Latest / HAVE FAITH LET IT BEGIN® / Forgive & Begin: A Truck-Stop Prayer for Broken Ties

Transcript

Forgive & Begin: A Truck-Stop Prayer for Broken Ties · HAVE FAITH LET IT BEGIN®

• 0:00
  Good morning, and welcome to Have Faith, Let It Begin. My name is Angel.
• 0:04
  This morning, we're coming to you live on a Monday morning from my truck because
• 0:08
  I am ready to go to work, just like some of you are.
• 0:11
  And depending on what area you're in, you may be going to sleep.
• 0:14
  We are doing a live simulcast, and it's broadcast to you in part of Joint Two Jewelers.
• 0:20
  They're having great sales this week, so thank you very much for sponsorship.
• 0:24
  And we wanna thank the Kroc Podcast, which is available every Sunday.
• 0:28
  It is a podcast called Citizens United to Overcome Cancer.
• 0:32
  They're available every Sunday for cancer patients and cancer patients' families,
• 0:36
  thrivers, and survivors.
• 0:38
  We hope that you enjoy it. And with that being said, let's get started with
• 0:42
  another rendition of Half Faith Let It Begin because I believe today's message
• 0:46
  is one that you're really going to enjoy.
• 0:48
  I know I enjoyed writing it when I did it, and now I'm just going to go right off the cuff.
• 0:52
  And I'm being told that we are just now on, yep, we are now on Spotify going
• 0:56
  live. So here we go. So here's my question to all of you this morning.
• 1:01
  I know that when we wake up and we go to work or maybe around surrounding our
• 1:05
  friends, have you ever had somebody ask you, how are you doing?
• 1:10
  And you say, I'm okay. And then you're saying to yourself, I know I'm telling the truth. I am okay.
• 1:17
  I mean, I don't need another cup of coffee, right? I'm not talking about a coffee
• 1:21
  tired or a coffee not okay.
• 1:24
  I'm talking about the kind of tired when your brain is about 45,
• 1:29
  seven tabs open and you're pretty sure that music.
• 1:34
  Is playing in your head and you can't figure out what song it is.
• 1:40
  That's how much is going on upstairs.
• 1:42
  And that's where I want to meet you this morning. Because sometimes,
• 1:46
  you know, we get this idea that our faith is strong and has to be strong.
• 1:52
  We're supposed to be walking around.
• 1:55
  And when we are strong with our faith, when we walk around energized and we
• 1:58
  feel smiling, praising God, we always say to ourselves, is that going to be enough?
• 2:03
  Well, I'm going to hear to tell you right now that having faith can also mean
• 2:07
  it's okay to take a break.
• 2:09
  Have faith, let it begin. Starts right now.
• 2:33
  Good morning, everyone, and welcome officially to Have Faith,
• 2:35
  Let It Begin on this simulcast.
• 2:37
  Yes, we're talking right into it. We're going to dive right into it.
• 2:39
  I want to first and foremost thank all of our TikTok family,
• 2:43
  especially Jade, and I want to thank Savania for coming in and tapping the screens.
• 2:47
  We welcome everybody to the show, and we thank you. And we are still continuing
• 2:51
  to pray for Jade's family and her children as they continue to find their identity moving forward.
• 2:59
  Lord, we talk about faith. We talk about a walk by faith.
• 3:03
  This Sunday, live on TikTok, we're going to be doing another service,
• 3:06
  10 a.m. Eastern Standard Time, and we're going to be talking about our walk with faith.
• 3:10
  And I encourage you to bring your children because we're going to have a really
• 3:12
  awesome children's message, and I really think everybody will enjoy it.
• 3:16
  So how do we walk by faith, especially when we feel like God is not in control?
• 3:22
  You know, there are times, Pujo, welcome in.
• 3:25
  There are times when we wake up and we say to ourselves, is God really in control?
• 3:30
  And the reason why we say that is because we feel like there's so many things
• 3:34
  that are happening around us.
• 3:35
  So many times we feel as if, you know, all the negativity is surrounding us
• 3:39
  like this big cloud that hangs over us.
• 3:42
  And then we say to ourselves, where is God in that moment? Right?
• 3:45
  We pray to him and say, God, you got to protect me, man. I feel like you're
• 3:48
  coming at me from all angles.
• 3:49
  I feel like there's haters out there. I feel like there's people that just want to see me upset.
• 3:54
  But you see, let me ask you to stop for a second.
• 3:57
  And I know this is very easier said than done. And I believe me when I say this, I get it.
• 4:03
  You have to let all those distractions get behind you.
• 4:08
  You cannot let these distractions get the best of you. And I know that's very
• 4:12
  hard to do when you feel like these distractions are coming at you like these
• 4:16
  sharp arrows and you feel like they're about to pierce your heart,
• 4:19
  pierce your body. But here's the thing.
• 4:22
  What those arrows don't know is that right before they hit you,
• 4:26
  they're gonna bounce off because you do have this armor of Christ that is about, it's all over you.
• 4:32
  The only thing is we tend to forget that the armor exists,
• 4:37
  and we allow those arrows to pierce our hearts We allow those arrows to get
• 4:41
  the best of us and they don't have to they don't have to You know what you do
• 4:46
  in those situations or at least what I have done You reach out to good friends.
• 4:50
  You reach out to people that you believe can guide you can be with you Can hold
• 4:54
  your hand can tell you i'll pray with you.
• 4:57
  I'll be with you You know, just last week we had Boudreau on and be ready because
• 5:02
  she's coming on for another episode as she is welcomed into this family.
• 5:06
  And in a couple of weeks ago, we prayed for Jade. It came out of nowhere.
• 5:10
  And Jade was my inspiration to come back on the air in the morning because I
• 5:15
  realized that in a moment's notice, we don't know if there's people that could
• 5:19
  use our prayers, that can use us.
• 5:22
  Our smile, that could use our ears to listen.
• 5:25
  And you know, sometimes when I'm doing my show, people say, you're so great
• 5:31
  that you do the show for other people.
• 5:33
  It's just as good for you as it is for me. Because when I hear that what I'm
• 5:37
  doing is helping other people, it helps me because of my insecurities.
• 5:42
  It helps me because I wonder if I'm doing the right thing.
• 5:46
  It helps me because I believe that what I'm doing is the right thing.
• 5:51
  It's the right decision.
• 5:52
  You know, I look into the TikTok world. I look into social media and I see all
• 5:56
  this negative behavior. All these people that are renting bad behaviors.
• 6:00
  They're allowing others to dictate how things go.
• 6:03
  They're going into lives and they're, they're accusing people of things that
• 6:07
  either they know about or they don't know about.
• 6:09
  Welcome in D. And you know, what's really difficult for me to watch is how they're
• 6:14
  so quick to judge, but yet they don't want to be judged.
• 6:18
  So here's the thing. When people say things about you and you know,
• 6:21
  they're not true. I agree. We should stick up for ourselves. I understand that.
• 6:26
  But before you do that, say a prayer and say these most powerful words that
• 6:31
  I know is very difficult to do.
• 6:33
  Believe me, believe me, because I'm going to share a story with you,
• 6:36
  a very personal story that I haven't even told anybody, but I'm going to share with you this morning.
• 6:40
  Before you go off, before you do what you have to do to make sure you stick
• 6:47
  up for yourself, say a quick prayer.
• 6:49
  Say, God, forgive them for they don't know what they do.
• 6:53
  Lord, allow me to forgive them, but allow me to use my words rather than my
• 6:59
  anger to get the best of their abilities against me.
• 7:03
  So what I'm about to share with you is very personal, and I've never talked about it.
• 7:07
  But for the last two years, my brother-in-law haven't spoken.
• 7:11
  We haven't spoken for two years.
• 7:14
  And even though I can admit that my faults was part of that argument that occurred,
• 7:19
  and I could have done a better job,
• 7:21
  what bothers me is that 24 hours after I made a mistake, and I said something that I regret,
• 7:27
  I didn't curse at him, I didn't say anything disrespectfully,
• 7:30
  me, but I made a decision where I was, I said something that made him uncomfortable,
• 7:36
  and he threw me out of the store and I never went back.
• 7:40
  And, but I apologized. I asked for his forgiveness.
• 7:45
  Now I'm not turning the tables on this gentleman. I'm not going to say he's
• 7:49
  wrong, but he hasn't forgiven me in two years.
• 7:52
  In god's time but i have forgiven him so my point i'm saying is even when we
• 7:58
  forgive others they may not forgive you and that's okay but it's oh also it's
• 8:04
  also amazing and it's a great feeling to,
• 8:07
  own up to your mistakes own up to what hurts own up to what you've done to other
• 8:12
  people and learn from them and it breaks my heart because it puts a stranglehold
• 8:16
  on my marriage because my brother-in-law obviously is my wife's brother.
• 8:22
  And I haven't spoken about this. This is the first time I've actually said this
• 8:26
  out loud. Only a select few people knew about it, but it's been weighing in my heart for a while.
• 8:30
  And then watching these lives these past weekends as I was sick and in bed this
• 8:35
  past weekend, I'm watching all this hate, this rhetoric, these people that are hating on each other.
• 8:41
  And then only to find out when they either leave the live or they walk away
• 8:45
  that others realize that there was a mistake given, but they don't want to own up to it.
• 8:50
  Or maybe they go to the other live and they go, I just wish I would have said
• 8:52
  this, but they're too confident in their own pride and their own ego to admit
• 8:58
  that they were wrong or to want to be given first. It's not about who's first or second.
• 9:04
  It's about who wants to follow God's words.
• 9:08
  And let me tell you, when I say things like that, I cringe because I know there
• 9:12
  are a lot of Christians and a lot of Catholics and a lot of religious people
• 9:15
  out there They say things like and this bothers me.
• 9:18
  Okay, but they say things like if you don't follow the word of god If you don't
• 9:21
  follow the bible, you're going to hell,
• 9:23
  That's a whole different other episode I'm here to tell you that nobody's perfect,
• 9:28
  A lot of us cannot follow the bible a hundred percent. I don't i'm the pastor.
• 9:34
  And I'm embarrassed to say that, but I'm being honest. What would I do and what
• 9:39
  would you do if I told you that I was a perfect man, that I was this perfect
• 9:43
  person, and then you realized that I wasn't? You wouldn't believe in me.
• 9:47
  You wouldn't believe in what I do. I'm a broken person too.
• 9:51
  And I know what it feels like to say things and not mean them.
• 9:55
  I know what it feels like to hurt somebody and wish I could take things back.
• 10:00
  But one thing I've learned is okay to forgive. but you know where the forgiveness begins?
• 10:06
  With yourself. You have to forgive yourself first because you can't forgive
• 10:10
  others until you forgive yourself.
• 10:13
  So how are we gonna close this morning's out? Many of us are hurting.
• 10:16
  Many of us are struggling.
• 10:18
  Many of us have had people come in and out of our lives and disrespect us.
• 10:23
  It's time to forgive. I'm not saying you have to forget but it's okay to forgive,
• 10:28
  and move forward because only when you forgive yourself and others,
• 10:33
  You will feel better about yourself.
• 10:35
  Believe me when I tell you, it will make things better.
• 10:38
  It's the hardest thing you'll ever do, but I guarantee you, you'll feel better
• 10:42
  today than you did yesterday.
• 10:44
  Let's pray. Heavenly Father, we thank you for this morning's lesson.
• 10:47
  We thank you for coming together.
• 10:48
  We thank you for always allowing God's word to come through all of us.
• 10:53
  We thank you for people like Boudreaux, who is an inspiration to me and others,
• 10:57
  and she'll be on this platform. We thank you for Jade, who I am so grateful,
• 11:02
  There's no words to describe how much respect I have for Jade because of the fact that she's strong.
• 11:08
  She's such a strong individual. And what she has done for her family,
• 11:12
  what she continues to do for her children and be a strong mom, God bless you.
• 11:18
  And I know God's with you. And if you don't feel that, if you haven't felt that,
• 11:22
  call me, we'll pray with him and say, hey, she's not seeing what I'm telling
• 11:25
  her. She needs to see something.
• 11:28
  She needs to change. She needs a smile on her face. Let's make that happen.
• 11:32
  To people like Boudreaux, who has had so many scars in her life,
• 11:36
  who continues to try to find her way.
• 11:40
  I know, God, that you are going to find her path to righteousness because she's
• 11:45
  got so much to give to the world.
• 11:47
  And for the people out there that are watching us on TikTok Live,
• 11:49
  that are saying the words, amen, like Jay Lash, who I don't really remember
• 11:53
  who you are, but I welcome you into this family.
• 11:55
  And if we are following you, I'm following you back. And if we're not,
• 11:59
  whatever it is that you're feeling, my friend, I hope today's message resonates with you.
• 12:04
  And to Dee, who has been my friend for a very long time on this platform,
• 12:08
  who always has had my back.
• 12:11
  I know you've gone through some stuff. I know you felt like friends have left you, but you know what?
• 12:16
  Your real friends are here right now. And if you guys don't have her in your
• 12:19
  lives, if you guys don't have her, follow her.
• 12:22
  She is the epitome of what friendship is all about. And she's loyal.
• 12:26
  And finally, to the Have Faith, Let It Begin community, to family,
• 12:29
  welcome to a brand new day, a new era, a new day of forgiveness,
• 12:34
  because God has forgiven you.
• 12:36
  So remember that when you go out into the world today, say to yourself,
• 12:40
  I am a child of God, God has forgiven me, and I am now going to forgive others that have wronged me.
• 12:46
  So may God be with you, may he shine his light upon you, and grant each and
• 12:50
  every single one of you peace on earth.
• 12:53
  And never forget to have faith and let it begin. We're going to stop the live
• 12:57
  on this recording, but we're going to be live still on TikTok.
• 13:00
  Let me close them out. I'll see you guys tomorrow.