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Cuando Falleció Me Dejó Una Maldición - Historias De Terror - Voces De La Noche · Niebla en el bosque con Evelith von

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First of all. Greetings to all of you. I wanted to tell my
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story a long time ago, but I was afraid that they would call me
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crazy or that I would have some sort of reprisal from the government, especially
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when the two right- wing parties were still ruling. But telling my experiences
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within the police will help me heal old wounds and perhaps at last exorcise old
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ghosts and distressing memories that even today, with so much time involved, refuse
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to dilute in my mind, so I have not had peace from then until
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today. You can call me nacho. Almost no one remembers me with that
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name or nickname in force. I reserve it because with that one if they
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place me they are partners. Since we entered the Police Training and Training Institute.
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Its facilities were located in the area of Cerro Gordo, State of Mexico.
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When I entered the police training course in the 2, 000, Vicente
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ruled this President. From the beginning of his mandate he intended to form an
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elite police force based on scientific, technical and human rights training, something like
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a Mexican epheb carrying out research, as well as operational work throughout the national
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territory. This as part of the campaign promises in security when he was campaigning
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and promised to take the party he was in command at that time from the
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pines and rule differently in theory for the benefit of the whole people. And
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among many changes he implemented was the creation of the Federal Investigation Agency or better
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known as AFI, successor to the much- feared Federal Judicial Police. With
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this change in its structure, mission and vision, it was intended to professionalize
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its elements, since to be aspirants it was necessary that we have minimum studies
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of preparatory or knowledge in security tasks, so also the summons was open to
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military non- desertors. As in my case, we arrived with a truncated
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or completed bachelor' s degree. They increased the chances of being accepted and
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getting a better position if we successfully completed the police training course. At the
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end of the training course, I was successfully integrated directly into the operation,
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specifically the anti- kidnapping group that at that time was of high priority,
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so I had the direct support of Genaro and Luis and according to the needs
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of the service, we were assigned cases of missing persons. We should continue
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the investigation initiated previously, correcting errors and following all lines of investigation that the
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case presented. One of the cases I remember most, especially because it was
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one of the first high- profile cases I was assigned to was that of
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a woman I' ll call Kenny. The investigation of her disappearance was a
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very high priority for the Agency, as the father of the missing woman was
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a wealthy businessman who was part of the group friends of the President, so
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he directly asked the President to use all means at his disposal to find his
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daughter' s whereabouts, so the pressure on us and our commanders at all
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levels was constant and intense. Our commander didn' t give us a break
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and even though we did our best and used all the resources within our reach,
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sadly we never found Kenny' s whereabouts. We investigate in the most
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unsuspected places with his photograph in hand, we come to look for traces of
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her, in brothels and places of bad death. We didn' t leave
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any lines without following every lead. It was important. We went several times
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to the Forensic medical service to ask if among the female bodies that were coming
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and were Kenny' s age and build. We visited several cements and questioned
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the workers in case they had buried, cremated any body with the characteristics of
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the woman we were looking for. It became common to leave the Commission to
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various states of the Republic, following several clues, which unfortunately led us to
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nothing. It was very frustrating, because we felt as if we were looking
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for a ghost, because we knew from a conversation with her parents, that
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her teenage daughter escaped from her house and could also hide that she was not
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found until she decided to return. He never lacked financial means, as his
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family owned several companies and his parents provided him with abundant resources to do what
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he wanted. Even if I came to visit another country. We, as
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I mentioned, were under great pressure, so, exhausted by conventional means of
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search, we agreed to resort to another less scientific type of tracing. We
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' re looking for life- saving help, parrotists and fortune tellers. Thus
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we entered an atmosphere of contradictions and darkness that ended with the little tranquility we
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had. The versions given to us by each query were very varied. Sometimes
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they told us that Kenny was already dead, while others gave us so many
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versions of his whereabouts that they weren' t really helpful. But almost everyone
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agreed that Mrs Kenny' s husband had somehow damaged her to death or that
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she had been held against her will and held incommunicado to make her look dead.
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This gentleman of whom I reserve the name is also a high profile character
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and, therefore, of economic power, with whom Mrs Kenny had procreated three
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children, but to whom she was never faithful, having various extramarital relationships of
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which the lord had no idea, but who finally found out about his wife
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' s disloyalty, as he had initiated a relationship with one of his best
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friends, a young businessman he had known since adolescence, and that made him
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mad with jealousy and feeling betrayed, killed his wife. According to some fortune
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tellers and others, he beat her and spared her life only if she went
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away forever, so that her children would never see her again. Despite the
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versions so different from each other. We continued the search for Kenny, even
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consulting people who recommended us to divine mediums we visited, even if they were
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in some other state of the Republic. Even one of them told us that
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he could contact the dead. They took possession of his body and talked to
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the consultants and when we came to this character, we began a turbulent session
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where, after several prayers and spells that we did not understand, the medium
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began to speak presenting himself as the person we were looking for, saying his
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full name and other data that only we knew immediately. We asked the so
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- called spirit about Kenny' s whereabouts if she was alive or dead,
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which he answered us and had not gone through our minds, claimed that she
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alone had ended her life because she had fallen in love with a man who
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was not his own and had not let her live. In addition, her
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husband treated her very badly and had already learned of her affair, so he
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had no doubt that she would be sent to disappear without her children, let
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alone her parents. Despite the implausible words of the medium, as well as
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our own investigations, that case was apparently never resolved. According to our managers,
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the results we obtained were insufficient and they reassigned the research kit to another
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group of colleagues and sent us to another unit to carry out another kind of
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activities. At that time, the Federal Preventive Police were being integrated, whose
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summons lasted a long time, even when there were elements of that corporation working
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in the field. It was when the claua swelling of three elements of that
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corporation that were doing research work, but were confused with child kidnappers or robo
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- boys, and the villagers cruelly ended their lives without understanding reasons, even
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though they identified themselves, and elements of their own corporation, as well as
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of the Secretariat of Public Security, including its holder Marcelo, immediately came to
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their aid. They couldn' t save them from a horrible death. On
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that occasion, by presidential order, the entire police force came to the scene
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of the swelling, as well as to investigate in the same locality, who
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instigated the population and arrested the assassins of the police. We were all carrying
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long weapons and all the protective equipment, as the President directly gave us carte
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blanche to carry out the necessary actions without consequences for us. We were in
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convoy through the streets of the colony when a bottle of soda was thrown out
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of a house and it hit one of the units. The crew members descended
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quickly. It was about ten or twelve as soon as they found the house
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from where the container had come out and armed them entered the house, fanning
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everything in its path and proceeded to beat out all its occupants, no matter
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whether they were women, children or even the elderly, bringing them all in
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detention before the impotent and terrified gaze of their neighbors. This was done to
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intimidate the population and not to do justice again by their own hands and to
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respect the police officers who only performed their duties for the benefit of the Community.
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Some time later, I went to see that area, specifically where the
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most violent events occurred, which was in the square and the Kiosco, where
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they tortured and killed the cos compañeros of the preventive federal police who ironically investigated
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the report of an alleged disappearance of a minor in front of a primary school.
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According to some residents who witnessed what happened, the police passed very often
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through the entrance to the school and started talking to some minors who came there.
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This raised suspicions among the population and first the parents began to question why
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they approached the children. A lot of people came together to yell at them.
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You come to steal our children, and with that, it was enough
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for a burning mob to gather together to immobilize them, to start beating them,
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climbing into torture to end the lives of the police, even in the
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presence of reporters and cameramen, who were powerless to witness the savagery with which
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the villagers acted. Fortunately, they were able to obtain the material they had
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recorded and with their testimonies of ns they managed to arrest those who, hiding
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in anonymity, massacred three public servants who were working in order to confirm a
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complaint of disappearance of a child. The vendors who frequent the Kiosco remember with
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sadness that event that left a mark on the community, since they say that
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both they and those who visit the square feel the heavy and uncomfortable atmosphere that
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they prefer to retire, because the vibrate in the place is horrible and some
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traders of the area claim to have heard complains and screams in the night,
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when there is no one around anymore. They also claim that there is a
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horrible smell in the environment, of burnt meat and shadows across the square terrorizing
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those who have the bad fortune of passing by. From there. I do
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believe in what they say, because the companions suffered the unimaginable by losing their
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lives my mother, who since childhood learned magic in her native oajaca, told
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me that in those cases souls cannot rest, because they did not let them
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fulfill with submission on earth. In addition to the fact that her death had
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been very violent and unjust, she did good and bad work and always committed
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herself to ancient deities in dialects to Poteca, which always did what she asked
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of them and knowing what happened to the comrades of the Federal Preventive Police made
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a ritual of protection for me and my two brothers, who joined the Attorney
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General' s Office of the Federal District and the banking and industrial police.
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Thanks to what he did for us and despite the high risk of our occupation.
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We were never hurt or suffered from any evil. At the Federal Investigation
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Agency, I began to be commissioned, along with many of my colleagues from
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various areas, to integrate the operations that were implemented throughout the country. Some
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of those I participated in were operative Jawar, which extended from the center to
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the north of Mexico, and operative Tamaulipas, which included that square so important
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for organized crime. In every locality we arrived we always looked for houses or
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apartments instead of hotels, because we knew that our stay would not be short.
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In Guanajuato we had the opportunity to rent a house where we could all
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fit for the rental price. We would have access to all services. The
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place had several furniture, which we thought was even better as soon as we
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settled and accommodated our things. We went in the vehicles to the thirst of
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the agency' s premises and when we returned at night, we slept to
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rest, but no one could do so, as he began to hear a
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lot of noise. We thought that one of the neighbors would knock their doors
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until we saw ourselves as the doors of the rooms opened and closed without anyone
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touching them. We heard someone running from one room to another. We found
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our things somewhere else where we didn' t remember leaving them. This situation
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began to cause arguments between us, because we believed that one of the comrades
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wanted to play funny, but everything changed the morning when we were awakened by
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the horrible scream of a woman. We did not place where it originated,
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but it was repeated several times more. It was a short cry, but
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full of pain. At the moment it was heard as if the one who
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shouted was by our side and then heard in the living room, in the
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rooms and even in the courtyard. That ended our peace of mind and filled
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us with fear so much that no one could go back to sleep, mainly
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because there were no women in the group, so we didn' t know
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who heard it. Despite the scare of that night, we refused to leave
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the house because we had already settled in very well. It occurred to us
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to pay a full month and we knew that, apart from not returning the
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money we paid, we would also have to look again for another home and
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pay again. So we tried to solve the situation, I chose to call
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my mother to tell her what had happened to us and ask her for a
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few tips to help remedy the situation that had us all nervously. More.
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I didn' t get the help I wanted, because my mom said if
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there was a soul there, we' d have to get out of it
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and not try to get it out. He only told me to roll a
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coconut in every room and corner of the house, while we prayed parents,
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our havemarias, jaculatory and everything we knew we also had to get holy water
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to sprinkle both inside and outside the property, and so we did. We
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took some time and got everything we needed and already being all together, in
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the evening we started to do what my mom told us to do. We
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roll the coconuts through each room, praying in a group, watering holy water
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even in the courtyard and gate. We put the coconuts together in a black
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bag and left them at the front door to throw them away when we left.
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But a big mistake. In the evening we heard noises that at first
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we could not identify, but that when we found where they came from,
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our bewilderment was totaléran The coconuts had all exploded, even breaking the bag
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that contained them by scattering pieces of all sizes that reached the other sidewalk,
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while a foul smell as rotten flooded the environment. That night was the worst
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after half gathering the pieces that we could see we went to sleep restless because
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of what happened, But it didn' t happen much time when all over
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the house we heard sobs and a crying of a woman who, in addition
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to horribly frightened us, gave us a feeling of grief, as well as
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sadness and hopelessness, that ended up getting us out of there and getting in
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the vans as if we had agreed at that time and without our belongings,
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we had nowhere to go. And the only thing that occurred to us was
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to take refuge in the premises of the Office of the Attorney General of the
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Republic, arriving all in the middle of the morning, pretending that in the
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house where we stayed there were bedbugs and we could not sleep staying in the
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rest areas, in the corridors and even in the vehicles. Months later I
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was assigned to operation Tamaulipas, already in Philip' s six- year term
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and the clashes with the posters were on the order of the day. We
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hardly had a moment of rest when we were not in the vans touring the
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towns, walking in the helicopters or receiving instructions at the facilities of the Office
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of the Attorney General of the Republic to carry out surveillance, searches, arrests
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and other activities theoretically to control organized crime, as supposedly ordered by the President,
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but those people were far superior to us, as they implemented strategies that
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continually took us by surprise. On the Internet you can find each of the
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facts narrated here, as they were of public knowledge. Unfortunately, I participated
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in events that left me with psychological sequelae. I continually have nightmares that show
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me in the worst way traumatic events in which because of my work I was
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involved with several companions who surely also suffer from sequelae. One of the worst
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actions I participated in was when inmates of the Reinosa Tamaulipas Social Rehabilitation Center mutined
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and took over the prison. The guards were almost immediately overtaken and our commanders
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ordered us to support the state police to regain control of the prison. We
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were provided with riot gear and long weapons to enter the cherry tree, which
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looked like the anteroom of hell. The prisoners gathered together, set fire to
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the mats. They brought weapons made of various objects, such as brushes,
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combs and other things, but also some carried real weapons that had somehow helped
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them introduce. With them they wounded several prisoners and custodians. The latter,
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fortunately, managed to protect themselves in a special area. The inmates who belonged
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to a cartel fought against other prisoners of rival cartels, resulting in a massacre
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of unsuspected proportions. Some were thrown into the piles of mattresses and clothes that
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burned unchecked. When the fact was mentioned in the news just mentioned that there
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were two dead, but I, who was there, can say that the
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bodies of the deceased were piled up in the cells and corridors of the facilities.
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It was really a bloodbath. There were times when in order to pass
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we had to walk on the piles of bodies, some of them burned,
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but mainly those who had not been able to leave the cells were burned alive.
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By throwing rags and other objects wet in oil, they had no chance
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of surviving. Retaking control of the prison caused even more casualties, as those
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carrying firearms had to be killed. Fortunately, that and other things that happened
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during the time of the riot did not come to light, but the revolt
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caused by the prisoners not only caused injuries and deaths. Many of those who
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participated were transferred to other prisons inside and outside Tamaulipas, and the inmates who
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remained in that social rehabilitation centre in Reinosa began to complain to the custodians,
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and they, in turn, before the direction of the Penal of horrific visions
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said green wandering through the cells and corridors that died in the mutiny, saw
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them horribly injured with wounds, bleeding and bullet holes or other n ns.
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They felt atrocious burns emitting cries and screams that conveyed all the pain and horror
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they suffered when they died. Others only saw very black shadows coming in and
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out of the cells as if the bars did not exist. It became common
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to perceive in the environment a persistent smell of burning and to see how out
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of nothing appeared black smoke like the one firing burning objects. This alarmed both
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prisoners and custodians, who were also witnesses of all this. Every one who
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saw a homo rushed to find its origin, for they thought something was on
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fire, but they found nothing but a foul smell of objects and burnt flesh.
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Many inmates and custodians called for a change of penal code, as paranormal
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phenomena were on the rise and it was already hell to be there. The
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last thing I knew about that cherry tree was that no one wanted to be
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there anymore and that they did many things so that the apparitions would stop and
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those who died there could rest in peace and let the prisoners live their time
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of imprisonment only with the routine of the prison, without the horror left by
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the mutiny itself that they suffered even the prisoners who were imprisoned after the revolt
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in the Penal and who, therefore, had no idea of what was truly
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lived. My group and I were transferred to a mixed base of operations located
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in a central State of the country. There we conducted other types of operations
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in conjunction with elements of the army, as well as other security forces.
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But the memories of that infernal event remain in my memory, damaging my physical
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and mental health. Until today in two thousand eleven. The then attorney general
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Marisela dismissed many elements on the grounds that we did not pass the confidence control
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examinations. I had to adapt myself to living as a civilian only that I
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still carry over them all the horror that I witness with the images of the
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aberrations and pure evil of the human being. I try to deal with that
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day by day. Today I do it without help, because while my mother
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lived, she helped me by temporarily cleaning and exorcizing the ghosts that invade my
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mind with their prayers in dialects to potca. But today that is no longer
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there, I have to endure without help what torments me. She died in
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a painful way. Before she was prostrated in a wheelchair where day by day
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diabetes and a work of witchcraft that she should not have done were consumed.
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He wanted to leave without walking a person who always hated, even though it
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never did him any harm and in truth, he almost accomplished it. But
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to the surprise and horror of everyone at home we saw how that work was
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returned multiplied, for that person is protected by Holy Death and she returned the
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work to my empowered mother, causing her inability to move her legs. Although
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my brothers and I took her with several government doctors and even private individuals,
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none could even determine the origin of her illness. Even with several studies,
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she could not improve her condition in any way, so she herself concluded that
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the last work she did left her in that sad and painful condition, resigned
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herself to living her last days and walking, although it was not for long
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a decompensation in her diabetes, put an end to her life and her suffering.
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It was up to me to stay where my parents' house was,
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where we were born and grew up, and I was in charge of getting
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rid of my late mother' s possessions, donating her clothes in good condition
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and discovering in her bedroom a multitude of herbs, stones, pieces of cloth,
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jars with strange and repulsive contents. Some were labeled with names of known
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people and as well as of person I never heard of, but absolutely all
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marked with symbols that I had seen in my life. I also found animal
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remains, some stuffed and others were only the skin and bones of creatures that
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once had life, but my mother or someone else considered them to be of
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greater use. Finish it and use the spoils. It wasn' t that
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hard to get rid of all that weird stuff about my mom. Neither I
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nor my brothers knew how to use anything she used for her work, because
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she never wanted to teach us the endless knowledge she acquired since she was born
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in the Sierra de Oaxaca and when she came to live in the State of
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Mexico, she continued to frequent several groups of women who came from the small
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town called Santa María, and who surely had similar knowledge and in their meetings
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they always spoke in dialect so that we could not understand anything if we happened
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to approach or as children, hiding to spy on them. My whole life
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I watched my mother meet with her friends and weasels, but despite that,
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I didn' t think it was right to give them the things she had
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for her jobs, which were not few because some had writings or contained the
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photos of two of her same friends, so I just put everything I found
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in big black trash bags. I closed them very well and handed them over
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to the gentleman who day after day passes by the colony collecting the garbage in
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a cart thrown by a skinny and battered donkey and for the moment I forgot
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about the matter believing it liquidated by getting rid of without more of my mother
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' s jobs. I never thought it would bring me any consequence, but
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the truth is that it was a serious mistake, because from that day on
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I began to dream it with a permanent gesture of annoyance, just like the
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one I put when in life I did not approve of any of our decisions
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in my dreams. He never told me anything, but I still know.
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I felt terribly uneasy all day and with work I could not forget what I
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felt. It was such an overwhelming feeling that on more than one occasion it
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made me make serious mistakes, from whose consequences I was spared very little.
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In addition, I started with a time of bad luck, suffering from all
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kinds of unfortunate events, from misdirecting money or important items like my phone,
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cell phone documents to perform paperwork, among many that I did not manage to
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recover. The most serious thing happened to me when I crashed into a high
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- cylinder motorcycle that I had managed to keep and I already used it very
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little, because in the job I managed to get I didn' t earn
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even by much what they paid me. Being in the strength and maintenance of
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the bike. It became a load between gasoline, spare parts and composures.
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Sometimes I don' t have any money left to eat. I was considering
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selling it and buying a low- cylinder. When I crashed and the machine
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was totally lost. The insurer did not cover anything, as I had been
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drawn with the payment of the policy and as a contract job. I don
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' t have any kind of benefits, so I had to acquire heavy debts
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to cover my medical expenses and those of the bride I dated. Then we
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both preserve the life of a miracle. I turned out with blows all over
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my body, fractured right foot and extensive scratches that left me horrible scars.
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But it was my girlfriend who took the worst part, as her injuries were
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of greater consideration. He suffered cerebral contusion, arm and forearm fracture, right
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and extensive scrapes that required specialized treatment, which did not prevent his skin from
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being scarred more notorious and unpleasant than those I have. Me. Because of
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that horrible accident, we both lost our jobs and she lost it after months
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of medical treatment and rehabilitation themselves that I should have paid for in full.
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He just voted for his life, blaming me for what happened, as well
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as for the consequences and the pain he permanently suffers. I tried by all
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means to continue with our relationship, but he didn' t want to know
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about me anymore by just being unemployed and heavily indebted. It took me a
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long time to get a job and although I also work, according to the
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contracts they give me, obviously they are never older than four months to not
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create seniority or be entitled to basification. At least it has helped me survive,
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as well as begin to pay off the many debts I acquired. I
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could not understand the situation so bad that I was going through until at a
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meeting to raise funds for the Feast of the Holy Patron of my parents'
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village, which, year after year we attended in mid- August, my
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relatives learned of the whole series of misfortunes I was living, and a younger
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sister aunt of my mother, who also participated in the meetings with the other
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ladies of the village near our house, asked me if I knew someone who
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wished me some evil to do me a job of witchcraft. But even though
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I had problems with some people, I didn' t think they were strong
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enough to want to hurt me so much. And going on with the talk,
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it occurred to me to tell her that I was continually dreaming of my
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mom, always angry, but that in life I never had any problem with
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her nor had she gone mad at me when I died and I don'
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t know why she thought of asking me the fate of the things my mother
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had left. I told him that I had taken care of donating some and
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throwing some. She' s very serious. She wanted to know specifically if
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among what I discarded were a series of candles and other objects with which she
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worked her orders. Upon replying that I threw everything without any investigation or procedure,
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she became pale and told me that all the articles that I did not
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know had to be handed over to her or to one of the ladies of
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the village with whom she met for them to finish or give them paths without
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consequences. For me since I altered the course of the energies and now the
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deities that helped my mother were in charge of closing the roads and causing me
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much harm due to the disrespect that my actions meant. When I heard that,
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I wanted to know if she could help me remove all the evil that
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burdened me or with whom I could turn, but her response left me desolate.
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What I did no longer had any remedy and perhaps the little or much
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left of my life would have to suffer the consequences of my neglect. And
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it is true that this has been the case, because despite being professional,
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I only get very poorly paid jobs. My love relationships don' t last
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for me and my partners leave me without any explanation. But what makes me
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suffer more than anything else is to keep dreaming to my mother invariably with gestures
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of anger and scio, making me think that, because of me, she
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