Episode 20 | Gunshots At 7AM And The Life You Haven't Lived Yet

Your Effin’ Love Story · Jun 3, 2026 · 14m

I was up at 4am and nothing was coming. No notes, no inspiration, no momentum. I laid on the sofa and eventually dozed off.

At 7:11 in the morning I was yanked awake by gunshots. Close ones. I live in Tower Grove South in St. Louis — good neighborhood, great park, real city. And gunshots happen often enough that we're not shocked. But this morning I was. Because it was 7am. And because something about the sound of it just cascaded into a whole set of questions I wasn't expecting to be sitting with before my coffee.

How much of my life have I spent trying to be who other people expected me to…