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Justina Machado: Finding Joy, Dating Apps After 50, and Giving Less F**ks · How Hard Can It Be? with Diana Maria Riva

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  Speaker 1: They say, midlife is that chapter of connecting with your
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  Speaker 1: most authentic self.
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  Speaker 2: I e.
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  Speaker 1: Zero fox left to give. My next guest is a
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  Speaker 1: beautiful example of bringing her most authentic, honest and hilarious
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  Speaker 1: stuff to the table every time. So we'll talk about
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  Speaker 1: everything from success not having an expiration date to just
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  Speaker 1: how much info do you put on that dating app?
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  Speaker 1: To living life on your terms? Seriously, how hard can
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  Speaker 1: it be? Welcome to another episode of How Hard Can
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  Speaker 1: It Be? A podcast for genets women navigating midlife's most
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  Speaker 1: fantastic bullshit. I am your host. I can't wait for today.
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  Speaker 2: That's quite an intro.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, I love it, cannot wait for you to see
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  Speaker 1: my guests today. You all know are from the iconic
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  Speaker 1: six feet under the Horrors of Dolores Roach one day
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  Speaker 1: at a time and on Way Tony nominated for Real
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  Speaker 1: Women have curves? I know or because she's my friend
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  Speaker 1: and there's an abnormal amount of people on this planet
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  Speaker 1: who think we are the same person.
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  Speaker 2: So we're about to.
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  Speaker 1: Blow your mind and show you that we are two individuals.
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  Speaker 1: Justina Machina, who ya ah, my girl, Hello girl, literally
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  Speaker 1: my sister from another mister.
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  Speaker 2: Obviously, there we get mistaken all the time.
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  Speaker 3: I love me and Goldta chronicles they love you on
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  Speaker 3: one day at a time.
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  Speaker 2: Yes, that's just the way it happens with us.
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  Speaker 1: I don't know anymore if anyone really loves my work,
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  Speaker 1: or is it that they love your work.
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  Speaker 2: I'm telling you what.
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  Speaker 1: The first time that you you text me, You're like, girl,
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  Speaker 1: someone just recognized me from Gordica Chronicles. I'm like, yes, one.
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  Speaker 1: But I have been in the same room with you
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  Speaker 1: and ten feet away and someone comes up to me like,
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  Speaker 1: I really loved you on one day. God, I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: that's great. You want to go and tell her. She's
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  Speaker 1: gonna love to hear that. Yes, And I just recently
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  Speaker 1: I was in the American Airlines lounge and this woman
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  Speaker 1: is going on and on about my career and she's
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  Speaker 1: so sweet, and then she goes and then on Law
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  Speaker 1: and Order, not Law and Order, lawn order.
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  Speaker 3: That's when you asked me, did you do a Law
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  Speaker 3: and Order? And I said, yeah, like two years ago whatever.
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  Speaker 1: The record just went. She does not.
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  Speaker 3: By the way, I had straight hair in that one
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  Speaker 3: and it was super dark.
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  Speaker 2: I don't get it. I've never seen you with straight hair.
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  Speaker 1: One film I did with straight hair one film, and
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  Speaker 1: you know what. I at that point, I was like,
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  Speaker 1: you know what. So I pulled up our pictures at
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  Speaker 1: a party together and I'm like, this is I think
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  Speaker 1: who you're thinking about. No, no, no, I know who you
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  Speaker 1: are because you did.
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  Speaker 2: Because they never want to admit they're wrong.
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  Speaker 1: No.
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  Speaker 2: It happens to me all the time when they're like
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  Speaker 2: are you sure, I'm like, yeah, I'm pretty sure that's
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  Speaker 2: not me who I am.
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  Speaker 1: It's amazing to me because we I mean, yeah, we
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  Speaker 1: have curly hair. That's about about it. We have great laughs.
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  Speaker 2: That's right. Okay, okay, we got place great.
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  Speaker 1: I say, if I'm going to be mistaken for anybody,
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  Speaker 1: I'm glad it's you. Thank you. You are a true
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  Speaker 1: powerhouse of an actor. But you're also a phenomenal woman,
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  Speaker 1: and you're a good friend. And I do live by this.
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  Speaker 1: Women need to know how to be good women to
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  Speaker 1: other women, and you are a good woman to other women.
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  Speaker 2: Oh, thank you.
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  Speaker 3: I feel the same way about you. I mean, that's
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  Speaker 3: why we're friends. I don't have anybody in my circle
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  Speaker 3: that I don't think is that. No, I don't want
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  Speaker 3: anyone in my circle that I don't think that is
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  Speaker 3: is that.
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  Speaker 1: No, this is one of the most refreshing things about you.
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  Speaker 1: I have to tell this story. You know, you do
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  Speaker 1: get to the stage in life and if you're lucky,
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  Speaker 1: you give less fox and you are the queen of
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  Speaker 1: less fox in the most delicious way. And I was
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  Speaker 1: sitting at some event thing and we were sitting on
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  Speaker 1: a couch together and I'm talking to her, and somebody
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  Speaker 1: that you didn't know came up to talk to you,
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  Speaker 1: and da da da, and they said, yeah, I was
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  Speaker 1: I just did a whole event thing on I just
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  Speaker 1: started this whole thing. And you're like, and they name
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  Speaker 1: dropped so big, and you said, sweetheart, I don't give
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  Speaker 1: a fuck.
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  Speaker 2: Oh my god, when did I say that?
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  Speaker 1: But it was just a drunk no, no, no, because
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  Speaker 1: but you went on to say, like, I love what
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  Speaker 1: you did, but I don't give a fuck who you
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  Speaker 1: started with. Because the woman was giving highlight to this
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  Speaker 1: big celebrity.
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  Speaker 2: I knew where that was. I know where it was.
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  Speaker 2: Oh shit, it told.
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  Speaker 1: Me later, told me later, just so that person doesn't
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  Speaker 1: recognize that.
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  Speaker 3: Also, the funny thing is so many things people told
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  Speaker 3: me I say and I'm like, I said that, But
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  Speaker 3: also I think it's because I live in such the
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  Speaker 3: moment and I'm like and.
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, oh, yeah, I did say that, you know which.
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  Speaker 1: It's never it's never mean, no, no, it's just honest.
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  Speaker 1: Because in that moment you went on. I started laughing
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  Speaker 1: because you lost me once you said, sweetheart, I don't
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  Speaker 1: give a fuck, and I'm like, oh my god. But
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  Speaker 1: what you went on to do was uplift her.
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  Speaker 3: Oh I remember who it was. We had just met her.
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  Speaker 3: She was a young actress that we just met.
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  Speaker 1: You went on to the work that she It did
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  Speaker 1: not matter that she was doing it alongside this super superstar.
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  Speaker 2: Remember, it was about her.
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  Speaker 1: You made it full circle for.
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  Speaker 2: Oh good God, who you are? Thank you, my love.
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  Speaker 2: I remember this exactly. The congaroom.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, she said it totally.
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  Speaker 2: Nobody will remember it, you know what I mean.
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  Speaker 1: But that's that's that's your core. You are always there.
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  Speaker 1: You take care of people, you show up, you support,
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  Speaker 1: and you're blunt and refreshingly honest. And that's why we have,
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  Speaker 1: Like you said, that's why we have this great friendship.
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  Speaker 1: And it remind you from Chicago.
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  Speaker 2: I was about to say, it's the Chicago yes.
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  Speaker 1: And I'm for sure, Sinnati, which is only four hours away.
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  Speaker 2: Exactly.
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  Speaker 1: There's a lot of there's differences, and then there's a
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  Speaker 1: lot of that realness. Yes, we just we don't waste
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  Speaker 1: time with lies.
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  Speaker 3: No, the Midwest, and even though the funny thing is that,
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  Speaker 3: you know, we always claim to be well, not claim
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  Speaker 3: we are from these places, but we've been here longer
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  Speaker 3: than we were from where we're from. But those kind
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  Speaker 3: of I wouldn't say Midwest values because everything is so
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  Speaker 3: jacked up right now, but I would say, you know,
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  Speaker 3: just growing up and where you have to be around people,
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  Speaker 3: where you have all this weather, you know, where you
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  Speaker 3: have to know your neighbors, where there's no nonsense because
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  Speaker 3: it's like sixty below zero, that's where you're like, it's cold.
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  Speaker 1: That's the truth. That's where my truth is coming from. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: and out here or in our workplace, which is obviously
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  Speaker 1: the same. It's it's such great value to have a
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  Speaker 1: good friend like you and women need that, and they
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  Speaker 1: do say that. You know, when you get into your
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  Speaker 1: forties and fifties, you get a smaller and smaller group
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  Speaker 1: of friends.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, right, Well, I think that I always had the
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  Speaker 3: same group of friends, and maybe my friends have even
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  Speaker 3: grown a little bit more because I think I was
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  Speaker 3: actually a lot more.
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  Speaker 2: Anti socials, you know what I mean. Like I was
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  Speaker 2: social with you.
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  Speaker 3: Know, at work and everything, and but I would always
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  Speaker 3: hang out with the same people, which are my people
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  Speaker 3: from Chicago, all the people that I came to LA with.
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  Speaker 3: And I've gotten a lot better better about Like in
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  Speaker 3: my forties, I got a lot better about exploring other things,
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  Speaker 3: which is interesting.
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  Speaker 1: It is especially trying to figure out what to explore.
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  Speaker 1: I want to ask you, as my icebreaker, did you
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  Speaker 1: have an oh shit? Is this midlife moment? Small or
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  Speaker 1: big can be chin hairs too. I don't want this
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  Speaker 1: person in my life.
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  Speaker 3: I think probably I had a lot of them, but
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  Speaker 3: I don't look at them like just some an aha
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  Speaker 3: moment that made me. It's just like a series of
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  Speaker 3: events that have made me go, oh, Okay, this is
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  Speaker 3: where I'm at. But I'm not fighting it, you know,
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  Speaker 3: like because you can't. That doesn't mean I like it.
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  Speaker 3: It's just I'm not going to fight it. I think,
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  Speaker 3: if we're going to be superficial, if I can just
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  Speaker 3: be superficial for a moment, that little, that little apron
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  Speaker 3: that you get in your stomach that's so ugly poopa. Yes,
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  Speaker 3: that thing that you're just like wait, what like all
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  Speaker 3: the guys that are in here that are like thirty
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  Speaker 3: to forty.
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  Speaker 1: Like, what is this that poopa?
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  Speaker 3: Because remember like it's like if you were get a
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  Speaker 3: little way whatever, your stomach was just out like this
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  Speaker 3: and now it's like a thing.
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  Speaker 2: And I was like, what the hell is this? So
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  Speaker 2: I will tell you that was weird. That happened overnight.
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  Speaker 1: That happened overnight to me in Puerto Rico. Oh. I
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  Speaker 1: was there to film Grdita Chronicles and by the time
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  Speaker 1: I left them like.
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  Speaker 2: What the fuck is Yes, that happened overnight. I don't
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  Speaker 2: remember when it happened.
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  Speaker 3: And that's why I'm like, whoa, yeah, that's probably the
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  Speaker 3: one thing.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, and then that's that's the that's the superficial one.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm the one that was more like hmm made
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  Speaker 1: you stop and pause, well.
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  Speaker 2: Listen, just turning fifty was.
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  Speaker 3: I hated it and there was not anything that was
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  Speaker 3: fun for me, Like you know, I was super depressed
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  Speaker 3: about it, even though I was working and I had
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  Speaker 3: an incredible birthday. I had just done Dolores Roach. I
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  Speaker 3: think I just did the pilot when I turned fifty. Uh.
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  Speaker 3: And then I had this big thing and I went
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  Speaker 3: to the dr and with a bunch of friends and
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  Speaker 3: it was fabulous. But I was not you know, I
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  Speaker 3: was pretending to be okay with it. And then I
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  Speaker 3: don't know what happened. I just became okay. I'm like,
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  Speaker 3: what are you gonna do?
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  Speaker 2: Like truly, it's like all I can do is just.
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  Speaker 3: Stop thinking it's over, because I think I had a
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  Speaker 3: moment of thinking like it's all over.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: Especially, I don't know what it's like to be in
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  Speaker 3: any other business. This is all I've ever done. I
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  Speaker 3: have no idea. I don't know what it's like. I
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  Speaker 3: just know that in this business, in this town, I
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  Speaker 3: felt like, wow, this is like death.
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  Speaker 1: But you know what's so interesting about that, because we
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  Speaker 1: do a lot of us myself included hear this clock
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  Speaker 1: that is, oh my god, I'm running out of time.
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  Speaker 1: And I didn't do this that or the other. Or
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  Speaker 1: it's over, I guess because the windows have closed. And
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  Speaker 1: yet you went on to accomplish a life long dream
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  Speaker 1: of yours. After that, I know, I know you became
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  Speaker 1: You went on to Broadway, which was something you always
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  Speaker 1: wanted to do.
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  Speaker 3: Always and always wanted to originate a role and always
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  Speaker 3: wanted to be nominated.
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  Speaker 2: And I forgot to say I'd like to win it.
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  Speaker 3: I said all those things. I'll say, Wait what I
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  Speaker 3: forgot the win part. That's the part that was the
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  Speaker 3: part I did not win. But all of that was
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  Speaker 3: And even when I was in that, I guess I didn't.
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  Speaker 3: I realize it now, what a big accomplishment that is.
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  Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, I do realize that. And a life
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  Speaker 1: lesson that our best years are not behind. Yes, as
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  Speaker 1: our dear friend Eva says that she refuses to say
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  Speaker 1: say that her best years are not behind.
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  Speaker 3: He was so freaking optimistic though, you know, like if
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  Speaker 3: we could all have that optimism, and really she really
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  Speaker 3: is like everything and you're just like, oh, just let
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  Speaker 3: me get a little bit.
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  Speaker 1: Yes of that five foot two never ending, because that's
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  Speaker 1: so she's yes, girl, she she over, she steps over you.
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  Speaker 1: She's five too.
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  Speaker 2: Well, she's a giant.
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  Speaker 3: I never knew you were five foot five foot yeah,
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  Speaker 3: might be four eleven and a half now because of
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  Speaker 3: you know, you shrink as you get older, the bones
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  Speaker 3: and all that.
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  Speaker 2: You got to check all that the bone density.
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  Speaker 1: Oh yeah, all those things.
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  Speaker 2: That was also.
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  Speaker 3: Surprising, Like I have like prescription medication though for your presidenity,
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  Speaker 3: though for certain things, and I'm like, you know what
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  Speaker 3: I mean, yeah for sure, which I never had any
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  Speaker 3: of that, No, never.
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  Speaker 1: But you know, this is the thing that one of
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  Speaker 1: the things I'm learning in this podcast is that there's
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  Speaker 1: so much there's such a lack of information and knowledge
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  Speaker 1: and resources about what we need that when we when
• 11:42
  Speaker 1: we go and we're told at estrogen or bone density whatever,
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  Speaker 1: you need this, and that we're like, oh, no, I
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  Speaker 1: knew that, when in the reality is is a lot
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  Speaker 1: of us needed. My daughter called me the other day.
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  Speaker 1: She's going pre med and she has an anatomy class
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  Speaker 1: with cadavers, and she called me. She's like, Mom, are
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  Speaker 1: you taking estrogen. I'm like, yes, why, She's like, I've
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  Speaker 1: seen so many cadavers of women with no estrogen and
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  Speaker 1: they pointed out because their spined and their bone density
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  Speaker 1: is for shit. So she was seeing physically what happens
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  Speaker 1: to these cadavers that had hormone replacement and the lack thereon.
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  Speaker 1: And now listen, that's a whole.
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  Speaker 3: Discussion, but also that discussion and I know that's a
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  Speaker 3: whole discussion and we're not doctors, but but literally, they
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  Speaker 3: wouldn't give it to women, right, they wouldn't give it
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  Speaker 3: to women. They were like, oh, they did these studies
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  Speaker 3: and they were like, it causes cancer. And then you know,
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  Speaker 3: the male doctors would dismiss it as if you were
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  Speaker 3: just depressed or had anxiety and instead try to hook
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  Speaker 3: you on some stupid anti anxiety you know drug as
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  Speaker 3: opposed to really like.
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  Speaker 2: Dealing with the problem.
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  Speaker 3: They've just flipped it where women are able to do this,
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  Speaker 3: So they basically made us suffer.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean truly generations.
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  Speaker 3: Absolute women that didn't have that opportunity. I can't even
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  Speaker 3: imagine if I wasn't on hormone and I'm on the
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  Speaker 3: lowest dosage because for certain reasons, I can only have
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  Speaker 3: a low dosage of certain things. But literally it's changed
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  Speaker 3: my life and I'm sure I could benefit from more,
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  Speaker 3: but I can't do it. It has changed my life,
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  Speaker 3: like with the sleeping and the hot sweats and yeah,
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  Speaker 3: just not being able to sleep and not being able
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  Speaker 3: to remember anything.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, and that is something that we've obviously in generations before,
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  Speaker 1: has have muscled through.
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  Speaker 3: And they had to go to work like every day
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  Speaker 3: like a regular I mean, like, you know, my.
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  Speaker 1: Mom divorce during that time, because I'd be like.
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  Speaker 3: My mom had to go She was an opn and
• 13:44
  Speaker 3: a nursing home in Chicago, Casa Central, which was the
• 13:47
  Speaker 3: only Latino nursing home in the city, and imagine her
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  Speaker 3: having to do that every day all these kids. I
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  Speaker 3: feel so bad thinking about Like I was like why
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  Speaker 3: she I was so mad. I'm like, oh, I know now, Mommy,
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  Speaker 3: I know now it is.
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  Speaker 1: It is mind blowing and you're right. They have flipped
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  Speaker 1: it and now the conversation is becoming more common place
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  Speaker 1: and part of the part of the goal with this
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  Speaker 1: podcast is to talk about all things midlife, menopause, not menopause,
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  Speaker 1: you know whatever, sex.
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  Speaker 3: All of that, just partners, yes, you know what I mean, Like,
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  Speaker 3: you know, all of that. It's all fifty hit me
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  Speaker 3: hard and then like I'm past fifty now and I
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  Speaker 3: feel fine, you know, I feel good.
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  Speaker 1: Less angry, Well, it offends, it depends on who when
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  Speaker 1: the day.
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  Speaker 2: Girl. No, not any of that. Less thinking my life
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  Speaker 2: is over.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, great question.
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  Speaker 2: That's like I don't feel that way anymore.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah.
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  Speaker 3: I really felt like, oh, my god. I really really
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  Speaker 3: felt like it was all over. It was so weird
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  Speaker 3: somebody like me, who's not Who's I mean? I consider
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  Speaker 3: myself an intelligent woman. I truly thought, oh my god,
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  Speaker 3: I went down that that stupid patriarchal you know, massagy,
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  Speaker 3: like what they say, what they say about us, how
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  Speaker 3: the media talks about us, how all of.
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  Speaker 2: These things, and and just the number was like, like,
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  Speaker 2: how did I get here? How did I become fifty?
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  Speaker 2: Whatever I am? Now, Yeah, it's bizarre.
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  Speaker 1: I've been married twice. I was, you know, society says
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  Speaker 1: I should have been married one time twice and then
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  Speaker 1: but I'm on my third relationship and I'm like, I
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  Speaker 1: don't need to get married, but he's my forever. You
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  Speaker 1: have not been married, no, and it's been good for
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  Speaker 1: you totally.
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  Speaker 3: You've been It has been good for me, but I
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  Speaker 3: will tell you that at this stage, and I'm it's
• 15:53
  Speaker 3: still good for me. It's it's exactly what I want,
• 15:56
  Speaker 3: what I wanted. I don't know what I want in
• 15:58
  Speaker 3: the future, but you do feel a certain kind of
• 16:02
  Speaker 3: way even if that's not what you want it because
• 16:04
  Speaker 3: everybody's kind of in their relationships now.
• 16:07
  Speaker 1: Yeah, so you're like, oh, where's the.
• 16:09
  Speaker 3: Girl that's going to go with my girlfriend, who's going
• 16:11
  Speaker 3: to travel with me to this place or that place?
• 16:14
  Speaker 2: Oh, they have to clear it, you know that.
• 16:16
  Speaker 3: See if somebody can take care of the kids, you know,
• 16:18
  Speaker 3: some things like so it is a little bit like,
• 16:20
  Speaker 3: oh wow, this is where I'm noticing family now.
• 16:25
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it's still okay.
• 16:27
  Speaker 3: I never wanted to have kids, and I love, love,
• 16:29
  Speaker 3: love kids. I just never wanted to have them, and
• 16:32
  Speaker 3: I'm okay with not being married. But I do go like,
• 16:35
  Speaker 3: oh wow, I see you know the twenty years of
• 16:38
  Speaker 3: people being together where they're at now and how it is.
• 16:41
  Speaker 1: Yeah, but that's beautiful. It is beautiful and there's no
• 16:45
  Speaker 1: you know. First of all, I just want to tell
• 16:46
  Speaker 1: you that all your friends that are married, don't worry
• 16:49
  Speaker 1: because we all plan on having a compound where we
• 16:52
  Speaker 1: all live together. Anyway.
• 16:53
  Speaker 2: I love that. I always hear that. I always hear that,
• 16:56
  Speaker 2: and I have yes.
• 16:57
  Speaker 3: No, no, I That's just something that I want to
• 17:00
  Speaker 3: be honest about, you know what I mean, Because no
• 17:03
  Speaker 3: matter even if that's the path I wanted and that's
• 17:05
  Speaker 3: the path I live, and it's still you still sometimes.
• 17:09
  Speaker 2: Get a little like oh.
• 17:10
  Speaker 1: You know what I mean, you still do for twenty minutes.
• 17:12
  Speaker 2: Yeah.
• 17:12
  Speaker 1: But ultimately though, there's a lot of women though that
• 17:16
  Speaker 1: have reached this stage and they did get married and
• 17:18
  Speaker 1: they're not married anymore and they're happy with that. Yes,
• 17:21
  Speaker 1: it's just it's not about you know. I told my
• 17:24
  Speaker 1: kids who are young adults now, first of all, just
• 17:27
  Speaker 1: go live. Go live and make decisions like that later.
• 17:30
  Speaker 1: Accomplish the things that you want to accomplish. Go explore
• 17:33
  Speaker 1: the things that you want to you know, obviously we
• 17:34
  Speaker 1: were hustlers. We hit the ground running with wrestling for
• 17:38
  Speaker 1: this career. So there's a lot of stuff that we
• 17:41
  Speaker 1: I don't know if we missed out on, but a
• 17:42
  Speaker 1: lot of things were delayed as far as certain experiences.
• 17:45
  Speaker 1: For me, there was a lot of travel that I
• 17:47
  Speaker 1: didn't get to experience yet. But I'm going to buy
• 17:50
  Speaker 1: in do that my best years are ahead.
• 17:52
  Speaker 3: Yeah, Because when we were younger and we were here,
• 17:55
  Speaker 3: we didn't even think about going anywhere because in case
• 17:58
  Speaker 3: we missed an audition.
• 18:00
  Speaker 2: I mean, do you remember how crazy that was?
• 18:02
  Speaker 3: I was like, no, because that might be you know
• 18:05
  Speaker 3: audi exactly like you didn't even think about going living. No, No,
• 18:11
  Speaker 3: it was about coming here and grinding. Yes, I mean
• 18:13
  Speaker 3: imagine we had fun though we still had fun.
• 18:15
  Speaker 2: We had fun.
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: We haven't had doll lives, not at all. But it
• 18:19
  Speaker 1: was a continuous discussion on with our styles. On am
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: I living presently? Because at the end of the day,
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: I know you agree with me. When I'm on my
• 18:29
  Speaker 1: deathbedd and I'm taking my final breath, I will not
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: give a shit about this television series or that film
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: that will be way in my rear view mirror. I
• 18:40
  Speaker 1: will care whether or not I have a good relationship
• 18:42
  Speaker 1: with my kids if I did those things that bring
• 18:46
  Speaker 1: me joy, And do you do things that still bring
• 18:48
  Speaker 1: you joy?
• 18:49
  Speaker 3: Yeah, Well that's the beauty kind of not being attached
• 18:54
  Speaker 3: to anyone or anything.
• 18:55
  Speaker 2: Do everything that brings me joy. That's the way I
• 18:59
  Speaker 2: am a joyful life girl. I do. I mean yes,
• 19:03
  Speaker 2: I do whatever brings me joy. I really do.
• 19:05
  Speaker 1: Like, what what are you doing these days?
• 19:07
  Speaker 2: Well, I mean, believe it or not.
• 19:09
  Speaker 3: With everything that's going on, and it's so crazy. I've
• 19:11
  Speaker 3: been traveling a lot, but like little things like I've
• 19:14
  Speaker 3: been going to Puerto Rico a lot, and you know
• 19:16
  Speaker 3: I'm Puerto rican but the first time I went to
• 19:18
  Speaker 3: Puerto Rico. I wasn't. I was like twenty years old.
• 19:21
  Speaker 3: I'd never I never went when I was little, And
• 19:24
  Speaker 3: so I did that movie. And you know, we've been
• 19:27
  Speaker 3: to Puerto Rico, we've done things, but when I did
• 19:29
  Speaker 3: that movie, I just got this new found love for it.
• 19:33
  Speaker 2: So I've been going a lot to Puerto.
• 19:34
  Speaker 3: Rico, you know, always going to I guess being traveling
• 19:39
  Speaker 3: and seeing my family brings me a lot of joy. Chicago,
• 19:42
  Speaker 3: going home and seeing people, and my home brings me
• 19:48
  Speaker 3: a lot of joy.
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: You do talk about your home because you know, and
• 19:52
  Speaker 1: that's the great thing.
• 19:53
  Speaker 2: My home brings me so much.
• 19:54
  Speaker 1: It's supposed to be your sanctuary. So it's good to.
• 19:57
  Speaker 2: Hear that it is. And it's not just.
• 19:59
  Speaker 1: An endless project for you, Like you enjoy it.
• 20:01
  Speaker 2: I enjoy it.
• 20:02
  Speaker 3: But also I don't even know what an endless project
• 20:05
  Speaker 3: is because I'm really bad with that stuff.
• 20:06
  Speaker 2: You know, I'm like, wait, is that messed up? Okay,
• 20:09
  Speaker 2: well I'll deal with that later.
• 20:10
  Speaker 1: You know what, I really it brings you joy.
• 20:12
  Speaker 3: My house brings me a lot of joy, like just
• 20:15
  Speaker 3: waking up and and being in I just love my
• 20:18
  Speaker 3: space and that brings me joy.
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: That's important.
• 20:22
  Speaker 2: But I think that's the most that. I think that's
• 20:24
  Speaker 2: the thing.
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: You know, and you have the people in your life
• 20:26
  Speaker 1: that you want to have in your life for sure,
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: My girlfriends who I adore, my family.
• 20:31
  Speaker 2: I mean, I am a lover of Los Angeles.
• 20:34
  Speaker 3: A lot of people are not, and and a lot
• 20:36
  Speaker 3: of people don't want to be here anymore because there's
• 20:40
  Speaker 3: really no industry here anymore and there's no reason to
• 20:43
  Speaker 3: really be in LA anymore.
• 20:45
  Speaker 2: But I love La.
• 20:46
  Speaker 1: Well, then that's I love La.
• 20:49
  Speaker 3: And it's like I will drive around professing my love
• 20:52
  Speaker 3: to La NonStop.
• 20:53
  Speaker 4: I love you.
• 20:55
  Speaker 2: I love the one on one.
• 20:57
  Speaker 1: Oh god, I'm gonna call you when I'm on one
• 21:00
  Speaker 1: on one at four o'clock. I'm like, talk me down
• 21:02
  Speaker 1: off this ledge, justinea because I'm ready to start driving
• 21:05
  Speaker 1: east and never to look back. What are you giving
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: yourself that? Are you giving yourself anything new? Like is
• 21:11
  Speaker 1: there something that you haven't done yet that you want
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: to do?
• 21:14
  Speaker 2: Oh my god? As far as like.
• 21:16
  Speaker 1: Working career personal, I mean.
• 21:18
  Speaker 3: I think, I I mean i'd like to I would.
• 21:21
  Speaker 3: I think I'm ready to find a partner, you know
• 21:23
  Speaker 3: what I mean. So that that's that's something that I'm
• 21:26
  Speaker 3: open to a romantic, you know, romantic, long term kind
• 21:29
  Speaker 3: of situation. And no, I think I'm doing everything I
• 21:33
  Speaker 3: want to do. I'm working towards stuff, you know, I'm working. Yeah,
• 21:39
  Speaker 3: I mean, i'd like to go back on Broadway. You
• 21:43
  Speaker 3: know the thing about when when I'm asked these kind
• 21:45
  Speaker 3: of questions, I always go like, work and I have
• 21:49
  Speaker 3: to start finding out other things that's interesting.
• 21:52
  Speaker 2: But I always wait to work.
• 21:53
  Speaker 3: I always going to work because I'm like, well, you
• 21:55
  Speaker 3: know the Yeah, it's like I'm not going to talk
• 21:57
  Speaker 3: about you know, like sensitive shit, you know what I mean.
• 22:03
  Speaker 3: You know, like when I was on Dancing with the Stars,
• 22:05
  Speaker 3: I'm like, oh, yes, it was like a cry fest,
• 22:08
  Speaker 3: you know, not for me, but anybody I'm when they're
• 22:11
  Speaker 3: telling the stories, I was like, that is not gonna
• 22:14
  Speaker 3: be me.
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: Justine is like, I don't give a fuck, girl, believe me.
• 22:18
  Speaker 2: They couldn't believe it. When I would say that, I
• 22:20
  Speaker 2: was like, I don't care.
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: I'm not telling you that.
• 22:22
  Speaker 2: Who cares? They were like, Okay, that's what's.
• 22:27
  Speaker 1: So glorious about you. If you don't put weight and
• 22:29
  Speaker 1: stock into a lot of stuff, you get to not
• 22:31
  Speaker 1: give a fuck.
• 22:31
  Speaker 2: Judy Reyes does an incredible impersonation of me.
• 22:34
  Speaker 1: She's like, I would have loved to have seen that
• 22:37
  Speaker 1: when she was there, but because you just reminded me,
• 22:40
  Speaker 1: because she was like, I'm like, so, what is it
• 22:41
  Speaker 1: what she's like?
• 22:42
  Speaker 2: And her impersonation was.
• 22:43
  Speaker 3: Like, girl, I don't give a fuck. Girl, I do
• 22:49
  Speaker 3: not give a fuck. That was her impersonation of me.
• 22:52
  Speaker 3: And that's exactly what I said. I'm like, I'll give
• 22:53
  Speaker 3: a fuck.
• 22:55
  Speaker 1: That's what I heard in the conger room.
• 22:57
  Speaker 2: Yeah, exactly. I know I could probably tone down on that.
• 23:04
  Speaker 2: I could probably bring.
• 23:05
  Speaker 3: Some more feminine energy to myself. I feel like I
• 23:08
  Speaker 3: wouldn't mind some more feminine energy.
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: You know, let me tell you about feminine energy. I
• 23:13
  Speaker 1: when I started dating again, you know, you met my guy.
• 23:16
  Speaker 2: I love your guys.
• 23:18
  Speaker 1: A good guy.
• 23:18
  Speaker 2: Everybody loves him.
• 23:19
  Speaker 1: He is a good guy. Ironed it.
• 23:21
  Speaker 2: Yes he did.
• 23:22
  Speaker 1: He deserves me. But when I started dating again and
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: I went on the dating apps, I was like.
• 23:31
  Speaker 2: I'm not doing that shit.
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: I'm not doing that shit that is we ear okay,
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: But I found my guy. But but I'll tell you
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: how I found my guy because I chose I'm like everybody,
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: sit down, I'll tell you. And I went through my
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: south and I'm like, how about you, let's talk, And
• 23:45
  Speaker 1: that was it because there were too many weird There
• 23:47
  Speaker 1: was a lot of good guys that were kind of
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: slipping in my dms. Not my type, but very viable gentleman.
• 23:52
  Speaker 1: So that made me feel good. I'm like, thank you, okay,
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: but thank you, and then like you're younger than my son.
• 23:57
  Speaker 1: That's unacceptable. Okay. But anyway, when I started dating, I
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: started getting into that total dating app thing because I
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: didn't date. I didn't want to go on multiple dates.
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: I was uncomfortable with that. I thought, how am I
• 24:10
  Speaker 1: going to find this person that exists for me? He
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: has to be okay with my masculine energy because I'm
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: a very strong woman, but yet treat me like a
• 24:19
  Speaker 1: woman and yet be man enough to do one thing
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: or the other but not break when I get very
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: masculine because I am am I going to find them
• 24:28
  Speaker 1: in la? I don't know because I don't eat you know,
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: I eat gluten and I don't do yoga under a waterfall,
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: and I'm just a little you know, I love me
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: a good beer, and that's not really I don't find
• 24:45
  Speaker 1: a lot of men in LA that.
• 24:46
  Speaker 2: Like that girl.
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: I don't know.
• 24:47
  Speaker 3: I don't know, because we've only been in the world
• 24:52
  Speaker 3: of actors and producers and directors.
• 24:55
  Speaker 1: Kind of didn't want one of those either, And that's
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: my problem. And I grew up in the Midwest, Honors.
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: My dad taught us how to mow the lawn. We
• 25:02
  Speaker 1: didn't live on a farm, but everybody had properties. I'm
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: taught my son how to tie a tie, mow the lawn.
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: My daughter had to mow the lawns. Like listen, God forbid,
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: you have to know your own, Laine. So I'm like,
• 25:11
  Speaker 1: how am I going to find that here?
• 25:13
  Speaker 2: I found?
• 25:14
  Speaker 1: I know, amazing, I love him, I have thank you.
• 25:17
  Speaker 1: But I let's talk about this. The dating apps can
• 25:20
  Speaker 1: work because you can see what they are and what
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: they did.
• 25:23
  Speaker 2: I'm going to be honest.
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: Yeah, embarrassing to to say you're on one. Yeah, well
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: you had to tell nobody.
• 25:29
  Speaker 3: Well also that somebody could see me on one. That's
• 25:31
  Speaker 3: embarrassing to me, you know what I mean. It's just like,
• 25:34
  Speaker 3: I don't know. I just feel like just because I
• 25:36
  Speaker 3: come from such a different world, you know, Uh, I
• 25:40
  Speaker 3: just I don't know, And then not only that, I
• 25:43
  Speaker 3: think it's bizarre that you tell everybody everything about yourself
• 25:46
  Speaker 3: and like some paragraph look at the paragraphs.
• 25:50
  Speaker 2: This is big.
• 25:50
  Speaker 3: But also I know that I'm outdated, and I know
• 25:53
  Speaker 3: that it's not I know that everybody does it, and
• 25:55
  Speaker 3: I know that I'm in the I'm the minority. Yes,
• 25:59
  Speaker 3: I know that. I absolutely know that. I don't think
• 26:01
  Speaker 3: I'm right about it or anything. I'm just being honest
• 26:04
  Speaker 3: of how it feels to me. But all my friends
• 26:09
  Speaker 3: have done it. I mean people have gotten married off
• 26:11
  Speaker 3: of it, you know. So it's not even anything like shameful.
• 26:14
  Speaker 3: It's just something that I would have to get over.
• 26:17
  Speaker 1: I agree with you, and I will tell you that
• 26:19
  Speaker 1: I only spent two weeks.
• 26:21
  Speaker 2: On the dating app.
• 26:22
  Speaker 1: It's amazing because I didn't want to be on the
• 26:25
  Speaker 1: dating app. And the only reason I gone on it
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: is because I lost a bet with a friend. She said,
• 26:29
  Speaker 1: if you lose, you're going on the dating app, and
• 26:30
  Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm on, let's do it. And I lost. Oh,
• 26:33
  Speaker 1: so she was like, we're gonna take this picture and
• 26:35
  Speaker 1: this picture and that's shit too. Yeah, no, all of that.
• 26:39
  Speaker 2: Like I was on that Raya for like a month.
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: You heard my complaint about Rya Raya. If you don't know,
• 26:45
  Speaker 1: is this high flutin motherfucker dating app for people who
• 26:48
  Speaker 1: are in public eye So it's private blah blah blah.
• 26:52
  Speaker 1: It's only like actors.
• 26:53
  Speaker 2: Or visible breatheople. I thought it was okay, that's great.
• 26:56
  Speaker 1: I love it.
• 26:57
  Speaker 2: But it didn't do well.
• 26:59
  Speaker 1: It didn't didn't even let me in.
• 27:02
  Speaker 2: They made me.
• 27:02
  Speaker 1: They put me on a wait list for two and
• 27:04
  Speaker 1: a half years.
• 27:06
  Speaker 2: Yeah okay.
• 27:07
  Speaker 1: And then, by the way, I didn't mention this because
• 27:09
  Speaker 1: I know you heard this story. When they finally I
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: was I had met Carrie off Hinge, Thank you Hinge.
• 27:15
  Speaker 1: Contrast Hello, Yeah, I mean I met Carrie on Hinge,
• 27:20
  Speaker 1: and about a year into our relationship, I get an
• 27:23
  Speaker 1: email congratulations you are accepted into RAYA. I'm like, Raya,
• 27:29
  Speaker 1: I found my guy on Hinge.
• 27:32
  Speaker 2: Yeah, Rayah. It was interesting.
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: So but you got in?
• 27:35
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I got it.
• 27:35
  Speaker 1: And what kind of what kind of memory we're hitting
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: you up.
• 27:38
  Speaker 3: Old white men, which was interesting. I was like, oh okay,
• 27:42
  Speaker 3: I mean like no other color, no other whatever, just
• 27:45
  Speaker 3: like like a whole bunch of old white guys. I
• 27:47
  Speaker 3: was like, well, all right, a white guy let me see.
• 27:51
  Speaker 3: And you know why, because I told the truth about
• 27:53
  Speaker 3: my age.
• 27:54
  Speaker 2: Those fuckers, you know what I mean. I'm like, I'm
• 27:57
  Speaker 2: telling you.
• 27:58
  Speaker 3: It's like they're like, oh, she's fit, digel blah blah blah.
• 28:01
  Speaker 2: You gotta be like for a thirty eight and shit
• 28:03
  Speaker 2: for the first year old.
• 28:05
  Speaker 3: Yeah, basically, basically I had like sixty year olds to
• 28:08
  Speaker 3: seventy year olds. I was like, because I said I
• 28:11
  Speaker 3: was fifty something and the picture was super cute, I'm like,
• 28:13
  Speaker 3: I'm sorry, what's not matching here. I'm not gonna lie
• 28:17
  Speaker 3: about my fucking age. By the way, I can't lie
• 28:19
  Speaker 3: about it because it's stupid ass IMDb and all these
• 28:22
  Speaker 3: other places that started telling our age in the early
• 28:26
  Speaker 3: two thousands.
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: Well, you don't put your last name, obviously, my child,
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: what do you mean you don't put your you don't
• 28:31
  Speaker 1: put a last name, You just put Justina.
• 28:33
  Speaker 3: Okay, And then like I didn't know that, I put
• 28:36
  Speaker 3: the whole fucking thing up.
• 28:41
  Speaker 2: I was like, what are you talking about.
• 28:43
  Speaker 3: I'm like, Houstina Milo Maio nineteen seventy two September six, virgol.
• 28:55
  Speaker 2: Girl. I give them all the informations.
• 28:57
  Speaker 3: They're like, old bitch, oh, like I don't feel that way. Obviously,
• 29:01
  Speaker 3: I don't look that way. I don't feel that way.
• 29:04
  Speaker 3: But that's what that whole experience kind of. I mean literally,
• 29:08
  Speaker 3: the men were sixty five to seventy years old.
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: I cannot tell you how many of our girlfriends and
• 29:15
  Speaker 1: some that you haven't met yet that have been on
• 29:17
  Speaker 1: the show that disclosed that they are on dating apps.
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: Because this town is impossible. That is, it's really if it's.
• 29:24
  Speaker 3: Still have hope though you should have a home and
• 29:26
  Speaker 3: it doesn't have to be in this town, you know,
• 29:28
  Speaker 3: like like you know.
• 29:30
  Speaker 1: You put on that like you like New York Chicago.
• 29:32
  Speaker 2: I only did that for three weeks. I didn't put
• 29:35
  Speaker 2: anything on it except your whole name exactly. Who's seen.
• 29:40
  Speaker 3: That's not even my acting name. My act name is
• 29:42
  Speaker 3: just just Sina Machado. I just give them the whole thing.
• 29:45
  Speaker 1: Everything here, it's all here.
• 29:48
  Speaker 2: You tell me from Chicago. There you go figure it out.
• 29:51
  Speaker 4: Cut the ship, let's go. Yeah, Oh my god, that's
• 29:54
  Speaker 4: so funny. Oh my god, girl, I did not know that.
• 29:56
  Speaker 4: That's hilarious.
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: Do you give yourself credit for all that you have
• 30:11
  Speaker 1: done and.
• 30:11
  Speaker 3: Become rarely because I'm always and this is not a
• 30:17
  Speaker 3: good thing searching for more?
• 30:19
  Speaker 2: Do you know what I mean to accomplish more?
• 30:21
  Speaker 3: I mean, it's a nice thing to be to be ambitious,
• 30:24
  Speaker 3: but it's not a good thing to not. You need
• 30:27
  Speaker 3: gratitude or nothing's going to happen for you. Yeah, and
• 30:29
  Speaker 3: I know that sounds like so cliche and like granola,
• 30:33
  Speaker 3: but if you don't have gratitude, nothing is.
• 30:35
  Speaker 2: Going to happen for you.
• 30:37
  Speaker 1: Agreed.
• 30:37
  Speaker 2: I agreed.
• 30:38
  Speaker 3: So I have to like sometimes go oh, yeah, you know,
• 30:42
  Speaker 3: but people don't understand that, yes, this is a profession,
• 30:44
  Speaker 3: but it's also your life. And I don't think people
• 30:47
  Speaker 3: they're always like, yeah, you're not what you do. You're right,
• 30:49
  Speaker 3: But you be an actor in this city for thirty
• 30:52
  Speaker 3: years and you tell me that. They don't just start
• 30:55
  Speaker 3: to go like this with each other. Of course they do.
• 30:58
  Speaker 3: And then you have to remind yourself and take yourself
• 31:00
  Speaker 3: out of it and say yes, but you know, I
• 31:03
  Speaker 3: don't look at sixty like people look at it or
• 31:05
  Speaker 3: whatever the age is that you're supposed to retire, if
• 31:08
  Speaker 3: there's anything left when people retire, I don't look at that.
• 31:12
  Speaker 2: We don't think about things like that.
• 31:14
  Speaker 1: Now. I my retirement is looking at when can I
• 31:18
  Speaker 1: have enough money to build a guest house in the
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: back from my parents. That's my retirement. When I get
• 31:24
  Speaker 1: to that point, yes, and I'm just like, hurry up,
• 31:27
  Speaker 1: because you know they're getting They're totally viable, and they're
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: fit and they're fine. But I know that's what I
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: want in my future, and I measure that by where
• 31:35
  Speaker 1: am I in my career?
• 31:36
  Speaker 3: Yeah, right, because that's what that's what dictates our future financially,
• 31:41
  Speaker 3: you know what I mean, if we could step away
• 31:43
  Speaker 3: from the money and then I would be very very
• 31:46
  Speaker 3: proud of everything that I've done. And I'm sure you
• 31:49
  Speaker 3: feel the same way about yourself, because I mean very
• 31:52
  Speaker 3: proud of our accomplishments and you know, and and it's
• 31:55
  Speaker 3: when you put the money in that you just like,
• 31:58
  Speaker 3: you know, I got to keep moving.
• 31:59
  Speaker 1: I gotta keep Yeah, there is I do think that
• 32:03
  Speaker 1: that's something that happens in midlife, though, that do we
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: stop and get off the treadmill for half a second
• 32:09
  Speaker 1: and take a look and see all that we've done
• 32:11
  Speaker 1: so that we can accurately measure where and what we
• 32:15
  Speaker 1: want to put our efforts and energy into this next chapter.
• 32:18
  Speaker 1: Because one of the things that I keep saying over
• 32:19
  Speaker 1: and over again is obviously society puts this template on
• 32:23
  Speaker 1: us as middle age is you're almost done, You're on
• 32:25
  Speaker 1: the downside, and like, no, I have I'm still sporning
• 32:29
  Speaker 1: children or you know, one of them, the other ones
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: has flown the coop. But the and then a lot
• 32:35
  Speaker 1: of us have aging parents and we're moving into that
• 32:37
  Speaker 1: chapter and so we cannot retire, We cannot even think
• 32:41
  Speaker 1: about it. We have so much on our plate and
• 32:44
  Speaker 1: just trying to identify then what's left for me and
• 32:47
  Speaker 1: what do I want with whatever's left of me? How
• 32:49
  Speaker 1: much do I want to put into not wasting my
• 32:51
  Speaker 1: time in doing this?
• 32:52
  Speaker 3: That is, yes, yes, And I think that's a hard
• 32:54
  Speaker 3: question for us because it's like then we're in this
• 32:57
  Speaker 3: business where they kind of start telling you you're not
• 33:00
  Speaker 3: viable anymore, and so then you're and you know, it
• 33:03
  Speaker 3: hasn't been that bad. I don't want it to sound
• 33:05
  Speaker 3: like it's been so horrible for me, because it hasn't
• 33:06
  Speaker 3: been bad for you or for me.
• 33:08
  Speaker 2: It's just been different.
• 33:10
  Speaker 1: It is Society does that in general, the entertainment industry
• 33:15
  Speaker 1: or not. Society does that to women all the time. Yeah,
• 33:18
  Speaker 1: telling them that they're not viable or that they're the
• 33:20
  Speaker 1: old person, or yeah, being called a boomer when you're not, Oh.
• 33:24
  Speaker 3: God, enough with that boomer ship. Like I'm like, I'm
• 33:27
  Speaker 3: generation Eggs. Okay, boomer, I'm like what does that mean?
• 33:31
  Speaker 3: And like it's a boomer. I don't even it was
• 33:34
  Speaker 3: like I don't even know parents people. Okay, Well, why
• 33:37
  Speaker 3: they're calling us boomers?
• 33:39
  Speaker 1: That's the slam. That's the generation eggs, you know, the
• 33:43
  Speaker 1: serah fox given.
• 33:44
  Speaker 3: That's right because we had to basically do everything ourselves.
• 33:49
  Speaker 2: It's it, that's it.
• 33:50
  Speaker 1: And that's and that's why I say, it's just it seems,
• 33:52
  Speaker 1: you know. I'm on this question to ask all my girlfriends.
• 33:55
  Speaker 1: Do you stop and ask yourself if you've done enough?
• 33:57
  Speaker 1: And what else do you want to do? And where
• 33:59
  Speaker 1: do you want to put your your time and attention
• 34:03
  Speaker 1: do you do? Are you good with self care?
• 34:06
  Speaker 2: Yeah? I just like I'm kind of I think I
• 34:10
  Speaker 2: am good with self care. I just have.
• 34:12
  Speaker 3: A little a little bit of add So I jump
• 34:15
  Speaker 3: around a lot, like I start this and I'm like
• 34:17
  Speaker 3: oh this, and then I'm like oh that. So I'm
• 34:19
  Speaker 3: like this like a fluttering little person in my house
• 34:22
  Speaker 3: but yeah, I mean I think I'm good at it.
• 34:25
  Speaker 3: I mean, especially when in my old place, I was
• 34:28
  Speaker 3: really close to my acupuncturist, so I would see her
• 34:30
  Speaker 3: once a week and I would, you know, I would
• 34:33
  Speaker 3: do those kind of things that were very important for
• 34:35
  Speaker 3: me once a week acupuncture, you know, the face stuff,
• 34:40
  Speaker 3: and we have to you know, so I think.
• 34:42
  Speaker 2: I am I forget you.
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: You recommend that acupuncturist and I went, I think once
• 34:46
  Speaker 1: or twice. I love so bad at getting at staying
• 34:49
  Speaker 1: with that, but that is really something.
• 34:51
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I and that was something that I did all
• 34:53
  Speaker 3: the time. Now because I'm in a different place in
• 34:55
  Speaker 3: the city. I'm just trying to find, you know, my
• 34:57
  Speaker 3: stuff and where I'm at so I don't have to
• 34:59
  Speaker 3: be the.
• 35:00
  Speaker 2: Four or five for forty five minutes to an hour.
• 35:02
  Speaker 1: Did your mom talk to you about midlife menoponds never
• 35:06
  Speaker 1: need no?
• 35:07
  Speaker 3: And this is why when this started to happen to me,
• 35:09
  Speaker 3: I asked every single girlfriend my age, and every single
• 35:12
  Speaker 3: girlfriend was like, I'm in the same boat you are,
• 35:15
  Speaker 3: because I think I even asked you, yeah, and you
• 35:17
  Speaker 3: gave me your doctor's name, and I kept asking, and
• 35:19
  Speaker 3: I remember I was getting my hair done, and Katie
• 35:21
  Speaker 3: Sagal was there and I even asked, Katie Sigal, did
• 35:24
  Speaker 3: you know?
• 35:24
  Speaker 1: Did you know?
• 35:26
  Speaker 2: I love Katy, Katie, I just want to know, how
• 35:30
  Speaker 2: did you deal with this? Did you do with it?
• 35:31
  Speaker 1: Now? That little apron? Did you get an apron?
• 35:33
  Speaker 2: You know? She did it?
• 35:34
  Speaker 1: No?
• 35:34
  Speaker 2: I love her.
• 35:36
  Speaker 3: I love Katie. And that's how desperate I was. I
• 35:39
  Speaker 3: mean I never had a conversation. I mean, she was
• 35:41
  Speaker 3: getting her hair washed.
• 35:42
  Speaker 2: And I was like, Katie, have you ever done hormones?
• 35:46
  Speaker 3: She's like, oh, honey, I started that, you know, and
• 35:48
  Speaker 3: she was giving me, like answering me stuff that nobody
• 35:53
  Speaker 3: had ever. They don't talk about it because my mother
• 35:55
  Speaker 3: didn't get hormones because they wouldn't give it to her.
• 35:58
  Speaker 3: My mother's seventy two years old. They wouldn't give it
• 36:00
  Speaker 3: to her. She just had to like muscle through it.
• 36:03
  Speaker 3: And there are things that people just didn't talk about.
• 36:05
  Speaker 3: All I heard was that you were gonna sweat. That's
• 36:07
  Speaker 3: all I thought.
• 36:08
  Speaker 1: I didn't even get that. I didn't even get that.
• 36:10
  Speaker 1: And it's amazing they first of all, they didn't have
• 36:14
  Speaker 1: titles like fuupus, you know, like they didn't like that's
• 36:17
  Speaker 1: just that's now sticking with us for the rest of
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: our lives. Yeah, they got to walk past that. But
• 36:22
  Speaker 1: my mother always says that she didn't feel a thing.
• 36:24
  Speaker 1: She had a doctor point out to her, like you're
• 36:26
  Speaker 1: a menopause.
• 36:27
  Speaker 2: She's like, I am, oh, that's actually great.
• 36:29
  Speaker 1: It's so great, and she reminds me of it often
• 36:31
  Speaker 1: and it's like I'm but I and I admire her.
• 36:35
  Speaker 1: My body did not go through the same experience. It
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: hasn't been as brutal as some of my girlfriends that
• 36:40
  Speaker 1: I've heard.
• 36:41
  Speaker 3: Mine hasn't been as brutal either. And I think the
• 36:44
  Speaker 3: hormone therapy has a lot to do with it. And
• 36:47
  Speaker 3: I think reminding yourself that give you know what I've done.
• 36:49
  Speaker 3: I've given myself a lot of breaks because sometimes I
• 36:52
  Speaker 3: get real angry and I'm like, girl, are.
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: You so mad? You know?
• 36:55
  Speaker 3: Or like real and I just have to remind myself
• 36:57
  Speaker 3: it's the hormones. It's the hormones, or just really emotional,
• 37:01
  Speaker 3: you know, it's the hormones. It's the hormones that that's
• 37:04
  Speaker 3: you're just all over the place. Imagine that you don't
• 37:07
  Speaker 3: have the thing that helps you. The men didn't have
• 37:10
  Speaker 3: their testosterone or whatever.
• 37:12
  Speaker 1: They fix that problem.
• 37:13
  Speaker 3: You know, they always fix a man problem. You know
• 37:15
  Speaker 3: that there's a shortage of progesterone in the country right now, Yes,
• 37:18
  Speaker 3: I do.
• 37:18
  Speaker 2: And do you think there's a shortage of viagra? No,
• 37:21
  Speaker 2: I'm probably not. I'm pretty sure that. Yeah, there's a
• 37:25
  Speaker 2: shortage of progesterone.
• 37:27
  Speaker 3: I mean, if you don't take progesterone with the estrogen
• 37:30
  Speaker 3: that can cause cancer. And there's a worldwide shortage right now.
• 37:34
  Speaker 3: Because honestly, at the end of the day, I hate
• 37:37
  Speaker 3: to say that, but a lot of times they don't
• 37:38
  Speaker 3: give a shit.
• 37:39
  Speaker 2: About a woman that is definitely don't give a.
• 37:41
  Speaker 3: Shit, and it's like, oh, well, too bad, deal with it.
• 37:45
  Speaker 3: A shortage of I mean I couldn't believe it, and
• 37:47
  Speaker 3: luckily I got it because you know, you're privy to
• 37:52
  Speaker 3: certain pharmacies or privy to certain doctors that can help you.
• 37:56
  Speaker 2: But imagine just like in.
• 37:59
  Speaker 3: The Midwest, in Chicago and whatever, and there's a shortage
• 38:02
  Speaker 3: of progesterone.
• 38:02
  Speaker 1: Yeah, and we don't even and and the fact that
• 38:04
  Speaker 1: there hasn't even been the information hasn't been made readily
• 38:09
  Speaker 1: available enough for women across the country and across other
• 38:12
  Speaker 1: countries are far exceeding their excuse, their knowledge and their
• 38:16
  Speaker 1: their resources distribution than than than us. Imagine them not
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: knowing because the conversation hasn't become everyday household conversations.
• 38:24
  Speaker 3: It hasn't, it hasn't. So yeah, oh yeah, I just
• 38:28
  Speaker 3: got a brain fuck. I forgot we were talking.
• 38:29
  Speaker 1: About were right on track this track.
• 38:33
  Speaker 2: I was like, wait, I kind of forgot what she just.
• 38:36
  Speaker 1: Said we're just talking about about.
• 38:40
  Speaker 2: I forgot this is?
• 38:41
  Speaker 1: This is a Tuesday for us? Where's our medication? This is?
• 38:49
  Speaker 2: And this is it?
• 38:49
  Speaker 1: Like we have been muscling through. And part of the
• 38:52
  Speaker 1: brilliance about the fact that we have survived this so
• 38:55
  Speaker 1: far is because we happen to be a generation that's
• 38:57
  Speaker 1: really resourceful and we're very resilient.
• 39:00
  Speaker 2: Oh my god, are we ever?
• 39:01
  Speaker 1: So we don't even realize how much we're carrying on
• 39:05
  Speaker 1: our shoulders that we don't have to.
• 39:06
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's a good one. That's that's one that I'd
• 39:09
  Speaker 2: like to.
• 39:11
  Speaker 3: Start getting rid of stuff that I don't have to carry, Yeah,
• 39:14
  Speaker 3: and just focus on the stuff that needs to be
• 39:17
  Speaker 3: done and feel good.
• 39:19
  Speaker 1: Yeah, what's one thing that you think you don't have
• 39:22
  Speaker 1: to carry that you should put down.
• 39:27
  Speaker 2: I don't have to carry that.
• 39:32
  Speaker 3: God, there's so many, but I think I don't have
• 39:35
  Speaker 3: to carry that, my number, my number, the age, I
• 39:40
  Speaker 3: don't have to carry that. It doesn't mean anything, you
• 39:43
  Speaker 3: know what I mean. I'm timeless, and like we're all timeless,
• 39:47
  Speaker 3: and I don't have to go into something because that
• 39:50
  Speaker 3: happens a lot of Oh Jesus, Like or even if
• 39:52
  Speaker 3: a guy I'm like.
• 39:52
  Speaker 2: Well, how old is he?
• 39:53
  Speaker 3: I mean, I mean with forty, Well I'm fifty three,
• 39:56
  Speaker 3: I'm like, who cares, girl.
• 39:57
  Speaker 2: He's forty.
• 39:58
  Speaker 1: Go for it. That's right, that's right, you.
• 40:01
  Speaker 3: Know, or stuff like that, or or just or just like, oh,
• 40:05
  Speaker 3: they're never going to consider me for this because even
• 40:07
  Speaker 3: though they do that a lot here, but still like
• 40:10
  Speaker 3: not helping them and not putting that energy out there,
• 40:12
  Speaker 3: that this number is going to stop me in some
• 40:15
  Speaker 3: way of accomplishing the stuff or stop me from being
• 40:19
  Speaker 3: me just because I have a number that I've never
• 40:24
  Speaker 3: imagined before.
• 40:25
  Speaker 1: Yep.
• 40:26
  Speaker 2: Yeah, So I think that is something that's a big one.
• 40:29
  Speaker 3: Yeah, And I think it'll help all of us because
• 40:31
  Speaker 3: that when we start stop focusing on that, then everybody
• 40:35
  Speaker 3: else stops focusing on that.
• 40:36
  Speaker 1: That's it if that, you know, they say, actually to
• 40:40
  Speaker 1: like in the theater and you're holding a pen and
• 40:44
  Speaker 1: you drop it on the floor, And if you don't
• 40:47
  Speaker 1: pick it up and live in that moment and just
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: put it back, what's everybody going to start focusing? Yeah,
• 40:51
  Speaker 1: you know, just just just pick it up and throw
• 40:53
  Speaker 1: it away. And it's it's dumb analogy maybe, but the
• 40:57
  Speaker 1: fact is that we can. We can sit there and
• 41:00
  Speaker 1: highlight something or spotlight something that no one would have known.
• 41:03
  Speaker 3: No one's talking about it. And for me, you know,
• 41:06
  Speaker 3: like going up and like my manager.
• 41:07
  Speaker 2: Gets so angry at me.
• 41:09
  Speaker 3: I mean, we're very good friends, we love each other,
• 41:11
  Speaker 3: and she's always like, would you stop.
• 41:13
  Speaker 2: Telling people how old you are? Like, oh, I don't know.
• 41:16
  Speaker 3: I just felt like I should say it because of
• 41:18
  Speaker 3: the case they were, you know, because it was because
• 41:20
  Speaker 3: it's so weird to me that that's what I have
• 41:22
  Speaker 3: to let go of.
• 41:23
  Speaker 2: It's like, girls, stop it's boring, keep it moving, girl.
• 41:26
  Speaker 1: I will say that I have called out girlfriends to
• 41:29
  Speaker 1: quit introducing us as the old bitches.
• 41:31
  Speaker 2: Girl or calling us the theas. I'm like, I'm good
• 41:35
  Speaker 2: with that, but look at yourself before you call me.
• 41:37
  Speaker 1: All how old.
• 41:38
  Speaker 2: Are you my friends? We say, what do you mean?
• 41:41
  Speaker 4: We?
• 41:42
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it's called us the old bitches.
• 41:46
  Speaker 1: We have a few of our friends. I loved it.
• 41:48
  Speaker 1: It's always in jest. It's funny. But one time somebody said,
• 41:51
  Speaker 1: because we're we're older than dirt. I'm like, who you
• 41:54
  Speaker 1: talking about? Older than that?
• 41:56
  Speaker 3: Older than dirt would be like, you know, my dear
• 41:59
  Speaker 3: fabulous friend who loved I loved so much, who passed away,
• 42:02
  Speaker 3: Norman Lear.
• 42:03
  Speaker 2: He was one hundred and one years old.
• 42:05
  Speaker 1: He was dirty. Yes, he's like he was.
• 42:06
  Speaker 2: One hundred and one. I mean, if we're saying that,
• 42:09
  Speaker 2: but we're nowhere near. Yes, he was the best man,
• 42:12
  Speaker 2: the most.
• 42:12
  Speaker 1: But if you're going to be one hundred and one,
• 42:13
  Speaker 1: be one hundred and one like him.
• 42:15
  Speaker 2: Come on, man by what a life and what a
• 42:18
  Speaker 2: vibrant man. But you know him and Rita, my god,
• 42:22
  Speaker 2: Rida's going to be ninety five.
• 42:24
  Speaker 1: Rea is the epitome of beauty inside and out. And
• 42:28
  Speaker 1: every time I do see her at one of our things,
• 42:31
  Speaker 1: I just can't. She's just staring at her.
• 42:36
  Speaker 2: I loved you in one day. Oh no, you're not
• 42:38
  Speaker 2: just and you know what I would do?
• 42:44
  Speaker 1: You're like, yes, Rita.
• 42:46
  Speaker 2: Yes, yes, yes, yes, just Sita.
• 42:49
  Speaker 1: Yes, I would go with it. Oh my god. I
• 42:52
  Speaker 1: can't stop staring at her because I look at her
• 42:54
  Speaker 1: and I'm like, god, she's so beauty.
• 42:56
  Speaker 2: She's insanely gorgeous.
• 42:57
  Speaker 3: Oh my god, and she's going to be ninety five
• 42:59
  Speaker 3: years You would never know.
• 43:01
  Speaker 1: You know why, because she doesn't. She didn't talk about that. No,
• 43:04
  Speaker 1: she does. She says it with pride and she moves on.
• 43:06
  Speaker 3: Now she says it exactly, and I think that that's
• 43:10
  Speaker 3: I think I'm at a point where I don't even
• 43:12
  Speaker 3: want to say it. No one's asking me, don't make
• 43:15
  Speaker 3: it a deal, and I think that's the biggest thing
• 43:17
  Speaker 3: for me.
• 43:18
  Speaker 2: Don't make it a big deal.
• 43:19
  Speaker 1: I agree, all right. But then to bring this to
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: a close, because you have a lot of good answers,
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: do you have any questions? And I like to close
• 43:28
  Speaker 1: it with you posing the question of is it just
• 43:32
  Speaker 1: me or is anybody else? Blank? And it could be
• 43:37
  Speaker 1: anything like you know, uh, is.
• 43:41
  Speaker 2: It just me?
• 43:43
  Speaker 3: Or is anyone else who is of my age? Thinking
• 43:47
  Speaker 3: how much time they waste it when they were young
• 43:51
  Speaker 3: and super hot and fabulous and literally thought you weren't. Yes,
• 43:55
  Speaker 3: so ridiculous. I try to tell every young woman. I
• 43:59
  Speaker 3: feel more confident about myself than I did when I
• 44:03
  Speaker 3: was younger, and I looked way better back then, and
• 44:06
  Speaker 3: so like, I just try to like tell these young
• 44:09
  Speaker 3: women to just oh my god, just appreciate where you are,
• 44:12
  Speaker 3: you know what I mean, and know you're your worth
• 44:15
  Speaker 3: and your power, because there's so much power and so
• 44:19
  Speaker 3: much worth, and what a waste of time? What a
• 44:22
  Speaker 3: waste of time? And so I think about that constantly.
• 44:26
  Speaker 3: I look at pictures and I'm like, what when I
• 44:28
  Speaker 3: literally was dogging my self out? Yeah, And then I'm like,
• 44:34
  Speaker 3: how what a waste of time?
• 44:36
  Speaker 1: Definitely, And we all know that in fifteen years, we're
• 44:40
  Speaker 1: going to look back on this moment. We're like I
• 44:42
  Speaker 1: was a hot piece of ass.
• 44:44
  Speaker 2: I feel like that right now.
• 44:45
  Speaker 3: I'm like, you know what, I might have a little
• 44:47
  Speaker 3: bit of a home, and I'm not opposed to getting
• 44:50
  Speaker 3: rid of that. By the way, I'll go under the
• 44:52
  Speaker 3: knife real quick.
• 44:54
  Speaker 1: You said we're going to do it together, we want I'm.
• 44:57
  Speaker 2: Good with going under the knife. I don't. I'm not
• 44:59
  Speaker 2: one of those women that's like, ah, no, do it all.
• 45:01
  Speaker 3: I will walk out like this, I'll walk out like that,
• 45:04
  Speaker 3: everything will be up here.
• 45:05
  Speaker 2: I don't care. I don't give a fuck.
• 45:08
  Speaker 1: Then they're gonna be like, oh, you're not Justina, and
• 45:10
  Speaker 1: I'm like, no, I'm not Justina, Like just two point zero, I.
• 45:15
  Speaker 2: Don't care about that shit. People are like, oh, I'm
• 45:17
  Speaker 2: so against it. I am not do what you need
• 45:20
  Speaker 2: to do. Just haven't done it because it's.
• 45:22
  Speaker 3: Expensive, expressed, it's very, very expensive. That's the only reason
• 45:26
  Speaker 3: I haven't done all of these things.
• 45:29
  Speaker 1: But that's an excellent point, because we will criticize ourselves
• 45:33
  Speaker 1: all the way to the end and realize that we
• 45:35
  Speaker 1: didn't appreciate one moment of our life.
• 45:36
  Speaker 2: Ridiculous.
• 45:37
  Speaker 3: And I don't feel that way right now, Like I
• 45:40
  Speaker 3: feel like I wanna.
• 45:43
  Speaker 2: I don't feel the way I felt when I was younger.
• 45:48
  Speaker 3: I really feel confident, and I'll look in the mirror
• 45:51
  Speaker 3: and I'll be like, it's not bad for fifty three
• 45:53
  Speaker 3: years old, you know what I mean.
• 45:55
  Speaker 2: And I haven't even done what I'm gonna do.
• 45:57
  Speaker 1: When I come out, if I will be like what
• 46:02
  Speaker 1: size is, She's like, I'll be there cheering you on.
• 46:08
  Speaker 2: We'll be there anywhere we'll be. We'll be recovering together.
• 46:11
  Speaker 1: We're trying to find a surgeon that will do this
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: and give us a discount.
• 46:13
  Speaker 2: Give us a discount, give us a discount, surgeon.
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  Speaker 3: We'll be holding hands like this when your face is
• 46:18
  Speaker 3: all wrapped up, and we'll be like it.
• 46:20
  Speaker 2: Was worth it. Let's do this.
• 46:21
  Speaker 1: I don't give a fuck. I don't give a fun
• 46:23
  Speaker 1: give And on that note, uh, this was sent to
• 46:27
  Speaker 1: me by Carrie, my guy.
• 46:28
  Speaker 2: Oh, I love him.
• 46:29
  Speaker 1: He wanted to make sure that when he found this
• 46:31
  Speaker 1: T shirt that it went stop it.
• 46:37
  Speaker 2: Oh my god, can.
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: We see it? Are we getting a good shot of this?
• 46:40
  Speaker 2: He's like a man after my own heart.
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: He's like, this is for Justine. I'm like, I knows
• 46:46
  Speaker 1: that that.
• 46:47
  Speaker 2: Is me all the time. I'm like girl zero fus,
• 46:53
  Speaker 2: given Haldus, given yes.
• 46:55
  Speaker 1: Right here, perfect for this Chicago girl.
• 46:59
  Speaker 2: Shy town. Love it, love it.
• 47:02
  Speaker 1: I know that after people see this episode, they're gonna
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: understand why we are mistaken for each other and why
• 47:12
  Speaker 1: it's such a compliment to me that I am mistakeing
• 47:16
  Speaker 1: for you. I'm just grateful business or not mistaken identity
• 47:20
  Speaker 1: or not, that you're in my life me too. The
• 47:23
  Speaker 1: I love you, thank you for being here and thank
• 47:26
  Speaker 1: you for this. Zero gives a blast, dude, because when
• 47:31
  Speaker 1: you don't give a fuck, it's fun. There you go,
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: How hard can it be? With the animade Arriva is
• 47:39
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