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- ToShae Germaine: feel like i'm sitting down a little bit i like be down low down low down low i don't know i don't know great morning great morning great morning great people welcome to the message welcome to the message y'all i hope you're doing well i hope you're feeling good happy my goodness tues yeah it's tuesday we in this thing if you are new To the message if you are new to the faith and flow, the kingdom flow community, welcome. We are so happy and so grateful that you are here. And if you is an old T but good T, welcome back. Okay, y'all come in, y'all show the new people them what to do. Come in, like the live, share the live, share the love. Drop something in the chat that you're grateful for. Let's get in the flow of abundance, baby. Let me talk about we finna be in Leviticus 5 today. And babe. B, let me told you, okay. when I tell you, ooh y'all, we got something to talk about on today. Y'all go ahead and get you. I should have got me one, huh? Hold on. no momento. Hold on, y'all. Let me let me get my life together. Wait a minute. There's little promotion back there in the back. You can't see it. Don't worry about it. let me go and get my paper towels ready. Can you see? Good morning, Pam. Good morning, Pam. Can you hear me? Let me know how the microphone sounds over there. Why? It's a lot going on on this side of the screen, y'all. technologies and things. So let me know how the the mic, y'all know I got to keep doing the mic check and make sure it's good. I had to try to adjust my settings. so let me know how it sounds over there on the YouTube and the Facebook side of the screet. Y'all, we in Leviticus 5 on this morning. get you some paper towels. Me too, child. I'm finna drink mine right now. Pam said I'm grateful for coffee this morning and is and is. I just had to put mine back back in the in back in the in the heat up. Okay, in the heat up. So y'all can hear me good. Good morning, Kelly. Good morning, honey one. Y'all can hear me good over there. Okay. Awesome sauce. Thank y'all. Thank y'all. Y'all, I'm gonna tell you right now. I had to give me some paper towels. I'm gonna tell you right now, first of all, cancers. Cancer. It's cancer season. And can I just tell y'all, love y'all? I'm sick of y'all gone on. Okay. Because this Leo energy. we know we're not always the most emotional. Spell it. I don't, I can't. The emotions. Child, I done feel all the emotions in my spirituals. Today is the new moon in Cancer, by the way. We're gonna talk about it. Good morning, Ms. Chris. Good morning, honey oney. Good morning. y'all, I got some I got a story to tell y'all. So I got my paper towels. I'm just telling y'all, if I pull my lashes off, don't come for me. Cause I'm probably gonna cry again because I was in worship this morning. And I hadn't had a whole moment. Y'all, I need my little chat to auto-scroll. Why my chat ain't auto scrolling? Anyway, I'm gonna have to figure that out. Cause I don't know why it's not auto-scrolling. I'm probably gonna cry. I'm just told y'all, I got something to tell y'all. Y'all see my shoulders just started slumping. We're gonna get into it. Why are we talking about this? Conviction. Guess what Leviticus 5 is about? The convictionals in your spirituals. And I'm not fent to be convictional by myself. I'm ain't. Okay, I'm ain't. So I got the tote child. And it wasn't even conviction, but I got manned the way the Lord showed up and and was talking at me or talking to me. Well, he really talked at me this morning. but it was an act that I needed. You ever need the Lord to talk at you? Excuse me. You ever need the Lord to talk at you, which means he tell you something, but he don't even really need a response. Do you still have your old Cash App? I do, honey. I do. my can I say that on here? My Cash App is my name spelled just the way it's spelled on here. That is my Cash App. and listen, I'm I ain't even gonna hold you. I we'll get to that. My Cash App is my name. I can I post it over here? Hold on, let me see if I can put this over here just so because I'm look. That should be it. I think I put it in the chat. Look, you can't tell me nothing when your girl gets a little upgrades and stuff. babe, I'm so sick of this retrograde. Child, Pam said it's the it's this emotional retrograde. Y'all, this little season right here, it can go on gone on. It can go on, child. I'm sick of it now. I done been crying almost every day. The whole day. Thank you for the follow, Lance. Thank you, dearest one. y'all like the live, share, live, share love. I gotta figure out how to auto scroll over here on that is my cash app, ain't it? Lord don't send it's my picture. You'll see me. That should be it. Child, I don't be knowing. I think it is, but you had already blessed me. So thank you for the blessing, y'all. Thank you so much for the blessing. I appreciate you, dearest one. Thank you so much. good morning, kitchen. Like, child. How you knew it was a big old cockroach in my kitchen on yesterday? Y'all, I had to go to war. Let me tell you, we all over the place. You're right. Y'all ain't on that side. I can't even fight. I can't even fight with y'all. My bad. I forgot y'all had move size and everything. How you knew it was a big Because it I you can't, I got to say it because that was the description of the y'all. Why it was a dang on 50 that it would bite seven inches. I know it was a good seven inch long cockroach. And let me tell you what what I don't do. So we get off the live, right? I'm so all over the place. Just stay tracking with me. I we get off the live, and this month. Lord off in a collar because I had told the Lord my bad about the honeywood and baby he by seven inches long. Seven inches, y'all. And he just came casually crawling on the wall like he lived here, like he pay rent. Anyway, I had to, I was by myself. My son wasn't even here. I ain't even go get him till yesterday. Y'all, why he buy some inches? Anyway, that sounded and not that kind of not them kind of inches. I'm talking about the cockroach. Get you get out. Y'all say, that I'm talking about the foolishness. Anyway, I'm back. You know. But I had to take him out. I did. Okay, I'm back. So listen. So y'all. That's part one. I wouldn't even talk about that. My son had ended up finding one of them big old wolf spiders. And he said it had all the babies on the back. And he had to end up getting it. Not here. Uh-huh. Thank God for God. This was at his brother's house. Y'all, it's just been too much going on. I can't stand a cockroach. If you want to see me go crazy matter of fact, hold on, let me just check it out. Make sure I ain't tripping right now. Cause what? Okay, I'm back. So I had that moment. Okay, I had that moment yesterday. Y'all should have seen me in here. I was at war. The me and me, the roach, and the broom. Okay, me the roach and the broom. I'm not used to that. We don't really have to deal with them very much in the California A. And that's literally the first one I had to deal with the whole season since I've been here. I might have manifested them because I maybe had just thought about it, but that don't work out anyway. I'm back. That's not even where we're going. That was such a side note. We in Leviticus 5 on this morning. Y'all sip your favorite adopt beverage. Like the live, share the live, share the love. Y'all, this one finna get deep. I'm gonna tell you right now, this one finna get deep. We're going somewhere on today. I got a story to tell y'all, like the hit, here it go. You're gonna heard it anyway, even if you didn't want to hear it. If you knew, welcome. We so happy and so grateful you were here. y'all gonna hear I got to tell y'all. Look, I'm I can't stand them, y'all. I can't stand them. I got to figure out how to make my chat. What's it called? How to make my chat auto-scroll because it ain't auto scrolling. So it's I'm having to roll it down to see y'all. Good morning, Chris Curls. Good morning, Sandy. Good morning, y'all. Good morning. so y'all, let's get into Leviticus 5 for this morning. Y'all get your paper towels because you're your tissues. I ain't got no tissues, so a paper towel gonna have to do. I'm probably gonna need it. I got some stuff to touch y'all. Good morning, Zen. Good morning, good morning, Miss Suculent. Good morning, y'all. Good morning, honey oneies. Y'all ready? Y'all got your Bible, y'all got your journal. Get your hand in Dandy Journal. sip your favorite dope beverage. Let's get into Leviticus five for this morning. I ain't ready, Lord. Am I Lord, y'all ready? OMG, here we go. Leviticus 5. Okay. Good morning, Marianne. Good morning, Honeywane. Leviticus 5. So yesterday's message was called When or how what did we say? You get yesterday's message. What was it called, y'all? When you know. Now you know. When you know, we talk all the okay. Let me just sum it up. When you know better, you do better. Okay, so that was yesterday. So now I think I named the message yesterday something like now you know. Right, so then today the Lord said, Now what? Right. now what thank you for the follows, dearest one. And so let's just get into Leviticus 5 because what is it talking about? The conviction in your spirituals, but I got a good ending on this, right? So, first thing first, the Lord said, You don't know what you don't know, right? You don't know what you don't know. Cool, I receive that. you don't know what you don't know. So we've been for the last we've been talking about surrender. We've been talking about taking responsibility, being restored to sonship slash daughtership, right? let me make sure that I am automated messages to invite pre child. I don't even know what that means. I don't be knowing. Y'all know I'm trying to multitask and do stuff on two Let's just move. Okay. I'm trying to do stuff on two because I'll be having to meet requirements over here. Sponsorship. Come on, sponsorship. So taking responsibility and being restored, right? to our sonship slash daughtership. We're gonna say daughtership. I wrote daughtership and sonship, but we're gonna say daughtership because we're going somewhere because that's where the Lord had taken me on this, right? Personal responsibility, failing to speak the truth. becoming unclean, which we know we don't really have to deal with that anymore. becoming unclean, making careless promises or intentionally misusing what is holy, right? And so I was like, okay, Lord, I'm tracking. So we know that we've been talking about stewardship, we've been talking about responsibility, we've been talking about the fact that the Lord is sending us somewhere. he's increasing our influence. He's increasing our, he's promoting us, he's sending us into new territory, all these things, right? New things that we have to go that we have to take advantage of, or we have to take advantage of the resources that he's given. He's giving us permission to go take authority over territories. We talked about all of that. So like last week, this week, yesterday, heavy on the authority, the Lord giving you new authority to go into new places and spaces. And take ownership and take over the territory. So when we become aware of our wrongdoings, God calls us to acknowledge it, confess it, and make it right. Drop this in the chat. I'm gonna make it right. Okay. I'm gonna make it right. So, and I'm going somewhere with this. I got a story that I like to hear it. Here it goes I'm gonna tell y'all. and it wasn't so much about conviction, it was simply about things being made right. Okay, so for many of us, what is happening is the Lord is making things right. Hold on, y'all. Why I feel like I'm set down soon. Hold on. Make sure I was in alignment, child. So for many of us, what's happening is the Lord is making things right. Okay. so because he's making us aware. So him making us aware of what is going on or what we need to make better is making things right. I wonder if that'll help it. I gotta figure out what's going on while this is not auto-scrolling over here. You know, I'm back. So it's not about pretending to be perfect because we're not right, we're not perfect. Good morning, y'all. Good morning. good morning, Alchemist. It's not about pretending to be perfect because we are all going to get it wrong sometimes. I want somebody to know right now, the Lord never expected you to always get it right. You're gonna mess up, you're gonna make the wrong decision, you're gonna do something and then be like, Man, hindsight is 2020. You're going to get it wrong, but you're supposed to. And I feel like we get it wrong because we need these moments like this with the Lord where He can come and say, like, hey. I know you thought you were doing the right thing, but that wasn't the right thing. Or, hey, I know that looked good, but I got something better. Does that make sense? So it's not, so nobody should be, you should not be looking at anybody and thinking that they got it, get it right all the time. They don't. Okay. They be messing up. Some people just don't want to admit when they have messed up, they've lied. We Touched on this on yesterday, not going back into it. Go watch the message from yesterday. Listen to it wherever you podcast, okay? Listen to it because the message is available on podcast, all the major podcast platforms, right? We talked about it. Sometimes you get so, man, come on, Lord. Sometimes you get so deep off in your lie that you can't come out of it. So instead of just telling the truth, now you just got to run with the lie. And then once you tell you know how I go. When you tell one lie, you got to keep lying. So understand that this is why the Lord, before you get too deep off into something, He will give you an ability the opportunity to say, Hey, go on, go on dead this right now. You know what I'm saying? Go ahead and do what's necessary to stop telling this lie. So you don't have to stay in the lie. Does that make sense? I didn't been I done created some lies and it's this has been many moons ago because I tried very, very hard to stand in my integrity and not tell any lies, right? I did. I had to tell one the other day. I had I didn't even really do it on purpose, but the lady asked me when my business really started and officially it just started, but unofficially child, I've been doing this since what, 2023? Or well if you count this, I've been doing this since 2020. Anyway, I had to repent. I was like, I was standing like my bad Lord. I felt bad. But that was a conviction, right? Because I was just like, man, I well officially it didn't start till this year. You know what I'm saying? So I hope that makes sense. So it's like before you get too deep off into your lie, go and tell the truth. Okay, tell the truth, shame the devil. Okay. So that's the first thing. Sometimes people get too deep off into their lies, so now they can't come back and try to correct it because it ain't because you you didn't you done went too far with it. conviction is an invitation, not Condemnation, okay. It's God teaches us how to restore fellowship with Him and with one another. So if you denied on somebody, you need to make that right. Or if the Lord then convictions you in your spirituals, then you need this is where the Lord and many of us, this is what is happening. but I do believe this is happening in different ways, right? thank y'all. So, and I'm gonna explain more when I tell y'all this story in a minute, right. but so God is teaching us to He tells He shows us where we went wrong so we can get right. Get get get right, okay. This is the whole He's not doing it to make you feel ashamed. He doesn't do it to make you, you know what I'm saying, feel like, my God. No, it's just like nah okay, look, you messed up, you did this wrong. So I need you to recognize that, right? This is where the practice of confession came from, is what he was showing me this morning. But healing begins with honesty, man. Ain't nothing like keep it real with yourself no matter what. Preach, keep it real with yourself no matter what, because you already can't lie to God, right? So why not just tell the truth to self? Because you can't lie to self either. Yourself know the truth about yourself, okay? So healing begins with honesty. God doesn't care about our money either, because in Leviticus 5, and for those of you who are new to the message. I'm just giving you bits and pieces. It is your responsibility to go and read Leviticus 5 and get your own revelation in addition to what the Lord is giving us right here. Okay, because I don't go line by line. I'm not doing that. You go read the word for yourself because you should be doing that anyway. So you may get something completely different. If you do, feel free to share it with us, hunty oney, because that's what we're here to do, right? Read the word, discuss the word, and build relationship with the Lord. Okay. so healing begins with honesty. God doesn't care about how much money you have. He continues to reiterate that and he does it again at Leviticus 5. He says, Hey, bring what you have. If you have more, bring more. If you have less, then come as you are. Right? Bring you. He said it he said, It's his anyway. So God don't care about your money. He don't what does he need your money for when he owns all the money on earth? This the whole earth is belongs to him, right? So It's his anyway, so bring what you have, but especially bring you and an honest heart, right? Bring you and an honest heart. The sacrifice was different for everyone, but access to God and his mercy is the same. So the Lord said, You may not think that you have anything to give, you may not think that you have. you may not feel or feel like you may not have any money to give or what the Lord don't care about that, y'all. He don't care about how much money you got or don't got. He say bring you because that's what's more important to you. The whole point of the Bible is reconciliation with God, y'all. If you sum it up, it's a king, it's a kingdom and a royal family. Okay. God don't care about your money. He don't care about none of that. It's literally like we know we when we think about tithing. It's not just because you can give A million dollars, yeah, that's cool, but some people ain't at that at that level yet. But God said, Listen, I don't care about that anyway. I wanted you before before anything else. I just want you. Okay. So for those of you who I don't know if somebody tried to make you feel like you know you ain't giving enough or what have you, baby. Look, the Lord ain't he don't cut, he don't need no he don't need your money. He don't need it. Okay. I hope that makes sense to somebody. Pay attention to how to the holy how the Holy Spirit Convicts you okay. Don't ignore gentle nudges to make something right. What is the Lord calling to make make calling to make right? Okay, what is he what is this Holy Spirit saying? Like, hey, you got to get this right. Man, we finna get into story time in just a second. OMG, we finna have to talk about it. Okay. So let me see. Where did I insert this story? I guess I need to go ahead and tell the story, huh? So y'all have some understanding. about where we finna go with this. If there's an apology to make a commitment, is there if there's an apology to make a commitment to honor or a correction to make, then you got to do it. Okay. You got to do it. Walking in integrity keeps your heart clear, your relationships healthy and your fellowship with God strong. And this is the whole point. I got to stay right. Okay. I got to stay right with the Lord. I may fall out with some people, some relationships may fall off and that's cool. But as for me, I got to stay right with the Lord. Okay. Let me see. Let me see where. Okay. That's the the basis, and we finna get a little deeper into this because we're getting ready to do the kingdom clarity, okay? And I'm gonna so that's the basis of Leviticus 5, y'all. so let me just so as we're transitioning from the Bible clarity, and I know it didn't take a long time, and I feel like the Lord specifically did that because where we finna go, and because the the kingdom clarity, of course, if you're new to the message. The kingdom clarity is how you apply this to everyday life. Okay. We get the we hear it, we see what the word says, then we figure out and we understand kingdom principles to help us apply this to right now, today. Not what the Israelite Nims did back in the gap, right? This is about how do you because me people be wanting to know, like, okay, well, I understand that, but how do I make it for me? So that's what we do. And Kingdom Clarity, and we finna get into that. But before that, this episode of the message is sponsored by the Kingdom Clarity Daily. Okay, get the latest clarity delivered straight to your inbox. get daily wisdom, kingdom clarity, and practical advice for everyday life. Click the link in my bio. Click the link in my bio to subscribe today and join the community. Okay. If you have not already done that, make sure that you get on the email list, click the link on my bio in my bio. So that you can get the daily clarity, okay. Y'all ready? Here we go, y'all. This is the hard part. I know I got to do it though. Man, on this good cancer new moon. This is important and it's significant as well. I feel why the Lord is doing this on this day, okay? Because let's just let's just go ahead and talk about the Cancer New Moon real quick, just a little bit about it. First of all, new moons are about seeds, right? New beginnings. It is a time to plant a seed. Yesterday we had the mustard seed. So today the Lord may be planting for some of you a seed of healing message, a seed of healing, a seed of a new beginning. Any there's so many things. And if you think about the phases of the moon, now wait a minute. I got to tell the new people, Nim. Let me tell you something. Don't come over here with no religiosity and your spirituals, because we not on that. Okay, we use all the resources that the Lord has blessed us with to gain wisdom, knowledge, insight, clarity, and understanding. Okay. Happy birthday to all my cancer people. y'all almost out of there, so you better it's almost Leo season. I'm just putting it out there. So, new moons are all about planting seeds, right? Being intentional. if you think about the way the moon looks when it's a new moon, good morning, Aisha. Good morning, honeywone. When you think about You know, when you think about the new moon, it's a it looks like a seed because most of it is hidden. You can't really see it, right? Full moon, big out there. You can see it, it's filling the filling up the sky. New moons are different, y'all. This is a time to be very intentional, intentional about what you want to manifest, what you want to plant, what you want to, and a lot of times if you start a if you start understanding some moon cycles, it's you can plant a seed and there may Be like in six months from the new moon in Cancer, the full moon in Cancer will be in its opposite sign. Does that make sense? So if you start understanding that when you plant a seed today, you want to really track that seed for the next six months. I hope that makes sense to somebody. It's a true story, y'all. It works. Okay. This is how they actually the Bible went through went more by a lunar. Calendar than a solar. Anyway, we'll get that's that's the story for another day. Okay. So today we are understanding that it's a new moon in Cancer. Cancer love y'all. My God, I be so emotional in cancer season. Maybe because I'm a cusper, but I'm I'm not even a real cusper for real. Like I'm on 26. Anyway, let me just tell y'all y'all be the most emotional people. Love y'all, but my gosh, very sensitive. Okay, sensitive. And so you may be feeling more sensitive in cancer season, okay? Just stay young. So, all of that to say, today is a day about seeds, right? So let's get into the kingdom clarity. Stewardship. We're gonna stay on that because that's what we're on over here, right? We making sure that we are. Good stewards of what the Lord is blessing us with. This could be this ain't just money. Stewardship is not just money. Okay, let's be clear. It's yes, it's money, it's ideas, it's your time, it's your discipline, it's your relationships. Like you got stuff to steward all the time. Okay, all the time you got stuff to steward. So, with that being said, stewardship comes in many ways, okay? It comes in many ways. and this This particular time, because we're in Leviticus 5, we're talking about stewardship of responsibility, right? Stewardship of responsibility. Today is a pink day for me. So if I'm posting all pink stuff, is why it because that's what I felt in my spirituals. Good morning, dearest one. Good morning. So in the kingdom, you are accountable not only for what you do, but for what you know. When you know better, drop it in the chat. When you know better. You do better. Okay. When you know better, you do better. Good morning, Jared. Good morning, honey one. So this could include, we said this yesterday, remaining silent when you're supposed to speak up. This could be if you see it or know it and you don't say something, say something. Or you know, if you see, we I have we here we have a thing somewhere where it says, if you see something, say something, right. Mishandling what belongs to God. You just y'all you just can't even make this stuff up, y'all. Mishandling what God has given you. You understand that sometimes you don't even realize that you be to mishandle something until the Lord told you that you mishandled it. And I got I'm going somewhere with this, y'all. Sometimes you think you're doing right, and the Lord be like, No, that ain't right. Mm-mm. In this season of life, good morning, gifted. In this season of life, y'all, we are being very intentional about how we handle and these blessings that the Lord has given us. Do you understand? Lord, give me the wisdom to steward it well. If you bless me with the resources, Lord. Give me the understanding and the knowledge to steward it well. Don't give it to me, Lord, when I'm not ready for it. Right? Because if you give it to me when I'm not ready for it, when I haven't created discipline around it, when I haven't prioritized it, when I haven't organized it, when it does, when it's chaotic versus com versus order, don't give it to me yet, Lord. Thank God for the things He doesn't give us until we're ready for it. Can we just true story give God the glory for that one second? Thank you, Lord, for not giving me what I asked for when I asked for it. You know, you got to be, you really got to have some understanding in your spirituals to say, thank you, Lord, for not giving it to me. Thank you, Lord, for not giving it to me when I wanted it. Because what you, what you come to, man, I gotta chill. What you come to realize is that you weren't ready for it. Lord, don't give it to me till I'm ready for it. Prepare me to receive it. This one I know I'ma be crying, y'all. I'ma try not to I'm I'm I'm I'm is. Lord don't give it to me until I'm ready for it. You understand? Because if he gives it to you too soon, you're probably gonna mishandle it. Good morning, KFK. Good morning, honey one. Every gift is Ever what does it say? Every gift, responsibility, and commitment carries accountability. Okay, every gift, responsibility, and commitment carries accountability. I need somebody to understand that the Lord is getting ready to promote you in some way, shape, form, or fashion. I don't know where your promotion's coming from. I don't know what you got going on in life. It's not for me to know. This is between you and the Lord. I'm just here to say, hey, you're getting ready to get what you prayed for. But That ain't everybody's message. Some people are gonna be like, yeah, I'm gonna get it. No. No. Why? Because the Lord ain't prepared you for it. You might still be in your preparation season. It may be one thing that you're prepared for, but maybe you're not prepared for something else. You don't know, Lord, don't bless me with a million dollars. Let's say that. Come on, millionaires. Is it any millionaires? multi-millionaires in the chat this morning. Is it any multimillionaires? Hello. Receipt, thank you, Lord, in advance. Period, right? But Lord, thank you that you didn't make me a multimillionaire before I was ready for it. Thank you, Lord, that you didn't make me a multimillionaire before my priorities were in order. When I was still worried more about looking good, and I almost wrote this, not not putting on for the people. Because ain't nobody got time to be putting on for the people. I put on for my city. On for my city. I don't want to hear that shit. I want to hear that. Said it, mint it. Cause some people, you might still be in that stage where you want to put on for the city. You want to flex. I look at my ice that who gives Lord. I have y'all heard it. Who mad? Somebody had got mad in their spirituals. I'm telling you right now, don't come over here with no religiosity of your spirituals. We're not on that. Because this important. Because the Lord says, I'm finna get ready to give you some responsibility. So if you you may not be at that stage yet, where you you want a million for what? You ain't managing the hundred. The hundred I just gave you. So now I ain't gonna be able to do it. I ain't gonna be able to do it. Thank you, Lord, for what you haven't given me yet. Do you understand? So we ain't got time to be putting on. We ain't got time for that. We ain't doing all that. First of all, we grown anyway. Cause who has time to be child by? Anyway, y'all ready? Sip your favorite adult beverage, child. It's tea. It's it's it's story. It's tea time. Y'all ready? It's coffee, but you understand. Here we go. I got to tell y'all a story. Okay. I got to tell y'all a story. Good morning. Good morning, y'all. Good morning. Y'all like the life, share, life, share, love. So here's me, right? Y'all know I keep it real with self and with y'all. Cause I'm not here to try to make anybody think that Touche got it all together. Don't be doing my very best, this is to do all the right things, right? So, but I understood why the Lord took me through this. And it's kind of gonna come through in a couple of ways, okay? So look, here's a story. So the other day, I told y'all a story. This was one day last week. I told y'all that over the last year, I have been working diligently to reinstate my nursing license, right? And I carried it and I told y'all when I was finally able, I was just like, you know what? I surrendered it to the Lord because I did. This ain't the first time that I've I've attempted to try to get my license back. but this is the furthest that I've gotten in this pursuit, right? So That was a done deal for me, y'all. Done. Do you hear me? Done. Last week I say, Lord, I give it to you. Right? Because it's one of those things. And I've done this many times throughout the years. This is one of those things that I have, it's it's it's and I hope the I hope this this tracks for somebody. It's me, man. Come on, Lord. Sometimes the Lord will test Your willingness Will you put anything before him? Right? So for me, I had begun to depend more on what I already know about the reinstatement, which was little to nothing, right? But I know that if the Lord sent me down that path, he didn't send me for nothing. But I in my head, man, conviction had started depending on my job. As the source instead of the Lord as my source. So when the Lord said, decrease the hours that you're working at work. What? This was a few months ago. I told y'all this. I say, okay, Lord, that's cool. But you know, how am I gonna do this, that, and the third? Because see, I have went went back to depending on self instead of depending on source. I hope that makes sense. Y'all stay tracking with me, okay? Then he says, Stop working weekends, huh? So you mean you don't want me working no overtime like at all? Nope. Eight hour shifts, Monday through Friday, seven to three thirty. That was my shift. Okay, Lord. Y'all, as a result of this obedience, which ultimately led to the Lord saying, put your resignation in at work. Hold on, Lord. You say what not? Because why? My biggest fear, because if anybody says ain't something you scared of, if you I'm I'm sorry, I'm this me. Besides my with dealing with my children, my biggest fear is homelessness. Why? Because I spent two and a half years living in my car. And that was just last year. Do you understand? So after spending two and a half years living in the car, I don't want to go back to the car. So me, well, if I get this license, that would keep me from ever having to experience that season again. But see how I transitioned it. It wasn't, it was me thinking that I was gonna keep myself out of that season. Instead of understanding that God was going to keep me out of that season because He already taught me what I needed to learn in that season. But I had started to think, well, if I just do this, then I'll never have to go through that season again. So the Lord tested my faith and my obedience and said, Well, stop, give it up. Huh? Hold on, Lord. And I as good as I'm sitting here talking to y'all, I sat here in my living room the other last week and I broke down and I was like, Lord, please don't send me back. If you've never been homeless, and I mean homeless living outside and on the streets, homeless. I'm not talking about living with somebody because I didn't have somebody to live with. Lord, please don't send me back. I'll do what you and but then at the same time, as Lord. If this is what you want me to do again, I'll do it, Lord. But please don't send me back. My prayer. So then the Lord tells me to quit my job. And I'm like. Okay, Lord, you sending me. I was like, Lord, please don't send me back. And I did it. Right. And as a result of doing that, that was also me saying, well, Lord, that also means that I'm giving up my pursuit of reinstatement. Right? But what did I do? I put it on the altar. And I said, Lord, all I can do is trust you. That if this is what you telling me to do. You already have a plan for it, right? So I did that and I told y'all that. I told y'all last week I surrendered it. Fine, Lord. I'm I'm I didn't let it go. I'm pursuing business full time, entrepreneurship full time. I'm the message and everything has been moving in a positive direction. You understand? So On yesterday, y'all. After I'd have surrendered this and let it go. And I'm telling this story so that somebody can be encouraged, right? That's it. Just so somebody can know that God is good. Can we just give God some glory real quick and drop in the chat? God is so good. He is so good. So after I get off the live yesterday, y'all, I'm sitting doing homework. And I get a call. from the people who make the decision whether or not I can get my license back. And not only Did they tell me that they're recommending that I can be reinstated? I don't even have all, I don't even have to do all of the things that people would normally have to do when they get the license back. So now All that's standing between me and getting this license back is $750. Y'all. But that ain't even it, y'all. So this morning. Come on Lord, give me strength. So this morning, I'm doing Bible study. And I had the realization that this has been twelve years, y'all. This has been 12 years since this happened for me. This has been 12 years, y'all. And this morning, I said 12 years. And immediately the Lord said, the woman with the issue of blood. And I had to get my Bible. He said, go to the book of Matthew. He told me to go to the book of Matthew and he said to read this. Y'all twelve years. Twelve years ago was when I messed this up. Do you understand? Twelve years. And then this morning, the Lord said. Daughter, be encouraged because your faith has made you well. I need somebody to understand. And he told me, I heard him tell me Job 42 on this morning. And I need somebody to understand this. When the Lord blesses me with the resources to get the license, cool. If that's what he wants me to do. But do you understand that in this restoration process, my God. Not only did the Lord give me this opportunity, He has also blessed me with a business to run, with distribution of the message. I have a cosmetics line, journals, makeup, cards. So when the Lord says he will give you more than what you lost, this was only a part of the restoration. Does that make sense to somebody? When I look about look at what I have now. Compared to what I had when I lost, I wouldn't have what I have now if I hadn't lost it, y'all. Does that make sense to somebody? I wouldn't have any of that if I hadn't lost it. We always look at the things that we lose, but what about what you gain in the process? I you could not have told me. That 12 years ago, when I started messing up my license, that I would be sitting here doing this, that I would be giving messages and talking to people and telling people this story, you and serving the Lord and doing Bible study and owning a business and going to school. You could not have told me that that was going to be my life. But I had to lose it. In order to find it. Yao. I hope that makes sense to somebody. I had to lose everything. Everything. Six month for six months. I lost I lost myself. I lost my children. I lost every houses, license, money, identity, relationships, you name it. But look at God. But look at God. So now I told I I because when the Lord, because I wasn't convicted, y'all. I wasn't convicted about saying, Lord, I released this, right? I released it because Lord, I felt like I feel like you're giving me something better. But if you want me to go back, okay. All right. So I'm telling that story because I need somebody to understand that what the Lord is doing, this is deep wounds. Deep, y'all. This is deep wounds. This is this is what people you hear people talk about shadow work. This deep wounds. This is wounds that you think you didn't heal from until it's sitting right in your face. And the Lord says, all that's standing between you and this healing. This the truth the last level this healing is seven hundred and fifty dollars. What and the Lord told me this morning, because this is why I started crying. It took me all of this, but God made me worthy. Does that make sense to somebody? He made me worthy to get it back. Yow I pray. That this encourages somebody that has lost. You can mess your life up. You can do the worst thing you can think of. And here come God saying, but you still belong to me. So anyway. It wasn't conviction. It was the Lord showing this pattern of surrender to restoration. And this is not just available in my life. Do you understand? This is available to every single person. It has taken twelve years for me to get back to worthy for a blessing that the Lord had given me. Over 20 something years ago. Had the blessing, fumbled it, and now the Lord said, you can have it back if you want it, but I bet you this time you'll steward it well. I bet you this time you won't mess it up. You right. You right. You you are absolutely right, Lord. But guess what he had to do? He had to take me through all of that to get me to worthy. He's got to take you through all of that. And I don't even know what you've been through. To get you to worthy. And he'll do that message, right? He'll do that. So I had to tell y'all that story. I had I wrote this down. When the Lord said, My daughter, your faith has made you well. I had I was in here boo-hoo crying, just like I just did. Because people do not understand when the Lord says, Okay, yes. Thank you so much for the blessing, dearest one. Thank you so much. May it be returned to you, multiplied. Thank you, dearest one. Y'all, I need somebody. To just be encouraged. Don't ever think that you've done something so bad that God won't forgive you. Because He will, right? Deep emotional healing. This wound ran deep, y'all. This wound 12 years deep. This wound, because what I've been suffering from for this last 12 years was this. Right? Then the clarity card that I got this morning, y'all, when I was doing Bible study. Was none other than Psalms 23. You cannot make this up. Normally I would go in and pull a tarot card for myself, but on and then I couldn't even, I couldn't do nothing but laugh, y'all. Because when I got this this morning, it came out of a deck that we don't even normally get it out of. I had forgotten that it's even in this deck, right? And I just laughed and I said, Okay, Lord. So then when I finally did pull a card for myself, not only did my mama show up on the moon. Energy, it was also a tower. Expect the unexpected from God. And we finna get into the clarity for today. But this is inner healing, this is emotional healing. this is intuition, this is revelation that requires responsibility. So, for many of you, what the Lord is doing, and myself included, because I got to accept this message because I see I can see what God is doing, y'all. I'm not blind, I'm not blind to it. And messengers, we all often want to take ourselves out. The Lord said, Not this time. This time he's talking to you, right? This time he's talking to you. And so he clarity this for me because me, Lord, you're gonna have to let me know that this is what you want me to do. Like, Lord, is this is this where you sended me? Am I like, am I going back? I just said I didn't want to go back, Lord. He said, I know. He said, but I need you to go back. Okay, Lord. So on yesterday, I went and did ended up having to go pee yesterday because understand that this comes with this comes with stipulations, y'all. I'm not even at the I'm still at the okay, Lord, give the resources part. But this comes with stipules comes with stipulations. It comes this comes with a contract. This comes with things that I have to be responsible for in order to get this back. The Lord's saying, okay, I'm gonna give it back. I'm gonna give it to you. But this is what's required. To whom much is given, much is required. The Lord actually told me that in my notes this morning, Luke 12 and 48. To whom much is given, much will be required. So don't think that whatever the Lord, however he's leveling you up, don't think that it don't come. It comes with, yeah, you don't, yeah. Yeah. Your character, your integrity, your ethics, your morals. He's requiring something of you. If you want it, you can have it. But if you keep asking the Lord to level you up, He's gonna keep leveling up your character. He's gonna keep leveling up your integrity. Hence me coming on here telling y'all, man, I just told y'all, and I told it with with all truth. Cause can't nobody stop this. Do you understand? People be like, okay, move in silence. Yeah, that's cool. And I and guess what? I moved in silence with this for over a year. Or for almost a year, nobody even understood except the people that actually know me in real life, right? My family. So then the Lord say, when he said, talk about it, okay, Lord. Now he why? Because somebody needs to understand this from the perspective that you're at. I hope that makes sense. Expect the unexpected, right? Somebody expect the unexpected. But this is the the Lord, the Lord is my shepherd. I lack nothing. So, if this is what God wants for you, then He's going to make sure that everything that you need is provided for that. I hope that makes sense to somebody. Growth in God's kingdom always increases responsibility. Every new level of wisdom, influence, leadership, and favor comes with greater stewardship. Every level, God doesn't reveal truth just to let us know something. When he shows us something, he's inviting us to respond in obedience. Your response to revelation determines your readiness for greater responsibility. Okay. I hope that made sense to somebody. Like y'all, when I tell you the Lord has been in a in a in a in a he in a mood, he in a blessing season. He's like, okay, all right. You you you'll let some stuff go. Yeah, because when it comes to the Lord, if the Lord tells me to release it, it's done. I don't care what it is. Bye. Goodbye. People people be look yes you'll see me today and never see me again. If the Lord say let it go, gun done, gone, deuces, baby. Listen at me. No line, no waiting. Okay. People you could talk to me today and never speak another, I never speak another word to you. And that is a true story.com. When I say my cutoff game is Superman Strong. When the Lord tells me to release something, now I don't just be cutting people off just for the sake of it, but when I know, no, the Lord says let it go. done. Okay, Lord, it's just that simple, y'all. I don't play no games about it. And because why? Because when if the Lord tells me something, Lord, I know you meant it for you meant it for something. I didn't completely understand why the Lord were was requiring this of surrender for me to surrender last week, but I get it now. So that I can come on here and tell somebody, like, hey, sometimes the Lord will ask you to let go of the thing that you're putting ahead of him. Where you start depending on self and instead of depending on him. We oftentimes we don't have a clear, the clearest understanding of idols, but idol being having an or rebellion, right? It's you thinking you can do it better than God can do it. So when then the Lord say, okay, let let me see if you still depending on you or if you're depending on me. So, what have I had to do? Do y'all understand that I literally be sitting here? I don't be telling no stories when I be like, Man, I'm in a manna season. I'm waiting on God. what's you? Well, in the meantime, I'ma just go, okay, let me build the message. Let me do what I can do. So, what was I able to do? Okay, let me put the message out here on all the podcasts. That's what the Lord has said. Okay, let me do that. Okay, let me try to. Upgrade my website, let me send a newsletter. This was all free, it didn't require no resources. I did what I can do so that God can do what he does. I hope that makes sense. This is what the Lord says when He tells you to do something. We talked about the seed yesterday. When He tells you to do something, please do it because you never know what He has in store for it, right? Let's get the clarity out here and see what we got. Here we go. We have family that is coming out first. this is faithful. Loyalty, children. Now, I just got to say this. Period. Big Leo energy, right? Because the first thing didn't we just talk about? Because daughter, your faith has made you well, right? Message. This is about knowing who you are, y'all. This is about knowing who you are. This is support systems. We talked about tribes yesterday. We had that card to come out kindred spirits and being sincere. One thing the Lord, I told the Lord this this morning, or He told me. One thing about it, y'all, when the Lord know you trying, man, it ain't nothing like trying for the Lord. Cause He be like, I see you trying. And I think it's a scripture. I just heard a scripture that's like, I see you doing better than you were before. I see you doing more than you were than you were doing before. Like the Lord is gonna give some acknowledgement, y'all. He will give some acknowledgement. Like, yeah, you you doing better. You you doing better, right? You doing better. So I hope that makes sense to somebody. Some of you you may have some new support systems that are coming in as well. This is parents. This is the Lord saying, like you, you mind for real. Okay. So it's like you got to remember that, right? Come on, the tools, practical abilities, resources, not application. Look, the Lord got jokes today, organization well prepared, okay. equipment and getting some stuff done. The Lord is equipping us. Come on, equipping. The Lord is equipping us for with what we need for this season. Okay, I don't know what tools the Lord is giving you. This is giving Ten of Cups energy over here, but this is like we've been talking about building. So the Lord is always going to provide you with the tools necessary for your building season with whatever it is that you're building. And it may be one tool at a time. Maybe you don't need this whole toolbox right now. Maybe you only need a screwdriver. Maybe you only need a hammer, right? The Lord is gonna give you whatever the tool is that He needs you to have. Come on, God. In this season to be successful. I hope that makes sense. so whatever the tool is, that message that the Lord is giving you, thank you so much for the blessing, dearest one. May it be returned to you, multiplied. Y'all know I'm a baby, so I'm gonna start crying again. So thank y'all so much for the blessings. I'm truly grateful, right? The Lord will give you the tools that you need. In order to accomplish the task that he wants you to accomplish. Okay. So please know that he's never going to send you out unprepared. He's never going to send you out lacking. He's not going to do it. He's going to make sure that you have every resource that you need to build. Okay. And he's going to let you know you're going to know what you need because you know what you need. You know it's it's it's like it's it's knowing once you're clear about what you're building, the Lord can then supply. Apply what's necessary to build it. I hope that makes sense. And sometimes it takes a long time to get to clarity, y'all. I don't want anybody to ever think because even right now. I don't even know every tool that's needed. But one thing I know when I need a tool, the Lord provides it. And it's like, I didn't even know I needed that. I mentioned that on yesterday when I talked about, you know, utilizing these different AI platforms. It's just like, okay, well, I didn't even know I needed that tool, but now that I know that it's it can help me. To build, you have to use what God has available for you. I hope that makes sense to somebody. He's getting ready to, he's preparing you. So he's going to give you the tools that you need in order to build it. Completion, the world, the kingdom. Man, the kingdom. Come on, it's good over here. This speaks to the new Jerusalem. This is also graduation as well. Okay. I'm telling you right now, this is like the Lord getting ready to send you out. Into the world to accomplish, to do something, to take territory. And this is this is a level up, y'all. This means that there's something that's ending, but there's also something that's beginning. So for many of you, the Lord's is it's coming up in the sitter. Come on, the kingdom is the message. Drop that in the chat. The kingdom is the message. Why? Because we're building man, because we're building for the kingdom. Does that make sense? When the Lord knows you're committed to moving the kingdom. Forward, whether this is your business message, whether this is you teaching, whether this is your relationships, this is being a kingdom builder. Kingdom builder. Man, I hope that I hope that made sense to somebody. That's beautiful, Lord. What else? My goodness. So the Lord is going to be giving some of you something to build. For the kingdom. Matthew, let me show y'all something. This is how you know the Lord said what he said. Where is my journal? I'm I'm pretty sure. Hold on, y'all. You just can't make this up. On yesterday. I love the Lord. Can we just put through? Thank you, Jesus. Can we just true story give God some glory real quick? Because you can't make this up. We just got the kingdom, and the next card to come out is heaven. The scripture on this card is Matthew message 1619. Matthew 16, 19. And I wrote this on yesterday, y'all. The and we talked about it, keys of the kingdom. This is in the keys of the kingdom deck, right? And I wrote this on yesterday. I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven. Whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven. Whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. We just talked about this scripture on yesterday, y'all. Just Matthew. 1619. I wrote this on yesterday. So I hope this makes sense for somebody. This is why y'all have seen me retry. I told y'all say, Man, the Lord and gave me an assignment. The kingdom is the message. It's everywhere. It's on my new, it's it's everywhere. You got the kingdom is the message because I don't have any other assignment but to help people to get here because I understand and I'm and still working consistently and diligently to make sure that I'm staying in the kingdom message. Okay, so I hope that makes sense to somebody. So this is speaking to the kingdom of God. That's literally the first word that's on this particular card, y'all. And this is the keys of the kingdom day, the kingdom of God. this is promised land, firmament, Canaan, resting place as well. We receive it, Lord. So for many of you, the Lord is getting ready to give you something, or maybe He's already given you something to build for the kingdom. Will you build it? Right, will you build it? I hope that makes sense for somebody. This is also going to be a reminder because we're going to clarity this. This is also going to be a reminder for some of you that you're part of a royal family. Do you understand? Can you like drop some crowns in the chat? I'm royalty. The Lord is going to keep reminding us, y'all, that we ain't out here. We're not peasants in the kingdom. We're heirs. We're heirs. You you royalty. So for many of us, what he the Lord is reminding us is when he starts calling us home, when he starts calling us, reconciling us, bringing us back. This is everything we're talking about in Leviticus. This is why I'm always I always give y'all the kingdom clarity versus just the Bible clarity, because it's understanding how to apply this so that we can live here. Okay, it's like two different worlds being in the world, but not of the world. As above, man, I ain't never got that on this before. As above, so below. I does that make sense to somebody, man. You better know who are you from for real. Yesterday we talked about knowing who you are for real, but know where you're from for real. And it's different over here when you like you don't have to go looking for it. The Lord be like, here, here you go. Here, here's the tool, here's the resource, here's the people, here's the connections, here's just go build it. Okay. When you commit to the building, every seek first the kingdom. How do you do that? I don't child up me. Well, I don't really know this is not now, but it's just like what that means. you mean let me find out more about it. Hold on, let me see. Seek the kingdom. Let me find. Can I find out more about this king? What this kingdom of God talking about? Keep looking for it. Keep looking, keep seeking, keep knocking, keep asking. Keep trying to find out. Keep trying to get wisdom. Keep trying to get understanding. Because once you begin to understand, then the keys, the wisdom, the understanding begins to unlock different doors. Does that make sense? I hope that made sense to somebody. What else, Lord? 11th house. group contributions. This is a lot talking about like friendship circles. The 11th house is a house of hopes and wishes and dreams as well. group involvement and cause everybody. We're all a part of this, right? this also speaks to rebellion because let me just tell y'all, 11th house energy can be a little rebellious. That's you choosing. And we just talked about this. We're still we're still talking about Leviticus, right? So a lot of times it's like the prodigal son energy where we want to go off and rebel, but then when the Lord says we can come home, he welcomes us back, right? this is technology, society. This is also the a house of wealth. So we're gonna clarity this, y'all, and see what else the Lord wants to talk about. for some of you, yes, this is new connections, new tribes, new people, new environments, people who are motivating and inspiring you to build and be better and do better. I hope that makes sense. Some of you, the Lord is getting ready to strengthen you. It's like you're gonna have it, it's like a fresh wind. Thank y'all. It's like a fresh wind. Baby, they find it like your angels. Sometimes your angels, you ever had to just tell the tell the angels thank you. Like, man, y'all show just lifted me up on this day. Yeah, I don't even know how I'm making it, Lord. You be like this, and sometimes they be carrying you and you be slumped over, right? For he will keep give his angels charge over you to keep you in all your ways. They will lift you up lest you dash your foot against the stone. Like they live. Sometimes they live. I can't make y'all just help. Yeah, just help. Just thank you. Cause sometimes I ain't even got no strength. And so the Lord be like, go on down there and carry that fool. For real, right? But guess what? We still here. Drop it in the chat. I'm still here and we're still moving forward, right? Una doit. Let's get the clarity out here. Hold on. Let me try to scroll my comments. Y'all know I can't see. Good morning, morning star. Good morning, K. Good morning, y'all. my I don't know why my riverside is not auto-scrolling. So I'm missing a lot of y'all's comments. So I apologize for that. It is not auto-scrolling for today. So, only do it. Let's get to it. Let's clarity this family card. Faithful. trust. I'm telling y'all, because the Lord, because you've been faithful with a little. The Lord can bless you with a lot. Okay. Message? I love the Lord. Y'all, Daddy, if you had just wanted to show up in the message, just say that. Y'all, why this card say message? This ain't even one of my cards, y'all. Communication with others, spiritual messages. You can't make this up, right? So that's the pick the punctuality message on the end of the sentence. Okay, so the Lord said, Yeah, you heard correctly. so this for some of you. You may be communicating with others as well. There may be others that are going to be a communicating with you, right? So pay attention to your emails. Some of you, this may be like a work in process where you're writing something, writing a book, or maybe that's what the Lord is prompting you to do. It's almost like or make sure that you're getting some stuff written down on paper. I don't know. This could be in the form of contracts as well, because the Lord is still talking to me about contracts. So for some of you, you could be signing on the dotted line in some way. Something about ink. Why did I write something about ink? Anyway, I don't know what the child well who I want to get a tattoo. I'ma get one. Y'all just wait. It's coming. I'm gonna get one. I already know what my next tattoo is gonna be. this is also this like the Lord bringing in faithful companions and people who understand you, people who are on your level. He's giving a lot of energy about your soul family, and then it's also about you on it's almost. What y'all mean? It almost feels like somebody not believing that you truly are part of the family. Now, this ain't for everybody, but it's almost like peeping your head through the door trying to see. I don't even know why that's the way that they just showed that to me. But it's just like peeping your head, like, am I welcome? Welcome. Y'all welcome the new people. Okay. If you new to the message, welcome. We are so happy and so grateful that you are here. but it's almost like some people look, Chris said, hold on, Chris. I'm gonna come back to that, Chris Curls. It's almost like somebody who you like peeping your head in. It's just like, I don't know if this is for me, baby. The kingdom is for everybody. but everybody don't want to get in. But I tell you, kingdom life is the good life. Okay. Chris Curl says, Do you come on live on Sundays on Riverside? I do not come, I don't do lives on Sundays, y'all. Right now I'm not, I don't have the time. I'm only live Monday through Friday. Riverside is my streaming app that I'm using. Shout out to Riverside. it's my streaming platform that I'm using. I tell y'all that was another resource message that ended up just randomly showing up for me. It wasn't even something that was on my radar. And so this is actually this the platform that I'm using. Look, that was gonna be our little plug for today. But shout out to Riverside, who is this is my streaming platform that I'm using. And I tell you, if you stream multi if you record. If you I don't man, this this app does so many things, y'all. So this is a a great resource to have. It's a great tool. Okay. And it just showed up. I'm telling you, an email just randomly showed up, and all of a sudden, it's just like exactly what I needed. So no, I don't go live on Sundays. No, I'm finna not, I'm not fin to start going live on Sundays because it's my it's my prep day. but that's what Riverside is. And it's also a platform I'm gonna be using for different things, like the 8 8 conference that we'll be doing here pretty soon. Right. so okay. Here we go. Sacred sexuality. It was another card that tried to come out with this, but I think I ooh look. I'm gonna pull, I'm gonna pull both of them because I felt like it, man, y'all. Okay, I'm tracking. It was two cars. Both of these cars are trying to come out together, but I ended up pulling one. But I I felt like I needed to get the other one. And the reason I needed definitely to get the other one is regret, right? This talks to feelings of guilt, sadness, shame, sorry about what happened, regret over your decisions. Didn't we just get didn't I just get done having a whole boo hoo session? And let me just tell somebody this as well. Please don't get it twisted. I don't I'm am I sorry about what I did? Absolutely. Because understand that what the the set the events that happened 12 years ago sent me down a path that put me in some situations and some stuff, y'all, that ultimately and homelessness wasn't the only thing that it put me through because that wasn't the first time I was homeless. That was just the first time I was homeless living in my car. Does that make sense? And so do I feel Regret, do am I regretful? Yeah, man, I hate I did it. You know, I I messed the blessing up that the Lord had given me. But let me be very clear. I'm no longer beating myself up about something that I did 12 years ago. Does that make sense to somebody? Because it's it's an understanding of healing. And I hope this attract for somebody. No, you're not gonna get me. Am I am because why? Because that was a season of my life, but it's no longer a season that I'm in. So for whoever this part of the message is for, you can feel you can feel bad about what you did. You can like, man, I hate that I did that. But let me tell you something. When you stay stuck in it, that's how you end up in depression. Does that make sense? The enemy wants you there. He wants you beating yourself up. About stuff that's already been done. And what's done is done. So when you didn't know, the Lord, now you know. So now what? Because you can't change it. So for some of you, the Lord is saying, Hey, I, and we still we said that in Leviticus 5, like the Lord is not trying to shame you, but so that you don't have to repeat something over and over again. This could be in the form of relationships as well, right? He's not trying to make you ashamed of what you did. So don't keep beating yourself up because that's exactly what the enemy wants you to do. He doesn't want you to get to understand, like, man, yeah, I made a mistake. Own your mistake. I did it. Yes, I did. Like I that's accountability. Like, yeah, I did it. I made some I was making terrible decisions. I was reckless. I was doing crazy stuff. I was. But that's not that was 12 years ago. So am I still beating myself up about what I did 12 years ago? No. Why? Because I'm not even the same person anymore. I'm not that person. That was a chapter of my life. That chapter been closed. The book been burnt. Okay. That's it's over with. So for some of you, this is the Lord saying, Hey, the enemy wants you in your feelings about who you used to be, what you used to do, what you decisions that you made that now you can't do nothing about. Maybe them that's over with. Okay. and it's easy for us to message. It's easy for us to get stuck in that, feeling some type of way because of the fact that we man, I man, I can't believe I did that. I know we mess up though. But then guess what? The Lord still welcomes us home welcomes us home. Okay. So for whoever this is for, it's like the Lord saying, hey, don't don't beat yourself up about it. It is what it is. We now we done all messed up. I started with that. We ain't always gonna get it right. But when you do have an opportunity to get it right, are you going to do better this time? Okay. Hey, Paw Pa. I hope that makes sense, right? It's why I told y'all, even when it comes to nursing, baby, you're not gonna, the Lord has forgiven me. And because the Lord has forgiven me and I have forgiven myself, you can't make me feel guilty about it. And I don't want that to make it seem like because no, I've already taken ownership, account, all the things, man. Look, I did it. And it's not me, but it's just like, but I'm not finna go back there. Going back there, y'all have no idea how many years I spent beating myself up about it. So no, I'm not at that season of life anymore. Okay. I hope that makes sense to somebody. The world is your oyster. being grateful, exploring possibilities and freedom. Whatever you want, you can have. Drop this in the chat. I can have it. Okay. I can have it. Now I hope this may excuse me. I hope this makes sense to somebody. you can have it, but it requires something. Okay. Whatever you want, you can have it, but it requires something. It it requires you to be willing to put in the work. You're gonna have to first with self where the work starts with self. Let me say this to somebody the work starts with with self. Okay. Before you, before the Lord will give you something to build, and sometimes during, so I won't say before, but I'll say during. Because while the Lord was giving me something to actually build, which is the message and the platforms and all of that, he was rebuilding me. And he's doing, and for you, it's the same process. Like none of us go through anything different, y'all. So the work starts with self. The first thing before anything else, before any of the platforms, before any of the stuff that the Lord has given me at this point, the first thing He made me do was own up to the fact that I that I messed up. This was many moons ago because in the beginning, y'all, I was ashamed of what I had done. And so I was lying. I didn't want, I was embarrassed because I didn't want to tell anybody that I was the reason that I lost my nursing license. I was embarrassed about that. I was embarrassed. It's like when I was in an in a relationship, I was in an abusive relationship. I was embarrassed to tell people that I was getting beat up. Do you understand? Like you be embarrassed to talk about what you really did to mess your life up. So then you, but then when you really when the healing begins to come, you could face it and be like, no, you know, I I lied. This was me. I told this story, true story. I had to tell people like, man, I messed it up. I did. I was reckless. I was wildin' out. I was doing all kinds of things and it just it caught up with me. And it did, right? So once you get past that point of owning it, then the the work can really begin. Because then the Lord's like, okay, now that you're not running from it and you're acknowledging that this is what you did, now the real work can start. I hope that makes sense to somebody. You can have it. And it's the same thing with anything, any idea that the Lord is giving you to build a platform, influence, business, relationships. You can have it, but it's gonna require work. So as long as you're willing to do the work, the work, the world is your oyster, right? Morningstar just said. Something you said before about asking for forgiveness for something you already asked for before. That says something to me. Like for real, y'all. It's like, you know, and I'm glad that resonated with you, dearest one. And I hope that, you know, it helped you to to understand that maybe that was something that you were holding on to that you had to release, right? So that you could make room for what it is that you want. Come on, but I just ain't it a ain't it a parable about a oyster or a pearl. That may be important for somebody. Somebody tell me where that scripture's at. It's something about a pearl. Not and no, it's not the one, not not about throwing your pearls to swine. It's something about like finding a pearl or something. An oyster, something, something the end, something the the person, the little person found, and then he and and ended up giving away everything he had for it. Does that is that tracking for? Am I tripping? Anyway, let's see what else. Now y'all. Just because I'm looking down, I looked down and I saw this card. Look what's sticking out. I'm telling y'all, this is a significant moon for somebody. Okay. This is this feels like a significant time. I'm gonna have to figure out what's going on with this app message. The moon. And I already told y'all my mama showed up. Where you went, girl? Where'd I put you at, child? she's still she back over. I put her back over here. There may be something unexpected that's getting ready to happen for somebody on this day. Okay, because this is my mama. Y'all know them angels message talking about be carrying me, baby. Listen at me. Okay. Carrying you. Okay. So for some of you, this is intuition. Same card, different deck, just a different version of the deck, right? the Lord may be doing something unexpected on this day. Why? Based on a seed that you have planted, something may actually be revealed on this day as well. Just pay attention to your spirituals. The Lord may be, I know normally you think about. Full moons being the time for like things being manifested, but new moons are times where you're planting a seed, but that doesn't mean that you can't receive it. New moon energy as well. Is there significance in this day of the moon energy is emotional anyway? So for some of you, this may be facing a fear about something, facing emotions because the again, so you may just the Lord may just be showing you in multiple ways, or maybe there are going to be multiple multiple things. That are going to be healed and you ain't even know it. Something's getting ready to become something's coming to light. Anyway, we'll see what else. Let's see what else is coming out with this. the Lord may, it's almost like an idea. Thank you. It feels it feels like a hidden idea, man. It feels like a hidden idea for some of you that the Lord is getting ready to give you wisdom on how to build or how to construct something. Y'all know we always use the the foundation of a house. Right, where it's just like this is the Lord making sure that all the cracks are filled, making sure that everything is where it everything needs to be filled in, everything needs to be right with your foundation before you build up. Okay. Then we have the three of wands, something this is success coming in. This speaks to Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. We have been getting a lot of expansion energy. We've, I think we've had the three of wands every week. For the last three weeks. Okay. So for some of you, there may be something that you it may be expansion in your gifts, right? This could be growth and expansion in your resources. This could be maybe you joining a new organization or being on a new team, something like that, building something new, seeing growth and something that you are or have been working on, right? Equipment. Upgrades, thank y'all. Like new things that you're getting ready, new blessings that you're getting ready to see, new opportunities that you're getting ready to see. The three of wands, and this is also the Lord being with you every step of the way. And thank you, Lord, because who wants to build something without the Lord? Not me. And I ain't gonna be able to do it. If God ain't in it, I ain't doing it. If He ain't going, I ain't going. So for some of you. The Lord's like, look, you finna get ready to start seeing. Maybe this is a new way to help you build or grow or elevate, expand in some way. Child, I don't know. The fiery furnace refers to a story in the book of Daniel where, of course, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were thrown into the blazing furnace by King Nebuchadnezzar. So for many of you, let me just tell you this that fourth man energy. Okay, this that fourth man energy where the Lord finna come in and you're gonna recognize like it's it ain't nobody but God. Like you something is getting ready to happen instrumental in somebody's life, and this ain't everybody, and it's something and something else, thank y'all, which I mean like thank y'all. So do you it's understanding that you are the miracle? Many of you, it's like we be looking for God to do these great and amazing things, but you really, if you realize that you are the miracle. You're creating the miracles. Does that make sense to somebody? It's it's not thinking that like you're seeing the miracles because you're creating the miracles. Does that make sense? Did I say that right? You because it's like remembering who you are. If you know that you were created in the image of God. And God can do any and everything. It's the authority we talked about yesterday. You recognizing that you have the power and the authority by utilizing the God in you in order to make something happen. I think I said that the right way. Because God is not X outside of you, He's within you. So this is you tapping into that God, your God, Goddess, energy, whatever you want to call it. And making the miracles happen. Drop it in the chat. I'ma make it happen. And so this is not giving praise to God outside of you. This is giving praise to God within you. Good morning, Tarshell. Because this is the God in you that's making this happen. I hope that makes sense to somebody. It's like God ain't you not we don't pray to an external God. Does that make sense? I hope ain't nobody still doing that. Like you don't pray to an external God. Good morning, Lisa. Good morning. You don't pray to an external God. God is within you. So you're talking to Jesus within you. I hope that makes sense. If anybody tell you, and I'm not saying looking up is a bad thing, but baby, God is not outside of you. So we shouldn't still be praying, looking up, saying, Lord, help me, that ain't where God's at. I hope that may who need that confirmation? Who was that for? Baby, we tell me let me shuffle the cards. Because who's still doing that? Who's still telling you to pray outside of yourself? Sometimes that's why you that's why. How you what? Baby, no. Now we we God ain't sitting up on some throne in heaven. The throne is within you. Let me just shuffle the cards a little bit. And come on, Ephesians 6 and 11. Baby, we don't let me scroll my messages down. What y'all was talking about, child? Anyway, honey, no. Wayne and Gibbons moon creative pursuits, hobbies, gradual or releasing bad habits, better communication, revelation, and completion. And this is coming up with the kingdom, the world, right. So for many of us, what are you letting go, or what is the Lord calling you to let go of that is going to help you to move into this new season? What you still holding on to? What what regret, what pain, what are you beating yourself up about? What are you letting go of? And this has been a gradual decrease, right? This is like we're lessing letting letting things go piece by piece and step by step. I need somebody to understand that healing is a process. So you're not doing this all at one time. Didn't I just say it took me 12 years to get to this point of this healing process? And this is only one thing in life. So it's just, but it's understanding that this is a process, y'all. It's a journey. And so we continue to walk this walk with the Lord. We continue to move in alignment with purpose. We continue to move the way God is telling us to move. And then all of a sudden, you start to see eventually you get to a point where it's just like, man, it becomes a little bit easier to release. It becomes a little bit easier. to to to walk in alignment with the Lord. You it's easy. Obedience becomes easier, becomes almost second nature because you'd be like, mm mm, not doing it. God, mm-mm, let me let it go. It's almost like second nature it nature. It comes, you get to a point where you're checking with God first. Before you move, before you do anything, you'd be like, hold on, pause. God, we good. Is this the right thing? Okay. move forward. So I hope that makes sense to somebody. As you continue to move forward, it begins, it it's like it becomes easier. But a lot of times that's one of the things that the Lord has to teach us, right? He has to teach us to slow down and tap in with him first before you make a move because we'll be impulsive. We move without thinking. We move without doing that holy spirit check in. Come on spirit check. Well hold on let me we we move and then we end up doing it the wrong way. Okay, so I hope that makes sense to somebody. so sometimes that's why the Lord says when He's the when He starts saying slow down, slow down and making decisions. Now, once you know it's like me knowing I need some lighting, right? Because my lighting is not great in here. When it's stuff like, okay, I need to improve that. I don't do, I'm not researching depending. Man, this is market, this is my marketing class all over again. It's literally like the more. The more you're going to be more invested in something, if you're going to spend more money on it, you're going to do more research. So you may make a quick decision. If it's not going, it's not like a lot. It's like, okay, you know, I'm buying some dishwashing liquid. So I ain't got to think a lot about that. But baby, when it's something serious, like, man, should I take this job? You better be checking in with the Lord. You better do a check-in and be like, hold on, Lord, because if this ain't for me, I don't need much want it. I don't want it. Okay, so for some of y'all, it's like one of those things where the Lord's like, Hey, before you make that decision, pause, take a break, go pray. Me, I was in prayer all day yesterday. Like, Lord, if you really want me to do this, you you're gonna have to make a way. Cause do y'all understand when I like I really be like, Lord, I don't want to mess up. And I have come, and that's something that I the Lord has kind of checked me on as well. I don't know, maybe it's just me. I literally be like, man, Lord, I don't, I don't wanna, I don't wanna mess up. I wanna make sure I'm stewarding this well. So even though these folks propose that I can get this nursing license back, y'all, I literally had to sit with the Lord and just be like, Daddy, is this what you want? Is this what's for me? Is is this the path that you want me to walk down? I could have my first thought was like, Yeah, do it. Then I say, Hold on, let me let me check with God first, because If it ain't for me, Lord, then close the door. That and maybe that's a prayer. Thank y'all. Maybe that's a prayer that somebody needs to pray. Lord, if it's not for me, close the door. Close the door. That was my prayer. Y'all, I literally said, Lord, you can close the door and I'll be good with it. And then the Lord said, No, not yet. And so he allowed me to be able to walk through the door. But before I I say all day, I was just like, Lord, you're gonna let me know. You, if this is what you want me to do, then you're gonna have to let me know. And how did he do that? By confirming it with the word. I hope that made sense to somebody because of the fact that he sent me to the woman with the issue of blood at 4.04 this morning. I literally wrote the time down. That was how he confirmed it. After last night I'm going to bed, I'm laying in the bed, and I was just like, okay, Lord, you know, I'm going to sleep. Give it to God and go to sleep. Okay, give it to God and go to sleep. I'm going to bed, Lord, and you'll let me know what I need to know, whether it be in a dream, whether you wake me up in the middle of the night, whether it, and sure enough, just like it usually is, here we come in Bible study, and he says, I'm in the word, because the word, the living word, right? We understand that the word is alive. And he talked right back to me and he said, Yep. And I'm like, Okay, Lord, well, now how help. Okay, help. So for some of you, it's it's an understanding that this is a process, y'all. Give it to God and then let it God let God give it back to you. I hope it made sense to somebody. This ain't about trying to just let give it to God and let God give it back to you. Good morning, y'all. Good morning. Y'all like the life, share, life, share love. What else, Lord? I hope that makes sense. This is graduation. Okay. I am proud of myself and will continue to strive to do well. Okay. Be proud of yourself for your growth. Journal this literally is a prompt journal, three things that you are proud of accomplishing. For some, sometimes it's as much as, man, I got up today. Because let me tell you, I didn't have my moments where it was hard just to get up. And we don't often recognize that people don't know what you're battling with or struggling with. People don't know sometimes just how hard it is to just keep going. And you keep praying and then you keep the Lord keep giving you new things to do. And he keeps giving you, you know, more responsibility. And sometimes there are people who don't even realize the weight that you're carrying and just how much is required of you. So I hope that makes sense. So be proud of yourself. If you got one thing done on this good day, be proud of that. Right. It's not about trying to get a whole lot of things done. Sometimes it's just one thing. Sometimes you have something to be proud of. Like, man, I ain't who I used to be 12 ye 12 years ago. Message. I hope that makes sense to somebody. Like, I'm I'm proud to say that no, I'm not the same woman that I was 12 years ago. She was in a in a a place, baby. Thank God I'm not who I used to be. I said that to the Lord this morning. I was literally like, man, Lord. It took him twelve, it took me 12 years to get to here. 12 years. But here I am, and I ain't done. Drop that in the chat. I ain't done. You ain't done till you go, till you go home. I hope that makes sense to somebody. So be proud of what you have accomplished. Two cards of completion out here. So for some of you, it's people who don't even realize just what you have overcome. Just what you have, just just how much you have changed. In the last, and don't let anybody else try to be an indicator of your change or your growth. Does that make sense? Because can't nobody really don't nobody know but you and the Lord just how much has changed, just how much you've shifted, just how much the Lord has developed you and however long this has been for you. Okay. So be proud of the growth that you have made. even the baby steps. Okay. What else, Lord? Here we go. 2820, Matthew 2820, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always till the very end of the age. for some of you, this is like some, what y'all mean, like under the microscope, somebody's being watched. I don't know what that means for you. and this ain't for everybody, but it's almost like somebody, what y'all mean? Like an analysis, umass? Like somebody, I don't know. Let me just tell you some people gonna critique. People gonna have stuff to say. People gonna be analyzing. They're gonna be trying to find what you mean, like a mistruth in your words. let me tell you one thing about transparency. When you put stuff out on the altar, that's a it's freedom. Thank y'all, freedom. So for some of you, it's like people, I don't what y'all mean. Now they're finna get on my nervous system, but I feel this in my spirituals. It's almost like people trying. To critique you in some way or trying to almost like people trying to find something wrong to say. Now they fent to get, you heard y'all heard me customize my spirituals. I did. because who has time for that? Like people trying, like, no. I'll tell some, and I've said this before, but let me just say it again for the people in the back. One thing about transparency is freedom. Okay. Freedom. Let me say that. Baby, I ain't got no secrets. You ain't gonna find no, no. And I'm using me as an example of this. I wouldn't care one way or another. I told somebody that yesterday. Baby, I don't care what people got to say. Tell me I'm lying. Don't worry. I'll wait. If you can tell me I'm lying, d tell me. But if you can't, shut the hell up. Anyway, and I said what I said. Like some of y'all got the gift that you don't be trying to be rude. But if somebody just keep on trying to come to you, shut shut listen now. Come back message. Some of y'all are gonna have to put some base in your spirituals now. Stop letting these folks play in your face, honey. Because first of all, what I'm not finna keep doing is interrupting my life to tell y'all this foolishness. Cause I don't, baby, you're not gonna get me out of character. What I need to give the disclaimer, because it might be some new people. Don't come over here with no religiosity in your spirituals. You might get cussed out in the spirituals. I don't want everybody to hear it. Cause baby, when I give it to you, that's how y'all got to be. I don't be having to cuss nobody out. But if I did, maybe I need to I need to cuss somebody out for somebody. Don't worry, I got you, boo. One thing I got, I got that slangued for you. If you scared to cuss mine in the spirituals, I ain't. Who we get. Who I need what? I'm talking about channeling the ancestors, baby. You gonna hear words you ain't never heard words before. Cause yeah. Leave me, leave my people name alone. Now whose fear names is it? Child, I done got mad. Let me just show hold on, wait a minute. Let me sip my coffee. Who's spiriting them mad? Somebody spirit. Y'all better leave people alone now. Find something safe to do. Lead the people alone. I got my people with me, the hottest people in the spirit. And I keep them with me. But don't cuss them. Don't do it. Didn't I just tell y'all my mama here? And this ain't the sun, mama, this the moon, mama. Girl, hold on. Wait a minute. Let me calm mama. Don't do it. Leave the people alone. Girl. Girl, I know how you be getting this stuff. Uh-uh, don't go get uh-uh, don't go get her. Please don't go get that lady. Leave her over there. No calm down, calm down. Please. This ain't the sun, d this the this the moon mama. Let me tell you she a little different. You you can come with light or not. Depends on how you want to. Anyway, sip my coffee. I ain't got look, I don't fight. This I'm cute. I don't fight. I let my s my angels fight for me. Anyway. That's how y'all got to get. I almost said it in my spirit. Forget forget the folks. Who's still worried about folks? Moving on. Nine of wands, period. Moving on. Why? Because we got work to do. Drop it in the chat. I got work to do. I ain't got time for that. That's foolishness. Spontaneous, okay. Movement free spirited is method, impulsive, assertive, baby. Move on. I'm done. I'm not even gonna sit. That's that's the Lord saying, Move on, okay. Move on from this, baby. We got work to do. Thank you. Message because we got some manifesting. Didn't I just say I was just talking about the full moon, but today's the new moon, and yes, we know that full moons are for manifesting, but baby, I'm telling somebody right now that it's something that you're losing in heaven. That you're losing on earth, okay. You finna start seeing some stuff happen. You finna start seeing some things that you've been praying for. You have the power to manifest what you want by writing your intentions. Let me talk about new moon intentions. Okay. Now, y'all know over here, we what we plant kingdom seeds. Okay. Kingdom seeds. What is a kingdom seed message? What is a kingdom seed? Write you an intention. Today is the day. I'm trying to tell somebody you want to see something change in your life in the next six months. Today is the day to stick you, write you some sticky notes, kingdom seeds, and put it in your Bible. Believe that it is already done. Because don't just be writing stuff, but you don't believe that God really is gonna do it. Because that who that who That's that's speaking affirmations that you don't believe. Does that make sense? People be like, why don't my affirmations work? Do you believe it for real? Why ain't my prayers being answered? Do you believe it for real? If you don't believe it for real, how do you expect it to happen? Your doubt, many times your doubt. I told somebody this yesterday, one of my good friends, I was talking to her about this situation with my nursing license, right? And one thing I can tell y'all. with absolute truth in my spirituals, there was never a doubt in my mind that I would receive my nursing license back. There even right now, and I don't have it, there's never that not a doubt in my mind. Why? Because God is not a man that he should lie. So if God put me on this track, He had a goal for it. Does this make sense? Nope, I don't have it. Nope, can't nobody stop it. Whether the Lord decided tells me to do it or to not do it. When I started this, you could not convince me there was not a person on God's good earth that could tell me that it wasn't already successful. That's just truth. Why? Because I know that's what God said. Does that make sense? So for some of you, that's how you start seeing the things that you're trying to manifest. When you believe that it's already done, then it is. That is God in you, not external to you. Maybe that's why. Is that why y'all brought that up? You wondering why stuff don't get answered. Now it don't get answered in your timing, it gets answered in God's timing, right? But it happens externally. If you pray into something external to you, whatever, where's the scripture that says according to the power of That's inside of you, like you. This is not something that's coming from outside, y'all. This is where you understand that you have the power to do this. It ain't outside of you. I hope that made sense to somebody. That's why you don't see things manifesting because you still pray into what? In the sky? That's not where the power comes from. That's how we start to shift our power and our authority. When God tells you something, He tells you from the inside, not the outside. Then you're like, okay. And it is done. Drop it in the chat. It is done. I hope that made sense for somebody. The Lord trying to tell somebody you're praying. And again, this ain't got nothing to do with timing. This is about power and authority. Where the authority card from yesterday? This is about power and authority. This is what literally Matthew 16, 19 is talking about. Do you understand the Lord saying, I'm giving you the power and the authority to command what it is that you want to see to have. Now, this again, but let me be very clear with somebody. Don't get this twisted. It oftentimes, most times, 100% of the time, looks like something that you have to build. The blessing doesn't always show up in the way that you expect it to show up. Sometimes the Lord gives you a resource. Riverside. Sometimes it's a person, it's a conversation that you need to have so that you get a next step that you were unaware of. Thank you for coming through in the clutch. It ain't always the Lord just coming and saying, here. Sometimes it's telling you to go build a business. And he starts with telling you to get your credit together. So it's not always if you don't go from A to Z and not go through every other letter in the alphabet, y'all. You you have to start at A and then step step two is B, and so on and so forth. So if you that person that's looking for everything to happen right now, that's not reality. Everything that gets built takes time. Whether if you look at the houses being constructed, you see a house, they don't, it's not like they lay the foundation and the next day the house done. It's a process. So if you look at whatever it is that you're trying to do, if it's getting your finances in order, if it's building a business, if it's a relationship, if it's a job, if it's school, it takes time, but you have to be willing to put in the work, right? but this is understanding that you're not praying, we're not praying to ac external anything. Come on, it's the God in me. Drop it in the chat. It's the God in me. The power at work within me to get this done. I hope this makes sense to somebody. Okay. It's done. Baby, we things are manifesting. And you have to have, it's it's like I'm talking about crazy faith. It ain't gonna make sense to nobody else kind of faith, right? Not the five of pentacles. I don't even man, that's why. Let me just talk about this. Because you just can't make this up. This is con this is confirmation and for somebody that your restoration is happening. I can't even make this up, y'all. Did we not just talk about Job this morning? And I don't think we've ever pulled the five of pentacles in the Bible Clarity deck. If I have, it's only been one good time. But let me just read about the Five of Pentacles in the Bible Clarity deck. Because I don't know if I've ever put I've ever pulled it, but I specifically mentioned Job to tell somebody that when the Lord restores you, He's going to give you back more than what you lost. Job's loss. Can y'all see Job's the story of Job depicts a righteous man who experiences immense suffering. All while maintaining his faith in God, despite not understanding why these tragedies befall him, Satan challenges God, claiming Job only serves him due to his blessings, prompting God to allow Satan to test Job. Have you considered my servant Job? He loses his possessions, his children, and is afflicted with a painful disease. And despite his hardship, Job refuses to curse God and maintains his faith. God restores Job's fortune and blesses him with new children and more than what he lost. This narrative explores the question of why good people suffer and challenges the idea that suffering is always a result of sin, with Job's unwavering devotion ultimately being rewarded by God's. Restoration. This was the whole story I just got done telling, boo hoo crying from from I don't even know what word to use there, y'all. I need somebody to understand that right now your restoration is happening. Right now. No line, no waiting. And it may not be, because I don't ever want God to fully restore me. And I hope this makes sense to somebody. Because that means I always have something else to look forward to. I don't even know what full restoration is. I may know it in one thing, but I don't feel like we'll ever any of us will be fully restored until we get to spirituals, right? The five of pentacles is a card of loss. It is a card of poverty. It is a card of lack. Probably I don't have a I don't have I ain't got much. I don't particularly care for the five of pentacles in the tarot. Why? Because it's an indicator, it's a Robin Peter to pay card paw card. It's a man, it's a mindset. But for some of you, it's like the Lord is letting you know right now, this season is over. And it's it but it's over when you say it's over. Does that man? I hope that made sense to somebody. This season ends when you say it ends. I just felt that in my spirituals, y'all. It ends when you say it ends. It ends, and and what do I mean by that? When I said, Okay, Lord, I'm not gonna do this anymore. I repent. When when I say it's like when you give something over to the Lord instead of you struggling with it, instead of it's when you stop settling for five for less than what you deserve. When it's when you start remembering who's who you are, who you are, and whose you are. Does that make sense? This season ends when you say it ends because you start to allow God to operate in your life. I hope that made sense to somebody. Some of you are going to have a mindset shift that is, you're going to realize, like, man, I didn't believe, I didn't understand it was that simple. I didn't realize that it was just this easy for me to change my season, to go from lack to abundance. Just because you may not see it around you right now, that doesn't mean you're not abundant. It's simply sometimes you're not recognizing the abundance that's around you. Does that make sense? Just because you don't have a million dollars in the bank in the bank doesn't make you poor. You're just catching up to the blessings because maybe you're not ready to steward. You can't see it. You can't, you haven't realized it because you're not ready for a million dollars. Easiest example to use, right? I hope that made sense to somebody. But this season ends when you say it ends. It ends when you remember that you're a child of the king and you live in the kingdom of God. Right? The whole point of what God is trying to do is bring. The kingdom of heaven to earth, which is the kingdom of God. Does that make sense? So you can experience the kingdom. We ain't this is not, and okay, I'ma say it, but it's it's a true story. You don't you're not supposed to be trying to experience this after you leave. You're supposed to experience this right now. This is why many times I'ma say what I'ma say, where I'm a I'm not a church person, but I know what I know. This is where the church has failed. Because people, you keep trying to it's like pointing people to heaven for what? God didn't God ain't trying to get you back to heaven. He's trying to get you to take territory on earth. Does that make sense? It's why so many people stay in this five of pentacles for the entirety of their life. Because you trying to get to heaven, and the Lord say, Why are you trying to get back here? I sent you down there to do some work. Does that make sense to somebody? I hope that makes sense. I didn't understand it, but I was just like, That's what people be praying to when I get I there's a song that I used to sing, and it's just like when I get there, it's like, wait a minute. No, I need to get there now. Like, I need to experience heaven now. Shout out to said person, love you, you know. I ain't even gonna say what it is, but it's like no, I I don't wanna experience it when I get there. I wanna experience it now. So it's a mindset shift. And so you start saying, and then you start reading the Bible, and Genesis starts telling you, like, you want me to experience it now? That makes a lot of sense because why would you send me here just to be trying to get me back there? Like you ain't send me to earth to just go to heaven. So it must be something you want me to experience down here. So you know what? Let me experience something on earth. Okay. So for those of you who still thank you, dearest one. Good morning, y'all. Trying to when I get to heaven now, I'm experiencing heaven right now because heaven is right now. I hope that makes sense to somebody. The Lord says it stops, it ends when you say it ends. And that may be in the form of again, if the Lord tells you to s to plant a seed, start a business, you want your finances to get better. Okay, well, what you gonna do? Now what? That's why the name the Lord named this this this morning. Now what? I want to see something different manifest in my life. Okay, I'm gonna give you an idea. What you gonna do with it? If you don't do nothing with it, then you still just gonna be praying for the same thing. I hope that makes sense to somebody. This is this this whole message today, and I thank you, Lord, because I received this. Is about restoration. And then we're ending on the house of hopes and wishes and dreams. And then we're gonna close the message out for today. because man, listen, y'all, it's been an experience, right? Fast forward, man. That's crazy. things are getting ready to start moving very fast for some of you. This is also marriage. Right, and for those of us who are single, you know, we up here married to the Lord and all those good things. But this is like covenant contract, things are getting ready to start moving forward for you as well. Didn't I talk about six months? Like understanding if you plant a seed today. This card literally says six months, y'all. For some of you, your life is going to be unrecognizable in the next six months. Unrecognizable, right? You're going to be unrecognizable. Things are getting ready to start moving. Forward. There may new be new. Thank you, Lord. I feel this in my spirituals, y'all. There may be new information that you're going to be receiving, something that's going to help you move forward, create success, new opportunities, new friends, new people coming in, new connections, collaborations, new networks, new opportunities. What do you want? Right? Some of us, we some of us, the biggest thing we have to do is get out of our own way. True story, y'all. So, you know. And and getting this news that I got on yesterday and the opportunity to get this to get these credentials, right? I ended up responsible. I had to go pee in a cup. Cause I can't lie. This is this is my life, y'all. Like every day I got to check and see if I got to go. And guess what? Yesterday I had to go. So I go pee in the cup I'm peeing in the cup. But do you also, man, who is this for? Do you understand? And this is why I'm so grateful. That I can talk about this now. My God. Whether this I'ma say this, whatever the Lord's plan for this to work out, I'm with it either way. But let me just tell y'all something that has happened in the interim, right? As a result of me having to go and pee in a cup when I get called to go pee in a cup. I ended up meeting someone. This why you never know what the end, I'm telling you right now what the enemy meant for evil, God meant for good. So as a result of me having to do this, y'all, shout out Jackie. Her name is Jackie, right? I end up because now I'm there all the time. I'm going once to, you know, however many times I have to go. When they go, when they tell me to go, I gotta go. Cool. But in the process of me having to do all of this. I then end up meeting a woman who's also a business owner, right? This is a true story, y'all. And now we've become familiar with each other because I go to the same place all the time. Well, y'all, how about she, as a result of me going to this place, not only did I get a customer for Spirit and Glam who has purchased multiple eyeshadow palettes for me. I also, as a result of this, this is how I got the invitation to do the vendor event, which I had don't even talk about, that I hadn't even begun preparing for, mind you, message that I have coming up in November. Because of the fact that I was being disciplined in this and committed to this, met this woman over here who then said, Hey. You should bring your business to this vendor event that's happening in November. You should sign up for this because she owns a business as well, right? So that's how I ended up being able to get into that event. Does this make sense to some you the little small things that you ain't paying no attention to is how the Lord will connect you with the people that you need. To give you a resource that you may not have otherwise had. So I didn't feel no type of I'm at first I was, I was like, man, I got to go do this, you know. I got to go, I got to go take, and that was me. But then I started connecting with people, and now I have orders that I placed. Now I got a vendor event that I'm doing in November for Spirit and Glam and Touche Cosmetics. Like, y'all. Think it not strange when the Lord starts putting you in places and spaces that you need to help you level up, to give you exposure, to give you to have a conversation with someone who can help you in some way. It's these little small things that the Lord will do, y'all, that will put you where you need to be, to help you move forward, to catapult you. To start connecting you with new people. When I went on yesterday, she mentioned something and was like, You might be interested. She was like, You need to come to this such and such and such, just so you can see. And I'm like, Yeah, you know, I'll do that. She's like, You never know who you'll meet. You're right. You never know. So be willing. Be willing to be do it. Do it even when you don't want to, because you never know how the Lord will create opportunity out of nowhere. Anyway, because that came out of nowhere, y'all. And I'm only saying this because I'm telling I'm trying to tell somebody, man, I don't be knowing. I'll I'll be I'll tell y'all quick, like I don't know. But I be trying, Lord. And the Lord be like, I see you trying. And he's saying that to somebody. Like, I see you trying. I see you doing your best. I see you stretching. Sometimes you ain't got but ten dollars. Y'all know I didn't know I had I learned how to stretch ten dollars to make it last a week. Do you understand that? I see you trying. I see you. Like the Lord is letting you know. Like, I see you. I see you doing more than you were before. I see you doing better. So, yeah, the blessings, the miracles come in the small things. It's a connection. It's you attracting the things that you need, not chasing them. I hope that makes sense to somebody. This is the last card, and I feel like we're finna be done. That's it. That's that. And that's it. That's all. Call to me and I will show you great and unsearchable things. I'm gonna look just to see if I'm tripping, but I don't think I am. I know it's over here somewhere, Lord. Let me just let me just see. because Lord gave me that number. And whenever He gives me one and I remember that I just had it, then I like to look and see. Just to make sure that if there's something that I need to give somebody on that particular day. Hold on, y'all. Let me. I don't even know. Well, I don't know how far back it is. I try to circle my numbers, y'all. just so that when I have to look back through them, this is why I circle them, or I circle scriptures that are important. Message. because they be important, child. They be important. Let me see. I don't know. I might have maybe not. What it was, it was page page 333. 329. Hold on, y'all. Okay, so for some of you, some of you need to go back to the 24th in your journal, June 24th. on that day, the 24th of June was page number 333 in the book of Touche, volume 45. And on that day, I got the number 511. I also got James one and seventeen. I think Jared just said that. And then also SOS. So the Lord may be, wait for it. Habakkuk 2, 2, and 3. God is reiterating something to someone. So write those down. That may be for you. Also go back in your journal and check on May the 19th. Unexpected revelation that is coming in as well. Your spirit knows the way. Okay. This says pay close attention. You are a divine being. Tap into your creativity, okay, your creative energy. So the Lord may be showing you something that is important. Okay. So make sure you're paying attention to. And this may be in regards to maybe connections, people, things that you need in order to move into this next season. Okay. To be successful in this next season, y'all. go read Jeremiah. Okay. The Lord may be if you if you want to know, ask him. He's gonna tell you, child. He's gonna give you the answer. He's gonna give you the wisdom. He's gonna give you the clarity. He is going to give you all of that, everything that you need in order to create success in this next season, y'all. the Lord is going to show you. Okay, so anyway, that's it. That's all. That's the message. Lord, I hope this helps somebody. the morning star says that it's viewed serendipitous. I have an Easter sign I keep up all year. long a lot can happen in three days so three days may be important for somebody as well morning star just said that so yeah you never know y'all you never know what the Lord is going to do thank you so much thank you so much Thank y'all. Like, man, y'all, this has been, and even right now, like I I'm a believer. If God wants me to have it, He will give it to me. I'm grateful that He has allowed me to share this journey with y'all and this story. And I've often said I relate to Job. I feel like in in some ways, not in every way. And I'm grateful that I'm not, I can't relate to him in every way. But this has been a journey, y'all. Like it ain't it, is it's one thing, and I think it's because I have attempted to get this nursing license. This will be my third time attempting or applying for it when I when the Lord blesses me. But let me just tell somebody this: the first two times that I I tried to apply to get my nursing license back, number one, I wasn't ready, right? But it didn't cost me $750. It didn't cost me $750. Okay. this time it is costing me $750. And so The first two times, I think it ended up being like $400, maybe. And so it was money that I ended up losing both times, right? And I the la I did this twice. I was in California when I applied for this. But it didn't work out either time. And at that point, I had completely let it go. I was just like, man, I'm done with this. Some of y'all been with me through that part of the journey where The thing, it was like I was so convinced that it was what I was supposed to do that instead of paying my car note, y'all, I ended up applying for my license and it didn't work out. So now I'm at the point where it's just like, man, they finna repo my car. Mind you, I was living in it at the time. Okay. And so I was just like, man, I can't believe it was a a it was one of those hard lessons, right? It was one of those hard lessons where it's just like, okay, you know, I didn't prioritize my resources. I was, you know, so just convinced it was what I was supposed to do, and it wasn't. It wasn't what I was supposed to do at that time. And so now here's the Lord putting this before me again. But understand, like $750, like is in the scheme of things, you know, mind you, it's like that it That ain't no chump change. Do you understand? So this this third time when the Lord blesses me to be able to apply for this, y'all, is just like I'm doing this from a place of not having a job, not, you know, ain't no backups, ain't no none of that. So understand when I t when I tell this story, it's like I'm not telling you from a say a place of like, okay. Yeah. It's like, no, I wait a minute. Let me stool, let me check. Uh-uh. Hold on, Lord. You know, it's It's just from a place of man, it's been a journey, y'all. This has been a journey. Okay. This has been and it's like, okay, Lord, well, all they can say is no. And if because I think that way, it's like, well, Lord, if you want it to happen, then it will. If you want me to have it, then you'll give it to me. If you want to do it, then it'll happen. And I take that that way I take it outside of my control. I'm I'm not trying. It's like, okay, I do what I can and the Lord does the rest. Lord, if you want it, then you'll do it. And when you operate that way, it's just like, okay, well, I can I I ain't got it, Lord. I ain't got it to do. I don't know how to do it. I'm done trying to figure out what to do. You you do it, Lord. And then all of a sudden he does, and you like, okay. Like, you know, so I hope that that encourages somebody. Like, nah, you're not gonna You're not gonna always get it right. Sometimes you're gonna, I done gave up on stuff when I wasn't supposed to, or you know, moved too soon, moved in haste, released stuff, let it go when I wasn't supposed to. But now it's just like, okay, Lord, well, if you want me to try, then I'll try. If you want me to do it, I'll do it. And the result, I just leave it up to the Lord. I hope that makes sense to somebody. I just leave it up to the Lord, you know, and that that that Bye, Sandy. Be careful. Have a good day at work. That has that has saved me. It has changed things for me. It has moved me in a computer because I just be okay, Lord, this is the part that I can do. This is what I can be responsible for. And everything else, give it to God and be and whatever, whatever He works out, He works it out. And whatever He doesn't, He doesn't. And I'll be like, Okay, all right, cool. That wasn't supposed to work out. That was I wouldn't, I had to let that go. I had to leave that alone. And it works, y'all. And so if when you start operating like that, be like, okay, Lord, this is what this is, I'm capable of this. That's why I tell anybody, God do the 99%, I do the one. Cause that's all I can do. If you if you give the heavy lifting to the Lord, it makes life life a lot easier. Right. So I will let y'all know. I will give y'all a look that look like a a gnat. I will give y'all the update as soon as I have one. But again, y'all, this is a process, this is a journey. It's so many, y'all have no idea. How many steps? How many steps there are to and I'm not if it it almost feels like, man, I'm not even halfway done. Okay. This is just like, okay, so now it's the next thing. So now it's just more it's money. It's like, okay, well, Lord, when you're ready for me to do it, you'll provide me the resources to do it. That's it. And I keep moving with my day and I keep building and I move on to the next thing. And that's just that if when you start operating that way, it's what gives. God the ability to work in your life. I hope that makes sense. So anyway, my bad. That's it. That's all. I'm done crying for today. Lord, I hope this helps somebody. thank y'all so much for the likes, the shares, the com the look, look, I just what is that? Thank y'all so much for the likes, the shares, the comments, the subscribes, the love, the energy. I'm so truly truly grateful. Thank y'all for those of you who blessed me. I'm truly, truly grateful. May it be returned to you, multiplied. thank y'all so much for that for helping me with the dream, right? I'm grateful for y'all. So thank y'all for that. It's time to be great and amazed great and amazing things. May the Lord bless you and bless the work of your hands, and may you prosper in everything that you do on this day. I will see y'all on tomorrow, 6 a.m. Central Standard Time. Y'all go hydrate your soul. Drink your water. Say your gratitude. Have a fantastic and an amazing Tuesday in purpose on purpose. I'll see y'all on tomorrow. I love y'all in real life. I will see y'all tomorrow. Child, look, it's so much that I feel like I got to go do. I do. I got a lot to do, y'all. It's gonna be a busy week, but I'm grateful for it. Y'all have a fantastic day. I will see y'all on the next one. Love y'all. Thank y'all. Bye y'all. I'll see y'all tomorrow. Love y'all. Thank y'all. Bye y'all. Ciao. Y'all know y'all get cut out. Wait a minute. Y'all get the background. Hold on. Look, I don't need y'all. I got so much stuff going on in this desk. I ain't even much got nowhere to put nothing else, child. I'm running out of space. I'm running out of space. thank y'all. Love y'all. Bye y'all. I will see y'all on to Tomorrow, y'all go be great and amazing, do great and amazing things.