
  you
• 8:12
  know,
• 8:12
  I
• 8:12
  was
• 8:12
  outlining
• 8:13
  in
• 8:13
  black
• 8:13
  and
• 8:13
  the
• 8:14
  tears,
• 8:14
  like,
• 8:14
  no,
• 8:15
  you
• 8:15
  can't
• 8:15
  outline
• 8:15
  it
• 8:15
  in
• 8:15
  black.
• 8:16
  Real
• 8:16
  artists
• 8:16
  never
• 8:17
  draw
• 8:17
  an
• 8:17
  outline.
• 8:17
  You
• 8:18
  just
• 8:18
  have
• 8:18
  to,
• 8:18
  you
• 8:18
  know,
• 8:18
  use
• 8:19
  colors
• 8:19
  and
• 8:20
  shapes
• 8:20
  and
• 8:20
  whatever
• 8:20
  and
• 8:21
  don't
• 8:21
  outline
• 8:21
  it
• 8:21
  in
• 8:21
  black.
• 8:22
  And
• 8:22
  for
• 8:23
  me,
• 8:23
  and
• 8:24
  just,
• 8:24
  you
• 8:24
  know,
• 8:24
  how
• 8:24
  my
• 8:24
  brain
• 8:24
  work,
• 8:25
  I
• 8:25
  was
• 8:25
  like,
• 8:25
  no,
• 8:26
  like
• 8:26
  I
• 8:26
  need,
• 8:27
  like,
• 8:27
  I
• 8:27
  need
• 8:27
  the
• 8:28
  boundaries
• 8:28
  in
• 8:29
  there
• 8:29
  to
• 8:29
  create
• 8:30
  these
• 8:30
  other
• 8:30
  things,
• 8:31
  you
• 8:32
  know,
• 8:32
  Now
• 8:32
  I'm,
• 8:32
  you
• 8:33
  know,
• 8:33
  as
• 8:33
  old
• 8:33
  as
• 8:33
  I
• 8:33
  am
• 8:33
  and
• 8:34
  I'm
• 8:34
  looking
• 8:34
  at
• 8:34
  the
• 8:35
  art
• 8:35
  I
• 8:35
  have
• 8:36
  on
• 8:36
  my
• 8:36
  walls
• 8:37
  and
• 8:37
  almost
• 8:37
  every
• 8:38
  single
• 8:38
  one
• 8:39
  has
• 8:39
  a
• 8:39
  black
• 8:39
  outlines,
• 8:40
  right.
• 8:42
  And.
• 8:43
  And
• 8:44
  it's
• 8:44
  all
• 8:44
  art.
• 8:44
  I've
• 8:45
  bought
• 8:45
  from
• 8:45
  very
• 8:46
  successful
• 8:47
  artists.
• 8:47
  You
• 8:47
  know,
• 8:47
  I
• 8:48
  don't
• 8:48
  own
• 8:48
  like
• 8:48
  Picassos
• 8:49
  or
• 8:49
  anything,
• 8:50
  right.
• 8:50
  But
• 8:51
  I
• 8:51
  own
• 8:51
  art
• 8:51
  from.
• 8:52
  Most
• 8:53
  of
• 8:53
  them
• 8:53
  are
• 8:53
  still
• 8:53
  alive.
• 8:54
  They
• 8:54
  make
• 8:54
  a
• 8:54
  living
• 8:55
  at
• 8:55
  doing
• 8:55
  art,
• 8:55
  at
• 8:55
  making
• 8:56
  art.
• 8:56
  All
• 8:57
  of
• 8:57
  them
• 8:57
  have
• 8:57
  black
• 8:57
  outlines.
• 8:58
  You
• 8:58
  know,
• 8:58
  my
• 8:59
  tattoo
• 9:00
  artist
• 9:00
  friends,
• 9:01
  black
• 9:01
  outlines.
• 9:02
  And
• 9:02
  for
• 9:03
  whatever
• 9:03
  reason,
• 9:03
  that
• 9:03
  teacher
• 9:04
  was
• 9:04
  like,
• 9:04
  no,
• 9:04
  no
• 9:04
  black
• 9:05
  outlines.
• 9:05
  And
• 9:06
  great.
• 9:09
  And
• 9:09
  just
• 9:09
  for
• 9:09
  me
• 9:09
  in
• 9:10
  the
• 9:10
  way
• 9:10
  my
• 9:10
  brain
• 9:11
  worked,
• 9:11
  I
• 9:11
  needed
• 9:11
  those
• 9:12
  outlines.
• 9:13
  And
• 9:13
  there
• 9:13
  were
• 9:13
  other.
• 9:13
  I
• 9:14
  don't
• 9:14
  remember
• 9:14
  the
• 9:14
  other
• 9:14
  things,
• 9:15
  but
• 9:16
  I
• 9:16
  mean,
• 9:16
  to
• 9:16
  me
• 9:16
  it
• 9:16
  was
• 9:16
  all
• 9:17
  silly
• 9:17
  at
• 9:17
  the
• 9:17
  time.
• 9:17
  It's
• 9:18
  still
• 9:18
  silly
• 9:18
  looking
• 9:19
  back
• 9:19
  on
• 9:19
  it
• 9:19
  because.
• 9:20
  Because
• 9:20
  I
• 9:21
  think
• 9:21
  art
• 9:21
  is
• 9:21
  a
• 9:22
  very
• 9:22
  personal
• 9:23
  thing
• 9:24
  and
• 9:24
  it's
• 9:25
  a
• 9:25
  very
• 9:25
  expressive
• 9:26
  thing.
• 9:27
  And
• 9:27
  when
• 9:27
  you
• 9:28
  are
• 9:28
  putting,
• 9:29
  you
• 9:29
  know,
• 9:29
  boundaries
• 9:30
  on
• 9:30
  it
• 9:30
  by
• 9:30
  saying,
• 9:30
  oh,
• 9:31
  no
• 9:31
  boundaries,
• 9:31
  you
• 9:31
  can't
• 9:31
  do
• 9:32
  this.
• 9:32
  This
• 9:32
  is
• 9:32
  an
• 9:32
  art.
• 9:33
  This
• 9:33
  isn't
• 9:34
  whatever,
• 9:35
  you're
• 9:35
  then
• 9:36
  taking
• 9:36
  that
• 9:36
  person's
• 9:38
  self
• 9:38
  expression
• 9:38
  away.
• 9:39
  You
• 9:39
  know,
• 9:39
  I
• 9:39
  feel
• 9:39
  like
• 9:40
  a
• 9:40
  lot
• 9:40
  of
• 9:41
  the
• 9:41
  message
• 9:41
  that
• 9:42
  I
• 9:42
  got
• 9:42
  and,
• 9:43
  and
• 9:43
  I
• 9:44
  had
• 9:44
  great
• 9:44
  teachers
• 9:44
  and
• 9:45
  I
• 9:45
  had
• 9:45
  bad
• 9:45
  teachers,
• 9:46
  but
• 9:47
  I
• 9:47
  feel
• 9:47
  like
• 9:47
  there
• 9:47
  is
• 9:48
  this
• 9:49
  thing
• 9:49
  where
• 9:49
  they're
• 9:49
  like,
• 9:50
  where
• 9:50
  when
• 9:50
  you
• 9:50
  grow
• 9:51
  up,
• 9:51
  you're
• 9:51
  kind
• 9:51
  of
• 9:51
  told
• 9:52
  like,
• 9:53
  follow
• 9:53
  the
• 9:53
  rules,
• 9:54
  but.
• 9:54
  But
• 9:55
  also
• 9:55
  be
• 9:55
  creative,
• 9:56
  but
• 9:56
  still
• 9:57
  within
• 9:57
  the
• 9:57
  rules,
• 9:58
  you
• 9:58
  know,
• 10:00
  and.
• 10:01
  And
• 10:01
  I
• 10:01
  think
• 10:02
  that
• 10:02
  there's
• 10:03
  some
• 10:03
  people
• 10:03
  that
• 10:03
  are
• 10:03
  really
• 10:03
  good
• 10:04
  at
• 10:04
  finding
• 10:05
  the
• 10:06
  rules
• 10:06
  and
• 10:07
  finding
• 10:07
  balance
• 10:07
  in
• 10:08
  it,
• 10:08
  but
• 10:09
  there's
• 10:09
  a
• 10:09
  lot
• 10:09
  of
• 10:09
  people
• 10:09
  that
• 10:09
  aren't,
• 10:10
  you
• 10:11
  know,
• 10:11
  And
• 10:11
  I
• 10:11
  think
• 10:11
  that
• 10:12
  especially
• 10:13
  for
• 10:13
  me,
• 10:13
  anyway,
• 10:14
  through
• 10:14
  my
• 10:15
  whole.
• 10:15
  I
• 10:16
  found
• 10:16
  later,
• 10:17
  through
• 10:17
  my
• 10:17
  whole
• 10:18
  life
• 10:19
  that
• 10:20
  not
• 10:20
  just
• 10:20
  in
• 10:21
  art,
• 10:21
  but
• 10:21
  in
• 10:22
  school
• 10:23
  and
• 10:23
  even
• 10:23
  at
• 10:24
  work
• 10:24
  and
• 10:24
  in
• 10:25
  relationships,
• 10:27
  we
• 10:27
  live
• 10:27
  in
• 10:27
  a
• 10:27
  world
• 10:28
  where
• 10:29
  we're
• 10:29
  given
• 10:30
  a
• 10:30
  schedule
• 10:31
  or
• 10:31
  a
• 10:31
  set
• 10:32
  of
• 10:33
  rules
• 10:33
  or
• 10:33
  the
• 10:34
  way
• 10:34
  things
• 10:34
  should
• 10:34
  be.
• 10:36
  And
• 10:37
  not
• 10:38
  everyone
• 10:38
  fits
• 10:38
  in
• 10:39
  that
• 10:39
  box.
• 10:41
  And
• 10:41
  you
• 10:42
  have
• 10:42
  to
• 10:42
  figure
• 10:42
  out
• 10:43
  by
• 10:43
  yourself
• 10:44
  how
• 10:45
  to
• 10:45
  make
• 10:45
  that
• 10:45
  work.
• 10:46
  Are
• 10:46
  you
• 10:47
  gonna
• 10:48
  create
• 10:48
  something
• 10:49
  completely
• 10:49
  different?
• 10:50
  Like,
• 10:50
  do
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  have
• 10:51
  to
• 10:51
  go
• 10:51
  a
• 10:51
  completely
• 10:52
  different
• 10:52
  way
• 10:52
  to
• 10:53
  be
• 10:53
  happy?
• 10:54
  Or
• 10:55
  do
• 10:55
  you
• 10:55
  take
• 10:56
  what
• 10:56
  you've
• 10:56
  learned
• 10:57
  and
• 10:57
  just
• 10:57
  like
• 10:58
  twist
• 10:58
  it
• 10:58
  a
• 10:58
  little
• 10:58
  bit?
• 11:00
  And
• 11:01
  we're
• 11:01
  not
• 11:01
  taught
• 11:01
  how
• 11:02
  to
• 11:02
  do
• 11:03
  that.
• 11:03
  No.
• 11:04
  Right.
• 11:04
  No,
• 11:05
  we're
• 11:05
  not
• 11:05
  taught
• 11:05
  that
• 11:05
  at
• 11:05
  all.
• 11:06
  We're
• 11:06
  taught
• 11:06
  how
• 11:07
  to
• 11:07
  fit
• 11:07
  in
• 11:08
  the
• 11:08
  box.
• 11:09
  Exactly.
• 11:10
  Not
• 11:10
  like
• 11:11
  how
• 11:11
  to
• 11:12
  truly
• 11:12
  make
• 11:12
  it
• 11:13
  your
• 11:13
  own
• 11:14
  and
• 11:14
  how
• 11:14
  to
• 11:15
  know,
• 11:16
  right,
• 11:16
  how
• 11:16
  to
• 11:16
  know
• 11:17
  what
• 11:17
  you
• 11:18
  need
• 11:18
  to
• 11:18
  change
• 11:19
  to
• 11:19
  make
• 11:19
  it
• 11:19
  work
• 11:20
  for
• 11:20
  you.
• 11:20
  And
• 11:21
  for
• 11:21
  me,
• 11:22
  like
• 11:22
  punk
• 11:22
  rock
• 11:23
  did
• 11:23
  that.
• 11:23
  And
• 11:24
  I
• 11:24
  agree
• 11:24
  with
• 11:24
  something
• 11:25
  you
• 11:25
  said.
• 11:25
  Like,
• 11:25
  you
• 11:26
  know,
• 11:26
  I
• 11:26
  agree
• 11:27
  that,
• 11:27
  you
• 11:28
  know,
• 11:28
  people
• 11:28
  do
• 11:28
  need
• 11:29
  to
• 11:29
  know
• 11:29
  or
• 11:30
  should
• 11:30
  know
• 11:31
  the
• 11:31
  history
• 11:31
  and
• 11:32
  the
• 11:32
  theory
• 11:33
  and
• 11:34
  some
• 11:35
  kind
• 11:35
  of
• 11:35
  framework,
• 11:36
  like
• 11:37
  what's
• 11:37
  your
• 11:37
  starting
• 11:37
  point?
• 11:38
  What's
• 11:38
  your
• 11:38
  starting
• 11:39
  point?
• 11:40
  Right.
• 11:40
  And,
• 11:40
  and
• 11:41
  what
• 11:41
  has
• 11:41
  come
• 11:41
  before
• 11:43
  just
• 11:43
  to
• 11:43
  give
• 11:45
  them
• 11:45
  a
• 11:45
  reference
• 11:46
  of,
• 11:46
  okay,
• 11:47
  like
• 11:47
  whatever
• 11:47
  I'm
• 11:47
  doing,
• 11:48
  this
• 11:48
  is,
• 11:49
  this
• 11:49
  is
• 11:49
  the
• 11:49
  greater
• 11:51
  picture
• 11:52
  and
• 11:53
  the
• 11:53
  greater
• 11:53
  world
• 11:54
  I'm
• 11:54
  operating
• 11:54
  in.
• 11:55
  But
• 11:55
  just
• 11:55
  because
• 11:57
  I'm
• 11:57
  an
• 11:57
  artist
• 11:58
  doesn't
• 11:58
  mean
• 11:58
  I
• 11:58
  have
• 11:58
  to
• 11:59
  paint
• 11:59
  exactly
• 11:59
  like
• 12:00
  Picasso.
• 12:01
  Right.
• 12:03
  Just
• 12:03
  because
• 12:04
  I'm
• 12:04
  a
• 12:04
  musician
• 12:05
  doesn't
• 12:05
  mean
• 12:06
  I
• 12:06
  have
• 12:06
  to
• 12:06
  sing
• 12:07
  exactly
• 12:07
  like
• 12:08
  Enya.
• 12:10
  You
• 12:10
  know,
• 12:11
  just
• 12:11
  because
• 12:11
  I,
• 12:11
  I'm.
• 12:12
  This
• 12:12
  doesn't
• 12:12
  mean
• 12:13
  I
• 12:13
  have
• 12:13
  to
• 12:13
  be
• 12:14
  exactly
• 12:14
  like
• 12:15
  that.
• 12:17
  Like,
• 12:17
  yes,
• 12:17
  we
• 12:17
  are
• 12:18
  now
• 12:18
  part,
• 12:18
  both
• 12:18
  part
• 12:19
  of
• 12:19
  the
• 12:19
  same
• 12:19
  world
• 12:20
  and
• 12:21
  we
• 12:21
  sort
• 12:21
  of
• 12:21
  operate
• 12:22
  within
• 12:22
  these
• 12:22
  weird
• 12:23
  loose
• 12:23
  boundaries.
• 12:25
  But
• 12:25
  there's
• 12:25
  all
• 12:25
  this
• 12:26
  freedom
• 12:26
  to
• 12:27
  do
• 12:27
  whatever
• 12:27
  I
• 12:27
  want
• 12:27
  within
• 12:28
  this
• 12:28
  world
• 12:29
  versus
• 12:30
  no,
• 12:31
  this
• 12:31
  is,
• 12:31
  this
• 12:31
  is
• 12:31
  the
• 12:32
  world.
• 12:32
  It's
• 12:32
  a
• 12:32
  very
• 12:32
  neat,
• 12:33
  organized
• 12:33
  world.
• 12:34
  In
• 12:34
  order
• 12:34
  to
• 12:34
  operate,
• 12:35
  you
• 12:35
  have
• 12:35
  to
• 12:35
  operate
• 12:36
  within
• 12:36
  this
• 12:36
  very
• 12:36
  small,
• 12:37
  neat,
• 12:37
  organized
• 12:38
  box.
• 12:40
  I
• 12:40
  think
• 12:41
  you
• 12:41
  bring
• 12:41
  up
• 12:41
  a
• 12:41
  good
• 12:41
  point
• 12:42
  there
• 12:42
  because
• 12:43
  you
• 12:43
  know,
• 12:43
  when
• 12:44
  we
• 12:44
  had
• 12:45
  talked
• 12:45
  about
• 12:45
  doing
• 12:45
  this,
• 12:46
  we
• 12:47
  talked
• 12:47
  about
• 12:47
  mental
• 12:47
  health
• 12:48
  and
• 12:49
  depression
• 12:51
  and
• 12:51
  you
• 12:52
  know,
• 12:52
  I
• 12:52
  think
• 12:52
  that
• 12:52
  there's
• 12:53
  this
• 12:54
  message
• 12:54
  that
• 12:55
  gets
• 12:55
  sent
• 12:56
  oftentimes
• 12:57
  when
• 12:57
  we're
• 12:57
  younger
• 12:58
  that
• 12:59
  in
• 12:59
  order
• 12:59
  to
• 12:59
  be
• 13:00
  happy
• 13:00
  we
• 13:00
  have
• 13:00
  to
• 13:00
  fit
• 13:01
  into
• 13:01
  this
• 13:01
  box.
• 13:02
  Right.
• 13:03
  And
• 13:04
  then
• 13:04
  when
• 13:05
  you
• 13:05
  learn
• 13:06
  that
• 13:06
  you
• 13:06
  don't
• 13:06
  fit
• 13:07
  into
• 13:07
  that
• 13:07
  box
• 13:08
  and
• 13:08
  you
• 13:08
  don't
• 13:09
  know
• 13:09
  what
• 13:10
  else
• 13:10
  to
• 13:10
  do,
• 13:11
  you
• 13:11
  get
• 13:11
  depressed,
• 13:13
  you
• 13:13
  feel
• 13:14
  lost.
• 13:14
  Yes.
• 13:15
  Grown
• 13:15
  ups
• 13:17
  tell
• 13:17
  us
• 13:17
  that
• 13:18
  we
• 13:18
  have
• 13:18
  to
• 13:18
  be
• 13:18
  this
• 13:18
  certain
• 13:19
  way
• 13:19
  and
• 13:20
  then
• 13:20
  be
• 13:20
  this
• 13:20
  certain
• 13:21
  type
• 13:21
  of
• 13:21
  grown
• 13:21
  up.
• 13:22
  And
• 13:23
  then
• 13:23
  when
• 13:23
  you
• 13:23
  become
• 13:23
  a
• 13:24
  grown
• 13:24
  up,
• 13:25
  you
• 13:25
  realize
• 13:26
  that
• 13:26
  nobody
• 13:27
  still
• 13:27
  knows
• 13:27
  what's
• 13:28
  going
• 13:28
  on,
• 13:28
  Right?
• 13:29
  Correct.
• 13:29
  You're
• 13:29
  like,
• 13:30
  be
• 13:30
  this
• 13:30
  way
• 13:31
  and
• 13:31
  when
• 13:31
  you're
• 13:32
  a
• 13:32
  grown
• 13:32
  up,
• 13:32
  you'll
• 13:32
  be
• 13:33
  happy.
• 13:33
  And
• 13:34
  then
• 13:34
  when
• 13:34
  you're
• 13:34
  a
• 13:34
  grown
• 13:34
  up
• 13:35
  you're
• 13:36
  like,
• 13:36
  no
• 13:37
  one
• 13:37
  knows
• 13:37
  what
• 13:37
  the
• 13:38
  F
• 13:38
  is
• 13:38
  going
• 13:38
  on.
• 13:39
  Everybody
• 13:40
  lied.
• 13:40
  Everybody
• 13:41
  lied
• 13:41
  to
• 13:41
  me.
• 13:43
  And
• 13:44
  so
• 13:44
  one
• 13:44
  of
• 13:44
  the
• 13:45
  things
• 13:45
  I
• 13:46
  got
• 13:46
  from
• 13:46
  punk
• 13:46
  rock
• 13:47
  and
• 13:47
  it
• 13:47
  sort
• 13:47
  of
• 13:47
  ties
• 13:47
  into
• 13:48
  mental
• 13:48
  health
• 13:48
  and
• 13:48
  what
• 13:48
  we're
• 13:49
  talking
• 13:49
  about
• 13:50
  is
• 13:51
  like
• 13:51
  my
• 13:52
  self
• 13:53
  efficacy
• 13:54
  is,
• 13:54
  is
• 13:55
  crazy
• 13:56
  high.
• 13:57
  And
• 13:57
  do
• 13:57
  you
• 13:57
  know
• 13:57
  that,
• 13:57
  do
• 13:57
  you
• 13:58
  know
• 13:58
  the
• 13:58
  difference
• 13:58
  between
• 13:59
  efficacy
• 13:59
  and
• 14:00
  esteem?
• 14:01
  Like
• 14:01
  self
• 14:01
  efficacy
• 14:02
  and
• 14:02
  self
• 14:02
  esteem?
• 14:03
  I
• 14:03
  do
• 14:03
  not.
• 14:04
  So
• 14:04
  please
• 14:04
  tell
• 14:05
  me
• 14:06
  so.
• 14:06
  And
• 14:06
  I'm
• 14:07
  like,
• 14:07
  I'm
• 14:07
  going
• 14:07
  to
• 14:07
  way
• 14:07
  simplify
• 14:08
  it.
• 14:08
  But
• 14:09
  self
• 14:09
  efficacy
• 14:10
  is
• 14:11
  your
• 14:11
  belief
• 14:13
  in
• 14:13
  yourself
• 14:14
  about
• 14:14
  your
• 14:14
  ability
• 14:15
  to
• 14:15
  achieve.
• 14:16
  Okay,
• 14:17
  okay.
• 14:18
  Whereas
• 14:18
  esteem
• 14:19
  is,
• 14:19
  that's,
• 14:20
  that's
• 14:21
  like
• 14:21
  yourself
• 14:23
  worth.
• 14:24
  Okay,
• 14:25
  okay.
• 14:26
  So.
• 14:26
  So
• 14:26
  it's
• 14:27
  different.
• 14:28
  That
• 14:29
  makes
• 14:29
  sense.
• 14:29
  You
• 14:29
  know,
• 14:30
  so
• 14:30
  you
• 14:30
  could
• 14:30
  have
• 14:31
  really
• 14:31
  high
• 14:31
  one,
• 14:31
  but
• 14:32
  really
• 14:32
  low
• 14:32
  the
• 14:32
  other
• 14:33
  or
• 14:33
  you
• 14:34
  know,
• 14:34
  vice
• 14:34
  versa.
• 14:35
  So
• 14:35
  punk
• 14:35
  rock
• 14:36
  and
• 14:36
  being
• 14:36
  involved
• 14:36
  in
• 14:37
  punk
• 14:37
  made
• 14:37
  my
• 14:38
  self
• 14:38
  efficacy
• 14:39
  probably
• 14:39
  unhealthily.
• 14:41
  High,
• 14:41
  like
• 14:42
  I
• 14:42
  think
• 14:42
  I
• 14:42
  can
• 14:42
  do
• 14:43
  anything.
• 14:46
  And
• 14:46
  I
• 14:46
  was,
• 14:46
  I
• 14:47
  was
• 14:47
  talking
• 14:47
  a
• 14:47
  couple,
• 14:48
  I
• 14:48
  was,
• 14:49
  I
• 14:49
  had
• 14:49
  a
• 14:49
  very
• 14:50
  long
• 14:51
  delayed
• 14:52
  layover
• 14:52
  in
• 14:52
  Washington
• 14:53
  D.C.
• 14:53
  a
• 14:53
  couple
• 14:53
  weeks
• 14:53
  ago.
• 14:54
  I
• 14:54
  was
• 14:54
  flying
• 14:55
  home
• 14:56
  right
• 14:56
  in
• 14:56
  the
• 14:56
  middle
• 14:56
  of
• 14:56
  the,
• 14:57
  the,
• 14:58
  the
• 14:58
  shutdown.
• 14:59
  And
• 14:59
  so
• 15:00
  my
• 15:00
  plane
• 15:00
  ended
• 15:00
  up
• 15:00
  getting
• 15:01
  delayed
• 15:01
  like
• 15:01
  10
• 15:01
  hours.
• 15:03
  So
• 15:03
  I
• 15:03
  was
• 15:04
  like,
• 15:04
  well,
• 15:04
  hell,
• 15:04
  I'm
• 15:04
  here.
• 15:04
  I'm
• 15:04
  going
• 15:04
  to
• 15:04
  try
• 15:05
  to
• 15:05
  see
• 15:05
  if,
• 15:05
  like,
• 15:05
  you
• 15:06
  know,
• 15:06
  some
• 15:06
  people
• 15:06
  I
• 15:06
  know
• 15:06
  are
• 15:07
  around.
• 15:07
  So
• 15:08
  I
• 15:08
  went
• 15:08
  and
• 15:08
  hung
• 15:09
  out
• 15:09
  with
• 15:09
  the
• 15:09
  family
• 15:09
  I
• 15:10
  lived
• 15:10
  with
• 15:10
  growing
• 15:10
  up
• 15:11
  for
• 15:11
  a
• 15:11
  little
• 15:11
  bit.
• 15:11
  I
• 15:12
  was
• 15:12
  talking
• 15:12
  to
• 15:12
  the
• 15:12
  dad
• 15:13
  and
• 15:13
  it
• 15:14
  had
• 15:14
  been
• 15:14
  a
• 15:14
  couple
• 15:14
  years
• 15:14
  since
• 15:14
  we
• 15:15
  had
• 15:15
  seen
• 15:15
  each
• 15:15
  other,
• 15:15
  really
• 15:16
  talked
• 15:16
  and
• 15:17
  sort
• 15:17
  of
• 15:17
  giving
• 15:17
  him
• 15:18
  an
• 15:18
  update
• 15:18
  over
• 15:18
  everything
• 15:18
  I'm
• 15:19
  doing.
• 15:19
  At
• 15:20
  one
• 15:20
  point
• 15:20
  in
• 15:20
  time,
• 15:20
  he
• 15:20
  looked
• 15:21
  at
• 15:21
  me
• 15:21
  and
• 15:21
  he
• 15:21
  said,
• 15:21
  how,
• 15:23
  like,
• 15:23
  how
• 15:23
  did
• 15:23
  you
• 15:24
  learn
• 15:24
  to
• 15:25
  do
• 15:25
  all
• 15:25
  of
• 15:25
  this?
• 15:25
  Like,
• 15:26
  how
• 15:26
  do
• 15:26
  you
• 15:26
  know
• 15:26
  how,
• 15:27
  how
• 15:27
  to
• 15:27
  do
• 15:27
  all
• 15:27
  of
• 15:28
  this?
• 15:28
  And
• 15:28
  I
• 15:29
  said,
• 15:29
  what
• 15:30
  do
• 15:30
  you,
• 15:30
  what
• 15:30
  do
• 15:30
  you
• 15:30
  mean?
• 15:31
  And
• 15:31
  he
• 15:31
  said,
• 15:31
  well,
• 15:32
  who
• 15:32
  taught
• 15:32
  you
• 15:32
  how
• 15:33
  to
• 15:33
  do
• 15:33
  all
• 15:33
  of
• 15:33
  these
• 15:34
  things
• 15:34
  that
• 15:34
  you
• 15:34
  do?
• 15:35
  From,
• 15:36
  from
• 15:37
  rafting
• 15:37
  to
• 15:38
  making
• 15:38
  sorbet
• 15:39
  to
• 15:39
  just,
• 15:40
  you
• 15:40
  know,
• 15:40
  all
• 15:40
  these
• 15:41
  things,
• 15:43
  like,
• 15:43
  nobody,
• 15:44
  nobody
• 15:44
  taught
• 15:44
  me.
• 15:45
  He
• 15:45
  said,
• 15:45
  well,
• 15:45
  how,
• 15:46
  like
• 15:46
  how
• 15:46
  do
• 15:46
  you
• 15:46
  know
• 15:46
  how
• 15:46
  to
• 15:47
  do
• 15:47
  it?
• 15:47
  As
• 15:47
  I
• 15:48
  figured
• 15:48
  it
• 15:48
  out,
• 15:52
  like,
• 15:52
  what,
• 15:53
  why
• 15:53
  can't
• 15:54
  I
• 15:54
  do
• 15:54
  that?
• 15:55
  Why
• 15:55
  can't
• 15:55
  I
• 15:55
  make
• 15:56
  sorbet?
• 15:56
  Why
• 15:56
  can't
• 15:57
  I
• 15:57
  learn
• 15:57
  how
• 15:57
  to.
• 15:57
  Or
• 15:58
  teach
• 15:58
  myself
• 15:58
  how
• 15:59
  to
• 15:59
  whitewater
• 16:00
  raft?
• 16:00
  Why
• 16:00
  can't
• 16:01
  I,
• 16:01
  you
• 16:02
  know,
• 16:02
  create
• 16:02
  a
• 16:02
  co
• 16:03
  op
• 16:03
  of
• 16:03
  farmers
• 16:04
  that
• 16:04
  never
• 16:04
  existed
• 16:04
  before?
• 16:05
  Why
• 16:05
  can't
• 16:06
  I
• 16:07
  make
• 16:07
  a
• 16:07
  podcast
• 16:08
  having
• 16:08
  no
• 16:08
  idea
• 16:09
  how
• 16:09
  to
• 16:09
  do
• 16:10
  one?
• 16:10
  You
• 16:10
  know,
• 16:11
  why
• 16:11
  can't
• 16:11
  I?
• 16:12
  Sure,
• 16:12
  I
• 16:12
  can
• 16:12
  do
• 16:13
  that.
• 16:13
  I
• 16:13
  can
• 16:13
  do
• 16:14
  anything.
• 16:15
  But
• 16:15
  like,
• 16:16
  my
• 16:16
  self
• 16:16
  esteem
• 16:16
  isn't
• 16:17
  always
• 16:17
  there,
• 16:18
  right?
• 16:18
  And
• 16:18
  so,
• 16:19
  so
• 16:19
  a
• 16:19
  lot
• 16:20
  of
• 16:20
  times,
• 16:20
  you
• 16:21
  know,
• 16:21
  I'll
• 16:21
  start
• 16:21
  these
• 16:22
  things
• 16:22
  or
• 16:22
  get
• 16:22
  these
• 16:22
  really
• 16:23
  great
• 16:23
  ideas
• 16:23
  like,
• 16:23
  oh,
• 16:23
  yeah,
• 16:24
  I
• 16:24
  can
• 16:24
  do
• 16:24
  it
• 16:24
  and
• 16:24
  I'll,
• 16:25
  I'll
• 16:25
  do
• 16:25
  all
• 16:25
  the
• 16:25
  research
• 16:25
  and
• 16:26
  cool,
• 16:27
  I'm
• 16:27
  ready
• 16:27
  to
• 16:27
  go.
• 16:28
  But
• 16:28
  then
• 16:29
  it's
• 16:29
  like,
• 16:29
  oh,
• 16:30
  like,
• 16:30
  I
• 16:31
  know
• 16:31
  physically
• 16:31
  I
• 16:32
  can
• 16:32
  do
• 16:32
  this,
• 16:32
  but
• 16:33
  I
• 16:33
  don't
• 16:33
  know
• 16:33
  if,
• 16:34
  like
• 16:35
  I
• 16:35
  can
• 16:35
  do
• 16:35
  this,
• 16:36
  you
• 16:36
  know,
• 16:37
  so,
• 16:37
  so
• 16:37
  yeah,
• 16:38
  so
• 16:38
  that,
• 16:39
  and
• 16:39
  that's
• 16:39
  where
• 16:39
  that
• 16:39
  esteem
• 16:40
  part
• 16:40
  gets
• 16:40
  in
• 16:40
  the
• 16:40
  way
• 16:41
  of
• 16:41
  the
• 16:41
  efficacy
• 16:41
  part.
• 16:43
  And
• 16:43
  it's
• 16:43
  silly
• 16:44
  because
• 16:44
  I
• 16:45
  can.
• 16:46
  You
• 16:46
  can,
• 16:46
  anybody
• 16:47
  can.
• 16:47
  You
• 16:48
  know,
• 16:48
  it's
• 16:48
  just
• 16:48
  our
• 16:48
  own
• 16:49
  selves
• 16:49
  getting
• 16:50
  in,
• 16:50
  in
• 16:50
  our
• 16:50
  way.
• 16:51
  And
• 16:51
  I
• 16:51
  think
• 16:52
  that
• 16:52
  esteem
• 16:53
  part
• 16:53
  for
• 16:54
  me
• 16:54
  is
• 16:54
  definitely
• 16:55
  comes
• 16:55
  from
• 16:56
  outside
• 16:56
  the
• 16:56
  umbrella,
• 16:57
  right?
• 16:58
  Like
• 16:58
  that.
• 16:58
  The
• 16:58
  esteem
• 16:59
  part
• 16:59
  comes
• 16:59
  from,
• 17:00
  you
• 17:00
  know,
• 17:00
  those
• 17:01
  not.
• 17:01
  And
• 17:01
  not
• 17:01
  to.
• 17:02
  Not
• 17:02
  to
• 17:02
  bash
• 17:02
  teachers,
• 17:03
  because
• 17:03
  I
• 17:03
  know
• 17:03
  there's
• 17:03
  some
• 17:03
  good
• 17:03
  ones
• 17:04
  out
• 17:04
  there.
• 17:04
  I
• 17:04
  had
• 17:05
  some.
• 17:05
  Also
• 17:05
  had
• 17:06
  a
• 17:06
  really,
• 17:06
  had
• 17:06
  a
• 17:07
  Lot
• 17:07
  of
• 17:07
  really
• 17:07
  horrible
• 17:07
  ones.
• 17:08
  But
• 17:09
  it
• 17:09
  came
• 17:09
  from
• 17:09
  the
• 17:09
  teachers
• 17:10
  who
• 17:10
  were
• 17:10
  like,
• 17:10
  nope,
• 17:11
  this
• 17:11
  is
• 17:12
  wrong.
• 17:12
  You're
• 17:12
  wrong.
• 17:12
  You
• 17:13
  don't
• 17:13
  get
• 17:13
  this.
• 17:14
  Right.
• 17:14
  You
• 17:15
  don't
• 17:15
  fit
• 17:15
  into
• 17:15
  this
• 17:16
  box.
• 17:16
  You
• 17:16
  don't
• 17:16
  fit
• 17:17
  into
• 17:17
  this
• 17:17
  box.
• 17:18
  You
• 17:18
  know,
• 17:18
  but
• 17:18
  it
• 17:18
  also
• 17:19
  comes
• 17:19
  from,
• 17:20
  you
• 17:20
  know,
• 17:20
  my
• 17:21
  own
• 17:21
  parents
• 17:21
  just
• 17:22
  being,
• 17:22
  being
• 17:23
  who
• 17:23
  they
• 17:23
  were,
• 17:23
  you
• 17:24
  know,
• 17:24
  the
• 17:24
  various
• 17:24
  clubs
• 17:25
  and
• 17:25
  kids
• 17:26
  I
• 17:27
  tried
• 17:27
  to
• 17:27
  hang
• 17:28
  out
• 17:28
  with
• 17:28
  and
• 17:30
  churches
• 17:31
  and
• 17:31
  all
• 17:31
  of
• 17:31
  that
• 17:31
  too.
• 17:32
  Right.
• 17:32
  Like
• 17:32
  everybody
• 17:33
  wants
• 17:33
  you
• 17:33
  to
• 17:33
  fit
• 17:33
  into
• 17:33
  this
• 17:33
  box
• 17:34
  and
• 17:34
  some
• 17:34
  of
• 17:34
  us
• 17:34
  just
• 17:35
  don't.
• 17:36
  And,
• 17:37
  and
• 17:37
  then
• 17:37
  we
• 17:38
  face
• 17:38
  all
• 17:38
  that
• 17:38
  sort
• 17:39
  of
• 17:39
  ridicule
• 17:39
  and
• 17:39
  rejection
• 17:40
  and
• 17:40
  bullying
• 17:41
  because
• 17:41
  we
• 17:41
  don't
• 17:42
  fit
• 17:42
  into
• 17:42
  this
• 17:44
  box.
• 17:45
  And
• 17:46
  where
• 17:46
  do
• 17:46
  you
• 17:46
  find
• 17:46
  the
• 17:47
  other
• 17:47
  people
• 17:47
  that
• 17:48
  don't
• 17:48
  fit
• 17:48
  in
• 17:48
  the
• 17:48
  box?
• 17:49
  Right,
• 17:49
  right.
• 17:50
  Where
• 17:50
  do
• 17:50
  you
• 17:50
  find
• 17:50
  them?
• 17:51
  And
• 17:51
  luckily,
• 17:52
  I
• 17:52
  think
• 17:52
  for
• 17:52
  most
• 17:52
  of
• 17:53
  us,
• 17:53
  we,
• 17:54
  we
• 17:54
  end
• 17:54
  up
• 17:55
  finding
• 17:55
  each
• 17:55
  other.
• 17:56
  Exactly.
• 17:57
  And
• 17:58
  I
• 17:58
  think
• 17:58
  partly
• 17:59
  like
• 18:00
  through
• 18:00
  punk
• 18:01
  rock
• 18:01
  and
• 18:02
  music
• 18:02
  and
• 18:02
  that
• 18:03
  scene,
• 18:03
  finding
• 18:04
  that
• 18:04
  space.
• 18:05
  Yeah.
• 18:06
  Do
• 18:06
  you
• 18:06
  feel
• 18:07
  like
• 18:07
  you're
• 18:08
  the
• 18:09
  efficacy
• 18:10
  versus
• 18:11
  like
• 18:11
  the
• 18:11
  esteem?
• 18:12
  Do
• 18:13
  you
• 18:13
  feel
• 18:13
  like
• 18:13
  it's
• 18:13
  changed
• 18:15
  as
• 18:15
  you've
• 18:15
  gotten
• 18:16
  older?
• 18:16
  Like
• 18:17
  as
• 18:17
  you've
• 18:18
  done
• 18:18
  all
• 18:18
  these
• 18:19
  things
• 18:19
  and
• 18:19
  accomplished
• 18:20
  them
• 18:20
  by
• 18:20
  yourselves?
• 18:21
  Maybe
• 18:21
  that
• 18:21
  gets
• 18:22
  high
• 18:23
  and
• 18:23
  me.
• 18:24
  And
• 18:24
  then,
• 18:25
  I
• 18:25
  don't
• 18:25
  know.
• 18:25
  As
• 18:25
  you
• 18:26
  get
• 18:26
  older,
• 18:26
  are
• 18:26
  you
• 18:27
  having
• 18:27
  a
• 18:27
  little
• 18:27
  bit
• 18:28
  more
• 18:29
  self
• 18:29
  esteem
• 18:30
  issues
• 18:31
  or
• 18:32
  like
• 18:32
  imposter
• 18:32
  issues?
• 18:35
  I
• 18:35
  have
• 18:35
  imposter
• 18:35
  issues
• 18:36
  on
• 18:36
  a
• 18:36
  daily
• 18:36
  basis,
• 18:38
  you
• 18:38
  know,
• 18:38
  on
• 18:39
  a
• 18:39
  daily
• 18:39
  basis.
• 18:41
  And,
• 18:41
  and
• 18:41
  it's
• 18:42
  silly
• 18:42
  me
• 18:43
  too,
• 18:44
  but
• 18:44
  on
• 18:44
  a
• 18:45
  daily
• 18:45
  basis.
• 18:46
  On
• 18:46
  a
• 18:46
  daily
• 18:46
  basis
• 18:47
  it's
• 18:47
  like.
• 18:49
  Because.
• 18:49
  Because
• 18:50
  like
• 18:50
  I
• 18:50
  look
• 18:50
  on
• 18:50
  my
• 18:51
  life,
• 18:51
  back
• 18:51
  on
• 18:51
  my
• 18:51
  life
• 18:52
  and,
• 18:52
  and
• 18:53
  I
• 18:53
  don't
• 18:53
  see
• 18:53
  anything
• 18:54
  extraordinary
• 18:55
  about
• 18:56
  my
• 18:56
  life.
• 18:56
  You
• 18:57
  know,
• 18:57
  I,
• 18:57
  I've.
• 18:58
  It
• 18:58
  just
• 18:58
  how
• 18:59
  I
• 18:59
  look
• 18:59
  at
• 18:59
  it,
• 18:59
  like
• 18:59
  I've
• 19:00
  done
• 19:00
  what
• 19:01
  I've
• 19:01
  needed
• 19:01
  to
• 19:02
  do
• 19:03
  to
• 19:03
  A,
• 19:04
  survive
• 19:04
  and
• 19:04
  B,
• 19:05
  take
• 19:05
  care
• 19:06
  of
• 19:06
  my
• 19:06
  family,
• 19:07
  you
• 19:07
  know,
• 19:07
  once
• 19:07
  I
• 19:07
  got
• 19:07
  married
• 19:07
  and
• 19:08
  had
• 19:08
  a
• 19:08
  kid
• 19:08
  and
• 19:08
  all
• 19:08
  that,
• 19:09
  and
• 19:09
  to
• 19:09
  take
• 19:09
  care
• 19:09
  of
• 19:09
  my
• 19:10
  family.
• 19:10
  Like
• 19:10
  I've
• 19:10
  done
• 19:10
  what
• 19:11
  I've
• 19:11
  needed
• 19:11
  to
• 19:11
  do
• 19:12
  to
• 19:12
  do
• 19:13
  that.
• 19:13
  And
• 19:14
  in
• 19:14
  the
• 19:14
  process,
• 19:14
  like
• 19:15
  some
• 19:15
  really
• 19:15
  amazing
• 19:16
  things
• 19:16
  have
• 19:16
  happened
• 19:17
  and
• 19:17
  I've
• 19:17
  met
• 19:17
  amazing
• 19:18
  people
• 19:18
  and
• 19:18
  I've
• 19:19
  had
• 19:19
  amazing
• 19:19
  experiences.
• 19:21
  Just
• 19:21
  really
• 19:21
  great
• 19:21
  things
• 19:22
  have
• 19:22
  happened
• 19:22
  and
• 19:23
  I
• 19:23
  don't
• 19:23
  want
• 19:23
  to
• 19:23
  take
• 19:23
  away
• 19:23
  from
• 19:24
  that.
• 19:24
  But
• 19:24
  for
• 19:25
  me
• 19:25
  it's
• 19:25
  like
• 19:25
  it
• 19:25
  all
• 19:25
  came
• 19:26
  through
• 19:27
  just
• 19:27
  doing
• 19:27
  what
• 19:27
  I
• 19:28
  needed
• 19:28
  to
• 19:28
  do
• 19:28
  to
• 19:29
  survive
• 19:30
  and
• 19:30
  this
• 19:31
  like
• 19:31
  magical
• 19:31
  thing
• 19:31
  happened
• 19:32
  in
• 19:32
  the
• 19:32
  process.
• 19:33
  Right.
• 19:34
  But
• 19:34
  going
• 19:34
  back
• 19:35
  to
• 19:35
  your
• 19:35
  question
• 19:35
  about
• 19:35
  esteem
• 19:36
  and
• 19:36
  efficacy
• 19:37
  is
• 19:38
  like
• 19:38
  now
• 19:39
  I'm
• 19:39
  more
• 19:39
  aware
• 19:39
  of
• 19:40
  it
• 19:40
  more
• 19:41
  like
• 19:41
  I
• 19:41
  think
• 19:41
  it
• 19:41
  still
• 19:42
  happens.
• 19:43
  It
• 19:43
  probably
• 19:43
  doesn't
• 19:43
  happen
• 19:44
  as
• 19:44
  frequently
• 19:44
  now
• 19:45
  as
• 19:45
  it
• 19:45
  did
• 19:45
  before,
• 19:45
  but
• 19:45
  it
• 19:46
  definitely
• 19:46
  still
• 19:46
  happens.
• 19:47
  But
• 19:48
  now
• 19:48
  I
• 19:49
  know
• 19:49
  about
• 19:49
  it.
• 19:50
  And
• 19:50
  I
• 19:50
  have.
• 19:51
  I
• 19:51
  have
• 19:51
  more
• 19:52
  tools
• 19:53
  to,
• 19:54
  like,
• 19:54
  identify
• 19:54
  it
• 19:54
  and
• 19:55
  process
• 19:55
  through
• 19:55
  it.
• 19:57
  And
• 19:57
  even
• 19:57
  then,
• 19:57
  like,
• 19:58
  still,
• 19:58
  sometimes
• 19:58
  I'm
• 19:58
  more
• 19:58
  successful
• 19:59
  than
• 19:59
  other
• 19:59
  times,
• 20:00
  you
• 20:00
  know,
• 20:00
  so.
• 20:01
  So
• 20:01
  when
• 20:01
  I
• 20:01
  first
• 20:01
  thought
• 20:02
  of
• 20:02
  this,
• 20:03
  the
• 20:03
  idea
• 20:03
  for
• 20:03
  this
• 20:03
  podcast,
• 20:04
  it
• 20:04
  was,
• 20:04
  you
• 20:04
  know,
• 20:05
  it
• 20:05
  was
• 20:05
  back
• 20:05
  in
• 20:05
  the
• 20:05
  spring,
• 20:06
  and
• 20:06
  it
• 20:06
  was
• 20:06
  like,
• 20:06
  cool.
• 20:07
  Like,
• 20:07
  this
• 20:07
  is
• 20:07
  what
• 20:07
  we're
• 20:07
  gonna
• 20:08
  do.
• 20:08
  Here's
• 20:08
  what
• 20:08
  we're
• 20:08
  gonna
• 20:08
  do.
• 20:09
  I
• 20:09
  didn't
• 20:10
  have
• 20:10
  time
• 20:10
  right
• 20:10
  then
• 20:11
  just
• 20:11
  to
• 20:11
  do
• 20:11
  it.
• 20:11
  Just.
• 20:12
  Cause
• 20:12
  I
• 20:12
  was
• 20:12
  doing
• 20:12
  a
• 20:13
  couple
• 20:13
  other
• 20:13
  things.
• 20:13
  Just
• 20:14
  didn't
• 20:14
  have
• 20:14
  the
• 20:14
  time.
• 20:14
  But
• 20:15
  I
• 20:15
  was.
• 20:15
  Just
• 20:15
  needed
• 20:15
  to
• 20:15
  think
• 20:15
  it
• 20:16
  out
• 20:16
  a
• 20:16
  little
• 20:16
  bit
• 20:16
  more.
• 20:17
  Cool.
• 20:17
  Like,
• 20:17
  we
• 20:18
  can
• 20:18
  do
• 20:18
  this.
• 20:18
  And
• 20:19
  then
• 20:19
  my.
• 20:19
  Then,
• 20:19
  you
• 20:19
  know,
• 20:20
  I
• 20:20
  was
• 20:20
  talking
• 20:20
  about
• 20:20
  my
• 20:20
  son
• 20:20
  was
• 20:21
  like,
• 20:21
  hey,
• 20:21
  dad,
• 20:21
  that's.
• 20:22
  That's
• 20:22
  you.
• 20:22
  And
• 20:22
  I
• 20:22
  do
• 20:22
  a
• 20:23
  podcast.
• 20:23
  I
• 20:23
  was
• 20:23
  like,
• 20:23
  cool,
• 20:23
  we'll
• 20:23
  do
• 20:24
  a
• 20:24
  podcast,
• 20:24
  too.
• 20:26
  You
• 20:26
  know,
• 20:26
  why.
• 20:27
  Why
• 20:27
  can't
• 20:27
  I
• 20:28
  do
• 20:28
  two
• 20:28
  podcasts?
• 20:28
  It's
• 20:29
  like,
• 20:29
  I
• 20:29
  don't
• 20:29
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• 20:29
  know
• 20:29
  how
• 20:29
  to
• 20:29
  do
• 20:29
  one.
• 20:30
  If
• 20:30
  I
• 20:30
  don't
• 20:30
  know
• 20:30
  how
• 20:31
  to
• 20:31
  do
• 20:31
  one,
• 20:31
  I
• 20:31
  don't
• 20:31
  know
• 20:31
  how
• 20:31
  to
• 20:32
  do
• 20:32
  two.
• 20:32
  Like,
• 20:32
  let's
• 20:33
  figure
• 20:33
  it
• 20:33
  out
• 20:33
  in
• 20:33
  the
• 20:33
  process,
• 20:34
  right?
• 20:34
  Like,
• 20:34
  we
• 20:34
  can
• 20:34
  do
• 20:35
  this.
• 20:35
  Yes.
• 20:36
  But
• 20:37
  for
• 20:37
  this
• 20:37
  one,
• 20:38
  you
• 20:39
  know,
• 20:39
  that.
• 20:39
  That
• 20:39
  imposter
• 20:40
  thing
• 20:40
  came
• 20:40
  up.
• 20:40
  That
• 20:41
  esteem
• 20:41
  thing
• 20:41
  came
• 20:41
  up.
• 20:42
  And,
• 20:42
  And.
• 20:43
  And
• 20:43
  so
• 20:43
  I
• 20:43
  call.
• 20:43
  I,
• 20:44
  you
• 20:44
  know,
• 20:44
  talk
• 20:44
  to
• 20:44
  one
• 20:44
  of
• 20:44
  my.
• 20:45
  One
• 20:45
  of
• 20:45
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• 20:45
  good
• 20:45
  friends.
• 20:45
  I
• 20:45
  was
• 20:46
  like,
• 20:46
  hey,
• 20:46
  here's
• 20:46
  my
• 20:46
  idea,
• 20:47
  and
• 20:47
  I
• 20:47
  want
• 20:48
  you
• 20:48
  to
• 20:48
  be
• 20:48
  my
• 20:49
  co
• 20:49
  host.
• 20:49
  Like,
• 20:49
  we'll
• 20:50
  do
• 20:50
  this
• 20:50
  together.
• 20:51
  And
• 20:51
  again,
• 20:52
  I
• 20:52
  talked
• 20:52
  to
• 20:52
  him
• 20:52
  back
• 20:52
  in
• 20:52
  the
• 20:53
  spring,
• 20:53
  and.
• 20:53
  And
• 20:53
  he
• 20:53
  was
• 20:54
  like,
• 20:54
  I
• 20:54
  don't
• 20:54
  have
• 20:54
  time.
• 20:55
  I
• 20:55
  said,
• 20:55
  well,
• 20:56
  I
• 20:56
  don't
• 20:56
  have
• 20:56
  time
• 20:56
  right
• 20:56
  now
• 20:56
  either.
• 20:57
  He's
• 20:57
  like,
• 20:57
  well,
• 20:57
  let's
• 20:57
  talk
• 20:58
  in
• 20:59
  October
• 20:59
  and
• 21:01
  see
• 21:01
  where
• 21:01
  we're
• 21:01
  at.
• 21:01
  So
• 21:01
  I
• 21:01
  talked
• 21:01
  to
• 21:01
  him
• 21:01
  in
• 21:02
  October
• 21:02
  and,
• 21:03
  you
• 21:04
  know,
• 21:04
  still
• 21:04
  has
• 21:04
  a
• 21:04
  lot
• 21:04
  of
• 21:05
  stuff
• 21:05
  going
• 21:05
  on.
• 21:05
  Like,
• 21:05
  he's
• 21:05
  in
• 21:06
  a
• 21:06
  band
• 21:06
  right
• 21:06
  now
• 21:07
  that's,
• 21:07
  you
• 21:07
  know,
• 21:07
  playing
• 21:08
  some
• 21:08
  pretty
• 21:08
  big
• 21:08
  shows.
• 21:09
  Like,
• 21:09
  he's
• 21:09
  a
• 21:09
  tattoo
• 21:09
  artist,
• 21:10
  great
• 21:10
  dude.
• 21:11
  But
• 21:11
  he
• 21:12
  was
• 21:12
  like,
• 21:12
  why
• 21:13
  don't
• 21:13
  you
• 21:13
  just
• 21:13
  do
• 21:13
  it?
• 21:15
  He's
• 21:15
  like,
• 21:15
  and
• 21:15
  then
• 21:15
  when
• 21:16
  I
• 21:16
  have
• 21:16
  time,
• 21:17
  you
• 21:17
  know,
• 21:17
  I'll.
• 21:17
  I'll
• 21:17
  help.
• 21:18
  He's
• 21:18
  like,
• 21:18
  and
• 21:18
  I'll
• 21:18
  put
• 21:18
  you
• 21:19
  in
• 21:19
  touch
• 21:19
  with
• 21:19
  people
• 21:19
  and
• 21:19
  all
• 21:19
  that.
• 21:20
  And
• 21:20
  I
• 21:20
  was
• 21:20
  like.
• 21:26
  You're
• 21:26
  like,
• 21:27
  like,
• 21:28
  do
• 21:28
  it
• 21:28
  by
• 21:28
  yourself.
• 21:30
  Right?
• 21:31
  And.
• 21:31
  And.
• 21:31
  And
• 21:31
  I
• 21:32
  realize
• 21:32
  I'm
• 21:32
  making
• 21:32
  all
• 21:32
  these.
• 21:33
  All
• 21:33
  these
• 21:33
  motions,
• 21:34
  and
• 21:34
  this
• 21:35
  actually
• 21:35
  isn't
• 21:35
  going
• 21:35
  to
• 21:35
  be
• 21:35
  broadcast
• 21:36
  videotape.
• 21:36
  It's
• 21:36
  gonna
• 21:37
  be
• 21:37
  broadcast
• 21:37
  audibly.
• 21:38
  But
• 21:38
  it
• 21:38
  was
• 21:38
  like.
• 21:39
  But
• 21:39
  it
• 21:39
  was
• 21:39
  that.
• 21:40
  That.
• 21:40
  That
• 21:40
  esteem
• 21:41
  piece
• 21:41
  came
• 21:41
  in,
• 21:41
  right?
• 21:42
  And
• 21:42
  it
• 21:42
  was
• 21:42
  like,
• 21:42
  I.
• 21:42
  I
• 21:43
  don't
• 21:43
  know
• 21:43
  if
• 21:43
  I,
• 21:44
  like,
• 21:44
  I
• 21:44
  know
• 21:44
  I'm
• 21:44
  physically
• 21:45
  capable
• 21:45
  of
• 21:46
  doing
• 21:46
  it
• 21:46
  by
• 21:46
  myself.
• 21:46
  I
• 21:46
  don't
• 21:47
  know
• 21:47
  if
• 21:47
  I'm
• 21:47
  mentally
• 21:48
  capable
• 21:48
  of
• 21:48
  doing
• 21:49
  it
• 21:49
  by
• 21:49
  myself.
• 21:51
  And
• 21:51
  so
• 21:52
  that
• 21:52
  was
• 21:52
  processing
• 21:52
  through
• 21:53
  that.
• 21:53
  Then
• 21:54
  it
• 21:54
  was,
• 21:54
  you
• 21:54
  know,
• 21:54
  one
• 21:54
  identifying
• 21:55
  it
• 21:56
  like,
• 21:56
  oh,
• 21:56
  here's
• 21:57
  my
• 21:57
  esteem
• 21:58
  coming
• 21:58
  into,
• 21:59
  you
• 21:59
  know,
• 21:59
  that
• 22:00
  past
• 22:00
  trauma
• 22:00
  or
• 22:01
  whatever,
• 22:01
  coming
• 22:02
  in
• 22:02
  to
• 22:03
  rear
• 22:03
  its
• 22:03
  ugly
• 22:04
  head
• 22:04
  again.
• 22:05
  And
• 22:05
  actually,
• 22:06
  yes,
• 22:08
  I
• 22:08
  can
• 22:08
  do
• 22:08
  this.
• 22:09
  And
• 22:10
  yeah,
• 22:11
  so
• 22:11
  then.
• 22:11
  So
• 22:11
  at
• 22:11
  that
• 22:12
  point
• 22:12
  in
• 22:12
  time,
• 22:12
  it's
• 22:12
  like,
• 22:12
  okay,
• 22:12
  like,
• 22:13
  what
• 22:13
  do
• 22:13
  I
• 22:13
  actually
• 22:13
  need
• 22:14
  to
• 22:14
  do
• 22:14
  a
• 22:14
  podcast?
• 22:15
  So
• 22:15
  I
• 22:15
  started
• 22:15
  doing
• 22:16
  research
• 22:16
  on
• 22:16
  that
• 22:16
  and
• 22:17
  talking
• 22:17
  to
• 22:17
  people
• 22:17
  and
• 22:18
  started
• 22:18
  talking
• 22:18
  to
• 22:19
  people
• 22:19
  about
• 22:19
  being
• 22:19
  guests.
• 22:20
  And
• 22:20
  I,
• 22:20
  you
• 22:20
  know,
• 22:20
  started
• 22:21
  with
• 22:21
  friends,
• 22:21
  of
• 22:21
  course,
• 22:22
  but
• 22:22
  even
• 22:23
  with
• 22:23
  my
• 22:23
  friends,
• 22:23
  I
• 22:24
  was
• 22:24
  still
• 22:25
  like,
• 22:25
  I
• 22:25
  didn't
• 22:25
  ask
• 22:25
  everybody,
• 22:26
  right?
• 22:27
  I
• 22:27
  was
• 22:27
  like,
• 22:27
  okay,
• 22:27
  who.
• 22:28
  Who
• 22:28
  are
• 22:28
  my
• 22:28
  safe
• 22:29
  people?
• 22:31
  You
• 22:32
  know,
• 22:32
  who
• 22:33
  is,
• 22:33
  like,
• 22:33
  a
• 22:34
  90%
• 22:35
  likelihood
• 22:35
  of
• 22:35
  saying
• 22:36
  yes,
• 22:38
  so
• 22:38
  let
• 22:38
  me
• 22:38
  reach
• 22:38
  out
• 22:38
  to
• 22:39
  them.
• 22:39
  And
• 22:39
  then
• 22:40
  I
• 22:40
  was
• 22:40
  like,
• 22:40
  okay,
• 22:41
  I've
• 22:41
  identified
• 22:41
  those
• 22:42
  people,
• 22:43
  but,
• 22:43
  like,
• 22:44
  who
• 22:45
  can
• 22:45
  I
• 22:45
  talk
• 22:45
  to?
• 22:45
  And
• 22:46
  so
• 22:46
  I
• 22:46
  came
• 22:46
  up
• 22:46
  with
• 22:46
  a
• 22:46
  very
• 22:46
  short
• 22:47
  list
• 22:47
  of
• 22:48
  some
• 22:48
  other
• 22:48
  people
• 22:49
  who
• 22:50
  aren't
• 22:50
  friends
• 22:51
  but
• 22:51
  are,
• 22:52
  I
• 22:52
  know,
• 22:53
  very
• 22:53
  loosely
• 22:54
  or
• 22:54
  vaguely,
• 22:55
  but
• 22:55
  are.
• 22:55
  Are
• 22:56
  very
• 22:56
  well
• 22:56
  known
• 22:57
  under
• 22:57
  the
• 22:57
  greater
• 22:58
  punk
• 22:58
  rock
• 22:58
  umbrella.
• 22:59
  And
• 23:00
  they
• 23:00
  cool.
• 23:00
  Let
• 23:00
  me.
• 23:00
  Let
• 23:01
  me
• 23:01
  shoot
• 23:01
  out
• 23:01
  some.
• 23:02
  Some
• 23:02
  messages
• 23:03
  them,
• 23:03
  see
• 23:03
  what
• 23:03
  happens.
• 23:04
  Some
• 23:05
  got
• 23:05
  back
• 23:05
  to
• 23:05
  me,
• 23:05
  some
• 23:05
  didn't.
• 23:06
  Like,
• 23:06
  you
• 23:07
  know,
• 23:07
  the
• 23:07
  ones
• 23:07
  that
• 23:07
  got
• 23:07
  back
• 23:07
  to
• 23:07
  me,
• 23:07
  I
• 23:07
  was
• 23:08
  like,
• 23:08
  awesome.
• 23:08
  They
• 23:08
  got
• 23:08
  back
• 23:08
  to
• 23:09
  me.
• 23:09
  And
• 23:09
  the
• 23:10
  ones
• 23:10
  that
• 23:10
  didn't
• 23:10
  is
• 23:10
  like,
• 23:10
  oh,
• 23:11
  why
• 23:11
  didn't
• 23:11
  they
• 23:11
  get
• 23:11
  back
• 23:12
  to
• 23:12
  me?
• 23:13
  You
• 23:13
  know?
• 23:13
  Right.
• 23:13
  It's
• 23:14
  how
• 23:14
  the
• 23:14
  steam
• 23:14
  piece
• 23:14
  comes
• 23:14
  again.
• 23:15
  Oh,
• 23:16
  that
• 23:17
  imposter
• 23:18
  piece.
• 23:19
  Right?
• 23:19
  Like,
• 23:19
  oh,
• 23:20
  maybe,
• 23:21
  like,
• 23:22
  this
• 23:22
  really
• 23:22
  isn't
• 23:22
  a
• 23:23
  good
• 23:23
  idea.
• 23:24
  You
• 23:24
  know,
• 23:25
  maybe
• 23:25
  I'm
• 23:25
  just
• 23:25
  making
• 23:26
  this
• 23:26
  all
• 23:26
  up,
• 23:27
  right?
• 23:28
  That
• 23:28
  stupid
• 23:29
  voice,
• 23:29
  right?
• 23:30
  But
• 23:30
  it's
• 23:31
  working
• 23:31
  through
• 23:31
  that
• 23:32
  and
• 23:32
  saying,
• 23:32
  you
• 23:32
  know
• 23:32
  what?
• 23:33
  No,
• 23:33
  Like,
• 23:34
  I've
• 23:34
  talked
• 23:34
  to
• 23:34
  enough
• 23:34
  people
• 23:34
  who
• 23:35
  think
• 23:35
  this
• 23:35
  is
• 23:35
  a
• 23:35
  good
• 23:35
  idea
• 23:36
  and
• 23:36
  who
• 23:36
  think
• 23:36
  this
• 23:37
  is
• 23:37
  needed.
• 23:38
  People
• 23:38
  are
• 23:38
  gonna
• 23:38
  say
• 23:39
  no.
• 23:39
  Just
• 23:40
  deal
• 23:40
  with
• 23:40
  it
• 23:40
  and
• 23:41
  go
• 23:41
  forward.
• 23:42
  Right?
• 23:42
  Like,
• 23:43
  there's
• 23:43
  always
• 23:44
  just
• 23:44
  gonna
• 23:44
  be
• 23:44
  people
• 23:45
  that
• 23:45
  don't
• 23:45
  get
• 23:45
  back
• 23:45
  and
• 23:45
  say
• 23:46
  no.
• 23:46
  Right.
• 23:47
  Even
• 23:47
  if,
• 23:47
  like,
• 23:48
  in
• 23:48
  your.
• 23:49
  You
• 23:50
  had
• 23:50
  been
• 23:50
  doing
• 23:50
  this
• 23:50
  for
• 23:50
  years
• 23:51
  and
• 23:51
  you
• 23:52
  didn't
• 23:53
  feel
• 23:53
  like
• 23:53
  an
• 23:53
  imposter
• 23:53
  anymore.
• 23:54
  Right?
• 23:55
  Right.
• 23:55
  So,
• 23:56
  yes,
• 23:56
  like,
• 23:56
  it
• 23:56
  still
• 23:56
  does
• 23:57
  happen.
• 23:57
  It's
• 23:58
  easier
• 23:58
  to
• 23:58
  identify.
• 23:59
  It's
• 23:59
  easier
• 23:59
  to
• 23:59
  work
• 24:00
  through
• 24:00
  most
• 24:00
  of
• 24:00
  the
• 24:01
  time
• 24:02
  than
• 24:02
  it
• 24:02
  was,
• 24:02
  but
• 24:03
  it
• 24:03
  still
• 24:03
  sucks.
• 24:04
  Right?
• 24:05
  Yeah.
• 24:06
  But
• 24:07
  again,
• 24:07
  like,
• 24:07
  being
• 24:08
  involved
• 24:08
  in
• 24:08
  punk
• 24:08
  rock
• 24:09
  and
• 24:09
  that
• 24:09
  DIY
• 24:10
  culture
• 24:11
  gave
• 24:11
  me
• 24:12
  the
• 24:12
  physical
• 24:13
  belief
• 24:13
  that
• 24:13
  I
• 24:13
  can
• 24:13
  do
• 24:13
  any.
• 24:14
  Do
• 24:14
  anything,
• 24:15
  and
• 24:15
  the
• 24:15
  initial
• 24:16
  mental
• 24:16
  belief
• 24:16
  that
• 24:17
  I
• 24:17
  can
• 24:17
  do
• 24:17
  anything.
• 24:17
  But
• 24:18
  then
• 24:18
  it's.
• 24:18
  Then
• 24:19
  it's,
• 24:19
  you
• 24:19
  Know,
• 24:20
  then
• 24:20
  that
• 24:20
  esteem
• 24:21
  piece
• 24:21
  sort
• 24:21
  of
• 24:21
  crawls
• 24:22
  in
• 24:22
  from
• 24:22
  the
• 24:22
  back
• 24:23
  and
• 24:23
  starts,
• 24:23
  you
• 24:24
  know,
• 24:24
  pecking.
• 24:24
  I
• 24:25
  go,
• 24:25
  can
• 24:25
  you
• 24:25
  really?
• 24:25
  Can
• 24:26
  you
• 24:26
  really?
• 24:27
  Yeah.
• 24:28
  I
• 24:29
  don't
• 24:29
  know.
• 24:29
  Maybe
• 24:29
  not.
• 24:30
  I
• 24:30
  guess
• 24:30
  I
• 24:31
  thought
• 24:31
  I
• 24:31
  could.
• 24:32
  Yeah.
• 24:33
  I
• 24:33
  feel
• 24:33
  like
• 24:34
  I've
• 24:34
  been
• 24:34
  having
• 24:35
  trouble
• 24:35
  with
• 24:35
  that
• 24:36
  the
• 24:36
  last
• 24:36
  couple
• 24:36
  years.
• 24:37
  I.
• 24:38
  You
• 24:38
  know,
• 24:38
  coming
• 24:38
  from
• 24:39
  that
• 24:39
  place
• 24:39
  where
• 24:40
  you
• 24:41
  make
• 24:41
  it
• 24:41
  happen
• 24:41
  and
• 24:42
  you
• 24:42
  can
• 24:43
  do
• 24:43
  anything,
• 24:44
  and
• 24:45
  being
• 24:45
  in
• 24:46
  bands,
• 24:46
  touring,
• 24:48
  and
• 24:48
  having,
• 24:49
  you
• 24:49
  know
• 24:50
  what
• 24:50
  I
• 24:50
  would
• 24:50
  consider
• 24:51
  success
• 24:51
  in
• 24:51
  it,
• 24:52
  and
• 24:53
  as
• 24:53
  I
• 24:53
  start
• 24:53
  these
• 24:54
  new
• 24:54
  ventures
• 24:56
  that
• 24:56
  are
• 24:57
  different,
• 24:57
  that
• 24:57
  aren't
• 24:58
  music,
• 24:58
  and
• 24:59
  being
• 24:59
  older,
• 25:00
  I'm
• 25:00
  definitely
• 25:00
  experiencing
• 25:02
  that
• 25:02
  inner
• 25:02
  voice
• 25:03
  that's
• 25:03
  like,
• 25:04
  you're
• 25:04
  too
• 25:04
  old
• 25:04
  to
• 25:04
  start
• 25:05
  something
• 25:05
  new.
• 25:06
  You
• 25:06
  don't
• 25:06
  know
• 25:06
  what
• 25:06
  you're
• 25:07
  doing.
• 25:07
  If
• 25:08
  you
• 25:08
  had
• 25:08
  wanted
• 25:08
  to
• 25:08
  do
• 25:09
  this,
• 25:09
  you
• 25:09
  should
• 25:09
  have
• 25:09
  done
• 25:09
  it
• 25:10
  a
• 25:10
  bajillion
• 25:11
  years
• 25:11
  ago.
• 25:12
  It's
• 25:12
  depressing.
• 25:14
  It's
• 25:15
  so
• 25:15
  funny,
• 25:15
  because
• 25:16
  when
• 25:17
  we
• 25:18
  were
• 25:18
  younger,
• 25:19
  I
• 25:19
  didn't
• 25:20
  care.
• 25:21
  And,
• 25:22
  I
• 25:22
  mean,
• 25:22
  I've
• 25:23
  changed
• 25:23
  my
• 25:23
  career,
• 25:24
  like,
• 25:24
  five
• 25:24
  times
• 25:26
  and,
• 25:28
  you
• 25:28
  know,
• 25:28
  always
• 25:30
  been
• 25:30
  able
• 25:31
  to
• 25:31
  take
• 25:31
  on
• 25:31
  these
• 25:32
  new
• 25:32
  adventures
• 25:33
  and
• 25:33
  new
• 25:34
  hobbies
• 25:34
  and
• 25:35
  new
• 25:36
  experiences.
• 25:37
  And
• 25:38
  then
• 25:39
  just
• 25:39
  the
• 25:39
  last
• 25:39
  couple
• 25:40
  years,
• 25:41
  it's
• 25:41
  been
• 25:41
  a
• 25:41
  struggle
• 25:42
  to
• 25:42
  get
• 25:43
  past
• 25:44
  that
• 25:45
  voice.
• 25:45
  Like,
• 25:46
  you
• 25:46
  don't
• 25:46
  know
• 25:46
  what
• 25:46
  you're
• 25:46
  doing,
• 25:47
  you're
• 25:48
  not
• 25:48
  doing
• 25:48
  it
• 25:48
  right.
• 25:49
  Other
• 25:49
  people
• 25:50
  are
• 25:50
  gonna
• 25:51
  judge
• 25:51
  you,
• 25:52
  you
• 25:52
  know,
• 25:53
  Definitely
• 25:53
  depressing.
• 25:54
  And
• 25:55
  I
• 25:55
  wonder,
• 25:55
  too,
• 25:55
  if
• 25:55
  it's
• 25:56
  like,
• 25:56
  for
• 25:56
  me,
• 25:57
  it
• 25:57
  was
• 25:57
  getting
• 25:58
  older
• 25:59
  and,
• 25:59
  I
• 25:59
  don't
• 25:59
  know,
• 25:59
  dealing
• 26:00
  with
• 26:00
  that,
• 26:00
  I
• 26:00
  feel
• 26:00
  like
• 26:00
  I
• 26:00
  couldn't
• 26:01
  wait
• 26:02
  to
• 26:02
  get
• 26:02
  older.
• 26:03
  And
• 26:03
  now
• 26:03
  that
• 26:04
  I'm
• 26:04
  older,
• 26:04
  I
• 26:05
  feel
• 26:05
  like
• 26:05
  I
• 26:05
  don't
• 26:05
  know
• 26:05
  what
• 26:05
  I'm
• 26:06
  doing.
• 26:06
  More
• 26:07
  so
• 26:07
  maybe
• 26:08
  than
• 26:08
  when
• 26:09
  I
• 26:09
  was
• 26:09
  younger.
• 26:09
  Yeah.
• 26:10
  Funny
• 26:11
  side
• 26:11
  thing,
• 26:13
  I
• 26:13
  don't
• 26:13
  listen
• 26:14
  to
• 26:14
  very
• 26:14
  many
• 26:14
  podcasts,
• 26:16
  and
• 26:16
  the
• 26:16
  ones
• 26:16
  that
• 26:17
  I
• 26:17
  do
• 26:17
  listen
• 26:17
  to,
• 26:18
  I
• 26:18
  watch
• 26:19
  on
• 26:19
  YouTube.
• 26:21
  So
• 26:21
  when
• 26:22
  we
• 26:22
  were
• 26:22
  doing
• 26:22
  this
• 26:23
  Cootie
• 26:23
  Catcher,
• 26:23
  which
• 26:23
  we're
• 26:24
  still
• 26:24
  going
• 26:24
  to
• 26:24
  do,
• 26:25
  I
• 26:25
  thought
• 26:25
  that
• 26:25
  the
• 26:26
  video
• 26:26
  was
• 26:26
  also
• 26:26
  going
• 26:26
  to
• 26:26
  go
• 26:27
  out
• 26:27
  too.
• 26:28
  Well,
• 26:28
  the
• 26:28
  initial
• 26:29
  plan
• 26:29
  was
• 26:29
  for
• 26:29
  the
• 26:29
  video
• 26:30
  go
• 26:30
  out
• 26:30
  as
• 26:30
  well,
• 26:31
  but
• 26:31
  then
• 26:32
  realizing
• 26:32
  how
• 26:33
  much
• 26:33
  I
• 26:33
  don't
• 26:33
  know.
• 26:35
  My
• 26:36
  plan
• 26:36
  is
• 26:36
  to
• 26:36
  initially
• 26:37
  just
• 26:37
  release
• 26:37
  all
• 26:38
  audio,
• 26:38
  but
• 26:38
  then
• 26:38
  to
• 26:39
  eventually
• 26:39
  also
• 26:40
  release
• 26:40
  video.
• 26:42
  Okay,
• 26:43
  that
• 26:43
  makes
• 26:43
  sense.
• 26:44
  Take
• 26:44
  it
• 26:44
  one
• 26:45
  step
• 26:45
  at
• 26:45
  a
• 26:45
  time.
• 26:46
  Which
• 26:46
  actually
• 26:48
  I'm
• 26:48
  going
• 26:48
  to
• 26:48
  jump
• 26:48
  into.
• 26:49
  Okay,
• 26:49
  go
• 26:49
  for
• 26:50
  it,
• 26:50
  because
• 26:50
  I'm
• 26:51
  going.
• 26:51
  To
• 26:51
  get
• 26:51
  into
• 26:51
  this
• 26:51
  Cootie
• 26:52
  Catcher
• 26:52
  piece.
• 26:52
  Okay,
• 26:53
  then
• 26:53
  I'm
• 26:54
  sorry.
• 26:54
  No,
• 26:54
  go
• 26:54
  for
• 26:55
  it.
• 26:55
  I'm
• 26:55
  moving
• 26:55
  the
• 26:55
  conversation,
• 26:56
  but
• 26:56
  it's
• 26:57
  along
• 26:57
  the
• 26:58
  lines
• 26:58
  of
• 26:58
  what
• 26:58
  we're
• 26:58
  talking
• 26:58
  about.
• 26:59
  So
• 26:59
  what
• 26:59
  do
• 26:59
  we
• 27:00
  need
• 27:00
  to
• 27:00
  make
• 27:00
  a
• 27:00
  Cootie
• 27:00
  Catcher?
• 27:01
  Okay,
• 27:04
  so
• 27:05
  this
• 27:05
  is
• 27:05
  something
• 27:06
  that
• 27:06
  I
• 27:06
  started
• 27:06
  doing
• 27:07
  to
• 27:07
  help
• 27:08
  me
• 27:08
  with
• 27:08
  my
• 27:08
  depression.
• 27:10
  And
• 27:10
  what
• 27:10
  you
• 27:10
  need
• 27:11
  is
• 27:11
  a
• 27:11
  piece
• 27:11
  of
• 27:11
  paper
• 27:11
  like
• 27:11
  this.
• 27:12
  It
• 27:12
  can
• 27:12
  be
• 27:13
  a
• 27:13
  rectangle
• 27:13
  or
• 27:13
  a
• 27:14
  square.
• 27:14
  We're
• 27:14
  gonna
• 27:15
  turn
• 27:15
  it
• 27:15
  into
• 27:15
  a
• 27:16
  square.
• 27:16
  Okay.
• 27:16
  It
• 27:16
  doesn't
• 27:17
  matter.
• 27:17
  You
• 27:18
  need
• 27:19
  some
• 27:19
  colors,
• 27:21
  because
• 27:21
  we
• 27:21
  want
• 27:21
  to
• 27:21
  make
• 27:21
  it
• 27:21
  pretty.
• 27:22
  Got
• 27:22
  those.
• 27:24
  And
• 27:24
  then
• 27:24
  just,
• 27:24
  like,
• 27:25
  a
• 27:25
  pen
• 27:25
  or
• 27:26
  you
• 27:26
  can
• 27:26
  use
• 27:26
  your
• 27:26
  colors.
• 27:26
  Okay.
• 27:27
  And.
• 27:28
  Okay.
• 27:29
  So
• 27:29
  that's
• 27:29
  what
• 27:29
  you
• 27:29
  need.
• 27:30
  Okay,
• 27:30
  let's
• 27:31
  talk
• 27:31
  about
• 27:31
  the
• 27:31
  reason
• 27:32
  that
• 27:32
  we're
• 27:32
  making
• 27:32
  the
• 27:32
  c.
• 27:34
  One
• 27:34
  of
• 27:34
  the
• 27:34
  things
• 27:35
  that
• 27:36
  I
• 27:37
  experience
• 27:37
  bouts
• 27:38
  of
• 27:38
  depression.
• 27:38
  I
• 27:39
  have
• 27:39
  anxiety.
• 27:40
  I
• 27:40
  get
• 27:40
  very
• 27:41
  easily
• 27:41
  overwhelmed.
• 27:42
  And
• 27:44
  on
• 27:44
  occasion,
• 27:45
  I've
• 27:45
  been
• 27:46
  so
• 27:46
  depressed
• 27:47
  that,
• 27:47
  like,
• 27:47
  I
• 27:47
  can't
• 27:48
  get
• 27:48
  out
• 27:48
  of
• 27:49
  bed.
• 27:49
  I
• 27:49
  can't
• 27:49
  leave
• 27:49
  my
• 27:49
  house.
• 27:50
  I
• 27:50
  get
• 27:52
  horribly
• 27:52
  overwhelmed.
• 27:53
  I
• 27:54
  let
• 27:54
  everything
• 27:55
  build
• 27:55
  up
• 27:55
  to
• 27:56
  the
• 27:56
  point
• 27:56
  where
• 27:56
  I
• 27:56
  feel
• 27:56
  like
• 27:56
  I
• 27:57
  have
• 27:57
  completely
• 27:58
  lost
• 27:58
  control
• 27:58
  of
• 27:59
  my
• 27:59
  life.
• 27:59
  And
• 28:00
  over
• 28:00
  time,
• 28:01
  I
• 28:01
  have
• 28:02
  learned
• 28:03
  that,
• 28:04
  again,
• 28:04
  there's
• 28:05
  no
• 28:05
  right
• 28:06
  way
• 28:06
  to
• 28:07
  deal
• 28:07
  with
• 28:07
  depression,
• 28:08
  even
• 28:08
  when
• 28:08
  it's
• 28:08
  yours
• 28:09
  and
• 28:09
  you've
• 28:09
  been
• 28:10
  experiencing
• 28:10
  it
• 28:11
  for
• 28:11
  years.
• 28:14
  What
• 28:14
  worked
• 28:15
  one
• 28:15
  time
• 28:16
  doesn't
• 28:16
  always
• 28:16
  work
• 28:17
  the
• 28:17
  next
• 28:17
  time,
• 28:18
  Right?
• 28:19
  But
• 28:19
  one
• 28:19
  of
• 28:19
  the
• 28:19
  ways
• 28:20
  that
• 28:20
  I
• 28:20
  deal
• 28:21
  with
• 28:21
  it
• 28:22
  is
• 28:22
  by
• 28:23
  breaking
• 28:24
  things
• 28:24
  into
• 28:24
  very
• 28:25
  small
• 28:25
  tasks.
• 28:26
  When
• 28:26
  life
• 28:27
  gets
• 28:28
  you
• 28:28
  down
• 28:28
  and
• 28:29
  feels
• 28:29
  overwhelming,
• 28:30
  one
• 28:31
  of
• 28:31
  the
• 28:31
  things
• 28:31
  that
• 28:32
  I
• 28:32
  do
• 28:33
  is,
• 28:34
  again,
• 28:34
  break
• 28:35
  things
• 28:35
  down
• 28:35
  into
• 28:35
  small
• 28:36
  tasks.
• 28:37
  And
• 28:37
  I
• 28:37
  taught
• 28:38
  myself
• 28:38
  this
• 28:38
  to
• 28:38
  get
• 28:39
  over
• 28:39
  depression.
• 28:39
  But
• 28:40
  I
• 28:40
  use
• 28:40
  it
• 28:40
  now
• 28:41
  in
• 28:41
  my
• 28:42
  life
• 28:42
  because
• 28:42
  it
• 28:43
  works.
• 28:43
  But
• 28:44
  there's
• 28:44
  different
• 28:44
  ways
• 28:44
  to
• 28:45
  do
• 28:45
  it.
• 28:45
  And
• 28:45
  the
• 28:45
  first
• 28:46
  way
• 28:46
  that
• 28:46
  I
• 28:46
  learned
• 28:46
  how
• 28:47
  to
• 28:47
  do
• 28:47
  it
• 28:47
  was
• 28:48
  by
• 28:49
  watching
• 28:50
  Murder
• 28:50
  She
• 28:51
  Wrote
• 28:51
  marathons
• 28:51
  on
• 28:52
  the
• 28:52
  Hallmark
• 28:52
  Channel.
• 28:53
  Nice.
• 28:54
  So
• 28:54
  at
• 28:54
  this
• 28:54
  particular
• 28:55
  time
• 28:55
  in
• 28:55
  my
• 28:55
  life,
• 28:56
  my
• 28:56
  husband
• 28:57
  was.
• 28:58
  Had
• 28:59
  this
• 28:59
  job
• 28:59
  where
• 28:59
  he
• 28:59
  was
• 28:59
  out
• 29:00
  of
• 29:00
  town
• 29:00
  for,
• 29:00
  like,
• 29:01
  months.
• 29:02
  He
• 29:03
  was
• 29:03
  an
• 29:03
  insurance
• 29:03
  adjuster.
• 29:04
  When
• 29:05
  he
• 29:05
  was
• 29:05
  gone,
• 29:05
  I
• 29:06
  just
• 29:06
  really
• 29:07
  struggled.
• 29:08
  Like,
• 29:09
  I
• 29:09
  was
• 29:09
  already
• 29:09
  depressed.
• 29:10
  And
• 29:10
  then
• 29:11
  when
• 29:11
  he
• 29:11
  was
• 29:11
  gone,
• 29:12
  I
• 29:12
  think
• 29:12
  I
• 29:13
  used.
• 29:13
  I
• 29:14
  mean,
• 29:14
  I
• 29:14
  didn't
• 29:14
  use
• 29:14
  our
• 29:15
  relationship,
• 29:15
  but
• 29:16
  when
• 29:16
  you're
• 29:16
  in
• 29:17
  a
• 29:17
  relationship,
• 29:18
  you
• 29:19
  feel
• 29:19
  responsible
• 29:19
  for
• 29:20
  certain
• 29:20
  things.
• 29:20
  There's
• 29:20
  certain
• 29:21
  things
• 29:21
  that
• 29:21
  you
• 29:21
  do,
• 29:22
  and
• 29:22
  you
• 29:22
  share
• 29:23
  chores
• 29:23
  and
• 29:24
  blah,
• 29:24
  blah,
• 29:24
  blah.
• 29:25
  And
• 29:26
  then
• 29:26
  when
• 29:26
  he
• 29:27
  was
• 29:27
  gone,
• 29:27
  I
• 29:28
  wasn't
• 29:28
  doing
• 29:29
  those
• 29:29
  things.
• 29:30
  And
• 29:31
  so,
• 29:32
  you
• 29:32
  know,
• 29:32
  I
• 29:32
  didn't
• 29:32
  want
• 29:33
  to
• 29:33
  leave
• 29:33
  the
• 29:33
  house.
• 29:34
  The
• 29:34
  house
• 29:34
  was
• 29:34
  a
• 29:35
  mess.
• 29:35
  I
• 29:35
  couldn't
• 29:36
  pick
• 29:36
  up
• 29:36
  the
• 29:36
  mess.
• 29:37
  And
• 29:37
  then
• 29:38
  I
• 29:38
  felt
• 29:38
  like
• 29:38
  I
• 29:38
  couldn't
• 29:39
  pick
• 29:39
  up
• 29:40
  the
• 29:40
  other
• 29:40
  pieces
• 29:40
  of
• 29:40
  my
• 29:41
  life.
• 29:41
  And
• 29:41
  it
• 29:41
  just
• 29:41
  became
• 29:42
  this,
• 29:42
  like,
• 29:42
  hole
• 29:42
  that
• 29:43
  I
• 29:43
  dug
• 29:43
  myself
• 29:43
  into.
• 29:44
  And
• 29:44
  the
• 29:44
  only
• 29:44
  thing
• 29:45
  that
• 29:45
  made
• 29:46
  me
• 29:46
  feel
• 29:47
  not
• 29:48
  like
• 29:48
  I
• 29:48
  was
• 29:48
  suffocating
• 29:50
  in
• 29:50
  a
• 29:50
  growing
• 29:51
  black
• 29:51
  hole
• 29:52
  was
• 29:54
  watching
• 29:54
  Murder,
• 29:54
  She
• 29:55
  Wrote
• 29:55
  on
• 29:56
  the
• 29:56
  Hallmark
• 29:56
  Channel.
• 29:57
  So
• 29:58
  there
• 29:58
  were
• 29:58
  commercials,
• 29:59
  and
• 30:00
  over
• 30:01
  the
• 30:01
  weekend,
• 30:01
  they'd
• 30:02
  have
• 30:02
  these
• 30:02
  big
• 30:02
  Murders
• 30:02
  She
• 30:03
  Wrote
• 30:03
  marathons.
• 30:05
  And
• 30:05
  during
• 30:05
  the
• 30:06
  commercial
• 30:06
  breaks,
• 30:07
  I
• 30:07
  would
• 30:07
  pick
• 30:07
  something
• 30:08
  small
• 30:08
  to
• 30:08
  do
• 30:09
  in
• 30:09
  the
• 30:10
  house
• 30:10
  and
• 30:10
  just
• 30:11
  do
• 30:11
  it.
• 30:11
  And
• 30:12
  then
• 30:12
  I
• 30:12
  would,
• 30:12
  like,
• 30:13
  go
• 30:13
  hide
• 30:14
  on
• 30:14
  the
• 30:14
  couch
• 30:15
  under
• 30:15
  my
• 30:15
  blanket
• 30:16
  and,
• 30:17
  you
• 30:18
  know,
• 30:18
  watch
• 30:18
  the
• 30:18
  show.
• 30:19
  And
• 30:19
  then
• 30:19
  when
• 30:19
  it
• 30:19
  was
• 30:19
  time
• 30:20
  for
• 30:20
  a
• 30:20
  commercial,
• 30:20
  I
• 30:20
  would
• 30:20
  do
• 30:21
  something
• 30:21
  else.
• 30:22
  And
• 30:23
  over
• 30:23
  time,
• 30:24
  like,
• 30:24
  obviously
• 30:25
  a
• 30:25
  slow
• 30:25
  process,
• 30:26
  because
• 30:26
  I'm
• 30:26
  just
• 30:27
  doing
• 30:27
  things,
• 30:27
  doing
• 30:28
  commercial
• 30:28
  breaks,
• 30:29
  but
• 30:29
  it
• 30:29
  really
• 30:29
  helped
• 30:30
  me
• 30:31
  feel
• 30:31
  like
• 30:31
  I
• 30:31
  was
• 30:32
  working
• 30:32
  towards
• 30:33
  getting
• 30:33
  better
• 30:34
  instead
• 30:35
  of
• 30:35
  just,
• 30:35
  like,
• 30:36
  sitting
• 30:37
  in
• 30:37
  my
• 30:37
  hole.
• 30:38
  And
• 30:38
  then
• 30:39
  a
• 30:39
  couple
• 30:39
  years
• 30:40
  ago,
• 30:40
  when
• 30:41
  I
• 30:41
  started
• 30:41
  experiencing
• 30:43
  a
• 30:43
  shitty
• 30:44
  level
• 30:44
  of
• 30:44
  hopelessness,
• 30:45
  I
• 30:46
  tried
• 30:46
  this
• 30:46
  again,
• 30:47
  but
• 30:48
  in
• 30:48
  a
• 30:48
  different
• 30:48
  way.
• 30:49
  Because
• 30:49
  the
• 30:50
  first
• 30:50
  of
• 30:50
  all,
• 30:51
  there's
• 30:51
  not
• 30:51
  a
• 30:51
  lot
• 30:51
  of
• 30:51
  shows
• 30:52
  anymore
• 30:52
  that
• 30:52
  have
• 30:53
  commercials,
• 30:54
  and
• 30:54
  my
• 30:54
  life
• 30:55
  was
• 30:55
  different.
• 30:56
  And
• 30:56
  so
• 30:57
  that
• 30:57
  process
• 30:57
  didn't
• 30:58
  quite
• 30:58
  work
• 30:58
  for
• 30:59
  me
• 30:59
  the
• 30:59
  way
• 30:59
  that
• 31:00
  I
• 31:00
  had
• 31:00
  hoped.
• 31:01
  So
• 31:02
  I
• 31:02
  started
• 31:02
  making
• 31:02
  these
• 31:02
  cootie
• 31:03
  catchers.
• 31:04
  So
• 31:04
  the
• 31:04
  first
• 31:04
  thing
• 31:05
  we're
• 31:05
  going
• 31:05
  to
• 31:05
  do
• 31:05
  before
• 31:05
  we
• 31:06
  make
• 31:06
  the
• 31:06
  cootie
• 31:06
  catchers
• 31:07
  is
• 31:08
  make
• 31:08
  a
• 31:08
  list,
• 31:09
  okay,
• 31:10
  of
• 31:10
  four
• 31:11
  things
• 31:11
  that
• 31:12
  we
• 31:12
  have
• 31:12
  to
• 31:12
  do
• 31:13
  today.
• 31:14
  And
• 31:14
  maybe
• 31:15
  back
• 31:15
  then
• 31:16
  it
• 31:16
  would
• 31:16
  have
• 31:16
  been,
• 31:16
  like,
• 31:17
  really
• 31:18
  small
• 31:19
  things,
• 31:20
  like,
• 31:20
  say
• 31:20
  I
• 31:20
  had
• 31:20
  to
• 31:21
  clean
• 31:21
  the
• 31:21
  kitchen
• 31:21
  because
• 31:22
  I
• 31:22
  hadn't
• 31:22
  cleaned
• 31:22
  it
• 31:22
  in
• 31:22
  weeks.
• 31:24
  And
• 31:25
  it
• 31:26
  would
• 31:26
  be
• 31:26
  like,
• 31:27
  throw
• 31:27
  all
• 31:27
  the
• 31:27
  trash
• 31:28
  away,
• 31:29
  put
• 31:29
  all
• 31:29
  the
• 31:29
  glasses
• 31:30
  in
• 31:30
  the
• 31:30
  dishwasher,
• 31:31
  wash
• 31:32
  only
• 31:32
  the
• 31:32
  plates,
• 31:33
  watch
• 31:33
  only
• 31:34
  the
• 31:34
  silverware,
• 31:35
  like,
• 31:35
  just
• 31:36
  the
• 31:36
  littlest,
• 31:37
  tiniest
• 31:37
  tasks,
• 31:38
  and
• 31:38
  breaking
• 31:38
  it
• 31:39
  down
• 31:40
  for
• 31:40
  me.
• 31:40
  Now
• 31:41
  I'm
• 31:41
  gonna
• 31:42
  do
• 31:42
  slightly
• 31:43
  bigger
• 31:43
  tasks,
• 31:45
  and
• 31:45
  I
• 31:45
  have
• 31:45
  a
• 31:45
  list
• 31:45
  of
• 31:46
  things.
• 31:46
  Because
• 31:47
  first
• 31:47
  of
• 31:47
  all,
• 31:47
  we've
• 31:48
  talked
• 31:48
  about
• 31:48
  this
• 31:48
  before.
• 31:49
  I've
• 31:50
  been
• 31:50
  sick
• 31:50
  for,
• 31:50
  like,
• 31:50
  two
• 31:50
  weeks,
• 31:51
  and
• 31:51
  I'm
• 31:51
  fucking
• 31:52
  sick
• 31:52
  of
• 31:52
  it.
• 31:53
  And
• 31:53
  I'm
• 31:53
  having
• 31:53
  a
• 31:54
  hard
• 31:54
  time
• 31:54
  getting
• 31:55
  anything
• 31:55
  done.
• 31:56
  But
• 31:56
  I'm
• 31:56
  gonna
• 31:56
  do
• 31:57
  trash
• 31:58
  and
• 31:58
  laundry.
• 31:59
  So
• 32:00
  I
• 32:00
  have,
• 32:01
  like,
• 32:01
  my
• 32:01
  overthrowing
• 32:01
  office
• 32:02
  trash.
• 32:02
  There's,
• 32:03
  like,
• 32:03
  trash
• 32:03
  in
• 32:03
  every
• 32:03
  room
• 32:04
  that
• 32:04
  needs
• 32:04
  to
• 32:04
  be
• 32:04
  taken
• 32:04
  out.
• 32:05
  And
• 32:05
  then
• 32:06
  I'm
• 32:06
  not
• 32:06
  gonna
• 32:06
  do
• 32:07
  my
• 32:07
  laundry.
• 32:07
  I'm
• 32:08
  just
• 32:08
  gonna
• 32:08
  put
• 32:08
  the
• 32:09
  laundry
• 32:09
  in
• 32:09
  the
• 32:10
  laundry
• 32:10
  bin,
• 32:13
  which
• 32:13
  is
• 32:13
  a
• 32:13
  chore.
• 32:13
  In
• 32:13
  of
• 32:14
  itself
• 32:14
  sometimes.
• 32:15
  Yeah,
• 32:16
  so
• 32:16
  that's
• 32:16
  my
• 32:17
  one.
• 32:18
  And
• 32:18
  then
• 32:18
  I'm
• 32:18
  thinking
• 32:18
  of,
• 32:19
  like,
• 32:19
  15
• 32:19
  to
• 32:20
  20
• 32:20
  minute
• 32:20
  tasks,
• 32:21
  and
• 32:21
  then
• 32:22
  I'm
• 32:22
  gonna
• 32:22
  do
• 32:23
  dishes.
• 32:24
  I
• 32:24
  actually
• 32:24
  already
• 32:25
  put
• 32:25
  all
• 32:26
  the
• 32:26
  dishes
• 32:26
  in
• 32:26
  the
• 32:26
  dishwasher,
• 32:27
  but
• 32:27
  there's
• 32:27
  like,
• 32:28
  a
• 32:28
  full
• 32:28
  sink
• 32:29
  of
• 32:29
  dishes
• 32:29
  that
• 32:29
  I
• 32:29
  have
• 32:29
  to
• 32:29
  wash
• 32:30
  by
• 32:30
  hand.
• 32:30
  We're
• 32:30
  gonna
• 32:31
  do
• 32:31
  some
• 32:31
  work
• 32:32
  in
• 32:33
  our
• 32:33
  guest
• 32:33
  room
• 32:33
  downstairs.
• 32:34
  There's
• 32:35
  fluorescent
• 32:36
  lights
• 32:36
  in
• 32:36
  the
• 32:36
  ceiling,
• 32:37
  and
• 32:37
  we're
• 32:38
  gonna
• 32:38
  take
• 32:38
  them
• 32:38
  down.
• 32:39
  But
• 32:39
  before
• 32:39
  we
• 32:39
  do
• 32:40
  that,
• 32:40
  I
• 32:40
  have
• 32:40
  to,
• 32:41
  like,
• 32:41
  take
• 32:41
  everything
• 32:41
  out
• 32:42
  of
• 32:42
  the
• 32:43
  stupid
• 32:43
  guest
• 32:43
  bedroom.
• 32:44
  So
• 32:44
  I'm
• 32:44
  just
• 32:44
  gonna
• 32:44
  take
• 32:45
  the
• 32:45
  bedding
• 32:45
  out
• 32:46
  and
• 32:47
  put
• 32:47
  the
• 32:48
  decor
• 32:48
  in
• 32:48
  a
• 32:48
  box.
• 32:49
  And
• 32:49
  then
• 32:50
  my
• 32:50
  fourth
• 32:50
  thing
• 32:52
  is
• 32:53
  there's
• 32:53
  this,
• 32:54
  like,
• 32:54
  junk
• 32:54
  drawer
• 32:55
  in
• 32:55
  our
• 32:55
  Kitchen
• 32:56
  that
• 32:56
  is
• 32:56
  overflowing
• 32:57
  and
• 32:57
  it's
• 32:58
  making
• 32:58
  me
• 32:58
  mad
• 32:59
  and
• 32:59
  it's
• 32:59
  making
• 32:59
  me
• 33:00
  kind
• 33:00
  of
• 33:00
  feel
• 33:00
  like
• 33:00
  a
• 33:00
  failure.
• 33:01
  You
• 33:01
  know
• 33:02
  when
• 33:02
  you
• 33:02
  have
• 33:02
  the
• 33:02
  drawer
• 33:02
  you
• 33:03
  can't
• 33:03
  close.
• 33:04
  That
• 33:04
  was
• 33:04
  once
• 33:04
  organized
• 33:05
  and
• 33:05
  now
• 33:06
  it's
• 33:06
  not.
• 33:07
  Yep,
• 33:07
  we're
• 33:08
  gonna
• 33:08
  do
• 33:08
  it
• 33:08
  today.
• 33:09
  It's
• 33:09
  one
• 33:09
  of
• 33:10
  those
• 33:10
  things
• 33:10
  that
• 33:10
  you
• 33:10
  avoid,
• 33:11
  but
• 33:11
  you
• 33:12
  know
• 33:12
  it's
• 33:12
  only
• 33:12
  gonna
• 33:12
  take
• 33:12
  like
• 33:13
  20
• 33:13
  minutes.
• 33:14
  But
• 33:14
  it's
• 33:14
  like
• 33:14
  hurting
• 33:15
  your
• 33:15
  feelings.
• 33:16
  Yeah,
• 33:16
  can't
• 33:17
  do
• 33:17
  it.
• 33:17
  That's
• 33:18
  my
• 33:18
  four
• 33:18
  things.
• 33:19
  Are
• 33:19
  you
• 33:19
  gonna
• 33:19
  say
• 33:19
  your
• 33:19
  four
• 33:20
  things?
• 33:20
  You
• 33:20
  don't
• 33:20
  have
• 33:20
  to.
• 33:20
  Sure.
• 33:21
  No,
• 33:21
  I
• 33:21
  can.
• 33:21
  So
• 33:22
  I
• 33:23
  have
• 33:23
  to
• 33:23
  pay
• 33:23
  my
• 33:23
  taxes
• 33:24
  for
• 33:24
  my
• 33:25
  sorbet
• 33:25
  company.
• 33:26
  Oh,
• 33:26
  that
• 33:27
  sucks.
• 33:27
  Sorry.
• 33:29
  And
• 33:29
  then
• 33:30
  make
• 33:31
  dinner
• 33:32
  family
• 33:33
  time.
• 33:34
  And
• 33:34
  then
• 33:34
  take
• 33:35
  care
• 33:35
  of
• 33:35
  the
• 33:35
  animals.
• 33:36
  So
• 33:36
  we
• 33:36
  have.
• 33:36
  We
• 33:37
  have
• 33:37
  two
• 33:37
  dogs
• 33:38
  and
• 33:39
  we
• 33:39
  have
• 33:39
  some
• 33:39
  backyard
• 33:40
  chickens.
• 33:41
  Oh,
• 33:42
  gotta
• 33:42
  take
• 33:42
  care
• 33:42
  of
• 33:43
  them.
• 33:43
  Yeah.
• 33:43
  Okay.
• 33:44
  I'm
• 33:45
  really
• 33:45
  like,
• 33:45
  my
• 33:45
  son
• 33:46
  takes
• 33:46
  care
• 33:46
  of
• 33:46
  the
• 33:46
  chickens,
• 33:47
  but
• 33:47
  like,
• 33:48
  we
• 33:48
  hang
• 33:48
  out
• 33:48
  in
• 33:48
  the
• 33:48
  backyard
• 33:49
  while
• 33:49
  he
• 33:49
  does
• 33:50
  that.
• 33:50
  Great.
• 33:51
  Nice.
• 33:52
  Okay,
• 33:53
  now
• 33:53
  I'm
• 33:53
  gonna
• 33:54
  pick
• 33:54
  four
• 33:54
  things
• 33:55
  because
• 33:55
  we
• 33:56
  are
• 33:56
  not
• 33:56
  going
• 33:57
  to
• 33:57
  be
• 33:57
  watching
• 33:57
  Murder
• 33:57
  She
• 33:58
  Wrote,
• 33:58
  which
• 33:58
  is
• 33:58
  fun.
• 33:59
  And
• 33:59
  the
• 33:59
  point
• 34:00
  is
• 34:00
  that
• 34:00
  you're
• 34:00
  breaking
• 34:00
  this
• 34:01
  up
• 34:01
  with
• 34:01
  fun.
• 34:01
  I
• 34:02
  forgot
• 34:02
  to
• 34:02
  mention
• 34:02
  that
• 34:02
  earlier.
• 34:03
  So
• 34:04
  now
• 34:04
  we're
• 34:05
  gonna
• 34:05
  list
• 34:05
  four.
• 34:06
  Four
• 34:07
  things
• 34:07
  that
• 34:07
  are.
• 34:08
  Sorry.
• 34:08
  Four
• 34:08
  fun
• 34:09
  things.
• 34:11
  And
• 34:11
  I
• 34:11
  want
• 34:11
  these
• 34:11
  to
• 34:12
  be
• 34:12
  really
• 34:13
  small,
• 34:14
  like
• 34:15
  ten
• 34:16
  20
• 34:16
  minute
• 34:16
  activities
• 34:18
  that
• 34:19
  hopefully,
• 34:20
  like,
• 34:20
  as
• 34:20
  you're
• 34:20
  doing
• 34:21
  this,
• 34:21
  you
• 34:22
  don't
• 34:22
  have
• 34:22
  to
• 34:22
  go
• 34:22
  out
• 34:22
  and
• 34:22
  buy.
• 34:23
  Right.
• 34:23
  The
• 34:23
  idea
• 34:23
  is
• 34:23
  that
• 34:24
  you're
• 34:24
  gonna
• 34:24
  make
• 34:24
  this
• 34:25
  and
• 34:26
  do
• 34:26
  it.
• 34:26
  Okay.
• 34:27
  Like,
• 34:27
  right
• 34:27
  away.
• 34:28
  So
• 34:28
  I
• 34:28
  have
• 34:28
  a
• 34:29
  couple
• 34:29
  things
• 34:30
  I'm
• 34:30
  gonna
• 34:30
  have.
• 34:32
  Oh,
• 34:32
  I'm
• 34:32
  gonna
• 34:32
  do
• 34:33
  15
• 34:33
  minutes
• 34:34
  of
• 34:34
  chasing
• 34:34
  Jo
• 34:35
  in
• 34:35
  the
• 34:35
  backyard.
• 34:36
  So
• 34:36
  she's
• 34:36
  my
• 34:36
  dog
• 34:37
  and
• 34:38
  she
• 34:38
  just
• 34:38
  likes
• 34:38
  it
• 34:38
  when
• 34:38
  I
• 34:39
  chase
• 34:39
  her.
• 34:39
  I've
• 34:39
  been
• 34:40
  trying
• 34:40
  to
• 34:40
  teach
• 34:40
  her
• 34:41
  fetch
• 34:41
  for
• 34:41
  like
• 34:41
  five
• 34:42
  years,
• 34:42
  but
• 34:43
  it
• 34:43
  just
• 34:43
  turns
• 34:43
  into
• 34:43
  me
• 34:44
  chasing
• 34:44
  her.
• 34:45
  I'm
• 34:46
  going
• 34:46
  to
• 34:48
  play
• 34:48
  this
• 34:48
  game
• 34:48
  that
• 34:49
  I
• 34:49
  have.
• 34:49
  It's
• 34:49
  a
• 34:50
  card
• 34:50
  game
• 34:50
  called
• 34:50
  Rove.
• 34:51
  It
• 34:52
  takes
• 34:52
  like
• 34:53
  five
• 34:53
  minutes
• 34:53
  to
• 34:53
  play
• 34:54
  and
• 34:54
  I
• 34:54
  play
• 34:54
  like
• 34:54
  three
• 34:55
  rounds.
• 34:56
  And
• 34:56
  then
• 34:57
  I'm
• 34:57
  gonna
• 34:57
  watch
• 34:59
  Tasting
• 34:59
  History
• 34:59
  with
• 34:59
  Max
• 35:00
  Miller.
• 35:00
  I
• 35:01
  don't
• 35:01
  know
• 35:01
  if
• 35:01
  you've
• 35:01
  ever
• 35:01
  seen
• 35:01
  that
• 35:01
  on
• 35:02
  YouTube,
• 35:02
  but
• 35:02
  it's
• 35:02
  really
• 35:02
  good.
• 35:03
  It's
• 35:04
  like
• 35:05
  20,
• 35:05
  30
• 35:05
  minutes.
• 35:06
  And
• 35:06
  then
• 35:07
  because
• 35:07
  I'm
• 35:07
  sick,
• 35:08
  I'm
• 35:08
  going
• 35:09
  to
• 35:09
  drink
• 35:09
  a
• 35:09
  shit
• 35:10
  ton
• 35:10
  of
• 35:10
  water
• 35:10
  while
• 35:11
  I
• 35:11
  watch
• 35:11
  it.
• 35:11
  And
• 35:12
  then
• 35:13
  last
• 35:13
  but
• 35:13
  not
• 35:13
  least,
• 35:15
  your
• 35:15
  wife
• 35:15
  and
• 35:15
  I
• 35:15
  are
• 35:15
  in
• 35:16
  a
• 35:16
  book
• 35:16
  club,
• 35:17
  and
• 35:17
  it's
• 35:18
  a
• 35:18
  book
• 35:18
  club
• 35:18
  that
• 35:18
  I
• 35:18
  run
• 35:19
  and
• 35:19
  we're
• 35:19
  supposed
• 35:20
  to
• 35:20
  be
• 35:20
  doing
• 35:20
  a
• 35:20
  read
• 35:20
  along
• 35:21
  all
• 35:22
  day
• 35:22
  today.
• 35:23
  I'm
• 35:23
  saying
• 35:23
  that
• 35:24
  she's
• 35:24
  reading
• 35:24
  and
• 35:24
  posting
• 35:25
  and
• 35:25
  I
• 35:25
  have
• 35:25
  not.
• 35:27
  I
• 35:27
  need
• 35:27
  to
• 35:27
  read
• 35:27
  a
• 35:27
  chapter
• 35:28
  and
• 35:29
  post.
• 35:30
  She
• 35:30
  tells
• 35:30
  me
• 35:30
  about
• 35:31
  that
• 35:31
  sometimes
• 35:31
  that.
• 35:32
  I
• 35:32
  have
• 35:32
  a
• 35:32
  book
• 35:32
  club
• 35:32
  and
• 35:33
  I
• 35:33
  don't,
• 35:33
  like,
• 35:33
  run
• 35:34
  it.
• 35:34
  No,
• 35:34
  that
• 35:34
  she.
• 35:34
  That
• 35:35
  she's
• 35:35
  part
• 35:35
  of
• 35:35
  it
• 35:35
  and.
• 35:36
  Oh,
• 35:36
  yeah.
• 35:38
  Okay.
• 35:39
  So
• 35:39
  those
• 35:39
  are
• 35:39
  my
• 35:39
  four
• 35:40
  things.
• 35:40
  Okay,
• 35:41
  so
• 35:42
  now
• 35:42
  we're
• 35:42
  gonna
• 35:42
  build
• 35:42
  our
• 35:42
  kitty
• 35:43
  catcher,
• 35:43
  and
• 35:43
  we're
• 35:44
  gonna
• 35:44
  put
• 35:44
  the
• 35:44
  things
• 35:45
  in
• 35:45
  the
• 35:45
  Kuti
• 35:45
  catcher,
• 35:46
  and
• 35:46
  we're
• 35:46
  gonna
• 35:47
  play
• 35:47
  the
• 35:48
  cootie
• 35:48
  catcher
• 35:48
  game
• 35:49
  to
• 35:49
  decide
• 35:49
  what
• 35:50
  we're
• 35:50
  gonna
• 35:50
  do.
• 35:51
  And
• 35:51
  everything's
• 35:51
  supposed
• 35:52
  to
• 35:52
  take,
• 35:52
  you
• 35:53
  know,
• 35:53
  20,
• 35:53
  30
• 35:53
  minutes,
• 35:54
  so.
• 35:54
  Or
• 35:55
  maybe
• 35:55
  less.
• 35:56
  Maybe
• 35:56
  10
• 35:56
  minutes.
• 35:57
  Okay.
• 35:57
  So
• 35:58
  I
• 35:58
  still
• 35:58
  have
• 35:58
  no
• 35:58
  clue
• 35:59
  what
• 35:59
  a
• 35:59
  cootie
• 35:59
  catcher
• 36:00
  is.
• 36:01
  Let
• 36:01
  me
• 36:01
  show
• 36:02
  you
• 36:02
  one,
• 36:03
  because
• 36:03
  I
• 36:03
  have
• 36:03
  one
• 36:03
  here.
• 36:04
  This
• 36:04
  is
• 36:05
  it.
• 36:05
  Oh.
• 36:05
  Oh,
• 36:06
  it's
• 36:06
  like
• 36:06
  that.
• 36:06
  That.
• 36:06
  Like
• 36:07
  middle
• 36:07
  school.
• 36:07
  Elementary.
• 36:08
  Yeah,
• 36:09
  I
• 36:09
  gotcha.
• 36:10
  Okay,
• 36:11
  let's
• 36:11
  get
• 36:11
  into
• 36:12
  the
• 36:13
  science.
• 36:14
  Except
• 36:14
  I'm
• 36:14
  not
• 36:14
  a
• 36:14
  scientist.
• 36:15
  Abyss.
• 36:18
  Oftentimes
• 36:19
  when
• 36:19
  you
• 36:19
  feel
• 36:20
  overwhelmed
• 36:20
  or
• 36:20
  when
• 36:20
  I
• 36:21
  feel
• 36:21
  overwhelmed
• 36:21
  and
• 36:21
  depressed,
• 36:23
  just
• 36:23
  getting
• 36:24
  started
• 36:24
  on
• 36:25
  tasks
• 36:25
  is,
• 36:26
  like,
• 36:27
  the
• 36:27
  thing
• 36:28
  that
• 36:28
  is
• 36:28
  the
• 36:28
  hardest.
• 36:30
  And
• 36:31
  doing
• 36:31
  this,
• 36:32
  making
• 36:32
  this
• 36:33
  craft
• 36:33
  and
• 36:34
  like,
• 36:35
  sort
• 36:35
  of
• 36:35
  taking
• 36:35
  your
• 36:36
  mind
• 36:36
  off
• 36:36
  of
• 36:37
  the
• 36:37
  overwhelm
• 36:38
  of
• 36:38
  it
• 36:39
  and
• 36:39
  then
• 36:40
  putting
• 36:40
  things
• 36:41
  sort
• 36:41
  of
• 36:41
  in
• 36:41
  this
• 36:42
  order
• 36:43
  where
• 36:43
  you
• 36:43
  do
• 36:44
  something
• 36:44
  fun
• 36:44
  and
• 36:44
  then
• 36:45
  do
• 36:45
  something
• 36:45
  crappy
• 36:46
  is
• 36:47
  just
• 36:47
  like.
• 36:48
  It's
• 36:48
  nice.
• 36:49
  That's
• 36:49
  the
• 36:49
  science.
• 36:50
  Gotcha.
• 36:51
  Take
• 36:52
  your
• 36:52
  rectangle.
• 36:53
  Is
• 36:53
  your
• 36:54
  paper
• 36:54
  a
• 36:54
  rectangle?
• 36:54
  Yes.
• 36:55
  And
• 36:55
  then
• 36:56
  you're
• 36:56
  gonna
• 36:57
  take
• 36:58
  the
• 36:58
  top
• 36:58
  edge
• 36:59
  and
• 36:59
  fold
• 36:59
  it
• 36:59
  over
• 36:59
  to
• 36:59
  the
• 37:00
  side
• 37:00
  like
• 37:01
  this.
• 37:01
  See?
• 37:02
  So
• 37:02
  you're
• 37:02
  making
• 37:02
  like
• 37:03
  a.
• 37:03
  Like
• 37:03
  a
• 37:03
  trapezoid,
• 37:04
  right?
• 37:05
  Correct.
• 37:06
  Sure.
• 37:06
  Is
• 37:06
  that
• 37:06
  what
• 37:07
  that
• 37:07
  shape
• 37:07
  is?
• 37:08
  So
• 37:08
  then
• 37:08
  there's
• 37:08
  this
• 37:09
  flap,
• 37:09
  and
• 37:09
  we're
• 37:10
  gonna
• 37:11
  fold
• 37:11
  it
• 37:11
  up
• 37:12
  against
• 37:13
  the
• 37:13
  long
• 37:14
  edge
• 37:15
  like
• 37:15
  this.
• 37:15
  Yep.
• 37:16
  Okay.
• 37:17
  And
• 37:17
  then
• 37:17
  I'm
• 37:17
  going
• 37:17
  to
• 37:18
  fold
• 37:18
  it
• 37:18
  back
• 37:18
  on
• 37:18
  the
• 37:18
  same
• 37:19
  fold
• 37:20
  because
• 37:20
  we're
• 37:20
  going
• 37:21
  to
• 37:21
  remove
• 37:21
  it.
• 37:22
  And,
• 37:22
  like,
• 37:22
  you
• 37:22
  could
• 37:23
  use
• 37:23
  scissors,
• 37:24
  but
• 37:24
  the
• 37:24
  idea
• 37:25
  is
• 37:25
  that
• 37:25
  we're
• 37:25
  doing
• 37:25
  this
• 37:26
  fast,
• 37:27
  and
• 37:28
  maybe
• 37:28
  we
• 37:29
  don't
• 37:29
  have
• 37:29
  scissors.
• 37:29
  Yeah,
• 37:30
  yeah.
• 37:31
  So
• 37:31
  basically,
• 37:31
  you're
• 37:31
  making.
• 37:31
  You're
• 37:32
  making
• 37:32
  a
• 37:32
  giant
• 37:33
  triangle,
• 37:34
  and
• 37:34
  then
• 37:35
  you're
• 37:35
  removing
• 37:36
  the
• 37:36
  rectangle
• 37:37
  base.
• 37:37
  Right.
• 37:38
  Because
• 37:38
  we're
• 37:38
  trying
• 37:38
  to
• 37:38
  make
• 37:38
  a
• 37:39
  square.
• 37:39
  Right.
• 37:40
  Okay,
• 37:40
  now
• 37:41
  you
• 37:41
  want
• 37:41
  to
• 37:42
  make
• 37:42
  sure
• 37:43
  that
• 37:43
  you
• 37:43
  have
• 37:45
  this
• 37:45
  piece
• 37:47
  in,
• 37:47
  like,
• 37:47
  this.
• 37:48
  You
• 37:48
  already
• 37:49
  did
• 37:49
  it
• 37:49
  because
• 37:49
  you
• 37:49
  ripped
• 37:49
  it
• 37:50
  off,
• 37:50
  which
• 37:50
  was.
• 37:51
  Right.
• 37:51
  I'm
• 37:51
  just
• 37:51
  going
• 37:51
  to
• 37:51
  lick
• 37:52
  this.
• 37:52
  Okay,
• 37:52
  but
• 37:53
  you
• 37:53
  don't
• 37:53
  want
• 37:53
  to
• 37:53
  give
• 37:53
  yourself
• 37:53
  a
• 37:54
  paper
• 37:54
  cut
• 37:54
  and
• 37:54
  then
• 37:55
  flip.
• 37:55
  Yeah.
• 37:55
  Because
• 37:55
  that
• 37:55
  would
• 37:56
  suck
• 37:56
  on
• 37:56
  your
• 37:56
  tongue.
• 37:57
  So
• 37:57
  now
• 37:57
  you
• 37:57
  have
• 37:57
  a
• 37:57
  square.
• 37:59
  Now
• 37:59
  we're
• 37:59
  going
• 37:59
  to
• 38:00
  fold
• 38:00
  it.
• 38:01
  See,
• 38:02
  this
• 38:03
  way.
• 38:03
  Perfect.
• 38:04
  Because.
• 38:05
  And
• 38:05
  we're
• 38:05
  going
• 38:05
  to
• 38:05
  have
• 38:05
  two
• 38:06
  diagonal
• 38:06
  lines
• 38:07
  that
• 38:07
  go
• 38:07
  across
• 38:08
  the
• 38:08
  square
• 38:09
  so
• 38:09
  we
• 38:09
  know
• 38:10
  where
• 38:10
  the
• 38:10
  middle
• 38:10
  is.
• 38:10
  That's
• 38:11
  what
• 38:11
  we're
• 38:11
  doing.
• 38:13
  Good.
• 38:14
  I
• 38:14
  like
• 38:14
  it.
• 38:15
  Now
• 38:17
  we're
• 38:17
  going
• 38:17
  to.
• 38:18
  So
• 38:19
  now
• 38:19
  we're
• 38:19
  going
• 38:19
  to
• 38:19
  fold
• 38:21
  the.
• 38:22
  One
• 38:22
  of
• 38:22
  the
• 38:22
  corners
• 38:23
  into
• 38:23
  the.
• 38:24
  So
• 38:24
  the
• 38:24
  top
• 38:24
  corners
• 38:25
  in
• 38:26
  the
• 38:26
  middle.
• 38:26
  Yep.
• 38:26
  So
• 38:27
  you're
• 38:27
  filling.
• 38:27
  You're
• 38:28
  folding
• 38:28
  one
• 38:28
  point
• 38:28
  into
• 38:29
  the
• 38:29
  center
• 38:29
  point,
• 38:30
  Correct?
• 38:31
  Yeah.
• 38:31
  So
• 38:32
  if
• 38:32
  your
• 38:32
  square
• 38:32
  were
• 38:33
  like
• 38:33
  a.
• 38:33
  Like
• 38:33
  a
• 38:33
  kite,
• 38:34
  you'd
• 38:35
  be
• 38:35
  taking
• 38:35
  one
• 38:35
  point
• 38:35
  of
• 38:36
  the
• 38:36
  kite
• 38:36
  and
• 38:36
  folding
• 38:36
  it
• 38:37
  to
• 38:37
  the
• 38:37
  center.
• 38:38
  Great.
• 38:38
  Got
• 38:38
  it.
• 38:39
  So
• 38:39
  it
• 38:39
  kind
• 38:39
  of
• 38:39
  looks
• 38:39
  like
• 38:39
  a
• 38:40
  diamond
• 38:40
  now.
• 38:41
  And
• 38:41
  then
• 38:41
  we're
• 38:41
  just
• 38:41
  going
• 38:41
  to
• 38:41
  do
• 38:42
  that
• 38:42
  to
• 38:42
  all
• 38:42
  the
• 38:42
  sides.
• 38:43
  Now,
• 38:45
  this
• 38:45
  is
• 38:45
  not
• 38:45
  going
• 38:46
  to
• 38:46
  be
• 38:46
  perfect,
• 38:47
  and
• 38:47
  it's
• 38:47
  actually
• 38:48
  a
• 38:48
  little
• 38:48
  bit
• 38:49
  better
• 38:50
  if
• 38:50
  there's
• 38:51
  space
• 38:52
  in
• 38:52
  between
• 38:53
  the
• 38:53
  sides
• 38:54
  of
• 38:54
  the
• 38:54
  triangle.
• 38:55
  So
• 38:55
  you
• 38:56
  are
• 38:56
  trying
• 38:56
  to
• 38:56
  get
• 38:57
  the
• 38:58
  points
• 38:59
  in
• 38:59
  the
• 38:59
  middle,
• 39:00
  but
• 39:01
  it
• 39:01
  doesn't
• 39:01
  have
• 39:01
  to
• 39:01
  be
• 39:01
  perfect.
• 39:03
  We're
• 39:03
  just.
• 39:04
  We're
• 39:04
  making
• 39:04
  ourselves
• 39:05
  a
• 39:05
  present.
• 39:05
  Yeah,
• 39:06
  I
• 39:06
  got
• 39:06
  it.
• 39:06
  Making
• 39:06
  ourselves
• 39:07
  a
• 39:07
  toy.
• 39:07
  Okay,
• 39:08
  awesome.
• 39:08
  So
• 39:09
  now
• 39:09
  flip
• 39:09
  it
• 39:09
  around
• 39:10
  like
• 39:10
  this.
• 39:11
  And
• 39:11
  we're
• 39:11
  going
• 39:11
  to
• 39:11
  do
• 39:12
  the
• 39:12
  same
• 39:12
  thing,
• 39:13
  bending
• 39:13
  it
• 39:13
  backwards
• 39:13
  like
• 39:14
  this.
• 39:14
  Gotcha.
• 39:15
  So
• 39:15
  we're.
• 39:15
  We're
• 39:16
  putting,
• 39:16
  like,
• 39:17
  the
• 39:17
  fold
• 39:17
  on
• 39:17
  the
• 39:17
  bottom,
• 39:19
  and
• 39:19
  now
• 39:20
  we're
• 39:20
  doing
• 39:20
  the
• 39:20
  same
• 39:20
  thing.
• 39:20
  So
• 39:21
  we're
• 39:21
  making.
• 39:21
  Turning
• 39:22
  our
• 39:22
  medium
• 39:23
  square
• 39:23
  into
• 39:24
  a
• 39:25
  smaller
• 39:25
  square.
• 39:26
  So
• 39:26
  good
• 39:26
  at
• 39:26
  explaining
• 39:27
  things.
• 39:28
  Okay,
• 39:29
  so
• 39:30
  now.
• 39:30
  Oops.
• 39:31
  You
• 39:31
  know,
• 39:32
  I
• 39:32
  made
• 39:32
  like
• 39:32
  10
• 39:32
  of
• 39:32
  these
• 39:33
  earlier
• 39:33
  today,
• 39:34
  and
• 39:34
  this
• 39:34
  one
• 39:34
  is
• 39:34
  gonna
• 39:35
  be,
• 39:35
  like,
• 39:35
  the
• 39:36
  wonkiest
• 39:36
  one.
• 39:36
  It's
• 39:37
  okay.
• 39:37
  Okay,
• 39:38
  so
• 39:38
  now
• 39:38
  we
• 39:38
  have
• 39:39
  this.
• 39:39
  Yeah.
• 39:40
  Cool.
• 39:41
  Okay,
• 39:41
  so
• 39:42
  we've
• 39:42
  actually
• 39:43
  made
• 39:44
  the
• 39:44
  cootie
• 39:44
  catcher.
• 39:45
  At
• 39:45
  this
• 39:45
  point,
• 39:46
  what
• 39:46
  I'm
• 39:46
  gonna
• 39:46
  do
• 39:47
  is
• 39:47
  I'm
• 39:47
  gonna
• 39:47
  just
• 39:48
  fold
• 39:48
  it
• 39:49
  in
• 39:49
  half
• 39:50
  and
• 39:50
  then
• 39:50
  in
• 39:51
  half
• 39:51
  again,
• 39:52
  and
• 39:52
  it's
• 39:52
  just
• 39:52
  going
• 39:53
  to
• 39:53
  help.
• 39:54
  So
• 39:54
  then
• 39:55
  open
• 39:56
  it
• 39:56
  again
• 39:56
  like
• 39:57
  this.
• 39:57
  And
• 39:58
  there's
• 39:58
  going
• 39:58
  to
• 39:58
  be
• 39:59
  the
• 39:59
  triangle
• 40:00
  side,
• 40:01
  and
• 40:01
  there's
• 40:01
  going
• 40:01
  to
• 40:01
  be
• 40:02
  the
• 40:02
  square
• 40:03
  flap
• 40:03
  side
• 40:03
  y.
• 40:03
  And
• 40:04
  you're
• 40:04
  just
• 40:04
  going
• 40:04
  to
• 40:04
  take
• 40:05
  the
• 40:06
  flap
• 40:06
  side,
• 40:07
  stick
• 40:07
  your
• 40:07
  fingers
• 40:07
  in,
• 40:08
  and
• 40:08
  pop
• 40:09
  these
• 40:09
  up.
• 40:10
  So
• 40:10
  you're
• 40:10
  opening
• 40:10
  them
• 40:10
  sort
• 40:11
  of
• 40:11
  like
• 40:11
  a.
• 40:11
  Like
• 40:11
  a
• 40:11
  frog's
• 40:12
  mouth.
• 40:12
  Like
• 40:12
  a
• 40:12
  pyramid
• 40:13
  or.
• 40:13
  Yeah.
• 40:14
  And
• 40:15
  then
• 40:15
  you're
• 40:15
  going
• 40:15
  to
• 40:16
  take
• 40:16
  the
• 40:16
  edges
• 40:17
  and
• 40:17
  just
• 40:18
  squeeze
• 40:19
  it
• 40:19
  to
• 40:20
  squeeze
• 40:20
  it
• 40:20
  together
• 40:22
  like
• 40:22
  this.
• 40:23
  How's
• 40:23
  it
• 40:23
  going?
• 40:24
  Looks
• 40:24
  like
• 40:24
  you're
• 40:24
  struggling.
• 40:25
  Got
• 40:25
  it.
• 40:26
  You
• 40:26
  got
• 40:26
  it.
• 40:27
  Look
• 40:27
  at
• 40:27
  you.
• 40:28
  Okay.
• 40:28
  The
• 40:28
  other
• 40:29
  thing
• 40:29
  I
• 40:29
  like
• 40:29
  to
• 40:29
  do
• 40:29
  here
• 40:29
  is
• 40:30
  turning
• 40:30
  it
• 40:30
  over
• 40:31
  and
• 40:31
  just
• 40:31
  like,
• 40:32
  baking
• 40:32
  the
• 40:32
  folds.
• 40:33
  Really.
• 40:34
  Really
• 40:34
  making
• 40:34
  the
• 40:35
  creases
• 40:35
  creak.
• 40:36
  Yeah,
• 40:36
  really
• 40:36
  making
• 40:37
  the
• 40:37
  creases
• 40:37
  crease.
• 40:38
  Okay,
• 40:38
  so
• 40:39
  now
• 40:39
  we
• 40:39
  have
• 40:39
  it.
• 40:40
  Little
• 40:40
  monster.
• 40:41
  Yep.
• 40:42
  So
• 40:42
  now
• 40:42
  what
• 40:42
  you're
• 40:43
  going
• 40:43
  to
• 40:43
  do
• 40:43
  is
• 40:44
  if
• 40:44
  you
• 40:45
  put
• 40:45
  it
• 40:46
  like
• 40:46
  this
• 40:46
  again
• 40:47
  and
• 40:47
  you
• 40:47
  have
• 40:47
  your
• 40:47
  little
• 40:47
  triangle
• 40:48
  flaps
• 40:48
  when
• 40:49
  you
• 40:49
  open
• 40:49
  it.
• 40:50
  Now
• 40:50
  you
• 40:50
  have,
• 40:50
  like,
• 40:51
  in
• 40:51
  the
• 40:51
  center
• 40:52
  square,
• 40:52
  you
• 40:52
  have
• 40:52
  eight
• 40:52
  sections.
• 40:54
  Just
• 40:54
  write
• 40:54
  your
• 40:55
  things
• 40:55
  in
• 40:56
  in
• 40:57
  each
• 40:57
  section.
• 40:58
  So
• 40:58
  I'm
• 40:58
  going
• 40:58
  to
• 40:58
  put
• 40:58
  trash
• 40:59
  and.
• 40:59
  Laundry,
• 41:00
  and
• 41:00
  then,
• 41:00
  like,
• 41:00
  do
• 41:00
  you
• 41:01
  put
• 41:01
  all
• 41:01
  of,
• 41:01
  like,
• 41:01
  the.
• 41:02
  The
• 41:02
  tasks
• 41:03
  together
• 41:03
  and
• 41:03
  then
• 41:03
  all
• 41:04
  the.
• 41:05
  It
• 41:05
  doesn't.
• 41:06
  Or
• 41:06
  just
• 41:06
  however.
• 41:07
  However
• 41:07
  they
• 41:07
  go
• 41:07
  in
• 41:08
  there
• 41:08
  is
• 41:08
  however
• 41:08
  they
• 41:08
  go.
• 41:09
  You
• 41:09
  can
• 41:09
  make
• 41:10
  it
• 41:10
  a
• 41:11
  task
• 41:11
  and
• 41:11
  a
• 41:11
  fun
• 41:11
  thing,
• 41:12
  or
• 41:12
  you
• 41:12
  can
• 41:12
  just
• 41:12
  put
• 41:12
  them
• 41:13
  all
• 41:14
  in.
• 41:15
  It
• 41:15
  doesn't
• 41:15
  matter.
• 41:16
  Dishes,
• 41:17
  bedding,
• 41:19
  junk
• 41:19
  drawer.
• 41:21
  And
• 41:21
  again
• 41:21
  with
• 41:22
  these,
• 41:23
  let
• 41:23
  yourself
• 41:23
  make
• 41:24
  these
• 41:24
  as
• 41:25
  small
• 41:25
  as
• 41:26
  you
• 41:26
  want.
• 41:26
  You
• 41:27
  want
• 41:27
  it
• 41:27
  as
• 41:27
  less
• 41:27
  com.
• 41:28
  You
• 41:28
  know?
• 41:29
  Are
• 41:29
  you
• 41:29
  one
• 41:29
  of
• 41:29
  those
• 41:29
  people
• 41:30
  that
• 41:31
  makes
• 41:31
  things
• 41:32
  super
• 41:32
  complicated?
• 41:33
  I
• 41:33
  can
• 41:33
  be.
• 41:35
  I
• 41:35
  can.
• 41:36
  I
• 41:36
  definitely.
• 41:37
  I
• 41:38
  definitely
• 41:38
  can.
• 41:39
  Like,
• 41:40
  I
• 41:41
  want
• 41:41
  this
• 41:41
  to
• 41:41
  be,
• 41:41
  like,
• 41:42
  basic
• 41:43
  little
• 41:43
  things.
• 41:44
  Plus,
• 41:45
  I
• 41:45
  think
• 41:45
  sometimes
• 41:46
  when
• 41:46
  we
• 41:46
  think
• 41:46
  about
• 41:47
  fun
• 41:47
  things
• 41:47
  that
• 41:48
  we
• 41:48
  do
• 41:48
  for
• 41:48
  ourselves,
• 41:49
  we
• 41:49
  make
• 41:50
  those
• 41:50
  really
• 41:50
  complicated,
• 41:51
  too.
• 41:52
  Not
• 41:52
  just
• 41:52
  the
• 41:52
  chores,
• 41:53
  but,
• 41:53
  like,
• 41:54
  do
• 41:54
  you
• 41:54
  need
• 41:54
  to
• 41:54
  spend
• 41:55
  money
• 41:55
  and
• 41:55
  drive
• 41:55
  across
• 41:56
  town
• 41:57
  to
• 41:57
  get
• 41:57
  a
• 41:57
  massage
• 41:58
  to
• 41:59
  have
• 41:59
  fun?
• 42:00
  I
• 42:00
  mean.
• 42:00
  Yes,
• 42:01
  that's
• 42:01
  a
• 42:01
  fucking
• 42:01
  awesome
• 42:02
  thing
• 42:02
  to
• 42:02
  do.
• 42:03
  Yeah.
• 42:04
  It
• 42:04
  doesn't
• 42:04
  always
• 42:05
  have
• 42:05
  to
• 42:06
  be,
• 42:07
  but.
• 42:07
  There
• 42:07
  are
• 42:07
  other
• 42:07
  options,
• 42:08
  right?
• 42:09
  There's
• 42:09
  smaller
• 42:09
  things,
• 42:10
  too,
• 42:10
  that
• 42:10
  we
• 42:10
  can
• 42:10
  do
• 42:10
  to
• 42:10
  make
• 42:11
  us
• 42:11
  happy.
• 42:11
  Okay,
• 42:11
  so
• 42:12
  we
• 42:12
  have
• 42:12
  that
• 42:12
  in
• 42:12
  there.
• 42:13
  Now
• 42:13
  we
• 42:14
  color.
• 42:14
  Okay.
• 42:16
  I'm
• 42:16
  gonna
• 42:16
  show
• 42:17
  you
• 42:17
  how
• 42:17
  I
• 42:17
  color,
• 42:17
  because
• 42:18
  I
• 42:18
  am
• 42:18
  one
• 42:18
  of
• 42:18
  those
• 42:19
  people
• 42:19
  that
• 42:19
  cannot
• 42:20
  draw,
• 42:20
  and
• 42:21
  I'm
• 42:21
  not
• 42:21
  lying.
• 42:22
  Gotcha.
• 42:22
  I
• 42:23
  don't
• 42:23
  know.
• 42:23
  One
• 42:23
  time
• 42:24
  I
• 42:24
  was
• 42:24
  really
• 42:25
  sick,
• 42:25
  and
• 42:25
  you
• 42:26
  drew
• 42:26
  me
• 42:26
  as,
• 42:26
  like,
• 42:26
  a
• 42:26
  punk
• 42:26
  rock
• 42:27
  platypus.
• 42:28
  Oh,
• 42:28
  yeah.
• 42:28
  And
• 42:29
  that
• 42:29
  was
• 42:29
  pretty
• 42:29
  awesome.
• 42:30
  Thanks.
• 42:30
  I
• 42:30
  can
• 42:31
  draw.
• 42:31
  Okay.
• 42:31
  Stick
• 42:31
  people
• 42:32
  and,
• 42:32
  like,
• 42:32
  if
• 42:33
  it's
• 42:33
  just
• 42:33
  shapes,
• 42:34
  like
• 42:34
  ovals,
• 42:35
  because
• 42:35
  the
• 42:35
  platypus
• 42:36
  is,
• 42:36
  like,
• 42:36
  kind
• 42:37
  of
• 42:37
  not
• 42:37
  hard.
• 42:37
  It's
• 42:38
  just
• 42:38
  kind
• 42:38
  of
• 42:38
  some
• 42:39
  circles
• 42:39
  and
• 42:39
  some
• 42:39
  ovals.
• 42:40
  I
• 42:41
  was
• 42:41
  impressed,
• 42:42
  and
• 42:42
  I
• 42:42
  appreciated
• 42:43
  it.
• 42:43
  Well,
• 42:44
  thank
• 42:44
  you.
• 42:44
  So
• 42:45
  are
• 42:45
  we
• 42:45
  just
• 42:45
  coloring
• 42:46
  the
• 42:46
  whole
• 42:46
  thing?
• 42:46
  Are
• 42:46
  we
• 42:46
  coloring
• 42:47
  parts
• 42:47
  of
• 42:47
  it?
• 42:48
  Oh,
• 42:48
  my
• 42:48
  God.
• 42:50
  So
• 42:50
  good
• 42:50
  question.
• 42:51
  Okay,
• 42:52
  so
• 42:52
  right
• 42:52
  now
• 42:52
  we're
• 42:53
  just
• 42:53
  coloring
• 42:53
  the
• 42:53
  middle.
• 42:54
  This
• 42:54
  is
• 42:55
  how
• 42:55
  I'm
• 42:55
  coloring
• 42:56
  it.
• 42:56
  I'm
• 42:56
  just
• 42:57
  taking
• 42:57
  each
• 42:58
  triangle,
• 42:59
  and
• 42:59
  I'm
• 42:59
  just,
• 42:59
  like,
• 43:00
  giving
• 43:00
  it
• 43:00
  a
• 43:00
  border
• 43:00
  and
• 43:01
  then
• 43:01
  coloring
• 43:01
  it
• 43:02
  in
• 43:02
  lighter
• 43:02
  in
• 43:02
  the
• 43:02
  same
• 43:02
  color.
• 43:03
  Gotcha.
• 43:03
  So
• 43:04
  we're
• 43:04
  coloring,
• 43:04
  like,
• 43:04
  each
• 43:05
  section
• 43:05
  where
• 43:05
  we
• 43:05
  wrote
• 43:06
  something.
• 43:07
  Yeah,
• 43:07
  but
• 43:07
  you
• 43:08
  don't
• 43:08
  have
• 43:08
  to.
• 43:09
  You
• 43:09
  can
• 43:09
  make
• 43:09
  it
• 43:10
  super
• 43:10
  easy
• 43:11
  and
• 43:11
  just
• 43:11
  color
• 43:12
  the
• 43:12
  whole
• 43:12
  thing
• 43:12
  one
• 43:12
  color.
• 43:13
  I
• 43:13
  just
• 43:14
  feel
• 43:14
  like
• 43:14
  the
• 43:14
  act
• 43:14
  of
• 43:15
  coloring
• 43:16
  is
• 43:16
  relaxing.
• 43:17
  Also,
• 43:17
  I
• 43:17
  like
• 43:17
  the
• 43:17
  way
• 43:17
  crayons
• 43:18
  smell.
• 43:18
  I
• 43:18
  find
• 43:19
  that
• 43:19
  that
• 43:19
  is
• 43:19
  also,
• 43:20
  like,
• 43:20
  weird
• 43:20
  aromatherapy
• 43:21
  for
• 43:21
  me.
• 43:22
  God.
• 43:22
  Do
• 43:22
  you
• 43:23
  remember
• 43:23
  those
• 43:23
  markers
• 43:23
  that,
• 43:24
  like,
• 43:24
  used
• 43:24
  to
• 43:24
  be
• 43:24
  scented?
• 43:25
  Yes.
• 43:26
  Yes.
• 43:27
  I
• 43:27
  think
• 43:28
  they
• 43:28
  still
• 43:28
  make
• 43:28
  those.
• 43:29
  If
• 43:29
  they
• 43:29
  do.
• 43:30
  My
• 43:31
  child
• 43:31
  has
• 43:31
  missed
• 43:31
  out
• 43:32
  on
• 43:32
  life
• 43:32
  because
• 43:32
  he
• 43:32
  has
• 43:32
  never
• 43:33
  gotten
• 43:33
  those.
• 43:36
  Speaking
• 43:36
  of,
• 43:36
  like,
• 43:36
  old
• 43:37
  stuff
• 43:37
  that
• 43:37
  we
• 43:37
  had
• 43:38
  when
• 43:38
  we
• 43:38
  were
• 43:38
  kids,
• 43:39
  for
• 43:39
  Halloween,
• 43:40
  I
• 43:41
  hand
• 43:41
  out
• 43:41
  pop
• 43:42
  rocks
• 43:42
  and
• 43:42
  fund
• 43:42
  it.
• 43:43
  Amazing.
• 43:44
  This
• 43:44
  year
• 43:44
  I
• 43:45
  also
• 43:45
  did
• 43:45
  lemon
• 43:46
  heads.
• 43:47
  I
• 43:47
  don't
• 43:47
  think
• 43:47
  that's,
• 43:47
  like,
• 43:48
  a
• 43:48
  really
• 43:48
  popular
• 43:49
  candy
• 43:49
  anymore.
• 43:50
  I
• 43:50
  think
• 43:50
  that,
• 43:50
  like,
• 43:51
  as
• 43:51
  far
• 43:51
  as
• 43:51
  sour
• 43:52
  candy
• 43:52
  goes,
• 43:52
  there's,
• 43:53
  like,
• 43:53
  cooler
• 43:54
  candy
• 43:54
  now.
• 43:54
  The
• 43:55
  lemon
• 43:55
  heads
• 43:55
  took
• 43:55
  me
• 43:56
  back.
• 43:56
  Lemon
• 43:57
  heads
• 43:57
  are
• 43:57
  great.
• 43:58
  How
• 43:58
  do
• 43:58
  you
• 43:58
  feel
• 43:59
  about
• 43:59
  coloring?
• 43:59
  Do
• 44:00
  you
• 44:00
  find
• 44:00
  it
• 44:00
  relaxing?
• 44:02
  I
• 44:02
  don't
• 44:02
  know.
• 44:02
  Like,
• 44:02
  I
• 44:03
  really
• 44:03
  haven't
• 44:03
  done
• 44:04
  it
• 44:04
  much
• 44:04
  in
• 44:04
  a
• 44:04
  very
• 44:05
  long
• 44:05
  time.
• 44:06
  Yeah,
• 44:07
  you
• 44:07
  know,
• 44:07
  I
• 44:07
  know
• 44:07
  some.
• 44:08
  Some,
• 44:08
  like,
• 44:09
  art
• 44:09
  therapists
• 44:09
  that.
• 44:10
  That
• 44:10
  are
• 44:10
  really
• 44:11
  into
• 44:11
  various,
• 44:12
  you
• 44:12
  know,
• 44:13
  arty
• 44:13
  technique
• 44:14
  things
• 44:14
  for.
• 44:15
  For,
• 44:16
  like,
• 44:16
  therapeutic
• 44:17
  things.
• 44:17
  It's
• 44:18
  just
• 44:18
  not
• 44:18
  something
• 44:19
  I've
• 44:19
  done
• 44:19
  much
• 44:19
  of.
• 44:21
  Yeah,
• 44:21
  I
• 44:21
  know
• 44:21
  that.
• 44:22
  Doing
• 44:22
  coloring
• 44:23
  books
• 44:23
  was,
• 44:23
  like.
• 44:24
  I
• 44:24
  think
• 44:24
  it
• 44:25
  still
• 44:25
  is
• 44:25
  kind
• 44:25
  of
• 44:25
  popular.
• 44:26
  And,
• 44:26
  like,
• 44:27
  again,
• 44:27
  it
• 44:28
  goes
• 44:28
  back
• 44:28
  to
• 44:28
  that
• 44:28
  thing
• 44:28
  about,
• 44:29
  like,
• 44:30
  coloring
• 44:30
  in
• 44:30
  the
• 44:30
  lines.
• 44:31
  Like,
• 44:31
  the
• 44:31
  cool
• 44:31
  thing
• 44:31
  about
• 44:32
  the
• 44:32
  cootie
• 44:32
  catcher
• 44:33
  is
• 44:33
  you
• 44:33
  can
• 44:34
  color
• 44:34
  it
• 44:34
  however
• 44:35
  you
• 44:35
  want.
• 44:35
  You
• 44:35
  make
• 44:35
  your
• 44:36
  own
• 44:36
  lines,
• 44:37
  though.
• 44:37
  You
• 44:37
  can
• 44:37
  make
• 44:37
  your
• 44:37
  own
• 44:38
  dark
• 44:38
  lines.
• 44:39
  Gotcha.
• 44:40
  What's
• 44:40
  your
• 44:40
  favorite
• 44:41
  color?
• 44:43
  Purple,
• 44:43
  probably.
• 44:45
  Yeah.
• 44:46
  Interestingly,
• 44:46
  not
• 44:47
  surprising
• 44:48
  to
• 44:48
  me.
• 44:48
  For
• 44:48
  some
• 44:48
  reason,
• 44:49
  I
• 44:49
  feel
• 44:49
  like
• 44:49
  I
• 44:49
  knew
• 44:50
  that,
• 44:51
  you
• 44:51
  know,
• 44:51
  you
• 44:51
  had
• 44:51
  that
• 44:52
  when
• 44:52
  we
• 44:52
  were
• 44:53
  friends.
• 44:53
  I
• 44:53
  mean,
• 44:53
  we're
• 44:54
  still
• 44:54
  friends.
• 44:57
  Back
• 44:58
  in
• 44:58
  the
• 44:58
  day
• 44:58
  when
• 44:58
  we
• 44:58
  were
• 44:59
  kicking
• 44:59
  it.
• 44:59
  Yeah.
• 45:00
  When
• 45:00
  we
• 45:00
  lived
• 45:00
  in
• 45:01
  the
• 45:01
  same
• 45:01
  place.
• 45:02
  You
• 45:02
  have
• 45:03
  that
• 45:03
  purple
• 45:04
  ear
• 45:05
  Headband.
• 45:05
  Headband,
• 45:06
  yeah.
• 45:07
  How's
• 45:08
  your
• 45:08
  coloring
• 45:08
  going?
• 45:08
  I'm
• 45:09
  almost
• 45:09
  done.
• 45:09
  I'm
• 45:09
  sorry.
• 45:09
  I'm
• 45:10
  taking
• 45:10
  forever.
• 45:10
  Oh,
• 45:10
  no,
• 45:10
  you're
• 45:11
  fine.
• 45:11
  I.
• 45:12
  I
• 45:12
  have
• 45:12
  finished.
• 45:12
  I
• 45:13
  have
• 45:13
  finished
• 45:13
  my.
• 45:14
  My
• 45:14
  part
• 45:14
  of
• 45:14
  it.
• 45:14
  Yes.
• 45:15
  Perfect.
• 45:16
  Beautiful.
• 45:17
  Okay,
• 45:18
  so
• 45:19
  now
• 45:19
  you're
• 45:20
  gonna
• 45:20
  fold
• 45:22
  the
• 45:22
  pieces
• 45:22
  over
• 45:23
  like
• 45:23
  this.
• 45:24
  And
• 45:25
  so
• 45:26
  the
• 45:26
  idea
• 45:26
  here
• 45:26
  now
• 45:27
  is
• 45:27
  that
• 45:27
  you
• 45:27
  folded
• 45:28
  this
• 45:28
  over.
• 45:28
  You
• 45:28
  kind
• 45:28
  of
• 45:28
  don't
• 45:29
  know
• 45:29
  what
• 45:30
  you
• 45:30
  wrote
• 45:30
  under
• 45:30
  it.
• 45:31
  That's
• 45:31
  why
• 45:31
  it
• 45:31
  doesn't
• 45:31
  really
• 45:32
  matter
• 45:32
  the
• 45:32
  order
• 45:33
  that
• 45:33
  you
• 45:33
  write
• 45:33
  stuff
• 45:33
  in.
• 45:33
  Okay,
• 45:34
  but
• 45:34
  now
• 45:35
  we're
• 45:35
  gonna
• 45:35
  color
• 45:36
  these
• 45:36
  flaps
• 45:36
  again
• 45:37
  and
• 45:37
  then
• 45:38
  put
• 45:39
  a
• 45:39
  number
• 45:39
  one
• 45:40
  through
• 45:40
  eight.
• 45:41
  Okay,
• 45:41
  so.
• 45:41
  So,
• 45:42
  like,
• 45:42
  we're
• 45:42
  coloring
• 45:42
  the
• 45:43
  flaps
• 45:43
  that
• 45:43
  are
• 45:43
  hiding
• 45:44
  what
• 45:45
  we
• 45:45
  just
• 45:45
  wrote
• 45:46
  and
• 45:46
  what
• 45:46
  we
• 45:46
  just
• 45:46
  colored.
• 45:47
  Okay.
• 45:47
  And
• 45:47
  we're
• 45:48
  putting
• 45:48
  numbers.
• 45:49
  Numbers.
• 45:50
  Gotcha.
• 45:51
  One
• 45:51
  number
• 45:51
  on
• 45:51
  each.
• 45:52
  One
• 45:53
  on
• 45:53
  each
• 45:53
  little
• 45:53
  triangle.
• 45:54
  So
• 45:54
  I'm
• 45:54
  assuming
• 45:55
  like
• 45:55
  one
• 45:55
  through
• 45:55
  eight.
• 45:57
  Yes.
• 45:57
  And
• 45:58
  you
• 45:58
  know,
• 45:58
  and
• 45:58
  like
• 45:58
  you
• 45:58
  said
• 45:59
  earlier,
• 45:59
  like,
• 45:59
  you
• 45:59
  can't
• 45:59
  just
• 46:00
  have,
• 46:00
  you
• 46:00
  know,
• 46:00
  one
• 46:01
  go
• 46:01
  to
• 46:03
  thing,
• 46:03
  because
• 46:03
  life
• 46:04
  changes,
• 46:05
  abilities
• 46:06
  change,
• 46:07
  whatever.
• 46:07
  So
• 46:07
  it's
• 46:08
  important
• 46:08
  to
• 46:08
  have,
• 46:09
  you
• 46:09
  know,
• 46:09
  different
• 46:10
  things
• 46:10
  that
• 46:10
  help
• 46:10
  you
• 46:10
  cope.
• 46:11
  And
• 46:11
  not
• 46:12
  the
• 46:12
  same
• 46:12
  thing
• 46:12
  is
• 46:12
  going
• 46:12
  to
• 46:12
  work
• 46:13
  all
• 46:13
  the
• 46:13
  time.
• 46:13
  Right.
• 46:14
  Right
• 46:15
  there
• 46:15
  Is
• 46:16
  that
• 46:16
  sort
• 46:16
  of
• 46:16
  level
• 46:17
  of
• 46:18
  what
• 46:18
  can
• 46:18
  I
• 46:18
  actually
• 46:19
  do
• 46:19
  today
• 46:20
  versus
• 46:21
  what
• 46:21
  I
• 46:21
  think
• 46:21
  I
• 46:22
  can
• 46:22
  do
• 46:22
  today.
• 46:22
  Yeah,
• 46:23
  right.
• 46:24
  So
• 46:24
  even
• 46:24
  doing
• 46:24
  something
• 46:25
  like
• 46:25
  this,
• 46:26
  maybe
• 46:26
  you
• 46:26
  start
• 46:27
  doing
• 46:27
  it
• 46:27
  and
• 46:27
  you
• 46:28
  realize
• 46:28
  that
• 46:29
  it
• 46:29
  is
• 46:30
  still
• 46:30
  too
• 46:30
  much.
• 46:30
  And
• 46:31
  maybe
• 46:31
  you
• 46:31
  need
• 46:31
  to
• 46:33
  only
• 46:33
  do
• 46:33
  four
• 46:34
  things
• 46:35
  instead
• 46:35
  of.
• 46:36
  Or
• 46:36
  only
• 46:36
  do
• 46:36
  two
• 46:37
  things,
• 46:38
  two
• 46:38
  chores.
• 46:39
  Or
• 46:39
  maybe
• 46:40
  this
• 46:40
  is
• 46:40
  just
• 46:41
  the
• 46:41
  kickoff
• 46:42
  of
• 46:43
  doing
• 46:43
  more
• 46:43
  things
• 46:44
  than
• 46:45
  just
• 46:45
  these
• 46:45
  eight
• 46:45
  things.
• 46:46
  But
• 46:46
  we're
• 46:46
  gonna
• 46:47
  do
• 46:47
  chores
• 46:48
  and
• 46:48
  be
• 46:48
  creative
• 46:50
  and
• 46:51
  do
• 46:51
  fun
• 46:51
  things
• 46:52
  instead
• 46:53
  of
• 46:53
  just
• 46:54
  sitting
• 46:55
  feeling
• 46:55
  overwhelmed
• 46:56
  and
• 46:56
  shitty.
• 46:57
  Yeah.
• 46:57
  Like,
• 46:57
  I
• 46:58
  remember
• 46:58
  the
• 46:59
  first
• 46:59
  time
• 46:59
  I
• 46:59
  really
• 46:59
  felt
• 47:00
  like
• 47:00
  at
• 47:01
  peace
• 47:01
  or
• 47:01
  calm
• 47:02
  was
• 47:02
  shortly
• 47:03
  after
• 47:03
  I'd
• 47:03
  moved
• 47:04
  to
• 47:04
  Laramie.
• 47:04
  I,
• 47:05
  I
• 47:05
  didn't
• 47:06
  know
• 47:06
  I
• 47:06
  knew
• 47:07
  one
• 47:07
  person
• 47:07
  there,
• 47:09
  but
• 47:09
  I
• 47:09
  hadn't
• 47:09
  really
• 47:09
  met
• 47:10
  a
• 47:10
  friend
• 47:10
  group
• 47:10
  yet.
• 47:11
  I
• 47:12
  just
• 47:12
  moved
• 47:12
  there
• 47:12
  from
• 47:13
  Washington
• 47:14
  D.C.
• 47:14
  northern
• 47:15
  Virginia
• 47:15
  area.
• 47:16
  Things
• 47:16
  were
• 47:17
  rough
• 47:17
  and
• 47:18
  I
• 47:18
  ended
• 47:18
  up
• 47:18
  dating
• 47:19
  this
• 47:19
  only
• 47:19
  person
• 47:20
  I
• 47:20
  knew
• 47:20
  who
• 47:20
  I
• 47:21
  was
• 47:21
  also
• 47:21
  living
• 47:21
  with,
• 47:22
  which
• 47:23
  hindsight
• 47:24
  probably
• 47:24
  wasn't
• 47:25
  the
• 47:25
  best
• 47:25
  idea.
• 47:26
  It
• 47:26
  happens.
• 47:26
  Right?
• 47:27
  Right.
• 47:28
  And,
• 47:29
  and
• 47:29
  like
• 47:29
  three
• 47:30
  days
• 47:30
  into
• 47:30
  that
• 47:30
  relationship
• 47:32
  I
• 47:33
  knew,
• 47:33
  like,
• 47:33
  I
• 47:33
  knew
• 47:34
  it
• 47:34
  was
• 47:34
  a
• 47:34
  mistake.
• 47:35
  It
• 47:35
  just
• 47:35
  took
• 47:36
  me
• 47:36
  like
• 47:36
  18
• 47:36
  months
• 47:36
  to
• 47:37
  rectify
• 47:38
  the
• 47:38
  mistake.
• 47:39
  Yeah,
• 47:40
  like
• 47:40
  she
• 47:40
  and
• 47:41
  I
• 47:41
  just
• 47:41
  got
• 47:41
  in
• 47:41
  a
• 47:41
  horrible
• 47:42
  fight.
• 47:42
  I
• 47:42
  had
• 47:42
  no
• 47:43
  resources,
• 47:44
  so
• 47:44
  I
• 47:44
  just
• 47:44
  drove
• 47:45
  up
• 47:45
  into
• 47:45
  the
• 47:45
  mountains.
• 47:45
  Like
• 47:45
  I
• 47:46
  took
• 47:46
  my
• 47:46
  tent,
• 47:46
  headed
• 47:47
  up
• 47:47
  into
• 47:47
  the
• 47:47
  mountains
• 47:47
  and
• 47:48
  I
• 47:48
  always
• 47:48
  liked
• 47:48
  being
• 47:48
  out
• 47:49
  outside
• 47:49
  before
• 47:50
  this,
• 47:50
  but
• 47:50
  I'd
• 47:50
  never
• 47:50
  really
• 47:51
  done
• 47:51
  much
• 47:52
  on
• 47:52
  my
• 47:52
  own.
• 47:53
  Got
• 47:53
  up
• 47:53
  in
• 47:53
  the
• 47:53
  mountains
• 47:55
  outside
• 47:55
  town
• 47:56
  and
• 47:56
  just
• 47:57
  started,
• 47:57
  started
• 47:58
  taking
• 47:58
  four
• 47:59
  service
• 47:59
  roads
• 48:01
  and,
• 48:02
  and
• 48:02
  my
• 48:02
  car
• 48:03
  at
• 48:03
  the
• 48:03
  time
• 48:03
  was
• 48:03
  not
• 48:03
  built
• 48:05
  for
• 48:05
  four
• 48:05
  service
• 48:06
  roads.
• 48:06
  I,
• 48:06
  I
• 48:06
  drove
• 48:07
  an
• 48:07
  86
• 48:08
  Honda
• 48:08
  Civic
• 48:08
  hatchback.
• 48:09
  A
• 48:10
  red
• 48:10
  one.
• 48:10
  A
• 48:10
  red
• 48:10
  one.
• 48:11
  And
• 48:12
  yeah,
• 48:12
  this
• 48:13
  thing's
• 48:13
  not,
• 48:13
  not
• 48:13
  built
• 48:14
  for,
• 48:14
  for
• 48:15
  off
• 48:15
  road
• 48:15
  travel,
• 48:17
  but
• 48:18
  I
• 48:18
  didn't
• 48:18
  care.
• 48:19
  So
• 48:19
  anyway,
• 48:19
  I
• 48:19
  just
• 48:20
  like,
• 48:20
  I,
• 48:21
  like
• 48:21
  I
• 48:21
  took
• 48:21
  it
• 48:22
  as
• 48:22
  far.
• 48:22
  I
• 48:23
  probably
• 48:23
  took
• 48:23
  it
• 48:23
  further
• 48:24
  than
• 48:24
  I
• 48:24
  felt
• 48:24
  comfortable
• 48:25
  taking
• 48:25
  it,
• 48:25
  but
• 48:25
  I
• 48:26
  didn't
• 48:26
  want
• 48:26
  to
• 48:26
  take
• 48:26
  it
• 48:26
  any
• 48:26
  further.
• 48:26
  Then
• 48:27
  I
• 48:27
  got
• 48:27
  out
• 48:27
  and
• 48:27
  just,
• 48:27
  I
• 48:28
  wasn't
• 48:28
  on
• 48:28
  trail
• 48:28
  or
• 48:28
  anything,
• 48:28
  just
• 48:29
  walked.
• 48:29
  I
• 48:29
  ended
• 48:30
  up
• 48:30
  on
• 48:30
  top
• 48:30
  of
• 48:31
  something.
• 48:31
  It
• 48:32
  was
• 48:32
  mountain
• 48:32
  and
• 48:33
  I
• 48:33
  wasn't
• 48:33
  even
• 48:33
  backpacking.
• 48:34
  Like
• 48:34
  I
• 48:34
  literally
• 48:35
  had
• 48:35
  like
• 48:35
  a
• 48:35
  grocery
• 48:36
  bag
• 48:36
  of
• 48:36
  food
• 48:37
  and
• 48:37
  my
• 48:38
  tent
• 48:39
  just
• 48:40
  like
• 48:40
  walking
• 48:40
  with
• 48:40
  them
• 48:41
  in
• 48:41
  my
• 48:41
  arms
• 48:42
  and
• 48:42
  my
• 48:42
  sleeping
• 48:43
  bag,
• 48:43
  you
• 48:43
  know,
• 48:43
  Like,
• 48:44
  I
• 48:44
  looked
• 48:44
  like
• 48:45
  a
• 48:45
  crazy
• 48:45
  person.
• 48:45
  I
• 48:45
  had
• 48:46
  no
• 48:46
  idea
• 48:46
  what
• 48:46
  I
• 48:46
  was
• 48:46
  doing.
• 48:49
  DIY
• 48:49
  camping.
• 48:50
  You
• 48:50
  know,
• 48:50
  I
• 48:51
  got
• 48:51
  up
• 48:51
  next
• 48:51
  to
• 48:51
  this
• 48:51
  like
• 48:51
  alpine
• 48:52
  lake
• 48:53
  set
• 48:53
  up.
• 48:53
  Dang.
• 48:54
  And
• 48:54
  was
• 48:55
  just
• 48:55
  there
• 48:55
  for
• 48:55
  like
• 48:55
  three
• 48:56
  days
• 48:56
  by
• 48:56
  myself.
• 48:57
  And
• 48:57
  I
• 48:57
  would
• 48:57
  just
• 48:57
  get
• 48:57
  up
• 48:58
  on
• 48:58
  this
• 48:58
  rock
• 48:58
  and
• 48:58
  overlook
• 48:59
  this
• 48:59
  lake
• 48:59
  and
• 48:59
  just
• 49:00
  spend
• 49:00
  all
• 49:00
  day
• 49:01
  there.
• 49:02
  And
• 49:02
  that
• 49:02
  was
• 49:02
  the
• 49:03
  first
• 49:03
  time,
• 49:03
  time
• 49:03
  I
• 49:03
  really
• 49:04
  felt
• 49:04
  like
• 49:05
  at
• 49:05
  peace
• 49:06
  and
• 49:06
  calm.
• 49:07
  And
• 49:08
  then
• 49:08
  it
• 49:08
  got
• 49:08
  to
• 49:08
  the
• 49:08
  point
• 49:08
  where
• 49:09
  I
• 49:09
  was
• 49:09
  like,
• 49:09
  ah,
• 49:09
  I'm
• 49:10
  out
• 49:10
  of
• 49:10
  food,
• 49:11
  and
• 49:13
  I
• 49:13
  need
• 49:13
  to
• 49:14
  go
• 49:14
  back.
• 49:14
  I
• 49:14
  don't
• 49:15
  know
• 49:15
  if
• 49:15
  I
• 49:15
  want
• 49:15
  to,
• 49:16
  but
• 49:16
  I
• 49:16
  did,
• 49:17
  like
• 49:17
  I
• 49:17
  said,
• 49:17
  18
• 49:18
  months
• 49:18
  later,
• 49:18
  rectified
• 49:19
  the
• 49:19
  situation.
• 49:20
  But
• 49:20
  still,
• 49:21
  you
• 49:21
  know,
• 49:21
  it
• 49:21
  was.
• 49:21
  It
• 49:21
  was.
• 49:22
  You
• 49:22
  know,
• 49:22
  I
• 49:22
  found
• 49:23
  something
• 49:23
  that
• 49:23
  finally
• 49:24
  helped
• 49:25
  quiet
• 49:25
  all
• 49:25
  of
• 49:26
  the
• 49:26
  craziness
• 49:27
  that
• 49:27
  was
• 49:27
  going
• 49:27
  on
• 49:27
  in
• 49:27
  my
• 49:28
  head.
• 49:28
  Right.
• 49:29
  And
• 49:29
  to
• 49:29
  make
• 49:29
  that
• 49:29
  just
• 49:29
  felt
• 49:30
  really
• 49:31
  awesome.
• 49:31
  But
• 49:32
  again,
• 49:32
  you
• 49:32
  can't
• 49:32
  do
• 49:32
  that
• 49:32
  all
• 49:33
  the
• 49:33
  time
• 49:33
  or.
• 49:33
  I
• 49:33
  can't
• 49:33
  do
• 49:33
  that
• 49:34
  all
• 49:34
  the
• 49:34
  time.
• 49:34
  I
• 49:34
  can't
• 49:35
  just
• 49:35
  take
• 49:36
  off,
• 49:36
  run
• 49:36
  away.
• 49:36
  With
• 49:37
  a
• 49:37
  bag
• 49:37
  of
• 49:37
  food.
• 49:38
  Right
• 49:38
  in
• 49:38
  the
• 49:39
  mountains.
• 49:39
  Right.
• 49:39
  So
• 49:40
  it
• 49:40
  is.
• 49:40
  So
• 49:40
  I
• 49:40
  think
• 49:40
  it
• 49:40
  is
• 49:40
  important
• 49:41
  to
• 49:41
  find
• 49:41
  these
• 49:41
  smaller
• 49:42
  things.
• 49:42
  It's
• 49:42
  like,
• 49:42
  okay,
• 49:43
  cool.
• 49:43
  What
• 49:43
  can
• 49:43
  I
• 49:43
  do
• 49:43
  for
• 49:44
  10
• 49:44
  minutes,
• 49:45
  20
• 49:45
  minutes?
• 49:45
  Just
• 49:45
  put
• 49:46
  my.
• 49:46
  My
• 49:47
  mind
• 49:48
  to
• 49:48
  recenter
• 49:49
  question.
• 49:50
  So
• 49:50
  back
• 49:50
  then,
• 49:51
  would
• 49:52
  you
• 49:52
  go
• 49:52
  out
• 49:53
  camping
• 49:54
  to
• 49:54
  just,
• 49:54
  like,
• 49:54
  chill
• 49:55
  after
• 49:55
  that?
• 49:56
  Like
• 49:57
  that
• 49:57
  same
• 49:57
  spot
• 49:57
  or
• 49:58
  different
• 49:58
  spots?
• 49:58
  I
• 49:59
  could
• 49:59
  never
• 49:59
  find
• 49:59
  that
• 50:00
  spot
• 50:00
  again.
• 50:01
  And
• 50:01
  I
• 50:01
  tried,
• 50:03
  but,
• 50:04
  yeah,
• 50:04
  yeah,
• 50:04
  I
• 50:05
  did.
• 50:05
  Like,
• 50:06
  whenever.
• 50:06
  Whenever
• 50:06
  I
• 50:06
  had
• 50:07
  some
• 50:07
  time,
• 50:07
  I
• 50:07
  would,
• 50:08
  like.
• 50:08
  I
• 50:08
  was
• 50:08
  never
• 50:08
  able
• 50:09
  to
• 50:09
  do
• 50:09
  it
• 50:09
  for
• 50:09
  that
• 50:10
  length
• 50:10
  of
• 50:11
  time
• 50:11
  again,
• 50:11
  you
• 50:11
  know,
• 50:12
  so
• 50:12
  a
• 50:12
  lot
• 50:12
  of
• 50:12
  times
• 50:12
  it
• 50:12
  was
• 50:12
  just
• 50:13
  like
• 50:13
  a
• 50:13
  night,
• 50:14
  you
• 50:14
  know,
• 50:14
  or
• 50:14
  even
• 50:14
  just
• 50:15
  like
• 50:15
  five
• 50:15
  or
• 50:15
  six
• 50:16
  hours,
• 50:17
  you
• 50:17
  know,
• 50:17
  just
• 50:17
  getting
• 50:18
  out
• 50:18
  away
• 50:19
  from
• 50:19
  everything.
• 50:19
  And,
• 50:19
  you
• 50:20
  know,
• 50:20
  and
• 50:20
  this
• 50:20
  was
• 50:20
  before
• 50:20
  cell
• 50:21
  phones
• 50:21
  and
• 50:21
  all
• 50:21
  that
• 50:21
  too.
• 50:22
  So
• 50:22
  it
• 50:22
  was
• 50:23
  just
• 50:23
  being
• 50:23
  able
• 50:23
  to
• 50:23
  get
• 50:23
  out
• 50:24
  and
• 50:24
  just
• 50:24
  completely
• 50:24
  disconnect
• 50:25
  it
• 50:25
  where,
• 50:25
  like,
• 50:25
  nobody.
• 50:27
  Nobody
• 50:27
  knew
• 50:27
  where
• 50:27
  I
• 50:28
  was.
• 50:28
  I
• 50:28
  didn't
• 50:28
  know
• 50:28
  where
• 50:28
  I
• 50:29
  was
• 50:29
  most
• 50:29
  of
• 50:29
  the
• 50:29
  time,
• 50:30
  you
• 50:30
  know,
• 50:30
  just
• 50:31
  to,
• 50:31
  you
• 50:32
  know,
• 50:32
  put
• 50:32
  some
• 50:32
  silence
• 50:33
  and
• 50:33
  peace
• 50:33
  into.
• 50:34
  Into
• 50:34
  my
• 50:34
  life
• 50:35
  and
• 50:36
  just
• 50:36
  to,
• 50:36
  you
• 50:36
  know,
• 50:37
  get.
• 50:37
  Get
• 50:37
  center.
• 50:38
  Mm,
• 50:39
  nice.
• 50:40
  And
• 50:40
  then
• 50:40
  do.
• 50:41
  Well,
• 50:42
  you've
• 50:42
  always
• 50:42
  kind
• 50:43
  of
• 50:43
  been
• 50:43
  outdoorsy
• 50:43
  since
• 50:43
  then.
• 50:44
  Do
• 50:45
  you
• 50:45
  get
• 50:45
  out
• 50:45
  now?
• 50:46
  Well,
• 50:46
  you
• 50:46
  guys
• 50:46
  go
• 50:47
  camping
• 50:47
  and
• 50:48
  rafting
• 50:48
  and.
• 50:49
  Yeah,
• 50:49
  like,
• 50:50
  I
• 50:50
  really
• 50:50
  haven't
• 50:50
  been
• 50:50
  out
• 50:50
  much,
• 50:51
  much
• 50:52
  in
• 50:52
  the
• 50:52
  past.
• 50:53
  Like,
• 50:53
  this
• 50:53
  last
• 50:53
  year
• 50:54
  has
• 50:54
  just
• 50:54
  been
• 50:54
  sort
• 50:55
  of
• 50:55
  rough
• 50:55
  because
• 50:55
  I,
• 50:55
  you
• 50:55
  know,
• 50:57
  shut
• 50:57
  down
• 50:57
  my
• 50:57
  farm,
• 50:58
  started
• 50:58
  a
• 50:58
  new
• 50:58
  thing.
• 50:59
  It
• 50:59
  was
• 50:59
  like
• 51:00
  this
• 51:00
  last
• 51:00
  year,
• 51:00
  didn't
• 51:01
  really
• 51:01
  do
• 51:01
  much,
• 51:01
  but,
• 51:02
  like,
• 51:02
  today
• 51:03
  started
• 51:04
  planning
• 51:04
  a
• 51:04
  rafting
• 51:05
  adventure
• 51:05
  for
• 51:05
  next
• 51:06
  year.
• 51:06
  So,
• 51:07
  you
• 51:07
  know,
• 51:07
  so
• 51:07
  it's
• 51:07
  that
• 51:08
  anticipation
• 51:08
  of
• 51:08
  getting
• 51:09
  back
• 51:09
  out
• 51:10
  on
• 51:10
  a
• 51:10
  river.
• 51:11
  How's
• 51:11
  yours
• 51:11
  look?
• 51:12
  Beautiful.
• 51:13
  I
• 51:14
  love
• 51:14
  it.
• 51:14
  Okay,
• 51:15
  one
• 51:15
  last
• 51:16
  coloring.
• 51:17
  So
• 51:17
  each
• 51:18
  of
• 51:18
  these
• 51:18
  squares
• 51:19
  flaps
• 51:20
  is
• 51:20
  just
• 51:21
  like,
• 51:21
  one
• 51:21
  color.
• 51:21
  Okay.
• 51:23
  So
• 51:23
  you
• 51:23
  can
• 51:23
  make
• 51:23
  it.
• 51:24
  I
• 51:25
  like
• 51:25
  to
• 51:25
  put
• 51:25
  shapes
• 51:25
  on
• 51:26
  mine.
• 51:26
  Okay.
• 51:27
  You
• 51:27
  can
• 51:27
  also
• 51:28
  just
• 51:28
  make
• 51:28
  it
• 51:29
  a
• 51:29
  color,
• 51:30
  because
• 51:30
  the
• 51:30
  first
• 51:30
  step
• 51:30
  with
• 51:31
  the
• 51:31
  cootie
• 51:31
  catcher
• 51:32
  is
• 51:32
  you
• 51:32
  pick
• 51:33
  one
• 51:33
  of
• 51:33
  these
• 51:33
  four
• 51:33
  colors
• 51:35
  and
• 51:35
  you
• 51:35
  spell
• 51:36
  it.
• 51:36
  Okay.
• 51:37
  But
• 51:38
  I
• 51:38
  like
• 51:38
  to
• 51:38
  spell
• 51:38
  the
• 51:38
  shape,
• 51:39
  not
• 51:39
  the
• 51:39
  color.
• 51:40
  Gotcha.
• 51:40
  Because
• 51:41
  I
• 51:41
  don't
• 51:41
  like
• 51:41
  to
• 51:41
  follow
• 51:41
  the
• 51:42
  rules,
• 51:42
  as
• 51:42
  we've
• 51:42
  established
• 51:43
  earlier.
• 51:44
  Fair
• 51:44
  enough.
• 51:44
  But
• 51:46
  it
• 51:46
  gives
• 51:46
  you
• 51:46
  a
• 51:46
  starting
• 51:47
  point.
• 51:48
  So
• 51:48
  in
• 51:48
  some
• 51:49
  way,
• 51:50
  the
• 51:50
  four
• 51:50
  different
• 51:50
  sections
• 51:52
  need
• 51:52
  to
• 51:52
  be
• 51:53
  discernible.
• 51:54
  Right.
• 51:55
  So
• 51:55
  I
• 51:55
  got
• 51:56
  my
• 51:56
  Spotify
• 51:58
  unwrapped,
• 51:59
  and
• 52:00
  it
• 52:00
  made
• 52:00
  me
• 52:00
  realize
• 52:00
  that
• 52:00
  I
• 52:01
  did
• 52:01
  kind
• 52:01
  of
• 52:01
  have
• 52:01
  a
• 52:01
  hard
• 52:02
  time
• 52:02
  this
• 52:02
  year
• 52:03
  because
• 52:03
  I
• 52:03
  have
• 52:03
  this
• 52:04
  playlist
• 52:04
  that
• 52:05
  has
• 52:06
  just,
• 52:06
  like,
• 52:08
  songs
• 52:08
  that
• 52:09
  make
• 52:09
  me
• 52:09
  happy,
• 52:10
  random
• 52:10
  songs
• 52:10
  that
• 52:10
  make
• 52:10
  me
• 52:11
  happy.
• 52:11
  It
• 52:11
  changes,
• 52:11
  like,
• 52:12
  every
• 52:12
  year.
• 52:13
  And
• 52:13
  my
• 52:13
  number
• 52:14
  one
• 52:14
  song
• 52:14
  this
• 52:14
  year
• 52:14
  was
• 52:15
  on
• 52:15
  that
• 52:15
  playlist,
• 52:16
  and
• 52:17
  it
• 52:17
  was
• 52:17
  Waffle
• 52:18
  House
• 52:18
  by
• 52:18
  Jonas
• 52:19
  Brothers.
• 52:20
  Nice.
• 52:21
  I
• 52:22
  was
• 52:22
  like,
• 52:22
  wow,
• 52:23
  how
• 52:23
  many
• 52:23
  times
• 52:25
  did
• 52:25
  I
• 52:25
  listen
• 52:25
  to
• 52:25
  that
• 52:26
  song?
• 52:27
  Did
• 52:27
  you
• 52:27
  watch
• 52:27
  the,
• 52:28
  did
• 52:28
  you
• 52:28
  watch
• 52:29
  the
• 52:29
  Jonas
• 52:29
  Brothers
• 52:30
  Christmas
• 52:30
  special?
• 52:31
  You
• 52:31
  know,
• 52:32
  I
• 52:32
  don't
• 52:32
  listen
• 52:33
  to
• 52:33
  the
• 52:33
  Jonas
• 52:34
  Brothers
• 52:34
  other
• 52:34
  than
• 52:34
  that
• 52:35
  one
• 52:35
  song.
• 52:35
  I
• 52:36
  heard
• 52:36
  it
• 52:36
  randomly
• 52:37
  one
• 52:37
  time
• 52:37
  and
• 52:38
  I
• 52:38
  was
• 52:38
  like,
• 52:38
  this
• 52:38
  is,
• 52:38
  is
• 52:39
  a
• 52:39
  fun
• 52:39
  song.
• 52:40
  And
• 52:41
  I
• 52:41
  put
• 52:41
  it
• 52:41
  on
• 52:41
  the
• 52:41
  list
• 52:42
  and
• 52:42
  I
• 52:42
  guess
• 52:42
  it
• 52:42
  was
• 52:42
  my
• 52:43
  favorite
• 52:43
  song
• 52:43
  this
• 52:43
  year.
• 52:43
  Cool.
• 52:44
  That
• 52:45
  William
• 52:46
  Shatner,
• 52:47
  Joe
• 52:47
  Jackson,
• 52:48
  that
• 52:48
  song
• 52:48
  is
• 52:49
  spectacular.
• 52:49
  Yeah,
• 52:49
  that's
• 52:50
  on
• 52:50
  that
• 52:50
  list,
• 52:50
  too.
• 52:51
  What
• 52:51
  is
• 52:52
  not
• 52:52
  spectacular?
• 52:53
  So
• 52:53
  William
• 52:54
  Shatner
• 52:54
  has
• 52:54
  a
• 52:54
  Christmas
• 52:55
  album,
• 52:57
  and
• 52:57
  on
• 52:58
  this
• 52:58
  Christmas
• 52:58
  album
• 52:59
  he
• 52:59
  has,
• 52:59
  he
• 52:59
  has,
• 52:59
  he
• 53:00
  has,
• 53:00
  he
• 53:00
  has
• 53:00
  guests
• 53:01
  come
• 53:01
  in
• 53:01
  to
• 53:01
  help
• 53:01
  him
• 53:02
  with
• 53:02
  these,
• 53:02
  these
• 53:03
  songs.
• 53:03
  Guests
• 53:04
  like
• 53:04
  Henry
• 53:05
  Rollins
• 53:06
  and.
• 53:07
  Oh,
• 53:08
  yeah,
• 53:08
  yeah,
• 53:08
  yeah.
• 53:09
  I,
• 53:10
  I
• 53:10
  think
• 53:10
  I,
• 53:11
  I
• 53:11
  think
• 53:11
  I
• 53:11
  listened
• 53:12
  to
• 53:12
  it
• 53:12
  a
• 53:12
  while
• 53:12
  ago
• 53:13
  and
• 53:13
  it's
• 53:13
  horrible.
• 53:14
  Like,
• 53:14
  it
• 53:14
  is.
• 53:15
  He,
• 53:16
  he
• 53:16
  does
• 53:16
  a
• 53:16
  rendition
• 53:17
  of
• 53:17
  Feliz
• 53:17
  Navidad
• 53:18
  where,
• 53:19
  where
• 53:19
  he
• 53:19
  is
• 53:20
  singing
• 53:20
  all
• 53:20
  the
• 53:20
  Spanish
• 53:21
  parts.
• 53:22
  Like
• 53:22
  spoken
• 53:22
  word,
• 53:23
  Shatner
• 53:23
  style.
• 53:24
  Yeah.
• 53:25
  But
• 53:25
  he's
• 53:25
  trying
• 53:25
  to
• 53:25
  sing.
• 53:26
  Okay.
• 53:27
  And
• 53:27
  then,
• 53:28
  and
• 53:28
  then
• 53:28
  he
• 53:29
  has
• 53:29
  somebody
• 53:29
  else
• 53:29
  come
• 53:29
  in
• 53:30
  and
• 53:30
  sing.
• 53:30
  Sing.
• 53:31
  Sing
• 53:31
  the
• 53:31
  English
• 53:32
  parts.
• 53:32
  Except.
• 53:33
  And
• 53:33
  I,
• 53:33
  I
• 53:33
  don't
• 53:34
  know
• 53:34
  who
• 53:34
  the
• 53:34
  person
• 53:34
  is
• 53:34
  exactly
• 53:35
  who
• 53:35
  sings
• 53:35
  the
• 53:35
  English
• 53:36
  parts,
• 53:36
  but
• 53:37
  they
• 53:37
  definitely
• 53:37
  have
• 53:37
  an
• 53:37
  accent.
• 53:39
  And,
• 53:40
  and
• 53:40
  so
• 53:40
  it's,
• 53:40
  it's
• 53:41
  this
• 53:41
  obviously
• 53:42
  not
• 53:42
  Spanish
• 53:43
  speaking
• 53:43
  white
• 53:44
  dude
• 53:45
  speaking
• 53:46
  the
• 53:46
  Spanish,
• 53:46
  speaking
• 53:46
  of
• 53:47
  the
• 53:47
  Spanish
• 53:47
  parts.
• 53:48
  And
• 53:48
  it's.
• 53:49
  It's
• 53:49
  worth
• 53:49
  a
• 53:50
  listen
• 53:50
  maybe
• 53:50
  once
• 53:50
  or
• 53:51
  twice.
• 53:51
  Probably
• 53:52
  not
• 53:52
  more
• 53:52
  than
• 53:52
  that.
• 53:53
  I
• 53:53
  listen
• 53:54
  to
• 53:54
  the
• 53:54
  entire
• 53:54
  album
• 53:54
  because
• 53:54
  that's,
• 53:55
  that's
• 53:55
  what
• 53:55
  I
• 53:55
  do.
• 53:58
  Well,
• 53:58
  I
• 53:58
  listened
• 53:59
  to
• 53:59
  the
• 53:59
  rest
• 53:59
  of
• 53:59
  that
• 54:00
  album
• 54:00
  that
• 54:00
  the
• 54:01
  Pulp
• 54:01
  cover
• 54:01
  was
• 54:01
  on.
• 54:02
  I
• 54:02
  don't
• 54:02
  know.
• 54:03
  I
• 54:03
  wasn't
• 54:03
  stoked
• 54:03
  on
• 54:04
  the
• 54:04
  rest
• 54:04
  of
• 54:04
  it.
• 54:04
  Yeah,
• 54:05
  I
• 54:05
  wasn't
• 54:05
  really
• 54:05
  stoked
• 54:05
  on
• 54:05
  the
• 54:06
  rest
• 54:06
  of
• 54:06
  that
• 54:06
  one
• 54:06
  either.
• 54:06
  What's
• 54:07
  a
• 54:07
  happy
• 54:07
  song
• 54:07
  that
• 54:08
  you
• 54:08
  listen
• 54:08
  to
• 54:08
  when
• 54:09
  you're
• 54:09
  blue,
• 54:09
  Joe,
• 54:09
  or.
• 54:10
  I
• 54:10
  don't
• 54:10
  know
• 54:10
  why
• 54:10
  it
• 54:10
  just
• 54:10
  calls
• 54:11
  you
• 54:11
  Joe.
• 54:13
  Just
• 54:14
  my
• 54:14
  dog.
• 54:14
  Just
• 54:15
  like
• 54:15
  Heaven
• 54:15
  by
• 54:16
  the
• 54:16
  Cure.
• 54:17
  But
• 54:17
  I
• 54:17
  really
• 54:18
  like.
• 54:18
  And
• 54:18
  that's,
• 54:19
  that's
• 54:19
  the
• 54:19
  superior
• 54:20
  version.
• 54:21
  Like
• 54:21
  any
• 54:21
  version
• 54:21
  of
• 54:22
  it
• 54:22
  they
• 54:22
  do
• 54:22
  is
• 54:22
  the
• 54:23
  superior
• 54:23
  version.
• 54:24
  But
• 54:24
  I
• 54:24
  really
• 54:25
  enjoy
• 54:25
  the
• 54:26
  Dinosaur
• 54:26
  junior
• 54:27
  Cover
• 54:27
  of
• 54:27
  that
• 54:28
  song.
• 54:29
  Oh,
• 54:30
  it's
• 54:31
  just
• 54:31
  edgier.
• 54:31
  And
• 54:32
  it's
• 54:32
  Dinosaur
• 54:32
  junior
• 54:33
  Right?
• 54:34
  Yeah.
• 54:34
  You
• 54:34
  know,
• 54:34
  J
• 54:34
  Maskus
• 54:35
  and
• 54:35
  all
• 54:35
  that.
• 54:35
  But
• 54:36
  it.
• 54:36
  I
• 54:37
  just
• 54:37
  really.
• 54:37
  Yeah,
• 54:38
  that
• 54:38
  one.
• 54:38
  Okay.
• 54:39
  Or
• 54:40
  Trooper
• 54:41
  by
• 54:41
  Iron
• 54:41
  Maiden.
• 54:43
  Sweet.
• 54:44
  All
• 54:44
  right.
• 54:46
  That
• 54:46
  song
• 54:47
  gets
• 54:47
  me.
• 54:47
  Gets
• 54:47
  me
• 54:48
  pumped.
• 54:48
  Oh,
• 54:49
  or
• 54:50
  another
• 54:50
  one
• 54:51
  just
• 54:51
  sort
• 54:51
  of
• 54:51
  out
• 54:52
  of
• 54:52
  left
• 54:52
  field
• 54:52
  is.
• 54:53
  What's
• 54:53
  that
• 54:53
  song
• 54:53
  by
• 54:54
  Ti.
• 54:54
  And
• 54:54
  Rihanna?
• 54:56
  Is
• 54:56
  it?
• 55:00
  No,
• 55:01
  no,
• 55:01
  that
• 55:02
  was
• 55:02
  in
• 55:02
  Tia.
• 55:02
  I
• 55:02
  don't.
• 55:03
  I
• 55:03
  don't
• 55:03
  know.
• 55:03
  So
• 55:04
  there's
• 55:04
  this,
• 55:05
  like,
• 55:05
  a
• 55:05
  kids
• 55:05
  movie
• 55:06
  came
• 55:06
  out
• 55:06
  a
• 55:06
  couple
• 55:07
  years
• 55:07
  ago,
• 55:07
  and
• 55:08
  it
• 55:08
  was
• 55:08
  about
• 55:08
  this.
• 55:08
  This
• 55:09
  girl
• 55:09
  who's.
• 55:10
  Who's
• 55:10
  going.
• 55:11
  She,
• 55:11
  like.
• 55:11
  She
• 55:12
  makes
• 55:12
  films
• 55:12
  and
• 55:12
  she's
• 55:13
  going
• 55:13
  to
• 55:13
  college,
• 55:14
  and
• 55:14
  she
• 55:15
  and
• 55:15
  her
• 55:15
  dad
• 55:15
  just
• 55:16
  really
• 55:16
  live
• 55:17
  your
• 55:17
  life.
• 55:17
  The
• 55:17
  song's
• 55:17
  called
• 55:18
  Live
• 55:18
  youe
• 55:18
  Life.
• 55:19
  Oh,
• 55:20
  yeah,
• 55:21
  yeah.
• 55:21
  And.
• 55:22
  And
• 55:22
  she.
• 55:22
  And
• 55:22
  I
• 55:23
  just
• 55:23
  really
• 55:23
  don't
• 55:23
  see
• 55:23
  eye
• 55:23
  to
• 55:24
  eye.
• 55:24
  Her
• 55:25
  dad's
• 55:25
  more
• 55:25
  of,
• 55:25
  like,
• 55:25
  a
• 55:25
  woodsy
• 55:26
  guy,
• 55:26
  and
• 55:26
  she's
• 55:27
  obviously,
• 55:27
  like,
• 55:28
  artist,
• 55:28
  filmmaker
• 55:29
  thing.
• 55:30
  The
• 55:30
  whole
• 55:30
  movie
• 55:31
  has
• 55:31
  a
• 55:31
  really
• 55:31
  good
• 55:31
  soundtrack.
• 55:32
  Regardless.
• 55:32
  It's
• 55:33
  this
• 55:33
  crazy
• 55:34
  family
• 55:34
  that
• 55:34
  doesn't
• 55:35
  function
• 55:35
  at
• 55:35
  all.
• 55:36
  And
• 55:36
  then,
• 55:37
  like,
• 55:37
  robots
• 55:38
  end
• 55:38
  up
• 55:38
  taking.
• 55:38
  Over
• 55:39
  the
• 55:39
  world.
• 55:41
  And
• 55:41
  then
• 55:41
  she
• 55:41
  and
• 55:41
  her
• 55:42
  dad
• 55:42
  end
• 55:42
  up.
• 55:42
  Well.
• 55:43
  And
• 55:43
  the
• 55:43
  rest
• 55:43
  of
• 55:43
  the
• 55:43
  family.
• 55:43
  But
• 55:44
  it's
• 55:44
  really
• 55:44
  like,
• 55:44
  she
• 55:44
  and
• 55:44
  her
• 55:45
  dad,
• 55:45
  like,
• 55:45
  have
• 55:45
  this
• 55:45
  bonding
• 55:46
  moment
• 55:46
  and
• 55:47
  they're
• 55:47
  killing
• 55:47
  robots,
• 55:48
  like,
• 55:48
  to
• 55:48
  this
• 55:48
  song.
• 55:50
  Perfect.
• 55:51
  It's
• 55:51
  perfect.
• 55:52
  Yeah.
• 55:52
  But
• 55:52
  anyway,
• 55:53
  regardless.
• 55:54
  Yeah,
• 55:54
  those
• 55:54
  three
• 55:54
  songs,
• 55:55
  like,
• 55:55
  always
• 55:56
  get
• 55:56
  me
• 55:56
  sort
• 55:56
  of
• 55:56
  pumped.
• 55:57
  So
• 55:57
  I
• 55:57
  did
• 55:58
  sort
• 55:58
  of
• 55:58
  like
• 55:58
  a.
• 55:59
  Like
• 55:59
  a
• 55:59
  whirlpool
• 56:00
  and
• 56:00
  swirls
• 56:01
  and,
• 56:01
  like,
• 56:02
  squares
• 56:02
  and
• 56:02
  circles.
• 56:04
  Oh,
• 56:05
  here,
• 56:05
  show
• 56:06
  yours.
• 56:06
  I'm
• 56:06
  going
• 56:06
  to
• 56:06
  take
• 56:06
  a
• 56:06
  picture.
• 56:08
  Okay.
• 56:08
  And
• 56:09
  then
• 56:09
  I'll
• 56:09
  put
• 56:09
  this
• 56:09
  picture
• 56:10
  on
• 56:10
  my
• 56:11
  social
• 56:11
  media
• 56:11
  pages
• 56:12
  so.
• 56:12
  So
• 56:12
  everybody
• 56:12
  can
• 56:13
  see
• 56:13
  what
• 56:13
  we're
• 56:13
  talking
• 56:13
  about.
• 56:16
  Well,
• 56:16
  now
• 56:17
  we
• 56:17
  have
• 56:17
  dessert.
• 56:18
  Yeah.
• 56:19
  It
• 56:19
  took
• 56:19
  us
• 56:19
  a
• 56:19
  while
• 56:19
  to
• 56:20
  do
• 56:20
  this
• 56:20
  because
• 56:21
  we're
• 56:21
  talking.
• 56:23
  You
• 56:23
  know,
• 56:23
  I.
• 56:23
  Highly
• 56:24
  encourage
• 56:24
  yourself
• 56:25
  to
• 56:25
  touch
• 56:25
  yourself
• 56:26
  while
• 56:26
  you're
• 56:26
  doing
• 56:26
  this
• 56:26
  and
• 56:26
  be
• 56:27
  your
• 56:27
  own
• 56:27
  friend.
• 56:28
  But
• 56:28
  you
• 56:29
  know
• 56:29
  that
• 56:30
  it
• 56:30
  does
• 56:30
  only
• 56:30
  take
• 56:31
  a
• 56:31
  couple
• 56:31
  minutes,
• 56:32
  right?
• 56:33
  Yeah.
• 56:33
  Okay,
• 56:34
  so
• 56:34
  now
• 56:35
  this
• 56:35
  is
• 56:35
  how
• 56:36
  we
• 56:36
  decide
• 56:37
  what
• 56:37
  chores
• 56:38
  and
• 56:38
  what
• 56:38
  fun
• 56:38
  stuff
• 56:38
  we're
• 56:39
  doing
• 56:39
  today.
• 56:39
  Okay,
• 56:40
  so
• 56:41
  I'm
• 56:42
  gonna
• 56:42
  pick
• 56:43
  heart.
• 56:43
  Okay.
• 56:44
  I'm
• 56:45
  gonna
• 56:45
  pick
• 56:46
  swirl.
• 56:47
  Okay.
• 56:48
  So
• 56:48
  you
• 56:49
  can
• 56:49
  either
• 56:49
  spell
• 56:51
  the
• 56:51
  color
• 56:51
  or
• 56:52
  the
• 56:52
  swirl.
• 56:53
  I'm
• 56:53
  gonna
• 56:53
  spell
• 56:53
  heart.
• 56:54
  But
• 56:54
  it's
• 56:54
  gonna
• 56:55
  go
• 56:55
  like
• 56:55
  this.
• 56:55
  H,
• 56:56
  E,
• 56:58
  A,
• 56:59
  R,
• 56:59
  T.
• 57:00
  Okay.
• 57:01
  And
• 57:01
  then
• 57:02
  I'm
• 57:02
  gonna
• 57:02
  look,
• 57:02
  and
• 57:02
  I'm
• 57:02
  just
• 57:03
  gonna
• 57:03
  pick
• 57:03
  a
• 57:03
  number.
• 57:03
  Gotcha.
• 57:04
  I'm
• 57:04
  gonna
• 57:04
  pick
• 57:05
  six.
• 57:05
  I'm
• 57:06
  gonna
• 57:06
  go
• 57:06
  1,
• 57:07
  2,
• 57:07
  3,
• 57:08
  4,
• 57:08
  5,
• 57:09
  6.
• 57:10
  And
• 57:11
  then
• 57:11
  I'm
• 57:11
  gonna
• 57:11
  look
• 57:11
  here.
• 57:12
  I'm
• 57:12
  gonna
• 57:13
  pick
• 57:13
  six
• 57:13
  again.
• 57:13
  And
• 57:13
  this
• 57:14
  is
• 57:14
  gonna
• 57:14
  be.
• 57:14
  And
• 57:15
  then
• 57:15
  I'm
• 57:15
  gonna
• 57:15
  flip
• 57:15
  the
• 57:15
  flap
• 57:16
  and
• 57:16
  I'm
• 57:17
  gonna
• 57:17
  do
• 57:17
  my
• 57:17
  chunk
• 57:17
  chore.
• 57:18
  I
• 57:19
  got
• 57:19
  play.
• 57:20
  Yes.
• 57:23
  I
• 57:24
  love
• 57:24
  that.
• 57:24
  That
• 57:24
  was.
• 57:27
  Yeah.
• 57:28
  So
• 57:28
  then
• 57:28
  the
• 57:29
  next
• 57:29
  time
• 57:29
  around,
• 57:30
  I
• 57:30
  do
• 57:30
  this
• 57:31
  again,
• 57:31
  pick
• 57:32
  the
• 57:32
  next
• 57:32
  thing
• 57:33
  until
• 57:33
  I'm
• 57:33
  done.
• 57:33
  Gotcha.
• 57:34
  Okay.
• 57:35
  You
• 57:35
  can,
• 57:36
  you
• 57:37
  know,
• 57:37
  there'll
• 57:37
  be
• 57:37
  times
• 57:38
  when
• 57:38
  you
• 57:39
  have,
• 57:39
  like,
• 57:39
  all
• 57:39
  your
• 57:39
  chores
• 57:40
  first
• 57:40
  or
• 57:41
  maybe
• 57:41
  all
• 57:41
  your
• 57:41
  fun
• 57:41
  stuff
• 57:42
  first,
• 57:44
  and
• 57:44
  you
• 57:44
  can
• 57:44
  change
• 57:44
  the
• 57:44
  rules,
• 57:45
  make
• 57:45
  it
• 57:45
  your
• 57:46
  own.
• 57:46
  Gotcha.
• 57:46
  You
• 57:47
  know,
• 57:47
  but
• 57:48
  it's
• 57:48
  just
• 57:48
  a
• 57:48
  good,
• 57:48
  fun
• 57:48
  way
• 57:49
  to,
• 57:49
  like,
• 57:50
  do
• 57:50
  something
• 57:51
  fun
• 57:51
  to
• 57:52
  sort
• 57:52
  of
• 57:52
  get
• 57:52
  your
• 57:53
  mind
• 57:53
  off
• 57:53
  the
• 57:53
  overwhelm
• 57:54
  of
• 57:54
  the
• 57:54
  things
• 57:55
  that
• 57:55
  you're
• 57:55
  going
• 57:55
  to
• 57:55
  do
• 57:55
  that
• 57:55
  day.
• 57:55
  Yeah.
• 57:56
  Made
• 57:57
  yourself
• 57:57
  a
• 57:57
  present.
• 57:58
  Awesome.
• 57:58
  Well,
• 57:58
  thank
• 57:58
  you.
• 57:59
  Thank
• 57:59
  you.
• 57:59
  I'll
• 58:00
  do
• 58:00
  that.
• 58:00
  Or
• 58:01
  you
• 58:01
  can
• 58:01
  watch
• 58:01
  Murder
• 58:01
  She
• 58:01
  Wrote.
• 58:02
  Yeah,
• 58:02
  you
• 58:02
  can
• 58:02
  watch
• 58:03
  Murder
• 58:03
  She
• 58:03
  Wrote.
• 58:04
  Okay,
• 58:04
  cool.
• 58:04
  We've
• 58:05
  been
• 58:05
  going
• 58:05
  for
• 58:05
  a
• 58:05
  while
• 58:05
  and
• 58:06
  I
• 58:06
  appreciate
• 58:06
  it.
• 58:07
  Yeah,
• 58:07
  sorry
• 58:07
  I
• 58:08
  always
• 58:08
  keep
• 58:08
  you
• 58:08
  too
• 58:08
  long.
• 58:08
  Oh,
• 58:08
  no,
• 58:09
  no,
• 58:09
  it's
• 58:09
  fine.
• 58:09
  But
• 58:09
  let's
• 58:10
  wrap
• 58:10
  it
• 58:10
  up.
• 58:10
  So,
• 58:10
  couple.
• 58:11
  Couple
• 58:11
  questions
• 58:12
  left.
• 58:12
  One,
• 58:13
  what
• 58:13
  are
• 58:13
  you
• 58:13
  listening
• 58:13
  to?
• 58:14
  What
• 58:14
  should
• 58:14
  people
• 58:14
  be
• 58:14
  listening
• 58:15
  to?
• 58:16
  Again?
• 58:16
  We're
• 58:16
  recording
• 58:17
  this
• 58:17
  on
• 58:18
  December
• 58:18
  13th
• 58:19
  and
• 58:19
  I
• 58:19
  have
• 58:19
  an
• 58:19
  audience.
• 58:20
  Unhealthy
• 58:20
  obsession
• 58:21
  with
• 58:21
  Christmas
• 58:22
  music.
• 58:22
  Yes.
• 58:23
  So
• 58:24
  I've
• 58:24
  been
• 58:24
  listening
• 58:24
  to,
• 58:25
  as
• 58:25
  I
• 58:25
  talked
• 58:25
  about
• 58:26
  just
• 58:26
  a
• 58:26
  couple
• 58:26
  minutes
• 58:26
  ago,
• 58:27
  William
• 58:28
  Shatner's
• 58:28
  Christmas
• 58:29
  album.
• 58:29
  But
• 58:29
  that
• 58:29
  one
• 58:29
  has
• 58:30
  come
• 58:30
  to
• 58:30
  an
• 58:30
  end.
• 58:30
  I've
• 58:30
  done
• 58:30
  it,
• 58:31
  We've
• 58:31
  gotten
• 58:31
  through
• 58:31
  it.
• 58:33
  I
• 58:33
  recommend
• 58:34
  people
• 58:34
  listening
• 58:34
  to
• 58:34
  it
• 58:35
  once
• 58:35
  and
• 58:35
  that's
• 58:35
  really
• 58:35
  all
• 58:36
  you
• 58:36
  need
• 58:36
  to
• 58:36
  listen
• 58:36
  to
• 58:36
  it.
• 58:37
  Bob
• 58:38
  Dylan
• 58:38
  also
• 58:38
  has
• 58:38
  a
• 58:39
  Christmas
• 58:39
  album.
• 58:40
  Again,
• 58:40
  you
• 58:40
  probably
• 58:40
  need
• 58:40
  to
• 58:41
  hear
• 58:41
  it
• 58:41
  once,
• 58:42
  maybe
• 58:42
  twice,
• 58:43
  not
• 58:43
  much
• 58:43
  more
• 58:43
  than
• 58:44
  that.
• 58:45
  But
• 58:45
  then
• 58:46
  the
• 58:46
  other
• 58:46
  two
• 58:47
  is.
• 58:48
  Which
• 58:49
  probably
• 58:49
  deserve
• 58:50
  more
• 58:50
  than
• 58:50
  one
• 58:50
  or
• 58:50
  two
• 58:50
  listens.
• 58:51
  And
• 58:51
  it
• 58:51
  really
• 58:51
  depends
• 58:51
  on
• 58:52
  what
• 58:52
  mood
• 58:52
  you're
• 58:52
  in.
• 58:52
  If
• 58:52
  you're
• 58:53
  in,
• 58:53
  like,
• 58:53
  sort
• 58:53
  of
• 58:53
  an
• 58:53
  upbeat,
• 58:54
  positive,
• 58:55
  like,
• 58:56
  making
• 58:57
  dinner,
• 58:58
  like,
• 58:58
  getting
• 58:58
  stuff
• 58:59
  done.
• 59:00
  John
• 59:00
  Prime's
• 59:01
  Christmas
• 59:01
  stuff.
• 59:02
  Oh,
• 59:03
  yes,
• 59:03
  we
• 59:03
  have
• 59:04
  that
• 59:04
  too.
• 59:04
  That's
• 59:04
  on
• 59:05
  our
• 59:05
  Christmas.
• 59:06
  But,
• 59:06
  like,
• 59:06
  he
• 59:06
  has.
• 59:07
  I
• 59:07
  don't
• 59:07
  know
• 59:07
  if
• 59:07
  he
• 59:08
  has
• 59:08
  a
• 59:08
  Christmas
• 59:08
  album
• 59:08
  or
• 59:09
  it's
• 59:09
  just
• 59:09
  like
• 59:09
  a
• 59:09
  Christmas
• 59:10
  John
• 59:11
  Prince
• 59:11
  trying
• 59:11
  playlist.
• 59:12
  But
• 59:12
  regardless,
• 59:13
  it's
• 59:14
  worth
• 59:14
  a
• 59:14
  listen.
• 59:15
  And
• 59:15
  if
• 59:16
  you're
• 59:16
  in
• 59:16
  more,
• 59:16
  like,
• 59:16
  relaxed,
• 59:17
  chill
• 59:17
  mood,
• 59:18
  like
• 59:18
  you
• 59:18
  just
• 59:18
  want
• 59:18
  to,
• 59:19
  you
• 59:20
  know,
• 59:20
  sit
• 59:20
  on
• 59:20
  the
• 59:20
  porch
• 59:20
  and
• 59:20
  drink
• 59:21
  some
• 59:21
  hot
• 59:21
  tea,
• 59:21
  or
• 59:22
  you're
• 59:22
  just,
• 59:22
  like,
• 59:22
  winding
• 59:23
  down
• 59:23
  at
• 59:23
  the
• 59:23
  end
• 59:23
  of
• 59:24
  the
• 59:24
  day,
• 59:24
  or
• 59:25
  you
• 59:25
  just
• 59:25
  need
• 59:26
  some
• 59:26
  calm
• 59:26
  and
• 59:26
  centeredness.
• 59:28
  Enya's
• 59:29
  Christmas
• 59:29
  album.
• 59:32
  Her
• 59:32
  version
• 59:33
  of
• 59:33
  Emmanuel.
• 59:34
  Oh,
• 59:35
  Spectacular.
• 59:36
  Oh,
• 59:37
  I
• 59:37
  bet.
• 59:37
  Spectacular.
• 59:38
  So
• 59:38
  that's
• 59:38
  what
• 59:38
  I'm
• 59:38
  listening
• 59:38
  to
• 59:39
  right
• 59:39
  now.
• 59:39
  What
• 59:39
  people
• 59:40
  should
• 59:40
  be
• 59:40
  listening
• 59:40
  to
• 59:41
  is
• 59:41
  so
• 59:41
  my
• 59:42
  buddies
• 59:42
  have
• 59:42
  this
• 59:42
  band.
• 59:43
  I
• 59:43
  Went
• 59:43
  to
• 59:43
  high
• 59:43
  school
• 59:44
  with
• 59:44
  them.
• 59:44
  They've
• 59:44
  had
• 59:45
  this
• 59:45
  band
• 59:45
  since,
• 59:46
  I
• 59:46
  think
• 59:46
  they
• 59:46
  started
• 59:47
  it
• 59:47
  the
• 59:47
  year
• 59:48
  after
• 59:48
  they
• 59:48
  got
• 59:48
  out
• 59:49
  of
• 59:49
  high
• 59:49
  school
• 59:49
  and
• 59:49
  they're
• 59:49
  a
• 59:49
  year
• 59:50
  older
• 59:50
  than
• 59:50
  me.
• 59:50
  It's
• 59:51
  called
• 59:51
  Couragea.
• 59:52
  Great
• 59:52
  sort
• 59:53
  of
• 59:53
  this,
• 59:53
  this
• 59:54
  metallic,
• 59:55
  metal,
• 59:56
  industrial
• 59:57
  type
• 59:57
  great
• 59:58
  band.
• 59:59
  Just
• 59:59
  released
• 1:00:00
  a
• 1:00:00
  new
• 1:00:00
  album.
• 1:00:01
  It's
• 1:00:01
  only
• 1:00:01
  on
• 1:00:02
  tape.
• 1:00:02
  You
• 1:00:02
  can
• 1:00:03
  order
• 1:00:03
  it
• 1:00:03
  off
• 1:00:03
  of
• 1:00:04
  Band
• 1:00:05
  Camp,
• 1:00:05
  but
• 1:00:05
  they
• 1:00:05
  only
• 1:00:05
  made
• 1:00:06
  like
• 1:00:06
  25
• 1:00:06
  of
• 1:00:06
  them.
• 1:00:07
  But
• 1:00:07
  they
• 1:00:07
  just
• 1:00:07
  sent
• 1:00:08
  it
• 1:00:08
  to
• 1:00:08
  me.
• 1:00:08
  I
• 1:00:08
  just
• 1:00:08
  got
• 1:00:08
  it
• 1:00:08
  and
• 1:00:09
  I
• 1:00:09
  am
• 1:00:09
  so
• 1:00:09
  stoked
• 1:00:10
  on
• 1:00:10
  it.
• 1:00:12
  Yeah.
• 1:00:12
  And
• 1:00:12
  it's
• 1:00:13
  courageous.
• 1:00:13
  It's
• 1:00:13
  spelled
• 1:00:14
  C
• 1:00:14
  O
• 1:00:14
  R
• 1:00:15
  R
• 1:00:15
  E
• 1:00:15
  T
• 1:00:16
  J
• 1:00:16
  A.
• 1:00:17
  Yeah.
• 1:00:17
  So
• 1:00:18
  that's
• 1:00:18
  like.
• 1:00:18
  Even
• 1:00:19
  if
• 1:00:19
  you
• 1:00:19
  can't
• 1:00:19
  get
• 1:00:19
  a
• 1:00:19
  hold
• 1:00:19
  of
• 1:00:20
  the
• 1:00:20
  tape,
• 1:00:20
  you
• 1:00:20
  should
• 1:00:20
  track
• 1:00:21
  them
• 1:00:21
  down
• 1:00:21
  on,
• 1:00:22
  you
• 1:00:23
  know,
• 1:00:23
  on
• 1:00:23
  band
• 1:00:23
  camp
• 1:00:23
  or
• 1:00:24
  wherever.
• 1:00:25
  I'm
• 1:00:25
  just
• 1:00:25
  not
• 1:00:25
  a
• 1:00:26
  big
• 1:00:26
  Spotify
• 1:00:26
  fan
• 1:00:26
  anymore.
• 1:00:28
  But
• 1:00:28
  wherever
• 1:00:28
  you
• 1:00:29
  listen
• 1:00:29
  to
• 1:00:29
  music,
• 1:00:29
  do
• 1:00:30
  it
• 1:00:30
  there.
• 1:00:30
  I'm
• 1:00:30
  not
• 1:00:30
  judging.
• 1:00:31
  You
• 1:00:31
  create.
• 1:00:32
  You
• 1:00:32
  listen
• 1:00:33
  to
• 1:00:33
  it.
• 1:00:33
  It's
• 1:00:33
  great.
• 1:00:34
  I
• 1:00:35
  think
• 1:00:35
  we
• 1:00:35
  talked
• 1:00:35
  about
• 1:00:35
  this
• 1:00:35
  last
• 1:00:36
  time.
• 1:00:36
  I've
• 1:00:36
  been
• 1:00:36
  listening
• 1:00:37
  to
• 1:00:37
  a
• 1:00:37
  lot
• 1:00:37
  of
• 1:00:37
  instrumental
• 1:00:38
  music
• 1:00:39
  and
• 1:00:39
  I
• 1:00:39
  don't
• 1:00:39
  think
• 1:00:40
  I
• 1:00:40
  mentioned
• 1:00:40
  this
• 1:00:40
  last
• 1:00:40
  time.
• 1:00:40
  If
• 1:00:41
  I
• 1:00:41
  did,
• 1:00:41
  you
• 1:00:41
  can
• 1:00:42
  call
• 1:00:42
  me
• 1:00:42
  out
• 1:00:43
  a
• 1:00:43
  noise.
• 1:00:44
  This
• 1:00:44
  band
• 1:00:45
  from
• 1:00:45
  Japan,
• 1:00:47
  they
• 1:00:47
  have
• 1:00:47
  an
• 1:00:47
  album
• 1:00:48
  called
• 1:00:49
  the
• 1:00:49
  Black
• 1:00:49
  Ring.
• 1:00:50
  I
• 1:00:50
  just
• 1:00:50
  love
• 1:00:51
  it.
• 1:00:51
  Any
• 1:00:52
  mood
• 1:00:52
  I'm
• 1:00:52
  in,
• 1:00:52
  I
• 1:00:53
  can
• 1:00:53
  listen
• 1:00:53
  to.
• 1:00:53
  It
• 1:00:54
  is
• 1:00:54
  the
• 1:00:54
  perfect
• 1:00:55
  record
• 1:00:55
  band
• 1:00:55
  you
• 1:00:56
  should
• 1:00:56
  be
• 1:00:56
  listening
• 1:00:56
  to
• 1:00:57
  the
• 1:00:57
  Vampire
• 1:00:57
  Squids
• 1:00:58
  from
• 1:00:58
  Hell.
• 1:00:58
  They're
• 1:00:59
  surf
• 1:00:59
  rock
• 1:01:00
  and
• 1:01:01
  yeah,
• 1:01:02
  I
• 1:01:02
  don't
• 1:01:02
  think
• 1:01:02
  they
• 1:01:02
  have
• 1:01:02
  like
• 1:01:02
  a
• 1:01:03
  full
• 1:01:03
  length
• 1:01:03
  album,
• 1:01:04
  but
• 1:01:04
  they're
• 1:01:04
  on
• 1:01:04
  Bandcamp
• 1:01:06
  and
• 1:01:07
  I
• 1:01:07
  think
• 1:01:07
  Spotify
• 1:01:07
  too.
• 1:01:09
  So
• 1:01:09
  good.
• 1:01:10
  So
• 1:01:10
  good.
• 1:01:10
  Is
• 1:01:10
  it
• 1:01:11
  the
• 1:01:11
  Vampire
• 1:01:11
  Splits
• 1:01:12
  from
• 1:01:12
  Hell?
• 1:01:13
  Squids.
• 1:01:15
  Squids,
• 1:01:17
  yes.
• 1:01:17
  Vampire
• 1:01:18
  Squids
• 1:01:20
  from
• 1:01:20
  Hell.
• 1:01:20
  Okay.
• 1:01:21
  Yes.
• 1:01:22
  Cool.
• 1:01:23
  I
• 1:01:23
  will
• 1:01:23
  check
• 1:01:23
  them
• 1:01:23
  out.
• 1:01:25
  Awesome,
• 1:01:26
  my
• 1:01:26
  friend.
• 1:01:26
  Anything
• 1:01:27
  else
• 1:01:27
  you
• 1:01:27
  would
• 1:01:27
  like
• 1:01:27
  to
• 1:01:27
  say
• 1:01:28
  in.
• 1:01:28
  In
• 1:01:28
  closing?
• 1:01:30
  No.
• 1:01:30
  Thank
• 1:01:30
  you
• 1:01:30
  so
• 1:01:30
  much
• 1:01:31
  for
• 1:01:31
  having.
• 1:01:31
  For
• 1:01:31
  me.
• 1:01:32
  Thank
• 1:01:32
  you
• 1:01:32
  again
• 1:01:32
  for
• 1:01:33
  doing.
• 1:01:33
  I'm
• 1:01:33
  glad
• 1:01:33
  that
• 1:01:33
  we
• 1:01:33
  got
• 1:01:34
  to
• 1:01:34
  make
• 1:01:34
  kitty
• 1:01:35
  catchers
• 1:01:35
  and
• 1:01:36
  talk
• 1:01:36
  about
• 1:01:36
  being
• 1:01:37
  depressed,
• 1:01:37
  but
• 1:01:37
  also
• 1:01:38
  how
• 1:01:38
  we
• 1:01:38
  get
• 1:01:38
  out
• 1:01:38
  of
• 1:01:38
  it.
• 1:01:39
  Yeah.
• 1:01:39
  Because
• 1:01:39
  it
• 1:01:40
  is
• 1:01:40
  like,
• 1:01:40
  you
• 1:01:40
  know,
• 1:01:40
  we
• 1:01:40
  all
• 1:01:41
  struggle.
• 1:01:41
  Unfortunately,
• 1:01:42
  it's
• 1:01:42
  part
• 1:01:42
  of
• 1:01:42
  it.
• 1:01:43
  You
• 1:01:43
  know,
• 1:01:43
  we
• 1:01:43
  all
• 1:01:43
  struggle,
• 1:01:43
  but
• 1:01:44
  it
• 1:01:44
  is
• 1:01:44
  seeing
• 1:01:44
  that
• 1:01:45
  there
• 1:01:46
  are
• 1:01:46
  ways
• 1:01:46
  through
• 1:01:46
  it
• 1:01:47
  and
• 1:01:47
  figuring
• 1:01:48
  out
• 1:01:48
  things
• 1:01:48
  that
• 1:01:49
  work
• 1:01:49
  for
• 1:01:49
  you,
• 1:01:49
  you
• 1:01:49
  know,
• 1:01:49
  and
• 1:01:50
  what
• 1:01:50
  works
• 1:01:50
  for
• 1:01:50
  us
• 1:01:50
  may
• 1:01:50
  not
• 1:01:51
  work
• 1:01:51
  for
• 1:01:51
  somebody
• 1:01:51
  else.
• 1:01:51
  But
• 1:01:51
  I
• 1:01:52
  think
• 1:01:52
  the
• 1:01:52
  important
• 1:01:52
  thing
• 1:01:53
  is
• 1:01:53
  just
• 1:01:53
  try
• 1:01:53
  something.
• 1:01:55
  Yes.
• 1:01:55
  You
• 1:01:56
  know,
• 1:01:56
  and.
• 1:01:56
  And
• 1:01:56
  create
• 1:01:57
  something
• 1:01:57
  in
• 1:01:57
  the
• 1:01:57
  process.
• 1:01:58
  Whether
• 1:01:59
  creating
• 1:01:59
  a
• 1:02:00
  cootie
• 1:02:01
  catcher
• 1:02:01
  or
• 1:02:02
  creating
• 1:02:02
  art
• 1:02:02
  or
• 1:02:03
  music.
• 1:02:03
  If.
• 1:02:04
  Yeah.
• 1:02:05
  Social
• 1:02:05
  media.
• 1:02:06
  I'm
• 1:02:06
  not
• 1:02:06
  great
• 1:02:06
  at
• 1:02:06
  posting
• 1:02:07
  on
• 1:02:07
  social
• 1:02:07
  media,
• 1:02:08
  but
• 1:02:08
  if
• 1:02:08
  you
• 1:02:09
  do
• 1:02:09
  want
• 1:02:09
  to
• 1:02:09
  check
• 1:02:09
  out
• 1:02:10
  our
• 1:02:10
  social
• 1:02:10
  media
• 1:02:10
  of
• 1:02:11
  stuff.
• 1:02:11
  Facebook
• 1:02:12
  is
• 1:02:12
  punk
• 1:02:12
  love
• 1:02:12
  and
• 1:02:12
  compassion.
• 1:02:14
  Instagram
• 1:02:14
  is
• 1:02:14
  at
• 1:02:15
  punk
• 1:02:15
  love,
• 1:02:15
  Compassion,
• 1:02:16
  Punk
• 1:02:17
  Love
• 1:02:17
  compassion.bsky.
• 1:02:20
  social
• 1:02:20
  or
• 1:02:20
  you
• 1:02:21
  can
• 1:02:21
  email
• 1:02:21
  me
• 1:02:22
  at
• 1:02:22
  punk
• 1:02:22
  love
• 1:02:23
  compassionahoo.com
• 1:02:25
  and
• 1:02:25
  I
• 1:02:25
  like
• 1:02:26
  I
• 1:02:26
  have
• 1:02:26
  some
• 1:02:26
  cool
• 1:02:26
  people
• 1:02:27
  lined
• 1:02:27
  up
• 1:02:27
  that
• 1:02:27
  we're
• 1:02:27
  going
• 1:02:27
  to
• 1:02:28
  talk
• 1:02:28
  to.
• 1:02:28
  Yeah.
• 1:02:28
  Please
• 1:02:29
  join
• 1:02:29
  me
• 1:02:29
  in
• 1:02:29
  the
• 1:02:29
  future
• 1:02:30
  and
• 1:02:30
  my
• 1:02:31
  goal
• 1:02:31
  is
• 1:02:31
  to
• 1:02:31
  have
• 1:02:31
  these
• 1:02:32
  coming
• 1:02:32
  out
• 1:02:32
  about
• 1:02:33
  every
• 1:02:33
  two
• 1:02:33
  weeks.
• 1:02:34
  So.
• 1:02:34
  Yeah.
• 1:02:34
  Thank
• 1:02:34
  you
• 1:02:35
  so
• 1:02:35
  much.
• 1:02:35
  Until
• 1:02:36
  next
• 1:02:36
  time.
• 1:02:36
  Time
• 1:02:36
  with
• 1:02:36
  Hope,
• 1:02:37
  Love
• 1:02:37
  and
• 1:02:37
  Compassion.
• 1:02:38
  We
• 1:02:38
  will
• 1:02:38
  see
• 1:02:38
  you
• 1:02:38
  later.