I Was Ordering Fentanyl Off The Dark Web In College | Gambling, Xanax & How I Got Sober

Rise Above with Kevin Lanning · May 18, 2026 · 1h 20m

Jordan Freeman had everything going for him — loving parents, a spot at one of the top business schools in the country, varsity baseball, and a bright future. But behind closed doors, he was ordering Xanax off the dark web, gambling with money he didn't have, blacking out and not remembering a single thing from the night before — and calling it normal.

By his sophomore year at Indiana University, Jordan was locked in his apartment alone, blinds down, friends knocking on the door, completely lost. He didn't want to die. He just couldn't see any hope left.

Now, coming up on 5 years clean from…