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Restore · Many Things with Steph Libby

Welcome back to Many Things.
I'm Steph, I'm multi-passionate, and I'm building my dream life one step at a time, and this is the podcast where I talk about all of it.
My word of the week, this week is restore.
When I think about restore, I think about balance, I think about aiming for a sense of calm.
I, I don't have a calm mind, which will be no shock to anybody that listens to this podcast.
This podcast is basically created because I don't have a calm mind.
I'm always thinking about the worst case scenarios, and lately I've been thrown a lot of tough, difficult circumstances.
So adding worst case scenario rumination on top of that is...
It's just been a total sanity killer.
So I took a couple months away from the podcast simply because I needed to.
Um, working late hours, trying to figure out what I'm doing with myself and this podcast, my writing, my career, relationship stuff, financial stuff, all of it.
It all just started to be too much.
I think it's burnout again.
Um, for anyone that's new, I, uh, dealt with a lot of burnout last fall for a lot of different reasons.
Um- And I think maybe I didn't actually recover from burnout like I thought I did.
I think I mostly just masked it.
Um, I think I, I think I mostly just masked it really well for a while, until it all came bubbling back up and took me down again.
A couple weeks ago, I took a couple extra days off of work.
I kinda knew, like, kinda midsummer that, like, I needed to take a break, and a lot of people at my work had been taking time off, and I realized that, um, I, you know, I'd taken, like, a couple days off here or there, and I really just needed, like, another, I just needed, like, a minute to recharge.
It's been a busy year.
I've been doing a lot of training.
I've been dealing with a career pivot.
And just, like, a lot of new responsibilities and a lot of fears and a lot of feedback, and it's just been, like...
It, it's got, it got really overwhelming, so I decided to take a few days off in September.
I took a, a Friday and a Monday off, gave myself a long weekend to recoup and recenter.
I just needed some time and space to think, and it was good.
I mean, obviously, any time you take off from work is gonna be good.
But I didn't end the weekend feeling fully recharged, but it did help me reset a bit.
The thing is, I felt so guilty the entire time.
I was plagued by the worry that I wasn't being productive enough, that I was wasting these couple of extra days away from work, and then I realized how troubling that thinking really is.
My work, my day job, is only one small piece of who I am, and I don't think I don't think I really even like my work all that much.
Like, it's, But it consumes me completely.
Like, this job, the jo- like, my project management work that I do and working at an agency is just something I fell into.
It wasn't something I wanted to do.
It wasn't something I was passionate about.
It wasn't something I, like, aimed for.
It's just a means to an end.
It's a way for me to earn a decent enough living.
And now, with this career pivot into, you know, moving a little bit away from project management and moving more into, uh, culture work and kind of HR adjacent stuff, and employee experience and all this kind of stuff, I, I do like that stuff more, but it still doesn't, like...
It's still just a means to an end.
It's still just...
It's, like, a better version of something I don't enjoy doing.
It's, like, just trying to, uh, find a silver lining for myself in a bunch of stuff.
I, I...
If I had a, the choice, I wouldn't be doing this stuff.
I would be doing something very different.
and I guess that's, like, a little disappointing for me because I...
Not to go off on a tangent for a minute, but I think, I think that's disappointing for me because I'm, you know, I'm 39 now, and it, and I've, you know, have years of experience under my belt, and it definitely does feel like I have to just keep going in this direction because I've already sunken so much time into it, and I'm not in a place where I could, like...
I'm not in a place where I could, like, go back to school.
I just, I don't have the mental capacity for that.
I don't have the financial means to do that.
And so I do feel a little bit stuck.
And so this pivot was just a way to kinda help get me unstuck a little bit and find something that maybe I just enjoyed a little bit more, um, and maybe would help me not feel quite so resentful and burnt out at work.
So it wasn't like this has, like, been the dream and now I'm finally getting to pivot into it.
It's just sort of another, uh, another way to just...
I'm just shifting my lane a little bit, you know? But all that to say, like, my work consumes me completely.
It exhausts me.
It makes me feel bad when all I'm trying to do is my best, and it's really defeating to think that my good enough might not actually be very good enough.
Like, I might just be mediocre.
I might just be average.
And somewhere along the way, I started to believe that being average wasn't good enough, but why not? Yes, I want more money, but I don't know if you need to be extraordinary to or-- to earn more money.
I don't know, I don't know that that's the key to success.
Grit, determination, consistency, those are more indicative, I think, to whether someone is gonna be successful.
And honestly, I think I look at all the people around me at my average workplace doing our average work, and we're not curing cancer.
We're not saving lives.
We're not doing much of anything really very important at all.
And I convince myself that these people are so much more extraordinary than they really are, and I don't mean that, I don't mean that to sound like I think that they're shit people who do shit jobs.
I just mean that, okay, well, they're just fairly average people like myself, and they might be better at some things than me, but that doesn't mean that I'm a shit person.
I guess like a, a something that I, some-- I...
Okay, so I was watching, I was rewatching Succession.
It's this...
If you haven't watched, it's this HBO drama about a family who runs a media empire, and their dad, Logan Roy, is just like a tyrant asshole.
He's someone that's, I feel like is kind of like a mix between like Trump and Rupert Murdoch, and like that kind of stuff.
He's just like this megalomaniac business mogul, you know? So, um, but anyway, he has this family.
He has three kids and, you know, their wives and nieces and nephews and all this stuff, and basically like everyone in the family's trying to get their piece of the pie.
But clearly everyone in this family, they're just inept people.
They're these inept children who, you know, grown adult children who are now trying to vie for l- you know, owning the company and running the company.
But none of them are qualified to own the company.
None of them really have any skills to run the company, and every time they're put in a situation where, you know, they're being tested about if they could handle taking the job, they all just kind of fail and fumble through it.
And I-- That's like the point of the show is I think you're supposed to like see these people who are supposed to be these like tycoons, these people who like can change political landscapes and change, you know, global economies, but they're just a bunch of fucking dipshits.
And it made me realize that like it made me realize like aren't we all just kinda dipshits making it up as we go along? Like none of this is that serious.
And in reality, like I'm good-- I'm decent at my job.
I'm good enough at my job, and I don't think I'm really in any position that like I'm truly failing.
I don't think I'm in a position where like I'm doing such a bad job that like I should be worried about not having my job.
I think I put a lot of extra pressure on myself, and I think that that's where I'm sort of falling, and I take everything very personally, because I know deep down that when they question something that I wanna do or a decision that I'm making it's, it feels deeper than it probably actually is because I just have so much self-doubt.
I don't have a lot of confidence, and I think that that holds me back more in work than anything, which is crazy because I'm sitting here talking into a microphone, spilling my guts out, knowing that people are listening, and I don't think twice about it.
It's just there's a huge disconnect there that is really putting me at a disadvantage.
And, and along with that, I've realized that I'm not taking care of myself.
This whole podcast was created and then reinvented to focus in on being multidimensional.
It was supposed to help me get out of my head and explore something new and have a place to talk about all the new things I'm learning about myself.
But I don't think I've been doing a very good job of that because I'm not doing a very good job of being kind to myself and investing and dedicating the time to the things I love or the things I want to try to see if I love them.
I tell myself that a lot of that has to do with money, like that I, because I don't have the money to try new things, I can't try new things.
Which, you know, is true to some extent, but not everything costs money I think the deeper root issue is that I don't think I deserve to take the time to do these things.
I don't think I'm worthy of doing these extra things.
I think part of it is fear.
Part of it is being anxious about being around other people, being, um, being judged by other people, of not being good at something and feeling bad about myself because I already feel inept in so many parts of my life.
So I've kept myself cooped up in this house.
I feel like a shut-in.
Like, I'm...
Seriously, I'm not even, like, going outside every day because it's been so long since I've, like, really, like, tended to my garden or spent a day out by the pool or whatever.
Obviously, it's October now, so I'm not doing either of those things.
But the point is, is that I'm just heads down, focused on work, letting it consume me.
I I'm not even getting to enjoy the things that are free and simple that I love.
Like, I'm just stuck in my office or laying in bed at 7:30 PM while knowing that some people are just getting dinner on the table at 7:30, or just getting home from, you know, their kid's soccer game, or just putting their kid to bed.
And it's like I am tapped out by 7:00.
And so I know that there's something...
You know, I know that there's something off there, and, and that's, like, really sad and embarrassing to admit.
Like, that I haven't been outside, that, like, I'm just sort of this shut-in.
But I've just felt really oppressed.
I've felt this massive cloud of dread and fear and nervousness and sadness hanging over me all the time, and it's tiring.
And during my respite a couple weeks ago, I really, I, I really started to accept the fact that I need to do something different, and I say that all the time.
I feel like I start every journal entry saying, "I need to get my shit together."
But I need to really be committed to doing something different, 'cause this, what I've been doing isn't sustainable.
I thought I'd conquered burnout, but I just disguised it.
It- or, you know, maybe I got so used to the feeling, um, of being burnt out that burnout just felt normal.
Like feeling blah and like I'm living in a world of gray just felt normal.
I kept blaming other people at my job, and tourists, and my bosses, and everyone I could for how miserable I've been feeling.
And they do share a part in it, but I have to confront the elephant in the room, that, that it's me, you know? I'm the one getting in my own way.
I'm the one who's holding myself back.
I'm the one who keeps doubting myself and, and thinking everything, you know, is personal, and taking everything personally.
And I'm the one who isn't asking for help, and I'm the one who isn't even attempting to find any sort of semblance of balance in my life.
You know, it, it's like this martyr mentality.
Um, I just keep throwing my hands up and telling myself that that's, that kind of life isn't for me, that, you know, work isn't going well, so my whole life sucks.
That my finances, are growing more and more complicated as the economy fumbles itself into a recession, and I'm falling further out of middle class.
But That's like, I feel like to some extent that's just a story that I've been telling myself, but that's only one piece of the, of the bigger story, of the bigger truth.
Um, you know, and, and all those like things might be a little true, like, yes, my finances are stressful and the economy is scary and you never know what the next day is gonna bring, and it feels like every day I'm encountering some new disappointment or setback or...
And I wanna believe that out of it, growth will come and opportunity will come, but when you're in the thick of it, it is really hard to see the silver lining at the end of the road, you know? Um, so while some of that may be true, that doesn't mean that I'm not playing the biggest part in my own dissatisfaction.
I asked myself as part of this intention of thinking about restore as my word of the week, um, you know, I, I asked myself like what...
So what, what do I need to do differently? And the biggest thing I think for right now is that, I had my yearly physical this week.
I talked to my doctor about a lot of different things that have been going on, and I'm actually going to be starting an anxiety medication.
I'm actually really excited about it.
My emotions have felt really all over the place for a long, long time, probably longer than I actually want to admit, and it's probably been 10 years since I've been on any sort of anxiety or depression medication.
I was on it for a little bit in my late 20s where I kind of had like, a, a quarter-life crisis, like I don't know what else to call it.
and I've also, in addition to medication, I've also gotten a referral for therapy, um, which I'm also really excited about.
I mean, I'm not excited about having to spend money on medication.
I'm not excited about having to spend money on therapy because I barely have enough money to like do anything right now other than keep my head above water.
But I think that I'm trying to think of it as an investment in myself, and that maybe if I have someone to talk to, um, maybe I'll be able to, like, find a way through some of this stuff, and maybe I- the- they can actually help me, like, rebuild my confidence and feel good in what I'm doing and get on a better path.
You know, I've been to therapy before.
I've, I've seen maybe three or four different therapists, um, over the last 10 years.
I really loved my first therapist, but she was more focused on eating disorders and, um, binge eating and emotional eating, so that was a lot of the work that I worked with her on.
And what was crazy is that was actually, like, the, um, the most weight that I'd ever lost, and I, I really wish I had just stayed in therapy with her because when I...
a couple years later, when I went back to try to go into therapy again, she, wasn't taking new patients, and so I had to work with another therapist in her practice who I liked okay enough.
We, like...
I felt comfortable with her, but, um, that was when I was single and, um, it was right after the breakup with my ex who I'd been with for 15 years and I was, I was, um, happy but living, like, a kind of chaotic, um, sex-fueled life, as most single people do.
But, um, I felt like I don't feel like I was really getting...
I feel like I was just gossiping with a friend about my sex life.
Like, I didn't feel like I was getting anything from it.
I think she was also trying to, like...
I, and I understand that I was probably, like, in a head space where I wasn't...
You know, I was in a bad relationship.
I couldn't get out of it.
I was obsessed with this person.
Um, he was an addict, another shocker, and, and all this stuff.
And, but I felt like she was not a good support in that trying to help me To her it was, like, very black and white that I should just, like, end things with this person and move on with my life.
But so she w- but she wasn't helping me, she wasn't helping me get to that decision for myself.
There wasn't, like, there were exercises she was giving me or questions she was asking to probe or helping me really uncover why I'm stuck with this person.
We didn't even, like...
I, I felt like I did more work afterwards reading about codependency and, and all these different things that we had never even discussed.
Um, and then I had another therapist that I tried for a while and I just, I simply, like, didn't like them, so I switched to a different person.
And then I had another person who I liked okay enough, but she was like...
And she was very blunt, which is maybe kind of what I needed at the time.
But again, I also just kinda felt like I was...
I, I don't want a therapist that's just, like, just a sounding board, but I also don't want someone that's just going to, like, tell me, like, "Well, this is what you should be doing," or put, make me feel like there's an obvious solution to my problems but then not...
I want someone who's gonna, like, equip me with actual tools to be able to move through and make better decisions.
And Or develop the develop the, the confidence and self-assurance and self-love that I need in order to make better decisions for myself.
Because I think until you have, like, that base, you can tell me everything I need to do, I can be aware of all the things I need to do, but it's...
I'm not gonna feel safe enough to do those things.
I'm not gonna feel ready enough to do those things.
So anyway, all this to say, like, I, I have enjoyed parts of therapy in the past.
I'm excited to go back into therapy.
I'm not excited about having to pay, um, all this money per session, and I don't even know how many times I'm gonna be able to go see someone.
But I'm someone where, like, I prefer to go to therapy weekly, um, or at least every two weeks.
But sometimes that doesn't, you know, two weeks, two times a month doesn't really feel like enough to, like, make progress.
So I guess we'll just see what, what they suggest and what happens.
Um, but I am looking forward to, like, having someone to talk to, and I think, one, it'll get me out of the house, which will be good, which is not the point of therapy, but it's something.
But I'm also...
I'm hopeful that it'll help, like, be able to repair my relationship a little bit, and work on some things, and just make things a little bit better, and just have someone to talk to about the things that I feel like I don't really have someone I can talk to about or...
It'll be nice to talk to someone who has no stake in it, you know? But anyway, so I'm excited for that.
The other thing, so there's medication, there was therapy.
The other thing is that I'm gonna be, starting a new birth control medication so that I can better, you know, hor- like, control my hormones and emotions.
Especially during my period, I often find myself crying like a banshee two days before my period.
Um, my periods are always really rough, and because my emotions and anxiety are all over the place anyways, I, I, I truly feel like I leave my body for, like, two days and, like, have, like, panic attack level shaky Dr.
Jekyll kind of vibes going on for a few days.
And everything triggers me.
Everything makes me sad.
I, I truly do become, like, almost, like, suicidal.
Like, it's crazy.
It's like I can't...
And it's scary sometimes.
It's, it's really...
Sometimes the way my emotions f- break and fall apart and how raw I feel during my period and the couple days leading up, it, it, it is, it is actually, like, very scary.
It just feels like I have no control over myself.
So I'm excited about that.
I think all of that will be really good, and I think once I'm able to, like, regulate my emotions, maybe I will Feel less tense, you know? It'd be nice to just feel like a normal person moving through life, and then maybe that'll help make a little bit more space for some of the things I wanna be doing and focusing on more.
The other thing I asked her about was, um, going on a GLP-1 medication, but my insurance only covers Ozempic and only for diabetes, not for weight loss.
So, um, so I'm not fat enough for a GLP-1.
Um, I'm not sick enough for a GLP-1, and I think that's the first time anyone's told me that I'm not fat enough for something in my entire life.
So, um, that...
It was really disappointing and, and saddening, and I came home and I cried, and that told me that I need to get serious about my physical health because this opportunity that I thought I'd have with a GLP-1 just simply isn't an option, right? That was sort of in the back of my head as sort of like a backup, you know? So, so it was really disappointing.
I've...
I had just sort of taken it as a given that asking for it was more of a formality because, you know, everyone's on a GLP-1, right? And I can't afford to pay for one without insurance.
Even with the deals and offers out there online for things like Hers and Ro and all that, like, still too expensive for me.
I feel like it's basically like the same cost to pay for like a membership and the medication every month as it would be to pay out of pocket myself with my insurance.
So, or technically without my insurance because my insurance doesn't cover fucking shit.
And I've talked about physical health in past episodes and my weight, and I know it's crucial for my mental health that it's, you know, all of it's connected, the mind, the body, the spirit, all of that.
So, in that spirit, I've dusted off my walking pad.
I've recharged my Fitbit and cracked open an emotional eating workbook that I haven't touched in years.
It was something that, uh, my first therapist recommended for me, um, and I, that I never did.
I, I think I started it.
I think I got through a couple chapters but never finished.
I don't know that I actually did the workbook part of it.
Um, so I've, I've told myself that I need to, that I need to start doing that.
You know, and when I think about restore, I also think about self-care, and, you know, in the last episode, I talked a lot about this habit tracker I have and trying to take better care of myself, and all of that's still going pretty well, so...
But that's, that's part of it.
Like, I just...
And, you know, and then sometimes it's like small things that can help us recharge I have this, like, candle warmer that sits on my desk.
I'm a very, like, aromatherapy kind of person, and, I just have been lazy and haven't ordered new bulbs for it, so I went and ordered a, a couple bulbs for it so that I can have, you know, my office smelling really nice, and it gives off a nice glow, and it's starting to get darker out earlier, so it just feels nice.
Um, I gave myself a pedicure the other day.
I have been trying to be really diligent about my skincare, and, like, all that sounds superficial, but it does feed my soul a little bit.
It does-- It feels good when you're taking care of yourself, when you're giving yourself attention, when you're, when you're treating yourself the way you should be treating yourself.
It's just nice.
Like, they're small things, but they make me feel put together.
They make me feel alive.
They make me...
They remind me that I'm worth something because I'm taking the time to do something nice for myself, even if it, however small it is, you know, and however, um, inconsequential or innocuous or mundane the thing seems, um, it does help.
So I've been trying to do a little bit more with my self-care and all of that.
So, so I don't know.
Um, it's all a lot right now, and we'll see what comes of it.
But I really did take a lot of time this week to really think about restore and what that means to me and how I can feel restored, and what are some of the steps I need to take.
So I don't know.
There is something to this word of the week.
It's...
I like it because it...
I know obviously I've, I've said this a million times, but it does give me an intention for the week, but it really does become this mantra that I remind myself of.
I put a Post-it Note on my desk, so I'm looking at it all day.
I, um, make notes for my podcast throughout the week, and, and when I'm journaling during the week, I...
that's what I ruminate on is this word of the week.
I really think about it.
And, you know, my brain is always being pulled in a million directions all the time, so to just give myself one, one small thing to think about, even a general, how general these words are, j- it does help, like, rein my mind in a little bit and give me, like, a little bit of guidance and direction.
It's like this word of the week is like a little bit of a compass for me to just focus on that and, like, kind of knock out the rest of the noise a bit.
So, So I don't know.
It, it's working.
It's doing something.
Um, my word of the week for this, for this coming week is, um, imposter.
I've been thinking a lot about imposter syndrome, and so...
And I'm feeling like an imposter at work.
So I think that that would be a good word for me to kind of think about over the next week.
Um, I'm gonna wrap this up with a little recommendation corner.
Um, two small things that have been really great for me the past few weeks.
One is instrumental podcas- um, instrumental playlists.
Um, I have a couple that I have on heavy rotation right now.
There's a slow jazz for studying.
There's a moody, dark academia.
It feels very, uh, liberal arts in the '90s, I guess.
Like, rainy, cold October day on a libal- liberal arts campus in, um, October or something.
So, um, that's been really great.
I used to be able to listen to podcasts, or music with lyrics when I worked, but I can't do that now.
It's, it's way too distracting.
It's, like, too much stimulus, um, or I don't even really absorb any of the story that I'm listening to.
So I kind of switch to these instrumental podca- uh, ins- why do I keep calling them podcasts? These instrumental playlists, so I can get a little bit of music in me, but it's, not as distracting.
And, um, they also are, like...
I find that when I'm listening to this in- to instrumental music that I wanna write more too.
I don't know what that connection is.
I th- maybe it just, like, gets, it just gets me into this, like, right head space.
Um, but I don't know.
So it's also been really helpful for helping me stay, like, focused on stuff.
Like, it's, I find it actually, like, very, um, energizing and inspiring for creative stuff.
So all that's super good.
And then related to that, um, audiobooks.
I have been really trying to get back into audiobooks.
When I used to work, this is eons ago, but in my early to mid-20s, I did data entry.
Um, and I plowed through so many audiobooks.
And then there was an- another time in my life where I had to, like, commute a pretty long, like an hour to work every day and an hour back home.
And so I would listen to so many podcasts and so many audiobooks every day.
Um, so I was, like, plowing through stuff, and so I really loved it.
Um, I spend too much t- of my time on screens.
So, and at the end of the night it can be really hard to keep my eyes open to read a book, so I've been trying to listen to more audiobooks.
I'm listening to one as a companion to a book that I'm reading for the professional development book group at my work.
It's called Alchemy by Rory Sutherland, who is a former Ogilvy advertising agency executive, and he sort of talks...
It's, it's very, like, work-related and that kinda stuff.
But then I'm also listening to, um, a couple other audiobooks.
I always have, like, a couple going at the same time just 'cause, I don't know, it, it's nice to, like, bounce around, especially if you're reading something longer.
One of them is, Bunny by Mona Awad.
Awad.
I can never pro-pronounce...
I never know how to pronounce anyone's names.
But, um, she is, shocker, into, like, dark academia.
People always compare her to kinda, like, Donna Tartt.
Um, but she has this, uh, book that I've always really wanted to read but never read, but it feels like it would be right up my alley, so I'm listening to that right now.
And then I'm also listening to The Final Girl Support Group.
Um, it's a book that I had started, like, last year and never finished, so I'm listening to the audiobook of that, and it's a little spooky for October.
So, um, yeah, so that's what I'm listening to right now.
Couple different things for couple different reasons.
But yeah, so next week my word of the week is imposter.
As always, you can find me on Instagram at manythings_steph.
Um, I also have a couple of other exciting things that I'm working on in the background that I'm, uh, trying to make sure I can stay consistent with it, and then I'm gonna announce them and, and formalize it a bit, but I'm excited.
Um, I have a few other things in the works.
And I guess, like, uh, the one final note I will say about restore for this week is I think with all the stuff that I just said, it's part...
and, like, going back to the not really feeding my soul, not filling my cup stuff, um, I am trying to carve out more time for, for this podcast, for my writing, but also not putting a crazy amount of pressure on me for these things either.
Like, trying to find, like, the lowest bar of entry, you know? Like, what's the least I can do to feel like I'm doing something in either of these spaces? So, um, that's what I'm trying to figure out right now.
But part of your story is just sort of, like, me realizing that I ha- I need to make time for these things that I love.
I need to make time.
Like, I- I'm...
All my favorite things revolve around books, reading, all that kind of stuff, and I need to make time for that, for storytelling, for absorbing other people's stories.
And I don't know why I put up such a fight, like, why I rally so hard against doing the things that I love and doing the things that I wanna make time for.
Like, like, sometimes I think about how all I wanna do in the morning is, like, get my coffee and, like, read my book.
And instead of doing that, I go, "No, no, no," like, "I can't do that as, like, a first thing in the morning," so I'm gonna turn on the TV, and then I watch hours of TV.
Then the whole time I'm watching TV, I'm just thinking about, "Well, I should be reading my book.
I should be reading my book."
And I think, I, you know, now that I'm saying it out loud, I think the difference is that I'm telling myself, "I should be, I should be, I should be," or, "I need to," or, "I ought to," instead of just saying to myself, like, "I want to read my book."
Like, that's what I wanna be doing right now.
I don't want to be thinking about how I want to be reading my book.
I want to be reading my book, so why don't I just go read my book? And I can do it for fi- I think it's 'cause I've convinced myself that if I- I can't just, like, read my book for five minutes.
Like, I can't just sit on the couch, read it for five minutes, and be done.
Like, if I'm gonna sit down and read my book, I've gotta do it for an hour or something.
It's just, again, it's just that it's that all or nothing mentality that keeps popping up.
So anyways, we'll keep, we'll keep going at it and seeing what happens.
Um, but I'm gonna wrap this up for this week.
Thanks for joining me again.
Come back next week.
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All right, have a good week.
Bye.