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May 6 - Nothing Hidden · The Daily Ripples Podcast

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  All right, good morning, good evening, or good night, whenever you're listening to this podcast.
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  My name is Paris, and I'm sitting with Corey, and we're going over.
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  Today is May 6th, and nothing is hidden.
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  The stone.
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  What I hold back continues to hold me.
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  Healing begins when I stop filtering the truth and allow what's buried to come into the light.
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  Ripple 1, practical.
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  Today I will choose honesty without reservation.
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  I will not protect certain parts of my story out of fear or pride.
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  Sharing openly with someone I trust allows pressure to release and clarity to take its place.
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  Ripple 2, spiritual.
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  When I bring everything before the Father, the Holy Spirit begins to untangle what has been bound for years.
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  As I follow Christ, who invites us into the truth, hidden burdens lose their power over time.
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  What once felt overwhelming gives way to peace and steady freedom.
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  And, yeah, man, when I read this, you know, I looked at the first, you know, couple words, what I hold back continues to hold me.
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  And the first thing that came to mind was, you know, not being honest with myself.
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  how can I look in the mirror and just be like, you know,
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  and tell myself, oh, things are going to get better
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  when I wasn't doing nothing.
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  You squint.
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  I squint?
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  No, like, have you ever, like, looked at a text message
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  and not really wanted to read it?
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  And so you kind of, like, blur your eyes a little bit
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  and then you delete it before you have to read it?
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  I see what you're saying.
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  But what I mean was, you know,
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  So, you know, and then I started doing some things, you know what I mean, to try to change my mindset.
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  I would put sticky notes on a mirror in my restroom.
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  So every time I'd look at the mirror, I'd say, I love God, I love myself, you know, and things to get my mind to change.
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  But back to, you know, nothing hidden.
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  This reminds me of John's verse, you know, in the Bible.
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  John 8.32, it says, the truth should set you free.
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  And when I read that, in comparing this to AA, with alcohol anonymous, honesty is the foundation of this program.
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  You got to be honest with yourself.
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  It's like step one.
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  I got to take that 100%.
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  I got to be honest with it and knowing that I'm an alcoholic.
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  But sharing this with somebody else and being truthful with someone else, I found free with that.
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  It's a lot of pressure that I release from that.
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  And I can get into, you know, it's a lot that goes into, you know, step five.
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  But I'm going to pass it over.
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  What you got for me?
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  So you really think, let me just tell you, because I think it's silly.
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  I think, man, when I think about the rooms and these places I go hang out at today,
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  you know, I hear people walk in there.
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  They're like, man, you know, I just got to be honest today, you know,
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  because I'm in this program.
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  Yeah.
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  It's wild with me because I think, you know, that, you know,
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  but, you know, I can only speak for myself.
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  But, man, if you were to ask me if I was like 100% honest today, I would tell you no.
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  Because that'd be a lie.
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  I'm not.
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  I'm not so honest.
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  Today.
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  I'm a lot better than I used to be, absolutely.
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  But see, on page 72 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, it doesn't tell me.
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  You know, it talks about honesty.
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  We'll get into that.
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  But it says on page 72, it says, this requires action on our part, which when completed will mean that we have admitted to God and to ourselves and to another human being.
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  I don't see beings in everybody in the world.
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  It says being.
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  And then when I flip over to 74, it kind of pushes into that a little bit more.
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  It says person or persons.
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  And it says, rightly and naturally, we think well before we choose the person or persons with whom we take this intimate and confidential step.
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  And, you know, we're kind of doing that.
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  You know, I told you you had some things you wanted to get right out and go back through this work a little bit.
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  And I just went through an inventory not too long ago.
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  And I told you, hey, when you do yours, I'll do a fifth step with you as well.
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  Yeah.
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  It says something about when I protect certain parts of my story out of fear and pride.
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  and you know
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  they remind me
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  like on page
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  75
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  in the book book
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  big book
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  of Alcoholics Anonymous
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  and it says
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  we pocket our pride
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  and go to it
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  you know
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  so I have to know
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  that you know
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  I can't
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  you talk about
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  being honest
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  you know
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  man
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  first time I did
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  my fourth step
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  with you
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  you know
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  it was like
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  okay I'm just gonna
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  put some stuff down
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  I really want
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  being honest
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  with myself
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  yeah
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  then I wasn't
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  telling you
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  no I wasn't
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  showing everything
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  that's really what held me back.
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  You know, throughout this process of working these steps,
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  things are coming up.
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  I'm like, dang, yeah, it still bothers me.
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  And until I do let it go, that's why I'm glad we are.
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  I'm going another fourth and fifth step again
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  to get a lot of stuff out.
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  And it also says in the same paragraph on page 75,
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  we can be alone in that perfect peace and at ease.
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  You know, see, when I'm doing this work,
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  It's crazy how the mood swings changed, you know, because I was forced into getting into this program of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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  You know what I mean?
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  A little story about me.
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  You know, I went through some court issues and stuff like that.
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  But doing it, it's like, man, I thank God that I had to go through that.
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  You know, my past is reflecting on who I am today and what I'm building up to become.
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  You know, it's interesting you just said that because of the last episode we just did, right?
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  Yeah.
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  You know, what's cool is you kind of told on yourself a little bit.
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  And your mom did, too.
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  Right?
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  Yeah.
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  Because she said, you know, you're always going, going, going, and going, going.
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  Uh-huh.
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  Found myself in that same place years ago.
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  I could never sit still.
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  I mean, if I had enough time after I got off work to make it to four meetings a day, I would.
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  Did it?
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  I would.
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  I would not be able to sit alone.
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  A perfect peace and ease.
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  I'm not saying I'll go to meetings and do that stuff because I think that's important.
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  But, you know, when I'm able to do that stuff right there, sit alone in perfect peace and ease,
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  I can go sit on that couch and have nothing to do with my life and go just sit there.
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  And I can go up there in my head.
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  You know, people in the rooms really mess this stuff up.
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  I'm going to tell you why.
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  They'll tell you it's a dangerous place to go up in your head.
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  No, it's not.
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  I love it.
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  I love going for rides up around in my head.
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  You know, because, man, I have done this.
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  I do the work, and I'm able to show that.
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  I'm able to show it where I've done it, how I'm doing it, where I'm at now,
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  what step I'm on.
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  Man, I'm probably, you know, if you were to ask me what step I'm on today,
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  I'd say, you know, I'm hanging around because I still got amends to make, right?
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  So I'd say I'm on step 9, but I work 10, 11, and 12,
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  because, you know, people get that confused as well.
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  All right.
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  Go ahead and talk for a second.
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  Man, yeah, just cover it up, man, you know, what you said.
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  Man, see, I hate going to meetings.
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  They help me.
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  But I hate going to meetings when people don't just reflect from the big book.
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  You know, I'm not a big book thumper, you know what I mean?
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  But I believe, you know, the spiritual experience that I had from doing this work in the book.
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  And, like, I don't know when did it happen.
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  But, you know, something that happened, you know, because it says right here, I'm reading on something.
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  It says relief to share my burdens.
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  Burdens.
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  You know what I mean?
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  Like, it's something that's, you know, that becomes at peace when I just, you know, speak it out to you.
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  Like I told you the other day, man, what I was going through.
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  You know what I'm going through.
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  but things are well off now.
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  They suggested in a program that I don't date for a year, right?
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  But so why do you think that they say that?
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  I could kind of relate that to, you know,
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  I don't think it is the best thing to do in this deal
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  to tell someone else how to live.
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  You know, the way you've adopted this program has probably come, you know, directly in line from, you know, from my sponsor and people that we hang around, right?
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  And kind of when I bring that back into this deal, it says healing begins when I stop filtering the truth and allow what's buried to come into light.
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  Well, man, you know, if I'm going to look at it in that way, maybe I want the truth to come into light.
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  And so we're going to kind of go for a ride on that thought.
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  But on the page it says what's buried, right?
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  And I talked about all this thing about this before, but some people don't listen to it and some new people do.
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  On page 55 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, it says this.
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  It says, we found the great reality deep down within us.
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  In fact, in the last analysis, it is only there that he may be found.
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  It was so with us.
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  And it's talking about God.
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  So if I think about God's deep down within me, right?
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  So God's deep down within me, and I got all this stuff buried down deep down within me.
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  There might be something there, Paris.
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  I don't know.
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  But so if I got all this stuff buried within me, and God's down there too, man.
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  God's everywhere.
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  But I can't feel that.
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  I want to be able to feel his presence.
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  God's always been there, right?
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  Yeah.
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  I mean, not to cut you off.
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  You know, I was looking at the spiritual of this part.
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  You know, it says, when I bring everything before the Father, you know.
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  And that's the thing about prayer.
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  That's the strongest part about prayer.
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  You know, baby, she's trying to grab the book.
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  But that's the strong thing about prayer and meditation is when we sit there alone
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  and we talk with our God as we understand Him.
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  You know, and that's when we talk to Him, tell Him what's going on.
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  See, I don't know how everybody has talked to God,
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  But I talk to God like he just, he's my father.
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  You know what I mean?
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  Like I'm having a conversation with him.
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  I don't have a certain speech to, you know,
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  Woo-ha how I talk with him.
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  You know, I just talk to him.
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  And, you know, and I find peace.
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  And then, you know, I don't be able to say
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  what once felt overwhelming gives way of peace
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  instead of freedom.
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  And man, it's crazy how you find that peace today.
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  Yeah, I think I've talked to you a little bit about this,
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  but when I get in quiet, when I'm able to set a perfect peace and ease,
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  and I'm sitting there, there's this feeling.
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  And it's a feeling that it says, hey, stop.
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  Like, get up, Corey.
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  This is enough.
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  And this other part of me that says, hey, what happens if I push further?
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  I don't know if that makes sense, but I do push further.
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  Sometimes I'll push further.
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  I like going to extremes anyways.
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  But I'll put more and more.
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  More, dog.
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  But, you know, it's a weird feeling.
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  It's almost like the first time when I first came back into this program
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  and someone gave me a book, Sermon on the Mount by Emmett Fox.
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  And, you know, when I came back in the program, man,
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  I was blocked by calamity, blocked by all this stuff.
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  And, you know, I was prejudiced.
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  I was prejudiced at God when I came back today.
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  And I started opening this Emmett Fox book, and, man, it started talking about Jesus.
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  And I had this thing in my heart pushing me away from it.
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  And, you know, I got, you know, after a couple pages, it started aligning with my thoughts.
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  And, you know, man, it was cool because, you know, that book was something that was very important.
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  I'll probably go back through it again.
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  But anyway, but I think about when I'm in that meditative state and something in me tells me, hey, it pushes me away a little bit.
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  Well, I found when I push further a little bit, man, it's an experience I never want to miss because I like it.
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  And, but, you know, I think what else you got with this?
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  Oh, man, I just, I like this part.
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  It's on page 44.
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  I mean, the book, you know, we keep going back and forth to this book, man.
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  because it says the rule is we must be hard on ourselves,
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  but always be considerate of others.
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  And with that, man, I see that because I am hard on myself,
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  but I have so much love for my fellows.
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  And that's just reference from the Bible,
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  to love your neighbor as God loves you.
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  You know what I mean?
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  So, you know, with that,
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  and that's all I have for today.
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  We can finish up with the prayer if we want to.
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  Father, give me courage to hold nothing back.
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  Through Your Spirit, bring healing to what I have hidden
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  and lead me into freedom found in the truth of Your Son.
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  Amen.
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  Amen.