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Creative Burnout & the Sacred Pause | Hannah on Rest, Rhythm, and Reclaiming Joy · Eye Opener Society

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  Hey guys, it's Hannah, and I am back to you with another episode.
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  I don't want to necessarily say whether or not it is a The Sound Within episode
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  or Eye Opener Society's Shorter Attention Span podcast as of just yet,
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  because I'm not sure the length that this episode will go. However,
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  I have been a bit creatively blocked, and I suppose that is an episode in itself,
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  which is why I am on here talking about it.
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  So, I mean, being creative doesn't always have to mean creating every single day.
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  You do not have to
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  put that kind of pressure on yourself and I'm in
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  a sense speaking to myself but if anyone else
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  needs to hear it then hey there we go and with that I have also not been been
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  going live as of recently on TikTok.
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  So if anybody does follow me on TikTok and they've been wondering why I haven't
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  been streaming as much, it's not because I don't absolutely love doing that.
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  I have said it before and I'll say it again. I simply love the connections that
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  I have made and continue to make on there.
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  And it's more so something personal with me rather than it is you guys.
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  And now this is just sounding like a bad breakup. It's not me.
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  I'm sorry. It's not you. It's me. See, I almost said that backwards.
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  I simply am leaning into the sacred pause that the universe is nudging me to lean towards.
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  And I don't know if it has anything to do with the seasons changing.
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  It's a lot more mucky and cold and rainy. I know that I spoke about that in my past two episodes.
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  And it's just because it is such a big difference from summer.
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  And I guess I'm experiencing it a little bit different as well because of my
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  experience being in Florida the past couple of years.
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  However it's important to listen to
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  your body and I am
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  doing that and I continue to do that throughout my creative process especially
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  when things are supposed to be fun and play And so fun and play for me are playing my instruments,
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  doing art, listening to music, and creating it, sitting around the fire.
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  There's so many things that I consider play and fun.
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  And at times, even things that are meant to be play and fun,
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  I will take and spiral with it.
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  And it can have some ups and downs, and that's mainly based around my obsessive-compulsive disorder.
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  So it's not only fears, intense fears like many people experience with obsessive-compulsive disorder,
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  but for me it can also look like interests and hobbies and curiosities.
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  Because if it has a place in my mind to spiral, then it will.
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  And I have a lot of control over that.
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  Based upon what I'm consuming.
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  And if I'm putting so much stress on myself to do something that I love,
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  it might take away from the joy that it brings me.
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  And so with the intentional breathing and the sound healing,
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  I would really prefer to feel completely free in that space.
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  And I had predicted this was going to happen and that I would eventually feel
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  burnt out because of the obligation and the commitment that I placed upon it.
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  But now it's just time for me to listen to my body and listen to my instincts
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  that are telling me that I need to slow down, take a sacred pause.
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  It's okay to do that. So...
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  When Gary reached out to me the other day and said, hey, do you have any content?
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  And I'm like a content-creating monster.
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  I'm called the big sender.
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  And that's actually just what this uploading app
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  called me because I was uploading too many files within the first week of me
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  having the app because I just had so much creativity flowing and I had so much
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  stuff that I want to say that I want people to hear and this is one of them,
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  um this is stuff that I oftentimes keep to myself and I just self-reflect and
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  I don't really go any further than that,
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  but I do believe that it's important to speak your truth because maybe somebody
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  else needs to hear that to inspire greatness within them and,
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  And the reason why I do this podcast is for self-reflection.
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  And I'm not going to lie and say that sometimes I don't feel a little bit bashful
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  over it, because I am essentially coming on here and talking about my deepest,
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  innermost thoughts and fears and all of what is.
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  And again um like i'm not i'm not saying that i'm never going to do it again or,
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  that i will never have another podcast episode again i am just listening to
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  my body and taking the sacred pause.
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  And honestly, the pressure is only coming from me.
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  Nobody pressures me to do what I do.
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  Everyone is actually really accepting and loving and kind about it, which I appreciate.
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  But at the end of the day I really need to be accepting and loving and kind to myself,
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  because oftentimes what we crave as humans from other people is really oftentimes
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  something that we need to give ourselves.
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  And nobody else is going to ever be able to give me what I need because it is within me.
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  And I guess
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  I just felt as if all of this in itself was a creative inspiration for an episode
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  for all of my dear friends and family and listeners to hear.
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  Hopefully it inspires you to also look within and realize that you don't need
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  to prove yourself to anybody,
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  but yourself.
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  And I think that I spend a lot of time and effort trying to please others socially,
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  if that makes sense.
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  And I think it's just time to start listening to what I need.
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  And my practice is so important to me because it's done so much for me that
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  I am willing to protect it in any way.
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  And if that means taking a break and really self-reflecting and spending time with my family,
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  then I think that you can't really go wrong with that.
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  Now i have also of
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  course still gone live uh probably twice a week the past couple of weeks so
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  i do still show up it's just not as often and it will still be a hundred percent authentic,
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  And this isn't really a formal announcement either.
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  I'm just really coming on here and sharing a little tidbit of my experience in life.
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  And that's really the only reason I do this, in hopes that it inspires someone else to do the same.
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  Because life is so much more than the bitterness and the sadness that we may sometimes experience.
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  It is the very thing that makes us so grateful and sentimental for the good moments in life.
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  Thank you for listening, and tune in to EyeOpener Society for more awesome content along the way.