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Becoming Her: Healing, Motherhood & Rewriting Your Story | ft. Tiffany N. White | EP133 · Jess Ask

• 0:07
  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith, and you already
• 0:10
  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress.
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  Speaker 2: Have fun and just ask God for another day?
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  Speaker 3: Do you already know what it is?
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  Speaker 2: And then you know it's about to get real to
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  Speaker 2: be sure to show your girl the love and like
• 0:26
  Speaker 2: coming God.
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  Speaker 3: For another day?
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  Speaker 4: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way.
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  Speaker 5: Girl, the churches person I've ever met in my life. Yo, yo, yo,
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  Speaker 5: it's your girl Jessica S. Smith, and you have landed
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  Speaker 5: in the safe space where influencers decompress, have fun and
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  Speaker 5: guess what just as and you know I do nothing
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  Speaker 5: without my friend, my producer, y'all's favorite des a rate,
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  Speaker 5: Desli rate, DESI rate?
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  Speaker 3: Does a rate? Does a rate? Does a rate? Does
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  Speaker 3: a rate?
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  Speaker 5: We was in a spirit black and white because because
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  Speaker 5: I guess got a little black on black on black
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  Speaker 5: going on, but it's maybe black on blackation.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, you.
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  Speaker 5: Have to because things are happening that you're gonna have
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  Speaker 5: to be coordinated.
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  Speaker 3: For apparent Uh huh. We thank you God for a
• 1:26
  Speaker 3: holy coordination. Do y'all like my glasses? Do I look cool?
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  Speaker 5: It's given, It's given. I'm from where the west side
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  Speaker 5: of Birmingham. Tell me what you know about me?
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  Speaker 3: Okay, it's given that. Okay, if you want you some. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: they're new.
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  Speaker 5: I got them from Glamour four Eyes right here in Birmingham, Alabama.
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  Speaker 3: I love that place.
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  Speaker 5: Now I think I don't think I want to go
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  Speaker 5: anywhere else because it was very personable.
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  Speaker 3: She taught me about the shape of my face. Did
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  Speaker 3: you just get the glasses? You got the exam and everything.
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  Speaker 5: So I already had my exam. I had my exam
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  Speaker 5: and I was able to give her my prescription. Now
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  Speaker 5: what they did do was they they measured my pupils.
• 2:08
  Speaker 5: My pupil measurements were wrong. I can tell the difference. Okay,
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  Speaker 5: So shout out to the people at Glamor forour eyes, y'all.
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  Speaker 5: Make sure y'all hit them up and tell them just
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  Speaker 5: sent you.
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  Speaker 3: Okay.
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  Speaker 5: But there's alright, this young lady. We met her around
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  Speaker 5: this time last year. Yeah, well we didn't meet her.
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  Speaker 5: We had already met her, but the relationship started developing
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  Speaker 5: them around this time last year. And it's like she's stuck,
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  Speaker 5: like I can't get rid of them. I can't get
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  Speaker 5: rid of them. But I love it though. She's she's
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  Speaker 5: little Sis for real, and so I'm really excited because
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  Speaker 5: she hasn't been in bg TV in some months. It's
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  Speaker 5: been it's been a while, she hasn't been on her
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  Speaker 5: her own podcast in a while. But she said, Jess, can.
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  Speaker 3: I pull up? Pull up? Pull up? Pull up a
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  Speaker 3: little Sis pull up.
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  Speaker 5: So she's no introduction because she is who she is. Okay,
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  Speaker 5: I would like to present to something introduced to others,
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  Speaker 5: my good sister, Tiffany Nicole. Why take me through that?
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  Speaker 3: She got me doing that? Y'all like, hey, he.
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  Speaker 6: Very much so, because you're you might not have the
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  Speaker 6: white letters, but you are white.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, yeah, so contrary to popular movies. Yes, some people
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  Speaker 3: are really confused about this. Does it? Is it giving
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  Speaker 3: creole or is it giving? It's just giving? Tell where
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  Speaker 3: you being?
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  Speaker 5: Like the people really want to know, because you know,
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  Speaker 5: it's gonna be about three thousand y'all come over here
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  Speaker 5: just because her name on this on this podcast.
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  Speaker 3: That's girl.
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  Speaker 5: No, let's just let's just call it spade of spade.
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  Speaker 5: Half of y'all came over here because y'all, the best
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  Speaker 5: thing that she could have done was the best gift
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  Speaker 5: one of the best gifts I received. What was the
• 4:01
  Speaker 5: reception of support and when you surprised me at your
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  Speaker 5: event with hey, can y'all go follow Jessica, she has
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  Speaker 5: this goal of reaching a thousand.
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  Speaker 3: I was done. I'm done. I was I keep forgetting.
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  Speaker 3: That was just this year.
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  Speaker 5: In February, and you got me over the hunt that
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  Speaker 5: I needed to get over because I asked God literally
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  Speaker 5: that day, hey, can you prove to me before this
• 4:23
  Speaker 5: Tabitha Brown episode comes out that I'm working, I'm in
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  Speaker 5: the right direction, like it's not gonna be because of her.
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  Speaker 5: And when you did that, you just I mean, so,
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  Speaker 5: I'm this show platform, this.
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  Speaker 3: This a timph show.
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  Speaker 6: Okay, I'm just I'm just a part of it. It
• 4:40
  Speaker 6: was hard to keep a secret though. I suck and
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  Speaker 6: keeping secrets, I really do. And I had like mentioned
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  Speaker 6: the idea to death Ray and we were like, okay,
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  Speaker 6: I made the graphic, we had that, we had the plan,
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  Speaker 6: we had the platform, and then the time came aroun
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  Speaker 6: I'm like that's right, you like, and.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, it was.
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  Speaker 6: It was crazy, like I although, yes, Gallentines is my
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  Speaker 6: event and like my idea at the very end of
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  Speaker 6: it all, like I really just look at it as
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  Speaker 6: a space for every woman, yeah, from every walk of
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  Speaker 6: life to just come together and be in one room,
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  Speaker 6: under one roof, celebrating one guy. And that's just what
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  Speaker 6: it is.
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  Speaker 3: I'm so glad you said that. So I wasn't planning
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  Speaker 3: on going starting hell, but hey, listen.
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  Speaker 5: So since we're there Gallentines. Yes, our first Gallantines was
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  Speaker 5: this past February.
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  Speaker 3: Crazy. How long did it take you to get that together?
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  Speaker 5: Because it sold out in a crazy amount of time,
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  Speaker 5: thirty six hours. And how many women was there?
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  Speaker 3: Three hundred? Well three and twenty if we're counting like everybody.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, we was packed like it was suppussed to be
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  Speaker 5: two fifty where we.
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  Speaker 3: Ended around three twenty.
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  Speaker 5: Man, When I tell you, just being there was just
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  Speaker 5: like so rewarding. How did you come up with the
• 5:58
  Speaker 5: idea of getting people together because we gotta set this
• 6:01
  Speaker 5: up because you were in a space where you was like,
• 6:04
  Speaker 5: you know what, I'm not doing other people's events.
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  Speaker 3: I'm not I'm taking a break.
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  Speaker 5: You know, you had gone, you were speaking, you were
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  Speaker 5: on panels, you were going to Mississippi like every every month.
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  Speaker 3: I love.
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  Speaker 5: The baby, they love you down. How did you go
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  Speaker 5: from saying, hey, I need a break to let me
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  Speaker 5: let me run this for myself.
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  Speaker 6: So the break came right after that because right before Gallentines,
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  Speaker 6: I was that weekend before literally I was on a
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  Speaker 6: flight and I was in West Palm Meach, Florida. So
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  Speaker 6: my now mentor God is so funny, but my now
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  Speaker 6: mentor was the host of that conference and I had
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  Speaker 6: to open it up speaking, And so I was like
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  Speaker 6: when everything lined up, and I knew that was happening
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  Speaker 6: for months before Gallentines, and I didn't look at my
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  Speaker 6: calendar to see that, like the weekends were back to
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  Speaker 6: back up until like maybe two weeks before, and I'm like, oh,
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  Speaker 6: like we're doing this for four Yeah. But it came
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  Speaker 6: in like a dream and like I really had to
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  Speaker 6: sit there and like meditation and like time with God
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  Speaker 6: and be like okay, we like what do you mean?
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  Speaker 6: Because like we were saying before we got on air,
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  Speaker 6: like I love like when we were talking about logistics
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  Speaker 6: of Galentines, Like I loved just showing up like somebody
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  Speaker 6: has me as a guest or I'm just attending as
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  Speaker 6: a guest and not like on a stage, no, no, nothing.
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  Speaker 3: I love just showing up.
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  Speaker 6: But I know the hard work and the you know
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  Speaker 6: details to go in behind the scenes too, and I
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  Speaker 6: love that that's not on me. So I mean, but regardless,
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  Speaker 6: every guest, you know, no matter what space, we still
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  Speaker 6: have a mandate to show up and to do what
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  Speaker 6: God has called us to do. But in that space,
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  Speaker 6: that was all planned in under a week. It like
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  Speaker 6: the first right before the New Year hit or like
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  Speaker 6: right after I can't remember exactly. I announced the tickets
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  Speaker 6: like not even thirty days out, sold out in thirty
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  Speaker 6: six hours, and then that was it. And I had
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  Speaker 6: maybe like seven to ten volunteers to help me the
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  Speaker 6: day of, and.
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  Speaker 3: That was it. Maybe we went with it.
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  Speaker 6: We went running and through Gallentines and through my obedience
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  Speaker 6: with that, like I've seen so many connections still like
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  Speaker 6: have like still come to fruition like months after the fact,
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  Speaker 6: and going into Galentine's twenty twenty six.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I see those connections that have built.
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  Speaker 6: And that God has laid the foundation for and I'm
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  Speaker 6: just like, oh my gosh, yeah, like it's crazy because
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  Speaker 6: like what seemed like so out of the water for
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  Speaker 6: the first one then going into the second one, and
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  Speaker 6: God was like, okay, do it better?
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  Speaker 3: Do it bigger And I'm like, ah, yeah, what does
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  Speaker 3: bigger look like?
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  Speaker 6: Bigger looks like two days, well, two nights, one full day,
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  Speaker 6: so Friday night, Saturday all day and then Saturday night
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  Speaker 6: and then a late night Saturday night.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah. I don't even know how many guests like speakers
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  Speaker 3: and stuff. I don't off the top of mya. Probably ten. Yeah,
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  Speaker 3: And then we have two panels.
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  Speaker 6: We have Prophet is actually Brown Friday night, my mentor Shanate,
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  Speaker 6: coach Shane Jackson, and pastor Petre Pender Saturday day for
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  Speaker 6: those sessions. Then we have a little break. Then we
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  Speaker 6: have the big Saturday night session, which is like the
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  Speaker 6: original Galentines was. Yeah, and then the after party after
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  Speaker 6: that is the ojay ojay please try oh o g.
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  Speaker 3: Oj never the og pizza and pjs.
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  Speaker 6: That's what it was the first time. It was really
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  Speaker 6: just pajamas, pizza, women.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, like just being the Lord and.
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  Speaker 6: The Lord and nothing that happened after Like the panel
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  Speaker 6: was on the program, right, like we thought we were
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  Speaker 6: bigger than the program.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm talking about people laid out.
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  Speaker 6: I said, I literally go to my over the I'm like, oh,
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  Speaker 6: we ain't even got enough sheets some of the grabs
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  Speaker 6: some blankets like.
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  Speaker 3: We was grabbing it shifted, its shifted fast.
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  Speaker 5: One thing, one thing I do notice because you've given
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  Speaker 5: me the opportunity to walk with you in the past
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  Speaker 5: year that we've known each other, and it's just been
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  Speaker 5: beer rewarding seeing you.
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  Speaker 3: Navigate your life till fain't the same TIF.
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  Speaker 5: This Gallantine's Day, this Gallantine's tift is definitely different from
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  Speaker 5: Galantines twent twenty six aka floors scaling times.
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  Speaker 3: Can we walk through that? Because there have been a
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  Speaker 3: lot of changes.
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  Speaker 5: I can tell you the number one changes being when
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  Speaker 5: you was here last time, since ain't had no diploma.
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  Speaker 6: No, come on, let's talk about that. How do we
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  Speaker 6: go from oh I didn't, I don't.
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  Speaker 5: I don't have a high school diploma and then you
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  Speaker 5: pop out with cap and gown this year, Like, tell
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  Speaker 5: me walk us through your reasoning why and then how
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  Speaker 5: you got over that hurdle, because I mean, I can
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  Speaker 5: only imagine you've been out of high school for a minute.
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  Speaker 6: Seven years, seven years, So connecting back to your first
• 10:41
  Speaker 6: initial question to me, taking a break, taking a step back.
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  Speaker 3: So my last episode here was.
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  Speaker 6: For my mom's birthday, and that was March seventh, and
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  Speaker 6: then of this year, Gallentines.
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  Speaker 3: Was February in the beginning of.
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  Speaker 6: It was the first weekend, the weekend before Valentine today,
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  Speaker 6: and during that season was when God was like, shut up.
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  Speaker 3: Like not being funny. He told me to shut up
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  Speaker 3: and sit down because.
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  Speaker 6: Like, for instance, when I was traveling like this had
• 11:14
  Speaker 6: the third withoutenor ministry, like I was like wanted to
• 11:17
  Speaker 6: give up so so so bad, and then God was
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  Speaker 6: like no, like just like the disciples, like.
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  Speaker 3: I'll heal you as you go.
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  Speaker 6: So that was what I had to do in that season.
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  Speaker 6: But then the next season came and I was like
• 11:27
  Speaker 6: I'm burnt out. I'm worn down, like I just need
• 11:31
  Speaker 6: to sit, but the people pleased are in me, and
• 11:34
  Speaker 6: I didn't want people. You know, sometimes I'll be like,
• 11:36
  Speaker 6: oh she lost guy left the church, like she's just
• 11:40
  Speaker 6: she needed to come back the backslider. I'm like no,
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  Speaker 6: So I sat down and I shut up, and people
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  Speaker 6: still mention to.
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  Speaker 3: Today, and I mean, it's not no fault to them.
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  Speaker 6: They're like I want another podcast episode, like I want
• 11:52
  Speaker 6: to do this, like I want you to host this.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, that's cool. God didn't tell me to do that. Yeah.
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  Speaker 6: So the fruition from let's just say March April to
• 12:03
  Speaker 6: now we're in the end of November.
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  Speaker 3: Crazy.
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  Speaker 6: I don't even recognize myself from January of this year,
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  Speaker 6: like January, February, March, whole new person, all because I
• 12:14
  Speaker 6: sat down and I shut up, and I didn't heal
• 12:17
  Speaker 6: in front of a camera or under the pressures of
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  Speaker 6: other people or this. That, and the third because there
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  Speaker 6: was a lot that not even just in the past
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  Speaker 6: year or you know, things of that age, just in
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  Speaker 6: my life period now in adulthood that I had to
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  Speaker 6: sit with and heal from, and not at the sake
• 12:33
  Speaker 6: of just myself, but like, okay, now I'm about to
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  Speaker 6: have a five year old, like a kindergartener. Yeah, and
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  Speaker 6: that's what it was. So that was a turning point
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  Speaker 6: in regards to my diploma.
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  Speaker 3: So I have my general education diploma. I'm likeded period.
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  Speaker 3: So I watched them.
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  Speaker 6: I graduate May fifteenth, I want to say, yeah, from
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  Speaker 6: pre K so K four and she was supposed to
• 13:00
  Speaker 6: go into kindergarten, but the cutoff for Jefferson County September first,
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  Speaker 6: her birthday September third, so she wasn't going to public school.
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  Speaker 6: I didn't want to go to public school anyway. So
• 13:08
  Speaker 6: I was like, okay, perfect, So.
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  Speaker 3: We're having a graduation.
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  Speaker 6: Don't know where you're going next year, but we're gonna
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  Speaker 6: trust God and figure it out. Yeah. So I watched
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  Speaker 6: her cap and gown and she was the first, I
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  Speaker 6: want to say, like the first or second like in
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  Speaker 6: the line of like the little kids. And I see
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  Speaker 6: my child in a baby blue cap and gown and
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  Speaker 6: I say, ain't no way. I'm sick to my stomach.
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  Speaker 6: I'm like, ain't no way that I'm gonna let you
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  Speaker 6: grow up and it's not me.
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  Speaker 3: Five days later, I got my GD.
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  Speaker 5: So what does that for people that don't know because
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  Speaker 5: I didn't go through the GED process or whatnot. What
• 13:41
  Speaker 5: is that process like for somebody that may may be like,
• 13:44
  Speaker 5: you know, it is over for me because you saying
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  Speaker 5: five days that's pretty quick, that's pretty quick.
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  Speaker 3: What does that process look like?
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  Speaker 6: So I had been like doing training like on and
• 13:54
  Speaker 6: off for about a year through the software called on
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  Speaker 6: Sego O n Sego, and then I mean I would
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  Speaker 6: take it serious, but then like I wouldn't, And I'm
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  Speaker 6: just like because it was just a lot of information
• 14:04
  Speaker 6: because you have to think I dropped out after I
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  Speaker 6: completed the ninth grade, so I never learned algebra.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't learn.
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  Speaker 6: Most of like the social study stuff, like didn't learn
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  Speaker 6: anything with science for and even if I did learn it,
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  Speaker 6: this was seven years ago. Like I've had a whole child,
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  Speaker 6: Like I've lived in like five different places, Like a
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  Speaker 6: lot has happened. I've lost my mother, I've lost my grandmother,
• 14:24
  Speaker 6: like a lot has transpired. So with So I got
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  Speaker 6: my GD through the ged dot com software online. So
• 14:33
  Speaker 6: it's like the official like GD program. All the things
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  Speaker 6: they make you take. If you want to take it online,
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  Speaker 6: you can take the GD in person. But if you
• 14:39
  Speaker 6: want to take it online, you have to take and
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  Speaker 6: passed their practice tests first before you're able to do
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  Speaker 6: the actual subjects. There's four subjects, so I had to
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  Speaker 6: pass those, past those off first time, Glorid to Guy.
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  Speaker 6: Then I had to set up a proctured exam where
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  Speaker 6: they watch you and you have to show the whole room.
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  Speaker 6: You know, all the things new to me. Never heard
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  Speaker 6: of a procter day in my life. And so, but
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  Speaker 6: the way that they have it is you can only
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  Speaker 6: schedule like one at a time and then after you
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  Speaker 6: complete that one, whether you pass or failed, then you're
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  Speaker 6: able to schedule another one. So I was literally just
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  Speaker 6: taking exams at like eleven pm a night, getting done
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  Speaker 6: with that scheduling one. I'm working full time at this
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  Speaker 6: point right scheduling them on my lunch break Monday, and
• 15:19
  Speaker 6: then took one Monday night, then Tuesday took another one
• 15:21
  Speaker 6: on my lunch break.
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  Speaker 3: Then Wednesday was my last one.
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  Speaker 6: So Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, I'm taking my four tests
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  Speaker 6: and I don't I took math last because I was
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  Speaker 6: least comedy. I don't know how I passed, but I
• 15:35
  Speaker 6: passed with the I think the score is like one
• 15:37
  Speaker 6: you have to get over, and nothing was less than
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  Speaker 6: I want to say, like ten points over. Of all
• 15:42
  Speaker 6: my scores, my highest was definitely language arts. Yeah, it
• 15:44
  Speaker 6: was just always been my bag. It was like one
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  Speaker 6: seventy seven out of two hundred.
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  Speaker 3: So I was like, oh, we could great, we cooking
• 15:51
  Speaker 3: with grease, but.
• 15:52
  Speaker 6: We are cooking with grease. And then God is just
• 15:55
  Speaker 6: so intentional. Because that was May, May twentieth. This when
• 15:57
  Speaker 6: I got my GD April before, I was at a
• 16:01
  Speaker 6: networking event with my former boss and I happened to
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  Speaker 6: meet the president of Myles College, doctor Bobbin Knight. So
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  Speaker 6: I was like, oh, like you know, I had, you know,
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  Speaker 6: they were introducing me like on things. She was like,
• 16:11
  Speaker 6: if you're ever considering, you know, Miles College, let me know.
• 16:13
  Speaker 6: And I was like, what is Miles College? But I've
• 16:16
  Speaker 6: heard about it here and there, and like I've seen
• 16:17
  Speaker 6: the exit like on the way to when now Love
• 16:20
  Speaker 6: City Church, but when it was All Nations Church, we
• 16:22
  Speaker 6: were off that one nineteen exit. So I've seen it
• 16:24
  Speaker 6: like time and time again, but I've like never been there, right,
• 16:27
  Speaker 6: So I was like, hmmm. So I went online and
• 16:30
  Speaker 6: I'm looking at other colleges before Miles. They all required
• 16:34
  Speaker 6: ACT score. They all required this time and the third
• 16:36
  Speaker 6: I didn't know nobody that I could like call and
• 16:38
  Speaker 6: like ask questions. Besides like the main line and by
• 16:40
  Speaker 6: this point you gotta think it's the end of May
• 16:42
  Speaker 6: going into like the summer. I'm still like, I don't
• 16:45
  Speaker 6: know what FASTA is. I don't know none of this.
• 16:47
  Speaker 6: I'm happy to do all of this and learn as
• 16:49
  Speaker 6: I literally go. And it was Myles College that really
• 16:51
  Speaker 6: answered those questions for me and made it easy. And
• 16:54
  Speaker 6: then I remember like maybe like a month less than
• 16:58
  Speaker 6: a month before classes started, I was like, I need
• 17:01
  Speaker 6: another scholarship, mind you, I'd applied to like over one
• 17:03
  Speaker 6: hundred scholarships, anything you could think of, because my fast
• 17:07
  Speaker 6: foot didn't cover everything and I did not want to
• 17:10
  Speaker 6: take out alone at all, and so I was telling
• 17:16
  Speaker 6: my advisor. They made a call. I got a twenty
• 17:18
  Speaker 6: thousand dollars scholarship.
• 17:19
  Speaker 3: So, I mean, at that point it was no brainer
• 17:21
  Speaker 3: because they had the accupulacer. They didn't have the ACT.
• 17:23
  Speaker 3: You could have taken the ACT.
• 17:24
  Speaker 6: Yeah, cool, but they have like a placement test already
• 17:27
  Speaker 6: r so, and it was just from there. The size
• 17:31
  Speaker 6: of the campus, I know a lot of people's names,
• 17:34
  Speaker 6: not just faces I got.
• 17:37
  Speaker 3: I got a customed really quick.
• 17:39
  Speaker 6: And then since then it's just been about learning, respecting
• 17:43
  Speaker 6: the culture, adding to it, and not taking away from
• 17:46
  Speaker 6: it or trying to, I don't know, be misfit because.
• 17:51
  Speaker 5: Let's just talk about that, because I mean, you're white, yep,
• 17:57
  Speaker 5: you are a white woman, Okay, going to an HBCU,
• 18:01
  Speaker 5: which stands for Historically Black College and University.
• 18:06
  Speaker 3: Right, Miles is black black, like they.
• 18:16
  Speaker 6: Did.
• 18:16
  Speaker 5: I live down the street from Miles shout out of
• 18:18
  Speaker 5: the Golden bells is what it's like?
• 18:21
  Speaker 3: How is it for you transitioning?
• 18:24
  Speaker 5: Because I know Tivny you different, so I understand that,
• 18:27
  Speaker 5: but just in reality, looking at the tangible evidence of
• 18:31
  Speaker 5: you being a white girl, a white woman going to
• 18:34
  Speaker 5: a historically black college, what.
• 18:37
  Speaker 3: Has been like the the the most.
• 18:42
  Speaker 5: I want wanna say challenging opportunity that you've seen being
• 18:46
  Speaker 5: in that culture, because you're saying you want to respect
• 18:48
  Speaker 5: the culture. But some people I've heard, just not just
• 18:52
  Speaker 5: with you, but when white people go to black, black spaces,
• 18:58
  Speaker 5: it's some hard for some black people to accept, Hey,
• 19:01
  Speaker 5: you want to be here, and you genuinely want to
• 19:03
  Speaker 5: be here. You're not trying to be out like black,
• 19:07
  Speaker 5: You're just trying to get your education at a historically
• 19:10
  Speaker 5: black college.
• 19:11
  Speaker 3: Like, how has it been for you?
• 19:14
  Speaker 6: I want to say, the most challenging part wasn't me
• 19:17
  Speaker 6: going to Miles.
• 19:18
  Speaker 3: It was me being involved in Miles.
• 19:21
  Speaker 6: And that was when, you know, kind of some of
• 19:24
  Speaker 6: the backlashes started, not even just from students, but like
• 19:27
  Speaker 6: from alumni. And I don't know if like people just
• 19:30
  Speaker 6: don't think that like people see these things like what
• 19:32
  Speaker 6: you're saying online like I can see that.
• 19:34
  Speaker 3: Yeah, like the next person, I just choose not to
• 19:37
  Speaker 3: say anything. Yeah.
• 19:39
  Speaker 6: The most challenging was, I guess, just the false assumption
• 19:43
  Speaker 6: that one I wanted to be black, or I'm trying
• 19:47
  Speaker 6: to invade a safe space or this, that and the
• 19:50
  Speaker 6: third that's never what it was. Miles offered me more
• 19:53
  Speaker 6: opportunities than any other college or university when it came
• 19:57
  Speaker 6: to scholarship, being debt free, just how close to everybody was,
• 20:01
  Speaker 6: how professional administration was, and like getting back to me
• 20:04
  Speaker 6: and like communicating, like I know everybody, because over before
• 20:09
  Speaker 6: when I got accepted, up until classes started, I went
• 20:11
  Speaker 6: up to my house at least once a week, you know,
• 20:13
  Speaker 6: whether that was the welcoming emissions office, whether that was
• 20:16
  Speaker 6: financial aid, the business office, what the lunchroom, just literally
• 20:20
  Speaker 6: going to the caf and like seeing how things work
• 20:22
  Speaker 6: and like who's around and because that's just how I
• 20:25
  Speaker 6: am in life, and I mean that's what I was
• 20:27
  Speaker 6: taught to do from very early on. Because you know,
• 20:29
  Speaker 6: you ain't got no ged and this and the third
• 20:31
  Speaker 6: and you went, I was I was a paralegal, like working.
• 20:34
  Speaker 3: In the legal field.
• 20:35
  Speaker 6: Yeah, no degree, no diploma, so you would have to
• 20:39
  Speaker 6: know how to network and establish good relationships and genuinely
• 20:42
  Speaker 6: just be a good person of integrity. So I think
• 20:45
  Speaker 6: the most challenging part for me, though, was like people
• 20:48
  Speaker 6: just not knowing who I was or what I come from,
• 20:52
  Speaker 6: or this, that and the third and automatically putting this
• 20:55
  Speaker 6: false label or like looking at me through a false
• 20:57
  Speaker 6: lens and not remembering at the.
• 20:58
  Speaker 3: Very end of the day, like I'm a person. Yeah,
• 21:01
  Speaker 3: Like while yes, I.
• 21:03
  Speaker 6: Can be a hard body and this, that and the third,
• 21:05
  Speaker 6: and I have been through a lot, and none of
• 21:07
  Speaker 6: that is necessarily like I don't want it to come
• 21:10
  Speaker 6: off as you know, some people we get deep and
• 21:14
  Speaker 6: some people be like like white tears. That's never I
• 21:18
  Speaker 6: never wanted to like give that. And I think what
• 21:21
  Speaker 6: a lot of students in particular misunderstood was me being
• 21:26
  Speaker 6: so open and vulnerable about my story that I have
• 21:29
  Speaker 6: been for as long as I can remember, from like
• 21:31
  Speaker 6: age fourteen till now. They took it as that, and
• 21:34
  Speaker 6: I was like, no, like check the record, like this
• 21:37
  Speaker 6: is I'm just unapologiz like unapologetically tiffany, Like what I've
• 21:42
  Speaker 6: been through is no secret. It can't be thrown back
• 21:44
  Speaker 6: in my face because I've already told you. I've already
• 21:46
  Speaker 6: showed you.
• 21:47
  Speaker 3: My hand, yea.
• 21:49
  Speaker 6: And I just think that that was not really understood.
• 21:52
  Speaker 6: And then we then if we switched to spiritually, I'm
• 21:56
  Speaker 6: around I'm not the oldest any means. I'm only twenty
• 21:59
  Speaker 6: three and I just turned twenty three, but you gotta
• 22:02
  Speaker 6: think I'm a fresh man. So I'm around a lot
• 22:05
  Speaker 6: of seventeen, eighteen, nineteen year olds, you know, in general.
• 22:08
  Speaker 6: Yes there's some older than me and some of my age,
• 22:10
  Speaker 6: but as a whole, that's mostly what it was, and
• 22:13
  Speaker 6: a lot of them spiritually are not where I was
• 22:19
  Speaker 6: or had an experience, you know this and the third,
• 22:20
  Speaker 6: So I had to really give grace and remember that
• 22:22
  Speaker 6: like we don't wait d war flesh and blood.
• 22:24
  Speaker 3: And I think a lot of the times with the
• 22:29
  Speaker 3: I don't know, like the challenging part of like.
• 22:31
  Speaker 6: The judgment things like that just came from a place
• 22:32
  Speaker 6: I'm not understanding, because you know, like when we become
• 22:35
  Speaker 6: new in Christ, like we have this mind renewal, Right,
• 22:37
  Speaker 6: So I had to give ample amounts of grace because
• 22:40
  Speaker 6: y'all don't even understand, Like that's why I didn't even
• 22:42
  Speaker 6: entertain myself.
• 22:43
  Speaker 3: I'm like y'all don't even y'all don't even understand.
• 22:47
  Speaker 5: So yeah, I think that's such a mature way to
• 22:51
  Speaker 5: look at it because just going through that with you
• 22:55
  Speaker 5: and just not I don't, I don't understand it being
• 22:58
  Speaker 5: a black person.
• 22:59
  Speaker 3: You know, I went to a PWI, you know, so
• 23:02
  Speaker 3: we were the we we were the minority, you know
• 23:06
  Speaker 3: what I'm saying.
• 23:08
  Speaker 5: But I still had a good experience, Like I still
• 23:10
  Speaker 5: had a good experience at a PWY. And it's this
• 23:13
  Speaker 5: elitism you know that I know understand. I understand that
• 23:17
  Speaker 5: comes with going to an HBCU, you know, very proud,
• 23:21
  Speaker 5: and I was just surprised at the the the assumptions
• 23:27
  Speaker 5: that were made based upon just you being the white girl.
• 23:33
  Speaker 5: And I was like, baby, you can go look at
• 23:34
  Speaker 5: the social media page.
• 23:36
  Speaker 6: It's just that was another thing too, was like the
• 23:38
  Speaker 6: assumptions that I get a pass or I get you know,
• 23:42
  Speaker 6: more privileges, or they're not as hard of.
• 23:44
  Speaker 3: Me, if anything.
• 23:46
  Speaker 6: Administration people that I don't even know this, that and
• 23:49
  Speaker 6: the third students were harder on me than most of
• 23:52
  Speaker 6: other people. And I used to complain to one of
• 23:55
  Speaker 6: my advisors. I'm like, it's always something like people are
• 23:58
  Speaker 6: always saying something about me, like so and so can
• 23:59
  Speaker 6: do this and nobody's gonna say anything about it. And
• 24:01
  Speaker 6: she sat me down and she was like, yeah, because
• 24:03
  Speaker 6: you're Tiffany in there night and that's just what it is.
• 24:06
  Speaker 6: You have a lot of eyeballs on you, Tiffany, You've
• 24:08
  Speaker 6: always had And.
• 24:09
  Speaker 5: I was like, okay, that's cool, but like, but that's
• 24:11
  Speaker 5: not that's not just because you white, though I know that,
• 24:15
  Speaker 5: and I want to say that out loud because what
• 24:17
  Speaker 5: I've had that conversation and saying like, Okay.
• 24:20
  Speaker 3: Why do I have to do this?
• 24:22
  Speaker 2: Why?
• 24:22
  Speaker 5: Why is everybody having a problem with me because you,
• 24:25
  Speaker 5: Jessica and God called you to do X, Y and Z.
• 24:28
  Speaker 5: And I'm like, bruh, Like why can't I have this
• 24:32
  Speaker 5: normality of having a safe space just to be without
• 24:35
  Speaker 5: having this microscope on me? But I'm very proud of
• 24:40
  Speaker 5: you in that, and I'm also proud of you for
• 24:43
  Speaker 5: navigating this space even being a mother, like you're still
• 24:47
  Speaker 5: a single mom, Like and so there's some single mothers
• 24:50
  Speaker 5: out there thinking that they can't do this. How are
• 24:53
  Speaker 5: you navigating balancing motherhood a full time, let's say, all
• 24:58
  Speaker 5: full tide job and being a full time student.
• 25:04
  Speaker 3: What does that navigation look like for you too?
• 25:08
  Speaker 6: First part of the semester easy peasy, Like I got
• 25:11
  Speaker 6: into good groove, Like I set up my class schedule
• 25:15
  Speaker 6: the same as like am I a school schedule and
• 25:16
  Speaker 6: she was in.
• 25:17
  Speaker 3: After school care.
• 25:18
  Speaker 6: So I had classes Monday through Thursday like nine thirty
• 25:21
  Speaker 6: to like my last class got.
• 25:23
  Speaker 3: Out around like five, So I mean that was it.
• 25:26
  Speaker 6: I would go to school, you would go to school,
• 25:28
  Speaker 6: we'd pick you up, bad time, eat dinner, play, bedtime,
• 25:31
  Speaker 6: wake up, same thing. And then on Fridays, I kind
• 25:33
  Speaker 6: of got that rest to like catch up because we
• 25:35
  Speaker 6: didn't have class on Fridays and she still had.
• 25:37
  Speaker 3: To go to school.
• 25:38
  Speaker 6: But the midterms hit and it really caught up because
• 25:42
  Speaker 6: I'm taking like six seven classes and I didn't realize
• 25:45
  Speaker 6: that like mid terms would really take you through there.
• 25:48
  Speaker 6: And then right after midterms was homecoming week and then
• 25:50
  Speaker 6: it was Classic week, and.
• 25:51
  Speaker 3: I was like, we're not slowing down. Hold on, life
• 25:54
  Speaker 3: goes on.
• 25:54
  Speaker 5: Hold on because you hold a leadership position, right, a
• 25:58
  Speaker 5: high leadership position.
• 26:00
  Speaker 6: Very yeah, it's not just glitz and glitter, like it's
• 26:05
  Speaker 6: having to show up and then as a female, like
• 26:07
  Speaker 6: your hair has to be done. Your nails have to
• 26:09
  Speaker 6: be done, like your makeup has to be done, Like
• 26:11
  Speaker 6: there's a certain image that you have to uphold. And
• 26:13
  Speaker 6: I was like, oh, there's just too much going on.
• 26:15
  Speaker 6: And then on top of that, like I'm having to
• 26:17
  Speaker 6: find a babysitter, like last minute events and stuff for
• 26:19
  Speaker 6: coming up, like I have to make sure that my
• 26:21
  Speaker 6: home is taken care of, and I'm still fulfilling that
• 26:23
  Speaker 6: role at the same time.
• 26:25
  Speaker 3: So, I mean, it was a lot, but I did
• 26:27
  Speaker 3: the best for what I could.
• 26:29
  Speaker 6: And then there came a small season where I was like, Okay,
• 26:33
  Speaker 6: I'm putting a lot of this before my child. Let
• 26:34
  Speaker 6: me take a set back. I was like, okay, and
• 26:37
  Speaker 6: then we found our groove. Yeah, so but no next
• 26:39
  Speaker 6: semester so I'll be fully online and then working full time.
• 26:42
  Speaker 6: But the way that our classes are set up, it's
• 26:44
  Speaker 6: eight week online courses. So I'm taking two my first
• 26:47
  Speaker 6: eight weeks and then three my second. So I feel
• 26:49
  Speaker 6: like that'll be a much better groove than in.
• 26:52
  Speaker 3: Person all the time. That's good. I can't help but
• 26:55
  Speaker 3: to think about.
• 26:56
  Speaker 5: Okay, so we know that you're your late grandmother was
• 27:01
  Speaker 5: very important to you. We know the other dynamic with
• 27:03
  Speaker 5: your mom, who has also passed away. What does what
• 27:06
  Speaker 5: does navigating wonderhood look like for Tiff, Because well, I
• 27:10
  Speaker 5: know we've had conversation on Justica, I do not know.
• 27:12
  Speaker 5: No one taught me this.
• 27:15
  Speaker 3: I'm like, good, nobody taught me that. I'm trying to
• 27:16
  Speaker 3: get you what I hadn't got. You know what I'm saying,
• 27:19
  Speaker 3: What does that? What does that look like for you?
• 27:21
  Speaker 5: Being You're in a new environment, a new new school,
• 27:24
  Speaker 5: new job, learning lessons, just just being new but still
• 27:31
  Speaker 5: learning how to be the woman?
• 27:32
  Speaker 3: Tif what does that journey look like right now?
• 27:36
  Speaker 6: I would say definitely from the time we were talking
• 27:40
  Speaker 6: about earlier, like March April until now has strictly been
• 27:44
  Speaker 6: focused about me evolving and becoming as a woman in
• 27:49
  Speaker 6: the way that I carried myself, in the way that
• 27:52
  Speaker 6: I put on lotion every day now like but revealed
• 27:55
  Speaker 6: like I like perfume, by like jewelry, I like being
• 27:58
  Speaker 6: a girl, like just I'm just a girl, like I'm
• 28:00
  Speaker 6: the girl. But yeah, it's having to remember the life
• 28:04
  Speaker 6: lessons and things that my grandmother taught me as well
• 28:07
  Speaker 6: as my mother, think back on them, look back on
• 28:09
  Speaker 6: old messages, you know, ask people around me and taking
• 28:12
  Speaker 6: little bits and pieces because no one will ever replace
• 28:15
  Speaker 6: my grandmother or my mom, but I find little bits
• 28:18
  Speaker 6: and pieces of them in people.
• 28:20
  Speaker 3: That God has placed in my life.
• 28:21
  Speaker 6: So like, for instance, my Royal Court advisor shout out
• 28:24
  Speaker 6: t three, shout out Kennis, Hearty, I love you so much.
• 28:27
  Speaker 6: But like she really was like Auntie t like we
• 28:30
  Speaker 6: call her Auntie for a reason, and she really, you know,
• 28:32
  Speaker 6: has helped me over the season of just pouring back
• 28:35
  Speaker 6: into me and teaching me certain things like I didn't
• 28:37
  Speaker 6: know about fashion tape. I didn't know about heel taps
• 28:40
  Speaker 6: on the heel so you don't sink into like the
• 28:41
  Speaker 6: soil on the football field, like I didn't know about
• 28:43
  Speaker 6: this hat and the third and she truly like had
• 28:46
  Speaker 6: patience with me and taught me as well as you know,
• 28:48
  Speaker 6: my sister Queen's on Royal Court, Like they've taught me
• 28:50
  Speaker 6: so much, and I'm the oldest one on the court,
• 28:53
  Speaker 6: and I was like, oh my goodness. And then especially
• 28:55
  Speaker 6: I you know, some people might be like, oh, that's
• 28:57
  Speaker 6: just cliche, you know, but my Queen Joycelyn' tinker baby
• 29:01
  Speaker 6: taught me a lot just about being graceful and how
• 29:05
  Speaker 6: you carry yourself. You know, she's the background in pageantry
• 29:09
  Speaker 6: and she we've just gotten really really close. And I
• 29:13
  Speaker 6: just really appreciate all of them for taking the time to.
• 29:15
  Speaker 3: Really see me.
• 29:17
  Speaker 6: And they'll tell anybody that, like if anybody has something
• 29:19
  Speaker 6: to say, Oh you don't know her, we know her,
• 29:21
  Speaker 6: like we got her back, like we right into the
• 29:22
  Speaker 6: wheels fall off. But yeah, this season of womanhood has
• 29:27
  Speaker 6: been my favorite of like finding out like who I
• 29:31
  Speaker 6: am at my core, Like no, like besides being a mom,
• 29:36
  Speaker 6: being this freshman, being a college student, being a paralegal,
• 29:40
  Speaker 6: being a daughter, being a friend, this, that and the
• 29:42
  Speaker 6: third you know, besides what a man say this?
• 29:45
  Speaker 3: And like who is Tiffany? Who is Tiffany?
• 29:48
  Speaker 6: And when I asked myself that the first time, I
• 29:51
  Speaker 6: got disgusted.
• 29:52
  Speaker 3: I said, oh, someone's got to give. What was you discussed?
• 29:55
  Speaker 3: We got to give?
• 29:56
  Speaker 6: I had no respect for myself at the very and
• 29:58
  Speaker 6: I could, you know, look back on it, like I
• 30:00
  Speaker 6: put up a good front, and I don't want to
• 30:02
  Speaker 6: say it's like a front necessarily, but like I hit
• 30:04
  Speaker 6: it from a lot of people, like the way that
• 30:07
  Speaker 6: my house is it clean, the way that like the
• 30:10
  Speaker 6: type of men that I would deal with and think
• 30:12
  Speaker 6: that it was okay, Like I didn't respect myself the
• 30:14
  Speaker 6: way I would talk to myself, the way that I
• 30:17
  Speaker 6: just didn't really take care of like I had at
• 30:19
  Speaker 6: the very end of the day. I really just don't
• 30:21
  Speaker 6: think that, like I had the level of respect for
• 30:23
  Speaker 6: myself then as I do now. And it had to
• 30:25
  Speaker 6: come to those hard conversations of looking myself in the
• 30:27
  Speaker 6: mirror like naked, raw, no filter, no facade to put
• 30:32
  Speaker 6: on for anybody, no masks, no nothing, and being like
• 30:34
  Speaker 6: who am I? And I was like, oh you raggedy,
• 30:41
  Speaker 6: like character raggedy this that, And third I said, oh no,
• 30:46
  Speaker 6: and I remember last time, the last episode, this time
• 30:49
  Speaker 6: last year, like we were talking about not idolizing marriage.
• 30:52
  Speaker 3: Yeah, oh thank god, I don't do that no more.
• 30:55
  Speaker 5: That child, what was the defining factor, say, you know what,
• 30:58
  Speaker 5: I can't do this anymore. Something has to change it,
• 31:01
  Speaker 5: something happened.
• 31:03
  Speaker 6: It was more so realizing the mantle and mandate the
• 31:07
  Speaker 6: marriage is not this false image that I had. I'm like, okay,
• 31:12
  Speaker 6: you know, like a man can take care of me,
• 31:13
  Speaker 6: like we can live happily ever after, and I can
• 31:16
  Speaker 6: hunch and not.
• 31:16
  Speaker 3: Feel bad like that and the third, and then I
• 31:20
  Speaker 3: was like, there's more to it than that, Yeah, more
• 31:23
  Speaker 3: to it. And it really came.
• 31:24
  Speaker 6: From walking closely with married couples, like and seeing it
• 31:27
  Speaker 6: day in and day out. Yeah, like, oh, like y'all
• 31:29
  Speaker 6: forgive each other like every single day. Y'all don't like
• 31:33
  Speaker 6: picture fit and like black him like, oh, I used
• 31:35
  Speaker 6: to be the black queen.
• 31:38
  Speaker 3: Second, you make me mad? Bye? Just with men or
• 31:41
  Speaker 3: people in general.
• 31:43
  Speaker 6: Used to be with people, but then it came to
• 31:44
  Speaker 6: just men. I would just take out all my anger
• 31:46
  Speaker 6: on men because the men that I would usually deal
• 31:51
  Speaker 6: with it ain't were nothing, no way.
• 31:54
  Speaker 3: So what were the characteristics of that man? Though angry
• 31:57
  Speaker 3: with a big way, very angry.
• 32:00
  Speaker 6: I dealt with a lot of angry men, insecure men,
• 32:03
  Speaker 6: unhealed men, not emotionally butture men, a lot of men
• 32:07
  Speaker 6: that had unresolved trauma and took that out in lust
• 32:10
  Speaker 6: or like their eye for women, like one woman was
• 32:13
  Speaker 6: not enough for them. And I knew this, and I
• 32:15
  Speaker 6: was still like, deal with them, And I'm like, girl.
• 32:17
  Speaker 3: You hate yourself.
• 32:19
  Speaker 6: I hated myself, Like I don't know if I like
• 32:21
  Speaker 6: real deal hated myself. But I think a lot of
• 32:24
  Speaker 6: it came from what I was taught growing up. This, that,
• 32:27
  Speaker 6: and the third like things that were spoke over me
• 32:29
  Speaker 6: that I started to believe. I'm like, oh, like I'm
• 32:30
  Speaker 6: not worthy of this, or like, oh, it's not real,
• 32:32
  Speaker 6: and it made no sense when I truly took that
• 32:34
  Speaker 6: step back and looked at it and had to really
• 32:36
  Speaker 6: sit down on myself because I grew up, although yes, adopted,
• 32:40
  Speaker 6: and although yes I was in foster here, I grew
• 32:41
  Speaker 6: up in a two parent household. Yeah, like a great
• 32:44
  Speaker 6: two parent household. When it came to marriage. That's the
• 32:46
  Speaker 6: one thing that they did was not idolized, but prioritize
• 32:49
  Speaker 6: each other. Although there was all these foster kids in
• 32:51
  Speaker 6: the house, they never once let us come in between
• 32:53
  Speaker 6: their marriage. And there were so many times growing up
• 32:55
  Speaker 6: where I did not understand why my dad was choosing
• 32:58
  Speaker 6: my mom over us because me and my mom, you remember,
• 33:01
  Speaker 6: we didn't have the best relationship growing up, Like why
• 33:03
  Speaker 6: are you choosing her over your kids.
• 33:05
  Speaker 3: When you know she did wrong?
• 33:07
  Speaker 6: Now I understand, because biblically, your wife comes before your kids,
• 33:12
  Speaker 6: and vice versa, your husband becomes before your kids because
• 33:15
  Speaker 6: it's a three string corps. So it's not Lotty Dottie
• 33:20
  Speaker 6: and the baby and this, that and the third. So
• 33:22
  Speaker 6: I really had to learn that. And then with my
• 33:24
  Speaker 6: grandparents too, Like my parents and my grandparents, their anniversaries
• 33:28
  Speaker 6: are two years apart, so like I literally grew up
• 33:32
  Speaker 6: seeing my grandfather rubbing my grandmother's feet every single night,
• 33:37
  Speaker 6: I mean, lushing her feet down for twenty one years,
• 33:42
  Speaker 6: even on her deathbed, every single night. Little things like that,
• 33:47
  Speaker 6: like doing favors for her, running to the grocery store.
• 33:50
  Speaker 6: She would have to send like pictureless of like things
• 33:52
  Speaker 6: when it had got to the point because you know,
• 33:54
  Speaker 6: everything's so different now, like things have changed, and he
• 33:57
  Speaker 6: would bring it back and he would always like stop
• 33:59
  Speaker 6: to get her like a treat on the way home, like, oh,
• 34:01
  Speaker 6: I know she really likes ice cream, so I'm gonna
• 34:02
  Speaker 6: give a ice cream, or like my dad when he
• 34:04
  Speaker 6: goes out even now, like we'll get.
• 34:06
  Speaker 3: My mom a coke icy for McDonald's. Like there's little
• 34:08
  Speaker 3: things like that.
• 34:09
  Speaker 6: So when I took a step back and walked closely
• 34:11
  Speaker 6: with married couples and then obviously seeing the two you
• 34:14
  Speaker 6: know marriages that I was raised in, I was.
• 34:16
  Speaker 3: Like, oh, hold on, I ain't met no man like.
• 34:20
  Speaker 5: This right, So what was the what do you feel
• 34:23
  Speaker 5: like the disconnect was for you, like being able to
• 34:26
  Speaker 5: see that, Like, so you don't have the excuse of
• 34:28
  Speaker 5: not being in the environment of it, but your translation
• 34:32
  Speaker 5: of it is not you deal with angry angry men.
• 34:36
  Speaker 5: Like what do you feel like you missed the translation.
• 34:41
  Speaker 3: Surface level how I felt about myself.
• 34:45
  Speaker 6: I thought that that's what I deserved on a deeper
• 34:47
  Speaker 6: level generationally. You know, my mom, while yeah, she was
• 34:52
  Speaker 6: married for a majority of my life before that, me
• 34:56
  Speaker 6: and my two half sisters that are older than me,
• 34:57
  Speaker 6: and we all have different dads and we're two years apart,
• 35:01
  Speaker 6: And I mean before that, she I don't really think
• 35:03
  Speaker 6: that she was married.
• 35:04
  Speaker 3: I think she's been divorced before. I mean, I'm not
• 35:06
  Speaker 3: really sure. Yeah, And then just I really don't like
• 35:11
  Speaker 3: she just I really don't know.
• 35:15
  Speaker 6: Like I think it was more so of number one,
• 35:19
  Speaker 6: not knowing my biological father to just day not knowing
• 35:21
  Speaker 6: my biological father, knowing that her and my mom weren't together,
• 35:25
  Speaker 6: I mean him and my mom were not together, but
• 35:28
  Speaker 6: growing up in the two parent household, and then seeing
• 35:30
  Speaker 6: the trauma that my adopted sisters and foster sisters were
• 35:33
  Speaker 6: going through like with their families.
• 35:35
  Speaker 3: Stem third, I think.
• 35:36
  Speaker 6: It just came to a point and also just having
• 35:38
  Speaker 6: a low self esteem, like being bullied in school a lot,
• 35:41
  Speaker 6: and believing the things because I was a black sheep
• 35:43
  Speaker 6: of the family, like believing things that like certain family
• 35:47
  Speaker 6: members would say about me, and you know this seven
• 35:49
  Speaker 6: third being the bad kid, when in actuality, I would
• 35:51
  Speaker 6: just act out because I wanted attention, and I would
• 35:53
  Speaker 6: get it by any means because I wasn't getting it,
• 35:56
  Speaker 6: you know, by just obeying and doing what I was told.
• 35:59
  Speaker 6: I did my grandparents, but other than that, that was
• 36:03
  Speaker 6: how I got it.
• 36:03
  Speaker 3: And so.
• 36:05
  Speaker 6: I think it just come to a point where I
• 36:07
  Speaker 6: was just like, I'm gonna be so secure in myself
• 36:13
  Speaker 6: that I don't need anybody, any man, any woman, any mom, dad, grandma,
• 36:20
  Speaker 6: nothing to tell me who I am for me to know.
• 36:24
  Speaker 3: And it wasn't until Gamma past.
• 36:28
  Speaker 6: You know, after my mom, and then I had that
• 36:31
  Speaker 6: realization earlier this year, and I really sat down and
• 36:34
  Speaker 6: looked at myself the mirror, and I was like, girl.
• 36:37
  Speaker 3: You got to get it together.
• 36:39
  Speaker 6: Yeah, Like you're about to be twenty three, Like you
• 36:42
  Speaker 6: got things to do, You're about to have a five
• 36:44
  Speaker 6: year old. Now you've got your ged, you're about to
• 36:47
  Speaker 6: go to college, and I still have to remind myself
• 36:49
  Speaker 6: of those things now. And I'm very very proud, very proud.
• 36:55
  Speaker 6: I can confidently say Tanto's down.
• 36:57
  Speaker 3: Yeah, it doesn't matter.
• 36:59
  Speaker 6: I love the one that I am, and I love
• 37:01
  Speaker 6: the woman that I'm becoming, not just who I am now,
• 37:03
  Speaker 6: but who I will continue to become because I truly
• 37:07
  Speaker 6: took the hard steps and.
• 37:08
  Speaker 3: Did the ugly part. Like it was very ugly. That's
• 37:11
  Speaker 3: the part about flourishing people.
• 37:13
  Speaker 5: The idea of flourishing right, and we know we're talking
• 37:16
  Speaker 5: about that for like Gallentinees, But I think the fact
• 37:19
  Speaker 5: that you named it, or the Lord gave you that name,
• 37:23
  Speaker 5: that's all I can hear. Like, I'm like, Lord, you're
• 37:26
  Speaker 5: really taking her through a process of what flourishing means.
• 37:30
  Speaker 5: Because even to florishs, you have to start as a bud.
• 37:33
  Speaker 5: You have to get in the ground seat, you have
• 37:36
  Speaker 5: to be planted, you have to be covered, you have
• 37:38
  Speaker 5: to root the roots.
• 37:40
  Speaker 3: Form before you see. Yeah, yeah, the rooting was very ugly,
• 37:45
  Speaker 3: very ugly, but very needed. There was times where I
• 37:48
  Speaker 3: was like, I'll just go back.
• 37:49
  Speaker 6: To being who I was, I don't care, like I'll
• 37:51
  Speaker 6: just go back and then God would really sit me
• 37:53
  Speaker 6: down and humble me.
• 37:54
  Speaker 3: Do you feel like that would have been easier though,
• 37:57
  Speaker 3: to go back to wa.
• 37:59
  Speaker 6: We run from like things that I needed to heal from.
• 38:01
  Speaker 6: Absolutely not, because you can only run so long.
• 38:04
  Speaker 3: And it's harder to.
• 38:05
  Speaker 6: Fight against what God has for you than to just
• 38:08
  Speaker 6: operate and what He does have for you. Because it's
• 38:10
  Speaker 6: harder to be outside of the wheel of God than
• 38:12
  Speaker 6: it is inside. Because although like many are the afflictions
• 38:15
  Speaker 6: of the righteous we've been may endure for a night.
• 38:18
  Speaker 5: Yeah, but that joy we don't talk about enough that
• 38:22
  Speaker 5: both happen at the same time, Like I can't. I
• 38:26
  Speaker 5: can be at peace and have joy by something but
• 38:29
  Speaker 5: still have a thrown in my fish and have that suffering.
• 38:33
  Speaker 5: And I think that people getting misconstrued because I mean,
• 38:37
  Speaker 5: you bad, you fine, you fine, okay, you fine, okay,
• 38:42
  Speaker 5: you little good, But they don't understand that that that
• 38:47
  Speaker 5: level of suffering comes with suffer. Well, that level of
• 38:54
  Speaker 5: joy and acceptance comes with a level of suffering, Like heaviness.
• 39:00
  Speaker 5: You so praise, yeah, in exchange for the spirit of heaviness.
• 39:04
  Speaker 3: That's yeah, that's the book. It's the good book.
• 39:06
  Speaker 5: That's the book, Tiffany. I'm curious to know this. We
• 39:13
  Speaker 5: we talked. We talk a lot about Gammo, we talked,
• 39:15
  Speaker 5: we've talked about about your mom.
• 39:17
  Speaker 3: I'm curious to know what if there's a desire to
• 39:24
  Speaker 3: know you're dead, like who he is part of me?
• 39:31
  Speaker 6: Yes, not for the sole fact of like wanting to
• 39:33
  Speaker 6: feel fulfilled or.
• 39:35
  Speaker 3: Like validated or like whole.
• 39:40
  Speaker 6: There was a name that my mom gave me before
• 39:43
  Speaker 6: she passed away, and I try to call that man
• 39:46
  Speaker 6: when I was like seventeen, and it was a very
• 39:49
  Speaker 6: very brief phone conversation. It was I don't know that woman.
• 39:52
  Speaker 6: I've never been married, I don't have any kids, I
• 39:55
  Speaker 6: don't have any money for you never asked for money,
• 39:57
  Speaker 6: but okay, and then that was that and I left
• 40:00
  Speaker 6: it alone. Never never try to contact him ever again.
• 40:03
  Speaker 6: Recently recently in the past month. So that's funny, cause
• 40:06
  Speaker 6: I don't think I told you this, No you didn't.
• 40:08
  Speaker 6: But recently in the past month I got to think
• 40:11
  Speaker 6: it again. I was like, huh, let me see, you know,
• 40:15
  Speaker 6: let me see try to contact him again. Me working
• 40:18
  Speaker 6: in line now, So I look up his name and
• 40:22
  Speaker 6: I see some charges. We're not gonna talk about what
• 40:24
  Speaker 6: they are. But I saw some arrest records and some charges.
• 40:27
  Speaker 6: I said, a good and.
• 40:30
  Speaker 3: That was it that day. I said, oh, I'm good.
• 40:32
  Speaker 3: I'm good at So you don't want to know him
• 40:33
  Speaker 3: because of what you saw. Well, I don't know if
• 40:35
  Speaker 3: that is my father, right, but if it is, mm hmm,
• 40:40
  Speaker 3: but why though, I'm curious to know why?
• 40:43
  Speaker 6: M m the nature of the charges mm hmm. Okay,
• 40:48
  Speaker 6: cause I look at it more as like God's protection.
• 40:51
  Speaker 3: If it's meant to be, God would have it to be.
• 40:54
  Speaker 6: You know, even the story of how I even met
• 40:56
  Speaker 6: my biological sisters and how we got connected.
• 41:00
  Speaker 3: If it's meant to be, it'll be.
• 41:01
  Speaker 6: And in that I'm just okay, Like I thank God
• 41:05
  Speaker 6: for my adopted parents. You know, me and my mom
• 41:08
  Speaker 6: now have a much, much, much better relationship. Like yesterday,
• 41:11
  Speaker 6: I had went over there for breakfast and a Maya
• 41:14
  Speaker 6: was there too, and my dad. I brought eggs and
• 41:18
  Speaker 6: bacon and cinnamon rolls, and my dad had cooked breakfast
• 41:20
  Speaker 6: for all of us and we had played Uno and
• 41:23
  Speaker 6: it was just like a good time that I never
• 41:25
  Speaker 6: thought would happen. And then my dad sometimes people hear
• 41:28
  Speaker 6: me call him James. It's not out of disrespect, but
• 41:31
  Speaker 6: I just always called him James. But no, he's been
• 41:35
  Speaker 6: more than enough of a father to me. And while yes,
• 41:40
  Speaker 6: part to me will probably always have that slight curiosity
• 41:43
  Speaker 6: of like, hmm, I wonder who the other part of
• 41:46
  Speaker 6: it is, Like my dad is such an amazing man,
• 41:50
  Speaker 6: and so it was my grandfather, but my dad is
• 41:53
  Speaker 6: such an amazing man and husband and brother and grandfather
• 41:58
  Speaker 6: and all these things, like I'm good, Like I just
• 42:01
  Speaker 6: don't think that no man that I could meet who
• 42:04
  Speaker 6: could potentially be my father could ever beat my dad.
• 42:08
  Speaker 6: But Okay, so I get because I don't have the
• 42:13
  Speaker 6: experience of not knowing my father.
• 42:14
  Speaker 3: I know who my daddy is.
• 42:16
  Speaker 5: I just I think I would be curious of like, Okay,
• 42:19
  Speaker 5: if I were to have the opportunity to talk to
• 42:21
  Speaker 5: my dad, what would I say? Have you ever thought
• 42:23
  Speaker 5: about that? And what does that conversation look like? What
• 42:25
  Speaker 5: does what does Tiffany say to the man that she
• 42:29
  Speaker 5: doesn't know but understands that shares DNA.
• 42:38
  Speaker 6: I really don't even know like how to answer that,
• 42:41
  Speaker 6: because I mean, there's so much to describe who Tiffany
• 42:46
  Speaker 6: is I wouldn't even know how to like start to
• 42:50
  Speaker 6: introduce myself to my biological dad because there's so many
• 42:54
  Speaker 6: different layers, so many different versions, so many different seasons.
• 42:59
  Speaker 3: And then I'm just like, so are you like who?
• 43:04
  Speaker 6: Like?
• 43:04
  Speaker 3: Who are you?
• 43:05
  Speaker 6: I'm sure that I would find some similarities, but I
• 43:09
  Speaker 6: mean that was a part of me for a long
• 43:10
  Speaker 6: time that like I thought that I had what we
• 43:13
  Speaker 6: call daddy issues with actuality, it was mommy issues.
• 43:17
  Speaker 3: Yeah, that's what took me through there.
• 43:19
  Speaker 6: But but yeah, I mean I'm finally at a place where, like,
• 43:27
  Speaker 6: I'm so content with where I am in life and
• 43:32
  Speaker 6: just who I am that I just don't I'm not
• 43:34
  Speaker 6: phased if that door opens or if it just stays
• 43:37
  Speaker 6: closed because I don't about it.
• 43:40
  Speaker 5: Yeah, Okay, I think that's I think that's a good thing,
• 43:43
  Speaker 5: that's a healthy thing. But are you still like, do
• 43:46
  Speaker 5: you still have an open space like if it happens,
• 43:48
  Speaker 5: it happens, if it doesn't cool, or you just like, nah,
• 43:53
  Speaker 5: I'm good, don't even worry about it.
• 43:54
  Speaker 6: Lord kind I mean, I've just been through so much
• 44:00
  Speaker 6: in life, so much that most grown and adult people
• 44:03
  Speaker 6: couldn't even fathom or think of and I'm finally at
• 44:06
  Speaker 6: a place with my life where I'm not in survival mode,
• 44:09
  Speaker 6: Like I'm not having to fight for my life every
• 44:11
  Speaker 6: single day. You know, excuse me, I'm not fighting to
• 44:15
  Speaker 6: stay alive, Like I'm not fighting my mind, Like I'm
• 44:17
  Speaker 6: not like, oh my God, like i just want to
• 44:19
  Speaker 6: kill myself, like.
• 44:19
  Speaker 3: This is too much, Like this is just too much,
• 44:22
  Speaker 3: Like there's just too much to do.
• 44:23
  Speaker 6: Like I thought killing myself was easier than healing because
• 44:28
  Speaker 6: I just knew that there was so much to go
• 44:30
  Speaker 6: through and I was just like, oh, I don't want
• 44:32
  Speaker 6: to do that. And that was at my adolescence when
• 44:35
  Speaker 6: we're still you know, forming emotionally and all things like oh,
• 44:38
  Speaker 6: this is too much, is too much, too much? But
• 44:42
  Speaker 6: I think, God, I didn't make that decision. I really do,
• 44:45
  Speaker 6: But I just lost what I was about to.
• 44:48
  Speaker 5: Say, No, what I was what I had asked you was,
• 44:53
  Speaker 5: were you I think I forgot the last thing I
• 44:56
  Speaker 5: was just said.
• 44:56
  Speaker 3: Pretty much are you open?
• 44:58
  Speaker 5: Like yeah, O if it happens, or you're just like yeah, no,
• 45:01
  Speaker 5: I'm a good period.
• 45:03
  Speaker 3: That's what I'm saying, Like I'm I'm okay.
• 45:06
  Speaker 6: But I'm just now to a point where like there's
• 45:09
  Speaker 6: peace in my life, and like I thought so hard
• 45:12
  Speaker 6: to obtain that piece where I'm like, I don't want
• 45:16
  Speaker 6: somebody to come in, whether you are my dad or
• 45:19
  Speaker 6: anybody in my life for that matter, to come in
• 45:21
  Speaker 6: and disrupt that. Because I was having a conversation with
• 45:24
  Speaker 6: somebody the other day, we were having a disagreement, and
• 45:28
  Speaker 6: I was like, I love you, but I love me
• 45:31
  Speaker 6: a lot more.
• 45:32
  Speaker 3: And that's the place that I had gotten to in
• 45:34
  Speaker 3: my life. And I've made that very clear to my
• 45:37
  Speaker 3: daughter as well.
• 45:38
  Speaker 6: You know, when we'll have conversations, like everybody in our
• 45:41
  Speaker 6: life is disposable. I want you to know that you
• 45:45
  Speaker 6: come before anybody and everybody until I'm married, it's you,
• 45:50
  Speaker 6: simple and play. And I wanted her to know that
• 45:52
  Speaker 6: she matters so much in my life. While yes, she's five,
• 45:55
  Speaker 6: she's very intelligent, Yeah, very intelligent.
• 45:58
  Speaker 3: Show meet you one time and she'll know your name
• 45:59
  Speaker 3: for the for life.
• 46:00
  Speaker 6: It seems like, bring it up, yeah, but I want
• 46:04
  Speaker 6: her to understand that dynamic of I don't care that
• 46:08
  Speaker 6: this could this is a family member, or this is
• 46:11
  Speaker 6: a friend or whoever. Anybody is disposable. And that's just
• 46:15
  Speaker 6: that because when it comes to protecting my child or
• 46:18
  Speaker 6: even just my piece, like oh no, like it's raps.
• 46:21
  Speaker 5: It's raps, which is fair, like I think I think
• 46:24
  Speaker 5: that and doing it in a righteous way though, like
• 46:27
  Speaker 5: this is not. Yeah, but we gotta say that because
• 46:30
  Speaker 5: it's so easy.
• 46:31
  Speaker 3: I mean, you're Tiffany Nicole White, Okay, you are people.
• 46:37
  Speaker 5: You're someone that has the responsibility of influence.
• 46:41
  Speaker 3: And I don't like it. What do you like about it? Sometimes?
• 46:45
  Speaker 3: But I deal with it? What don't you like about it?
• 46:48
  Speaker 6: Like I was talking to yeah, still, I was talking
• 47:01
  Speaker 6: to somebody and like they they they love like blogging
• 47:07
  Speaker 6: in like stuff like that, like they love the social
• 47:09
  Speaker 6: media part of it all. And then I was I
• 47:10
  Speaker 6: was talking about you too. I was like, oh, like
• 47:12
  Speaker 6: just takes this thing for real. I don't like I
• 47:15
  Speaker 6: do in part, but like at the very end of
• 47:17
  Speaker 6: the day, I can never care if I'm never in
• 47:19
  Speaker 6: front of another camera ever again, Like I've become so
• 47:22
  Speaker 6: private and just I just love that because I didn't.
• 47:24
  Speaker 6: I didn't have that for a long time. And I
• 47:26
  Speaker 6: think that that's been a big switch with how people
• 47:30
  Speaker 6: view me on social media. It's like I used to
• 47:31
  Speaker 6: put my whole life out there. Yeah, baby, daddy, drama, this, that,
• 47:34
  Speaker 6: and the third like everything you could ever think of,
• 47:37
  Speaker 6: and now there ain't a lick of nothing.
• 47:39
  Speaker 3: I don't want you to know nothing. I'm gonna post.
• 47:42
  Speaker 6: I'll probably post something from two months ago and you'll
• 47:44
  Speaker 6: think it's my first time at that restaurant.
• 47:47
  Speaker 3: I'm not belated.
• 47:48
  Speaker 5: Because it has been a shift, and that was gonna
• 47:49
  Speaker 5: be another thing I wanted to bring up to it
• 47:51
  Speaker 5: so you can allow people to hear from you.
• 47:53
  Speaker 3: Like it's a noticeable ship. It's not.
• 47:57
  Speaker 5: It's not no, I don't even look the sad. No,
• 47:59
  Speaker 5: it's it's you don't look the same, you don't approach
• 48:02
  Speaker 5: social media same. It's a I would say TIF is
• 48:06
  Speaker 5: more highlights. Then we're not getting the tiff and the dungeon.
• 48:10
  Speaker 5: If I could call it a sec we're not getting
• 48:14
  Speaker 5: dungeon till But I don't think that it was a
• 48:18
  Speaker 5: problem with that. But I also think that founding a
• 48:20
  Speaker 5: healthy balance of let me let you know what it is,
• 48:23
  Speaker 5: because I know that when you did have that situation
• 48:26
  Speaker 5: come up, we just gonna call it a situation.
• 48:29
  Speaker 3: We won't have to. If you've been following her, you
• 48:31
  Speaker 3: know the situation. You know the situation. You know, the situation.
• 48:34
  Speaker 6: It's just obvious and that's all you're gonna get.
• 48:37
  Speaker 3: Because I respect my friends.
• 48:40
  Speaker 5: When that situation come up, people always want to know
• 48:43
  Speaker 5: what happened with the situation. And I think that just
• 48:48
  Speaker 5: being your friend just for the past year and seeing
• 48:51
  Speaker 5: you just like bro, like, I don't want to relive there,
• 48:54
  Speaker 5: I don't want to talk about it, I don't want
• 48:56
  Speaker 5: to deal with I'm not.
• 48:57
  Speaker 3: Her, I'm not even her anymore, not even her.
• 49:00
  Speaker 6: And that's so crazy because I was getting ready today,
• 49:02
  Speaker 6: I was going through some things and something that happened to,
• 49:05
  Speaker 6: you know, trigger me over the past week or so,
• 49:07
  Speaker 6: and I really thought about that, and I'm like, I
• 49:10
  Speaker 6: used to think that, like so much of what had
• 49:14
  Speaker 6: happened just in my life period, not just with this
• 49:15
  Speaker 6: situation by itself, could be like held over my head,
• 49:18
  Speaker 6: like me just being a human, like me and my humanity,
• 49:21
  Speaker 6: you know, my low moments where I wasn't just at
• 49:24
  Speaker 6: my best, but I let certain people see me in
• 49:27
  Speaker 6: that vulnerability. I thought that like that being held over
• 49:30
  Speaker 6: my head was like such a big thing, and it
• 49:32
  Speaker 6: probably was at the time. And I'm not going to
• 49:33
  Speaker 6: invalidate my own feelings because it probably would have y'all
• 49:36
  Speaker 6: probably would have canceled me no life.
• 49:38
  Speaker 3: Crazy, But looking.
• 49:41
  Speaker 6: At that now, if SO and so come out with
• 49:44
  Speaker 6: this that in the third or even bring that up
• 49:46
  Speaker 6: like okay, cool, I don't even know her, you don't
• 49:49
  Speaker 6: know me, And I love that for us.
• 49:51
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I love that for us.
• 49:53
  Speaker 6: Like the woman that I've become, not even just to
• 49:55
  Speaker 6: other people, but like to myself, I don't it's so
• 49:58
  Speaker 6: unrecognizable in the past year, not even just the past
• 50:00
  Speaker 6: few months, like the past year like period, with how
• 50:04
  Speaker 6: I speak, with how I carry myself, with how I
• 50:07
  Speaker 6: articulate myself, how I operate in emotions.
• 50:10
  Speaker 3: Therapy. I love therapy.
• 50:11
  Speaker 6: I recommend everybody gets a therapist, everybody. I don't care
• 50:14
  Speaker 6: if it's your grandma who's ninety years old. Yeah, I
• 50:17
  Speaker 6: love therapy. I recommend therapy to everybody. I literally just
• 50:19
  Speaker 6: started my own child into therapy just ahead of time. Yeah,
• 50:22
  Speaker 6: because not necessarily you know that something that's happened, but
• 50:26
  Speaker 6: kind of more so is like preventable.
• 50:28
  Speaker 3: How she gets used to talking about her.
• 50:30
  Speaker 6: Feeling and she knows that even when she may be
• 50:33
  Speaker 6: mad at me, because that's bound to happen.
• 50:35
  Speaker 3: At some point you're a girl, I'm a girl.
• 50:37
  Speaker 6: We gonna knock here, even though that's bound to happen, Like,
• 50:41
  Speaker 6: you still have somebody that's a.
• 50:42
  Speaker 3: Safe space, yeah, to communicate those things.
• 50:45
  Speaker 6: And you know, just just being taught emotional maturity early on,
• 50:48
  Speaker 6: because I wasn't necessarily taught that.
• 50:50
  Speaker 3: Like I was thrown.
• 50:51
  Speaker 6: Into therapy and them therapists weren't worth nothing. It was like, Okay,
• 50:56
  Speaker 6: what medication can I put you on to a number? Yeah?
• 50:58
  Speaker 3: I'm like no, like I need somebody to just listen. Yeah.
• 51:02
  Speaker 6: So having that as an adult, oh my gosh. I
• 51:04
  Speaker 6: just everybody should have therapy. Everybody should have therapy.
• 51:08
  Speaker 5: That's so good, that's so good. I'm very proud of you.
• 51:13
  Speaker 5: It's been no, it's been rewarding. And I'm gonna share
• 51:18
  Speaker 5: this with you. I didn't know if I was gonna
• 51:19
  Speaker 5: share it or not, but I feel like lead to
• 51:21
  Speaker 5: share it. You bring a different level of confidence for
• 51:28
  Speaker 5: me and our relationship.
• 51:30
  Speaker 3: Oh lord, I've been crying over.
• 51:36
  Speaker 5: I know, all right, you've been You bring a different
• 51:40
  Speaker 5: level of confidence for me and our relationship. I didn't
• 51:47
  Speaker 5: think that somebody like you would want to friend somebody
• 51:51
  Speaker 5: like me. Why because for one, I'm ten years older
• 51:55
  Speaker 5: than you. Let's start with the age difference. That's big,
• 52:00
  Speaker 5: no you, And but the thing is you lean into
• 52:04
  Speaker 5: that part your It's a gift to be transparent. You
• 52:18
  Speaker 5: make me want to be better just having you look
• 52:23
  Speaker 5: and say, Jessica, how do you do this? Or trust
• 52:26
  Speaker 5: in me even to serve you at Gallentines? Like you know,
• 52:30
  Speaker 5: you know, I was like, okay, you know the first
• 52:32
  Speaker 5: time I was like, hey, hey, just ask just as
• 52:37
  Speaker 5: I just like, no, I don't and you don't want to,
• 52:41
  Speaker 5: and it's weird for me. That is weird for me.
• 52:45
  Speaker 5: You bring out the absolute best of me, tive, you
• 52:48
  Speaker 5: really do. And for people that may misunderstand you, I
• 52:53
  Speaker 5: think the season is up.
• 52:55
  Speaker 3: I think the season is.
• 52:56
  Speaker 5: Up because there are people that are properly positioned to
• 53:03
  Speaker 5: manage you well and to allow you that safe space
• 53:07
  Speaker 5: to develop as the woman that God has created you
• 53:09
  Speaker 5: to because there's more.
• 53:10
  Speaker 3: Right, Oh my god, I feel my help cut.
• 53:14
  Speaker 5: Yeah, there's so much more for Tiffany, the cold white
• 53:17
  Speaker 5: and that last name will change for the white person. Okay, well,
• 53:25
  Speaker 5: hyphenation I love, but I'm just I just wanted to
• 53:31
  Speaker 5: publicly tell you thank you.
• 53:32
  Speaker 3: Like this. This last year of getting to.
• 53:34
  Speaker 5: Know you, you taught me how to be transparent. You've
• 53:38
  Speaker 5: taught me how to open myself up and allowed because
• 53:41
  Speaker 5: you know some ugly things about me.
• 53:42
  Speaker 3: And you know some you know, but just getting on
• 53:47
  Speaker 3: some things about me.
• 53:48
  Speaker 6: Nobody else on the face of this earth walking nose,
• 53:51
  Speaker 6: like Jessica, in my life, I can probably end just
• 53:54
  Speaker 6: because life, and then there would just be no that's
• 53:56
  Speaker 6: fair enough to you know, but we thank God for grace, grace.
• 54:00
  Speaker 3: And understanding and love and love.
• 54:03
  Speaker 5: And so I just want to say, you know, getting
• 54:06
  Speaker 5: to see you just your maturation process is so rewarding,
• 54:10
  Speaker 5: and so thank you for allowing me to be a
• 54:11
  Speaker 5: part of your life. Thank you for just being till regardless,
• 54:15
  Speaker 5: just being tif and I'm here for the long call.
• 54:18
  Speaker 5: So I just want you to to say that publicly,
• 54:20
  Speaker 5: so you can remind me when I try to quit
• 54:22
  Speaker 5: on you.
• 54:25
  Speaker 6: Ain't that name unless you start when I try to
• 54:29
  Speaker 6: quit him like too.
• 54:30
  Speaker 5: If I can't do this though, bos, but that's already
• 54:32
  Speaker 5: what what's going over there in your little lovely head,
• 54:35
  Speaker 5: the little lovely head, this is so beautiful because I
• 54:38
  Speaker 5: love y'all talked about suffering right, And I think either
• 54:44
  Speaker 5: we don't quite understand what that means or we just
• 54:48
  Speaker 5: soon forget that a part of the journey is the
• 54:51
  Speaker 5: processing and the suffering, right. But Jane said, kind of
• 54:56
  Speaker 5: joy when when trials and tribulations it's it's it's not
• 55:01
  Speaker 5: there to kill you, it's not there to break you.
• 55:03
  Speaker 3: Right.
• 55:03
  Speaker 5: But he's working out of perfect work. So we have
• 55:05
  Speaker 5: to let uh perseverance do her perfect work.
• 55:08
  Speaker 3: Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
• 55:10
  Speaker 5: And I think this is just a beautiful picture of
• 55:13
  Speaker 5: when you when you just lean into the to the
• 55:16
  Speaker 5: to the pain, right, when you lean into the the
• 55:18
  Speaker 5: hard times that come like the beauty that comes on
• 55:21
  Speaker 5: the other side of it, you know what I'm saying.
• 55:23
  Speaker 5: And so just to keep leaning in man, and just
• 55:26
  Speaker 5: watching your journey.
• 55:27
  Speaker 3: Has been beautiful, you know.
• 55:30
  Speaker 5: And I and I then noticed, like you know, you know,
• 55:31
  Speaker 5: people will just watch right, so you have there was
• 55:34
  Speaker 5: there isn't a distinctive difference in your social media presence
• 55:39
  Speaker 5: from where you were into where you are now and
• 55:40
  Speaker 5: now it's just another level of maturity.
• 55:43
  Speaker 3: That's what I see.
• 55:43
  Speaker 5: I just see a woman coming into her maturity, you
• 55:46
  Speaker 5: know what I'm saying.
• 55:47
  Speaker 3: Woman, Yeah, So good on your girl. Thank you. It
• 55:53
  Speaker 3: looks good on you.
• 55:54
  Speaker 5: And I'm excited about Flourish to see that baby being
• 55:58
  Speaker 5: birthed out. I know it's like like like birthing something
• 56:02
  Speaker 5: like so because right.
• 56:03
  Speaker 3: Now we're pregnant. Yeah, we're pregnant. Everybody pregnant, pregnant, pregnant, wobbling,
• 56:08
  Speaker 3: we're purpose. Let's clarify.
• 56:10
  Speaker 6: Hold on, don't try to be funny.
• 56:14
  Speaker 3: I ain't nobody pregnant.
• 56:17
  Speaker 5: Six It was like February sixth and sixth and seven, Flourish.
• 56:21
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna be there. Yes, if you, if you, if you,
• 56:24
  Speaker 3: if you ain't there, what's wrong with you? What is wrong?
• 56:27
  Speaker 5: Because we're going up. If if year one was like
• 56:31
  Speaker 5: it was, and we add days days, child.
• 56:36
  Speaker 3: And it's not just me and Jazz, who hello, whole line?
• 56:40
  Speaker 3: Was it? Actually Prophet is actually brown? Oh? Oh, psalms?
• 56:46
  Speaker 3: Is Courtney crossing down? Just stop right there? We just
• 56:50
  Speaker 3: need to go on the floor.
• 56:52
  Speaker 6: It is insane in the best way possible. I have
• 56:55
  Speaker 6: never and mind you, I've been watching her, and you
• 56:58
  Speaker 6: know we've seen each other ministry for years now, but
• 57:01
  Speaker 6: I'm just like, every single time I see her, it just.
• 57:05
  Speaker 3: Gets better and better. And better.
• 57:08
  Speaker 6: And I'm like, the level of submission that she has
• 57:11
  Speaker 6: in her life is insane. And it's not by necessarily
• 57:15
  Speaker 6: the way she looks or you know, yeah she dresses,
• 57:18
  Speaker 6: it's you can literally hear it. Yeah, you can hear
• 57:21
  Speaker 6: her matriculation and her submission. And I'm just like, it's
• 57:24
  Speaker 6: Insane's there's nobody like.
• 57:26
  Speaker 5: Coco, c nobody, no, nobody, the sound is hers, it's
• 57:31
  Speaker 5: it's can't.
• 57:32
  Speaker 6: Be duplicated, replicated, know nothing, Like you've got it through
• 57:36
  Speaker 6: and through, like if nobody got off, you got all.
• 57:40
  Speaker 3: If you don't know how to worship, you will learn
• 57:42
  Speaker 3: it for I promise she will instruct and usher you in. Yeah.
• 57:47
  Speaker 6: So yeah, so prophet is actually Brown first of all,
• 57:51
  Speaker 6: powerhouse insane and it's just full circle how I started
• 57:56
  Speaker 6: off seeing her on social media. Then nobody knows this,
• 57:59
  Speaker 6: but like I had planned an event and God told
• 58:01
  Speaker 6: me to stop, but she was going to be the
• 58:03
  Speaker 6: guest speaker, and then I didn't do it, and then
• 58:06
  Speaker 6: she invited me to speak on a panel. Mind you,
• 58:09
  Speaker 6: I'm Tiffany Nicole White, twenty two years old at this point. Yeah,
• 58:13
  Speaker 6: on a panel with an apostle with a prophetest who's
• 58:17
  Speaker 6: a pastor's wife also, and then her who's a prophet.
• 58:20
  Speaker 3: Then there's little on me. Don't make no sense looking
• 58:22
  Speaker 3: at it.
• 58:23
  Speaker 6: Still don't make no sense to me looking back at it,
• 58:25
  Speaker 6: and I'm just like gays. And then she saw the
• 58:29
  Speaker 6: biggest seed in my end to me that anybody has
• 58:31
  Speaker 6: ever saw it. Wow, and nobody knew never post. I
• 58:34
  Speaker 6: never posted about it. She never posted about it. That's
• 58:36
  Speaker 6: just what it was. And from then on out, even
• 58:38
  Speaker 6: before the seed, greatly honored her and appreciated her for
• 58:42
  Speaker 6: seeing that and giving me the platform that she did,
• 58:45
  Speaker 6: you know, and trusted me with.
• 58:47
  Speaker 3: That as such a baby, Yeah, because of my head.
• 58:49
  Speaker 3: I'm a baby.
• 58:50
  Speaker 6: And after that, when I had reached out to her
• 58:54
  Speaker 6: about booking, she was like, oh, well, I guess now's
• 58:58
  Speaker 6: the time that like God already told me that third
• 59:00
  Speaker 6: and I don't think I even told you that, but
• 59:02
  Speaker 6: she already knew I was gonna come to her doorstep
• 59:05
  Speaker 6: like hey, I got Gallentines because she had just recently
• 59:07
  Speaker 6: come out with that series, that girl, And so I
• 59:10
  Speaker 6: was like, okay, cool, And every time in prayer, like
• 59:13
  Speaker 6: thinking about it in like medicine, like who is going
• 59:16
  Speaker 6: who can I.
• 59:16
  Speaker 3: Trust, right, because that's another part.
• 59:19
  Speaker 6: That's another part, and that's why we were so strategic
• 59:21
  Speaker 6: about who we brought this year. It's people that I know,
• 59:25
  Speaker 6: It's people that I can vet, It's people that I
• 59:28
  Speaker 6: trust through and through with the vision.
• 59:29
  Speaker 3: Yeah, from every aspect.
• 59:31
  Speaker 6: Yeah, the speaker with the mic down to director assistant director,
• 59:35
  Speaker 6: team Lee's this that and the third speaker psalms this
• 59:38
  Speaker 6: everything Like Saturday Day, Saturday Day, we have faster.
• 59:43
  Speaker 3: Petro Pender, who is my beloved mentor.
• 59:46
  Speaker 6: Has truly like held my hand, took off running the
• 59:49
  Speaker 6: wind stoped since yeah, like and that was just from
• 59:51
  Speaker 6: the end of January this year up until now that
• 59:55
  Speaker 6: we've walked so closely like and I've just seen so
• 59:58
  Speaker 6: much of God in our relationship intentionality. And then Koash
• 1:00:03
  Speaker 6: and a Jackson walked that thing out with me last summer,
• 1:00:07
  Speaker 6: I mean walked.
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 3: It out with me.
• 1:00:08
  Speaker 6: And we met in the School of Prophecy at formerly
• 1:00:12
  Speaker 6: Onnations Church now Love City Church, and she already knew
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 6: that I was supposed to be her mentor, like somebody
• 1:00:16
  Speaker 6: else had told her as well, and God had converted
• 1:00:18
  Speaker 6: to her and prayer before I even spoke.
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 3: A word to her.
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 6: So they will be teaching on you know, spiritual giftings
• 1:00:25
  Speaker 6: and the prophetic and prayer, and Pastor Petra really on
• 1:00:29
  Speaker 6: the holy boundaries of like no, I think it's something
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 6: something along those lines, but the power of no, because
• 1:00:35
  Speaker 6: if there's one thing that she taught me, it's boundaries.
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 6: And then that night we have mes me this little
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 6: mean yeah, somebody speaking, come on now. And then we
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 6: have our scholarship giveaway. We have our panel of me you, Petra.
• 1:00:55
  Speaker 3: There might be one.
• 1:00:56
  Speaker 6: More we just don't we know yet, we'll see. And
• 1:00:59
  Speaker 6: then in Cocoa crossing a game and then the O G.
• 1:01:05
  Speaker 5: PJS, which is so but we are not laying hands
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 5: at peaches. We're doing all that before you can actually eat.
• 1:01:14
  Speaker 5: This time we can eat and go home and shuffle
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 5: and go home.
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 3: And go home. Baby, y'all wore us out. But no,
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 3: I'm really looking.
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 5: Forward to Flourish because it's gonna be different. It's going
• 1:01:30
  Speaker 5: to be you know, us being able to be women
• 1:01:33
  Speaker 5: and just the whole woman. We're touching the whole too,
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 5: woman and so.
• 1:01:39
  Speaker 3: And I really.
• 1:01:41
  Speaker 6: Think that the lineup was intentional the way it was
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 6: because I'm walk closely with these women and they have
• 1:01:47
  Speaker 6: everything to do with who Tiffany is now. So why
• 1:01:51
  Speaker 6: would I not bring the same people that ushered me
• 1:01:54
  Speaker 6: into where I'm at now and offer those same people
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 6: to all these women from all walks of life, all
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 6: different ages, all different places. Why would I not do that.
• 1:02:04
  Speaker 6: I'm not silly, I'm not a gay careper right right
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 6: fully transparent, But it's also a public honor that or
• 1:02:11
  Speaker 6: just honoring them publicly that I did not get here
• 1:02:14
  Speaker 6: by myself. Yeah, first obviously the Lord, and then second,
• 1:02:17
  Speaker 6: every single last one of you helped Garrison in like
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 6: Garrison me into where I am today, and you included
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 6: jess And I just really appreciate you, and I just
• 1:02:26
  Speaker 6: love you, and I don't I don't like Mushi gishiy
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 6: stuff because I'm just like I just try to tell
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 6: baby like I'm just a girl, but I'm just like you.
• 1:02:34
  Speaker 6: I would have never thought from the first episode to now, like, okay, yeah.
• 1:02:39
  Speaker 3: We be cool. Yeah, Jessica.
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 5: Like you on the Favorites. You're hilarious, no real bad.
• 1:02:47
  Speaker 3: Like I literally called Justica the other night and I'm like,
• 1:02:49
  Speaker 3: can I come over? Come on? And I literally was
• 1:02:51
  Speaker 3: there in twenty minutes. Yep. Real bad. And now me
• 1:02:54
  Speaker 3: and her dog like we're friends. And I don't like dogs,
• 1:02:57
  Speaker 3: but on more hands that effect, I don't like no more.
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 6: No.
• 1:03:02
  Speaker 5: But it's both ways. I want you to know it's
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 5: mutual and so I'm grateful. But y'all, I want y'all
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 5: to understand that we are about to do we're doing
• 1:03:10
  Speaker 5: something so big for women.
• 1:03:13
  Speaker 3: It's not an age limit, it's not an age gap.
• 1:03:16
  Speaker 5: She saydnine, you hear me, it's sixteen oh, sixteen, sixteen
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 5: to ninety nine.
• 1:03:22
  Speaker 3: I'm sorry.
• 1:03:22
  Speaker 5: We're gonna be talking about some stuff everything. Okay, we're
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 5: gonna be talking about the stuff. So this is the
• 1:03:29
  Speaker 5: time for you to get it because tickets are almost
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 5: sold out.
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 3: Okay, tickets are almost.
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 5: Sold out to Flourish, and we are doing a fast
• 1:03:37
  Speaker 5: that is coming up in the very near future. And
• 1:03:40
  Speaker 5: to be in that fast, a part of that fast,
• 1:03:42
  Speaker 5: you have to be in the circle group. Okay, we're
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 5: gonna be praying, we're gonna be going before the Lord.
• 1:03:48
  Speaker 5: I just thank Tiffany for trusting me with that because
• 1:03:50
  Speaker 5: I said, hey, girl, we need to do this or whatever.
• 1:03:52
  Speaker 3: She's like, Okay, let's do it, you know. So we
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 3: are we're very much.
• 1:03:56
  Speaker 5: So doing things before the actual event and you definitely
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 5: want to be a part of it. You need a shift,
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 5: you need better understanding. If you just need to be
• 1:04:05
  Speaker 5: around women that are going in the same direction as you.
• 1:04:09
  Speaker 5: Flourish is where you need to be. February sixth, through
• 1:04:11
  Speaker 5: the through the seventh, Birmingham, Alabama at Lovely at love
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 5: City Church. Okay, So, Tiffany, as a tradition, we already
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 5: know we want to land the plane. Girl, if you
• 1:04:23
  Speaker 5: came anything that came with anything on your heart, or
• 1:04:26
  Speaker 5: you want to you know, elaborate on something you've already said,
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 5: the flourish.
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 3: Or hmm, you're so silly.
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 6: Hm, I'm just playing because let's get down to it.
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 6: I want how do I worry this? If you if
• 1:04:49
  Speaker 6: yourself five years from now, man are women?
• 1:04:52
  Speaker 3: Because I don't discriminate, you can go. I can talk
• 1:04:56
  Speaker 3: to either one. Yeah, through and through what you're going
• 1:04:59
  Speaker 3: through here.
• 1:05:00
  Speaker 6: If you look at yourself five years from now, would
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 6: you be proud of who you are or would you
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 6: want to do better? That's what I had to do
• 1:05:07
  Speaker 6: and so through that the hard works. Like we said earlier,
• 1:05:11
  Speaker 6: you can't run from it for forever. The hard work
• 1:05:14
  Speaker 6: may seem easier to just keep running or to opt
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  Speaker 6: out another way, but it's not only important for yourself,
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  Speaker 6: but your children, your children's children, and also just the
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  Speaker 6: legacy that you'll leave behind for everyone that ever.
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  Speaker 3: Comes into contact with you.
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  Speaker 6: You know, I'll wake up in the morning and I
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  Speaker 6: really try to remind myself daily like what is one
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  Speaker 6: thing that I can do today or how can I
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  Speaker 6: be better today than I was yesterday? Yeah, and really
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  Speaker 6: giving myself that grace to start over every single day
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  Speaker 6: because I may not have gotten it right the first
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  Speaker 6: time or yesterday.
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  Speaker 3: But I have a new day. Yeah, I have a
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  Speaker 3: new hour, I have a new a fresh start in
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  Speaker 3: a way.
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  Speaker 6: And in scripture it says that a just man falls
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  Speaker 6: seven times begets back up eight Yeah, so just continuing
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  Speaker 6: to get back up, keep going because you don't know
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  Speaker 6: who's watching you, and you don't need a million followers
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  Speaker 6: on social media for you to be watched. You know,
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  Speaker 6: coworker may be following you and watching you, or a brother,
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  Speaker 6: a sister, or I've even seen parental figures and yeah, you.
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  Speaker 3: Just never know. Just be a good, just be kind.
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  Speaker 3: Everybody's going through something.
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  Speaker 6: And some people will never be as transparent and it's open,
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  Speaker 6: and that's perfectly okay. But you truly never know. Like
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  Speaker 6: I think that's one thing that God has really taught
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  Speaker 6: me is you never truly know. So my last thought
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  Speaker 6: and comment would be, because I love to.
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  Speaker 3: Talk, is if not you, then who?
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  Speaker 6: If not you, then then who? I think that's good
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  Speaker 6: because if God can be.
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  Speaker 3: For us, hallelu.
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  Speaker 6: Y'all.
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  Speaker 6: What you say, well, praise the Lord somebody hallan Louisah,
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  Speaker 6: prais the Lord somebody?
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  Speaker 3: Every time?
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  Speaker 6: If I don't know what to say, don't care.
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  Speaker 3: She could be in the club. Well, praise.
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  Speaker 6: You.
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  Speaker 3: Gonna get saved that day, Okay, Tiff. I'm so proud
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