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Ahora Me Atormentará Por Siempre - Un Relato Que Desafía La Realidad - Voces De La Noche · Niebla en el bosque con Evelith von

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I' m very desperate today. This has lasted almost three years and although
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I am aware that I was the cause of everything I am suffering today,
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by seriously sharing this, I hope to be able to find a solution to
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all my problems. Throughout my life I have always had a great fascination and
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taste for everything related to fantasy, magic and mythology. And even though it
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was all just entertainment to me, I never really imagined that any of that
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could be real. I used to take it as a fun thing to have
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a good time with. But everything changed when I went into high school and
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met my best friend, whom I will call Esmeralda to protect her identity.
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When I met her, I noticed that Esmeralda also liked all those issues of
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witchcraft and science fiction, so I quickly thought we could be very good friends.
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But my, the more I talked to her, the more I realized
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that unlike me, Esmeralda didn' t take that as things that couldn'
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t happen in real life. She was absolutely sure that magic and spells could
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be real. At first I was skeptical, but Esmeralda began to introduce me
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more into this world of witchcraft. It was stuff like astrology, crystals,
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reading tarot and all that sort of esoteric stuff. After a while, I
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began to enjoy it a lot, as I felt that something really happened every
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time I used all those things. Very soon we both started to level up,
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trying to make small spells at midnight to attract wealth or good auguries for
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some exam. It was a secret between the two of us, because,
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while we didn' t think we were doing anything wrong, we also knew
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that many people could make fun of us for doing it to a reasonable extent.
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I felt that all of that worked and, therefore, I liked this
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whole subject even more for that moment of my life. I felt there was
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a whole world related to the magic I really wanted to explore. I remember
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we were already close to our senior year of high school, when a new
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girl entered the classroom and from the first moment I saw her I was quite
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in love with her, I didn' t know how to explain it,
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but I knew I needed her to be my girlfriend. I remember that day,
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during the break time, I went with her and tried to tell her
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my intentions by asking her for an appointment, but she rejected me and really
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didn' t seem to have any interest in me I felt sad and disappointed,
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so I walked away from her at the time. However, no matter
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how hard I tried, I couldn' t get rid of the idea that
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she was my girlfriend. I talked it over with Esmeralda and and she told
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me at first that it would be best for me to forget her. After
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all, I didn' t even know her well and she was only guiding
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me by her physical appearance. She also told me that maybe when I talked
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to her a little bit more, I would realize that we didn' t
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have much in common but I didn' t totally agree with this conclusion my
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best friend came to and I kept trying it somehow. I got her Facebook
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account and I tried to talk to her around, but she would answer me
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very vaguely or very often just let me see I knew I couldn' t
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talk about anything by that means with her either. I felt too desperate,
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because something inside of me knew that if she even gave me a chance,
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I could be the best boyfriend in the world for her. However, I
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couldn' t get her to break that perception she had of me. The
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course of the school cycle is guided by progress and was unable to get her
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to look at me no matter what she did. On the contrary I also
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realized that I was starting to bother her, so I decided to leave her
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for peace, although shortly after, when we were close to the final exams,
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my friend found something on an Internet forum. These were different kinds of
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rituals for moorings and sweetenings. She showed them to me, not to use
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them, but just as a joke. He told me he didn' t
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understand who could be desperate enough to fall so low and bewitch a person to
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love him. Although in the first instance I agreed. After reading about the
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sweetening, my opinion changed. Until that moment in my life I knew absolutely
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nothing about sweetening. I had heard about the subject of marre, but it
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never turned out to be that, if you managed to do it right,
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the person in question might have positive thoughts about you and that did not seem
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altogether bad, at least in my thought of that moment, I considered that
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it would not be forcing anyone to love me, but to get her to
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open her mind a little bit to know me a little better. I told
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my friend and she almost immediately told me that it wasn' t worth doing
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something like that, but I was too clinging to doing it, making all
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kinds of excuses and trying to lighten up the fact that I would basically be
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bewitching a person. In the end, my arguments were valid enough for emerald,
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so he told me he was fine and that he would help me.
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We both waited until the full moon to perform that sweetening ritual and, according
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to us, we did everything that Internet forum told us. The next day,
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however, absolutely nothing happened. She kept on with the same old attitude
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I was disappointed by this and my friend told me it was probably just made
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up stuff. I tried to forget it. But later that same day,
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when I returned home, I reread those printed sheets that my friend had given
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me to perform the ritual and realized that, by accident, my friend had
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also printed those pages of tie the truth. I don' t know what
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happened to me, since I always knew that something like that couldn' t
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be right and that it wasn' t a good way to have someone by
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your side. However, at that time I was blinded by wanting that girl
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to give me only one chance, taking advantage of the fact that I had
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almost everything, I did that job this time wishing it with all my might.
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Obviously, I' m not putting what I did here. I wouldn
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' t want anyone to do it, but let' s just say I
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had to bury him in the end and when I finished I didn' t
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know if it had worked or not, but I hoped it would. I
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remember a part of me feeling very embarrassed about what I had done so much,
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so I decided not to tell emerald, because I thought there was a
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high probability that, like the sweetening, this mooring would not work either,
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so it wasn' t worth humiliating for something like that. But when I
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barely walked into the living room. The next day I noticed something. She
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stared at me, smiled at me and greeted me. I greeted him back
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and went to sit in the usual place next to my friend. I remember
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as soon as I sat down, emerald looked at me surprised and whispered that
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the sweetening had worked. I returned an uncomfortable smile to her, because deep
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down I was perfectly aware that that was not the reason she was waving at
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me at the time. That same day, during the break, while waiting
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for my food in the school cafeteria, that girl approached me and greeted me
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again. I felt a little upset, but at the same time quite excited
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that my desires were finally coming true. I said hello and we both started
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talking. But, to my misfortune, I realized that, as Esmeralda had
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predicted, the reality is that we did not have many things in common.
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We seemed to be completely different people. To begin with, she was not
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interested in the subject of mythology and magic at all. She was interested in
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things that seemed boring to me, like football and volleyball. However, I
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decided to ignore all this first conversation since, finally, what I had long
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wanted was becoming a reality and I assumed that it didn' t matter if
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we didn' t have the same interests, because after all, in a
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relationship we didn' t have to be exactly the same and we could find
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something that we could share. We both spent about a week talking until we
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finally became boyfriends. But it wasn' t something I asked for, because
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throughout that week I was really trying to find themes in common with her or
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even try to create something new so that we could both share, but we
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were totally different. Besides, that girl was very obsessed, she texted me
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a lot, and basically if I didn' t answer her in at least
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half an hour, she' d call me to ask me what she was
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doing. In fact, it was she who told me that we should be
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boyfriends and, although I wasn' t quite sure by that time, I
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said yes, because I thought it was something I had always wanted and to
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miss the opportunity would be just ridiculous. However, something within me kept telling
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me that was not right and the worst came as soon as our relationship went
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away malized. That' s when that girl became much more dependent. She
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wanted me to be with her all the time at school and, on top
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of that, she was jealous practically of any girl who was near me,
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even Esmeralda. He told me a number of times that I had to get
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away from her so that our relationship would prosper. But I wasn' t
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willing to do something like that because I really loved my friend very much and,
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besides, I didn' t think it was the right thing to do.
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In fact, I let him know I told him I' d never
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get away from my friend. After that, she started crying and yelling at
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me that she was probably going to cheat on her and that kind of thing.
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I even remember that at that moment I saw the perfect opportunity to tell
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you once and for all that perhaps it would be better to finish if I
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had no confidence. But as soon as I told her those things, she
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freaked out more. He told me that I couldn' t leave her,
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that she really needed me and that kind of thing that made me feel too
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uncomfortable. I almost immediately knew I couldn' t leave her because it was
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something I had done and if I did, she could do something very bad
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like try her life. So I decided to tell her I was okay,
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that I wasn' t going to leave her, but that we' d
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have to put some limits on our relationship so she could be healthier. Although
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at first she accepted everything I was saying quickly I could deduce that the only
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reason she was accepting all that was for me not to leave her. And
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after a few days, she started to auto invite herself to any exit she
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had with my friend. If Esmeralda and I went out, she just happened
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to show up at that place. To this day. I don' t
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know how. She always knew where we were going to be. When it
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came time to start seeing him from college, she was only sure of one
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thing and she wanted to go to the same university as me. At that
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time I wanted to study computer science at the University and even though I was
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well aware that she was not interested in any of the careers offered by the
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university in which I was applying. She also applied, and not only that,
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but decided to enroll in the exact same race as me. He reminded
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me many times that it would be great if we stayed in the same room,
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had the same classes and shared absolutely everything together until we graduated this whole
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situation seriously. I was getting too uncomfortable, but because of my young age
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and also because of the feeling of guilt that I felt for having made that
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tie with her, it made me unable to leave her for a moment I
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thought that, perhaps by chance of fate it was either her or maybe me,
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we would not pass the university exam and we would have to go to
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different cities. That relationship would gradually dissipate. But to my misfortune I stayed
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at the same university as her. And while to her all that was a
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very happy event, to me it was a horrible thing. My best friend
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also stayed at the same university, but she was studying language and literature.
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So, even though we were still seeing each other because of the difference in
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classes and jobs, we were seeing each other less and less, basically I
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was totally stuck with my high school girlfriend as hard as I was trying.
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I couldn' t get used to that dependent relationship. She wanted to know
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all the time where she was or who she was with. She was extremely
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obsessed. I even remember that I had installed something on my phone so that
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all the messages that I received would also reach yours. Over the months,
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this whole situation became totally unsustainable. So one day armed with enough courage,
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I told her that I no longer wanted to be her boyfriend and, as
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expected, she started crying and telling me that I couldn' t let her
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love me and all that kind of stuff anyone could ever say. I was
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just telling her to leave me alone and she didn' t want to be
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her boyfriend anymore. Finally, I decided to go away so that I would
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not get any more remorse and decided to go back to her. I thought
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at that moment that everything had already been solved and that I would have no
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problem. I thought maybe over time, not being together, that mooring would
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just disappear, but I couldn' t be more wrong and after that day,
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she started harassing me in an increasingly disturbing way. At first I only
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filled my tray with all sorts of messages on any social network, whether it
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was Facebook, Instagram, Whatsapp and even sent me several emails and no matter
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how many times I blocked it. She always created new accounts to keep sending
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messages, telling me that she had made a big mistake, that we were
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meant to be together and that she would not rest until we were happy again.
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However, I always ignored all these messages, erasing them almost immediately and
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many times without opening them. But this was not enough to stop her and
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soon she began to be physical. Different cards slipped under my door and my
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mailbox filled only with letters from her begging for a second chance telling me that
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I was going to change and many other things. I remember almost all the
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guys in my department congratulating me and telling me how lucky I was to have
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such a nice girl begging, but I didn' t feel at all lucky.
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I felt too lonely, and especially because very soon those letters became much
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more threatening, telling me that I had seen myself talk to other girls and
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that if I thought of becoming her boyfriend, then she would hurt them and
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then hurt me. All of this was too serious and I tried to report
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it, but just because I was a boy, no one gave importance to
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my case by telling me that there was no problem and that she probably wasn
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' t serious about it. Nobody did anything. I was so distressed that
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I asked Esmeraldas if we could talk that I' d really like to talk
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to her. So my friend made the time and we agreed to meet in
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a part of the school to talk and once there I vented with her.
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I told him absolutely everything, from the moment I had made that mooring to
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everything that had been going on with my ex- girlfriend. Until that day.
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My friend didn' t know very well how to comfort me, but
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in an attempt to give me her support she hugged me. She told me
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she was fine and that, while she had made a mistake, we just
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had to find a way to break it so that she would stop seeing me
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as a necessity. After that we said goodbye and each of us left for
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his side, although a couple of hours later, when I was already home,
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my phone rang by that time I had already gotten used to checking who
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the person was calling me and if it was an unknown number. I definitely
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didn' t answer anymore, since my ex- girlfriend used different types of
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phones to keep calling, but at that point, when I checked the number,
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I realized it was emerald, so, without thinking too much, I
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answered thinking that maybe I had found something related to the moorings and how to
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undo them. However, although the person on the other side, if he
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sounded like my friend, I couldn' t help but notice that he sounded
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a little different, I couldn' t identify what he was. But seriously,
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it was like he was still worried about something. So, I asked
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her what she wanted and she told me that, please, I had to
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go with her to her house. I found it a little strange, but
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she insisted and told me I had to go. Finally, I went over
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and headed home. Once there what I found was absolutely horrible. My friend
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rented a room on the roof of a house, so I didn' t
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have Romies, although on the roof there were three more rooms. When I
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came in, there was her and my ex- girlfriend, and not only
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that, but my ex- girlfriend had her threatened with a gun. He
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was totally out of his mind. She told us that she knew that we
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both had something and that we had always been making fun of her, although
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that could not be possible, because Esmeralda doesn' t like boys and she
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knew it. Despite our attempts to explain it to her, she didn'
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t enter it day and kept pushing for us to be together again. The
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situation was so tense that I was about to say yes, but at that
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time the police arrived, as someone who rented the room across the street had
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seen the whole scene from his window and had called her. Luckily, the
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situation didn' t get older and although I thought it would all be solved
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there, to my surprise, a couple of days later they released it without
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any kind of consequence. Despite wanting to file complaints this time legally, no
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one listened to me, so I only had to find a way to break
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that mooring and after a long search on the Internet, we found that the
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most efficient way was to find the thing I had buried and destroy it.
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On the first weekend I could, along with my friend, we went to
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where I had buried that and set out to dig up the thing I had
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buried to do the mooring. However, once there I realized that I was
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going to do something much more difficult than I thought, as I had buried
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it in a wasteland near my house. But the owners of that land had
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already sold sections of it and had already built a house just where I remembered
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burying it. And, therefore, that thing was beneath the concrete foundations of
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that dwelling, so it was simply impossible for me to dig it up in
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my despair. We even tried to find him around, but we couldn'
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t find him and, disappointed, we returned soon. My girlfriend stalked me
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again and after a couple of weeks, dealing with it, we decided to
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go with sorcerers and shamans to try to undo it. Most looked at me
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with a certain anger, considering it repugnant to have forced someone to love me
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that way. However, most wanted to help me, although to date we
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have failed to do anything. I know that I am experiencing the consequences to
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this day, because none of them have managed to break that tie I made,
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as everyone has told me that the only way to do this is by
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digging up that amulet I made. But it' s impossible for me right
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