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The Spiritual Yes: Journeying into a Deeper Connection with God | Featuring Desiree Danielle | EP40 · Jess Ask

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Hey, it's your girl, Jess. You've just entered a safe space for
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feedback and questions so we can keep the conversation going. Now, let's get
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into this week's episode. Will hard and sou ses will hard? And so
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it will your spirit's t say yes? If I told you I really need
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well, your heart and soul say yes. So just say I love that
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song. It's beautiful, man. Will your heart and soul say, will
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your heart and will your And It's like when I was singing it when I
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was younger, I didn't understand really the difference, like certain things. Sometimes
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my soul has said yes to that, my heart things that my heart has
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said no. So now my heart and soul are conflicted. It's a flash
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man, that part. That's that's really what they like. It's like spirit,
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your spirit is willing right because their spirit is God's spirit. So yeah,
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that's the good part. That's the part is always wants to do the
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right thing right, but that flesh though, like and I should admit,
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like I've had to say yes many times, like because like my spirit was
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saying yeah, but like my my mind and I was like, yeah,
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I would say yeah, but yes if it's convenient for me, girl,
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Yes, if it's comfortable for me, girl, listen, But it's on
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condition, condition to give God. We gonna give God a conditional yes,
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very conditional, like if I know what the result of my yes is,
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then I'll do it. Before we get too deep into it. We are
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recording, right, yeah, okay, yes, speaking over, Yes,
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welcome you guys. We want to welcome to the safe space just ask the
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podcast where we create a safe space for influences to do can press half fun
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and just ask. And obviously we are into this conversation. Let me tell
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y'all something about this word. So the last few times we've recorded, she's
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been sitting in the atmosphere like for herself, Like I'm not even saying she's
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doing it for us, but I get to benefit off what she has said.
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And so I come in just ready, you know what I'm saying,
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Like Spirit is already, you know, doing what he's gonna do, and
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like this today, I don't forget, don't forget what was playing, But
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the last few times it's just been the atmosphere has been sett and so we
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started off singing this song. I started off singing this song, yes,
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just you know, doing a mic tech check like that was the mic check,
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and I had the sung that song in a minute, you know.
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And certain things in certain areas of our lives where we are pushed or encouraged
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that's probably a better word, encouraged to provided yes. We don't want to
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where we are so uncomfortable and providing that yes. And I'm learning, Desira,
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I'm learning in recent events that the reason why we are afraid of the
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yes is because we feel ill prepared, we feel we feel not qualified,
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we disqualify ourselves. And so I understand the power of the yes and doing
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it afraid. Now, Yeah, that's courage, because you need you need
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fear for courage. You need fear. Courage is not courage without fear.
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I'm so comfortable. Good you like a little Yeah. I think we're still
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developing it. We're still vision. It's it's funny, it's the I was
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I've been thinking about this for a minute. Like you know, as you're
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doing things, you know, people ask questions like, oh how you doing
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this? And did it is? And even when it comes to photography,
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there are some there are there is a technical way to do it. Yeah,
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there's you know by the book, you got your settings and this and
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this. But I am just a visual person. So it's like I'll see
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something and I just tweak the things to get to I just work it until
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I get to what I'm getting. So I saw I had a vision of
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the new, of a new because I because you were expanded with growing,
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you know what I'm saying, leveling up and things. You know what I'm
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saying. And so I was like, we just need more space to spread
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out, you know. And so I was like I want to change the
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set up a little bit. But I had this vision of just like comfort,
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like I want, I want. I wanted to come in and feel
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comfortable, like the guests to come in and you know, have some space
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to elbow, room to expand you know what I'm saying, but it will
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need to hurt my feet on account, man, get comfortable. But it
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was just a certain look I had, I was like, okay. So
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the last time we tested, I was like, Okay, it ain't perfect,
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but I'm still working on it. So I'm getting, you know,
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piece by piece, and so thank you for you know, journeying along with
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my creative Listen, I don't choice. Let me tell y'all takes me saying,
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hey, the set gonna be different, Like okay, but I saw
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I was I was something studying. I studied some stuff, you know stuff,
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you know, some seven field stuff, right. A. One thing
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I remember mister Dave said about the set was, you know, it may
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change, but it needs to be something visually the same. And it's the
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lighting. So it's either gonna be a red light or blue light. Yeah,
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and or both, you know what I'm saying. As as we've been
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shifting, you know, the sets have kind of been different, but that's
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been the main element, you know, just bringing in like the branding with
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the with the red and the blue and stuff like that. That makes that
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part I've been trying to keep similar. Yeah, as I've been you know,
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finding you know, the flow of with the show. That makes sense
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because even with he Is, he has that white background, right, He's
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consistently like that white background, no matter the chair, the chairs have elevated,
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the people to have elevated, but the white background stayed the same.
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Yep, that's so good that he's so smart like he is just he is
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just brilliant and it's not it's not I'm not saying the man ain't naturally smart.
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I think he's naturally smart, but I think he's willing to try things
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makes him brilliant. I think brilliance comes out of being brave, it does.
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That's what the yes is like. The yes is I think a part
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of the favor journey itself. Like you never know what could or what couldn't
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be until you say yes and start walking. Girl, you just never know.
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You don't know what could or couldn't be. If you listen. I
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was. I was recapping some of our videos last night and I went back
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to the Pivot, the Power of Pivot. I forgot what the episode called,
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but it was about the pivot, right, this is what we're talking
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about basketball to get us talking about trying to And I said, somebody paton
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in basketball. But we're gonna, we're gonna, y'all gonna listen to the
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episode, y'all. It was really good. But I shall said it was
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we're gonna pass the baton and not the balls, all right? Where we
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do that? What Paton? What Paton in the basketball? But y'all pray
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for me as I continue to learn. But I was listening to the that
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and just understanding that everything is a risk. It is everything is a risk.
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The level of the risk is depending on your level ability to increase your
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faith. And like people like Dave, like they just do it scared,
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unapologetically. You know what I'm saying. He needed people, He needed people
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like coach CJ and you know misdoney to you know, enhance what he had.
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But it was already in him. It was it was already in him.
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That's that's That's the part that I keep thinking about, Like as as
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as a journeying along with that and watching other people journey and step out on
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faith and say yes. Is the crazy part is I just keep I keep
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keep thinking. It's like the Scripture says that I knew you before I even
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formed you, Right, that's what the Bible it's say that he already knew
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us, which means he kind of already had not kind of like it was
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a plan that was already set forth before we had even been fashioned and informed
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in our mother's wombs. So literally our life is us just walking this path
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out if we choose to say yes and walk it out in alignment with God's
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will. Yeah, you know what I'm saying, Even if we you know,
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I think, I think because of His grace and his mercies, you
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know what I'm saying, Even when if we as we out there kind of
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willy nilly and kind of doing our own thing, like his grace is kind
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of it just keeps us you know what I'm saying, and we don't know
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what that is, but that's literally his his the grace, his hand on
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our lives. But if we make the conscious choice to say yes, Lord
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in align with his plan, like we be surprised, like, oh man,
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this, I can't believe this happened, but but he like, I
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mean, I just was waiting for you to say yes and keep walking towards
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the thing. I mean, I had it set right here already, like
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it's literally already there. But we just have to, you know, go
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outside of our natural fears, you know, our insecurities, our doubts,
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and just trust the spirit that's in us to walk it out. You're saying
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something so good, and it reminds me of something so simple that I did,
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Like I gave God it is too well. Back in the day,
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I used to be My Instagram name used to be just underscore driven. Right,
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I've always been a I love words and playing on words and stuff like
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that. That's what you just asked from, you know what I'm saying.
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And so it used to be just underscore driven. And I remember when maybe
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it's been it's probably been three or four years ago, where I was,
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you know, listening. I was minded my business, and the Lord was
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like, like, I felt the urge. I started feeling the urge to
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make my my page public. And I was like, I don't know about
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that. I don't know if I want to make my page public. You
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know, I don't want to, you know what I'm saying. Don't know.
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Abodyter liked me like that, and you know, I don't want to
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celebrate with the people that want to celebrate with me, you know, just
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the insecurities, the doubt and knowledge stuff like that. But I couldn't see
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what God was seeing. So I finally, you know, God bothered me
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so much that I said, you know what, forget it. If it's
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that deep, then we'll, you know, we'll manage it because people I
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just don't like the fact that people like to lurk lurk somewhere else don't work
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with me. Okay, but it wasn't about that, right, So moving
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forward, Loan, I said, Okay, I make my page public.
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So I make my page public, and then I moved to all right,
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now it's time to change your name. What you mean it's time to change
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my name? Right? So at this point, at this point, I
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am in a community shout out to Marshall Fox, my coach. He is
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the goat of graphic design brand all that good stuff, and so I was
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in his community good to go, and he started pushing me, saying that
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you need a website. You need I'm like, for what, I don't.
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I don't have anything. Come on, like, I literally don't have
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anything. And at the same time, God is telling me to change my
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name from just Driven just underscore Driven. I'm like, what, I'm gonna
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change my name to your name? Your name? I'm like, what are
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you serious? Like, we're not, no, We're not doing that.
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So I'm I'm pushing so obviously I've changed my name to d Jessica is Smith
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just just going along with it, right, So I'm seeing like, okay,
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God, obviously, if if maybe I want people, maybe you're gonna
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let me win a raffle and they and they, and I've seen where other
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creat creative uh or content creators have said, hey, if you want to
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when is rafhlel you'r I gotta be able to get to your page or I
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gotta be able to speak to you or so you out of you gotta make
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it public or if I can ain't see it, I'm not gonna chase this
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is so good. I'm not gonna chase you to give you something I'm not.
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So I was like, okay, it's started to make sense. Lord,
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come on, I'm thinking it's making sense, Like, oh, so
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somebody's gonna give me something, somebody's gonna reach out to me. You know
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what I'm saying. This is three four years ago, three four years ago.
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It's a building. I'm building off this thing. And so when I
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was with Coach Marshall, he was trying to get me to understand that,
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and I finally got it, you know, trying to get me understand and
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so and it's so funny. It's so funny. The hoodie he gave me
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everybody else he uh, well, if y'all in his program now, and
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y'all ain't got no T shirts or anything like that. This is for the
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people that started started it off, like this is I'm part of the inner
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circle, like the first one, okay, And so he got us these
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hoodies and on the side of the hoodies were our logos. I technically felt
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like I didn't have a logo. The only logo I had was something first
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like your brands low yes, my brand logo. But he puts my He
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puts a design that a young lady made for me a minute ago. It
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was because I was, you know, using my name, but I thought
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it was gonna be for something else. I didn't understand what it was gonna
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be for. So he takes that marker and put it, puts it on
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my on my arm, and I thought that was the coolest thing. But
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the point of it was that it was my name. Everything came back to
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my name. And so he didn't do naturally devoted something I was just trying
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to push or whatever. It didn't make sense to do that. He did.
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Everybody else provide him a logo. I didn't provide him anything. He
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went and search he said, oh that's that's that's it. Now that's not
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my logo, but it's still my name, right, and so okay,
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move move forward. Now this is now we're still stuck at Okay, I've
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changed, I've changed my Instagram name. Just just underscore driven uh to d
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just guss me if I've made it public. I am now pushing to work
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work out this whole website or d well, still don't really understand what I'm
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doing, right, I'm just going, yeah, I'm just going my consistent
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Yes, it didn't make sense for me to do it. And I'm like,
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I'm investing in all these things and it does not make sense sense,
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It does not make sense. This is twenty eighteen, twenty nineteen, twenty
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twenty, twenty twenty one. I A'm doing all these things that do not
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make sense. But I'm saying yes to God, right, I'm I am
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saying yes to opportunities that I've never done before. I E. Coach will
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tell me, hey, I need you to do this. I'm like,
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I've never done this for Okay, do it, and now I know how
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to do it. So now I'm to a point where, Okay, Jessica,
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you need to start a podcast. What why? Why? Who gonna
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listen? Who? Who gonna listen? Babe? Lord, I'm baby lord,
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Babe. Ain't nobody talking and nobody's listening to the YouTube things that I
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was doing. Now, I had my camera, I had my I had
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just me and I had some interviews along the way, things God for Bree,
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Breben down like Bree's been down. Bree is the actually the reason why
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I even started doing videos on YouTube. She was like she was doing it
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and she encouraged me. She was like, I think you'll be good at
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it. I was like, whatever, it's cute. Ran across the video
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last night from me breathing Aaron, my friend Aaron, and we had like
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a a It was three episodes of an interview that I did with them.
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We're talking about our friendship, were talking about how friendship and ignites marriages.
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It was a great conversation. Sound was trash, set up with trash,
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lighting with trash. My weight was trash. I started it though, not
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knowing and I did, like naturally the vote it presents just ask not knowing,
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not knowing that just ask would actually be. So God was setting me
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up. God was setting me up. I didn't even know. I had
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no idea. So my name I had already had a name. I had
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already had an idea. I was on couch. I was using my couch.
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I was using you know, safe space. I didn't know I was
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already creating a safe space for good conversation, all right. And so,
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and I know I'm be in detailed with this because I'm getting to a point.
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I'm getting somewhere with this. So okay, I'm changing my names and
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making myself public right now, there's an opportunity where this this very influent with
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very influential individual posts on her tagline on her page, saying that she wanted
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to do a new thing in Birmingham, Alabama, and she needed a local
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content creator. Yeah are you serious? Tag you it? Tag tag.
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She didn't have to try to wait for me to to answer her request,
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because at that point my page had been public for a while. She didn't
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have to requests me to go see what I was doing. She didn't have
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to go search on Google. It was right there in her playing sight because
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of what we've been doing with the podcast, and she is miss Tabitha Brown
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unashamed, Like I am so honored to have this opportunity, But my yes
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gave me the opportunity your obedience, It wouldn't Yeah, it wasn't no overnight
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like oh she just no no, no, no no no. If you
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go back and look at the YouTube, baby, it's evidence. But the
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yests had to start there for me to even provide the lady of yes in
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this moment, like being able to moderate for somebody, somebody of her caliber,
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of her influence, and she so God highlighted me because of the years
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back then, and so now it's like what you said no to has pushed
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your dream back or pushed your desires back, and now you're losing hope on
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something you did not answer to, Like we have to take responsibility of of
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what we denied. We have to take responsibility for what we deny, what
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we deny, what we discounted ourselves out of, what we disqualified ourselves out
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of, Like what we allow our insecurities to push us out of. I
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oh, I do have done it. I've done I'll be doing it right
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to be honest, we still like it's still things like because this moment has
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taught me like, oh girl, you gotta do it. Scared, you
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can't, you can't allow the I've posted more this week than I have in
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a while because I'm learning this is just I'm learning not to allow the thoughts
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of the people that don't support me to integrate with the community that does.
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I'm not for you, and I focused. So I made the mistake of
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not saying yes just because of what I felt like people were and we're not
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gonna do. It's been a lot of times where I haven't been the couple
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of tea for people. Yeah, and I'll forever not be the cup of
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tea for those people. We put so much weight on people's opinion. Who's
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not even for us anyway, you know what I'm saying, Like they're like,
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they're not gonna support. They may care about you, but what you
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have is not for them anyway. So why are we waiting for their opinions
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about something that we're doing for somebody else, that we're called to do for
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somebody else. The gag is they don't even support what they like. That's
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the gag. Like I'm mad at somebody or I'm looking for the support of
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somebody that don't like me. But even the things that they like, they
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don't support. What does support look like sharing on your you know, sharing
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investing like the gag is. Let me tell you this. I was going
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to Miss Tab's book tour anyway. Yeahs, I had about tickets. There's
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a video on my page right now of me saying, Birmingham, y'all not
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finna embarrass me. Jackson beat us on being sold out? Why are we
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not sold out? I did that not knowing that I would be the moderator.
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Crazy yo. I told Miss tamp this. I said, I literally
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bought I literally bought tickets to go to this show. And now you're telling
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me I'm trying not to get al and not just one ticket either. I
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about foe, I about four tickets. I bought four tickets for me and
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my sister Stacey and my pastor. And it was such an honor to do
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that, especially for my PC. Especially for my PC. I get emotionally
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even thinking about it, like she was so grateful for me thinking about her,
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and I didn't even think that now she would have the opportunity to see
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her investment as well. Because I got pastors, y'all, I got man
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I thank god when this moment came up, I thank God for my pastors.
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I was like, oh, I couldn't. I couldn't be in this
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moment without my pastors, because pastors bring a level of covering that like I
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love my coach, I love I love my spiritual mother. I just love
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my spiritual father. I love my parents. But I never understood a level
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of covering until I was in a position where I was being pastored. I
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didn't understand it because I'm a PK. You know what I'm saying, Like,
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yeah, my dad is my pastor, but was he really able to
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pastor me. We didn't have that relationship. We had mostly father our relationship.
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I'm gonna help and serving the church. I'm gonna do what's needed.
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But to be pastor, to be shepherded, to be looked over, to
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be prayed over, to be covered. I said, I literally thank God
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for not giving me this opportunity prior to me being covered. It's a process.
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That's why the process is important. Yes, like I literally thank God
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because what people don't understand is, yeah, this is a great opportunity.
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But God is tearing me up on the bag, He is tearing me up.
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He said, Oh, you think this is it. It's more and
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you're gonna have to let go of what you think you gonna keep. My
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goodness for this, yeah, for this, new doors mean closed doors.
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That's the part that you know, people don't. You don't get to see
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like you see, oh, you know, she's got these great opportunities,
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and people post what you want to see. But on the back end,
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you don't know the process. You don't know the trials, the tribulations,
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the things that people have to go through or still going through to make like
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anything in the kingdom has to come with a process. Why because you have
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to allow the process to build the character in order to sustain you where you're
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going. You know what I'm saying. Like, if you just think about
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and look how many leaders or people who have risen risen quickly, which is
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cool, but they have also fallen quickly quickly. I'm pretty sure. I
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don't know, but I'm pretty sure it's because they've skipped some steps we don't
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like. The steps are stupid, are stupid? Okay, they're stupid,
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and they hurt, they don't feel good, but they're so necessary, so
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necessary, so necessary. The steps of a good man or order ain't that.
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Ain't that a scripture steps of something type of man, let's go to
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order, let's go find it because the gag is over here, and I'm
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gonna tell y'all this every time I'm under shame. Listen, we're still learning,
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were still learning this word. But you you you hit it on the
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on the on the head like we want to skip steps, but we also
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want to It goes back to what we said before. We also try to
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do things alone. And if I wasn't in a position where I said,
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oh, watch this, the first year you have to do give is to
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yourself. You have to give yourself a years. You have to say,
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yes, I'm going to be the best person. What does that include?
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First, it includes your relationship with God. Right, it includes your relationship
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with with with your with God. And as God is being made lord over
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your life. Because I don't believe. I don't believe you just say oh
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God, your Lord, not in a genuine fashion. I understand that lord.
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Lord means that you control the narrative. Right, but you have to
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have relationship to understand why it's important for the Lord to control the narrative.
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To trust the Lord enough to control a narrative that you don't even understand.
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And so now that I've had I build this relationship with with Lord, now
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I can I can give not only my self yes, but I can give
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human yes, which allows me to give my community a yes. So if
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you never start with those, it's like just being willing enough to say yes
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to yourself, yes to God, then yes to them. If you're never
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going to you're never going to feel for be fulfilled. You're never going to
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find find what you're looking for. I didn't find my purpose till my yes
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came. The first year is just saying something simple as I will make my
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page public. I will make my page public. It started with that.
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I didn't do anything. It wasn't sporadic. God is not. It says
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God will not give you more than you can bear. God will not give
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you more than you can bear. I couldn't bear more than making my page
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public at that time. I couldn't bear more than it. I couldn't bear
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more than the name change. I couldn't bear more than just starting a podcast.
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And now I'm about to be on the stage. It assauld out event
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with someone I admire, someone I admire that is walking in kingdom, authority,
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and her in her mountain. You get what I'm saying, and killing
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it like you mean to tell me I'm about to be. I've never in
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life experienced something or seen something that's not gonna happen for me. I've never
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done that, and so if I'm sitting by it, that means that I
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can obtain it. So God, you're giving me my next Yeah. So
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that's what I'm getting to look forward to. But I gotta leave all this
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other stuff behind. It's to say, uh, Psalms thirty seven, Okay,
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that's good. Twenty three through twenty four says, Oh, this is
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the NLT version. We NLT over. The Lord directs. The Lord directs
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the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.
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Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by
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the hand. My God, girl, that's good. He delights in us.
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And it says though they stumble, though they stumble, which mean they
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will like God. I don't know how to say this, but God expects
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you to fall. He do. Like we've been trying to stand up all
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holy of it now and make it makes sense. But He's expecting you to
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fall. Why because it gives an opportunity to catch you know what is so
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good? What opportunities are we giving God to kitchens? Because for me,
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I'm a control free I like to be in control. And I'm like God,
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the yes don't mean perfection, though this is so good. The yes
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don't mean perfection. The yes means I'm I'm willing. I'm willing to be
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obedient, which means it's the thing like I think, I think we think
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that things supposed to be perfect, like got her, like he said,
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he expects us to stumble why because this is just the world we're in.
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We're in a world of sin, right, so he knows that they're that
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are fleshing. Things are gonna be fleshing, like it's gonna always be a
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constant battle. But if we that's why he's That's why he said. The
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man looks at the outer the outer part, but God looks at the heart,
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right, so he could he knows. He's like, yeah, baby,
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who she got she little wobbling leg I know, but she trying,
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know, I know her heart is towards me. I'm here with her,
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I'm holding her hand like she's wobbling like them like she got on. I
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just see this lady walking in the letter. He is, you know,
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with the coin down on the front, wobbling. She's wobbling, but she's
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still stepping towards the Lord though, and in her unstability, in her unstable
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way, she's still walking towards. She's still walking towards the Lord. That
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is so good. I'm just I personally discredit myself because of how I was
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walking versus the fact that I was walking man like, bow legg and all
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my daddy and then was happy that I when I went from crawling to walk,
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many they went, they was happy, bow legged and all listen,
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truth be told, the Lord won't us down on our knees coming to him
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for real. That's where the direction, man, it's the direction. What
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direction are we going in? Now? If you're going wrong? The crawling
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in the wrong direction? Baby, we have to all right, like we
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do the babies, all right. Don't run into that, don't run into
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that. You don't want that, you don't want to burn yourself. Don't
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go over that kitchen, don't get too close to that. That soul.
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Now, it's it's the direction. And so I'm just I'm in a space
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where I'm grateful. I'm grateful for me for saying years. Oh that's big.
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Yes, that again, I'm grateful for me for saying years. I
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love it because I know, you know, a little while on back then,
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that's something that you wouldn't have said no, no, when we was
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on the other side of the on the other side of the wall, when
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we had the black wall, we don't transform. I was I didn't want
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to say yes to you. I didn't want to say yes to you.
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But I will, I will say continue to say yes to you. That
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will, that will. The first years is always the most uncomfortable because you're
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not used to saying yes, especially when you are so focused on doing for
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others and not doing for yourself. But I know God is like doing a
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new thing in this season to where people and I said this already the support
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you're going to go from the poor turr to the support it. I didn't
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know that was gonna mean that for me. M Even when I said it,
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I didn't know. I didn't know that was gonna mean that. I
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had these great opportunities if God started like this in January, like this is
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just the first one, and the first month ain't even over. Yet we're
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not even done. We weren't even done, Like he was doing some things,
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we weren't even done, and like I wasn't even out of my I
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wasn't even out of my last season before he presented this to me. Come
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on, somebody. And so even the smallest things, you think it don't
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count, but it does. I led you to through that story, and
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I led you through that example for the simple fact that you could it.
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Matt not makes sense now, but it will add up at the end.
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It's adding up for me. Yeah, it's adding up for you. And
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so I want to thank you guys for tuning in today. I'm super excited.
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We got some listen I told y'all at the beginning, and we got
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some heavy hitters. And even with this opportunity, now we got people in
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boxing us that's like, oh I'm interested now, Yeah, that's killed.
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That's kill. We're welcome, welcoming people into the safe space. So we're
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gonna continue this ride. We're gonna continue with our yes. Yeah, and
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you know what, just this song is dropped in my spirit as we as
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we close out. I ain't gonna I'm a little nasalist, so I'm not
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gonna sing it, but I'm just gonna say the words. What is it's
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I think it's Michael Stanpley. I don't know. Don't get me lying.
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I'll just say yes if you lead the way. I'm not afraid of what
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it means for me to say that this life you gave is not my own.
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But I'm trusting you to hear my yes and lead me on My God.
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Yes Lord, Yes, Lord? Is that from the bottom of my
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heart to the den soil one soul? No, that's a song. Oh,
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I'm gonna listen. Look at me changing the song. That's the song.
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That's good. I'm not to go listen now. I don't think i've
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heard that. I'm sent to you. Okay, guys, thank you so
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much for joining us this week. Until next week. Life could be much
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more simple if you just We'll see you later. Peace. Hey y'all,
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