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Random Heathen Ramblings: S3, EP15 -"What Are You Gonna Do About It?" feat. Dingo · Random Heathen Ramblings

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  And all right. All right.
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  Hello, and welcome everyone. Random Heathen ramblings podcast
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  is officially underway and join with me today is co-host.
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  I don't even like the term guest anymore because, you know, you
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  kind of help you kind of help. Keep the Keep the flow going
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  when you're here. Dingo is here with us today.
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  So yellow. Yo, what's up, man?
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  Good seeing you again. Kevin, you know, always a
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  pleasure and it is a pleasure. It is, it is an honor and a
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  privilege, my good sir. Feels like a while since we've
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  seen each other face to face. I think the last time we beheld
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  each other's vistage was during Seeger.
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  Bloat was gonna say was yeah, behold envisage, right?
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  That that sounds more than what it actually is, but This week
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  when we saw each other's face, which I did talk about on the
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  last, you know, podcast it seems like, oh, you know, that's all
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  you talk about is, is the tribal stuff or the, or the events I'm
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  like, hey, it's something to talk about, right?
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  It's like Bonnie Raitt, baby. Let's give them something to
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  talk about. Well, how about bloat?
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  Or how about Seeger? Bloats right?
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  It was good. And it was a great ride by our
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  best wicker man, ever. Dude, I mean we've got we've got
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  a tall order to fill next year. I am so proud of how that turned
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  out, right? I'm so proud, just from like the
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  one year to the next, like, looking back on the first one, I
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  was like, wow, like it looked great at that time.
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  And it is great because it was, you know, the intent behind it
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  all. But like just the, the
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  construction of the latest one, the newest one was so I don't
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  know, man. It was like Patrick did a super
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  super job with the Engineering of it all getting the right next
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  year. We're going to have to like
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  build one of those like 20 foot or exact out in the yard.
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  Like not even in the woods, you know.
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  Just yeah we need ladders and shit.
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  Yeah. Like pallets and stuff or
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  whatever. Yeah,
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  yeah. Yeah.
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  And just, you know, for you in case you missed it like the the
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  with Kya reading the ritual. I mean, it lined up great with
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  everything because I saw a lot of people around that time
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  talking about their rituals and I remember seeing one person
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  online only remember where or who stress in a bit about, oh,
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  I've got to lead this ritual. I've got holy lead, this ritual,
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  I'm nervous and this and I'm like, hey, you know, a
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  six-year-old can do it right? You can do it.
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  Like, don't stress yourself. Yeah, she did a great job.
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  Yeah, so a lot of stuff to be proud of and I'm just, I'm super
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  glad that, you know, we got, we got to experience all that
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  together. Miss Miss can, you know, I hope
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  he knows that he was missed so But that's what, that's how it
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  goes, sometimes. You know, we do what we can, you
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  know, but aside from that man, what else is going on?
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  Well, you know, today, Monday things, Monday things,
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  Fun. Little playdate was awesome.
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  Good good. Well, I'm glad man, my weekend
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  was spent with just chilling. Mostly we went yard saling, not
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  sailing on the yard and the sense of we didn't put ships or
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  boats onto the yard, right. We went we went driving around
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  get out the old land canoe. Wasn't like that the the climate
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  didn't suit us. That there was not a lot of good
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  head winds but no, we don't usually go.
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  But, you know, Vanessa was like hey you want to get up to you
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  know go ahead like community yard sales.
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  Yeah and she and her parents usually go and stuff.
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  I was like well I'm not going to get up early to do it and we
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  didn't it was, you know, because they thought it was going to, we
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  thought was going to rain. So we wouldn't even really plan
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  that much for it. But we did.
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  Up going to some like, community art sales and spend time, you
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  know, with her folks for the latter, half of the later
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  morning, early afternoon and then the rest of the weekend
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  was, you know, just kind of chilling.
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  I made this, you know, room set out of that redbud tree, which
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  I've for everybody that's listening to the podcast.
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  If you are not following me on on Facebook, Twitter, Or
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  Instagram or subscribe to the YouTube channel.
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  Then what are you doing with your life?
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  First, of all, number one, number two, it's all posted
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  there, check it out. It's the redbud tree that it was
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  on my father-in-law's. And, you know, where they live a
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  couple of blocks down, they just needed to trim the tree and, and
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  maintain the property line. So, you know, some of those,
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  some of those limbs have Then turned into one of them.
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  You know, the one of the main limbs of the tree is has or is
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  going to become a tribal Relic. So it's a staff.
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  It's going to be a ritual staff. It's a rather blown red flower
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  staff. So and then there's other pieces
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  that I've used to make some room sets.
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  Well, one room said, I think I have enough material to make at
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  least another one maybe two, but I don't use like, drum rolls or
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  satay. Us to cut the pieces.
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  It's all, you know, Hands-On stays the same, you know, same
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  theme, you know, with a lot of what we do with the Tribune, no
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  power tools. Now I will say that part of the
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  tree that I'm making them stuff from did get removed with a
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  chainsaw. It was electric chainsaw because
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  it's what my father-in-law had now was, you know, for the sake
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  of time and efficiency? Well, let's let's let's make it
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  a little bit easier on ourselves but the Rune sets themselves,
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  like I, you know, cut them into pieces by hand and use the wood
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  burner to do it all, and then sanded them hand and smooth them
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  all out and all that. So it's a lot of a lot of
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  physical effort focused on with, with minimal power, tools
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  needed, but the, the that was a fun project, you know.
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  For everybody again, listening if you're looking to get a very
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  unique Rune set this these you know sets you can't you can't
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  buy online not that I know I've never.
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  Seen or heard of Redbud Rune sets online.
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  Speaking of my in-laws, by the way, it's pouring down, rain
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  outside. And here he comes, I can hear
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  the dogs outside. Going crazy, because he just let
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  him and I'm like, it's muddy and wet outside and he comes over
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  and lets him out. Then I'm going to have a nice
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  mess to clean up in the floor. I'm sure.
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  Because of their muddy wet paw prints, right?
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  But anywho it's all good. The Rune set, solids will be
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  dogs dogs, dogs, dogs. Dogs are going to dog, man.
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  I mean that's really good. You know potatoes going to
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  potate Haters Gonna Hate and dogs gonna canine the dog and
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  that's alright I'd rather have that kind of mess.
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  You know? I mean at least it's wholesome
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  it's this house is it? This house is a mess but it's an
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  organized mess and it's in some messages.
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  Coexist with the Vets here and our pets are our
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  representations. I think oftentimes of the
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  spirits that dwell within the home, they can manifest
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  themselves through the pets at least, you know, they can make
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  themselves known through the vents.
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  That's another fun thing, right? You know, the about sigur blood,
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  we got a new pet here from singer blows.
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  Hmm. Yeah, talk about little Cosmo
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  will salamander He looks like the cosmos.
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  He's black with little tiny white.
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  Looks like the cosmos. Yeah, you know.
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  And he's cool, dude. I never seen one quite like
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  that. Like I remember finding
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  salamanders and stuff in the wild, you know, because, you
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  know, you move rocks and Limbs and stuff in those wet areas and
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  they're like, pretty prolific, but I don't remember seeing one
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  and maybe it's a pretty common like coloration or markings but
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  the The white spots on black body.
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  I've never found one like that. Okay, whichever it ends up being
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  it's too little for me to sex it right doing good.
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  Did your did your volume change or something?
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  Your you kind of sound a little, okay?
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  All right. Sounds like a little.
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  It was a little far away. But yeah, yeah.
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  So sounds like your little bit low on the volume but we'll make
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  it work but so yeah, I remember like from up north where I live
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  the, the salamanders that were Native had like almost orange
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  skins like their their skin was orange.
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  Black spots so I guess it's just maybe a native coloration thing.
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  But yeah, yeah. So yeah, that's cool.
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  Right. You know, the of a tear that I
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  mean that's definitely something of the wild, you know, the the
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  living outside of the confines of the Of the Hearth.
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  So yeah, I don't know this, this whole like family thing.
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  It's kind of why I wanted to or what I wanted to talk about
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  today. Family can Blood right?
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  The, the connection that we have with family and how that
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  connection can be, severed disrupted damaged, you know,
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  over time through actions through deeds and what that
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  means to us as heathens specifically, because the family
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  unit, I think the the clan structure, you know, Is very old
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  and it's kind it's construct, right?
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  Like it's the basis of where we find a lot of cultures it's you
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  know, home is where the heart is that the Hearth is, you know,
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  sanctity its sacred. It's its sovereign.
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  Right. And that extends beyond the
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  immediate Hearth and into the the come the combined blending
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  of Hearts, you know, when when when families and clans blend
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  and mesh, you know you have what becomes tribe you know.
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  And so this the sovereignity I guess that's the right word.
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  The Sovereign nature of it, all is Paramount to get me means a
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  lot to us, you know, and when any of that, Sovereignity and
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  then any that sanctity gets you know damage for whatever reason,
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  I get it hits such a nerve, you know.
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  So we see this a lot in Heathen re and paganism in general,
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  especially when there's dissension of, you know, the
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  religious aspects of this whole thing from Christian families.
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  You know, people that have that have come from Christian homes
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  and Christian backgrounds and people that are very devout and
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  and exclusive to their spirituality and their religious
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  beliefs in that way. And I don't mean to like lump
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  everybody into the same categories because I've met and
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  been introduced and close to enough people who I would say
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  are fundamentally Christian. But that are not.
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  So yeah, but yeah, but that aren't just so, you know,
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  exclusive to the point where they condemn you, or they
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  ostracize you or they shun you for differing beliefs, you know,
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  they're accepting to the point and they hold to their beliefs,
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  and I congratulate that like I 100% would not want anybody to
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  stop being devout in their beliefs.
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  Just like I would expect the same respect from from those
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  Ike. Hey, don't don't.
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  Don't try to shoot me down for for my approach to things and I
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  won't shoot you down for yours, you know.
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  Since I was a kid was kind of a hobby, you know?
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  And Christianity is one of the very few that I've seen where
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  you have like Christian or non-Christian.
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  Hatred. And that's a very bizarre
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  concept to be of like, You're not this.
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  So you're going to hell and I'm like but you're on the same
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  team, right? Right.
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  There's all the different isn't the different, what I call him
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  sects, right SEC, T sects isms, I will call him, you know,
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  there's baptism, you know, I heard things like that.
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  A lot of, what does that mean? I don't, but that was like, the
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  Pinnacle of monotheism was Catholicism like even though I
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  will always contend that, you know, you're just relabeling
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  paganism. If you're Catholic, the saints
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  were Gods, you know, the rituals were Pagan rituals and now
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  you're just, you know, putting it into a Check the feed roll.
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  No relabeling it to fit the demographic.
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  Yeah. Oh yeah, for sure.
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  And, and that that like you say, you know, just from having come
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  from a Christian background, myself and seeing the, the
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  infighting, as it were, or the, the opposition from other.
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  Because, I mean, I brought I was brought up in a
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  non-denominational, you know, Coach to the whole thing and
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  largely. Now I won't even say largely
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  entirely like other denominations of Christianity
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  were considered wrong. You know, like so it was, you
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  know, that they're there was, there was wrong, there were
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  there were wrong things with backed, it Baptist, it was wrong
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  things, with Pentecostals, there was wrong things with
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  Presbyterians Catholics, especially there was a, there
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  was a, there was a palpable disdain for Catholics, and that
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  might be a whole other. I might get Richard in on that
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  one because of the, because of the auto, man, there was like, a
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  whole like decade-long study in the church.
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  That I went to devoted to like the Book of Revelations in the
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  Prophecies of the move, the New Testament and some of that stuff
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  and like it was really fascinating if you look at it
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  from a theological standpoint but it but it all points back
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  to, you know, Babylon is Rome the Roman Catholic church and
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  the the Beast of the Revelation. The Antichrist is is a Roman
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  Catholic, pope and all this like, really wild stuff, man.
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  And I just, you know, when I look back at it all and see, see
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  the pure disdain for not just other religions non-Christian
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  religions but the disdain for actual other denominations
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  within Christianity. I was like, well it's either you
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  know you or nothing at that point, you know?
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  Like there's no room for for there's no gray area.
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  And the gray area is kind of where I want to focus on with
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  this particular podcast because the gray area exists.
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  There are no, there are no absolutes.
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  Right in religion. Would you, I mean, would you say
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  that? There's that, that's a fair
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  statement. There's too many variables,
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  there's too many things that you can do you study.
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  Black and white. There is no good and evil there.
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  Like it's all very much left to interpretation.
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  Yeah. And I mean
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  there's caveat is, you know, yeah.
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  It's you know, definitely don't do this.
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  Yes. But at the same time, I want you
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  to do this, if they go against me.
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  Okay, that seems pretty egotistical egomaniacal even of
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  a deity, which, you know, hey, let's call it the way it is.
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  I mean, the god of Abraham, Isaac.
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  And Jacob is a pretty, he's an egomaniac.
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  But, you know, suffice that to say, that's cool.
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  You know, like do your thing but in a, you know, the acceptance
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  of it, the hold the gray area. I wanted to mention something
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  because again, I'm going to speak.
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  I'm going to speak freely here and I know before we started
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  airing this, you were like, hey, you know, can I speak freely to
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  and on my apps? Freaking lutely.
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  Because why else would we be here doing this?
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  If if we couldn't I had a recent not even an interaction, I won't
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  even call it an interaction but I noticed something recently,
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  you know. And I've talked to here on this
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  podcast and bingo, you know, specifically because I you know
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  your I confide in you a lot with things that I don't publicly
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  share but To the extent that I have talked about the the
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  estrangement that I've experienced with my family.
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  My actual family, my blood family, my my blood can you know
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  the roots from which I've grown literally right parents siblings
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  that sort of thing. And the estrangement that I've
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  felt and the excommunication that has that has befallen me
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  for my beliefs and kind of where I've fallen in that with, with
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  how I feel with it already, you know, accepting it.
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  But still feeling the sting in the pain of man, why does it
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  have to be this way? So I know at least in the past
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  that members of my family, see what I post, they see my YouTube
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  channel, they've they've confronted me about my image.
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  My You know, looking possessed, right?
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  Because of the of the ritual attire that I wear whatever.
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  And I'm like, You know, whatever that's a thing.
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  But so anyway, this is for them. This is for them that that if
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  you're still watching and if you're still in a murdered with
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  what I do. And if you still have the spare
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  time to want to be focused on what I do, then I'm still here
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  and so my sister. My sister, her husband, and my
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  niece, their daughter who will be turning a year next month.
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  No, next. Yeah, I believe, next month,
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  next month of July. I remember, I think she was born
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  into June, so she's, you know, right around, almost a year old.
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  I've never met her a day in my life.
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  We were supposed to go up to New York, to meet her to, you know,
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  be introduced and everything. And I was, I was told that I
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  wasn't welcome and so, you know, we're still, we're still
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  connected on social media. And but haven't really talked to
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  any of the great degree since anyway, notice the post from my
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  sister, where they went to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina.
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  Now, from where my siblings, where my sibling and her husband
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  and their daughter live in New York, still to Myrtle Beach.
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  South Carolina is about a 12-hour Drive.
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  Put that in respect to where I live in Tennessee.
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  Is about a 13-hour drive from New York to there for, you know,
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  from from here to New York from, you know.
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  So you're talking like an hour and a half two hour difference
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  may be depending on when you stop traffic, that sort of
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  thing. They've never once taken a trip
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  down to Tennessee to see me and the nature of their trip to
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  Myrtle Beach. South Carolina was to attend the
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  funeral of my brother-in-law's friend's father.
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  Not a family member and I get it that family doesn't always mean
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  blood because that's what we're here to talk about a dear friend
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  of his his father died. They made a 12-hour one-way trip
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  for the weekend or whatever how you know however many days to as
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  he put it, pay their respects, attend the service.
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  Now. Again, I'm looking at that and
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  I'm going. my wife, your literal sister-in-law their sister, you
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  know I'm saying their sister-in-law suffered a
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  grievous family loss last year and I did not expect and I would
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  not expect anybody to make a 12-hour long, drive or 13, our
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  14, our long drive to attend their services, but I sure as
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  shit would have expected a message, a text A card or
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  something in the mail to express condolences because it wasn't
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  concealed and it wasn't private and it was very well known that
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  this had happened. She suffered a tragic loss.
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  I am your literal brother. I'm your brother-in-law.
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  You are Ken and blood to me. You don't want to talk to me.
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  You don't want me to have anything to do with your family
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  because of quite honestly, shallow, ignorant reasons,
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  you're uneducated, you don't know what the hell you're
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  talking about, and I'm here to put you that in that pin, that
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  in that place. But you will drive 13 hours to
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  Attend, the funeral of your best friend's father?
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  Good for you, good for you for having a sense, good for you,
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  for having an understanding of respect for the dead and
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  respect, for those who are nearest and dearest you
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  apparently, I don't fall in that category.
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  I don't fall into the category of nearest and dearest even
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  though I've literally been with you, your whole life even though
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  I'm the one who was your nearest and dearest friend for most of
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  your life even though that despite the mistakes and stuff
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  that I made, I made amends to correct those things to be near
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  and dear to you. Once again, and having done that
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  and having been true to myself and, you know, express myself in
• 27:27
  my True Form have been excommunicated and have been
• 27:30
  denied that opportunity to meet my niece, my blood, my own kin.
• 27:38
  I've been disallowed the opportunity to be tied in that
• 27:41
  sort of way. And I'm going to get real, and
• 27:46
  I'm going to say what's that? I'm going to get real to you
• 27:53
  know like that last one, the the whole photo shoot thing.
• 28:01
  I was a black metal artist for 10 years, I play Black metal and
• 28:07
  doom metal. I did added noise ambient
• 28:09
  project, you know, I was in Wooten the liquor, it's all
• 28:16
  Showbiz. Yeah, it's ShowBiz theater.
• 28:23
  Do you think I like go to work and Corp State?
• 28:26
  You know like know you lot cooler if you did.
• 28:41
  Yes, you know, I've done music
• 28:52
  videos, I've done photo shoots, I, you know, interviews, the all
• 28:57
  the things and, you know, like you it's Showbiz in order to
• 29:01
  promote whatever Medium. You're putting out, you have to
• 29:06
  make it interesting. You have Naked.
• 29:09
  You have to act? Yeah, it's Showbiz.
• 29:13
  It's not and in the religious or the spiritual aspects of it,
• 29:18
  it's the ritual theater parts of paganism are very well
• 29:25
  celebrated. I feel there's a lot of, you
• 29:27
  know dress the part. It's kind of like this right
• 29:29
  now. You think I you think I walk
• 29:30
  around town looking like a fucking Druid?
• 29:34
  Yeah. Or are you know what I'm saying?
• 29:35
  Like I don't I don't dress like this all the time I mean it
• 29:38
  would be neat but it's not practical and it doesn't work
• 29:41
  and it's not you know this is a thing this is this is you know
• 29:44
  Again, it's theater. It's for the entertainment
• 29:47
  factor in, and it doesn't take away from my true self, but it's
• 29:50
  just part of myself. It's one of the parts of myself,
• 29:57
  you know, and I don't know. I'm
• 30:21
  especially at the time the time the time that you know there was
• 30:34
  at the 30s some like 34 I mean you know just considering like
• 30:38
  the culture at the time and the way the world was I mean just
• 30:42
  like that was like You know, pretty brave. but, Right or
• 30:56
  whatever. Like the good guy, you know, and
• 31:01
  they got blood spattered all over their face.
• 31:03
  You know. Like yeah and and I've you know,
• 31:17
  I reached the point last year where I felt like I had put it
• 31:21
  to bed that I had put the whole You know, the estranged
• 31:27
  relationship and how it affected me, and how it impacts me on a
• 31:30
  day-to-day basis that had been laid to rest.
• 31:34
  I felt like, at the time, I was over it and that I was no longer
• 31:40
  affected by it and I would be lying if I said that seeing that
• 31:47
  didn't hurt and doesn't hurt. And I'm kind of in a position
• 31:53
  right now where I'm opening this us up in a way to offload vent
• 32:00
  but also to share for awareness and welcome input.
• 32:06
  How do we deal with this? How do we deal with the
• 32:09
  repeated? Because, look, I mean, I I put
• 32:13
  myself through the potential distress by remaining connected
• 32:19
  with them by having them on my Facebook, by having them, on my
• 32:22
  social media by staying visible to them in this way.
• 32:27
  And so, could it be argued that? Well, if you really, and truly
• 32:31
  were over it, then you would sever all ties.
• 32:33
  And you would just literally we cut the head off of the off of
• 32:38
  the thing and then be done with it.
• 32:40
  That's really hard to do. That's really hard for me to do
• 32:44
  at least because, you know, I mean, like I don't want to I
• 32:50
  don't want to be the one to do that.
• 32:52
  I don't want to. I don't want to be the one that
• 32:53
  said I'm done with you. Goodbye because I still have
• 32:59
  family. That's there.
• 33:00
  My dad you know who have not talked to for a long time who I
• 33:06
  used to talk to him once every day is, you know, not in good
• 33:10
  health and hasn't been for a very long time and I don't know
• 33:13
  when that day will ever come when he's Moving on, right?
• 33:18
  I don't want to be disconnected or dis or disassociate and
• 33:21
  separated to, I don't want to be the one to do that because I
• 33:23
  don't want to. I just don't want to think about
• 33:27
  what that's going to feel like, you know what I mean?
• 33:29
  Like, I'm being visceral and I'm being real to the point where
• 33:31
  it's like, I just kind of need a little bit of.
• 33:35
  I'm the one that's asking for some insight here.
• 33:37
  I'm the one that's asking for some.
• 33:40
  How do you cope with it? You know, here's how I'm doing
• 33:43
  it. I'm doing it right now by you
• 33:45
  know anonymously not even an honestly but I'm like whether
• 33:48
  you see this or not Bree Darren Mom, Dad Dom Danielle, all he is
• 33:53
  whether you see it or not. This is this is what I'm, this
• 33:59
  is what I'm saying, this is how I feel, but is it the best way?
• 34:02
  Could I be doing it better? You know, I know, right, maybe
• 34:12
  maybe that answer, maybe maybe an answer is not the answer for
• 34:16
  me, right? I mean it's probably specific.
• 34:22
  Yeah. What are you?
• 34:29
  Can't dictate how other people perceive something or feel about
• 34:33
  something. You know, that's not for you to
• 34:35
  do, that's for them to do. Yeah.
• 34:39
  I mean part of me won't you know, I want things to be.
• 34:51
  I do, I want, I want things to work and and and they obviously
• 34:58
  don't, otherwise we wouldn't be in this situation and so I'm
• 35:02
  left with the decision, I'm left with the, the thoughts that
• 35:06
  Mullen my mind is like, okay then, what am I even doing
• 35:09
  perpetuating? Something that is causing me so
• 35:13
  much distress. I don't know, it's a very weird
• 35:19
  place to be in and I feel like a lot of folks are find themselves
• 35:22
  in a similar scenario and are looking for you know, guidance
• 35:28
  and and here, everybody listening watching right here is
• 35:32
  a classic example of there's almost no one right answer,
• 35:36
  there really isn't. Because in some cases, yes, the
• 35:40
  best thing to do is just again, cut the head off, walk away, be
• 35:42
  done with it. But is that the right thing?
• 35:45
  To do in every case are what other factors are there?
• 35:48
  You know, there there's so many things that I don't know, man.
• 35:53
  I feel like, it's one of those things where you kind of have to
• 35:55
  bear that burden, in a way yourself, you have to, you have
• 35:59
  to walk solitary in. That way, you can have support
• 36:04
  from your community and you have support from tribe and and all
• 36:06
  that to just be able to offload invent.
• 36:09
  But at the end of the day, what are you going to do about it?
• 36:13
  Your decision is going to ultimately be the thing that
• 36:20
  ends up in the well, we've talked about that plenty of
• 36:24
  times here to on this podcast and I know the content as well.
• 36:27
  Do you know the layers of order log and and what we lay down in
• 36:31
  the well, what becomes who said that my great-grandfather, it's
• 36:47
  a very complex thing to say, you know, okay, so what what can you
• 36:53
  do? You don't like something?
• 36:56
  How do you fix it? Would, what can you do?
• 36:58
  And is what you're going to do in vain, you just going to be
• 37:03
  flogging, a dead horse. More.
• 37:07
  What are you gonna do change? You don't like it.
• 37:10
  Change it make it better. and it's not always that easy though
• 37:16
  you know but you still have to consider what you can do, what
• 37:22
  you're capable of changing, you can't change everything, you
• 37:25
  know like Do you remember the story I was telling you about?
• 37:32
  Wow, this is gonna get bad about my ex-wife and getting mad at me
• 37:38
  about the movie Melancholia. I think it's the it seems
• 37:46
  somewhat I think I remember basically there's an asteroid
• 37:50
  coming to Earth. It's like bigger than the moon.
• 37:57
  everybody's gonna die, you know, she was so mad at me that I said
• 38:03
  that I wouldn't try to change the path of the asteroid and I'm
• 38:09
  like, but it What are you going to do?
• 38:17
  I mean, it's inevitable fix that.
• 38:20
  Yeah. What are you going to do about
• 38:25
  it? But what are you capable of
• 38:27
  doing, you know, you can't move mountains nessus.
• 38:30
  How big is the thing that you're trying to battle or her face?
• 38:35
  I mean, if it's, if it's and that's a really good point, some
• 38:40
  things just can't be undone. Some things are just what they
• 38:44
  are. Like you say, I mean, it's a
• 38:46
  massive Force like that. I mean, it's kind of like, the
• 38:50
  Ragnarok thing, right? I mean, it's inevitable has
• 38:52
  been, there is no Changing the Fate, no matter how in the Odin
• 38:56
  has has, has known by many names.
• 39:03
  What, you know, being the Mad one because of his focus on
• 39:08
  trying to change the inevitable, trying to change the destiny.
• 39:11
  The Fate the, the ultimate thing that he is destined to to to
• 39:16
  endure, but the effort to try and change, it has driven him,
• 39:21
  mad and II feel As I talk through this.
• 39:26
  That I'm touching a little bit into that Realm Of The Madness
• 39:34
  of the just because it does. It's so consuming you know when
• 39:40
  you are impacted in such a way by someone else's actions, how
• 39:47
  much power do they have over? You Right.
• 39:52
  I mean without them, even trying, they have cast a spell
• 39:57
  of control over you because I'm sitting here talking about it
• 40:03
  and I'm venting to the public about it and I'm here, I'm here,
• 40:06
  you know podcast and about this whole thing because I felt like
• 40:09
  it's a relevant topic of conversation and then we all
• 40:12
  feel it and then So, is this an away is?
• 40:16
  It's the counterspell. Is this is this a way to release
• 40:18
  that from a lot of us. Why not try, what do we got to
• 40:28
  lose? What do we got to lose?
• 40:30
  And what do we have to gain? And that, as I think up to each
• 40:34
  and every one of us and on an individual level utilizing, the
• 40:40
  Resources that we have the support that we have, from where
• 40:43
  we have it, whether it's, you know, online communities,
• 40:46
  whether it's local grassroot tribes, whether it's whatever it
• 40:49
  is, right, because otherwise, man, we're going to work, it's
• 40:56
  going to eat us up. I reached the point last year at
• 41:01
  right around November then you know what I'm talking about
• 41:04
  where everything just kind of got reset.
• 41:07
  And I was like, okay it doesn't really matter.
• 41:10
  It's all good. It is what it is and slowly here
• 41:14
  and there things are creeping in and it's like, yeah.
• 41:17
  But does it, are you? Are you really okay?
• 41:21
  And I'm like struggling to find that place again where I was
• 41:25
  like, yeah, I really am. Okay, it Really doesn't matter.
• 41:29
  I get it. And what it is what it is,
• 41:33
  right? Thisis, what is it?
• 41:39
  SOC KSI is what it is. I mean it just is what it is but
• 41:46
  man it's so easy to say and I guess when you talk through it
• 41:50
  and you find that place where you were to feel it, that it is
• 41:53
  what it is and you just yeah, whatever.
• 41:56
  You remedy like you really are able to reminisce and recall
• 41:59
  that that experience. But I'll tell you what, boy?
• 42:01
  During that all. And when you are exposed to it
• 42:05
  in the moment, it really hits hard.
• 42:09
  Man. It hits such a nerve I don't
• 42:12
  know, it's the challenges. You write it puts it to the
• 42:24
  test. You don't really know unless
• 42:48
  you've been in that moment before.
• 42:53
  Yeah, it's you know, again. Celery.
• 43:24
  Well, he had it, he had it like in his jacket, but I could see
• 43:27
  like the outline of the metal and everything in his jacket.
• 43:30
  He's like, I'll shoot you, man. And I'm over celery.
• 43:38
  Like they're going to shoot me? I'll die.
• 43:52
  Oh, Over this stock. Damn it.
• 43:56
  I care about you I barely care about myself currently in my
• 43:59
  life right now. Like this Sofrito.
• 44:03
  Don't mean shit to me man. You know what though?
• 44:11
  I can't even imagine being a point in my life where I would
• 44:14
  be willing to fight or kill somebody over a stalk of celery.
• 44:19
  Like I don't care how bad it's going through.
• 44:29
  I mean I've had, I've had my life threatened a number of
• 44:31
  times just because of the line of work that I've been in but I
• 44:36
  remember being cut off in traffic.
• 44:40
  At like 6:00 in the morning on my way to you.
• 44:43
  I'm on my way to work. And I'm like, the guy cut me off
• 44:48
  in a like, it was a clear vial. He clearly like violated traffic
• 44:52
  rules to do it because I'm like, you could have just moved over.
• 44:55
  He's like, I'll kill you right here.
• 44:57
  He I got out of his truck. Is I'll shoot you right here.
• 44:59
  You son of a bitch and I'm like Okay.
• 45:03
  Then do it I guess. But I mean I got places to go.
• 45:06
  So are you gonna do it? Are you gonna like it was so
• 45:10
  weird like the weight like that Flex that whole thing over,
• 45:13
  something that doesn't really mean a whole hell of a lot at
• 45:15
  the end of the day. Yeah, you know, I mean I'm like
• 45:19
  so what you cut me off. Damn it.
• 45:21
  Likewise if anybody should be wanting to hurt somebody.
• 45:23
  It's me, you know, when you're over here, I'll kill you.
• 45:26
  Why for you breaking the law? You dumbass like shit and I say,
• 45:31
  you know, it's just it's nuts, man.
• 45:35
  You know, her mind.
• 45:49
  You know, and I said, Hey do you remember last night when you
• 45:53
  were playing in the the playground area at the arcade
• 45:55
  and that little girl was pushing your friend Michael?
• 46:00
  And she said, yeah, I said you can get mad about that.
• 46:05
  You can get mad when somebody is trying to hurt somebody.
• 46:08
  You care about trying to hurt you, you're allowed to get mad,
• 46:11
  you're allowed to have that anger and all of it, but this is
• 46:16
  sucks, man. But it's really what why does
• 46:22
  rage over something so insignificant at the end of the
• 46:26
  day, you're right. Yeah.
• 46:28
  It's you know, So I get, you know, I get it.
• 46:33
  It's you know, everything's relative to at the end of the
• 46:36
  day you know, what are you, what are you going to let?
• 46:40
  Dictate how you feel. And I admit like I saw that and
• 46:49
  I saw the responses and I was like, you gotta be kidding me.
• 46:51
  You mean to tell me that you would drive 13 hours, one way to
• 46:57
  visit your best friend's dad's funeral and you won't even come
• 47:00
  down here and say hi. And let me meet my niece.
• 47:02
  One time over the last year, you kidding me, I am offended.
• 47:08
  And hey, I guess I have that, right?
• 47:09
  But at the end of the day, Is it really?
• 47:10
  I mean what does this accomplish?
• 47:12
  Because look braid Aaron, like that's your kid.
• 47:15
  That's their daughter, man. I mean whether I'm right or not
• 47:23
  I guess it is what it is but you know what it's their daughter
• 47:26
  and they they're doing the best they think that they're doing
• 47:28
  and I you know who could be mad about that you know like that's
• 47:33
  that's their kid and they have her best interest in mind then
• 47:36
  if there are and if and if their child's best interest is to
• 47:39
  refrain from meeting someone like me who's You know, I mean,
• 47:44
  look at me. Yeah, right.
• 48:17
  Their daughter. That's where I have a problem
• 48:22
  because it's another place of safety of comfort of family.
• 48:28
  Its place to go. It's a place to be a place to
• 48:31
  belong and be accepted no matter what.
• 48:34
  And why would they want to take that away from her?
• 48:37
  Yeah, I mean because look I mean I could do it again to watch,
• 48:50
  you know, photoshoots and I went through a divorce.
• 48:56
  Yeah. Did any of that even bite me in
• 48:58
  the ass and Court know, like it doesn't mazur.
• 49:14
  Over nothing. Yeah.
• 49:19
  Oh, well, I guess I'll find out. I know your brother and you're
• 49:30
  not the only one. I mean, you're not the only one
• 49:32
  because again, I offload a lot of this type of stuff internally
• 49:36
  to, you know, my wife and and, and my in-laws and stuff, who,
• 49:41
  you know, again, they don't necessarily 100, like my
• 49:46
  father-in-law was sitting here the other day and I had the
• 49:48
  runes from the The tree that I cut help him, cut up on his
• 49:52
  property, you know, the runes are sitting in a bowl and I just
• 49:55
  finished them and he's like, oh is that the thing you made?
• 49:58
  Is he going to make, is that the thing you made from the tree?
• 50:00
  I was like, yeah. And there's some more, the
• 50:01
  branches over there. It's like okay, cool.
• 50:04
  You know. I mean like, this is totally
• 50:05
  cool about it. I'm like these people don't know
• 50:07
  anything about this whole thing and there, you know,
• 50:10
  fundamentally Christian and want so accepting of it because it
• 50:16
  doesn't, I mean, I'm not hurting anybody.
• 50:17
  But if anything I'm Displaying the fact that I get off from
• 50:21
  work on my spare time, right? I'll I got off of work today
• 50:25
  before the rain kicked in unannounced to mow yards because
• 50:31
  that's what I'm doing. That's, I mean, that's part of
• 50:33
  the, the, the maintaining, the literal maintenance of the
• 50:37
  Yards, the family unit, right? Like it's part of the physical
• 50:42
  Deeds to do at all. It's, you know, like that's what
• 50:45
  I'm going to do and that's what I've agreed to do.
• 50:46
  And that's I don't need a medal for that.
• 50:49
  I'm gonna be all good job like well, congratulations for doing
• 50:52
  your job like I don't believe in that like I don't need that sort
• 50:54
  of validation but the fact of the matter is is like, I'm not
• 50:57
  just some degenerate, you know? So terrible Maniac.
• 51:01
  That's like so disconnected from life because of all the drugs
• 51:03
  that I've done or whatever, you know what I mean?
• 51:06
  Like it's nothing like that. Like I'm with it in my mind and
• 51:09
  in my heart to the to the extent that.
• 51:11
  Okay. So just because I have a
• 51:13
  different view on my religion or my spirituality and it's live in
• 51:18
  that way. Doesn't just inherently, make me
• 51:20
  a bad person. I mean, like I literally spent a
• 51:23
  whole year's vacation a week and a half's worth of time to help
• 51:29
  them out. To help my family out up there,
• 51:32
  right. I mean, it's literally that
• 51:35
  wholesome. It's literally that where I
• 51:39
  just, I don't get it. I don't get the fact that you
• 51:40
  got to erase all of that and focus on the fact that you don't
• 51:45
  believe in God. First of all, I believe in the
• 51:49
  fact that he exists, I just don't subscribe to the beliefs
• 51:51
  of the Adoration and the veneration of that specific
• 51:55
  deity. Doesn't align with what I want
• 51:57
  to do. So anyway,
• 52:29
  It reminds me of those. It reminds me again.
• 52:31
  It's reminds me of those memes where you know, like me as a
• 52:34
  pagan. You know what, what the world
• 52:36
  thinks I do, what my girlfriend thinks I do, what my family
• 52:40
  thinks I do, what what I actually do, you know, when it's
• 52:44
  all different frames of things that, you know, You know kind of
• 52:48
  like what do you actually do your like sitting next to a fire
• 52:52
  just staring into it but they yeah or sleeping you know, or
• 52:57
  whatever. You know, reading a book you
• 52:59
  know something. So just just inherently harmful
• 53:03
  harmless and yeah, yeah. Like what?
• 53:18
  I'm trying to I'm trying to dress.
• 53:20
  I'm trying to look like RuPaul 24/7.
• 53:22
  No, you know like just Where are y'all come up with this shit cuz
• 53:32
  I didn't come up with it. I've had two.
• 53:35
  I've had two really like, think about lately, about the whole
• 53:39
  perception is reality thing, and it's such a distance, such a,
• 53:45
  it's such a Unfortunate aspect, you know, perception is reality.
• 53:52
  What, what is perceived? You know, you could be looking
• 53:56
  at dead-ass, facts, straight in the face.
• 54:00
  But if the perception of something is different than what
• 54:04
  the facts are then the facts don't mean nothing, it's
• 54:10
  philosophical conversation. I've had with many people about
• 54:13
  truth. I don't I don't know what truth
• 54:16
  is because your truth is different than my truth.
• 54:20
  The truth is relative. You can say no but there's the
• 54:23
  facts but yet people still don't accept that you're right.
• 54:26
  So it lets not truth to them. Yeah, you know, it is it's about
• 54:32
  perception. You know, like I've had people
• 54:36
  despise me for things that I never did in my life, never it
• 54:44
  never happened and they are so convinced that I did those
• 54:48
  things. Oh yeah.
• 54:50
  Hate me, but it never happened. So they're hating me for no
• 54:55
  reason. What kind of Truth is that?
• 54:57
  There is no truth to that because it never occurred.
• 55:01
  Yeah. But it occurred in their brain
• 55:03
  so much, that's their truth. Hmm.
• 55:07
  That's not my truth. You tell yourself Lorelei enough
• 55:10
  times you start believing it. but it's so it's hard to keep up
• 55:25
  with, you know, and It's doesn't matter cuz there's the me that I
• 55:31
  see in me and there's the me that my mom season me and
• 55:36
  there's the me that you see there's the me that my daughter
• 55:39
  sees in me. There's the me that my
• 55:41
  girlfriend sees in me. There's all these different mean
• 55:44
  he's in there, all me in there all I'm that way with all of it
• 55:49
  but none of those are actually me.
• 55:55
  That's where that truth lies is. It's very, very difficult to
• 55:59
  Define because Again these are all me but it's not necessarily
• 56:04
  the truth of the matter. Yeah.
• 56:06
  It's the version that you get in that moment.
• 56:10
  It's the complexities of the self, the soul complex, you
• 56:15
  know, and this how deep does it go, you know, how do you want to
• 56:19
  project? True.
• 56:49
  Yeah, can can can confirm, you know?
• 56:59
  Yeah. All of this is just a bunch of
• 57:01
  baloney. This whole thing is just a mess
• 57:06
  who I didn't sign up for this, who put me here.
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  Why are you wearing that stupid human suit.
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  What did that? What is this breathing thing?
• 57:15
  Why do we even have to do this? So it's so cumbersome, man.
• 57:30
  It's maddening always touching something shit.
• 57:35
  Yeah, you know you're just always Why why why could I not
• 57:42
  just like be? That would be grand if I could
• 57:50
  just forget about this whole like body like having to eat
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  when I'm hungry, like why can't I just like run around in the
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  fort? Why can't I just scream in the
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  forest and why can't my best friend?
• 58:03
  Be a frog? Are you know, or whatever?
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  Like what you know, why do I why can't I just go nuts sometimes,
• 58:11
  and not have anybody check in on me.
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  Like, it's cool, man. I'm fine.
• 58:15
  Just, I'm just being me. I'm just screaming into the void
• 58:17
  right now. It's cool.
• 58:19
  You know, you know nothing to worry about here.
• 58:21
  It's just business as usual, right?
• 58:26
  Under the salamander gets it, trust me, you know.
• 58:34
  The Scorpions. Get it for sure, for sure.
• 58:40
  Yeah. Telling nothing to the Scorpions
• 58:44
  that they don't already know, right?
• 58:48
  Same old story. You touching me, why you
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  touching song? The Song Remains Not the Same,
• 59:02
  never mind. You don't have to bother me now.
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  Story of my life, you know, I'm over here shitting my pants.
• 59:10
  Never mind. You don't have to bother me now.
• 59:27
  That you hear people say like I don't want to people today.
• 59:31
  She never wants to people that. Yeah, that is that an arachnid
• 59:36
  trade. Or is that just a tarantula
• 59:39
  trait? Mostly a ragged but spiders for
• 59:44
  sure or like? Yeah, I'm out.
• 59:47
  Spiders are way more. Yeah.
• 59:52
  If I have got Different perspectives on life, you know,
• 1:00:02
  I get the, the lizard perspective, I get the snake
• 1:00:05
  perspective, I get the salamander perspective because I
• 1:00:08
  have to take care of them. I have to pay attention to how
• 1:00:11
  they are and what they do and what they need.
• 1:00:15
  There's so Environmental. Yeah, there's and there's so
• 1:00:20
  reliant on the environment like they adapt to the environment
• 1:00:23
  but they are reliant on the environment.
• 1:00:25
  They're there Their Manners. Their behaviors are reliant on
• 1:00:28
  the Just what's around them and it shifts.
• 1:01:09
  And so, like, I have to scare the absolute hell out of her in
• 1:01:12
  order to feed her. That's a weird place to be
• 1:01:17
  psychologically. Like I thought about it like
• 1:01:19
  that like what if my life was like that where if I had to go
• 1:01:23
  through fear, in order to eat Hmm.
• 1:01:27
  Which if you think about On A Primitive level?
• 1:01:30
  Yeah kill to eat. Yeah you go through fear in
• 1:01:33
  order to eat. Yeah.
• 1:01:36
  Am I going to die trying to get this mean?
• 1:01:43
  Yeah, and primitive lifestyle simulating that thing here in
• 1:01:48
  modern times is I mean takes them to take it takes a lot of
• 1:01:51
  effort, it takes, it takes a very focused approach to
• 1:01:55
  existence to recreate that and to stimulate that.
• 1:01:59
  Because it's not what we've had to do for a very long time as a
• 1:02:04
  species, you know. But it is inherently a part of
• 1:02:09
  our Being I think, I mean it lies deep down inside of us at
• 1:02:14
  the part of Primal layer, you know, like where we're capable
• 1:02:17
  of a lot more than we give ourselves credit for.
• 1:02:20
  Yeah, you know. Yeah, I can't do this.
• 1:02:23
  I can't do that. I can't deal with it.
• 1:02:25
  I can't. Yes you can.
• 1:02:26
  And yes, you will. If you are pushed into a corner.
• 1:02:29
  When you need to deal with it, you will deal with it.
• 1:02:31
  Trust me. You will may not feel like it in
• 1:02:34
  the moment, but you're either gonna die.
• 1:02:36
  Not dealing with it or you're going to fight to deal with it.
• 1:02:38
  Like it's there, it's just varied.
• 1:02:59
  She knows she can make it. Yep, she passed that test.
• 1:03:03
  She went through that learned that lesson.
• 1:03:06
  Yeah, that's a good. So further than you, think you
• 1:03:10
  could? Yeah, 100%.
• 1:03:12
  And that's a kind of a neat thing.
• 1:03:14
  I, you know, if you guys wanted to, I talked about earlier about
• 1:03:19
  Cody Schafer's musical project called Elder vaak, so, Cody,
• 1:03:27
  Shaffer Shaffer, I'm mispronouncing Cody.
• 1:03:30
  My apologies has has an online presence through, you know, he's
• 1:03:38
  YouTube channel, which I'm going to be linking in the
• 1:03:40
  description, sharing in the show notes.
• 1:03:43
  All of its going to be shared here, has a musical project
• 1:03:47
  called elder Bach. He also does his online crafting
• 1:03:51
  business called sacred wolf divination.
• 1:03:55
  And definitely cool stuff. And Cody's got this this here,
• 1:04:01
  which is a track called Excursion, I think he wrote it
• 1:04:06
  specifically for for someone, but it's for for use and I was
• 1:04:11
  going to play it. If you guys are cool with it,
• 1:04:12
  you cool with it, man, if we play here.
• 1:04:15
  So, Again, this is Elder Tuvok. Check him out on YouTube.
• 1:04:24
  This is a track Excursion. He's in, let me, let me pause
• 1:04:29
  for a second. The, the intro is the narrative.
• 1:04:34
  It's a poem being narrated by JM Olufsen filled with your
• 1:04:38
  Workshop. I've talked about him, plenty
• 1:04:39
  times, you guys ought to know good friend of ours, near and
• 1:04:42
  dear friend of the tribe Ken to us.
• 1:04:47
  Has produced Products that are tribal relics and he's reciting
• 1:04:52
  a poem that he wrote and he speaking, I believe it's
• 1:04:55
  Swedish, but the intro, the the narration that you hear is jmo.
• 1:05:01
  Listen, he's Read to them, read the book, see them.
• 1:05:10
  In the morning, hasta pasta least Yusuf and novel.
• 1:05:22
  Little pussy, front garden solution.
• 1:11:24
  Man. Oh man.
• 1:11:25
  Yeah, so guys check out all the Rock on YouTube, Facebook.
• 1:11:33
  I think that's the extent of the social media presence that that
• 1:11:38
  he's got at least on that musical project.
• 1:11:45
  But I love that, man. I don't know what you guys
• 1:11:47
  think. What do you think Tango?
• 1:11:51
  Super. Super cool, man.
• 1:12:01
  Like his his his yeah, the studio work is Stellar, you
• 1:12:06
  know, just the production quality, you know you can tell
• 1:12:09
  he knows his way around producing music.
• 1:12:16
  Yep. Yep.
• 1:12:19
  So you know support us yeah yeah I know you know that that you
• 1:12:28
  come from it or come to it from you know that perspective as a
• 1:12:33
  musician yourself and you know I just was one and two, we were
• 1:12:38
  talking just you know, It seemed like it fit like the the Segway
• 1:12:43
  of things, it fit well into the into the discussion.
• 1:12:47
  So you know, Cody's projects, you know, sacred wolf divination
• 1:12:51
  Elder Valk is going to be annotated in the show.
• 1:12:55
  Notes description of the video. So good job coding then like
• 1:12:59
  just he does cool stuff to he does.
• 1:13:02
  What are those things called the Oh, man, their drums.
• 1:13:09
  But it's the steel drums. A steel drum.
• 1:13:14
  It sounds like a steel drum but you hit it with your hands.
• 1:13:16
  You don't tell him about those like domed thing, water, drum, I
• 1:13:24
  don't know, it's whatever it is. But anyway, he does that too.
• 1:13:28
  I don't know. It's just check it out.
• 1:13:30
  Real good real quick. Yeah, But it's really good
• 1:13:37
  stuff. So yeah.
• 1:13:41
  Anything else that I missed? I kind of offloaded a bit
• 1:13:44
  before. Was there anything else that you
• 1:13:45
  were wanting to touch on on this topic or topics?
• 1:13:52
  Yeah. Cool cool.
• 1:14:22
  Yeah, maybe a little circular logic there.
• 1:14:24
  But, you know, I It's no, I mean it resonates, you know, do
• 1:14:31
  something. Do the thing.
• 1:14:33
  It's and it's and it's repeated throughout different sagas.
• 1:14:38
  It's repeated in the lower and even in have them all like I
• 1:14:42
  mean it's better to do something action is better than in action.
• 1:14:47
  Stagnation doesn't bode well for the luck for overall luck, for
• 1:14:52
  yourself, for the try for that, you know.
• 1:14:54
  So it's you know, whatever you do.
• 1:14:57
  You know think about it but do take ownership of it.
• 1:15:04
  Basically is what I guess. Not going to mean a lot to
• 1:15:11
  people that aren't from around here, but Chi goes to a Franklin
• 1:15:16
  School, you know, Franklin is as some of you may know that aren't
• 1:15:22
  from around here in the news, pretty recently several times.
• 1:15:26
  It's a very hoity-toity area of Brentwood you know the we had
• 1:15:33
  the the daddy-daughter dance a couple weeks ago and Kai it was
• 1:15:38
  an 80s theme. The main thing Kaya knows about
• 1:15:42
  the 80s, is punk rock. So I went dressed and Misfit
• 1:15:47
  Style with the devil lock in the front hito.
• 1:15:52
  Like yeah, yeah. Yeah.
• 1:15:58
  This bikes, you know, like these Franklin people and like they
• 1:16:04
  have no idea how to handle that. I don't give a shit.
• 1:16:09
  My daughter wanted, and if you got a problem with it, you can
• 1:16:14
  take it up with her because I don't give a shit about your
• 1:16:17
  perception. I care about hers.
• 1:16:19
  Yeah, that's what she wanted. That's what matters to me.
• 1:16:36
  I don't care what anybody else thinks that.
• 1:16:39
  Yeah, I'm not their dad but yeah thinks I'm a good dad.
• 1:16:42
  So there you go. That's kind of what I have to
• 1:16:46
  say about perception. You know.
• 1:16:49
  And as a dad and she sees that and she knows that and she
• 1:16:56
  thinks I'm a good dad and I don't have to prove myself to
• 1:16:59
  anybody else about being a good dad, you know?
• 1:17:04
  Now that's that's that's that's valuable.
• 1:17:06
  I mean, where is what is family right?
• 1:17:12
  Family is The the people who love you for, who you are that,
• 1:17:18
  accept you for, who you are that, that call you out on your
• 1:17:21
  bologna and your BS, that, that, that I have your best interest
• 1:17:24
  at heart and that are wanting to be there for you.
• 1:17:27
  And I know it's cliche, Rio you sell, family isn't always blood
• 1:17:30
  right? You know.
• 1:17:31
  Yeah. But in reality, Yeah, I mean it
• 1:17:37
  that that's actually true that that is, you know, it's your
• 1:17:40
  family is not always your blood and there's a, here's a classic
• 1:17:44
  example. I mean my family, my blood
• 1:17:46
  family who I owe much of my life to have Drifted, there's
• 1:17:55
  there's, you know, against my best wishes, you know what
• 1:18:00
  against what I always wanted. And sometimes you just gotta
• 1:18:04
  accept it and accept the family that are there for you, like,
• 1:18:08
  you and Kaia, and my wife and her parents and Patrick, and can
• 1:18:14
  and these other people who are like, I don't have, I'm not
• 1:18:19
  lacking for her. Yeah.
• 1:18:23
  Oh yeah, right. You know like that's yeah,
• 1:18:30
  that's the thing. Yeah.
• 1:18:32
  Yeah it's a thing. Take out.
• 1:18:34
  Take a drink all of you. Yeah, shout out.
• 1:18:36
  Eric shervin right now that guy to I mean, yeah.
• 1:18:41
  I I you know everybody, you know that doesn't follow Eric's
• 1:18:44
  stuff. I mean he is and I'm going to
• 1:18:47
  say this unequivocally. He is one of the main reasons
• 1:18:50
  why I'm still doing what I'm doing the way that I'm doing it.
• 1:18:55
  He is always been an inspiration for me.
• 1:18:57
  And I know he's going through a lot and is, you know, had a lot
• 1:19:02
  of things come up in his life and with his, you know, family
• 1:19:06
  his tribe and stuff that have shifted a lot of his focus on
• 1:19:09
  things, but that does not take away from the cut of his jib and
• 1:19:14
  the character of the man that he is and why I feel so inspired by
• 1:19:19
  someone like him, you know? So yes.
• 1:19:23
  Absolutely. You definitely don't see that
• 1:19:29
  much content from him nowadays, because he's got to do the
• 1:19:32
  thing. He's got to He's got to be there
• 1:19:36
  for his, his, his heart, his tribe, and he's got a, you know,
• 1:19:39
  he holds a position of authority and his tribe and he has to do
• 1:19:43
  his thing. He has to preserve that luck.
• 1:19:44
  So much, respect much, respect him.
• 1:19:48
  But as you know, just from One content creator to another.
• 1:19:52
  If nothing else, just give him the support, watch his stuff,
• 1:19:55
  check him out. It helped me.
• 1:19:57
  It has helped me continue to help me and I'm sure that you
• 1:20:01
  will find benefit and and value. The stuff that he talks about in
• 1:20:06
  the things that he presents in his in his own way, very humbled
• 1:20:11
  and and always is on the real with us, you know, not not a, he
• 1:20:17
  ain't playing no games, you know, so I definitely appreciate
• 1:20:22
  that. Not yet, I haven't either yet
• 1:20:27
  but, you know, come close to a couple of times it just, you
• 1:20:30
  know, things didn't line up, just right, but it'll happen,
• 1:20:34
  one day. I When it's meant to be, it will
• 1:20:36
  be. But in the meantime, you know,
• 1:20:38
  we out here doing the thing. So that was a great episode,
• 1:20:47
  man, I appreciate it. I'm going to go ahead and tie
• 1:20:49
  this one off. And, you know, there will be a
• 1:20:54
  question about this. You guys know this Spotify
• 1:20:57
  listeners and stuff, they'll be an interactive question about
• 1:21:01
  this. Feel free to Interact in that
• 1:21:04
  way, with your own thoughts, always comment Down Below in
• 1:21:08
  the, you know, the comment section of the actual video on
• 1:21:12
  YouTube. And if you want to have, yeah,
• 1:21:17
  like comment, share and subscribe, follow whatever, you
• 1:21:21
  know, do all those things, and there's always the email you can
• 1:21:25
  write in if you have a long list of things that you want to
• 1:21:29
  share, you can always riding and call in whatever.
• 1:21:32
  Yeah. Finally voice your thoughts.
• 1:21:35
  And I think this is this is another great episode, man.
• 1:21:37
  I appreciate you helping me co-host this one tonight because
• 1:21:40
  we covered a lot of ground and I think talked about some really
• 1:21:44
  good things and valuable things. So I appreciate you.
• 1:21:48
  You know. So for all of you out here,
• 1:21:52
  listening and watching today, thank you for your constant
• 1:21:55
  support. Be sure to give that video a
• 1:21:57
  thumbs up up vote the podcast where ever you're listening to
• 1:22:00
  it on and stay tuned for next week's episode.
• 1:22:03
  So which will be r as random as it was today, we kind of go off
• 1:22:06
  the cuff on some of these things.
• 1:22:08
  So we'll see what comes up on the on the agenda for for next
• 1:22:12
  episode. So thank you to my good friend
• 1:22:16
  my brother Dingo and co-host on the random healing remedies
• 1:22:19
  podcast. And for all of you out here,
• 1:22:23
  listening and watching May the gods continue to notice you and
• 1:22:28
  walk with you and may your ancestors always smile upon you.
• 1:22:32
  Take care.