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55: you haven't missed the train, the train misses you. · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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You have not missed the train.
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The train misses you.
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This is for you.
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If you have been telling yourself it is too late.
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It's too late to apply to grad school.
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It's too late to start a YouTube channel.
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It's too late for any of your dreams or desires to unfold.
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You have not missed the train.
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The train misses you.
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It misses your perspective.
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It misses your energy.
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It misses your frequency.
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It misses the wisdom you've gained in the process.
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It misses your gifts, your magic.
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The train misses you.
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So often we downplay what we are here to give and offer.
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And we make it as though our dreams are a train
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we just didn't get on on time.
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And in so doing we minimize all the magic and the mystery
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that we have lived and that has lived us
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and that we are able to bring to the relationship
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we think we're too late for.
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To the grad school program we are convinced we are too late for.
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To the apology we swear it's too late to give.
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So the universe has bestowed upon you so many gifts
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first of all your life force,
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second of all your perspective and energy.
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And what I think is so important is that you remember
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that no time has been wasted.
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You've gained wisdom.
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You've gained understanding.
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You've gained healing.
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You had things to do and providing compassion
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to the versions of you that didn't make this choice
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because so often we look back and we think
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why didn't I just start a YouTube channel?
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Why didn't I just write that book five years ago
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and understand that that version of you did the best they could.
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And now it is time for this version of you
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who is ready to take this step to do the best that you can
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to give what you can.
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There is this beautiful phrase by Rumi
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that I cannot stop thinking about
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whatever the ways of the world,
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what fruits do you bring by Sufi poet and mystic Rumi?
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No matter what may be happening,
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we all have something to offer.
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And in fact it is in that offering that we can raise and heal
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and serve the collective consciousness.
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Rumi was a mystic.
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I love mysticism.
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And what I believe in terms of speaking that mysticism is,
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it's when the meaning of what you're saying stretches beyond
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the actual words you are using.
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It's reaching towards another dimension
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and you can hear it in the words themselves,
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the words between the words.
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That's just one aspect of mysticism.
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But something that I think is very powerful
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when we say the same sentence to ourselves again and again,
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we start to hear a slightly different meaning of those words.
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I'm too late.
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I'm too late.
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Okay, but assuming we are many selves
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and there are many possibilities,
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the version of you that is too late is not all of you.
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There is an eye for whom it is too late.
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But there is another eye who's just getting started
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because we are many selves,
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just as we play many roles in our lives,
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there are many possibilities that we could choose
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to align to and to work towards.
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And sometimes my loves when we tell ourselves
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that we are too late for something,
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it's because we've chosen to maintain that belief
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because it protects us from having to take the difficult steps
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that not accepting that it's too late would have us take.
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What do I mean by that?
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Imagine the version of you that does not believe it's too late.
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They would have to act in accordance with that belief.
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They would have to act like it's not too late.
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So sometimes there is a belief that we are willing to cling to
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even more than the possibility beyond the belief,
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even more than the repair beyond the belief,
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even more than the love beyond the belief.
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Sometimes we want to be right that we're too late.
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We cling to the belief that we're too late.
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It gives us something.
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And so we choose the idea that we're too late
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over the possibility that there is still time.
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And the other thing we choose my loves,
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we choose the illusion that it had to happen
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the exact way that we thought it was going to happen,
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which is what we're actually too late for.
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Yes, we're too late for the fantasy of how we thought it could happen.
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We're not too late for the reality of how it still could.
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And so often we really need to break up with the illusion
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of how we think something is supposed to unfold.
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I was meant to start a YouTube channel five years ago.
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And if only I had done that, then I'd be in this place now
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and look where I am now.
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And I understand and I hold so much love
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for this kind of thinking.
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We are imaginative beings.
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We can see other possibilities,
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reaching to the past and searching to the future.
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We can see a choice that we could have made.
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This is called counterfactual thinking.
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And we're gifted in this to our current understanding
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where the only species who can actually think
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counterfactually, which is what allows us to be able
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to experience something like regret
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because we know it could have been otherwise, but it wasn't.
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But now here's the thing, my love.
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It still can be.
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It just can't be in the precise way
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and at the precise timing that you thought it had to be.
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So at the end of the illusion of what could have been
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is the truth and the reality of what is.
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And at the end of what is
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is still the radical possibility of what could be.
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Everything is still in motion.
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It's just not gonna go exactly the way
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that you had hoped it would go.
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And you can grieve that.
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You can grieve the fantasy, the desire,
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the illusion of how you thought your dreams
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were supposed to unfold.
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You can grieve that.
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You can feel the heartbreak and let that grief
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be the phoenix going into the ashes
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but then allow yourself to rise again.
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It gets me into this juicy and loving energy
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I'm worthy of creation.
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And it's not about perfectionism.
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It's not about proving myself to someone else
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or even to myself.
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Oh, that was so beautiful.
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Now, let's get back to today's sole session.
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Allow yourself to say, I thought I would do this
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when I was 22, but I'm doing it at 42.
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Whatever it is, allow another dream to come into being.
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Will you cling to what could have been with dear life?
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If only I had done that thing.
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If only they had made that choice.
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If only this had happened.
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Are you going to choose to cling to that?
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Are you going to choose to cling
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to the tension that you're in with your reality?
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Or are you going to step into the loving possibility
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of what could still be?
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And what could still be is a train full of people
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that cannot wait to experience your energy,
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that cannot wait to bask in your frequency.
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In whatever medium, you feel so generous as to one to share.
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In whatever way and whatever offering
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you are feeling called to give yourself,
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the collective, the earth, it is not too late.
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And if it is too late, it is only too late
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to the version of yourself that needs to believe that
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in order to protect themselves from taking the action
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in accordance with the possibility.
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Because it is a less than perfect action.
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It's not how you had hoped it would be.
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It's not at the age you hoped it would be.
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It's not in the way you hoped it would be.
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It's not at the school you hoped it would be.
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It's not in the path that you hoped it would be.
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But it can still be in a different way, in another light,
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in another hue, another frequency, another color.
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So it's too late for it to happen the exact way you thought,
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but what if my love, it could happen in an even more magical way?
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Because you know what they want us to demonize
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the process of aging, but you are so much more wise,
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you are so much more loving, you are so much more knowing,
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you have that intuitive voice that you are now listening to,
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you have the tools and the codes and the understandings
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that could make your experience of this journey even more magical
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than it might have been all those years ago.
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We don't know, again, counterfactual thinking
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and we only tend to think in one direction,
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how much better it could have been.
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We don't allow ourselves to think,
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oh, I could have taken that step
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and it actually could have not worked out.
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You know what I mean?
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But here we are now, here's this version of you.
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And there is something that is seeking to become through you.
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And all it's asking my love is that you allow it.
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And all we are asking, we who still believe
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in the possibility of your dreams
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and we who are dreaming through you,
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what I call the principle of collective dreaming,
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the idea that our dreams are not purely our own
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but us experiencing the collective dreaming through us.
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If you dream of teaching,
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there are students who dream of being taught by you.
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If you dream of speaking,
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there are people who dream of hearing you.
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If you dream of performing,
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there are people who dream of clapping for you.
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That is collective dreaming
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and that collective dream still exists.
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It's not in some buried past.
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At least not for the version of you
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that you need to allow yourself to become.
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You have not missed the train, the train misses you,
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the train misses all that you are going to bring to it
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when you decide to hop on bestie.
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To hop on my love and hop on not with a sense
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of your head being down and you're ashamed
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and widening, I come here sooner,
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you're looking at your phone, you're playing small, no.
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That is in the past.
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You are stepping onto that train
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in the fullness of your being,
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knowing you deserve to be there,
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trusting in divine timing that everything is happening
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in its aligned moment.
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We may not fully understand why it had to happen now
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in this way, but one day we're gonna look back
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and it's all going to make sense.
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Come with an open heart and know that there are open hearts
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who are waiting and living to receive your sensitivity,
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your frequency, your ideas, your perspective, your creations.
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It is not too late to start that newsletter.
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It is not too late to go back to that project
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that you swore you've abandoned
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and you don't get to return to
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because how dare you break the promise
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that you made to the project.
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It forgives you.
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We forgive you.
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Sometimes what I do is I write a letter
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from a project that I've been avoiding to myself.
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This is what I call creative kinship
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that we are in relationship with, everything we create.
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And sometimes we think, oh, because I didn't show up,
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because I ghosted you, I'm no longer worthy
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of this relationship, but creativity is a different
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kind of relationship.
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It's always and already available to you.
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You must decide and you must love yourself so much
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to believe that your creativity is not there
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to conditionally support you.
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It is an unconditional source of love,
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of support, of refuge.
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If you allow it to be, that's the thing.
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And the more you show up for it,
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the more it will show up for you, but understand this.
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Because the universe is a becoming, is an unfolding
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and you are here to help unfold something through you.
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That unfolding will always forgive you,
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even if you take unintended breaks,
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even if you avoid starting it,
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you're still worthy of starting it.
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And you've gained in the process of that starting.
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You haven't only lost, hold the vision my love,
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understand, it's all happening, it's all unfolding.
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I say that to myself almost once a day,
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it is all unfolding.
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People say, oh, when is it going to happen?
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It is already happening.
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Everything is a process.
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And we are in the process.
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Bamboo grows underground for five years
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before you can see it visibly above ground, five years.
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Garlic takes nine months to grow, nine months.
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That's why we just throw on everything.
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Oh, I love garlic so much, nine months.
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So we need to cultivate a sense of patience.
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I always say to myself, patience is an energy
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in the universe that is abundant
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and that always wants to collaborate with you.
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Patience is that overlooked energy.
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It's not glamorous enough.
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So a few people want to play with patience,
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but patience always wants to play with you.
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Patience always wants to be available to you.
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The farmer knows that.
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The dreamer knows that.
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The dreamer who's willing to hold the dream
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not for weeks or for months, but for years.
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The dreamer understands how powerful
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and how abundant the energy of patience is.
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If you can allow yourself to say, I have time.
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This is happening.
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It didn't happen by March.
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It didn't happen by my New Year's resolution,
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but it is happening.
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You'll be so powerful, my love.
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We talk about having a vision, creating a vision.
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If you can sustain a vision, oh.
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And take the aligned inspired action in alignment
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with that vision and forgive yourself
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when it doesn't go perfectly according to your plans
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and your goals and your weekly Baba Ba.
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And you can still say, this is still the vision.
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Ah, the power you will experience and also the release.
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Because when it doesn't have to happen by December,
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you can just sink into the pleasure of it already happening,
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of the knowing, of the trust is really what we're also
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talking about, trusting the dream, trusting yourself,
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trusting the universe, trusting the collective dreaming
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through you, trusting that the right collaborators
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are going to emerge to support you on your journey.
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Sometimes we think the support system I have now
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is the support system I always have.
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No, the more you allow yourself to be in your power,
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be in your energy, be in your truth,
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the more you are going to magnetize a support system
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towards you, a sole tribe, people who genuinely resonate
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on your frequency are going to be magnetized towards you.
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So will you allow yourself to become the version of yourself
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for whom it is not too late, for whom it is only the beginning?
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Will you choose the reality of what is and the possibility
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of what still can be over the illusion of what was supposed
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to be, what could have been, what wasn't?
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And that inner belief, the law of correspondence
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and your ability to hold it and sustain it
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is what is going to help create that external reality.
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Are you living that desire, that dream
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and remembering that is not only your desire
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with all the ways of the world, what fruit will you bring?
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Us, we want your fruit.
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It's not for you to say, it's too bruised.
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It's too sweet, not if you're on like sweetness.
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It's a bit sour.
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Let us decide, babes, what fruit will you bring?
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Not how will we judge your fruit?
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Not how will it measure up to other people's fruits?
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Not mm-mm.
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It is so generous, babes.
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I call this the flea market of life
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and that's also why I got chills when I read Rumi's words
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because I was like, oh my word,
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this is the same idea manifesting in different ways
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and that's why I love wisdom and the ancient quality of it
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because Rumi lived in like 1,224.
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Correction, Rumi lived from 1207 to 1273
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and he was born in the area now known as Afghanistan.
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He lived then and I'm saying the flea market of life now
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and it's just, it's this constant stream of wisdom
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that never ends, that I'm so grateful to be a part of
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but also to offer.
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It is so generous, whatever you have to share.
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Remember that that is a deep source of generosity
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but remember that nature in itself is generous.
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I learned this from Jay Shady said this.
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The sun, so generous, the flowers, so generous,
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the water, so generous, and you, your being,
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you sharing it with us, you expressing as you are
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is your birthright?
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First of all, however you feel cold, second of all,
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it is so generous.
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Oh, oh my word.
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Thank goodness nature hasn't been conditioned
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to doubt its own gifts, its own magic.
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It wouldn't be so generous.
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It would say, oh this grass, it's itchy to some people.
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Let me just not grow so that there's no grass
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and then there'd be no grass.
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Hmm, you're the same babes.
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What you have to give is so beautiful,
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so generous, so powerful and yet you've been conditioned
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in a system that wants you to minimize
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and to negate and repress that power.
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Oh my gosh, to repress your love,
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to repress your generosity.
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So just remember babes, it's not your role
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to judge the fruits, it's your role to tend to them
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and also to be tended to, to tend to others
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to support people around you, and to just trust
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in your offering, say this is what I had to give today.
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That's how I feel about this video.
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It could have been different.
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It could have been otherwise,
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but this is what I have to give and that is so generous
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and I'm gonna feel into that generosity
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and it's gonna feel so juicy.
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Like, oh, this beautiful fruit that I gave, I gave.
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You know what I mean?
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And I mean, wow, I'm just, I'm in awe of you.
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And I hope that you find a way,
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find the wisdom to be in awe of yourself,
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find the wisdom to be in awe of yourself.
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It is there, I promise you.
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It is there.
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But remember that awe and fear are closely linked
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so we're gonna step into the light side of the awe,
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the wonder, the openness, the sense of reverence,
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not the shadow side of the awe,
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the fear, the playing small in the face of,
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the feeling not good enough, the putting on a pedestal
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and bowing down, but not in a sense of reverence,
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but more in a sense of, I play small because you are big.
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And so in the face of our magic, we so often do that.
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So you're stepping onto that train in awe of not only yourself,
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but in awe of the universal love and consciousness
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and wisdom that flows through your being
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that connects you to everyone else on that train.
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You are gonna walk in there in awe of the collective
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and how they are ready to receive you
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and how you are ready to receive them
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because if you take that step forward,
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not only will you be living your dream,
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but you will be in the space, in the room,
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in the ring of supporting other people's dreams.
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So remember the ripple effect of expression and creation
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that you are a ripple, you have been affected
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by other creators and you affect as above so below.
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So you will continue this dream of expression.
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And if you don't go to that grad school,
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then those people are never gonna get to experience you
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at that school and they won't be able to experience
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the way that you can also support their dreams
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just as they're supporting and enabling yours.
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If your dream is to be in a classroom,
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you need other people in the classroom.
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So they're supporting your dream
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and you're supporting theirs.
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But maybe someone in that class,
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dreams of doing something you did six years ago.
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Oh, perfect, you're in a position to support their dreams.
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So trust in that, trust in the calling,
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even if it doesn't make sense.
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And trust that you're always worthy of returning.
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This is something that is so important.
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I've taken a very long break from TikTok
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and I always feel so guilty.
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And it feels like this dream is behind me
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and I don't even know what exactly the dream is.
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But it's behind me.
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It's like I've given it up by not showing up consistently.
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And today I reminded myself, babes,
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it's not too late unless you decide it's too late
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unless you make it too late.
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Oh, let me say that again,
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it is not too late unless you make it too late.
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Because what I always say to coaching clients
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is you could either fixate on what you wish you did five years ago
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or what you're gonna be so proud
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to tell yourself 10 years from now that you did do.
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So picture your at a breakfast with your 10 year older self.
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What are they gonna be like?
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Thank you so much that you took that step.
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Think of that possibility rather than you know what I mean?
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Rather than let's go, you know what I'm saying?
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So it's all in motion.
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It's still all in play.
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It's all unfolding.
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Think of the version 10 years from now
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what they will be thanking you for.
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Hold on to that possibility and remember
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that if it becomes too late,
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it's because you decided it was too late.
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There are dreams, of course,
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when I acknowledge that have a specific timeline,
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I'm thinking of the biological clock
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and having your own kids and so on.
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And so I hold so much love.
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I know this wisdom is not gonna apply to every single situation.
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And I do believe and I do feel that it can apply
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to the situations that it applies to
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and that those are worth speaking love into.
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So I never want to negate or deny time-based dreams.
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And also I know that there are many of us
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holding on to the belief that it's too late
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and also not owning what this belief protects us
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from having to actually step into and do.
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Because if we get to just be like,
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oh, I hate that it's too late to start a YouTube channel.
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We never have to go through the discomfort
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of creating that first video.
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You know, when you don't take an action,
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do you know what you get to keep?
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Do you know what you get to keep
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that the people who actually took that action
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don't get to have?
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You get to keep the illusion of how it was gonna feel
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to take that step.
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If you never become a singer,
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you can just dream the illusion, the dream,
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the fantasy of how it feels to actually be a singer.
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People who are actually singers may feel very differently.
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And both are beautiful and precious.
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But we need to remember everything we do
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has its own intelligence to it.
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Sometimes they regret the feeling we're too late.
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The intelligence of it is it protects the fantasy
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we hold around that path.
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It protects the idea that if only I'd written a book
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and then we imagine the carry Bradshaw version
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of writing a book and ask any writer who's written a book
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if they felt that way about writing the book.
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Literally every acknowledgement section I read
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is like, I suffered.
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This was blood sweat and tears.
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I hope that it can be otherwise
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and I don't glorify suffering.
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All I'm talking about is a distinction between
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people who live the dream and the reality of it
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versus people who get to hold on to the fantasy of it.
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Where you're just imagining your favorite playlist
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playing and you writing perfectly,
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not imagining the discomfort involved
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in the process of writing that book,
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not imagining the hate comment on goodreads,
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not imagine, you know what I mean?
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It's all part of the dream and that is the law of polarity.
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And I'm gonna have a video on this
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but that every dream will ask of you.
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Do you want the fantasy of this?
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In which case you won't be able to withstand
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some of the discomfort involved in the dream
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or are you willing to accept the reality of this?
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In which case you will say yes to all of the dream
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including the discomfort involved,
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including the suffering involved in the dream.
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It's not too late, it's only too late
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for the fantasy version of the dream.
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And that's okay, actually in fact that's beautiful
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because you're stepping into the radical truth
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of the reality, the beauty, the possibility
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that is still available to you.
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I love you so much, my loves.
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I want you to know that there is just this beautiful forest
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waiting for you to say yes to it
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and it has incredible flowers and lavender
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and a beautiful sunrise
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and the birds are chirping
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and the birds have this incandescence to them,
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they're luminous, they're all the things,
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they're purple, they're blue.
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And it's this field of people and beings
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and we're just waiting for you to say yes.
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Because that's where the train is going, isn't it?
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To another form of utopia,
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to a form where we can actually live
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the collective possibility of love,
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of abundance, of mutual thriving.
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And you are part of the awakening of this planet.
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So we need you in your power
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and we need you in your truth.
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Listen to that voice within
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and see what it asks of you
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and see what it asks through you.
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I love you so much, my loves.
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I hope that this sole session
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has served your deepest consciousness.
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I want you to know that before I recorded today's sole session,
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the last sole session, the sole session before that,
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I did a creative activation
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which is my offering to help you ground yourself
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in love, in nurturing energy,
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in a feeling of universal trust,
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universal being collective,
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being before you start your creative process.
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So often we're going from such a dysregulated place
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into our creative practice
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and then we're wondering why am I feeling
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like a bear is attacking me while I'm making this video,
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while I'm writing this sub-stuck.
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It's because we're dysregulated,
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we're feeling ungrounded, we're feeling unsafe
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and I felt this so many times before recording a video
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like it feels like there's literally a lion attacking me sometimes.
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And I thought what would happen
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if I just dropped in to my creative practice.
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I didn't try to jump in from one context to the next,
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but I dropped in and reminded myself
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because of that perfectionism and inner critic that I am love.
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That's whatever happens next,
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I'm worthy of creating it.
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And it is from that space
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that I created creative activations
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to solve a problem that I not only have faced,
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but continue to face
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because I'm sharing this with you.
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I'm sharing my gifts with you
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and it's a very vulnerable and often terrifying process.
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I feel a lot of resistance and fear before I record,
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but the beauty and gift of that
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and I thank my fear for keeping me safe.
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I burnt my hand recently and had it not been for fear.
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I wouldn't have known to pull back my hand so quickly.
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So fear, it's something that is part
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of our protective mechanism.
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It's just overactive.
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And so I'm so proud of this creation
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because it emerges from the deepest part of my soul.
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It's as close to coaching with me as I offer.
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It's transmissions and also there's an option to submit a question
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which I respond with an activation.
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This is a beautiful, beautiful offering of activation and expansion,
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which is what I seek to help you do.
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I seek to help you expand, activate
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into your most loving possibility and loving creation.
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And also I'm just here for the people who resonate with me.
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And so by me sharing myself,
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I'm just here to speak into and speak through and with the frequency.
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That is our being.
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That is why I call it soul siblings
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because we are resonating on the same frequency.
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And when you have that, you have harmony.
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You have beautiful soul music being made collectively.
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We're all having these aha moments together
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and we're all feeling the wonder and the awe and the love together.
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And so there is the symphony forming between us, this poetry.
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And it is my highest, my deepest honor
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to offer lines of that poem to you.
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And even more so to offer the frequency
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that unites the poetry that speaks to us, you and I.
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And that speaks through us.
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You are so magical.
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You are so powerful.
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You are so divine.
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And I hope that this soul session has served you.
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And I will see you on the next.
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Thank you for being in the soul salon today.
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I'm so deeply grateful to have had you with me today.
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And I will see you on the next soul session.
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I love you.
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Bye.
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I hope some paradigms have been shifted
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for you in today's conversation.
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As always, if you can, please leave a five star rating
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Bye.