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How to Discover All-Present Grace · Council of Kings

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  hey beautiful people just sending so much love today waking up
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  here in germany
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  really felt like waking up within grace today just feeling such
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  an all-permeating
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  SPEAKER_00: sense of grace
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  SPEAKER_00: And in a deep sense,
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  SPEAKER_00: almost feeling very little,
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  SPEAKER_00: very little sense of self,
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  SPEAKER_00: very little sense of being me in a sense.
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  SPEAKER_00: And
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  SPEAKER_00: Instead,
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  SPEAKER_00: just basking in this,
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  SPEAKER_00: this radiance,
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  SPEAKER_00: just basking in the pure sensation,
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  SPEAKER_00: the textural presence of life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just getting back to Germany from Italy.
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  SPEAKER_00: We were in Berlin.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then Rome for a few days.
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  SPEAKER_00: That was beautiful.
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  SPEAKER_00: So feeling grateful for that, for my wife and daughter and my mother.
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  SPEAKER_00: Got to see my mother in Italy and God bless all of them.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's also feeling just so good to get back home here in Italy.
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  SPEAKER_00: small town,
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  SPEAKER_00: Germany,
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  just living right on the edge of a forest feels like such an
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  immense gift,
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  SPEAKER_00: such an immense treasure.
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  I like visiting cities and experiencing that full-on
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  kaleidoscopic cacophony for a
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  SPEAKER_00: few days,
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  SPEAKER_00: but it seems like over time my system
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  resonates less and less with that degree of overstimulation
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  kind of concrete jungle
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  vibes and something just feels so so utterly peaceful and
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  simple about returning to
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  our home here and seeing nature out the window right now as i
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  as i record this just
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  SPEAKER_00: seeing the forest so
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  SPEAKER_00: If life feels like a lot,
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  I can recommend getting into nature or perhaps considering
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  moving closer to nature.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's hard to quantify what that does,
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  SPEAKER_00: but I get a feeling that for me,
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  SPEAKER_00: it's incredibly,
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  SPEAKER_00: incredibly valuable.
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  SPEAKER_00: Back to what I was saying, though.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it.
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  SPEAKER_00: regarding the sense of grace upon waking up.
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  It can be hard to articulate this because I can imagine a lot
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  of people hearing
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  SPEAKER_00: that just waking up,
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  feeling this all present sense of grace and dissolving into
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  that grace and
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  SPEAKER_00: feeling very little sense of self,
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  SPEAKER_00: and I was noticing some thought activity,
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  SPEAKER_00: yet the thoughts are just not really taken personally at this point,
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  SPEAKER_00: at least not usually.
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  SPEAKER_00: I was just
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  SPEAKER_00: the thoughts are also seen as another texture,
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  another pure sensation that's showing up in this full field of
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  pure sensation.
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  SPEAKER_00: And at the same time,
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  SPEAKER_00: I was just kind of gently unhooking from the content of the thoughts,
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  because I could notice how the mind starts to want to go into
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  the content of
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  SPEAKER_00: thoughts,
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  SPEAKER_00: which is
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  SPEAKER_00: A lot of how the sense of I,
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  SPEAKER_00: the sense of me,
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  the sense of the small self kind of finds identity and creates
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  drama is through the
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  SPEAKER_00: content of the world of thoughts and kind of feeding into that,
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  SPEAKER_00: going into that,
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  SPEAKER_00: mulling things over,
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  SPEAKER_00: thinking of everything that's supposedly happening to me and how I should
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  SPEAKER_00: relate to all that and move forward in relation to all that.
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  And yeah,
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  there's a different possibility,
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  a possibility that we're not really
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  uh taught about when we grow up as kids within our western
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  society which is a
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  possibility of noticing that thought is a tiny tiny portion of
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  the fullness of
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  SPEAKER_00: what's going on in any moment the full
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  infinity of what is here this full infinite field of richness
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  at all moments at all
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  times and places is in a sense gargantuan immense uh utterly
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  full of textural
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  richness such as these uh what appear to be fighter jets flying
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  over us here uh
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  SPEAKER_00: Hopefully that's not portending anything ominous,
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  SPEAKER_00: but yeah,
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  usually we're implicitly deeply conditioned into a life lived
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  through thought,
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  SPEAKER_00: a life where we're deeply identified with our thoughts,
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  SPEAKER_00: a life where we
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  SPEAKER_00: We grasp after thought.
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  SPEAKER_00: We crave meaning through thought.
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  SPEAKER_00: We believe our thoughts deeply.
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  SPEAKER_00: We give our thoughts all kind of solidity.
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  And so we end up living within this kind of thought-generated
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  matrix and believing
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  SPEAKER_00: that that is life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Believing that that thought-generated matrix is life.
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  SPEAKER_00: Even though some features of thought are that
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  thought automatically divides the world up into a world of
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  separate objects words
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  can only function by defining things in relation to other
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  things divine defining
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  things according to what they supposedly are not so when you
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  define dog that
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  SPEAKER_00: automatically creates everything that's not dog and so
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  Words essentially give an appearance of a world of separate
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  objects and a linear
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  SPEAKER_00: story moving through time that give a strong sense of solidity to those
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  SPEAKER_00: assumptions.
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  But when we really look at life in any given moment,
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  when we really look at what is here,
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  SPEAKER_00: I would suggest to you,
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  SPEAKER_00: if we get quite honest with ourselves,
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  we never discover anything other than this presently appearing
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  spaciousness,
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  SPEAKER_00: this presently appearing fullness of textural sensation,
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  SPEAKER_00: which in a sense could be called an empty fullness.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the emptiness refers to
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  SPEAKER_00: the utter weightlessness,
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  SPEAKER_00: the utter spaciousness,
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  SPEAKER_00: when we cease to define things rigidly,
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  SPEAKER_00: when we relinquish our grip on fixed meanings,
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  SPEAKER_00: the entire field of our immediate experience can dramatically shift,
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  SPEAKER_00: can dramatically alter in its character.
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  SPEAKER_00: In a sense, it's still same old ordinary life, and yet...
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  There can be a great sense of something being freed up,
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  something being unhooked.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because again,
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  SPEAKER_00: we're habitually so locked into our beliefs about what this is and our
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  SPEAKER_00: thought-created stories about what this is.
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  We feel like I'm a little me over here and the world's over
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  there and I've got to
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  SPEAKER_00: navigate this whole thing.
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  and to see to see the emptiness of that that story is
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  essentially to see that in
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  any given moment what is here does not actually match up with
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  what the story claims
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  SPEAKER_00: that it is in any given moment
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  SPEAKER_00: if I get really honest and I look really directly at what is here,
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  SPEAKER_00: all I ever experience is this,
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  SPEAKER_00: let's say,
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  SPEAKER_00: field of luminosity,
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  SPEAKER_00: this unified field of energy.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I am not in any way apart from that field of energy.
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  SPEAKER_00: I am that field of energy.
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  SPEAKER_00: This body is that field of energy.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this field of energy
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  SPEAKER_00: experientially exists only now.
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  Experientially,
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  you cannot find the past or the future except as a thought,
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  an image in the now.
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  SPEAKER_01: This experiential field
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  SPEAKER_00: has no clear boundaries, no clear divisions in it.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know,
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  SPEAKER_00: sometime while meditating,
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  SPEAKER_00: you can ask yourself,
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  SPEAKER_00: close your eyes and ask yourself,
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  SPEAKER_00: can I,
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  can I find the place where the supposed inside of me shifts and
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  becomes the outside
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  SPEAKER_00: of me?
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  SPEAKER_00: Look for a clear, definite boundary between inside and outside.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if you go into that in kind of HD clarity detail,
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  SPEAKER_00: you will notice that no definitive boundary can be discovered.
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  Sure,
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  there might be a sense of a kind of fuzzy,
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  nebulous,
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  ever-shifting boundary.
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  And yet,
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  even that,
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  upon closer inspection,
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  I would suggest,
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  melts into this increasing sense of
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  SPEAKER_00: wholeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: as we engage in spiritual practices,
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  spiritual practices that are high leverage that actually do
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  some heavy lifting in
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  SPEAKER_00: this process,
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  SPEAKER_00: we essentially increasingly dissolve definitions,
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  SPEAKER_00: our attachment to definitions,
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  SPEAKER_00: our grasping after thoughts and identities,
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  SPEAKER_00: thought-based stories and beliefs,
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  of me and what i am and this dissolves the sense of these like
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  hard boundaries and
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  distinctions between things it dissolves the sense of being a
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  small being living
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  out this elaborate story moving through linear time with this
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  this big world out
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  there that's full of drama and problems and i have to somehow
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  figure out what my
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  SPEAKER_00: cosmic purpose is in the middle of this
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  you know,
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  war for the soul of mankind or whatever seems to be going on
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  out there.
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  A lot of that increasingly falls away as we just continuously
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  redirect our
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  SPEAKER_00: attention to this nowness,
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  SPEAKER_00: this wholeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: and notice that thought cannot say what it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: Essentially, we just start to practice not believing our thoughts and
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  SPEAKER_00: or even better than not believing them,
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  SPEAKER_00: is to actually see through them,
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  SPEAKER_00: to actually see that they don't,
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  SPEAKER_00: they really don't come close to encapsulating what is here.
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  SPEAKER_00: What is here,
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  SPEAKER_00: what is showing up in the experiential field at all times is this fluid,
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  SPEAKER_00: this ever-morphing,
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  SPEAKER_00: textural,
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  SPEAKER_00: radiant presentation of
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  of god knows what of pure pure mystery pure enigma pure flavor
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  a pure a pure
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  boundless seamless living riddle always existing only now
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  experientially and not
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  presenting with any real possibility of drawing lines around
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  something and saying
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  SPEAKER_00: oh yeah this is this is uh
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  SPEAKER_00: This is a tree.
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  We're just going to separate this out from the full field and
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  call this a tree.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nothing can be separated out from the full field.
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  SPEAKER_00: Everything codependently arises, as they say in Buddhism.
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  SPEAKER_00: This arises as one whole happening.
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  SPEAKER_00: You can't pull any of it apart from the rest of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: It all goes together in this deep way, this profound way.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so I would suggest that many of the most valuable spiritual practices
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  essentially continually redirect attention to the now and they
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  go beyond just
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  SPEAKER_00: trying to feel present as a human being in the now.
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  Like I'm still totally defining myself as a human being and I'm
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  just trying to
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  SPEAKER_00: become really present to
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  my sensory input,
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  that has its place,
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  that has its value,
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  everything has its place.
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  SPEAKER_00: And yet,
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  SPEAKER_01: I would suggest that the practices that are higher leverage,
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  SPEAKER_00: that have more capacity to really cut through all the
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  calcified layers of belief and assumption that tell us that we
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  already know what
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  this is and kind of block us from feeling and melting into that
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  ever-present grace
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  SPEAKER_00: of this weightless luminosity that is here.
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  The practices that cut more thoroughly are not about being
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  present as a human being.
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  SPEAKER_00: They're more about being
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  SPEAKER_00: Noticing a simple seeing that experientially presence is all there is.
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  SPEAKER_00: This presence now is all that we ever encounter.
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  SPEAKER_00: And on a very deep level, we have no idea what it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: So you're learning to relinquish even your very, very subtle feelings.
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  assumptions about what this is things you've taken for granted
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  for the past 20 30
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  40 years things like oh yeah there's space and there's time and
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  i'm a human being
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  and this is planet earth and i'm in a world and i'm in my house
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  right now and i'm
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  in my office and this is a computer i'm i'm recording a video
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  with zoom that i'm
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  going to post on the internet that might hopefully help some
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  people out there you
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  SPEAKER_00: know
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  SPEAKER_00: that type of story,
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  SPEAKER_00: which most people take to be completely beyond critique,
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  SPEAKER_00: beyond anything that could be called into question,
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  the deepest practices totally undercut that type of story and
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  suggest that it's
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  SPEAKER_00: It's a completely inaccurate partialization,
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  SPEAKER_00: a massive,
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  SPEAKER_00: massive reduction,
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  a fiction that essentially projects a whole bunch of solidity
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  and assumptions and a
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  SPEAKER_00: really strong kind of dumbing down
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  SPEAKER_00: that makes it appear that I actually know what this is,
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  SPEAKER_00: and I know what I am,
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  SPEAKER_00: and I know what the world is,
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  SPEAKER_00: and yada,
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  SPEAKER_00: yada,
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  SPEAKER_00: yada,
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  SPEAKER_00: humdrum,
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  SPEAKER_00: ho-hum,
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  SPEAKER_00: human life.
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  The most powerful practices undercut that by asking you to
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  repeatedly return to
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  SPEAKER_00: what is actually here now in this moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: Notice that it doesn't fit inside of any story.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't... On a deep level, I don't see a world here.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't see a human being here.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't see time and space or a computer.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes,
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  I still have the conceptual maps that allow me to understand
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  what people are
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  SPEAKER_00: referring to when they use that type of language.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yet, on deep levels, it's kind of sunken in for me that this immediate...
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  experience now is a total a total mystery i don't know what it
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  is i don't know what
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  i am i don't know how this is happening i don't know how any of
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  this is appearing
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  and i can really see that human being world computer these are
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  just words these are
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  SPEAKER_00: just these are just words these are conceptual categories
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  SPEAKER_00: that people invented.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I can really deeply see that the menu is not the meal.
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  SPEAKER_00: The map is not the territory.
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  SPEAKER_00: The word is not the thing.
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  And even the assumption that there are things is an assumption
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  that really has to
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  SPEAKER_00: be deeply challenged.
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  Because when we start to undercut all our assumptions and we
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  start to really look at what is
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  SPEAKER_00: actually here in any given moment,
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  SPEAKER_00: again,
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  we find this flash of what we would call color and sound and
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  texture and kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: sensory data.
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  SPEAKER_00: But even calling it that,
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  SPEAKER_00: even saying a flash of color,
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  SPEAKER_00: texture,
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  SPEAKER_00: sound,
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  SPEAKER_00: sensory data,
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  SPEAKER_00: we don't know what any of those words refer to.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's a way that I can point to it in a more primordial way as a kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: as a kind of elixir,
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  SPEAKER_00: an etheric ever-morphing event,
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  SPEAKER_00: a unitary,
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  SPEAKER_00: etheric,
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  SPEAKER_00: ever-morphing mysterious event,
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  SPEAKER_00: a mysterious happening,
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  SPEAKER_00: is a way that I can gesture more accurately toward
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  the kind of naked primordial primal presentation of what this
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  what this is in any
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  given moment when we when we drop all the stories about it in a
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  deep sense it's
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  like returning to infant mind you know when you were a newborn
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  baby you had no
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  SPEAKER_00: words for any of this it was all just
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  SPEAKER_00: Wow.
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  SPEAKER_00: Wow.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just melting into this morphing,
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  kaleidoscopic sequence of these different kind of blobs and
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  energies that are all
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  SPEAKER_00: going together,
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  SPEAKER_00: that are all fused together,
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  SPEAKER_00: that are all emanations of this one blob,
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  SPEAKER_00: this one event.
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  SPEAKER_00: And you, the so-called baby, are not at all separate from that.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're
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  Consciousness is completely interwoven in that and there are no
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  words like
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  SPEAKER_00: consciousness or blob or baby or anything like that.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's just primordial shape-shiftingness.
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  SPEAKER_00: Primordial shape-shiftingness and that is still there.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is still ever-present.
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  SPEAKER_00: We still have access to that.
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  SPEAKER_00: We all have a primal kind of ancient memory in a sense of that.
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  SPEAKER_00: And more than memory, that is just simply there, here, in every moment.
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  SPEAKER_00: Look and see for yourself the raw data,
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  SPEAKER_00: the raw sensory data of what is here,
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  SPEAKER_00: stripped of all of its conceptual assumptions,
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  SPEAKER_00: stripped of all conceptual fabrications,
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  SPEAKER_00: overlays,
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  SPEAKER_00: solidifications that we...
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  SPEAKER_00: desperately try to fit it into,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  we try to take this fluid ocean of enchantment and cram it into
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  a little film
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  SPEAKER_00: canister of fixed belief,
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  SPEAKER_00: fixed meaning structure,
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  SPEAKER_00: fixed conceptual structure.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we fail every time.
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  SPEAKER_00: Inevitably, inevitably that fails because again,
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  SPEAKER_00: This infinite super ocean of ever morphing,
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  SPEAKER_00: ever fluid luminosity,
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  SPEAKER_00: strangeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: bizarreness,
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  SPEAKER_00: can't say whatness,
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  is infinite and is not going to fit within a finite film
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  canister of belief,
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  SPEAKER_00: of thought,
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  SPEAKER_00: of concept.
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  It's too close,
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  it's too simple,
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  it's too direct,
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  it's too all-encompassing.
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  You can't step outside of it and pretend to be some kind of
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  objective observer.
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  SPEAKER_00: Nothing is outside of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Everything that ever shows up is completely and entirely this wholeness.
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  SPEAKER_00: And the infinity of it, it may seem strange to use this word, infinity,
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  SPEAKER_00: But a simple demonstration of infinity is to,
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  SPEAKER_00: and I've used this many times before,
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  but to just simply close your eyes and feel the texture of the
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  light dancing in the
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  SPEAKER_00: space we would usually call behind the eyelids.
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  And go ahead and feel that kind of in combination with the
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  sensory vibratory
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  SPEAKER_00: quality of the whole apparent body,
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  SPEAKER_00: of your whole organism.
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  feel how there's this continuity between this dancing pixelated
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  light that's
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  continuously dancing and morphing with an unthinkable degree of
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  pixelation and how
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  SPEAKER_00: that kind of buzzing pixelation is also mirrored within the feeling tone,
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  SPEAKER_00: the field of touch,
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  SPEAKER_00: the kind of
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  beyond touch the kind of inner aliveness of the body feel how
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  you can actually feel
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  the aliveness of the body vibrating and feel that vibratory
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  quality of the body
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  melting into the vibratory quality of the dancing light
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  information behind the
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  eyelids and just simply noticing that you could you could write
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  a million treatises
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  SPEAKER_00: about what that
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  vibratory buzzingness is for the next billion years you could
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  write countless
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  treatises and you would not be able to pin down you'd not be
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  able to encapsulate
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  what it is so infinity points to non finite not encapsulate
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  able not pin down able
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  SPEAKER_00: within any finite structure because what we're dealing with here
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  literally you know when we look with that level of granularity
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  we can see that
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  there is a non-finite amount of detail present in every
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  instantaneous flash of
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  immediate experience and it is continuously morphing
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  continuously shifting
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  continuously shape-shifting continuously flickering and melting
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  into the next
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  permutation the next iteration of itself and that's happening
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  in every sense field
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  and really the divisions between these sense fields are
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  arbitrary there's really
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  just one sense field of this wholeness and the whole thing is
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  utterly permeated
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  SPEAKER_00: utterly saturated with this
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  hyper hyper specific level of detail that in every nanosecond
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  appears as a never
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  before seen immersive hyper tapestry a hyper artwork that is
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  continuously vanishing
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  and reappearing as a fresh iteration of itself it's
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  continuously melting into the
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  SPEAKER_00: next iteration of itself with a
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  SPEAKER_00: an immeasurable degree of detail, subtlety, high definition, clarity.
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  So that's a simple way that you can notice infinity in and as
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  your own direct experience.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when you start to do things like that more often,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: you can make this a playful practice.
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  SPEAKER_00: It doesn't have to be a big serious thing.
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  SPEAKER_00: Just letting yourself be seduced by immediate experience.
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  Letting yourself get curious about what is actually here on an
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  immediate sensory textural level.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not the super, super reductive experience.
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  picture of things that thought claims is here like oh yeah
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  there's little old me in
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  SPEAKER_00: the room on the chair like of course life often feels drab and boring and
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  depressive if you're living within that highly limited
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  narrative about what this is
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  SPEAKER_00: and what's going on here let yourself go beyond thought to feel
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  The actual presence of infinite miraculousness all around you
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  bubbling and
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  SPEAKER_00: effulging and filling and spilling over through all the sense fields.
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  SPEAKER_00: And this one all encapsulating,
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  SPEAKER_00: all encompassing sense field bubbling over like a continual cauldron of
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  SPEAKER_00: kaleidoscopic...
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  candy a continual a continual enchantment you know words fail i
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  i sometimes use
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  very poetic and and unusual metaphors to try to gesture toward
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  this because it's
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  just words cannot describe it and the whole point is to leap
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  out of words leap out
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  SPEAKER_00: of the usual
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  SPEAKER_00: tunnel vision that words give us,
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  words put us in this progressive kind of narrowing process
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  where things just get
• 29:47
  SPEAKER_00: narrowed down more and more and more and more and more.
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  Pretty soon we're living in this very small box of what we have
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  rigidly defined
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  SPEAKER_00: ourselves and the world to be.
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  And that often feels pretty constraining and disenchanting and
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  rigid and kind of robotic.
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  And what's being pointed to here is another possibility where
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  instead of a
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  SPEAKER_00: narrowing down,
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  SPEAKER_00: there's a possibility of a full-fledged,
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  SPEAKER_00: a full body,
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  SPEAKER_00: full beingness,
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  SPEAKER_00: opening up,
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  SPEAKER_00: opening to the full field,
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  SPEAKER_00: relinquishing all the calcified layers of definition,
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  SPEAKER_00: assumption,
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  SPEAKER_00: and belief.
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  SPEAKER_00: And once again, being able to actually feel the primordial fact of
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  of isness,
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  jizzness,
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  full circulatory,
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  full body,
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  full textural radiance.
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  That's a way I can gesture toward what this feels like when we
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  actually become
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  SPEAKER_00: permeable and porous to it again,
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  when we stop feeling like a separate little old me over here in
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  my fortress who has
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  SPEAKER_00: to
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  SPEAKER_00: be all defensive and,
• 31:04
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  continuously feel like I'm in a dramatic story so I can
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  reinforce my sense of all
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  these layers of identity that give me a foundational feeling of
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  some kind of
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  SPEAKER_00: security and some kind of status and some kind of safety.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not to,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: with full compassion for all of that,
• 31:27
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  it's not easy being a human being and with full compassion for
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  everybody out there,
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  SPEAKER_00: we can gradually melt that away.
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  SPEAKER_00: Like the yolk of an egg,
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  just all these calcified layers of identity can gradually melt
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  and like stream
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  SPEAKER_00: down.
• 31:51
  SPEAKER_00: And we cease to feel ourselves as these separate,
• 31:54
  SPEAKER_00: cut-off,
• 31:55
  SPEAKER_00: rigid,
• 31:57
  SPEAKER_00: mechanical,
• 31:58
  SPEAKER_00: disenchanted,
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  SPEAKER_00: isolated beings.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we start to feel ourselves as the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: As the whole ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: Not even waves on the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: It might feel like being a wave on the ocean.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then it can melt even further into just feeling...
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  SPEAKER_00: like the whole ocean.
• 32:19
  SPEAKER_00: And when you feel that when you feel that sense of wholeness,
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  SPEAKER_00: the intrinsic quality of that,
• 32:29
  SPEAKER_00: again,
• 32:29
  SPEAKER_00: feels like melting into grace,
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  it feels like it feels like melting into a unified quantum
• 32:40
  field of pure vibratory
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  juiciness pure vibratory angelic harmony in a sense and it's
• 32:57
  all here and it's all
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  well and and you're not even really here anymore and there's
• 33:02
  just this equipoise
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  SPEAKER_00: this utter repose of beingness of
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  you know,
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  quantum isness,
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  whatever it is,
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  you know,
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  you can't,
• 33:17
  you can't say it.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm using the word quantum to kind of invoke the subtlety of it.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is a sense of an infinite degree of subtlety or pixelation,
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  SPEAKER_00: like you almost feel like you can
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  feel the kind of quantum particles or quantum vibrations that
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  constitute this
• 33:49
  SPEAKER_00: subtle field of beingness,
• 33:51
  SPEAKER_00: whatever this is,
• 33:53
  SPEAKER_00: and you feel like you're melting into those.
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  So there's a distinct sense of moving from the gross to the
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  subtle,
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  the gross being like
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  SPEAKER_00: oh yeah,
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  SPEAKER_00: here I am,
• 34:05
  SPEAKER_00: same old me,
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  SPEAKER_00: on the chair,
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  SPEAKER_00: with a beer,
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  SPEAKER_00: to the subtle,
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  SPEAKER_00: which feels more like,
• 34:17
  SPEAKER_00: oh,
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  I'm melting into an infinitely pixelated ocean of grace that is
• 34:21
  all present and
• 34:22
  SPEAKER_00: that is cradling me,
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  SPEAKER_00: cradling me in a sense,
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  SPEAKER_00: holding me,
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  SPEAKER_00: nurturing me,
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  I can directly feel that whatever this is,
• 34:40
  is beyond harm in a deep,
• 34:42
  deep sense.
• 34:43
  SPEAKER_00: That what seems to occur within our world does not touch,
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  SPEAKER_00: does not graze whatever this subtle field of beingness is.
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  That at least is the,
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  that's the primal quality,
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  that's the textural quality.
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  quality of it you don't have to turn it into a new belief
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  system you don't have to
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  turn it into a new metaphysics you don't have to claim to
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  definitely know that you
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  are divinity beyond all form utterly indestructible and and
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  eternal you know
• 35:25
  SPEAKER_00: You don't have to take it to that place.
• 35:27
  SPEAKER_00: It can be counterproductive to start to solidify new beliefs about this.
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  SPEAKER_00: You can just let the immediate textural quality of it be enough.
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  Just this hot bath and freshness,
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  this percolating,
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  melting into this all present
• 35:55
  SPEAKER_00: caramelization,
• 35:56
  SPEAKER_00: this honey river,
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  just being this honey river of grace flowing through itself
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  without a sense of it
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  SPEAKER_00: being about me or personal.
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  SPEAKER_00: It simply is.
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  SPEAKER_00: Simply is.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it is complete.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's whole.
• 36:21
  SPEAKER_00: It is totality.
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  SPEAKER_00: That is the
• 36:24
  SPEAKER_00: Again,
• 36:24
  SPEAKER_00: the experiential quality,
• 36:27
  SPEAKER_00: flavor,
• 36:27
  SPEAKER_00: texture,
• 36:28
  SPEAKER_00: the primal flavor of this nowness feels like totality,
• 36:35
  SPEAKER_00: wholeness,
• 36:36
  SPEAKER_00: completion.
• 36:38
  SPEAKER_00: That's why in Dzogchen Buddhism,
• 36:41
  SPEAKER_00: the word Dzogchen means great completion or great perfection,
• 36:46
  SPEAKER_00: referring to this here now,
• 36:49
  SPEAKER_00: the only place we ever are.
• 36:51
  SPEAKER_00: And...
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  SPEAKER_00: We can realize that if we want to.
• 36:55
  SPEAKER_00: We can get curious.
• 36:56
  SPEAKER_00: We can investigate that.
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  SPEAKER_00: We can,
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  SPEAKER_00: in a flash,
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  SPEAKER_00: suddenly notice that,
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  SPEAKER_00: begin to open to that,
• 37:04
  SPEAKER_00: notice that that has always been the case.
• 37:06
  SPEAKER_00: There's always been this ever-present grace, this ever-present love,
• 37:18
  SPEAKER_00: It fully embraces every aspect of itself.
• 37:20
  SPEAKER_00: It has no war with any aspect of itself.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's a pure harmony here that has a quality of love.
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  SPEAKER_00: We can notice that that's always been there.
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  SPEAKER_00: And we can,
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  SPEAKER_00: even as we discover that this is it already,
• 37:37
  SPEAKER_00: and this has always been it,
• 37:40
  SPEAKER_00: we can also just let it deepen.
• 37:43
  SPEAKER_00: It seems to have a tendency to want to
• 37:47
  SPEAKER_00: It wants to sink into every layer,
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  SPEAKER_00: every cell,
• 37:51
  SPEAKER_00: every aspect of the body so as to transfigure each body into a living,
• 38:03
  SPEAKER_00: transparent body.
• 38:05
  SPEAKER_00: declaration of grace,
• 38:07
  SPEAKER_00: a living,
• 38:08
  SPEAKER_00: transparent emanation of grace,
• 38:10
  SPEAKER_00: a hollow bone through which the primordial jazz can simply jazz itself,
• 38:16
  SPEAKER_00: can simply express freely into the field.
• 38:24
  SPEAKER_00: And paradoxically, that is when
• 38:33
  SPEAKER_00: That is when you feel most like yourself, most in harmony.
• 38:40
  SPEAKER_00: When you are barely even there or not even there.
• 38:45
  SPEAKER_00: And it just feels like life's music is just cascading through.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are the river and you are being played.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are being expressed.
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  SPEAKER_00: You are being harmonized with the whole.
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  SPEAKER_00: So...
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  SPEAKER_00: This is available.
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  SPEAKER_00: This is a possibility.
• 39:03
  SPEAKER_00: The inner work works, or perhaps the inner play better stated.
• 39:10
  SPEAKER_00: I really, really like approaching all of this as a playful exploration.
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  SPEAKER_00: That always resonated more with me.
• 39:19
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you, Peter Brown, for putting it in those terms.
• 39:22
  That always resonated more with me than some big serious
• 39:25
  meditation practice like,
• 39:28
  SPEAKER_00: oh,
• 39:28
  SPEAKER_00: I need to do my Zazen for four hours today.
• 39:31
  SPEAKER_00: I was never that type of seeker.
• 39:38
  SPEAKER_00: Peter's approach of this is an all-present, playful portal.
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  SPEAKER_00: Check it out.
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  SPEAKER_00: Let yourself be seduced.
• 39:45
  SPEAKER_00: Let yourself go into meditation.
• 39:47
  SPEAKER_00: the radiance of what is here beyond all words,
• 39:50
  SPEAKER_00: beyond all descriptions,
• 39:51
  SPEAKER_00: and let that radiance do the heavy lifting.
• 39:53
  Just go to the actual fact of astonishing miraculousness here
• 39:59
  now beyond all
• 40:01
  SPEAKER_00: description,
• 40:02
  SPEAKER_00: and that will do the heavy lifting.
• 40:04
  That will gradually dissolve the less true snake skins and
• 40:12
  shift your center of gravity,
• 40:14
  your
• 40:15
  SPEAKER_00: deep belly level orientation as a being from feeling like small,
• 40:20
  SPEAKER_00: little encapsulated me clenching the fist to pure openness,
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  SPEAKER_00: radiating as truth,
• 40:30
  SPEAKER_00: as grace.
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  SPEAKER_00: And yeah, so that's available.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is a there, there, and it's right here.
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  it's ever deepening there's not a there's not a finish line
• 40:47
  other than in the sense
• 40:47
  that this always is the finish line this has always been it and
• 40:51
  yet it continually
• 40:53
  opens into more of itself continuously deepens continuously
• 40:57
  blossoms flowers
• 40:58
  unfurls everything is it at all times there's no way to get it
• 41:04
  wrong it's just a
• 41:05
  noticing of what has always been the case and that simple
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  noticing dissolves
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  gargantuan quantities of of stuckness and and blockage and
• 41:19
  coagulation stagnancy
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  such that there can be a sense of freedom flow fluidity
• 41:30
  floweringness so yes that
• 41:35
  SPEAKER_00: is available
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  SPEAKER_00: There is a there, there.
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  All the mystics and sages and saints across the ages who spoke
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  about this oneness,
• 41:46
  SPEAKER_00: this wholeness,
• 41:48
  SPEAKER_00: they were not just blowing smoke.
• 41:51
  SPEAKER_00: There's a reason why...
• 41:54
  SPEAKER_00: preternatural light seemed to sparkle forth out of their wide eyes.
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  SPEAKER_00: They were seeing something.
• 42:02
  SPEAKER_00: They were seeing revelation and that revelation is here now.
• 42:06
  SPEAKER_00: It's continuously walloping us in the face.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm looking out at this cerulean blue sky and it's a jewel.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's an oceanic
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  SPEAKER_00: It's a pure openness.
• 42:27
  SPEAKER_00: I'm seeing the sunlight playing upon these clouds over here.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's just like what could be a more picturesque vista?
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  SPEAKER_00: Here it is.
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  SPEAKER_00: We found it.
• 42:40
  SPEAKER_00: Here it is.
• 42:40
  SPEAKER_00: We found it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Always here and now.
• 42:44
  SPEAKER_00: Always here and now.
• 42:48
  SPEAKER_00: It's here.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's juicy.
• 42:50
  SPEAKER_00: It's full.
• 42:53
  SPEAKER_00: It's also empty in a sense.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's weightless.
• 42:56
  SPEAKER_00: It's free.
• 42:56
  SPEAKER_00: It's not pinned down.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's spacious.
• 42:59
  SPEAKER_00: It's vast.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's full of grace.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's full of light.
• 43:04
  SPEAKER_00: It's full of love.
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  It has the potential to unravel the knots and end the war
• 43:10
  within so that perhaps we
• 43:13
  SPEAKER_00: can also end the wars without it.
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  stop roundhouse kicking ourselves in the face for millennia on
• 43:19
  end as a species,
• 43:21
  SPEAKER_00: and actually give our children and grandchildren the world they deserve,
• 43:25
  SPEAKER_00: where we snap out of this hypnosis of endless violence,
• 43:33
  SPEAKER_00: vengeance,
• 43:33
  SPEAKER_00: and war,
• 43:34
  SPEAKER_00: and just notice that freedom and peace are available,
• 43:39
  SPEAKER_00: and we could live from that wholeness,
• 43:41
  SPEAKER_00: we could
• 43:42
  create beauty together from and as that wholeness with no need
• 43:47
  for you know
• 43:51
  dismembering each other it's yeah it's insanity it's non-sanity
• 43:59
  a lot of what we
• 44:00
  see around us and and it comes from the illusion of separation
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  the illusion of
• 44:07
  SPEAKER_00: being cut off and having something to protect and defend so
• 44:11
  SPEAKER_00: I would suggest that what I'm pointing at is the antidote to that.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's the opening to oceanic grace,
• 44:22
  SPEAKER_00: all-encompassing grace,
• 44:23
  SPEAKER_00: seeing that there truly is no separation and that what you do to another,
• 44:28
  SPEAKER_00: you do to your own self in a deep sense.
• 44:31
  SPEAKER_00: You do to your own child, your own brother and sister, your own self.
• 44:40
  SPEAKER_00: So...
• 44:43
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you for listening.
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  SPEAKER_00: This has been a an enjoyable ramble on my end.
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  SPEAKER_00: I hope it has also been enjoyable for you, my friend.
• 44:59
  SPEAKER_00: Thank you for listening.
• 45:00
  SPEAKER_00: Hope you receive something here.
• 45:03
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, feel welcome to send any follow up questions or comments.
• 45:10
  SPEAKER_00: I really I really love hearing from you.
• 45:12
  SPEAKER_00: So
• 45:14
  SPEAKER_00: Love from my heart to yours.
• 45:16
  SPEAKER_00: Thanks for listening.
• 45:19
  SPEAKER_00: Peace.
• 45:19
  SPEAKER_00: Hallelujah.
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  SPEAKER_00: Amen.
• 45:23
  SPEAKER_00: May all beings know peace.
• 45:24
  SPEAKER_00: May all be blessed.
• 45:27
  SPEAKER_00: Amen.
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  SPEAKER_00: Hallelujah.