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Episode 7: Truth · Three Rebel Souls

• 0:00
  Truth
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  Truth
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  Ready,
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  go.
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  Just
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  be,
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  like,
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  as
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  awkward
• 0:07
  as
• 0:07
  possible.
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  Truth.
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  Mm.
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  We
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  like
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  this
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  one.
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  Stacey,
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  you're,
• 0:13
  you're
• 0:13
  up,
• 0:13
  right?
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  Yep.
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  By
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  the
• 0:16
  way.
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  Hello.
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  I
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  meant
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  Sloane.
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  Fine.
• 0:22
  It's
• 0:22
  both.
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  I've
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  been
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  feeling
• 0:24
  very
• 0:25
  Stacey
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  lately,
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  so
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  it's
• 0:26
  fine.
• 0:26
  Oh,
• 0:27
  good.
• 0:32
  Sloane
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  might
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  go
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  away,
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  or
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  she's
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  some
• 0:34
  future
• 0:34
  version
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  of
• 0:35
  myself
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  Oh,
• 0:38
  nice
• 0:40
  There
• 0:40
  we
• 0:40
  go.
• 0:42
  Welcome
• 0:42
  back
• 0:43
  to
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  Three
• 0:43
  Rebel
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  Souls.
• 0:45
  What's
• 0:45
  up?
• 0:46
  Here
• 0:46
  we
• 0:46
  go.
• 0:48
  Hello.
• 0:48
  We're
• 0:49
  back.
• 0:52
  How's
• 0:52
  everybody
• 0:52
  doing
• 0:52
  today?
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  I'm
• 0:54
  good,
• 0:54
  I
• 0:54
  guess.
• 0:55
  I
• 0:55
  don't
• 0:55
  know.
• 0:58
  Real
• 0:58
  answers
• 0:58
  only
• 0:59
  here.
• 0:59
  Yeah.
• 1:00
  Um,
• 1:00
  well,
• 1:00
  uh,
• 1:01
  one,
• 1:01
  I'm
• 1:01
  tired,
• 1:02
  and
• 1:02
  two,
• 1:02
  my
• 1:02
  throat
• 1:03
  is
• 1:03
  killing
• 1:03
  me.
• 1:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 1:06
  So
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  I
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  don't
• 1:07
  know.
• 1:07
  I
• 1:07
  don't
• 1:07
  usually
• 1:08
  get,
• 1:08
  um,
• 1:08
  allergies,
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  but
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  I
• 1:11
  mean,
• 1:11
  you
• 1:11
  know,
• 1:11
  I
• 1:12
  am
• 1:12
  older
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  now,
• 1:12
  so
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  who
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  knows?
• 1:14
  You
• 1:14
  know.
• 1:15
  But-
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  Mm
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  everything
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  is
• 1:16
  blooming.
• 1:16
  I
• 1:16
  think
• 1:17
  that's
• 1:17
  why.
• 1:18
  There's
• 1:18
  a
• 1:19
  lot
• 1:19
  going
• 1:19
  on
• 1:19
  in
• 1:19
  the
• 1:19
  air
• 1:20
  right
• 1:20
  now.
• 1:21
  Yeah.
• 1:22
  I'm
• 1:22
  feeling
• 1:22
  the
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  same.
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  I've
• 1:23
  been
• 1:23
  feeling
• 1:23
  like
• 1:23
  kinda
• 1:24
  stuffy
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  and-
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  Mm
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  cough,
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  cough
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  and,
• 1:27
  uh,
• 1:27
  bleh
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  all
• 1:28
  week.
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  So
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  I'm,
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  I'm
• 1:31
  feeling
• 1:32
  the
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  same.
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  A
• 1:32
  little
• 1:32
  bit
• 1:33
  run
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  down
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  today,
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  but
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  we're
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  gonna
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  make
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  it
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  work
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  How
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  about
• 1:37
  you,
• 1:37
  Sloane?
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  Um,
• 1:40
  it's
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  been
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  an
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  interesting
• 1:42
  couple
• 1:42
  weeks,
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  so
• 1:46
  some
• 1:47
  old
• 1:47
  patterns
• 1:48
  coming
• 1:48
  up
• 1:48
  that
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  I-
• 1:49
  Yeah
• 1:49
  haven't
• 1:49
  seen
• 1:49
  in
• 1:49
  a
• 1:49
  while
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  Not
• 1:52
  exactly
• 1:53
  happy
• 1:53
  to
• 1:53
  see
• 1:54
  them,
• 1:54
  but
• 1:55
  understanding
• 1:59
  that-
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  Yeah
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  I,
• 2:02
  they
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  needed,
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  I
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  think,
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  um
• 2:06
  real-world
• 2:07
  reflection
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  to
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  understand
• 2:10
  some
• 2:10
  internal
• 2:11
  struggles
• 2:11
  I've
• 2:12
  been
• 2:12
  going
• 2:12
  through.
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  So
• 2:13
  yeah.
• 2:15
  Uh,
• 2:15
  it
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  was
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  very
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  effective,
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  let's
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  put
• 2:17
  it
• 2:17
  that
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  way.
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  Yeah.
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  You're
• 2:21
  right.
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  Especially
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  with
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  that
• 2:24
  Mercury
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  retrograde
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  in
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  Pisces.
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  Crap.
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  Full
• 2:27
  moon.
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  Oh,
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  that's
• 2:28
  over
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  now,
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  so.
• 2:29
  Yeah,
• 2:29
  thank
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  God.
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  Yeah.
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  Yeah.
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  Yeah,
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  I
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  feel
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  like
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  the
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  full
• 2:35
  moon
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  was
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  really
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  intense
• 2:36
  last
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  week.
• 2:38
  I,
• 2:38
  that
• 2:38
  I
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  think
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  was
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  another
• 2:39
  reason
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  I've
• 2:40
  been
• 2:40
  tired
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  all
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  week.
• 2:41
  I
• 2:41
  think
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  it
• 2:42
  just
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  absolutely
• 2:43
  kicked
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  my
• 2:43
  ass.
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  Yeah.
• 2:47
  We're
• 2:47
  recovering.
• 2:48
  I
• 2:48
  slept
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  till
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  7:00
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  yesterday.
• 2:50
  Wow.
• 2:51
  Wow.
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  That's
• 2:51
  long
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  for
• 2:52
  you.
• 2:52
  I,
• 2:52
  you
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  know.
• 2:53
  You
• 2:53
  know.
• 2:54
  That's
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  really
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  late
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  for
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  you.
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  Last,
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  I
• 3:02
  didn't
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  even
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  sleep
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  that
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  late
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  last
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  weekend
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  when
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  we
• 3:04
  stayed
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  up
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  extra
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  late.
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  That's
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  right.
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  Exactly.
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  All
• 3:13
  right.
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  Well,
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  today
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  we're
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  diving
• 3:14
  into
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  our
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  value
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  of
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  truth.
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  Yes.
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  So
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  let
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  me
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  read
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  our
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  definition
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  of
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  that.
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  Um,
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  truth,
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  we
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  speak
• 3:25
  it
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  even
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  when
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  it
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  shakes
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  the
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  room.
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  We
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  believe
• 3:29
  that
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  truth
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  and
• 3:30
  integrity
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  are
• 3:31
  acts
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  of
• 3:32
  love,
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  especially
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  with
• 3:33
  the
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  people
• 3:34
  we
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  care
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  about
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  most.
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  We
• 3:37
  hold
• 3:37
  each
• 3:38
  other
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  and
• 3:39
  ourselves
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  accountable.
• 3:41
  There's
• 3:41
  no
• 3:41
  pretending
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  here,
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  just
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  real
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  talk,
• 3:44
  real
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  hearts,
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  and
• 3:46
  the
• 3:46
  courage
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  to
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  say
• 3:47
  the
• 3:47
  thing.
• 3:49
  Yeah.
• 3:50
  And
• 3:50
  that's
• 3:51
  a
• 3:51
  little
• 3:51
  preview
• 3:52
  there
• 3:53
  'cause
• 3:53
  courage
• 3:53
  is
• 3:54
  up
• 3:54
  next.
• 3:54
  So-
• 3:55
  Yeah.
• 3:56
  But
• 3:56
  for
• 3:57
  now,
• 3:57
  truth.
• 3:58
  So-
• 3:58
  They're
• 3:59
  all
• 3:59
  intertwined.
• 4:01
  Yeah.
• 4:01
  Uh,
• 4:01
  uh,
• 4:02
  always.
• 4:03
  Values
• 4:03
  are
• 4:03
  always
• 4:04
  intertwined.
• 4:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 4:05
  Um,
• 4:06
  so
• 4:09
  what
• 4:09
  does
• 4:10
  truth
• 4:11
  mean
• 4:12
  to
• 4:12
  you?
• 4:15
  I
• 4:15
  think
• 4:15
  this
• 4:15
  one
• 4:16
  is
• 4:17
  interesting.
• 4:19
  Um,
• 4:21
  when
• 4:21
  I
• 4:22
  think
• 4:22
  back
• 4:23
  to
• 4:23
  like
• 4:26
  conditioning
• 4:26
  and
• 4:26
  like
• 4:26
  what
• 4:27
  we're
• 4:27
  told,
• 4:27
  right?
• 4:28
  Like
• 4:28
  we're
• 4:28
  told-
• 4:29
  Mm-hmm
• 4:33
  to
• 4:36
  Like,
• 4:37
  we,
• 4:38
  we
• 4:38
  were
• 4:38
  raised
• 4:38
  on
• 4:39
  these
• 4:39
  little
• 4:39
  things,
• 4:39
  like
• 4:40
  honesty
• 4:40
  is
• 4:40
  the
• 4:40
  best
• 4:40
  policy
• 4:41
  and
• 4:41
  blah,
• 4:41
  blah,
• 4:41
  blah.
• 4:42
  But
• 4:42
  I
• 4:42
  don't
• 4:42
  feel
• 4:43
  like
• 4:44
  honesty
• 4:45
  was
• 4:45
  ever
• 4:45
  really
• 4:46
  modeled,
• 4:47
  right?
• 4:47
  Because-
• 4:48
  Yeah
• 4:48
  there
• 4:48
  was
• 4:48
  all
• 4:48
  these
• 4:50
  social
• 4:50
  niceties
• 4:52
  that
• 4:52
  we
• 4:52
  were
• 4:52
  also
• 4:53
  conditioned
• 4:54
  to.
• 4:55
  Like-
• 4:56
  Mm-hmm
• 4:57
  even
• 4:57
  just
• 4:57
  how
• 4:57
  we
• 4:57
  started
• 4:58
  this
• 4:58
  episode.
• 4:59
  How
• 4:59
  are
• 4:59
  you
• 5:00
  feeling
• 5:00
  today?
• 5:00
  Good,
• 5:01
  I
• 5:01
  guess.
• 5:01
  Like,
• 5:01
  no,
• 5:02
  no,
• 5:02
  no,
• 5:02
  don't
• 5:02
  give
• 5:02
  me
• 5:02
  that
• 5:03
  shit.
• 5:04
  How
• 5:04
  are
• 5:04
  you
• 5:04
  really
• 5:05
  feeling
• 5:05
  today?
• 5:06
  Right.
• 5:06
  Real
• 5:06
  answers
• 5:06
  only.
• 5:07
  I
• 5:07
  only
• 5:07
  want
• 5:07
  the
• 5:08
  truth.
• 5:09
  I
• 5:09
  don't
• 5:09
  want
• 5:10
  your
• 5:10
  canned
• 5:10
  response.
• 5:11
  Mm-hmm.
• 5:11
  And
• 5:11
  I
• 5:12
  think
• 5:12
  there's,
• 5:13
  there's
• 5:13
  that,
• 5:13
  but
• 5:14
  then
• 5:14
  there's
• 5:14
  also,
• 5:14
  like,
• 5:16
  we
• 5:16
  could
• 5:17
  go,
• 5:17
  we
• 5:17
  could
• 5:17
  pull
• 5:17
  on
• 5:17
  a
• 5:17
  lot
• 5:18
  of
• 5:18
  different
• 5:18
  threads
• 5:18
  here.
• 5:18
  But
• 5:20
  I
• 5:20
  think
• 5:21
  the
• 5:21
  way
• 5:21
  that,
• 5:21
  like,
• 5:23
  I
• 5:23
  experienced
• 5:25
  friendship
• 5:26
  growing
• 5:26
  up
• 5:26
  was
• 5:27
  always,
• 5:28
  you
• 5:28
  know,
• 5:29
  always
• 5:29
  having
• 5:30
  your
• 5:30
  friend's
• 5:30
  back
• 5:31
  and
• 5:31
  telling
• 5:31
  them
• 5:31
  what
• 5:31
  they
• 5:31
  wanna
• 5:32
  hear.
• 5:33
  When,
• 5:34
  you
• 5:34
  know,
• 5:35
  my
• 5:35
  experience
• 5:35
  of
• 5:35
  friendship
• 5:36
  now
• 5:36
  is
• 5:36
  the
• 5:36
  people
• 5:37
  I
• 5:37
  value
• 5:37
  most
• 5:37
  are
• 5:37
  the
• 5:37
  people
• 5:38
  who
• 5:38
  tell
• 5:38
  me
• 5:38
  the
• 5:38
  truth.
• 5:41
  I
• 5:42
  don't
• 5:42
  wanna
• 5:42
  hear,
• 5:44
  I
• 5:44
  don't
• 5:44
  wanna
• 5:44
  hear,
• 5:44
  like...
• 5:46
  I
• 5:46
  don't
• 5:46
  need
• 5:46
  you
• 5:46
  to
• 5:46
  puff
• 5:47
  me
• 5:47
  up
• 5:47
  if
• 5:47
  I'm
• 5:47
  wrong.
• 5:48
  Tell
• 5:48
  me
• 5:48
  I'm
• 5:48
  wrong.
• 5:49
  Mm-hmm.
• 5:49
  Yeah.
• 5:49
  Right?
• 5:49
  Like,
• 5:50
  so
• 5:50
  it's,
• 5:50
  I
• 5:50
  think,
• 5:52
  I
• 5:52
  think
• 5:52
  that
• 5:53
  we
• 5:53
  used
• 5:53
  to,
• 5:54
  we
• 5:54
  were
• 5:54
  sort
• 5:54
  of,
• 5:54
  like,
• 5:56
  taught
• 5:56
  contradicting
• 5:57
  things,
• 5:58
  and
• 5:59
  that's
• 5:59
  been
• 5:59
  a
• 5:59
  lot
• 5:59
  to
• 5:59
  unlearn
• 6:01
  and
• 6:01
  try
• 6:01
  to
• 6:01
  figure
• 6:02
  out,
• 6:02
  like-
• 6:05
  that
• 6:08
  Truth
• 6:09
  is
• 6:09
  what
• 6:09
  I,
• 6:09
  I
• 6:10
  guess
• 6:10
  maybe,
• 6:11
  maybe
• 6:11
  the
• 6:11
  amount
• 6:11
  of
• 6:12
  times
• 6:12
  that
• 6:13
  I've
• 6:13
  been,
• 6:14
  I
• 6:14
  felt
• 6:14
  like
• 6:14
  I've
• 6:14
  been
• 6:14
  lied
• 6:15
  to
• 6:15
  or
• 6:15
  deceived
• 6:16
  is
• 6:16
  what
• 6:17
  made
• 6:17
  me
• 6:17
  value
• 6:18
  truth
• 6:19
  so
• 6:19
  much
• 6:22
  Deceived
• 6:22
  I'll,
• 6:22
  I'll
• 6:23
  get
• 6:23
  off
• 6:23
  my
• 6:23
  soapbox
• 6:24
  for
• 6:24
  the
• 6:24
  moment.
• 6:25
  Let
• 6:25
  someone
• 6:25
  else
• 6:26
  speak.
• 6:27
  Well,
• 6:27
  I
• 6:28
  mean,
• 6:28
  that's
• 6:28
  what
• 6:28
  you
• 6:28
  just
• 6:28
  said,
• 6:29
  like
• 6:29
  being
• 6:29
  deceived,
• 6:30
  but
• 6:30
  we
• 6:30
  were
• 6:30
  deceived
• 6:31
  as
• 6:31
  children
• 6:31
  too,
• 6:32
  right?
• 6:32
  By
• 6:32
  being
• 6:32
  told,
• 6:33
  like,
• 6:33
  you
• 6:33
  tell
• 6:33
  the
• 6:33
  truth,
• 6:34
  but
• 6:34
  then
• 6:34
  lie
• 6:35
  here
• 6:35
  or
• 6:35
  there.
• 6:36
  You
• 6:36
  know?
• 6:36
  Like,
• 6:36
  so-
• 6:37
  Little
• 6:37
  white
• 6:37
  lies
• 6:38
  right.
• 6:38
  So
• 6:38
  what,
• 6:38
  which
• 6:38
  I
• 6:39
  can't
• 6:39
  fucking
• 6:39
  stand.
• 6:41
  Like,
• 6:41
  I
• 6:41
  can't
• 6:41
  stand
• 6:41
  little
• 6:42
  white
• 6:42
  lies
• 6:42
  because
• 6:44
  what's
• 6:44
  the
• 6:44
  fucking
• 6:44
  point?
• 6:46
  What's
• 6:47
  the
• 6:47
  fucking
• 6:47
  point?
• 6:47
  Just
• 6:48
  fucking
• 6:48
  say
• 6:48
  it.
• 6:48
  If
• 6:48
  it's
• 6:48
  something
• 6:49
  so
• 6:49
  minor,
• 6:49
  just
• 6:50
  fucking
• 6:50
  say
• 6:50
  it,
• 6:50
  'cause
• 6:51
  if
• 6:51
  you're-
• 6:51
  Yeah
• 6:51
  willing
• 6:51
  to
• 6:51
  lie
• 6:51
  about
• 6:52
  something
• 6:52
  so
• 6:52
  stupid,
• 6:54
  like,
• 6:55
  I
• 6:55
  get
• 6:55
  really...
• 6:55
  I
• 6:55
  mean,
• 6:55
  I,
• 6:56
  I'm
• 6:56
  already
• 6:56
  going
• 6:57
  off
• 6:57
  the
• 6:57
  rails
• 6:57
  here
• 6:58
  'cause
• 6:58
  I-
• 6:58
  can't
• 6:58
  fucking
• 6:59
  stand
• 6:59
  lies.
• 7:00
  Like,
• 7:00
  I
• 7:00
  can't
• 7:00
  fucking
• 7:01
  stand
• 7:01
  lying.
• 7:02
  And
• 7:02
  I'm
• 7:02
  not
• 7:02
  gonna
• 7:02
  say
• 7:02
  that
• 7:02
  I
• 7:02
  haven't
• 7:03
  lied
• 7:03
  myself,
• 7:04
  right?
• 7:04
  Like,
• 7:04
  we
• 7:05
  all
• 7:05
  have,
• 7:05
  but
• 7:09
  I
• 7:09
  don't
• 7:09
  know.
• 7:09
  I
• 7:09
  just
• 7:09
  feel
• 7:09
  like
• 7:10
  just
• 7:13
  being
• 7:13
  truthful,
• 7:15
  then
• 7:15
  you're
• 7:15
  able
• 7:15
  to
• 7:16
  deal
• 7:16
  with
• 7:16
  things
• 7:18
  in
• 7:18
  the
• 7:18
  moment
• 7:18
  and
• 7:19
  with
• 7:19
  what
• 7:19
  they
• 7:19
  are
• 7:20
  than
• 7:20
  having
• 7:20
  to
• 7:20
  deal
• 7:21
  with
• 7:21
  a
• 7:21
  lie
• 7:22
  and
• 7:22
  then
• 7:22
  the
• 7:22
  truth
• 7:23
  later
• 7:23
  on.
• 7:24
  Mm-hmm.
• 7:24
  That,
• 7:24
  that
• 7:24
  makes
• 7:25
  it
• 7:27
  so
• 7:27
  much
• 7:27
  worse.
• 7:28
  Mm-hmm.
• 7:28
  So,
• 7:29
  um,
• 7:30
  yeah.
• 7:32
  Yeah
• 7:32
  For
• 7:32
  me,
• 7:32
  I
• 7:32
  like,
• 7:33
  I,
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  feel
• 7:34
  like
• 7:34
  I
• 7:34
  had
• 7:35
  to
• 7:35
  suppress
• 7:35
  truth
• 7:36
  so
• 7:37
  much
• 7:37
  my
• 7:37
  whole
• 7:38
  life.
• 7:39
  Mm-hmm.
• 7:39
  It's,
• 7:40
  it's
• 7:40
  also,
• 7:41
  um,
• 7:42
  a
• 7:42
  part
• 7:42
  of
• 7:42
  why
• 7:43
  I
• 7:43
  was
• 7:43
  so
• 7:44
  angry
• 7:45
  when
• 7:45
  I
• 7:45
  was-
• 7:45
  Hmm
• 7:45
  younger,
• 7:47
  'cause
• 7:47
  always
• 7:47
  having
• 7:48
  to
• 7:48
  suppress
• 7:48
  that,
• 7:48
  to
• 7:48
  suppress
• 7:49
  it,
• 7:49
  and
• 7:49
  I'm
• 7:49
  like,
• 7:49
  "I'm
• 7:50
  gonna..."
• 7:50
  And
• 7:50
  then
• 7:50
  I
• 7:50
  would
• 7:50
  explode
• 7:51
  is
• 7:51
  the
• 7:51
  problem.
• 7:52
  Then
• 7:52
  I
• 7:52
  would
• 7:52
  explode,
• 7:53
  and
• 7:53
  then
• 7:55
  y-
• 7:55
  I
• 7:55
  just
• 7:55
  let
• 7:55
  you
• 7:56
  have
• 7:56
  it,
• 7:56
  and
• 7:57
  it
• 7:57
  was
• 7:57
  not
• 7:57
  pretty,
• 7:58
  right?
• 7:58
  Because
• 7:58
  then
• 7:58
  I
• 7:58
  was
• 7:58
  telling
• 7:59
  you
• 7:59
  all
• 7:59
  the
• 7:59
  truth
• 8:00
  and
• 8:00
  everything
• 8:00
  that
• 8:00
  you
• 8:00
  probably
• 8:01
  didn't
• 8:01
  wanna
• 8:01
  hear.
• 8:03
  Um,
• 8:03
  but-
• 8:03
  All
• 8:04
  at
• 8:04
  once.
• 8:05
  All
• 8:05
  at
• 8:06
  once.
• 8:06
  Exactly.
• 8:07
  Everything
• 8:07
  you
• 8:07
  told
• 8:08
  me
• 8:08
  to
• 8:08
  keep
• 8:08
  in,
• 8:09
  I
• 8:09
  just
• 8:10
  let
• 8:10
  you
• 8:10
  have
• 8:10
  it.
• 8:11
  Um,
• 8:12
  and
• 8:12
  then,
• 8:12
  yeah,
• 8:12
  it
• 8:12
  didn't,
• 8:13
  it
• 8:13
  did
• 8:13
  not
• 8:14
  come
• 8:14
  out,
• 8:15
  it
• 8:15
  did
• 8:15
  not
• 8:15
  come
• 8:15
  out
• 8:16
  so,
• 8:16
  uh,
• 8:16
  tactful.
• 8:18
  Sagittarius,
• 8:19
  not
• 8:19
  very
• 8:19
  tactful.
• 8:20
  Um,
• 8:21
  but
• 8:21
  I'm
• 8:21
  learning.
• 8:22
  Um,
• 8:23
  yeah,
• 8:23
  I
• 8:24
  don't
• 8:24
  know.
• 8:24
  I
• 8:24
  just-
• 8:27
  And,
• 8:28
  you
• 8:28
  know,
• 8:28
  I
• 8:28
  admit
• 8:29
  that.
• 8:29
  As
• 8:29
  much
• 8:30
  as
• 8:30
  I
• 8:30
  love
• 8:30
  truth,
• 8:31
  it's
• 8:31
  not
• 8:31
  always
• 8:32
  easy
• 8:32
  to
• 8:32
  hear.
• 8:34
  Mm.
• 8:34
  Right?
• 8:35
  Like,
• 8:35
  it's
• 8:35
  not-
• 8:35
  No,
• 8:35
  it's
• 8:35
  almost
• 8:35
  never
• 8:36
  easy
• 8:36
  to
• 8:36
  hear.
• 8:36
  Right.
• 8:37
  It's
• 8:37
  really,
• 8:38
  it's
• 8:38
  really
• 8:38
  not.
• 8:39
  But
• 8:41
  I,
• 8:42
  I'd
• 8:42
  rather,
• 8:42
  I'd
• 8:43
  rather
• 8:43
  be
• 8:44
  uncomfortable
• 8:44
  for
• 8:44
  a
• 8:44
  minute
• 8:45
  with
• 8:46
  the
• 8:46
  truth
• 8:47
  than,
• 8:47
  um,
• 8:49
  I-
• 8:50
  Than
• 8:50
  have
• 8:50
  to
• 8:50
  hear
• 8:50
  comfortable
• 8:50
  lies.
• 8:51
  Yeah.
• 8:52
  I
• 8:53
  li-
• 8:53
  being
• 8:53
  lied
• 8:53
  to
• 8:54
  angers
• 8:54
  me.
• 8:55
  It
• 8:55
  angers
• 8:55
  me,
• 8:56
  like,
• 8:56
  when
• 8:56
  I'm
• 8:56
  lied
• 8:57
  to.
• 8:57
  So
• 8:57
  just
• 8:57
  tell
• 8:57
  me
• 8:58
  the
• 8:58
  truth,
• 8:58
  'cause
• 8:58
  I
• 8:58
  feel
• 8:58
  like
• 9:00
  I
• 9:00
  might
• 9:00
  be
• 9:00
  angry
• 9:01
  for
• 9:01
  a
• 9:01
  minute,
• 9:01
  but
• 9:01
  it's
• 9:02
  gonna
• 9:02
  go
• 9:02
  away
• 9:02
  much
• 9:02
  quicker
• 9:03
  than
• 9:03
  if
• 9:03
  it's
• 9:03
  just,
• 9:04
  if
• 9:04
  you
• 9:04
  just
• 9:04
  keep
• 9:04
  lying
• 9:05
  to
• 9:05
  me.
• 9:06
  Yeah,
• 9:07
  there's
• 9:07
  a
• 9:07
  compound
• 9:07
  effect-
• 9:08
  Yeah.
• 9:09
  Mm
• 9:09
  of,
• 9:10
  like,
• 9:11
  repeated
• 9:11
  lies
• 9:12
  or
• 9:12
  time
• 9:12
  that
• 9:13
  passes.
• 9:14
  Well,
• 9:14
  just
• 9:15
  like
• 9:15
  even
• 9:15
  when
• 9:15
  you-
• 9:16
  Mm
• 9:16
  even
• 9:16
  when
• 9:16
  you
• 9:16
  ask
• 9:17
  someone,
• 9:17
  like,
• 9:17
  something
• 9:18
  silly
• 9:18
  and-
• 9:21
  They
• 9:22
  just
• 9:22
  give
• 9:22
  you
• 9:23
  a
• 9:26
  What
• 9:26
  they
• 9:26
  think
• 9:26
  you
• 9:26
  wanna
• 9:27
  hear
• 9:28
  Mm.
• 9:28
  Yeah
• 9:28
  Versus
• 9:28
  the
• 9:28
  truth.
• 9:29
  And
• 9:29
  it's
• 9:29
  something
• 9:29
  stupid,
• 9:30
  and
• 9:30
  I'm
• 9:30
  like,
• 9:30
  "Oh
• 9:30
  my
• 9:31
  God,"
• 9:31
  like,
• 9:33
  I
• 9:33
  know
• 9:33
  you're
• 9:33
  lying
• 9:34
  to
• 9:34
  me
• 9:34
  because
• 9:35
  I
• 9:35
  feel
• 9:35
  it.
• 9:36
  Mm.
• 9:36
  Right.
• 9:37
  I
• 9:38
  feel
• 9:38
  the
• 9:39
  lie.
• 9:40
  And
• 9:41
  so
• 9:41
  yeah,
• 9:41
  it's,
• 9:41
  it's
• 9:42
  frustrating.
• 9:42
  It's
• 9:42
  very
• 9:43
  frustrating
• 9:43
  for
• 9:43
  me.
• 9:44
  Um-
• 9:46
  But
• 9:46
  it's,
• 9:47
  like,
• 9:47
  again,
• 9:47
  it's
• 9:47
  difficult
• 9:48
  for
• 9:48
  me
• 9:48
  to
• 9:49
  want
• 9:49
  to
• 9:49
  tell
• 9:49
  someone
• 9:50
  the
• 9:50
  truth
• 9:50
  as
• 9:50
  well
• 9:51
  because
• 9:52
  of
• 9:52
  that
• 9:52
  conditioning,
• 9:53
  of
• 9:54
  being
• 9:54
  told
• 9:55
  not
• 9:55
  to,
• 9:55
  not
• 9:55
  to
• 9:55
  say
• 9:56
  anything,
• 9:56
  because
• 9:56
  it's
• 9:56
  another
• 9:57
  way
• 9:57
  of
• 9:58
  hush,
• 9:59
  keep
• 9:59
  the
• 9:59
  peace,
• 10:00
  you
• 10:00
  know,
• 10:00
  that
• 10:00
  stupid
• 10:01
  bullshit
• 10:01
  that
• 10:01
  we
• 10:01
  were
• 10:01
  told.
• 10:02
  The
• 10:04
  performative
• 10:05
  stuff
• 10:05
  that-
• 10:05
  Yeah
• 10:05
  we've
• 10:05
  been
• 10:05
  talking
• 10:05
  about.
• 10:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 10:06
  Yeah.
• 10:07
  So.
• 10:08
  Keep
• 10:08
  everybody
• 10:08
  comfortable.
• 10:09
  Right.
• 10:09
  But
• 10:10
  the
• 10:10
  performance
• 10:11
  is,
• 10:11
  is
• 10:12
  in
• 10:12
  itself
• 10:13
  a
• 10:13
  lie.
• 10:13
  Correct.
• 10:15
  Mm.
• 10:16
  I
• 10:16
  think
• 10:16
  which
• 10:16
  is
• 10:16
  probably
• 10:17
  why
• 10:17
  it
• 10:17
  feels
• 10:17
  like
• 10:17
  such
• 10:17
  a
• 10:18
  rub
• 10:18
  for
• 10:18
  me
• 10:18
  now,
• 10:19
  because
• 10:20
  you
• 10:20
  feel
• 10:21
  like
• 10:21
  you
• 10:21
  have
• 10:21
  to,
• 10:21
  like,
• 10:22
  live
• 10:22
  this
• 10:22
  performance
• 10:23
  or
• 10:23
  put
• 10:24
  on
• 10:24
  a
• 10:24
  show
• 10:25
  for
• 10:26
  optics,
• 10:27
  and
• 10:30
  It's
• 10:31
  that
• 10:31
  much
• 10:31
  more
• 10:36
  I
• 10:36
  don't
• 10:36
  know,
• 10:37
  jarring
• 10:38
  now
• 10:39
  to
• 10:39
  be,
• 10:39
  like,
• 10:39
  'cause
• 10:40
  now
• 10:40
  I'm,
• 10:41
  like,
• 10:41
  I
• 10:41
  can
• 10:42
  see
• 10:42
  through
• 10:42
  it
• 10:42
  to
• 10:42
  your
• 10:43
  point.
• 10:43
  Like,
• 10:43
  why
• 10:44
  are
• 10:44
  you...
• 10:44
  Like,
• 10:44
  I
• 10:44
  can
• 10:44
  see
• 10:44
  that
• 10:45
  you're
• 10:45
  lying.
• 10:45
  Why
• 10:45
  are
• 10:45
  we
• 10:45
  lying
• 10:46
  about
• 10:46
  it,
• 10:47
  right?
• 10:47
  Mm-hmm.
• 10:47
  Yeah.
• 10:48
  Sloane,
• 10:48
  what
• 10:48
  about
• 10:49
  you?
• 10:50
  We
• 10:51
  know
• 10:51
  you
• 10:51
  like
• 10:51
  truth
• 10:51
  too.
• 10:52
  Oh,
• 10:52
  yeah.
• 10:53
  Well,
• 10:53
  honesty
• 10:54
  is
• 10:54
  one
• 10:54
  of
• 10:54
  my
• 10:54
  core
• 10:55
  value-
• 10:55
  There
• 10:55
  you
• 10:55
  go
• 10:55
  my
• 10:55
  personal
• 10:56
  core
• 10:56
  values.
• 10:57
  So,
• 10:59
  um,
• 11:00
  because,
• 11:01
  I
• 11:01
  mean,
• 11:01
  very
• 11:02
  similar
• 11:02
  to
• 11:02
  what
• 11:02
  you've
• 11:03
  both
• 11:03
  already
• 11:03
  shared,
• 11:04
  right?
• 11:04
  Like,
• 11:05
  um
• 11:08
  people
• 11:10
  not
• 11:10
  being
• 11:10
  honest,
• 11:12
  and
• 11:12
  then
• 11:12
  it
• 11:12
  just
• 11:12
  culminates
• 11:13
  in
• 11:15
  something
• 11:16
  painful
• 11:17
  usually.
• 11:18
  So
• 11:21
  I'm
• 11:21
  laughing
• 11:22
  because
• 11:22
  though
• 11:22
  I
• 11:23
  think
• 11:24
  the
• 11:24
  flip
• 11:24
  side
• 11:25
  of
• 11:25
  that
• 11:25
  is
• 11:27
  my
• 11:28
  face
• 11:28
  is
• 11:29
  very
• 11:29
  expressive,
• 11:30
  so-
• 11:32
  Right
• 11:32
  it's
• 11:32
  almost
• 11:32
  impossible
• 11:33
  for
• 11:33
  me
• 11:34
  to
• 11:34
  lie
• 11:34
  because
• 11:35
  it's-
• 11:35
  Right
• 11:36
  when
• 11:36
  I
• 11:36
  try
• 11:37
  to
• 11:37
  lie,
• 11:37
  it's
• 11:38
  like
• 11:38
  written
• 11:38
  all
• 11:38
  over
• 11:39
  my
• 11:39
  face
• 11:39
  that,
• 11:40
  uh-
• 11:40
  Or,
• 11:40
  or
• 11:40
  not
• 11:41
  react
• 11:41
  when
• 11:41
  someone's
• 11:42
  lying
• 11:42
  to
• 11:42
  me
• 11:43
  and
• 11:43
  I
• 11:43
  know
• 11:43
  it.
• 11:44
  Yeah.
• 11:46
  Right.
• 11:47
  Well,
• 11:48
  I
• 11:48
  have
• 11:48
  a,
• 11:48
  I
• 11:48
  have
• 11:48
  a
• 11:49
  look
• 11:49
  for
• 11:49
  that
• 11:49
  too.
• 11:50
  Right.
• 11:58
  Well,
• 11:58
  we
• 11:58
  have
• 11:58
  a
• 11:58
  look
• 11:58
  for
• 11:58
  everything.
• 11:58
  Yeah.
• 11:58
  That's
• 11:58
  interesting.
• 11:58
  That's
• 11:58
  not
• 11:58
  true.
• 11:58
  Yeah.
• 11:58
  Okay.
• 11:58
  Are
• 11:59
  we
• 11:59
  gonna
• 11:59
  s-
• 11:59
  they'll
• 11:59
  do
• 11:59
  that
• 12:00
  or...
• 12:01
  I
• 12:01
  mean,
• 12:01
  I'm
• 12:02
  gonna
• 12:02
  let
• 12:02
  you
• 12:02
  show
• 12:02
  me
• 12:03
  whatever
• 12:03
  you
• 12:03
  wanna
• 12:03
  show
• 12:03
  me,
• 12:04
  but,
• 12:04
  um,
• 12:07
  you're
• 12:07
  breaking
• 12:08
  something
• 12:09
  when
• 12:09
  you're
• 12:10
  lying
• 12:10
  to
• 12:10
  me.
• 12:12
  Mm.
• 12:12
  And
• 12:13
  I've
• 12:13
  been
• 12:13
  thinking
• 12:13
  a
• 12:14
  lot
• 12:14
  about
• 12:17
  Simon
• 12:17
  Sinek
• 12:19
  and
• 12:19
  the
• 12:19
  difference
• 12:19
  between
• 12:20
  being
• 12:20
  nice
• 12:21
  and
• 12:21
  being
• 12:21
  kind.
• 12:24
  Mm.
• 12:24
  Um,
• 12:25
  and
• 12:25
  being
• 12:25
  nice
• 12:26
  is
• 12:26
  that
• 12:26
  performance,
• 12:27
  right?
• 12:27
  And
• 12:27
  being
• 12:28
  kind
• 12:28
  is
• 12:28
  being
• 12:29
  honest.
• 12:31
  But
• 12:31
  it's-
• 12:31
  Yeah
• 12:31
  it's
• 12:32
  such...
• 12:33
  It's
• 12:34
  a...
• 12:37
  That's
• 12:39
  how
• 12:39
  we
• 12:40
  build...
• 12:40
  Oh
• 12:40
  my
• 12:41
  gosh,
• 12:41
  this
• 12:41
  is
• 12:41
  still
• 12:41
  Simon
• 12:42
  Sinek.
• 12:42
  That's
• 12:42
  how
• 12:42
  we
• 12:43
  build
• 12:43
  relationships,
• 12:44
  right?
• 12:44
  Like
• 12:44
  through
• 12:45
  conflict,
• 12:45
  through,
• 12:46
  um-
• 12:47
  Yeah
• 12:47
  honesty
• 12:48
  and
• 12:49
  building
• 12:49
  that
• 12:50
  trust.
• 12:51
  Like,
• 12:52
  if
• 12:52
  I
• 12:52
  can't
• 12:52
  trust
• 12:53
  you
• 12:53
  to
• 12:55
  be
• 12:55
  honest
• 12:55
  with
• 12:55
  me,
• 12:58
  and
• 12:58
  vice
• 12:58
  versa,
• 12:59
  if
• 13:00
  I
• 13:00
  don't
• 13:00
  trust
• 13:00
  you
• 13:00
  enough
• 13:01
  to
• 13:01
  be
• 13:01
  honest,
• 13:03
  that
• 13:03
  speaks
• 13:03
  volumes.
• 13:07
  Yeah.
• 13:07
  I
• 13:07
  love,
• 13:08
  I
• 13:09
  love
• 13:09
  that
• 13:09
  you
• 13:09
  say,
• 13:09
  like,
• 13:09
  the
• 13:10
  whole,
• 13:11
  um,
• 13:12
  facing...
• 13:12
  I'm,
• 13:12
  I,
• 13:13
  I'm
• 13:13
  the
• 13:13
  same
• 13:13
  way.
• 13:13
  Like,
• 13:14
  I
• 13:14
  have
• 13:14
  a
• 13:14
  face.
• 13:14
  Like,
• 13:14
  I,
• 13:15
  I,
• 13:15
  I
• 13:15
  can't
• 13:15
  lie.
• 13:16
  Like,
• 13:16
  I
• 13:16
  have
• 13:16
  such
• 13:16
  a
• 13:16
  hard
• 13:17
  time
• 13:17
  lying
• 13:17
  because
• 13:18
  I
• 13:18
  w-
• 13:18
  I
• 13:18
  give
• 13:18
  myself
• 13:19
  away.
• 13:20
  And
• 13:21
  the
• 13:21
  other
• 13:22
  part
• 13:22
  too
• 13:22
  is
• 13:23
  I
• 13:24
  don't
• 13:24
  wanna...
• 13:24
  I
• 13:24
  don't...
• 13:25
  Like,
• 13:25
  it's
• 13:25
  hard
• 13:25
  for
• 13:26
  me
• 13:26
  to
• 13:26
  keep
• 13:26
  up
• 13:26
  with
• 13:27
  lies.
• 13:27
  Like,
• 13:27
  I
• 13:27
  can't
• 13:27
  keep
• 13:28
  it
• 13:28
  all
• 13:28
  straight.
• 13:28
  I
• 13:28
  can
• 13:29
  keep
• 13:29
  the
• 13:29
  truth
• 13:29
  straight-
• 13:29
  but
• 13:30
  the
• 13:30
  lies
• 13:30
  I
• 13:30
  can't
• 13:30
  keep
• 13:31
  straight.
• 13:31
  Yep.
• 13:31
  So
• 13:31
  that's
• 13:32
  why
• 13:32
  I'm
• 13:32
  not
• 13:32
  a
• 13:32
  good
• 13:32
  liar.
• 13:33
  Oh,
• 13:33
  yeah.
• 13:33
  So
• 13:33
  I'm
• 13:33
  just
• 13:33
  gonna
• 13:33
  tell
• 13:33
  you
• 13:34
  the
• 13:34
  truth.
• 13:35
  Yeah.
• 13:36
  For
• 13:36
  sure.
• 13:37
  I
• 13:37
  don't
• 13:38
  have
• 13:38
  to
• 13:38
  remember
• 13:38
  the
• 13:38
  truth.
• 13:40
  Exactly.
• 13:41
  It,
• 13:41
  it
• 13:41
  just
• 13:41
  is.
• 13:41
  Exactly,
• 13:41
  yeah.
• 13:42
  Yeah.
• 13:42
  Yeah.
• 13:45
  It's
• 13:45
  too
• 13:45
  much
• 13:46
  work
• 13:46
  trying
• 13:46
  to
• 13:46
  remember
• 13:47
  lies.
• 13:48
  Well,
• 13:48
  'cause
• 13:48
  you're
• 13:49
  just
• 13:49
  compound
• 13:49
  it.
• 13:50
  That's...
• 13:50
  And
• 13:50
  that's
• 13:50
  the
• 13:51
  one
• 13:51
  thing
• 13:51
  I
• 13:51
  could
• 13:51
  never
• 13:51
  maintain
• 13:52
  anyway.
• 13:53
  It's
• 13:53
  like
• 13:53
  a,
• 13:53
  even
• 13:54
  a
• 13:54
  simple
• 13:54
  lie,
• 13:55
  like,
• 13:56
  then
• 13:57
  you
• 13:57
  have
• 13:57
  to
• 13:57
  lie
• 13:57
  about
• 13:57
  the
• 13:58
  lie,
• 13:58
  and
• 13:58
  then
• 13:58
  you're
• 13:58
  lying
• 13:59
  about
• 13:59
  the
• 13:59
  lying
• 13:59
  about
• 13:59
  the
• 13:59
  lying.
• 14:00
  And
• 14:00
  it's
• 14:00
  just
• 14:00
  like,
• 14:01
  oh,
• 14:02
  fuck
• 14:02
  this
• 14:02
  shit.
• 14:03
  Like,
• 14:03
  Right.
• 14:04
  Yeah.
• 14:04
  Yeah.
• 14:04
  Yeah,
• 14:05
  exactly.
• 14:05
  It's
• 14:05
  a
• 14:05
  miracle
• 14:06
  I
• 14:06
  got
• 14:06
  through
• 14:06
  the
• 14:06
  first
• 14:07
  one.
• 14:07
  I'm
• 14:07
  never
• 14:08
  gonna
• 14:08
  get
• 14:08
  through
• 14:08
  the
• 14:08
  fourth
• 14:09
  one.
• 14:09
  Like,
• 14:10
  you're
• 14:10
  just
• 14:10
  gonna
• 14:10
  be
• 14:11
  like,
• 14:11
  "When
• 14:11
  did
• 14:11
  you
• 14:12
  start
• 14:12
  lying?"
• 14:12
  You
• 14:12
  know?
• 14:12
  And
• 14:13
  then
• 14:13
  how
• 14:13
  damaging
• 14:14
  is
• 14:14
  that
• 14:14
  to
• 14:15
  relationships,
• 14:15
  right?
• 14:16
  Like,
• 14:17
  so
• 14:17
  it's
• 14:17
  not
• 14:18
  just
• 14:18
  one
• 14:18
  lie.
• 14:18
  You've
• 14:19
  actually
• 14:19
  been
• 14:19
  lying
• 14:20
  for
• 14:20
  h-
• 14:21
  this
• 14:21
  long
• 14:21
  about-
• 14:21
  Right.
• 14:22
  Mm-hmm
• 14:22
  and
• 14:22
  it's
• 14:22
  just
• 14:23
  like,
• 14:23
  ugh.
• 14:24
  Even
• 14:24
  if
• 14:25
  it's-
• 14:25
  Nobody
• 14:25
  wants
• 14:25
  to
• 14:25
  feel
• 14:25
  that.
• 14:26
  Yeah.
• 14:26
  Even
• 14:26
  if,
• 14:27
  like,
• 14:27
  the,
• 14:27
  the
• 14:28
  initial
• 14:28
  lie
• 14:28
  was
• 14:28
  something,
• 14:29
  like,
• 14:29
  really
• 14:29
  minor,
• 14:30
  but
• 14:30
  it
• 14:31
  turns-
• 14:31
  Exactly
• 14:31
  into
• 14:31
  something
• 14:31
  so
• 14:32
  much
• 14:32
  bigger.
• 14:33
  Yep.
• 14:33
  Like,
• 14:34
  like,
• 14:34
  totally
• 14:35
  unnecessary.
• 14:37
  Yep.
• 14:38
  Yep.
• 14:40
  Yeah.
• 14:41
  I...
• 14:42
  We
• 14:42
  talk
• 14:42
  about
• 14:42
  this
• 14:43
  in
• 14:44
  some
• 14:44
  of
• 14:44
  the
• 14:45
  training
• 14:45
  that
• 14:45
  I
• 14:45
  facilitate,
• 14:46
  because
• 14:47
  especially,
• 14:48
  like,
• 14:48
  in
• 14:48
  the
• 14:48
  realm
• 14:48
  of,
• 14:49
  like,
• 14:49
  leadership
• 14:50
  or
• 14:50
  coaching,
• 14:52
  trust
• 14:52
  is
• 14:52
  the
• 14:52
  foundation
• 14:54
  of
• 14:54
  any,
• 14:54
  like,
• 14:55
  positive
• 14:56
  relationship.
• 14:57
  Regardless
• 14:58
  of
• 14:58
  whether
• 14:58
  it's
• 14:58
  a
• 14:58
  professional
• 14:59
  relationship
• 14:59
  or
• 14:59
  a
• 14:59
  personal
• 15:00
  relationship-
• 15:01
  Mm-hmm
• 15:01
  there
• 15:01
  has
• 15:01
  to
• 15:01
  be
• 15:01
  trust.
• 15:03
  And,
• 15:04
  um,
• 15:06
  and
• 15:06
  we
• 15:06
  talk
• 15:06
  all
• 15:07
  the
• 15:07
  time
• 15:07
  about
• 15:07
  how
• 15:07
  trust
• 15:09
  is
• 15:09
  difficult
• 15:10
  to
• 15:10
  earn.
• 15:11
  Like,
• 15:11
  it's...
• 15:11
  Like,
• 15:12
  we
• 15:12
  say
• 15:12
  that
• 15:12
  it's
• 15:12
  gained
• 15:13
  in
• 15:13
  inches
• 15:13
  and
• 15:14
  lost
• 15:14
  in
• 15:14
  miles.
• 15:15
  So
• 15:15
  it's
• 15:15
  like
• 15:16
  the
• 15:16
  compound
• 15:17
  effect
• 15:17
  of
• 15:17
  lies
• 15:18
  or
• 15:18
  time
• 15:19
  that
• 15:19
  has
• 15:19
  passed
• 15:19
  since
• 15:19
  a
• 15:19
  lie
• 15:20
  before
• 15:21
  the
• 15:21
  truth
• 15:21
  is
• 15:21
  uncovered
• 15:22
  is
• 15:23
  where
• 15:23
  you
• 15:23
  lose
• 15:23
  trust
• 15:24
  in
• 15:24
  miles,
• 15:25
  and
• 15:25
  then
• 15:25
  it's
• 15:25
  so
• 15:25
  hard
• 15:26
  to
• 15:26
  regain
• 15:26
  trust.
• 15:27
  And
• 15:27
  for
• 15:27
  me,
• 15:28
  it's
• 15:28
  like,
• 15:30
  uh,
• 15:31
  like
• 15:31
  we've
• 15:31
  said
• 15:31
  this,
• 15:32
  Adriana,
• 15:33
  it's
• 15:33
  like
• 15:33
  once
• 15:34
  I've
• 15:34
  seen
• 15:35
  it,
• 15:35
  it's
• 15:35
  hard
• 15:35
  for
• 15:36
  me
• 15:36
  to
• 15:36
  unsee
• 15:37
  it.
• 15:37
  Yeah.
• 15:37
  Um,
• 15:38
  but
• 15:38
  what
• 15:38
  I,
• 15:39
  like,
• 15:39
  what
• 15:39
  I
• 15:39
  still
• 15:40
  am
• 15:40
  practicing
• 15:41
  is
• 15:41
  that,
• 15:41
  like-
• 15:44
  Uh
• 15:48
  Being
• 15:48
  able
• 15:49
  to,
• 15:49
  like,
• 15:51
  set
• 15:52
  the
• 15:52
  right
• 15:53
  boundaries
• 15:54
  that,
• 15:54
  like,
• 15:56
  preserve
• 15:57
  my
• 15:57
  peace
• 15:58
  and
• 15:58
  still
• 15:58
  give
• 15:59
  the
• 15:59
  other
• 15:59
  person
• 15:59
  space
• 16:00
  to
• 16:00
  change
• 16:00
  if
• 16:01
  my
• 16:01
  trust
• 16:01
  has
• 16:01
  been
• 16:02
  betrayed,
• 16:03
  because
• 16:03
  that's,
• 16:04
  that's
• 16:05
  hard.
• 16:05
  Like,
• 16:05
  I
• 16:05
  would
• 16:05
  kind
• 16:05
  of
• 16:06
  want
• 16:06
  that
• 16:06
  same,
• 16:07
  but
• 16:07
  it's
• 16:08
  hard.
• 16:09
  It's
• 16:09
  hard
• 16:10
  to
• 16:10
  practice
• 16:10
  because
• 16:13
  I
• 16:13
  don't
• 16:13
  know,
• 16:13
  I
• 16:13
  think
• 16:14
  trust
• 16:14
  is,
• 16:14
  like,
• 16:14
  s-
• 16:15
  our
• 16:15
  most
• 16:15
  valuable
• 16:15
  currency.
• 16:17
  Yeah.
• 16:18
  And
• 16:18
  it's
• 16:18
  been
• 16:18
  a
• 16:19
  hard-
• 16:19
  All
• 16:19
  right,
• 16:19
  before
• 16:19
  we
• 16:19
  go...
• 16:19
  Yeah.
• 16:20
  Oh,
• 16:20
  go
• 16:20
  ahead.
• 16:21
  And
• 16:21
  to
• 16:21
  trust,
• 16:22
  right?
• 16:23
  'Cause
• 16:24
  we're
• 16:24
  talking
• 16:24
  about
• 16:24
  honesty.
• 16:25
  So
• 16:25
  true.
• 16:25
  So,
• 16:25
  or
• 16:26
  truth,
• 16:26
  sorry.
• 16:27
  Not
• 16:28
  my
• 16:28
  core
• 16:28
  value.
• 16:29
  The
• 16:29
  Three
• 16:30
  Ripple
• 16:30
  Souls
• 16:30
  value
• 16:31
  on,
• 16:31
  uh,
• 16:32
  truth.
• 16:32
  Oh
• 16:32
  my
• 16:32
  gosh,
• 16:33
  it's
• 16:33
  just,
• 16:33
  like,
• 16:33
  stuck
• 16:34
  in
• 16:34
  my
• 16:34
  head
• 16:34
  now.
• 16:35
  Um,
• 16:37
  we'll
• 16:37
  make
• 16:37
  a
• 16:37
  note
• 16:38
  to
• 16:38
  come
• 16:38
  back
• 16:38
  to
• 16:38
  trust-
• 16:39
  Yeah
• 16:39
  'cause
• 16:39
  that's
• 16:40
  huge.
• 16:40
  Um,
• 16:42
  so
• 16:43
  but
• 16:43
  speaking
• 16:44
  about
• 16:44
  truth,
• 16:45
  like,
• 16:45
  when
• 16:45
  is
• 16:45
  it,
• 16:46
  like,
• 16:46
  easy?
• 16:49
  When
• 16:49
  it,
• 16:49
  when
• 16:49
  is
• 16:49
  truth
• 16:50
  easy?
• 16:50
  And
• 16:51
  when
• 16:51
  is
• 16:51
  it
• 16:52
  still-
• 16:53
  When
• 16:53
  there's
• 16:53
  trust
• 16:53
  really
• 16:54
  difficult?
• 16:55
  Yeah.
• 16:58
  Tell
• 16:59
  me
• 16:59
  more.
• 16:59
  So
• 16:59
  it's,
• 16:59
  here's
• 17:00
  the
• 17:00
  thing.
• 17:00
  I
• 17:00
  don't,
• 17:01
  I
• 17:01
  don't
• 17:01
  know
• 17:01
  if
• 17:02
  it's,
• 17:02
  like,
• 17:02
  ever
• 17:03
  truly
• 17:04
  easy.
• 17:05
  I
• 17:05
  think
• 17:05
  it
• 17:05
  gets
• 17:06
  easier
• 17:07
  with
• 17:08
  practice,
• 17:09
  and
• 17:09
  it's
• 17:09
  easier
• 17:11
  in
• 17:12
  a
• 17:12
  relationship
• 17:13
  that
• 17:13
  does
• 17:14
  have
• 17:14
  a
• 17:14
  good
• 17:14
  foundation
• 17:14
  of
• 17:15
  trust.
• 17:16
  Um,
• 17:16
  or,
• 17:16
  like,
• 17:17
  in
• 17:17
  any
• 17:18
  dynamic
• 17:18
  that
• 17:18
  does
• 17:19
  have
• 17:19
  a
• 17:19
  good
• 17:19
  foundation
• 17:19
  of
• 17:20
  trust.
• 17:21
  But
• 17:21
  it's
• 17:21
  still
• 17:21
  not
• 17:23
  easy.
• 17:24
  Like,
• 17:24
  it's
• 17:25
  a
• 17:25
  simple
• 17:26
  concept
• 17:27
  to
• 17:27
  just
• 17:27
  tell
• 17:28
  the
• 17:28
  truth,
• 17:28
  but
• 17:28
  it's
• 17:28
  not
• 17:29
  always
• 17:29
  easy
• 17:30
  to
• 17:30
  do,
• 17:32
  right?
• 17:33
  Like,
• 17:33
  it's...
• 17:34
  But
• 17:34
  I
• 17:34
  think
• 17:34
  I've,
• 17:35
  I
• 17:35
  think
• 17:36
  a
• 17:36
  big...
• 17:38
  You
• 17:38
  talked
• 17:38
  about,
• 17:38
  like,
• 17:39
  the
• 17:40
  Simon
• 17:40
  Sinek
• 17:41
  idea,
• 17:41
  like
• 17:41
  there's
• 17:42
  a
• 17:42
  difference
• 17:42
  between
• 17:43
  being
• 17:43
  kind
• 17:43
  and
• 17:44
  being
• 17:44
  nice,
• 17:45
  and
• 17:45
  nice
• 17:45
  is
• 17:46
  what
• 17:46
  we
• 17:46
  were
• 17:46
  taught.
• 17:47
  Yeah.
• 17:47
  But
• 17:47
  truth
• 17:48
  is
• 17:48
  always
• 17:48
  kind.
• 17:49
  Yes.
• 17:49
  And
• 17:49
  that's
• 17:49
  also,
• 17:49
  like,
• 17:50
  a
• 17:50
  Brene
• 17:50
  Brown
• 17:50
  thing.
• 17:51
  Like,
• 17:51
  the
• 17:51
  truth
• 17:51
  is
• 17:51
  always
• 17:51
  kind.
• 17:53
  Uh,
• 17:53
  clear
• 17:53
  is
• 17:53
  kind,
• 17:54
  right?
• 17:54
  Like,
• 17:56
  um,
• 17:58
  that's
• 17:59
  been
• 17:59
  a
• 17:59
  hard...
• 18:01
  It's
• 18:01
  been
• 18:01
  a
• 18:02
  hard
• 18:02
  practice
• 18:02
  after
• 18:03
  a
• 18:03
  lifetime
• 18:03
  of
• 18:03
  being
• 18:04
  conditioned
• 18:04
  to
• 18:04
  be
• 18:04
  nice.
• 18:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 18:07
  It's
• 18:07
  a
• 18:07
  hard
• 18:08
  thing
• 18:08
  to
• 18:08
  unlearn,
• 18:09
  that,
• 18:09
  like,
• 18:10
  auto
• 18:10
  response
• 18:11
  or
• 18:11
  that,
• 18:11
  like,
• 18:12
  fluffy
• 18:13
  version.
• 18:15
  Yeah.
• 18:16
  Yeah,
• 18:16
  'cause
• 18:16
  it
• 18:16
  feels
• 18:16
  so
• 18:17
  unsafe,
• 18:17
  right?
• 18:18
  Like,
• 18:18
  it's,
• 18:18
  uh,
• 18:19
  it's
• 18:19
  always
• 18:19
  what
• 18:19
  we
• 18:19
  were
• 18:20
  taught-
• 18:22
  That,
• 18:23
  right?
• 18:23
  Like,
• 18:24
  it's
• 18:24
  not
• 18:24
  safe-
• 18:25
  Yeah
• 18:26
  to
• 18:26
  be,
• 18:27
  to
• 18:27
  be
• 18:27
  truthful,
• 18:29
  whether
• 18:29
  it's
• 18:29
  about-
• 18:30
  Yeah,
• 18:30
  like
• 18:30
  we
• 18:30
  can't
• 18:30
  s-
• 18:30
  you
• 18:30
  can't
• 18:31
  say
• 18:31
  that.
• 18:31
  Right.
• 18:32
  You
• 18:32
  don't
• 18:32
  say
• 18:32
  that.
• 18:33
  Right.
• 18:34
  You
• 18:34
  don't
• 18:34
  talk-
• 18:34
  Yeah,
• 18:34
  yeah.
• 18:35
  There's,
• 18:35
  like,
• 18:36
  a
• 18:36
  lot
• 18:36
  of
• 18:38
  niceties,
• 18:39
  again
• 18:42
  But
• 18:42
  I
• 18:42
  can't,
• 18:42
  I
• 18:42
  can't,
• 18:43
  like,
• 18:44
  that
• 18:45
  sort
• 18:45
  of
• 18:45
  like
• 18:47
  the
• 18:47
  disingenuous
• 18:48
  niceties
• 18:49
  give
• 18:49
  me
• 18:50
  like
• 18:50
  a
• 18:50
  visceral
• 18:50
  reaction
• 18:51
  now
• 18:51
  Right.
• 18:51
  Yeah
• 18:51
  Like,
• 18:51
  I,
• 18:52
  it
• 18:52
  gives
• 18:52
  me
• 18:52
  the
• 18:52
  ick.
• 18:53
  Mm-hmm.
• 18:56
  I'd
• 18:57
  rather
• 18:57
  feel
• 18:58
  Like
• 18:58
  you
• 18:59
  said,
• 18:59
  the
• 18:59
  discomfort
• 19:00
  for
• 19:00
  a
• 19:00
  minute
• 19:02
  of
• 19:02
  truth
• 19:03
  than
• 19:03
  like
• 19:03
  the
• 19:04
  ick
• 19:04
  of
• 19:04
  the
• 19:07
  Inauthentic
• 19:09
  Yeah.
• 19:10
  I
• 19:10
  still
• 19:10
  feel
• 19:11
  like
• 19:11
  so
• 19:11
  many
• 19:11
  people
• 19:11
  are
• 19:11
  not
• 19:12
  opening,
• 19:12
  opened,
• 19:13
  open
• 19:14
  to,
• 19:14
  like,
• 19:15
  hearing-
• 19:16
  Oh,
• 19:16
  yeah
• 19:17
  truth,
• 19:17
  to
• 19:18
  having
• 19:18
  real
• 19:20
  truthful
• 19:20
  conversations
• 19:22
  Because
• 19:22
  it's,
• 19:22
  it's
• 19:23
  hard
• 19:24
  Right,
• 19:25
  because
• 19:25
  it
• 19:25
  requires,
• 19:26
  right,
• 19:26
  because
• 19:26
  someone
• 19:26
  tells
• 19:27
  you-
• 19:27
  It
• 19:27
  requires
• 19:27
  vulnerability,
• 19:28
  and
• 19:28
  that's
• 19:29
  hard
• 19:30
  And
• 19:30
  discomfort.
• 19:31
  Yeah.
• 19:32
  Totally,
• 19:32
  yeah.
• 19:32
  And,
• 19:33
  and
• 19:33
  to
• 19:33
  be
• 19:33
  willing
• 19:34
  to
• 19:34
  look
• 19:34
  at
• 19:34
  yourself
• 19:34
  when
• 19:34
  someone
• 19:35
  tells
• 19:35
  you
• 19:36
  whatever's
• 19:37
  true
• 19:37
  for
• 19:37
  them.
• 19:38
  But
• 19:39
  I
• 19:39
  also
• 19:39
  feel
• 19:39
  like
• 19:40
  it's,
• 19:41
  like,
• 19:41
  truth
• 19:42
  is
• 19:42
  also
• 19:42
  a
• 19:42
  word
• 19:42
  that
• 19:43
  gets,
• 19:45
  maybe
• 19:45
  not
• 19:45
  truth
• 19:46
  itself,
• 19:46
  but
• 19:46
  what
• 19:46
  people
• 19:47
  consider
• 19:49
  to
• 19:49
  be
• 19:49
  truthful
• 19:51
  gets
• 19:51
  thrown
• 19:52
  around
• 19:52
  a
• 19:52
  lot,
• 19:52
  where,
• 19:53
  like,
• 19:54
  um,
• 19:56
  let's
• 19:56
  say,
• 19:57
  uh,
• 19:57
  in
• 19:57
  a
• 19:58
  relationship
• 19:59
  and
• 19:59
  someone's
• 20:00
  mad
• 20:00
  at
• 20:00
  you
• 20:00
  for
• 20:01
  whatever
• 20:01
  reason,
• 20:03
  and
• 20:03
  they
• 20:04
  just
• 20:04
  wanna
• 20:04
  say,
• 20:06
  "Well,
• 20:06
  y-
• 20:06
  you're
• 20:07
  a
• 20:07
  mean
• 20:07
  person,"
• 20:07
  and
• 20:08
  whatever,
• 20:08
  just
• 20:08
  because
• 20:08
  they
• 20:09
  didn't
• 20:09
  like
• 20:11
  something
• 20:11
  that
• 20:11
  you
• 20:11
  said
• 20:12
  or
• 20:12
  whatever
• 20:12
  the
• 20:12
  situation
• 20:13
  was.
• 20:13
  But
• 20:13
  it
• 20:14
  doesn't
• 20:14
  mean
• 20:14
  you
• 20:14
  actually
• 20:15
  are
• 20:15
  a
• 20:15
  mean
• 20:16
  person,
• 20:17
  right?
• 20:17
  But
• 20:17
  to
• 20:17
  them,
• 20:17
  well,
• 20:18
  it's
• 20:18
  true
• 20:18
  and
• 20:18
  you're
• 20:19
  mean.
• 20:21
  But
• 20:22
  is
• 20:22
  it
• 20:22
  true?
• 20:23
  Are
• 20:23
  they
• 20:23
  really
• 20:23
  mean
• 20:24
  or
• 20:24
  you
• 20:24
  just
• 20:24
  didn't
• 20:24
  like
• 20:24
  what
• 20:24
  the
• 20:24
  person
• 20:25
  said?
• 20:26
  You
• 20:26
  know,
• 20:26
  because
• 20:27
  people
• 20:27
  say,
• 20:27
  "Well,
• 20:28
  it's
• 20:28
  the
• 20:28
  truth"
• 20:28
  about
• 20:28
  so
• 20:29
  many
• 20:29
  things
• 20:29
  that
• 20:29
  aren't
• 20:30
  really...
• 20:32
  You
• 20:32
  know
• 20:32
  what
• 20:32
  I
• 20:32
  mean?
• 20:32
  Do,
• 20:33
  am
• 20:33
  I
• 20:33
  getting
• 20:33
  my
• 20:33
  point
• 20:34
  across?
• 20:34
  Great
• 20:34
  point,
• 20:34
  yes.
• 20:34
  You're
• 20:34
  talking
• 20:34
  about
• 20:35
  opinion
• 20:35
  versus
• 20:36
  truth.
• 20:36
  Yeah.
• 20:36
  Right,
• 20:37
  yes.
• 20:37
  Right.
• 20:37
  Exactly.
• 20:38
  Yes.
• 20:39
  You
• 20:39
  know?
• 20:39
  And
• 20:39
  so
• 20:39
  many
• 20:40
  people,
• 20:40
  it's
• 20:40
  like,
• 20:40
  "Well,
• 20:40
  I'm
• 20:40
  telling
• 20:40
  you
• 20:41
  the
• 20:41
  truth.
• 20:41
  I'm
• 20:41
  telling
• 20:41
  you
• 20:41
  the
• 20:41
  truth."
• 20:42
  And
• 20:42
  it's
• 20:42
  like,
• 20:42
  but
• 20:42
  that's
• 20:43
  not
• 20:43
  really
• 20:43
  true.
• 20:43
  As
• 20:43
  you
• 20:44
  see
• 20:44
  it.
• 20:44
  Right.
• 20:44
  Right.
• 20:45
  That's
• 20:46
  an
• 20:46
  opinion
• 20:47
  or
• 20:47
  a
• 20:47
  belief.
• 20:48
  Right.
• 20:49
  Right.
• 20:50
  Which
• 20:50
  is-
• 20:50
  Or
• 20:50
  it's
• 20:50
  connected
• 20:51
  to
• 20:51
  some
• 20:51
  other,
• 20:51
  yeah,
• 20:52
  like
• 20:52
  it's
• 20:52
  connected
• 20:52
  to
• 20:52
  some
• 20:52
  other
• 20:53
  underlying
• 20:53
  thing.
• 20:55
  Just
• 20:55
  different
• 20:55
  than
• 20:55
  truth.
• 20:56
  And
• 20:56
  you're
• 20:56
  filtering
• 20:57
  the
• 20:58
  experience
• 20:58
  through
• 20:59
  your
• 20:59
  perception.
• 21:00
  Yeah.
• 21:01
  Exactly.
• 21:01
  And
• 21:01
  so
• 21:01
  again,
• 21:01
  it's
• 21:02
  like,
• 21:02
  I
• 21:03
  think
• 21:04
  there's,
• 21:05
  there's
• 21:05
  also,
• 21:05
  like,
• 21:06
  this
• 21:07
  kind
• 21:07
  of
• 21:08
  therapy
• 21:08
  speak
• 21:09
  that's
• 21:10
  also
• 21:10
  being
• 21:11
  potentially
• 21:12
  weaponized.
• 21:13
  Like,
• 21:13
  "Well,
• 21:13
  this
• 21:13
  is
• 21:13
  my
• 21:14
  truth."
• 21:14
  Mm.
• 21:15
  Like,
• 21:16
  right?
• 21:16
  Right.
• 21:17
  And,
• 21:17
  and
• 21:17
  that's
• 21:18
  like
• 21:18
  the
• 21:19
  my
• 21:19
  truth
• 21:20
  is
• 21:20
  this,
• 21:21
  and
• 21:21
  it's
• 21:21
  being
• 21:21
  kind
• 21:22
  of
• 21:22
  used
• 21:22
  as
• 21:22
  an
• 21:23
  excuse
• 21:24
  in
• 21:24
  some-
• 21:25
  Right
• 21:25
  cases.
• 21:27
  Which
• 21:27
  is,
• 21:27
  I
• 21:27
  mean,
• 21:28
  that's
• 21:28
  connected
• 21:28
  to
• 21:28
  what
• 21:28
  you
• 21:29
  just
• 21:29
  said
• 21:29
  too,
• 21:29
  Solana,
• 21:30
  that,
• 21:30
  like,
• 21:30
  the
• 21:31
  opinion,
• 21:32
  the
• 21:32
  belief.
• 21:33
  Mm-hmm.
• 21:33
  Right?
• 21:33
  It's
• 21:34
  your
• 21:34
  experience
• 21:34
  of
• 21:34
  it.
• 21:36
  There
• 21:36
  may
• 21:36
  be
• 21:36
  some
• 21:37
  validity
• 21:37
  to
• 21:37
  the
• 21:38
  experience
• 21:38
  or
• 21:38
  to
• 21:38
  the
• 21:39
  feelings
• 21:39
  you
• 21:39
  have
• 21:39
  or
• 21:39
  to,
• 21:40
  you
• 21:40
  know,
• 21:40
  whatever,
• 21:41
  but
• 21:41
  in,
• 21:42
  in
• 21:42
  most
• 21:42
  cases
• 21:43
  the
• 21:43
  truth
• 21:43
  is
• 21:43
  not
• 21:45
  that
• 21:46
  polarized.
• 21:47
  It's
• 21:47
  always,
• 21:47
  it's
• 21:48
  usually
• 21:48
  somewhere
• 21:48
  in
• 21:48
  the
• 21:48
  middle
• 21:49
  of
• 21:50
  the
• 21:50
  two-
• 21:50
  people's
• 21:50
  experiences,
• 21:51
  right?
• 21:51
  Yeah.
• 21:51
  Like,
• 21:51
  it's
• 21:51
  not,
• 21:52
  like-
• 21:52
  Yeah
• 21:52
  your
• 21:53
  experience
• 21:53
  and
• 21:53
  my
• 21:53
  experience,
• 21:54
  and
• 21:54
  the
• 21:54
  truth
• 21:54
  is
• 21:54
  probably
• 21:55
  somewhere
• 21:55
  in
• 21:55
  the
• 21:55
  middle.
• 21:56
  But-
• 21:56
  Yeah
• 21:56
  I
• 21:56
  think
• 21:57
  people
• 21:57
  weaponize,
• 21:58
  be
• 21:58
  like,
• 21:58
  "This
• 21:58
  is
• 21:58
  my
• 21:58
  truth,"
• 22:00
  and
• 22:01
  they
• 22:01
  want
• 22:01
  kind
• 22:02
  of
• 22:02
  validation
• 22:02
  in
• 22:03
  that
• 22:03
  even
• 22:03
  though-
• 22:04
  Mm
• 22:05
  they're
• 22:05
  not
• 22:05
  willing
• 22:05
  to
• 22:06
  acknowledge
• 22:06
  your
• 22:06
  truth.
• 22:08
  That's
• 22:08
  where
• 22:08
  it
• 22:08
  feels
• 22:09
  shitty.
• 22:10
  That's
• 22:10
  it.
• 22:10
  Yeah.
• 22:11
  It's
• 22:11
  also
• 22:11
  used
• 22:11
  to
• 22:11
  manipulate
• 22:12
  others.
• 22:13
  Yes.
• 22:17
  I
• 22:17
  like
• 22:17
  that
• 22:17
  distinction.
• 22:19
  I
• 22:19
  don't
• 22:19
  know
• 22:20
  if
• 22:20
  I'm
• 22:20
  gonna
• 22:20
  say
• 22:20
  my
• 22:20
  truth
• 22:21
  anymore.
• 22:23
  Mm-hmm.
• 22:24
  I
• 22:24
  don't
• 22:24
  know
• 22:24
  if
• 22:24
  I
• 22:24
  use
• 22:24
  that
• 22:25
  all
• 22:25
  that
• 22:25
  much.
• 22:26
  I
• 22:26
  usually
• 22:26
  say,
• 22:27
  "In
• 22:27
  my
• 22:27
  experience,"
• 22:28
  because-
• 22:28
  Mm-hmm
• 22:28
  that's
• 22:29
  what
• 22:29
  it
• 22:29
  is.
• 22:29
  It's
• 22:30
  my
• 22:30
  experience.
• 22:32
  Right.
• 22:32
  It's
• 22:32
  not
• 22:32
  somebody
• 22:33
  else's,
• 22:33
  everybody's
• 22:34
  is
• 22:34
  different.
• 22:34
  And
• 22:34
  I'm,
• 22:35
  and
• 22:35
  by
• 22:35
  saying
• 22:36
  my
• 22:36
  experience,
• 22:36
  I'm
• 22:36
  not
• 22:37
  suggesting
• 22:37
  that
• 22:37
  it
• 22:37
  should
• 22:38
  also
• 22:38
  be
• 22:38
  your
• 22:38
  experience.
• 22:39
  Right.
• 22:39
  Right.
• 22:39
  Right.
• 22:40
  Or
• 22:40
  that
• 22:40
  it
• 22:40
  could,
• 22:40
  or
• 22:41
  that
• 22:41
  my
• 22:41
  experience
• 22:41
  could
• 22:41
  be
• 22:41
  taken
• 22:42
  from
• 22:42
  me
• 22:42
  either.
• 22:43
  Yeah.
• 22:44
  Right.
• 22:45
  Because
• 22:45
  the
• 22:45
  truth
• 22:46
  is
• 22:46
  just-
• 22:47
  Yeah
• 22:48
  a
• 22:48
  universal
• 22:49
  fact,
• 22:50
  right?
• 22:51
  Mm-hmm.
• 22:52
  I
• 22:52
  like
• 22:52
  the
• 22:52
  sentence
• 22:53
  starter
• 22:53
  that
• 22:54
  Brené
• 22:55
  teaches
• 22:55
  us
• 22:55
  to
• 22:55
  use.
• 22:56
  Um,
• 22:57
  like
• 22:57
  the
• 22:57
  story
• 22:58
  I'm
• 22:58
  telling
• 22:58
  myself
• 22:59
  or
• 22:59
  the
• 22:59
  story
• 23:00
  that-
• 23:00
  Mm-hmm
• 23:00
  like
• 23:00
  is,
• 23:02
  is
• 23:02
  coming
• 23:02
  up
• 23:02
  for
• 23:02
  me
• 23:02
  in
• 23:03
  this
• 23:03
  situation,
• 23:03
  because
• 23:04
  that's
• 23:04
  what
• 23:04
  it
• 23:04
  is.
• 23:04
  It's
• 23:05
  like-
• 23:05
  Yeah
• 23:06
  it's
• 23:06
  the
• 23:06
  narrative
• 23:06
  that
• 23:06
  we
• 23:07
  fill
• 23:07
  in
• 23:07
  based
• 23:08
  on
• 23:08
  our
• 23:08
  past
• 23:09
  experiences
• 23:12
  that
• 23:12
  can
• 23:12
  kind
• 23:13
  of
• 23:13
  color
• 23:15
  what
• 23:15
  that
• 23:16
  is.
• 23:16
  But
• 23:17
  I,
• 23:17
  but
• 23:17
  I
• 23:18
  think,
• 23:19
  I
• 23:19
  think
• 23:19
  at
• 23:19
  the
• 23:20
  heart
• 23:20
  of
• 23:20
  this
• 23:20
  or
• 23:20
  at
• 23:21
  the
• 23:21
  root
• 23:21
  of
• 23:21
  this,
• 23:21
  it's
• 23:22
  that
• 23:22
  like
• 23:24
  I-
• 23:27
  I
• 23:28
  don't
• 23:28
  think
• 23:28
  that
• 23:29
  people
• 23:31
  Have,
• 23:33
  uh,
• 23:33
  I
• 23:33
  think
• 23:34
  we're
• 23:34
  getting
• 23:34
  there,
• 23:34
  but
• 23:35
  I
• 23:35
  don't
• 23:35
  think
• 23:35
  we're
• 23:35
  there
• 23:36
  yet,
• 23:37
  like
• 23:37
  kind
• 23:37
  of
• 23:38
  culturally
• 23:39
  or
• 23:39
  as
• 23:39
  a
• 23:39
  society
• 23:40
  that
• 23:40
  like,
• 23:42
  that
• 23:42
  the
• 23:43
  uncomfortable
• 23:43
  truth
• 23:44
  is
• 23:45
  always
• 23:45
  the
• 23:45
  best
• 23:46
  path.
• 23:46
  There's
• 23:46
  still
• 23:47
  so
• 23:47
  many
• 23:47
  folks
• 23:47
  that
• 23:48
  have
• 23:48
  a
• 23:48
  hard
• 23:48
  time
• 23:49
  having
• 23:49
  difficult
• 23:50
  conversations
• 23:51
  or
• 23:52
  providing
• 23:53
  like
• 23:54
  critical
• 23:54
  feedback
• 23:54
  or
• 23:55
  holding
• 23:55
  people
• 23:55
  accountable
• 23:56
  with,
• 23:56
  again,
• 23:57
  in,
• 23:57
  in
• 23:57
  any
• 23:57
  and
• 23:58
  all
• 23:58
  relationship
• 23:59
  dynamics
• 23:59
  and
• 23:59
  environments.
• 24:01
  Right.
• 24:01
  But
• 24:01
  our
• 24:02
  inability
• 24:02
  to
• 24:02
  have
• 24:03
  hard
• 24:04
  conversations
• 24:04
  or
• 24:05
  to
• 24:05
  lean
• 24:06
  into
• 24:06
  like
• 24:08
  those
• 24:08
  things
• 24:09
  is
• 24:11
  holding
• 24:12
  us
• 24:12
  back.
• 24:12
  I
• 24:12
  mean,
• 24:13
  like
• 24:13
  the
• 24:13
  truth
• 24:13
  is
• 24:13
  always
• 24:14
  kind,
• 24:14
  right?
• 24:16
  Just
• 24:16
  keep
• 24:16
  saying
• 24:16
  that.
• 24:17
  Feel
• 24:17
  like
• 24:17
  a
• 24:17
  broken
• 24:17
  record,
• 24:18
  but
• 24:18
  it's
• 24:18
  always
• 24:18
  kind.
• 24:19
  Even
• 24:19
  if
• 24:19
  it's
• 24:19
  hard,
• 24:20
  it's
• 24:20
  kind.
• 24:21
  Yes.
• 24:22
  Adriana,
• 24:23
  as
• 24:23
  a
• 24:23
  truth
• 24:23
  speaker,
• 24:25
  is
• 24:25
  there
• 24:25
  anywhere
• 24:26
  that
• 24:26
  you
• 24:26
  struggle
• 24:27
  with
• 24:27
  it?
• 24:29
  Oh,
• 24:29
  yeah.
• 24:30
  I
• 24:30
  mean,
• 24:30
  in,
• 24:30
  in
• 24:30
  relationships
• 24:31
  I
• 24:31
  do.
• 24:32
  You
• 24:32
  know,
• 24:32
  it's
• 24:33
  always
• 24:33
  really
• 24:33
  hard
• 24:34
  because
• 24:34
  of
• 24:35
  being
• 24:35
  told,
• 24:35
  you
• 24:36
  know,
• 24:36
  again,
• 24:36
  be
• 24:36
  nice,
• 24:37
  be,
• 24:37
  you
• 24:37
  know,
• 24:41
  like
• 24:41
  put
• 24:41
  everybody
• 24:42
  else's
• 24:42
  feelings
• 24:43
  before
• 24:43
  your
• 24:43
  own
• 24:44
  so
• 24:44
  don't-
• 24:45
  Mm
• 24:45
  you
• 24:46
  know,
• 24:46
  don't
• 24:47
  tell
• 24:47
  the
• 24:47
  truth.
• 24:48
  So
• 24:48
  that's
• 24:49
  really,
• 24:49
  still
• 24:50
  really
• 24:50
  difficult
• 24:50
  for
• 24:50
  me
• 24:51
  in
• 24:51
  relationships.
• 24:53
  Uh,
• 24:54
  you
• 24:54
  know,
• 24:54
  specifically
• 24:55
  when
• 24:55
  there's,
• 24:55
  um-
• 24:59
  When
• 24:59
  there
• 24:59
  is
• 24:59
  like,
• 25:00
  um,
• 25:01
  an
• 25:01
  issue
• 25:01
  in,
• 25:01
  with
• 25:02
  the
• 25:02
  relationship.
• 25:02
  Like
• 25:03
  it's
• 25:03
  hard
• 25:03
  for
• 25:03
  me
• 25:03
  to
• 25:06
  open
• 25:07
  up
• 25:07
  and
• 25:09
  say
• 25:11
  what
• 25:11
  I,
• 25:12
  what
• 25:12
  I'm
• 25:12
  feeling
• 25:12
  about
• 25:12
  the
• 25:13
  relationship.
• 25:14
  That's,
• 25:14
  that's
• 25:14
  hard
• 25:14
  for
• 25:15
  me.
• 25:16
  Because
• 25:17
  again,
• 25:17
  it's,
• 25:17
  oh,
• 25:17
  well,
• 25:18
  how
• 25:18
  are
• 25:18
  they
• 25:18
  gonna
• 25:18
  take
• 25:18
  it?
• 25:19
  How
• 25:19
  are
• 25:19
  they
• 25:19
  gonna
• 25:19
  feel?
• 25:21
  You
• 25:21
  know,
• 25:21
  the
• 25:21
  people
• 25:22
  pleasing.
• 25:23
  Managing
• 25:24
  other
• 25:24
  people's
• 25:24
  reactions.
• 25:25
  Right.
• 25:26
  Which
• 25:26
  is
• 25:26
  manipulation.
• 25:27
  Exactly.
• 25:27
  Right?
• 25:28
  Um,
• 25:29
  but
• 25:30
  yeah,
• 25:30
  so
• 25:30
  I,
• 25:30
  I
• 25:30
  find
• 25:31
  that
• 25:31
  I-
• 25:33
  I
• 25:33
  feel
• 25:34
  like
• 25:34
  I'm
• 25:34
  way
• 25:35
  better
• 25:35
  than
• 25:36
  I've
• 25:36
  ever
• 25:36
  been
• 25:37
  in
• 25:37
  that
• 25:38
  department,
• 25:38
  but
• 25:38
  I
• 25:38
  definitely
• 25:39
  still
• 25:39
  struggle
• 25:40
  with,
• 25:40
  um
• 25:43
  Telling
• 25:43
  people
• 25:43
  that
• 25:44
  at
• 25:44
  some
• 25:44
  point
• 25:46
  I
• 25:47
  I
• 25:47
  think
• 25:48
  it,
• 25:48
  yeah,
• 25:48
  trust
• 25:48
  is
• 25:49
  huge,
• 25:49
  right?
• 25:50
  In
• 25:50
  this
• 25:51
  context,
• 25:52
  right?
• 25:52
  Like,
• 25:54
  I
• 25:54
  feel
• 25:54
  like
• 25:54
  I
• 25:54
  could
• 25:55
  tell
• 25:55
  you
• 25:55
  guys
• 25:55
  anything.
• 25:56
  Mm-hmm.
• 26:01
  Yeah.
• 26:01
  And
• 26:01
  it
• 26:01
  would
• 26:01
  be
• 26:01
  met
• 26:01
  with
• 26:01
  openness
• 26:01
  and
• 26:01
  curiosity,
• 26:02
  and
• 26:03
  I
• 26:03
  wouldn't
• 26:03
  have
• 26:03
  to
• 26:03
  worry
• 26:03
  about
• 26:04
  trying
• 26:04
  to
• 26:04
  manage
• 26:05
  your
• 26:05
  reaction.
• 26:06
  Right.
• 26:07
  Right?
• 26:07
  Mm-hmm.
• 26:11
  But
• 26:12
  it
• 26:13
  still
• 26:13
  feels
• 26:13
  like
• 26:13
  a
• 26:13
  struggle
• 26:14
  in
• 26:14
  most
• 26:14
  other
• 26:15
  areas
• 26:17
  for
• 26:17
  me.
• 26:18
  Um
• 26:21
  One
• 26:21
  of
• 26:21
  the
• 26:21
  things
• 26:22
  I
• 26:22
  try
• 26:22
  to
• 26:25
  keep
• 26:25
  in
• 26:25
  my
• 26:25
  mind
• 26:26
  to
• 26:26
  help
• 26:27
  me
• 26:28
  with
• 26:28
  it
• 26:29
  is
• 26:30
  that
• 26:30
  kindness,
• 26:31
  right?
• 26:31
  In,
• 26:32
  in
• 26:32
  the
• 26:32
  cost
• 26:33
  associated
• 26:34
  with-
• 26:35
  Mm
• 26:38
  Not
• 26:39
  addressing
• 26:40
  things
• 26:41
  because
• 26:42
  the
• 26:42
  cost
• 26:42
  just
• 26:43
  grows
• 26:43
  and
• 26:44
  grows
• 26:44
  and
• 26:44
  grows,
• 26:45
  um
• 26:47
  Yeah,
• 26:48
  you
• 26:48
  just
• 26:48
  put
• 26:48
  so
• 26:48
  much
• 26:48
  more
• 26:49
  distance
• 26:49
  in
• 26:49
  between
• 26:50
  it,
• 26:50
  right?
• 26:51
  When
• 26:51
  you
• 26:51
  don't,
• 26:51
  you
• 26:51
  know,
• 26:51
  speak
• 26:51
  up.
• 26:51
  And
• 26:51
  it's,
• 26:52
  I
• 26:52
  mean,
• 26:52
  it's
• 26:52
  a
• 26:52
  weight
• 26:52
  that
• 26:53
  you
• 26:53
  carry.
• 26:54
  Right.
• 26:55
  That's
• 26:55
  true.
• 26:55
  Well,
• 26:56
  so
• 26:57
  let
• 26:57
  me
• 26:57
  just
• 26:58
  make
• 26:58
  up
• 26:59
  an
• 26:59
  example.
• 27:00
  Or
• 27:01
  no,
• 27:01
  I'll
• 27:01
  use
• 27:01
  something
• 27:02
  from
• 27:02
  my
• 27:02
  past.
• 27:02
  Um,
• 27:04
  working
• 27:04
  with
• 27:04
  somebody
• 27:05
  that
• 27:08
  was
• 27:08
  new,
• 27:09
  and
• 27:09
  I'm
• 27:10
  highly
• 27:10
  efficient,
• 27:11
  very
• 27:11
  confident,
• 27:13
  or
• 27:13
  con-
• 27:14
  uh,
• 27:15
  uh,
• 27:15
  confident.
• 27:16
  Um,
• 27:18
  I'm
• 27:18
  a
• 27:18
  very
• 27:18
  dedicated,
• 27:20
  hardworking,
• 27:21
  I
• 27:21
  wanna
• 27:21
  do
• 27:22
  things
• 27:22
  well.
• 27:24
  I
• 27:24
  like
• 27:25
  to
• 27:25
  be
• 27:26
  the
• 27:26
  best
• 27:27
  at
• 27:27
  anything
• 27:27
  I
• 27:27
  put
• 27:27
  my
• 27:27
  mind
• 27:28
  to.
• 27:28
  Not
• 27:28
  better
• 27:28
  than
• 27:29
  others.
• 27:30
  Right.
• 27:30
  Same.
• 27:30
  The
• 27:30
  best
• 27:30
  that
• 27:31
  I
• 27:31
  can
• 27:31
  do-
• 27:31
  Right
• 27:32
  to
• 27:32
  be
• 27:32
  clear.
• 27:34
  It's
• 27:34
  taken
• 27:34
  me
• 27:34
  a
• 27:34
  long
• 27:34
  time
• 27:34
  to
• 27:34
  figure
• 27:35
  this
• 27:35
  out,
• 27:35
  but
• 27:35
  I
• 27:35
  finally
• 27:36
  figured
• 27:36
  it
• 27:36
  out.
• 27:36
  Okay,
• 27:37
  so,
• 27:38
  um,
• 27:40
  this
• 27:40
  other
• 27:40
  person
• 27:41
  was
• 27:41
  not
• 27:41
  like
• 27:42
  that,
• 27:42
  and,
• 27:43
  um,
• 27:45
  trying
• 27:45
  to
• 27:45
  train,
• 27:46
  trying
• 27:46
  to
• 27:46
  train,
• 27:47
  trying
• 27:47
  to
• 27:47
  train.
• 27:48
  Like,
• 27:48
  going
• 27:48
  over
• 27:49
  and
• 27:49
  over
• 27:49
  and
• 27:49
  over
• 27:49
  things,
• 27:50
  which
• 27:50
  is
• 27:51
  a
• 27:51
  huge
• 27:51
  pet
• 27:51
  peeve
• 27:52
  of
• 27:52
  mine.
• 27:52
  I
• 27:52
  hate
• 27:52
  repeating
• 27:53
  myself.
• 27:54
  My
• 27:54
  brain
• 27:54
  works
• 27:54
  really
• 27:55
  fast,
• 27:55
  and,
• 27:56
  uh,
• 27:56
  I
• 27:56
  get
• 27:57
  super
• 27:57
  frustrated
• 27:58
  when
• 27:58
  I
• 27:58
  have
• 27:59
  to
• 27:59
  repeat
• 27:59
  simple
• 28:00
  things.
• 28:01
  Um,
• 28:03
  and
• 28:03
  you
• 28:03
  know,
• 28:04
  like,
• 28:04
  eventually
• 28:05
  just
• 28:05
  giving
• 28:05
  up
• 28:06
  because
• 28:08
  nothing
• 28:08
  ever
• 28:08
  changed,
• 28:09
  and
• 28:09
  I
• 28:09
  really
• 28:10
  hate
• 28:10
  repeating
• 28:10
  myself.
• 28:11
  And
• 28:12
  so
• 28:12
  the
• 28:12
  cost
• 28:12
  to
• 28:13
  me
• 28:13
  in
• 28:13
  the
• 28:13
  long
• 28:13
  run
• 28:13
  was
• 28:14
  I
• 28:14
  was
• 28:14
  doing
• 28:14
  all
• 28:15
  the
• 28:15
  work-
• 28:16
  Oh,
• 28:16
  yeah
• 28:17
  until
• 28:17
  I
• 28:17
  got
• 28:18
  another
• 28:18
  job,
• 28:20
  and
• 28:20
  the
• 28:20
  person
• 28:21
  they
• 28:21
  hired
• 28:21
  to
• 28:21
  replace
• 28:22
  me
• 28:22
  now
• 28:23
  had
• 28:23
  to
• 28:24
  deal
• 28:24
  with
• 28:24
  this
• 28:24
  other
• 28:25
  person's
• 28:25
  incompetence.
• 28:28
  And
• 28:29
  let
• 28:29
  me
• 28:29
  say,
• 28:29
  the
• 28:29
  person
• 28:30
  that
• 28:30
  they
• 28:30
  hired
• 28:30
  to
• 28:30
  replace
• 28:31
  me
• 28:31
  doesn't
• 28:31
  work
• 28:33
  there
• 28:33
  anymore.
• 28:34
  The
• 28:34
  person
• 28:35
  who
• 28:35
  was
• 28:35
  incompetent
• 28:36
  still
• 28:36
  works
• 28:36
  there.
• 28:37
  So
• 28:39
  that's
• 28:39
  a
• 28:39
  huge
• 28:39
  cost.
• 28:40
  Like,
• 28:40
  uh,
• 28:41
  and
• 28:41
  that's
• 28:41
  detrimental
• 28:42
  to
• 28:42
  everybody.
• 28:43
  So
• 28:43
  not
• 28:45
  escalating
• 28:46
  things
• 28:47
  or
• 28:48
  really,
• 28:49
  like,
• 28:51
  making
• 28:51
  it
• 28:51
  known
• 28:52
  how
• 28:55
  Costly
• 28:55
  it
• 28:56
  was,
• 28:56
  not
• 28:56
  just
• 28:57
  to
• 28:57
  me,
• 28:58
  but
• 28:58
  to
• 28:58
  everybody.
• 29:00
  'Cause
• 29:00
  it
• 29:00
  wasn't
• 29:01
  just
• 29:01
  affecting
• 29:01
  me,
• 29:02
  it
• 29:02
  was
• 29:02
  affecting
• 29:03
  every
• 29:03
  per-
• 29:04
  everyone
• 29:05
  that
• 29:05
  this
• 29:05
  person
• 29:05
  interacted
• 29:06
  with
• 29:06
  or
• 29:07
  did
• 29:07
  not
• 29:07
  interact
• 29:08
  with.
• 29:08
  You
• 29:08
  know
• 29:08
  what
• 29:09
  I
• 29:09
  mean?
• 29:09
  Yes.
• 29:09
  So
• 29:10
  that's
• 29:11
  what
• 29:11
  I
• 29:11
  try
• 29:11
  to
• 29:11
  keep
• 29:12
  in
• 29:12
  mind
• 29:12
  to
• 29:12
  help
• 29:12
  me,
• 29:14
  so
• 29:14
  I
• 29:14
  feel
• 29:14
  like
• 29:14
  it
• 29:14
  takes
• 29:15
  a
• 29:15
  lot
• 29:15
  of
• 29:15
  courage
• 29:16
  for
• 29:16
  me
• 29:16
  to
• 29:16
  speak
• 29:17
  the
• 29:17
  truth
• 29:17
  in
• 29:17
  some
• 29:18
  situations,
• 29:19
  so
• 29:22
  It's
• 29:22
  not
• 29:22
  just
• 29:23
  for
• 29:23
  me
• 29:25
  Yeah.
• 29:26
  I
• 29:27
  think
• 29:27
  for
• 29:27
  the-
• 29:27
  Is
• 29:27
  that-
• 29:28
  Like,
• 29:28
  I'll
• 29:28
  say
• 29:28
  the
• 29:29
  same
• 29:29
  as
• 29:30
  you.
• 29:30
  Like,
• 29:30
  in
• 29:30
  certain
• 29:31
  situations,
• 29:32
  like
• 29:32
  with
• 29:32
  the
• 29:32
  two
• 29:33
  of
• 29:33
  you-
• 29:34
  Mm-hmm
• 29:34
  there's
• 29:35
  no
• 29:35
  hesitancy-
• 29:37
  Right
• 29:38
  for
• 29:38
  truth,
• 29:40
  'cause
• 29:40
  we've
• 29:40
  built
• 29:41
  so
• 29:42
  much
• 29:42
  trust.
• 29:43
  And
• 29:43
  like
• 29:44
  you
• 29:44
  said,
• 29:44
  it's
• 29:45
  always
• 29:46
  met
• 29:46
  with
• 29:46
  curiosity.
• 29:48
  Right.
• 29:52
  There
• 29:52
  are
• 29:52
  times
• 29:53
  when
• 29:54
  it's
• 29:54
  way
• 29:54
  harder
• 29:55
  because
• 29:56
  there's
• 29:57
  uncertainty
• 29:58
  on
• 29:59
  the
• 29:59
  other
• 29:59
  side,
• 29:59
  right?
• 30:00
  Mm-hmm.
• 30:00
  Like,
• 30:00
  you
• 30:01
  know,
• 30:01
  like
• 30:01
  we
• 30:01
  have,
• 30:01
  we
• 30:02
  all
• 30:02
  have
• 30:02
  people
• 30:02
  in
• 30:02
  our
• 30:02
  life
• 30:03
  who
• 30:03
  are,
• 30:03
  like,
• 30:03
  not
• 30:03
  sure
• 30:03
  which
• 30:04
  version
• 30:04
  we're
• 30:04
  gonna
• 30:04
  get
• 30:04
  today.
• 30:05
  Like,
• 30:06
  what
• 30:06
  are
• 30:06
  we...
• 30:07
  Which,
• 30:09
  and,
• 30:09
  and
• 30:10
  it's
• 30:10
  hard
• 30:10
  not
• 30:11
  to
• 30:11
  manage
• 30:12
  other
• 30:12
  people's
• 30:12
  responses.
• 30:13
  That's
• 30:13
  a
• 30:13
  thing
• 30:13
  that,
• 30:14
  like,
• 30:14
  I'm
• 30:14
  continuing
• 30:14
  to
• 30:15
  work
• 30:15
  on
• 30:15
  is
• 30:15
  that,
• 30:15
  like,
• 30:15
  I
• 30:16
  have
• 30:16
  no
• 30:16
  control
• 30:17
  over
• 30:17
  it
• 30:17
  anyway.
• 30:18
  So,
• 30:18
  like,
• 30:20
  I
• 30:20
  can't,
• 30:20
  it's
• 30:21
  just,
• 30:21
  you
• 30:21
  know,
• 30:21
  like,
• 30:21
  if
• 30:22
  the
• 30:22
  truth
• 30:23
  is
• 30:25
  the
• 30:25
  truth,
• 30:26
  it
• 30:27
  just
• 30:27
  needs
• 30:28
  to
• 30:28
  be
• 30:28
  said.
• 30:29
  Um-
• 30:32
  And
• 30:32
  I'm
• 30:32
  not
• 30:32
  responsible
• 30:33
  for
• 30:33
  what
• 30:33
  happens
• 30:34
  on
• 30:34
  the
• 30:34
  other
• 30:34
  side,
• 30:34
  but
• 30:34
  it's
• 30:35
  hard
• 30:35
  to
• 30:35
  not
• 30:36
  be
• 30:36
  responsible
• 30:36
  after
• 30:37
  a
• 30:37
  lifetime
• 30:37
  of
• 30:37
  feeling
• 30:38
  responsible-
• 30:38
  Mm-hmm
• 30:38
  for
• 30:38
  everyone
• 30:39
  else's
• 30:39
  shit,
• 30:40
  right?
• 30:40
  Mm-hmm.
• 30:40
  Um,
• 30:43
  but
• 30:43
  then
• 30:43
  there's
• 30:43
  also
• 30:44
  like,
• 30:45
  I
• 30:46
  feel
• 30:46
  like
• 30:46
  I've-
• 30:48
  I
• 30:48
  feel
• 30:48
  like
• 30:48
  the
• 30:49
  hardest
• 30:49
  truth
• 30:52
  I
• 30:52
  ever
• 30:53
  had
• 30:53
  to
• 30:53
  vocalize
• 30:54
  was
• 30:55
  like
• 30:55
  leading
• 30:57
  up
• 30:57
  to
• 30:57
  my
• 30:57
  divorce
• 30:59
  Mm
• 30:59
  of
• 30:59
  like
• 31:01
  the,
• 31:01
  the
• 31:01
  realization
• 31:02
  of
• 31:03
  like
• 31:03
  I
• 31:03
  don't
• 31:03
  actually
• 31:04
  want
• 31:04
  to
• 31:04
  have
• 31:04
  children,
• 31:06
  and
• 31:06
  then
• 31:07
  know
• 31:07
  that
• 31:07
  you
• 31:07
  do
• 31:07
  and
• 31:08
  therefore
• 31:11
  I
• 31:11
  need
• 31:11
  you,
• 31:12
  like,
• 31:12
  I
• 31:12
  need
• 31:12
  you
• 31:12
  to
• 31:12
  go
• 31:12
  do
• 31:14
  that.
• 31:14
  And,
• 31:14
  and
• 31:15
  like
• 31:16
  being
• 31:16
  able
• 31:16
  to
• 31:16
  kind
• 31:16
  of
• 31:17
  like
• 31:17
  say
• 31:18
  the
• 31:18
  truth,
• 31:19
  um,
• 31:21
  was
• 31:21
  like
• 31:22
  without
• 31:22
  a
• 31:22
  doubt
• 31:22
  the
• 31:22
  heaviest
• 31:23
  and
• 31:23
  hardest.
• 31:25
  But
• 31:26
  then
• 31:30
  I
• 31:30
  can't
• 31:31
  even
• 31:31
  say
• 31:31
  that,
• 31:31
  like,
• 31:31
  every
• 31:32
  truth
• 31:32
  after
• 31:32
  that
• 31:32
  has
• 31:33
  been
• 31:33
  easy.
• 31:33
  Like,
• 31:33
  it's
• 31:33
  still
• 31:34
  not
• 31:34
  always
• 31:34
  easy,
• 31:35
  even
• 31:35
  if
• 31:35
  it's
• 31:35
  a
• 31:35
  much
• 31:36
  smaller
• 31:37
  truth,
• 31:38
  right?
• 31:39
  Like,
• 31:39
  it's
• 31:39
  still
• 31:40
  a
• 31:40
  lot
• 31:41
  of
• 31:41
  unlearning
• 31:44
  Yep
• 31:44
  Yeah,
• 31:45
  it's
• 31:45
  hard.
• 31:46
  I,
• 31:46
  I
• 31:46
  feel
• 31:46
  like,
• 31:47
  you
• 31:48
  know,
• 31:48
  talk
• 31:48
  about
• 31:49
  courage
• 31:49
  and
• 31:50
  vulnerability,
• 31:50
  right?
• 31:51
  Like,
• 31:51
  you
• 31:51
  need
• 31:51
  those
• 31:52
  to
• 31:52
  be
• 31:52
  truthful,
• 31:53
  and
• 31:54
  I
• 31:54
  find
• 31:54
  it
• 31:55
  really
• 31:55
  difficult
• 31:55
  to
• 31:55
  do
• 31:56
  when
• 31:57
  I
• 31:58
  know
• 31:58
  the
• 31:58
  other
• 31:58
  person
• 31:58
  is
• 31:59
  in
• 31:59
  a
• 31:59
  safe
• 31:59
  space.
• 32:00
  Mm.
• 32:03
  That's
• 32:04
  why
• 32:04
  I
• 32:04
  struggle
• 32:04
  with
• 32:04
  it
• 32:05
  now
• 32:06
  is
• 32:06
  because
• 32:07
  I
• 32:07
  don't,
• 32:08
  if
• 32:08
  I
• 32:08
  don't
• 32:08
  feel
• 32:08
  safe
• 32:09
  with
• 32:09
  that
• 32:09
  person,
• 32:11
  it,
• 32:12
  it's
• 32:12
  hard
• 32:12
  for
• 32:12
  me
• 32:13
  to
• 32:15
  find
• 32:15
  the
• 32:15
  courage
• 32:16
  to
• 32:16
  be
• 32:16
  vulnerable,
• 32:18
  to
• 32:18
  tell
• 32:18
  the
• 32:18
  truth
• 32:21
  Interesting
• 32:24
  And
• 32:24
  I
• 32:25
  also
• 32:25
  think
• 32:25
  that's
• 32:25
  true
• 32:26
  of
• 32:27
  even,
• 32:27
  like,
• 32:27
  the
• 32:28
  simplest
• 32:28
  things,
• 32:28
  right?
• 32:29
  Like,
• 32:29
  if
• 32:29
  someone--
• 32:30
  If
• 32:30
  I'm,
• 32:31
  if
• 32:31
  I'm
• 32:31
  interacting
• 32:32
  with
• 32:32
  someone
• 32:33
  that
• 32:33
  I
• 32:33
  haven't
• 32:33
  seen
• 32:34
  in
• 32:34
  a
• 32:34
  while
• 32:34
  or
• 32:34
  who
• 32:34
  I
• 32:35
  don't
• 32:35
  have,
• 32:35
  like,
• 32:35
  a
• 32:35
  very
• 32:35
  deep
• 32:36
  relationship
• 32:36
  with
• 32:37
  and
• 32:37
  they
• 32:37
  say,
• 32:37
  "How
• 32:38
  are
• 32:38
  you
• 32:38
  feeling?"
• 32:38
  My
• 32:38
  answer's
• 32:39
  gonna
• 32:39
  be
• 32:39
  much
• 32:39
  different.
• 32:40
  Right.
• 32:40
  'Cause
• 32:41
  you
• 32:41
  haven't
• 32:41
  earned
• 32:42
  my
• 32:42
  truth.
• 32:44
  You
• 32:44
  haven't
• 32:44
  earned
• 32:44
  the
• 32:44
  right
• 32:45
  to,
• 32:45
  like,
• 32:45
  the
• 32:45
  real
• 32:46
  answer
• 32:46
  to
• 32:46
  that
• 32:46
  question.
• 32:47
  Oof.
• 32:47
  Right,
• 32:47
  yeah.
• 32:47
  Whereas,
• 32:47
  like,
• 32:48
  the
• 32:48
  way
• 32:49
  I
• 32:49
  answer
• 32:49
  that
• 32:49
  question
• 32:50
  with
• 32:50
  the
• 32:50
  two
• 32:50
  of
• 32:50
  you
• 32:50
  is
• 32:50
  actually
• 32:51
  with
• 32:51
  a
• 32:51
  pause
• 32:52
  and
• 32:52
  to
• 32:52
  really
• 32:52
  think
• 32:53
  about
• 32:53
  the
• 32:53
  response
• 32:54
  instead
• 32:54
  of
• 32:54
  just
• 32:55
  being
• 32:55
  like,
• 32:55
  "I'm
• 32:55
  good.
• 32:56
  Everything's
• 32:56
  great.
• 32:57
  Fine,
• 32:58
  fine,
• 32:58
  fine."
• 32:58
  Like,
• 32:59
  not
• 33:00
  gonna
• 33:00
  do
• 33:00
  that,
• 33:00
  but
• 33:00
  I
• 33:01
  do
• 33:02
  auto-reply
• 33:04
  people
• 33:04
  who
• 33:04
  haven't
• 33:04
  earned
• 33:06
  the
• 33:06
  right
• 33:07
  to
• 33:07
  understand
• 33:09
  All
• 33:09
  of
• 33:09
  my
• 33:09
  inner
• 33:09
  world
• 33:10
  Yeah
• 33:11
  Or
• 33:11
  to
• 33:11
  experience
• 33:12
  all
• 33:12
  of
• 33:12
  my
• 33:12
  inner
• 33:12
  world
• 33:15
  Great
• 33:16
  distinction.
• 33:17
  Thanks
• 33:17
  for
• 33:17
  bringing
• 33:18
  that
• 33:18
  up
• 33:19
  Not
• 33:20
  everybody
• 33:20
  is
• 33:20
  permitted.
• 33:23
  Not
• 33:23
  everybody
• 33:23
  needs
• 33:24
  to
• 33:24
  know.
• 33:24
  Yeah.
• 33:26
  Right.
• 33:26
  That's
• 33:26
  the
• 33:27
  other
• 33:27
  part,
• 33:27
  right?
• 33:27
  Like,
• 33:28
  you
• 33:28
  don't
• 33:28
  have
• 33:28
  to
• 33:28
  tell
• 33:29
  the
• 33:29
  truth
• 33:29
  to
• 33:29
  everybody
• 33:32
  Yeah.
• 33:33
  As
• 33:33
  someone
• 33:33
  who
• 33:34
  has
• 33:34
  a
• 33:34
  history
• 33:34
  of
• 33:34
  chronically
• 33:35
  oversharing
• 33:36
  it
• 33:36
  as
• 33:36
  an
• 33:36
  attempt
• 33:36
  for
• 33:36
  connection-
• 33:37
  I'm
• 33:38
  with
• 33:38
  you
• 33:38
  I
• 33:38
  have
• 33:38
  learned
• 33:39
  that
• 33:40
  not
• 33:41
  everyone
• 33:41
  is
• 33:41
  worthy
• 33:41
  of
• 33:42
  my
• 33:42
  truth.
• 33:43
  My
• 33:43
  truth,
• 33:44
  like
• 33:44
  my
• 33:44
  true
• 33:45
  stories,
• 33:46
  right?
• 33:46
  Yeah.
• 33:46
  Like
• 33:46
  whatever,
• 33:49
  whatever
• 33:49
  lies
• 33:49
  in
• 33:49
  my
• 33:50
  depths.
• 33:51
  Mm-hmm.
• 33:54
  All
• 33:54
  right.
• 33:55
  What
• 33:55
  about
• 33:55
  truth
• 33:56
  makes
• 33:56
  it
• 33:56
  rebellious?
• 33:59
  Oh.
• 34:00
  Back
• 34:00
  to
• 34:00
  the
• 34:00
  beginning
• 34:01
  where
• 34:01
  we
• 34:01
  talk
• 34:01
  about
• 34:01
  the
• 34:01
  conditioning.
• 34:03
  Yeah.
• 34:04
  And
• 34:04
  the
• 34:04
  societal
• 34:05
  norms
• 34:05
  of
• 34:05
  niceties.
• 34:07
  Do
• 34:07
  you
• 34:07
  know
• 34:07
  what
• 34:07
  I
• 34:07
  think
• 34:08
  is
• 34:08
  very
• 34:08
  funny?
• 34:09
  Um,
• 34:10
  the,
• 34:11
  that
• 34:11
  I
• 34:12
  live
• 34:12
  in
• 34:12
  Massachusetts,
• 34:13
  and
• 34:13
  for
• 34:13
  those
• 34:13
  of
• 34:14
  you
• 34:14
  listening
• 34:14
  who
• 34:14
  are
• 34:14
  not
• 34:14
  familiar,
• 34:15
  many
• 34:16
  of
• 34:16
  the
• 34:16
  people
• 34:16
  who
• 34:16
  reside
• 34:16
  in
• 34:16
  Massachusetts
• 34:17
  are
• 34:17
  often
• 34:18
  called
• 34:18
  Massholes.
• 34:20
  Um,
• 34:21
  it's...
• 34:23
  People
• 34:23
  in
• 34:23
  Massachusetts
• 34:24
  are
• 34:24
  not
• 34:24
  nice.
• 34:26
  Uh,
• 34:26
  they
• 34:26
  are
• 34:26
  however
• 34:27
  very
• 34:27
  kind,
• 34:29
  but
• 34:29
  they
• 34:29
  are
• 34:29
  not
• 34:29
  nice.
• 34:31
  So
• 34:31
  there
• 34:31
  will
• 34:31
  be,
• 34:31
  like,
• 34:32
  no
• 34:33
  social
• 34:33
  niceties.
• 34:34
  Everything
• 34:34
  sounds
• 34:35
  harsh
• 34:35
  and
• 34:36
  direct,
• 34:37
  but
• 34:37
  they
• 34:37
  will
• 34:38
  also
• 34:39
  give
• 34:39
  you
• 34:39
  the
• 34:39
  shirt
• 34:39
  off
• 34:40
  their
• 34:40
  back,
• 34:40
  right?
• 34:40
  Like,
• 34:40
  that's-
• 34:41
  Yeah
• 34:41
  and
• 34:41
  I
• 34:41
  feel
• 34:41
  like
• 34:42
  that's
• 34:42
  actually
• 34:42
  a
• 34:42
  whole
• 34:42
  vibe.
• 34:44
  Mm-hmm.
• 34:45
  It's
• 34:45
  one
• 34:45
  of
• 34:45
  the
• 34:45
  things
• 34:45
  I
• 34:45
  very
• 34:46
  much
• 34:46
  appreciate
• 34:46
  about
• 34:46
  living
• 34:47
  here.
• 34:47
  Mm-hmm.
• 34:48
  That
• 34:48
  it
• 34:48
  might
• 34:48
  be
• 34:48
  a
• 34:48
  little
• 34:48
  rough
• 34:48
  around
• 34:49
  the
• 34:49
  edges,
• 34:50
  but
• 34:50
  you
• 34:50
  will
• 34:50
  absolutely
• 34:51
  always
• 34:51
  get
• 34:51
  the
• 34:51
  truth.
• 34:52
  Um-
• 34:53
  Mm-hmm
• 34:53
  you
• 34:54
  won't...
• 34:55
  Yeah.
• 34:57
  But
• 34:58
  I
• 34:58
  don't
• 34:58
  think
• 34:58
  that's
• 34:59
  the
• 34:59
  norm.
• 34:59
  Like,
• 34:59
  that's
• 35:00
  not
• 35:00
  the
• 35:00
  norm,
• 35:01
  right?
• 35:01
  Like,
• 35:01
  we
• 35:02
  still
• 35:02
  hear
• 35:03
  there's
• 35:03
  a
• 35:04
  lot
• 35:04
  of,
• 35:04
  like,
• 35:05
  pockets
• 35:06
  of
• 35:06
  our
• 35:06
  society
• 35:07
  that
• 35:07
  are
• 35:07
  still
• 35:07
  obsessed
• 35:08
  with
• 35:08
  social
• 35:08
  niceties,
• 35:09
  and
• 35:09
  that's
• 35:09
  why
• 35:10
  it
• 35:10
  feels
• 35:11
  rebellious.
• 35:12
  Hmm.
• 35:12
  That's
• 35:12
  why
• 35:13
  giving
• 35:13
  a
• 35:13
  true
• 35:13
  answer
• 35:14
  to
• 35:14
  the
• 35:14
  question,
• 35:14
  "How
• 35:14
  are
• 35:15
  you
• 35:15
  feeling?"
• 35:15
  feels
• 35:16
  like
• 35:16
  even
• 35:17
  the
• 35:17
  tiniest
• 35:17
  little
• 35:17
  rebellion
• 35:18
  in
• 35:18
  your
• 35:18
  day-to-day,
• 35:19
  right?
• 35:19
  Like-
• 35:24
  That's
• 35:24
  why
• 35:24
  it
• 35:24
  feels
• 35:24
  rebellious
• 35:25
  for
• 35:25
  me
• 35:29
  Yeah,
• 35:30
  I'm
• 35:30
  not
• 35:30
  really
• 35:30
  sure
• 35:30
  how
• 35:31
  to
• 35:31
  answer
• 35:31
  that
• 35:32
  Cause
• 35:32
  I
• 35:33
  feel
• 35:33
  like
• 35:35
  In
• 35:35
  some
• 35:35
  sense,
• 35:36
  I
• 35:36
  just
• 35:36
  don't
• 35:36
  give
• 35:36
  a
• 35:36
  fuck,
• 35:37
  and
• 35:37
  I'm
• 35:37
  just
• 35:37
  gonna
• 35:37
  tell
• 35:37
  you.
• 35:39
  You
• 35:39
  know
• 35:39
  what
• 35:39
  I
• 35:39
  mean?
• 35:40
  Like,
• 35:40
  you
• 35:41
  know,
• 35:41
  obviously
• 35:41
  depending
• 35:42
  on
• 35:42
  the
• 35:43
  scenario,
• 35:43
  but,
• 35:46
  I
• 35:46
  mean,
• 35:46
  I,
• 35:47
  uh,
• 35:47
  I'm
• 35:47
  thinking
• 35:47
  like
• 35:48
  public,
• 35:48
  like
• 35:48
  being
• 35:48
  in
• 35:49
  public.
• 35:49
  Like,
• 35:49
  I
• 35:50
  don't
• 35:50
  fucking
• 35:50
  care,
• 35:51
  'cause
• 35:51
  I
• 35:51
  don't
• 35:51
  care
• 35:51
  who
• 35:51
  you
• 35:52
  are,
• 35:52
  I'm
• 35:52
  just
• 35:52
  gonna
• 35:52
  tell
• 35:52
  you.
• 35:53
  You
• 35:53
  know?
• 35:53
  'Cause
• 35:53
  I
• 35:53
  don't
• 35:54
  have
• 35:54
  any
• 35:54
  attachment
• 35:55
  to
• 35:55
  you-
• 35:56
  Mm-hmm
• 35:56
  in
• 35:56
  any,
• 35:56
  in
• 35:57
  any
• 35:57
  way.
• 35:58
  Um-
• 36:00
  So
• 36:00
  I
• 36:00
  feel
• 36:01
  like
• 36:01
  in
• 36:01
  that
• 36:01
  sense
• 36:01
  I'm
• 36:02
  rebellious,
• 36:02
  but
• 36:02
  I'm,
• 36:02
  I'm,
• 36:03
  I'm
• 36:05
  I
• 36:05
  don't
• 36:05
  know.
• 36:05
  I
• 36:05
  guess,
• 36:06
  um,
• 36:09
  I'm
• 36:09
  trying
• 36:09
  to
• 36:09
  think,
• 36:09
  like
• 36:10
  with
• 36:10
  my
• 36:10
  mom,
• 36:11
  um,
• 36:13
  I
• 36:13
  would
• 36:13
  always
• 36:14
  just
• 36:14
  be
• 36:14
  honest
• 36:14
  with
• 36:14
  her,
• 36:14
  and
• 36:15
  she
• 36:15
  didn't
• 36:15
  like
• 36:15
  it.
• 36:17
  She
• 36:17
  didn't
• 36:17
  like
• 36:18
  it,
• 36:18
  and
• 36:18
  then
• 36:18
  sh-
• 36:18
  to
• 36:18
  her
• 36:18
  it
• 36:19
  was
• 36:19
  like
• 36:19
  a
• 36:19
  respect
• 36:19
  thing.
• 36:20
  Like,
• 36:20
  "Don't
• 36:20
  be...
• 36:21
  That's
• 36:21
  disrespectful."
• 36:22
  And
• 36:22
  I'm
• 36:22
  like,
• 36:23
  "Well,
• 36:23
  respect
• 36:23
  goes
• 36:23
  both
• 36:24
  ways,"
• 36:24
  you
• 36:24
  know?
• 36:25
  Um,
• 36:26
  but
• 36:26
  yeah,
• 36:26
  usually-
• 36:26
  Actually
• 36:26
  the
• 36:27
  most
• 36:27
  respectful.
• 36:28
  Isn't
• 36:28
  that
• 36:28
  funny?
• 36:29
  Yeah.
• 36:29
  Mm-hmm.
• 36:30
  And,
• 36:31
  uh,
• 36:33
  yeah,
• 36:33
  like
• 36:33
  I
• 36:33
  would
• 36:34
  just
• 36:34
  say
• 36:35
  whatever,
• 36:35
  and
• 36:36
  she
• 36:36
  didn't
• 36:36
  like
• 36:36
  it,
• 36:36
  and
• 36:36
  I
• 36:37
  was
• 36:37
  just
• 36:37
  like,
• 36:37
  I,
• 36:38
  you
• 36:38
  know.
• 36:38
  I
• 36:38
  guess
• 36:38
  to,
• 36:39
  like
• 36:39
  I,
• 36:40
  to
• 36:40
  me
• 36:40
  that,
• 36:40
  that,
• 36:40
  that
• 36:41
  w-
• 36:41
  that
• 36:41
  always
• 36:42
  felt
• 36:42
  rebellious.
• 36:42
  Like
• 36:43
  I,
• 36:43
  I
• 36:43
  didn't
• 36:45
  care
• 36:46
  if,
• 36:46
  um,
• 36:46
  she
• 36:47
  didn't
• 36:47
  like
• 36:47
  something.
• 36:47
  I
• 36:47
  was
• 36:47
  just
• 36:48
  gonna
• 36:48
  tell
• 36:48
  her
• 36:48
  the
• 36:48
  truth,
• 36:49
  and,
• 36:51
  you
• 36:51
  know,
• 36:52
  she
• 36:52
  found
• 36:52
  it
• 36:52
  disrespectful,
• 36:53
  but
• 36:54
  to
• 36:54
  me
• 36:54
  I
• 36:54
  was
• 36:55
  just
• 36:55
  being
• 36:55
  honest,
• 36:56
  right?
• 36:56
  So,
• 36:58
  um
• 37:00
  Yeah,
• 37:00
  I
• 37:00
  don't
• 37:00
  know.
• 37:01
  I,
• 37:01
  I
• 37:01
  guess,
• 37:01
  I
• 37:02
  don't
• 37:02
  know.
• 37:02
  I
• 37:02
  f-
• 37:02
  I
• 37:02
  feel
• 37:03
  like
• 37:03
  in
• 37:03
  some,
• 37:03
  in
• 37:04
  some
• 37:04
  cases
• 37:04
  it
• 37:04
  just
• 37:04
  comes
• 37:05
  so
• 37:05
  natural
• 37:05
  to
• 37:05
  me
• 37:05
  to
• 37:06
  just
• 37:06
  say
• 37:06
  things,
• 37:06
  like,
• 37:07
  to,
• 37:07
  like,
• 37:07
  say
• 37:08
  things
• 37:08
  that
• 37:08
  other
• 37:09
  people
• 37:09
  w-
• 37:10
  think
• 37:10
  about
• 37:10
  but
• 37:11
  would
• 37:11
  never
• 37:11
  say,
• 37:12
  and
• 37:12
  I
• 37:12
  just,
• 37:12
  like,
• 37:14
  let
• 37:14
  it
• 37:14
  flow.
• 37:14
  And
• 37:15
  so
• 37:15
  people
• 37:15
  are
• 37:15
  always
• 37:15
  like,
• 37:15
  "Oh
• 37:15
  my
• 37:16
  God,
• 37:16
  Adriana,"
• 37:17
  you
• 37:17
  know?
• 37:18
  And
• 37:18
  I
• 37:18
  laugh
• 37:18
  because,
• 37:19
  uh,
• 37:19
  I,
• 37:19
  I
• 37:19
  mean,
• 37:20
  I
• 37:21
  Even
• 37:21
  when
• 37:21
  I
• 37:21
  worked
• 37:22
  in
• 37:22
  the
• 37:22
  office,
• 37:24
  and
• 37:24
  I
• 37:24
  would
• 37:25
  just
• 37:25
  say
• 37:25
  whatever,
• 37:26
  and
• 37:27
  I
• 37:27
  remember,
• 37:28
  um,
• 37:28
  one
• 37:28
  of
• 37:28
  my
• 37:28
  teammates
• 37:29
  would
• 37:29
  be
• 37:29
  like,
• 37:30
  "Adriana,
• 37:30
  no,
• 37:30
  really.
• 37:30
  Tell
• 37:31
  us
• 37:31
  how
• 37:31
  y-
• 37:31
  tell
• 37:31
  us
• 37:31
  how
• 37:31
  you
• 37:32
  feel."
• 37:33
  And
• 37:33
  I
• 37:33
  would
• 37:33
  always
• 37:34
  laugh.
• 37:35
  I
• 37:35
  would
• 37:35
  always
• 37:35
  laugh.
• 37:36
  I'm
• 37:36
  like,
• 37:36
  "I
• 37:36
  can't
• 37:36
  help
• 37:36
  myself.
• 37:37
  I
• 37:37
  don't
• 37:37
  know."
• 37:38
  I,
• 37:38
  like,
• 37:38
  I
• 37:39
  It's
• 37:39
  not
• 37:39
  even
• 37:40
  like
• 37:40
  I'm
• 37:40
  trying
• 37:40
  to,
• 37:41
  like,
• 37:42
  tell
• 37:42
  you
• 37:42
  the
• 37:42
  truth
• 37:42
  in
• 37:42
  the
• 37:43
  moment.
• 37:43
  I'm
• 37:43
  just,
• 37:44
  this
• 37:44
  is
• 37:44
  how
• 37:45
  I
• 37:45
  see
• 37:45
  it
• 37:45
  and
• 37:45
  I'm
• 37:45
  just
• 37:45
  telling
• 37:46
  you.
• 37:46
  Like,
• 37:46
  it's
• 37:46
  just
• 37:46
  a
• 37:46
  conversation.
• 37:47
  So-
• 37:47
  It's
• 37:47
  a
• 37:47
  default
• 37:48
  setting.
• 37:48
  Yeah.
• 37:49
  I
• 37:49
  guess
• 37:49
  that's
• 37:49
  I,
• 37:50
  I
• 37:50
  don't
• 37:50
  know.
• 37:50
  I
• 37:50
  guess-
• 37:51
  Okay.
• 37:51
  Cool,
• 37:51
  cool,
• 37:51
  cool
• 37:51
  to
• 37:52
  me
• 37:52
  that's
• 37:52
  rebellious
• 37:52
  without
• 37:53
  being
• 37:53
  rebellious.
• 37:53
  She's
• 37:53
  been
• 37:53
  a
• 37:53
  rebel
• 37:53
  her
• 37:54
  whole
• 37:54
  life.
• 37:54
  Yeah.
• 37:54
  Yeah.
• 37:55
  Like,
• 37:55
  but
• 37:55
  without
• 37:55
  intentionally
• 37:56
  thinking
• 37:56
  that
• 37:56
  I'm
• 37:56
  being
• 37:57
  rebellious.
• 37:57
  I
• 37:57
  just
• 37:58
  can't
• 37:58
  help
• 37:58
  myself.
• 37:59
  That's
• 38:00
  what
• 38:00
  I
• 38:00
  hear,
• 38:01
  is
• 38:01
  that's
• 38:02
  your
• 38:02
  personality.
• 38:03
  That's
• 38:03
  why
• 38:03
  I
• 38:03
  called
• 38:03
  you
• 38:03
  a
• 38:03
  truth
• 38:04
  speaker.
• 38:04
  Yeah.
• 38:05
  Um,
• 38:05
  what
• 38:05
  about
• 38:06
  So
• 38:06
  maybe
• 38:06
  if
• 38:07
  we
• 38:07
  put
• 38:07
  it
• 38:07
  in
• 38:07
  the
• 38:07
  context
• 38:07
  of
• 38:08
  this
• 38:08
  podcast.
• 38:09
  Yeah.
• 38:09
  What
• 38:09
  about
• 38:09
  being
• 38:10
  truthful
• 38:10
  in
• 38:10
  this
• 38:10
  podcast
• 38:11
  makes
• 38:11
  it
• 38:11
  rebellious?
• 38:17
  Is
• 38:17
  these
• 38:17
  are
• 38:17
  the
• 38:17
  things...
• 38:19
  Our
• 38:19
  plan
• 38:19
  is
• 38:19
  to
• 38:19
  talk
• 38:20
  about
• 38:20
  the
• 38:20
  things
• 38:20
  that
• 38:20
  we
• 38:21
  were
• 38:21
  told
• 38:21
  not
• 38:21
  to
• 38:21
  talk
• 38:22
  about.
• 38:23
  Like,
• 38:23
  the
• 38:23
  things
• 38:23
  that
• 38:24
  we
• 38:24
  don't...
• 38:24
  I
• 38:24
  don't
• 38:26
  know.
• 38:27
  I
• 38:27
  think
• 38:27
  the
• 38:27
  value,
• 38:30
  the
• 38:30
  value
• 38:30
  that
• 38:30
  we've
• 38:33
  felt
• 38:34
  or
• 38:34
  the
• 38:34
  impact
• 38:34
  that
• 38:35
  we
• 38:35
  felt
• 38:35
  from
• 38:35
  the
• 38:36
  types
• 38:36
  of
• 38:36
  conversations
• 38:37
  we
• 38:37
  have
• 38:39
  is
• 38:39
  something
• 38:40
  that
• 38:40
  we
• 38:40
  decided
• 38:41
  to
• 38:41
  share
• 38:42
  because
• 38:44
  The
• 38:45
  sort
• 38:45
  of
• 38:45
  like
• 38:46
  it's,
• 38:46
  it's
• 38:47
  the
• 38:47
  last
• 38:48
  piece
• 38:48
  of
• 38:48
  the
• 38:48
  value,
• 38:49
  right?
• 38:49
  Like
• 38:49
  the
• 38:49
  real
• 38:50
  talk,
• 38:50
  raw
• 38:50
  hearts,
• 38:52
  the
• 38:52
  courage
• 38:52
  to
• 38:52
  say
• 38:52
  the
• 38:53
  thing.
• 38:54
  It's
• 38:54
  like
• 38:55
  this
• 38:55
  is
• 38:56
  our
• 38:56
  plan
• 38:57
  is
• 38:57
  to
• 38:58
  talk,
• 38:58
  is
• 38:59
  to
• 38:59
  speak
• 39:01
  about
• 39:02
  our,
• 39:02
  like
• 39:02
  the
• 39:02
  truth
• 39:03
  of
• 39:03
  our
• 39:03
  experiences,
• 39:05
  the,
• 39:05
  the
• 39:05
  things
• 39:06
  that
• 39:06
  were,
• 39:07
  that
• 39:07
  we
• 39:07
  were
• 39:07
  told
• 39:08
  should
• 39:08
  kind
• 39:09
  of
• 39:09
  stay
• 39:09
  in
• 39:09
  the
• 39:10
  dark.
• 39:10
  Mm.
• 39:12
  That's
• 39:13
  maybe
• 39:13
  what
• 39:13
  feels
• 39:14
  rebellious
• 39:14
  about
• 39:14
  this.
• 39:15
  It's
• 39:15
  like
• 39:15
  some
• 39:15
  of
• 39:15
  those
• 39:16
  truths
• 39:19
  need
• 39:20
  to
• 39:20
  be
• 39:20
  normalized.
• 39:22
  Yeah.
• 39:23
  Maybe
• 39:23
  so
• 39:24
  that
• 39:24
  this
• 39:24
  step
• 39:24
  doesn't
• 39:25
  feel
• 39:25
  so
• 39:25
  hard
• 39:27
  Yeah,
• 39:27
  I
• 39:27
  feel
• 39:27
  like
• 39:27
  it's,
• 39:28
  um
• 39:31
  Having
• 39:31
  these
• 39:31
  conversations
• 39:33
  to
• 39:35
  So,
• 39:36
  so
• 39:36
  like
• 39:36
  that
• 39:36
  others
• 39:37
  can
• 39:37
  see
• 39:37
  that
• 39:37
  they
• 39:37
  can
• 39:37
  have
• 39:38
  it
• 39:38
  too.
• 39:38
  Like,
• 39:38
  like
• 39:39
  to
• 39:39
  me
• 39:39
  that's
• 39:39
  what
• 39:39
  feels
• 39:40
  like
• 39:40
  rebellious,
• 39:40
  that
• 39:40
  they...
• 39:43
  Not
• 39:43
  that
• 39:43
  they
• 39:43
  have
• 39:43
  to
• 39:44
  go
• 39:44
  and
• 39:44
  get
• 39:44
  permission
• 39:44
  from,
• 39:45
  from
• 39:45
  someone,
• 39:46
  but
• 39:46
  sometimes
• 39:46
  we
• 39:46
  do
• 39:46
  need
• 39:47
  that
• 39:47
  permission
• 39:47
  of
• 39:47
  like,
• 39:48
  "Shit,
• 39:48
  I
• 39:48
  can
• 39:48
  do
• 39:48
  this
• 39:48
  too.
• 39:49
  Oh."
• 39:49
  You
• 39:49
  know?
• 39:50
  Or
• 39:50
  just
• 39:50
  that
• 39:50
  they
• 39:50
  see
• 39:50
  something
• 39:51
  that
• 39:51
  they
• 39:51
  didn't
• 39:51
  see
• 39:51
  before.
• 39:51
  So
• 39:52
  I
• 39:52
  feel
• 39:52
  like
• 39:53
  the
• 39:53
  rebellious
• 39:54
  part
• 39:54
  about
• 39:54
  this
• 39:54
  is
• 39:54
  giving
• 39:55
  others
• 39:55
  permission
• 39:56
  to
• 39:57
  have
• 39:57
  the
• 39:57
  conversations
• 39:58
  as
• 39:58
  well,
• 39:58
  to
• 39:58
  be
• 39:58
  truthful,
• 39:59
  to
• 40:01
  do
• 40:01
  your
• 40:01
  thing.
• 40:02
  You
• 40:02
  don't
• 40:02
  have
• 40:02
  to
• 40:03
  go
• 40:03
  by
• 40:03
  soci-
• 40:03
  the
• 40:04
  societal
• 40:04
  norm.
• 40:04
  You
• 40:04
  don't
• 40:04
  have
• 40:05
  to
• 40:05
  follow
• 40:05
  that
• 40:05
  anymore.
• 40:06
  You
• 40:06
  can
• 40:08
  pave
• 40:08
  your
• 40:08
  own
• 40:08
  path.
• 40:09
  Mm-hmm.
• 40:10
  There's
• 40:10
  no
• 40:10
  pretending
• 40:11
  here.
• 40:12
  Yeah.
• 40:13
  So-
• 40:14
  that's
• 40:14
  what,
• 40:14
  like
• 40:15
  to
• 40:15
  me
• 40:15
  that's
• 40:15
  what's
• 40:15
  rebellious.
• 40:15
  Like,
• 40:16
  you
• 40:16
  don't
• 40:16
  have
• 40:16
  to
• 40:16
  listen
• 40:17
  to
• 40:17
  them.
• 40:18
  You
• 40:18
  can
• 40:18
  do
• 40:18
  your
• 40:18
  own
• 40:18
  thing.
• 40:20
  You
• 40:20
  don't
• 40:20
  have
• 40:20
  to
• 40:21
  listen
• 40:21
  to
• 40:21
  us.
• 40:22
  Right.
• 40:22
  Do
• 40:22
  your
• 40:22
  own
• 40:22
  thing.
• 40:22
  Right,
• 40:23
  exactly.
• 40:23
  Yeah.
• 40:23
  No.
• 40:24
  Exactly.
• 40:24
  But
• 40:24
  what
• 40:24
  we
• 40:24
  want
• 40:25
  to
• 40:25
  model
• 40:25
  is
• 40:26
  that
• 40:26
  truth
• 40:26
  is
• 40:27
  love.
• 40:28
  Yes.
• 40:29
  Yep.
• 40:30
  Because
• 40:31
  lies
• 40:32
  are
• 40:32
  not
• 40:33
  love.
• 40:34
  Mm-mm.
• 40:35
  And
• 40:36
  sooner
• 40:36
  or
• 40:36
  later
• 40:36
  you
• 40:36
  see
• 40:37
  that.
• 40:37
  Even
• 40:37
  well-intentioned
• 40:38
  or
• 40:38
  white
• 40:39
  lies.
• 40:39
  Yeah.
• 40:39
  Not
• 40:39
  love.
• 40:40
  Yep.
• 40:41
  There's
• 40:42
  no,
• 40:42
  there's
• 40:42
  no
• 40:43
  protection
• 40:43
  in
• 40:43
  that.
• 40:45
  We
• 40:45
  love
• 40:45
  the
• 40:45
  flaws
• 40:46
  that
• 40:46
  we
• 40:46
  see
• 40:47
  in
• 40:47
  each
• 40:47
  other.
• 40:49
  Yeah.
• 40:50
  And
• 40:50
  hopefully
• 40:50
  ourselves.
• 40:53
  And
• 40:54
  also
• 40:54
  that
• 40:54
  like,
• 40:55
  I
• 40:55
  think
• 40:56
  there's
• 40:56
  maybe
• 40:57
  also
• 40:57
  something
• 40:57
  in
• 40:58
  that
• 40:58
  like
• 41:00
  we,
• 41:00
  we
• 41:00
  don't
• 41:01
  have
• 41:01
  plans
• 41:02
  to
• 41:02
  do
• 41:02
  a
• 41:02
  whole
• 41:03
  lot
• 41:03
  of
• 41:03
  editing
• 41:03
  these
• 41:04
  conversations
• 41:04
  either.
• 41:05
  Yeah.
• 41:05
  We
• 41:05
  want
• 41:06
  them
• 41:06
  to
• 41:06
  be
• 41:06
  quite
• 41:07
  raw,
• 41:08
  and
• 41:09
  that
• 41:09
  might
• 41:09
  mean
• 41:09
  they're
• 41:10
  a
• 41:10
  little
• 41:10
  choppy
• 41:10
  in
• 41:10
  parts
• 41:11
  or
• 41:11
  a
• 41:11
  little
• 41:11
  weird
• 41:11
  in
• 41:12
  parts,
• 41:12
  and
• 41:12
  that's
• 41:13
  just-
• 41:13
  Uncomfortable.
• 41:14
  Right?
• 41:15
  Yeah.
• 41:15
  That's
• 41:15
  what
• 41:15
  you're
• 41:15
  gonna
• 41:15
  get
• 41:15
  because
• 41:15
  we're
• 41:15
  not
• 41:16
  trying
• 41:16
  to
• 41:16
  be
• 41:18
  perfectly
• 41:19
  polished,
• 41:19
  put
• 41:19
  a
• 41:20
  bow
• 41:20
  on
• 41:20
  it,
• 41:20
  because
• 41:20
  that's
• 41:21
  not
• 41:21
  fucking
• 41:22
  real
• 41:25
  So...
• 41:25
  So
• 41:28
  like
• 41:28
  that.
• 41:29
  Yeah.
• 41:31
  That
• 41:31
  feels
• 41:31
  so
• 41:32
  far
• 41:32
  away
• 41:32
  from
• 41:32
  where
• 41:33
  I
• 41:33
  am.
• 41:33
  Yeah.
• 41:33
  That
• 41:34
  I
• 41:34
  don't
• 41:34
  even,
• 41:34
  I
• 41:35
  don't
• 41:35
  think
• 41:35
  I
• 41:35
  could
• 41:36
  fake
• 41:36
  it
• 41:36
  if
• 41:36
  I
• 41:36
  wanted
• 41:37
  to.
• 41:43
  Yeah
• 41:45
  Any
• 41:45
  other
• 41:45
  final
• 41:46
  thoughts
• 41:46
  on
• 41:46
  truth?
• 41:46
  I
• 41:46
  just
• 41:47
  have
• 41:47
  a
• 41:47
  question
• 41:47
  for
• 41:47
  you
• 41:48
  guys.
• 41:48
  Like,
• 41:48
  as
• 41:48
  we
• 41:48
  do
• 41:48
  this,
• 41:49
  since
• 41:49
  we're
• 41:49
  talking
• 41:49
  about
• 41:50
  truth,
• 41:51
  like,
• 41:51
  how
• 41:52
  do
• 41:52
  you
• 41:52
  feel
• 41:52
  as
• 41:52
  you're
• 41:52
  recording
• 41:53
  this?
• 41:53
  Like,
• 41:54
  any
• 41:55
  podcast,
• 41:55
  like
• 41:55
  when,
• 41:56
  since
• 41:56
  we
• 41:56
  started
• 41:57
  recording,
• 41:57
  like,
• 41:57
  how
• 41:57
  do
• 41:57
  you
• 41:58
  feel
• 41:58
  in
• 41:58
  your
• 41:58
  body
• 41:59
  when
• 41:59
  you're
• 41:59
  doing
• 41:59
  it?
• 42:04
  I
• 42:04
  felt
• 42:05
  different
• 42:06
  for
• 42:06
  the
• 42:06
  first
• 42:06
  few
• 42:08
  than
• 42:08
  I
• 42:08
  do
• 42:08
  today
• 42:09
  Okay
• 42:12
  I
• 42:12
  felt
• 42:13
  a
• 42:13
  little
• 42:13
  more
• 42:13
  nervous.
• 42:14
  Mm.
• 42:15
  I
• 42:15
  agree.
• 42:16
  I
• 42:16
  don't-
• 42:16
  I
• 42:16
  think
• 42:17
  feel
• 42:19
  nervous
• 42:19
  today,
• 42:20
  but
• 42:20
  I'm
• 42:20
  also
• 42:20
  not
• 42:21
  really
• 42:21
  in
• 42:21
  the
• 42:21
  hot
• 42:21
  seat
• 42:22
  today,
• 42:22
  so.
• 42:26
  I,
• 42:27
  I
• 42:27
  think
• 42:27
  on
• 42:27
  the
• 42:27
  first
• 42:28
  one,
• 42:30
  or
• 42:30
  the...
• 42:31
  Yeah,
• 42:31
  the
• 42:31
  first
• 42:32
  one
• 42:32
  that
• 42:33
  y'all
• 42:33
  will
• 42:33
  never
• 42:33
  hear,
• 42:34
  'cause
• 42:34
  we're
• 42:34
  not
• 42:34
  gonna
• 42:34
  use
• 42:34
  it.
• 42:35
  But,
• 42:36
  um-
• 42:36
  the
• 42:36
  first
• 42:37
  one
• 42:37
  about
• 42:37
  me,
• 42:39
  I
• 42:39
  was
• 42:40
  nervous
• 42:40
  when
• 42:40
  we
• 42:41
  started,
• 42:41
  and
• 42:41
  then
• 42:42
  it
• 42:42
  just
• 42:45
  went,
• 42:46
  and
• 42:46
  then
• 42:46
  I
• 42:46
  was
• 42:46
  like,
• 42:47
  "Yeah,
• 42:47
  I
• 42:47
  didn't
• 42:47
  like
• 42:47
  how
• 42:47
  that
• 42:47
  went."
• 42:49
  Mm.
• 42:49
  I
• 42:49
  don't
• 42:49
  feel
• 42:50
  like
• 42:51
  it
• 42:51
  conveyed
• 42:52
  anything
• 42:53
  useful,
• 42:54
  if
• 42:54
  that
• 42:54
  makes
• 42:54
  sense.
• 42:55
  Mm.
• 42:55
  Like,
• 42:56
  um,
• 42:58
  and
• 42:58
  realizing,
• 42:59
  well,
• 42:59
  this
• 42:59
  is
• 43:00
  our
• 43:00
  thing,
• 43:01
  and
• 43:01
  so
• 43:01
  we
• 43:01
  can
• 43:02
  just
• 43:02
  do
• 43:02
  whatever
• 43:03
  we
• 43:03
  want
• 43:03
  with
• 43:04
  it.
• 43:04
  Right,
• 43:04
  yeah.
• 43:04
  It's
• 43:05
  just,
• 43:05
  like,
• 43:05
  so
• 43:06
  different
• 43:07
  from
• 43:10
  other
• 43:10
  experiences.
• 43:11
  So
• 43:12
  ever
• 43:12
  since
• 43:12
  then,
• 43:12
  literally,
• 43:13
  like,
• 43:14
  it's
• 43:15
  just
• 43:15
  like,
• 43:15
  this
• 43:16
  is
• 43:16
  awesome.
• 43:16
  I'm
• 43:16
  excited
• 43:17
  every
• 43:17
  single
• 43:18
  time.
• 43:18
  I
• 43:19
  look
• 43:19
  forward
• 43:19
  to
• 43:20
  the
• 43:20
  conversations,
• 43:22
  and
• 43:23
  that's
• 43:24
  it.
• 43:24
  I
• 43:24
  love
• 43:24
  it.
• 43:25
  Yeah.
• 43:26
  Me
• 43:26
  too.
• 43:26
  I,
• 43:27
  I
• 43:27
  definitely
• 43:28
  was
• 43:29
  more
• 43:29
  nervous
• 43:30
  at
• 43:30
  first,
• 43:30
  and
• 43:30
  I
• 43:30
  still,
• 43:30
  I
• 43:31
  still
• 43:31
  get
• 43:31
  nervous.
• 43:32
  I
• 43:32
  get
• 43:32
  nervous
• 43:32
  because,
• 43:34
  you
• 43:34
  know,
• 43:34
  I
• 43:34
  get
• 43:34
  in
• 43:34
  my
• 43:34
  head.
• 43:35
  Um,
• 43:36
  but
• 43:36
  once
• 43:37
  I'm...
• 43:37
  once,
• 43:37
  like,
• 43:38
  we
• 43:38
  get
• 43:38
  going,
• 43:38
  like,
• 43:38
  I'm
• 43:39
  good.
• 43:39
  You
• 43:39
  know,
• 43:39
  it's,
• 43:40
  it's
• 43:40
  like
• 43:40
  I
• 43:40
  get
• 43:40
  nervous
• 43:41
  because
• 43:41
  of
• 43:41
  those
• 43:41
  awkward
• 43:42
  moments
• 43:42
  where
• 43:42
  we
• 43:43
  haven't
• 43:43
  really,
• 43:44
  like...
• 43:46
  We
• 43:46
  just
• 43:46
  started
• 43:47
  doing
• 43:47
  this,
• 43:47
  right?
• 43:47
  So
• 43:48
  we're,
• 43:48
  there's
• 43:49
  points
• 43:49
  where
• 43:49
  we're
• 43:49
  kinda
• 43:49
  like
• 43:50
  not
• 43:50
  sure
• 43:50
  where
• 43:51
  to
• 43:51
  go,
• 43:51
  how
• 43:51
  to
• 43:51
  start,
• 43:52
  or
• 43:52
  how
• 43:53
  to
• 43:53
  end.
• 43:53
  Mm-hmm.
• 43:53
  You
• 43:54
  know?
• 43:54
  Um,
• 43:55
  and
• 43:55
  so
• 43:55
  that's
• 43:55
  when
• 43:55
  I
• 43:56
  like
• 43:56
  s-
• 43:56
  when
• 43:56
  the,
• 43:56
  that's
• 43:57
  like
• 43:57
  when
• 43:57
  I
• 43:57
  start
• 43:57
  bracing.
• 43:58
  But
• 43:59
  other
• 44:00
  than
• 44:00
  that,
• 44:00
  I
• 44:01
  feel
• 44:01
  so
• 44:02
  good
• 44:02
  doing
• 44:02
  it
• 44:03
  because
• 44:04
  of
• 44:04
  why
• 44:04
  we're
• 44:04
  doing
• 44:04
  it.
• 44:06
  And,
• 44:06
  um,
• 44:07
  I
• 44:07
  feel
• 44:07
  amazing
• 44:08
  afterwards.
• 44:08
  Like,
• 44:08
  I'm
• 44:09
  like
• 44:09
  on
• 44:09
  this
• 44:09
  high-
• 44:10
  Yes,
• 44:10
  for
• 44:10
  sure
• 44:10
  after
• 44:11
  we're
• 44:11
  done,
• 44:11
  'cause
• 44:11
  it's,
• 44:12
  it's
• 44:13
  just
• 44:13
  great.
• 44:13
  I
• 44:13
  love
• 44:13
  having
• 44:13
  these
• 44:14
  conversations.
• 44:14
  To
• 44:14
  be
• 44:15
  fair,
• 44:15
  the
• 44:15
  awkwardness
• 44:16
  is
• 44:16
  that
• 44:16
  we
• 44:16
  talk
• 44:17
  for
• 44:17
  an
• 44:17
  hour
• 44:18
  before
• 44:18
  this.
• 44:19
  Right.
• 44:20
  Because
• 44:21
  we
• 44:21
  can't
• 44:21
  possibly
• 44:22
  be
• 44:22
  in
• 44:22
  a
• 44:22
  virtual
• 44:22
  meeting
• 44:23
  without
• 44:23
  just-
• 44:25
  getting
• 44:26
  chatty.
• 44:27
  Right
• 44:27
  And
• 44:27
  then
• 44:27
  we
• 44:27
  have
• 44:28
  to
• 44:28
  have
• 44:28
  this,
• 44:28
  like,
• 44:28
  weird,
• 44:29
  "Well,
• 44:29
  like,
• 44:29
  we
• 44:29
  should
• 44:29
  probably
• 44:30
  press
• 44:30
  record
• 44:30
  and,
• 44:30
  like,
• 44:31
  do
• 44:31
  something
• 44:31
  today."
• 44:32
  Right.
• 44:32
  So
• 44:33
  we're
• 44:33
  just
• 44:33
  like,
• 44:33
  then
• 44:33
  we
• 44:34
  have
• 44:34
  to
• 44:34
  have
• 44:34
  this
• 44:34
  awkward
• 44:35
  transition
• 44:35
  over
• 44:36
  to,
• 44:36
  like,
• 44:36
  "Okay,
• 44:37
  hey."
• 44:37
  Like,
• 44:38
  like
• 44:38
  we're
• 44:38
  just-
• 44:38
  Right
• 44:38
  seeing
• 44:39
  each
• 44:39
  other
• 44:39
  for
• 44:39
  the
• 44:39
  first
• 44:39
  time-
• 44:40
  Yes,
• 44:40
  yes
• 44:40
  and
• 44:40
  we've
• 44:40
  been
• 44:40
  here
• 44:40
  for
• 44:40
  an
• 44:40
  hour.
• 44:41
  Like,
• 44:42
  that's
• 44:42
  the
• 44:42
  weird
• 44:42
  part.
• 44:43
  Yeah.
• 44:43
  That's
• 44:44
  what
• 44:44
  makes
• 44:44
  it
• 44:44
  feel
• 44:44
  awkward.
• 44:45
  Yeah,
• 44:45
  we
• 44:46
  have
• 44:46
  to
• 44:46
  find
• 44:46
  our
• 44:46
  way
• 44:46
  to
• 44:46
  transition
• 44:47
  over.
• 44:48
  But
• 44:48
  we
• 44:48
  will,
• 44:48
  and
• 44:49
  I'm,
• 44:49
  again,
• 44:50
  we're
• 44:50
  not-
• 44:50
  And
• 44:50
  the,
• 44:50
  and
• 44:50
  the
• 44:50
  wrap-up
• 44:51
  trying
• 44:51
  to
• 44:51
  be
• 44:51
  perfect.
• 44:51
  Yeah.
• 44:51
  Yeah.
• 44:51
  We'll,
• 44:52
  we'll
• 44:52
  get
• 44:52
  there.
• 44:53
  Yeah,
• 44:53
  exactly.
• 44:53
  But
• 44:53
  yes,
• 44:53
  welcome
• 44:54
  to
• 44:54
  our
• 44:54
  mess.
• 44:54
  Yes,
• 44:55
  exactly.
• 44:55
  We
• 44:55
  are
• 44:56
  messily
• 44:56
  figuring
• 44:57
  this
• 44:57
  out,
• 44:58
  and-
• 44:58
  It's
• 44:58
  the
• 44:58
  truth
• 44:59
  thank
• 44:59
  you
• 45:00
  for
• 45:00
  being
• 45:00
  here.
• 45:00
  I
• 45:02
  love
• 45:03
  it.
• 45:03
  I
• 45:03
  love
• 45:04
  you
• 45:04
  guys
• 45:04
  so
• 45:05
  much.
• 45:05
  This
• 45:05
  is,
• 45:06
  this
• 45:07
  is
• 45:07
  also
• 45:08
  a
• 45:08
  preview
• 45:08
  of
• 45:09
  general
• 45:09
  fuckery.
• 45:10
  Right,
• 45:10
  exactly.
• 45:11
  For
• 45:11
  today.
• 45:12
  Exactly.
• 45:14
  Yay.
• 45:14
  Which
• 45:14
  is-
• 45:14
  Okay,
• 45:15
  but
• 45:15
  next
• 45:15
  up
• 45:15
  is
• 45:15
  courage
• 45:17
  yeah,
• 45:18
  good.
• 45:18
  So.
• 45:18
  Yeah.
• 45:18
  But
• 45:18
  we'll
• 45:18
  talk
• 45:18
  courage
• 45:19
  next,
• 45:20
  'cause
• 45:20
  that's-
• 45:20
  Yeah
• 45:20
  the
• 45:20
  nice,
• 45:21
  that's
• 45:21
  a
• 45:21
  nice
• 45:21
  progression
• 45:22
  from
• 45:22
  truth.
• 45:24
  For
• 45:24
  sure.
• 45:25
  So.
• 45:26
  All
• 45:26
  right.
• 45:26
  We'll
• 45:26
  see
• 45:26
  you
• 45:26
  there.
• 45:27
  Thank
• 45:27
  you
• 45:27
  all
• 45:27
  so
• 45:27
  much.
• 45:27
  See
• 45:27
  you
• 45:28
  next
• 45:28
  time.