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You Are Only Light - Psalm 36 with Dr. Miriam Menaker · Tehillim for the Soul with Dr. Miriam Menaker

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  even that is existent is negative, has a spark of godliness that sustains it.
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  So you can be in front of the most evil person that exists in the world.
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  Even that person, this most evil person, has something positive in it.
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  Today we are going to cover Psalm 36.
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  And Psalm 36 is a psalm that describe the inner voice of the yetzer hara.
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  I will like to explain what is the yetzer hara.
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  Then leads our awareness toward the infinite kindness, righteousness, and divine providence of Hashem.
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  Finally conclude with a prayer that Hashem will grant us a satisfaction and that we will not subdued to the yetzer hara.
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  Psalms 36 is divided in three parts.
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  So the beginning where is only an introduction, like all the psalm, lamenatzeach, for the chief musician by David, servant of the Lord.
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  The content start from verse two to the verse 13.
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  The verse two to five, King David elucidates the actions of the wicked who are predominantly influenced by the yetzer hara, which distorts human perception and obscures awareness of Hashem.
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  This is what the yetzer hara do to us.
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  In verse six to 10, David is expressing his devoted trust to Hashem.
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  And recognition of his loving kindness that transcends even human comprehension.
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  We cannot imagine what is the kindness of Hashem.
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  Divine providence sustains all creation, from the tiniest creature in the world to the depths of the sea.
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  Means Hashem is above in heaven and down even under the earth.
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  This is the extension of Hashem kindness.
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  And because Hashem is everywhere.
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  Hashem is here, Hashem is there, Hashem is to the left, Hashem is to the right.
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  Hashem encompass everything of our existence.
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  And at the end, the verse 13 is a, prayer where we are affirming the connection with Hashem.
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  That express in our soul that is illuminated when perceive divine light within existing and within every one of us So the Psalms explains what is the Yeser Hara and explain here that the ye- Hasidut, in the masterpiece of Chabad Lubavitch the Tanya Rabbi Schneur Zalman, explains the difference between two type of soul that we have that represent one the body, that is called the nefesh habamit, the animal soul.
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  And the godly soul, that is called nefesh Elokith.
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  The divine soul.
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  We have two tendency.
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  One is the body, and one is the nefesh.
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  They are in constant argument.
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  They want to conquer the body.
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  They want to conquer us, our existence, and we are i- in a constant battle, I choose, my desires or I choose something that is holy.
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  So the animal soul prioritizes physical survival.
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  Is very important, the animal soul because that is what given us the...
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  our ex- our life that we live in this world, is that we have to take care of our bodies.
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  We have to feel, to live in comfort.
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  We have to...
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  We have emotions.
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  We have desires that are completely legitimate.
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  We want to have a beautiful house.
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  We want to have a wonderful life.
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  We want to travel.
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  So that are the needs.
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  We have to buy a new car.
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  So those are the needs of the animal souls.
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  And to the contrary, we have the other side, that is the side of divine soul.
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  And the divine soul has an spark of godliness within us.
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  Hashem has give us this life, this soul that is the godly soul, and is what enliven our body.
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  The Godly soul yearns to connect with Hashem.
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  Like the flame of a candle that always goes up.
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  Hashem seek, and seek the truth, and practice kindness, and transform our physical existence into a vessel to divine light.
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  It's the source of our spiritual aspiration, and this is what is the Yetzer Tov.
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  good morning Natalie and good morning Batya So I continued.
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  We are talking about Psalm 36, and Psalm 36 is divided in three parts.
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  The first part, speaks about the, definition of the, animal soul.
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  Ex- explanation of that is what sustains and predominate in the evil, part.
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  Because all of us, we have an evil part and a good part, the animal soul that call in Kabbalah, Nefesh Abamit, that means animal soul, and Nefesh Elokit, that is the divine soul.
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  So the divine soul is in a spark of godliness that all of us carry inside.
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  These two forces struggled for control over our thoughts, emotions, and action.
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  Sometimes we get confused.
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  We don't know clearly.
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  I know that I am not doing right, but this action is what I need.
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  I am not going to give all my money because this money is what I need.
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  it's too much.
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  So that are the conflict between of giving Tzedakah, giving a charity, or keeping for ourself.
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  The Yetzer Hara is very intelligent.
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  Is very persuasive sways to deceive, and manifests through self-justification.
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  Yes, I have to do that because that.
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  Pride, I represent myself, my ego.
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  Resentment, I feel resented.
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  Selfishness or indifference.
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  There are people that are very indifferent for different reasons through the history of their life.
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  His greatest threat is a spiritual concealment.
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  That is what the Yetzer Hara create.
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  Create a concealment of our Godly soul.
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  As we become absorbed in ourself and our desires, we lose awareness of Hashem presence because we are so concentrate, so focused in ourself, in our daily, life, that we don't set aside a time for our connection with Hashem.
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  Only when something is very painful, when we feel something is bad in our life, so then we feel that we need to pray and return to God.
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  On the contrary, the divine soul awaken us to a higher reality, encouraging humility, compassion, self-awareness, and recognizing our life's divine purpose.
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  The animal soul limits our perception, confining us to ourself, while the divine soul, expands our consciousness, enabling us to perceive Hashem in all of creation.
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  So that is the first part of the psalm.
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  The second part is the center the, psalm, is expressing, the beauty of Hashem and how we get amazed about everything that exists.
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  And compare, two options.
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  Compare something that could be insignificant to something that is above, something great.
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  Let me read this part.
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  I think that is important.
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  Say David,"Your kindness, Lord, extends to the heavens.
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  Your faithfulness reaches the sky." And say, continue the seventh and says,"Your righteousness like mighty mountains.""And your judgments extend to the great deep.
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  Lord, you save man and beast equally." Because God's righteousness and faithfulness extend to everything He has created, man and beast alike So in the Talmud, Rabbi Johanan,, one of the Tannaim, explained this verse by observing two creatures and reflecting on them One creatures is a tiny ant that looks insignificant, that you can crush with your hand or with a finger.
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  And a bird that dive into the sea and dives very deep to the darkness into the sea in order to capture his press.
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  His victim.
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  That is the word.
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  Correct.
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  So that represent two things.
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  The comparison between the mighty mountains.
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  Does that symbolize Signifies the divine providence.
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  The diving bird represents the mystery of divine judgment, including the taking of life.
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  And that is very profound because, here is a prey a victim in the case of the bird, this is part of his life existence.
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  He live from those fish that he can capture there at the, depths of the sea.
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  Symbolically, the ant represent the smallest details of existence, while the ocean represents the concealed dimension of creation.
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  Hashem is present in both visible kindness and hidden ways.
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  So we can see Hashem visibly in reality when we contemplate the greatness of nature, the greatness of Hashem, when we are in front of the Niagara Falls, and we see the enormous power and the pressure of the water.
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  and beside that, we know that there is something that we cannot see, that is not revealed, like what exists under the sea So Hashem give sustenance to everything, to every creature of the world.
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  And every creature receive exactly what it needs.
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  And even they have tools in order to get what they needs.
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  Even a serpent that is a one I will get scared only to see a serpent that can be, poisonous.
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  But the serpent has a senses that are extraordinary.
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  Even that they can, run, on the Earth, they can sense a person that can be very far distance.
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  They can perceive their victims very far and know how to attack them.
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  So the way that the, a serpent is made, his body is appropriate in regard of what she needs to do.
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  So that is what is extraordinary.
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  At the same time, every organ of our body has a function, and every organ of our body is connected with our soul that gives life.
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  And every part of our body has not only a function, has a architecture, a type of cells that in connection with other organs, let's say I am connecting the lungs w- with the heart, that create a, complete function that permit us live and exist in this world Now I go, I reach the two last, the three last psalms.
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  David says,"Extend your kindness to those who know you," he says And your righteousness to the upright of heart, those whose internal compass always point toward God, and who are therefore devoid of the crookedness and deception.
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  So that is the word of David.
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  And he continues, and he said,"Let no arrogant thougth come to me." Don't let that I will be arrogant, that my pride will conquer my soul.
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  And let no hand of the wicked drive me away from you.
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  This is another very important thing, not to let that any negative influence will change my mind and will, change my attitude towards Hashem.
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  And finally, he says,"There in the proximity of God, the evil doers have fallen, cast down and unable to rise." in conclusion, King David says, begins the Psalm 36 with the wicked who has forgotten Hashem and concludes with a soul illuminated by His light.
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  Between these two spiritual states lies the mystery of creation.
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  The tiny ant walking almost unnoticed upon the earth remind us that no life is insignificant before Hashem.
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  The bird descending into the depths of the sea remind us of divine providence, reaches even those places hidden from human sight.
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  And the human neshamah, we, are endowed with the ability to choose.
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  That is who we are.
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  We have the ability to choose between good and evil.
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  We carry an extraordinary responsibility in us.
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  That is our responsibility, to know how to choose good in favor of bad, to harmonize and to, use our body, our energy, our physical energy in the service and in the recognition of Hashem, and bring His light into this world.
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  That is our mission in this world.
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  So thank you.
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  So that is the Psalm.
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  So I would like to hear from Hannah How, what it is your thought about?
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  No, I'm just absorbing so much the, the way, this psalm expanded the notions of the Yetser Tov and Yetser HaRa.
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  But I would say that what was like a, a light opening, a opening, a light bulb for me, opening a, a whole new door, was that, hey, wait, animal soul, it's natural.
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  It's part of us.
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  It's for survival.
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  But if you give too much attention to the animal soul, then you're going into the evil inclination, the Yetser HaRa.
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  that was the, the big, like- Yes wow, eureka, I really appreciate that.
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  Yes.
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  Excellent.
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  Thank you.
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  Excellent.
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  This is it.
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  This is it.
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  That's why you have to take care of your body.
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  Absolutely.
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  But in a way that you bring, you use your body for holiness.
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  Julie, how are you?
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  I'm great, thank you.
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  Thank God.
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  Yes.
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  Okay.
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  You use your body for holiness, Okay, let me write that down.
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  I heard something yesterday, and I want you to clarify this for me to see if I heard it right.
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  The yetzer hara.
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  First of all, when we say yetzer hara, and we use the word evil, okay?
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  I think we need to understand a little bit more about what the definition of evil is.
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  Okay?
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  That's one thing.
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  Two is, what I heard was, is that with the yetzer hara, yeah, it pushes your buttons.
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  But ultimately what it wants for you is ultimately for you to choose your holy soul.
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  it's really, it gives you this, but it's also your cheerleader to say,"I really want you to choose your holy soul.
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  Even though I'm fighting this with you, in the struggle, but I ultimately want you to choose your holy soul." Did I hear that correctly?
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  the last part of that, demand us to choose the holy or the, godly soul is, I want to, to a little bit modify that.
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  Okay.
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  So, let's, a- start with understanding what is evil.
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  Okay.
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  Yeah, I think that would be really helpful.
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  What is evil?
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  What is evil?
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  evil has different degrees.
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  Okay?
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  There is difference intensity of evil there, but in, in essence, evil is me.
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  My need.
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  I need to fulfill my needs My needs.
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  I want to do everything because the, this is what I need.
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  For example, at the level of, a leader, there is two type of leaders.
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  You can find a leader that have a lot of power, and everything that he does is only for his own glory- Good.
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  Okay.
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  Got it his own benefits- to enrich his name Enrich.
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  Okay?
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  And you have another leader that also is a good leader, but is a leader that looks for the wellness of his people around.
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  Okay.
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  So that is what I will say this is the definition of evil.
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  Now, Hashem creates the two extraordinary powers, a power of good and a power of evil.
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  That is in our hands.
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  He says you have to choose what you prefer because Hashem doesn't want to create a world that is a world of robots, of automatic beings.
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  He could give us everything in a tray.
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  M- why he has to give us temptation?
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  Why we have to have this battle, a struggle between those two forces?
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  So Hashem wants us that everything will come from us.
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  Is that we are going to express in our mind, it means our thought, in our speech, and in our action, his rules, his commandments.
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  But not as a command because it's a demand of Hashem, no a command because he's imposing into us, Okay, don't touch that, but why?
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  So that, that are the things that Hashem wants, that everything will come naturally.
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  We will build a, a, a being, we will be a being that, in essence, we will be connected with him, connected with our mission, and that is what he wants.
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  How we can connect with our mission?
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  Connected with him.
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  Recognizing his greatness.
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  That's why in the middle of this psalm, you have the recognition of what the existence of nature.
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  tely, iLooks insignificant, but they have- an extraordinary intelligence.
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  Even a little plant.
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  There are plants that are in the, rock, and they cannot move from there, so they capture little, insect or little, animals, that exist there in order to sustain their life, because every existence has to sustain their life.
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  We need breath in order to fulfill our life.
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  and this is the way Hashem created.
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  He created a, human being to be his mirror image.
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  Imagine that.
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  We in the image of Hashem.
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  So that is the reason that he creates all these different forces- in order for us to reveal ourself, to go to the surface of ourself and be I am here, and that is what give us also self-confidence- in a way that is with humility, but we are confident.
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  And we are not going to let anyone, to put us down.
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  I think that Hannah wants to add something.
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  Right, Hannah?
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  No, I was not asking, but since, you gave me, the word, would you say that this psalm would be mostly read for when you are struggling between, like when you maybe want the Hashem's presence to be more and more, Yes, yes powerful?
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  Absolutely.
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  In your life.
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  Exactly.
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  this is the message.
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  Yeah.
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  Okay, thanks.
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  Emunah tovah So part one is the animal soul, revelation of, how we were created.
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  And then part two is the beauty.
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  Would you say part three is the protection?
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  trusting the- It's a prayer.
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  It's a prayer at the end that, that David's, after that he recognize, the, the negativity of the wicked.
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  He says,"Okay," and the wicked is arrogance.
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  he's asking that arrogance will not touch him, and he will not be influenced by any negativity around him.
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  So that is the end.
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  I think that- So being surrounded by Hashem and being protected.
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  Exactly.
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  that is the end.
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  Like a shield, basically.
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  Exactly, yes.
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  Yes, it is.
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  Okay.
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  Dr.
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  Yoon Yeah, I- I'm still formulating my thinking, but, also because we talk a lot about good and evil and, what is evil, but also, I remember the commentary from, Noah that, there is really- No evil in upper world, and the lower world is reflection of upper world, so really there is no evil.
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  But, I, then I question that we perceive things as sometimes evil, and I wonder if this is something that whether we understand or don't understand.
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  because, also the commentary from this week Parsha when, I learned very interesting commentary about why Abraham was advocating, about Sodom when, Hashem tried to, destroy them.
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  and is- they did such evil, and Hashem wanted to destroy them, and but, I, I heard the com- commentary that, that Abraham had some prophecy to see there was, there i- there was important person, coming from Sodom, who was actually Lot, who was saved, and, that's the King David and Moshiach from the Moab coming from the Lots, Right from the Sodom.
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  And, i- at first time I didn't understand that.
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  w- I thought why Abraham was advocating such evil people.
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  But that kinda comes back to, it's whether maybe we understand or not underst- we don't understand.
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  It's i- we don't have that kind of a wisdom to understand that everything what Hashem does in this world, and we do have the limitations.
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  I see evil kind of in, in a different light, and it may not be just a clear, good and evil, but something that we understand Hashem's plan or we don't understand, and then maybe someday we will have, wisdom to understand.
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  And we don't see that as evil, then, but we see the goodness within it.
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  it just got me think a little bit further about good and evil.
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  Let me explain something.
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  you know a what you are saying is correct in many aspect, but something is your, in your perspective is something that I would like to clarify it And it is that you said that if there is good here, it, what is here is a reflection of above.
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  Correct?
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  That is correct.
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  This world is a reflection of the, of above.
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  But above there is, we have Hashem even in the spiritual world, there is evil.
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  There is 70 ministers from the 70 main nations of the world, and the evil exist, and that is the deep, this battle, these wars that we are seeing today in Ukraine, and in Middle East, those are a reflection of that evil that is above.
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  There is this SARIM the, these ministers, they are fighting between them, and they know that Moshiach is going to come very soon, and they are rebelling against that.
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  So that exist evil, is something that we cannot deny it.
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  We see what happened in October 7.
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  We cannot deny the evil.
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  So in the above, Hashem also has a court of angels, one positive and one negative.
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  You have that in heavens.
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  And another point that I want to clarify it is, this thought went out from in my mind, is that even here in, that every existence, even that is existent is negative, has a spark of godliness that sustains it.
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  So you can be in front of the most evil person that exists in the world.
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  Even that person, this most evil person, has something positive in it.
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  In a, and in a proportion probably of 1 to 90, but ex- or 10 to 90.
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  The everything, because if there is no something good in a being, the being cannot exist.
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  There is no existence.
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  So that, explained that sometimes you can nullify the evil is, that is in front of you, depending of your perception and depending of the power of energy that you may put in.
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  It is like quantum physic.
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  Depending of your eyes, depending of your energy, you can subdue the negativity.
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  So that are the points that I wanted to clarify.
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  It's true that Hashem has a plan, a huge plan, and that's why, from Lot came Moab, and from Moab is going to, to come, Moshiach.
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  That is completely correct.
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  And why is that?
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  How come we can accept that something so holy as Moshiach can derive a source from Lot or from an insect between Lot and one of his daughters?
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  How we can accept that?
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  Is because those spirits that are negative and evil, they want to disrupt the flow of the, energy that is the flow to bring back the peace in the world.
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  And we need to disguise When a woman is pregnant, at the beginning of her pregnancy, she should be quiet and not to tell anybody about her pregnancy because that may bring a negative emotion in other person towards her So that is the idea.
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  Correct?
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  Are you with me, Eyune?
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  Yes.
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  Thank you.
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  Okay.
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  Batya?
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  Batya Ariela Here we go.
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  Okay, so when Hashem said that, he'd finished the six days and, or on the seventh day, and he said it was very good.
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  He already knew the end from the beginning.
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  So everything that he has created, is good.
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  It's going along with his plan even if we don't see it.
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  Even if what our perception is evil.
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  What we perceive, what we define as evil, Hashem had said is very good.
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  and it goes along with his plan because he has a backup plan to a backup plan to a backup plan.
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  and so my question is in verse four, it says, in my translation it says,"The words of his mouth are iniquity and deceit.
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  He has ceased contemplating to do good." To me, that is pure evil.
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  When you stop even considering to do good, for a diabetic, an overabundance of carbs is evil.
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  For somebody who has heart condition, an overabundance of salt is evil.
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  So the definition of what we consider to be evil or good, we place words like that on Hashem that don't describe because it's the only thing that we understand.
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  But to say, like in verse eight,"How precious is your kindness?" I wonder how many times we actually look at that part, the kindness of Hashem.
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  That all of this was done with his kindness.
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  And that's...
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  Okay.
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  Yes, yes.
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  very good.
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  Excellent.
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  What I want to say here is- you said yourself, you answer yourself saying when you say that everything is relative.
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  Well, for a diabetic, it's an excess of sugar.
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  For a, for the, hypertens, per- person will be excess of fat, excess of salt.
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  So that, that depend of the situation.
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  Everything is relative also.
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  Everything depend.
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  And Hashem created the evil.
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  He created the bad.
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  That is...
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  he created darkness, and there is a reason of darkness.
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  He created that we have to go to sleep at night because i- in, even that, we are very busy during the days and we are in a huge project, we have to go and sleep.
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  You have to make a pause.
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  So that is part of a action that seems...
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  a, another example, a mother.
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  He can give a patch to her child because he's behaving bad.
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  The, the patch may hurt, but it was necessary.
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  So that- That's right that, that is what I said.
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  So that, this here is kindness because in essence, Hashem's only want to create a perfect world.
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  The world that we live is imperfect, and he wants us to perfect the world.
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  if an animal like a lion devour his, his victim, he is bad?
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  No, he is not bad.
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  He's doing what he was created to do.
• 37:25
  Exactly.
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  This is the reason.
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  This is the way that all the dynamic of the world.
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  you can have a, the strong power of a, of the water, like in a cataract, in a, in a fall, but from there comes energy.
• 37:42
  From there they can extract the energy from a whole country.
• 37:47
  So that, that is means that what seems, the bistoury of a surgeon seems he's cutting.
• 37:56
  but that is for a good reason and we have to, like you said, we, there is areas that we don't understand, and there is many areas that we have because we have a limited mind.
• 38:12
  But we have to live in an, in a post that this is Hashem plan.
• 38:22
  they kill a, a child.
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  Okay, this is very painful, but this is part of Hashem plan, and we cannot discuss or judge that.
• 38:34
  We can ask, but not to judge that Hashem is bad because I have a little, a child of five years and he ha- and this child is affected by cancer.
• 38:47
  Poor child.
• 38:48
  That is correct.
• 38:49
  It's a lot of suffering for everyone, but we cannot judge the plans of Hashem.
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  You don't know what happened with this soul before.
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  You don't know what is the message of that.
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  You don't know how that will make even the parents will transform their attitude to their children in a better way because they lose one child and they have another three.
• 39:14
  So those other three children are, for them,- more precious, and they, may even, they may appreciate them in a different way.
• 39:24
  So is, there is many things here that, the only thing that we know, that Hashem is everything.
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  and with complete devotion because m- who I am nothing.
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  I am only a messenger of God.
• 39:41
  Okay?
• 39:41
  Amen.
• 39:43
  Okay, Amy.
• 39:43
  I would like to hear from you, Amy Amy?
• 39:49
  Okay.
• 39:50
  I move to Natalie.
• 39:51
  Meanwhile, she, respond.
• 39:53
  Natalie I'm sitting here thinking about what I wanna say.
• 39:57
  I don't have a lot to add other than just that I related, be it good or bad, I relate to this Psalm a lot because I think I, and maybe it's just a heightened awareness since I've, we've been, I've been do- doing these classes.
• 40:17
  But I find myself consciously often struggling with the, with my two souls.
• 40:24
  When I'm making choices and at a conscious level I will say to myself,"You know what's going on here," and this isn't what Hashem wants you to be doing.
• 40:33
  We're not talking about awful things, but, just n- bad decisions about what I'm eating or whatever.
• 40:40
  And, it, so this, it...
• 40:42
  I, when I read this Psalm before class for the first time, I was thinking, you ought to walk around with this Psalm, Natalie, and just read it more often, and then I, and then when I'm doing something that I shouldn't be doing and I think about Julie and I think about pause, give it a little bit more thought.
• 40:59
  so this is, I like this Psalm.
• 41:01
  I think it, it has a lot of meaning for me, but I don't really have a lot more th- to offer.
• 41:06
  Thank you.
• 41:07
  Thank you.
• 41:07
  So the, when you are choosing something, this or there, you have to think,"Is for my benefit only?" That is the question.
• 41:18
  It's only for me that I am doing this?
• 41:21
  Yeah.
• 41:21
  and, you know- Yes and honestly, it is, and it's, big decisions where if I did something that I shouldn't be doing, it would be terrible, I make the right decision.
• 41:31
  It's the little decisions throughout the day- Yes, that's true that that are, that I think about,"You know better than this, Natalie," and then I, this is your animal soul that's trying, that's talking louder than your Godly soul.
• 41:44
  Again.
• 41:44
  And are you gonna give in?
• 41:45
  Yeah.
• 41:46
  And sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't.
• 41:48
  it's self-discipline.
• 41:49
  Yes, like everyone.
• 41:50
  Thank you so much.
• 41:51
  Emmy, are you there back?
• 41:55
  No.
• 41:56
  Renee?
• 41:58
  I'm just enjoying listening to everybody.
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  I don't really have anything else to add.
• 42:02
  But I agree with everyone, and I do agree with Natalie.
• 42:06
  I go sometimes through these jumping jacks of is this my godly soul or my animal soul, and what's the right decision?
• 42:14
  which way am I going?
• 42:15
  So- Mm-hmm I appreciate everybody's comments, and Miriam, yours as well.
• 42:21
  Thank you.
• 42:21
  E- I think it was really powerful what you made that comment, only for me I'm doing this.
• 42:28
  that is really powerful to think in those moments when I'm doing something.
• 42:33
  Mm-hmm.
• 42:33
  am I doing it only for me, and why am I doing this?
• 42:38
  Yes.
• 42:38
  I think that is something...
• 42:40
  And Natalie, I want to say kudos to you.
• 42:43
  Great job that you're even in that place now, that you're even focusing like that.
• 42:49
  That's huge.
• 42:51
  And you really need to tell yourself, wow.
• 42:54
  s- to celebrate you.
• 42:55
  That's huge that you've come that far, that you're even starting to recognize that you're going from your, the animal soul to your godly soul.
• 43:04
  That's huge.
• 43:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 43:05
  So I celebrate you.
• 43:07
  I think that's beautiful.
• 43:09
  That's a real win for you.
• 43:10
  So that's absolutely beautiful.
• 43:13
  Excellent.
• 43:14
  Inca, I'm sorry that I leave you for the end, but you always are the first.
• 43:19
  So No, it's...
• 43:20
  I, I, I was very thrilled to, hear that you're going to discuss this today because I'm in constant conflict with my yetzer hara.
• 43:29
  I'm fully aware of it.
• 43:30
  And, in fact, I was going to go f- and speak with the rabbi because I don't know why I won't move away from certain things that my yetzer hara is causing me to do or not to do.
• 43:40
  And, I, it's a battle.
• 43:42
  It's a battle.
• 43:43
  I'm aware, and very often I just say,"Oh no, you're not winning this time.
• 43:47
  Get out of here." I'm conscious of my fight with the other side.
• 43:52
  Mm-hmm.
• 43:53
  Okay.
• 43:53
  The, this is our constant travel.
• 43:55
  Everyone is not- don't we have to be nice to that soul, though?
• 43:59
  We have to be- Don't we have to be nice- Yes, yes, yes to that soul and not get a, kinda like- Yes get away from me.
• 44:05
  Of course.
• 44:05
  I see you, I recognize you- Mm-hmm but I'm not gonna accept what you're asking me to do.
• 44:11
  Yes.
• 44:12
  I'm gonna go onto my holy soul, right?
• 44:16
  more so than to fight it.
• 44:18
  We're not trying to fight it.
• 44:19
  I'm in a, I'm a, I'm at this point in I'm really in a battle.
• 44:23
  It's a battle.
• 44:24
  it's, I've had it all my life, but- Yes, but, excuse me that I interrupt, Inka.
• 44:29
  And you are being dominated about that you are bad.
• 44:35
  This is not right, and also it's also a part of ego This is ego too Yeah, I, yes Okay Yeah.
• 44:44
  Oh, yeah, because it's a c- a, a certain part of me is making conscious decision about it.
• 44:47
  Yep.
• 44:47
  Okay, but, what Julie is saying is something very important.
• 44:51
  Yes.
• 44:51
  We don't, we, our confidence is very important.
• 44:57
  You, and when you feel like that, you have to accept, okay, I make a mistake.
• 45:03
  In fact- and I am human.
• 45:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 45:05
  But I have also in me the power to grow.
• 45:08
  To change.
• 45:09
  That's right.
• 45:10
  To change.
• 45:11
  That's right.
• 45:11
  And so how I do that, I connect with light.
• 45:14
  I connect with music.
• 45:16
  I connect with people around me that will elevate me.
• 45:21
  We don't want to be depressed.
• 45:23
  If you get like that, you depress yourself.
• 45:26
  This is not the point.
• 45:28
  No, no, I- The point is that- This is not Baruch Hashem, this is not depressing me, it's angering me.
• 45:32
  it's awakening me, because it's making me aware of, it's the opposite, actually okay.
• 45:38
  So if there is anything more to say.
• 45:40
  Yeah, Miriam?
• 45:41
  Miriam?
• 45:41
  Yes?
• 45:42
  it's Amy.
• 45:42
  Hi.
• 45:43
  Ah, me.
• 45:43
  Okay.
• 45:44
  I thought that you went away.
• 45:46
  No, I've been listening.
• 45:47
  I just, I just wanted to organiz- organize my thoughts here.
• 45:50
  Uh-huh.
• 45:50
  You mentioned that the, that we are to embrace our, purpose of being good in this world, and that we, humans are around to perfect the world, and that's the purpose of humans being in God's presence.
• 46:07
  How do you explain the purpose of evil people when perfecting the world is not on their agenda?
• 46:16
  Yes.
• 46:17
  Well, because that are the obstacles in our life or in the world in order that we can overcome So we need, is the same idea of a weight that a, a sport man needs to, it needs to do.
• 46:36
  When you do exercise and you have to wei- to use weight.
• 46:40
  The weight are heavy, but what is the function of those weight?
• 46:44
  To strengthen our muscle.
• 46:46
  The same idea, these negative people, this evil that exists in the world is made in order that we will overcome.
• 46:54
  The difficulties are a, a obstacle are that we will pass them.
• 46:59
  We will conquer everything that exists.
• 47:02
  That's why there, there is a still...
• 47:05
  All it is like the medicine.
• 47:07
  Some medicine are very bitter.
• 47:09
  So we need this bitterness.
• 47:11
  We need an injection, that the injection could be very painful sometimes.
• 47:16
  That we have to go through a surgery.
• 47:19
  So that, that are a situation, extreme situation in life that create a balance in the world, and the world has to overcome.
• 47:31
  The world today, for example, is a world where, I will say, is exactly the same world of the Mabul of Noah.
• 47:39
  Mm-hmm.
• 47:40
  Is the time of m- of the Mabul.
• 47:42
  Exactly it the same.
• 47:43
  Mm-hmm.
• 47:44
  Now there is so much controversy and so much things that there's an, doesn't have any sense.
• 47:51
  a, so much evil like the Iranian people that are at the power, and they are killing their own people is something difficult to understand.
• 48:02
  is beyond.
• 48:03
  But this is part of a conflict like what happened in the second world, in the Shoah.
• 48:10
  In the Shoah we suffer terribly and there is no explanation of this terribly suffering and the loss of so many, innocents that they die by the Nazis, millions of people that they die.
• 48:30
  The...
• 48:31
  But at the same times, we see that a light came out, and the light that came out is now the State of Israel.
• 48:43
  Mm-hmm.
• 48:44
  So I- So that, that is what I want to add here.
• 48:50
  And it's true what you say.
• 48:51
  I don't know if I am con- no convincing.
• 48:54
  It's not a question of convincing you.
• 48:56
  I think that you are completely right in thinking in this way.
• 49:00
  But the existence of the evil is important, too.
• 49:04
  Till the moment that we will wake up and the whole world is going to change, and this is the revelation of Moshiah- Mm-hmm in the final redemption.
• 49:18
  Okay?
• 49:18
  Thank you.
• 49:19
  Thank you.
• 49:20
  Okay.
• 49:20
  Thank you, Amy.
• 49:21
  Thank you for participating.
• 49:24
  Uh-huh.
• 49:24
  finally, I only want to, my co- my last conclusion and the essence of my class will be in the meditation.
• 49:34
  Let's say, for the source of life is with you.
• 49:38
  In your light do we see light.
• 49:41
  So when we are connected with Hashem, that is our life.
• 49:48
  And then we say that His light, when we are with His light, this light, we are part of this light.
• 49:57
  We are like one of the flames.
• 50:01
  One of the spark of this flame this is who we are.
• 50:06
  and that's why it says, ki imkha, with you, you are the source of life.
• 50:14
  Makor chayim.
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  Beorecha.
• 50:17
  Orecha is or, is light.
• 50:19
  Nir- nira'or.
• 50:21
  Through your light, I will see your light.
• 50:25
  So that, that is this Psalm, and I would like to contemplate this idea and have a meditation in it.
• 50:35
  So I make a pause to relax.
• 50:42
  I close my eyes and I open my two palms on top of my knees And I breathe to receive all the energy, all the goodness of the message of King David to us And I expel anything that keep me tense, hold me inside.
• 51:15
  L- is confine me in a small place because I want to breathe, I want to expand.
• 51:24
  Expand like the horizon.
• 51:28
  I want to expand like the beauty of the ocean, the sea that we can see, th- that is expanding, and I am here, and I protect myself in a shield.
• 51:44
  And what is this shield?
• 51:46
  This shield of David means the shield of holiness that G- David HaMelech represent, and I am inside that, that magen, inside that shield, and I see myself in a wide column of light.
• 52:07
  This is who I am, who we are.
• 52:10
  We are only light, light confined in a body for a temporary time, but this is who we are.
• 52:20
  This light that we c- inside us make our eyes to shine, make us to listen, make us to express with loqu- loquacity, e- every feeling, every emotion that we keep in our hearts.
• 52:40
  And then this will, s- think about this idea, this concept, this, this sentence that HaShem is the source of my life, and in His life, in His light, I will see light.
• 53:01
  I will see my future, a future that will bring us to the final redemption.
• 53:09
  And we are together, and here we connect our hands and we are in a circle.
• 53:17
  It's the circle of life.
• 53:20
  It's the circle of existence that go around and around, and this light is circulating within us.
• 53:31
  Not above us, it's in us.
• 53:35
  And here comes the two wi- three witnesses, Malach Metatron, Malach Sandalphon, and Moshiach, that they are going to bring the final redemption, and we are connected because in our connection, in our love- within us, and also with everything that surrounds us, with our loved ones and our surroundings.
• 54:02
  That is what will bring peace, shalom, into the world.
• 54:08
  Thank you, Hashem.
• 54:09
  Thank you, all of you.
• 54:11
  Thank you for being here and share with me these precious treasures, the treasure of the Psalms of King David