From Performing to Present | Ditching Old Navigational Systems for a DEEPER Me

High Level Wife Podcast with Chelsey Holm · Apr 24, 2025 · 8m

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For a long time, I believed if I could just be what he wanted—fun enough, relaxed enough, “cool wife” enough—we’d feel connected again.

So I performed.

I drank when I didn’t want to.

Went places that broke my heart.

Said yes when my nervous system was screaming no.

I was surviving, not living.

And it created a false sense of connection that left me buried in shame and exhaustion.

In this episode, I’m getting real about:

How performance-based love shows up in marriage

What it cost me (and what it didn’t heal)

How I started showing up rooted, regulated, and truly me again

What…