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Doubt, Trust & Laughter: Reflecting on One Year of Mediumship 🔮 · The Psychic Explorer

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Hello you lovely explorers and welcome to this
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episode of The Psychic Explorer. How are you
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doing? It's another episode, another solo episode.
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Just before we get started, I just want to say
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a massive thank you to everyone who listened
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to Jono's episodes, the Halloween ghost story
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episode. I put a lot of effort into that one.
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The feedback I got from it was just fantastic.
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Massive thank you to everyone who either listened
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to it, liked it, followed it, subscribed to it,
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whatever you did. Thank you, thank you, thank
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you so much. Just thank you, thank you, thank
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you. It's been a journey, hasn't it? Blimey,
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I can't believe I am already over a year into
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doing this. It's been quite a journey doing this
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podcast. I started not really having a clue what
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I was doing. I hope that's changed. I really
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feel that over the past few episodes, I found
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my footing though. I am no longer afraid of this
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microphone and You know I was listening to Hayley's
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episode and this is nothing against Hayley because
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Hayley was fantastic. I really enjoyed what she
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was saying in her episode. Hayley was talking
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about grief and how that has instructed her mediumship
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and how her mediumship has helped her with her
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grief. But I was listening to that episode and
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I could tell that I recorded that before I found
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my confidence doing this recording. I sounded
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slightly uncertain. I sounded slightly unsure.
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I didn't sound as natural as I hope I do now.
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And actually I listened to quite a few of my
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earlier ones and oh god, did I want to cringe?
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I listened to them and thought, oh god, burn
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them, delete them from the internet. I don't
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want them out there. But actually, I think that's
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a really good thing to have a reminder of where
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you've come from. compared to where you are now.
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And this is what this episode is sort of going
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to be reflecting on. I've been doing this podcast
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for a year, and this is not going to be a self
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-indulgent episode, I promise you, but I invited
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previous guests to send me their questions about
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my journey. The reason I do this is because I
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want this podcast to be a completely open and
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honest experience. of my experience. It's a reflection
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of my experience on this journey. If I had listened
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to someone talking about the stuff that I question
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on a day -to -day basis when I practice this
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mediumship, this psychic world, this spirituality.
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I don't know if I would have as many questions,
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but I would certainly like to think they would
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have helped me. So if I can do that for the people,
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then that is what I will do and that is what
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I will continue to do. So I've asked my lovely
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guests to send me in their questions and they
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have done it. I've got a few questions here which
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I'm going to answer. And some of them are quite
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funny, some of them are more profound, but they
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all have meaning. And I want to say a massive
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thank you to all my guests who have sent in their
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questions. I feel I've waffled on long enough,
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so let's get into it. Here is the first question.
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Hi Matt, it's Charlotte from episode 10, where
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we spoke all about crystals. So whilst we're
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on the subject of crystals, I was just wondering
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if you've incorporated crystals more into your
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daily life, since you've learnt more about them?
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Or do you have a newfound appreciation for crystals?
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Let me know. Have I made crystals a part of my
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everyday practice? Well, first of all, thank
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you Charlotte for your wonderful question. If
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you are interested in crystals, please go back
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and listen to Charlotte's episode, episode 10.
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She talks about the vibration of crystals, she
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talks about how they work and mechanics, how
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she feels into them. And what I really liked
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about Charlotte's episode as well was that it
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wasn't just... her point of view and her experience
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because Charlotte works with animals and she
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was saying about how her animals react to her
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crystals and the energy that they give off. It
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was really, really fascinating. Okay, so back
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to the question. Do I use crystals on a day -to
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-day basis? If I'm honest, no, no, I don't. But
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do I have an appreciation for them? Hell yes.
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I am sat here in my back bedroom, in front of
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my microphone and my laptop, and in front of
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me I've got three stones. I've got a beautiful
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red stone, which Charlotte gifted me. I think
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it's red selenite, I think it is. It looks like
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some sort of incredible red dragon scale. It
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looks... It's just beautiful. Next to that I've
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got a piece of rose granite which I picked up
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from a beach on the Isle of Mull during my trip
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to Scotland. And behind that is this tower. I
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don't know what it is, it's like granite but
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half of it, well a third of it is dark black
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with like speckles going through it. The middle
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part is like this almost... like lava, like this
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gray lava, and then on the other side of that
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one is this beautiful yellow, this bright yellow
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granite, I think it is. I don't know what it
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is, this is why I'm so bad at it. I've almost
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had to block Charlotte's Facebook group out of
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the earth crystals. If you're interested in getting
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some really reasonably priced crystals, go on
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to Charlotte's Facebook page, out of the earth
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crystals. She's got some incredible stock and
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I've threatened to block her a few times because
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every time she posts I always end up buying something.
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I've got a bowl here. Let me... It's full of
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crystals I bought from her over the past year
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and they've got spheres in there, there's palm
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stones. Just beautiful. I did try doing some
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lithomancy and lithomancy is when you read crystals
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like tarot or oracle cards. Didn't go very well
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for me, I have to be honest, but they are stunning
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and I do like to just stare into them. They do
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offer, I don't know, they offer something. I
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can't put my finger on it yet, Charlotte, but
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they do offer something. And I hope that answers
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your question. Let's move on. to the next question
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which is from the lovely Judy Wayman. Hi Matt,
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it's Judy from episode 18. I think I talked about
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my spiritual awakening and I just wondered was
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there something that was your spiritual awakening
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or is it something that You've always known deep
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inside and again, thank you for everything. The
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wonderful Judy Wayman with her beautiful words.
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Again, another amazing episode. If you go back
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to episode 18, Judy talks about how important
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the words that we use are. And I think the words
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in mediumship are just, they are so, so important.
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Thank you for your question, Julie. Someone,
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though, has not been listening to the whole podcast,
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have they, from the beginning? I jest, I jest,
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of course. My journey, yeah, my journey is explored
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in the first episode or two of this entire series.
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And, of course, I don't expect everyone to go
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back and listen to it. And, actually, those episodes,
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as I was saying before. Might sound a little
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bit rough compared to these ones, but yeah, it
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was what it was. But this whole journey that
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I stepped on was awakened within me with the
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loss of my mum. Well, from now, from the time
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of recording about two and a half years ago.
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She died in a really tragic accident, actually,
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and I was driving to try and get to her once
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I was notified that she was in an accident and
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that... and she was having work done on her by
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the paramedics, I tried to get to her as quickly
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as I can. And while I was driving to get to her,
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I knew the minute that she died, more or less.
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It was within a minute that she died, and I just
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felt a presence. I felt her. And from that moment
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on... Something shifted now. I know that you
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know grief is an awful thing But it started it
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was it was my catalyst because I knew that something
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else was going on This was not just a case of
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grief. I was feeling things I knew things that
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I shouldn't know and I had to explore whether
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or not I was going crazy whether or not this
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was just grief or whether or not the things I
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was feeling were real, and eventually they were
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validated. I'll use that word I massively overused
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in episode two. It was validated. So for me,
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stepping on this journey has not been an easy
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one because it's come from a place of grief,
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which in my logical brain has also made me think,
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well, am I making all this up? And I think that
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is a very normal thing to think. when you come
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to this journey through that vehicle, through
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that vehicle of grief. And that all comes down
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to trust, I suppose, as well, which brings me
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to Dana's question. Dana was on episode eight
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and she was on to talk about trust in her mediumship.
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I can't thank you enough for having me on the
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podcast and about talking about trust. and all
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of those wonderful things. And Matt, I want to
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know after talking about trust, how has that
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changed in your mediumship since our little chat?
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How has my trust changed since speaking to Dana
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back in March? Well, I have a lot more trust
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in myself. I know I can do this. And actually,
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when I review back and when I look back on this
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year, I'm much more confident with it. I actually
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talk about it more than I ever used to. It used
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to be almost like a dirty little secret and now
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I talk about it more. I'm more open about it.
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So I trust myself with it much more than I ever
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used to. Do I trust what I get? I do. I'm not
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entirely sure I trust my interpretation as much.
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as I will do this time next year. So I'm going
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to give myself a positive challenge there because
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it is inconsistent. I know I can do this. I know
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when I can do it, I'm good at it. However, there
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is inconsistency. I've got to be honest with
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you guys. I go through patches of being really
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boom, boom, boom, getting things really well.
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And then suddenly... it just dries up. It's like,
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there's the only way I can explain it and I don't
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know why. Because when I'm good, when I'm getting
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things through, I'm getting things through really
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well. For example, the other night, I was on
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an online circle in one of Dana's groups and
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I was put into a Zoom group with someone on there
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and I said, oh, straight away, I know I'm a grandmother
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and I know I'm wearing a wig. and I was able
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to describe this grandmother's personality and
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the person said, yep, I can take that. My grandmother
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was like that and she wore a wig. Now there's
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no way. There's just out of all the things, there's
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no way I'd be able to bring that through. So
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I know I can do it. It's just having that trust
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in my interpretation, which I still need to work
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on. And with Dana's help, I'm sure I'll get there.
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Okay, next question. Hi Matt, this is Julie from
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episode 16. As you know, I am passionate about
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helping people in an holistic whole body way,
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much of which is listening to and connecting
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to my clients to find out how best I can do this.
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What I'd like to ask you is how has exploring
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the psychic side of yourself helped you connect
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deeper with people around you in this life? and
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has how you navigate difficult times that arise
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changed from before you started on this path?
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Lots of love, Julie. It's funny, I was thinking
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about this just as a day, Julie, because I was
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downtown, I thought, why don't I tap into my
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psychicness here? Why can't I do that? Or why
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don't I do it? Because I think in my mind, I
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see it as too... Two different places to do it.
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There's in circle, where you're practicing, that's
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where you switch on. And then when you're out
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and about and living your life, it's not something
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that raises its head, or at least it's not something
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conscious. So Julie's question, how has exploring
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my psychic side influenced or impacted on my
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connections in life? I think I... In all honesty,
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if I'm interpreting this question the way that
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I think Julia is asking it, I honestly don't
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use it on a day -to -day basis. It's not something
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which I think, oh, tap into that person to see
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how they're feeling and to adapt my behavior
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accordingly. That's not something I, at least
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it's not something I consciously do. That being
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said, I'll hold my hand up on this one. That
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being said, You know that I'm a gardener, my
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full -time job, my day job is a gardener and
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a lot of my clients are elderly. There is plenty
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of times actually, now I'm thinking and tuning
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into this, that I'll go and see a client and
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I will just very quietly just tune into them
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and I will suggest things, I will tap into their
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needs, I will... try and figure out what's going
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on in their life, what they might need from me
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today. Did they need me to just come and do a
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job? Did they need me to be a bit of a soundboard?
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It's... I love my job because it's so multifaceted.
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I can be a very practical person. I can help
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someone make their garden look better. I can
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help them with a job that they need doing. Or
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I can be... you know, an unqualified social worker
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and just listen to their problems of the week.
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So actually, yeah, I do listen to clients. I
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do tune into them. And I find that when I do
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that, they get something better from me. They
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get something more from me. And actually, it
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fills my cup. It fills my soul. a lot more than
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those when I just go and mow the lawn or weed
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the rose beds. The second part of Julie's question,
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she asked if I've noticed how I've changed in
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dealing with difficult challenges on my path.
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I hope the people around me would agree with
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this, that actually since picking up this baton,
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I've actually been much more patient. I contemplate
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much more on what my actions might be, and I'm
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also a lot more tolerant to other people. Since
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I've not, you know, I've alluded to it throughout
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various episodes this year, but this year's not
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been a fun one for family relationships. And
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actually, there would have been a time when I'd
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have got really angry. and walked away because
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I was angry. Now I can step back rather than
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walk away because I'm angry or I'm annoyed or
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I'm pissed off. I can step back because I can
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appreciate what that other person sees in me
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and recognize that they need time from me and
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also recognize that that person is hurting and
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that person needs healing as well and I'm if
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I'm in their life, if I am present around them,
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that is not going to help them out. So yeah,
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it definitely helps. I don't think I use it on
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a day -to -day basis though. I think if I did,
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I'd be absolutely exhausted. A big ol' thank
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you to every one of my guests who have sent in
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a question for me. Honestly, this podcast would
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not be possible without you. It's just... I love
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doing it and I really love talking to other people,
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other like -minded people about their experiences.
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If you, my dear listeners, would like to talk
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to me about your experiences, whether that is
18:11
just a little chat or to give me a message or
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if you even want to come onto the podcast to
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talk about your experiences, I would love to
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have you on. Reach out to me at the .psychic
18:23
.explorer. You can find me on Facebook, Instagram,
18:28
threads. There is a TikTok. I've not put anything
18:31
onto it yet, but that will be coming. So yeah,
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so just reach out. I'd love to hear from you.
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Shall we have another question? Hey Matt, it's
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Jono here from episode 20 and episode 21. Thank
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you so much for having me on your show. I had
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so much fun chatting to you and telling you some
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of the stories and discussing, especially the
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ghost stories that we discussed, you know, it
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was it was great fun. So thank you for that.
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I have got a question as it is your annual review
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time for your PDP monsoor. But in relation to
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the episodes that we recorded together. I wondered,
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out of everything that we discussed, what was
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the thing that intrigued you the most? And out
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of everything that we discussed and in relation
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to the stories that we heard, what do you think
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was the strangest thing? I'll leave that with
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you, but great work. Keep it up and maybe we'll
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chat soon. If you are into your spookiness, if
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you like your spooky stories, and you haven't
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yet checked out episodes 20 and 21, oh please
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do me a favour and go and listen to them. Jono
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is a paranormal investigator, he goes to my circle
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and we were talking about dark air energies,
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something which I have very, well I have no experience
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with. We also discuss listener stories. Very
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generously, some of you lovely listeners sent
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in your ghost stories and me and Jono listened
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to them and we analyzed them. We spoke about
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what it could be, what the possible explanations
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might be. Jono was even able to tune in to a
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few of them. And I'll leave this one as a little
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teaser for you, but there is a small bonus episode.
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coming up in which we review, I go back to someone
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who submitted a ghost story and I let them hear
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what Jono's analysis is and yeah, spoiler alert,
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there might be something with Jono picks up on
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which is bang on. So yeah, listen out for that.
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But back to Jono's question, the first part,
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what was the thing that intrigued me the most?
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Honestly, this is not a cop -out. I'm not trying
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to cop out on this, but I think everything. Honestly,
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the thing that comes to mind when I think about
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Jono's episode, in fact, not even Jono's episode,
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but a lot of people's episodes, is the idea of
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perception. I go into these episodes, I try and
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have an open mind, but I do have my own perception
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on how these things work. And what I love the
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most is that through the duration of this conversation
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I'm having with my friends, people that I have
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spoken to online, people that come onto the podcast,
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my perception gets changed. And I said it in
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Jono's episode, what I loved was that my perception
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changed as I was talking to him. He was able
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to open my eyes to a different possibility. One
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that maybe doesn't resonate with me, but one
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that it still may be possible. So in all honesty,
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that is probably what I've taken away the most
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from this, especially Jono's episode. The idea
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that we all hold different truths and just because
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something doesn't resonate with one person doesn't
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mean that truth is not truth. What was Jono's
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other question? Oh, it was about my favorite
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ghost story from his second episode. Oh, they
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were all creepy and chilly in their own way,
22:40
but I have to say Graham's story about the little
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girl who appeared and disappeared witnessed by
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Graham and his friend. and then look back on
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the CCTV to find that they were talking to an
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empty room. Oh, that just chilled me, absolutely
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chilled me to the bone. So that, out of all those
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stories, definitely my favourite one. Okay, who
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have we got next? Oh, Hayley, Hayley Cossey from
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just the last episode, actually. Let's hear what
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Hayley's question is. Hi, Matt. It's Hayley from
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episode 22. When you sit and go within to reflect
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on your journey, what would you say the biggest
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changes you now see within yourself? Thank you.
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I'm not sure I'm qualified to answer that question,
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I think. I would have to ask the people that
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know me the best. Simon would have to probably
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answer that one. But if I were to look within
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me... Oh, I hope I'm right in saying this, but
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I think I am trying to get back to me. It was
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actually something that Hayley said in her episode
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that stepping onto this mediumship path has allowed
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her to strip herself back and get back to the
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true Hayley. With age, I have hardened. I used
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to be very playful. I used to be very... silly
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and giggly. And after a few experiences I hardened
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up and I know that that is something that Simon
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misses within me. He often, well he doesn't often,
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but he has said to me occasionally that he misses
24:29
the old Matt. I hope that with me following this
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path, not following that, that sounds like it's
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something that it's not. But with me stepping
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down this path and exploring this path, I like
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to think I have mellowed that I am more open
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to things I was not necessarily open to as much
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before. The magic, the wonder in the world, it
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fills me more. I am more willing to just sit
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and contemplate and meditate. I enjoy going to
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quiet places like churches or whatever, not for
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a service, but just to sit and appreciate the
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ambience of the building of the environment.
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I think I'm more reflective. I honestly do. I
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think I had the loss of mum shocked me to remind
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me of how short life is and how Important is
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not to burn bridges but to understand when things
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might need to change for the good of everyone
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involved. I've got a different philosophy on
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life. It's not now just about whatever will be
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will be. It's about doing good. It's about making
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other people happy. It's about helping people
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as best I can. with the resources that I have,
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whether that be in abundance or limited. I think,
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I mentioned this earlier on in this episode,
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or at least I alluded to it, where before, if
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people annoyed me, if people pissed me off, if
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people, if I didn't agree with people, I'd almost
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write them off. I don't think I do that as much
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now. I think my patience, my tolerance has increased,
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my understanding of where people may have come
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from, the experiences people have had, which
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has made them behave the way they behave. I hope
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that is more in the forefront of my mind. than
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it used to be. And in fact, I know it is, I know
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it is. So yeah, I think that, Hayley, in answer
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to your question, it's a multitude of things,
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but I think an increase in patience and an understanding
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of my purpose in my life on this planet and an
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awareness of the impact that my interaction with
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people had. I hope that wasn't too wishy -washy,
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that wasn't too... hoi polloi philosophical.
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But if it was, if that was too serious, then
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the next question is certainly going to make
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you chuckle because I had to keep nudging Shelley
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for her question. She said, I'll get it to you
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today. I'll get it to you today. And I said to
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her, that's fine. Give it to me by Tuesday. And
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that's my deadline when I'm starting to record
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this. And it's now Wednesday and I had to message
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her today saying hello. questions please and
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so I'm so so sorry so she sent me not just one
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not just two but three questions and because
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I listened to these questions this morning when
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she sent them through to me I know the first
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one should have you giggling and it's certainly
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something I have got to think about hi Matt it's
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Shelley from Soulful Tarot I think I was on episode
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six of Your Fabulous podcast The Psychic Explorer.
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I'm really enjoying that by the way and congratulations
28:19
on your Halloween episodes. They are great fun.
28:23
So back to the questions. So I have three questions
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for you. Question number one. If you could liken
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your mediumship journey to a dessert, which dessert
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would it be? Okay, I'm gonna answer these in
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order because otherwise I will forget by the
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time I get to question three I'll forget what
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question one is although I'm not too sure anyone
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could forget what question one was what a fantastic
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question My word what dessert was my mediumship
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be if it were a dessert? Okay, I just pause the
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recording for like five minutes just to think
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Right, my initial response was going to be something
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like the trifle because it's sticky, it's messy,
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but actually I don't think that's right. As I
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sit with it, my mediumship, when it's good, it's
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really lovely. It takes work, though, to get
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it good. It takes consistency. and it takes hard
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work. And when it flops, oh, I feel just awful
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about it. And I just feel really flat when I
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get it wrong. So my dessert that is my mediumship
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is a soufflé because when it rises, when it's
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right, it's amazing. It's light, it's fluffy,
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it's gorgeous, it's decadent. When it's wrong,
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it makes me feel awful. It makes me feel curdled
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inside. It makes me feel flat. You need to know
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what you're doing with a souffle. You need to
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know how to... how to cook it. You need to know
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exactly what temperature to put the oven onto,
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exactly how long to cook it for. There's so many
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different factors which go into making a soufflé.
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Yeah, I think a soufflé is my mediumship. Somebody
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who's embarking on mediumship or thinking about
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embarking on a mediumship journey, just one piece
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of advice, what would that be? My initial gut
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instinct is to say, don't worry about the no's,
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be prepared to get it wrong. I think that that
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is a very natural thing that everyone doing this
31:07
journey is going to learn eventually. My number
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one piece of advice... My piece of advice that
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I need to take, that I need to practice, is exactly
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that. Practice, practice, practice, practice
31:25
more. It's hard because life calls, doesn't it?
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Life takes you places and you can't, it's not
31:35
fair to your loved ones to fully commit every
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single hour to this. But at the same time, It
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does give you dopamine when you get it right
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it is amazing and you just want to practice practice
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and unfortunately if you don't practice It leaves
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you very little room to improve practice really
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does make perfect and There's never a perfect
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in mediumship. However, my piece of advice to
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someone stepping on this path Shelley would be
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to practice, practice, practice, whether that
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is in a face -to -face circle, online circle,
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friends, family. Do as much practice as you can
32:20
to get to understand your signs and your symbols
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and your language that your team are giving you
32:29
to use these symbols to interpret the messages
32:33
that are coming through. Practice, practice,
32:36
practice. Okay, let's have Shelley's third and
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final question. Looking back over your journey
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so far, what's the best memory that you can recall?
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Anyway, can't wait to hear the answers. Thanks
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as always for having me on your episode, on your
32:56
podcast. Such fun. And take care. What a beautiful
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question. What an absolutely beautiful question
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to end this episode on. Oh, I've had to, yeah,
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really pause and think about this one. And as
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I sit with it, the thing that comes to mind is
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just the sound of laughter. The best memories
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I have is of the jokes, of the laughs that I
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share with all my friends in circle. I started
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this journey in a really rough place somewhere
33:38
where I was not expecting to make friends yet
33:42
here I am two and a bit years later with a mobile
33:48
phone which is substantially busier than what
33:52
it was before because I have more friends who
33:56
are like -minded we share things we care for
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each other we look out for another when we're
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not sure about something we ask questions when
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we want to give reassurance we do so it's the
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people you know you do meet some funny people
34:14
on this journey but there are also some people
34:18
who will stick around people who will um take
34:22
your hand through these very strange and bizarre
34:25
experiences that you will or that I have inevitably
34:29
undertaken on this path. So yeah, I think Shadi,
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what a wonderful set of questions. There's not
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one memory in particular and I could say, you
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know, it was the time when I felt I had a wig
34:44
on my head and I said it and the city could take
34:49
it. It could be the time where I was on an online
34:53
platform and I said to the person in the group,
34:57
I don't know why but I'm being shown a teddy
34:59
bear and the woman on the other end said, I just
35:02
asked my mother to give you a teddy bear if it's
35:04
her. It's just incredible pieces of evidence
35:09
like that. But actually the thing that resonates
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the most, the thing that recalls the most is
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the laughter. It's the laughter in the circles
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that I go to, the friendship, the camaraderie.
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It's just wonderful. It really is wonderful.
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Oh thank you everyone so much for asking your
35:32
questions. Dear listeners I really hope and I
35:40
got halfway through this episode I thought oh
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Matt this is so self -indulgent of you to just
35:45
have people ask questions of you and your journey
35:48
and if it's come across that way I'm really sorry
35:53
that is not the aim of this episode The whole
35:57
point and purpose of this podcast is to show
36:00
you someone's genuine journey on this path. If
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you are about to step onto it, I'd like to think
36:08
that by me putting my heart and soul out there
36:12
into the ether, telling you what my journey is
36:16
like, is supporting you in some way and hopefully,
36:22
you know, this episode... goes somewhat towards
36:26
that and doesn't come across as too self -indulgent
36:31
and too egotistical. You know me, I don't want
36:36
to be egotistical and that is a big worry of
36:38
mine so I hope it comes across in the right way.
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I am sure between now and the time this goes
36:44
out I will listen and listen and re -listen and
36:49
edit and edit and edit until it is something
36:51
that I'm happy with. Hey, there is a lesson there
36:56
in itself. Sometimes you just gotta let things
36:58
go, let things the way they are. And you may
37:02
feel self -conscious about how your message goes
37:05
out, and this is true in mediumship. You may
37:07
feel self -conscious about how your message goes
37:09
out, but at the end of the day it's how your
37:11
sitter receives it. And if your sitter needs
37:15
to hear it, and if your sitter is happy with
37:17
your message, then who are you to judge? Who
37:22
am I to judge? So until next time, my lovely,
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lovely explorers, I will see you soon. Lots of
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love. Bye.