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It_s Time To Tell The Truth · CelinaSpookyBoo

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Speaker 1: Yeah, the title's real. It's time to tell the truth.
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Speaker 1: And the truth is that the world is messed up
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Speaker 1: and everything is dark and gross and dreary and I
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Speaker 1: want to take an opportunity to talk about the people
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Speaker 1: that I love and why I love them so much
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Speaker 1: because there's so much negativity out there and I'm the
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Speaker 1: kind of person who goes to the supermarket and when
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Speaker 1: I see someone with a beautiful smile, I tell them.
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Speaker 1: So why am I not using my platform to tell
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Speaker 1: the world about the people I love and why I
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Speaker 1: love them? You are going to see me talk about
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Speaker 1: people that you've never seen before, but you are going
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Speaker 1: to also see me talk about a lot of familiar
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Speaker 1: faces that you have seen. Yes, I have run into
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Speaker 1: some people. that I'm not going to talk about because
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Speaker 1: it was not a great experience. But that's fine because
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Speaker 1: I don't want to ruin idols for other people. That's
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Speaker 1: why we're not here. But I am 100% going to
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Speaker 1: blow smoke up the ass of the people that I
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Speaker 1: love very much. I'm going to be talking about some
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Speaker 1: of my best friends, but I'm also going to be
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Speaker 1: talking about people in my own life just because I
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Speaker 1: feel like I want to. I want to say the
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Speaker 1: good things because the more good we put out into
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Speaker 1: the world, the more good there is out in the world. Now,
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Speaker 1: of course, we're going to start strong. We're Yeah, that's Adam.
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Speaker 1: That's my husband. We've been together as of 17 years
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Speaker 1: this upcoming March, which is absolutely insane. We were babies.
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Speaker 1: We got married as babies and we have been together
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Speaker 1: and probably never had a blowout fight, not once in
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Speaker 1: our entire relationship, which might be unhealthy, but we're doing okay.
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Speaker 1: Adam is amazing. Adam is the strongest person I've ever met.
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Speaker 1: Adam has gone through some of the most horribly incredible
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Speaker 1: things that I've ever seen somebody experience. If you've been
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Speaker 1: along from the beginning, you know that Adam has a TBI.
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Speaker 1: He received a concussion in 2017 while he was gardening
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Speaker 1: in the backyard. A lot of people actually asked what happened.
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Speaker 1: So this is kind of a good opportunity to clear
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Speaker 1: up and tell you guys what did happen to Adam.
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Speaker 1: He was in the backyard and there was a post.
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Speaker 1: It was a two by four and he was shaking
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Speaker 1: it like this and it broke off and it smacked
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Speaker 1: him right in the forehead. And he felt a little
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Speaker 1: weird after that. He didn't get knocked unconscious, but it
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Speaker 1: was one of those days where it felt like 40
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Speaker 1: so what is that like 110 or something um and
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Speaker 1: uh he kept working he went to bed he woke
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Speaker 1: up he went to work the next day um he
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Speaker 1: came home he didn't even tell me i couldn't get
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Speaker 1: a hold of him all day he had these blue
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Speaker 1: pools underneath his eyes and he was white white and
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Speaker 1: his his lips were a little bit blue and we
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Speaker 1: went to the emergency room and we found out that
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Speaker 1: um He had gave himself a bad concussion and then
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Speaker 1: just really messed up his symptoms because he worked and
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Speaker 1: really was strenuous in that hot, hot environment. And he
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Speaker 1: was never ever the same again. After that, we spent
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Speaker 1: a year in silence in our house. No music, no sound,
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Speaker 1: no TVs. And Adam sat in a chair in the corner.
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Speaker 1: And there were a lot of times I was afraid
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Speaker 1: to leave because I was afraid of what I would
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Speaker 1: come home to. But we're not talking about that. We're
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Speaker 1: going to talk about how great Adam is. Adam is
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Speaker 1: the kind of person who will lift anybody up who
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Speaker 1: is around him. He is the kind of person that
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Speaker 1: wants to solve problems. He's the kind of person who
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Speaker 1: can look at something once and just know how to
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Speaker 1: do it. He has taken a girl because who I
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Speaker 1: was when he met me is not who I am today.
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Speaker 1: I was a very broken person. Anyone who spends time
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Speaker 1: around Adam feels better about themselves, feels better about their
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Speaker 1: situation and knows that he has their back. He goes
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Speaker 1: above and beyond for the people that he loves. And
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Speaker 1: I don't think Adam has ever left a space without
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Speaker 1: making a friend. I don't know what I did to
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Speaker 1: deserve Adam as a husband. He is so gentle with
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Speaker 1: me when I am a raging bitch sometimes. But I'm
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Speaker 1: a Pisces. He's a Taurus. We were meant to be together.
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Speaker 1: Adam is smart and kind and amazing. And I am
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Speaker 1: so happy that I get to be his girlfriend. I
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Speaker 1: really am. Now, next person on the list, somebody absolutely familiar.
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Speaker 1: I want to take a little talk about my best friend, Christina.
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Speaker 1: Christina Collins, my love, my girl. Chris and I met
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Speaker 1: in 2020. COVID had taken over the internet and her
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Speaker 1: and I had both jumped out of our careers and
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Speaker 1: on to TikTok. And we were pitted against each other.
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Speaker 1: A lot of people don't know the lore of our friendship,
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Speaker 1: but it started because it was Halloween time. I had
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Speaker 1: not heard of Chris yet. This is Halloween 2020. I'd
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Speaker 1: not heard of her. I bought tiny hands and I
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Speaker 1: went to a pumpkin patch and I was slapping pumpkins
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Speaker 1: and people were commenting, being like, that's Chris's thing. Like,
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Speaker 1: how dare you sell Chris's thing? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
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Speaker 1: So I DM'd her and I said, hi, I'm so sorry.
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Speaker 1: I didn't know the tiny hands were your thing. And
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Speaker 1: she said, tiny hands are tiny hands. They're not my thing.
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Speaker 1: And I was like, hey, you're from Canada. And she's like, hey,
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Speaker 1: you're from Canada. And then since that day, we've spoken
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Speaker 1: every single day back and forth. We started by trauma jumping.
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Speaker 1: Of course, she's a cancer. I'm a Pisces. We're water signs.
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Speaker 1: We bonded immediately. And I don't think a day has
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Speaker 1: gone past in the last six years that I haven't
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Speaker 1: spoken to Chris. I've never had a friendship other than
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Speaker 1: a relationship. A friendship lasts as long as it has
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Speaker 1: with Chris. She is my twin fame. I love her.
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Speaker 1: We both look at our jobs in the same kind
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Speaker 1: of way where we both have really bad imposter syndrome.
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Speaker 1: Neither of us are like a lot of people that
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Speaker 1: we've met in the industry. But Chris cares so hard.
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Speaker 1: And Chris lives hard and Chris is such a hard worker.
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Speaker 1: And I don't think Chris knows how absolutely amazing she is.
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Speaker 1: So if you see this, I love you. I think
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Speaker 1: that Chris deserves everything that she's ever gotten in this world.
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Speaker 1: She cares about the people who are around her so
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Speaker 1: much and she wants the best for everybody. She'd give
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Speaker 1: you the shirt off her back. Chris is the kind
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Speaker 1: of person that you hope will get famous because you
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Speaker 1: know that she's going to do the right thing. You
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Speaker 1: know that she's never going to use her power for evil.
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Speaker 1: She's She's a really kind person. She's reserved, but she's
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Speaker 1: out there, but she's so smart. And I think the
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Speaker 1: most incredible thing about Chris is her creativity and how
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Speaker 1: she can sit down and just create something out of
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Speaker 1: nothing in the matter of minutes. The way she can
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Speaker 1: memorize lines, the way she can do anything is, is crazy.
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Speaker 1: Chris has lived through so much. And I just think
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Speaker 1: that it's one of those people who, you know, you
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Speaker 1: could give into the things or you can just run
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Speaker 1: and be the most amazing person And I think that
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Speaker 1: she is an amazing person and she's so beautiful and
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Speaker 1: I just love her and I miss her so much.
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Speaker 1: And it's crazy that I haven't seen her since Remy's
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Speaker 1: been born because pretty much since 2020, we've seen each
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Speaker 1: other every three months. And it's been so cool to
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Speaker 1: do projects with her. Like for instance, House on Eden,
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Speaker 1: the movie that we made, if you didn't know it's
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Speaker 1: on Prime, it's on Hulu, it's on all those places.
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Speaker 1: We kind of made that thinking that it would just
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Speaker 1: be for our followers that we put out on YouTube
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Speaker 1: or like behind a little paywall for YouTubers or something
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Speaker 1: like that. but it ended up like going on theaters
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Speaker 1: and then on Shudder and all this stuff. And it
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Speaker 1: was so cool to watch her direct and watch her
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Speaker 1: create something out of her heart and to just see
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Speaker 1: her thrive. And I think my favorite thing is just
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Speaker 1: seeing Chris and seeing how happy she is. And she
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Speaker 1: found Caleb and they love each other so much and
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Speaker 1: they're just creating so much together. And We've talked about
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Speaker 1: it before where I've watched her live in like so
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Speaker 1: many houses and all these different places ever since we
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Speaker 1: got together and just seeing her blossom like as a
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Speaker 1: woman and into her career and all this stuff has
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Speaker 1: been incredible. And I genuinely think that Chris and I
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Speaker 1: will be like 80 years old and we'll still be
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Speaker 1: talking and we'll still be friends no matter what comes
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Speaker 1: after this. But Chris is so unique as a person
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Speaker 1: and I just, I feel lucky. I feel like she's
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Speaker 1: a collector's edition and I got to be a part
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Speaker 1: of owning her. That was fucked up and that's not
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Speaker 1: what I meant owning a portion of her friendship. Do
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Speaker 1: I mean like, it's like, it's one of 20. Well,
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Speaker 1: I get to be one of those twenties. I get
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Speaker 1: to be one of the peoples in their lives. But, um,
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Speaker 1: if you guys didn't know, Chris and I actually have
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Speaker 1: a podcast we put out every single Sunday. It's on
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Speaker 1: a YouTube channel called can't sleep. Make sure that you
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Speaker 1: check it out. Now, the next person that I want
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Speaker 1: to talk about is my baby brother. This is Joel.
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Speaker 1: Joel is my brother. Um, maybe he's older than me.
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Speaker 1: Maybe he's younger. We don't know. Um, I love my brother.
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Speaker 1: He is such a soft little guy. My parents had
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Speaker 1: two Pisces babies, a March Pisces and a February Pisces.
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Speaker 1: Joel is a March Pisces and he also has a
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Speaker 1: J name, which he doesn't follow under the category. Okay.
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Speaker 1: If you're a girly, then you know the boy J names,
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Speaker 1: especially boy Pisces. A lot of people don't mess with those. No,
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Speaker 1: Joel's great. Joel's an exception. I love my brother. My
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Speaker 1: mom got really sick when we were really young. So
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Speaker 1: I like to think that I had a big part
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Speaker 1: on trying to help raise him a bit. Even though
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Speaker 1: we fought and I was terrible, I still feel like
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Speaker 1: we had a time. And I feel so nostalgic every
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Speaker 1: time I'm with my brother. I want to go back
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Speaker 1: to Christmas morning. I want to go back to sneaking downstairs.
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Speaker 1: My brother works so hard for his little family. Our
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Speaker 1: boys are seven months apart. And watching him grow into
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Speaker 1: the man that he is today has been incredible. He
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Speaker 1: has the biggest, softest heart. He can't watch a horror movie.
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Speaker 1: He can't watch a sad video and he can't confront anybody,
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Speaker 1: but I love him so much. He's the best guy
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Speaker 1: and I love him. He's my whole entire world. Now
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Speaker 1: the next people I want to talk about, Sam and Colby.
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Speaker 1: I don't even want to lump these two guys together,
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Speaker 1: but I feel like they come as this package deal.
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Speaker 1: I get so many questions about Sam and Colby. There's
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Speaker 1: so much time where I go out in the world
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Speaker 1: and people are like, Hey, I know you're from Sam
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Speaker 1: and Colby or call Sam and Colby right now. Or
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Speaker 1: I love doing Sam and Colby and I love that.
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Speaker 1: And I want to talk about Sam and Colby really
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Speaker 1: quick because they're super popular dudes. And I always get
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Speaker 1: the question, what are they like in real life? What
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Speaker 1: are Sam and Colby like? They're amazing. They're so kind.
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Speaker 1: And I have my most embarrassing moments I've ever had
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Speaker 1: were with Sam and Colby. Okay. Do you want some tea?
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Speaker 1: Do you want some like little intel? Some like little stories? Okay. Okay.
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Speaker 1: So first I was outside with Chris and Sam at
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Speaker 1: my house up on the hill here and I had
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Speaker 1: gotten a three-wheeler motorcycle and I was like, yeah, look
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Speaker 1: how cool it is. What did I immediately do? I
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Speaker 1: drove my motorcycle into the side of the barn in
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Speaker 1: front of Sam and Chris and smashed the whole front
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Speaker 1: and broke my barn. Yep. And then the other most
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Speaker 1: embarrassing thing that I think about every single time that
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Speaker 1: I lie awake at night is the first time that
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Speaker 1: Sam and Colby had ever reached out. So this is,
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Speaker 1: I think the first time I hung out with Sam
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Speaker 1: and Colby was 2021 or 2022. And we had talked
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Speaker 1: online a little bit where I was like, hey, we
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Speaker 1: should do something spooky together. And they had DM me
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Speaker 1: and said, yeah, like, we'll let you know when we're
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Speaker 1: in Canada. I didn't think it was ever going to happen.
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Speaker 1: I didn't. And then one day I got a message
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Speaker 1: and they're like, hey, want to go on a ghost trip?
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Speaker 1: And we're going to go to three different locations. And
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Speaker 1: I was like, uh-huh. Abso-frickin-lutely. So I remember I was
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Speaker 1: already such big fans of them. I had started watching
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Speaker 1: their paranormal videos before COVID, before any of this stuff
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Speaker 1: happened for me on TikTok. My friend Katrina had sent
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Speaker 1: me onto them and I loved them. And it was
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Speaker 1: so cool because I've always been into the paranormal stuff.
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Speaker 1: I started back in 2014 and My ghost videos, they're
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Speaker 1: all private because they're terrible. But I was so excited.
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Speaker 1: I had done a little bit of ghost hunting on
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Speaker 1: my own, but doing it with Sam and Colby, that
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Speaker 1: was the holy grail. So I remember like waiting at
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Speaker 1: a hotel and not facing them and my brother tapping
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Speaker 1: me on the shoulder and being like, they're here, they're here.
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Speaker 1: And turning around and being like, it's Sam and Colby.
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Speaker 1: But the most embarrassing thing that happened with them was
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Speaker 1: at the end of this first trip where we had
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Speaker 1: gone to three different haunted locations. I had brought them gifts.
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Speaker 1: And as I gave them the gifts, I started to cry.
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Speaker 1: And I was like, thank you so much for this experience.
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Speaker 1: You guys are so nice because this is COVID. We
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Speaker 1: barely had interaction with people. Do you know what I mean?
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Speaker 1: But I had said to them, I'm like, this is
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Speaker 1: the embarrassing part. Get ready. I'm like, hey, being in
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Speaker 1: this job, a lot of people don't talk to me
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Speaker 1: because I'm fat. It's true. Brands had dropped me. I
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Speaker 1: wasn't invited to things. People with like 0.1% of my
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Speaker 1: following were getting chosen for things over top of me
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Speaker 1: just because they weren't fat. And I remember like crying
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Speaker 1: and being like, thanks so much for like hanging out
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Speaker 1: with me even though like I'm fat. What the fuck, Selena?
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Speaker 1: What the heck, Selena? Why would you say that? Why
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Speaker 1: would you say that? So yeah, they probably don't remember it.
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Speaker 1: But to this day, I lay awake and remember that
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Speaker 1: I thanked Sam and Colby for being my friends even
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Speaker 1: though I was fat. What the It was six years ago.
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Speaker 1: I was a different person. I'm fine with who I
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Speaker 1: am now. Okay? Okay? Capisce? Capisce? But the truth about
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Speaker 1: Sam and Colby is that they are genuinely the nicest
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Speaker 1: guys ever. When you hang out with them, they're making
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Speaker 1: sure everything's good. They are so kind. You should see
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Speaker 1: what they're like when they meet their fans in real life.
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Speaker 1: It is such an amazing experience. Again, just like Chris,
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Speaker 1: they're the kind of people that you want to be famous.
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Speaker 1: I hate when I see stuff come out in the
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Speaker 1: media about them. Or, oh my god, when I see
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Speaker 1: TikToks talking about them faking stuff, I wish everybody could
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Speaker 1: come on an investigation. I don't understand where the faking
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Speaker 1: allegations come from because we're all just using the same
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Speaker 1: pieces of equipment and there's really no way to manipulate them.
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Speaker 1: I've been on, what, 10 ghost hunts with them at
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Speaker 1: this point. It is such an incredible experience all the time.
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Speaker 1: And I feel like they just have so much energy
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Speaker 1: as it is. I feel like paranormal things are just
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Speaker 1: drawn to them at this point. But, you know... If
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Speaker 1: I could, if I could describe them separately, you know,
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Speaker 1: Sam is like such a powerhouse and he is just
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Speaker 1: so passionate about everything that he does. And he's such
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Speaker 1: a kind person. And you can just tell, like, he
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Speaker 1: was just raised right. And I just love their story
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Speaker 1: that there were these two boys who are friends in
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Speaker 1: Kansas and they just came to the front and they
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Speaker 1: feel like little brothers to me. Like, I just adore
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Speaker 1: them so much. And then Colby, he's so funny and
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Speaker 1: he's so kind. And again, he's passionate about what he does.
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Speaker 1: And all I can say about them too is I'm
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Speaker 1: just so happy that they both found love. I hope
13:49
Speaker 1: I get invited to weddings one day if they hear
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Speaker 1: this and see this. Even if they're family only. I've
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Speaker 1: been around for quite a few years now. And I
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Speaker 1: hope that we'll always be friends. And I'll love you
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Speaker 1: very much. But no, genuinely, Sam and Colby are, if
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Speaker 1: I were to put on the list, some of the
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Speaker 1: nicest people that I've ever met. And they deserve everything
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Speaker 1: that's come their way. They work so hard. And they
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Speaker 1: are just really impressive guys. And I'm really happy to
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Speaker 1: call them my friends. Now let's talk about some new
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Speaker 1: friends that I've met lately before we go into some
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Speaker 1: of my personal life things. But I want to take
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Speaker 1: a moment to quickly talk about Garrett Watts, who you
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Speaker 1: probably saw in the Sam and Colby video that I
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Speaker 1: was recently in at Crescent. I had kind of thrown
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Speaker 1: them out. I said, hey, can you guys match me
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Speaker 1: up with Garrett? He was able to come. I think
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Speaker 1: Garrett is the only person I've ever met who out
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Speaker 1: weirded me. Usually I go into a space and I'm like,
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Speaker 1: oh my God, am I too much? And then there
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Speaker 1: was Garrett and I'm like, he's not too much. I
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Speaker 1: need more. Garrett is incredible. Garrett is a light. He
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Speaker 1: is hilarious. He is funny. I feel like there are
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Speaker 1: so many different layers to him, but all I can
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Speaker 1: say is I'm really excited that I got to meet
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Speaker 1: him and I got to do something spooky with him
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Speaker 1: because he, I'm glad everyone loves him and who he
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Speaker 1: is on camera is exactly who he is in real life.
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Speaker 1: Same with Chris, same with Sam and Colby. And I think,
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Speaker 1: before going forward, that's kind of the difference between a
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Speaker 1: lot of the people that I've met I don't like
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Speaker 1: meeting my heroes a lot of the time because I've
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Speaker 1: met a lot of people who you guys love or
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Speaker 1: I love online and they're terrible. And I hate saying that.
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Speaker 1: And I'm not going to say any names, but I
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Speaker 1: have met some people. And then after I'm like, they
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Speaker 1: are not who they are on camera. And they are definitely,
15:27
Speaker 1: they are definitely meaner. They're mean people, I think, but
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Speaker 1: I'm not going to drop any names. I'm not that
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Speaker 1: kind of person. I'm not that kind of person. Some
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Speaker 1: people know some cause they've guessed it along the way,
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Speaker 1: but there are a lot that aren't. Um, Okay, someone
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Speaker 1: else who I want to talk about? Kelsey Davies. I
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Speaker 1: met Kelsey Davies at the White Party at a TikTok
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Speaker 1: party at VidCon. I have been told about her by
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Speaker 1: my manager. We finally got to meet. She was super nice.
15:53
Speaker 1: I love that we're into the same stuff. A lot
15:55
Speaker 1: of the time in paranormal community, especially girl-on-girl crime, happens
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Speaker 1: all of the time. Everybody thinks that they're the best
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Speaker 1: at this and everybody thinks that this person's faking or
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Speaker 1: this is this or this or this or this or this.
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Speaker 1: Kelsey is awesome. She's really kind. She's very quiet. She's
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Speaker 1: very soft. Her energy is very warm. We keep talking
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Speaker 1: about doing stuff. I really hope that I can do
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Speaker 1: something with her one day. She came out to our
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Speaker 1: movie premiere when we did it at VidCon, Chris and I.
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Speaker 1: But I just think she's super creative. She's a great actress.
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Speaker 1: I genuinely think that in these next couple years, she's
16:28
Speaker 1: going to be one of those really huge names who's
16:30
Speaker 1: either going to come out as an actress or a
16:33
Speaker 1: director or something along those lines. I really think actress.
16:36
Speaker 1: I really think she's going to be in something create
16:38
Speaker 1: some kind of horror movie that's gonna blow up. I
16:41
Speaker 1: just genuinely see that for her. Her energy when you
16:43
Speaker 1: meet her, I think that Kelsey's definitely someone who's, like,
16:46
Speaker 1: been through a lot but uses that trauma and power
16:50
Speaker 1: to just push herself ahead and follow her dreams. So,
16:52
Speaker 1: I'm just proud of Kelsey and I hope that I
16:55
Speaker 1: get to meet her again one day. I really hope
16:57
Speaker 1: we get to create something. I had a text on
16:59
Speaker 1: my phone that I need to get back to because
17:01
Speaker 1: I think it'd be cool to make something. I- I
17:03
Speaker 1: really usually keep my circle super small, and that's just
17:06
Speaker 1: because of things I've been through. But she's one of
17:08
Speaker 1: those people who, even when I'm a horrible texter, wow,
17:11
Speaker 1: want some tea, could be six months before I text
17:13
Speaker 1: somebody back. She's never gotten mad at me, which is
17:16
Speaker 1: so nice. But I hope to get to see her
17:18
Speaker 1: one day. Project Fear! Can I talk about Project Fear?
17:23
Speaker 1: Sweet babies. Sweet babies. I love them. I love them
17:26
Speaker 1: so much. Every one of them is so kind. I
17:28
Speaker 1: want to squeeze them. I love Tanner. I love them all.
17:31
Speaker 1: I don't know. I have like some kinship with Tanner.
17:34
Speaker 1: We send each other screaming voice notes all the time
17:38
Speaker 1: on Instagram. I really hope I get to collab with
17:40
Speaker 1: them too. But Project Fear are like the most down-to-earth
17:43
Speaker 1: people I've ever met. Every time I see them, my
17:45
Speaker 1: face lights up. I got to see them at Paracon.
17:48
Speaker 1: They were so cool. Same thing now jumping over to
17:50
Speaker 1: Twin Paranormal. I finally got to meet them. That was
17:53
Speaker 1: at Paracon this year. I'm going to be Paracon next year.
17:56
Speaker 1: But Twin Paranormal, they were the sickest. I got to
17:59
Speaker 1: meet some of their girlfriends. I loved their energy so much.
18:03
Speaker 1: I think that they have such a passion for what
18:05
Speaker 1: they do and I hope I get to collab with
18:07
Speaker 1: them as well. And then another one, and it's, these
18:10
Speaker 1: are more so people I've seen like once or twice, but, um,
18:12
Speaker 1: Amanda and Mackie, I got to meet them also. That
18:15
Speaker 1: was actually, I got to meet them and I got
18:18
Speaker 1: to meet Project Fear in a Sam and Colby video. See,
18:20
Speaker 1: look at them. Sam and Colby just bring everybody together, um,
18:24
Speaker 1: in one of the Sam and Colby videos. And, uh,
18:27
Speaker 1: they were such kind. We got matching emo ducks. They
18:29
Speaker 1: had such great energy. I wish that they did more.
18:32
Speaker 1: They haven't been doing ghost stuff lately, but I think
18:34
Speaker 1: Amanda and Maggie have such great chemistry and I'm really
18:37
Speaker 1: excited for what they would do because they, they are
18:39
Speaker 1: really sweet people too. Next I want to talk about
18:41
Speaker 1: my mother-in-law. Uh, her name is Audrey and I could not,
18:44
Speaker 1: I could not do my career if it was not
18:47
Speaker 1: for Audrey. Um, when we go away on trips, uh,
18:50
Speaker 1: she is with Remy. Um, When I crashed out in
18:55
Speaker 1: the beginning, I don't know. I didn't think this baby
18:57
Speaker 1: was real until this baby got here. And I thought
18:58
Speaker 1: that I could work full time. And also like, you know,
19:04
Speaker 1: have a baby. She stepped in because he wasn't sleeping
19:07
Speaker 1: at night and I wasn't getting any sleep. And she
19:09
Speaker 1: started staying over on nights. And Audrey, I know she's
19:12
Speaker 1: not on the internet, so I'm not gonna talk about
19:13
Speaker 1: her too much. But my husband's mom is one of
19:15
Speaker 1: the most incredible women. I could call her at four
19:17
Speaker 1: o'clock in the morning and she would show up immediately.
19:20
Speaker 1: And she has many times. And the next person I
19:23
Speaker 1: want to talk about is Carolyn. Carolyn is my son's nanny.
19:28
Speaker 1: I love her so much. Carolyn came into my life
19:32
Speaker 1: at a time where I never thought I would be
19:34
Speaker 1: so scared or so unsure and I needed to get
19:37
Speaker 1: back into work again, like I said. And she came
19:41
Speaker 1: to be a part of our family and take care
19:43
Speaker 1: of my Remy and she loves him the way that
19:46
Speaker 1: I do. She looks at him the way I do
19:48
Speaker 1: and I don't think there's anyone in the world other
19:51
Speaker 1: than me, Adam, and his mom who I feel as
19:53
Speaker 1: safe with as Carolyn for being Remy's caregiver. She puts
19:58
Speaker 1: him first. I feel like he's developing into such an
20:02
Speaker 1: amazing little person and she is such a huge part
20:05
Speaker 1: of why he is the way he is and who
20:07
Speaker 1: he's becoming as a little man. I feel like I
20:11
Speaker 1: knew her in another life. She is down for anything
20:15
Speaker 1: and is always there to take care of us as
20:19
Speaker 1: a little family. I know if I asked her help
20:21
Speaker 1: in anything, I know she would show up. And I
20:23
Speaker 1: hope that she's with us for a really, really long time.
20:26
Speaker 1: If there's more babies, if you know what I mean.
20:29
Speaker 1: But I love Carolyn. She's not just my son's nanny.
20:32
Speaker 1: She's a part of our family at this point. And
20:35
Speaker 1: she's just a wonderful woman through and through. She's just
20:37
Speaker 1: a very you see her and she's just real and
20:42
Speaker 1: honest and there's not one second of doubt when, when
20:45
Speaker 1: we're around her. So I just want to send a
20:46
Speaker 1: huge thank you out to Carolyn. Another cool person I
20:50
Speaker 1: want to talk about is actually Bunny. Um, a lot
20:51
Speaker 1: of the guys know, uh, Bunny is just Bunny and
20:53
Speaker 1: Jelly Roll, but it's Bunny. Baby is Bunny. I love Bunny.
20:56
Speaker 1: A lot of people don't know about our little like
20:58
Speaker 1: quasi secret, um, friendship. I know she's talked to me
21:01
Speaker 1: a couple of times, uh, where my names were brought
21:03
Speaker 1: up in her podcast, but I think I love Bunny.
21:06
Speaker 1: I think Bunny is incredible. I don't even remember where
21:08
Speaker 1: our conversations started. But I think it was more so
21:10
Speaker 1: about fertility and stuff like that. But she's someone who's
21:13
Speaker 1: kind of been like this mini constant in my life
21:15
Speaker 1: over the last couple years. And I love her. And
21:18
Speaker 1: I am so bloody excited for her future. I think
21:22
Speaker 1: that Bunny is the kind of person who cares with
21:24
Speaker 1: more than just her heart. She cares with her whole
21:26
Speaker 1: entire body. And that's something that's like so transparent to me.
21:29
Speaker 1: And the way that she loves her friends and her family.
21:31
Speaker 1: And I think that the next couple years of her
21:33
Speaker 1: life are going to be some of the absolute best.
21:36
Speaker 1: I think that she's going to create and do things.
21:38
Speaker 1: And I think she is so beautiful. And she just
21:41
Speaker 1: deserves so many good things. I don't know if you've
21:44
Speaker 1: checked out her book. Make sure that you do. It's incredible.
21:48
Speaker 1: I have two of them. Because I bought one. And
21:51
Speaker 1: then I was going to an airport and I bought
21:52
Speaker 1: another one. But I love Bunny and she has really
21:56
Speaker 1: cared about me. And anytime I've ever had a question,
21:58
Speaker 1: she has, you know, helped me with that. We've talked
22:01
Speaker 1: about lots of fertility stuff and I'm just like, I'm
22:04
Speaker 1: excited for her. And she's so hot. Like if you
22:06
Speaker 1: want to know my type, Bunny! Now I want to
22:10
Speaker 1: talk about my one friend who is closest to me here.
22:15
Speaker 1: As I said, I keep my circle pretty small. I
22:17
Speaker 1: have a friend and her name is Jackie. And we've
22:21
Speaker 1: known each other for just a couple years now. But
22:23
Speaker 1: she has quickly become someone who's like really, really special
22:26
Speaker 1: to me. She's helped me do self tapes for shows.
22:30
Speaker 1: She's kind of been the friend that I can crash
22:32
Speaker 1: out on a couch with. Her and I have the
22:34
Speaker 1: conversations that, you know, a lot of people don't. When
22:37
Speaker 1: I'm with her, I just feel like Selena. It's been
22:39
Speaker 1: hard with my job the way that it is sometimes
22:41
Speaker 1: to make friends because to them, I'm Selena Spooky Boo,
22:44
Speaker 1: but to Jackie... I am just Selena. And then we
22:48
Speaker 1: have two more friends, which is Megan and Krista. And
22:52
Speaker 1: that's kind of my little friend group here where I live.
22:54
Speaker 1: And I love them so much. They have genuine big hearts. Megan,
22:57
Speaker 1: I've known since I was like a child. And then
22:59
Speaker 1: Krista is a newer friend. But again, she just treats
23:02
Speaker 1: me like a normal person. And I just love spending
23:04
Speaker 1: time with them. I've never really had a core group.
23:08
Speaker 1: So actually getting to be a part of a core
23:11
Speaker 1: group and have friends and have a group chat has
23:14
Speaker 1: been really life-changing because I didn't realize how much I
23:17
Speaker 1: needed that. Now, I want to talk about a creator
23:19
Speaker 1: that I met. I talk about her on my stories
23:21
Speaker 1: all the time, and that is Chelsea Lin, Twilight Trash Tammy.
23:24
Speaker 1: I got to meet her once on a TikTok Live.
23:26
Speaker 1: We got to go golfing, and then we went to
23:29
Speaker 1: the Cheesecake Factory, and I've never had a creator be
23:31
Speaker 1: so welcoming or teach me stuff or give me advice
23:35
Speaker 1: the way she did. She just felt like that comfy auntie,
23:39
Speaker 1: and I really do hope that we get to meet
23:41
Speaker 1: again and do something together and hang out because she's just...
23:45
Speaker 1: She's magic, and... The fact that her and Bunny are friends,
23:48
Speaker 1: I feel like Chelsea Lynn and Bunny and me. That's
23:50
Speaker 1: the ultimate smoke circle. Not smoking, though, but just hanging
23:54
Speaker 1: out and talking shit. I feel like we would have
23:57
Speaker 1: such a good time. Next person I want to talk
23:59
Speaker 1: about is Paige. Paige is part of Paranormal XP. She's
24:02
Speaker 1: someone that I met years ago. She did some really
24:05
Speaker 1: sick photo shoots with us. She's helped us on The
24:07
Speaker 1: Haunted Estate. She is such a nice, quiet, sweet, honest
24:11
Speaker 1: person who is so passionate about the paranormal. And I
24:14
Speaker 1: just feel really lucky to know her. She is so creative.
24:17
Speaker 1: She's one of those people where it's like she just
24:20
Speaker 1: sneaks in and then it's like, holy shit, you are
24:22
Speaker 1: so good at everything you do. But Paige has been
24:25
Speaker 1: a really big backbone on some of the projects that
24:28
Speaker 1: we've been working on, especially the Haunted Estate season one.
24:31
Speaker 1: So I love you, Paige. Next up, I want to
24:34
Speaker 1: talk about Jay. Jay is somebody who I met through Chris, obviously.
24:38
Speaker 1: It was her editor. He worked on House on Eden
24:40
Speaker 1: with us. Jay is someone who has been like a
24:42
Speaker 1: constant in my life. He always sends gifts for Remy.
24:45
Speaker 1: He checks in. He sees how we're doing and stuff.
24:47
Speaker 1: And it feels like one of those friendships that you
24:49
Speaker 1: have in the 90s where you bike over to each
24:51
Speaker 1: other's houses. Like, I think we'll probably know each other forever.
24:54
Speaker 1: But Jay is such a kind guy and he's so
24:56
Speaker 1: creative and passionate about the things that he does. And
24:59
Speaker 1: he's the most interesting person ever to talk to about movies.
25:02
Speaker 1: Anytime I watch a movie, I text to him. I say, hey,
25:04
Speaker 1: did you see this movie? What did you think about it?
25:06
Speaker 1: So Jay is another person who I think is such
25:09
Speaker 1: an interesting person. And I'm really glad I got to know.
25:12
Speaker 1: Now I want to talk about my manager. So a
25:14
Speaker 1: lot of people don't know, but I do have a
25:16
Speaker 1: manager and his name is Frankie. He has been with
25:18
Speaker 1: me forever. Fun fact, nobody would manage me. I was
25:22
Speaker 1: at 14 million followers on TikTok. Before I could ever
25:26
Speaker 1: get management. And Frankie was one of the first people
25:28
Speaker 1: that ever found me. I went with this little shitty agency.
25:31
Speaker 1: It was terrible. I got out of that pretty quick.
25:34
Speaker 1: Frankie found me. Got us out. And I have been
25:36
Speaker 1: with Frankie ever since. First, look at this spectacle of
25:39
Speaker 1: a man. Look at this specimen. A specimen. Frankie taught
25:44
Speaker 1: me my worth. Frankie taught me what I was capable of.
25:47
Speaker 1: Frankie instilled a confidence in me that I don't think
25:49
Speaker 1: anybody else would have. He brought me to LA. He
25:52
Speaker 1: showed me the world. He made me feel confident in
25:55
Speaker 1: the things that I was doing. He helped me blossom
25:58
Speaker 1: into the person that I am today. And I will
25:59
Speaker 1: forever always be thankful to Frankie. He is the kind
26:02
Speaker 1: of person that you want on your team no matter what.
26:04
Speaker 1: And I feel like I am one of the lucky ones.
26:07
Speaker 1: Not only Frankie, his family is incredible. His sister, Nikki,
26:11
Speaker 1: his mom and dad. They even showed up in Boston
26:13
Speaker 1: to surprise me. Obviously, my parents are very sick. And
26:18
Speaker 1: he showed up with his family to surprise me in
26:21
Speaker 1: Boston for my book tour, which was super, super nice.
26:25
Speaker 1: And I think about it and weep sometimes late at night.
26:27
Speaker 1: But Frankie is the kind of person who when he
26:29
Speaker 1: believes in you, you know it. And he shows you
26:31
Speaker 1: what you're capable of. And there is such a love there.
26:34
Speaker 1: And I hope that I'll always have Frankie. He feels
26:38
Speaker 1: like family now. He honestly does. He's been through me.
26:41
Speaker 1: He's been through everything with me, every version of myself
26:44
Speaker 1: and everybody who I've been along the way. And I
26:48
Speaker 1: just hope for all of the best things in the
26:49
Speaker 1: world for Frankie. I hope every single dream of his
26:52
Speaker 1: comes true. He lives such an amazing life and I
26:55
Speaker 1: love being able to see it. And I feel so...
26:57
Speaker 1: honored that I get to share his life with him
26:59
Speaker 1: and get to see the thing that he's doing and,
27:01
Speaker 1: and live the life that he's living along with him.
27:03
Speaker 1: And I'm just thankful for him. I'm thankful for the
27:05
Speaker 1: opportunities that he's brought to me. I'm thankful for the
27:07
Speaker 1: things that we've created together. And I honestly think that
27:10
Speaker 1: we are going to do so many amazing things together
27:14
Speaker 1: as friends and, and in business in these years. And
27:17
Speaker 1: I just want to blow a smoke up his ass
27:18
Speaker 1: because I genuinely love, I love Frankie so much. She's
27:22
Speaker 1: like my brother and I, He's just fantastic. There's nothing
27:28
Speaker 1: else that I can say. Now let's go into our
27:31
Speaker 1: last three. I know I'm forgetting people. So if you
27:33
Speaker 1: wanted to be on this list and you're not, I'm sorry.
27:35
Speaker 1: I'm sure I do love you, but these are the
27:37
Speaker 1: ones on the top of my list that I can
27:39
Speaker 1: absolutely remember. But I want to talk quickly about my
27:41
Speaker 1: mommy and my daddy. I love them so much. My
27:45
Speaker 1: parents conquered through so much to raise my brother and I,
27:47
Speaker 1: my mom got sick when I was super young and
27:49
Speaker 1: my dad was a really big role model and showing
27:51
Speaker 1: me that you stick out hard things. When my mom
27:53
Speaker 1: got diagnosed with MS, the doctor sat my parents down
27:56
Speaker 1: and said, you have MS and he's probably going to
27:58
Speaker 1: leave you. Hey, it's the nineties and that's the kind
28:01
Speaker 1: of shit they say, I guess. But my dad never left.
28:03
Speaker 1: And to this day, my dad is my mom's 100% caregiver.
28:07
Speaker 1: His body is giving out and it is the saddest thing.
28:10
Speaker 1: And I wish that I could save them, but there
28:13
Speaker 1: is no saving them. My mom is very, very sick.
28:16
Speaker 1: She has multiple sclerosis. She's to the point where she
28:20
Speaker 1: can't really speak. She can't do anything for herself. But
28:22
Speaker 1: my dad does everything for her, everything. And he loves
28:26
Speaker 1: her in such a way. And I feel like that's
28:31
Speaker 1: one of the reasons, Adam, I love each other, but
28:33
Speaker 1: if things ever got hard, I wouldn't leave because I've
28:36
Speaker 1: seen my parents fight through some of the hardest things
28:38
Speaker 1: that you can fight through and they stayed together. My
28:41
Speaker 1: dad loves my mom and my mom fights every single
28:45
Speaker 1: day of her life. So whenever I think I'm having
28:47
Speaker 1: a bad day, I remember what they fight with every
28:49
Speaker 1: day and I just love them. I love them so
28:53
Speaker 1: much and I'm so proud of them and they've worked
28:56
Speaker 1: so hard their whole lives and I love them. And
29:03
Speaker 1: the last person I want to talk about and I
29:04
Speaker 1: waited till the end because I know I'm going to
29:06
Speaker 1: cry is Remy. No, before we get to Remy, I
29:13
Speaker 1: want to talk about Jess because without Jess, there would
29:17
Speaker 1: be no Remy. Jess is somebody that I met about
29:21
Speaker 1: two and a half years ago. She came to me
29:24
Speaker 1: and said, Hey, let me have, let me have your
29:26
Speaker 1: baby for you. Jess is the surrogate that carried Remy.
29:31
Speaker 1: She's an incredibly strong woman who's been on many surrogacy
29:34
Speaker 1: journeys and we love her. We love her so much.
29:40
Speaker 1: She cared so much from the beginning to the end.
29:42
Speaker 1: And I think it was really important for us to
29:43
Speaker 1: want somebody who had done this a few times. And
29:46
Speaker 1: she had. I think Remy was her fifth journey. Yes.
29:50
Speaker 1: And the way that she carried him and cared for
29:53
Speaker 1: him and took us on this journey and took us
29:55
Speaker 1: by our hand, even though she'd been through so much
29:58
Speaker 1: in her life, she is so willing to love, and
30:02
Speaker 1: show compassion to people like us who couldn't have children.
30:05
Speaker 1: And I just want to say a thank you to
30:06
Speaker 1: Jess because she is one of the strongest women that
30:09
Speaker 1: I have ever met. And I mean that. And I
30:12
Speaker 1: love her. Hey, hey, pause. I'm in the bubbly tub. Listen.
30:18
Speaker 1: I was literally editing this and it made me think
30:20
Speaker 1: of two more people that I absolutely love and adore
30:22
Speaker 1: and didn't speak of because there's something wrong with me.
30:25
Speaker 1: And that's actually my two editors that we have, which
30:27
Speaker 1: is Becca and Robin. They are the ones who edit
30:30
Speaker 1: the videos you guys see over on Can't Sleep and
30:33
Speaker 1: on this channel. And they're absolute icons. These are two
30:36
Speaker 1: super strong women. Becca's been with me since the literal beginning.
30:39
Speaker 1: Her and I's babies are only like a week apart,
30:42
Speaker 1: which is absolutely insane. And Robin actually came from my
30:47
Speaker 1: original podcast, The Honda State. And she actually has been
30:51
Speaker 1: editing for us for a couple of years too. And
30:53
Speaker 1: she's amazing and so creative. And I just love her
30:57
Speaker 1: passion for everything that she does. But both of these
30:59
Speaker 1: women have made massive impacts on my life. And the
31:02
Speaker 1: fact that I can't fucking think of them makes me
31:05
Speaker 1: want to just... Selena. Anyways, I love Beck and Robin too.
31:12
Speaker 1: Now to talk about Remy. Remy is my son. I
31:18
Speaker 1: can't ever talk about it without crying. Like you think
31:21
Speaker 1: a year out and I would be okay. Remy humbled
31:27
Speaker 1: me in ways that I could never explain. Like I said,
31:30
Speaker 1: I thought that this baby would come and it would
31:32
Speaker 1: be fine and I could work full time and I
31:34
Speaker 1: could do all of this. And I was humbled very
31:36
Speaker 1: quickly by this blonde-haired, blue-eyed little boy. He is the funniest, smartest, strongest, kindest,
31:47
Speaker 1: most amazing little boy that I've ever seen. He is
31:50
Speaker 1: all the best pieces of me and all of the
31:53
Speaker 1: best pieces of Adam put together. I just hope that
31:58
Speaker 1: the world is kind to him and I hope that
31:59
Speaker 1: life is gentle to him and I hope that he
32:02
Speaker 1: feels the confidence to be exactly who he is. I
32:06
Speaker 1: hope that he chases his dreams and I hope he
32:10
Speaker 1: never feels held back and I hope he never feels
32:14
Speaker 1: like he is not capable and I hope he knows
32:16
Speaker 1: and if anything ever happens to me, he can come
32:19
Speaker 1: back to this video to know that I believe in
32:21
Speaker 1: him and anyone he wants to be in anything he
32:23
Speaker 1: wants to be in anything he wants to do. I
32:27
Speaker 1: think he's capable of it. I can see it in him.
32:29
Speaker 1: And I think he is extraordinary. I remember I talked
32:35
Speaker 1: about this on Instagram. I'm going to tell the story
32:38
Speaker 1: again here. But this girl who I grew up with,
32:40
Speaker 1: I ran into in the mall. And this is before
32:43
Speaker 1: Remy was, we knew about Remy or anything. And she
32:46
Speaker 1: was with her newborn. And she had said to me,
32:48
Speaker 1: you know, last time I saw you, you said you
32:51
Speaker 1: told me that you couldn't have kids and that you
32:53
Speaker 1: said maybe that was a good thing because I didn't
32:55
Speaker 1: think I would be a good mom. And she said
32:56
Speaker 1: how much she hated that. And I almost started crying
32:58
Speaker 1: in the parking lot because I remember just deciding that
33:01
Speaker 1: for myself after 12 years of drama and just telling
33:07
Speaker 1: myself I wouldn't be a good mom. And she said,
33:10
Speaker 1: I knew you'd be a good mom. And I hope
33:15
Speaker 1: I am. And I want to do my best by
33:17
Speaker 1: him always. But I love him. And Remy, if you
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Speaker 1: ever see this, I love you so much. I love
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Speaker 1: you more than anything in my whole life. You were
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Speaker 1: the puzzle piece that we were waiting for. You were.
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Speaker 1: I want 12 of you. I love him. I love him.
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Speaker 1: I love him. I love him. It took and takes
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Speaker 1: having a baby, I think, to see what life is
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Speaker 1: was really about and if you don't want to have
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Speaker 1: kids that's fine that's your own thing but for me
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Speaker 1: it took it took that to see what life was
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Speaker 1: really all about sorry for this weird long-winded video but
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Speaker 1: I just wanted to tell the people that I love
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Speaker 1: how much I love them and let the world know
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Speaker 1: how great they are too because every single time I
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Speaker 1: turn on the news or I open my phone something
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Speaker 1: terrible is happening in the world I hope down below
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Speaker 1: you can drop something about someone you love a lot.
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Speaker 1: Blow smoke up people's asses in the comments. I would
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Speaker 1: love that. But until next time, stay spooky, Boo Crew.
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Speaker 1: The next video that we have coming out is an
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Speaker 1: unbelievable investigation that Adam and I did and my brother
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Speaker 1: at TALA, Trans-Allegheny Lunatic Asylum. It was the craziest investigation
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Speaker 1: of our lives. It's been in the editing chop forever
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Speaker 1: because that night we almost died. There was insane flooding. Um...
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Speaker 1: And it's going to blow your mind. It's going to
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Speaker 1: blow your mind, this video. So I hope you guys
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Speaker 1: check it out. Set a reminder in your phone. I
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Speaker 1: think it's September 15th. But I love you. Thank you
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Speaker 1: for being here for this video. Be kind to each other.
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Speaker 1: The one thing you get to choose is how you
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Speaker 1: react to things. Okay? You have that power. Love you.